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lonelydncers · 3 months
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#cant sleep bc im thinking so many thoughts#hiding in the tags#i think im finally over her?#like today and the last time we hung out i didnt Feel it anymore#and its not like i dont love her anymore i really really do but now its in a best friend way only i think?#the Feeling wasnt there which i guess its a good thing#and like yeah maybe its the depression maybe im just not feeling anything rn but also like#thats why she broke up with me and even when her depression got better she never got back to Feeling it?#and last time My depression was bad i wouldnt feel anything at all except when we hung out#so it feels different now#not necessarily a bad different just Different#but im so fucking scared of losing her#like im so scared of when she starts dating again#and yes ive been thinking of dating again im desperate for a girlfriend#but shes the one who broke up with me and shes had to deal with this before with Him and she didnt feel bad#but when we started dating He felt bad so like. i get him#and im so scared of never getting into a relationship again bc she’ll Always have a part of my heart like even if i dont Feel it anymore#she’ll always be number one for me#and im scared ill never let myself love anyone else bc i wouldnt think its fair to them bc of her#and idk.#i really dont wanna lose her she means so much to me#and im so comfortable around her in a way that im not with anyone else#idk where im going with this#sometimes i really fucking hate being aroace#and not being able to tell the difference between different feelings#:(#whatever
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whatthefuckisasweep · 5 months
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cant sleep … plagued with thoughts.. overstimmed… also starving… time to scroll tumblr till i have to go to class :,((
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poems-of-a-lover · 11 months
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that incredible moment when ur telling someone abt an interest of urs that they dont know abt and they ask u to elaborate on things and stuff so they understand better. i need this.
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8rujaa · 15 days
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my therapist really saved me….
#tw abuse // tw sa#i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this.#like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her#i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling#literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her#i was so dissociated during our first few sessions#thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out#i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking#i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session#she’s truly incredible.#i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’#i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong#and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’#she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be#best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’#i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply#doing what’s best for me was an option… l#ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress#when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength.#yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D#me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress#im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help.#the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened.#my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’#LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said#’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’#she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point#she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help)#im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it#my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.
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alligaytorswamp · 7 months
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Im kind of feeling like i can't take it anymore
#vent#bad sad sleep-deprived and mentally ill#i am currently crying myself to sleep just fucking sobbing because everything hurts#my brain is failing me my body us failing me#i dont know what to do with myself#so many things are happening so many things hurt and i have no body to talk to#i have never felt so utterly alone#i hate myself for even writing this because i feel so pathetic and as if im just whining for attention#because i probably am#some lame ass cry for help because i really don't know how to function at this point#truly i am just so fucking alone#and there is just so much that is happening and i cant share it with anyone so it just all stays in my stupid brain and#probably makes me more mentally ill or smth#and for however long all i do is keep myself from crying during the day bc i cant let my family catch me having mental breakdowns#yet i have all of these painful thoughts that are plaguing my mind all the fucking time#i am just so so tired#and i keep thinking about death and it's so fucking scary#i just wish i wasn't myself and i had a different brain i could be better than this because maybe then i would be fine#at home im in toxic hell#in online spaces i have no one actually close to me#in my brain i have horrible thoughts and hardcore daydreaming distactions that dont fix anything#in my course i think im not doing well enough and im scare dthat my the end of it im still going to be a useless unemployed moron#on my silly blog i think if i dont make content i have no value and ehatever i make is not even that good or interesting#so i better cover it up with quantity but i dont have time or ability to do so#which again makes me into a fucking Nothing#god my head hurts so much#that's what u get for wailing at 4 am#anyways i am doing horrible and i can't take it anymore truly reaching my fucking limit#all my fault tho so ☺#delete later and if someone actually reads it Um sorry for this i am hashtag unwell 😋💫
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pepprs · 2 years
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im discontent and tired but like too discontent and tired to put it into words i think. lol
#purrs#prefacing this as usual by saying that i love my job. but also… every single situation. EVERY situation. is a primal situation in one way. l#like either i am dying of hunger / thirst / sleep deprivation and feeling it so hard i can’t focus on my work or i am so stressed that i am#being chased into a hidey hole by all the pressures or i am projecting my parents onto ppl and reliving primal moments of abaondoment and ex#exclusion LMFAO. And it’s like there’s no wonder i am so fucking exhausted every day when i come home i have lived 746 lifetimes in the last#8-9 hours. but it’s just so insane and im so tired. i literally thought i was gonna have an anxiety attack earlier today and it was bc i had#health anxiety bc my heart was pounding so hard over my facilitation anxiety that i got scared my heart was legitimately going to give out a#and then i started spiralling and like. lol i don’t think that’s healthy. i just want the election to be over so fucking bad but also i cant#just throw up my hands and give up and hope for the best i am literally being paid to give everything i have to making the world better so i#im gonna do it it’s just i am so often like the youngest and least experienced person in the room and im insecure about that and also i am j#just scared like… as a person and it’s just a lot to deal with i guess. lol#guess i was able to put it into words lol. but the moments of me projecting shit are so annoying bc then i get mad and then my feelings get#hurt bc no one notices im mad but also i don’t want anyone to notice im mad bc im being stupid for literaly no reason so. idk im just#ear ripped tated right now over stupid stupid shit that genuinely does not matter and has no bearing but when it’s little things that build#up over the course of the day… idk. it’s just hard 💃🏻#delete later#this is abt smth that happened in a meeting today brw it’s not abt anyone including irls i saw today / this week i love u 😽#also side note i saw literally SO many of the ppl closest to me this week. like that used to be an almost every day occurrence and i think t#this week not only did i see… like not to name drop on my tumblr blog with redacted followers but not only did i see you markya and#david but i saw tirzah AND brandon AND radia. WTF!!!!! that’s so many of my favorite people all in one week!!!! :DDDDDDD#(omg pretend i put ‘you’ after all the ppl it applies to)
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yamikawas · 1 year
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happy valentines day darlingggggggggg!!!!!!!! :3 a little late cuz i may have had to kill someone who had a gift for u but that just means i get to give it to u AND all the gifts i already got for u >:3 i love u soooooo much tobiiiii ur my only valentine and i will make sure im ur only one too no matter the cost heehee~ 💖⚡💖⚡love ya!!!
