#dang that's a pretty salad

[keeps-ache]

man. wish i had some menudo from the taqueria(1).exe

[karter-xoxoxoxox333]

TWST CHARACTERS REACTING TO LIGMA JOKES!!

POMEFIORE

CW: French, light cursing, pencil as w3apon 😨😨

Epel:

Epel had finally escaped Vil and came to ramshackle for freedom. Knowing in the state it was in currently, Vil would most likely steer clear of entering. He sat with you on the crusty and oddly crunchy ramshackle couch, finally free from the “torture” that was etiquette lessons.

“No no prefect you don’t get it . Do you know how hard it is to be all prim and proper in pomefiore??” He groaned,” all the ‘elbows off the table Epel’ and ‘Epel that’s not the salad fork that’s the fish fork’ What even is a fish fork??? Why do you need more than one fork one fork works just fine!!”

…

..

…

You looked at epel with the most dead serious expression you could muster ,

“Do you know how hard it is to live with ligma Epel? You don’t understand MY pain. So stop complaining 🤧🤧”

“…What’s ligma..?”

You couldn’t break character now, you were too far in..

“Ligma balls”

…

…..

…

As Epel’s expression melted from confusion to disgust to you couldn’t help but start giggling.

“Prefect. what the fuxk”

ROOK:

Today sucked. Legitimately. So you lie your head down, prepared to fall into a lovely sleep. And suddenly you feel a pair of eyes on you.

That’s not cool.

But out of fear you decide not to move, then you hear quiet footsteps coming from behind you.

You have a pencil in hand , and your grip on it tightens.

They get closer and closer and you can almost hear their heartbeat they’re so close. Then you strike..?

Someone grabbed the pencil out of your hand before you could get a good stab in.

“Ah Trickster…tu as blessé mes sentiments!! How could you ever intend to wound a poor hunter such as me?”

You sigh as loud as possible, just to really rub in your annoyance. “Rook you scared the shit out of me. I can’t stand guys with ligma.”

Rook stares at you for a few seconds, and you can’t really tell what he’s thinking until he says,” What might ligma be?”

“Ligma balls”

You , burst out in giggles. Rook however, only lightly chuckles.

“My trickster your humor is as melodic as the sweet singing of a bird,” he pulls out a creepily perfect rose from out of thin air,” Would you care to join me in seeing the film Bofa?”

“Bofa?? What???”

“Both of these nuts in your mouth.”

Your face only expresses pure shock.

He takes a picture.

VIL:

(Odd choice.)

Vil told you to come over so he could do your makeup for some publicity event NRC was doing . So obviously you showed up because let’s be real , you didn’t have a choice.

“Thank you for being punctual prefect.”

“Yeah yeah.. So what do you need me to do?”

He stares at you for a second like you asked the dumbest question he’s ever heard. “I need you to sit.”

You walk over to the vanity seat and sit down (it’s very comfy 😼😼) ,” Dang dang I’m sorry I’m sorry I had too much up dog this morning for breakfast.”

“Potato. Don’t consider me so stupid as to fall for your silly ploys.”

Then he starts doing your makeup, “Vil do you know why I need to go to this event in the first place?? It feels kind of ligma to me.” You ask.

“Potato, the headmaster invited you. So you must go,” he pulls your hair out of your face a bit rougher than needed,”- now quit asking questions and be still you’ll crease the foundation.”

…..

When he finishes you look like you eat 3 healthy meals and day and have your life together, like the embodiment of perfection ,” Thanks vil !! I look so pretty-“ you lift your hand up to touch your face.

..

He smacks it away. “Yes yes I know. Now if you had used the skincare I gave you, you wouldn’t need makeup to look as stunning as you do now.” He grabs for a hair curler.

You never got to make your joke.

[the-daydream-archives]

Behind the Scenes stuff that I made for Simblreen:

So I'm pretty sure I started the Simblreen stuff at the start of September (or was it even earlier than that???) and let's just say that a lot of random stuff went unused. This post is basically a collection of pics and cc that didn't make the cut for the final Simblreen sets. It might be uninteresting to most, so feel free to ignore this post. I just felt like documenting the process and the thought process behind it.

So let's get into the first set that I made, The Crafter's Workshop.

So for its CC, I had a bunch of stuff that I wanted to convert for a long time now from The Base Mesh (If you're starting out and learning to convert, I highly recommend using their meshes), however, I had difficulty choosing which ones to convert into a mouth accessory and that's when I decided I needed an overarching theme for each set. A lot of the stuff that I decided to convert for this set was more for story-telling Simblrs than anything since I wanted it to be useful for Handy Sims and Artsy Sims.

On another note, for this set, there were 2 rejected pieces of CC that didn't make the cut. The first was a lightbulb mouth accessory.

This was one of the oldest WIPs that I have in my WIPs folder. It's dated back to my CrimsonPerfectionist days and to this day, I couldn't get it to work the way I want it to. The first issue was the glass shader... It looked terrible in-game and I have no idea why it looked so odd. Another issue was its emission map. I wanted it to glow like a regular lightbulb but not in a flashy way. I wanted it to have a more of a soft glow similar to Ir7770's halo and wings but I could never seem to figure it out especially since the S4S's tutorial on it was very dated and I had a difficult time understanding it. (Someone please write an updated emission map tutorial please!!!! I really need it! 😭😭😭)

As for the second CC, it was supposed to be A Nails-in-Mouth Accessory. Below is some concept art that I drew so you guys get what I was aiming for. I ended up not making it because one: it was too similar to the Pins one, and second, I wanted to focus this set mainly on conversions instead of making stuff from scratch since I wanted to make sure I had enough time for the other sets to be made.

