#from the new world is an incredible anime always recommend it

[itmestine]

Thank you so much for the tag @takeme-totheworld! This is my first time doing one of these too.

10 Characters, 10 Fandoms

Tokyo Mew Mew - Retasu Midorikawa

Naruto - Kakashi Hatake

Jane Eyre - Jane Eyre

Love Live Sunshine - Chika Takami

Mushi-shi - Ginko

Bakemonogatari - Tsubasa Hanekawa

From The New World - Saki Watanabe

Genshin Impact - Diluc Raginvindr

Obey Me - Lucifer

Good Omens - Aziraphale and Crowley (I am incapable of picking between them)

Tagging (no pressure of course!): @neiratina @obae-me @dreamsforthedamned @jasper-crow @the-name-is-loser @mimisempai @dral-koumine

[sminiac]

౨ৎ⋆˚｡ Minecraft w xikers !

⋆ Ot10 xikers + reader

💌 — This is very self indulgent, and completely random but I feel like playing Minecraft with xikers would be so fun! Also bc I feel like it’s been forever since I’ve last written something for the boys :,)

Minjae would be assigning every member a task of course, and yk, maybe during the process of sorting everyone out so there’s no butting heads he’d receive a little backlash, but still!

Minjae’s your shadow, keeps you safe, keeps your hunger bar full as he’s the one who mainly gathers food. Also scopes out the prettiest places for you to build things, he claims he just stumbled upon his findings but everyone else knows he’s going out of his way to find places for you. Since he’s moderator he often gives only you flying/teleporting privileges, also sneaks you items from creative if you’re struggling to collect them in survival, but don’t tell anyone! He’s also the main member who you see the least of since he’s always flying around the world, travelling far and wide, teleports you just so you can see your favourite animals, the pandas, cats, polar bears, axolotls, even hostile mobs that you think are cool!

Remainder of members under the cut!

Hyunwoo, Hunter and Junghoon are tasked with gathering basic above ground material, wood, sand, stone etc. the only thing is they have to come back with a chest full amount because hello? There’s 11 of you. The thing is you’re so hard to say no to that whatever type of wood you’re recommending for the house they’re immediately agreeing, talking over one another about how they think it would look nice,, even if the material you want only comes from a significantly distant or difficult biome.

Hyunwoo’s a big time hog, makes up whatever excuse he can so you’ll come sprinting to him, like he somehow broke solid stone above him not knowing that gravel was on top of it and now he’s suffocating to death? It’s like a reflex to call out for you to come and save him, even if someone else is closer to him than you are. Will literally pout if someone else gets to him first, “Aww, I wanted Y/n to save me:(“ He’s not shy about his feelings, not at all.

Hunter would keep an eye on you, checking in every few minutes to see where you are, literally takes a break from breaking trees to run and find you. Makes conversation about the vision you have for your shared home, he’d even give you ideas! Taking silent breaks to scroll on Pinterest for ideas that he’d then promptly send to you through a private message, secretly enjoys the attention and praise he receives from you in return. The type to build you cute things on the side, even leaves little sweet messages on signs for you to find, but he would be a little flustered if anyone else just so happened to sprint past it.

Junghoon is incredibly helpful, like Hunter he’s always making his way to come and visit you, quietly dropping you stacks of material you’re supposed to be gathering by yourself and running away before you have the chance to politely reject it. He also frequently asks about your weapons/farming tools, its longevity bar is running low? He’s either offering you his or requesting that someone on the mining team find you iron/diamonds so he can craft you a new, better set.

Jinsik, Sumin and Yechan would already be in the nether, busied with preparations to enter the end, but they’d always find little ways to talk/interact with you.

Jinsik is clingy, isn’t shy about wanting to hold your hand or initiate skinship with you, so when he’s unable to simply be by your side in the game he’s a little restless, so eager to get back to you asap which is why he’s so strict with Yechan, always trying to keep him in line, because it means they could collect what they came for faster and get out sooner. Admittedly he becomes a little selfish… jealous in a sense from hearing the others talk to you about something he doesn’t understand because he doesn’t have the context, all he knows is that he wants to talk to you too :(

Sumin’s really bad for being ‘forgetful’, but it’s really all a ploy so he can come back through the portal to see you. It starts becoming obvious when he doesn’t have the basic material in his inventory to craft the essentials, or food, so he always has to go back, conveniently you’re there! And the two of you will venture out to collect what he needs together because if you’re helping him it’ll cut down the time by half, well… from what Jinsik knows at least. Also the worst for unnecessarily causing damage to his members health, it just doesn’t register so he frequently hits them when they say something funny or are annoying him. Never you though, never ever. In fact! He’s very cautious around you, often telling you to be careful around steep ledges and hostile mobs that attack without being provoked, literally your bodyguard.

Yechan a lot of the time gets distracted whilst wandering around with the other 2 and often ends up always somehow getting into a little trouble whilst entering fortresses, bastion remnants, literally anywhere dangerous by himself for the sake of getting you cool stuff. One of the loudest people in the party besides Junmin, always shrieking and screaming when a mob starts attacking him, partially kicks up the dramatics because he likes hearing you laugh when he’s scared/the silly arguments when Sumin scolds him for running off without them, runs to you when you’re present asking for help because he knows Sumin won’t be mean when you’re around.

Junmin, Yujun, and Seeun are the aforementioned mining team! The 3 who are especially deprived of your companionship because once they get to work there’s hardly time for them to leave the underground tunnels and vast expanse of caves they come across. It helps when you’re able to run them food and extra wood so they can make sticks for torches, they steal you when they can, showing you the cool places they’ve found and the pretty material they think you’d like!

Junmin is mostly by himself for a good amount of time because he’s the one who is closest to the surface, only going so deep into the ground to collect coal, iron, red stone, lapis. He enjoys hearing your thoughts on how to sort out the chests and their contents, especially when you offer to help him with rearranging everything for easier access. He makes for a nice conversation, tells you that if you need help with building anything that he’s your guy! Also offers to go out and find pretty flowers/seeds for your garden, the type to show up with the most random gifts for you, and you’re just “How did you find this” and he just tells you not to worry about it, that he’ll find even more if you want!

Yujun #1 sweetheart, gets so excited when he finds diamonds or any of your favourite blocks/ores and always requests that you’re teleported to him so you can come and see, always ends up giving it to you, telling you to keep it safe and to make good use of it. “I’ll find more for you!” HE’S SO CUTIE 😞 just wants to deck you out in diamonds and rare items, plus bragging rights :b also a victim to Seeun’s habit of always being the main reason for a lot of the deaths, there’s a community wall full of signs and death tally’s, a name that has a reputation for being the most common reason for deaths is Seeun, Yujun being his main victim.

Seeun, aka your #1 hater in Minecraft, like actually praying on your downfall. I really, truly believe his way of flirting is teasing and poking fun at you. You better not lose sight of him in ravines for too long or he’ll show up out of nowhere with a group of mobs behind him that are being led straight to you. He doesn’t let them kill you of course… okay, well maybe once or twice but he swears it was by accident and he just likes scaring you. Even when you think he’s distracted by mining ores he is absolutely not, he’ll wait until you’re looking out at your surroundings and then pretends to break the block under you that’s keeping you from falling to your death. He’ll let it seem like he’s actually going to break it before lifting his finger and returning back to what he was doing like nothing happened, even if you’re laughing, screaming at him to knock it off.

[arataka-reigen]

Winter Anime Review by Yours Truly 🍄🌻

This season I said I would not watch anything besides dunmeshi. As we can all see... that was a fucking lie.

In total I've started 10 anime (can everyone praise me and be proud of me for being a bit more tame than I was in the fall season? At least it wasn't 20 anime this time).

My reviews are something I make just for fun, and they 100% reflect my own personal tastes. I might give a highscore to shows other people would call absolute trash, and that's okay! To each their own~~ That being said, I do try to make it very informative to aid you in choosing what you might want to check out by adding a summary and a few content warnings along with the actual review.

A little preview: this season has some great romance anime with couples that actually do make progress in their relationship, which is kind of rare for anime couples, always on their "will they wont they" thing, so if anything, i would recommend picking up one of the romances this time around. (And dunmeshi. Watch dunmeshi.)

***This review will include exclusively animes that debuted this winter, so no 2nd seasons or continuing shows from the fall season.

So, without further ado, let's get into it under the read more.

Dungeon Meshi

Summary: Seinen, Fantasy, Gourmet, Comedy

A party of adventurers gets stuck fighting a Dragon even though they are starving and in no shape to survive. In a last ditch effort to make it out alive, mage Falin sacrifices herself to save her brother Laios and their party. She sends them back to the surface but gets eaten by the Dragon. Now Laios and co are in a race against time to save Falin before she gets digested. The problem? They don't have any money for food. The solution? DUNGEON MESHI!!! AH, DUNGEON MESHI!! DUNGEON FOOD!! JUST EAT THE GODDAMN MONSTERS 😋

Rating: 10/10

Review: if you've been following me for 2 seconds or less you already know dunmeshi is one of my all time favorite mangas. And the anime absolutely delivers. The animation is great, the voice acting is great both subbed or dubbed (the english dub AND the portuguese dub are worth it). The comedic bits hit so hard, and we're just at the start but you can already see bits and pieces of a larger and more dramatic story unfolding.

World building is insane. Character design is insane (everyone say thank you Ryoko Kui our goddess).

Not only is the story incredibly well written with no plot holes, the characters are also well fleshed out and three dimensional.

I could sing praises for it for hours, but then it would leave no space for the other shows on this list so I'll stop now.

But if you only have time to watch one anime this season, this one is it.

Content Warning: blood, death, necromancy crimes 🧟‍♀️

7th Timeloop: the Villainess Enjoys a Carefree Life Married to Her Worst Enemy

Summary: Reincarnation, Fantasy, Romance

Rishe is not new to the reincarnation business. This is her 7th time around. After being accused of crimes she didn't commit and having her engagement to the crown prince broken off in her 1st life she went on to discover that life is full of possibilities and adventures. But, after 5 years, she died. Only to find herself back at the moment the crown prince broke off their engagement. With each life she explores new countries and new possibilities, but in every life, after 5 years, she is caught up in the war waged by emperor Arnold Hein, and is killed. In her 6th life she dies directly by Arnold's blade and in a turn of fate she runs into him in her 7th life, catching his attention, and maybe his heart? Can she prevent her death this time around and finally live a peaceful life?

Rating: 10/10

Review: ah, we all knew the otome reincarnation was coming. This shit is my life source. That being said, even if it wasn't, I would still probably really love 7th Time Loop. It's just that good.

Rishe is a great main character, in all her past lives she was on The Grind. From being a merchant, to a doctor, to a maid, to a royal guard. And now she tells herself she just wants to chill, but this girl simply cannot chill. She is playing mind games with Arnold, trying to figure out what he is planning and how to stop the war from breaking out.

Meanwhile, Arnold is head over heels in love and probably so so full of trauma we still don't know yet. We must protect this dude. I'm very excited to find out more and more about him and what exactly led him to start a war against the world.

The animation is gorgeous, I love the way the eyes are drawn like constellations.

The romance is great and developing at a very nice pace, Arnold is very respectful of Rishe's boundaries for their marriage and overall just a really great guy.

CW: blood, death, kidnapping.

Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard?!

Summary: Boys Love, Adult Cast, Workplace, Supernatural, Comedy

Office worker Kiyoshi Adachi has gone 30 years of life without ever having his cherry popped. Due to this profound accomplishment, he gains the ability to read minds through physical contact. However, this new skill has only made his life harder and he now hates crowded spaces.

On the way to work, Adachi runs into his colleague Kurosawa, curious about what an outgoing guy like him thinks about, Adachi touches him and finds out that Kurosawa has a crush on someone from their office, looking further he realizes Kurosawa is actually crushing on him.

Rating: 10/10

Review: first of all, if you say "romance + adult cast" you already have my full attention. Add mind reading to the mix to make sure that the main character doesn't have miscommunication problems and i'm at the fucking table eating it up.

This show is incredibly funny, Kurosawa's thoughts about Adachi are always so sweet and/or horny and obsessed, but he is still just a super great guy with great morals and he would never do anything Adachi doesn't want (much to Adachi's surprise because he thought the dude was going to jump him anytime with how badly in love his thoughts are).

Adachi is straight until proven otherwise, and Kurosawa proves otherwise really fast. The pace of their romance is really great, we dont get ten thousand episodes of "will they wont they" and I really appreciate that.

CW: none that i can think of atm. Let me know if you have anything i could add here.

Villainess Level 99: I May Be the Hidden Boss but I'm Not the Demon Lord

Summary: Otome Isekai, Fantasy, School

Yumiella Dolkness is a girl with dark hair and dark magic (characteristics associated with the Demon Lord) and for that she is feared.

When Yumiella was 5 years old she regained memories of her past life in modern Japan, and the game she used to play: Light Magic and the Hero. In it, Yumiella was the secret boss you had to defeat after the Demon Lord. Determined to avoid this fate she applies gamer logic to her life and begins adventuring in dungeons to max her power levels.

Now, 15 year old Yumiella is going to school, where she will meet the true hero of the game. She wants to avoid calling attention and just go through her school years without trouble. But when their power levels are measured in the first day of school, she is measured as a level 99 dark magic user and now even the king and queen have their eyes on her.

Rating: 10/10

Review: you gotta trust me on this one and get through the first ten minutes, I promise it gets so much better after Yumiella is really introduced. They just had to spend a few minutes doing a gag introduction, where you follow the game's hero before you find our beloved villainess. And it was very cool how the opening resemble a dating sim game opening.

Yumiella is great, one of my favorite female leads this season, and that is including frieren and maomao from the fall season animes that are still airing. She is not very aware of all the social cues and has trouble communicating and making friends, but we get to see her inner thoughts and they're always hilarious.

My favorite gag is that dark magic can be used for healing, but the healing process looks fucking grotesque so people would rather not be healed by Yumiella. For some reason that always gets me.

I really fucking hate the 4 hero characters, they're super annoying, but in a "i love to hate them" way, and I love seeing yumiella wipe the floor with their asses without even trying because she is just that overpowered. Most of the anime is just her trying to use just a tiny bit of her power because if she uses her full power people would just straight up die with a simple punch.

CW: blood

Yubisaki to Renren

Summary: ✨️Shoujo✨️, Adult Cast, Romance

(Summary stolen from myanimelist, sorry) Yuki Itose is a hearing-impaired university student whose world has been shrouded with silence since birth. She has lived in the same place her whole life, and rarely interacts with others save for her best friend, Rin Fujishiro. During her commute one day, she meets the silver-haired and multilingual Itsuomi Nagi, a mutual friend of Rin. Unlike most, Itsuomi is unwavering when he learns of Yuki's impairment; this, along with his experiences abroad, fascinates and touches her. After they part, her fondness of him starts to grow. A new world begins to open for both Yuki and Itsuomi as they learn about each other's different lives.

Rating: 10/10

Review: and here we have The Shoujo Of The Season. And it occupies that spot marvelously.

Yuki and Itsuomi are another one of the incredible couples of the winter season. Relationship developing at a very nice pace that isn't too fast and not too slow (like shoujo can be sometimes). Yuki is very inspired by Itsuomi, she wants to see the world and experience new things now that she got a glimpse into his life and realized how big the world is.

I specially love how cool, calm and collected Itsuomi always acts, but how his cousin, Kyouya, lets us know that Itsuomi is really interested in Yuki and just shows it in different ways, like the way his voice gets very affectionate towards her.

The animation!!!!! Wow!!!! So soft!!! So warm!!!! I love it!!!! I'm sure you'll love it too!!!

Sound design is also very good, it's specially interesting during scenes where we cant hear anything because we are on Yuki's point of view. I wish it happened even more often.

I've seen people compare this show with Koe no Katachi but they're very different shows, specially since we get to see most of this one through Yuki's point of view, while Koe no Katachi was not from the POV of the hearing-impaired character and dealt a lot more with issues like bullying and suicide. Yubisaki to Renren is a lot more light-hearted, soft, sweet and overall just a feel good anime.

I am always going to recommend shoujo. Specially when they're as good as this one is. So definitely check this one out.

CW: none that I can think of. Let me know if there is anything I should put here.

The Foolish Angel Dances with the Devil

Summary: Seinen, Romance, Comedy, Supernatural

The angels and the devils are waging a war. Things are not looking so good on the devils' side, so they send Akutsu Masatora on a journey to the human world, to find someone that can aid the demons on their fight.

Akutsu is assigned a seat next to Lily Amane, the cutest girl in class. But when he tries to recruit her to the devil's side he realizes she is not a normal human. Now he must deal with the fact that he is tied to his mortal enemy, an angel, and with the fact that he might be falling in love.

Rating: 10/10

Review: More like,, the foolish devil gets played by the angel.

Akutsu and Lily get into stupid mind games trying to make the other fall in love, all while realizing that "hey, angels/devils arent so bad after all" as they spend more and more time together.

It reminds me just a bit of Kaguya-sama how the main couple wants the other to cave first.

This show is simply hilarious, I was laughing out loud at so many stupid scenes. Some gags do get old a bit fast, but overall it's still going strong and makes up for where it falls short with how badly in love these two already are just a few episodes in.

I'm not sure we'll get a proper confession this season, but it doesnt look like these two will be stuck forever in the "will they wont they" stage like the couple from kaguya-sama.

CW: there is a scene by the end of episode one that is completely played as a joke that has one of the lead characters putting a collar on the other lead and the imagery was a bit disturbing, definitely leaning on non con bdsm themes, it isnt terrible, just felt a bit distasteful to me, but nothing big, i dont think it should deter you from watching this, but watch out for that.

Solo Leveling

Summary: Action, Fantasy

(Synopsis stolen from myanimelist again) Ten years ago, "the Gate" appeared and connected the real world with the realm of magic and monsters. To combat these vile beasts, ordinary people received superhuman powers and became known as "Hunters." Twenty-year-old Sung Jin-Woo is one such Hunter, but he is known as the "World's Weakest," owing to his pathetic power compared to even a measly E-Rank. Still, he hunts monsters tirelessly in low-rank Gates to pay for his mother's medical bills.

However, this miserable lifestyle changes when Jin-Woo—believing himself to be the only one left to die in a mission gone terribly wrong—awakens in a hospital three days later to find a mysterious screen floating in front of him. This "Quest Log" demands that Jin-Woo completes an unrealistic and intense training program, or face an appropriate penalty. Initially reluctant to comply because of the quest's rigor, Jin-Woo soon finds that it may just transform him into one of the world's most fearsome Hunters.

Rating: 8/10

Review: everyday that passes I find myself liking battle shounen less and less. This one is not bad, it is actually quite interesting, it's just not the type of stuff i'm into anymore, I guess.

That being said, if you're in the mood for it, this one if very interesting. Jin woo's life is now completely ruled by this game that allows him to level up, and he is getting a bit fucked in the head by it.

Animation is great, I love when his eyes get all shiny because you know he's gone Beast Mode.

Not a lot of characters introduced so far, but it's still cool to see Jin Woo leveling up on his own. I mean... a show named solo leveling has got to make sure that the solo aspect isnt boring lol.

For some reason tho I still gave it an 8, which is high, so... it's pretty good.

