#but still in the chronically tired category

[enviousinfluences]

At a weird point where I want to take on a part time job but my shop is consuming full time work. And I've just been so chronically stressed and exhausted from moves/hustling / etc so I'm like hopefully the holidays will be kind to me and let me rest a little bit

[audrinawf]

I saw this girl on TikTok asking why men date and marry plain Janes instead of spicy Sarah’s and how it’s because men can’t handle the Sarah’s because they are so amazing so they settle for the Janes, and let me just say, she had no business speaking about that topic because she was neither any Jane nor any Sarah, to begin with. Either way, I am so tired of this subject on TikTok as much as I am tired of these dark feminine channels that think femininity has anything to do with manipulation.

Is this not just another form of pick-me mindset? Because they sound so desperate to be picked. Please worry about yourself first. There are enough men out there for everyone. Or maybe you just think plain women don’t deserve love?

If you’re so spicy and hot because you dress up every day, then I do wonder why men are still marrying the plain Janes?

Maybe your personality isn’t as great as you think it is. Maybe you’re not even funny. Maybe you’re an anxious mess, and it’s just not pleasant to be in your company. The only thing you should be worried about is your unchecked ego.

And to clarify this is not a spicy Sarah hate post because I’m not going to group all women into two categories this is specifically a call out to women who have this superiority complex.

I also think women like this have a skewed view of love and relationships, and I can only assume that it’s because they are chronically online. No matter what, people choose the people that bring them the most peace. You are not going to be picked because you think you are cooler in real life; that doesn’t mean anything. Go touch some grass.

[fang-toothed]

You know one thing I’m really fucking tired of? I’m tired of modals and celebs claiming to be “healthy” and “naturally skinny” when they are so fucking obviously underweight. It makes girls and boys alike think an underweight female body is the norm and is healthy, holds up beauty standards, and convinces girls that they too can reach that BMI by eating “healthy” and some other bullshit and if they can’t, then they’re the problem.

I have (and still am, to some degree) struggled with an eating disorder since my junior year of high school, where I got to the point of being anorexic. Thankfully, I at least started to become unable to restrict that heavily, though I still had a toxic mindset and some bulimic tendencies. I’ve been doing pretty well in the last 8 months or so, but unfortunately, I’m dealing with what seems to be chronic GI issues (still trying to get a diagnosis to figure out what’s going on) and have involuntarily lost a little over 8% of my body weight in the last 6 months. That really doesn’t sound like much, but when you’re already at a fairly low, but still healthy BMI, that can push you into being slightly underweight, as I have unwillingly experienced.

I don’t have pictures of my anorexic days, and I was having depression treatment that wiped out a lot of my memory at the time, so I didn’t have a great grasp of what my body would look like when I crossed the border from healthy to underweight. And I was mindblown from how “normal” my body seemed to be when I knew definitively that I was underweight.

It’s true you can’t get an exact measure of someone’s weight from a picture, but as someone who’s currently slightly underweight, I can at least tell now when someone’s either underweight or healthy weight. And not to target her in particular, but Ariana Grande is DEFINITELY underweight by a good margin. I doubt she’s even in the yellow zone of underweight at 17.5 to 18.4 BMI, where she’d at least be out of the danger zone. She has her collar bones and ribcage jutting out, a head that looks huge on her tiny body, and sticks for arms and legs. It is impossible to be healthy with that little weight and body fat. Here’s a recent picture of her below:

I have to admit, it was Grande’s recent “oh I’m just eating healthy and vegan and you can’t know if I’m healthy or not” video blog that sparked this post. But she’s far from the only celeb to post this bullshit. And I’m just fucking exhausted of it all. Being significantly underweight is NEVER healthy, with the possible exemption of being a specific type of athlete and/or just hitting a growth spurt. But if you’re 99.9 percent of adults, you do not fall in either category.

I just want this toxic standard of women’s weight to be preferably underweight while pretending it’s totally fine and good to end.

[safety-pin-punk]

hiya!

im a baby punk, and i'm trying to research everything i can (the punk masterpost rlly helped me btw) and i've run across the terms madpunk and sickpunk alot, but not got an exact definition so i don't really know what they mean.

ty!!

