#glad they are playing it in iowa lol

[precious-pop-punk-nerd-girl]

Apparently Heaven, Iowa is back from the war🎉🎉🎉

[foreingersgod]

So so you wanted a small town reader request so I thought of this one. She she’s from a southern small town and plays basketball for the SEC team of her state, she really made a name for herself there, but wants to broaden her horizons so she enters the transfer portal and somehow ends up in Iowa where meet Kate who is OBSESSED with her southern accent. Then it’s just Kate trying to show her interest bc reader is totally oblivious until one of their teammates says something

Southern Charm . KM

pairing: kate martin x reader

synopsis: after transferring to iowa’s basketball team to broaden your horizons, you end up meeting someone who changes your life

A/N: i got a request to do another country fic like this one with kate, so expect one with ‘country kate’ here soon!

also, i’m not very proud of this one so i’m sorry if it’s genuinely shitty lol :’)

NOT PROOF READ

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ever since you were little, maybe 7 or 8, you were fascinated with basketball. growing up in texas you were exposed to a large following of sports and hard core fans. your family was always repping the pro and college teams of your state with pride, attending several games throughout your childhood. basketball in particular held a special place in your heart. you remember watching the university of texas’ basketball games with your dad, absolutely enthralled by the game. it didn’t take long for your parents to get you involved in the sport. you played in small teams as a kid then on your schools girls basketball teams in middle and high school. and with a lot of hard work and determination, you got into the university of texas to play on their women’s team.

while playing for the university, you made quite the impression on basketball fans. you were quick, had unbelievable stats, and extremely adaptable. you were a pretty valuable player in most eyes. but after two years at the school, you started to feel restricted. there wasn’t a whole lot for you to improve on your skills so you made a drastic decision to enter the transfer portal.

it was an emotional decision. realizing you would be leaving teammates behind as well as your home state was hard, but you longed for something greater. not long after entering the portal, you had transferred to the university of Iowa. you were ecstatic despite having to move away. it was time to broaden your horizons and hopefully expand upon your skill set.

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you had arrived in iowa around a week ago and you were still adjusting. figuring out where all of the buildings were, where the dining halls were located, was a lot for you to handle. hell you could barely remember how to get to your dorm at this point.

you haven’t even met your new teammates, practices not starting up for a couple of days. the anticipation had you extremely nervous.

what if they didn’t like you?

what if they thought you sucked?

the days leading up to your first practice were consumed with these uncontrollable thoughts. but as you laced up your shoes and grabbed your duffel bag, heading out the door, you felt those nagging thoughts dissipate.

when you arrived for practice, opening the large metal doors to the gym, it almost felt like you were right back at home. you wandered over to where the team was warming up, hearing the squeak of the polished floors. quickly, looking up from her clipboard, bluder spotted you a few feet ahead. she met you on the sidelines to officially greet you for your first day.

“ah, YN!” she announced, grabbing the attention of the other girls “nice to see you again, glad you could join us. let’s get you introduced and settled in”

her smile was welcoming as she motioned for the girls to huddle up. everyone gathered around, you being the center of attention as you looked around awkwardly.

“team, i’m sure you’re all aware of our newest member, YN” lisa said “let’s be kind and supportive and help her get settled in on her first day alight?”

everyone nodded “great. YN, would you like to introduce yourself?”

you took a deep breathe as you studied their faces timidly, fidgeting with your fingers and trying to think of something to say.

“um, yea” you managed, hoping you sounded confident “i’m YN, i just transferred from the university of texas..and i’m-uh-really excited to get to know you guys”

the team offered their hello’s, walking up to you one by one to shake your hand politely and introduce themselves. they were all incredibly sweet right away, telling you you’d fit right in and complimenting your skills. you went down the line, excited to get acquitted with the team.

then, at the end of the line, stood kate martin. you had seen her play and you thought she was amazing so you were excited to finally meet her. she approached you with the most genuine smile, eyes lit with zeal.

“hey,” she spoke up, offering her hand to you “i’m kate, it’s nice to meet you YN”

you smiled back at her “it’s nice to meet you too! you’re a fantastic player, i’d be lyin’ if i said i hadn’t been excited to meet you!”

“i’m flattered, really, thank you” you could feel her hand linger on yours as she pulled away from the handshake “so texas, huh? i caught onto the accent!”

you both laughed “yea, i’m from a small town not too far from campus, so i got that signature dialect”

“i think it’s really cute,” she looked down, avoiding your gaze “think it suits you”

“thanks, kate” you blushed, smiling at her once more before bluder summoned everyone to resume warmups.

what a sweetheart.

