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240303 Weverse Translations

RM's Comment 💬 on ARMY's Post ❇️

💜: 남준아 좋은 주말 보내 RM: 좋은 주말 되십쇼 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/2-136865067?anchor=3-282577389

💜: Namjoon-ah, have a nice weekend.

RM: Have a nice weekend

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RM's Comments 💬 on ARMY's Posts ❇️

1.

💜: 밥은 잘 먹고 있어요?? RM: 너무 잘 무서 문제.. https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/1-136878834?anchor=2-275125350

💜: Are you eating well these days?

RM: I'm eating too well, it's a problem..

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💜: 남주나 보고싶구나…. 잘지내?🥺🥺 RM: 언제나 그렇듯 ! https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/2-136865113?anchor=1-275122912

💜: Namjoon, turns out I miss you.... are you doing well?🥺🥺 RM: Same as always !

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💜: 아직 100키로는 준비가 안됏어 오빠 RM: 내 몸이랑 72에서 합의보기로 했어 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154400572?anchor=3-282579532

💜: Not ready for 100kg yet oppa RM: My body and I have reached an agreement and settled on 72kg

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💜: 오빠 최근에 읽은 책 있나요? 책을 읽기 시작하고 싶은데 추천해주실 수 있나요? RM: 언어의 무게 RM: 내다 못 읽었어요.. https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/1-136879294

💜: Have you ready any books lately? I want to start reading, could you recommend something?

RM: The Weight of Words*

RM: I haven't read it either..

(T/N: *'Das Gewicht der Worte' by Pascal Mercier.)

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💜: 보고 싶어요 RM: 아 내 머리 RM: 어제 다 밀어버렸다 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154401673

💜: I miss you

RM: Ahh my hair

RM: I cut it all off yesterday

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💜: 남준쓰 몸무게 세자리 진짜 볼수있을까?ㅋㅋㅋ RM: 곧 운동할 예정 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/1-136879873?anchor=4-282590078

💜: Namjoonss will we actually see your weight reach three digits? hahaha

RM: Planning on working out soon

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💜: 너무 많이 보고싶어 그리워 나는, 아미는 이자리 그대로 가만히 기다릴게 다치지말고 무사히 돌아와. 너의 군대썰 들을 날을 기다린다. RM: 얼마나 재밌을까~ https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154402911?anchor=1-275125643

💜: I miss you so much I truly miss you Me, and ARMY, are going to wait here, in this place we've always been Take care not to get hurt and come back safe. I'm waiting for the day you'll tell us about your stories from the army.

RM: I can imagine how fun it'll be~

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💜: 익숙해지기 많이 힘들죠? RM: 인간은 적응의 동물이랍니다 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/0-136863606?anchor=4-282592323

💜: Getting used to things is pretty hard, right?

RM: They say that humans are creatures of adaptability.

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💜: 오늘의 안주 추천 RM: 세꼬시 슛 ! https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154404759?anchor=4-282593093

💜: Recommendations for snacks to go with drinks please!

RM: Sekkosi shoot!

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💜: 김남준 답장 하나면 편히 죽으면 돼 RM: 제가 불편해요 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/4-154416760?anchor=0-275143384

💜: Just one reply from Kim Namjoon and I can die peacefully

RM: I will not feel peace

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RM's and Jimin's Comments 💬 on ARMY's Post ❇️

💜: 냄준… 얼마나 더 멋있어졌을까…. RM: 늙으면 안되는데 RM: 안티에이징 슛! JM: 안늙어야지 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154406539

💜: Naemjoon… how much cooler you must've gotten….

RM: Gotta make sure I don't age but

RM: Anti-aging shoot!

JM: Gotta stop aging

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RM's Comments 💬 on ARMY's Posts ❇️

💜: 남준이 태형을 잘 관리해야 한다고 하지 않았나요? 하하하 RM: 서른살 어른 알아서 하겠지 RM: 이미 태형이가 절 넘었습니다 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154407874

💜: Didn't Namjoon say that he was going to take care of Taehyung well? Hahaha

RM: He's 30 years old, he's probably doing fine on his own

RM: Taehyungie has already surpassed me

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💜: 남준이는 요즘 살이 쪘니? RM: 69 -> 73 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/0-136866192?anchor=4-282597033

💜: Namjoonie have you gained weight recently?

RM: 69 -> 73

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RM's and Jimin's Comments 💬 on ARMY's Post ❇️

💜: 남준씨가 내 댓글에 답변 달아줄때까지 숨 참을게요 RM: 러브다이브 JM: 숨 안참았을 걸 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/1-136883701?anchor=3-282589904

💜: I'm going to hold my breath until Namjoon-ssi replies to my comment.

RM: Love Dive*

JM: You probably didn't hold your breath

(T/N: *Song by IVE which has the refrain ""hold your breath, love dive"".)

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RM's Comments 💬 on ARMY's Posts ❇️

💜: 안녕하세요 남준오빠, 최근 복무 중 재미있는 일 있었나요? 🤷🤷 RM: 너무 많은데 RM: 언젠가 얘기할 날이.오겠지 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154410453

💜: Hello Namjoon oppa, any fun stories recently from the military? 🤷🤷

RM: There's too many

RM: I'll be able to tell them someday. Probably, right?

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💜: 치팅데이할때 어떤 음식을 먹나요?? RM: 라면좀 끊어야할거같아요 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154411345?anchor=1-275129462

💜: What do you eat on cheat days??

RM: I think I'm gonna have to make some ramyeon.

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💜: 허어어엉 내일부로 진짜 고삼인데 파이팅 한 번 해 줘요 아자잣!!! RM: 허ㅏ이띠이잉 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154412184?anchor=0-275146358

💜: Wahhhhh I'm gonna be a final-year high school student from tomorrow on, please give me some encouragement!!!

RM: Lettsgo oooooo

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💜: 남준아 이번 일요일에 뭐해? RM: 운동하고 연습할 예정 RM: 독서는 언제쯤.. https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/1-136885881

💜: Namjoon-ah, what are you doing this Sunday?

RM: Planning on working out and rehearsing.

RM: Gotta read at some point..

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💜: 냄준오빠... 오랜만인데도 여전히 웃긴사람이네여 오빠가 젤웃김 RM: 웃는자가 일류다 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/4-154427417?anchor=0-275148043

💜: Naemjoon oppa… it's been a while but you're still so funny You're the funniest

RM: The people who laugh are the best

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💜: 남준아 내 포스트 안읽어주면 공주안할끄야 RM: 왕자 슛 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/2-136874216?anchor=1-275132160

💜: Namjoon-ah, if you don't read my post I'm not going to be a princess

RM: Prince, shoot

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💜: 춤을 춰보긴 해요? RM: 그게 가장 걱정인데.. https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154421578?anchor=4-282606647

💜: Do you still dance a bit?

RM: It's the thing that worries me the most…

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💜: 주말은 쉬나요?? RM: 네 RM: 저 여기와서 릴스라는걸 처음 보기ㅜ시작 RM: mz들에게 배운다 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/1-136890030

💜: Do you have time off on weekends??

RM: Yes

RM: I've started watching reels for the first time since I came here

RM: I'm learning from the Gen Zs

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💜: 남준아아아아 보고싶어요즘 어떻게 지내? RM: 다시 연습생 하는 기분 RM: 새롭습니다 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/4-154441111

💜: Namjoon-aaaaaah I miss you how are you these days?

RM: I feel like I'm a trainee again

RM: It's a new experience

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💜: 남준아 요즘 정말 잘생겼어 RM: 언제봤어 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/1-136894665?anchor=4-282613368

💜: Namjoon-ah you're so handsome these days

RM: When did you see me

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💜: 남준 보고싶어요 그리고 소년들 입시를 못해서 좀 아쉽지만 우리와 교류하는 모습을 보니 힘이 나네요 사랑해요 자랑해주셔서 감사합니다 RM: 입시는 언제나 쉽지 않아요 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/2-136881055?anchor=1-275137106

💜: Namjoon I miss you and I'm a bit sad since the members couldn't clear the entrance exam but seeing the things you share with us gives me strength I love you, thank you for showing off*

RM: Entrance exams are never easy

(T/N: *The Korean in the original post was likely translated using an online translator.)

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💜: 눈 깜짝할 사이에 3월이네요 7명을 만나는 날까지 건강해질 수 있도록 노력해야지~ 남준오빠 많이 보고싶어요 잘 먹고 잘 움직이고, 웃는 얼굴로 있기를 바랍니다 RM: 봄이 오고 있습니다 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154434789?anchor=0-275154883

💜: I blinked and it's suddenly March Gotta work hard so that I can be healthy for the day I see all 7~

Namjoon oppa, I miss you a lot I hope you eat well, move well, and ke smiling

RM: Spring is coming

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Jimin's Post ❇️

휴 정말 정말 보고싶네요 매일매일 밤마다 생각합니다 https://weverse.io/bts/artist/3-154442593

Sigh I really really miss you, I think of you every single night

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RM's Comments 💬 on ARMY's Posts ❇️

💜: 오늘은 일본은 히나 축제 🎎 올해는 병아리 인형을 꺼내지 않았지만, 축하에 초밥에서도 먹을까요? 천국에 있는 아줌마도 정말 좋아하는 치라시 스시♡ RM: 아 스시먹고싶어요 RM: 여긴 스시가.. 없..어요 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/2-136886019

💜: It's Hinamatsuri in Japan today🎎 I didn't bring out my baby chick doll today but, shall we eat some sushi to celebrate? The sushi that even the ladies in heaven like - Chirashi sushi♡

RM: Ah I wanna have sushi

RM: There's no.. sushi.. here

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💜: 일병이 된 기분? RM: 아 이제 시작이네... https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/4-154453568?anchor=3-282614821

💜: How does it feel to be a Private?

RM: Ah, so this is the beginning…

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💜: 귀하의 새 프로젝트가 귀하 없이 출시됩니까? RM: 어 뭐랄까 RM: 굉장히 철학적인데 https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/2-136887591

💜: Is sir's new project going to be released without sir?