Hey there! Im glad the master-post could help! Im assuming if you’ve looked through it, you already found the sick punk section

Tbh, I have no idea what madpunk is. I’ve seen the term float around occasionally, but never looked much into it

Sick Punk though, I can tell you a lot about (at least how I use it)! Suck Punk is a label/community for those who are chronically ill/disabled, but dont meet the criteria for the c*punk community. For example: I have an autoimmune disorder that impacts my life a lot (Im actual in the middle of a flare right now), but it doesnt make me physically disabled. A lot of long term health problems that aren’t physical disabilities still impact people’s every day life. And thats what sick punk is about. Its for the people who are constantly tired, dont have energy, got some funky shit going on in their brain, nausea, migraines, etc etc etc. Calling your self a sick punk is more of a choice than a category. Its like a cousin to c*punk, a lot of things can overlap, but its a separate space so that our problems can be discussed without taking over the c*punks discussions that relate to physical disabilities.

[topguncortez]

WELCOME TO “WHUMP THE MUSICAL” 2024 :) created by @whumpthemusical

MY RULES:  

One topic/day will be assigned to one character for that day (i.e Jake gets Day 1, Rooster Day 2, Floydsin Day 3). I will not be doing more than one character a day.

ABSOLUTELY NO MINORS. As these topics all fall under the WHUMP category, there will be heavy content written and shared. Fics will be tagged accordingly, but no minors are permitted to interact. If I find you are a minor interacting, you will be blocked immediately. 

During this time I will not be posting any other fics/blurbs/one-shots or taking requests, primarily because I’ll be writing a lot and posting a lot and I don’t need that added stress.

You can either send requests into my inbox directly OR fill out the request form. 

My normal requesting rules still stand: if you are a blank blog, a minor, a character I don’t write for, or exceed the two-three sentence limit, your request will not be fulfilled

I will update the calendar/character list on SUNDAYS, so you know what days are left. 

ALL REQUESTS MUST BE DONE BY: THURSDAY, FEBRUARY 22ND 

CHARACTERS:

Top Gun Character & Pairing List

Rip Wheeler

Kayce Dutton

Rhett Abbott

Jay Halstead

Will Halstead

CALENDAR:

DAY 1: Cats  Sabotage • Second Chances • "I Can Dream Of The Old Days."

DAY 2: Wicked Mob Mentality • Propaganda • "No Good Deed Goes Unpunished."

DAY 3: Jesus Christ Superstar  Whipping • Betrayal • "Then I Was Inspired, Now I'm Sad And Tired."

DAY 4: Les Mis Survivor's Guilt • Failure • "Drink With Me To Days Gone By."

DAY 5: Heathers Poison • Reluctant Whumper • "Wanna fight for me?"

DAY 6: Newsies Chronic Pain • Exploitation • "Let 'Em Laugh In My Face, I Don't Care."

DAY 7: The Last Five Years Infidelity • Gaslighting • "I Will Not Lose Because You Can't WIn."

DAY 8: Hadestown Deals • Doomed Narrative • "Doubt Comes In."

DAY 9: Sweeney Todd False Imprisonment • Razors • "Have You Decided It's Safer In Cages?"

DAY 10: Rent CHARACTER: FLOYDSIN Substance Abuse • Poverty • "Feels Too Much Damn Like Home."

DAY 11:  Bare: A Pop Opera Outing • Religious Trauma • "Please, See Me."

DAY 12: Waitress  CHARACTER: JAKE SERESIN Unplanned Pregnancy • Abuse • "She Is Broken And Won't Ask For Help."

DAY 13: Tick Tick Boom  Atychiphobia • Working To Exhaustion • "Is This Real Life?"

DAY 14: Dear Evan Hansen Deception • Broken Bone • "Words Fail."

DAY 15: West Side Story  Star-Crossed Lovers • Prejudices • "A Boy Who Kills Cannot Love."

DAY 16: Come From Away  Stranded • Aftermath • "Blankets And Bedding And Maybe Some Food."

DAY 17: Spring Awakening Withheld Information • Suicide  • "I Don't Scream, Though I Know It's Wrong."

DAY 18: Hamilton Hurricane  • Dueling • "I Will Kill Your Friends And Family To Remind You Of My Love."

DAY 19: Falsettos Sickness • Identity Issues • "Death Is Not A Friend."

