#free inbox pass tldr

[callmehere-iwillappear]

... i'm bored so if anyone wants to ask me stuff abt cmh OR abt the new project feel free afldsjlfkd new project stuff will be answered vaguely if i can answer it but i literally cannot stop thinking abt it and i am so So bad at keeping secrets and i want to yell

[dreaming-in-seams]

Y’all know the sick cat scam going around on tumblr? I’ve seen a lot of advice —good advice!— on how to not fall for one of those scams

But

I also know a lot of my mutuals are good people with big hearts who easily feel guilt-tripped into believing someone’s seemingly heart-felt story.

So idk if my two-cents are any help, but as a veterinary receptionist I think I have a solution on how to approach a convincing“Sick Cat” plea:

Offer to make a donation on their behalf directly to the vet clinic!

Idk about every vet clinic around the world, but I know amongst the many clinics I have worked for/with, none of them would EVER turn down an anonymous donation to someone’s account for their sick pet! I take many of those calls. We LOVE them! Any money towards helping a pet get better is welcome money. I’ve taken $5 donations, $50, $1000 —I even dropped in a $20 from our spare change bucket once.

Think about it: the vet clinic doesn’t want this animal to suffer. But they also can’t do a procedure or treatment for free because they have hard working employees to pay, and veterinary care (in the US) is privatized (it’s the sorry reality but until HUMAN health care improves, animal health care just is where it is in this country)

Does the vet clinic care where the money for the procedure is coming from? NO. They don’t care if it’s your grandma’s credit card, $6000 in cash, or a bunch of random people calling to put $10-100 dollars on some random person’s account. Money is money to an office manager, and whatever is there to cover expenses for a sick animal is a weight off EVERYONE’S shoulders. (I may just be a receptionist, but even receptionists hurt when an animal passes away.)

So. If you have someone on your dash or in your inbox asking you to donate money to their Venmo or PayPal for their sick cat/dog/ferret, and you really don’t know if it’s legitimate but don’t want to blow them off in case it is…

Ask them the name of their vet. Look it up on google. And call.

The receptionist will ask for the owner’s last name and the pet’s name. If the “owner” is legitimate, they probably will give you some identifying information for the pet or the account. If they don’t want to (for internet safety) there are ways for the receptionist to narrow it down. I.e. the procedure, age of the animal, when their last appointment was, their doctor. And especially if it’s a pricey procedure that the owner has had difficulty finding funds for, SOMEONE at the clinic will know!! If the person in your inbox is legitimate, then they will probably WELCOME you calling their vet to make a donation!

(Tbh, if people call to donate for an animal, it makes a stronger case for the vet to cut costs on the procedure because it PROVES the owner is making a sincere effort to pay)

DON’T just take the phone number of the vet from the person asking for money without verifying it. The phone number could be theirs or a friend who is just gonna take your card info and run off happily into the sunset with it. Verify (via the internet) that the vet is real. If the info they gave you about their sick pet checks out on the vet’s end as all being true, DING DING DING it’s not a scam!!! Donate away!!!

But if it IS a scam, the scammer will probably try to convince you it’s easier to give money to their Venmo (it’s not), or that their vet doesn’t take donations (they do). If they are avoiding this option, and the other signs of scam hold up, then block them and walk away.

TLDR: if you’re not sure if it’s a “Sick Cat” scam, offer to call their vet and make a donation!

[caelum-et-ocean]

This is getting a bit long and emotional so i’m gonna put a cut in case you don’t wanna read all of it

tldr: i’m reflecting on my time on tumblr and thanking some people (DW IM NOT QUITTING, I JUST FEEL LIKE BEING NICE TODAY LOL)

i’ve always felt like i could always just be my true self here on tumblr ngl. like, i could be free to just post about whatever interest i had and then i wouldn’t get insulted or bullied for it 😭

i remember being super scared to even start posting about Yuurivoice in the beginning since i thought i would get teased for liking asmr, but i was pleasantly surprised with how kind and accepting everyone was!!

now that all this time has passed, i would like to say that i am really, really glad that i was able to make so many friends here, and i love how we all made such a great community 🫶🫶

i’m doing some individual shout outs now, i’m sorry if you weren’t included here, these are just the people that really made all the difference in my little tumblr journey

@tqnk and @milosirlgf i think i already said this in jay’s inbox before but no joke, you two were the reason i wanted to make a tumblr account and start posting here LMAO

i think i still remember both of your old urls (i believe they were hhawks and gay-jay?) and i also really enjoyed seeing both of your posts when i first started listening!!

you’re both really funny and amazing to talk to, and i’m glad i got the chance to be able to meet both of you personally!

@p0pp3t and @sweetangle8 I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCHHH Una you were also one of my first moots LOL Both of you always make me so happy when I see you <33

And Tallu, you were the entire reason i actually gained the courage to start tuning into calls on Discord + being able to form a closer bond with everyone else, so thank you so much for that! You and Una brighten my day every time I talk to you, and I love all the jokes we end up making, whether it’s about Redacted david specifically or OCs!!