- yoomtah!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHSHWHDJDHFDFKJSFJBDNCBDKDJFKDJFJDJFNDNNDN YOOMTAH MY DARLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII<3<3<3<33<3<<33<3<3<3<3<3<<3<3<363<2^÷>3<÷&3<÷<3>3<3<3<3233<33<2<3<2<3<3<3<3<2<3<3<3<3<3<3<33³3333333ITS OK IF UR LATE MURDER IS ABSOLUTELY A VALID REASON I THINK THAT JUST MAKES U EVEN CUTER SO<÷<÷<3<33<3<3<<3<33<<33<3<3HEHE I LOVE U TOOOOOOOOOOOOO MORE THAN ANYTHING EVER U WILL ALWAYS BE MY ONE AND ONLY VALENTINE AND I AM SO HAPPY TO BE YOURS
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#IM GONNA EXPLODE I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER#TEEHEE SHE CALLED ME DARLINGGGGGGGGGGG IM HER DARLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<<33<3<333333<3<3<33#I AM STILL SLEEPY BUT THERE IS ALSO INSANE IN MY BRAIN NOW I AM GOING TO MELT#YOOMIE YOOMIE YOOMIE YOOMIEEEEEEEEEEEEE<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<<3<3<33<<3MY BELOVED EVER I LOVE HER SO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#YOOMTAH IF UR READING THIS IM SENDING U SO MANY HUGS AND KISSES AND CUDDLES AND SO SO MUCH LOVE RIGHT NOW I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU#IM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHWHDJDHEJFJFNFNNVJDJFKDJFKDJJFDDFFDJBSJFBFBF YOOMTAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#IDK SHE IS JUST IN MY BRAIN I LOVE HER SO MUCH I CAN NOT STOP THINKING ABT HER OK I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE EVER#AND I WANNA CLING TO HER AND KISS HER AND CUDDLE HER AND TELL HER HOW MUCH I LOVE HER FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER#AND I WANNA MURDER ANYONE WHO GETS TOO CLOSE TO HER BC SHE IS MINE I LITERALLY COULDNT LIVE WITHOUT HER NO ONE ELSE CAN HAVE HER EVER OK#YOOMTAH.MY BELOVED.ONLY MINE.FOREVER<3#AND I AM HERS ONLY HERS FOREVER ALSO<3<3<3#I WOULD LITERALLY DO ANYTHING IF IT MEANT SHE WOULD HOLD ME PROTECTIVELY (READ: POSSESSIVELY) AND TELL ME IM HERS#I JUST<3<<3<3<3<33<3ID DO ANYTHING FOR HER IN GENERAL BUT STILL<÷<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3#ID DO EVEN MORE ANYTHING IF IT MEANT SHE WOULD BE INSANE DERANGED YANDERE ETC FOR ME.OK DOES THAT MAKE SENSE<3#BC I AM INSANE DERANGED YANDERE FOR HER IT IS ONLY FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I NEED MUTUAL OBSESSION OR I WILL DIE#AND WELL.SINCE SHES MURDERING SOMEONE WHO WAS GONNA GIVE ME A VALENTINES GIFT IT SEEMS THAT OBSESSION IS PRETTY MUTUAL EHE<3<3<3#I WONDER WHAT GIFTS SHE WOULD GET ME FOR VALENTINES........ABSURDLY HUGE STUFFED ANIMAL............CUTE CLOTHES MAYBE......................#SWEETS LACED WITH SLEEPING MEDS AND A SOFT PINK ROPE TO TIE ME UP WITH SO I CANT EVER LEAVE HER SIDE......................EHEHE<3<3<3#IM SO NORMAL RIGHT NOW IM HAVING REALLY NORMAL THOUGHTS THAT DO NOT INVOLVE MY GIRLFRIEND KIDNAPPING ME AFFECTIONATELY AT ALL WHATSOEVER#THAT IS A LIE I AM SO INSANE❣⚠️💛💚❤🌠💜💝💕👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🧡🌼✨🌻💙🌩💓💗⚡💌💙💕💝🍋🌩💞💫💞💛💟🌼💘🌈💜💛❤💜💟⚠️❣💞💚🌈🍋💋💝💖🌠💋⚡#IJUST.HHHHDHDJFJJDJFKSJWKDKFKJSJFJFYOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH#NOT TO BE DERANGED BUT SHE SHOULD KEEP ME IN HER ROOM ALL TO HERSELF LOCKED AWAY FROM THE REST OF THE WORLD SO NO ONE ELSE CAN LOOK AT ME#KIDNAPPING IS OK AS LONG AS I GET MY GF SMOTHERING ME IN AFFECTION AT ALL TIMES OUT OF IT IN FACT IT IS EVEN ENCOURAGED<3<3<3#I JST.AAAAAAAAHHHHAHAHAAHHAHAAAAAAAAA AAI AM SO NORMAL I AM SO.NORMAL I LOVE YOOMTAH SO NORMALLY AND NOT IN A DERANGED YANDERE WAY AT ALL#AHAHA.I WANT HER TO TEAR DOWN MY MISSING POSTERS AND HANG THEM ON THE WALLS OF THE ROOM WHERE SHE HAS HER SHRINE FOR ME<3#jadyn dont look#<-i think u still follow this blog so jic bc of the vday topic.I say that as if theyd see this tag either way which they woildnt--
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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years
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#hhhhh tomorrow i have to drive to another uni to build a chamber#this morning i drove like 11min down the road and that was enough to dislodge me halfway outside my body#i just. hate driving so much. its so fucking stressful#and im also worried the chamber isnt gonna come together with what we have#and i dont wanna drive down there again#oh god. i need to chill out so i can sleep tonight#it just stresses me out so much. anytime i have to drive i just become absolutely certain that im gonna get into an accident#or that ill get distracted and cause a crash#why cant we have a working train system in this fucking country. i wanna go back to the uk. where its more manageable to not have a car#when i think abt driving my brain just sends me images of destruction#i also get it to a lesser extent when im a passenger#like i have to sit exactly as ur supposed to in a seat or else i just get horrible imaginings of my limbs being crushed or whatever#god. i just hate it so much. i have a fragile mind. i was not constructed with the mental fortitude to drive#at least i dont get so many intrusive thoughts abt like flipping rhe steering wheel anymore. bc that sucked#hopefully i dont show up in tears but usually i cry at least once when i have to drive someone#so im gonna look unhinged when i drop off all the equipment. whatever ill wear sunglasses#how is it possible some ppl enjoy driving? i dont understand. i dont want that kind of power in my hands#i dont trust myself not to get someone killed. like that's prob my ultimate fear. getting in a crash caused by my brain not being able to#focus and then i kill a happy family of 5 or something and i just have to live with it#it just makes me so upset. which is why ive been avoiding this for literally months.#ugh. whatever i have to do it. and then itll be over. as my mum would say: itll b good for me#i just have to freak out abt it for a while#unrelated
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orcelito · 2 years
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Gearing up for a semi-extensive list of Things To Keep Track Of, complete with a pinned message on my private discord channel
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A list of things I am curious about. Yes I will remember them.