DAY 20: Into The Woods  Blame • Lost • "Nothing But A Vast Midnight."

DAY 21: The Great Comet Abduction • Letters • "Did You Love That Bad Man?"

DAY 22: In The Heights Grief • Homesickness • "I Know That I'm Letting You Down."

DAY 23: Be More Chill  Mind Manipulation • Panic Attack • "Everything About Me Makes Me Want To Die."

DAY 24: Moulin Rouge  CHARACTER:  JAY HALSTEAD Class Differences • Sex Work • "Come What May."

DAY 25: Chicago  CHARACTER: JAY HALSTEAD Cold Blood • Trial • "He Had It Coming."

DAY 26: Six CHARACTER: BRADLEY BRADSHAW Execution • Trauma Bonding • "Playtime's Over."

DAY 27:Ride The Cyclone Unexpected Tragedy • Forgotten Whumpee • "I Hear The Anguish Of The Street."

DAY 28: The Rocky Horror Show Obsession • Wrong Place, Wrong Time • "I've Seen Blue Skies Through The Tears."

DAY 29: Nerdy Prudes Must Die Bullying • Ritual • "Who Will Pray For You?"

DAY 30: Jekyll And Hyde Duality • Good Vs Evil • "If I Die, You'll Die."

DAY 31: Phantom Of The Opera Disfiguration • Shunned • "My Power Over You Grows Stronger Yet."

[rocketturtle4]

Rules: List 10 of your comfort shows, then tag 10 people

Tagged by @sorry-bonebag and @shouldiusemyname TY very much tag games are so fun! (sorry it's taken me a while to get too!)

I read "comfort shows" and my brain stalled out. Like define comfort? Am I sick? Am I sad and in need of cheering up? Am I angry? Am I hurt? Am I tired? Am i overtired? Am I emotional? What negative emotional state am in dang it??

I started this list thinking there wouldnt be many BL or wider Asian shows but then I remembered prior to this year I almost never watched TV...so it's Asian focused after all! (I went no books allowed or it would have been 3/4 books lol)

Added later: I remembered anime and I have no idea what to do because it's gonna sweep the list...okay, 1 anime per category.

Also I tend to be a CHRONIC rewatcher (Or rereader) even when not in need of comfort so the sheer amount of New content I have consumed this year boggles my mind and is definitely a break from tradition so I am not quite sure yet how much of it is going to stay with me...

But anyway I am using some categories to help

First up: Comfort when I'm sick/run down/tired:

Being sick tends to leave me too tired to read and very much desiring not to use my brain more than necessary so, Shows that gives me the warm fuzzies:

1. Ascendence of A Bookworm - Just sneaking past two others who jostle for the top spot, this is my favourite anime of all time and is absolutely peak comfort, it's given me three beautiful seasons so far and I continue to sit in quite hope for more

2. SOTUS S I am dying to rewatch this series, the emotional resonance I felt to Arthit's journey all the way through is still possibly the most connected I have felt to any character ever and this soft story of growing love and finding your place in teh world with someone by your side is absolutely peak comfort for me.

3. Sing My Crush or more broadly many Korean BL. Most Korean BL is absolutely my comfort zone, it's soft, warm and fuzzy, it's the shows I watch right before bed to send me off to good dreams. Korean BL is definitely comfort for me, and while Sing My Crush isn't my favourite Korean BL, it's definitely my most comforting so far.

Second: Comfort when I'm sad/hurt/down:

E.g. cheer me up shows:

4. Doctor Who, my favourite tv show of all time remains my favourite cheer me up show. Early to mid of any season to keep crying to a minimum.

5. Avatar the Last Airbender, I don't even think this one needs am explanation.

6. Tonhon Chonlatee (and many other Thai BL) I find a lot of Thai BL pretty funny and I found TC utterly hilarious, I definitely plan to use rewatching this one as a pick me up in the future

7. Crash course in Romance, What's a list without some Kdrama! I am still dying to expand my watchlist with Kdrama's but I have to get through all the BL on it first lol...I'm about to reach 100 BL, maybe I'll make a post about it

(also the anime for this cat is: No Game No Life, so bonus show)

Third: Get me out of my own head

E.g. shows that make me feel a lot (some of the above shows also fit this criteria lol)

8. The Eclipse My equal favourite Thai show (along with SOTUS S) and another one where I felt crazy resonance with a main character. In this case the emotional tone is more intense for me, though It's still definitely comfort!