RM: Hmm how should I put it

RM: It's very philosophical

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Jimin's Post ❇️ with RM's Comment 💬

JM: 결국 시간이 가고 우리는 보고 있겠죠 그날만을 기다립니다. 항상 거기에 있다고 편지 남겨주셔서 고마워요 저도 여기에 있답니다 😪 RM: 시간은 간다  https://weverse.io/bts/artist/3-154451188

JM: Time will pass and we will see each other in the end, right? Im just waiting for that day. Thank you for writing your letters saying that you'll be there. I'm here too 😪

RM: Time does pass

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RM's and Jimin's Comments 💬 on ARMY's Post ❇️

💜: 지민씨 안녕하세요？ 정말 보고싶어💜 RM: 지민이 바보 RM: 똥개 RM: 멍충이 JM: ;;; https://weverse.io/bts/fanpost/3-154451461

💜: Hello Jimin I really miss you💜

RM: Stupid Jiminie

RM: Poopy head

RM: Idiot

JM: ;;;

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Jimin's Post ❇️ with J-Hope's Comment 💬

JM: 사랑합니다  love you ¡Te amo Je t'aime Ich liebe dich Ti amo Eu te amo Я тебя люблю 我爱你 愛してるSeni seviyorum  Ik hou van jou Jag älskar dig  Σε αγαπώ Minä rakastan sinua Jeg elsker dig Jeg elsker deg Kocham cię Szeretlek Miluji tě Aku cinta kamu Saya cintakan awak ฉันรักเธอ Tôi yêu bạn Mahal kita मैं तुम्हें प्यार करता हूँ Я тебе кохаю Te iubesc те Волим Volim te Ľúbim ťa JH: 통신보안 📞 https://weverse.io/bts/artist/2-136912166?anchor=0-275222026

JM: I love you*

JH: Communications security📞

(T/N: Followed by 'I love you' in English, Spanish, French, Italian, Portuguese, Russian, Japanese, Turkish, Dutch, Swedish, Greek, Finnish, Danish, Norwegian, Polish, Hungarian, Czech, Indonesian, Malay, Thai, Vietnamese, Tagalog, Hindi, Ukrainian, Romanian, Serbian, Croatian, and Slovak.)

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[leewonkyeom]

014: playing league of legends does not qualify as «having a life»

light a flame [14/51]

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☆ summary: when your roommate quits his job at the coffee shop you frequent you never imagined the new guy would be hot or even your type. to make matters worse you both study law at the same university.

your friends to try to convince you to get together with him. you try to convince them you just find him really nice... but are you able to convince yourself?

☆ a/n: to be honest, i wrote this after seeing wonwoo post something about not playing league or not being good at it on weverse (this is so long ago, i don't remember😭). and like that obviously isn't true, because he's played it plenty on his game boy lives... but he hadn't started as of me writing this🤧🤧 so for the sake of story, wonwoo doesn't play league😭 as always, i hope you enjoyed this part, and i always appreciate likes, comments and reblogs!

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[not-goldy]

just because he sings all JMs songs on his live- to promote his music to his unique fans, boost his reach, generate sales from the free ad and marketing- doesn't mean he supports him."

LMAO NO WAY you really think jungkook put jimin's songs out to a bigger audience? how insulting wow. i see now you are one of those jikookers who think jungkook is the bigger artist between the two right... right... how could i forget those stream increases after those handful of lives (never happened btw nice reach jungkook!) or how it boosted jimin's sales (never happened again) no you're right so kind of superstar jungkook to help poor jiminie lmfao give me a break. honestly a shame god free jimin from the likes of you

Screech like a pterodactyl all you want numbers don't lie. And i know you are dumb but Unique fans simply means, in marketing terms, fans of Jungkook who are not fans of Jimin or BTS.

You, as a solo, will count as a unique fan of Jimin while I by virtue if being both Jk Stan and Army as will not count as Jm's unique fan even if he's my bias because I fall within the intersect on the fan venn diagram.

Common sense, should tell you- you don't need to be a marketing expert for this- cross promoting eachother to eachother's unique audience is good for business. If not, hybe wouldn't spend so much money building a platform like Weverse using BTS's massive fan base as leverage and even sometimes deliberately sending notifications of other groups to us acting like it was an accident.

Since they have the same fans, there would be no need for any BTS member to show up on Suga's shows to promote nothing yet here we are- does that make Suga a bigger star than Jimin or Jungkook or any member he features on his show?? Are you stupid?

You are wrong and you know it. Your toxic ass tryna create drama but no one's falling for it mate 😹

I'm glad you enjoy my emojis and gifs- they are cute aren't they😊

Now take your attention seeking drama queen crown off to the misery lounge and bitch complain to the other miserable folks in your band.

You will sit here and complain about Jimin not being pushed and supported and given the same treatment as Jungkook yet turn around puffing your chest out alleging Jimin is bigger and needs no damn support from no one let alone Jungkook.

Choose a struggle. Choose a narrative and stick with it. If JM is big and powerful and successful all on his own why the hell does he need assistance from anyone at all?

And I agree he doesn't need Jk's assistance. What is that going to do for him? Why give Army and Hybe trouble for focusing their energies and resources on the poor helpless ones with the actual problems who need help and support from fans and the company?

Since Jimin got his degree and he knows everything- don't you think it makes sense why Jungkook should be pushed and supported by well everyone? Poor Jungkook he needs to be pushed to be put on the same scale as his successful hyung because he is lacking.

Guys like share and comment Jungkook needs all the help he can get

And turn out your pockets we need money for studio

While we are at it the Pride fight for love shirts are out

Let's do our thing and sell out. We need the money to buy handcream. And keep streaming to keep him on bb🥂

Yall keep setting Jimin up it's crazy

If he wasn't my bias, I wouldn't even want to mention him post him or talk about him to avoid attracting lunatics like you.

Makes a lot of sense why Big OT7s stay far away from Jimin. His solos are toxic as fuck.

And to think, we show random kpop idols love just because BTS mention them or talk about them.

Too many of us had no choice than to accept Jikook just because Jimin fucks with jk. We all have our own ship preferences and yet here we are.

Not long ago I had my own people call me out for supporting Taemin when he'd been accused of making colorist remarks. I could Stan the devil if Park Jimin smiled at him just once. It's crazy the vitriol and hate towards Jungkook even though he's Jimin's favorite- a fact he's made known and iterated over and over.

Naa Jimin, it's time to put timberland boots in the guts of some of your so called Stans. They can't call themselves your stans and hate your family it's crazy.

And I used to hate Army for hating on Jm stans and solos but godamn I'm gonna have to jump on that bandwagon.

Free Jimin from Me, Mr Jimin will pick me choose me over your pathetic ass any day. Wanna bet?

Talking bout yea Jungkook did all that for Jimin but it was in the pandemic years ago- well Hobi went to support him eons ago what's up?

Jk sent trucks to his friends a while ago. So what's your point?

Jimin earned BBs months ago what's your point?

Hybe abused and traumatized him years ago, what's your point?

Nothing you say matters hereon, from your own logic, since they happened years, months, weeks, days, hours and minutes ago- so again what's your point bringing any of them up?

You're gonna act like you know shit when we only know what these men CHOOSE TO MAKE PUBLIC KNOWLEDGE.

Imagine judging someone by the little to no knowledge you have of him and what he does behind the scenes.

Not too long ago he was an asshole and fuck boy with zero social skills- now suddenly he's the model friend sending out trucks and buying jewelry for his friends??

YOU AINT SHIT

[rainbowsuitcase]

Golden, First Impressions.

3D - I talked about that one here.

Closer To You - It sounds cool. I like that breathy-deep voice thing Jungkook does.

Seven - here and here. I made more posts, which you can all find if you search my blog for seven or jungkook, but these two feel like the main ones.

Standing Next To You - I actually really like the chorus on this one. I don't really get the deep "standing next to you" part (google said that's the post-chorus??) but it doesn't sound bad.

Yes Or No - It sounds so damn good. That's the one Ed Sheeran worked on, right? That guy definitely know how to make an earworm. (Seriously, I occasionally hum Thinking Out Loud and I don't think I ever listened to the whole song of my own volition. Also Bad Habits.)

Please Don't Change - It's nice. I could do without the repeated "I love you" part though.

Hate You - I don't usually say this, but knowing Shawn Mendes worked on the song, I can kind of hear him on it. Definitely not a favorite though, I'm generally not a fan of people singing about hating their exes for no reason. What a healthy way to deal with sadness.

Somebody - The second verse has a good rhythm. I don't hate it, but it doesn't stand out.

Too Sad To Dance - You know what, I do enjoy a happy sounding sad song. And I can imagine myself sitting on the bus after a long day, resting as I listen to this. It sounds soft.

Shot Glass of Tears - Again, a very soft and relaxing sound, but the lyrics are too obviously sad to make it a "relaxing on the bus home" type of a song.

Over all, as you can probably tell, this isn't my favorite release of Chapter 2, by far.

I don't hate mainstream pop relationship songs, but I rarely get obsessed with one the way I usually do with Bangtan's songs.

Honestly, I was just expecting something different when the Weverse announcement said the album is " inspired by the golden moments of Jung Kook, the golden maknae of BTS and a solo artist." I was ready for something more introspective than what is essentially a break-up album.

I also don't undestand why both versions of Seven are on there. Is it because the clean version is the official one but the explicit version is more popular?

I don't hate it. If any of the songs came up on the radio, I wouldn't change the stations. But I'll have to give it a few more chances to see if I would go out of my way to listen to it.

And of course, to end on a positive note, the visuals are nice.

EDIT: Apparently Jungkook said in an interview that the lyrics shouldn't be read as autobiographical, which I already suspected, but then... what the hell was that "inspired by the golden moments" bit about then?

[btxt1223]

My Journey with BTS

tw// mentions of suicide

So, I have created this account to post random thoughts and a way to express my emotions better. I want to write my 1st post about BTS cause the only people to whom I have genuinely expressed my emotions is BTS. 

So, I have known about BTS since 2015 and started stanning them in 2017. When DNA came out, I wasn't particularly obsessed with it then, but Yoongi caught my eye because of his stage name, Suga. I was intrigued. The man had a very chill vibe to him, which I was drawn to; soon enough, I was binge-watching their interviews and music videos, listening to their songs, looking up their song translations, and, of course, Run BTS. I was obsessed with them, and I still am. The seven guys became my rock during high school. Would I be here trying to write this blog if not for them? I can't imagine even going a day without listening to their music, like just one song, a group or a solo. BTS has played a massive role in making me the person I am, the way I think, and my ideas. They made me a more curious person. From their music videos to the theme of the music that they made, it made learning things about society and art amusing for me, which I couldn't think would have happened in an education system that tries to kill our thinking. I decided to take up humanities as my stream because Map of Persona made me curious about psychology. The Blood, Sweat and Tears music video interested me in Greek mythology. I learned South Korea's history and socio-economics to understand their music better. I learned how the music industry in the West and South Korea works so that I could see them succeed in something they put so much passion and love into. I learned to care, be kind and humble, and love myself.  

