#but i am also 😐 to survive

[heromaker-if]

FREY NOOOOO😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[poptartmochi]

i would be so powerful if I could just make myself see a doctor about anxiety

[sanchoyo]

🧍🏻 girl help the blood tests came back and I do possibly have pre-hypothyroidism. They want me to come back in 3 months to do another panel just in case bc smth was apparently way way too high 😭 wtf !!

[snallavanta]

i'm watching rwrb tonight with my bestie & i'm just now realising how horrible of an idea it is

[cressthebest]

Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 13

chapter 24:

1. sirius 🫱🏻‍🫲🏼 james being codependent af

2. ooo reg you’re so close babes. think about that just a little more. he realizes he cares about how james treats him and feels about him. reg just almost gets it

3. “He thinks the arena makes everyone a bad person while they're here. The only exception to the rule is James. He's the only person who could drag himself through all of this filth and cruelty and still hold onto his shine.”

4. ☺️ this “without hesitation” line is gonna bite us in the ass, isn’t it?

5. they’re talking about what their life without tragedy would have looked like. and damn. i’m not okay. their life would have been so beautiful

6. “"In that life, I do," Regulus whispers. "I let you do whatever you want, and when you want to dance, we dance."”

i’m NASTY sobbing over this line. like, snot coming out of my nose sobbing

7. “Regulus said James was his first love, didn't he? James would give anything to be his last.” 😀😀😀 holy shit that hurts

8. that nightmare was VILE

9. god, reg was practically sobbing to hold james’ hand. why is the world cruel to them??

10. 😐 i am unamused. another fucking spider

11. “"Have a go at me. Don't thank me or anything. It's always you're so stupid, James; it's never you looked so sexy and heroic while saving everyone from the murderous spider, James."” PFFFFFTTTT

12. it hurts to read it, but i also have always known that if reg wasn’t called into the hunger games, james would have died for someone else. like he said, either peter or vanity

13. god, peter’s story line and character fucking hurts. his family was mathias, irene, vanity, james, and even reg. this hurts like hell

14. NOOO PETER!!!!!

15. THEY MADE IT!!! THEY SURVIVED! THE GAMES ARE OVER!! THANK GOD!!

16. 😀😧 the rule change is REVOKED??? IM ABOUT TO LOSE MY FUCKING SHIT!! IF I WAS IN THIS UNIVERSE, ID PERSONALLY BE THROWING HANDS WITH SLUGHORN!! I BET SIRIUS HAS TO BE PHYSICALLY RESTRAINED!!

17. “"You're hesitating, love," James says softly.”

SCREEEEEEEEEEECHH

18. “"Axus got me on their way into the water. At least it was your dagger, I suppose," James says with a weary chuckle, his throat bobbing on a harsh swallow. His mouth quirks up a bit at the corner, gentle and lovely. "Maybe this makes me insane, but if I'm honest, I wish it had been you."”

oh no, make no mistake james. this very much does make you insane

19. and james is compared to the fucking sun going down again. i- i’m not okay

20. i need therapy for my trust issues. i trusted my ex best freind who outed me. i trusted my old roommate who i recently found out had a notes app list of everything she didn’t like about me this year. and most importantly, i trusted zar. i trusted that this fic wouldn’t do this to me.

[luffyvace]

Bonolenov x reader who’s from his tribe!! (｀_´)ゞ

Came up with this cute prompt when I was writing my phantom troupe relationship hcs

I love this idea :) enjoy bc its gn!~

Now to him, he was the last member of his tribe

the gyudondond tribe

it was low key depressing knowing that

Epsecially in knowing they were pushed out of they’re territory for modern buildings

and got erased ☹️

which is a cruel and unjustly way to go

but nothing was fair in the world the troupe grew up in

so he doesn’t let that get him down

and for you, you thought you were also the last member

knowing your entire tribe is wiped out and your the only one left….

how comforting. 😐

y’all probably met in meteor city or through the troupe

and I say this because 1) anyone outside the troupe he isn’t ordered to kill, he ignores. And 2) it’s just reasonable, he hardly talks to anyone outside of business

anyway

You both were overjoyed that your entire clan had not been eradicated !

seriously it’s so good to know at least one person in the world relates to you like no other

and has your cultural background!

