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the interesting about clash within the context of arya's arc is that its the only book - so far - that ends with arya fully embracing her identity. it ends on a, relatively, high note as far as that is concerned. which i would argue makes it feel a lot different from the rest.
in game her last chapter features ned's execution and arya's life is torn apart. her identity and future are both thrown into doubt.
in storm arya is left reeling from the aftermath of trw and she is flung further off course than ever when she sets sail for braavos
in feast she is blinded
in dance her last words are "no one" as she prepares to receive a new face
but clash is different. it breaks the pattern. which is why ive always felt it represents arya's greater arc on a smaller scale. when it opens arya is using her first true alias. over the course of the book she struggles until arya is doubting who she is and where she belongs. its at that point that the old gods intervene. they remind arya; her identity and her place ("arya of winterfell, daughter of the north") and of what matters most to her ("the pack survives") arya hears wolves howling from outside harrenhal again and again and again as these last few moments play out in clash.
arya grabs a hold of it with everything she's got. she smashes the broomstick over her knee. she gathers her boys. she steals supplies. she cuts thru the guard standing in her way. she gets her hands bloody. she is resolved to return to her life as arya.
i ALSO think arya's twow arc will mirror clash in terms of storytelling more than any of the other books so far. arya's clash arc is split into two equal sections: 5 chapters in the wartorn countryside and 5 chapters as a "servant" (pow) in harrenhal for a total of 10. twow will reverse this with x number of chapters as a "servant" in braavos to start and x number of chapters back in westeros @ war to finish. the ratio might be different but i think she will have a similar number of chapters in total.
when clash opens arya is forced into the identity of arry. yoren has done this to try and protect her from arrest and assault.
Afterward he told her that from there to Winterfell she'd be Arry the orphan boy. [...] "This lot, half o' them would turn you over to the queen quick as spit for a pardon and maybe a few silvers. The other half'd do the same, only they'd rape you first." (ACOK)
and we have arya's opening twow chapter
Mercy, I’m Mercy, and tonight I’ll be raped and murdered. Her true name was Mercedene, but Mercy was all anyone ever called her… (TWOW)
arya is once again using an alias and one of her first thoughts is that she will be raped and murdered. but arya is no longer the one in danger here. at least not from that.
arya's early clash chapters also introduce some key components that have already become relevant as of her first twow chapter. lommy greenhands, arya's traveling companion, is ruthlessly murdered by raff the sweetling which is echoed in mercy. arya makes raff beg for mercy. despite what was supposed to be 5 years of indoctrination she hasn't forgotten anything.
jaqen h'ghar is also introduced in arya's early clash storyline. jaqen is an incredibly mysterious character. when he first speaks arya is instantly reminded of syrio forel, her braavosi mentor. jaqen is a faceless men, but this is never directly stated in the text. his fake persona claims to be from lorath - the free city nearest to braavos. where this man was born will never be known but the assassin is a braavosi figure at his core just like syrio. which is reinforced when he sends arya in that direction as they part.
"You don't know what's out there, Arry. I heard wolves before." Yoren wouldn't like it if she fought with him. She tried to look afraid. "Wolves? For true?" (ACOK) Mercy looked down at her feet, so shy. “Izembaro said to please the lords,” she whispered. “If there is anything you want, anything at all…" (TWOW)
in clash we see arya have to start acting. she is in a dangerous situation on the road. she has to conceal her true identity. in mercy its official as arya trains with the mummers. she is playing a role within a role. her acting skills has improved, but arya does still show thru the mask.