The photos above were unused and one of them was supposedly going to be the main preview images but I decided against it since both didn't match the vibe that I was looking for. The one that I ended up using was a photo that I took much later which was during The Sweet Cavity Set's creation. While I like the 2 above, I felt that the main preview that I ended up using, matched more with the vibe of the set. (Though I still like these 2 images a lot especially since they were already edited and ready to use.)

Next would be The Fruit Salad, my personal favorite out of all the sets.

The creation for this one mostly went without a hitch. A big shoutout to @merofthefae who asked for a cherry mouth accessory and suggested a couple of more fruit stuff which made the idea for this set come to full fruition Get it??? Heheheheh. There were just a bunch of ideas that I didn't make because I was unsure of the placement of it or the idea only looked good in 2D but not in 3D. The photo below show some of the concepts that went unused.

As for the photos of the previews, it was easy since I knew right from the start which photos I'll end up using. The only thing was that I wish I could have made Cherry (the Fruit Salad Sim model) into a Food Sim since she's just so dang pretty. But to preserve the surprise, I had to refrain from posting her photos before Simblreen.

But Idk, I think I might go ahead and make her into an official food sim since I 'm wayyyy too in love with her despite you guys seeing her already.

Next would be almost everyone's favorite, The Misery Meat.

This set was my own personal headache. The Fruit Salad and The Crafter's Workshop each took about a week to make. The Misery meat however, took 3 PAINFUL WEEKS to make. The first problem was the UV mapping of one particular item.

It was the Isaw.

I mainly made it for my country's representation purposes *cough* I'm Pinoy *cough* and I just learned how to make meshes from curves so I thought it would be a piece of cake. And I was WRONG. SO WRONG. This thing took 3-4 days to make just because of the UV Mapping that I didn't even end up using 😭😭😭 I manually fixed each vertice, hoping it'll look good but the other uv map I made that I did under 10 minutes looked much better than the one I spent 3-4 days on. It was super painful but I wasn't at all done with this set and I realized that I was quickly running out of time.

The main problem for this entire set however, was mainly concepts. It was originally more weirdcore than meatcore at first with Sodikken's style. I wanted to base stuff from their artwork but that didn't end up happening since I couldn't think of concepts that suited the overall theme.

Overall, there were at least 12 concepts for this set that didn't make the cut. I'll only talk about a few of them. The first one would be the Popseecle.

Believe me when I say that this one is the one that makes me the most sad. It looked so nice but because of the glass shaders, it looks terrible in-game and it doesn't look as nice as the concept. I might get back to this one since I love the idea so much but for now into the WIPs folder it stays.

The second one would be the Hands as seen below. I loved this one too but aside from not fitting the theme, somewhere along the way I messed up the UV map which caused the fingers to glitch at their tips. It won't be noticeable in the photo below but in-game it looks really bad since the hands are made of glass.

I'll speedrun these next two. The first one was supposed to be ham, which was similar to the steak but I decided it was too plain. The second was supposed to be ripped skin but when I showed it to a family member, they just told me straight up that it looked like a torn blanket... so I decided to scrap it :D

And below are other concepts that didn't happen.

Also the main preview photo was supposed to be much more "scary" but because you can't really see the mouth accessory because of the lighting, I decided against it.

Also, I decided to tone it down a notch since it feels a bit much.

And lastly, is The Sweet Cavity Set.

I feel bad for this set. It was the most rushed out of all of them and I feel like I could have done the main previews wayy better but since I disliked the color scheme, I ended up rushing it anyway. The name was even changed last minute, it was originally supposed to be called "The Sugar Crash Stash" but it felt too long so I went with Sweet Cavity instead. The only CC concept that I didn't include for this set was the Tube Candy and Rice Crispies.

Not gonna lie, this one was almost done but because I had to edit the texture and mesh to make the texture look better in-game, I basically gave up since I was too exhausted that I quit lol. For the rice crispy, since I'm too tired to draw a visual, just imagine it similar to the chocolate bar except that it's thick. That's pretty much it.

And yeah, basically we're done! Thank you to those who stuck around reading. I hope this was entertaining, reading my thought process for these sets and maybe one day I'll come back to these ideas. But for now, I'm gonna rest from CC making and just lie down on a corner somewhere.

Thank you once more if you made it this far! 💖💖💖

[running2reanimation]

Anniversary

Grief is love with nowhere to go.

King was awake in the dark, a very large part of his life, it seemed, was him lying awake in the dark. There was something that clenched his heart until it ached this morning, something he couldn’t shake as he laid in bed.

It was both shocking and perfectly understandable. Previous years he had been too… busy to try and process it.

He’d hadn’t even gotten out of bed yet and the weight of the day was too much.

Purple would understand if he didn’t get around to making breakfast. He knew what today was. King didn’t know how, he hadn’t told Purple the date.

He was torn between wanting to wallow in his grief, just let himself hurt and let his heart bleed tears on the pillows. And the familiar drive to ignore it, to keep moving forward, to treat the day like any other.

He got up, heading to the kitchen to start making coffee before pulling up short. He was going to go to the corner store for coffee. He was sure if Aqua was at work she might like the company… she had lost him too, after all.

He packed up a little bag of the pumpkin chocolate chip cookies he’d made the other day and set out into the dark.