@anunmarkedface You are honestly such an amazing person to talk with, especially about Redacted, OCs, and just general topics! I love how you care about everyone in our group, and how you always know the right thing to say to people when they need it. You are one of the best people I’ve met, and I’m glad to have you as my friend :D

@yourunderratedbix I love hearing your stories and interests on call so much! You’re a really sweet and funny person to talk to, and even if we don’t speak too much personally, it still makes me happy whenever we do have those times! (Btw I also loved seeing your outfit plans for theme parks)

@lunamoff You’re a really cool person to talk to in general! Even though we unfortunately don’t share many interests outside Redacted and Yuurivoice, it’s still interesting to see you talk about other things you like (even if it takes me some time to process it lol)

@sethsbooblicker (nice username) You make my day every time we talk LOL I love your art, and your personally is just as amazing!! You make everyone feel happier whenever you start talking in the GC or in the server and I enjoy reading our chats together

@eulogylullaby Aaaa I love it whenever we talk!! ^^ Whether it’s about Redacted or Limbus, I always end up feeling really happy inside whenever we speak! You’re such a kind person, and I always feel like it’s really easy for me to open up to you and just be myself, even if our interests are completely different

People who I also have a special place in my heart for (but just don’t know how to express my thoughts without repeating too many details from above snelsnwlsnw):

@sunfl0wer-h0ur @bunrubyy @oceanlue @outofthebluemoon @peacefullibrarian @rose-the-witch1 @emmaoftoomanyfandoms @4letteraroace @phantom-face @blissful-clown

thank you again for making all of these memories with me, i love you all so much <33

[ticholasnesla]

Nimona (2023), friends.

First of all thank u to the people who made these great gifs!!! This is presumptuous of me but i truly hope u dont mind me featuring them! This is the first of - hopefully many - years of my Media Gifventure for the Holiday Season of 2023. I will go into more details if i need. So.

🥺

man of the hour. Man of the Year. Gold Star. 🌟

Gif use Disclaimer, I hope me making this post with these gifs isnt overstepping 🙂‍↕️💛 people who upload gifs, which, 9/10 times, they made themselves, are one of the most supportive vertebrae communities of Tumblr. 🫡👏👏 bravo chudovyy splendid чудовий mykola please tell me what i should remove and i will remove.

Above all else, Thank u.

anyways here's3 something i hope is going to be fun. Last chance. Gif heavy, flash warning excessive emojis, stupid shite and a dog.

🐕 . . . 🤎

nimona beat my ass yall. It beat my family's ass yall.

That's a Ss²+Gold ranked film if ever i saw one. Congrats Neæs@tflix - Nimona, and congrats ND Stevenson.

Ss²+Gold means Soupsoup Squared PLUS Gold which MEANS

+4 of thees bad boys!!!!!!!!

Enjoy!

i stop talking about strictly Nimona Heere.

so with that all said and done...i was Thinking... part 2?

disclaimer pls read the 👎 RULES. Trans rights human rights. Protect trans kids. Pronouns for your Hostess this evening are she/he/they. this isnt a nft thing so dont talk to me about that. and im not writing free reviews or reading your book. I just wanna award movies and webtoons and webcomics without putting any real artistic effort in (except when i WANT to put real artistic effort in) and also feature some great indie/non indie stuff In a (hopefully) positive light 🔮 shit i might even do requests. Or sketches. Imagine. 🐙

PROCEED 👎to RULES and engage in critical thought and problem soliving before sending me asks.💢

That being said, keep it PG. All asks are good asks and i will develop an FAQ if need be!

Rules 👎 down dere keep scrolling and reading. Thx. But first

Do u wanna submit something to be considered for a Soup GoldTM? Submit your favourite,

Webcomic

Youtube channel

Trending topic

Webtoon

youtube series

Manga

Anime

Plot twists

Lesser known artists

Indie artists

Podcasts

Heartbreaks /no actual bummers pls.

Memes etc etceteree

that kept you warm this 2023! And for my immediate needs, Happened in 2023. For this thing, i will only accept submissions til new yrs day. Is that peechy?

👎👎Ok finally rules for real. Proceed to pig 🐷 for tldr

Keep it pg🦉

K.I.S.S - keep it simple, Saoirse🦆

Stay in your Lane 🫎🦍🐏🪿

Dont message strangers on the internet if you're under 18.🔴And if you do KEEP your age out of their inbox. 🪺🐣🐊

Adult media is fine but i want to keep it Prime Time 🦐🐚 🪸🪼🐠🚦🐬

66I know i might be typing like a fucking bunyak but i wanna have FUN and talk about FUN STUFF my past 3 years has been ROUGH, BAYBEE. I miss my parents, Tails. I miss them a lot. /not a joke.

💐🦋🕊🐝🦂🦈🐄🐓🦤🦀🦀🦅🪱🥀🦽🏥🏥🏥🏥🏥🏥🫀🌎☀️🌜🪐🌬🌪🌦🌈☔️🔥☃️🎅🏡🎆🪻🌷💐🫀🐦‍⬛🚜👨‍🌾💚🤟💒💊🌋🏞🎡🛝🚛🚚🛻🚲

I am but flesh n blood n bone.

Please keep in mind i will only do what i have the jnj marbles for, but i will dedicate a lot of my downtime to this and i really want to have a good experience so um if u know a friend, or maybe want to tag cool accounts to maybe look over here yoo hoo hi there hello and do u wannaaa 🐕🐕🐕

Click that rebwog pwease 🥺 pppwease. Ding that like button smash that like button Uw0

This only works on Good Will so dont Play with my heart. We want to have fun.

I do have a DO NOT PASS GO list in my head but i wont reveal whats on it til i come across it ya? 🦩

Thank y for reading the rules. Now.

Me vs you the reader

Proceed to pig for tldr🐷

The Soup Golds and other Soups utilize a vector of Grandma's Soup from Lengend of Zelda Wind Waker that i edited with my phone. I do not claim to own this graphic and am just fucking around.