Honestly as soon as you saw bonolenov’s holes you prob was like “wait..gyudondond tribe..?”

‼️ “yes I am! You know of it??….are you..?”

”YEAH!”

”what..?? I thought the rest of my tribe had been slaughtered!!”

”same! I though I was the last one!”

and boom 😎

you two found each other

And found out your the only TWO left in your tribe 👍 (😃)

talking about your traditions and culture together is always super fun and is soothing to be able to not have to explain how anything works

You share childhood stories once you get close enough

and how peaceful your village was

at some point you even got to how you survived the colonists 😬

But mostly lighter topics, like talking about your pasts and what turns you took

if your in the troupe he’s glad he doesn’t have to worry much about your safety since you at least should know nen

but he still kinda does because if you die then he’ll really be the last member this time :/

Although I will say he believes in your strength 💪

even if your not the strongest he knows you can handle yourself

discussing what happened to your tribe is kinda upsetting but there was some happy memories mixed in

if your angry and wish to seek revenge he understands

he may even help in what ways he can

and tbh

you two being a couple—both gyudondond tribe members work out better than either of you getting with someone outside the tribe

especially since your both used to y’all traditions and cultures

as far as food, dancing and his holes

plus courting will be the way the tribe traditionally does it

as well as gifting and such

it’ll just work out a lot better and things will run more smoothly in your relationship

and you two are generally just much happier

you could even live in a gyudondond traditional house and you two wouldn’t strife!

it’s like a dream for the both of you 😍

yall meant to be fr 😪🔗

overall you guys are very happy to relate to the other on that extra level 💗

Aww how cute

I really hope a bonolenov stan sees and enjoys these <3

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Here's a collection of Trigun Stampede thoughts and observations I had from someone who has only seen this series, since big long posts rarely go over well lol. I'm really intrigued to contrast with the manga later and see if I get similar takeaways... I'm eagerly willing to expand on any of these if anyone is interested but for now they will exist as loose point forms! Hopefully this is coherent!

Firstly: Vash my beloved... please be nicer to yourself... please... you are so kind...

Meryl and Knives are the lead active/driving forces of the show, in contrast to most everyone else's passivity and Vash's reactivity

Meryl's influence on Roberto over the course of the story - she actually has him taking a pretty firm stance later on (which is likely the opinion he held all along, he just buried it), which brings me to the next point-

Conrad and Knives claim to be looking to the future but ignore the present - Roberto dismisses this because those who won't even save a life in front of them in the present moment won't save anyone (this is more in keeping with what Vash does)

The juxtaposition between Conrad and Luida's methods are great and I hope we return to that in the next season

I love Meryl. This is not an observation or analysis it is merely a statement of fact. :)

I wonder if we'll get more Zazie and Meryl interactions. Zazie seems to find Meryl intriguing at the very least. I also just like Zazie and think this could be a really interesting dynamic.

I would also like to see more of Rem, hopefully outside of the biased recollections of Vash and Nai... I still don't feel like I know anything about her :(

Ideals in the service of people (Vash) vs people in the service of ideals (Knives)

Most of the children in the series literally age too quickly. There's a lot to examine there.

Given the attempts to create Independent-like humans by Conrad and the rapid aging of these children... is the serum created from Plants?

Vash 🤝 Me: "Wolfwood" 🥺 (I'm kidding, I'm kidding... mostly.)