Jin woo is just a bit... generic i guess. Nothing you havent seen before from an isekai male lead.

Also... i miss his haircut from the earlier episodes, his current haircut makes him look even more generic.

CW: blood and gore, body horror, torture, death games. Big and scary god statue that smiles in a fucked up way and kills kills kills.

Drop Box

Animes I either already dropped for a specific reason or will probably drop in the future simply because I wont have time to watch everything I started this season, so among the 10 I started, these are the ones i'm least likely to finish:

Majo do Yajuu

Summary: Seinen, Action, Fantasy

Guideau and Ashaf are an ominous pair, working for a mysterious organization that deals with magic crimes. Guideau is a feral and unhinged girl/genderless beast with a curse she wants to break and Ashaf is her soft spoken and calm companion. They go from town to town looking for witches to defeat and trying to find the witch who cursed Guideau and get their revenge.

Rating: 7/10

Review: I do like this one, I just think that if it comes to it and I dont have time, I wont miss it too much if I never finish it.

The blood and gore are heavy, and that might be the reason why i'm fine dropping it, i'm not that big of a fan of gore.

Other than that tho, I find the two main characters extremely interesting and i want to learn more about them, specially Guideau and her curse and that crazy beast mode she goes on when she manages to put a pause on her curse sometimes.

CW: blood and gore, body horror

Gekai Elise

Summary: Reincarnation/Otome Isekai, Fantasy, Medical, Romance

(Again, stolen from myanimelist) In her first life, the renowned and genius surgeon Dr. Aoi Takamoto was Elise de Clorance, a villainess of noble descent. Elise's selfishness, insolence, and obsessive love for her fiancé—Prince Linden de Romanoff—led to the deaths of her family members and, eventually, herself. Only after being reborn did Elise realize the error of her ways and decide that, instead of ruining lives, she would devote herself to saving them. But a tragic airplane crash robs her of her dreams too soon.

By a miracle, Elise wakes up in her original body before her official engagement to Linden. Recognizing the chance to cherish her loving family and free Linden from an unwanted marriage, Elise wishes to use her advanced medical knowledge to continue down the path of saving lives. In a deal with the emperor, Elise is given only six months to prove that her true place is not on the throne, but rather with the wounded and ailing who desperately need her help.

Rating: 6/10

Review: I'd like to say I dropped this show for personal reasons, not because it is a bad show.

It is definitely not the best otome isekai of the season (7th time loop and Villainess 99 win by a mile), but it is quite good and has an interesting premise. The main couple didn't seem too promising or interesting to me tbh.

The thing that interested me the most was the fact that Elise's original life was as a noblewoman, her second life was as a doctor and then he got a chance to relive her first life and change the mistakes she made.

Unfortunately, I am a med student, and I simply can't watch medical related stuff without nitpicking it to hell and back. Mostly, I try to distance myself from medicine related shows because my life already revolves around it too much, u know. I just need a break from All That when I'm watching my silly little shows, so... i had to drop this one.

Also, the main character was kind of annoying, but that might just be me.

Anyway, check this out if you think it sounds interesting. I might not be the best judge of this one.

CW: plane crash, death, medical procedures, surgery

Gushing Over Magical Girls

Oh boy...

I'm putting the CW before anything else because this one is problematic and I don't want anyone acting like I didn't warn them beforehand.

CW: this is straight up softcore porn and the characters are all middle/highschool aged. The anime revolves around BDSM themes (so many and increasingly worse themes, from simple bondage to pain play, to age play and other stuff), and there is nothing more than that to it, all the character growth is about the characters becoming more and more uninhibited with their sexual preferences. Also extremely dubious consent for all of it.

This is just a hentai disguising as an ecchi. It's fully yuri tho. Small blessings lol.

Summary: Mahou Shoujo, Girls Love, Ecchi, Comedy

I'm tired already so this will be short. Utena is a girl obsessed with magical girls. One day she gets the chance to become a magical girl herself, however, she is fooled and actually becomes a villain. She is made to fight Tres Magia (magical girl group) and ends up realizing she quite enjoys inflicting pain against them.

Review: the animation is good, very clean, the boob physics is not all that bad (what. this is an honest review and the anime is an ecchi. i gotta talk abt the boob physics.)

It is indeed super funny and definitely unhinged.

Plot wise, it is pretty straightforward, girl likes magical girls -> girl finds out she likes to watch magical girls suffering and in pain and moaning (well, not only watch, she does a lot of touching too)

Do I recommend it? No. Am I having fun watching it? Yes, it is pretty funny if you're the type of person who can ignore A Lot of things.

I'll probably favor the other animes tho so this one is very likely to get dropped before the season is through.

Thank you for reading (if you managed to make it this far lol, although this list is definitely smaller than my fall anime list)

If there is any other anime you think I should check out this season leave it in the replies and I might take a look at it and update this review with it!

[phereinnike]

OMINIS LORE DROPPED BY DIALOGUE AT THE END OF THE HISTORY OF MAGIC CLASS QUEST!

Pardon if the wording isn't exact, as you can see by the screenshot I'm playing in spanish, but here are some dialogue lines Ominis speaks to Natty and you if you stay to listen after finishing the History of Magic class map quest:

Quidditch:

"Next season the Chudley Cannons will be invincible, you'll see!

"My father was a great seeker and he always thought I'd be one too. Thank Merlin they cancelled quidditch."

"I miss attending the matches. Cheering everyone was very fun. And watching Isaac Cooper."

"My friends and I like to spend the evenings watching the sun set from the quidditch pitch. This year it isn't much good for anything else, unfortunately."

"I spent the entire summer practicing a full turn on a broom. What a waste!"

Family:

"This is the first year my sister is in Hogwarts. Whenever she pretends she doesn't see me in the corridors I make her trip with a jinx."

"This is the first year my siblings and I are together at Hogwarts. Our poor mother doesn't know what to do with so much time on her hands, so she knits. She sends us a new sweater each week."

"You try to work with a wand that has been through your three disastrous sisters."

"My father says he used to hide his homework under his bed."

"I used to write to my parents every week. Now I can't recall the last time I sent them an owl, do you think they know i'm still alive?"

"I hadn't met any of my cousins until i came to Hogwarts and saw that we were all in the same house."

"My brother has promised to give me his old broom when he saves up enough to buy himself a new one. I can't wait!"

Studies/teachers:

"If I manage to stop dissappearing my class notes while practicing evanesco I might even pass the Transfigurations O.W.L. this year."

"Professor Weasley is a trully incredible teacher. She never makes us write scrolls longer than necessary."

"Professor Weasley is already preparing me for the Transfigurations N.E.W.T."

"The other day Professor Black looked at me in the Great Hall and I spat my breakfast. I don't know if he might've taken it the wrong way."

"What a relieve that Black's children are too young to attend Hogwarts. I'd hate having my father as headmaster."

"Obviously, Hogwarts is the best magic school in the world. Everyone knows that. Of course, we'll be the best at magic in the world."

"Professor Howin is going to ask us about aquatic animals next week. I can't wait to tell her I saw a kelpie in Ireland this summer."

"I took my copy of 1000 Herbs and Magical Fungy to Herbology and left it in the greenhouse next to the mandrake seedbeds. Sharp was horrified by the fact that i didn't have it in class. He said I needed to sort out my priorities."

"Everyone is afraid of Professor Sharp, but not me. He's a brilliant man. And he has only yelled at me twice this week for setting my cloak on fire."

"I wonder how Sharp injured his leg. Surely, it must've been during his time as an auror."

"You should hear Shah talk about Divination. It's a miracle Onai's ears aren't burning. I'd say stars are more knowledgeable than cards."

"I'm still having a hard time brewing antidotes. I'm surprised to many of them ask for mandrakes. I'll make sure I set my career goals far away from that."

"That reminds me, did miss Scribner say we could take the book out at night or that she'd punish us if we did?"

"I've notices that if I pretend to pay attention in Potions, Sharp lets me be. It works well enough, unless he asks me a question. Then it's not a good plan at all. Actually, I wouldn't recommend it."

"Sharp caught me making faces behind his back. It was horrible... not to speak of all the house points I lost."

"if someone needs help with their studies or homework, I don't mind lending them a hand. Yesterday I wrote half a scroll for Binns during lunch break."

"I have no problem saying I have trouble understanding that Black is married. What kind of witch would give her hand to a man like that? On the other hand, that means there's hope for everyone."

"I need dragon-skin gloves for Herbology. I refuse to touch chinese chomping cabbages with my naked hands."

"Why aren't we allowed to use gillyweed? What's the point of learning Herbology if we can't mess around with gillyweed? If by the end of the trimester I haven't personally met a mermaid I'll be mad."

[unlike others] "I do like Transfigurations. The complex and precisse nature of transfigurations is admirable."

"I met some of my best friends in Flying class. Nothing strenghtes a bond like thinking you're going to die."

"Professor Weasley must be exhausted doing all her work and then Black's. We're lucky to have her."

Slytherin house:

"Someone got home-made chocolate cauldrons and shared them in the common room. But I think they might've confused the sugar with salt. There were half-eaten chocolate cauldrons in the common room for days."

"I don't know why each common room has a secret entrance. Who would want to go to another common room? We got sorted to our houses for a reason."

"Our dorm is atrocious. I wish people cleaned up after themselves once in a while. Last night a bundimun ate my homework. The potions one, too."

"I like to have a wiggenweld potion under my bed. Not to name any names but someone spent a lot of money on Zonko's."

"My side of the dorm is always impeccable, but I can't say the same about my dorm-mates. If I didn't know them I'd say they were raised by trolls."

Others:

"Has there been any news about the Pitt-upon-Ford Dragon? It makes me want to move, to be honest."

"My great-aunt was a Hufflepuf. She says they have the best common room because it's the calmest. Well, compared to the others."

"I wish I had brought a pet owl to school. I mean, I love my toad. More or less. You wouldn't be interested in getting a toad, would you?"

"Do all professors have their own owls? They must sent lots of letters. To the Ministry or something like that."

"So many letters arrive every day and none are for me."

"If i turn my toad into a cup again, I think it might insist I leave it like that."

"I'd like to retire in Hogsmead. Open a bar. Bore Hogwart's students with my childhood stories."

"I'd like to have a shop in Hogsmead one day. Gladrags Wizardwear could use some competition."

"I guess I'm curious about the beautification potion. What? It's not for me, idiot! It's for a friend. Don't say dumb things."

"Has there been any new about the Pitt-upon-Ford Dragon? It makes me want to move, to be honest."

"My great-aunt was a Hufflepuf. She says they have the best common room because it's the calmest. Well, compared to the others."

"Do all professors have their own owls? They must sent lots of letters. To the Ministry or something like that."

"So many letters arrive every day and none are for me."

"If i turn my toad into a cup again, I think it might insist I leave it like that."

"Have you been by the owlery lately? the house elves haven't been cleaning much this week."

"The other day Peeves distracted me and I bumped right into Adelaide Oakes. Both our books went up flying int he air. Peeves loved it."

"I don't like the size of my legs. Well, you were asking the other day, so I'm telling you."

"I had been collecting chizpurfle fangs all trimester when I thought, why not keep some chizpurfles."

"I really pity those who never get owl-post, poor guys. Have you seen their faces in the great hall?"

"I've heard girls talk about african snake skin near the bathroom. Do you think they're brewing pollyjuice? Oh, what if they've already brewed it and Sharp is actually that hufflepuff girl with the long arms?"

"Today I'm going to the green-houses to sow some knotgrass. Did you know it's used for pollyjuice potion? I think it's what creates the connection to the other person."

"There's an ex-auror living near Hogsmead. She wants to live a quiet life after fighting dark wizards."

"Do you know where I can get leaping toadstoll caps?"

"I just don't get it. Opalum. Who would think to put that in a potion?"

"The other day I got stuck in the Great Staircase for an hour waiting for it to change. Sharp wouldn't believe me when I told him that's why I was late."

"Parry Pippin sure did save me with his wiggenweld potion. In my opinion, his shop's better than any of the ones in London."

"Did you buy your bitterroot from Pippin or did you pick it up yourself? I need some desperately."

That's all I got after staying to listen for about an hour <3

[mysterious-ocarina]

amazing work! consider this… gn reader is chuuyas coworker who’s emotionless and keeps their distance from him and their colleagues… chuuya starts to like them but doesn’t know how to bridge the gap…. and on a mission with chuuya, (there was only one bed!!) an asphrodiac gets put in their drink… so they come to him begging him to help them because they don’t know what to do… and fluff and smut ensues!!

Because You Want Me To (NSFW)

Chuuya Nakahara x fem!reader

A/N Im so sorry, i really meant to keep it gn but then i just got caught up with the feminism idea cuz i mean come on, theres no way chuuya isnt a woman respecter. I also was not sure how to write gn smut. If you dont like it, i can totally write it again but definitely gn and less feminism involved. Pls lmk also pls tell me what termonology to use for. . . certain body parts cuz lately everything just sounds wrong

please give me recommendations for books to use as abilities or just abilities in general for bsd content

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Sitting hunched over your desk filling out paperwork was getting real old, really quick. You sighed as you leaned back in your chair. Some may call you a workaholic but you were simply strong-willed and determined. Growing up the way you did, you learned to be very independent and how to make your own spot in the world. You joined the Port Mafia at the age of sixteen and have worked the hardest you could to be the strongest.

Your ability did not give you a fighting advantage but you did have a clairvoyant advantage. You were able to speak to animals and your pet raven was your second pair of eyes and ears. It was a normal occurrence for people to see you walking around the halls with Ace clinging to your shoulders. More often than not, he was your partner on missions considering you preferred to work alone.

Becoming an Executive to the Port Mafia was hard work but there wasn’t anything that you would allow to stand in your way. You were very feared and very respected, which is exactly how you like it. You only conversed with your coworkers when it was needed. You were here to do your job, not make pointless relations with coworkers. It was pretty easy for you to avoid interactions with most people in the Port Mafia. The only exceptions were the boss and the other executives, one in particular.

Chuuya Nakahara was. . . different. You weren’t really sure what it was (you do but you’re in denial) but there is something about him that makes him more bearable than anyone else in the mafia that you’ve met. Whenever you were paired together for missions, which was pretty often, he always pulled his weight. There were times when you were paired with people who just wouldn’t do the job they were assigned to do because of egos or whatever. It bothered you to no end when you had to pick up their slack. Chuuya was a great mafioso and incredibly strong which was something you greatly respected.

You still did your best to avoid him, outside of missions. There was no reason why someone, let alone a man, should distract you from your job.

Ace squawked next to you, breaking you from your thoughts. Is something the matter?

You chuckled, thinking about how your best friend was a raven and that he knew you well enough. You brushed him off, “Nothing’s the matter.”

Ace left the perch by the window and landed on your armrest. He nipped your arm with his beak before squawking again. I bet I know exactly what you're thinking about.

Stupid bird, you thought as you glared at him. “Shut your beak.”

Ace climbed to your shoulder as a knock was heard on your office door. You muttered "come in" before Chuuya made an appearance. He walked in, fashionable as ever, and closed the door behind him. He looked a bit fidgety and you had to stop yourself from asking him if he was okay. It was none of your concern.

“I’ve got good and bad news,” Chuuya said as a greeting, straight to the point, something that gave him a point in your head, not that you were keeping track of stuff he did that you liked.

You raised your eyebrow at him, motioning for him to continue. He sat down and placed his hat in his lap. Pulling a small bag from his jacket pocket, he dumped an assortment of nuts in a bowl on your desk for Ace. You tried really hard to stop a smile from covering your face but your lips slightly curled up. A point for him.

Ace hopped from your shoulder, squawking. I like him.

Your smile faded at his smug tone, snapping, “Well, no one asked for your opinion.”

Chuuya gazed at the both of you, “Does he not like them?”

“That’s not it. You had news?” you questioned, changing the subject.

Immediately Chuuya got serious and professional. Another point. “Yes. The good news is that we have a mission together. Just simple intel gathering.”

You were glad it was only intel and not a fight because you weren’t in the mood to fight anyone. That doesn’t mean it would go smoothly. If you weren’t careful, intel gathering could turn nasty incredibly quick. You stared back at Chuuya, “What’s the bad news?”

Chuuya looked at you, apologetically, “We’ll need to stay overnight and I know you hate overnight missions. The event we are going to is hours away and by the time it’s over, it will be too late at night to get back. Mori already booked us a hotel room.”

You sighed and ignored the fact that he knew you wouldn’t be happy. Rubbing your temples, you asked, “When are we leaving? I’ll read the files in the car.”

That’s how you found yourself, riding passenger in one of the mafia’s cars. The back window was open for Ace to come and go as he pleased, something Chuuya did before you had to even ask. Another point. You spent the entire drive reading over the files for subjects and information you were supposed to be looking for tonight. You could tell that Chuuya wanted to talk to you as a way to pass the time but you kept your head in the files, refusing to let him distract you.

You joined the mafia around the same time as him but you never interacted with him, or anyone for that matter. It wasn’t until you were both executives when you would be paired for missions and forced to get to know each other. You didn’t hate getting to know him but you kept the talk about yourself to a minimum.

When you first became an executive, there were rumors going around that you had slept with the boss to make it to where you were. You know, the typical rumors that follow a powerful woman. The rumors didn’t outwardly bother you, “let dickbags believe whatever they want” you would always say if someone asked you about it. But when you found out that the only people who didn’t believe the rumors were Kouyou and Chuuya, you felt a sense of security in your position. Kouyou understood the difficulty of being a woman in power and Chuuya. . . well you weren’t too sure why he didn’t believe the rumors.

“What?” he muttered. You must have been staring at him for too long because he was looking at you with a red face, embarrassed maybe.

“When I first became an executive, why didn’t you believe the rumors that I slept my way there,” you asked, blunt and intrigued.

He seemed very surprised by your question, stammerings, “I-I don’t know. Why would. . .”

He paused for a bit, seeming unsure what to say. You just stared at him, an impassive expression on your face.

He sighed, keeping his focus on the road instead of you, “Do you really think I’m that immature to believe rumors like that?”

You sensed a little insecurity in his voice but ignored it. You replied, “It’s not like I gave you any reason to believe I wouldn’t. You didn’t know me.”

“You didn’t give me a reason to believe that you would either.”

You paused, unsure of how to respond. Being a woman in a male dominant field was difficult and it seemed that Chuuya understood how baseless those kinds of rumors could be. Another point.

Facing the window, you spoke up, “I didn’t. Just so you know.”

“I know,” he replied without hesitation.

You didn’t fight the smile that formed on your face this time. You just hoped Chuuya couldn’t see it because you were facing the other way.

He did and he will cherish the image forever.

By the time you got to the hotel, you were significantly less unhappy about the assignment you had been given, not that you outwardly showed it. Something about your conversation with Chuuya in the car sparked something within you. Your denial of how much you cared for the red head next to you was melting away. Usually this would bother you but you had a feeling that Chuuya or the feelings you hold for him will not get in your way of your job, which brought you great comfort and security. It looked like Chuuya respected you and your work ethic.

Chuuya grabbed your guy’s bags as you made your way into the hotel and to the front desk to check in.

Politely, you greeted, “Hello, there should be a room reserved for me.”