I won't cry, she thought, I won't do that. I'm a Stark of Winterfell, our sigil is the direwolf, direwolves don't cry. (ACOK) “I would like to see a dragon,” Mercy said wistfully. “Why does the envoy have a chicken on his chest?” Daena howled. “Mercy, don’t you know anything? It’s his siggle. In the Sunset Kingdoms all the lords have siggles." (TWOW)
part of the routine is that arya is foolish and braavosi born. she pretends not to know what sigils are with mercy's friend daena despite arya's own sigil being the direwolf.
the biggest role arya takes on in clash is that of a servant. her secret girlhood is "taken" like everything else when her and the boys are captured. arya then becomes weasel - a serving girl. servitude is a major component at this point in her storyline as it has become again in braavos. both ask the same question: can arya forget who she is and submit to this?
the answer is no. arya reaches this conclusion in harrenhal as she prays before the heart tree. she remembers who she is and finds a way out of the situation that was causing her identity crisis. the situation in the hob&w is very similar. arya will remember herself and get out.
#if it seems like i combined 2 posts here to get them both out of my drafts at the same time#thats bc it is 2 posts-#asoiaf nonsense#*and another thing!#acok ends with a very heavy focus on the wolf pack#even if from a distance#and i think that will be the case with twow too#arya and nymeria will be reunited by the end of it
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He's been hauled around by so many people and animals at this point in his life that he's starting to rate them by size and comfort level.
He's literally bent over backwards on a horse ridden by three other men here. He's having this thought in the privacy of his own mind while frowning at the sky, still shot full of lead bullets btw. Peak Law moment.
Episode 690 at 20:54 (the voice acting for this line is amazing)
#trafalgar law#one piece#just a few minutes earlier Luffy comes running ROARING into the scene with Law on his shoulder. like out of the fog. from a distance#as if he's been running and roaring for quite some time#when it's just them. Luffy wasn't even screaming AT anyone. just roaring while running when nobody is around to hear except Law#and Law is just dead silent. unmoving#and the thought of Luffy screaming for prolonged periods of time while Law is on his shoulder almost made me snort spaghetti out of my nose#I forgot how completely zoned out he is for a lot of this#ragdoll cat potato sack man lost in his own little world
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"What have they done to you,
Old friend."
Trapped in the fade, Solas comes face to face with the remnant of his spirit.
The Dread Wolf was his wisdom, mirror to his pride. In the wake of the wrathful Evanuris, it too, has succumbed to their taint.
Or, where I'm making wild plot speculations surrounding Solas trapped in the fade. while turning my brainrot into art pieces and gifs. I'M PACING MY ENCLOSURE. Looking for crumbs and scrabs of Veilguard. Please Bioware I'm begging, feed me. 😭
#I made like 3 different versions of this lol#Anyways the first sketch is the best#Trying not to over complicate my artworks#When working on my iPad I just keep zooming zooming zooming untill I can give Solas a kiss on the nose#But then I also lose the space for gesture so now I just wave from a tragic distance to my boy#Beautiful bald headed boy#Can't wait to see what new plot the developers have devised to torture him even more. Here is my two cents. Face confrontations to the past#Hell yeah#the veilguard#veilguard speculation#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age theory#da: the veilguard#Da: the Veilguard artwork#Dragon age fanart#Solas#Solas fanart#fen harel#The Dread Wolf#The dreaded husband#art#Daze Chroma#Dazechroma#My art#da:tv#da:v#datv spoilers#datv speculation
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I added some colours to her :)
#digital art#character art#character design#marcia#discworld#discworld fanart#angua von uberwald#bro i need to get weirder i need my art to be weirder i need the shapes i need the colurs i need to not play safe i need to be a freak#2025 goal become an even bigger freak i can never stop#i really like how she turned out#i never used such muted colours before i kinda like how murky she looks#a true ankhmorporkian#still making my way through men at arms they just found the clown#i am fascinated with the river that is running through that city#it makes me think of Bristol uk <3#going back to angua i like to think the armour they gave her was already all beaten up#hello and welcome to the nightwatch. have the nastiest underfunded gear we could find this side of the city#also i like to think that the official colours of ankh morpork are greenred#two colours on the opposing sides of the colour wheel but they are forced together to coexist#ankh would be green morpork would be red#and now everyone and their patrician just gotta cope#worldbuilding through colour would be fun : )#ohhh the inside of the palace could look quite cool because it would have to utilize both to celebrate the union#but then you go into the city and across the river you can sorta see the divide#not that all the houses would be one colour or whatever thats a bit predictable#but through fashion statements or exported goods or family insignia#and then you could incorporate it further for example vimes the guy of the city would want to take on the whooole thang. thats his city#some criss cross apple sauce checkers quilted mismatched mumbo jumbo#and then in contrast to that you would have his wife-elected suit and tie getup that distances him from his duty and kills him#so many options i tell you