9. The Irregular at Magic Highschool A.K.A Mahouka Koukou no Rettousei (and various spin offs). The third anime of my top three trifecta and one that also has fed me multiple seasons. This one is such fun but also pretty intense so I love it for a myriad of reasons.

10. Goblin the Great and Lonely God, My favourite Kdrama so far, just beating out crash course in the rankings. Even writing the name leaves me dying to go back and watch it all again.

ahhh @plantsarepeopletoo and @thegalwhorants tag me in your answers since you've already been tagged I'll add...

@sparklyeyedhimbo @visualtaehyun @callipigio and @slayerkitty sorry if you've already done it, and either way no pressure to play!

[flyonthewallmedstudent]

Finegoldia magna

Cold open with a case report:

60M with a past history of previous wrist fracture presents with worsening pain and swelling, erythema and reduced range of motion, after suffering an abrasion from changing a tire.

the previous injury resulted from an MVA 9 yrs prior with a closed rist fracture

there was also a history of ETOH use and possible malnutrition, which can result in immunosuppression

Xray showed extensive changes in the wrist bones compared to past years with near loss of several, suggestive of pyogenic arthritis

Aspiration of the wrist joint grew Finegoldia magna

What is it

not actually uncommon

but is more commonly associated with post op infections or prosthetic joint infections (so case reports are harder to find in this category)

previously known as peptostreptococcus (sounds like peptobismol) but was renamed following 16S rna sequence availability, so in older texts/articles you'll still see it's old name

it's a commensal, so normal part of our microflora, but is opportunistic like so many other pathogens we usually live with and covers our body

It is a Gram Positive Anaerobe, of the same flavour of clostridium. Remember there's fewer gram positive anaerobes than there are aerobes. So consider it in cultures if there's only growth in the anaerobe bottle and it's gram positive (purple). Usually it likes mucosal surfaces, such as the GI or GU tracts, but it doesn't mind skin either. It's considered a "gram positive anaerobic cocci" (GPAC) and has increasing prevalence and antibiotic resistance in the group.

Image source

Increased risk and when to think of it

chronic ulcers, diabetic ulcers

associated with biofilms (always bad, requires prolonged duration of antibiotics)

prosthetic joints

prosthetic valves

as it is opportunistic, also consider it in the immunocompromised

In the case above, the patient had septic arthritis, for which anaerobes account for 20% of cases. And Finegoldia is often the culprit in the case of post op and prosthetic joint infections. Rarely affects normal joints or healed joints from previous closed trauma years prior.

In chronic wounds it can impair healing via Protein L, which bindings to antibodies, causing immunomodulatory effect.

Bit of history

named for Sydney Finegold, an American physician who was a founding member of IDSA (infectious diseases society of American) and one of its early former presidents

but the name did make me think of 'fine gold'

Treatment

luckily susceptible to penicillin - but there is growing resistance, hence relevance of always chasing susceptibility

alternatives: metronidazole (typical class that covers anaerobes), tazocin and carbapenems

also has increasing resistance to clindamycin (a consideration in penicillin allergy or during empirical therapy for wounds)

Resources:

case report

wikipaedia

microbe canvas

[ao3feed-irondadspiderson]

