#cldnt help myself

[huneingkai]

pose master huening kai!

[nanodisc]

good heavens . gay posting at this hour???

[nosoulsheresorry]

quoting petscop’s “thats a dead kid!” to talk about taylor swift’s ronan is. certainly a decision ive made.

[uwooyoungs]

pls that may have been the most iconic night of my life.... i love my atz so much.... i love how much they celebrated wooyo.... i love how fuckin hard atinys go.... i love how fuckin INSANELY talented they are....

[caruliaa]

girl who almost fucked up an entire friendship: hmm time to do that again with another one i think.

[maguayans]

Ignorance is bliss, my friend. Some doors are better left unopened. | A message (warning) from the owner of Enchanted Heights.

[actualbird]

pardon me! I wanted to try the game tears of thermos, but I’m a little nervous since I don’t play these type of games. Do you have any advice on how to best enjoy myself and invest in its world/characters?

hi anon!!! im so glad you wanna try out tot!!! i do have some tips, but before i go there i must inform you that autocorrect mustve done something to your message because you said tears of thermos and i cldnt rest until i edited a meme of that

sjfhavkkHJVKJHJKSD OKAY ANYWAY, TIPS!!!!

im particularly interested in how you worded this ask!! ive had a lot of people ask me tips on how to start tot (and the relevant ones, i'll link in this ask too) but never on a narrative investment/immersion angle. so my tips for this will be a bit different

but before that, here are my past tips from my tot tips tag

general tips for a newbie (gameplay tips and story tips)

how to "predict" upcoming events

tot stories in chronological order (only updated til july 2022)

now for your question i guess my biggest tip would really just be to treat tears of themis like a visual novel that just so happens to update with more stories.

idk how much of a newbie you are to this genre, but when i got into this game i had NEVER played any other otome before in my life. so it was all new to me!! and i basically treated it like an updating visual novel, this is My Method, and that got me quite invested (as is obvious from my entire blog). so when i say "treat it like a visual novel" i mean:

im personally not particularly a card completionist or a gacha enthusiast. which, hell yeah, this game wont bankrupt me LOL. but also, since cards are the main way where new nxx boy stories are released through, for any card i dont have, i just watch it on youtube. because basically every card, event plot, minigame, etc gets uploaded by someone a little bit after its release. so if youre bummed you missed an event card but you dont really Want the card, you just want its story, just search it on youtube!! search [card name/event name] + [whichever language dub you prefer] + tears of themis and voila! new story for you to read!!!

if you want plot = read Main Story. this is where all the heavy main plot happens and it is SO GRIPPING AND RIVETING.

if you want character development and relationship development between mc and each boy = read Personal Story Bloom Chapter, and then the respective nxx boy's Anniversary 1 card, Personal Story Sweet Chapter 1 and 2, and then the respective nxx boy's Anniversary 2 card. the personal story routes (aka the routes where mc eventually ends up with the boy romantically) are where a BULK of characterization and character development happens, imo

if you want romance and oneshot dates = explore the available cards!!! the tot wiki has an archive of all the available cards per boy on each of the characters' main pages. for example, here's luke's page. scroll down to the cards section and Behold. Luke Stories As Far As The Eye Can See

these pages dont have the story transcribed in them, but theyre great to use as a directory or a map of cards. so if any of the cards catch your eye, then take urself to youtube to find the card and voila (again)! new story for u to experience!

(note: SSRs always have a full 6 act story. SRs either have a 6 act story that is unvoiced, OR 2 voice messages. MRs always have 2 voice messages. R cards have no story and no voice messages)

if you want nxx team dynamics = read and/or play the events!!!! this is my favorite thing, the tot events are a treasure trove of fun cases and awesome team dynamics. in the game itself, some of the big events are available as DLC for anybody to play themselves at any time. to get there, X-NOTE Story -> lower and rightmost button Event -> upper and rightmost button Past.

if theres anything i would reccommend the MOST, itd be to download and pllay the event Mysteries of the Lost Gold. it's so good. it's my favorite event story. trust me on this

i hope these tips can help!!! happy playing :DDD

[nerves-nebula]

GODDD it is actually so nice to see your posts about how splinter and abe are technically the same but the difference you explained are actually so nice to here bc in relation to my own experiences with that typa stuff ive always thought that way about it but cldnt put it into words and its actually so nice seeing that it isnt just a me thing yk

