#cant have shit on the internet /silly

[lightbulb-warning]

i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself

[ravensmadreads]

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Eyeroll what else is new

[candy-cloud-system]

I have Never seen an endo shit on traumagenic systems - i have seen them shit on people discrediting their experiences but its wild that ur acting like a victim when ur the one being weird. Psychology largely agrees that we do not know enough abt the human brain - specific dissociative disorders - to claim they can Only be caused one way. Also forcing people to reflect on if they're traumatized or not just for them to be "allowed" to use system terminology is Wild - even if every single system is caused by trauma, so many traumatized people have no recollection of the trauma. This isnt black and white and youre silly for caring so much abt internet strangers repressed memories or lack thereof 🩷

First off, learn to read . D N I. Means DO NOT INTERACT! I don’t understand what’s so hard about that, literally you have to go through the effort to read a whole message that’s literally saying don’t interact, go to my account, which tells you not to interact, and then type a whole message and never once do you think “oh! I’m breaking DNI! I’m crossing boundaries! Hm! Maybe I shouldn’t do that!”

So I’m gonna be a bitch to you now cus you broke my DNI and I’ve already stated I’d start being a bitch to people who do that

“I’ve never seen endos shit on traumagenic systems 🥺🥺🥺” okay explain the constant death threats we get. Explain the people LIKE YOU! Who break DNI to tell us shit we literally do not want to hear, explain the people who go into our comment and tell us to off ourselves, call us names, make up slurs. Tell us no one loves us and everyone will leave. Do you understand how fucking stupid you sound?

Traumagenic systems get SOOOO much bullshit from endos and that’s why it’s such a problem. They bully trauma survivors and victims, making them spiral and feel like fucking shit because they didn’t want people mocking a disorder that makes their lives harder. The amount of times I’ve seen endos telling traumagenic systems to die simply because they fucking EXISTED is fucking insane.

Even if you could be a system without trauma, you wouldn’t be in the same groups as us, you wouldn’t have the same terms you wouldn’t be classified with the disorder. Because our disorder stems from TRAUMA! You have to have trauma.

You can have trauma you don’t remember, BUT THAT DOESNT MAKE YOU AN ENDO. It makes you a traumagenic system who doesn’t remember their trauma! You guys fucking groom people into believing their trauma isnt enough or that they’re endo because they can’t remember and it fucking disgusts me.

I’m not making people reflect on their fucking trauma, IM TRYING NOT TO GET HARASSED FOR MINE.

FUNFACT. I AM A VICTIM! I GET HARRASED BY ENDOS FUCKING ALMOST DAILY AT THIS POINT! IM ACTIVELY TELLING YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE CONSTANTLY BECAUSE YOU GUYS CANT FUCKING READ THREE LETTERS !

I AM TIRED OF COMING ON THIS APP AFTER WISHING I DIDNT GO THROUGH THE SHIT I GO THROUGH BECAUSE OF THIS DISORDER AND SEEING SOME RANDOM ASS KID SAYING HOW THEYRE GONNA MANIFEST A SYSTEM FOR THEMSELF. IF YOU FUCKING “CREATE” A “SYSTEM” BECAUSE YOU WANT ONE. FUCK YOU. ACTUALLY FUCK YOU. WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I HATE YOU. AND I HAVE ALL RIGHTS TO HATE YOU.

“You’re so silly for caring 🥺🥺🥺🥺” I CARE BECAUSE I GET HARRASSED TO THE POINT OF SPLITTING OR HAVING CRASHES DUE TO OUR BPD AND NPD. I GET FUCKING HARASSED UNTIL I CANT TAKE IT. THATS WHY I TELL YOU TO NOT FUCKING INTERACT.

Get off my fucking blog. Never come back. Endos and their supporters are NOT fucking welcome here. Respect my fucking DNI.

[radiopixelctive]

*reveals my Doors AU to the Internet suddenly*

+ the most professional descriptions of them below

Blitz - Rush's brother (green) and sister (pink). multiple personality disorder + bipolar disorder. 2 in 1 indeed!