So, let me try to talk about my emotions, which is a tough thing for me to do, and I have been trying my best to avoid that part for a long time. Not talking about it wouldn't do justice to this blog, where I am talking about my journey with BTS. I wasn't particularly a kid who got along with everyone and had many friends growing up. I remember feeling lonely constantly as a kid. I had social anxiety growing up, which made talking to people extremely hard for me. I wasn’t great in academics, and I still am not. I try my best, but something keeps lacking, making me incredibly insecure. Things like these have left me feeling insanely depressed that I have lost the meaning of life. I had so many times considered ending my life, never made any attempts or such, but just wished a truck would come and hit me. Soon, those thoughts came to my mind less when I started listening to BTS because they talked about these feelings in their lives and music.

I felt I wasn't alone for the first time, that somebody truly got me. I started trying to live because of them. I looked forward to their new music, the surprise live shows after every award function, the concerts they did or just randomly at night because they couldn't sleep, those Weverse posts, and the Run BTS new episode. Those little things motivated me to get out of bed and finish my day to peacefully enjoy whatever content they put out. I was reading one of my diary entries filled with BTS back during the lockdown. I didn't realise before reading that diary entry how much of a significant role they played in helping me stay alive when I got a considerable side effect of depression from my ADHD medications, and for that, I am thankful. I wouldn't be attending a nice enough college without them keeping me motivated, and I can't thank them enough.

I am ending this post on a somewhat incomplete note because it is tough for me to talk about something so close to my heart, and my journey with BTS here hasn't ended yet. I'll come soon enough to talk more about this.

[euphoricfilter]

Happy new year!

It's still 12/31 for me rn but I guess I'll just say that now lol Can't wait to see hobi's performance later. Idk if I can find a way to watch it unofficially or officially tho lol

The boys' new year message vid. It's nice. but I'm selfish so I'm a lil sad there was no tae bday live and no personal pic/vid posts from most of them recently. But oh well. The weverse messages were cute. I stared at Jin's neck for a while. (His skin looks so soft and perfect here. How is it real omg?! His collarbones. Horny brain on. I want to mark his neck up omg) Yoongi said that he's going to try something big and he's excited for it. NYC PERFORMANCE PLS lol I can't wait for his comeback! I got flustered when Tae appeared. He looks so good omg wtf. He had a bad cold TT idk for how long since idk when they recorded this but :( Hobi's cute ending aww. Jk seems tired lol. He seems to be blinking a lot. Ooh only one ear has piercings. Is that new or it's been a while? idk lol He's so cute. His rumbly voice was hot. Wth is a black rabbit? Is it a Korean aspect?

-🖤

yay happy new year!!

uhh i think they’re showing it on abc, and i assume because you’re in america it’s on your tv? idk how it works 😭 i think the will probably be a few twitter account that stream it though like usual for the people who don’t have abc

the new years message was so cute :( and the perfect way for me to end the year

i feel like they’ve done so many big things at this point i can’t even begin to guess what yoongi is planning 😭 perhaps, world domination?

poor tae 🥲 i don’t really know the time frame of when the video was filmed either but i hope he’s feeling better now

they were all dressed up so maybe they filmed it after recording something? jk did seem pretty tired 🥲 but i’m glad he’s gonna relax a little more this year and not stress too much— i really hope they all get the rest they need, they’ve worked so hard for years and i know they’ll all probably be enlisting at some point in the next year but until then i really hope they can enjoy themselves a little

ahh it’s the chinese zodiac, 2023 is the year of the black rabbit

[okwonyo]

OBVIOUSLY, 或 𓈒𓈒 why would you be shipped with them.

𝒾 ⠀⦂ ⠀ 엔하이픈 ୨୧ f，idol ╱ r! 12OO fluff established relationship ── none ⠀ ｡｡ ⠀ ( 𝑜𝑜𝑒𝑢𝑣𝑟𝑒𝑠 )

지아 ⠀⦂ ⠀rewriting my first work for okwonyo’s 1 year anniversary >< enjoy 🎀

rblgs♥︎fdbcks & C𝑙𝑖CK

HEESEUNG

would never really be the type to hide the fact that you are a couple, or that he is interested in you— as long as you would be okay with that.

therefore, even though he would act as if he was thinking about it for a few seconds, would know his answer the moment someone asks him his ideal type.

with a smug grin dancing on his face, would start to describe you from head to toes without any hesitation. several personality traits of yours would cross his lips confidently.

and if he feels really bold, would end up saying that you are ‘pretty much’ his ideal girlfriend.

JAY

as the perfect boyfriend that he is, would learn to do a lot of things for the sake of your happiness. how much time and effort it takes would never really matter.

would get caught talking about how he is currently learning how to make your favorite dessert or dishes to his fans on live. then, would proudly say that he finished learning on weverse when he does— and you would get caught eating that specific food a while after.

on multiple occasions, would play a song that is known to be one of your favorites, with a guitar that you gifted to him.

“for someone special,” he would answer with a cute smile when he would get asked why he is learning all this.

JAKE

would really never shut up about you. which is all it would take.

there would always be a point where he would absentmindedly start rambling about your music—mostly about you, though— at some point. multiple compliments leaving his mouth without him even realizing.

“and she was really nice—” he would tell the camera, eyes shining and the tip of his ears a little red. would be out of breath at the thought of you alone, “yeah, very incredible.”

the fun part of it, is that he would not even realize when he gets into his very dedicated and focused monologue of how talented and amazing you are.

SUNGHOON

while being completely oblivious able it or not trying to be, would be desperately obvious about the immense thing he has for you.

would really look at you as if the sun shine out of your own eyes: with longing eyes, an agape mouth and his thick eyebrows slightly raised.

would always watch you from afar, mirroring almost every expression that crosses your face and won’t snap out of his contemplation unless someone nudges him.

would sigh when he gets scolded, “i can’t help it,” a smirk. “she is very pretty.”

SUNOO

it would no secret that you and him are friends.

you would both get spotted at different places having a nice hangout, enjoying each other presence.

the moment where the fans attention would be awoken, would be when your relationship gets a little bit more serious— less cusual and more established.

pictures of one of you entering the other’s house at night and leaving in the morning would circulate all over the internet.

(sleepover? very suspicious.)

JUNGWON

would love to buy things with you during all of your dates. especially if you are around an area with a lot of shops— clothes, plushies, accessories, keychains.

without even asking you about it, it would be automatic for him to buy each thing he buys in double. so you often find yourselves with matching phone accessories, clothes and keychains.

and of course, since he is really annoying, would use or wear them at the same time as you do. posting a picture or showing himself out with it the day after.

fans would find it a bit suspicious at some point and, surely, he would enjoy it.

RIKI

has the coolest fashion style ever and would love to share his clothes with you. because, you would be his girlfriend and he would love to see you in his clothes.

one day, you would accidentally wear one of your boyfriend’s clothes during a public appearance— one that you found cute while watching videos of him using the airport as his personal runaway.

however, when fans would not mind much, you would start wearing more and more of his clothes in public. and he would even wear some of the oversized hoodies you buy.

people would then start to wonder if you just share a very similar clothing style or if you are just borrowing each other’s clothes.

ㅤㅤ𓈒ㅤㅤ𓈒 taglist open.

[seventeentotheworld]

WEVERSE POSTS OF DAESANG AWARD

wv: 26살김민규 (mingyu)

[trs: CARATs, the grand prize, the grand prize! Hahahaha

Thank you 🖤]

wv: 원우 (wonwoo)

[trs: thank you so much CARATs

Right now, I like making music happily with CARATs rather than being greedy. I'm working hard, but I feel like I received a big gift from CARATs today

SEVENTEEN will keep working hard who continues to remind ourselves of the meaning of this award, so we hope CARATs will support each other while listening to our music and enjoying life together Thank you so much today, see only good things, eat only delicious food, and have a happy day]

wv: 호시 (hoshi)

[trs: It was so nice to see CARATS, it's been awhile🥹

🏆 Thank you for the Grand Prize!!

And today was 10.10 (October 10) \❤️/

hahahahaha

Just wait a little longer until 10.23 (October 23)!!

We will continue to work hard

Horanghae 🐯🧡 ]

wv: SUPER막내 (dino)

[trs: The grand prize...🥹😭 Thank you so much CARATs

I'm so happy today haha

We're confident with the album coming out soon, we'll show you something cool 💖💙]

wv: 조슈아 (joshua)

[trs: CARATs, thank you so much for the grand prize!❤️ We received the award thanks to CARATs, thank you always! Goodnight😴]

wv: 마치된것같아최버논 (vernon)

[trs: it was good to see you after a long time!

Thank you, CARATs! thank u!]

[peachycheol]

| lost in translation |

➸ summary: jeonghan asks you to translate some of his fans’ comments, but you hadn’t expected them to be so... dirty.  ➸ genre: pwp  ➸ pairing: idol!jeonghan x english-speaking friend!reader ➸ warning: dirty talk, oral sex (m. and fem. receiving), face fucking, deep throating, cum swallowing <333, **the italicized comments are in english**  ➸ w.c: 2.6k

➸ author’s note: hi i’m alive!! i’m so sorry to have kept you all waiting for so long, but i kinda just lost my mojo for a little bit 😔  but worry not- i have experienced a reawakening and i am now more of a whore than ever so hopefully i can get back to posting more. i have a lot i have planned out, but i wanted to get a quick fic out to y’all as a BIG THANK YOU bc i reached so many milestones while i was gone 🥺 🥰 💕  i love you guys and i’m really glad ppl are reading my fics haha

this fic is based on the infamous jeonghan gym video, y’all know the one (thank you to @haechanblr​ for reminding me of it and helping me with this fic i love u so much!!). i was actually in the middle of writing this when hoshi decided to post his own gym video and PHEW. JEEZ. I’M STILL RECOVERING. anyway, i hope you guys enjoy this one bc i really enjoyed writing it 💖 🍑 

[ foreversvt ] commented: I AM ON MY KNEES  [ yoon1004 ] commented: is it jeonghan’s birthday or is it mine [ happy bday angel! ] commented: YOON JEONGHAN ???? [ twinkluvr69 ] commented: grrr wanna slurp those noodle arms like spaghetti 

You continue scrolling through the comments left underneath the video, trying to keep your face composed as you come across more and more explicit reactions from fans all over the world. Seokmin had uploaded the video to Weverse as an innocent birthday prank for Jeonghan, but he probably had not anticipated just how horny their fans could get over a seemingly harmless video of Jeonghan doing some leg presses. To be fair to the fans though, you yourself had watched the clip several times and you would be lying if you didn’t say you were… affected. 

