#ganito ba?

[imblocking-you]

The dynamic in "Every day I want to be Number 1" is sooo scrumptious

[grvntld]

yung notes app ko here sa phone ko puro kalungkutan tots and feels laman kasi tbfh sobrang lungkot ko lately. i know it's important that i go through tough times and not run from them, but damn it, im just so tired of going through it. im so tired. im exhausted. i feel depleted. i just feel so weak and defeated all over.

[prodkeiji]

di naman siya sobrang gwapo, ngunit siya ang type na type ko 😞💔

[kremechihihi]

ako si luna.

siya si sol.

ilang taon ko makikita ikaw nang tunay?

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i’m luna.

she is sol.

how many years will it take to see you truly?

[jolinajolina]

bat d nlang sila magsapakan

[fu-cough]

ikaw at sila by Moira is so chat noir s4 coded:((

[gme-news]

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[pasagip]

idk kung ano meron sa kantang to basta masarap syang pakinggan lalo na tuwing gabi like mga ganitong oras habang nagawa ka ng gusto mo gawin ganern pero feel ko maganda rin to pag nabyahe ka tas ganito kanta mo, oh diba heaven HAHAHAHAHAH

[grvntld]

i get it some pet owners are irresponsible but oh my gosh just dont label your establishment pet-friendly if you only allow smol dogs and certain breeds and you hv all these restrictions that basically just say no we dont want dogs here lmao just ahck stAhp eht

[kiiraes]

oo haha

[moonwonuu]

Tho wishing u luck kay doc! Kung suki ka nya, di yan magagalit- magnnag lang yan ng very light. (Ganyan kasi boss ko hahahahah)

Pero uy, hope you’re doing well! Fighting! ✊🏻✊🏻

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thanks vebs kaka uwi ko lang 😭 ‘di naman ako pinagalitan thankfully pero ganito siya nung tinawag niya name ko sa labas ng office niya 🧍🏼baka iniisip “ikaw nanaman!!” 😂

hehehe okie naman na me 🫶🏼

[yoraely]

ayoko na

[cherrywrecked]

college dorm — kim chaewon.

as requested by anon! this is only one of the few on my request list, so if you ever requested through ask, please wait for me. 🥹 i'm trying my best! 🫡.

warnings: college au. taglish. gxg. caught masturbating. fingering. face sitting. scissoring. horny!chaewon, giver!reader.

being in college means being away with your family, but also meeting new people. simula nung umapak ako ng kolehiyo, nahiwalay na 'ko sa mga magulang ko, pero it wasn't a big of a deal kasi they were barely physically present naman. being in dorms during college wasn't a big jump for me. it has been three years already since then and i've always opted for a solo dorm room, ayoko ng may kasama—maselan ako, eh. except for this semester. i had no choice but to share my dorm with kim chaewon. akala ko okay lang, eh. maaga ako'ng umaalis para sa morning classes ko, tapos siya, bandang hapon na. pag uwi ko, wala pa siya. i bare even see each her, pero maayos siyang dormmate. malinis, hindi maingay. kaso putangina, ano 'tong naririnig ko ngayon?

pag pasok na pag pasok ko ng dorm, ang... ingay. puro ungol. parang may umiiyak? ewan. pero si chaewon... boses yun ni chae. dahan dahan ako'ng naglakad papalapit sa kwarto ng dormmate ko. nakabukas ito, kaya sa bawat pag lapit ko, lalong lumalakas yung mga ungol. akala ko umiiyak si chaewon, pero pag lapit na pag lapit ko sa pintuan niya, nahuli ko ang dalaga na naka hubo't hubad habang nakadantay sa unan niya, humping her pillow. putangina? bakit ganito? bakit hindi ko maalis yung mga mata ko sa katawan ng dormmate ko? tila ba naging estatwa ako sa may pintuan ng kwarto niya.

ang ganda ng katawan ni chaewon. alam naman na ng lahat yon. maganda rin si chaewon mismo, kaya nga't ang daming nagkakagusto sa dalaga. and honestly, isa na 'ko sakanila. gandang ganda ako kay chaewon, lalo na ngayon. hindi ko na napansin na nakahawak na pala ako sa boobs ko, dahan dahang nilalamas ito. kusang gumagalaw yung mga kamay ko, tangina. ano ba 'to? it was as if i was bewitched by the girl in front of me. “f-fuck, ang sarap. ang sarap mo, y/n.” ano daw?