YEAH IDK ITS LIKE. ok its not like a special interest, but I am very sPECIFCALLY INTERESTED IN THOSE KIND OF INTERNAL DISTINCTIONS cause like i feel like it helps to know/think about that kinda thing. to not just consider everyone who does similar bad shit and "evil monster" because that makes it harder to conceptualize people you know as BAD PEOPLE.

cause like most people don't think of themselves as evil or doing bad things. most people justify shit in ways its hard to understand unless you're there for the whole thing. and its just. fascinating to meeee.

abe and splinters actions are very similar, but they arrive at them through very different avenues of thought. and while one of those ways of thoughts comes from Abe being attracted to kids and justifying his relationships with them to himself, the OTHER train of thought comes from a more widespread societal issue about obeying your parents and mimicking their behavior that anyone could potentially fall into. which humanizes the abuser (Splinter) and in turn makes it easier to see people you care about, who you see as PEOPLE, as capable of abuse.

it also helps to differentiate people who have intrusive thoughts or genuine urges and DON'T hurt anyone. like when i was around 13 i was afraid I was a pedophile because of my intrusive thoughts and weird sexual fantasies fueled by my abuse + puberty, but I decided that if I didn't hurt anyone then it wouldn't matter if i was a pedophile or not and that actually helped a lot. like as long as i don't rape anyone then i'm fine, and it's not like i was planning on raping anyone anyway. (I also forced myself to see if I was really, actually attracted to kids, since i was never around them in the first place and i found that no, I was not. so whatever was going on in my head wasn't pedophilia. which then lead me to figure out what intrusive thoughts were)

[love-belle]

my love!! idk if your requests are currently open but i cldnt help myself (i love ur writing sm you have no idea) cld i get a smau w charles x indian!reader? i j need heart-wrenching fluff rn so maybe charles has a french nickname for her and she has a hindi one for him and they say the sweetest things to each other in their respective languages :’)

i love u sm u have no idea thank u so much my angel <3

i really hope u like this <3 it's a bit short so forgive me :///

ishq wala love

[kaleidoscopic-quiddity]

ok wait now i wanna talk abt weird/interesting things from my experience getting top surgery. ive seen other ppl talk abt some of these things b4 but not all of em

i thought my surgeon was gonna do the incision, like, underneath the curve of my tiddies?? he ended up kinda slicing thru the middle of them, so my scars run over the middle of my pecs, not underneath them

speaking of; ig my pecs are more developed than i thought since my chest isnt like perfectly flat but rather both my pecs have a layer of fat/flesh on them and i can feel the muscle underneath

also the dip/space inbetween from when i had tiddies looks p much exactly the same, my surgeon said sometimes it ends up buldging out and a revision is needed but thankfully that didnt happen to me

the discharge nurse let me know afterwards that my tits were 11 kilograms (right 6kg and left 5kg) like no fucking wonder i have back pain at the tender age of 19

so yknow how pain raises ur body temp and makes u sweat?? immediately upon waking up i was so warm and damp i told a nurse id soiled myself and needed a change of underwear, i hadnt! i was just really fucking sweaty lol

i also threw up twice after waking up (fortunately into containers both times), turns out anesthetic doesnt agree w/ me, also it was like a dark bottle green?? since id been fasting from the night b4 ig i was bringing up nothing but bile

pre-surgery they cldnt get the IV in my left hand and had to switch to my right and ig that made my heart rate pick up bc one of the asistants immediately came by my head and talked to me to calm me down, he was rlly nice :)

im p sure i conked out within seconds of them getting the IV in and starting up the anesthetic too, none of that 'count back from 10' shit, i took like 2 and a half deep breathes and was OUT

from a combination of the iodine and natural swelling/bruising my chest looked REALLY yellow for like 3 weeks after surgery

i got sent home the same day i got my surgery, they keep some ppl over night if theres complications but apparantly i was all good to go after resting in the post-op ward for few hours

speaking of, i woke up, puked, got some water, dicked around on tumblr, called my mum, took an 'i lived bitch' selfie, slept for a few hours, woke up, went on tumblr again, got dressed w/ some help from a nurse, pissed (by myself, woo!), and then got discharged

my scars are uneven! my left incision goes further under my armpit than my right one, and my scars vary in thickness, it actually looks kinda like ive got two scars on my left side bc it thins out so much in the middle for a few milimeters

my nipples are also a lil uneven and they ended up puckering up as they healed so i kinda looks like ive always got stiff nips oops, also theyre more brown than pink