Haste - just an angry dangerous wanted virus lol

A-60 - a selfish bitch who thinks that he would replace Rush easily. Also is the main guy of the rooms trio because no one gave a shit about it anyways

A-90 - dissatisfied with the job but adequate granpa

A-120 - he's just there

Halt - ga(y)mer

Eyes - idk anymore

Screech - kinda uh uhm ermm he is um okay he's a nerd duh

Rush - a pretty known entity. the "you don't need to be smart if you have strength" kind of guy (rivals with A-60 btw)

Ambush - an adequate silly

Jack - just like Ambush, but without "adequate"

Figure - literally just a blind dog walking on hind legs. nahh come on he cant even speak at all he doesn't have a normal jaw

Seek - literally just A-90 but kinda younger

G. L. - owner of the hotel. serious as heck, but kind (also created the crucifix and the candle)

C. L. - GL's right hand, AKA her assistant. Like in the game he doesn't really help, if not counting the placement of timers and stuff supplies in backdoors (also made the curious potions, or whatever those're called)

i would also tell about others and the AU itself but i need to know if someone is even interested

[raytorosguitarstrap]

INTRO POST

Welcome to Johnny's little corner of the internet. Or Shaggy's, or Rawries, or Larry's, or whatever u wanna call me ig

I use He/They/It/pup prns! I prefer masc terms when being referred to me :)

Ough I don't rlly have a label for my orientation you can just use queer if you need to mention it for whatever reason. I guess I'd call myself pupgender??? I'm rlly just a blob of fagdyke that exists

Im cuban and can read and understand Spanish but I'm shit at writing Spanish. And English too but don't worry too much on that..

I rlly like horror movies/related media...which I don't post/reblog abt a lot but plsspslspalapalpapals talk to me abt horror movies :(

I also like MCR, KoRn, Metallica, AC⚡️DC, Linkin Park, Rob Zombie, Slayer, Slipknot, Avenged Sevenfold, Sleeping with Sirens, PTV, etc etc

Im witerawwy Ray Toro IRL. If you don't agree I will cry and shit my pants and explode

@brits4gerardway

Im also a furry/age regressor. So yeag. I don't really post about age regressing on my blog as I prefer to keep it something a bit more private but if you ever want to talk I'm always available!

These two little faggots are the two braincells that occupy my brain. Shaggy cant speak, neither can rawrie either tbh but pups dumbass loudass boombox let's then communicate thru there

FYI I am not a system, I just like using 2 persona's to represent myself :) I have no problems with systems tho!!

Also if you're a mutual PLEASEE DMM ME AND INTERACT!!! I DO NOT BITE I SWEAR. I WANT INTERACTION!! AND EVEN IF YOU'RE NOT A MUTUAL YOU CAN STILL DM ME IF YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS! IM ALWAYS HAPPY TO MEET NEW PEOPLE!!

uhnfmfm....I don't know what else to put here. Take some silly things my mutuals/friends have said(which you should go follow them because they're all like...super kool..

@bitchboy

@chaystarz

@neomustdiexo

@foxxys-huzband

@randomslinky

uhhghhhh more cool people to follow: @randybutternubber @cr4shqueen @poolboyservice @kaylak05 @thanks4the-venom @oh-so-much-soup @nao-walks-into-poles and all of my mutuals..yeag

also go interact with my little alien baby @yur13sredrum they need some love too :((

This will update frequently here's ur warning now lol

(P.S If you're curious about how to use my pup/pupself pronouns, they're used like this ^_^ EG: Pup is so cool! Pup loves pupself! Thats pups jacket!(can work almost as a nickname if youd prefer/makes it more comfortable for you!))

[yonpote]

honestly all of the insane archiving efforts of phannies is really just preservation of media (ok maybe not all some is definitely excessive lmao)

but like think about the wad film. it was a ticketed live event (which is fine!) and the vod was only officially available for 2 days, and dan said hes trying to find a permanent home for it, but what if he cant? what if he decides its not worth the effort even tho he worked so hard on this and it was like a huge thing for him? well we have it thankfully!

or like, ok he took down a bunch of videos because of stuff he deemed inappropriate to be on his page which, sure that makes sense, but then theres videos that he took down because of silly reasons like oh this ones cringe etc which OK SURE and to be fair he didnt even delete them he originally had them unlisted and then youtube suddenly privated everything, but now reuploads and google drives are how we have those readily accessible!

or the stereos, stereo is still up and you can listen to all of dnp's shows on there but personally idk anyone whos ever used it that arent phannies so like what if the app shuts down? in their final stereo show they were talking about keeping the physical media they care about bc what if the internet explodes and were literally like "yo download these episodes and put ur hard drive in a box and bury the box" like that shits real

[wagestuck]

what do dave and jade do for jobs? how wagestuck are they. i feel like jade could maybe have some high paying science job but maybe she'd put her brains towards some noble cause that doesn't pay as well as big industry careers.

and i imagine dave would be trying to make money off his silly internet shit like sbahj and blogs n whatever but i doubt his stuff would be successful enough to support him without at least a part time job on top of it. hes a niche content kinda guy. even if the postscratch dave was a huge success moviestar director guy i cant imagine this dave (based more on prescratch dave obv) would be like that lol

Dave n Jade used to have wage job before breaking into the music biz. (i.e. Doritos and Fritos)

Before Dave would make corporate music for ads and commercials and whatnot to pay the bills BUT would occasionally make sbahj toons on the internet. got a cult following but can't work on it as much due to being chased by Condy and Her Invasive Corporations.

and Jade would work with Jake at the The Zoo For The Biologically Unheard until she wanted to start a band WITH Dave. Mostly getting big and being super critical on big corp and generally capitalism (including condy's and scratch). So yea a noble cause like you said.