Submissions that dont pass my sneefing test are welcome and valuable! Incoming bee gif:

🐝

love rubbin my dusty little fingers in new Things and readings. So they will be rewarded either with Unseen, Uninterested, or Unwatchable badges, and might be featured as (dis)/honorable mentions! More nuance on that if the need arises. 🦄🔮👀

🐷Asks are open / pending! Feel free to Lurk/ask questions. Dont be rude or ELSE..u get The PIG 🐷🐷

✋️HYYYYYY

🤘🪑YAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!🐖🐖🐖🐖💨💨💨💨💨💨💨💥⚰️🪦🐽🍄

.. and then the Anon is going off. i dont want to have to do that. 🫠

🐗Let's keep it Frosty🐗

🐖💨💨💨💨Inbox closes Boxing Day! Get ur submissions in Today and get some fun ?

Write a letter and leave me a cookie pls. Im not asking for money i just wanna spend some quality time with u as we ____ 2024.

Here is the dog btw and she's a rottweiler mix.. She's sitting on my foots here and has curly furs all a on her butt. She was a foster fail and is living her best cushy life last i heard about her. I wanna see her again. 🖤🤎🧡🖤🤎🧡

The end. Play Sims 4 but try not to spend money on it. EA's starting to offer free packs that u can download for Free. Console and PC as far as i understand.

Love u. Be back soon.

[4noki-vns]

August Update - Recent News & Game Announcement

Summer is coming to a close! It’s hard to believe that we’re two-thirds of the way through the year. Let’s take a look back on what’s been going on recently and what my plans are for the near future:

Recent releases

Short story poll results

Socials

Game announcement…!

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releases

We had two releases in the last two months: a demo and a Steam release.

Consummation ~wind above the dragon sea~ (demo)

This is an island spared by the heavens, a cage for the remnants of humanity. A freelancer blessed by the wind receives a strange letter, leading her to a promised place of her youth. In that same district-city, the four great families chosen by the four great gods gather for their biennial conference. As the paths of those hated and loved by the gods cross, a darkness beneath the sea stirs—to devour, to drown, to destroy, to choose.

Lachesis or Atropos (Steam Edition)

A private investigator visits a small town after recovering from a coma. She searches for her mentor's lost beloved, but the very eyes she was born with, those that can see the black strings of hate, drag her down into the darkness of conspiracy. A cult, two priestesses, and the threads that puppet the world.

short story poll results

After a combination poll on Twitter, tumblr, and Substack, it was decided that I will write a Who is the Red Queen? short story to be delivered via this newsletter!

This short story is still in the concept phase. Please note that due to the multi-ending nature of the game, the short story should be considered non-canon or alt-canon.

I wonder what it’ll be about…

Perhaps a little short featuring Cheshire and the White Rabbit? Perhaps an exploration of what happens after a certain ending? Perhaps a story about the past between the White Queen and Red Queen?

Only time will tell.

socials

And with the slow and excruciating death of Twitter, I will make a quick aside to mention some other social media sites that I have made an account on.

tumblr

cohost

misskey.io (fediverse, can be followed from mastodon)

bluesky

It’s hard to say what will take the place of the dying corpse of the bird app, but for the time being, please feel free to follow me on any of those places!

Still, the best way to keep track of my work will be:

this newsletter (even if substack dies, the newsletter can be transferred easily)

itch.io

game announcement…!

Now, enough with the gloomy talk. Let’s talk about something exciting! A game announcement!

This is not the long term project that I spoke of previously (you’ll have to wait a bit longer for that), but rather…New Project!! The Final Prize is Soup - a spooky grey background with 3 chibis of girls with black hair and gold, red, green-blue eyes from left to right.

I will be participating in Spooktober again this year as director, character designer, and co-writer for a survival horror yuri visual novel by the title, The Final Prize is Soup.

After a disastrous break up, Qian Hailu wakes up to find that she's dead. Luckily (or unluckily), she's been given a chance to turn back the clock and avert her death—as long as she can pass three rounds in the game of life. You who are unqualified to drink Meng Po's soup, you have been chosen for the game of life. Three worlds, three rounds. Win all three and you may avert your fated death. Lose any and your bones are forfeit for tomorrow's lunch broth. Good luck. Our ghosts have prepared their takeout containers, all plastic, non-microwaveable.

tldr. death game in the afterlife (ft. cannibalism lesbians)

You’ll hear from me about this game, hopefully, quite a lot during the upcoming month of September. Please look forward to it!

(((o(*°▽°*)o)))

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See you in September!

shino

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[morguemaw]

Lustale Info post (always check og! Will be updated overtime)

Wanted to make a post about Lustale that will be important!! Below the 'Keep Reading' is TLDR of the lore so far, ( may vary depending on what will be changed/what reblogged version you are reading, so PLEASE check back to this one instead!! Will be pinned for a period of time :) )

A important note,

Lustale is a AU created and owned by me, its loosely based on Underlust and will be a Slice of Life type story that will also in return extremely loosely follow the original plot of Undertale. Dont ever tag it as Underlust, only Lustale/Lusttale please (can be spelt either way just Lustale has one less 'T' to make it look less cluttered )

Links to important info;

(Non Important) The first mention of Lustale .. The birthday!! Tiny lore concept / Another tiny lore concept

Trait of Passion roughly explained (if the idea is changed this link will be too ) Another post about the Passion/Corrupted Passion arch

Sans Ref sheet + Additional Info

Papyrus, Undyne, and Grillby references + Small info

Angst Concept (Monsters Free ending?)