It was a quiet walk, the sky not even bright enough to trigger the morning birdsong yet. He stared down the road to the cemetery… maybe today he could find the strength to visit.

But first coffee and Aqua.

He swung the door open and he could tell the difference between her usual greeting and today’s and he wondered if he was as obvious as she was.

“I wasn’t sure if I’d see you this morning, y’know with everything…”

King couldn’t get his his words to come out, so he just held out the bag of cookies which she gladly took.

“Ooh, pumpkin chocolate chip, not my favourite but pretty dang close,” Aqua smiled, turning away to start the coffee machine, “The usual, I assume?”

“Mm,” King nodded an affirmative and Aqua got to work. While the coffee brewed, they simply sat in silence, normally they shared a little gossip about recent happenings, but it seemed wrong to do the usual today.

Today was not just any day after all.

She handed him the hot coffee, and he took it to the coffee station to fill the cup with too much sugar.

Coming out here was a mistake. He wasn’t being very good company for Aqua at all. He hadn’t even said a word to her. He’d probably only reminded her her of what they’d both lost.

“Have a… nice day, Mr. King.”

The coffee burned his tongue and throat as he walked back out, he couldn’t even taste the sugar in it.

—

By the time Purple was up, King had long since finished his coffee. King had even made breakfast, just some fruit salad and toast.

“Oh thanks,” Purple sat down to eat, watching King as the older stick laid draped across the table, clearly in his own mind, “You can go back to bed if you want, y’know.”

“I might,” King conceded, raising himself from his seat and slouching his way back to his bedroom.

—

He woke, the roaring of the vortex echoing in his mind. He clung to the blankets as if they were his son’s hand, the sobs tearing their way out of his chest, leaving him breathless.

It had been a long time now since he’d had a nightmare that intense, but it was to be expected today.

He lurched out of bed, trudging to the dining room. There was a note on the table:

“Hey Baba, I went out for a bit, there’s tomato soup in the pot on the stove and a grilled cheese sandwich in the toaster oven. I’ll be back in time for supper, don’t make anything, I’ll pick something up on the way home.”

King warmed up the lunch Purple had left him, sore heart full of love for the boy. Purple was too good to him.

—

After eating and doing the dishes he left Purple a note of his own: “Gone to the cemetery.”

—

It was a warm walk, in the afternoon summer sun, but King didn’t mind. He’d take this over the stifling heat of the Nether.

He stepped into the cemetery and realized he hadn’t been here since the service. But he knew his way easily, since Gold and his mother’s graves were side by side.

And Gold’s grave was covered in flowers, mostly marigolds like the ones King had brought, but among them was one sunflower. Aqua must’ve dropped that off after her shift.

“Look at how many people miss you, Gold. Could you even imagine getting this many flowers? Where would I put them all if I had to take them home?” King allowed himself a watery laugh as he set down his own offering.

“Thank you for… for having been here. For bringing your sunshine into my life. I miss your smile, even if I can still see it in my pictures. I miss your ability to find the good in anything.”

“I hope you knew how much I loved you, how much I still love you and how proud of you I was. You were… you were a good kid.”

It was too hard to keep talking, his eyes were burning and his face was wet. He laid his hand on the headstone and tried to breath through the lump in his throat.

And as much as this hurt, it was better than the anger he’d known previously.

As tempting as it was to stay here surrounded by the memories of others, to drown in the flower petals and grief, he had someone back home waiting for him.

Living.

[soldiersam]

@clay-the-watchdog

(prev) Clay sighed as they sat down and sank their head onto table. Clay responded to Thomas' concern with a flat and annoyed "No." Great, Clay thought. Now he made himself look even more stupid and pathetic in front of someone he was getting to know pretty dang well. No wonder why he was so awful at keeping friends in the first place..

Thomas frowned at his downtrodden buddy. Something obviously did happen, but he was hesitant to ask further about it because Clay sounded pretty annoyed. 

Thomas looked at the concessions again, ready to go over and get something for Clay himself, but the lines were starting to get longer and noisier now that it was reaching noon. There was no way he’d come back in time.

“I don’t want you to be hungry…” Thomas quietly said. He spoke up a bit more to ask “...Do you like croutons?”

He placed a packet of them on the table. “I-it’s not much, but it’s a little snack at least. I don’t like them. I always pocket them if they come with my salad to try to give them to someone else.”

[mamadoc]

4, 7, 8, 13, 18, 26 for the ask game!

Did you just pull random numbers? Some of these are strange questions, but here is goes.

4. What is a language you'd like to learn?

I speak Korean and French pretty well, a little Spanish and a little Japanese and a little German. But I've always wanted to be truly fluent in another language. I've dreamt in French and in Korean, which I considered a mark of greater fluency if my unconscious mind could make sense of another language. But I don't use either of them at this point in my life, so my fluency has waned.

7. Show us some rocks!

This is an image from Travelocity, but it's from Carmel-by-the-Sea, California where I was a couple weeks ago. This is the famous Pebble Beach tree.

8 - What's your favorite way to eat a potato?

If I'm being healthy, then roasted with olive oil, garlic, and rosemary. If I'm not caring about being healthy, then my grandpa's recipe for cheesy potatoes that probably have more calories than one should consume in a day.

13- Talk about a scent.

Oooookay. I have a favorite flower in my garden called a eternal fragrance daphne. Every evening while it's blooming, it lets out a puff of the most amazing fragrance. It's a very tropical scent - like a plumeria.