[conceptofjoy]

SHIT I loVee your real boy seb. hes like if autism and adhd had a child. him having selective mutism and hiding behind someone close im crying. ive been feeling down/tired lately and seeing him made me genuinely giggle and smile. AND AHHH his interactions with other kids i love how you do the relationships in your posts not only <333 in your art style he and his expressions look so familiar and close.. hes my baby. my head aches its so good. seeing seb doing his bunny deals warms my heart like chocolate cheesecake in the microwave in fact. HELL FUCKING YEAH DESTA GO ON!!!

btw thats offtopic as hell but im that anon who originally said dorkhell LMFAO i saw you made the word? a whole hashtag uhoh! i opened my jaw like a smol bird opening its beak 180 degrees so that its mother bird would feed it WHEN i noticed. its actually so funny to me because i didnt even think about that too long. just a sudden thought i decided to add. but yes... this is your inheritance now joy (>_0)

well back to seb im about to disintegrate into sand. i really like how everyone uh... treats him in some sense? though he, i admit, may be a little disaster here and there but they love him <3 so, the way people treats seb with some kind of understanding (im not sure if thats the right word b i cant find anything better than this) is frankly comforting. i just go all "god damn it" as a person who was that neurodivergent child growing up. i may repeat, but i just adore your relationships between all the characters and I DARE to wander into another field BUT the vriska polycule,,... damn yes thats the thing anyone needs to see to make their earth spinning like its should. and they all care deeply about each other despite their ways of showing it is different. i see now!!!!

i literally cant form sentences anymore but they all are so dear. tyyy for making&sharing your art w random people on the internet again!! puts a turtle in your hand and frogblinks at you

AAAA THANK U puts turtle in a well maintained tank. everyone loves little seb n even though no one rlly has experience talking with kids, all of them are nd + have sibling energy/experience. his mischievousness matches a lot of the others lol.

hes a smart kid and knows how to use his cuteness/ how to play dumb to get out of situations (youngest child behavior) but is also incredibly silly. he takes after hal a lot in his smugness and dirk in his explosive displays of affection.

guh thank u so much for ur kind words. im glad i could make u feel better :) also dorkhell was just so good lol its so fitting. i should def elaborate on the vriska polycule l8r but it would take SEVERAL posts lmfao

[starheirxero]

DUDE- I'M SO LATE TO THE PARTY-

NEVERMIND, I MISSED THE PARTY- A MAN CAN'T EVEN DISSAPPEAR OFF THE FACE OF THE INTERNET/SILLY-

BUT I CANT BELIEVE, THEY KILLED OFF GOD ECLIPSE-

I HAVE SO MANY EMOTIONS ABOUT THIS, ACTUALLY/POS-

Theres something so poetic about it?? I'm not even sure, how to describe it!

It was Dark Sun, that killed him. It was a version of someone, he considered as valuable as the dust covering his books.

He was deceived and murdered by someone, who bore the face of his servant. Someone, he considered beneath him, a mere plaything in the face of immortality.

And he died, by being thrown off a cliff.

He has the power of creation. He is the closest to being a god as he can be. He is an immortal being, that fought and survived a storm of destruction, seeking to plummet his universe into the deepest abyss.

And yet, he was killed like it was nothing. Sun did not even bother to do it himself. He simply let him fall.

The most ironic part is, that it's not Sun that killed him. Sure, he was the one that threw him into the depths, but that wasn't what sealed his fate.

It was his own hubris. His arrogance left him to believe, he was invincible, and it cost him everything.

And yet, even in death, he still manages to send a message, voice sounding just as prideful and smug!

His ending was a quick, unexpected thing.

But despite that, it was perfect Because of the irony.

The universe truly seems to have a sense of humor.

Also, though you've already mentioned it…HE KILLED HIS SUN, OVER AND OVER AGAIN, AND RESET HIM TO ZERO EVERY SINGLE TIME-

IT'S SO FASCINATING, ACTUALLY?? THIS HAS SO MANY IMPLICATIONS-

OG ECLIPSES SEEM TO FOLLOW A PATTERN-

-Stardust

BAHAHAUSGAIF NO YOURE SO FINE I GET IT IM HANDSHAKING U TBH BUT ALSO YESYESYYES YES!!!!!!!