Vash and Wolfwood are not fundamentally different, as they first appear to be, but are actually quite similar in their drives (protection of others at personal cost) - the difference in their perspectives comes down to the scope of what they swore to protect (with Wolfwood's being far more limited, thus there are outsiders) and propensity to hope (Vash will act on hope without solid proof, while Wolfwood needs the proof but will jump on it if he sees it - interesting for someone who is associated with religion and faith)

Wolfwood's version of mercy is an unfortunate form of projection (aka Legato is a fucking idiot for thinking removing Wolfwood's attachments would lead him to be solely devoted to Knives. my dude, I am pretty sure that attachment plus raw survival instinct is the only thing keeping him going)

Vash: allows himself to get shot and reveals his scars / Wolfwood: >:O !!! / also Wolfwood: repeatedly takes hits either shielding people or just plain not dodging when he 100% could / Me: 😐

I wish we'd gotten some breathing room in the series. That's my number one gripe about it. Specifically, I wanted a little more time with Wolfwood to get to know him in the present before we got into him having the worst life of his fucking life in the span of two episodes... I also wanted to see a little more of this world that Vash cares about so much! I understand the manga and 98 series do this a little better so I'm excited to see that. Meryl's arc was great though!

Loved the really clever way the flashbacks are done!!! Nai is barely focused on at first, then as his character is slowly revealed, he gets the camera focus and childish behaviours more and more!!!

Huge themes of autonomy and choice. I think they're actually more the point than the whole morality aspect. It's not as important that Vash be perfectly moral and right than it is that his philosophy allows people the chance to choose and change for themselves - Knives' doesn't grant anyone that choice, and in fact, he and the people under him actively remove free will (breaking Vash's mind, the experimentation on Rollo, Wolfwood and Livio, what he did to... the Plants... etc.)

Vash is genuinely angry at Nai in a way he doesn't seem to be with anyone else. I do think a part of him can't forgive what happened to Rem or the emotional strain that comes with watching someone you love repeatedly do horrible things. I don't know if humanity could hurt him the way Nai has. The worst part is that I don't think Nai fully comprehends how badly he has hurt Vash. He looked so confused and hurt when Vash trained the gun on him for the first time. The "ominous piano playing" probably isn't meant to be ominous at all, once we see they used to play that piece together. Nai's been playing it on loop for so long. He wants his brother to come home. :(

The twins treat each other like an extension of themselves for a lot of the story, which is somewhat ironic for a couple of Independents. Vash blames himself and seeks to atone for his brother's actions, Nai thinks any differing opinion his brother has is a result of corruption instead of him being his own person. That is why it is a triumph when Vash finally asserts his identity away from Knives in episode 12, declaring himself his own person. That is why it is a tragedy when Nai would rather let his old self die, figuratively and literally, than accept that.

Nai did not want Rem dead. I stand by this strongly. His anger at her is I believe in part to justify her death in his mind.

Nai wants to return to a time of safety more than anything (the higher dimension is like an "egg", the ship's dome around the two as children, the quietness of the tree, etc.).

Tesla 🤝 Livio: products of human experimentation who really ought to be dead but apparently... aren't??? I am putting them both in my pocket and running away

[baka-kayakopa]

thoughts about physical 100 s2

includes minor spoilers abt the challenges themselves

overall i found it super enjoyable and i'm really hoping they keep it up. both season 1 and season 2 were incredibly watchable and fun

i know its CLICHE but.. competition, sportsmanship, giving it your all in respect to your opponent, the human spirit, camaraderie.. AUUGH

i feel like the skills that were tested were imbalanced this time around. they focused on like heavy strength & endurance so much, the disadvantage was huge for those who didn't have bigger bodies.

i feel like since its PHYSICAL 100 there should have been agility, flexibility, balance, calisthenics.. like a lot of potential was missed out on. the challenges for the top 4 was what i was looking for, they were balanced so much better (pulling own body weight, infinite squats..)