18 - Share with us a recipe

Chick-fil-A Nuggets (Copycat) Recipe - Dinner, then Dessert (dinnerthendessert.com)

My kids LOVE these nuggets more than the ones at Chick-Fil-A. I made a batch tonight with 5 lbs of chicken that will feed my family for about 3 other meals this week that we can do quickly before various baseball games and track meets and piano lessons and other practices. Pop 'em in the air fryer and they're perfect again in a few minutes. Put a few on some lettuce with cukes and tomatoes for a yummy salad in a few minutes. It's a winner.

26 - Favorite meme

I've never understood the idiom 'He's got balls.' Testicles are weak. They can barely be touched without their owner folding in half in pain. You want to know tough? Grow a pair of ovaries, not balls. Ovaries are dang tough.

Thanks for asking.

Ask game

[i-can-even-burn-salad]

Happy birthday!!!

I can´t even.

Kate, I love you.

Transcript below the cut, and I love you for that, too 🥹

Image 1:

Cedric’s New Globe. A BAD STICK FIGURE book by Little Peril Stories based on Nuisance by i-can-even-burn-salad

Image 2:

The text reads: Merridy and Cedric were good friends. One day, Merridy decided to do something nice for Cedric. A brown, wooden sign with a nail in each corner reads Cedric’s Fabulous Antiques. Next to it are two stick figures, one with a brown ponytail (Merridy) and one with blond hair, a beard, and a cane (Cedric).

Image 3:

The text reads: ‘I know!’ she thought. ‘I’ll get him a lovely gift.’ She decided to get him a pretty crystal globe. In the image, stick-figure Merridy holds a beige satchel. A blue thought bubble over her head contains a lightbulb. A black dotted-line arrow points to a globe surrounded by purple arrows. A yellow, jagged bubble contains the words A CRYSTAL GLOBE!

Image 4:

The text reads: Getting the globe was hard work. Merridy had to be VERY stealthy and VERY quiet. Stick-figure Merridy, from the bottom of the page, looks up at a house with a blue thought bubble that reads, Huh. The house is brown with a red door, a brown chimney, and a brick turret. It is behind a barbed wire fence. Next to the house floats a globe. Next to it is a price tag that reads, RETAIL PRICE: HECKIN’ EXPENSIVE. A dotted-line arrow connects the price tag to the globe. Another arrow connects the globe to the house, with a label that reads in here. A third dotted line pointing at the fence reads, yes, that’s barbed wire.

Image 5:

The text reads, Her hard work paid off. She got the globe! Bringing it back to Cedric was not easy, though. Stick-figure Merridy holds the beige satchel and the globe. A dotted-line arrow connected the globe to the satchel is labelled with the word, yoink! A blue thought bubble above stick figure Merridy’s head reads, SUCCESS! A box at the bottom of the page reads, THE G.O.A.T. It is connected to the stick figure with a dotted line arrow.

Image 6:

The text reads, She met a guard dog. She climbed a barbed wire fence. Below the first sentence, stick-figure Merridy runs holding her satchel, which is drawn horizontally and followed by straight lines to indicate speed and movement. A blue thought bubble above her head reads, Dang it dang it DANG IT! Below stick-figure Merridy is a grey stick-figure dog. A speech bubble over the dog’s head reads, Woof! Above the second sentence, stick figure Merridy, still holding the beige satchel, is drawn upside down with her legs over head to indicate that she is vaulting over the barbed wire fence. A blue thought bubble over her head reads, This hurts. Like, a lot. A dotted-line arrow pointing to the fence reads, very sharp. Stick-figure Merridy is surrounded by words indicating pain: Ouch. Ow. Owie. Omg. Ouchie. Ow. Ow. Owie. Omfg.

Image 7:

The text reads: Cedric was astonished when Merridy brought him his new globe. “Thank you for my gift,” he said. “But I’m just glad you are okay!” In the centre of the page, stick-figure Cedric, holding his cane, faces stick-figure Merridy. The globe, surrounded by purple arrows, is in between them. Stick-figure Cedric has his mouth open in an O shape in surprise. Merry has her arms extended toward Cedric and the globe. A purple thought bubble coming from Cedric’s head contains a bold, black exclamation point, while a purple speech bubble beside Cedric’s head reads, Uuuh… A blue speech bubble next to Merridy’s head reads, I got you something. Behind the Merridy stick figure are 5 bright red teardrop shapes and 6 bright red shoeprints. The red is indicative of blood. On the far right edge of the page is a yellow sign that reads, YEAH IT’S WHAT YOU THINK IT IS. Two dotted-line arrows connect the sign to the blood drops and the bloody shoeprints.

Image 8:

A brown, wooden sign with nails in all four corners reads, the end.

[juicezone]

1, 7, 8, 37, C, D?