IM STILL FLABBERGASTED BY IT TOO TBH LIKE HOLY SHIT????? AND GHOD YEAH NO THERE'S ABSOLUTELY A POETIC VIBE TO IT YESYESYES

All ur points EXACTLYYY!!!! His death is such a wildly intriguing and fun scenario all around. I'd like to maybe highlight too, the fact that they both view each other as inherently lesser???

Dark Sun thinks all Eclipses are just as unruly as Moons, and Lord Eclipse views his Sun as lesser as can possibly be. BUT exactly like you said, because of Eclipse's own hubris, he let his guard down and paid the price for it. He cared so little for his own Sun that he didn't clock any of Dark Sun's acting, he just thought he was looking at something that wouldn't fight back.

AND YEA YEA YEA HIS TREATMENT OF SUNVANT AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I'M STILL SO DEEPLY UNWELL ABOUT THAT. I have been slow cooking it in my brain ever since I saw the episode because that is the BEST possible outcome for me, I eat that shit UPPPPP!!!!! AND ON TOP OF THAT ACTUALLY WAIT WAIT. I wrote this in the lord eclipse discord a bit ago but:

sunvant was worthless enough to not learn the deeper quirks of but worthwhile enough to keep around for so long. sunvant was worthless enough to kill but worthwhile enough to bring back. sunvant was worthless enough to rid the world of entirely but worthwhile enough to stop when "sunvant" begged for him to wait.

DO YOU GET ME. DO YOU SEE MY VISION. WHY ARE THEY LIKE THIS I'M GOING TO SLAM MY HEAD INTO A WALL /POS

[lovelyrotter]

I read your thing about stridercest. I didn’t super like the ship (I’m more of a lalondecest girlie) but I respect the hell out of the textual analysis you did. Anyway do you have any good fic recommendations? I want to see what you see in it.

oh fuck yeah i love sharing ship stuff especially with ppl who dont usually go here and vice versa for me. its like hell yeah im digging in sand and its fun i love my sand and then i turn around and woah i had no idea there was even MORE sand just behind me ya dig? that might not have made any sense hahaha. its the joy of trading pokemon cards except with ships

but okay heres some of my current faves. bear in mind i read mostly M and E rated stuff but ive got a sprinklin of lower ratings in here too. im also gonna categorize this list by stridercest flavour. theres a lot so this turned out like ridiculously long

anyone else goin through this feel free to link yalls faves in the replies too cause im ravenous. especially if its haldirk. im constantly craving haldirk

guardiancest

doku line terminus & two steps away from the county line by lildogie these first cause theyre my ultra faves rn and i cant get enough of this au. set in the same universe but county line is the prequel. a/b/o verse with lotsa interesting political stuff and also interpersonal dynamics. dave & dirk are there too and are real cute. its also got mysterious time travelling. i really cant sell these two enough like i am not doin these justice

davedirk / dirkdave

if i woke up next to you by bumbly | G, ~2,700 words, complete. SUPER sweet relationship study, made me fuckin melt. this author has really good stuff for other ships too but mind the archive warnings

dont joke about hentai face broctopus transplants im eating cheese n onion pringles here by smrtnik | M, ~1k words, complete. this one made me fuckin melt its so tender. it truly feels like were peeking into their life together. also great title

Stasis State by Caeslin | T, ~3k words, complete. another really intimate feeling one. its so fuckin sweet. mind the tags for typical dirk suicide attempt but its not on screen its moreso the recovery and how dave is affected by it

“stupid fucking bullshit” ad nauseam by anon | T, 13.7k words, complete. REALLY GOOD AU. trans striders, fade to black sex scene. the boys are cute and you can feel how much theyre drawn to each other immediately. wish there was more of this

sometimes the bad guy wins by nutrimercenary | E, ~7.5k words, ongoing. wow. oh wow. ive been looking for a davedirk fic like this for a long time. PLEASE read the warnings and tags but its so fuckin good. a crossdimentional narrative tug-o-war between dave and ult dirk i fuckin love it

got it goin on by bumbly | E, 7.5k words, complete. dirk indulges daves mommy kink after prying it outta him. its cute and funny and sexy it made me smile. their dynamic is sooo sweet

helping hands by ghostlyAnarchist | E, 5.1k words, complete. THIS IS SO GOOD. its got trans man dave and is genuinely one of the hottest transmasc fics ive read so far and boy howdy ive read a lot. slight warning for dysphoria discussion but its not too bad its all just hot af a dick-sucking venn diagram by Elendraug | E, 10k words, complete. first off domestic af. very established relationship and you can tell. its so fuckin sweet. i looove this one. its like the best kind of silly realistic smut its one of my faves of all time