para ako'ng tanga na habangga sa pintuan ni chaewon and our eyes met. akala ko titigil siya, pero ngumisi lang ang dalaga at lalong binilisan ang pag galaw ng mga hita niya. “a-ang sarap, puta.” ungol ulit ni chaewon, this time, her gaze was locked on mine. tanginang yan, how can i stop myself if she was basically fucking herself with the thought of me? i'm no saint—i've had my fair share of experiences and i'm about to share one with her tonight.

pumasok ako sa kwarto ni chaewon, not even bothering to close her door. i didn't waste any more time and was practically stripping myself off my white uniform while approaching the girl. i kept the pants and my bra on, however. “hawakan mo 'ko, baby. i want to feel your hands on my body, please.” she says, looking up at me as i stood in front of her. ginawa ko yung gusto niya at nilagay ang mga kamay ko sa suso ni chaewon. ang tigas ng mga utong niya, lalo pa itong tumayo nung pinisil at sinimulan ko itong pag laruan. onti onti kong binaba ang sarili ko hanggang sa nakaharap na sa muka ko ang dibdib ni chaewon. “s-shit, ang init ng dila mo, baby. ang sarap.” ungol ng dalaga nung binalot ko na ang mga labi ko sa kaliwang utong niya habang pinaglalaruan ang kanan gamit ang aking daliri. i carefully settled myself on her bed, not removing myself from her.

tumigil na si chaewon sa pag kantot sa pesteng unan niya, instead, she took my hand and sat on it. “tangina, chae, basang basa ka.” sabi ko habang inaakyat ang mga halik ko papunta sa labi niya. “o-oo... kung alam mo lang kung g-gaano... kung gaano ako kalibog para sa'yo. fuck, markahan mo 'ko, baby, please.” her words were sloppy, na natawa nalang ako kasi parang yung utak ni chaewon hindi na gumagana sa sobrang libog para sakin. hinalik halikan ko ang leeg ni chaewon bago nag iwan ng chikinini sa gilid ng leeg niya habang ang daliri ko naman ay dahan dahang pumapasok sa butas niya. “putangina, ang sarap—!” napadikit ang katawan ni chaewon sa katawan ko sa pagpasok ng daliri ko sakanya, ramdam kong nanginig yung katawan ng dalaga.

not wasting time, i started to curl my fingers inside of her, moving slowly. i want to take my time on her. gusto kong marinig si chaewon na nagmamakaawa para sa'kin. didn't even notice her pull me atop of her. we were now in her bed with my hand in between her legs, while my lips are attacking her neck. ang bango ni chae, hindi ko alam kung nakailang chikinini na 'ko, but i loved the thought of her wearing her usual fit and people can see her hickeys, even in class. i wanted to make her mine.

“isang daliri pa, please?” chaewon asks with her puppy eyes. ang cute, pero putangina, nakakalibog. i smiled at her and without warning, i added another finger inside of her na dahilan ng marahang pag sikip ng puke niya sa daliri ko. “kantutin mo 'ko, baby. please... please! galawin mo yung daliri mo—'y-yan! ganiyan... gago, ang s-sarap!” hindi magkanda ugaga si chaewon nung sinumulan kong galawin yung mga daliri ko at marahan siyang kinantot gamit ito. ramdam na ramdam ko kung gaano siya kabasa, she was practically making a mess on my hand already. binilisan ko ang pag galaw ng mga daliri ko hanggang sa naramdaman kong lalong sumisikip yung puke ni chaewon, yung balakang niya, hindi na mapigilan sa pag galaw. “lalabasan na 'ko, fuck! ang sarap... baby— babe! fuck! sige pa!” chaewon screamed as she clenched her walls around my fingers. i used my thumb to rub her clit which then drove her to her orgasm.

nilabasan na si chaewon, pero hindi padin ako tumitigil sa pag kantot sakanya. dahan dahan ko pading nilalabas masok yung daliri ko sa puke niyang tumutulo na sa sobrang libog. “tangina mo, ang libog mo, chae.” i said as i kissed her lips while pulling my digits out which then earned a whine from the girl. i only chuckled as i reposition myself and laid on her bed. she took it as an invitation and got on top of me. “isa pa.” she says as the tug on my bra—she wants me naked and i helped her get rid of it. dahan dahang bumababa si chaewon at sunod niyang tinanggal eh yung pantalon at panty ko. i moaned when i felt the cold breeze hit my wet cunt. natawa si chaewon. “nakakalibog bang kantutin ako, mhm?” she says, rubbing my clit. i looked at her and hummed, a smirk plastered on my face. “hump me, chae.” yun lang ang sinabi ko at 'tong putang 'to, ang bilis kumilos.