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pizzapizzadickz · 2 years
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#diary#personal#...i think i sorta kinda burnt out again....#haahhh. i hope ill be able to recover in couple days. i have things to do.#god idk what to do when i could just sleep for a year. im so fucking tired.#i cant even talk well. i hope i can after i sleep bc i couldnt bring myself to text ppl earlier.#...i hope i remember tho lmao.#ugh i hope that i can stay in bed all day tomorrow pretty much. idk if i can handle too much more stress#ugh. i rly should figure out how to deal with this. bc everything is far too much lately and i cant do anything.#drugs tw#like. the only time i feel okay is when im high. and even then im not always.#but i think it does take away some of the problems. it takes things down from like an 8 to a 4 or 5 maybe?#and it obliterates pain which is also nice. and it makes me wanna sleep rather than procrastinate it....#haaaaahhh. im just. so fucking tired. always so fucking tired. theres so much to do. so much im not doing#and theres so many doctors and things to see. ugh. honestly if i lived alone i sometimes think id die.#suicidal ideation#like. i didnt mean suicide or anything. but ive thought about it before that if my parents do then maybe i should.#i cant function. and i dont quite know why. even things i do for fun i cant always do.#so idk. im not sure what to do anymore. i just. feel like sometimes i have months or years where i cant do anything#haah and ive tried working before and ill burn out so quickly and i know that.#....i couldnt handle working so id drink every night....#i know the same thing will happen if i have to work. but. how do i get money for the things i need or want otherwise#...im scared. really scared of working. but theres nothing i can do.#i just have to fake it till i make it. and practically run myself into the ground.#tomorrow will be better. ill be okay tomorrow. i wish someone could tell me with certainty that would be the case...#god i wish i wasnt such a fucking burden all the time. i wish i could handle shit. i wish i hadnt become like her...#fuck man. im so sick and tired of this shit. im just exhausted. hah. hopefully tomorrow will be quiet.#i can tell i wont be able to handle anything more going wrong.... fuck
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krashoutluv · 3 months
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GIVE US MORE ABOUT NSFW AL JAYYY PLSSS
HRHSJSGAHS OKOK!!
NSFW Arkham Knight / Ak!Jason Todd !! <3
detailed smut !!
(wet dream, praise, soft sex 2 somewhat rough sex, not super long, , im so obsessed with his brain)
rq are open :3
‘tis under the cut!! :p
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M’SO EXCITED TO WRITE MORE ABT HIM M’SHAKING AND THROWIFN UP
NGL, i think one of the only reason he would come to terms with liking someone is bc he had a wet dream…
listen,, 99% of his dreams are nightmares, and you just changed his fuckin statistics for the possibility to the 1% chance of him coming in his sleep and being able to rest well after.
he has mixed feeling abt this..
on one hand hes like ‘wow cool i get to sleep well,’ but on the other hands hes like staring at his boxers and hes like ‘but at what cost…’
but oh,, he just knew he was fucked when it first happened and he woke up
after many , many years of overthinking, and his mind not being able to shut up … the thing that made his ass get so quiet was a fuckin’ wet dream
uuhhggrr it was such a good one tooo (hes internally cringing so hard)
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ONE hand in his hair, softly rubbing his scalp, the other massaging his shoulder to the base of his neck. Jason has both hands on your hips. Being so gentle yet passionate with each thrust, fighting back the nastiest sounds begging to leave his mouth. So he starts kissing you, open mouth kissing your jaw to just between where your neck and shoulders connect. The noises you start letting out make his breathing stutter for a second. His kissing gets more passionate, soft sucking at your skin, and he’s feverishly rubbing and grabbing at your hips.
The wet sounds of him fucking you get louder. Poor guy is just barely stopping himself from rutting into you. His strokes were slowly getting more rapid but nonetheless coordinated, hitting that spot that had you loudest. Jason was marginally coherent but he’s still trying his hardest to make you feel good. Your body returning the favor by squeezing him so lovingly and he just cant fight back the soft gasps he lets out in between his strokes. The wet sounds, the lewd noises, the details of your body and skin he felt every time he pushed into you. All of this just because of him, just for him? You babble to him how good he was doing, murmuring how good it feels between moans, and it has him gripping your hips.
JASONS rocking himself roughly into you, but its that ever so loving hand, still gently massaging his neck and scalp. That sensation has his eyes rolling to the back of his head. Soft curses leaving his mouth. He buries his face right next to your head and has to grab the bed sheets just for an last attempt to stay composed. But the moaning gets louder, and you don’t stop gently massaging his hair.
So he can’t stop the “mmh, mmh, mmh” ‘s leaving his mouth with every rapid push of himself. He can’t stop the way his hands trail down to your legs to spread you wider for him. Grabbing at your thighs as he fucks himself through.
N’ just as he cums with a breathy gasp, his eyelashes are fluttering and eyes rolling to the back of his head. Letting his body weight press onto you and closing his eyes shut, trying to control his stammered breaths,,
he fuckin’ wakes up..!
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First thought was “what the fuck.”
genuinely startled, he doesn’t freak out bad but he like slowly reaches to touch his pillow.
his mind was so blank, couldn’t tell if it was because of the wet spot on his sweatpants or he was genuinely so stunned.
*hes like scratching his head and looking at his pants.*
hes goes to take a shower and his eyes are so blown out he looks like one of those cat memes
but his mind is soo quiet,,
in my brain at the very back of his mind he’s like ‘whys there so much of it.’ HSIGSISHSISHSIDHS HES COMPLETELY SERIOUS TOO???
he’s taking a shower and his brain, oddly, isn’t foggy, not dissociating, just feels so here.
which is horrible because that means he really has to directly face his feelings
KRILLING MYSELF WHY IS HEART TO HEART PLAYING WHILE I WRITE THIS???
heart to heart, heart to heart, heart to heart <3
Next time he sees you he feels so odd, he knows it a natural thing that can happen.. but it was so
djsksnkdnd
tingling under his skin sensation is yelling at him to leave, and he does.
hes cringing
he likes you…
he cringes harder
ghosts you for awhile
realistically doesn’t want anything like that to happen ANYTIME soon
but is it weird that he kinda wants it to happen at all?
MENTAL GYMNASTICS COMMENCE !!
but when he stops ghosting you for awhile, and comes back to see you still being just as patient as you were every time you saw him before,
arms always open for him, food waiting for him, a sweet smile. and with your own patience, his own patience begins to thin.
Everytime he leaves you its a little harder for him to not come back
that tingly feeling under his skin slowly becomes a craving for just your presence. thats all he wants.
he doesn’t need to fuck you when he just has your eyes on him.