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it had been quite sometime since you had finally settled into your new team. there was a lot of awkwardness and uncertainty, but you had started to feel like this is where you were meant to be. and like you had hoped, there was so much more room for you to improve rather than back in texas. you were playing amazing games, beating your own records and personal highs on a regular basis. going to iowa was truly the best thing for your career.

you had also grown really close to the girls since arriving. kate, especially, was like your best friend. she had always been so kind and sweet to you. at some point in your friendship, you started to develop a decent crush on the girl, but you had always assumed that she didn’t feel that way about you. so you stayed quiet as to not distrust your connection.

but recently, things have been a little off with kate. she often avoided you during practices and didn’t stay to say goodbye when you left. both things she did on a normal basis and now she just stopped doing it all together. she didn’t even bother to text you or ask about your day, nor did she laugh when you said things funny (she’s always giggled to herself when your accent was thick). you were beginning to wonder if you did something wrong.

it had been weeks of her dismissive behavior and you were starting to miss your best friend. your heart ached at the thought of her not liking you anymore. so you devised a plan to meet her during her extra early practice one morning and confront her, hoping to figure out why she wasn’t giving you the time of day.

it was about 7:00 in the morning, much too early for your liking. you’d never understood why kate, amongst others, wanted to be at practice an hour earlier. but you had managed to get out of bed at 6, suiting up and sneakily heading to the gym. you hoped you could catch her off guard, maybe surprise her so she’d have no choice but to deal with your confrontation head on. you were approaching the doors of the locker room, about to open the door, when you heard kate’s voice echo from inside. freezing in your spot, you shamefully eavesdropped to see what she was talking about.

“no! i’m not going to do that!” she exclaimed.

“why not?” you heard another voice, from the sounds of it, it must’ve been gabbie. “you’re like obsessed with her, just go for it!”

“i’m not obsessed, ok? there’s just something about YN that drives me crazy and i like her so so much, but i’m sure as hell not going say that right to her face!”

you went numb hearing your name fall from kate’s mouth. you tried to move closer to the door, wanting to hear what she was saying a little bit better, but you tripped over your own foot causing you to lunge forward. the doors to the locker on went flying open, your stiff figure busting through the entrance as you immediately gave yourself away.

you stood, completely unable to move as you looking up into the vastness of the locker room. sure enough, there were gabbie and kate, sitting in front of you. their eyes were wide seeing you burst through those doors, realizing they had just been caught talking about you. and it was no secret that you had heard almost everything they were saying.

“i’m so sorry!” you rambled an apology “i was just about to come and talk to kate, but then i heard my name, and i really didn’t mean to intrude like this i’m so embarrassed”

kate sat, also embarrassed as gabbie spoke up.

“i’m going to give you guys some privacy” she said “i think there’s a lot that kate needs to say”

and with that, she walked out of the locker room, leaving you and kate in awkward silence. you walked over to where she sat on the bench to take the seat next to her. she looked at you, hardly able to make eye contact.

“i’m sorry”

“for what?” you asked

“i shouldn’t have been talking about you behind your back. i had no idea you were gonna be here, not that that makes it ok-”

“kate, it’s ok” you placed a hand on her shoulder “i was here early cause i needed to talk to you, but i shouldn’t have stuck around to eaves drop”

“what did you need to talk to me about?”

you sighed, suddenly wishing you didn’t have to bring it up in the first place “it’s just that i’ve felt like you’ve been avoiding me and purposely not talking to me so i wanted to ask why…but i think i already kind of know why…”

“yea” she replied, voice cracking “you weren’t supposed to find out like that”

“if it’s any consolation…i feel the same way” you removed your hand from her shoulder, taking her hand in yours. gentle fingers ran over hers soothingly.

“you-you do?”

“mhm” you grinned “i’ve been too afraid to say anything cause i didn’t know if you felt the same and i didn’t want to ruin our friendship”

she didn’t say anything, just sat looking into your eyes. there were no tears, no anger in her eyes, just a certain longing that only you could recognize.

“i think im in love with you”

“you don’t have to say-”

“no i mean it” she continued “everything about you, from the moment i met you, i’ve been in love with. you’re perfect and funny and gentle, you have the cutest accent i’ve ever heard, and i don’t think i can handle being just friends”

“kate i think i’m in love with you too” happy tears welled in your eyes as you inched closer to her, feeling her breathe on your skin.