STILL WITH ME by egbert | E, 8k words, complete. dave and dirk strife and then fuck in the bathroom. holy shit this is hot. their want is like tangible in this one

brodave and a!brodirk

hardware by orphan_account | E, ~8k words, complete. dave gets some dick piercings and bro goes insane about them. hot as hell and also features bottom bro which is my fave. its got a couple uses of the r-slur but its also from 2011 so i take it w/ a grain of salt. 2011 and earlier fics are like internet artifacts (/pos)

but you better never pull it by hapaxlegomena | E, 5k words, complete. wow. WOW. sub top bro and dom bottom dave need i say more. this sub bro activates my cute aggression the power play is great mars & murrie's by orphan_account | E, 6.8k words, complete. a!brodirk, omorashi. super hot!!!! alpha dave is sooo embarrassed about his piss kink but dirk wins in the end hahaha. really intriguing which i know sounds funny on an omo fic but read it and youll know. i love this alpha dave

temporal sunset by Plajus | M, 19.5k over 5 chapters, complete. a!brodirk. holy shit what a ride. this one held me hostage and now lives in my brain rent free (bdum tiss sorry). dirk is terminally ill so i know it wont be for everyone but give it a try and goddamn you wont be disappointed. trust me

a swinging pendulum by ghostlyAnarchist | T, ~900 words, complete. a!brodirk time/dream bubble encounter. wow just wow. the want. the yearning immaterial by LPSunnyBunny | E, 1k words, complete. a!brodirk, trans dirk. holy shit!!!!!! holy shit!!!!! hot hot hot!!!!!!! shower sex sensation control!!!!

haldirk

singular by 2x2verse | E, 6.8k words, complete. hal has an existential crisis dirk catches him and then they fuck tenderly about it. genuinely so romantic. im addicted to this kind of haldirk. honestly i just recommend the entire series diagnostics by 2x2verse | E, 2.9k words, complete. i know i just linked this authors whole collection of haldirk fics but holy crap this one in particular. dom/sub electrostim with sensory deprivation, hal is the dom. i LOVE how hes written here. very attentive domming, great details

A Fatal Error Has Occurred by Mortior | E, 42k words, 4/5 chapters. oh mortior my haldirk regent. really fuckin good character writing in an au where hal has an android body before the alpha session is started. read the tags for warnings. the tension between them is insane endangered by Mortior | E, 100k+ words, complete multichapter. holy fuck where to begin with this one. this is a haldirk sensation. post apocalyptic au where androids won the human-robot war. dirk runs into AR. AR takes an interest in him. dirk takes even more of an interest in AR. if youre gonna read any haldirk read this one

"im basically fucking him" series by Elendraug | T & E, all complete. so!!!!! fucking!!!!! tender!!!!! really cute haldirk progressing through their relationship

ridiculously late by cinnamonfreak | E, 21k, completed multichapter. a/b/o au where dirk suddenly presents. REALLY intriguing hal in this one i fuckin love the power play

roboporn by smrtnik | E, 3.9k words, complete. really fun power play in this one. hal is waterproofed externally but not internally. he gives dirk a handie over his open chassis torso. theres also really sweet snuggling afterwards

[aristotels]

We actually need to talk about how the world genuinely hates balkan people. I made a comment saying how I wished people were more interested in balkan culture and non balkan people got mad over my comment 💀

These people fr can't handle when balkan people are happy and not the laughing stock. Some of them fr said that the balkan contributed nothing to the world....like did these mfs forgot Nikola tesla? Mother Theresa? Alexander the great? Albert Einsteins wife was serbian! AND GREECE ALONE LIKE THERE ARE SO MANY FAMOUS HISTORICAL FIGURES FROM GREECE HOW CAN THESE MFS SAY THAT BALKAN CONTRIBUTED NOTHING TO THE WORLD

Toliko sam ljuta ali zaista sam ljuta. Zašto ovim ljudima smeta ako ja želim da balkan ima više reprezentacije i da nas ljudi više ne mrze.......

tbh people view balkans as a backwater land filled with idiots and silly people who cant think for themselves; term "balkanization" is enough of a proof. its always used with such disgust too. what are we, a bunch of hillbilly balkaners who cant self-govern? (this was hitlers opinion too btw)

greece aside, just yugoslav countries have so much to offer you historically: faust vrančić (first parachute), slavoljub penkala (first pen), croatia had the first hydroelectrane in europe, ruđer boškovićs physics theories.

i always remember that tweet where this guy was like "if someone uses cyrillics, theyre a russian bot" and when someone said "ah yes russia the only nation in the world" the guy replied "people in croatia bosnia and serbia are poor and dont have phones or the internet".

balkans have been so shit on through the history, despite many acchievments of people from here, in culture, architecture, science etc, but there is always this disgust and hatred when people talk about balkans, like we are garbage deponium of history.

uglavnom slažem se, puno pozdrava, biće bolje jednog dana ❤️

[nutzworth]

reading again so soon?