chaewon hooked her legs on mine and pushed herself against me. malakas na ungol ang lumabas sa bibig naming parehas nung nagtama yung mga basang puke namin ni chaewon. tangina, ang sarap niya. dahan dahang gumalaw si chaewon habang ako, nakahiga lang, hawak ang mga hita niya. “b-baby, basang basa ako para sa'yo, puta. h-hng... s-sarap.”.

i think it's already normal at this point—how chaewon's brain shuts down when she's getting what she wants in bed. chaewon started moving her hips faster which i then reciprocated by moving my hips in sync with her movements. “tangina, chaewon. ang sarap mo, gago.” ungol ko habang yung isang kamay ko ay nasa suso na ng dalaga, iniikot ikot sa daliri ang utong niya. “gago, ang s-sarap! sige pa, chae... putangina, para kang pokpok gumalaw.” that made chaewon whine a bit louder. gusto niya bang tinatawag siyang pokpok?

“h-hindi! hindi ako p-pokpok... ikaw lang gusto ko, baby—fuck! sige pa, baby. faster!” she couldn't even continue what she was saying when i've already taken over and pulled her in. hawak ko yung maliit na balakang ni chaewon when i started to move faster and harder against her. it didn't even take long for her to start shaking against me. “lalabasan na 'ko... baby, sabay tayo. shit, basang basa ako para sa'yo.” ungol ko habang inaakap si chaewon at bago siya halikan, i felt my movements grow sloppy and soon enough, sabay nga kaming nilabasan ni chaewon. her body was shaking from the orgasm, buti nalang akap akap ko ang maliit niyang katawan.

“ang sarap, gago.” i breathed against her neck, kissing on the red patches i left a while ago. chaewon was breathing heavily but managed to hum as a response. “but i'm not done with you, kim. sit on my face.” i saw the corner of chaewon's lips curl into a smirk bago niya ko tinulak pahiga sa kama niya. onti onti niyang pinuwesto yung sarili niya sa muka ko. tangina, sobrang ganda ng puke ni chaewon. namumula at basang basa para sa'kin. “bilis, i want to taste you.” and chaewon finally lowered herself on my face. sinalubong ko yung puke niya ng dila ko na nakalabas, malambot, at dahan dahan kong pinaikot ikot ito sa clit ng dalaga. “fuck, baby... ang init ng dila mo, ang sarap.” ungol ni chaewon habang nakahawak sa suso niya.

i wrapped my lips around her clit and started sucking on it. chaewon loves it when i play with her clit. she started moving her hips on my face. “labas mo dila mo, baby.” she softly asked for me which i then complied to. i stuck my tongue out for her, aiming it on her dripping hole. “p-puta... putangina... shit.” chaewon threw her head back as she slowly lifted herself from my tongue and back. kinakantot ni chaewon ang sarili niya gamit ang dila ko. it was so fucking hot na kahit ako, i started to touch myself with my free hand, while the other rubbed her clit.

“tangina, ang sarap! sobrang sarap! fuck, baby. puta mo 'ko... sa'yo lang, tangina. ikaw lang makaka kantot sa'kin ng ganito.” ang ingay ni chaewon and i loved it. it drove me to my edge and i was cumming around my fingers, my moans sending vibrations on chaewon's cunt. “lalabasan na 'ko—babe... baby!” and soon enough, she was clenching her walls around my tongue. ang init at ang kalat, pero putangina, nakakaulol si chaewon.

if i knew this could happen between the both of us, maybe matagal ko nang iniwang nakabukas yung pintuan ko habang kinakantot ko yung sarili ko habang iniisip siya.

[ratedfleur]

you asked for it.

kim gyuvin x filo!reader   933 word count   genre  ୭  explicit

🏷️ : table sex, rough sex, degradation, cursing, rough fucker!gyuvin, written in filo & eng

request? yes!

“baby please? subo lang, promise.” gyuvin piped in from beside you as you were busy typing on your laptop, trying to accomplish your paper whilst he kept bothering you.

you didn’t answer kasi nga gusto mong tapusin yung paper mo before you went on to do his and his friends’ papers. it just so happened na gipit ka sa pera hence why you needed to do commissions for your own sake.