1: What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do? Ward can sit still for like.. five or ten minutes unless he's super focused on his work, and half the time he works standing anyway (in which case thats.. not nothing to do so Cooper can sit still for a decent while! He used to pride himself on sitting so quietly people forgot he was there when they were younger and he's not very successful in breaking that habit. probably around the 20-30 minute mark Rory can definitely sit still for a long time, and usually cherishes the chance to because he's so busy on the farm. WILL probably fall asleep though! Sometimes just zones out, especially after a long day or if hanging out with farm babies

7: What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling? Ward: listening to rain on umbrellas and weather reports specifically for his hometown! Also, kids science cartoons. Yeah, he likes the feeling of nostalgia, though mostly when he's not regressed (when he's little, he's too active to sit and appreciate nostalgia lol) Cooper: Books about ducklings + rubber duckies, gumballs (esp the like 25 cent ones), and sleeping bags! They don't dislike the feeling of nostalgia, but they can only take so much before it starts bringing him down Rory: Juice boxes! Fruit salad skewers, and blowing on dandelions. Not too bothered either way about nostalgia, honestly

8: What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child Ward: START READING. if it wasnt a science related book, ward could not care less about it. genuinely, English classes were a misery for all parties involved! Stop going outside without a raincoat, and dang it, stop going outside in the middle of huge storms! Cooper: Would get told he needed to start speaking up for himself if he wanted things, and then would get told to stop being so demanding :/ "You need to start letting your siblings play with you!" "If you dont want them to touch your things, you need to stop leaving them out" <- older sibling never wins moments Rory: Please stop falling asleep in the sheep pen, we cannot find you. PLEASE. (POV: you are capri and you cant find your regressor in the sheep herd and the sheep totally know and wont help you)

37: Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)?  Ward: Does not even bother, honestly. Basic memorization and simple frequency of usage is enough for him! ( but he's the kind of person to ask why you have color coded folders). Otherwise his work organization is entirely just.. related to the topic lol. Weather science - Non-weather science, but no fancy tricks! Cooper: Is the sort of person to mumble "Righty tighty, left loosey" under their breath! More likely to use anagrams, prefers things reasonably color coded (red engineering/security, blue science/medical, gold command). is the type to get stressed by trying to create ways to remember that are too specific, so they end up getting stress Rory: Color coding, usually! Nothing super complex, he doesnt have a lot he really needs to specifically remember

C) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story? <- not at all embarrassed to admit my (agere) ocs are pretty much self indulgent first, story second D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look? Definitely edited for rory! At first he was more human and like. with horns and non-human ears and then i went "hmmm. you know what? lets have more fun with that" (also lowkey embarrassing bc i used to specifically try and like.. idk simplify? baby-fy? whatever my art style instead of just like. drawing like usual lol

[tuliptiger]

I just utilized three medium sized beets from leaf to root with like less than 1% food waste and I'm feeling pretty dang spectacular. It's a really nice feeling to be eating something that you're enjoying and knowing that it's doing you well and it didn't take a million years to prepare or fix. It's also nice to know that my efforts of trying to eat better are going well and going a little bit easier than I thought it would.

I made quick chips out of the leaves but you can also put them in a salad and eat them like kale. I boiled the beets with no seasonings or anything and it's so incredibly good, it has so much natural sugar in it just in the root that it was like perfect. And I am currently pickling the stems of the leaves. I don't know how that will turn out because I don't know if I like homemade quick pickle things but we'll find out!

[eglectic]

November 27 — According to Plan

Current weight: 194.1

This is exciting! I’m totally on a roll. Losing weight while also working out and eating healthy, but not overeating is pretty cool. I feel strong, yet light.

Sunday, November 27:

Cold brew in the morning

Breakfast — 1/2 of a chicken Cobb salad (no croutons! Forgot to mention that yesterday)

Iced coffee with coconut milk at the start of my shift

Lunch — Jalapeño poppers: jalapeños with pimento cheese and bacon bits. So yummy!

Dinner — 1/2 of a Greek salad with blackened salmon, 63 hazelnuts (3 servings, I looked at the nutrition label and decided to actually count how many I’m having)

Today I ate absolutely everything according to plan. I was comfortably satiated after the morning salad, and I knew when I planned my food last night that I probably won’t get to feel hungry today after breakfast. And that’s alright!

Another aspect of this program is getting comfortable with hunger and not treating it like an emergency. Especially after cutting out sugar and flour, we become fat adapted and our energy levels become more stable. So if I do get hungry, my body dines in and starts burning the stored fat I’ve been carrying around.

My main issue with this is that I get impatient and bored. Sometimes it takes so dang long for me to even feel any hunger! That’s been the most surprising aspect of this process for me. And yet, learning to be present with the boredom and all the thoughts and feelings that come up is the key to getting and maintaining my results.

I lovingly planned to be less hungry today and I’ll probably plan a lighter day of eating tomorrow. I also want to do a 24 hour fast within the next few days. I just want to time it in a way so that none of my food expires and goes to waste. Another thing I want to focus on more is getting enough sleep. It’s very important to well-being. I track it on my Fitbit and I rarely get 7 hours of sleep in a night. As much as I resent it right now, I’m going to incorporate more naps into my schedule. We make way better decisions when we’re well rested, and that’s when the body does its healing and recovery.

[haydeniwillnameher]

Alright, alright - finally starting to potentially see some followers here! This is quite encouraging.

I would like to start off by saying that I am so dang proud of myself! I haven't eaten the entire day today except for some pumpkin spice coffee with oat milk creamer this morning and then Gerber teether chews which I just had now. We ordered lunch at work today because someone new started in my office, and I only ordered a salad with no dressing. I only at the lettuce and tomatoes. This was in front of everyone too, so it made me feel so empowered and special when my friend sitting next to me said "are you not hungry today?" I wish I could've turned to her and said "I will never be hungry again," but I want to show people how different I am being proana by example, and not by words. You guys have no fricking idea how proud I am of myself for this. I will say, the urge to eat did get a little bit stronger as I was driving home; my head began to hurt, and I started to get pretty damn conscious of how hungry my tummy was. But after those Gerber teether chewy things, I am all set to go and the craving has passed.