i wish we saw more of that small weightlifting woman

LOVE how the 1v1 for the ball came back. i personally think that we need to see that every time (since they did say there will be a 3rd)

the creativity of the stages were amazing, even if the creativity of the challenges themself could have been improved. the literal underground theme was so cool. i feel like next they could do a jungle or something so its like Survival and not just Repeatedly Pulling/Pushing/Carrying Big Weights like a Worker in the Mines

i really like how you still manage to stay attached to every competitor. the writers are smart by treating them kinda like a character (showing their motivations, personality, backstory) which really makes the audience sympathize and root for them.

i also really like how people from everywhere were able to fight. like didn't a cosplayer beat up a top athlete or something 😭😭😭

the redemption fight was cool as hell but i feel like it couldve been better balanced as well

i like how they dont really push unlikely narratives. even if youre an underdog everyone roots for, if you lose then you lose and they show the brutal truth. though i do believe that one team had so much potential if only the challenges werent ooga booga lift/push/pull big heavy weight like come on 😐

i like how its realistically unforgiving of errors in strategies or like small mistakes because thats life, if you make a mistake in the field then you fall behind

i dont like how when theres challenges with simultaneous equipment, there is a slight chance that its rigged on one end like the scandal in s1, but this time apparently the monkey bars on one side weren't giving? i don't know, but it really takes away from the core of the show if the equipment isn't effective and fair for everyone.

anyways that's some of my thoughts, am EXCITED AND HOPEFUL FOR SEASON 3 :))))

[deadlyweapon567]

I need to get a laptop asap. It's much easier to write and for some reason Wattpad deleted all the work I had bruh 🙃. Well anyways here's a little something

Tags/warnings:Yandere sub Tsu'tey x black fem reader. Cussing, murder, dark themes.

Y/N pov

One minute I'm in a helicopter and the next I'm on the fucking ground bleeding. I struggled to crawl of of that stupid helicopter. We got attack by this pterosaurs looking thing. I'm pretty sure I'm the only person that survived unfortunately. I heard a groan, I get up only to hunch over in pain. I looked at my side to see it was bleeding. I apply pressure with my hand and walk over to where the groan came from. I look to see it was Jake of course that nigga is still alive I said in my head.(you guys have a little bit of beef with Jake👀)  I went towards him. It looks like he's trapped under something. Damn it what the hell am I suppose to do. I can't lift it especially with my side being injured. I tired pushing it off of him anyways. Shit clinching my side in pain. All of I hear something than suddenly I'm surrounded by theses blue people or na'vi as Grace would put it. One of them got off from their horse thingy coming towards me. I immediately went into fight mode and pulled out my gun. "Don't come any closer ". Taking off the safety. They all at once pointed their arrows at me as I pointed my gun at the man. I looked at man more closely he was glowing. I didn't even realize it had become dark. I heard a groan. Crap I forgot Jake was still trapped. Then out of nowhere a blue lady comes out in front of me. Saying something I can't understand. But I assume she was telling them to back off since they began to put their arrows down. I turn to Jake than back at the lady. "Idk if you understand English but I need help" point to Jake, "I can't lift it by myself." She turned around saying something about the which seemed to not get a great reaction from the others. I feel something touching my left shoulder. It was this Jellyfish looking thing. I smacked it away from me causing everyone to hiss at me. So I guess I'll just let them dance all over me or sum. Those things also were on Jake as well. After a couple of minutes they left. A couple of people walked over to where Jake was and started lifting. Jake was able to get out. All of a sudden I feel lightheaded and my bison is getting spotty. I looked at my hand to see it was soaked in blood. Dang didn't know I was losing that much blood. I stumbled and was about to crash into the ground. When someone caught me, think it was that guy earlier. Cause as soon as I touched him and blacked out.

Pt 2 will be up soon hopefully. Hope you like it so far. Let me know if there's grammar issues or spelling.

Here’s the link to pt.2

Bye 😐😗

[prettybluecals-03]

i am friendless 😐

so in the hopes that i attract the masses, here is stuff about me…

- I hate small talk and immediately want to talk about deep dark stuff, and conspiracy theories

- I have obsessive states where I can really only think about one thing.