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Bonus 12: Beware the Grapes of Wrath.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen qing#wen ning#WWX's main weapon as the Yiling patriarch is considered to be 'Wen Ning' - which makes sense as far as the whole necromancer thing goes.#However...That *is* Wen Qing's beloved baby brother!#In her perspective WWX skipped town for a few days (or so) and took WN with him#only for them both to show up bloodied and in a state of disarray.#There's no way he told her he was going out to duel Jiang Cheng. For several reasons.#He doesn't want to involve her in his messes anymore than he already has.#It's less that she would try and stop him and more so that he honestly wouldn't even think to say something about it to her.#WQ and him aren't partners in this situation. He actually openly disregards her opinions several times.#Wei Wuxian's emotional distance from everyone around him is a big part of this arc.#Like all good tragedies...his biggest flaw is his hubris. He doesn't *need* anyone when he's so capable on his own.#He doesn't need to ask permission when obviously this is the only way forwards.#He has to do it all on his own! No one else needs to be involved!#And if you've been in the position of realizing you have a problem of toxic self-reliance - you know how harmful this mindset is.#It's why it's so satisfying to see WWX in his 'new' life start to let other's share his burdens.#I will die on the hill of 'love means carrying each other's weight. All a burden means is that I can give you support and you support me.'#YLLZ is less 'competent and sexy' and more 'depressed and can't see it'.#Another lovely nod to the main theme here is how he starts leaning more and more into the rumours about him.#Though we are also still confronted with how these rumours fail to actually live up to reality.#Rumour has it the Yiling Patriarch is undefeatable. What a shame if that rumour turned out to be untrue!
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Andor S02E05 "I Have Friends Everywhere"
#i've been waiting for this line from dedra since that denise and kyle interview#dedra saying 'it's good to see you happy' but not 'it's good to see you happy'#and still struggling for like ten seconds to get even those words out 😂#also the stolen looks throughout the entire scene#the excessive distance#dedra saying WE'll keep you briefed instead of i#keero working together with covert facetime calls and 1 (ONE) hour long nighttime visits#syril karn#dedra meero#keero#major partagaz#andor#andor spoilers#myedit
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2024 art summary! it sure has been a year
#ever makes art#i bsky tweeted a bit but it feels weird talking there still so ill do my usual rambling into tags here :)c#i burned out super bad in the middle of this year for months where it felt like i couldnt draw anything good no matter how hard i tried#and the harder i tried the worst it felt - to the degree that i legitimately thought i wasnt going to be able to draw anything again#which sounds SO dramatic i know i know. but feelings arent always rational!!! and so many others things were going wrong at the same time#so it was strange putting together this year's art summary and realizing Huh. i did still have paintings to put in every space#that fear/anxiety spiral seems even sillier and more meaningless now that i have distance and proof of how irrational it was...#...but in reflection i'd like to think of it as proof that even when you feel at your worse it's worth it to keep trying...!!#after the Black Hole of Nothing i've been working every day on never ending doujin and xv anthology and orv sketchzine and merch#i can't say that i feel my artistic skills have like. improved or anything... but the passion i feel for the stories i read and#the stories i want to tell is still there!! and the happiness from getting to put form to those feelings large or small is worth it too#anyway......... lotta words to say tho i haven't posted much anymore and socmed is imploding and the world is dark#thank you very much for staying with me another year. i am - as ever - always grateful
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I'm kind-of genuinely devastated that they decided to cut out the reveal of Perrin having known all along about Mon Mothma's rebel activities and was getting interrogated WEEKLY by the Empire and never cracked even once.