“can i kiss you?” she asked, but she didn’t even need to, you would’ve done it anyways.

“please”

and finally, your lips met in the most gentle yet passionate kiss. teeth clashing at the urgency of it, both of you so eager from waiting so long for this moment. you wished you could’ve stayed like that forever. nonetheless, she pulled away breathlessly, forehead resting against yours as you smiled at each other.

“it’s that southern charm” she joked, large hand resting against your cheek “you’re irresistible”

you laughed, pulling her into another kiss, trying to savor this moment for as long as you could.

[earlgreytea68]

LOOK AWAY IF YOU DON'T WANT SO MUCH FOR (TOUR) DUST SPOILERS, OKAY?

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Set list:

(1) That Pink Seashell spoken word thing actually opens the show

(2) Love from the Other Side: I assumed they'd play this first, and they did, and they looked very happy with the reception that it got

(3) The Phoenix

(4) Sugar, We're Goin Down: I overheard two guys when I was leaving saying, "I only came to this show for that Sugar song, and it was the third song they played," whatever to those two guys lol

(5) Uma Thurman

(6) A Litttle Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More Touch Me

(7) Chicago Is So Two Years Ago: I know they always play this song when they play Chicago but the way the show is set up, there's this spoken intro that references a light being left on in Chicago, and then they launch into this song, and so I feel like maybe it's permanently in the set list for this tour, we'll see.

(8) Grand Theft Autumn: Patrick told the story again of how he wrote the lyrics while jogging with Pete. Here is exactly what he said, because I recorded it, hahaha: "I wrote this song out here, jogging, trying to figure out the words. This was back when I wrote a lot of the words. And Pete was jogging with me and he was like, 'Eh, maybe change this, maybe change this.' Before we knew it he was writing all the lyrics." And then Pete said, "Imagine us jogging" lolololol

(9) Calm Before the Storm

(10) This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race: They added a little Peterick-y moment in here? I don't remember them playing at each other during this song in previous performances? It was cute, it was during the instrumental part before Patrick leads the singalong, maybe I've just always missed it? They played it each other and kind of did some kind of kick thing with their legs??

(11) Disloyal Order of Water Buffaloes: Honestly, always a delight to hear this song, this is one of my favorites <3

(12) Heaven, Iowa: THIS SONG LIVE, I SWEAR

(13) "The Take Over, the Breaks Over": OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS SONG AND I TOTALLY DIDN'T EXPECT THEM TO PLAY IT, I WAS SO HAPPY

(14) Headfirst Slide into Cooperstown on a Bad Bet: <3 Guess they got over being scared of playing this one lol

(15) Fake Out: I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW EXCITED I WAS THAT THEY PLAYED THIS ONE OMGGGGGGG. Also, there was some plan I wasn't aware of to, like, hold up cell phones with pink paper over the lights so the crowd lit up pink???? I have no idea who engineered that but it was CHARMING and at the end of the song Pete said, "Thanks for that, guys, that was beautiful," and the stage was on darkness so it seemed absolutely spontaneous on his part and I think they really did like the effect, so, Idk, future shows, keep doing it????

(16) Patrick did some kind of piano interlude where he played "Don't Stop Believin'"????? It was random but he was super charming, I think the rest of the band used it as a break, it was just SO GREAT. Part of his intro was: "Pete was putting together this show and he said to me, 'Hey, you should play piano.' And I was like, 'I kinda only play songs I wrote. I don't really play piano. I don't know how to play piano.' And he's like, 'Eh, you'll figure it out.'" And then Patrick sat down and played gorgeous piano ugh THANKS, PETE.

(17) Last of the Real Ones: I am glad Mania got some love.

(18) Save Rock and Roll

(19) PETE RECITED BABY ANNIHILATION WHAT. I SWEAR TO GOD. I SO DID NOT EXPECT THIS AND I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT HAPPENED. If you're going to the show, pay attention, because I looked away and apparently there's, like, a magic trick at the end of the monologue where he disappears behind a piece of black silk?????

(20) Crazy Train cover: I...don't know what to say about this randomness hahaha but it happened??

(21) Dance Dance

(22) Hold Me Like a Grudge: I think Patrick adores singing this song, I really do.

(23) G.I.N.A.S.F.S.: I KNOW. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT, EITHER.