- I’m always talking, especially if i’m comfortable with you

- I have several issues other than just ana, such as my praise kink (hahaha 🥲)

- I’m also very unfunny

- I do analyze everything so please excuse my overthinking

- I survive on vibes

If you find my instability magnetic, please dm me. Preferably between the ages of 16-21, since i’m 17.

tyyyy

[springsteens]

15 questions and 15 mutuals

thank you so much for the tag, @gilliandersons 🤍

were you named after anyone?

my dad says the most beautiful girl he's ever known had my name and he met her in uni but I'm not sure if it's really how I got my name. when my parents were naming me, not many people liked it because it was an old and forgotten name (although it was used in one side of my family frequently back in the day, which I have found out not so long ago). two years after I was born, almost every girl had this name here lol my dad keeps saying I was a trendsetter

when was the last time you cried?

like two weeks ago when I found out my vacation trip for the summer that was supposed to be just my mum & I having a girl time is no longer going to happen because she decided to take her boyfriend with us, too... and I hate him 😔 and he hates me... 😐

do you have kids?

I'm 25 and getting my second Masters degree lol

do you use sarcasm a lot?

almost all the time and it's the reason why I don't vibe with certain type of people but I don't even care 🤷🏻‍♀️

what's the first thing you notice about people?

looks, clothes, the way they speak etc. not to judge who is rich or popular etc. because that's primitive but it says a lot about what kind of person I am dealing with. it says a lot about their background, even their parents' education. I feel like a little Sherlock Holmes then lol and funnily enough, I'm rarely wrong...

what's your eye color?

hazel brown (one eye is more brown, one is more green)

scary movies or happy endings?

both is good! I love creepy horrors about demons and witches etc. but I also love a happy ending (maybe not in a horror movie, though)...

any special talents?

I'm sort of a witch in denial because I kinda don't believe in this shit but it keeps happening to me and I find it funny when I see all those spiritual girls trying so hard with their unethical crystals and paraffin candles and here I am, not wanting this and not vibing with this but still receiving energy against my will

where were you born?

poland

what are your hobbies?

literature, cinema, music, the sims 4 (building and furnishing apartments the most!), some fashion and some history, some mythology

have any pets?

two cats 😊 my baby boys!

what sports do you play/have you played?

I wanted to play football when I was younger and by football I mean soccer just to be clear although saying soccer makes me angry because there's only one football ⚽

how tall are you?

1'69

favorite subject in school?

polish, english, history, culture class

dream job?

• nepo baby • modern day royal lady • mafia princess • 70s it girl • librarian in an old library that earns enough money to survive (as realistic as the ones above)

no pressure tags (and certainly not 15 people, do forgive me) — @violaobanion @violetwanderer @xbellaxcarolinax @melancholic--soull @the-makingsofgreatness @hellshee @caelys @depoteka @pierangelis @laurennbacall

[canvas-madness-txc]

Thoughts on Oliver Twist

The fact that Charles Dickens starts off his book basically like: "Our story starts off in a town but not one that exists in real life, but I am also not making one up" is somehow both brilliant and kinda annoying at the same time

Oliver's good spirit that had plenty of room to grow because of the fact the establishment refused to feed the orphans. That is depressing.

Mr. Bumble is efficient with his naming process. He has all the remaining letters and all the way through again once he gets to Z

Oliver makes me want to cry when he cries, he's just a little kid

The fact that they just took people away from their families instead of encouraging them to support their family is insane

Mr. Gamfield has "the slight imputation of having brushed three or four boys to death already"... thank goodness they didn't send Oliver with him

I did tell my friends that the "please sir, I want some more" came from this

I get that they're orphans, so they are outcasts but are threatening death over food necessary???

