Yesterday was the first session with my new therapist.
Even with confidence that this new one would be good, I was still slightly apprehensive. What if she didn’t understand anything about being transgender and we focus on that the whole time? What if she flinches every time I curse? What if her personality sucks? Will I feel like I can talk to her? What if she doesn’t understand my use of humor as a coping mechanism and she refers me to the nearest psych ward?
I had small fears. Small worries. Small questions whirling in my head.
But. She was amazing. Truly everything I need in a therapist. I’m so ready and thrilled to be working with her.
It’s going to be tough because I’ve set our course together to dig farther than I’ve dug before. That’s nerve wracking. But I absolutely trust that she’s the best person for this adventure. I’m able to articulate my thoughts better than ever so I look forward to actually getting what I want and need out of my sessions. Rather than just a vent sesh.
As Dolly Parton once said:
“if you've built a wall // and know it needs to fall //
Curly hair, like srsly wft my hair is so fucking curly looks like I have perm the majority of the time
Dysphoria increasing from things I couldn't change
Things I expected but didn't happen(/hasn't yet I'm still early in the medical transition)
Adam's apple, was aware not everyone gets one but I hoped I would
Facial hair, thought I'd have more
Increase of appetite, just didn't happen
Hot flashes, thank fucked that didn't happen
Atleast some fat distribution mainly around my hips, I know it can take years for it to happen but it seems like when I gain weight it's around my hips
So i got a little bored and made a small video displaying myselt and my transformation so far.
It’s not much, and I kind of want to make something more in depth but this will do for now. Go ahead and take a gander into my life. It’s not the most exciting, but its the only one I’ve got.
Oh gosh Hi, could I please get a mood board for a transguy that enjoys fantasy? Thank you so much. (BTW I love the blog! Keep up the good work. lots of love to y'all.
I hope you like it, let me know if anything needs to be changed. And thanks so much for your kind words!! ♡♡♡♡