apparantly that might be bc they took the nipple graft from my areaola bc they werent able to graft the actual nipple, idk ¯_(ツ)_/¯, obvi it doesnt look perfectly like a cis guy's nipples but i knew the chances of achieving that were relatively small + p dependent on how i healed so like im not too bothered by it

my surgeon used dissolvable stitches and one of em ended up poking out thru my scar a lil b4 it disolved, which was weird

showering w/ a plastic sandwich bag duct taped to ur chest so u dont get ur scars and nips wet is An Experience TM i'll tell u that

my scars stretched!! it happens!! esp if u raise ur arms, which u will inevitably have to do eventually, idk if they'll ever fade on their own or if i'll need scar revision treatment in the future but fortunately they didnt go keloid

my surgeon used what he called crosshatched stitching rather than drains so that saved me a lot of discomfort, i DID get a slight build up of like, i think around 40ish mls of fluid in my left side a few weeks after surgery, but my surgeon dealt w/ it by p much just poking it w/ a syringe and draining it out lol

which i didnt even feel him do at the time bc of the nerve damage lmao, which was weird asf since i could very much SEE him sticking the needle in but couldnt feel it at all

i regained my mobility like, straight away?? my surgeon said bc im young + relatively healthy it was likely that id bounce back from surgery quick but like,, i had none of the exhaustion, pain, or immobility ive seen ppl describe??

i couldnt lift my arms very high for a while obvi but like i was fine dressing myself and even washing my own hair if i just leaned over

having to sleep upright for a few weeks after surgery was v annoying since i usually rotate like a shawarma trying to find a comfy sleeping position

the post-op chest binder was sensory hell bc it was scratchy and it kept slipping down my back since it had no shoulder straps, also i accidentally bruised my ribs a lil bit by wearing it too tight oops, the fuckin relief i felt when they told me i cld stop wearing it

the post-op 'please wear these at all times so u dont get thrombosis' socks were p comfy tho, idk why they didnt cover my toes tho

regaining the sensation around ur scars is weird! my right side's been completely fine but ig bc my left scar is thicker + longer ive been getting some pain n tightness, its not a persistent issue or anything but its just kind weird bc ive never had any surgeries or major injuries to heal from before this one

u will have to get ur boobs felt up and examined probaby multiple times b4 surgery, this will feel very different from touching ur own boobs and, in my case, was ticklish??

my posture has improved somewhat since getting top surgey, what not having 11kg of weight hanging off ur chest and compressing it in towards ur ribs/spine for roughly 9 hours a day will do to a mf ig

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

just did the hardest yoga routine i have accomplished thus far.. i think its been around A month since i first started n i feel rly happy w how its progressing & helping me cope w the drudgery of unemployment. cldnt even bring myself to take a rest day this week its like even if im just doing a low impact lazy routine i still crave that peaceful quiet moment w myself . Confronting my own physical body in a loving way. Its all very new to me!! After i finished toda:y's i was so sweaty i put patchouli lavender oil on my armpits then stepped outside to smoke only to be surprised w a refreshing thunderstorm....Aaahh😌😮‍💨

[taeiun]

IM OBSESSED WAIT ??? u better rig that shit ASAP cause if jae doesn't debut we're gnna hv some issues i fear.. all of their names eat too how are u so good at this im eating ur brain for dessert. u can have some of my nugus if u cant think up any more trainees i have so many unused guys just sitting in the corner IJBOLL 😭😭 boyfailure supergroup lineup has been decided btw !!!!! contains 2 members from algorhythm, 2 from bonsoir, 1 from slow motion, 1 from drift, and a new guy bc i cldnt help myself #iLoveSohee 😢😢 name and general vibes still undecided but i'll stay up tn and #GRIND for them 🕺🙏

LMFAOO jae biased already wowza 😦😦 WATCH YOU SWTICH SIDES SO FAST THOUGH-

might actually take you up on that offer oml... thinking of 4 more trainees is like... hard KJFDHKJFDHG BUT IM SO EXCITED??? NCT WHO?? I ONLY KNOW JJ'S SUPERGROUP Y'ALL SOHEE IS SO FKSJHJKG :(( TO ME

[k-6196]

Umm yeah i grew sick and tired to math so here i am

@madameducyberversailles i cldnt help myself 😭

[seokmatthewz]

cldnt help myself my little man collection needed to remain complete dndmfmfm

[yungstallyns]

KamoChousou ➡️ YungStallyns

Idk man, hand to change to a canon bill and Ted url ive been holding onto since to the 3rd movie came out- cldnt help myself

[ssymphoria]

no one asked for barista!seb doodles but i just cldnt help myself !!