“or kainin nalang kita, gusto mo din naman ‘yon, ‘di ba?” gyuvin asked once more before he poked your shoulder continuously, trying to catch your attention. you brushed him off, finishing your paper within a few minutes before you moved onto one of his friends’ paper.

“later na, gyu. i still have to do ricky’s paper and yours–” you said before you heard gyuvin clicked his tongue, “so you’re busy, way too busy para pansinin mo ko?” he says as he pushed away your laptop from you, making you look at him sharply.

“you know I don’t like it when you do that. ang gusto ko, sakin lang yang atensyon mo.” gyuvin comes near to say it directly to your ear, making you shiver before you felt him touch a part of your waist that peeked through your uniform.

gyuvin always liked the uniform on you, gustong gusto niya yung iksi ng palda kasi kita niya raw yung mga hita mo.

“umupo ka sa table.” he instructs you before he stood up, unbuckling his pants as you sat on the table like the obedient girl that you are. That’s what he liked about you, mabilis kang nakikinig.

“bawal umangal, hmm?” gyuvin says as he flipped your skirt up, rubbing you through your damp panties as you spread your legs for him.

when he doesn’t hear you answer, he abruptly slaps your pussy, making you yelp in surprise before you answered him, telling him you’d take it.

liking what he heard, gyuvin swiftly put your panties to the side before he stood right in front of you, pressing his head against your hole before he slipped right inside your heat.

hindi na nagpatanggal si hyuvin before he started thrusting hardly into you, making you moan his name as you threw your headback, hips further moving towards his.

this makes gyuvin chuckle when he sees you submitting to him so easily, he quickly slaps your cheek to catch your attention before he briefly held onto your jaw to make you look at him, “gustong gusto mo yung ganito no? yung gagalitin mo ko tapos magpapaka-puta ka sa’kin?” he says as he’s thrusting into you, harder and faster compared to earlier.

you looked up, eyes brimming with tears as you nodded, making Gyuvin chuckle at the sight of your tears. 

he thrusts into you a few times before he pulls out, making you cry out at the sudden emptiness before he pulled you off of the table, turning you around to make you face the table before he bent you over.

gyuvin teases your hole a few times by rubbing his head against you before he slipped in halfway before slamming his entire length into you, making you wail as you tried gripping onto nothing on the table.

he doesn’t listen to your cries, instead he angrily plows into you, muttering curses into your ear as he pulled on your hair, pulling you closer to him as he’s fucking you. your cries are loud and continuous, not even knowing what to cry about: the pain he’s inflicting on you, the degrading words, or the pace he set on his thrusts, or maybe even all of the above.

you moan his name, hand reaching for the arm that he had wrapped around your waist to keep you close to him. “h-harder–” you moan before he slaps your ass, making you yelp as he spoke.

“ah ganun? hindi pa sapat yung kinakantot kita? kailangan harder pa? putang puta ka na agad, ni-hindi pa nga tayo nag-uumpisa putangina.” gyuvin ranted as he plowed into you, making your tears stream down your cheeks as he kept fucking you, pressing you hard against the table, making you wince when the wood digs on your skin.

“g-gyu please haaah.. ah ah shit, more– fuck, sarap gyu!” you moaned an array of words, making gyuvin laugh when some of your words became gibberish.

gyuvin complied to your request, fucking you more and more up to the point where you no longer could speak and instead released random sounds that one could no longer understand no matter how hard they tried to listen.

“oh ano? nawala ka na?” Gyuvin laughed as you let out a sound, head ducking down as you grew dumb. You no longer listened to what words he was lashing out at you, only focusing on how he was pounding into you.

little by little, gyuvin could feel how you were growing tight around him, a tell tale sign that you’re close. Gyuvin gripped hardly on your hips, hands digging into your skin as he was fucked you hard against the table.

“labasan ka na? make a mess on me, baby.” he pants into your ear as he’s pounding into you, making you yelp when his thrusts get harder and harder by the minute.

“‘m cumming! ah gyu!!” you screeched before your pussy started convulsing around his dick, making gyuvin groan as you started cumming all over him, cum creating a ring on his dick as he’s thrusting into you.

“i’m still not done.” he says before placing your upper half on the table, pounding away to his heart’s content.

