#feeling positive today

[moonstoast]

i exist, i exist, i exist

@ryebreadgf // holly warburton // ? // image from pinterest // letters to a young poet by rainer maria rilke

[miss-k-lovenikki]

I sure hope we get at least one rerun between goth wives and Medusa...

I don't know how much time there usually is between an outfit being added and the actual event running

So let's just. Keep some hope.

[blaiddydbrokeit]

Hey fun fact Arval is real and it's my tumblr mutual and they're always on my dash and I love it.

[genderisadrunkcat]

There’s so many things I want to do. I want to learn photography and develop photos in a darkroom. I want to make pottery, and fail so many times before I make something that stands on its own. I want to travel the world, and see oceans and mountains. I want to see the mushrooms come out in my backyard after it rains. I want to go on a road trip with all my friends and eat junk food and sing at the top of my lungs. I want to see theatre that makes me feel so deeply for everything. I want to paint badly and sing badly. How wonderful it is that I still have so much to experience.

[ked-r]

Despite it all life feels so wonderful when you know that you're loved

I can do it, you guys. I can make it.

[lesbiannoel]

i love growing and getting older. the past few years beat a lot out of me. im less sensitive and shy, more skeptical. but ive also cultivated more passion and joy and fun, and i understand myself so much more. my friendships are so much deeper. and im still so young! im not even 25! i am so glad to be done with childhood and adolescence. i feel like my life is just beginning and i still have over 2/3 left of it

[sergle]

When I talk about something bad I've experienced, Baked In to my experience as A Woman, I am not "making my little cousins feel like shit for being women", because I am talking in a space with, allegedly, adults. I am not bringing my problems to children in the first place. That said, I don't HAVE to make my baby cousin feel bad, because she's already experienced sexual harassment in her life, and she's only 8, and doesn't even understand what any of it means yet. And everyone in her family can try to instill confidence in her, and never talk about our bodies in a negative way. But she can still feel like she's too chubby, because she still goes to school, and talks to other kids and their parents, and still sees ads, and still watches tv. We can be positive, but we can't fix the root of the problem. And I don't HAVE to tell trans women that "pain is a rite of passage", because that's not a Rule being enforced (by me), because I've already sat and listened to my friend complain about constantly shaving as a Baseline necessity and how it hurts her skin and she has to put makeup onto fresh cuts on her face because going out without a full face of properly feminine makeup would make her life worse, and being anything less than thin and lithe makes her "less feminine", and ALL the things that can make her "more feminine" are behind a paywall. And I can try to make her feel better, and I can hear her experiencing the tenfold version of problems I relate to, but I can't fix the root cause of her problems by just telling her not to complain. Forcing happiness as a core personality trait for women is not the Girlboss Feminist move that you think it is, and no amount of gender euphoria in the world will make you immune to systemic oppression.

[lemonycranberries]

i love being aro so fucking much

[dashingwishes]

I hope everyone heals soon 🌱

Here are your pretty flowers

🌹🌸🌻🌷🌼💐🪷🌺

For trying each day.

[resiliencewithin]

Friendly neighbourhood reminder:

If you’re sick, it is so easy to feel overwhelmed, catastrophize, be in a low mood and so hard to self regulate.

Don’t think about your life. Don’t believe the things your brain tells you about you and your life.

Just be sick. Focus on rest, hydration, sleep, nutrition.

And, if life won’t allow you to engage in self care, just focus on getting through the day and remember it’s so hard because you’re sick.

[moonstoast]

If my body could sprak; "eat" by blythe baird // ocean voung // pinterest // ? // @ibvyache // holly warburton // @star-eaters @antidecay // @chenchenwrites on twitter // domenico fiasella // hum, hum by mary oliver

[heartguardians]

So. Um. This might be a stretch. In which case, fine. But I think there's something here: being turned was this big metaphor for sex, right? Losing your virginity. And it was terrible for Guillermo with Derek. It was messy and painful and not romantic or gentle or anything like he'd always imagined. And he regretted it.

But he was "turned" twice this season. Once by Derek, into a vampire. Then by Nandor, into a human.

And look at that scene. Look how kind and understanding and tender Nandor is with him. Always asking Guillermo what he wants and if he's sure and caring for his emotions.

If being turned is losing your virginity, then look at the fucking difference.