At this point, I am pretty nervous to completely give myself over to Ana. I want to be different. I want people to worry about me. I want my old boss and Brian to see me when I am super pretty and skinny and say "hmm, I guess I was wrong about her; she really is wonderful." But at the same time, I am worried of what this mindset will do to me going forward. I don't really want to be any less than 85 pounds at this point - and boy, do we have a long way to go considering I am about 140 pounds right now....so embarrassing.

I like using this Tumblr as sort of diary, because it allows me to get all the words out that I want to that I can't really say to anyone else. It just makes me think of Ellen from "To the Bone" when she is sitting in family therapy, and whispers "tumblr" under her breath when her mom and stepmom are arguing about her blog that she had to take down. Oh....the money I'd give to look like Ellen and Emma Chota!!

Anyway, I may or may not try to go for a quick little walk/jog...it is officially cold season and it's windy and rainy.

[nancypullen]

De Fence

We did it! It’s finished! The weather was perfect and Pullen Construction got it done.  Okay, it was hardly a construction job, but it was quite a project.  But it’s finished and it’s pretty.  Pretty is important to me.  I can’t wait to do a little landscaping to dress it up.  

The mister did a wonderful job and I was a capable assistant.  We managed to mark spots for sinking posts and find every rock hard tree root at the same time.  Six inches left or right, no roots, but the spot where the post needed to go - petrified wood.  Still we persevered and got it done. 

Here’s droopy drawers at the beginning.

and here he is when we finished!

Isn’t it just the cutest little fence you’ve ever seen?

The yard slopes down toward the neighbor’s property line and thanks to his math-capable brain we kept it all even and not one bit wonky.  I’m amazed when stuff works. Those lovely shade trees back there actually belong to the town of Denton, though they’re happy for us to trim and pick up after them.  Inside the fence we’ll have our two Jane Magnolias and we’re considering a Dogwood way down at the right end of the fence.  We’ll see.  By the time I’m drawing Social Security it’s going to be gorgeous back there. I’m tempted to put some Lady Banks roses back there, but I really don’t want anything climbing on that fence that will look scraggly in the winter.  I may just plug in some pretty bunches of Black-eyed Susans.  That’s a start. That’s also the state flower of Maryland, so surely it would thrive.  I can’t help but think a pretty hydrangea would do well in that dappled light.  Hmmm.  I’ll probably peck away at it this summer, finding plants on the orphan table at Lowe’s.  It’ll happen. In other news, my dang Kentucky Derby pick has scratched!  Glad I hadn’t placed my bet already. Honestly, I think it was the universe nudging me to look deeper.  You guys, I always look for a gray horse.  If that doesn’t pan out, I look for a jockey in pink silks.  This year there’s a gray horse whose jockey is wearing pink.  Did the stars align for me? Maybe. I’ve placed my bet on Tapit Trice to win.  Cross your fingers. I’m due.  Mama needs to buy plants. I’m off to soak my weary bones and head for bed.  IT’s about to get really busy around here.  I need to make a grocery run because the Edgewater gang is coming for the weekend.  Originally they’d planned to come out so that Tyler could help Mickey get the fence up.  But I opened my big mouth and asked my husband, “Couldn’t the two of us do it?”  I really regretted that after he hit my toe with the post pounder thing.  So now they can come and just relax.  I never know what to cook when they’re here.  You’d think someone who enjoys cooking would just whip stuff out, but Jamie is a much better cook than I am and they eat amazing dinners all the time.  I look at my tried and true stuff and it seems pretty boring.  I’ll probably do a sheet pan supper one night - kielbasa sausage, taters, green beans, and a side of corn muffins.  For Derby Day I‘ll just make pulled pork in the slow cooker.  Add some good buns, maybe broccoli salad (should I do baked beans?) and a dessert, and we’re good.   Do you have a favorite recipe that feeds a crowd and is semi-healthy?  If so, send it to me! 

Okie dokie, I’m out.  If you need me I’ll be in a bubble bath. I hope things went your way today, if not, I hope it wasn’t too bad.  Have a cookie, watch a sweet show, paint your nails, read a good book.  Little things can turn a day around. Sending out loads of love.  Stay safe, stay well. XOXO - Nancy

[bobbinacrosstheequator]

March 20, 2023 Floreana

It was a sleep-in kind of day – well, relatively speaking. And a bonus this morning? Knowing that on a Monday morning, we’re not in civilization, not getting ready for work, not thinking about everything that needs to be accomplished in the week ahead! Sebbie awoke naturally around 6, spent a bit of time looking (remember, without WiFi!) for addresses on her phone (more to come on this), then one deck up to get coffee. Ahhhh. Jillebob was up shortly after and with the easy prep for our morning, we headed to breakfast. French toast, eggs to order, bread basket, fresh fruit, more coffee (!), some luscious juice (not too sweet – yay). Back to the room to collect our gear and it was up to the deck to meet for our morning adventure. On arrival at a beautiful, deserted beach – save for the iguanas marching across – we wandered on a path back into the bushes to the “post office.” As per century-long, seafaring tradition, we left a few postcards (Jillebob for niece and nephews, Sebbie for great nephews) sans stamps. In the spirit of history and tradition, we took a few left there before us to hand deliver to people in the DC area (and for Jillebob also NJ and MV). Will be interested to see if those we wrote are hand-delivered in the next few months.