DAY 8: APRIL 22, 2024

STATS: read for 1 hour and 20 minutes pages read: 1683-1903. 220 pages. NICE! slur count: 13 + 0 = 13 silly count: 13 + 0 = 13 piss count: 2/3

THOUGHTS: today was largely uneventful but we did get to [s] shut up and jam

today john went through gate 2 and saw rose sleeping and i literally cant believe how unreal he was about it all. i mean yeah its JOHN EGBERT but come on you crash land in your wonderful friends house and you dont even wake her up or wait to say hi. whats your problem dude. he was really devious about the whole thing (pestering kanaya under roses name; snooping in roses books; pranking her by putting a bucket on her ajar door).

what IS a realistic interpretation of how i would interact with my online friend if i met him in real life is how rose and dave interacted for the first time on derse (which includes shut up and jam). imagine as follows: 1. i lean mischievously on your window sill. i throw a ball of yarn at your head and you wake up. hello. its me from the internet 2. you show me your awesome music gear and we dance and its awesome 3. i throw your creepy puppet out that has been giving you nightmares for like ever 4. you show me your computer. apparently our mutual friend is at my house. huh! 5. i disappear like yeah i would do that. rose is awesome

and of course the john (under the guise of rose) and kanaya conversation. i think its hilarious that was never explained and i like to believe none of them know any wiser except for john. kanayas like wow that was a weird first convo with rose haha and rose probably knows what happened to be honest. but kanayas left in the DARK. i love her. WE SAW SOLLUX TOO! kanaya is so cute. i literally love her. hassling sollux "You Used To Like To Talk More" fr girl. "I Dont Have An F1 Key" and then she throws it at his head. shes so awesome. ohh my god

another thing i was thinking about this session was hussie's use of tone. there were a few instances the tone was like crazy and they are as follows 1. john discovers roses gift for his birthday and reads the note. its like hes goofing off and is like "ok. im gonna look in the box now." and then theres this panel of the knitted con air bunny and its silent. and then he reads roses sentimental note. and its silent. and then he SLAM DUNKS THAT BUNNY BACK IN THE BOX!!! BOO YAH!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess it shows how john buries his feelings. no time to feel good! need to DO SHIT! 2. when john is ectobiologizing. and exploring the lab. its so... desolate. so disconnected. so silent. "A meteor ahead looks unnoticed." its like. it really sets a mood. its really. clinical. vague. abrupt. its SOMETHING. i really like it. especially for john. it fits him

rose and daves alchemizing parties were this session and they were only ok. daves is full of bangers like the brain in a jar and the swords and tuxedos. roses was just ok

[S] WV: Rise up IS SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! COOLEST FLASH EVER! I LOVE THE CARAPACIANS! i love to see his revolution its so awesome. ohh my god. its got beautiful music and beautiful frames its all so good. i love unity and revolution

complacency in the learned was pretty ok. rose is a great writer it sounds like wizardy herbert but more wordy though. which is pretty much what it IS. so whatever

i think thats it. i want to put some panels that i really liked in here cus there were a lot of beautiful ones so here goes. act 4 is so beautiful probably the most beautiful act. ok bye

[the-s1lly-corner]

if its possible to do mutiple fandoms in one request i would love a ben drowned and pomni x mute!reader :3

Ben drowned x mute!reader (platonic!)

Admin isn't comfy writing romance for ben sorry anon <\3

Usually I answer stuff chronologically/in order of the requests being sent but imma cheat so I can answer your question!!

Technically you can request multiple fandoms since I cant stop people; but admin would rather two separate requests being sent in (one for each fandom yk :0?) Just as a personal preference of the admin !! Nothing against you however I highly recommend that you resend in pomnis half of the request so I do not forget :0!

Written on mobile!!

Aaaaand quick warning that this is leaning very heavy on admins take on ben for their au!! Same general character but he is bound to electronics like 3/4 of the time.. silly tech ghost holds (also I just realized this is my first ben request)

Honestly I think at first he might get a little confused or even irritated; not exactly at you but more so because in the beginning you guys are still trying to find a proper way to communicate in an efficient way, you know?

Be it writing, or sign language, its gonna take him a while.. probably taking a little longer to understand sign language

Though, he does have internet access so while he might act like it's not that big of a deal that it's hard, hes doing some personal studying on the time (awww he cares!)