Like the world makes sense (from your window seat)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/49275754 by A_Monument_Of_Cloud “Tony always loved a good mystery. Maybe, just maybe, the best mysteries are the ones you don’t give up on.“ … Tony and the series of odd Peter Parker incidents- in which Tony is confused 99% of the time, Peter is the worst liar and the Mist loves to put him through ridiculous situations. Demigod Peter AU. Words: 13664, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Series: Part 1 of I am the sail, the plank, the mast that breaks (and gets replaced) Fandoms: Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: F/M, Gen Characters: Peter Parker, Tony Stark, May Parker (Spider-Man), Pepper Potts Relationships: Peter Parker & Tony Stark, May Parker (Spider-Man) & Peter Parker, May Parker (Spider-Man) & Peter Parker & Tony Stark, Pepper Potts/Tony Stark Additional Tags: Tony Stark Acting as Peter Parker's Parental Figure, Weirdness, Weird Peter Parker, Tired Tony Stark, Awesome May Parker (Spider-Man), Alternate Universe - Percy Jackson Fusion, Tony Stark Has A Heart, Tony Stark Feels, Tony Stark is Bad at Feelings, Tony stark is trying, Protective Tony Stark, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Peter Parker, Supportive May Parker (Spider-Man), secretive Peter, Precious Peter Parker, Peter Parker Needs a Hug, Peter Parker is a Mess, Teen Peter Parker, Smart Peter Parker, Internship, Secret Identity, Mystery, Ambiguous/Open Ending, this will be part of a series that’s why, Peter Parker is a Ray of Sunshine, Peter Parker is So Done, Peter Parker is a Little Shit, Bad Liar Peter Parker, Peter Parker Has a Bad Day, or like, several bad days, Mentor Tony Stark, BAMF Peter Parker, what if Peter Parker was a demigod?, kid can’t catch a break, Peter Parker Needs a Break, Awesome Pepper Potts, Women In Power, love her, Pepperony - Freeform, Post-Spider-Man: Homecoming, if I catch anyone shipping Tony and Peter I will throw hands, getting closer, Letting People In, Camp Half-Blood (Percy Jackson), it’s mentioned like once, Peter Parker has secrets, Peter Parker Has Issues, Tony Stark Has Self-Esteem Issues, Tony Stark Has Trust Issues, May Parker (Spider-Man) & Tony Stark Coparenting Peter Parker, Tony doesn’t want to let Peter in, the kid is sticky and weird but still manages to steal his heart, Father-Son Relationship, Relationship build-up, Developing Friendships, The Mist - Freeform, I have chronic back pain and depression from Endgame, are these enough tags?, I’m awful at tags just read it please thank you, Son of Athena! Peter Parker read it on AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/49275754

[mikelogan]

15 questions, 15 mutuals

i was tagged by @danieljradcliffe (tysm!)

1. Are you named after anyone? my middle name is the same as my mom's middle name, and i had a great-great aunt and a great-great grandma (on opposite sides of the family) that had it as a first name. my parents chose my first name bc garth brooks had recently named his daughter that after james taylor so i like to think i'm indirectly named after james taylor lol

2. When was the last time you cried? i teared up during a specific part of tfothou, but the last time i actually cried was when my parents and i finished rewatching bly manor and i sobbed on the couch

3. Do you have kids? abso-fuckin-lutely not

4. What sports do you play/have played? i do not enjoy the sportsball, but my parents made me play basketball in middle school and in my freshman year of high school, i made it through half a season of softball before permanently injuring both of my feet! i do play disc golf now with my dad, maybe once a week?

5. Do you use sarcasm? it's my native language

6. What's the first thing you notice about people? honestly, probably what they're wearing? and then i pay more attention to their face lol

7. What’s your eye color? blue

8. Scary movies or happy endings? right now, scary movies. but scary movies can still have happy endings! but i also don't mind unhappy endings either.

9. Any talents? define talent... i can wiggle both of my ears (and my right one on its own), i sing, am outstanding in the category of "how many chronic illnesses can we shove into one tired bitch," and uh idk i can't think of anything else

10. Where were you born? in my hometown, where i still currently live

11. What are your hobbies? wasting my life away on tungle dot hell, making gifs, bingewatching shows and movies, hyperfixating on old television shows no one cares about anymore, handlettering, disc golf, writing, etc.

12. Do you have any pets? i have two cats that are the loves of my life and my family has a dog that barks at everything all the time and tears my last little bits of sanity to shreds (i still love him)

13. How tall are you? 5'4"

14. Favorite subject in school? english/creative writing

15. Dream job? i do not dream of labor but boy would i sure like to get the ball rolling on long-term disability and ssdi

no pressure tags (as always): @laurabenanti @laurensgraham @jackharkness @divorcedmalewife @thatsjustdandy @matttheratking @sculien @azrphales @antlerqueer @heroeddiemunson @lucydonato @j0el-miller @swiftispunk @sophiedevreaux @natscatorrcio

[pastafossa]

Im assuming youve seen whats going on with the Supreme Court …. are you okay ? I know this mess is affecting so many people , I just wanted to check in . Sending love !

