#fibro flare up

[lelibug]

EXHAUSTED

Blog | delphinemusic | Exhausted,.... From #Blackouts, Zone Outs, #PanicAttacks, #Meltdowns... lost, hollow,empty space inside me where my soul used to be.... Just... Where Did I Go...??? #Fibromyalgia #ChronicPain #chronicillness #autistic

It’s the Same Thing, Every Day, now. Sheer Exhaustion, Hyper-Anxiety, BlackOuts & ZoneOuts, one of my parents – or both – creating Immense Panic Attacks that sometimes, often, rise towards Meltdowns from the levels of Distress they cause and how I am [not] helped out of them…  Too Many Blackouts/Seizure thingies…. then Nightmares all night again…  There is NO REST to be had – – because “Sleep”…

[doresworld]

Best things about being disabled:

Not necessarily being in a flare up, but it’s been two weeks of things not being right and each day you lose more hope that it’ll ever be okay again

All food and drinks are making you sick, even water churns your stomach

The weather can make your writhe in pain

Not being able to do anything, watching TV is exhausting, even scrolling on your phone requires a modicum of attention

Sitting upright is painful

Lying down is painful

Keeping your eyes open is effort

Wishing you could be the old you, the healthy you

[lesbianashleywilliams]

MASS EFFECT ☼ 15TH ANNIVERSARY

「 We impose order on the chaos of organic evolution. You exist because we allow it. And you will end because we demand it. 」

[endometriosismemes]

[strawberrylemongrass]

stupid fuckass human body

won't let me sleep comfortably on my side

my hip hurts so much I fucking

I fucking can't with this shit right now

[painsandconfusion]

Whump tip of the day:

Pain tolerance that’s built up through practice fades away and needs to be relearned if they’re faced with similar pain months or years later. Doesn’t take as long to learn again but it’s NOT 100%

[the-yearning-astronaut]

Just ... Thinking about Murderbot getting chronic pain because its pain sensors get fucked in a way it can't fix.

And sometimes it's ok, the pain can be compartmentalized and shunted to the background behind all its active scripts and tasks and streaming media files. Some cycles it could even pretend that it doesn't have a problem at all -- if it weren't for the fact that ignoring it actually caused a dip in its central processing capabilities.

And sometimes it just wants a break and it can't help but withdraw from others and shy away from physical contact even more than it usually does. It seeks out softer, looser clothing that doesn't rub up against its organic bits which caused firey shocks to zip down its nerves. and sometimes its performance reliability will drop for seemingly no reason and it'll use preprogrammed responses from its buffer in a detached, automatic tone.

The pain makes it feel incredibly vulnerable and broken and it gets angry and defensive (or shuts down -- almost literally) when anyone tries to ask it what's wrong. It even threatens to leave the Perihelion if ART even so much as considers poking around its diagnostics to find answers.

[itsgeorgielu]

she’s just like me fr

[petyou]

i’m having a panic attack at work bc my coworker keeps like. saying directed stuff to me about someone else on ADA and then directly after she went on a rant about how her mom is ridiculous for getting upset because she has cysts in her breasts and kept saying she must want cancer and be excited to die because she’s scared

[lelibug]

BATHROOM & BLACKOUTS

Blog | delphinemusic | Enduring daily #Blackouts, with the Nauseating #ChronicPain is crippling... #Fibromyalgia #chronicillness

All I wanted to do was play SIMS. Or Mass Effect Andromeda. Instead… I ended up Blacked Out for nearly an HOUR & A HALF in the Bathroom, when I was forced [by my body] to Go…. And Then – when I finally managed to literally drag myself back to The Room at 12:30am…I Passed Out/Blacked Out Once Again for Another Hour…. Coming round at 01:53am, this time. This is what I get from just needing to go…

[thevioletcaptain]

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[solarmorrigan]

hey, do you remember the crochet steddie fanfic you posted about a yearish ago? that fic inspired me to learn how to crochet. the way you describe the process of choosing the yarns and the hooks and everything was really intriguing to me, so i ordered some yarn and stuff, then googled some tutorials.

anyway, im hooked(pun intended) now, and ive made so many awesome things(just finished a blanket!). you are an amazing writer and i am always so excited to read something you wrote, even if i don't know what it's about.

hope you have a nice day. :)

This is genuinely one of the most wonderful things someone has ever said in relation to something I've written and I am still not over it

Seriously, thank you very much for sending this <3

And also: that's so cool?? You had an interest and you tried it and you taught yourself a whole fucking skill and you made a blanket! (Among other things!) I hope you know how cool it is that you did that!

[another-punk-trans-woman]

You know when the grief of losing the last shred of hope you had for a decent life sets in, and you just have to scream at the world cuz it's not FAIR. But no one ever told you it would be fair. They just told you that you weren't enough

And they were right.

You know that feeling? I hope not.

[endometriosismemes]

Image: A tweet from Getting some rest aka @InternetHippo Text on the image: doctors love listening to you and then just being like "damn that's weird well come back if you die" end of image

[savage-rhi]

Fuchgenta??

[asphyxiatedredherring]

Fuck the having fun to having a flair pipeline