This would've helped answer SO MANY QUESTIONS about Mon and Perrin, and it could've easily helped answer the question of why Mon felt like she could just walk away from her family after making herself public enemy number one.
She goes to finally explain it all to Perrin right before she makes the speech because dammit she might not have trust him or even like him all that much but she doesn't want him DEAD and he deserves the chance to find this out from her and get himself to safety before she turns his life upside down, and he tells her he's known all along and covered for her this whole time and never once cracked or been discovered, even when she framed him for gambling and sold off their daughter to a gangster's son. He lets her know that he doesn't need to go to safety, he's not just going to run now because that'll just make him look like he was involved in it. He can continue to cover for himself when the Empire comes to interrogate him again, and he can do it well enough to ensure Leida doesn't get implicated, either. Mon's priority is the rebellion, her priority is her work and it always has been, even to the detriment of her relationship with her family, and Perrin understood that but it meant that HIS priority had to be protecting and taking care of Leida in the absence of her mother. So Mon has to go, but Perrin has to stay because their daughter needs him now more than ever.
And it just makes the choice that Mon has made so clear, the sacrifice she chose to make for the sake of the rebellion, and she can't back out now, she can't make a different choice because she tells herself she's doing this FOR Leida, to try to make a better world for her daughter to live in, but in order to give Leida that world, she has to leave Leida behind.
But she realizes now that she CAN trust Perrin, she could've trusted him all along, so she chooses to trust him now. She trusts him with their daughter, she trusts that he can take care of himself and Leida in her absence once more.
This helps Mon's arc SO MUCH, and I honestly love it, and as Bissell says it's technically a non-canon thing now because it clearly never even made it into the script really let alone got filmed, but it's pretty easy to slot it into what we DID get to see, so as far as I'm concerned, this is my canon. This fixes so many of the problems I had with the end of this arc for Mon and makes it so much more emotional and almost tragic. Mon made her choices and you can argue that some of them were mistakes if you want, you can argue that it made her a bad mother if you wanted to, but it's so much more complicated and nuanced than that, and I love that this finally makes that so clear. Mon made her choice and her family paid the price a long time ago, long before Mon was willing to acknowledge that she'd made that choice.
#star wars#mon mothma#perrin fertha#andor#andor spoilers#andor s2 spoilers#sw andor#star wars andor#this fits in SO much better with the perrin from mask of fear actually too#and the relationship he and mon have and the choice that mon makes towards the end about keeping him in the loop or not#she doesn't KNOW for sure if she can trust him and she has to make a choice and she does#and she sticks to it#but she did know that he had strengths that she didn't have and they had been more of a team once and she did care about him#and i love the idea that mon is the one who keeps distancing herself and all perrin can do is watch#and he's smart enough and connected enough to know exactly what's happening and why and he even AGREES with it#even though he hates that she doesn't trust him and hates the way it makes leida feel#he never confronts her about it because what she's doing IS important and if she wanted to trust him to help her then he's right there#he loves mon enough to just keep his silence and take care of leida and do what has to be done to protect her#and mon loves perrin enough to try to protect him by keeping him out of it#and unfortunately all that does is tear the two of them apart because that's what secrets do#GOD it just HITS in the perfect way#this is the kind of quality development we could've gotten with fuller seasons#just let mon feel the real consequences of the choices she's made#let her get slapped in the face with the truth of what she's chosen to do#and she can't regret it or even claim that she wishes she'd done it any other way#but her actions have had consequences#much like cassian's choices have consequences even if he'd do it again if he had to because the rebellion and the cause is worth it
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Mark S they could never make me hate you. Helly they could never make me hate you. Gemma they could never make me root against you. Helena they could never make me root against you. Ms Casey they could never make me forget you. Mark Scout I have some notes.