Everyone is so mean to Oliver for no reason :(

There is something particularly gross and horrifying when the undertaker, Mr. Sowerberry proposes to make Oliver a "mute" (someone who goes to funerals and cries) specifically for other children's funerals.

Dickens calling himself Oliver's biographer and using the first person as if he's actually telling the story to us is always something that makes me happy in his books. I like it when he speaks personally of his characters like he knows them

"He'll murder me!" You insulted his dead mother. Can't blame Oliver on this one

He's not a murderer. He shook Noah a few times, but he's still alive and well, just sobbing with a black eye. It would definitely hurt, but he'll live

The fact that they blame Oliver's actions on meat and being overfed is so weird 😐. Oliver deserved to run away

Dick is so sweet despite being prepared to die from sickness

"The blessing was from a young childs lips, but it was the first that Oliver had ever heard invoked upon his head; and through the struggles and sufferings, and troubles and changes, of his after life, he never once forgot it" my heart

Fagin, Bates, and Dodger kinda treat Oliver better even when the pickpocket things throw it off. They probably should've warned him before he was caught as a "thief" or, not betrayed him

At least Fagin is upset over it, even when it backfires in Mr.Sike's face. They do bother planning to look for him by asking Nancy to. It's kinda selfish that they do it so he won't tell, but they are worried for their own survival as well

Mr. Brownlow and Mrs. Bedwin seems to be the only people who care for Oliver genuinely 100% of the time

Fagin is called "The Jew" more often than he is his actual name

Nancy talking about how she thieves for them for 12 years :(

Oliver keeps getting betrayed and left behind. He got shot, and they just left him!! Fortunately, someone always cones to find him, whether or not it's with good intentions kinda reignites the problems

Mr. Bumble gets married and is completely degraded by his wife's sharp wit in only 8 weeks.

Rose is an angel, no questions asked

SIKES JUST KILLED NANCY NOOOO

NOOO DICK DIED TOO 😭

Fagin is also dead for his compliance in the murder

Sikes dies in the most catastrophic way possible, fitting.

At least everyone else got the fates they deserved, good and bad :)

[embersofhope-if]

Hi! Hope you’re having an amazing day! Out of all the districts what made you choose district 8?

hi!! theres multiple reasons i decided to pick District 8. Initially, i had Districts 8, 10, and 11 picked out, but i ultimately decided to go with District 8 mostly because of how Urban it is. In the books, Katniss describes District 8 as "an urban place stinking of industrial fumes, the people housed in run-down tenements. Barely a blade of grass in sight."

It's so different from what we're used to in District 12 that it really caught my eye and i knew that it would give me a sense of freedom in doing what i wanted with Mcs home since the only times District 8 is really brought up are during the victory tour and when its bombed in Mockingjay. Also I already had the arena some what planned out in my head so i knew that there would be a ruined city in it meaning that Mc may have better chances surviving since they generally know how a to traverse a city quickly and without attracting attention. They might have a disadvantage in the wilderness, but a cityscape is something Mc will be able to figure out faster than anyone.

Creon is also part of the reason why i chose District 8. I needed a way for Mc to be powerful and rich enough to actually get them into the Capitol, and having an insanely rich family that owns multiple factories felt like the best way to make Mc important. Of course, Mcs Uncle is the reason that they actually go to the Capitol. If he was from a District like 10 or 11, I don't think there would be any chance of him ever getting that high up in the ranks of the peacekeepers.

Also, there's the fact that District 8 was the very first District to break away from the Capitol in the revolution. Katniss may have been the girl on fire, but I've felt like the people of District 8 are the starting embers of the flame that took down Snow. They dared to have hope for a better world, and when the opportunity to start fighting for that change came, they took it and didn't look back.