“what you run from is what you end up chasing.”
live footage of arkham knights brain cells falling for u insta reel
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TEEHEE i loved writing this it was so fun, rq/inbox is open !! feedback is always appreciated >:3
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bennitastisch · 2 years
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what does one do when bored ahhhhh
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ickadori · 14 days
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Ahhhhh bae u popped off with the sukuna smut 😭 u returned and with a vengeance bc OMG. My stomach dropped when he said the baby part, and pretending to delete her essay, hes sooooo mean istg i have never been wetter. Im gonna be thinking about THIS sukuna for the next few days bc hes so yummyyyyyyy. The kind of yummy u daydream abt and cant even think of anything bc HOW did u characterize him like that?!?!?! Im obsessed, stuuuupid obsessed with him- also her being yuuji's girl is insane IDC i would fold so bad for him hehsksksk like pretend to be drunk and go into the 'wrong bedroom' and wake him up with the messiest head ughhhhhh
Choso's bbg anon (tho i might have to change my name soon 🤧)
cws for reader being a dirtball (infidelity). dubcon oral (sukuna is sleeping but wakes up and is into it). degradation. brief mention of drugs (weed).
choso bbg anon heyyyu!!!!!! hehe how are you :3 i’m glad you liked that sukuna thing 😭 im trying to get back into the groove of writing before working on the stuff i abandoned iskdkd
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You were drunk, but you weren’t that drunk.
You had been in Yuji and Sukuna’s shared apartment many times, and you had the placed mapped out clearly in your mind. You could navigate it in your dark if needed, and yet you had found yourself in a room staunchly different from your boyfriend’s.
While Yuji’s bedroom was a bit messy, yet still appearing clean, and had posters plastered on his walls that you were slowly convincing him to replace with actual good decorative pieces — it was boyish, full of that boyish charm that had originally drawn you to him in the first place, but this one was more…mature.
The room was dark, a digital clock on the other side of the room offering a dim illumination, but you could make out the black, abstract paintings placed on the walls, the shoes neatly lined on a rack, the absence of clothes scarcely thrown about the room. It was clean, tidy, smelled faintly of cleaning chemicals and strongly of marijuana.
It most certainly was not your boyfriend’s room, and yet you still found yourself shutting the door and creeping towards his bed, plush carpet feeling like heaven underneath your feet, feet that had been confined in heels for the entirety of your girl’s night out.
After five steps your shins hit the bed, and perhaps you’re a bit drunker than you originally thought, because you go tumbling face first into the mattress with a muffled yelp followed by a flurry of giggles as you right yourself.
There’s a large lump underneath the covers, and you begin to feel over it with your hands, lips pursed and head tilted as you try to remember why you had originally come in here. Your mind is a little sloshy thanks to the cocktails your friends had practically dumped down your throat, but you can somewhat remember the tipsy conversation the lot of you had that had prompted your current actions.
It was centered around Sukuna, because of course it was, or more specifically, how fucking hot he was and if he was a good lay or not, their words, not yours. You shouldn’t have paid the conversation any attention with you being Yuji’s girlfriend (you use the term loosely - the both of you had only just started dating) and Sukuna being his brother, but you couldn’t deny that you had wondered the same thing as well.
You had caught a few risqué peeks at what he was hiding underneath his work overalls that were frequently stained with engine oil, and you couldn’t deny that it seemed to be a nice size (him and Yuji had that in common it seemed), but size didn’t always equate to performance, as you had unfortunately learned with past partners.
You come back to the present when you manage to pull Sukuna’s covers off to the side, revealing a nearly naked man underneath. The illumination from the digital clock casts a glow over him, and a pulse starts between your thighs as you taken in the hard earned muscles that’re covered in various tattoos.
You audibly swoon.
Before you can think about the consequences of your actions, both good and bad, your fingers are already tugging at the front of his boxers and pulling down to reveal a thick, erect cock. You let out a shaky breath at the sight. It’s…big. Bigger than Yuji’s by a tad - thick from base to tip. It thuds against his stomach, twitching at the contact, and you shuffle closer, saliva pooling in your mouth as you lower your head.
The scent of his body wash is strong, but you can detect a bit of his natural musk underneath it, the smell growing stronger the closer you get, and you breathe in deep as the heat emanating from his cock warms your lips.
This is bad, terrible even! You think, and yet your tongue still flicks out to lick up the underside of his shaft, lashes fluttering at the taste of him. He shifts a bit but you pay it no attention, lips closing around the thick head and suckling. His pre-cum hits your tastebuds, and you can’t help the moan that you let out, head slowly bobbing as you work more of him into your mouth.
Drool trails down the length of his shaft and wets the pink mess of curls at his groin, and you gag as you take him in further and breathe hard through your nose. Your head pulls back, cock slipping out of your mouth with a wet pop, and there’s not a thought in your mind as you quickly take him back in, tongue lapping at his leaking slit before you’re taking him into your throat.
Your panties become sticky with your slick, and you tightly press your thighs together as your head quickly bobs up and down, cock slipping further and further until your nose is nestled in his pubic hair and your eyes are squeezed shut.
You go to pull back for a much needed breath of air, only for two hands to grab ahold of the sides of your head and keep you in place. A low, tired tsk sounds, and your hole clenches around nothing as you blink your eyes open to just barely make out Sukuna’s face.
“And Yuji liked you so much,” he grinds his hips up into your face, forcing another gag from you, and his legs move so his feet are flat on the bed, hands still keeping you in place. “Even asked me what can kind of promise ring to get you.” His hands move to fist at your hair, and you wince as he pulls your head up, cock slipping from your mouth once again. You whine at the loss. “And look at you - gagging on his brother’s cock. Didn’t even have to ask.”
“Suku—”
“Shut the fuck up and keep your mouth open.” You gasp at his words, and he takes the moment to force himself back in, cockhead plunging in deep and making your hands fly up to grab ahold of muscled thighs. “That idiot always finds the sluttiest girls. The ones that think with their slutty fucking cunts and nothing else.”
His voice is near a growl as he fucks your face, a mixture of drool and pre-cum spilling down your chin as your ‘slutty fucking cunt’ clenches around nothing - oh!
Your lashes flutter shut as your muscles seize up, a muffled moan sounding past the cock lodged down your throat, and Sukuna pauses for a beat.
“Nasty bitch. You just came, didn’t you?” You don’t have the dignity to shake your head, instead squeezing your thighs together tighter as your tongue moves against his length. He grins through a dark laugh as he cants his hips down, tip of his cock nestled between your now swollen lips, before snapping them up.
“Yeah, ‘m gonna have fun with you.”