The pretty receptionist gave you a kind smile and when Chuuya came up beside you, she gave him a sweeter one. She kept staring at Chuuya, making him blush, “What name will it be under?”

Haughtily, you replied, “Ougai Mori. It’s for my partner and I.”

Calling Chuuya your partner wasn’t wrong, he was your partner for this mission. But you knew that the receptionist would take it the wrong way, which brought you a little bit of satisfaction.

She looked at you with a forced smile. She handed you your key cards before dismissing you, “Room 115, it’s at the end of the hall on the left.”

You gave her a smug smile, “Thank you.”

You walked through the hall in search of your room, Chuuya trailing behind you. He walked beside you, giving you a look, “What was that?”

You kept walking, face empty, “What was what?”

“Back there, with the receptionist. You guys were being passive aggressive with each other. Is there some kind of woman thing I'm not understanding?” Chuuya asked, confused.

You briefly glanced at him and shrugged, only replying, “Sure.”

He sighed next to you but decided against asking about it anymore, knowing you wouldn’t answer him how he wanted.

Unlocking the room door, the both of you made your way into.

“Shit,” you explained. The room that the two of you would be staying in tonight only had a single bed.

Chuuya sighed next to you and asked, “Want me to go to the front desk?”

Not wanting him to interact with the receptionist, you shook your head, “No, we can figure it out later. I’m going to shower and get ready for the event.”

Chuuya placed both your bags on the bed and rifled through his, “I’ll get the garment bags from the car with our outfits in them.”

You were already in the bathroom in the shower when you heard Chuuya come back into the room. You also heard a little kawing so you assumed he let Ace into the room. A point.

You spent a lot of time in the bathroom after you finished your shower. In the shower, images of Chuuya were flooding your mind. You had to keep reminding yourself that he was just in the other room and you shouldn’t do anything unprofessional. Even if your cunt prickled with neediness.

Eventually realizing that Chuuya will want to shower too, you calmed your body down and left the bathroom. You had dried your hair and done all of your makeup but didn’t have the dress you were wearing. Covered in only a towel, you walked over to the garment bag on the bed.

While looking at his phone, Chuuya said to you, “That bag is yours. I talked to Mori and it looks like it was an error in the hotel system. He advised that we just keep the room as is.”

Chuuya ran  a hand through his hair, annoyed, and looked up at you. He blushed when he noticed that you were only in a towel and averted his gaze. He muttered, “I can sleep on the floor.”

You glared at the back of his head, “I won’t make you sleep on the dirty floor. We can figure out the sleeping arrangements when we get back. Now go get dressed, I do not want to attract unwanted attention for being late.”

“Yes, ma’am,” Chuuya replied with a smirk. You sighed in faux annoyance with a blush on your face as he silently made his way to the bathroom with his garment bag.

You slipped into the dress. It was tight fitting but not uncomfortable with a slit up your thigh. It was also an alluring shade of red which made you immediately think of Chuuya. For a second, you were curious how he would react seeing you in this dress but you shook the thoughts from your head.

You sat at the desk and mirror set up in the room to do your hair and makeup for the night, taking note that Chuuya seemed to be taking an awfully long time in the shower. You put your brush down and went to the bathroom door to ask if Chuuya was okay. But right before you were going to ask, you heard a sound that had you shutting up and blushing. It sounded like Chuuya was groaning and saying your name.

You backed up until the back of your legs hit the bed and sat down. Was Chuuya. . . masturbating in the shower? Thinking about you, no less? You were thankful that Ace wasn’t in the room to squawk and add to your embarrassment.

You were extremely flustered but flattered that Chuuya thought of you that way. It offered you comfort to know that you weren’t alone in thinking unprofessionally of your partner. Maybe after the mission was over, you would have the chance to talk to Chuuya about the possibility of expanding your relationship. But for now, you need to get your head out of the gutter and focus on your job.

When Chuuya finally came out of the bathroom, he was looking especially handsome in his suit. He stopped in his tracks as he looked at you. When he saw your crossed legs and the slit of the dress exposing your thigh, he thought he might faint. Red in the face he coughed, “You look beautiful.”

You thought it was really endearing that he wouldn’t look you in the eye. “Thank you. You clean up pretty nicely as well.”

You did your best to not stare at him but you could feel the tension between you guys building. You grabbed the necklace you were going to wear and placed it into Chuuya’s hand. “Could you put this on for me?”

You turned around, not waiting for an answer. Chuuya, ever so slowly, wrapped the small chain around your neck and clasped it. He pulled your hair out from under it and set it back in place cascading down your back. His hand lightly grazed your neck and you failed to contain the shivers that went through your body.

You quickly turned back around and ignored the butterflies in your stomach. You stared at Chuuya’s face, finding adoration covering it.

“Let’s go, handsome,” you announced, now nervous of your distracting partner.

“Yes ma’am,” Chuuya repeated, a smile painted on his face. You turned and walked out the door not bothering to hide the small smile that appeared on your face.

-

This had to be the hardest mission you’ve ever been on. Now it wasn’t really intellectually hard, intel gathering was as simple as knowing how to charm others into talking about whatever you wanted. But at some point you couldn’t focus on any conversations you were a part of, Chuuya having to pick up your slack, something that would have bothered you to no end if you didn’t feel the way you did right now.

With his arm around your waist, Chuuya pulled you to one of the tables and chairs scattered about the event. He sat you down and grabbed the champagne glass from your hands, “I wouldn’t pin you as a lightweight.”

Your face was flush and your entire body felt like it was on fire, “I’m not drunk, Chuuya. Something is wrong.”

Chuuya stared at you worriedly but you couldn’t stand to look at him. You could barely stand to have his arm around you and standing so close to you. Anywhere his skin touched yours sent shivers down your spine and the smell of him was driving you crazy. Vanilla and Sandalwood. You clenched your thighs, hoping to relieve the tension that was forming in your bottom half.

“Shit,” you exclaimed when you figured out what happened. Your breathing was extremely labored as you explained, “I-I need you to take me to the hotel. . . and lock me in the room for the night. Some. . . one must have drugged me, I’ll explain more later. Did you get all the information we needed?”

“Yes, we should have everything we need. What’s going on?” Chuuya asked, voice a bit tense.

He put his arm around your waist to help you up and it took everything in you to not moan at the feeling of his touch. You couldn’t muster up the strength to speak as he brought you outside and to the car. He started driving back to the hotel, looking at you every few seconds to see if you were alright. The way he was worried about you was making your head spin with adoration and your thighs clench with lust.

Panting, you replied, “I think someone knew we were there and drugged me as a distraction. I think I’ve been given an aphrodisiac.”

Chuuya stared at your panting and sweaty body, beyond confused, “What kind of drug is that? You better not be dying on me?”

At the hotel, Chuuya brought you back to the room and laid you on the bed. He seemed antsy and a bit annoyed that you weren’t answering him.

You put him out of his misery by explaining, “An aphrodisiac is a drug that. . . in simple terms makes the victim like an animal in heat.”

You writhed in the bed, sweat dripping off of you. You so badly wished that Chuuya would just shut up and take care of your neediest spots but it looks like you won’t get what you want just yet.

Staring at you, a blushing mess, Chuuya questioned, “How do you know that’s what you’ve been given?”

You groaned, annoyed with having to deal with this. Inappropriate thoughts of your partner were flooding your mind and making it almost impossible for you to pay attention to his line of questioning. “Because. . . Chuuya. I can’t get the thought of you and that pretty face of yours out of my head. All I want to do right now is push you down on this bed and ride you until I pass out.”

You basically moaned at the flustered look Chuuya was giving you. After a few labored breaths you spoke up again, “Now. I heard you in the shower so I know you want me.”

Unable to bear it any longer, you stripped off your dress. Now fully naked in front of Chuuya. He coughed again but looked away, “I would only want to have sex with you if it was because you wanted me to and not some drug making you. That’s not fair to you.”

Chuuya turned around and just before he was about to walk away, you grabbed the sleeve of his suit jacket, “Trust me. This is not how I would have wanted this to go but-” you paused, finding the words stuck in your mouth. You moaned again when Chuuya’s fingers slipped into yours, unable to contain yourself, “I really do want you Chuuya. And I know you have enough respect for me to not ruin our relationship or my relationship with my work.”

Chuuya stared at you, flustered and undeniably hard but unsure of what to do. You took the final step by pulling his arm, forcing him to fall on top of you. You grabbed the back of his head to pull him closer to you. He didn’t resist as you slotted your lips into his.

It was a ferocious kiss that was filled with lust, passion, and neediness. You ran your hands through Chuuya’s hair and down his front making him groan into your mouth. You tried to pull the belt from his pants but your hands were too shaky. You whined when he pulled your hands away from him and brought them to rest above you. He used one hand to hold yours in place and the other to undo his pants.

Chuuya chuckled, “If you need me that bad, how come you can’t even get my pants off of me?”

“Stop teasing, please Chuuya,” you begged, moaning when he brought his mouth back down to yours.

Chuuya got off of you and stood in front of you and the bed. He sighed, content, “I’ve been waiting for this forever. I don’t know if it’s obliviousness or stubbornness that kept you away from me.”

You couldn’t help but stare at the man in front of you as he stripped, breathlessly you replied, “A bit of both. . . But no more.”

Chuuya gave you a dazzling smile, climbing back on top of you. He laid kisses down your stomach as he spoke, “No more.”

You whined as he laid kiss after kiss on your body, wanting more. He finally took his hands and soothingly rubbed your thighs, “Do you want me to touch you?”

“Yes, Chuuya. Please just do what you want to me. I’ll take anything,” you begged, desperate to be touched by him.

Instead of teasing you further like you thought he would, Chuuya gets to work pleasuring you. Moving his hands from your thighs, Chuuya brings them to your dripping cunt. Slowly but surely, he presses two fingers into you while rubbing his thumb on your clit.

You writhed on the bed, holding back your moans. Chuuya wouldn’t have that.

“Now, now, princess. I’d like to hear who’s making you feel so good,” Chuuya chided, fingering you faster and harder.

“Chuuya, I’m going to-” you moaned, overwhelmed with pleasure.

He brought his mouth up to your breasts, licking and biting as he went, “It’s okay. You can come.”

His mouth on your body and his permission was the last thing holding you back. You came with a loud scream, convulsing around his fingers.

When you had calmed down and Chuuya pulled his fingers out of you, you grabbed the back of his head to bring his lips to yours. You made out for what felt like ages before Chuuya  chose to break the kiss to speak, “How do you feel now, princess?”

“I feel like, I need you to fuck me. Please, Chuuya,” you begged, pulling his body as close to you as you could. His erection was pressed into your thighs, making you whine in want.

Chuuya groaned and marked around your neck. He whispered, “As you wish.”

Before long, Chuuya was hovering over you and rubbing his cock through your folds. The both of you moaned at the contact before he slipped into you with ease.

He kept still, letting you adjust, until you wiggled your hips to encourage him to move. Any self control he had up to this point all but vanished. Chuuya pounded into you ferociously, coaxing you into a moaning and whining mess.

You were too distracted with pleasure to do anything but moan Chuuya’s name. One hand on your waist to keep you where he wanted, he used his other hand to bring your hands back up over your head.

He brought his lips down to yours to give you a lustful kiss. You struggled to keep up with his pace, too busy moaning, but he didn’t care. With how feral he was being right now, you would have thought that he was the one who was drugged.

Eventually his hips started to stutter, notifying you of both his and your approaching orgasm. Chuuya brought his hand down to your clit, rubbing in time with his thrusts. You blacked out as you came, screaming and overloaded with pleasure. When you finally came to, Chuuya was slowing down his thrusts, still prolonging the pleasure.

When he finally stopped moving and pulled out of you, you could feel his juices seeping out of you. You laid on the bed, too dazed to move, and watched as Chuuya grabbed a wet cloth from the bathroom and cleaned you up.

“I think that was a successful mission. We got what we needed and we finally slept together,” Chuuya joked. You cracked a small smile and chuckled at him. How could you ever think that being with Chuuya wouldn’t go well?

[tunnelsnacks]

A longish list of Fo4 mods that hopefully won't break your game if you're playing on Next Gen (This list is very much catered to my specific play style and my love of the Minutemen and the Railroad, BOS look elsewhere)

I'll add more or edit this list when I find other mods that I like which play nice or if one's on here are incompatible

The Technical Ones:

Extended Dialogue Interface You'll need F4SE For this one though I'm pretty sure you need it for quite a few. The extended dialogue interface does what it says on the tin and removes the short four options you have for responses and gives you exactly what your sole survivor is going to be saying so you don't end up being incredibly racist towards Nick when the option says 'sarcastic'.

HUDFramework is a UI framework that makes it possible for mods to add new UI elements to the HUD (I say don't worry about this one until it's in a requirement for mods you're getting)

Cheat Terminal Yes, yes I know how some people feel about this kind of mod. I've been playing fallout 4 for like 10 years, I don't have fun scouring every corner of Boston's armpit looking for clipboards. This is a holotape cheat menu that lets you add anything in the game to your inventory, SPECIAL points and other bits. It also lets you teleport companions to your location if they get stuck in an elevator, fix some faction quest if they get broken. This one is great for me because in my little make believe world I have my soul survivor is either a Courser or the Kellogg guinea pig and there's options to make you a little more deadly

Workshop Framework For Players: New controls and faster, more stable workshop scripts. For Modders: Add new resource types, override settings, and generally change the way settlements work dynamically. You'll need this bad boy for a few of the mods on this list They'll be in the requirements for them on nexus

Fallout Priority Next-Gen - CPU Performance FPS Optimizer Does what it says on the tin and stops me from ripping my hair out. Improves performance by elevating the CPU Priority of the game process and minimizes input lags and prevents stutters caused by other processes.

Workshop Menu Missing Tabs Fix Sometimes your workshop tabs will just disappear which is really really annoying. This fixes that with a holotape

The Immersion/Gameplay Ones:

Realistic Death Physics - No Animations decreases the amount of force of both melee and ranged attacks (especially crits) to more realistic levels

Lowered Weapons I hate how your character is always pointing their gun foward 100% of the time in first person, this has your character relax their hold on their gun when not firing it

Improved Maps and Visible Roads A much better high contrast world map with roads, topography, and waterline all clearly visible. Optional number grid and regions

Reverb and Ambiance Overhaul Increases the diversity and dynamics of in-game sound, Great on the ears if you're playing with headphones. My one problem with it though is that it's a little too loud for me and the settings keep resetting every time I boot up the game, but that can be fixed by going into your sound settings, and it takes less than 5 seconds

Enhanced Blood Textures Mixed blood look a little more like well... blood

Vivid Fallout all-in-one In many cases they sharpened the games original textures somewhat, made new normal maps and enhanced shadowing.It looks really good and the textures are less V-Ram heavy than the original ones

Skip Kellogg's Memories I hate that Bethesda felt the need to try to make me sympathetic towards that man, and so I skip his memories all together. Wouldn't recommend for a first play through

Raiders Nonaggressive Raiders are now name "Wastelander" and they are no longer immediately hostile. If the player gets to close the Wastlander will warn you, if you continue to get close the Wastelander will draw a weapon, if you continue to move forward from there they will then attack

Gunners Overhaul makes the Gunners friendly to the player at the start of the game. It also makes all containers and useful items in Gunner areas belong to the Gunner faction, which means you have to steal it from them.  It basically makes them the mercenary/militia faction they're implied to be

Extremely Long Lasting Stealth Boy There is different scales for the length but I do the one that extends it to 1 minute

Pip-Boy Flashlight This one is one of my personal favorites, it overhauls the flashlight on your pip-boy as well as on power armour making it look more like an actual flashlight and like the light is coming from your pip-boy. You can customise what kind of light it is too and some of the options are really cool

Settler and Companion Dialogue Overhaul reduces or eliminates repetitive companion dialogue and adds new situation-appropriate dialogue for companions. They'll have more to say and seem more aware of their surroundings. Settlers are aware of your quest progression, and while they still occasionally complain about "my back hurts, my feet hurt…", they display increased awareness of the dangers lurking in the Commonwealth, expressing gratitude for the protection you've provided them

Better Third Rail this one makes the 3rd rail a little more lively in a lore friendly way

Combat zone restored-restored brings back the cut content that made the combat zone more than just another dungeon

Friendly East City Downs restores the content where this isn't just another dungeon

Fiddler's deliver animation retexture ooooh my god I'm obsessed with this one it makes the loading animations for unarguably the best gun in the game beautiful. And if you're wearing your wedding rings still you can see it in the animation and it makes my heart hurt each time

Natural expression fix helps make the expressions the player and emphasis have a little more...normal

Project reality footsteps changes almost all footstep sounds into more realistic ones. Including subtle gear and backpack rattle

Commonwealth encounter adds almost 300 new encounters to the game

The Faction/Companion Ones:

Afiinity Gains This changes the rate of how you gain affinity with companions. I choose the one that halves it because of the way I play, I get deacon's conversations a lot sooner than I feel is in character for him

Companions Infinite Ammo Gives the vanilla companions infinite ammo for all weapons, just like settlers. As long as they have 1 round in inventory they can fire indefinitely

Companions Stealth Distance Companions can sneak is the one I got before this but it's no longer compatible. It prevents your companion from charging up your booty at full speed whenever you enter stealth. Also slightly increases their follow distance. Now also prevents Dogmeat from entering player crosshairs every damn time you stop

Immersive Dogmeat Makes him a little more sneaky and a little more deadly. He'll wait for you to attack before doing anything for the most part. It also removes his level cap

Everyone's Best Friend Speaking of dog meat, this mod let's you take him with you and a companion at your choice like how it was originally intended before the game was launched

Preston Garvey No Radiant Settlement Quests Until you take the Castle, Preston will give you the quests as normal. After you have control of the castle and the radio powered up again, he'll stop giving you new quests every time you speak with him. Now to receive further quests you simply tune into the Minutemen radio station and will receive the alerts from there.

Deacon outfit change change stop deacon from changing clothes every three seconds. This one's for my own little game play reasons where he gets to a point where he feels like he no longer needs to change his clothes every 5 seconds when he's with Wanderer

Improved Railroad Overhauls the Railroad faction (in a lore friendly way) to more closely resemble the Underground Railroad and put them on the same level relative to the other major factions

Cleaner Railroad HQ Environment This is when I instal a little bit after joining the railroad, it gets rid of all of the trash and random bricks scattered throughout HQ

Railroad redone is an overhaul of HQ Even though the Railroad is a struggling faction in the commonwealth at the start of the game, I still feel that their base of operations in vanilla fallout 4 is extremely underwhelming. This mod fixes that by changing the physical environment. There's now personalized spaces for iconic characters like Desdemona, tinker-tom, deacon and others. The Player character also has their own quarters with a private terminal, bed, and power-armor station. It cleans up all trash -and some bricks and re-navmeshed the cell. And there's a pathway across the waters in the escape tunnel

More railroad exits adds a small little dungeon and two more exits into the inner city through the escape tunnel

Diverse railroad adds new faces to the unnamed NPC associated with the railroad

Railroad redemption This adds more bits to for the railroad associated with settlements, and allure friendly way it makes the railroad feel bigger and outside the scope of just the player

Railroad perks All of the quest reward perks for Railroad quests were cut before the game was released. This mod enables them at the appropriate times in doing Railroad Quests through a scavenger hunt style "quest"

You and what army Have you ever felt like the minutemen were a bit lacking? Perhaps the settlement system feels tedious, extra, or simply lacks real progression for you. Maybe even wondered why the minutemen seem less relevant the more you play? This mod aims to fix that, using your settlements as a base to expand the Minutemen and improve their ability to help the commonwealth. No longer will everything be entirely on the shoulders of one general. I love this one because in my head Preston and I are co-generals

We are the Minutemen The Minutemen are supposed to be the best alternative for rebuilding the Commonwealth because : More settlements = More resources = Better materials = Better fire power and a larger presence in all the Commonwealth. But currently this is not the case, this mod attempts to fix that

We are the men an alias framework gives the Minutemen ranks and lets you find out their names using the Alias Framework.