© RATEDFLEUR — ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

[ligayangdala]

📣 JOHNNY SUH. angst | non-idol!au

✍️ written in taglish | ⚠️ separated parents, child experiencing doubts, profanities | 📅 posted on june 12, 2023 | may be triggering for others, please read at your own risk. | 📨 requested by an anon huehue pasensya na agad kung angst ang unang lapag ngayong buwan, matagal na to naka-tengga sa drafts kaya sorry anon :< specifically ni-request 'to as mini-series pero let us know what you guys think!

🎧 LISTEN: glimpse of us by joji

“MOMMY, SAAN NA PO SI DADDY?”

tanong ng 5-year-old mong anak na si eleanor–ellie kung tawagin niyo ni johnny. “i’ve been waiting for him since kanina pa po, where is he?”

napabuntong hininga ka at tumigil sa pagtatype. ang hirap balansehin ng pagiging boss at nanay minsan, pero wala kang magagawa dahil pinili mo rin naman ‘to at kailangan mong gampanan ang parehong trabaho. tinext mo na si johnny kanina, mag-iisang oras na rin simula nung nagreply siya na malapit na siya at dalawang oras simula nung sinabi niyang nakalapag na ang eroplano niya. hindi naman ganun kalayo ang tinitirhan niyang apartment, pero busy rin kasi ito madalas.

umupo ka sa tabi ni ellie, sinuklay ang buhok nito para kumalma ng kaunti ang bata. “he’s on his way na daw, baby eh. onting wait na lang, okay? dadating rin si daddy mo.” sabi mo sakanya at niyakap siya ng mahigpit, “ellie, one month mo ring hindi nakita si daddy mo because he’s on a business trip. promise, anak, onting wait na lang at dadating rin si daddy.”

“does… does he not love me anymore, mommy?”

it broke your heart seeing your only daughter this way, wala ka namang magawa dahil hindi mo kontrolado ang schedule ni johnny at ang takbo ng buhay nito. naiinis ka kasi ang bata bata pa ni ellie para mag-isip ng ganito at napapaisip ka na sobrang naapektuhan ang bata sa sitwasyon niyo ng tatay niya.

“ellie, love na love ka ni daddy. pati ako, love na love ka. please don’t think na we don’t love you because we’re busy most of the time. busy si mommy and daddy because nagwowork kami para mabili namin yung needs and wants mo, anak.” paliwanag mo kay ellie, “okay, how about… pagbalik mo from daddy’s place, alis tayo. tayong dalawa lang, girls day? what do you think?”

ellie sniffed and nodded her head, “...okay mommy.”

“baby, please don’t cry na. i promise, dadating na si daddy soon.”

ilang minuto mo ring yakap-yakap ang anak mo, hindi mo na napansin na nakatulog na siya kaya inayos mo ang pwesto niya sa sofa at kinumutan. eleanor suh looks exactly like her mother, sa korte ng labi at ilong, sa hulma ng mukha… ikaw na ikaw eh. hindi mo mahanap-hanap kung nasaan ang features ni johnny sa mukha ni ellie dahil carbon copy talaga mo talaga ang bata. kung ipagdidikit ang baby pictures niyon dalawa, alam mong sayo nagmana ang bata. nagtanim ka ng halik sa noo ni ellie bago bumalik sa kusina kung saan ang laptop mo at nagumpisa na ulit magtrabaho.

ilang oras ang lumipas, lumbog na ang araw at napalitan na ng dilim ang liwanag sa labas–wala pa rin si johnny. hindi mo alam kung nasaan siya, ni hindi nga siya makapag-reply sa messages mo ngayon. when ellie woke up, nagpalit na lang siya ng ibang damit na pambahay. excited pa naman siyang ipakita ang bago niyang damit sa tatay niya dahil alam niyang matutuwa si johnny kapag nakita niya ito. pagkatapos ng trabaho mo, nagluto ka at sabay kayong kumain ni ellie–hanggang sa nakapagtoothbrush at ready na matulog ulit ang anak mo, hindi dumating si johnny.

pabalik ka na sana sa kwarto mo pagkatapos mong maglinis ng pinagkainan niyo, nung narinig mong tumunog ang doorbell. alam mong si johnny na yun dahil sa sunod sunod nitong pag tunog. napabuntong hininga ka nalang at pumunta sa may pinto, huminga ng malalim bago ito buksan.

“i’m sorry,” sabi niya, “asan siya? galit ba?”