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omiiomiaaus · 11 months
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im sorry... im not sure if you're accepting requests so i just wanted to give u my thoughts (๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ
imagine toji cant sleep. why? cuz you're sleeping right next to him and he cant keep his eyes off of u. he might be tired but he's watching as your body moves against his as you breathe and the soft feeling of your bare skin as he mindlessly caresses u. hes listening to your soft snores and he smiles at the drool at the corner of ur mouth.
hes truly head over heels 4 u and all he can think about is how grateful he is for u and how much he wants to protect u from all the bad things hes seen in the world cuz ur his sweet girl forever!! <3
thank u for listening 😌
Toji watching you sleep
This is literally the cutest shit ever oh my god I wish he was mineeeeeeee!!!!!
NOT PROOFREADING BC IM LAZYYYY
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Okay so like he’d be tossing and turning until he hears your soft breathing from the other side of the bed. you’re fast asleep probably dreaming about him tbh.
He can’t help but reach over and pull you closer, chest to chest, heart to heart. Your warmth immediately easing his troubled thoughts.
His arms were wrapped firm around your sleeping form. Tired irritated eyes admiring your relaxed expression. He brought his hand to your face, pushing a stray strand of hair from out your face, his fingers ghosting over your cheek.
His fingers were calloused from all the years of having to defend himself with his hands. The same hands that battered and bruised peoples faces were privileged enough to feel your soft untouched skin. Sometimes he felt like his touch wasn’t worthy enough for you. He didn’t want to taint his sweet baby with the hands of someone who’s killed before.
But your love radiated from your heart to his soul, making him selfish, you’re his and he wouldn’t have it any other way.
He’d rather hold you with his corrupted hands than have someone else, someone who could give you a normal life, hold you close like this.
Toji loves to watch you sleep. your beauty never halts for a second, even when you’re blissfully in another world while dreaming. It amazes him more, the fact that you’re unaware of the beauty you possess in such intimate moments like these.
He went from struggling to sleep because of insomnia to willingly depriving his body of rest just to watch you.
To watch the way your chest raises and falls with every deep breathe you take. The way your face twitches, probably a reaction from your dream.
He could watch you all night. He loved you so much he’d whisper it in your ear, gently kissing the top of your head.
The silence brought thoughts into his mind, thoughts of the moments you two shared. Your first kiss, your first date, your first fight. Moments he wouldn’t have wanted to share with anyone else but you. His mind and heart raced a mile per minute. He laid there under your body, hand coming up to rub his face. He looked back down at you, pure love filling his eyes.
His thoughts shifted from questions to statements.
“Does she really want to be with me forever?” “Am I really good enough for her?”
“I’m thinking too much, she’s the one, I’m sure if it, I want her in my life forever.”
Toji was not a man of many words… he kept his thoughts to himself but he’d make it known just how much he loves you. He’d protect you and cherish you for the rest of his life.
“I love you” he whispered into your hair, bringing his arms tighter around your body, stroking your hair. His heart skipped 10 thousand beats when you nuzzled into him like a little cat curling it’s body in its sleep.
It would be early morning by the time he falls alseep, 4am. The birds outside starting to chirp little wake up tunes and his mind would clear, your soft body comforting him. You’re all he needs in life, and he wants to give you the world in return for you just being you.
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Man y/n’s so lucky… 😓 my inbox is open for feedback and thoughts but if you send some requests that’s fine too, I’ll get to them whenever I have time sooo if anyone wants to send me some that would be great cause I want to have more posts :) -Omi
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nr1chaedickrider · 7 months
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'Wicked games'
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i got this idea bc of a sana edit.. god bless that editor
Smut, and maybe a bit angst??
cw: somno, getting drunk (the reader), kinda toxic sana??, virginity getting taken
not proofread bc i am very lazy rn...
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You've been friends with Sana for a long time now. Its weird how you two are friends, she is so popular, everyone loves her while you arent really popular.
She is always the talk of your college, its like in gossip girl, everyone is talking about her almost 24/7.
People are always wondering with who she is. She never told anybody about having a relationship, not even you know.
But maybe its better that you dont know it.
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You walk out of your literature class, talking with your new friend, momo. She just came here recently and you both grew close so fast.
"Hey, how about we go out today? You know, for dinner" momo asked you while smiling.
"So its a date?" you jokingly say.
"If you want it to be" she smiles, kissing your cheek and walking away to her next class.
The girl watching bites her lip. She cant let that happen.
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"And then she asked me out!!! can you believe that???" you said excitedly, sitting on Sana's bed.
"Im happy for you" Sana said, looking at her book.
"But are you sure she is the right one?" She asks, looking up to you since she is sitting on the floor.
"You know, she is new. What if she already does something with someone else? You cant trust her that easily"
You look at Sana confused,
"Come on Sana!!! Let me have so fun!" you look at the clock,
"Anyways, i gotta go, i need to get ready for my date" you say teasingly, taking your things and leaving sana's apartment.
"Oh trust me. You will have fun..." she mumbles while she watches you from her window.
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"And then she brought me home and she kissed me!!!!" you say, smiling like a little child while sana eats next to you in the cafeteria. Clenching her teeth.
"ill be back." she says, standing up and walking away.
You look after her confused, maybe she just needs to do something..
And she does.
She needs to do something against momo.
She needs to have you.
Since she is so popular, people would do anything for her. She can definetly use that, cant she...?
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You sigh as Sana shows you the pictures of a girl kissing momo.
"i thought she liked me" you say as Sana puts away her phone and caresses your back with her hand.
"I told you, dont trust her so easily.." She said, looking at you.
"Come on, dont be so sad. She isnt worth it." She puts her hand on your thigh.
"I feel so bad" you say, sighing again as you lean back and your back hits the bedframe of sanas bed.
"How about we go out? for drinks?" she says, smiling.
Of course, your innocent you doesnt think about the Consequences.
"Sure!"
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You didnt expect it to escalate so fast.
You and Sana went to the bar just around the corner, both of you wearing short and tight dresses.
You could feel some glances on your body, not knowing sana was always looking at you. Basically eyefucking you.
Oh she is so excited to have you later.
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"I love you sana you're the best friend i always needed" you say drunkily, hugging her as sana orders two shots.
She only drank one, while you had too many drinks.
"Come on, last one and then we go" she says, smiling as she hands you the shot glass.
"Cheers!!!" you drink it, it burns in your throat. You both stand up, walking out of the bar after sana paid, walking home to her apartment because she is so nice to let you sleep over.
"that was fun" you say, almost falling on the floor while taking off your shoes.
"it really was.." sana smirks, watching you as she leans against the doorframe of her bedroom.
"i feel so hot.." you say, your hand playing with the zipper of your dress that you can hardly reach.
"need some help?" sana asked. There is no difference if she would take it off now or later in bed right?
"yes please.." you slurr, walking to her. She unzips your dress, slowly, while her hot breath hits your bare neck.
You step out of the dress, taking it and putting it on the chair.
"im tired.." you say, jumping on the bed while only wearing your panties. Your cute panties sana absolutely adores..