The Pretty Ones:

Forest Transforms the Commonwealth into a dense and overgrown forest landscape without disabling precombines. It's my favorite nature overhaul. Tree Trim is a 2024 patch for it that improves tree placement and compatibility (but you can open console commands and type 'disable' after selecting one if there's a tree in a place where a tree shouldn't be)

Animated Traffic Lights This makes the traffic lights thought the Commonwealth work again which I think is fun and goes nicely visually wise with the next one on my list

Lighting Series - All In One lights up red rockets, Starlight and other diners neon, bus stops adds, and illuminates billboards in the Commonwealth

Lightweight Lighting The lighting overhaul lighting mod I use, there are others out there higher on the endorsement list, but this is the best I've found for not tanking my fps while still looking fantastic

Interiors Enhanced - Darker Ambient Light and Fog Ambient light power and fog brightness inside all interiors reduced by 60%, without touching any directional light sources whatsoever, keeping lighting 100% true to vanilla except for those dark corners and unlit areas. Subways are actually dark and scary! Not just a filter, actual light data has been altered. 10/10 my fav lighting mod

Enhanced Lights and FX creates more atmospheric and realistic lighting. It overhauls the lights, effects, ambient light and creates a new mood for interiors. If you get a weird teal light at some locations it might be because of this mod

Darker Nights The lighting ones above look really cool with this. I have the lower setting that doesn't make the nights longer but adds just a little more night

The Flora and Fauna Ones:

Glowing Animals Emit Light Makes glowing animal variants emit light, scaled to their size

Fireflies This adds fireflies at night. It gets a little heavy at the start for my taste but there's a holotape that can tweak the settings

Wildlife overhaul less aggressive creatures and companions This mod makes prey cautious but still scared - also stops companions from hunting them down without cause. Additionally randomizes the animals height slightly, and adjusts some stats. Adds aggression radius to most creatures and robots

Squirrels of the Commonwealth there's squirrels now :)

Mutant Menagerie is a real fun one with all new creatures gathered from a wealth of public access sources. These new, lore-friendly creatures come with unique drops and hand-placed spawns. This mod also adds in dozens of dynamic spawns for new, vanilla, and DLC creatures alike! I'm not going to tell you what it's using as a shell but there's a giant hermit crap and the first time I saw one I was genuinely afraid

More Radstags adds more radstags

Commonwealth Chickens and Rabbits adds, you guessed it! Chickens and rabbits

Commonwealth wilderness overhaul adds a ton of hand placed scenes, objects and creatures across the entire commonwealth wilderness

DECAY makes feral ghouls terrifying

The Player and NPC Ones:

Rusty face fix so there's this bug right? Bug changes the colour of your characters and NPC faces and it's really annoying. This mod fixes that

Classic Ghouls Redux Every Ghoul in the vanilla game gets a Fallout 3/NV ghoul look. It gives them that gruesome falling apart look like the older games

FCO - HD Eyes My fav eye mod that just enhances the vanilla eyes. There's the eyes of beauty but I feel like that mod is too over the top and the eyes, while beautiful, don't fit the game

Ponytail Hairstyles This is the hair mod I think fits best with the vanilla textures, also 13 is my favorite

Lore-Friendly Maxson I don't even see his stupid face in my games, I just need to know that he actually looks like a 23 year old before I blow up his stupid blimp. But seriously, there's something more heavy about knowing that you're destroying a ship whose captain is someone who is so so young

Magnolia is not a cartoon makes Magnolia look a little bit more like the fantastic Linda Carter who is her voice actor. Hi Linda!

Shawn goes to bed this one's a spoiler so don't click on it unless you know what happens at the end of the main quest but now your son goes to bed at night

Eli's Armor Compendium Adds a bunch of new lore friendly armors and outfits to the game

Wasteland fashion also adds a bunch of more friendly outfits and armors

Black Metal pip-boy Makes the pip-boys in game black

Player comments and head tracking makes your character speak other then just in dialog scenes. Includes combat taunts, player hello's, responses to NPC's and much, much more including player head tracking

The Settlement Ones:

Transfer Settlement Blueprints This mod is currently not working if you're playing with the next gen. The author's most recent update on the 5th of June says that their hard work's paying off, and they're getting to a point where they're testing the mechanics of it. Basically this mod lets you download other people's settlements that they've made and posted on Nexus to have them be in your game and vice versa. Since this mod is currently out of commission, I won't include any transfer settlement mods in this list but Fiddleflaps has the best one's in my opinion

IDEK's Logistics Station 2 Adds a system to automatically manage supply lines, improve the efficiency of inter-settlement resource sharing, and adds a handful of minor convenience features.

Place Everywhere My beloved, makes building where you want them a lot easier

Scrap Everything And in game version of a console command disable that lets you delete things while you're in build mode. Be very careful with this 'cause if you delete a part of Sanctuary's road I'm not responsible for the 30 minutes you had to reload to

Icebreaker Settlements 400+ new carefully selected lines of settler dialogue to reduce the repetitive sound of the 168 original. All lines in the original actors' voices. Intended to blend in very naturally with the default lines. Settler dialogue lines that insulted the player character were also tweaked

Graygarden Planters Unlocks the ability to craft the planters at Graygarden after you clear the water purifying plant and talk to Supervisor White. Each planter yields the same amount of plants that are visible in the planter

Proper trading stores and animation Changes how trading stand look and settler animations to be the same as the crafting workbenches So now, an armor-smith who sells your armor would be seen like he actually made the armor

Settlers Go Shopping Your stores in your settlement are no longer empty and silent. Settlers occasionally go shopping and start different randomized conversations with the vendors. Or maybe just the vendors asks them about buying something. Invisible Shopping Marker version is available too

Dino's Decorations Gives you the option to craft static clutter, makes settlements feel more lived in

Sanctuary Hills Overhaul is my favorite Sanctuary mod and the one I used for like 7 years straight . It makes it so there were a few plane crashes near sanctuary and previous settlers used the bits of those planes to build walls and homes

Rickety restored Sanctuary bridge fixes the bridge in Sanctuary but in a lore friendly way

Anom's Sanctuary Hills Overhaul makes the houses there somewhere to the ones and the rest of the commonwealth instead of 'houses of the future' It also adds a community centre and a hotel in a lore friendly way

Starlight bus barricade is an overhaul of Starlight Drive, it's very fun but very big

CVC Dead Wasteland Workshop adds 1000s of unique, lore friendly items to build in your settlements and I love it, The candles and other lighting they have or an excellent touch for low/no power settlements

Settlement supplies expanded is another workshop expansion , this one adds about 400 things

[arkus-rhapsode]

Manga Recommendation: Tower Dungeon

So looks like Arkus Rhapsode is here to recommend another fantasy manga after the last one. So this time we're going for a bit of a different flavor with the series Tower Dungeon by by Tsutomu Nihei who you may know as the creator of Blame! and Knights of Sidonia.

Now I've known about this series for a bit even though it is relatively new. Having only started last year in Monthly Shonen Sirius. But I remember its announcement from people like Manga Mogul and hearing Makoto Yukimura (Author of the incredible Vinland Saga) recommending it. Now I always loved Sword and sorcery so I was gonna read it eventually, but it just wasn't translated. However, now being able to read the available chapters, I can say this is a very different type of fantasy series.

The premise is very basic: An evil sorcerer has killed a nation's king and kidnapped a Princess and now the royal knights need to ascend the "Dragon Tower" to save her. One battalion has conscripted a young man named Yuva for assisting troops medically has found he has impressive strength. Now Yuva must strengthen himself for the journey ahead as they explore the deadly tower.

Now like all simple premise stories, the real strength is in execution. And unlike the other fantasy series I've talked about before which have bucked the trend of "RPG fantasy" be leaning more into a traditionalist fantasy stories a la Tolkien, this goes for the more realist fantasy of something like Berserk or Dark Souls.

The world of Tower Dungeon may have things like magic and dragons, but it is a dingy, dirty, and lacks any frills. Knights wear heavy armor and people are covered in blood and scars from their adventures.

The mighty Dragon Tower itself? The most iconic thing about this series and the basis of the adventure? Looks like this. This isn't an opulent tower, this is a massive imposing structure where monsters dwell.

However, unlike some grim dark or edgy fantasies, this world isn't indulgent in its darkness. The violence and death are never cool or cheap. They are simply the way the world is. Even when magic exists, the world is still like Medieval Europe and all the "joys" that come from it.

The people as well are similar. These aren't romanticized or polished fantasy archetypes that often come with the idea of a Dungeons and Dragons style adventure, these feel like average joes plucked off the streets having to do a job. If you are say a fan of something like Chainsaw Man, this sort of post modern emphasis on people acting like regular weirdos and not some "anime characters." And I think that is something quite nice that even in a fantastical world, we can see our regular selves in them.

But that's just the story, what about the art? Well if you've noticed this series does have a very minimalist style. Something similar to that of Land of the Lustrous or Chainsaw Man. These almost scratchy and not the most detailed designs that make use of their simplicity to create this very unique atmosphere.

Creature designs themselves are less fantastical and more grody. Feeling as if they come from an off shoot of man rather than some majestic beast. Right down to the cat people.

This series is still new and sadly hasn't been officially translated yet. I've had to use mangadex to read this, so my heart goes out to the translator team. I can understand that this may be a niche that's not for everyone, but its something that feels like such a good sign for fantasy as a genre. A genre that I think has somewhat been stagnated in popular belief with the greater emphasis on Urban Action manga and the reliance on escapist fantasy anime like isekai. To see a more dirty but down to earth take on the premise, I highly recommend it.

[schweizercomics]

THE GREATCOATS by Sebastien de Castell

I drew these up as one of the (mostly literary) paper figures I do each month for Patreon.

Despite always being drawn to the trappings of fantasy, there are precious few fantasy books (or movies, etc) that have resonated with me. One very notable exception is the Greatcoats series, four novels that follow a trio of comrades from an effectively-dissolved band of dueling magistrates, who, in their heyday, had been charged with enforcing unpopular verdicts against politically powerful folks who had, until that point, been untouchable by the rule of law.

It’s kind of a thrust-the-Musketeers-into-a-medieval-setting thing, and there are swordfights and sucked-into-political-intrigues-even-though-you’re-ill-suited-towards-them a’plenty, for folks who like that sort of thing, and I very much do.

From the first read (I’ve now read them all thrice, along with a collection of short stories), these have become some of my very favorite books, and I could not recommend them more highly. They can, at times, be a hard read; the world in which the Greatcoats live is an unjust one, and whatever terrible things you can imagine people doing (torture, sexual assault, murder, animal cruelty, etc) can and probably are enacted in it, but what has, to me, set this series apart from some other “grim” fantasies is the balance between the knowledge that the world is an unfair, cruel, and terrible place, with the wholehearted belief that it shouldn’t, and doesn’t have to be. Idealism colors every action of the leads, and there’s something incredibly moving and powerful about characters who persevere against impossible odds towards fairness and justice despite encountering the very worst examples of their absence, never in ignorance or denial but out of pure stubbornness.

De Castell crafts a narrative with masterful control over how it’ll affect the reader; it’s melodrama in the best way, with huge operatic emotional beats. They never feel calculated – they’re all earnest, and they’re all earned. There are sections that make you weep, that make you laugh, and (I suspect this is the rarest, and most difficult to achieve) that make you want to cheer, stomp, salute. Moving speeches, incredible narrative payoffs, characters for whom you desperately root. Plus, of course, the suspense of peril and the best action sequences I’ve ever encountered in prose. De Castell’s first-person narration of fight scenes from the point of view of a strategist follows a pretty wonderful pattern of beginning the fight, edging the audience, and then turning to an aside that informs the context of the fight - a lesson learned long ago, an observation about the human condition, a technique frequently incorporated by duelists, an anecdote – and then return to the fight, the new context both heightening the peril and also providing a means by which the reader can fully appreciate the very clever way that the hero(s) win despite being outmatched. It’s a great internal “meanwhile, back at the ranch” and it gives each action encounter (and they are joyously plentiful) narrative weight.

Again, I can’t recommend the series more highly. It has some truly great characters – the leads, the supporting cast, the villains are wonderful and terrible, and the setting is rich and immersive. De Castell describes it as “swashbuckling fantasy,” and it swashbuckles its heart out.

You can get it in print, or in unabridged audiobook (Audible has it, and probably your library does, too), wonderfully narrated by Joe Jameson.

There are a number of other great characters, too – co-leads in their own right – but to draw them is to provide spoilers, so rather than do a whole cast, as I sometimes do, I’ve stuck to the three that you get from the first page.

Design (for process buffs)

There’s not too much visual description about the characters; Kest is described as of average height and build, with short hair, Brasti has hair long enough to tie back and a beard and is tall… and I think that’s it (at least so far as I’ve noticed, or remember).

There’s a tendency to make archers lean and wiry – it compliments the arrow imagery, and a tight, sinewy form seems a carryover of the bowstring to its user, but I wanted Falcio to be lean and triangular, and stoic Kest to be square, so it got me thinking that Brasti ought to have rounder features to offset and compliment the others. He’s a country boy, too, and where I’m from the troublemakers are often a little meatier, so it felt fitting, though it does suggest that he's physically imposing in a way the stories don’t push. But I kind of like that beefy, country swagger he’s got. He’s carrying two bows, as it’s a plot point that he has bows for different purposes: a fast one, and a powerful one.

The eponymous coats were tricky; they’re practically magic; serving as armor (via little bone plates sewn under the leather) and utility belt, with little pockets for whatever the story may require the characters need. I wanted a way to make them modular, so I figured on making a pretty sturdy chest piece that folds back to allow the coat to be open and unbuttoned, and a rolled epaulet that unrolls and can be used as a gorget to protect the neck during a duel (or from the cold).

I wanted each of the characters to be able to wear the coat differently, to reflect their personalities: Kest, always at the ready and doing things the “right” way, has his greatcoat fully rigged. Byronic Falcio needs to be able to dash about with tragic romanticism, so his coat needs to be a little more open – I probably should’ve had the chestpiece partially unflapped ala the Rocketeer, but I also wanted it to read clearly. And Brasti wears his because he has to, so he has all the trappings tied or buttoned back.

Last Thoughts

For artist and writer pals, I’d highly recommend listening to any of De Castell’s interviews on podcasts or on youtube; he’s generous with his process and has a lot of great thoughts about the act of writing.

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Lightning Bugs

A/N: Angsty, fluffy, adult themes, all of the above. There are going to be warnings attached to this, but I love this piece. I’ve spent a little over a week working on it and I still have many more ideas for Peter fics. As always let me know what you guys think and enjoy!

Warnings: Adult themes, nothing too graphic, but I do recommend 18+ for this. Minors DNI. Talks of weight, many family issues mentioned as well. 

Word Count: 12.2k+

“Okay, you’re completely packed right? Did you grab your toothbrush from the bathroom? I need to unplug the toaster. Can you make sure all the windows are locked? Shit, we’re late!” You were running around the apartment frazzled and trying to make sure everything was done before you and your boyfriend left the state for a week.

You felt two hands land on your shoulders and gently massage the massive knots that had found home there. “My darling. Love of my life. The most beautiful girl in the world. I need you to take a deep breath. We have more than enough time. I locked all the windows this morning, I packed my toothbrush, and you already unplugged everything,” his hands slipped down your arms, rubbing the exposed skin. He kissed the top of your head as you took in a short breath, trying to calm down and stop the shaking in your hands.

When your mom called three months ago saying she was dying to meet your new boyfriend, Peter, and to request time off from work because her and your dad wanted to come out and see you, you brushed it off. Your parents were always a lot of talk and hardly ever followed through, but when you received an email confirmation of two tickets to your home state with your’s and Peter’s names, you thought you were going to throw up.

It’s not that you and your parents had a bad relationship, but you could definitely describe it as rocky. You had incredibly different visions and opinions about your life and when you made the decision to deviate from their dream for you, it only strained what was already difficult. You didn’t do what they wanted you to and they became your harshest critics for every decision you made. Which is why you stopped telling them about the decisions you were making, including when you started dating Peter. He was new to them, not new to you.

When you started university years ago, Peter was one of the first people you met. You sat next to him in your English 102 course and had to do an ice breaker with him about your name, your major, and your least favorite animal and why. When you said you were terrified of spiders, he claimed he was hooked on you that day.

Three years later, you two had been together for over two years, had graduated university, and moved in together. You had never been more in love with anyone and you never thought you would be romantically involved with a superhero, let alone the Spider-Man, but he had taken his place in your life and you couldn’t imagine it without him anymore.

After you had found out about his second identity, to which you were mortified about your original ice breaker answer, he took you swinging through the city in the middle of the night. You two perched on top of a building, watching the sunrise while eating the best bagel you had ever had in your life, courtesy of Peter and his favorite spot around the corner. You fell hopelessly in love with him that day and you asked him to move in with you. He was in your apartment the next week.

Your current life was nothing like the one you had grown up around. The town you were from with the people you had known your whole life all followed in the same patterns of their parents and you were no exception to that in your mom and dad’s eyes. You were supposed to get married young, have a few children, live down the road from your parents, and attend the same country club as your family to maintain the name and picture perfect lifestyle your parents loved to remind you they worked so hard to achieve. Your older brother followed the list to a t. He was married at twenty-four to the perfect trophy wife that he had gone to prom with, they had their first child at twenty-six, and bought a big white house that was only a block away from your parents. They had family dinner every Friday night at the club to maintain the image. That life was never in your plans and just the thought of it made you nauseous.

You had been given the “rebellious” child title. You moved to New York City at eighteen, got a job, and hardly ever came home to see your family. The night you told your parents you were leaving that coming August, you thought your mom was going to have a heart attack at the dining room table. She sobbed for an hour asking what she had done to make you hate her so much and what horrible thing they could’ve done to make you want to run away from your life. You didn’t bother with an answer because you knew it wouldn’t be the right one unless you stayed. You weren’t going to stay. Needless to say, you don't talk to them often anymore.

Unfortunately, there are times where you do have to talk to your parents and when it does happen, the topic of your life almost always comes up. It’ll quickly turn into a degrading talk about how you were choosing to live your life and how it wasn’t proper for a young woman to make the decisions you did, but you had never been happier.