We set out snorkeling from the beach, with instructions on what direction to go (hugging the rocks for best viewing) and the marker that indicated where we were to turn back. Surprisingly, the water felt slightly cooler than yesterday (no whining allowed; it was still glorious). The fish were not quite as colorful and plentiful as yesterday, but still we saw a bunch. In lieu of sea lions, today, our highlight was a pretty dang large sea turtle peaking out of a nook along the lava shore. With quite good results, Jillebob tried her hand at underwater photography with a water-proof iPhone case – National Geographic here she comes!

After a short wander along the beach, we loaded into the pangas and back to the Passion. We took quick showers, then to the upper lounge to blog and chat with fellow travelers. Lunch was yummy – sauce options for spaghetti, salad, garlic bread and a refreshing custard for desert.

An afternoon to relax, but not without wildlife. We had navigation all afternoon to be positioned for tomorrow’s activities. We were hanging in the upper lounge and all of a sudden the boat was turning – no good reason when well away from any islands. But Captain Omar spotted some dolphins and set out to chase them. Dolphins are always graceful to watch, but when there are hundreds (!), some leaping full-out of the water, more traveling along aside the boat, and others seemingly jumping randomly in groups, it’s a sight to behold. The fact that the crew came out on deck to take photos is an indication that it couldn’t have been a better show!

In the late afternoon, others joined us in the upper lounge, hung out, read and chatted. We enjoyed a lovely sunset behind us with Alicia. Before dinner, Carolina gave a talk about the geology, and how the islands were formed by shifting plates and periodic volcanos. The big reveal of tomorrow’s activities then dinner, once again delish, followed by some time in the upper lounge. It was early to bed – even after a “light” day of activity.

[myster-tea]

YES HES YASSIFIED AGAIN LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

GO AWAY ANGRY MAGIC LADY STOP BEIN HOMOPHOBIC-

OMG HER BESTIE

SISTER?????

IG SLAY AND OWN UP TO YOUR MISTAKES???

TBH I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU SISTERS I JUST CARE ABOUT THE GAY PRINCES-

(ALSO THAT SIREN WAS PRETTY I WOULD HAVE BEEN DROWNED BY HER-)

WHY IS EVERYONE’S VOICES SO P R E T T Y-

JOANNNNNNNNNNN YESSSSSSSSS SLAYYY

MHM SUREEEEEEE SURE YOU WERE ACTING-

porridgegorawr

I hate Percy sm

That cake would suck- my guy, you cant bake I already know-

Every time they say Malkia or whatever her name was all I hear is IKEA-

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH- MMMMM THEY ARE SO CUTE-

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS THEM THEY BOIS YES YES YES YES YES

At this point I may be able to memorize the credits-

MORE CHAOS???-

I wanna pet the dog- and the dragon

✨Musical✨

HE SOUNDED SO HAPPY WHEN HE SAID AMIR IS BACK-

I need to draw them-

Wait- DID HE MAKE PANCAKES???? AWWW-

I think something is going to happen-

“Tragedy, is for single people!! :D”

“Spoon is to death”

“We do have some very suspicious salad forks 😒”

SUUURE IT WAS A SMALL MISUNDERSTANDING-

Mm porridge will get some chopped fingers

A pan queen? Slay ig????

“It’s JOAN >:/“

Oop-

Joan be tellin the truth-

I mean you are awesome-

“I DID IT IN H E E L S >:)”

OOO JOAN BE PROTECTIVE-

%5 of the heart-land is homophobic >:T

ELDERLY GAY?????

I swear if it goes downhill again I’m going to go insane-

“Chamberlain >:0”

WOW OK MR. RUIN RELATIONSHIPS THATS RUDE-

He w i l l be in their way-

“I don’t want to brag because that’s what these thighs are for-“

IF HE WASN’T BEING SHITTY I WOULD LOVE HIM-

Him and double trouble would be bestie-

Yeah he’s mean-

He’s gonna betray u bestie-

Everything

Everything will go wrong

“Revenge of the Chad”

WHEN A KID SAYS YOU HAVE TO GO, YOU HAVE TO GO-

Amir shouldn’t have jinxed it

OMG INTRO DUDE IS FRUITY FOR DARLING???????????? 🤯

Bro u ain’t taking his fiancé-

Oh nooooooo the end of the world-

Not a good example of something “real”, kid-

Is this just that musical about hating musicals all over again?-

Sure you are-

NOT ANOTHER SONG-

“He’s not the only one 😒”

SURE YOU DO, PERCY-

Omg dad?????????

Wow a piece of shit dad-

She’s never going to go with a pig farmer bro she has STANDARDS-

“I’m a vegetarian!! >:(“

WAIT IS SHE ARO-ACE?????

No one would want to be your kid-

Wow mr. super spy over here

He found a map wow so cool

HES THE END OF THE WORLD???

HOW DARE YOU CALL AMIR A 6-

NO ONE IS SAYING THAT EXCEPT YOU, DARLING- DANG-

Is that charm or not-

He show da map

Yeah after HE LEFT-

Am I taking a break from this? Yes yes I am because I’m to stupid for all that information-

[lunisway]

04/11/24 & 04/12/24

Yesterday was a good day! No snacking at work and I got some new salad items I am hyped about! My new protein is only half as many kcal as the old one and I got some new salad sauces to try out! Additionally, I also got croutons to mix thing up with the taco strips! I am beyond excited!

It is getting easier and easier to eat little kcal and feel okay with it, but it does make me feel a little slower than usually.