Snatching what I mentioned what I said in the note about ben being mostly confined to an electronic device in my silly brain soup, he might let you use whatever device hes currently hosting

Funny haha thing to push the idea his default in order to be carried around is a phone.. bonus bonus imagine he starts getting annoying or you guys get into an arguement and you just. Turn the phone off. Triple bonus if it's a flip phone and you just shut it while hes mid insult

If that's not funny pretend I didnt say anything ☝️😔

Oh he definitely would surprise you by showing off his ASL (or the corresponding sign language wherever you are since ik american SL and british SL are different... shrugs) and gets all smug when you give him praise

If you guys are ever in a group setting hes going to make sure you dont get ignored; oftentimes being purposefully obnoxious in order to get a hold of everyones attention

Sometimes he teases you (for things aside from you being mute, hes a little shit but not a piece of shit) but will absolutely lose his mind if anyone messes with you, like you're his bro, his bestie, his friend you know

Honestly you guys probably exchange notes back and forth playfully roasting each other I can just see it

Very silly

[fluffbeast7]

NEW HYPERFIXATION!?!??!

AARRGAHSDSDASDAaSD

YOU GUYS HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT THIS SHOW IS DOING TO ME, IASDASD

not only is this the design and characters ive been needing my whole life, this dude- the brazilian portuguese dub is coming out and the voice actor is one of my favorites!! very famous and loved by many, he voiced the characters in portuguese: mickey, buzz lightyear, superman in a few cases, and even mewtwo!

i love a lovable silly fella, despite having no face he is one of the most expressive characters of all! making the jaws move like eyebrows is so smart :D i'd love to know more about him, the silly ai guy (who in theory, is just an ai made for a video game who's supposed to entertain children for a little while, not keep adults sane! <3)

hear me out on gangle, she's adorable! but probably an anime fan, i might wan to look into her internet search history

but fr after i finish my pomni drawing she's NEXT! i cant wait to see who dubs her in portuguese when it comes out, the dubbed pilot only has pomni, jax, caine and ragatha

KINGER, me loves an old man (affectionately), i'm sorry about your wife dude :( love u tho <3, i think we all know he has some deep shit to talk about and maybe he knows something the rast of the cast doesn't

AAASHAHDSSASH THIS LOOKS SO FUN TO DRAW I CANT WAIT TILL I HAVE TIME, i wouldnt for the life of me design this character, SJSDF, they were so sassy in the pilot

BUBBLE IS ME FR SHE IS ME I'M TELLING U, SHE'S ME U DONT EVEN CARE BUT SHE'S MEEEE

i dont even have to tell u what i think about jax, what a sun of a bitch, i love him. classic ''i'm going to annoy everyone because we might as well die at any moment'' energy

anyways, perfect show for me, this is going to be my life for maybe the next 3 years and i'm def crushing on pomni how would i not crush on the clown girl please i want to draw us hugging and having fun, the cringe in me is SPEAKING

[knightobreath]

I am once again reminded you are a real human being

My bad gang I’m sorry

Do not let them get to you

compiling these 3 specifically because theyre all probably about the fact that i said i was tired of getting intentionally trollish asks, so let me explain myself a bit more xP. its a lot because i love to talk

you guys shouldnt be too sorry! i did intentionally encourage these a few times, especially during the #mod 🫒's purgatory thing. because well, as a part of what i do on my blogs and streams I am a clown. i intentionally play as a sort of over-exaggerated feed-the-trolls fool because i think it makes me funnier. but the main issue is that I didn't set a proper boundary between intentionally goofy oliver and genuine human being oliver. This is a direct consequence of having everything be on my personal blog and not relegated to sperate spaces.

the sheer volume of asks ive been getting lately has made keeping up difficult and well. guys im kind of tired of answering nonsense or trollish asks. i'm not witty enough! i'm out of jokes! i've been riffing off of anons every day for like a month! and it is my fault for not just deleting stuff but i do appreciate when you guys want to joke around with me

okay. uh here is the part that is the Straws that Broke the Camel's Back. I can't tell when you guys are joking anymore. I can't gauge how much of the anon "hate" is jokes and how much of it is genuine. I can only tell for sure if it's like my friend saying it. If it isn't clear to me that a friend sent in an ask, it reads as if a stranger sent it. And I can't tell if a stranger is being genuine or not because I don't know you. a key example is the person who said something along the lines of "of course you're a skeleton if you're a vegetarian" which didn't read as a friendly jab but rather a stranger making assumptions about my diet to blame me for my body issues. i assume the anon just saw that those were both things the funny ask answering guy was talking about so they were free game for making fun of. kind of my fault though because as i said, there isnt enough of a boundary between when im being comedic and when i'm being genuine.