Small Gaster mention + Small info on him

Small fun facts/mini profiles about some Characters

Toriel mention/rough design

Any background characters preferred to be saved for Inbox/Anon requests and can be most likely found in the Lustale tag on my profile :)

The asks ive been getting recently help me think over lore, hence the changes

TLDR about the lore;

Monsters got trapped underground classic undertale style, but when the first human fell down they had a unique trait of Passion that gave the underground a feeling of love and happiness, Human got sick one day and when they passed Royal Scientists tried to copy the trait but failed, and somehow the failed shit got into the core which traveled through the AU/into the air and it only affected adults because do i really need to explain ?? (tho i kinda did in one of the linked posts) Ages are kinda undecided as of right now, only important age is Frisk because they are the only child (next to monster kid) who really matters/is physically there/not dead, they are 16. My reasoning is that again everyone affected are adults, and monsters and humans age differently in my eyes Toriel isnt affected because she was in the ruins so the corruption didnt get to her Asriel's soul was basically artificially made via soul bits, however he did have a solid body that existed via a egg from Toriel and sperm cell from Asgore, both ended up dying (this is my lazy excuse to make sure Flowey and Asriel can both be a thing ) Despite me referring to characters as "corrupted with Lust", there is no cure nor any end to their sins. The au is again Lustale... So yea :) The timeline went roughly like this, this is based on my own headcanon years rather then official ok?

Timeline;

Year 2000; The war began Year 2002; The war ended, monsters banished to the shadow realm Year 2012; First human fell down, Chara Year 2014; Chara got sick, within the same time of Chara being down there for the 2 year gap Asriel's soul was patchworked together via bits of Toriel and Asgore's soul but it failed and both kids died within the same year Year 2015; Toriel went into the Ruins and vanished Year 2016; Passion spilled into underground Year 2030; Underground turned into what it is now, after quite a few years everyone was used to Lust as the new main for them Year 2032; Frisk fell down, the story begins!!

[purplequay]

LMAO hiiii it hits hard bc it's very true, cruelty is caused by the cycle of abuse, which only continues when feelings and experiences are treated incorrectly and left invalidated. When that happens, a person who doesn't realise that it wasn't ok will deal that same damage to others; if someone is taught that lying is less punished than telling the truth, they'll stay that way till they understand(& accept) they were treated wrongly, only then will the cycle stop bc healing from it means it cannot be passed down anymore. I could write an essay on the concept of free will and how it's literally the only thing truely stopping us from doing whatever we want but I don't wanna fill your inbox jajsjsb

anyways tldr invalidation and/or denial and/or a need for control are the strongest, if not only, factors that allow for cruelty to exist in communities! Don't think abt it too hard tho you might get sad (also I'm a little crazy abt this oops)

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[tartagliaxx]

— on my sudden hiatus;

to keep things relatively short, things have been very busy for me in the last stretch of march and i honestly could barely have time for myself. for the sake of my well-being and not ruining my blog by putting out half-assed work, i decided to go into hiatus in order to focus on the then-more-important things in my life. i originally wanted to come out of hiatus by may, seeing as i was already a quarter through my vacation then but i realized how burnt out i was from writing. it’s not that i don’t want to write for genshin anymore, it’s just that i felt like i needed a break from writing in general. before i knew it, i was busy with arranging my irl birthday celebration and may has passed. thank you so much to everyone who checked in on me in my inbox and i really love and appreciate you all. everything’s okay now and i’d like to post things again (especially the requests i took) but i’m not sure if i can post those as quick as i should be doing. still, i should be able to respond to things sent in my inbox relatively quickly so feel free to reach out to me :)) on a different note, i had a few things and events planned for this blog and i’ll update y’all as soon as i get things sorted out.

tldr; i’m very happy to be back with everyone i love so dearly :))

[rubyzoisite]

Let’s revisit what I started last night

Alright, so despite how nervous and stressed out I was, I got a good night’s sleep for the most part, have calmed down and think I should just rip the bandaid off instead of slowly slip out of the closet here. 

I recognise I’m already trans by having a non-binary gender, but I’m going to come out a step further as transmasculine in that regard. (I’m fairly certain that’s the term for it).

Currently in my situation I’m unable to, but this year I will be starting gender counseling to hopefully start on my journey of physically transitioning my sex to male. Yes, I’m going the whole way. 

This might seem out-of-the-blue to more recent friends, and allow me to explain that this goes back about 5 years. 

I came out as a trans man back in April 2014. However I had been starting to dress masculine a year prior. At the time, I was a teenager, and the concept was new and I was excited to explore it--at least, until I had to deal with my family accepting it. Let’s just say, it put a huge rift between me and my mother (of whom I have always had an excellent relationship with) and it was overall very emotionally painful for me in that way, and the social part of it was beyond difficult. I absolutely cannot pass as masculine because of my very feminine physical features, and I can’t bind due to my chronic pain. 

Of course I had some dipshits come into my inbox here on Tumblr those years ago, starting some anti-trans man bullshit, and while I know I really don’t care what people online say now, it was enough to push me right back into that trans closet (if that’s even a thing, lol.) I slid back into what I knew my mom was comfortable with, which was just being a butch lesbian. So I took it. And I ran with that (as well as coming out as non-binary gender eventually) up until this point. 

Yes, I’m 23 now, and not 18. I no longer live with my mother, nor with any immediate family. And that’s when my identity finally resurfaced. I recognise I’m free to be...well, me. I still can’t come out to many people in my family, at least not right now. But that’s okay. I’m slowly accepting this part of myself again, and in a very positive way I believe. Yes, I’m stressed about it, but I have spoken to my mother about it more recently and she seems to really be trying to understand.

In terms of sexuality, yes, I’m still attracted to women. Whether that will change or expand after undergoing HRT and transitioning, I do not know! But let’s be real: I love and cherish my girlfriend, and that’s all that matters rn.

sometimes i do find softer guys attractive but i’d never approach anything further than that with my current sex. Maybe I limit myself. Maybe my constant creation of trans men OCs who are bisexual is some sort of subconscious message. WHO KNOWS

Anyway, this is the rundown. This is a very, very important turning point in my life and a lot is going to change once I can get on SSI (which takes for-fucking-ever but I’m not going to give up.) I want to finally gain some independence I feel I 100% deserve. And this is part of that. I suppose the last year has been more focused on getting my bipolar depression under control. I’ve done very well and while that will always be something I have to live with, I at least have reclaimed happiness and optimism in my life and I’m glad to announce I don’t feel like dying every day anymore!

tldr; I’m transmasc/nb (they/them/he/him), I no longer identify as a lesbian, and I will be pursuing HRT and physical transitioning. Happy 2020; here’s to a very positive future!