Thank you so, so much anon for checking in! I've seen it, yeah. I'm in a lot of childfree and chronic illness groups - both categories that rely on access to both BC and abortion - and things are... not going good.

I, personally, am safe, fortunately. I had to fight for it for almost 10 years, but I finally managed to get sterilized a couple years ago. Equally fortunate: the state I literally just moved to a few months ago is expanding access, whereas the state I was formerly in is one bad election away from becoming the deep South. So if my surgery did, in fact, fail, I'll have options. But a lot of my friends are still back there, or in other bad states, and I'm scared as hell for them tbh. I'm scared for my readers. I'm scared of the precedent this sets. I'm also left with this sick feeling of having dodged a bullet, because I was one of the people who would have needed access to BC and/or abortion, since BC can fail.

I have had health problems since I was 11. My medications and pregnancy do not mix, nor do my health issues. Even aside from never having an interest in having kids, it would be very, very bad for me. And I remember the fear I felt as a teenager. What if something terrible happened and I got pregnant? What if I got older and married and my BC failed? It was a game of waiting until I was 18, only to then discover the huge roadblock of doctors who are perfectly happy to stop you from permanently avoiding becoming pregnant. "Come back when you're 45." "Come back when you have three kids!" "But what if your future Mr. Right wants kids?" "This is too extreme, BC and abortion will always be there." "You'll change your mind." I finally found a doctor who'd do what I needed thanks to the Childfree Reddit's list of friendly doctors, and I literally walked out of the office after getting a surgery date, got into my car, and just cried. I felt so much relief because once it was done, I'd be safe. I'd be ok. I wouldn't have to live with this fear hanging over my head. And today I am painfully aware that all these roadblocks still exist for far, far too many people.

I'm tired of being afraid. I'm just really, really tired.So it was nice to have a check-in. <3 Much love back.

If you're looking for doctors friendly to birth control and sterilization, consider the Childfree Subreddit's list of doctors. That's how I found mine. It's not just for the CF folks either. If you don't want more kids, if you only want one kid, if you're having health issues solved by surgery and no one will do it, consider the list. It'll literally be a life saver now.

[ao3feed-dadzawa]

I am a Person (Please Don't Forget Me)

I am a person (please don't forget me) by Just Willow

Izuku is tired and done. He trains nearly everyday and it still isn't enough for All Might. The feelings get bottle up but the have to explode somewhen.

And Explode they do.

Or Izuku goes off on one when All Might tells him to train harder. Dadzawa to the rescue.

Words: 2210, Chapters: 1/2, Language: English

Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: Gen, M/M

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic, Snipe, Kayama Nemuri | Midnight, Nedzu, Shuuzenji Chiyo | Recovery Girl, Midoriya Inko, only mentioned though, Class 1-A, Only mentioned

Relationships: Midoriya Izuku & Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead/Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic

Additional Tags: Yagi Toshinori | All Might is a Bad Teacher, All Might is a bad mentor, Depressed Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku is a Mess, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Hug, Midoriya Izuku Has One for All Quirk, Midoriya Izuku Has Chronic Pain, Suicidal Thoughts, References to Depression, Protective Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Married Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead/Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead is a Good Teacher, Tired Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, One For All Quirk Haunted by Past One For All Users' Ghosts, One For All Quirk is Revealed, Midoriya Inko Tries, Yagi Toshinori | All Might Bashing, Hero Public Safety Commission Bashing, Dadzawa, Parental Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead | Dadzawa, Midoriya Izuku Needs Therapy, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Break, BAMF Midoriya Izuku

Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/44693746

[ao3feed-ineffablehusbandz]

A Consistent Level of Tired

A Consistent Level of Tired

by EdosianOrchids901

After stopping Armageddon, Crowley takes a “brief” nap that turns into several days. On waking fully, he’s dismayed to realize that he’s still just as exhausted. Can Aziraphale help him feel better?