#I love him actually what am I even saying#I don’t have good arguments in favor of him!!!#but I’m fond of him#he’s like all the men in my life but he’s fake and not real so I can enjoy him from a safe distance#and feel oddly at home#forgive my conversation maria#severance#gemma scout#helly r#mark scout#helena eagan#mark s#ms casey
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[ cw: death mention / sibling death mention / isolation / ]
Thinking about how Leo’s portal and teleportation powers have both directly (and in one instance, indirectly) been the cause of him being separated from his brothers at least four times now.
There’s that time in Portal Jacked, where his inexperience leads to his portal being messed with and his brothers ending up in Tahiti.
There’s the Bad Timeline, where Leo’s portaling led to them losing the Key, therefore indirectly leading to the apocalypse and in turn, ending with Leo being the last of his brothers alive (though just for a few minutes.)
There’s him teleporting him and Krang into the Prison Dimension, cutting him off from his family so wholly that the only way to fix this was a literal mystic miracle.
Then there’s the comic, where Leo’s powers act up again and make him lose months of time completely isolated from everyone and everything he knows.
Just, looking at all of this, it’s like the universe gave him the powers of distance on purpose to test him (and his bros), literally seeing if they can overcome unimaginable space and still make it back together. Imagine if it doesn’t stop here, and Leo has to learn to either deal with the occasional complete isolation or deal with time travelers coming back to stop some terrible event his powers (whether directly or indirectly) have caused, events that always lead to separation in some way, shape, or form.
It’s worth noting, too, that his portals often led to accidental separation, but his teleportation was the one power of his that was used to isolate himself on purpose…and was also the one that in any other scenario would have been the most permanent.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rottmnt headcanons#rise leo#rise comic spoilers#tmnt 40th anniversary#adding those last two just in case even though it’s been months lol#anyway hiiii I still think about Leo all the time and the Implications of his abilities#I truly do think their powers matter sooooo much to their characters frfr#and it’s very very interesting to me that Leo’s whole lineup has everything to do with space and distance#and he himself is constantly forced away from his family#no but imagine this happening all the time - like…his abilities almost PURPOSEFULLY causing his separation in some way#maybe as a test? to test his and his family’s bonds? their bonds are what ultimately power them after all#Leo in particular has lacking faith in himself and his powers despite his confidence in other areas#and I wonder if that comes through in his abilities#I love Leo getting better and better at his powers but the innate self isolating/self destructing nature of them never leaves#Leo: no I don’t wanna be vulnerable#His Powers: no? but what if *this*#Leo: w h y#Leo: actually what if I do it MYSELF *teleports himself into the Prison Dimension*#His Powers: 👍#Mikey: 👎 ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ NO????#leos over the years isolating themselves for training and/or self punishment indirectly leading to rise leo being cursed#(also I’m still gone haha this just hit by brain and I’m too tired to not write it out lmao)
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Does anyone think that dating one of the demons or angels could be considered a "forbidden love" trope in some way?
With peace and power dynamics between the 3 realms being mentioned as fragile, exactly why Diavolo rejected the idea of marriage when asked in S3 by the brothers, wouldn’t it then be considered risky to, publicly at the very least, date the demon/ angel from the realm they reside in?
MC, the sorcerer that surpassed their master who is deemed the most powerful sorcerer himself, considered a powerful weapon, with an (unstable, without protection from the ring of light) immense amount of magic, in a relationship with demon/ angel could be considered they've sided with the realm their lover resides in.
The topic (and unused potential) of the tension between the 3 realms, how MC affected that during S2, and wether choosing a lover within a realm they don’t belong in would be a risky decision.