Peter was well aware of the situation of regarding your parents and how awkward your relations were with them, but when you showed him the tickets he spent a half an hour trying to calm you down. You two sat on the couch for hours that night as you explained most of your worries and why you hadn’t been home in two years and how you didn’t want to throw him into the fire like that. He wasn’t phased in the slightest, saying he would be there with you the whole time.

Now as you left for the airport, your hands had a constant shake. You were terrified of the questions your dad was going to bombard Pete with, what your mom would say about you living with a boy and not even being engaged, and how your brother would still be the golden child that you needed to take after.

Peter gently took your hands in his, trying to soothe the tremble that just wouldn’t go away. After an incredibly late patrol the night before, he slept most of the flight there, but you couldn’t shut your brain off, your thoughts running rampant. You hadn’t slept the night before either and no matter what you did, you just couldn’t shut your brain off. The first two hours, you chewed your cheek and lip raw, picked at the skin around your nails, and nearly had an anxiety attack. Peter noticed and put one of his earphones in your ear, pulling your head to rest on his shoulder, and entwining his fingers with yours.

Your breathing slowly calmed down, shaking subsiding, and felt your eyelids getting heavy, letting Peter’s thumb rub over the top of your hand. When you woke it was to the pilot announcing your descent. Peter offered you a calm, soft grin to try and keep you relaxed. You led him through the airport with a death grip on his hand that he didn’t make note of, letting you use him as you needed.

You let out a sigh of relief at the sight before you. A driver stood at the end of the terminal, your last name written on his sign. Peter’s brows furrowed, tugging you back towards him. “Weren’t your parents supposed to pick us up?” You shrugged, adjusting the bag on your shoulder. “Honestly, I should’ve expected this. At least it’s another hour I don’t have to see them,” you continued moving towards the driver. He tipped his hat to you both as you approached, quickly moving to take the bags from you and Peter.

The black suv parked at the curb had a door open and you climbed in, feeling Pete slide next to you. “Okay, I need you to be honest with me,” you eyed him as he tilted his head at you. “Are you rich?” You chuckled and checked your phone, seeing no new messages from your mom or dad. “Me? No. My parents? They’re more than comfortable,” you placed your hand in Peter’s as he nodded his head at your response.

He rubbed his free hand on his pants, sinking into the plush seat. “Good to know,” you leaned into him, resting your head on his shoulder, as the car pulled away from the airport, towards your literal definition of hell on earth. Peter had never been out of New York before so you pointed out different landmarks to him as you drove through the state towards your hometown. His eyes were wide in surprise and pure excitement at the new sights to see, his gaze never leaving the window.

When the driver pulled off the highway, Peter immediately noticed the major change in scenery. The houses were massive, the downtown with its historic buildings, and as the drive went further in the city, the bigger the properties became. Peter eyed you as the car pulled into a long gravel driveway, a large white and blue home growing as you came closer. The porch lights were lit from the gas lamps, illuminating the wood siding as the sun began to set. You took in a deep breath, seeing four cars parked to the side where the garage was, trying to quickly assess who was at the house.

The double front doors flew open, the wreaths that adorned both lightly rattling at the movement. Your car door opened and you looked at Peter, as he quickly pecked your lips. “I’m right here and everything is okay. Deep breath,” you nodded at his words, following his advice. Taking in a large gulp of air as you moved out of the car, shoes hitting the driveway, your walls were immediately erected for whatever was coming towards you.

“Oh my god! My baby is finally home!” Your mom ran down the porch steps towards you, her arms opened wide as you offered her a genuine smile. “Hi mama,” she wrapped herself around you, her familiar perfume choking you as her hair fell into your face. She had her pristine white pants on with a signature black sweater, diamond tennis bracelet, and not a curled hair out of place. Not a single thing had changed about her, except for the small crows feet that came out around her eyes, showing she had in fact aged over the last couple of years.

She pulled away from you and took in the boy standing directly behind you, a large smile across his face. “Mama, this is Peter. Peter this is my mom,” she gave a smile towards him, pulling him into her embrace. “Peter, it is such a pleasure to finally meet you. I wish I knew more about you, but you know how secretive my daughter can be. I can’t wait to get to know you better this week,” her voice dripped like honey, but the bite in her words was quick.

Peter stepped back from her, arm finding home on your waist. “It’s a pleasure to meet you too. Thank you so much for this trip, it should be a lot of fun,” you smiled at the way Peter dodged her quip at you, moving to change the topic. Before your mom could respond, a large figure appeared in the door, blocking most of the light that streamed out.

“Well, now who is this stranger standing in my driveway?” You took Peter’s hand in yours, walking together up the steps towards the voice. “Hi dad,” you felt his meaty arms pull you into his grip. “Sweetheart,” he started to talk, but took notice of Pete behind you. He held out a hand to him, offering a weary smile with it. “Son, how’re you? Peter, right?”

Peter shook his hand with an impressive force that shocked your dad for a split second. The seemingly lanky boy in front of him had immense strength that he was not expecting. You had to bite back a laugh as your boyfriend started. “Yes, sir, Peter Parker. Thank you for inviting me out. I’m looking forward to getting to know you all,” your dad eyed him and nodded his head, moving from blocking the entire door.

“Of course. Us too,” you all moved into the foyer and you could see Peter’s Adam's apple bob at the chandelier that hung in the space. The staircase was to the left of the entryway, the wallpaper that adorned the walls was new you noted. Your mom smiled at you both and squinted her eyes in your direction, her hand coming to land under your chin.

You held your breath in your throat at the movement. She did this every time she saw you, taking in who was standing before her with the most judgment a person could offer. Peter’s eyes squinted in thought as he tried to gauge what was about to happen, trying to fight the urge to bat her hand away from your face.

“Alright, let me look at you,” she moved your head from left to right, taking in your features that you didn’t think had changed that much since you last saw her. Her hand fell away, eyes scanning your figure. “My most beautiful girl as always. You need to use a night cream, sweetheart, it’ll help with the eye bags. I’ll leave one in your bathroom. You two head up to your old room and get changed for dinner. We’re eating in the dining room in thirty minutes. We’ll catch up then. Go on,” she motioned with her hands up the stairs as she followed your dad down the hallway towards the living room where you could hear kids playing.

Peter grabbed your suitcases, letting you take your duffle bag on your shoulder as he carried the rest up. When you opened the door to your room, you saw that your mom had completely renovated the space. All of your childhood items were missing, new wallpaper and paint on the walls, a king size mattress with a bright white comforter, and a vase of blue hydrangeas sitting on the antique dresser took their place.

You threw your bag down as Peter closed the door behind you two. You flopped onto the bed, burying your face in the pillow and letting out a small scream. Peter laughed and laid next to you, pulling your face from the pillow, making you look at him, his eyes wide in surprise at the exchange that had just happened. “Holy shit, what the fuck?” You nodded your head, pursing your lips. “I haven’t seen them in two years and the first things out of my mothers mouth are about my eye bags and how I keep secrets from them,” you rolled your eyes, Peter’s fingers dancing over your cheekbone.

“We got this, bug. Just keep it surfacey and it’ll be okay,” you nodded your head at his words as he sighed and looked at the ceiling. “This is the most comfortable bed I’ve ever laid on in my life. How much does this cost? I bet we can steal it and take it home with us,” you snorted at his words, shoving him and sitting up.

“We need to get dressed for dinner, come on,” you pulled your suitcase up onto the stool at the foot of the bed. Peter went to the closet to get hangers for your stuff and scoffed at the ones he found. “I didn’t realize people actually had these satin hangers. I’ve only ever seen them in movies,” he mumbled, going to take a shirt from his bag to hang it up. You watched as the shirt slipped off the satin hanger into a pool on the floor, your mind starting to race about what dinner would be like. You didn’t even notice you had zoned out as Peter kept talking, moving towards you slowly.

“Wow and they’re complete shit. Can’t even hold a shirt. Our plastic ones can hold shirts,” you giggled as his arms wrapped around you from behind, lips attacking your neck, a small squeal coming from you as his fingers went to your sides, pulling you out of your thoughts and back to the present moment. “Come on, baby, give me a smile,” you turned around in his arms, draping your arms around his neck as you pulled the biggest, cheesiest smile you could.

“That’ll do. I’ll get a real one out of you by the end of the night. Now, I need you to show me what someone changes into for dinner. May and I normally put pajamas on and we would watch tv together in the living room off of tv trays,” your fingers played with the hair on the nape of his neck and you placed a kiss on his jaw before pulling away and looking at what he packed, trying to pick out an outfit for him as you chuckled at his memory.

Peter zipped your dress up for you as you slipped into your slightly heeled sandals. You and Peter matched perfectly as you moved towards the door, ready to face whatever was coming at you within the next few minutes. His hand found the small of your back and he gently grabbed the fabric of your dress, stopping you.

“Deep breath. If you need my help just squeeze my hand, okay? I’ll do the same for you if I don’t know how you want me to answer something. I’m right here and you’re okay,” you did as he said, mimicking his deep breath, nodding your head as you laced your fingers together, heading downstairs into the belly of the beast.

Your brother's kids could be heard from all over the house as you two rounded the corner into the living room. Your mother had changed, opting for a summer evening style type of dress while your father wore his dress pants and a button up. Your brother stood from his chair, not greeting you as you both stepped into the room.

“Great, we’re all ready for dinner. It’s all in the dining room, come on!” Your mom hurried the group into the space, while you led Peter to your chairs. He pulled yours out for you, pushing in as you sat. You shot him a surprised look, in only an exchanged glance asking how he knew how to do that. In response, he shot you a wink as he took his chair next to yours.

The food was splayed out on the table and it looked absolutely delicious, your stomach groaning as you realized you hadn’t eaten since lunch the previous day. You placed the napkin that sat on the plate in front of you gently on your lap as Peter watched you from the corner of his eye, mimicking your movements as your mom eyed the door to the kitchen.

Staff flowed out, going to serve everyone as your sister-in-law cleared her throat to get your attention, saying your name as gently as she could to not disturb the quiet that you all had been sitting in. “You look absolutely radiant. I can see that New York air is treating you well,” you gave a small smile and nodded your head and went to speak, but were interrupted as your mother spoke first. “She always was the prettiest in the town. Had boys fawning over her. Peter you should’ve seen it. I think it was at her sixteenth birthday bash when one young boy from her class asked her dad if he could marry her! That was just the first-” you cut her off, eyes wide as Peter tried to stifle a laugh.

“Mama, please not now. It was a lifetime ago, let it go,” you grabbed your fork as you started to poke at the salad on your plate. Your face felt like it was on fire as your parents laughed and your dad’s hands clapped together making you jump at the loud noise. Peter’s hand landed on your knee to steady you. Your parents continued on, completely ignoring your pleas to stop the story.

“That’s right! By the time her graduation rolled around, I swear there was a waitlist to have a seat with me at the club to talk about my baby girl,” you groaned, forcing lettuce into your mouth as Peter chuckled, starting to eat the salad on his plate. “Pete, do you golf?” Peter sat up straighter in his seat at your fathers question, your brother's eyes moving over him waiting for his response. You wanted to punch his smug face.

“Not regularly, no, but I have played a few times before with a friend back home,” your dad nodded his head, wiping his mouth with the napkin before speaking again. “That’s good, son. Tyler and I are playing a round on Thursday, I want you to join,” your father pushed his thumb towards your brother and Peter smiled at them. “Sounds great, I’m looking forward to it. I’m not sure I have golfing attire though,” he looked down at you and winked, trying to get you to ease up.

You were stiff as a board as they went back and forth before your mom spoke up again. “Oh, don’t you worry about that, Peter. The club has a shop, we’ll get you something from there or when I take my baby shopping we’ll look for you,” she pointed her fork at you with a smile. Peter thanked her as another silence fell over the table, the only noise was the cutlery scraping against the fine china.

Shopping. You couldn’t shop with her. It was a horrifying experience whenever it happened and on the few occasions it had happened past your sixteenth birthday they all ended with you both in screaming matches in the car. Peter’s fingers gently moved over your knee, when you realized everyone's eyes were on you.

“I’m sorry, what happened?” You looked at Peter and he smiled, your mom starting again. “I said that we’re hosting a little party the day after tomorrow and we need to go shopping for it tomorrow. Peter you’re more than welcome to come,” you felt like you were suffocating. Your hand found Peter’s and squeezed, begging for a lifeline to save you.

Your mouth was dry like cotton and as you stared at the main course in front of you, not even remembering when it had been placed there. You didn’t feel like you could eat anymore. Beads of sweat started to form on the back of your neck, you could feel the shake in your hands come back, but Peter was jumping in to save you. He started talking with your family as you sat there, one hand holding a fork and just pushing the food around on your plate, your appetite gone in a blink of an eye as your grip on Peter’s hand remained the same for the rest of the meal.

Sleep didn’t come easy to you that night. You tossed and turned, worming in and out of Peter’s arms all night, trying to get even slightly comfortable. Peter slept soundly throughout the entire night and you were envious of him. You lightly pushed the hair that had fallen into his face away from his eyes.

He looked gorgeous like this. The early morning sun starts to peak in through the gauzy curtains and wrap him in its warm glow. His bare torso was out, the comforter sitting low on his waist. He had an arm tucked behind his head as he laid on his back, his head turned and facing you. His features were soft and relaxed, his lips set in a slight pout just begging to be kissed. The veins in his arms were on display and your fingers lightly traced over them. His free hand laid flat on his chest and even though he had the biggest hands you had ever seen, they didn’t even begin to cover the broad expanse of him. Everytime you looked at him you felt like it was the first time all over again. He never failed to take your breath away with just how beautiful he truly was.

“You’ve been staring at me for the last thirty minutes. I appreciate it, but after a bit it’s just creepy, babe,” his arms wrapped you up in him, crushing you to his chest as you smiled, kissing the space where his collarbone and neck met. “I’m sorry, I can’t help it and don’t act like I don’t catch you staring at me at least once a day.”

His deep laugh shook you both. His morning voice was always so deep and scratchy, turning you into a puddle. His eyes finally opened, lighter than they ever were when he woke up first in the morning. The sun fell gently on them, the normal chocolate melted into a deep honey. His hand came up and gently pushed hair out of your face, kissing your forehead.

“It’s sweet and endearing when I do it. You get this look on your face that makes you look crazy,” he mumbled against your bare skin, lips moving from your forehead to your neck. You couldn’t even fight him, his teeth nipping a sensitive spot on your collarbone. A light moan fell from your lips. In seconds, you were straddling him. You slowly rolled your hips, your bare core rubbing against his clothed erection.

You could feel the wet spot that you left on him. Your night slips skinny strap fell from your shoulder, beginning to expose your breast. You both were starting to breathe deeper, your hands braced themselves on his chest. Peter’s hands moved the tight grip he had on your waist to run his thumb across your budding nipple, moving to attach his mouth, letting his tongue take the soft peak between his teeth.

Your head fell back, a gasp escaping you when a loud knock startled you both. Peter had you laying down under the covers in the blink of an eye as your mom poked her head in the door. “Wakey, wakey, sleepyheads. We have a busy day. I need you up and ready in an hour, sweetheart. Do something pretty with your hair today, okay? We’re seeing all the cousins,” if she noticed how flushed you were, she didn’t say anything.

The door closed behind her and you both erupted in a fit of laughter. “We have an hour. What I wanna do shouldn’t take more than forty-five,” you pushed him off of you as he tried to place a kiss on your shoulder. You climbed out of the bed and headed towards the bathroom as you let your slip fall to the ground in a pool around your feet. Slowly reaching in and turning the water on, you leaned against the doorframe, looking at the wide-eyed boy still in the bed.

“Thirty minutes and in the shower,” Peter jumped from the bed, arms dragging you to the shower with him as you giggled, letting him pull you into the warm water. “If I get shower sex on vacation, then I feel like we need to go away more,” he mumbled against your lips, leaning against the tiled wall. Before you could respond, you felt his slender finger plunge into you.

You could hear the group chatting outside the fitting room and you were trying to work up the courage to open the curtain. Your mom had picked out a dress for you and you couldn’t fully zip it. You’d gone up a size since you last went shopping with her. It was completely normal. You weren’t seventeen anymore and you couldn’t freak out because of that. Your mom could though.

She had invited your aunts and cousins to join you today, making it a girls day. The uncles and boy cousins were going to hang around the house and goof around as they called it. You had shot Peter a worried glance, but he gave you a reassuring smile, kissing you chastly, saying you would both be fine. That he was only a text or phone call away if you needed him for anything. You stared at the screen, debating on calling him, but deciding against it. You could handle this. You needed to handle this. God, you wished he was there.

Your mom's voice called from the other side of the curtain, startling you from your thoughts. “Sweetheart, c’mon! Everyone’s dying to see you,” you poked your head out and found your mom. “I-uh. I need a bigger size. Just one size up and it’ll be perfect. I swear,” your mom’s smile didn’t falter as she looked at the associate. They exchanged no words as she turned and grabbed the next size from the rack, handing it to you gently. You quietly thanked her, feeling your mom's eyes bore into you as you avoided her piercing gaze, that smile still present.

As you slipped into it and stepped out, your cousins and aunts all smiled, pouring compliments onto you. Your eyes could only focus on your mom though, waiting for her to break her silence and when she finally did, you didn’t know how to react. “Gosh, I remember when we used to share clothes,” that small comment just about knocked you off your feet. Delivered in her sweetest tone possible, but it felt like you had been slapped across your face. She nodded her head, knowing you got the meaning of her words, looking at the associate saying you would take it.

As you all left the shop, millions of shopping bags in tow, your mom didn’t speak to you again. She shot you a look as you tried to get in your cousin's car that you needed to rethink that decision.

The drive was silent at first, only the light music from the radio filling the silence. Your stomach was flipping, simply waiting for her to say something. Anything. You knew it was coming. “I see you’ve been eating well in New York,” her voice finally broke the tension. You didn’t bother to respond, it always went this way.

“Do you think this is okay? Treating your body like this? You embarrassed me, you embarrassed yourself. How do you think this reflects on your family? On Peter? Do you think he wants to be with a chubby girl?” Your eyes burned with tears as you looked out the window. She knew Peter was the way to get to you and boy did it.

Was she right? You had seen who Peter was interested in before you. Gwen was a twig and you tried not to let it bother you, but maybe it was obvious to everyone. Did Peter settle? He could do better. Your mind turned on you within seconds as you tried to claw your way out, but it was too late. You had slipped and were tumbling quickly.

The car came to a stop at the house and you exited the car quickly, feeling a panic attack starting, knowing you were spiraling. You couldn’t catch your breath, feeling like your chest was going to constrict at any moment. You bolted up the front steps, throwing the front door open as your mom called for you from the driveway. Bounding up the stairs, your thoughts pummeled you. You slammed the bedroom door shut behind you and headed straight for the bathroom.

You were gasping for air, tears streaming down your cheeks as you felt the cool wall on your back, the floor tiles pulling you to sit with them. You sank down, hearing the bedroom door fly open, the towering figure found you shaking and sobbing uncontrollably.

He stooped down to your level, closing the bathroom door as he did, hearing the lock echo through the space. You couldn’t see him through the tears, but his hands went to your cheeks. “One, two, three, four,” he inhaled after and you knew to mimic him. After a few minutes your breathing was back to normal, tears halting. “There you go,” he whispered, grabbing your hands and pulling you into his lap, taking your place against the wall.