(24) My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark (Light Em Up)

(25) Thnks fr th Mmrs

(26) Centuries

(27) Saturday <3

The show ends with a little piano version of So Much (for) Stardust played over the sound system, so pay attention for that.

The set is super Alice in Wonderland-y and I adored it, it's playful and fantastical and has all these whimsical touches and interludes and I just thought it was delightful and at one point there were bubbles, and I heard some people complaining after the concert that the fantasy thing didn't suit their style of music and really, I was surrounded by downers after the concert, I thought they were perfect hahaha. Like, ABSOLUTELY PERFECT. They looked so, so, so tangibly happy, all of them. Patrick sounded fantastic and he looked like he was having a blast, he smiled the whole time.

I have a lot of videos but they seem like they're all pretty terrible, but I'll see how I feel in the morning lol

[adventuresasmrsfindley]

Helllloooooo! Feels like forever since I updated.

We had a really nice Thanksgiving! We spent it with my family at my parents house and it was a day full of yummy food and laughs and games.

On Friday we headed to Iowa to spend the weekend with my MIL. I wasn't super looking forward to it but it ended up being fun. She made lasagna for dinner on Friday night (my fav!!!) and then we watched Home Alone 2. I slept like absolute garbage which is why I really don't like going there. Saturday Cole went hunting so Knox, my MIL and I were lazy all morning and it was great. We watched a Hallmark Christmas movie and stayed in our jams until lunch time. Knox took a nap which is unheard of these days but we've been going non stop. Cole and I got to sneak away to Des Moines and have a little date after he got done hunting and that was really nice! We did some Christmas shopping and had dinner. It started snowing while we were there so the hour drive back in the dark was notttt great but we made it safe it and sound.

We woke up this morning and had breakfast and then headed back home. I got us all unpacked and started laundry while the boys played in the snow and built a snowman. Now we are just relaxing! I think I'm going to start a new book. I have tomorrow off work and I'm so glad. We've barely been home since Wednesday. Knox is off school too so we are going to have a lazy day together! The only thing we need to accomplish is the grocery store but that's fine because we will get TB for lunch while we're out 😂👏🏻

Oh, also. We took separate cars to my MILs because Cole went straight to the farm to hunt so we were taking different routes. About an hour into our drives Cole calls to let me know he stopped at a gas station and his truck wouldn't start back up. 🙃 We were trying to figure out what to do because I was pretty far from him and he was pretty far from home and a tow that far would have cost a ton and it was just a mess lol. He was confident it was his starter because I guess it's been going out for a while. I was pulled off the highway getting us a snack and I was like oh there's an auto part store right here. Call and see if they have your starter and I'll head your way. They did have one, but by the time I got it bought his truck had started so he was able to go on his way. That was another $300 though. When it rains it freaking pours lol

[imaginespazzi]

Ignoring as instructed whatever has just come up around twitter….

Hello hello from ☕️ anon! First things first bestie, just wanna say I hope you have had a great end to the weekend and that alls well. And second, my compliments as always on your writing. Ch 5 was an exceptional read and today's drabble just put a big smile on our faces. (Thank you to the kiddos ha!)

Ok now onto business as usual with my promised follow up: Full transparency, in a very fortunate happenstance for my exhausted self, a post came up on another blog essentially short cut recapping separate discussions that I'd come across and was gonna share. You may have already come across them, bkristen, since they post lots about our dear Pazzi as well. I have copied below in quotes for all your readers :) As before, let me just say this is simply being shared for the fun of discourse. I'm not endorsing anything nor can I verify info of any anon's posts. Not trying to discredit any other peoples' comments or feelings on L/G either.

"Georgia and Liz got together in 2020, Liz thought it was serious Georgia didn’t and cheated on her hella. Liz took her back everytime but in 2023 (so last year) they finally committed fully which is why there was always podcasts and they were inseparable… until Georgia cheated again but with Kate Martin around late November early December. It caused a huge rift in the team (which is why the podcasts stopped and they wouldn’t be seen together for anything, even for press). Nobody on the team even posted Georgia for her bday… they are still mad lol. They’ve been amicable now but those first few months were ugly. Again I’m pretty sure her and Kendyl aren’t dating but idk I haven’t talked them in a bit ~ I go to VT and am very connected to the team + but I first heard this from one of their friends at another school"

Honestly in my mind the only real hole in all that is how Amoore and Martin would ever have gotten together, while granted there can be different definitions to cheating for people. Though it does now occur to me that VA Tech and Iowa did play and were around eachother in Nov for the Ally Tip Off game in Charlotte NC. And of course Martin had a breakup up around this time it seems and then there was all the social media speculation that raised eyebrows.