#I love this because it allows the forbidden love trope to SLIGHTLY insert itself within the sense of canon#depending on what your definition of om canon is… that is#BUT just like I mentioned that lesson in S3 Diavolo rejecting marriage because the 3 realms are still not on good terms#and MC’s magic dialema in S2 caused quite the drama stir which you could tell from the conversation between Diavolo and Simeon#oooo and Diavolos reasoning for distancing despite yearning could also be because he’s aware of this fact#also Simeons kinda subjective when it comes to this though#and AHHH YES NOW I REMEMBER THE CONFLICT IN NIGHTBRINGER#S3 when even Solomon expressed he didn’t want MC to side with the Devildom wait I have to look into what lesson that was so I can read it#I definitely had something else interesting to add to the actual post but I forgot… dang it#this is at 1am so I might reupload this when I feel like I can put it better later#<- tags rant ends here lol#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me swd#obey me nightbringer#obey me nb#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#obey me leviathan#obey me satan#obey me asmodeus#obey me beelzebub#obey me belphegor#obey me barbatos#obey me diavolo#obey me simeon#HELP I FORGOT MEPHISTO AND RAPHAEL I SWEAR THAT DOESNT USUALLY HAPPEN#obey me mephistopheles#obey me mephisto#obey me raphael
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Thinking on how the surviving Yellowjackets are present for one another’s deaths and talk themselves out of culpability. Thinking on how Lottie’s distraction contributed to Travis’ death, how she continued to believe and insist she didn’t kill him. Thinking on how Misty’s injection resulted in Natalie’s death, how she continues to distance herself from fault. Thinking on how Lottie is now dead. Thinking on how Taissa might have been there, but not in control, how that might feel like she wasn’t responsible even if her hands did the pushing. Thinking, thinking, thinking on how they learned this early. We didn’t kill Jackie; the cold did. We didn’t kill Javi; the lake did. We weren’t going to shoot Ben; the Other was. Thinking thinking thinking on how impossible it is to forgive yourself for heinous actions (or inaction) if you refuse to admit to it in the first place.
Thinking thinking thinking on how Natalie was the only one to fully accept the knife in her hand, the blood on her skin, the choice resulting in a man’s death. Thinking on how she came the closest to actually healing. Thinking on how she, from the start, refused the blinders the others need to survive.
#yellowjackets#yj spoilers#yj meta#I don’t know who killed lottie#maybe no one. maybe it was a fall.#but the way the survivor deaths have gone so far#they look like one thing; they are another#they allow the perpetrator or the person present to remove themselves from fault#whether or not it belongs on their shoulders in the first place#and nat. nat from the very first episode.#nat looking out the window.#nat fighting her whole life to be better#nat struggling under the weight of the right choice time and time and time again#doing the hard work no one else can or will#doing it without complaint#shauna hides her face. nat cant.#taissa distances via her other self. nat cant.#lottie makes up a religion. van makes up stories.#nat can only see the truth of it#Nat’s holding the knife. Nat’s firing the gun. nat cant look away#the others are didn’t mean to didn’t want to had no choice#Nat as the clear-eyed one. their leader even when dethroned. their queen no matter what.#it breaks my heart
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It’s hilarious once you realise that Dicks whole beef with Cass is that she out eldest-childed him and he will never be out eldest-childed again.