“What happened, bug?” your eyes closed, breathing him in. “I needed a bigger dress size,” you spoke quietly, feeling silly and dumb about the episode from that. How quickly you were able to turn on yourself and fall into a hole that you couldn’t climb out of. His hands smoothed your hair, waiting for you to continue, his other hand lacing with yours.

“I asked in front of everyone and mom gave me that look,” you grew angry thinking about it. Who could talk to their daughter like that? “When we got in the car she said some nasty things. Freaked me out is all. I’m sorry, I know I probably embarrassed you,” you shook your head, laughing bitterly at the end.

He tilted his head to rest his forehead against yours, an angry look taking over his features. “Don’t say that. You could never embarrass me. Especially in front of these people. I don’t let anyone talk about my girl like that,” you laughed at the end, sniffling as you did. Your worries melted away as he kissed you, hand moving to your jaw, pulling you closer.

When you pulled away, Peter’s lips landed on your nose. He started placing quick pecks all over your face and neck, a loud laugh falling from you. “There she is,” he said between his own laughs. Your thumb swept across his cheekbone. “I love you,” you murmured, feeling his laugh rumble you both.

“I love you, too, bug. Always. Now I gotta ask about your cousin, Jax. Does he really have a yacht?” you nodded your head as his mouth fell open. “Yeah, he’s from old oil money,” he rolled his eyes and let his head fall back to the wall. “Figures. I’m an actual superhero who’s broke, but they struck oil 150 years ago and they own a yacht,” you pushed his hair back as you chuckled. “Yeah, but you’re so much cooler than them. You literally make your own web fluid in a lab, swing from buildings, beat the shit out of bad guys,” your fingers didn’t leave his hair as he shrugged.

“I’m pretty cool, huh?” you rolled your eyes, getting up from his lap. “I never should’ve told you that. It went straight to your already huge head,” you left the bathroom, Peter following behind you. “Wait, keep telling me how amazing I am. The amazing Spider-Man. I can get used to that.”

Your mom didn’t bring up the incident again which you were happy about. It would only cause more trouble and you just needed to get through these last few days and you were home free.

The party was in full swing the next night. The house had well over a hundred people flowing between the rooms and backyard. You were pounding the champagne, trying to take the edge off.

Peter had called you beautiful at least ten times since you had put the dress on. It never failed to give you butterflies.

He looked positively sexy. His navy suit looked immaculate, fitting the floral pattern of your dress. Your mom had gotten his suit yesterday after the incident and had it emergency tailored to fit him perfectly and good lord did it.

“You keep looking at me like that and this party is gonna be over very soon,” he spoke under his breath, lips dancing on the shell of your ear, his arm snug around your waist. “I think you need to wear suits more often, Mr. Parker,” your eyes gleamed with mischief. His smile grew as he held your gaze. “Oh yeah? I was thinking for grocery shopping, laundry days, you know the usual?” you snickered into your glass and nodded. “Definitely, maybe even while doing the dishes,” his head tipped back, a laugh flowing from him. “You got it, baby,” as you two continued back and forth, an older couple from the club approached you both.

“My goodness, you look lovely, hon. This must be the famous Peter we’ve heard so much about,” you and Peter shared a surprised glance as he shook the outstretched hand from the gentleman in front of him. “It is. Mr. and Mrs. Chesterberg, this is Peter Parker. It’s great to see you both,” easy conversation flowed between you all. A few other couples came over and joined in as time went on. The conversation was the same a million times over. Had been since you were fifteen.

You were happy to get a quick break as your mom stood on the porch overlooking the entire party, clinking her glass to get everyone’s attention. A hushed silence fell over the crowd, eyes going to her. “We just want to thank you all for joining us tonight. It’s been so long since our baby girl’s been home and we wanted to celebrate with all of our friends and family. Sweetheart, we are so happy that you’re home,” glances shot your way as you tucked further into your boyfriend’s side, his grip tightening on you.

“And Peter. It’s been so great getting to know you. Thank you, again, everyone for joining us. Please enjoy the food and drinks. Let’s dance!” claps filled the air as your brows furrowed, trying to understand what your mom meant by her words to Peter. Your mom was a calculated person. Each word was carefully chosen with specific meaning as she spoke. What the hell did she mean by that?  

The band started playing and Peter smiled, taking your hand and moving towards the dance floor in the middle of the backyard, pulling you from your thoughts. There were string lights above the floor that gave light to the darkness around everyone, casting a special glow on your Peter. You rested your head on his chest, one hand in his, the other on his back. His chin rested on your head, his free hand on your lower back. You swayed to the music, happy to have him here with you. It made it so much easier and like it was meant to be as you fit together so perfectly. Peter was your saving grace.

As the song came to an end, your dad stepped towards you both, moving into Peter’s place and you smiled at him. “Hi dad,” he didn’t respond to you, but you were used to that. He was a man of few words, especially with you. The silence that followed him like a shadow was a comfort to you. It was one of the traits you treasured about him. He cleared his throat, giving off a warning that he was going to speak and you looked at him expectantly. “Peter’s been great these last few days,” you didn’t respond, knowing he wanted to say more. “Do you love him?” you let a small smile form at the thought of Peter. Of course you loved him. “I do, dad. He’s my person,” he smiled back at you, nodding his head as you two finished the dance in silence.

You stepped off the dance floor, going to grab a drink, eyes scanning the crowd for Peter. You smiled as you saw him talking to a group of older ladies from the neighborhood, watching as one placed her hand on his arm, laughing at something he had said. His eyes slightly widened, slowly stepping back from her hand. You giggled, taking a sip from your glass when you heard your name.

You turned and there he was. Mason. The first boy you had dated and the most eligible boy in town. Your parents were over the moon when you had told them you were an item all those years ago. You had broken things off with him shortly before you moved. You wanted a fresh start and he wanted to stay in the same town and live the exact life his parents had.

“You look stunning. It is so good to see you,” you smiled at his words, setting your glass on the table behind you. “Oh my gosh, Mason! It is so good to see you too,” you let him pull you into a quick hug, taking in the boy that had now become a man. It felt like he was from a completely different life. You couldn’t help but notice that he was the complete opposite of Peter.

Mason had sandy blonde hair, baby blue eyes, and was much more visibly muscular. He had been quarterback of the football team, star pitcher for the baseball team, and was going to inherit a complete fortune. Mason was the catch of the town and you didn’t regret leaving at all. There were plenty of girls who would suit him and his dream. You weren’t that girl.

“Can we have a dance? I’d love to hear about New York,” you beamed at him, agreeing as he took you onto the dance floor. One dance quickly turned into four as you two laughed at the memories you shared.

You were trying to catch your breath, wiping tears away as he told you the story about you two sneaking out senior year. You had taken your brother's car for the night and somehow it had hit the garage door, but you completely got away with it. You blamed Tyler, saying he hadn’t put the emergency break on. Your cousin came up to you, asking for your help in the kitchen.

“I’ll see you later, Mason. We’ll keep chatting, okay?” he nodded his head, a big smile taking over his face. You followed your cousin into the house, helping her find the paper towels she was desperately searching for when your mom appeared.

“Was that Mason I saw you with?” you nodded your head, saying a quick aha! as you found the towels, handing them to your cousin. “It looked like you two were having a good time,” you brushed her off, popping a mini weenie into your mouth. “Yup. Just sharing old stories. He and I did some funny things together,” she nodded, a small smirk on her face.

“It’s just that you two look so great together. I know he misses you. He tried dating Stacy Goldchuck, but they didn’t last-” you cut her off, putting a hand up to stop her. “Mama, enough. Mason is in my past. He and I had great times together, but I moved forward in life. He didn’t. I wasn’t going to stay here my entire life and stay stuck forever. I’m done talking about it,” you pushed past her, walking out the backyard, trying to find Peter.

You let out a sigh of relief when you saw him. He had a tight smile when you approached him, yours diminished fast. “Are you okay, bug?” you entwined your fingers together and he brought them to his lips, kissing your knuckles. “Everythings fine, babe,” you offered a shaky smile at him as another couple approached you both.

You didn’t have a chance to talk to Peter alone for the rest of the night. When you two went to bed, you passed out as soon as your head hit the pillow. Peter was still changing in the bathroom. You woke up the next morning to an empty bed, a note where he should’ve been.

                                           GONE GOLFING :)

You took the opportunity to spend the day relaxing, having no plans for the morning. The house was quiet. Your dad and Peter had met with Tyler for golf and your mom went to her brunch club. You sat on the back porch, coffee in hand, reading.

“Nice swing, son,” your dad offered the compliment to Peter as he hit the ball from the tee. “Thank you, sir,” Peter eyed the ball, noting where it landed. “I think he might’ve hustled us, pops,” Tyler said as he set his tee up. Peter laughed with them as he put the club back in the bag on the cart.

“I said I had played a couple times before. Didn’t say I was bad,” they all laughed as Tyler hit his ball, cursing as it didn’t go like Peter’s. As they moved to the next hole, they shared jokes and stories, genuinely having a fun time as your dad set up his shot.

“Now, Peter. Tell me again what you do for work,” Peter leaned on his club, clearing his throat as he and Tyler watched him. “A couple things. Freelance photography. I’ve done it since I was a kid and really enjoy it. I am also a lab employee at Oscorpe in New York,” your dad hummed at the response, hitting the ball, whistling as it flew.

Peter moved to do the same, your dad taking his now empty spot. “And what do you want to do, Peter?” He took a moment to think of his response, using his setup to aid him with time to think of the appropriate answer.

“Well, I love photography and absolutely plan on continuing that. I think I’m fairly good at science so I want to see what can happen with Oscorpe,” he hit the ball as he spoke, looking at your father after. One more stroke and it was in. Your dad rubbed his chin as he asked another quick question, Peter taking over Tyler’s spot.

“And my daughter. What’re your plans with her?” He couldn’t help the smile that came as you crossed his mind. All his plans centered around you. It was all for you both. “I’m going to marry her. She’s who I picture my life with,” your dad hummed again. He moved towards your brother, going to take his next shot.

“Peter, I like you, son. You seem like a good boy. Just not meant for my baby girl,” Peter’s smile fell from his face as your father kept talking, not looking at him, but at his shot. “My daughter is not meant to live in New York. She needs to come home and be with a man that can provide for her. Photography and lab work can’t do that. You saw last night how happy she was with Mason. Now, that’s a boy that can take care of her,” he putted his shot, going down four strokes.

Peter’s mouth was dry, letting his words settle over him. Of course, he saw you and Mason last  night. You were beaming with him and it broke Peter a tiny bit seeing how good you two looked together. He had tried to hide it, but he knew you caught it. This was your life and where you looked good. Peter wasn’t blind or dumb.

He grabbed his putter, moving silently to set up the shot. “So, it’s up to you, son. End it with her before you leave this week or when you get back to New York. She needs to come home. I let her live this silly little fantasy long enough, but it’s done,” Peter was shaking, still silent as he putted, watching the ball roll into the hole.

Tyler and your dad clapped. “Son, you know how to play!” Your dad clapped him on the shoulder as Peter stayed quiet. He didn’t know what to do.

You didn’t know what had happened at their game this morning, but Peter had been off ever since. He wouldn’t touch you, wouldn’t speak to you privately. He hardly even looked at you. That night as you two went to bed, he didn’t say goodnight as he laid on his side away from you.

Had you done something? You replayed every moment from the last few days, trying to place when it had happened. After you found him at the party he had been acting differently. Had someone said something to him? Maybe once he got to know your family and had seen your past life he realized he didn’t want to deal with you anymore. That you had too much baggage.

Your thoughts kept you up for hours, you had no idea when you fell asleep, but when you woke up, the bed was empty. You looked out the window, seeing Peter sitting on the back porch, reading some book he had bought a few weeks ago, claiming it would help him with work and Spider-Man responsibilities. That was code for science stuff you would never be able to wrap your head around.

It was still early, morning dew was still holding strong on the yard, a cold bite in the air. The house was still silent, signaling that everyone was still asleep. Peter’s head popped up as he watched you approach him, your bare feet padding along the wood. He gave you a soft smile. “I couldn’t sleep, I’m sorry.”

You eyed the spot next to him, moving to fill it. To your relief he accepted you willingly. You brought both feet onto the cushion, leaning your full weight into his side. You wrapped both your arms around one of his, laying your head on his bicep. His lips skimmed your forehead, eyes closing, wanting to relish the moment.

“Peter, are you mad at me? Did I do something to upset you?” you whispered out after sitting in silence for a bit, listening to his steady breathing. He sighed, your eyes scanned his face as he observed you. “Absolutely not, bug. I just-” he hesitated, trying to decide how he wanted to word his thoughts.

“Do you want to live in New York? Are you happy there?” He could see the confusion take over and immediately regretted asking. “Why would you ask me that?” You pulled away from him, anger taking over any rational thoughts you could’ve formed, quickly moving to the worse case scenario.

“I was just wondering, but I shouldn’t have said that. Forget I asked it, okay?” You stood, looking at him as he ran his hand through his messy locks. “I can’t just forget it, Peter. You brought it up. You wanted an answer. You have been acting so weird ever since that stupid fucking party. Did something happen?” Honestly, you were mainly thinking out loud, trying to understand where this was coming from.

You could tell Peter was growing more frustrated with every word you said, but you wouldn’t stop. Then it hit you. This all started after you had danced with Mason. Your eyes narrowed at him. You knew you shouldn’t have said it, watching Peter explode after the question left your mouth.

“Oh my god. Is this because of Mason? Because I danced with him?” His eyes snapped up to meet yours, jumping up from his seated position. “Yes! Yes, that’s exactly what this is about. You looked fucking elated dancing with him. It made me upset seeing you so happy with him. You know you’ve never looked at me like that?” He was shouting and you were so irate you were visibly shaking, the cold long forgotten.

“Oh please, Peter. Give me a fucking break. How the hell do you think I feel when I see you and Gwen together literally all the time? I laugh at some high school memories and I’m the bad guy. Nevermind the fact that I look at you like you’re my entire world, but damn fuck me for laughing at a joke!” your arms crossed in front of you, shaking your head as Peter looked at you, confused at your confession.

“What about me and Gwen? We’re friends. That’s all,” you spat out a laugh, meeting his gaze as he calmed down, going on the defense, trying to backtrack and reassure you.

“You think I’m stupid? You think I don’t notice the longing glances she gives you? That you jump at any opportunity to spend any time you can with her? Lunch at work, walking her home, inviting her to our dinners?” Peter’s jaw fell slack as angry tears formed in your eyes, your breathing going shallow and quick, another panic attack taking shape.

He saw it starting to form and his senses kicked into overdrive, just wanting to get you to slow down and breathe. He didn’t say anything as he took in a deep breath, watching as you subconsciously followed his breathing. He could see your brain actively sort through your thoughts and feelings, seeing how quick it reached the conclusion it did.

“Maybe it’s best we did this,” you choked out. Peter started shaking his head, moving to grab you, but you took a step back. “She’s perfect for you, Peter. An Oxford graduate, works at Oscorpe with you, cause God knows I’m not smart enough for that. I’m a total fucking mess. I wasn’t meant to be in New York, was I? A stupid girl chasing a stupid dream. I was meant to stay here, marry who my parents pick for me, sit down and shut up. The perfect little trophy wife. Not much of a trophy, huh?” A wet laugh bubbled up before you could stop it. “You don’t have to stay the last two days. I’ll have my mom change your ticket,” you couldn’t bring yourself to look at him.

Your heart was being ripped from your chest. Peter had no idea what to do. He didn’t mean for this to happen like this. It was supposed to be a clean break, but he was watching his world crumble around him. He was watching the girl who had grown confident around him, who was incredibly smart, and the most breathtakingly beautiful woman he had ever seen that he had fallen hopelessly in love with, shrink back in on herself, abandoning everything you had become. And he hated himself for it.

He had no idea that you viewed him and Gwen that way. A lifetime ago, he loved her, sure, but not the way he loves you. He didn’t know love like that existed. You were the blood that ran through him, the driving force that got him up everyday just to see you smile. Your laugh was his energy, he loved hearing it. It was music that he would choose a million times over, but now he couldn’t figure out what to say to you.

You turned and went back into the house, trying to stifle the sobs that were running through you. He wanted to stop you, but he didn’t, your fathers words running through his head.

It was Friday night which meant dinner at the club. Your family had all left the house this morning, having errands to run, leaving you and Peter entirely alone. The two of you steered clear of each other through the day. As you two got ready for dinner, you moved around each other in silence, not sure what to say.

You stood in front of the floor length mirror, trying to zip your dress when Peter approached behind you. He took the zipper from your hands, gliding it up delicately and with ease.

You gave an awkward smile, mumbling a quick thanks as he looked at you through the reflection, no smile offered back. “You are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen,” your gaze dropped from his, the smile leaving your face, looking at your shoes.

Neither of you said anything else as your parents babbled in the car, trying to get you both up to speed on the club's current drama. Peter’s hands laid flat on the tops of his thighs, fighting the urge to take your hand in his, kiss you and make everything okay again.

Your lip was raw from chewing on it, keeping your eyes on the window, not hearing a single word your mother had said. Peter noticed the old anxiety habit and so desperately wanted to pull it from your teeth, but instead he just watched.

As the car came to a stop, the valet opened your door, helping you step out. Peter appeared at your side quickly, escorting you inside. Instinctively, his hand landed on the small of your back, his touch scorching you as you kept up appearances for your family. Your stupid fucking family that had ruined your life in a matter of four days.

The club was so packed you could hardly move through the crowd to your designated table that you knew the path to like it had only been a week since you had been there when in reality it had been years. Faces perked up, greetings being shouted at you as you made your way to the table, politely offering waves and smiles to those that called out to you as you walked.

Peter admired that even though he knew you were broken like he was, you could put on that brave face and continue on like nothing was happening. He also hated it because you were well versed in having to do that. Peter knew that you had picked it up from your mother, having seen her do it since you could walk and something he had seen on this trip more times than he could count.

As you approached the table, Tyler and Annabelle were already sitting, waiting for you all to join. Peter continued the motions, pulling your chair out, pushing it in as you sat, placing the napkin in his lap. The room was buzzing with chatter, light music flowing through the space from the live band at the front of the room.

Your mom had a large smile on her face as she watched you chat with people as they came to the table, clearing her throat as another young girl you had gone to high school with stopped by to say hi, an infant on her hip that had your eyes lightly bugging out at. “Sweetheart, make sure you stop by the Davidson’s table this evening,” your eyes narrowed at her, knowing she wanted you to talk to Mason again.

Peter visibly stiffened at that notion. You wanted to offer a snide remark back to your mother, but couldn’t before the wait staff came to the table, setting three bottles of wine down. Wasting no time, you grabbed the red option, pouring yourself a hefty glass. Annabelle giggled, sticking her glass out, wanting the same serving.

You laughed as you poured hers the same. “We claim this bottle tonight,” your smile took over your face as you kept it on your end of the table. Instinctively, you poured Peter a glass too. You hesitated at the end, making brief eye contact as he smiled, thanking you. Your brother scoffed and leaned back in his chair. “Annie, do not overdo it. You’re a sloppy drunk and I don’t need that embarrassment tonight. Be an adult, please,” you watched as her smile slowly dropped, setting her glass down.