so like. tldr in conclusion i love receiving and answering asks and I did sort of have this policy of responding to Every Single One that I just can't do anymore and now I'm suffering from the horrible affliction that is "Bit That's Gone On For Way To Long" with a side effect of not wanting to go back on my word. and now that i actually want to be Real on Main people are going to try and bring it back to jokingly antagonizing me not realizing that it just becomes actual antagonizing when it's not about something i consider a joke. so im just gonna place down some boundaries

streams are a good time to send in silly asks, im in bit mode for that

i also dont take anything seriously on the oscc but please dont bother the other mods about it

im not responding to every ask anymore. Lol. if i cant think of anything funny its going into the void

might also start blocking anons who say shit that is Weird ! no more taking literally everything in good faith

you guys can still send silly asks i just want you to like. roll it back on the whole jokingly being mean to me thing. friends are exempt of course just make it clear that its YOU and not Internet Stranger #66951284

anyways love yall but also i dont know yall. or. most of yall. i accept the anon's apology👍

[rotworld]

Hi there,

I want to rant about fetishes. I know I'm into the more violent stuff, and I'm pretty sure I know why (lifetime of self-hatred and trauma to boot), but recently I've been dabbling in the guro side of things and I feel ... guilty? Ashamed? Also idk how to filter guro so I only see the things that work for *me* (drowning, bruises, beatings) and not the other stuff (dec*pitation, graphic torture). At the same time I cant help but feel like I'm what's wrong with the world. Do you have any advice for me?

pretty heavy talk ahead. i’ll start with the advice and end with a personal anecdote if that’s useful.

i want to start by saying you’re not “what’s with the world.” there are a lot of reasons people seek out gore and graphic content. for some, it’s morbid curiosity and for others there is a fetish component. if you’ve been through something traumatic, i think there’s a draw to view violence from a “safe” distance as a form of catharsis. none of that makes you a bad person. but i also think it can cross very easily into a form of self-harm and become dangerous.

i don’t know you well enough to make assumptions beyond what you mentioned here. if you’re experiencing a lot of distress or discomfort, or feeling more negative about yourself, then you should stop seeking it out completely. it might be something that you view to “punish” yourself, or use to distract from other upsetting thoughts or feelings, especially if it’s something you’re looking for compulsively or extremely frequently. 

i also recommend cutting back on real gore, especially videos, if that’s what you’re looking at. those will desensitize you the more you watch them, and you shouldn’t be desensitized to real human suffering. those people in “infamous gore videos” don’t exist in a vacuum, they’re real people with childhoods and families who went through horrible things, and now it’s on the internet forever. if you’re worried that you’ve already hit that point of extreme numbness and don’t feel what you should or don’t feel anything, you’ll be okay if you stay away from gore for a while. those feelings you thought you lost will come back. when they do, i’d maintain that distance. stick to simulated gore in fictional horror media like movies or games instead.

in the past, when people have approached me about having guilt or shame about their interests, i generally told them not to worry. there’s nothing wrong with having noncon fantasies, or enjoying horror-themed erotica. as long as you’re able to distinguish fantasy from reality and don’t impose those fantasies on people who don’t consent to being involved in them, you’re fine. i stand by all of that. but this is about gore specifically which i feel is a little different. morbid curiosity or interest isn’t unusual but you have to keep it healthy and responsible. even if it’s purely fictional gore that’s giving you this reaction, you should still stop viewing it. it’s not “silly” or “weak” to acknowledge the emotional response you’re getting from something.

now the personal anecdote. i started writing explicit guro in 2016 (shades of it had been in my work before then). i had just graduated, i was feeling really lost, adrift and desperate for community, and i was extremely online. i followed a few people who reblogged real gore and went looking for it outside of tumblr a lot too. i was obsessed. i think i told myself it was “reference” for my work but it had the catharsis and fetish element for me too. these horrible things happened to other people instead of me, i could revel in it safely from a distance. but it wasn’t “safe,” it was harmful. it was so far beyond “curiosity,” it was a fixation and a crutch. i looked at it so much that it stopped feeling real and i forgot that the people in those videos were people at all. it was just a blur of gruesome, awful shit all the time. 

there wasn’t any single thing that made me stop. i think eventually it just wore on me too much. i wasn’t doing any of this stuff in moderation, i was online constantly, i was posting constantly, i was writing intense guro constantly. and there’s nothing wrong with making a lot of dark art, but i wasn’t engaging with any of my other interests or living my life much outside of it. i have boundaries i stick to for myself now. medical resources, roadkill, pictures people share consensually of their own injuries, things i might come across over the course of my normal life are fine. i don’t go looking for anything more extreme than that anymore, and i don’t even go looking for “acceptable things” all that often anymore. that kneejerk “god that’s awful” response that i’d lost is back. some people have a higher tolerance for this stuff than others, but i’m not “some people.” i know myself and i know what kinds of things i can become unhealthily reliant on and why, so now i’m much more careful. you know yourself best and you have to decide that for yourself, too.