“Well? What are they saying?” Jeonghan leans over to watch you scroll, and you are acutely aware of the warmth of his arm pressing against yours. The two of you are sitting on the floor of  your living room with your backs resting against your couch, hanging out after a small birthday dinner with some of his other friends. As one of Jeonghan’s english-speaking friends, he had asked you to help him translate some of his birthday wishes before his day ended, though you’re not sure how to tell him that his fans are not exactly sending in wholesome professions of love. 

Instead, you decide to try giving him some tamer versions in the hopes of satisfying him before you get to anything too blunt. “This user says you have noodle arms, but I think they like it so it’s okay.” 

“Hey! I’ve been trying my best to get thicker, but not all of us can be born beefed up like Seungcheol.” 

“You asked me what they said!” you laugh. “Most of these are just birthday messages anyway-- I’m sure you don’t need me to translate ‘Happy birthday, I love you!’ a thousand times.” 

“Yeah, obviously I understand the more common phrases, but there’s so many that I don’t understand today for some reason!” Jeonghan huffs, then points to a comment that you had purposefully hid under your thumb. “Like okay, what’s that one say?” 

[ seungcheolswife ] commented: wow the way this video made my pussy clench,,,, 

“Uh,” you start, already feeling your ears go warm. Should you just lie? It’s not like he would be able to tell, right? You and Jeonghan are close, but not so close that you can just say these things to him. Especially when this comment may be hitting a little too close to home for you. Even now, you remember the bolt of arousal that shot to your pussy the moment you  heard Jeonghan’s first grunt of effort. You bite your lip. No, Jeonghan really didn’t need to know about that. “I-it says something like ‘you made their heart flutter’.”

“Wait.” Jeonghan takes a moment to scan your face before his eyes narrow at you suspiciously. You give him your best innocent smile, but you already know he’s caught you. You had always been a shitty liar. “What does it really say? Is it bad?”

You sigh. Of course he hadn’t bought it. “No, it’s not bad. I just don’t know if you want to hear stuff like this…” 

“Well now I have to know. Tell me exactly what it says.” 

“E-exactly?” You meet Jeonghan’s stern gaze and you know that there’s no convincing him otherwise. What Jeonghan wants, Jeonghan gets. “I-it says that the video made their p-pussy clench.”

After several beats of silence, you look over to Jeonghan to see he is completely unaffected by the comment. Or maybe he is. His eyes glint mischievously in the light when he responds.  “I said exactly, baby. Try again.” 

Your whole body feels hot under his smug, expectant gaze; you should be surprised by the sudden pet name, but it only makes your mind fuzzy with the beginnings of arousal. You swallow thickly, unable to disobey him. “T-this video made m-my pussy clench.” 

“So naughty… Just this short clip has your cute little pussy all needy,” Jeonghan clicks his tongue, but a knowing grin spreads on his lips. His words have you shifting in your seat in an attempt to relieve the dull ache setting in between your legs, though you don’t dare let it on. It’s clear Jeonghan is playing a game with you, and although you know you’re going to lose, you’ll be damned if you let him win so easily. “Let’s read some more, hm? Translate this one for me.”

[ daddy_hannie ] commented: omg i bet jeonghan makes the hottest sounds when he’s fucking 

The comment he scrolls to nearly makes you whimper. It’s embarrassing how clearly you can recall the sound of each of his low groans coming through the screen, how sexy he sounded. Images of Jeonghan on top of you, his eyebrows furrowed as he grits out desperate groans of pleasure, leave you in a daze while your panties quickly dampen with your arousal. 

“Go on.” Jeonghan’s firm tone only makes you squirm more, and this time he takes note of the way your breathing has gone shallow and how your eyes are already hazy. 

“I bet Jeonghan makes the hottest sounds when he’s fucking,” you say softly. 

Jeonghan chuckles, his breath tickling against your neck. “Now you’re just making me blush, sweetheart. I bet you’d make some pretty noises when I’m fucking into you too,” he muses casually. You finally let out a soft whine, tired of holding your breath as he moves to tuck a strand of your hair behind your ear. 

“J-jeonghan…” 

“Hm, I think we should read a couple more,” the boy says, ignoring you and scrolling through more of the comments. You pout - your wetness has already soaked through your panties, your cunt just aching for his attention, but of course Jeonghan isn’t done teasing you. 

You’re wondering how long it will take for him to finally push your back to the floor and fuck you senseless when you spot a comment that might help you get you what you want quicker. ”I want to read this one,” you tell him, already rubbing your thighs together in anticipation. 

[ ~hanniehae!~ ] commented: god i KNOW your dick is big like PLEASE I WANNA SUCK UR DICK SO BAD

He raises an amused eyebrow at you, and you wait for him to stop you, biting back a smile when he doesn’t. You make sure to look him in the eyes when you say it, his own dark eyes telling you that he’s impatient for you too, and you nearly let it out in a whine from how much you mean it. “Please Jeonghan… I want to suck your dick so bad.” 

For a sliver of a  moment, Jeonghan goes rigid. Then, his smug smile returns as he brings up a thumb to tug on your bottom lip. “Mmm, such a pretty mouth saying such filthy words,” he sighs, shaking his head. “If you wanted to put it to good use, all you had to do was ask, baby.” 

Jeonghan chuckles at how eagerly you follow him as he moves to sit on the couch behind you, keeping his hold on your chin so that you keep your eyes on his. He has you kneel between his legs and you don’t waste any time in reaching for the button and zipper on his jeans. 

The man helps you tug his pants and boxers down to his ankles, and your mouth waters at the sight of his hard cock springing back against his stomach. Of course it’s pretty just like the rest of him. “You’ve been teasing me all this time, but you’re already this hard?” you whisper tauntingly as you lean forward to ghost your lips over the base of his shaft. 

Jeonghan’s shaky exhale does not go unnoticed by you, but his response comes out smooth as ever. “Could you blame me? You just looked so cute getting all worked up from saying all those dirty things about me. I bet your little panties are soaked through by now-- guh!” He lets out a surprised groan when you suddenly flatten your tongue against him, letting it drag slowly up to his tip. 

“You talk too much.” You look up at him with a smile before you wrap your lips around his leaking tip, savoring the taste of him on your tongue. Teasingly, you swirl your tongue against his slit until you feel his hand thread through your hair, as though he’s begging you for more. You decide to be nice, lowering your mouth further down his cock, letting him feel the slide of your wet tongue on his sensitive skin. 

A soft sigh leaves his lips at the sensation, pleasantly carding his fingers through your hair as you take as much of him as you can. “That’s it. Good girl.”

His praise has you clenching around nothing, and you whine as you steadily begin to bob your head along his hard cock, reveling in how he would let out small whimpers whenever you would lightly suckle on it. 

Just as he gets used to the feeling of your mouth on him, you suddenly take him as deep as you can into your mouth, hollowing your cheeks tightly around his cock. “Oh, f-fuck!” Jeonghan lets out a strangled moan, his hips lifting from the couch to fuck further into your mouth. 

You feel the tip of his cock hit the back of your throat, but it only spurs you on even more as you swallow around him, causing him to throw his head back in ecstasy. At this point, a dull ache starts setting in your jaw and drool begins to messily slip from the corners of your mouth as you return to sucking him at a more steady pace, and you feel your pussy throb from how dirty it all felt. Though you and Jeonghan did flirt occasionally, he had always felt off-limits to you-- he’s an idol and you’re just one of his normal-person friends. But here you are with his cock in your mouth, all thanks to the horny thoughts of his fans no less. 

To their credit, they were right. Jeonghan does make the hottest sounds while fucking. He lets out another throaty groan from above you and, unexpectedly, he pulls you off his cock. His pupils are blown wide with desire, his chest heaving slightly as he looks at the state you’re in with your swollen lips and the drool on your chin. “Can I fuck your mouth?” he asks breathlessly. 

“Yes please,” you reply, voice already a little hoarse from your efforts. You shift back on your knees to make room for Jeonghan when he stands, opening your mouth obediently when he moves to slide his cock back onto your tongue. Jeonghan tightens his grip on your hair, keeping you still as he starts to fuck into your mouth with quick, shallow thrusts. “Mmh!”

“Fuck, your mouth feels so fucking good, baby,” Jeonghan sighs appreciatively. You bring your hands up to grip at the backs of his thighs to keep yourself steady when his thrusts become a little more erratic, causing you to gag around him as his cock continues to hit the back of your throat. Still, all your focus remains on hearing more of Jeonghan’s pleasured groans, on seeing his face scrunch up in absolute bliss, so you keep your mouth open wide despite the tears that prick at your eyes. When Jeonghan looks down at you taking his cock, eyes glazed over and fucked out, he curses loudly. “Shit-- can I come in your mouth?” 

Unable to speak with your mouth stuffed full, you cutely give him a thumbs up. Jeonghan would have laughed if he wasn’t so close to cumming. With several more thrusts, he cries out a strained warning before his hot release fills your mouth. He rides out his orgasm, twitching in your hold as his pleasure bleeds into oversensitivity. Once he’s pulled out, you make sure to stick your tongue out so he can see how his cum coats your tongue right before you swallow it all down; all he can do is smile thinking about how he really should have fucked you sooner. 

“So good for me,” Jeonghan says to you softly, helping you up to your feet so that he can pull you into a heated kiss full of tongue and whimpers. You desperately grip onto Jeoghan’s shirt, pressing your body against him in search for some sort of relief for the arousal that is pumping through you and straight to your neglected pussy. He can’t help but smile against your lips. “Don’t worry, baby, I’ll take care of you now.” 

You let him lead you to sit on the couch-- this time you are the one sitting on the edge of the cushions with Jeonghan’s head between your legs. He slides a hand over your clothed core, humming when he finds that you really have soaked straight through your panties. Just as you begin to squirm underneath his teasing fingers, he strips you of both your leggings and underwear in one swift movement, leaving you bare before him. 

The sight of him pushing your legs apart is enough to leave you in a daze. Your breath catches when you feel cool air brushing against your inner thighs, slick with your wetness, then it all comes out in a whine when you feel Jeonghan’s velvet tongue swipes at the spot for a taste. “O-oh!” a cry slips from your lips once his tongue finally slides through your folds. “Mmh!” 

“Does it feel good?” Jeonghan whispers, not bothering to wait for a proper answer because your broken moans tell him to keep going. He spreads your lips open with his fingers, eating you out slowly and deliberately as though he is savoring his favorite meal.

The room is filled with your soft whimpers and the lewd sounds of Jeonghan’s mouth working against your pussy and it only tightens the pressure in your stomach, causing your toes to curl. “P-please-- please let me cum,” you rasp out, and your eyes roll to the back, your hand clutching tightly at the back of Jeonghan’s head, at the feeling of his tongue flattening against your clit. “Ngh! Y-yes!” 