For dinner I had some leftover lasagna soup and it was delicious! I can only recommend everyone to try it! Soups in general are an easy way to have a balance between indulgence and abnegation.

I did hit my 10.000 steps again, which made me feel good.

When I came home, T and baby C greeted me with some Smirnoff Ice and we had a little too much to drink. By a little I mean a lot! We started drinking around 8 and found ourselves in aa bar in our tiny town around 2 am. Don´t ask me how, I do not remember. It was a blast though, we met some amazing new people.

Once we got home I was too drunk and had some more lasagna soup, but it had gotten moldy, so I ended up throwing it up (and thus didn´t count it). It was uber gross!

Oh and yes, I allow myself to get drunk once a week or every two weeks and I don´t count the kcal. I usually end um weighing less the next day! This was the case today! I am finally under 200 lbs, which for 2 weeks of weight loss is decent, I think. My next goal is in the 180s by my birthday in june!

Normally, I end up not really eating after drinking the night before. My stomach seems to be sensitive after that much alcohol (I did end up having like 10 bottles and some shots when we were out). This was the case again today.

T requested I make some gruyere-egg-bites he saw online and they ended up being pretty dang good!

Other than that I made some burritos and the stats for them are decent imo.

All in all it was a good day. Could I squeeze in another workout today? Sure! But I have an interview tomorrow and wouldn't like to be sore for that, as well as walking a puppy for 2 hours, so idk. Maybe I'll just walk around in the apartment for a bit to get to my 10.000 steps!

Recently, I am starting to crave pure salt so much. It's totally weird! On another note, I ordered some more chunky powder to put into non-fat yogurt to allow myself a bit of a sweet treat every now and again, but our local grocery shop is out of the yogurt so 'll have to wait to try it for a little longer.

Tomorrow we'll have some bbq and I think I might just have more spinach salad with the meat. Please cross your fingers it won't rain, like it usually does in this crappy town.

[peregrin-nook]

hey!

remember when i said i was doing a Silly Drinks Journal for my new resolution? well, here's part 1 of 12!

Somehow, I scoured every store in town to find over fifty varied drinks to review. Specifically 52, with an average score of 6.4 and a median score of 7, y'nerds. Note that

I'm in the UK

only 4 of the drinks which were alcoholic, because while I am now a flavourslut, getting drunk is Not Worth The Cost imo

these were all bought by just walking around every store I could get to in town!

Here's the drinks plotted by date and score:

Click below for the drinks. (Spoilers: I'm a little unfair on kvass.)

The worst drink, with a score of 1/10, was carbonated kvass. Look… I'm really sorry to Latvia. I really wanted to like it. On paper, rye juice is awesome. In practice, three sips was all I could tolerate before I physically couldn't drink more. I'm so sorry I can't appreciate you kvass :<

Thankfully on the next day I got one of the top-scoring drinks: botanical lemonade! It was crisp, lemony and tart. Also scoring 9/10 were:

'Tropical Orange' energy drink (Hough the taste of peach is lovely)

Local fruit farm apple & mango juice! It was a little thick, but a gorgeous combo. Literally just pressed fruit in a bottle! Local sure is best.

Vanilla milk. I mean. It's vanilla milk. Duh

I bought strawberry milk too, but sadly (2/10) had to get rid of it because it was sickly. Speaking of… I bought a 4-pack of CBD drinks. One, raspberry and guava, managed to peak to 6/10, but the rest were brought down by this horrid metallic tang, with glowing reviews like "Ugh. What? 3/10" and "I feel like I'm drinking the aluminium from the can. 2/10". Not very relaxing at all, itseems.

Some 8/10 drinks included:

two energy drinks – Cherry and Mango Loco. I really wish these were in energy-less form, they are too dang tasty.

Cream soda! It tastes just like ice cream (and goes well with it too.)

A drink flavoured like the classic Fruit Salad sweets… raspberry and pineapple is a nice contrast!

A gorgeous Łowidz Truskawka (strawberry syrup). A little sweet because, but a pretty classic taste in a very lovely thin bottle!

Rounding off the list with curious (but sadly mid) drinks:

Tomato juice! A solid 4/10. I wrote that it "tastes like I'm in the wrong context" (i.e. cooking passata).

Nestle and rosehip kombucha: my partner described it as tasting like a "petting zoo". Curious, but very… earthy. Surprisingly still a 4/10 (sorry kvass)

Lychee-flavoured drink with Nata de Coco: I really, really, really love lychee, but for some reason it didn't really vibe 100%. The tiny gel cubes of coconut milk gives it a bubble tea-like quality, which stopped me drinking too fast and helped me savour the flavour. And, eh, maybe I was harsh but I think bubble tea and lychee are like ice cream and chocolate to me: beautiful flavours that sadly don't really go well together. 7/10

Pomegranate juice! "It's like cranberry but it tastes of purple. Not bad!" I have no idea what I meant by this, but I stand by it nevertheless. 7/10

Ginger shots and (nonalcoholic) ginger beer! Keh… it's like fire in my throat… Both got 4/10.

I'm pretty sure I've bought every interesting-looking drink I could in town! Thankfully of course there is a wide variety of sites online, and when I pass by cities I can just Buy A Shit Ton of Drinks. Especially from the asian supermarkets! There are none in this town, which is a huge shame.

As it turns out, variety is the spice of life, and while some of these drinks were horrendous, most of them were really rather gorgeous, and it was lovely to get to try them all out. Also I'm really sorry to kvass again. I wish I could drink you, kvass. Will you forgive me?

See you in February!