[twilighthappiness]

Imagine being pulled into an unexpected hug, your f/o putting their head atop yours while you're wrapped between their arms.

If they're usually hesitant to show their affection, this could just be them testing the waters. Maybe they're not used to receiving affection but they'll attempt give it to you, hoping that they can make up for the times they've acted distant.

"It's what you deserve after all," They mutter, leaning down to nuzzle their head into the crook of your neck, whispering sweet praises about how you're so precious to them.

Only slightly do you feel their embrace tighten.

-

If they're usually affectionate, they treat this like a nice surprise. "You've worked hard today, how about I spoil you?" They whisper in your ear, a smile audible in their voice as they plant their lips on your forehead.

Their arms rest on your shoulders, so casually as if they were meant to be there. You look at them only to meet a gaze full of nothing but endearment, their hand going up to caress your cheek.

And it's almost like time could stop between the two of you.

☁︎ proship/comship DNI ☁︎

[utilitycaster]

You know what's interesting to me? For all people keep claiming at every juncture that perhaps Bells Hells will come around on the gods and see the harm they do (which, as discussed extensively, is, half the time, simply not intervening) not only have they never done so, but also they never quite cross the line into saying the party should join the Ruby Vanguard or aid them - and indeed, they defend against it - so what does this achieve? It feels like they're asking for a story in which the party stands idly by, which isn't much of a story nor, if I may connect this briefly to the real world, a political stance anyone should be proud of.

That's honestly the frustration with the gods and the "what if the Vanguard has a point" conversations in-game. What do we do then? Do we allow the organization that will murder anyone for pretty much any reason that loosely ties into their goals run rampant? The group that (perhaps unwittingly, but then again, Otohan's blades had that poison) disrupted magic world-wide, and caused people who had the misfortune to live at nexus points to be teleported (most, as commoners, without means of return). While also fomenting worldwide unrest?

Those were the arguments before the trip to Ruidus; with the reveal of the Vanguard's goals to invade Exandria, the situation becomes even more dire. Do you let the Imperium take over the planet?

And do the arguments against the gods even hold up? If Ludinus is so angry at them for the Calamity, what does it say that he destroyed Western Wildemount's first post-Calamity society for entirely selfish means? (What does it say about the validity of vengeance as a motivator?) What does it say that Laudna told Imogen she could always just live in a cottage quietly without issue before the solstice even happened? (Would this still be true if the Imperium controls the world?) What does it say that when faced with a furious, grieving party and the daughter she keeps telling herself was her reason for all of this, Liliana can't provide an answer to the question of what the gods have done other than that their followers will retaliate...for, you know, the Vanguard's endless list of murders. (That is how the Vanguard and Imperium tend to think, huh? "How dare your face get in the way of my boot; how dare you hit me back when I strike you.") She can't even provide a positive answer - why is Predathos better - other than "I feel it", even though Imogen and Fearne know firsthand that Predathos can provide artificial feelings of elation. Given all the harm Ludinus has done in pursuit, why isn't the conclusion "the gods should have crashed Aeor in such a way that the tech was unrecoverable?"

Even as early as the first real discussion on what the party should do, the fandom always stopped short of saying "no, Imogen's right, they should join up with the people who killed half the party," it was always "no, she didn't really mean it, she just was trying to connect with her mother." Well, she's connected with her mother, and at this point the party doesn't even care about the gods particularly (their only divinely-connected party member having died to prevent the Vanguard from killing all of them). So they will stop the Vanguard; as Ashton says, the means are unforgiveable. As Laudna says, it's not safe to bet on Predathos's apathy. As Imogen says, she's done running; the voice that she used to think of as a lifeline belongs to someone she doesn't trust. So I guess my question is: if they're stopping the people who are trying to kill the gods (and defense of the gods isn't remotely their personal motivation)...do you think the next phase of the campaign is Bells Hells personally killing the gods? Reconstructing the Aeor tech and hoping none of their allies notice? How does this end? Does your ideology ever get enacted? Or is this entirely moot and pointless and the story ends with Bells Hells saying "well, I'm really glad we stopped the people who [insert list of Vanguard atrocities from above]; none of us follow the gods or plan to, but honestly, the status quo we return to is preferable to whatever nightmare Ludinus had concocted in his violent quest for power and revenge"?

[redvelvetwishtree]