He skillfully flicks his tongue on your bud, shaking his head back and forth until his chin is absolutely covered in your juices. When your hips begin to move of their own accord, he lets you ride his face as you please, his cock twitching at how desperate you are for him. “S-so good,” you sob, only able to mutter unintelligible nonsense in your delirium. Then, he wraps his mouth around your clit, and you’re left squealing as your legs begin to shake from how obscenely good it feels. “Shit, I-- I’m--!” 

You come undone with a loud cry of Jeonghan’s name, your body going rigid from how hard your orgasm hits you. Jeonghan takes it all, his eyes closed as he works you through your release, only letting up when you slump away from him.

The both of you finally look at each other properly in the aftermath, chests heaving and hair wild. Suddenly you’re both erupting in giggles at the realization of what you two had just done. “What are you looking at?” Jeonghan asks, eyes bright as he smiles handsomely up at you. 

You reach down to swipe your thumb against his chin, which is still shining with your cum, barely able to contain your giggles. “Who’s got the dirty mouth now?”

[purpleyellow]

Industry (un)locked

Seventeen 14th member

Hayun’s masterlist

“The interview that never got posted”

Requested by: anon

disclaimer? I’m obviously not an idol nor have any relation to the kpop industry. all of this is purely made up :) idk if this was needed but its here just in case

a/n: Feel free to share your thoughts with me. Requests are open! 💙

*italics represents actions*bold and italic is the person leading the interview*

Hayun steps inside the white studio and heads to the chair in front of all the cameras. She signalizes with a thumbs up to the producers that they're good to start.

“Kim Hayun. Born on June 15th, 1996. Debuted on May 26th, 2015. Current member of co-ed group Seventeen”.

“That's me” Hayun points at herself and then at the camera, making finger guns and getting some staff members to laugh.

“We'd like to remind you that whatever is said inside this room is fully confidential, so you may speak as much as you want to and as freely as you can”

“Well, I like to talk a lot, so you might regret telling me that”

“Simple question to get started, if you could go back and meet fifteen/sixteen-year-old Hayun, would you talk her out of being an idol or encourage her to do so”

“That's not a simple question, and you know it” Hayun laughs getting herself comfortable on the high chair. “I remember as a kid always asking for my parents to give me siblings, and especially missing them as I grew a bit older and didn't have anyone to keep me company after school. You can say being around people my age, or anyone who I can connect with is my number one source of energy. So I would encourage her to do it, because I know she really needs the thirteen brothers she's getting after that. But maybe I'd tell her she's not the amazing inspiring celebrity she thinks she is”.

“What would you say your relationship with Pledis Entertainment has been like, since you joined the company to now?”

“You're sure this isn't going to get leaked, right? The trainee period sucks for everyone, you have to dedicate a lot of time, energy, and discipline in order to be able to reach this insanely high standards. And I guess we're all aware of how though Pledis is with their trainees, so it's safe to say I didn't have much in me back then to develop any kind of relation with the higher ups. I do remember they used to decide most things behind my back. Like one day I arrived at the building and the CEO said 'You're moving to the Pledis Boys side' which was fine, but I could have used that information a few days prior or something. And even after that, when I brought something up to them, they would tell me they would think about the topic. And if they ever decided something, they would set one of the boys aside and tell them what they decided, so that boy could come and tell me”.

“That got better over time, though there's this weird relation between the group and the company, where we're completely free when it comes to the creative side of business. Yet the moment something more serious needs to be decided it's like they forget who makes up Seventeen. I understand from a corporate point off view they can't have a bunch of random kids in their 20s deciding what to do on a crisis. But they also can't push aside what Seventeen's message is and the picture we're trying to create. At the end of the day, I can't shake off the feeling that inside those big offices, some of those men only see us as a product they're trying to sell”.

“Would you think of leaving Pledis Entertainment?”

“I'm staying wherever the boys are, I don't really care where that is”

“How do you deal with hate?”

“Nowadays I'm one of that kind of people who simply doesn't care. After being bombarded with hundreds of comments from people who didn't know me but shared an opinion on where I should be and what kind of behavior I should have, I learned how to ignore everything and not engage in any conversation surrounding my work. That sucks, because I also don't have access to most of the nice and constructive things people say about me. But honestly it's something I decided to let go after I realized that negativity was getting in the way of how I communicated with other people, and how I saw myself as someone who always had to prove being better at something”.

“So you don't read what's being said about you online?”

“Most things I don't. I usually engage in conversations on Weverse which is slightly more controlled, and sometimes the boys show me some nice comments left on YouTube videos. Besides looking at cat videos, I'm pretty much dissociated with most social media”.

“Do you think that's something being an idol took away from you, or were you never that into technology?”.

“It's definitely something I had to adapt to due to being on the spotlight. As a kid I always enjoyed going on random spaces and making online friends, even if we only talked to each other once and that was it.”

“You don't look for what people have to say about you. But do you ever feel like you're not totally free to do whatever you want?”

“Honestly, yes. There's always going to have that little voice in the back of my head telling me how many young adults and even children are watching me and by association I'm helping them form their own view of the world. That's pretty scary to be honest because who am I? You know? Sometimes I want to do dumb things and less frequently I simply do dumb things because what there is to lose? But if a child comes and asks to do the same things I want to, I'll tell them no, because their life is too precious for me to let them do reckless activities”.

“What kid of dumb things are you talking about?”

“Sometimes I wake up and feel like bungee jumping. Or like, taking my car and driving without any coordinates for a really long period of time. Getting really drunk and smashing some plates around. Trying out parkour and busting my knees up because I don't know how to do that. I guess the best way to describe it being random rather than dumb”.

“So you're scared of what people might think of doing after you grant your personal wishes?”.

“I guess so. Since I'm not a parent, I shouldn't take responsibility over what others think and do. But part of me will always think about those kids alone in their homes, watching our content to pass their time and being shaped by the things we say and do. I also feel bad sometimes because I'm not the smartest person in the world, so I can't give them a detailed philosophical thought of how much their lives are worth and how they are the ones that make their own future”.

“Do you feel unprepared to be an idol when it comes to this topic?”.

“Well, yes. I'm just a twenty six-year-old who acts mostly over her instincts and fears of letting life pass by her. It's scary to think about children wanting to be like me. I remember during our training, we also learned a lot about how to behave and all of that, but it never sunk in how much responsibility it takes to be someone's 'Idol'. I try not to think about it too much to be honest, my wishful thinking brain likes to imagine that everyone knows how to draw a line between Hayun working her idol job and Hayun living her life”.

“Lastly, do you regret being in the kpop industry?”

“No, just because it gave me the family that I need. I sound really dorky talking about them, but that Hayun, before meeting Seventeen, had no future in mind and no support system strong enough to carry her around. I would not be able to face all of this alone in a million years, and I hope I never have to”.

[gukvante]

the gym selfie

— pairing: namjoon x reader

— genre: slice of life, smut

— rating: nsfw

— words: 1.5k+

— note: ngl, this was completely self-indulgent and based off of this selfie namjoon posted :O also, a disclaimer, i do not own the picture of namjoon used in my banner. happy reading further <3

— warnings: explicit/detailed sexual intercourse, dom!namjoon, sub!reader, daddy kink, cum eating, oral (m receiving), some good ol’ face fucking, some praise sprinkled with a little degrading, established relationship

— summary: Namjoon posts a gym selfie and it got you feeling some type of way.

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© gukvante —all rights reserved. reposting/modifying of any medium is not permitted. 

You huffed staring down at the last text you had sent Namjoon. No response. You had sent him a text asking if he wanted to meet up for lunch since you were in the area but to no avail. 

You were about to give up hope of getting to go on a cute little lunch date with your boyfriend when your phone vibrated. It was a notification letting you know that Namjoon had just posted on Weverse. 

You huffed in slight annoyance that he had time to post but not respond to your text messages. 

Tapping on the notification to open the post, you watched as it loaded for a few seconds before you were met with the most delicious sight. 

You eyes widened slightly, your jaw going slack. Namjoon had posted a picture, a workout picture to be precise. The sleeveless top he wore showed off his defined arms and strong shoulders.

It was like your hands had a mind of their own as you zoomed in further to closely inspect his long fingers. Something about the way he gripped the phone had your breath hitching.

You were snapped back into reality when someone accidentally bumped into you. It was only then that you remembered that you were standing in the middle of the sidewalk. 

Quickly apologising to the stranger and wishing them a pleasant day further, you all but sprinted to sit on a nearby bench. You checked your surroundings again to make sure no one was watching you perv on your delectable boyfriend. 

Closing your eyes, you took a deep breath, somewhat preparing yourself. Once you felt you were ready to continue, your eyes snapped back to the screen. Heat spread across your cheeks as your eyes trailed lower.

Namjoon was sporting gym shorts that exposed a  little bit of his muscular thighs. You frowned slightly when you realised the angle of the picture hid his bulge. Just as you were about to zoom in closer, your ringtone cut through the air. 

Your face flushed as you read the caller ID, Namjoon. With shaky hands, you held the phone up to your ear. “H-Hello?” Your voice crocked.

“Hi, baby. Sorry for not answering your texts, I was working out.” Namjoon’s smooth voice seemed to send your body into overdrive. Rubbing your thighs together, you cleared your throat before answering.

“I-I know.” You stuttered. What was going on with you? You’ve seen him naked plenty of times, why was this one picture affecting you so much? 

“Are you okay, princess? You sound a bit off.” Namjoon asked, his voice full of concern. Taking a deep breath to calm your nerves, you answered again.

“I’m fine! Just a bit . . . winded . . . I guess.” You fiddled with your fingers as you waited for his response. 

“Well, I would love to grab some lunch with you. I just have to pack up a few things and take a quick shower. I should be done in the next twenty minutes or so.” You nodded in agreement, getting ready to hang up. 

“Baby? You still there?” Namjoon asked, confused. 

“Yes! Yes, I am. Sorry, I completely forgot we were on a phone call and nodded like a dumbass! You probably think I’m so–” 

“It’s okay, don’t worry about it. Are you sure you’re okay?” He questioned again, concerned something might have happened. 

“Yes, I’m great! D-Don’t worry. I’ll see you soon?” 

“I’ll see you soon, kitten.”

Hanging up, you let out a deep sigh before standing up and walking in the direction of BigHit. 

Once you were inside the building, you hastily made your way up to the dressing rooms. Upon your arrival, you were met with Yoongi, who seemed to be on his way out. 

“Yoongi! Hey! How are you?” You called, stopping him in his tracks. 

“Ah, y/n! Can’t complain, you?” Yoongi smiled as he acknowledged you. 