[peemil]

updated my about page, namely under the “more questions” section (/morequestions)

[alleiradayne]

An Update

It’s been a millennia since I wrote anything. I know I don’t owe anyone any writing (technically, I do, but that’s a different story, no pun intended). But I wanted to keep my followers in the know.

I have been up to my eyeballs in the dumbest fucking shit lately and I’m not even talking about COVID-19. My work sucks. The only good thing about it is that my team, the immediate people I work with on the regular, are awesome. But I need to get out soon. The actual work itself is fucking soul-sucking and I hate it. I get very little downtime, which is a major contributor to why I haven’t written much lately. Not because I don’t have the free time at work like I used to, but because I don’t have the mental, emotional, creative, or physical energy to commit to writing when I get home.

My daughter is 16 months old. That’s all I need to say about her (she’s wonderful, but a handful).

I’ve been reading way more lately in an effort to relieve stress.

God damn Minecraft.

I had sinus surgery in December and while the recovery was short, the surgery did not achieve the intended results. I still have major allergy symptoms without being allergic to anything. I was sick with sinus infections for the better part of two months and was only finally feeling sort of back to normal before right before I went to Vegas. Now I’m dealing with severe seasonal allergies after the snow melted here.

But that’s just the tip of the iceberg. What has really irritated me lately is this pile of bullshit:

Google as the monolith it is shouldn’t fucking exist. It’s too convenient to get embedded in all their services such that, when one of them breaks, you’re cut off from all of their services. This story is long and convoluted. I’ll do my best to keep it succinct (I’ve already failed, I know).

Back in January, my primary Google account was compromised. After piecing together the crazy puzzle of what happened, I determined that someone obtained my Google account password, logged into the Google Store with it, and made two fraudulent purchases using two different payment methods (PayPal and my credit card, both of which were saved to my Google Pay profile under this primary email account) equaling a very large sum of money (like $4k).

My credit card company, bless their corrupt little souls, texted me immediately about the VERY expensive charge for the second order and I freaked out. I didn’t get any emails confirming these orders because the fuckers that hacked my Google account (I suspect Google had a data breach because they skipped all two-factor authentication I had enabled and I never received any notification of my account being accessed like I normally do) put a filter on my Gmail inbox to mark all Google Store emails as Opened (or Read) and to immediately toss them into the trash. Do Not Pass Go. Do Not Collect $200.

I immediately resolved these fraudulent charges with disputes. They never even hit my credit card (which was canceled and I was issued a new one) or my bank account (PayPal). Google, however, sucks at this shit. The first purchase was made at 4:30 AM. I never saw it until later that night. Once an hour has passed after a purchase has been made from Google’s store, they cannot cancel it. How fucking ridiculous is that?

So Google Support said to just refuse the FedEx packages. I rerouted them to a FedEx drop location because I didn’t want anyone to steal them off my front step (because that’s what I suspected the scam was all along, why else have them delivered them to my fucking house?) The first package arrived, I went to the drop location which was a Walgreen's, and I told the cashier that I needed to refuse the package and have FedEx return it to the sender. I said this several times to the person helping me. But then she had me sign the FedEx scanner and when I went to leave, she pushed the box to me and said, “You don’t want it?”

It gets worse.

While I felt dumb for signing for the package, when the second package came in the next day, I also signed their scanner but it was to actually refuse the package. I don’t know why that’s how it worked, but it did. 

Package 1: Accepted. Package 2: Refused.

This is important.

During this time, my Google Pay profile under my primary Google account was placed on a temporary freeze. But on February 10th, once everything had been returned (FedEx managed to get the first package returned, I have the tracking numbers, it made it), my Pay profile had been reactivated.

Which was really great because my Play Music and HBO subscriptions had lapsed. So I immediately renewed them.

Problem solved, right?

Wrong.

I tried buying a movie before I flew to Vegas and got a very similar error that I’d seen previously when my account had originally been frozen at the end of January due to the fraudulent charges.

Through several Support chats and getting the run around, I come to find that my Pay profile has been permanently closed because I violated the Google Pay Terms of Service. And that Google’s policy is to not discuss the details of the issue with anyone. And I cannot close that Pay profile and create a new one under that same Google account because it’ll just get flagged and closed again.

While pissed, I resolved to fix it after Vegas because I didn’t have the capacity to handle it while prepping for that trip.

I get back and the problem still exists. A part of me hoped it would just go away. So over the last week I went back and forth with Google Pay support on what the fuck is going on with my pay account. Several times they repeated the same thing to me: account is closed due to violation of ToS, can’t discuss it with you per our policy. Great.

During that time, I noticed that I had like, $200 worth of Google Store credit on my account because of the packages I had unintentionally accepted (I had previously signed up for Google One so I could offload some storage to their cloud, and as a part of that Google One sub, they offer a percent of Google Store purchases as Google Store credit). So I wanted to see if I could actually use it. I kinda figured they’d take the $200 back seeing as that the charge never processed. When I tried to buy something, I finally got an error that said my Pay profile had been closed for violating the ToS.

The Narrator: Can you put that in a folder and label it “Shit I Already Know”?