Words: 1879, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Good Omens (TV)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Crowley (Good Omens), Aziraphale (Good Omens)

Relationships: Aziraphale/Crowley (Good Omens)

Additional Tags: Mild Hurt/Comfort, Post-Almost Apocalypse (Good Omens), Crowley's Flat (Good Omens), Exhaustion, Tea, Holding Hands, Forehead Kisses, Cuddling & Snuggling, Chronic Illness, Tired Crowley (Good Omens), Crowley Has Chronic Pain (Good Omens), Caring Aziraphale (Good Omens), Soft Aziraphale (Good Omens), Crowley Loves Aziraphale (Good Omens), Aziraphale Loves Crowley (Good Omens)

From https://ift.tt/sMhiPbQ https://archiveofourown.org/works/48201403

[thereisnoblogniche]

A personal post about chronic pain and mental illness

There is a certain depression that falls on you when you're dealing with chronic pain or chronic illness, or even just symptoms of your other mental illnesses. It's not just clinical depression. It's a Special kind that you get from the inability to have the type of autonomy over your own body that you wish you could have.

It's not about want to. It's not about even need to. It's about can't do. I lack the mental or physical energy. I am too tired. I am too exhausted from my pain or physical struggles that day. I have no spoons, as many chronic illness sufferers have become familiar with saying.

I'm also just tired of not having the right answers or the right help. I very easily get discouraged. Even if I could afford going to see a bunch of different doctors, I don't know that it would help.

I'm so desperate I spent a LOT of money recently (a payment plan that even monthly I really can't afford) on a device that's supposed to help my pain--in 4-8 weeks after using it. An in-house patented device btw that isn't nationally used, as far as I know, and I had certainly never heard of it.

Why am I being so coy and cagey about my illness(es)? Simple imposter syndrome and fear of gatekeeping. I'm afraid that my pain will be invalidated as "not bad enough" for fitting into the chronic pain community, whatever that is. I'm afraid that I haven't suffered enough to be able to speak on this topic.

But I don't care what you call it or what category you put me in. I'm tired. I get plenty of sleep and I am tired. I have little energy to do anything. I have the desire but no energy to carry it out. When I make plans or appointments, it takes all my strength and energy to do them. Household chores feel like a Herculean task. And doing things for FUN? HAH! Fairy tale shit.

I'm of course exaggerating a little bit. It's not that I never feel good or ever do anything fun or enjoyable, but the times are few and far between and often come at a great cost.

I don't have any answers. This is just bitching. I even get tired of bitching. There are small things I can do to mitigate the pain but they either a) help very little, or b) don't last for very long. Still, it's something. Some minor relief. Also, another positive, is that I do get a decent amount of sleep. I imagine that's good for my body even if I don't feel well-rested.

I'm just using this as an outlet because i tend to bottle it all up. And that's not like me. I like to bitch. I bitch often. But I hold this in a lot just because I get sick of talking about it. I get sick of being that person and I keep thinking (falsely) that if I stop talking and thinking about it in such a negative way, that it will be cured. That's a holdover from my Fundamentalist Christian upbringing, I'm sure. But you can't blame me for wanting to try anything to fix myself.

What good is it to be alive when your quality of life feels like it's cut in half? Especially when it hasn't always been like this. Sure, I've had mental health struggles all my life that have made things difficult. But I'm on a whole new plane of existence and if this is my future forever? It doesn't feel very bright. I'm only 34 but I sometimes just want to die because I don't feel like I'm doing anything to make my life worth living. I am not leading the type of satisfying, fulfilled life I want to. And I have basically NO CHOICE in that.

Losing autonomy due to an illness of any kind is one of the most depressing things a human can experience.

[omegathetaone]

Yanno, sometimes I forget and/or don't realize how exhausting it is to compartmentalize everything into tiny, separate categories. Sometimes, I don't realize that I compartmentalize almost every daily action until my brain is fried by the time I get home. It's tiring, but also confusing to a point. I compartmentalize so heavily some days the whole day gets thrown into a fog, and other days I compartmentalize everything that it caves inwards by the time I walk through the door and feel overwhelmed. Compartmentalization, in my case, also causes this sense of emptiness that I can't describe. Not a good or bad feeling per se; it's like a blank canvas sitting on an easel. Nothing there but that monotone off-white. It's worse on bad days where my chronic pain flares up or I receive bad news of some sort, and less so on other days. Still sort of blank, but instead of a blank canvas it has splashes of color here and there to make it less...bland looking. I never really mention that to anyone because I don't want them jumping to the conclusion that the "empty" or "blank" feeling is bad or actively harming me, when that has been my natural state for as long as I can remember. It's the one word that I find describes it best, and I have a very hard time describing and discerning emotions from one another (Alexithymia). People that I've met jump to conclusions about me a lot because of how I act and some of the things I say, when really those conclusions aren't true. It gets annoying, I guess.