“I’m great! Thanks for asking. Do you perhaps know where I can find Namjoon?” You reached into your pocket, ready to pull your phone out to call him if Yoongi didn’t know where he was. 

Yoongi nodded, pointing in the direction of the showers before turning to leave again. “It was nice seeing you, y/n. Enjoy your time with Joon!” Yoongi smirked over his shoulder as he walked out the room. 

Your face erupted at the innuendo, shaking your head. Letting out another sigh, you moved to put your things down. Closing your eyes, you took one last deep breath before nodding and making your way into the shower room. 

You could hear the water running and Namjoon humming softly to himself. Deciding not to announce your arrival, you slowly started removing your clothes. 

You placed your clothes next to Namjoon’s before reaching out to pull back the shower curtain. Namjoon was quick to turn around in shock, almost slipping in the process. 

“Baby? Geez, you scared me!” He chuckled. “What are you do–” it was only then that he realised that you were butt-naked. His eyes seemed to darken as they roamed over your body, taking in every dip and curve. 

“Don’t worry about me, just stand back and enjoy.” You winked. Namjoon cocked his head to the side, his eyebrow raising. 

Walking further into the shower, you slowly and carefully dropped to your knees. Pushing your hair from your face, you tilted your head to look him in the eye.

“Please let me suck your cock, daddy?” You pleaded, batting your eyelashes to seal the deal. 

“Go ahead, kitten.” Namjoon said, his jaw clenching. Breaking eye contact, you came face to face with his girthy length. 

Your mouth watered at the sight. He was fully erect, his tip a deep pink. Lifting a hand, you wrapped it around his base. Your fingers barely touched, your pussy fluttering from the realisation. 

Learning forward, you placed soft kisses all over the underside of his cock. Namjoon huffed, glaring down at you and reached a hand out to grip your hair. 

“Now, now, babygirl. Who said you could tease daddy?” He’s jaw was clenched in annoyance as he grinded his teeth together. You eyes widened at his serious expression. 

“That’s what I thought. Now, be a good little cockslut and let daddy fuck your greedy throat.” 

You let your mouth fall open in obedience, anything for Namjoon. His free hand dropped to replace yours at the base of his cock. 

“Stick your tongue out, pretty girl.” Namjoon’s voice seemed to deepen and gain a certain raspiness to it. 

Your tongue lolled out your mouth, completely submitting to him. Namjoon smirked before rubbing his tip against your tongue. “Suck.” He huffed. Complying, you wrapped your lips around his cockhead. 

Namjoon let out a growl as he watched you suck on him while maintaining eye contact. He let suckle on him a little longer, his breathing becoming laboured. 

“Daddy’s gonna fuck your throat now. Okay, angel?” On cue, he started steadily inching his fat cock down your throat. Breathing through your nose, you tried your best to relax your throat to allow him in further. 

Namjoon let out a loud groan, throwing his head back. He pulled back slightly before thrusting back in again. He kept the slow pace for a minute or two before he reach down to lightly grip your throat while his other hand tightened its grip on your hair. 

Drawing his hips back, he was quick to pick up the pace. Your eyes rolled back as his cock slid deeper with every thrust. 

Tears started to form in your eyes as Namjoon continued to abuse your throat. He was panting now, his hips frantically chasing sweet release. Namjoon pulled out with a deep groan. 

“You still good, baby?” He rasped. You nodded, taking a few deep breaths before moving to take him again. Namjoon all but growled. 

He picked up right where he left off, leaning over slightly to reach even deeper down your throat. The room was filled with the sound of wet squelching and Namjoon’s deep groans. 

Lifting a hand, you cupped his balls, squeezing gently. Namjoon moaned, his hips stuttering. “Keep doing that, kitten. ‘m so close.” 

Adding more pressure, you continued to massage his balls. His thrusts becoming sloppier. Namjoon threw his head back as he moaned out your name. 

“I’m gonna cum and you’re gonna swallow it like good little cumslut.” He growled out, his hips speeding up. 

He pulled your head all the way to his base, placing a hand on either side of your face to hold your head in place. He let out one last groan before he emptied his load down your throat. 

You tried your best to swallow like he instructed but it was too much and some of it dripped down your chin. Namjoon gently pulled out. He let out a satisfied sigh before staring down at you. 

He reached down, wiping away a stray tear. He smiled sweetly, caressing your face. You leaned your head against his hand as you stared up at him lovingly.

“It’s your turn now, kitten.” 

[kisshwa]

𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐙 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 - to you getting hate

「 seonghwa 」

healthy relationship weight gain was a real thing and, you would even admit, you were apart of that. over the last eleven months, you had probably gained about fifteen pounds. to be quite honest, you hadn’t taken too much notice of it until tweets were circling around with rumors attached.

you were in the midst of an instagram live when you stood up to grab your phone charger. after sitting back down and scanning the comments. your confidence dwindled.

“no, i’m not pregnant.” you tried to laugh it off, but deep down, you were hurt. seonghwa appeared suddenly after hearing the comments, peeking his head into the frame.

“atiny~” he hummed, holding onto your waist in a rib-crushing hug. “let’s not talk about people’s appearances. you never know what someone might be going through.”

「 hongjoong 」

it was your first live after publicly announcing your relationship with hongjoong. though you were nervous about negative reactions, you were more excited to be able to talk with those who were supportive. most of the comments were nice and welcoming, though there were the occasional rude remarks. for the most part, you dismissed them.

“still don’t understand the hype. she’s not the type of girl people look twice at.” you muttered off one of the comments and softly nodded. “i mean, that’s true.”

hongjoong was secretly listening from outside the room, his heart breaking at your response. he decided to wait for you to end the live before coming in and bombarding you with hugs and kisses.

“you. are. so. beautiful.” he pecked your cheeks between each word. “don’t forget that.”

「 yunho 」

yunho had never been happier. he was touring the world with his seven best friends and his soulmate. nothing could have possibly been better. it was late after their concert. the nine of you took a stroll down the streets of paris, taking in the scenery and simply enjoying yourselves. yunho had managed to slip away from the group, dragging you to a frozen yogurt shop down the way.

“should i get country vanilla or-”

“-yunho deserves better~” a voice sang from the distance, cutting yunho off mid sentence. he looked around to find a face, trying his best to remain calm.

he turned back around, hugged you, and cheekily grinned, raising his voice to sing back, “you can’t get better than the best~”

「 yeosang 」

it wasn’t like yeosang to be very vocal about his concerns, but when you started receiving death threats on the daily, he had enough. he marched down to the ceo of kq and demanded that legal actions be taken to any further immeneces, to which they agreed.

when you were told about yeosang’s requests, you were mortified. “what if things get worse because of this? i don’t want you to suffer the consequences of being with me.”

“y/n,” he ducked down to meet your eyes when you hung your head. “you’re one of the people i care about most. i’m not going to let ignorant people tear you down and make you feel unsafe.”

「 san 」

you were never confident about your facial features and it heavily affected the way you saw yourself. being with san, you slowly began to love the way you looked with his words of encouragement. but it wasn’t long until that was crushed. scrolling through tiktok one morning, you stumbled upon a video that caught your eye.

it was a video about you with several pictures teasing at your crooked smile. you couldn’t lie, you were devastated. the one thing that you were most self conscious of was being blasted over social media and a majority of the comments were agreeing. san peeked over, after hearing the same audio replaying several times, and pouted.

“i love your smile!” he exclaimed and laid his head on your chest. “it’s what makes me happy. i don’t know what they’re talking about!”

「 mingi 」

it was almost immediately that mingi noticed your bubbly personality soon become cold and serious. you tried to persuade him that you were just maturing yourself as a person, but he knew you better than you knew yourself. he turned to his members to help investigate.

yeosang stumbled upon tweets being sent out about you being ‘annoying and loud’. he showed mingi and mingi, within an instant, was rushing to find you. rounding the corner to the living room, he found you silently scrolling through twitter. he snatched the phone from your hand and set it down.

“stop reading those. they’re not true.” he kissed your forehead. “i love your personality. it’s why i fell in love with you.”

「 wooyoung 」

the hate was beyond ridiculous at this point and wooyoung was fed up. your entire instagram was flooded with comments mocking every little thing: your laugh, unintentional clingy habits, and sometimes as far as your race. for the most part, you weren’t too bothered, choosing to ignore it instead of making things worse. but wooyoung couldn’t take seeing such awful things about the person he loved.

he was on an idol program when asked about the status of his relationship, to which he replied, “being with someone who has such a crazy life can be hard. i’m very thankful that she’s so understanding and supportive. she doesn’t deserve any of the negative comments being made right now and i hope people will learn to love her as much as i do.”

「 jongho 」

jongho, himself, was no stranger to backlash and hate. so when you started trending on twitter for looking a little underdressed — fan taken photos of you walking to the convenience store in overly baggy clothes, acne breakouts on display, and hair not brushed — jongho was quick to respond.

he posted a picture on his weverse account the next morning, freshly rolled out of bed, textured skin and eye bags prevalent, with the caption: just woke up and still looking good. let’s bring each other up, not tear each other down! 😁

it was a small act but you were still very grateful. you knew the company would be upset about him not presenting the ideal “idol look” to everyone, but he didn’t seem too fazed.

“we’re all human.” he shrugged. “it’s nothing to be ashamed of.”

[xxatinyminionxx]

Minion’s Followers Survey (#1) Results!!!

The survey received a total of 70 responses! I also participated though so technically together you all responded 69 different times (nice). Anyways, let’s get started analyzing the results!

50% of you found me from my writing which is great! Also as I expected, a lot of you found me from soft/hard hour asks!

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**Cut off responses:

For Enhypen content!

You reblog cool posts!

literally everything omg ilysm Eunha :(( <3

i don’t think i do…yet

you’re a good friend honestly, i like being in your company :D

cuz u followed me **

Okay I didn’t think TXT and Enhypen would be this close because I get a lot more interaction about the former. Also thank you to those who follow me for me too <33

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Looks like y’all love Yeonjun and Jay!

I didn’t expect Jay to come out on top like I really thought it would be Jake or someone else. Also it’s okay Sunoo + Sunghoon stans, I stand with you <33

Oh and Soobin?! I really thought he would get a greater percentage, but it’s hard to pick a favorite. I mean look at some of you picking OT5 🙏

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I’m shocked by this too. Both 19-21 and 16-18 are sooo close. Um— View my content responsibly is all I ask please and thank you. Also my elder followers, hi there 👋

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Oooh awesome! We love representation here <3

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**Cut off response: OMG IS THIS A REFERENCE TO THAT ICONIC TXT WEVERSE DEBATE BECAUSE IF SO I LOVE U. also its one hole!! >:(( **

IT HAS ONE HOLE GUYS COME ON 😂 jkjk unless…

AND YES THIS IS A TXT REFERENCE

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AND WATER CANT BE WET 😩

The response in green is my thought process ☝️

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I WILL ^^ (who said no-)

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Q: Where are you from?