"Hope you dont mind"
Of course sana wouldnt mind. she is enjoying this more than anyone.
She takes off her dress and sits down on the bed, only wearing a bra and her underwear.
"so tired..." you say, looking at sana as she smiles at you.
"its so hot in here.." you sigh.
"dont worry, it will go away soon." sana whispers, moving a strand of hair away from your face.
Your eyes close, slowly falling asleep.
"You're only mine.." she whispers as she slowly climbs on top of you.
"It worked.." she lets out a chuckle.
She starts kissing your neck, softly. Leaving a trail of wet kisses.
You make it so easy for her to use you...
She moves down, taking one of your nipples in her mouth as she slowly starts to suck on it.
Groping your other breast while she places her knee inbetween your legs, applying pressure on your core with it.
Soft whimpers leaving your mouth as you're asleep. Its the perfect moment for sana.
Its like a dream come true.
She starts to suck on your other nipple, her hand travels down as she rubs the material of your underwear against your clit. Softly and slowly.
She leaves your erected bud, kissing your neck again. Just now she leaves marks..
She needs to show who you belong to, doesnt she?
Taking of your underwear, she kneels down, her tongue circling on your clit.
Your moans get louder, it could make sana cum untouched.
She puts a finger inside of your hole, its so tight around her finger.
"If i would have a cock.. oh god what i would do to you baby..." she whispers as she continues teasing your clit with her tongue. She adds a finger and she slowly starts thrusting in and out of you.
The air gets thicker. Its silent except the sounds of your moans and the wet sounds of your core...
Sana can feel your body arch,
"You're so close to your first orgasm.. how cute...
come on, cum for me. and only me baby" sana says, even though she knows you cant hear her. It turns her on so much..
She curls her fingers inside of you as you climax. Juices flowing out of your hole as she "drinks" them.
Sana looks down and sees how she came too.
She sits down on the bed, kissing your forehead.
"I cant wait to do this again when you're awake.." she whispers, laying down and falling asleep.
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You wake up to the smell of food. You sit upright, leaning against the doorframe. Rubbing your eyes and stretching yourself.
"ugh my head..." you groan. You stand up, noticing that you dont have a shirt on. You take one as you stand infront of the mirror.
"what are these..." you look at the hickeys, being confused why they are there..
"how did you sleep?" sana asks, smiling as she leans against the door.
"what are these sana?" you say, looking at her very confused.
"i have no idea" she answers, shrugging her shoulders.
"dont worry too much, its normal to forget things when you're drunk. Im sure you're gonna remember what happened soon.."
"or maybe in your case you just dont remember..." sana mumbles while smiling.
"what did you say?"
"nothing. come eat" she walks back to the kitchen.
You sigh, putting on the shirt.
Sana has something to do with it. You know it.
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thatdeadaquarius · 1 year
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Friend. F r I e N d. Your smol brother Razor hcs made my insides flippyflop. I beg, I plead...
My daughter QiQi? Holding onto my sleeve while we go picking herbs so she knows she can get home? Getting her a little bag with a notebook and pen so she always has memory?
SAYING THE LINE FROM WHERE THE WIND LEADS AND ASKING FOR A HUG?!
Scolding Baizhu for letting her go herb picking when he knows she probably won't remember the way home?!?! Because Archons man like NO.
Hello!! Flippyflop??!! Over my writing ??!! 🥺🥺 <3
AND FOR MY NEXT TRICK... WE SHALL DO... THE OTHER CHILD THAT NEEDS A CARING ADULT!!
Also srry im rlly slow getting to yalls asks i promise it will come and i love u all for giving me asks <33
(*´▽)ノ✨️ NOW LETS GO ! ! ✨️
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(Now before yall come at me, I am aware Baizhu does care about her, but BUT, he still is studying her/canonically has ulterior motives, and lets her pick herbs when she may not be able to find her way back, also he doesnt strike me as the type to be super affectionate/parental, as cute as it is to write him that way)
What a b l e s s e d ask, this is so cute i love all the kids in genshin their adorable
So... im kinda a consistent Sagau writer, and i love requests like this! But also, im not sure if u guys want me to still apply Sagau/Isekai setting to these requests on top of what was initially asked??
So i will pretty much always make all requests will be SAGAU/ISEKAI Reader based, UNLESS YOU STATE OTHERWISE IN THE ASK!!
Oh Qiqi, another child product of ✨️traumatic events✨️
(Future me after finishing this: oh god what monster have I unleashed upon the world, upon the sagau tag, upon my innocent followers...)
Damn ur lucky u didnt land in Jueyun Karst or nothin
Or on one of the many mountains/cliffs all over Liyue
Its honestly more a shock u arent on a mountain bc theres so many,,
Ur pretty close to Liyue Harbor luckily, not in town, but sort of at the base of Mt Tianheng by the looks of it, almost behind it
Its about sunset too, WOW
Liyue Harbor is hella bigger than in game, holy fuck its actually a huge port city
Should u go into the city??
Ur not sure, do they speak English??
...Wait u dont got a single mora
U cant even get an inn rn RIP
?? Should u just? Find a cave?? To sleep in??
But what about monsters??!
(Call Xiao? Nah he'd freak tf out on u, Shenhe maybe? She is the only option u can think of that seems like she would possibly take in a random homeless traveler from another world, mostly bc she could beat ur ass no matter what)
So,, Shenhe? Maybe? Ur still not sold on the idea but maybe u could gather something out here to sell on a street corner?? Or to Wanmin maybe for fresh ingredients?
Yeah sure why not,
With that, u just wander around the area, checking out all the plants and animals
The fennec foxes are so adorable
Oh shit some mint and sweet flower, finally
Oh hell yeah a sunsettia, u got food now 💪
U hold onto some of it to sell (including a low violet grass hell yeah)
Crunchin and munchin ur way thru Liyue now, it isnt until u find a particularly wooded area that u hear ur first sign of human life
...
Stand corrected,
Unlife...?
A soft hum, almost a lullaby, comes from Qiqi as she picks up other flowers youve never seen before (ooo new liyue plants)
Should u just leave? She seems busy and u dont wanna distract her bc she might forget to go back to her task..
Wait a minute.
On the other hand,
Now you can finally achieve one of your many goals in Genshin that you couldn't as a player.
Help Qiqi collect herbs and guide her back,
And scold Baizhu. >:)
.
(whats he gonna do?? call the milieth on you??? for some rude person who doesnt like the way he makes a child wander off, who has memory issues and cant find her way back??? thats what you thought)
.
Approaching the tiny zombie girl, you purposely step on a branch to let her know ur there
...she doesn't even flinch, instead she vvveerrryy slooowwwlllyyy lifts her head up from her bent position
Her big doe eyes 🥺
They dont look empty, or dead just kinda dreamy
She tilts her head, the adepti paper covering an eye
Qiqi: "...do I know you? ..you feel... familiar..."