“Tyler, shut the fuck up. We’re out to dinner, she can have a glass of wine. She deals with your offspring every single day, she deserves it just for having to tolerate you,” Annabelle smirked into her lap at your words. Tyler rolled his eyes, pointing to the white wine and telling the server he would take that choice tonight.

Your hand went up to the server, a gentle smile offered to her, stopping her in her tracks. “Tyler, you can pour yourself a glass of wine. Be an adult and do it yourself,” your mom choked on her wine, eyes going wide at your challenge. Tyler leaned forward, a smirk forming on his lips. “So you're little miss independent? Think that you can speak to me like that? When you move back here we’re gonna have to take some time to reteach you some manners, little girl,” your mouth formed a small “o” as your dad went to speak, Peter beating him to it.

“I don’t know who the hell you think you are, but you do not speak to her like that, you understand me? You don’t talk to your wife and mother of your children like that either, jackass. Next time you have an issue with either of them, you come to me, yeah? Man the fuck up,” everyone sat silent as Peter held eye contact with your brother. You were fairly certain he was the only one other than you who had ever challenged him like that.

Your brother's smirk had fallen off his face, sitting back in his chair, no words to follow. Your father held his hands up as your mothers face sat in an almost permanent state of shock. “Okay, everyone settle down. Peter, I don’t think he meant any harm by that. It’s how Tyler jokes around,” you scoffed at that, rolling your eyes as Peter’s hand found your own, lacing your fingers together, not backing down.

“Joking or not, I will not let him speak to her like that. I don’t appreciate it and most definitely will not tolerate it. From anyone,” Peter eyed everyone at the table, taking a beat longer with your mother. You bit back a smile, feeling your pulse speed up at his words. No one had ever stuck up for you like that and as it happened you didn’t know how to react, other than to squeeze his hand, him immediately doing it back. It was him letting you know he would always do that for you.

As the servers approached the table with the first course, Peter smiled at you and Annabelle. “Tell you what, I love salad, but there are other appetizers out there. Have they ever thought about putting something like pigs in a blanket as an option? I bet it would go over well,” you couldn’t help but smile as Peter moved on from that moment.

The rest of the dinner went by as your parents and brother sat mostly silent, you three constantly in a fit of laughter as conversation flowed. You felt at ease with Peter, but you couldn’t help but feel the dread in the back of your mind knowing a really tough conversation was going to have to happen. But in that moment it didn’t matter as his hand never left yours the rest of the night, his arm eventually draping over the back of your chair, tugging it closer to his, shielding you from everyone in his presence.

When the music started to pick up, Peter’s smile grew as he stood, offering his hand to you. “C’mon, baby, let’s go dance,” you took his hand and let him lead you to the floor, your mothers eyes never leaving you two.

You and Peter danced for over thirty minutes, laughter taking you both over as you realized just how bad of a dancer he was. You caught the look of Mason and offered a soft smile, him returning it as he saw you and Peter together, turning around and going back to his table. You grabbed Peter’s hand and led them over to the Davidson’s table.

He quickly spoke in your ear before you approached them, hand landing on your hip to stop you. “What’re you doing, babe?” You didn’t respond, continuing forward, placing your hand over his, locking it in place. “Mr. and Mrs. Davidson! I’m so sorry I haven’t been able to catch up with you all before tonight. This is Peter Parker, my boyfriend. This week has been so busy and we leave tomorrow night,” they smiled widely, Mrs. Davidson standing and pulling you into an embrace, Mr. Davidson offering Peter a handshake.

“Oh I know how busy you’ve been. Your mama has had you running the entire time you’ve been here! I thought you were staying though?” You chuckled at her question, feeling Peter stiffen behind you. You turned and eyed him, offering a quizzical look before turning back towards her. “What do you mean? Why would I be staying? We leave tomorrow,” she looked flushed, stumbling over her words, trying to offer an explanation.

You excused yourself, pulling Peter to the hallway just outside the dining room. “Peter, what the hell was that about? Why did she think I was staying here?” he sighed, running his hand over his face as he leaned back against the wall. “Okay. When I tell you this I need you to be calm,” you could feel your temperature rising, arms crossing over your chest as you told him to continue.

“When we were golfing yesterday your dad had a talk with me. Telling me that he had let you live out your New York fantasy and that the entire point of this trip was to get you home. To stay here,” he didn’t look at you as he took in a shaky breath, looking at his dress shoes. “He told me that I was not suitable for his daughter. That my lab work and photography was not enough to support you. He doesn’t want me to be with you. I’m not good enough for you,” his eyes slipped shut, dropping his head.

“Are you fucking joking? Peter, why would you not tell me this? Of course, I want to be with you. I don’t need you to financially support me. I have never wanted that, it’s why I ran from here in the first place. I want to work and I want to do what I love. Just like how I want you to do what you love and do it with me. You are everything I have ever wanted, Peter,” his eyes met yours, his arms wrapping around you and pulling you towards him, hands landing on either of your cheeks as he kissed you.

When he pulled back his pained look didn’t budge. “I need you to know that there is absolutely nothing between me and Gwen, bug. She’s just a friend. She is nothing compared to you. You are my literal everything, I would never jeopardize that,” you looked away, your face burning as you thought of your jealous outburst from that morning. “No, I know that. I’m sorry I brought that up. It was my own insecurities coming to a head. They’ve been on hyper drive since we’ve been here. I shouldn’t have taken that out on you and especially on Gwen. She is so sweet,” Peter shook his head, putting his finger under your chin and getting you to look at him.

“I’m glad you told me. I didn’t know you were feeling like that. You are my main priority and I am so sorry if I’ve made you feel otherwise,” before he could continue, you connected with him again, your lips crashing onto his like he would slip through your fingers in any second. He was too good to you. You had let all of your ugly thoughts bombard him and he didn’t deserve that.

It made complete sense why he had been acting like that since the golf game, though. The party with Mason only solidified what he had been told from your dad and you hated that they had made him feel lesser than any of them when he was ten times the men they could ever be. As you melted into him, grabbing his dress shirt and pulling him closer to you, he pulled back, putting his forehead against yours.

“I’m so sorry, babe. The way your dad spoke just made me feel like maybe there was a small part of you that missed this. Like this is where you were meant to be,” you rolled your eyes as you kissed his nose. “Never. I left this for a reason and that reason ended up being you,” his smile grew as he kissed you again.

The drive home was uncomfortable between you all as you sat directly next to Peter, both arms wrapped one of his, hands tangled together. Your mom spared one glance to the backseat and saw you both, a sour look taking over her features, shooting a quick look to your father.

When you got back to the house, you told your parents you needed to talk. Peter’s worried look made you nervous, but you kissed him gently, assuring him you had this. It needed to be done and that he should go up and get some rest. You both knew he would not be doing that, opting to sit at the top of the stairs and wait for you to be done, no matter how long it would take and that he would be right there if you needed him for anything.

You and your parents had screamed and cried for hours as you battled out every feeling and thought you had. You knew it wasn’t going to be an easy fight, but when you had finished, you were so emotionally drained you thought you were going to pass out from exertion and dehydration.

By the end you realized your parents were never going to understand your point of view, your dreams and wishes, your goals. They couldn’t comprehend why you just didn’t want what they did. No matter what you said or did, it wasn't the answer they wanted. Your dad admitted to trying to drive Peter away, but swore he did it for you. For your best interest, not realizing that he was your best interest. That he was your future.

When you walked out of the living room, your parents going to bed, feelings and thoughts all laid out with no solutions to them being reached, you just wanted Peter. He had left his spot at the top of the stairs. It was the middle of the night, the large clock on the wall reading just past two in the morning. As you made your way to the back porch, you saw a figure sitting on the large brick wall.

You quietly walked out, climbing up to sit next to him. He wrapped you up in him, having you sit between his legs, trying to keep you warm. A breath you didn’t know you had been holding escaped you as you leaned back against him, letting him hold you both up. “You know I’ve never seen lightning bugs before?”

His whisper tickled your neck, eyes peeking open and seeing what he was looking at. The yard was filled with them, their yellow blinking lights taking up the darkness in the grass, illuminating what space they filled. You looked up at him and let out a breathy laugh. “They’re really pretty. That’s how I know summer is close, when they start coming out. When I was a kid we used to catch them in jars and watch them for hours. We’d release them of course, but it was so much fun,” your heart ached at the memory. A time when everything was so simple and when there were no expectations on you. When it was okay for you to run in the yard and catch bugs.

You pulled away from Peter, going to the kitchen and grabbing a mason jar from under the island. You stepped back out onto the patio, Peter watching you with a smile as you grabbed his hand. “C’mon!” You led him to the grass and you and Peter spent over an hour catching lightning bugs, laughter carrying through the air, your breath coming out in puffs in front of you both, ignoring that you felt like a block of ice, your nose lightly running and burning.

As you and Peter decided to make your way back into the house, you caught sight of your mom standing at her bedroom window, watching you both. Peter’s arms were wrapped around you from behind, his head resting on your shoulder as you set the last bug of the night free. She had a large smile on her face, one you hadn’t seen in years and you knew that everything would be okay. Eventually, it would be okay.

When you and Peter got home incredibly late the next day, you both raced to the bedroom, collapsing on the mattress. You let out a loud sigh, letting the lumpy bed wrap around you. Peter groaned, wiggling around as he pulled you against his chest. “This mattress sucks compared to the one at your parents,” you hummed, letting your eyes slip shut, sleep finally encompassing you for the first time in what felt like forever, loving the shitty mattress and how much it felt like home.

Peter’s phone immediately buzzed, and his head shot up, grabbing it and reading the breaking news article. You giggled as he jumped from the bed, grabbing his suit in the closet, quickly putting it on. Before he put the mask on, he grabbed your face, deeply kissing you, moaning into your lips.

“Go save the world, Spider-Man. I'll be here when you get back,” he shot you a wink as he pulled the mask on, yelling that he loved you as he climbed out the window, shooting a web onto the neighboring building and swinging into the night. You laughed, knowing this is where you belonged, in New York City with your superhero and you wouldn’t have it any other way.

[sleepingdeath-light]

relationship hcs ; shirou

requested by ; 🐜 anon (14/06/23) [1/2]

fandom(s) ; brand new animal

fandom masterlist(s) ; here

character(s) ; shirou ogami

outline ; “🐜 anon because i love BNA and 100% wasnt the person to recommend it whaaaat.... .

Shirou Ogami relationship and smut hcs?

also i accidentally typed shitou Ogami for a second there 😭”

warning(s) ; canon typical references to violence/discrimination/etc

it takes a long time for shirou to trust someone enough to get close to them — like of course he cares for all beastmen and will protect them but that doesn’t mean he’s close to them by default, he’s actually incredibly guarded and private

so this would only ever work on a basis of acquaintances -> friends -> lovers — and it would be a lengthy process to move from one step to the next

or, in other words: he’s not someone who rushes into things so any sort of relationship progression with him is going to be slow and steady at the best of times

but even once you are in a relationship with him, things aren’t exactly cut and dry

he’s protective over you, of course, and will always keep an eye (or, more aptly, nose) out for you to make sure that you’re safe when you’re away from him

he makes sure that you take care of yourself — whether that’s resting and eating enough, taking any medications you need or keeping you from overworking yourself (depending on what your habits are)

like he’ll start off by gruffly reminding you to take a break or rest or eat, and if that doesn’t work he’ll pick you up and do everything shy of actively forcing you to do some self care

will lend you his coat if you mention being cold, but it’s always in a sort of dismissive way — though he does appreciate the sight of you wearing his clothes, even if he doesn’t show it

not very big on physical affection and can get overwhelmed by it if you’re too forward — prefers to show his love through acts of service instead

he’ll substitute cuddling for breakfast in bed, or replace public kissing with date nights spent on rooftops discussing history and the stars

the furthest he’ll go with physical affection in public is a peck on the lips or a kiss on the back of your hand — in private he’s a bit more affectionate but not by much

flusters under praise and genuine compliments but will occasionally praise/compliment you in return in a roundabout casual way — e.g. ‘good job’, ‘not bad’ or ‘nice shirt, when did you buy it?’

has a possessive/territorial streak and will intimidate the hell out of anyone who tries to flirt with you — especially if they’re human — but will vehemently deny any and all accusations of jealousy

has an excellent memory and keeps track of things like anniversaries and birthdays with ease — but he also makes sure that you keep on top of things like medication and appointments when you’re due for them (be that something minor like a checkup or hay-fever, or something more significant like physiotherapy or painkillers)

loves hearing you talk about your passions/interests/hobbies and will quietly listen and ask questions where appropriate — but even if you’re not talking to him, you can catch him staring at you out of the corner of your eye

if you’re the type of partner who steals his clothes (a hermit crab, basically) then he’ll quickly become accustomed to it and will even set aside some of his shirts and jumpers for you to wear — namely so that you stop ‘borrowing’ his work clothes

if you joke about being in the world’s largest age gap relationship then he’ll just shake his head and sigh — you’re not wrong but he’s not going to encourage you with a proper response

though they’re not as frequent as they used to be, shirou does occasionally suffer from nightmares — reliving the last few days he spent in nirvasyl as well as how he died and the lives he took in the aftermath

this is the only time you’ll see him cry and you’re the only person who gets to see him be vulnerable in this way — he won’t seek you out for comfort but he won’t push you away if you try to give it to him (just don’t bring it up afterwards as he’d rather not think about it)

doesn’t talk about his past often but he will teach you innocent things like dances, songs and how to prepare some of the dishes he grew up with — things that aren’t linked to the fall but instead the cultural core of nirvasyl

doesn’t explicitly tell anyone that he’s in a relationship because he prefers to keep his private and professional lives separate, but michiru, gem, melissa and mayor rose all know you — with michiru in particular always asking about you and teasing shirou about being ‘whipped’ for you

if you’re a beastman like him then he constantly worries about your safety — especially if you travel outside of anima city

he’s all too aware of the dangers faced by your kind and, unlike him, you’re very much so mortal and at risk of losing your life to an anti beastman group — and he can’t imagine losing you so soon

in his more animalistic form he’s much worse at hiding his emotions and will give some not-so-subtle tells that he’s happy to see you — namely wagging his tail (no matter how much he tries to stop it)

he’s a living space heater so sharing a bed is only really viable in the winter because otherwise there is a really good chance that you’ll overheat — especially since he does somewhat cling to you in his sleep and has a strong enough grip that there is little to no chance of you getting out before he wakes up

usually just calls you by your name over any sort of pet name — unless he’s introducing you to someone else at which point you’ll gain a suffix denoting your relationship (e.g. ‘this is (name), my —‘)

so partner if you’re dating (he finds girlfriend and boyfriend to be a bit childish)

fiancé/fiancée if you’re engaged

wife/husband/spouse if you’re married

but yeah that’s the closest you’ll get because he isn’t really the type to use cutesy nicknames with his spouse

[sophiesbookishthings]

May Reads

The Way of Kings by Brandon Sanderson

I get it. I get the Sanderson hype. This is book 1 of the Stormlight Archive. It is such an incredibly unique and creative book. It's absolutely everything I want out of a fantasy book. The world building is mindblowing. I mean, he even thought about how the grass would work differently. The grass! I feel like no one ever thinks about the little differences like that that make the world they're writing so much more real and interesting. And the characters are enjoyable too. It's very rare that I read a book where I'm equally invested in every single pov. There's usually always one where I'm waiting for the next to start. Not this one. I was equally invested in all of them. And yes this book is HUGE but it is 100% worth it and I know this series is going to live in my brain forever. I am going to stop now cause I could seriously write an essay. I cannot recommend this book/series highly enough.

5/5 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (⭐️ and a secret 6th star)

Fairest by Marissa Meyer

This is a novella in the Lunar Chronicles about Queen Levana's backstory. I was looking forward to this one cause I love a good villain backstory and it sure delivered. Meyer did a great job of showing that yeah some bad things happened to Levana but she handled pretty much all of them so badly and how that made her who she became in the main series. It reminded me a lot of Snow's arc in the Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes where he A) had a less than ideal childhood/family life and B) just kept making worse and worse decisions as the book went on and falling deeper into the villain role.

4/5 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

The Sandman by Neil Gaiman

The first thing I did when I opened this book and saw Dream was go "wait that's literally just Neil." I love that the artists did that. It made me laugh. So I watched the show before I read the comic and I'm impressed how accurate the show was. There are slight differences but I like both versions honestly. If you like comics or gothic horror, this is a good one to read

5/5 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Remarkably Bright Creatures by Shelby Van Pelt

I found this book and was immediately intrigued. Octopuses are one of my favorite animals. I think they're fascinating and incredibly smart. My mom and I both ended up with a copy of this book, so we read it at the same time. It wasn't exactly what I thought it was going to be, but I did still really enjoy it. I really enjoyed how the main characters grew throughout the story. I especially loved the octopus pov. And I figured out how one character fit into the story before my mom. Which she didn't appreciate lol.

4.5/5 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️✨️

Daindreth's Outlaw by Elisabeth Wheatley

I dont have a ton to say about this one. It felt very fast and like it was very much just a bridge from the first book to the third. That didn't make it a bad book, though, by any means. I did like the new sorceress character that was introduced and the magic/evil forest setting. I also enjoyed the fmc exploring and discovering her new powers.

4/5 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Words of Radiance by Brandon Sanderson

More Stormlight Archive! I genuinely don't know how I read 4 books between the first one and this one cause these books live permanently in my brain. I'm super excited about where this one left off. It was a really interesting place (literally lol). So much happened in this book and it was cool to see the characters grow in their power. And all the reveals! The backstory reveals, the whole deal with the parshendi (which was super sad), the deal with the spren and the shardblades, whatevers going on with szeth (who I love), and somebody not being dead (I knew it!). I particularly loved shallan in this book. I adore a manipulative protagonist. They just do something to my brain. And patterns a cutie. I was about to fight kaladin, though, and I love him too, but oh my god. I don't know. I could talk about this book forever, so I'm gonna just stop rambling and say that I loved it and leave it at that.

5/5 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

[flightfoot]

Fanfic Recs For Completed Lovesquare AU Miraculous Fics in 2023

By AU, I'm talking ones with a totally different setting, not just like a canon divergence AU. I'm thinking like Fantasy AUs, Sci-fi AUs, Royalty AUs, that sort of thing.

the legend of the firefly by @agnes-writes

“She’s… beautiful. If he were to describe her, he’d say that they bottled summer in her eyes, and painted the night sky in her hair. Her lips are curved into a wistful smile, eyes trailing the thicket of trees where Adrien stands. Her gaze sets his heart stuttering in his chest as it softens, and Adrien almost believes that look is meant for him.” OR: A pair of lovers create a romance that transcends time, and leaves a mark like no other.

This is an incredibly well-written folk tale, one that I highly recommend anyone who loves mythological, folktale, fantasy, etc AUs for Adrienette to read! It’s on the shorter side, but woven so perfectly that it packs an outsized punch, and feels like it belongs in one of those collections of folk tales and myths I read as a kid! 

Adrien’s a god, gifting prosperity to those under his protection, but never interacting with them… until a farm girl catches his eye.