Okay this is interesting. North America, Europe, and Asia are the top 3 regions. I guess it has to do with my anons and moots, but I was under the impression that the majority of my followers were European. It’s honestly cool to be proven wrong lol

Q: Zodiac sign?

ALRIGHT TAURUSES WE SEE YOU 🙌

Also Aries, Virgos, and Geminis

I think each sign is here, fun :3

Q: Sexuality?

Alright you sexy people, I see you 💞

Q: Suggestions for next survey?

As I said in a previous reblog, I just made a second survey based off your suggestions here! I’ll make it live sometime next week! (Please note that some suggestions I got need a separate survey, so they might not be included)

Q: Something to say to me?

Ily2 !!!!! 💖

Taehyun give men a good rep 👌

As always, thank you for enjoying what I do!!

Helloooo

I got two marriage proposals?? 😅 Y’all are cute and might need to visit my inbox 💞

Nsfw twitter x hard hours = <3 (someone had to say it)

I’ll take care of myself! I’m more consciously doing that now :)

Eunnie— SUSHI ROLL ADMIN??? 🥺💕

I feel like I’m still lacking as a writer, but I’m glad you enjoy my writing so much, it means a lot!

Well I stan my gf chuu <3

To the networking question, I actually had trouble with this for awhile, but my suggestion is to do some blog exploring to find creators you like. You can reblog their posts, comment on them, and I believe you can find some mutuals! Even if they seem intimidating, I’m sure they would love to have a new mutual as long as you approach them nicely!

I’ll keep the self care reblogs coming! (I do like my pillow cold ty hehe)

It’s because of you all that I’m still running my blog! Thank you <3

Stream tayo 🚌🚌🚌

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© 2021 xxatinyminionxx. All Rights Reserved.

[taekooktimeline]

1) I admire a lot the hard work you put into your timeline, please don't take it the wrong way, but how do you make sense of taekook happily dating but not seeing eo during their long break in 2019 ? Ppl keep saying it's not healthy for couples to be always together and it's normal to take alone time since they're workmates but it's not like they can actually "be" a couple during work

Kayla: Sara and I have a goal to go back through 2019 and firm it up even more, but we will have to agree to disagree, and that’s ok! ☺️We both don’t see any breakup in 2019. Tae commented 2019 was an okay year, which I doubt he’d say if they had broken up. Not only that, but through 2019, into 2020, both Tae and Jk were loud in their own ways to one another, which I just don’t see happening if there is a breakup.

We delve into 2019 a little more here: https://taekooktimeline.tumblr.com/post/639391942900350976/december-31st-2019-january-1st-2020

But will expand further as we can.

Keep in mind, they’re closeted so they can’t be fully forthright. Perhaps they did see each other during the break, but they omitted sharing that which is their right to do. Being closeted, not out, it wouldn’t surprise me if Jk decided to not mention this when he spoke about who he saw. And maybe he did only see Hobi and Jimin. I’m going to Japan for 3 weeks without my partner this year (if the pandemic lets up). It doesn’t mean we have issues. I am a person outside my relationship and I like to go do things separate from that. Maybe it’s as simple as that. But I’m not a fan of how people (I’m not saying you necessarily, just Tkers in general) seem to actively look for negativity when I find this quite straight forward - a closeted couple who can’t be fully open, not disclosing all of what they did on their break (which is their right), and people analyzing it so deeply. We only see a fraction of their lives. They aren’t obligated to share, and also keep in mind, as upsetting as people weirdly get hearing this, BTS do lie and avoid being fully forthright and that’s fine. They don’t owe us a thing. So the way I see it, maybe Jk omitted he spent time with Tae, or maybe they did take time to see other people, since they are busy 10-18 hours a day with BTS. There is such a thing as FaceTime when you’re seperate from your person. And I just am a firm believer being closeted means we’re not privy to everything. I wouldn’t necessarily take that comment at face value when factoring in other variables.

Going with the point we only see a fraction - remember how out of pure luck we caught Tae leaving the boathouse Jk slept in during IST? We would’ve never known Tae had even been in there before the sunrise if we didn’t see that one specific frame. They didn’t mention it. They gave no indication of it. What about the drama with hot 100 and the contradictions in stories that got everyone confused? Those examples show they omit. We only see so much. They only share so much.

Leading up to that break Jk gestured very obviously to Tae that he is his life partner. They were spotted going to the movies together. Only Jk knew Tae got nail care one day in a run episode filmed that summer. Jk sat on Tae’s lap. Jk is at Tae’s army zip photo shoot. They’re filmed listening to “winter bear” and are rumored to have shared a 1 bedroom space separate from the members during summer package. Jk gives Tae the “way beyond my imagination” award. In BV4.. which needs to be addressed since people find drama here too for some reason I can’t understand ... he buys Tae a coat, happily announces (mistakingly) he is Tae’s roommate, helps him with Uno, they take photos together and Jk recognizes his playlist in the RV .. plus he protectively offered to cut the thorns when Tae comments on them. Fast forward after the break and Tae holds Jk’s hand, the first public appearance after the tattoo girl scandal. To me that’s a statement on its own. And then from there you have “the closer you are the shorter the letter”, among many other cute moments in winter package, Jk flirtingly asking Tae to car share, and you jump into 2020 with GDA, back hugging in black swan, being loud in general in America (dancing together, being affectionate), Tae being loud about Jk or 🐯🐰on Weverse .. I mean.. I just don’t see how that all happens if there’s an issue. All before the month break, and after the month break, they don’t show any tension or issue. So because a closeted, private couple doesn’t give a full break down of what they did every single day of their vacation, which were not entitled to know, we just ignore all the positive actions and words they made about or towards each other before and after break, or the fact Tae said 2019 wasn’t a bad year overall? I don’t get that.

I mean .. if someone sees an issue so be it but my mind is really firm there was no issue in 2019.

And as far as the living situation goes, we all know Tae has his own space but I actually don’t have any insight into the living situation further. It’s too complex. But I highly doubt Taekook are not seeing each other outside of work commitments. No matter what the living situation is, I’m sure they’re spending time together, or else the relationship would collapse. We get comments, pictures and videos from people seeing them out and about (movies, shopping, food, Namsan, etc..) so that’s pretty obvious they spend time together outside of work.

And as far as Jk’s birthday goes, I’ve heard rumors but I’m not going to share because I’m not comfortable and it’ll just start arguing. Plus I have an opinion on some of the drama of that but again I’m not going there because I just know where that will go. So all I’m going to say is again, we are only privy to so much going on in their lives. But as far as I’m concerned, Tk were fine before, during and after BV4, tattoo girl and jk’s birthday.

Again, totally cool we disagree but this is my stance. Thank you for the well wishes. That’s very sweet 💜

Sara’s General Disclaimer: I may select some asks, think about them and answer in the future through either Tumblr, Twitter or YouTube. Kayla will take over the discussion section as she enjoys active debates and will make the time for it, but I still read them all. Be nice to each other 💜 As it’s natural, I may or may not differ with Kayla’s take/ words.

[missartus]

Merry Christmas!

Figured that I should write a post at Christmas, given all the chaos that’s been 2020 lol. Well, for one, Covid’s still here and so it’s still been pretty hard for everyone. Personally, my Christmas obviously changed in a way that it’s more chill this time around. Not that I’m complaining ‘cause this is probably my most preferred way of celebrating the holidays, but I’d rather have a chill Christmas because I wanted it and not because the circumstances forced us to. I didn’t even bother to dress up nor put on some makeup because I was really lazy to do so, and to be honest, the Christmas spirit isn’t really as felt this time around. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only one who feels this. 

Anyway, I didn’t really intend to make a depressing post LOL. It’s the other way around, actually. I’ve been meaning to write something for a few days now but I’ve been lazy. I actually wanted to say that given all the chaos, thankfully I had a couple of things that kept me sane. They’re mostly new hobbies and interests, and some may come off as a shock, even. So here are my life updates so far. A list of things that helped me survive 2020 😌

Baking

It started with a box of pancake mix. A few months back, I was supposed to make some pancakes for an afternoon snack, but then I was kinda tired with eating pancakes that I wondered if there is any other way I can turn that mix into. I eventually ended up with these hard chocolate turnovers lmao. After that, I was suddenly baking almost every week. So far, I’ve baked coffee buns, lemon bars, pandesal!, pound cakes, cookies (ofc), and cinnamon rolls. I’m targeting to go for naked cakes but I am yet to buy an electric mixer. For someone who hates measurements and all, it’s a shock for me to be into baking. But it’s been so therapeutic for me. The kneading of the dough, the whisking, mixing, the rise, the waiting on the oven — so zen. I guess, it’s cause it keeps my mind off of things, and whenever I bake, I’m just so focused on what I’m doing. So it’s like, I’m in my own bubble of productivity for a long while. Also, I’d say it kinda helps with my self-esteem, as baking has allowed me to prove to myself that I can do something delish. Whenever I look at the finished products, I couldn’t believe that I, me, Mich, me, did that! I think that happened when I made pandesals and when I really liked the cinammon rolls. I was like, “Omg, I can’t believe I did this!” Aside from my fam, I’ve sent a few of my pastries to friends as well, and some say that I should start a business already lol. But that’s so far from my mind right now. I mean, I’d want to, in the future. But not sometime soon. I still want to enjoy this season where I’m plainly learning and enjoying the process of baking. I don’t, and am not, prepared for the pressure and hassle of it all yet. 🤪

Workout

I’ve been working out for a few years now but I wasn’t as consistent as how I’ve been the past couple of months. I used to workout every freaking day, but lately it would just be about thrice or four times a week. My past blog posts would give you a hint about my relationship with my body and food. It hasn’t been really nice in general, but working out really does help me improve my mindset towards my body image. Admittedly, I began working out because I wanted to lose weight, but eventually (and thankfully), it transformed into me working out because it makes me strong and it benefits my mental health a lot. I do a variety, although most times I’d do cardio, then I’ll just pair it up with either weights or another round of cardio but dance.

The process has been fun, and I don’t really pressure myself or limit myself when it comes to food. I still eat whatever’s there, but right now it’s all portion control, really. In all fairness, I think because I’ve been working out, my appetite isn’t as huge as it used to be. I get fuller fast these days, and I rarely binge-eat, unless I re-stock on Korean grocery food hahahaha. Anyway speaking of Korean, here’s my last interest update...