I filed a complaint with the Attorney General of Minnesota because Google was not allowing me to do anything to resolve the issue. Every email response I sent was met with a similar response of “we’ve reviewed your account and we’ve determined it must remain closed”. I went Full Karen™ on Google Pay support and threatened them with legal action if they did not tell me what the fuck I did to violate their ToS. That was last Thursday.

After a few more emails over the weekend (only like, two), I suddenly received  a response at 6am today stating that my Google Pay profile had been reactivated.

I resubscribed to HBO and Play Music without issue. (I did, however, create another mess with Google Family sharing, but that’s a different story, although very much related to and caused by this one, and I won’t get into it here).

When I checked my Pay profile, the $200 in Google Store credit had been removed. I think they finally checked the tracking numbers on those two orders that I sent back and realized I had actually sent them back instead of defrauding them by making a purchasing, rejecting the charge, keeping the package, and pocketing the $200 in-store credit like they probably assumed.

I also think Google might have a big data breach mess on their hands right now. Change your passwords regularly folks!

TLDR: I’m tired. :)

[thekaleidoscopesystem]

My gender

I’d like to start this by saying I don’t really like labels for myself. I love and support mogai to bits, but trying to read so many definitions for so many labels really confuses me when trying to find what’s best for myself, especially the like /really/ specific ones. If you have neopronouns or use mogai labels, you’re so valid!! This is just my preference for myself.

There will be a TL;DR at the end by the way

That all being said, I can describe my experience with gender. If it happens to sound like a gender you know, feel free to inform me either in my inbox or in direct response to this post.

I’ll start by stating the facts. I am AFAB meaning my sex is female and I was assigned said gender at birth. Somewhere between 2013-2015 I came out to some friends as genderfluid and eventually a trans male. My legal gender now is male. I suffer from severe dysphoria so I plan to get top surgery, but not bottom surgery unless the methods used to perform the surgery improve drastically, and any other surgery I prefer to avoid. I may go on T, however I’m unsure.

I have Dissociative Identity Disorder as well as a few other disorders the mess up my self perception in many ways. One of these ways is with gender. I’m unsure if I was truly born trans or if trauma and the other illness caused it. I do know that at the core of my being, I am a boy. I believe the earliest record I have of being a boy is when I was 8 with a diary entry about it.

I find myself wanting to be a cute girl sometimes, lately more often. I believe this is because I know dressing how I want, it would be easiest to identify as a girl. I never think of myself as a girl unless it is caused by my DID. I get the most confident when dressing up but feel best with he/they being used. I believe due to my BPD traits, I moreso long for the attention popular cute girls get in the communities I’m in.

Sometimes I truly feel as though a have no gender. I often say I’m agenderflux when people want a label. Or boy if I don’t trust them. Whether that’s the most accurate or not, I’m unsure.

Going forward, I want to be able to pass as male and female whenever I’d like. I believe top surgery won’t hurt that, and makeup is a skill I aspire to be good at.

There really was no point to this, I just felt like rambling.

TLDR; Gender is odd and I think prefer he/they still even if I want to pass as both male or female whenever I’d like. I want top surgery and to be able to do good makeup and dress up cute. I don’t want bottom surgery even if I suffer from dysphoria. Labels confuse me but I believe Everyone is valid!

[janiedean]

In your anti explanation, you said "he’s not technically good looking so it sets people’s worst instincts off" about when talking about the response to Rey/lo. Can you explain what you mean by "worst instincts"? Is it just because people don't want Rey shipped with an "ugly guy" or....? That seems like a pretty shallow way of judging a character or a ship

wait I need to find you the entire sentence okay here we go. first, sentence in question:

to give the to-go example these days because it’s sadly the worst: sw sequel trilogy fandom. rey/kylo has been targeted by antis as the to-go Most Problematic Ship because in order:a) enemies to lovers as a trope which is of course abusive if the good side is a woman (more on that later) b) both are white (so it’s racist to not ship her with the non-white people in the light side *roll eyes*)c) they have a ten years age gap (so it’s pedophilia even if rey’s of age and she kicked his ass more than once)d) he’s not technically good looking so it sets people’s worst instincts offe) these people don’t buy into the fact that people can be redeemed so they decided he’s absolutely Not Redeemable and so onf) it’s an m/f couple

now: the thing is, people actually DO find that an entirely good reason to hate a ship. or at least, if you saw how much crap adam driver gets on this shithole of a website for being UGLY you’d entirely buy it. but like the thing is, on tumblr there’s an interesting phenomena considering *white cishetmen* ie:

they’re technically the embodiment of What Tumblr Hates (white, straight, cis, male)

but since a lot of people on this website are also attracted to men as much as they would like to deny it, people who are *good looking* generally get a pass or get hauled as lesbian icons when they’re like... absolutely cishet *cough* thor *cough*

also if the aforementioned men are not white of course they’re out of the area where they are criticized automatically for being cis straight males MORE OR LESS SORT OF 

but thing is, as long as someone’s white on here, and not lgbt, and not good looking, making fun of them is fair game because who cares if majorities get insulted they don’t really get hurt *rolls eyes*

so like... reylo is everything antis hate ie as I said before enemies to lovers, both white, age gap, straight ship, but the fact that he’s not conventionally attractive automatically makes it okay to shit on him and to go like ‘why ship her with the ugly white guy if she can be with the hot black one’ and stuff like that, and no one is going to be offended on behalf of the ugly white guy because the ugly white guy is not a minority and tumblr gives zero fucks. but it’s the same reasoning they make with straight women in fandom who are older than 21, the moment you are and you’re white/straight/not in their age group you’re automatically a fair target for a lot of bullshit because hey, white cis and straight and OLD, totally fair game to leave you hate in the inbox telling you to get away from fandom and get married already! (spoilers: it happened)