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The Mer-Human Race by @rosie-b

Bringing her hand closer to his lips, Adrien tried to plant a kiss on it, but Marinette pulled away before his lips could touch her. “Save it for your girlfriend,” she said teasingly. “Or do you still not have one yet?” Adrien smirked and crossed his arms. “It’s a girl,” he said. “And I know her in real life. That’s all you get. Now, let’s get back to planning, shall we? We have a mermaid to beat.”

Lovely world-building here! Merfolk and humans have had a treaty for a long time, so there’s a tradition where merfolk can challenge humans to a race, and whoever wins gets to ask for a reasonable sort of reward (in Marinette’s case, she wants to be allowed to captain a ship at a younger age than is usually allowed). Alya, Nino, and Adrien are naturally very encouraging towards Marinette, and luckily for her, a nice merman going by the name of Chat Noir shows up and challenges her to a race…

Yeah you can see where this is going XD. It’s fun, I thoroughly enjoyed it.

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hands red series by katrinette

Summary for the first fic in the series, a serpent in these still waters:

Marinette’s on her knees before her new king, preparing to swear the oath that binds her to serve him to the best of her ability. To the man whose father had her parents killed. Every word tastes like ash in her mouth.

Marinette’s plotting to overthrow the corrupt monarch, as the French tend to do. She doesn’t know King Adrien all that well, since he just ascended to the throne recently, but she’s certain that he’s just as bad as his father.

Of course, rebellion’s aren’t very effective without help, so after biting her tongue with the new king, she rants to her partner in crime, a man whose true name and face she does not know, but who she deeply trusts nonetheless: Chat Noir.

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May I Introduce Myself, Your Highness? by @chocoluckchipz

Whether picking up a stray animal off the streets or saving a dying child at the market, Adrien had always strived to be the best version of himself. Truly, he would’ve been the perfect candidate to be snatched up by a kwami, were he an orphan, dying somewhere remote after a short life full of nothing but suffering and misery. Yet as it stood, the sole heir to the French throne had little to complain about. Apart from, perhaps, a complete absence of a love life. That is until a mysterious girl, wandering around his gardens at night, catches his attention.

I love Fantasy AUs. It’s a bit unclear what’s happening at first, but it all gets explained in the last chapter. Also don’t worry about the age gap between Marinette and Adrien at the start of the story, I promise it’s not a problem in the end.

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How Marinette Learned to Stop Worrying And Love The Ball by @rosie-b

Hidden from the crowds thronging around the busy fairy portal in Paris’s town square, a fae gate sits at the edge of the forest, locked, rusty, and full of ancient magic. Marinette thinks that this abandoned gate must not work anymore… but one day, a fairy disguised as a black cat steps through it.

Ah, Fantasy Soulmate AUs, my beloved XD. This ain’t the only one of this fic type I’m gonna be recommending. This is just a cute fluff fic without much strife. I love Marinette and Chat Noir being able to be childhood friends via his visits, even if he has to pretend to be her cat whenever he comes over, and I ESPECIALLY adore Alya being his chaperone and quickly becoming friends with Marinette in her own right. It ain’t a complicated plot, but it is a nice and warm fic.

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a winter so warm by @rosekasa

winters were hard for even the best of vampires, but at least adrien had marinette to keep him warm with her cuddles. december was going to suck without her. so it was only to be expected to get extra cuddles in before she left, right? (well, not really, considering those heating supplements he was taking, but she didn’t need to know about that).

This one’s mostly just cute cuddly adorableness! It’s basically like all those “Marinette gets the Ladybug trait of needing to cuddle up to someone for warmth”, but with Adrien instead. And of course featuring Marinette being a very talented witch who just wants to help Adrien stay warm when she isn’t there XD.

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Stitched Together by @nedjsmlfavs

Stitch Witch Marinette was just supposed to be having a nice, terrifying outing with her best friends. She never expected to find a magically trapped kitten, but here we are! Whatever happened to this poor little guy?

Poor Adrien, being transformed and chained up for ages, having no idea that he was gonna be rescued. But at least he got to have fun at Marinette’s place as a cat! 

Most of this fic is adorable, though with some dark undertones lying in wait. After all, SOMEONE chained up that poor little kitty…

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Dreams of You by @chocoluckchipz

Dreams had long been his only escape. Dreams of Ladybug, the girl who had always been there for him.

If only in his dreams. And only while she was also sleeping.

Because with the first rays of sunshine gliding over her skin, with the first fluttering of her eyelashes, from the moment she opened her eyes in the morning, memories of Adrien would vanish from her mind.

She would go on living her life.

He would always be the only one who remembered.

At least until they meet in the real world and fall in love all over again, something that would’ve been easier to do if Adrien wasn't a prisoner in his own home.

Chocoluckchipz has some of the most beautifully executed lovesquare fics I’ve read, and this is no exception. Most of the fic is dedicated to Adrien wooing Marinette, spending time with her, with her own dream self acting as his wingman, giving her tips on how to get her to fall for him, all the while frustrated that she can’t share memories with her waking self, and that she and Adrien can’t share as much information as they’d like while asleep, due to limitations of the “curse” that allows Adrien to share dreams with his soulmate. 

It’s not all cute Adrienette fluff though. There’s a threat in the background waiting to erupt, as the weirdness of Gabriel’s ultimatum to Adrien about finding Ladybug or else being forced to marry Lila keeps on gnawing at him - and with good reason. This is a world with magic and kwamis still, and that fact makes itself very relevant in the last third of the story. 

It’s a well-written tale and very much worth a read!

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delicate in every way but one by katrinette

When Marinette finds a wanted ad that provokes just enough questions in her mind that she can’t help answering it, the reward is sweeter than she could have imagined.

I love the little bit of worldbuilding we get here about vampire society, and Adrien’s usual awkward adorableness in asking Marinette for a certain necessary favor. It’s always neat to see such familiar characterization in a supernatural setting like this.

[littencloud9]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

oh my god. an excuse to talk about my favs please never apologise for asking i love u. heres a list and also a song i assign them because i can LMFAO 🫶:

10. murashige yuzuki - skip and loafer

yuzuki means SO much to me. she is so so kind and has the biggest heart ever and is always looking out for the rest of the girls, and she’s so perceptive too. and the effort she puts into her art makes me sob. she’s the biggest supporter and i adore her friendship with the other girls 🥹💗

song: there she goes by sixpence none the richer. dw about it

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9. mai - avatar the last airbender

she is SO me. oldest sister core. i adore how much she cares in the show even though it’s always masked by indifference or harsh words. her betrayal scene was FANTASTIC and she is so skilled and powerful i love her. also love her design it’s very cute!!

song: are you satisfied? by marina. i feel i dont need to explain this one

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8. kyan reki - sk8 the infinity

holds him so gently. nothing bad should happen to him ever. he is the sweetest character and he is trying his damn BEST and his arc was incredibly done. super realistic. hurt my soul. him and miya are the most siblings to ever sibling. GIVE HIM PRAISE HE DESERVES THE WORLD

song: outdated by lyric. ps i LOVE lyric it’s my new obsession and her songs send me to heaven. highly recommend !! <3

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7. shi qingxuan - tian guan ci fu

the genderqueer icon. the silliest babygirl. they are the light of my life and i smile every time they come on screen. them and xie lian are the funniest duo ever. and i love how cheeky they are no matter the situation, and that they’re so smart!!

(honourable mention 1: lang qianqiu. he was here before sqx replaced him. his story shattered me into pieces and i hold him so dear to my heart)

song: girls and boys in school by neon trees. i am the biggest neon trees fan and i feel like the vibe fits. also any trashy 2000s pop song fits too. i think sqx would love kesha

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6. yosano akiko - bungo stray dogs

YOSANO I LOVE YOU 💗💗💗💗💗 the moment her backstory hit i was utterly fucking DESTROYED. her fight with kajii and her speech about how valuable human life is (which you wouldnt expect because her ability can ‘reverse’ death) was amazing, and then you get to know WHY she thinks that way with her backstory. and the way she was forced to become a weapon but unlearned that with the help of the agency. oh god. im on my knees. asagiri give me more yosano screentime i beg 🔪

(honourable mention 2: akutagawa. i didnt want to spam this list with bsd characters but just know that he hurts my soul and destroys me mentally)

song: history of man by maisie peters. again i feel i dont need to explain this

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5. mu qing - tian guan ci fu

he is SUCH a little fucking bitch (affectionate). admittedly hes here because hes pretty and sassy. genuinely my fav tgcf character and his attitude is funny. hes also dumb sometimes (with feng xin or xie lian) and i love how hes so embarrassed of affection. please give him more hugs i need to see this man blush. also hes in an 800 year old situationship and there is SO much to unpack there but it doesnt matter because i want to throw him in a blender NOW ‼️

song: best by gracie abrams. i was gonna put a sillier song but i think this fits him and his dumb situationship. get this guy to talk about his feelings

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4. edogawa ranpo - bungo stray dogs

!!!!!! RANPO! hes so me. hes been my fav since season 1 and then untold origins got adapted and i was shaken. holy shit. hes just a boy. he just needs love. he flaunts his brain and power as a direct response to how much he was shamed for it as a child. HIM AND FUKUZAWA. HIM AND YOSANO. im gonna sob. he seems so cocky and arrogant and then u realise hes desperately trying to be the smartest in the room because he knows how much the agency relies on him. hes trying to protect everyone. hes holding the weight of the entire agency on his shoulders. im squishing him I LOVE RANPO

song: mastermind by taylor swift. it was either that or mirrorball. but i think the bridge fits him especially well <3

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3. itadori yuuji - jujutsu kaisen

TOP 3!! ITADORI YUUJI THE MC THAT YOU ARE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH 💞💞💞💞💞 hes pink and silly PLEASE take all his suffering away and give it to gege akutami. I LOVE HIM. he has undeniable willpower AND UNSHAKEABLE CHARACTER and he keeps getting up no matter how many times hes been beaten down. HE FIGHTS SO HARD FOR THE PEOPLE HE LOVES. he wants to save people. he blames himself so much for things that aren’t his fault and it makes me CRY holy shit. and the way he looks past appearances and sees people for who they are inside/their talents and positives. GREENEST FLAG. I LOVE YOU YUUJI. please please please give him back everyone he loves and give him a big hug. put him in a romance anime this jjk shit is NOT for him 😞

song: atlantis by seafret. it was that or not strong enough. both options hurt equally bad. I LOVE HIM ☹️

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2. cheng xiaoshi - link clink

HNGHHSHDHDHHSSJDHSHHSHSSHSHDHSHSHDHHS. CHENG XIAOSHI I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. none of you get it (ps PLEASE watch link click i want more lc friends 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏). he is the best thing of this show and the show is fantastic so thats saying something. HES SO DUMB BUT SO KIND AND AN AMAZING FIGHTER and his backstory omg i need to give him a hug. i love how determined he always is to give people a better life, to change their past for the better, even though hes heavily warned not to do that. and that he is ALWAYS fighting for others. and how understanding he is. his relationship with both lu guang and qiao ling are so precious. he has this warm aura around him that draws the other characters to him u know?? i am the biggest cxs stand i will defend him with my life. i cant say much more with spoilers so ill end here but I FUCKING LOVE HIM PLEASE WATCH LINK CLICK DO IT FOR HIM 🫶🫶🫶🫶

song: waiting room by phoebe bridgers. he knows he cant change anything but god fucking DAMN it does he wish he can. sobs forever

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1. fushiguro megumi - jujutsu kaisen

MEGUMI!!!!! i feel like we saw this coming. ill never shut up about him. megumi i love you. ill defend him with my LIFE. he is the biggest lover at his core and he is so determined to protect those he loves. and his whole thing about never reaching his full potential because he doesn’t believe in his power… ough. and how he loves his friends so much but wont show it. he’ll be like ‘i do NOT care about human earthworm’ and then watch all four movies. he is my son. and yeah as a manga reader ive been suffering for so long but WE HAVE HOPE NOW! megumi nation in megumi we trust 🙏 I LOVE HIM. his sass is also really funny. i love him have i mentioned that. im not even articulate anymore my brain is just HDHFJSBDJDHJD when i think of him. he makes me miserable. his relationships with tsumiki, gojo, toji etc are all so depressing in their own way. HE DOESNT DESERVE ANY OF THAT SHIT BTW GEGE GIVE HIM BACK HIS HAPPINESS. also wait i love how smart he is during battle and how he is so observant, and how he explains jujutsu stuff to people like yuuji who are new to it. HAVE I MENTIONED HOW KIND HE IS. HGDNAJDHSJD. my silly pining gay boy. i am hugging him so gently and making him the warmest soup ever. sorry for the rant MEGUMI THE CHARACTER EVER 💗💗💗🫶🫶🫶💞💞💞🩵🩵🩵

song: the alcott by the national ft taylor swift. this is ESPECIALLY solidified by this edit here that changed my life. LIVE LAUGH LOVE MEGUMI 2k24

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wow this is a long post. thank you SO much for the ask sorry for how incoherent this is i love my favs 🤍

[bookwyrminspiration]

what’s kotlc and is it better than the great library? i read the latter and it was fun, perhaps not the height of literature but fun

OKAY! Keeper of the Lost Cities by Shannon Messenger is a long, ongoing middle-grade fantasy series following Sophie Foster, a 12-year-old high school senior who can read thoughts following a bump to the head at age 5--or so she thinks, until she's approached by a cute stranger who reveals she's really an elf who's been hidden away.

She's whisked away to a secret, supposedly perfect world of elves, goblins, ogres, and more. Sophie wants nothing more than to be normal, and tries to fit in--go to school, play with friends, etc.--but all her abnormalities have followed her from the human world. She's still weird, and it turns out it might be the result of bigger forces working behind the scenes. Forces she needs to uncover to learn who and what she truly is--but there's no taking it back, and plunging into the underbelly of her supposedly "perfect" new world opens a seemingly never-ending rabbit hole to try and understand and save it from itself. Full of rebellions, corruption, mysterious notes, stuffed animals, a large cast of characters, and so. many. sparkles. there's a lot going on for Sophie to discover

I think tgl and kotlc are hard to directly compare. tgl has a lot of explicit found family, fast-paced action, and is, like you said, just genuinely fun to read. it's quick, speaks to booklovers, and embraces a variety of different moral stances in a way that distinctly characterizes everyone. but it does falter in terms of consistency, and there are several contradicting details throughout it. kotlc is more structurally sound, but it is meant for a younger audience--which is not to say it's bad, but that it does impact reading. There are some cliches, such as experiment children, excessively powerful ocs, a love triangle, etc. It also has a fairly developed and explored world on several fronts, though there are some gaps. It does, however, want for diversity and representation. There are few non-white characters, few disabled characters, and no acknowledgement of queerness so far--though given recent releases it's possible that last part will change.

While kotlc is a special interest of mine and I'm quite attached to it, I don't necessarily recommend it to people outside the middle-grade age range. It's a solid series despite its flaws, but that doesn't mean you'll be head over heels; if you read it, I think it would be similar to how tgl was fun but not the height of literature. It's enjoyable and there are a wealth of characters to get attached to, compelling plotlines/character pasts, but unless you really click it'll just be a solid, time-filling read.

The series has also had a rough few years recently; the author has a lot going on in her personal life--which is totally fine, it just means there are long waiting periods currently. And not everyone thinks its worth it, because the story is going an unexpected direction and there are some creative choices made not everyone likes (too much focus on the love triangle, deposing the main character, butchering character arcs last minute, etc.).

All this to say kotlc has radically altered the course of my life and is an incredibly dear series to me, and I will be keeping up with it and blogging about it until the end of time with anyone who wants to join, but it's also not my favorite series I've ever read, if that distinction makes sense. If you do want some simple, if long, reading--go for it! We're always excited to have new people around and would love to have you. There's actually a pretty consistent, if small, fandom and a lot of art, fic, and other things to explore. But we'd also all understand without any pushing if it's not for you.

That was longer than I meant it to be, but if you have any further questions please do ask :)--and again, this is my view on it! Just my opinions and assessments

[faekishi]

So, I got a new book to help me get better at people drawing and decided to start working on ocs and worldbuilding.

If you're wondering what book I got. I got Point Character Drawing by Taco. I 10000% recommend all three of their books as they're incredibly insightful and go into great detail. Best purchase I made. You can find the books on amazon!

Still working on coloring and water is incredible hard. But, really happy with this. From the start of my art journey to now. I'm really happy with my progress. Although this is just the first design of these guys so I'll be working on them more. LORE TIME! [Warning Horror Themes Below.]

So, the world that this oc lives in is a very distorted one. This is due to a few elder gods that came to earth. Secretly, this happened due to some scientists messing with things they shouldn't have and gaining the attention of several elder gods.

The world got completely warped and several dimensions are now fused with their own. For instance you could have a normal neighborhood one half and then the other half could be an abandoned looking city or it could be a medieval village.

Monsters from legends and ones of new are also crawling all around the earth. Some as small as an ant and others as large as the mountain themselves that can instantly vanish in a blink of an eye.

There are also times where everything is just red. The sky, the light, everything. While other times night can go on for several days or daytime can just be only a few handful of hours.

It took decades, but eventually humans gotten a handle on living in this new world and have systems in place to help protect them.

Some humans have gained special abilities to fight off the monsters. But, some of the monsters can die through just ordinary human means.

There are several task forces to deal with all different kinds of situations.

That's all I got on the world. But, I plan to continue to build it.

Now for the characters.

The OC here actually works for an aquatic facility. He used to work as an animal handler in an aquarium back in his twenties. He was asked by his manager if he wanted to transfer to a facility that handles in aquatic creatures as they are looking for basically bodies to take care of them.

The OC at first didn't want too. He's doesn't like the monsters that now roam the earth. But, he needed more money and they would pay handsomely so he agrees on a temporary contract. Just long enough for him to get as much money as he could before finally leaving.

Now he's in his late thirties and still working there.

Basically, OC kinda trapped himself in surviving as long as he did at the facility. Especially considering he's able to handle the creatures he was assigned too incredibly well to the point where they become docile. So he's forced to always work there. He doesn't like it as he barely gets time off and it is a toss up if the creatures he handles finally attack him.

For the creatures in the picture. They are a failed experiment. The scientists at the facility were trying to make a dragon they could make as a soldier. They created a chimera of sorts using people, special koi, and other creatures they were able to get their hands on.

The experiment was both a success and a failure. The people who volunteered for the program (though they didn't know the true aspects of what they were getting into) went insane from the transformation. They refuse to take orders and attack the scientists and soldiers on sight. They are incredibly powerful with a wide range of abilities. They are able to swim and breath in water. Be on a land and also fly in the sky.

The facility had barely been able to keep in the facility until the OC came in. They now are somewhat docile now and are willingly staying at the facility.

But, if the OC is gone for too long then they start rampaging and start making escape attempts.

Some fun facts about the creature: They want to consume real dragons in hopes of actually becoming one. They are omnivores. So they can eat both meat and plants. While all them use to be human fused with strange creatures. The actually human self had already been eaten away and a creature part is in control. The scientist thought the human just went insane, but there is no human left.

That's all I have for now. I hope you all enjoyed it.

Stay Kind! Stay Hydrated! And take care of yourself!