BTS

Yup. As in that K-pop boyband. As in Bangtan Sonyeondan. As in that band who’s taking over the world. What a plot twist, right? I’ve never been into K-pop to begin with, so BTS (and eventually, K-pop in general) is probably my biggest musical plot twist so far. I initially was supposed to write a whole separate blog post about this (because that’s how OBSESSED I AM WITH BTS) but I figured that I’ll just include them in this “life update” entry. But for real, it began back in October, when I saw this screenshot of RM’s WeVerse comment/reply to a fan. I’m pasting it here for reference lol.

For some reason, I was really impressed after seeing this. I’ve known the band for a while already. I know how big they are and I even have friends who are huge fans. I’ve seen a couple of their online content in the past as well, but I think it was this image that made me really realize why they’ve been getting so much attention and why their fanbase just keeps on growing. This was the first time that I “got it”, if you know what I mean. Anyway, a bit after that my ARMY friends messaged me and I was immediately swooped into the world of BTS. I don’t regret any of it though haha! I have so much feelings about this topic (lololol) but I’ll try to hold back. Who knows, I might continue with that separate blog post anyway 💁‍♀️ My bias is Namjoon (my goodness, this man is such a dream), while my bias wrecker is Jimin. Although I think my bias wrecker changes everyday now lmao. 😂 I’ll say this though, it wasn’t their pretty faces that got me. If anything, I think that really comes as secondary, because what made me an Army was their talent, their story, and their character. These boys are really men of substance, and their songs and advocacy can attest to how principled they are. Their songs have also helped me so much as I am still in the process of improving myself, my mental health, and all these introspective things. I remember this one time where I bawled my eyes out when I was reading through the English translation of Answer: Love Myself. In a year when I almost lost myself again due to how depressing this year was, it feels good to root for something, or in this case, someone, and see them flourish in success. They really started at the bottom, and I guess in a way their story also inspires me to keep on doing what I’m doing, knowing that someday, everything will make sense and I’ll finally make it. 

BTS also led me to listen to other K-pop acts as well such as Day6 (another fave!), Monsta X, Shinee, IU, Henry, and BlackPink (very recently hahaha) Ok, I’ll stop right there. 😬 Funny how I just cannot get the K-pop hype for so many years, and now I’m genuinely enjoying it. It’s become my go-to work soundtrip also as I don’t get carried away by singing along to the lyrics as, ofc, it’s in a different language lol.

Plants

I remember last year when my colleagues at work gave me this plant and they assured me that it won’t die but it did. It kinda made me think that I don’t have a green thumb and that I can never maintain a plant. But guess what, I have about 7 plants now and THEY’RE ALL THRIVING SO WELL. I’m so invested in these plant babies and I’m so proud of myself that they’re all so alive and doing well. There were some scares, I admit. Like this one time when I attempted to re-pot my Syngonium Arrowhead and it almost died lol but I re-did it and thankfully it resurrected hahahahaha. Again, just like what I said about BTS and my baking, my plants are also testament to how it feels nice to root for (no pun intended) something and see them thrive, and how it feels so satisfying and reassuring to see something that I’ve been taking care of live healthy and happy. 

So yeah, there’s that. 

Those are what my life has been circling around these days. As I’ve said, I’m very grateful that I got into these things, little as they may seem as compared to others. But hey, they make me happy, and I think at this point in time, as long as something makes you happy and sane, that’s all that matters. You do you, girl. Wow, I can’t believe that I wrote this long. It’s been a while since I did! Anyway, I’m gonna end this here now as it’s getting late and I still have stuff to do. 

Merry Christmas!

[cutiesexylovelybts]

Member: Jimin (BTS)

Genre: Angst/fluff/fiction/friendship

Word count: 1559

Summary: After a hard day of practicing difficult thoughts come to mind. So many questions arise feeding Jimin's fear and insecurities. The comeback is around the corner and here I am feeling this way. Did I lose my passion? Can I escape this dark prison I put myself in or will I be able to soar high again freely?

A story inspired by the album Map of the Soul 7, specifically Black Swan.

It was 22:00 PM. It was a crazy day. Here I was, sitting in the dancepractice room exhausted, drenched in sweat, my body all sore thinking about what happend today.

Everyone already went home but I decided to stay and practice some more.

I don't know what's going on with me lately... We have a new comeback around the corner and here I am still unable to do that spin.

I always seem to sabotage myself. Everyone tells me I'm doing fine and my dancing is amazing but I'm having a hard time believing it myself.

Come on man.. , we've been here before...*sigh*

Aah... perfection, this word has been my best friend, pushing me to work harder over the years but at the same time it was also my worst enemy.

Before we debuted I was always working so hard. Pushing myself to sometimes extreme ends, I didn't allow myself to give anything less than perfection.

Though I love it and want to achieve it, I'm also affraid to face it.

What if I don't make it..

What if I ruin it for the others..

If I fail, we all fail.

What if I can't do this happily anymore...

What if, what if, WHAT IF! SO MANY IF'S AND WHAT IF'S ARGH!..

I'm so much in my mind I can't get anything usefull out of me. This is my passion right?

That being said...

Why do I secretly feel like running away from all of this?

These past years we have been so succesful. It's like we are living the dream that was beyond what we could even imagine. Who would have thought 7 guys from South Korea could make it this far.

As happy as I am about how succesful we are, soaring in the sky with the wings given by ARMY..,

That's also how scared I am of flying so high in that spot.. From this height it seems like I have more fears than I ever had before. When we debuted I couldn't have ever imagined that this dream could feel so much like a nightmare at times.

I mean.. Our last comeback was months ago. And before that we were even thinking of possible disbandment. Can you believe it?... Just thinking about it.. I immidiatly feel the tears well up in my eyes.

You know what I fear the most.. I can't even say it. It's such a crazy thought but... What if I don't love doing this anymore. I can't be thinking this right now. What the heck is wrong with me!..

But it's a fact though, this fear is so real.. I'm scared. It's like a shadow, following me everywhere I go. Reminding me that flying that high may mean one day, if we ever fall, we might not survive that fall. If I lose my passion for all of this what's the use of continueing? Wasn't it this passion that saved us so many times before..

No I can't cry! We are at a better place now during this comeback.

*sigh* at the other hand, now that we've released the news about our comeback everyone is expecting a huge comeback. Especially our ARMY, more then dissapointing myself I really don't want to dissapoint them.

*sigh* I miss them so much... They always know how to encourage us when we are feeling down.

They have given us so much I want to give them perfection as a present and a thank you for everything. Just imagining those smiles, those cheers, those happy faces. I don't want to dissapoint them. I want to be real with them and show them I still love being with them while doing what I love the most. I still love it right?

But the way I am now.. I don't dare to face them. How am I going to face them if I can't even face myself...

I lift up my head and look at myself in the mirror. I saw a man sitting in the dark feeling so vulnerable and small. At that moment I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. A few minutes went by of me crying out of frustration and exhaustion being so dissapointed in myself.

Aah.. What am I going to do with you. Look at you questioning your abilities and talents again. Like you haven't gone through this before. Are you really going to give up? What would ARMY think of this, what would my brothers think of me like this?.. Comeback is just around the corner. Come on stop crying, get up and let's practice some more.

The moment I wipe my tears and get up I hear a voice calling my name.

Jimin?.. What are you doing here in the dark? He switched on the light.

At that moment I panicked and quickly wiped my tears. I was a total mess so ofcourse he immediately caught on what was going on. I mean he isn't my soulmate for nothing.

Jimin.. Are you crying? What's wrong?

Seeing him looking at me so worried made me feel like bawling my eyes out. I know I wasn't going to be able to hold back. I didn't want him to be worried. As my eyes filled with tears I suddenly see 5 other heads pop out behind him.

Oh noo what's going on?

Did we arrive too late?

We just brought you some food and drinks because you were practicing so hard. You know you should rest as well right?

See.. I knew he was going to be upset about what happend at dance practice today.

I was amazed to see even Yoongi hyung was here to comfort me. Normally he would've already gone to sleep after such a crazy day like this one. RM hyung is so busy lately with the songs and yet he is still here at this moment. Let's not even talk about Jin hyung. He is amazing, working on his singing and dancing. He even started learning the choreo earlier because he didn't want to slow us down, even though we told him that's not the case. He is working so hard, I'm really so proud of him.

Hey come here!! Before I know it I'm being hugged by the six of them.

Aahhww uri Jiminie don't cry. Everything will be alright. At that moment I couldn't hold my tears back anymore and let everything out.

Oh no.. Hobi hyung is looking at me with those worried eyes again, he knows I always beat myself up when I can't do the choreo as I want it. It's difficult dealing with us during dance practice sometimes yet he is always there to help us out. Everytime this happens he will always take the time to explain those moves we have a hard time with. Those eyes are speaking to me, clearly asking me: "Why didn't you reach out to me Jiminie?"

And these two goofballs always know to find me when I'm down to cheer me up. We are all exhausted of this crazy day.

And yet.. here we are.. After our group hug and them comforting me I told them my fears and insecurities. Afterwards they all shared theirs as well and I can say some tears were falling and some bawling happend. Jk still had a hard time seeing his hyungs having a hard time. I didn't think they were having such a hard time too. It's been a while since we shared with eachother like this as we ate and drank together. I'm happy to see us like this on this practice floor. It's almost been 7 years and we are still us. Our worries and fears are different now but I'm happy to see Bangtan still being Bangtan.

Taehyung shared with us all his fun adventures with ARMY on weverse and suggested we scroll through ARMY's posts for encouragement. We read some funny and touching posts to eachother and before I know it my insecurities and fears became insignificant. Looking at these brothers of mine and our ARMY I felt a current of a comforting warmth flow from my heart to my whole body. A sensation that made me feel secure and safe. That's when I realised again for the gazillionth time.. As long as we love eachother and trust eachother we will keep soaring together. And even if we fall, if it's with this family we can always soar toghether no matter what. That's when I looked at the clock and saw it's 0:00AM. It's a new day already. And no matter how great the struggles were yesterday, there was always a day that they passed just like today. As long as we are alive we can still fight.

Since we have been gifted with these wings helping us to soar higher we might as well go as far and as high as we can. Yes we might always feel the fear of falling, but falling is a possibility and no certainty. Just like any other ending. At the end of the day none of us know the ending so we might as well enjoy the ride there.

If we have eachother and ARMY we will always have the courage to face our fears. We will always find the love and the passion to continue. We will eternally be bulletproof.

Thank you for reading my first short story. I hope you liked it and I wish you the best. Remember to never give up but keep moving forward no matter what. Have a nice day😄💜