what I mean in tldr is: if adam driver was playing poe and oscar isaac was playing kylo I can 100% assure you that r/eylo wouldn’t be half as hated and st/ormpilot would be slightly less popular regardless of how much sense it made (spoilers: on tumblr m/m ships where one of them is not conventionally attractive are basically ‘OH SEE THERE’S FIVE PEOPLE INTO IT AND TRYING DESPERATELY TO GET PEOPLE INTO IT). and that’s bc to the woke/anti side of tumblr adam driver is not attractive, simple as that, and him being not attractive means having free reign to shit on him because if someone calls you out on it you’ll just accuse them of being a white supremacist or smth

and btw this thing re UGLY PEOPLE is not just tied to SW fandom or half of my war flashbacks of the crap that happened in the jaimebrienne fandom concerning the argument ‘you only ship it because you’re all ugly women who can’t get laid and you project by wanting the ugly woman to bang the hot guy’ wouldn’t have happened and I assure you I’ve seen that argument around since forever

so, worst instincts = people feeling allowed to insult someone just bc of how they look.

and if according to you it’s shallow, not to be that person but tumblr dot com at large is generally the shallowest damned website around especially when it comes to fandom so it’s absolutely a plausible, very shallow reason. 

but like, ppl don’t want rey shipped with a villain WHO IS MOST LIKELY GONNA GET REDEEMED and happens to be white, male, not conventionally good looking and has ten years on her. that’s about it. *shrug* the not conventionally good looking is the excuse that set them off for good as far as I’ve seen *shrug*

[walkingtravesties]

As Arkansas has recently became the first state to ban gender affirming healthcare for minors, I believe that it is important to remember that transgender people are people too.

Read Matthew 22:39 or Mark 12:31. Romans 15:7. Ephesians 4:2-3. John 7:24 says, “do not judge by appearances, but judge with right judgement.”

If you are interested in educating yourself with a few tidbits regarding exactly what this means, feel free to read below! My inbox is always open for discussion regarding this topic, or if you just need someone to talk to.

It is important to understand that Children going through gender affirming transitions DO NOT RECEIVE HORMONE THERAPY! Children and teens are usually given FULLY REVERSIBLE puberty blockers until they are old enough (over 18) to make the decision to pursue hormone therapy or surgeries. The biggest assistance for a transgender child is to let them wear and utilize appropriate clothing, hairstyles, and pronouns that suit their preferred gender.

Your goal as a parent (or friend) of a transgender child should be the same goal as with ANY child - to make them feel as loved, and accepted, as humanly possible. To lift them up and help them become wholesome individuals!

Denying a child the chance to pursue transition before puberty can cause problems! If a child is forced to go through what they view as the “wrong” puberty, this can keep them in a dysphoric pain through the (already annoying) years of puberty and adolescence; Ultimately causing a future transition to be much harder - if they choose to publicly or privately transition at all.

Transgender children are more likely to experience anxiety and depression, as well as hold a greater risk of developing a substance abuse problem and/or homelessness either in their teens or adult lives. Research finds that Transgender youth are at a greater risk of suicide (in comparison to their non-transgender peers) as a result of bullying, rejection, and just victimization in general.

All of this? Is assuming that a transgender child even makes it to Adulthood. As terrible as that sounds? A survey from 2019 consulted with approximately 27,000 transgender individuals -

“The rate of previous suicide attempts among transgender people in the United States is extremely high, with 41 percent reporting that they have had that experience,” - Dr. Alex Keuroghlian, Director of the National LGBT Health Education Center at the Fenway Institute, and the Massachusetts General Hospital Psychiatry Gender Identity Program.

Support from family and friends can be a life changing, and life SAVING thing! I believe that it is important to remember to love our neighbors, peers, coworkers and family - because you never know someone’s story until you ASK!

Did you know that Transgender Americans are twice as likely to live in Poverty compared to the overall national poverty rate of 14%? (http://Williamsinstitute.law.UCLA.edu/.../LGBT-Housing...)

With the ongoing pandemic, the Transgender community has also compounded challenges during the economic crisis - approximately 19% of transgender people and 26% of transgender people of color became unemployed due to COVID-19 compared to 12% of the general US Population. (http://Williamsinstitute.law.UCLA.edu/.../LGBT-Housing...)

There are so many places - ESPECIALLY in the Bible Belt, where transgender individuals are not even looked at as HUMAN. How sad is that??

Transgender children and adults experience some life events that I will never experience. That YOU will never experience. I believe that we can love one another, once we take the time to educate ourselves and listen to one another.

TLDR; I want you to remember two things if you made it this far!

1. Bills that’s criminalize transgender healthcare are going to keep coming. They will keep coming until they are not making headlines anymore, and another large scale crisis or topic diverts the American attention away from the LGBT community. At that point? When people have stopped speaking up? Stopped getting angry at the inhumane treatment of our fellow HUMANS? That’s when those bills will pass. That’s when more of our friends and family may not be able to live in their homes safely, without fear of adversity, attack, or general cruelty.

2. BE KIND!! Love your peers. Love your gay coworker, your transgender neighbor, your non-binary coffee shop barista - you don’t have to agree with their lifestyle. But you have to be kind, and treat everyone with the human decency that you get every day! Not everyone is blessed with that. You have to acknowledge the changes and efforts they have made to get where they are - even if you don’t personally understand what they have bene through or continue to go through!

Remember that we all breathe, we all love, and we are all Humans.

[elzariel]

Its that time again folks! (more like I just remembered this thing exists) But free guest passes to crunchyroll are here!