All of this had to start somewhere, and in my own little world, i like to think it starts around the time Ash dies in their games. Losing them and being punished for Ash's actions in the games killed morale a little but yes but it also made people angrier thus allowing Aurel to come in with their own anger and become a pillar of strength in the community. Ash and Aurel both are symbols of hope and strength in District 8, and Mc may not be a part of that, but they do feel its effects, both good and bad. I'm going to stop this part right here because I'm about to get into spoilers☝️

Now, on a less, uh, dramatic(idk what word to use) note since District 8 is the textile district, that means they get to have a lot more colorful and patterned clothing. As the Capitol trends change and they want different things, the citizens of District 8 get to use the surplus of whatever is left for themselves😋 or thats how i imagine at least. Sorry, District 12, but i am not rocking with gray and coal dust black, and neither will Mc😐. Mc will be the best dressed out of everyone, and that's obviously the only reason i picked District 8🤞

[soulreaper]

hi leon how are you

Hello Luz 👽 I was feeling alright and just sleepy earlier. But I suddenly have been attacked by nausea and dizziness and stomach and head pain for No reason and I cannot find my glasses so it's worse than if I had them and also. I found out the girl im working with rn will just fuck off out the back door when she's supposed to be stocking the cooler and she won't tell me where she's going , which would be fine if it wasn't just me and her but because it is just us😐 it's hell since I can't just press our buzzer to call her up front for help. And I think I am dizzy from. Not sleeping or eating all day 😞 but I have food in the way so maybe I will survive this hell. Anywaay how are you Luz ?😇

[mashiee]

JOHN HEADCANONS !!!!! YES I AM DOING THEM AGAIN WAKE UP UNOBLR

*for hcs that are very important to me

full name is john astrid doe*

gay as actual all fucking fuck*

SIMP. gay Disaster*

afab transmasc !!!! he and blyke were roomed together bc theyre both trans !!!!!!!! i know so uru told me herself its canon !!!*

he/him pronouns !!*

ya ik hes 5'11 canonly but we need some variety in heights so... 5'10 (blyke is now 5'8 bc i said so)*

has a half older sister named harpington (an oc of mine 😊) who bullies him religiously jkjk she loves him shed kill for him*

high pain tolerance

very irritable

his attraction wheel is absolutely all over the place*

ADHD, depression, and PTSD. you know the drill*

tends to take things too personally even when he tries not to

favorite color is purple. no this does not have anything to do with sera /srs

very bad with understanding social queues

very bad at understanding what he wants or what kind of person he is*

has a therapist named vivian (absolute godsend of a person, also an oc) who he would later found out was literally. his sisters Wife 🧍*

is not. allowed to drive

has Okay cooking skill. enough to survive and it not taste Terrible

does Not Like bugs

gay disaster. so so fucking Gay*

physically, remi could kick his ass. and shes more buff than him. which kind of isnt rlly abt john but it includes him so idc idc*

has anemia. very forgetful (mostly due to ADHD) and often forgets to take his iron pills 😐*

actual shit hearing

PALE AS ALL FUCK. THIS BITCH GOES OUTSIDE INTO THE SUN W SPF 70 ON AND IMMEDIATELY SETS ON FIRE. VAMPIRE TIER, WHITE ENOUGH THAT HE REFLECTS THE FUCKING SUN

naturally white hair !!!!!! he dyes it black tho*

hes also who dyed sera's hair !!*

will wear whatever clothing. it's whatever. its clothes. likes long skirts a lot. and sweatshirts*

he has fangs !!!! lil teeny sharp fangies. like theyre small but theyre still there nonetheless. more sharp than anything. theyre the kind that puncture better than they tear (think dog teeth when they're puppies)

wet cat

allergic to strawberries 🍓

has to study more than others to make decent grades

has a mole on [his] right cheek (fun fact this came from me miss-seeing what was meant to be a dust particle as a mole)*

his eyes glow in the dark so if u see him at night hes scary as shit. cryptid tier

his pupils sometimes dilate into slits like a cat. this also means that they sometimes widen into giant circles when looking at things he likes, like pizza

kind of knows a bit abt makeup and enjoys doing it

bags under eyes due to reoccurring nightmares and insomnia both from said nightmares and also adhd*

has a tongue piercing. theyre so funky

extremely bad at regulating his anxiety and often doesnt know what to do when he has anxiety or panic attacks

did i mention gay disaster*

reads a lot of webtoons and manwhas

[cressthebest]

Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 14

chapter 25:

1. james accepting his own death will forever and always be heartbreaking

2. “Though, honestly, James had meant it when he said that he wishes it had been Regulus. Maybe it's a strange, pyschosexual thing, but he feels like he's sort of been flirting with Regulus and his daggers this entire time, so to be stabbed by him would surely have been more satisfying. Regulus would have made sure James felt it, adrenaline or not. He isn't sure why that's so attractive to him, but it really is. Maybe James is in shock. Maybe James actually does have a knife kink. Maybe James is just in love, and he wants anything he can get from Regulus, even if it's literal death.”

ik this is a big chunk of quote, but like what. james. james. james my boy. these are wild thoughts to have. also, you definitely have a knife kink, but only for regulus. not on anyone else. james. you. dear, wtf (i love you) 😀 sir.

3. god, james is so earnest on his death bed. i am also, fyi dramatically sobbing

4. shit shit shit shit no. SIRIUS!!! SOMEONE!! HELP SIRIUS! HES LOSING HIS BEST FRIEND AND HE IS NOT OKAY

5. zar is correct. it is sock-sock-shoe-shoe. that is the correct way.

6. 😀😧 regulus is troy. not the trojan horse, but instead troy. i-

7. “James is dying, and Regulus hates him. James is dying, and Regulus loves him. James is dying, and Regulus hates and loves him, because they were always one and the same.”

stop no, this is actually cruel. this is heartless. i don’t know how someone with a good conscious or loving heart could write this

8. god no shit no. i finally stopped sobbing. then there was the line about james asking reg to go to dinner with his parents because effie and monty are used to feeding two kids. i- shit. shit. no

9. HE’S TELLING REG TO TAKE BACK THE HAT??? NO THIS IS CRUEL

10. i actually want to quote this entire chapter, but i cannot do that. so therefore i would like to offer up my tears. and reg deciding there’s no point in going home if james potter wasn’t with him, because james potter was his home

11. 😐 he threw food away, but kept the handcuffs? reg dear, wtf

12. REG IS GONNA SACRIFICE HIMSELF TO LET JAMES GO HOME?? HELL NAW

13. HE CALLED JAMES BABY??? AGAIN??? (fwi i have voice recorded and sent sobbing over this fic to my irl marauders friend. hi iko!!)

14. 😟😟 oh god damn. he actually went in the crimson river. wait shit. how the hell is he gonna survive this?

15. “In his panic, in his haze of pain, it's Sirius he instinctively calls for.” 😀😀 just rip out my heart, it would be less painful

16. THE VENOM!! THE THREAT TO KILL HIMSELF IF HE DOESN’T GET REGULUS BACK!! THIS IS LITERATURE AT ITS FINEST

17. regulus is just tossed out the fucking river. they both survive. lmao this is kinda funny

18. not the symbol of the hallows being the deathly hallows. yikes.

19. i’m kinda disappointed that slughorn gets a POV cause like, that POV needs to be given to one of my faves, so they can be guaranteed to live.

20. dorcas my beloved. she’s such a bad bitch

21. okay wait, i might actually grow to like slughorn as a character. he’s being brought to the phoenix. so like, maybe he’ll be super helpful

22. LMAOOO DORCAS MY QUEEN!! “”How does it feel gamemaker? … Are you entertained?”” AHHHHHHHHH

23. unnamed woman: my guess is mcgonagal

24. after reading the authors notes, i realize we have been blessed. zar decided that reg would not die in the arena. and thank fucking god. thank god. i would not be okay if i read ahb then this. yikes