Oh this is crazy, she sounds exactly like in game, but instead of in a screen, her voice is in front of you
You respond "Oh I don't think so?" You introduce yourself,
"Are you alone out here? The sun is setting..."
It didnt strike you until now, but the zombie girl is so... so... tiny
OMGGGG😫💘
I mean, you knew the kids were small, but not 5-6 year old small!!!
Qiqi stands, and you see her holding a basket in the crook of her other arm, full of greenery
(some u recognize like violet grass, horsetails, but others are completely new, wow u gotta wander around Liyue after u find somewhere to sleep tonight to check out how much more fleshed out it is irl...)
The little cryo user is the picture perfect image of sweetness 💝✨️
The paper falls to the side, and both of her gentle pink eyes look up at you (💔)
Qiqi answers slowly, "...I messed up my routine, I forgot to get herbs this morning...so I couldn't make the medicine for today... I'm getting them now instead.."
She turns to the right, then left, and blinks a few times (💔💔💔)
She kinda looks like she forgot the way back,, you figure you might as well ask
"Do you want help getting back to town? The pharmacy right?"
Qiqi looks back at you, and nods, "Okay...thank you..."
And
And!!
She takes YOUR HANNNDDDD 😫😫😫💔💔💔
Her small fingers are cold, and they wrap around only two of your fingers
SOBBING
Trying to hold the squeal inside urself, you turn and begin to walk off together, following the path around Mt. Tianheng into town
HELL YEAH QIQI TIME LETS GOOO
After hearing about your homeless situation, Qiqi and Baizhu offer the guest room for the night, also partially as a thank you for helping Qiqi (thank fuck theyre that nice)
After talking on the way over,
Turns out that Baizhu lives just out of town of Liyue, (not found in the game, was is it with not showing characters houses...) that way he has some greenery around his house, and has a garden out back :D 🌱
Baizhu just gets this strange familiar feeling from you (it almost reminds him of,, seeing a regular customer that has been to see him hundreds of times...) that convinces him to offer you a job at the pharmacy, in exchange for living in the guest room for awhile ! ! WOO
MISSION 1:
FIND SOMEWHERE TO SLEEP + GET A JOB, COMPLETED
Now MISSION 2:
GET MONEY, GET FOOD, SCOLD BAIZHU, LOVE QIQI
Literally on the first day out ur like,, Baizhu.
My boss, my friend, my buddy, my homie, my guyyyyy
U gotta let me go with Qiqi from now on, she will literally get lost hoe. 😐
Tapping ur foot at him and everything,
He's a little intimidated tbh bc ur so upfront about it, and agrees
U lowkey shame his parenting (and he actually feels quilty wow)
WITHIN THE FIRST COUPLE DAYS SHE ALSO SAID THIS!!
"Since we first met, I have had a warm feeling inside. Not the kind of warmth that makes me feel rotten. The other kind of warm. The one that happens inside my heart. Thank you. I am happy. Sadly I only recognize the current you. If I forget you... No. I will order myself to remember you."
AHHHHHHHH PERFECT CHILD <333
(Once again, if u read my Razor post, another person who can't quite articulate what you are as the Creator, but just has a feeling about you that ur cozy and safe :')
SO QIQI CANONICALLY HAS A NOTEBOOK ALREADY!!
(U help her press flowers in it to both leave inside as a pleasent surprise when she forgets about them, and attach some to the front 💖)
And SHE HAS A SCHEDULE.
In the morning, she goes herb picking, then makes medicine, and then does stretches at the end of the day before bed
(At least im pretty sure thats it, it was like 3 things so she could remember easily)
ON LIKE,, THE FIRST FEW DAYS WITH HER, SHE STARTS TO FOLLOW U AROUND MORE AND MORE LIKE A LITTLE DUCKLING
And she even says "...I started memory training exercises recently. So don't worry, I won't forget who you are." 🥲💘
Qiqi seemed excited to tell u all the plants u dont recognize and what they do in medicine,
U mostly think that bc she walked and talked a little faster,
her emotions arent super obvious bc apparently her facial muscles arent super flexible... :/
(she later on after she trusts you more, will sometimes let u rub her little cheeks and massage her face to let her have more range, she looks like a content kitten those times 😭😭)
But when ur not out and about Liyue's nature with Qiqi,
U do little odd jobs around Liyue, like dog walking, delivering peoples' medicine, and u even registered w/the Adventurer's Guild so u could take on small commissions :D
U used ur money to buy ingredients to cook food for urself and the household (bc Baizhu cant make anything besides soup and tea apparantly srsly how is this man alive)
And thru a series of trial and error (and consulting Xiangling..)
U made coconut milk!!! ✨️🥥🥛
Qiqi loved. It. Every. Time.
She's not tall enough to reach the kitchen counters w/o a stool, but she can peek her little head over it and put her fingers on the edge, which she does everytime u make it 😫😫🥺🥺
She has a 6th sense for everytime u make it, no matter where she is in the house/nearby lol
It was also one of the things she wrote down in her notebook that she didnt wanna forget LMAO
Next to a reminder that she knows you + other facts abt u, is "can make coconut milk"
You can bribe her with it too lol
QIQI BEST KITCHEN HELPER
Shes already Baizhu's assistant, so she is great at cutting, chopping, and prepping ingredients
She insists on helping u everytime, she'll even delay her morning routine for u to make breakfast <3
(U also make sure to remind her to eat and hydrate consistently, bc thatd be hard af to keep track of w/ memory issues, i would know 💀)
U also used ur money to buy clothes for urself and her!! <3
Also apparently u still have access to the character menu? And ur inventory?? And quests???
U CAN UPGRADE QIQI
(YESS YESSS- MAKE HER THE STRONGEST CHILD IN THE WORLD, GODLIKE STRENGTH THE IMMORTAL UNDYING QIQI AGENDA HAHAHAHA)
(Her outfits show up in her outfit screen!! theres just kinda a hologram button hovering over her chest at all times..)
She seems rlly fond of upgrading her, her weapon, and artifacts bc she likes to be a stronk 💪girl to protect ppl she loves aw <3
(SHE SAID SHE WAS HAPPY TO BE ABLE TO PROTECT U BETTER THE FIRST TIME U ASCENDED HERRRR 😭💘
She also likes to help u out with commissions too, it brings her some variety in her day that shes become fond of!!