What the dick’s this, you might ask! Its what I get for paying for Crunchyroll to get my animus asap and in HQ, streamed straight to my brain, free guestpasses. If you use one of the codes, it costs you nothing! You get HQ anime (including the newest at the first second they are released) for a full 48 hours *and* you are allowed to take more than one code! These cost me nothing too, I literally have a full inbox of unused codes that expired. So please, if you feel like using one, do so, before it expires and is lost forever ;_; You don’t even have to follow me, so you can take this picture and share it to your friends! You can even ask me later for more codes if you want, fuck I’ll gladly share these around, I get one every month damn it..

TLDR; Take a code, take two, share it to friends! Have free anime on the house! (no seriously take it, its gonna expire and the expired codes look at me sadly everytime I pass them in the hallway of my inbox)

[night-owlenthusiast]

life tip #1 it’s okay to take care of yourself

tldr: it’s okay to be selfish and to put your health and wellbeing over another person. it’s okay to let go of toxic relationships and it’s okay to move on and take care of yourself. you are the most important person in your life. 

This is a personal story of mine; it’s going to be v long so sorry :P 

I value friendships a lot. I don’t hold grudges and I’m nice to everyone. 

It’s my greatest strength and my greatest weakness. 

I grew up in a very collectivist culture which basically means that there’s a strong emphasis on family values and community support. Family, education and community wellbeing is at the top of the priority ladder which means friendship falls somewhere near the bottom. So for someone like me, growing up with a group of friends was like something amazing because I never knew how much a bunch of strangers could grow to be like your family. 

Or so I thought. 

I refused to think of it then as verbal abuse and obviously I refused to think of it as bullying. Because I just thought to myself ‘oh they’re just playing around, that’s what friends do.’ 

It kind of happened at one point in Year 5. I was about 10/11. I got really sick and I fainted. It wasn’t a big fuss, I just wasn’t drinking enough water or something and then when I got back to school, naturally, the first thing I did was tell my friends. Instead of asking me if I was okay, they started saying I was pregnant and that I was a slut so that was why I started fainting. Later that day, I got a message in my locker from one of my ‘friends’ with basically the same insults typed out in large black font. Thankfully, another girl stepped in and took it to the teacher. 

I forgave her. But that wasn’t the end of it. 

Near the end of the school year, we went to one of my friend’s house and all was well for about two hours until they told me to stay in a room and wait for a bit while they all did something. Blame my naivety but I thought absolutely nothing of it. About 10 minutes pass and I get suspicious so I look outside and they’re putting on jewellery, laughing and taking photos of each other. And they know I’m standing right there, watching them because they deliberately make eye contact with me every few seconds as if to say ‘look at us, and look at you, the loser.’ I was so upset, I called my Dad to pick me up and we left it at that. 

I forgave them the next day. 

In Year 6, I met another girl in my year outside my friendship group. Let’s call her Maria. She was smart, funny and she loved books and I instantly connected with her so much more than with my current ‘friends.’ I have her to thank for my love of literature today. I started hanging out with her more often; I enjoyed her company more, and somehow that translated to ‘oh, they’re both lesbians.’ 

I’m not a lesbian. I’m straight. There’s nothing wrong with being part of the lgbtq+ community but to be labelled as such when I was just friends with this girl was demoralising, rude and hurtful. They started saying things like ‘since you like her so much, why don’t you guys get married,’ and ‘you’ve betrayed our group since you’re hanging out with your lesbian girlfriend.’ I couldn’t for the life of me understand why they were saying these things. And you know what I did? 

I apologised. I apologised for hanging out with her too often. They shunned me, calling me names in person, on social media… they ignored me at school and I remember standing on the top level of my classroom building looking over the railing and feeling just utterly, utterly lost. I was 12 at the time, and I remember Maria seeing me standing there and knowing something was wrong. She was the only one who noticed and she pulled me into the bathroom and asked me what happened. I brushed it off and told her everything was fine. It wasn’t. 

The abuse continued on and off for the rest of the year; luckily, I had received a scholarship to another school so I was leaving everything behind. Even so, I still cried when I left. I cried with my friends and told them I’d never forget them and I’d keep in contact with them. 

Of course that didn’t happen. I lost contact with them and unfortunately with Maria as well. 

As I entered my new school, I was able to meet a totally new group of people who have taught me so much, who have shaped me into the person who I am today, who have been there for me and who are just beautiful human beings inside and out. It was about in Year 8 that I told myself that yes, those people in my primary school were bullying me and that it was a toxic relationship that I had with them. And that it was totally okay to hate them and totally okay to move on. I forgave and forgot; we were young at the time and it’s true that kids can be unnecessarily cruel. 

But I’ve grown up now, into a better person and someone who also tries to look out for herself as much as she looks out for her friends. I didn’t realise at the time how much it took a toll on my mental health and I know now with a beautiful group of people I call my friends what a good friendship is like. 

I know my story isn’t as extreme as other bullying cases out there or as terrible as some relationships. Some of you have been through truly awful times and sometimes, it just feels like you want a dark hole to swallow you up. But we’ve all made it to the other side, albeit with bruises and cuts and scrapes. We’re still here and kickin hard. 

I wanted to leave my story here for people to read and know, and to accept that no matter how hard it is, if that friendship or relationship is taking its toll on you and you feel sad more times than you feel happy, then it’s time to let go. 

I still struggle to move on sometimes, which is okay. But now I’ve accepted the fact that if something just isn’t working out for me, I need to leave it. I’ve had enough of people walking over me and using me. And you should too. You are the most important person in your life and you need to take care of yourself. 

We are social animals. We want to belong, to be liked and to be popular. But there comes a time when there’s a fine line between pleasing other people and hurting yourself in the process. 

Love yourself. You deserve it. Let go of that toxicity, that terrible burden, and move on. 

Otherwise it’s not fair on you. 

as always, feel free to share your story :) my inbox is always open