“ewan ko, johnny. hindi ko alam kung galit ba si ellie sayo.” sagot mo, umisod ka ng kaunti para makapasok siya sa loob. “tulog na si ellie, she was really excited to see you earlier pero she got her hopes a little too high and you’ve disappointed her. again.”

this wasn’t the first time that this happened, few times na nga. hindi mo na maiwasang hindi makaramdam ng galit.

“it’s not my fault that my meetings got extended. alam mo bang pagkalapag na pagkalapag ng eroplano ko akala ko didiretso na ako dito? hindi, kasi biglaan na namang niliko ng driver ko yung sasakyan papuntang opisina.” galit na sabi nito, siniringan mo na lang si johnny at naglakad papunta sa kwarto ni ellie.

“wag ka sakin mag-explain, johnny. hindi ako ang pinaghintay mo this time, si ellie. sanay na ko sayo.”

napatigil sa paglalakad si johnny, pati na rin ikaw pero hindi mo siya hinarap. alam mo kasing na-offend siya sa sinabi mo–lalo na’t alam niyang hanggang ngayon, dala-dala mo pa rin ang galit mo sa nangyari sa inyong dalawa.

“kasalanan ko bang demanding ang trabaho ko? i’m doing this for a living, to support ellie. what the fuck is wrong with that, y/n? i already said i’m sorry for being late.”

“hindi ka dapat nagsosorry sakin, johnny. kay ellie.” banat mo, “tapos at pagod na kong maghintay sayo, pero si ellie? wag mong gawin yung ginawa mo sakin sa anak ko–sa anak mo. it’s more than enough that i was the one who suffered first, that i was the one who experienced it firsthand. i wouldn’t let my daughter experience the same pain you’ve given me, suh.”

sasagot pa sana si johnny, pero bumukas ang pintuan ng kwarto ni ellie. nakatingin ang bata sa inyong dalawa, hawak-hawak ang paborito niyang stuffed toy at medyo magulo na ang buhok dahil sa tulog. 

“are you two fighting?”

“n-no, ellie. we were just… talking.” sagot mo, “do you still want to go to daddy’s place? we still have time to repack your bags naman, sabihin mo lang sakin.”

umiling si ellie, and that made johnny’s heart break pero hindi niya masisi ang bata kung bakit ayaw na rin niyang pumunta sa bahay niya. 

“ellie, sayang naman ang byahe ng daddy mo if hindi ka sasama sa kanya.” pakiusap mo, “remember what we talked about kanina? girls’ day pagbalik mo galing sa house ni daddy mo.”

“lagpas bedtime ko na po dumating si daddy eh,” sagot naman ni ellie.

lumuhod si johnny sa harap ni ellie, akmang yayakap sa anak pero umiwas ito. “ellie, i’m sorry.” sabi niya, “promise, last na to na malelate ako. i’ll arrive on time na next time, i promise.”

“no.”

sinara ni ellie ang pinto ng kwarto niya sa harap ng tatay niya, ikaw mismo hindi makapaniwala sa ginawa ni ellie dahil unang beses niya tong ginawa. hindi mo rin alam kung saan niya nakita o natutunan yun. si johnny naman, nakaluhod pa rin, hindi rin makapaniwala sa nangyari.

“i’ll talk to her. sa sala ka muna,” sabi mo bago kumatok sa kwarto ni ellie, tumango naman si johnny at tumayo na. “els? it’s mommy. pwede ba akong pumasok?”

“no, ayaw ko pong makita si daddy.”

napanbuntong hininga ka, “eleonor, it’s just me ang papasok. si mommy lang, daddy’s in the living room. can i please come in?”

ilang segundo lang at narinig mo ang paa niya na tumakbo papuntang pinto bago ito bumukas. pumasok ka na agad at sinara ito, “ellie, why did you say no to daddy?”

“because i heard you tell him he hurt you.” sagot ni ellie, hindi siya makatingin sayo at pinaglalaruan lang ang stuffed toy niya. “if daddy keeps going here and you keep seeing him, you will be in pain mommy. dito nalang po ako sayo. okay lang po na hindi ko po makita si daddy.”

how can a 5-year-old like ellie understand what’s happening between you and her father? na nasaktan ka ng tatay niya dati, na hindi maganda ang ending ng relasyon niyo? naiipit ang anak niyo sa sitwasyon niyong dalawa. ang aga pa para mapansin ni ellie to. isip mo. alam mo namang magiging cause ng trauma to ni ellie paglaki niya, as much as possible, gusto mong nakikita niya na parehong okay at civil kayo sa isa't isa ni johnny pero ang hirap kasi kung palaging mainit ang ulo niyo ni johnny sa isa't isa.

napaluha ka sa sinabi ni ellie, “mommy, are you crying because of me?”