(Shes also become fond of you and all the exciting things ur doing)
AND
Ur quests menu is rlly helpful for you but also her!! U just gently reroute her or remind her everytime she needs it :)
(she has slowly gone from asking you what she forgot/what she was supposed to be doing, to just... LOOKING UP AT YOUUUUU FOR THE ANSWERRRR W/O SAYING ANYTHINGGGGG 💔💔💔💔💔💔)
Bc u got jackshit all else to do in ur freetime, other than exploring, u started picking up some hobbies thatll benefit the both of you!
U bought some fabric and whatnot to make Qiqi a backpack!! So she doesnt have to carry around the herb basket anymore
(the ones being sold were too expensive, and werent quite right for her anyway, but u did stab urself enough times that Baizhu gave u bandages..)
You give it to her on her birthday!! (she also remembered yours!! She gave u herbal medicine and a necklace of gemstones she handmade like noctilous jade and cor lapis cries)
It has lots of pockets, bc Qiqi also likes to get interesting rocks or non-medicinal flowers to give you while yall are outside <3
She loves the backpack, u saw her make the
♡tiniest♡
Smile ever, which made it even cuter to see
(She also just, held it to her chest the whole day 😭)
ALSO BC SHE STRIKES ME AS A SLOW BURN TYPE OF PERSON TO LOVE SOMEONE (idk if u get that feeling but thats what it seems like to me esp with her memory needing time to remember a new person, she apparently canonically cant always remember Baizhu's face??)
SO A RANDOM DAY AFTER ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF, YALL WERE ABOUT TO GO HERB PICKING AGAIN AS USUAL,
WHEN SHE TOOK UR SLEEVE AND JUST,, STAYED THERE THE WHOLE TIME,,
EVEN WHEN SHE WAS HERB PICKING-
🫂🫂🫂
Was that your soul leaving your body? Maybe 🤷‍♂️
But when yall r in a crowd of Liyueans and tourists, she straight up latches onto ur hand like a vice grip
She WILL NOT lose you, and ur holding back just as hard, you WILL NOT lose ur amnesiac child!!!
She likes to come into town with u when u go bc while shes not a fan of crowds, she can deal with them a lot better when ur there 🥺
Plus she wants to be able to look out for you!!
SUCH A SWEETHEARTTT
When u asked why she didnt like crowds the first time yall went SHE SAID
"Some people want to take advantage of me. Others are terrified of me. But you... You are not like any of those people."
QIIIIQQQIIIIIII MY BELOVEDDDD CHILDDDD 🥲🥲🥲😭😭😭😭
(ALL OF THESE ARE CANON VOICELINES BTW EXCEPT FOR YALLS FIRST MEETING AT THE TOP!!!)
Ok so she was already pretty strong before you, but now esp since u started upgrading her-
Qiqi is hella strong and has great stamina
U saw this in action in real time when Hu Tao was strolling down the path near where yall were herb picking off to the side
Hu Tao and Qiqi like... locked eyes-
U were looking down at plants but noticed Qiqi not moving, and looked up to see the most intense staring contest ever LMAO
AND LIKE SOME KIND OF LIKE BIRD OR SQURRIEL WHEN THEY LIKE FREEZE AND THEN BOLT WHEN U ARENT EXPECTING IT THEY ARE OFF LMFAO
QIQI IS RUNNING FOR THE HILLS, ITS LITERALLY INSANE TO WATCH HER BE SO FAST AHSHAKKALDFH
HU TAO IS ALSO FAST BUT LIKE THERES STILL A GOOD AMOUNT OF DISTANCE BETWEEN THEM-
AS U FINALLY GET OVER THE SHOCK, U RUN AFTER THEM LOL
THEY QUICKLY OUT PACE UR SLOW ASS AND UR HUNCHED OVER DYING AND JUST BEFORE THEY GET OUT OF RANGE U HEAR-
"YOU HAVE TO LET ME PUT YOU TO REST, DON'T WORRY YOU'LL LIKE IT DOWN THERE THE DIRT IS NICE AND COLD!!"
AND AN INDIGNANT "No!"
LMAO HU TAO GIVES UP 2 HOURS LATER, AND QIQI WAS LITERALLY RUNNING AND CLIMBING THE WHOLE TIME LMFAO
SO IDK IF YALL SEEN IT BUT THERES A TRAILER OUT ABOUT XIAO i think??
AND AT ONE POINT QIQI CANONICALLY SAYS SHE CARRIED HIM WHEN HE WAS PASSED OUT BACK TO THE PHARMACY 💀
U WERE THERE WHEN YALL FOUND XIAO
it was kinda shocking to finally have ran into him (bc u figured there was no way he would come down to see some rando human, even if u had almond tofu)
AND HE'S PASSED OUT??!!?!?!
Top ten most disturbing images: Xiao face first on the ground, out of it
And while ur like panicking "omfg how tf am i gonna carry this mf all the way back to the pharmacy, omg what happened, oh jesus this is insane its literally XIAO and he's PASSED OUT-"
Qiqi in the background like, "hup"
And just arranges him in a piggyback carry, his legs and arms sticking straight out in front of her, his ass almost touching the GROUNNNDDD😭😭😭
You: *shocked pikachu face meme LMAOOO
I LOVE THAT THIS IS CANON OHMYGODTHIS MIGHT BETHE FUNNIEST SHIT OUT OF GENSHIN LORE/STORY YET
Bonus: Zhongli has been going in-fucking-sane trying to locate where u are lol, Hu Tao literally made him take a few days off bc he was pacing around the harbor so much 😭
He always seems to get to where you are, just as you leave the area (apparently Qiqi's deathlike presence throws off ur very full of life one)
Literally as soon as you landed (woke up?) On Liyue soil, he was hyper aware of you
The other adepti are searching the rest of Liyue just in case ur someone where else
Lol wonder how long it took him to realize u were just workin at Bubu Pharmacy LMAO
Tell me what to write! :) ♡
Reminder: A 100+ Followers celebration POLL!!
HOLY FUCK!!
OML
OMFG
SATAN ON A STICK-
THIS IS SO LONG 😭????? WHAT HAPPENED
THIS THING AS LONG AS A FALL INTO THE ABYSS
HELL-
WHAT THE FUCK
WELL NOW I KNOW WHY IT TOOK ME SO DAMN LONG TO POST ANYTHING FOR A FEW DAYS BC THIS IS A FREAK OF NATURE
I ALREADY MADE THE LAST ONE TOO LONG AND NOW HERE WE ARE CRYING
I hope u enjoyed this fucking monster anon sob-
oh my god im actually shocked you guys, i just scrolled up and down this thing-
I can't even like, flick it once and let it scroll really fast and reach the top u know what i mean?? 😟😰🙂🙃🥲
I just,, i had so many ideas, and as i typed and tried to get them all down i-
uh,, aNyWaY,,, enjoy yalls week guys...😟😃 distantsobbing
Cheers,
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♡ the beloveds ♡
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