[aggressive-almond-cookie]

I’m not doing all that well in anarchy lately.

I don’t entirely know why (like, I could list a dozen factors but I don’t know which is the main factor). I seem to be getting into a lot of one-sided matches, wherein no one on my team gets a single splat and we just get steamrolled immediately. I’m not totally sure what’s causing it. I should probably watch some replays and see if I notice patterns.

when I started Anarchy I was worried about the possibility of being carried into ranks I don’t belong in and having a generally bad time getting matched against folks so high above me that I get stuck on the steepness of the learning curve, but I’ve realized I can probably mitigate that to some extent if I just stick exclusively to Open matches until I’m at least getting a 50/50 win rate. It’s absolutely bonkers that series gives you so many points even if you lose repeatedly. I got three gold badges in a game where we got knocked out immediately just because I hopped on the tower once for two seconds and that was an objectively poor decision at the time.

My main vice is absolutely rushing in without taking time to understand my surroundings first, so I started keeping a simple log on my phone wherein after each match, I rate myself 1-5 on two categories: How often I checked the UI at the top to stay aware of who was alive/splatted, and how often I checked my surroundings before rushing in. I figure if I have to grade myself after every match I’ll be more likely to remember to do those things and maybe eventually it will become more habitual. So far I haven’t given myself more than a 3 in a category for any game (and every game we’ve still lost), but the reminders are helping, and it keeps my morale up to at least get those tiny victories I know I only got by paying more attention, even if we lose as a whole.

What I’m still not sure about though is what to do when... I don’t know how to explain this, but it’s like my brain stops processing what is going on on screen. I feel like sometimes I am in a headspace where I can understand what I’m looking at, but most of the time it’s just like a blur, not visually a blur, but just like my brain gives up on making sense of it. I feel like when I start playing, if I warm up properly, I feel pretty sharp for maybe 30-45 minutes, but then it’s like my ability to visually parse what I’m looking at starts sharply declining. It’s almost like when I’m really tired and can’t be bothered to focus my attention, except that I do want to, but it’s like I just can’t, like my brain physically refuses.

I’ve had issues like this my whole life though-- this feels directly related to the same reason I can’t drive IRL-- I just quickly lose the ability to understand what’s visually, spatially happening around me, let alone make choices based on that information. I don’t know how much of this is related to the ADHD, the anxiety, if I’m just chronically exhausted, if there’s something physically wrong with my brain or what, but I’d really like to figure it out. This game feels like a much safer medium through which to do that than the highway, so... I’m gonna keep troubleshooting it. Maybe add focus data to my battle logs along with other factors like time of day and how much sleep I got and if I ate or something.

[ao3feed-izuku-midoriya]

I am a Person (Please Don't Forget Me)

I am a person (please don't forget me) by Just Willow

Izuku is tired and done. He trains nearly everyday and it still isn't enough for All Might. The feelings get bottle up but the have to explode somewhen.

And Explode they do.

Or Izuku goes off on one when All Might tells him to train harder. Dadzawa to the rescue.

Words: 2210, Chapters: 1/2, Language: English

Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: Gen, M/M

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic, Snipe, Kayama Nemuri | Midnight, Nedzu, Shuuzenji Chiyo | Recovery Girl, Midoriya Inko, only mentioned though, Class 1-A, Only mentioned

Relationships: Midoriya Izuku & Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead/Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic

Additional Tags: Yagi Toshinori | All Might is a Bad Teacher, All Might is a bad mentor, Depressed Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku is a Mess, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Hug, Midoriya Izuku Has One for All Quirk, Midoriya Izuku Has Chronic Pain, Suicidal Thoughts, References to Depression, Protective Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Married Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead/Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead is a Good Teacher, Tired Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, One For All Quirk Haunted by Past One For All Users' Ghosts, One For All Quirk is Revealed, Midoriya Inko Tries, Yagi Toshinori | All Might Bashing, Hero Public Safety Commission Bashing, Dadzawa, Parental Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead | Dadzawa, Midoriya Izuku Needs Therapy, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Break, BAMF Midoriya Izuku

Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/44693746