“hindi, anak. it’s just…” you sighed, “i just love you so much and i want to protect you, and mommy is really sorry if you’re experiencing this kind of situation at a young age.”

ellie finally looked you in the eyes, “i love you, mommy.” 

and that’s when you realized ellie has her father’s eyes. those warm brown eyes that shine beautifully under the light, johnny na johnny.

“mommy?”

“yes, ellie?”

“pwede po bang pasabi kay daddy, sorry? can he come back tomorrow na lang po? i’m sleepy na po eh.”

you gave her a warm smile and nodded, “okay els, i'll talk to daddy.” sagot mo, at inayos si ellie sa kama niya. humalik ka sa noo niya, “sleep ka na, anak. sabihin ko kay daddy mo balik na lang siya. but baby, i think mas maa-appreciate ni daddy if ikaw mismo yung magsosorry sa kanya, so promise mommy na tomorrow, magsosorry ka sa kanya.”

“promise po.”

umalis ka na sa tabi ni ellie, pinatay ang ilaw at lumabas ng kwarto niya bago pumunta sa sala kung nasaan si johnny. tulala pa rin siya, hindi makapaniwala sa nangyari kanina. tinawag mo siya para mawala siya sa pagkakatulala at tinanong: “gusto mo ba ng something na inumin?” tumango si johnny at tumayo, sinundan ka sa kusina. nilapag mo ang dalawang wine glass sa coutertop kung saan siya banda nakaupo at nilagyan ito ng wine, pinot noir–ang paborito niya.

“thanks.”

the two of you quietly stayed in the kitchen, naghihintay lang kung sinong unang magsasalita. 

“so–” “ano–” sabay niyong sabi, sumignal nsman si johnny na mauna ka na daw magsalita.

“ellie says she's sorry,” sabi mo, “hindi daw muna siya sasama sayo ngayong gabi, she’s already sleep when she told me that. balikan mo na lang daw siya bukas.”

“oh…”

“don't worry, i told her to say sorry to you again. personally para naman maramdaman mong galing sakanya at hindi sakin.” you chuckled, “anyway, narinig niya kasi yung sinabi ko sayo. ano… i wanted to say na pwede bang maging civil na lang tayong dalawa ulit? na every time ellie is within earshot, wag tayong mag-away. you can hate me from the distance, i just don’t want ellie to hear us fighting kasi ayokong matrauma si ellie.”

“noted on that, but i think dapat mo ring i-apply yan sa sarili mo.”

hindi ka na ulit sumagot, at napalibutan na naman kayo ng katahimikan. walang nagsasalita hangga’t walang nagiinitiate ng conversation. 

“so, uh… late na rin. at ayokong malate ng punta bukas.” sabi ni johnny, “i should probably go.”

tumango ka nalang at sinamahan siyang maglakad hanggang sa pinto, walang paalam sa isa’t isa. sinara mo na ang pinto pagkalabas niya at huminga ng malalim

how did it end up like this? isip mo.

why do you hate the man you once loved, imagined a future with? and everytime you look at your daughter's eyes, you see a glimpse of your relationship with her father. 

CAUSE SOMETIMES I LOOK IN HER EYES, AND THAT’S WHERE I FIND A GLIMPSE OF US.

[egoistivc]

aking sinta.

POV . Kafka has a crush on you ever since you joined the stellaron hunters after some time and countless missions with her, she eventually confesses her feelings. Sa paglipas ng panahon, sinta, ikaw lang ang nakatawag ng atensyon ko ng ganito katagal, na para bang nakatakdang tadhana, sana mapansin mo ako tulad ng pagpansin ko sayo sa hinaharap, sa wakas ay aayain kita umaasa na tanggapin mo ako sana bilang asawa mo ,, dear sinta. mahal kita , mahal mo ba ako? ENGLISH VER. As time passes, you darling, the only one who caught my attention for this long, as if like a predestined destiny, i just hope that you notice me like how i notice you ,,,after the things i'll complete within this foreseen future, i'll eventually ask you out and i hope you'll accept me as your wife, dear darling, i love you, do you love me back?