#“Cass and dick get along super well!“ I raise you them having hilarious sibling rivalry that neither of them wants to admit to#both of them are fighting for their place as Bruce’s favourite child but if you told dick that he would die on the spot#cass would shrug and say it’s not even a competition she’s just that good#cass making dick eat shit🩷🩷🩷 I adore her#when you’re trying to distance yourself from your dad I mean mentor I mean landlord and then#when you inevitably come back to him cause you would die for that man#you find out he’s literally created a carbon copy of himself through mitosis#and suddenly it’s war#batman#dc comics#dcu#bruce wayne#batfam#batfamily#dc robin#dick grayson#nightwing#cassandra cain#batgirl
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Rereading the Our Worlds at War tie-in again and God I miss their friendship every day
#they're such an underrated dynamic from this series#like throughout yj98 there's a definite distance between tim and everybody else since he can't reveal his identity to them#and cassie is definitely way closer to cissie and kon and bart than she is to him bc of that distance#and you can feel that awkwardness here in the way she apologizes to him immediately -- they're not at the level#where she can just shout and be mean to him and know it'll be fine -- not like she is with cissie or kon#but for tim -- i think he is at that level? like he wouldn't shout at her either but that's cause he's generally sweet to the yj girls#he doesn't butt heads with cassie like he does with the guys - but i also think she's someone he trusts to have his back in a very real way#and i think it's really telling that when everybody was confronting him about batman's contingencies it was CASSIE'S opinion#he asked for -- like she was the last person he thought would think that of him#obligatory 'the two people who died in his granny goodness nightmare were cassie and kon'#idk there's such an undercurrent of care even if they don't get as many 'this is my best friend' moments like some of the others#aghhhh#and the way cassie so clearly respects his opinion and is so worried he'll be mad at her when she replaces him as leader#the way she's the first one to hug him when he comes back to the team after he quits#oof. OOF. they're friends they're friends they LOVE EACH OTHER#sorry everyone i'm getting all up in my feelings again that they're the only ones left after infinite crisis#tim drake#cassie sandsmark#dc robin#wonder girl#young just us#young justice#yj98#dc comics#cassie tag#tim tag#gnome talks comics
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attempt to deter the herald of andraste from reading an inaccurate treatise on "the magickal art of dalish fresco" out loud.
5 minutes later, deterrence successful. no one is reading anything.
ouch. anchor malfunction after closing a rift.
two elves, standing 5 feet apart, because they're Emotionally Detached Professionals™
(uhhh pretend the vallaslin is on there, it's deeply annoying to draw on a small scale without ruining the facial expressions fjfsfhg)
#dirthamen vallaslin even worse bc the lines are so thin and it goes where you would expect the cheekbone indicators to be...#solavellan#jpg#solas#afira lavellan#i think if you put long hair and an outfit on solas he would very easily revert to his silmarillion elf origins#but you could not do that to my lavellan. she is a bit inherently undignified#it is just not her natural habitat... she would not survive in an arlathan au...#i did not reference these poses so everyone needs to clap#bc the hands are not upside down. i think.#if they are then don't worry about it#this was way too high effort but it is a distraction from looking at the news and that's what's important#anyway thank you for coming to this shipping tag essay#i just think they're neat........#the professional distance makes me laugh a little bit hsdjfhsd#😐-----😐#i think solas is presumably Miserably Guilt Ridden in several directions at once (somewhat worse than average day for him)#while lavellan is on a ''wow! important reminder to never trust anyone :) a learning experience for me :)''#sort of mindset
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desperately trying not to crash out and deactivate my Tumblr before the DP fantasy zine drops
#It's not because of anything bad happening online.#It's entirely within my own mind and I just......don't feel like throwing my art into the social media void anymore.#It's become too much and I'm sick of never feeling 'good' enough to be on this website.#I push myself all the time to be better and improve and frankly the negative self talk I put myself through to get there is crushing me.#It's embarrassing to admit because I prefer to maintain a certain amount of anonymity and distance from my online presence#gotta maintain that 'cool artist' persona and all that.#but full disclosure I battle deep insecurities daily based entirely on my own perceived self. Someone who I'm certain doesn't even exist#except within my own mind.#even in this vent post I'm sure I'm being overdramatic and going through a rough patch I'll recover from soon.#realistically I'm not going to deactivate so I apologize for that scare.#I do wonder if erasing my online presence would help sometimes but eh 🤷#delete later#anyway I have art queued for the rest of the week but I might not be around for a while. ✌
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