Added note: some other anon sent in a screenshot of recent insta (comments) where GA responds to someone who replied to Kendyl's comment on her post that they are cute together by referring to K as "big sis 💀", seemingly denying a relationship there? Of course Kenny does have other daughters if one were still to believe said rumors lol. Oh Georgia..

Sorry it took me a while to answer this bestie queen but I'm glad you're back <3

Okay so that other VT anon had me confused but I saw Georgia's comment so she's very much not dating Gabby lol. And honestly this just makes sense because what else would cause such a huge follow out. But man I feel pretty shit for Liz like I read it as platonic at the time but you could always tell Georgia meant the world to her and damn girlie got fucked over pretty bad huh.

I think Kate and Georgia were maybe just a bit of a fun fling but man if that's the timeline, then Liz was literally right there if was during the Ally Tip Off game like that's a whole other level of fucked but damn.

The "oh Georgia" at the end really took me omg 😭

[always-a-joyful-note]

Glad you enjoyed the random Pixiv recommend! The artist who I linked to has a veritable goldmine of ZOOL goodness, so do feel free to check out the rest of their stuff. I also had to lol at the following comic collection (https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/79521271), this time featuring oblivious Touma and jealous ZOOL. Again, super rough translation for the first comic:

Q: Which entertainer do you message most on Rabbichat?

Minami: I... (Inumaru-san...)

Haruka: To... (Touma, I guess...)

Torao: To... (Touma, probably...)

Touma: It's Riku.

Minami, Haruka and Torao: HMMMMM????

Touma: He's always active on Rabbichat, after all.

And then to save face they all change their answers instead of 'Touma' or 'Inumaru-san' to...

Minami: Iroke no aru hito desu. (A certain sexy person)

Haruka: Toshiue no onna! (An older woman)

Torao: Toruko no onna. (A Turkish woman)

Touma: You can't answer with any of those! (We're idols, you know).

And then the last comic when they finish up work early so Touma asks the others if they want to grab dinner together but they all play hard to get, so he's like, whatever, guess I'll invite Riku instead, and they're like WHY AREN'T YOU TRYING HARDER TO ASK US OUT??? and he's like GOD YOU'RE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS, haha.

Finally, I'll just leave you with this lovely fanart (https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/103322461). No translation necessary, just wholesome/possessive vibes to be had. <3

AUGH JFISOEF IOWAE WHOEVER THIS ARTIST IS I LOVE THEM A LOT ACTUALLY

AGAIN OP THANK YOU SO MUCH.

The first comic is canon to me, by the way. Problematic tsunderes, all of them. And the other fanart just killed me....it really is just wholesome. They sure love their leader (abandonment issues meet three guys who were expected to be failures and then abandoned)

[thekidsarentalright]

ok ok i’ve started to process the album but honestly cant stop yelling enough to write a coherent ask so here’s a whole bunch of stuff that has me going feral:

the title track. i think fob just released one of my fave songs ever, it went to my top 5 from them so fast!!! it reminds me of how much the pandemic fucked up for everyone… “thought we had it all” fr!! but like. the strings??? the choir at the end?! SUNSHINE OF MY LIFETIME REPRISE?!?! SHUT UP FOREVER!!!!! (also my bday is the “day after christmas past” so i nearly screamed when i heard that line lmaooooo… followed immediately by “my pain isn’t cool enough”?! literally almost fell over at that point. that felt like an accidental shoutout and then getting punched directly in the gut 😭)

flu game is absolutely my second fave!!! the “youuuu” in the chorus just hits my brain a certain way i’m obsessed!! also i relate to it a little too much 😭

what a time to be alive!!!!! soul punk vibes fr <3 also that bridge goes so hard i think screaming it live would fix me 😭 WHEN I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE THIS ISNT QUITE WHAT I MEANT!!!! GOT THE QUARANTINE BLUES BAD NEWS WHAT’S LEFT!!!!!

the strings in i am my own muse?!?! patrick is just flexing at this point (as he should) <3

my synesthesia went crazy with heaven iowa… it’s this beautiful deep blue/indigo/purple situation and i want to live in it <— totally normal thing to say abt a song

so good right now gave me whiplash right after heaven iowa but it’s so fun! i went from crying to dancing so fast lmao

in general i love space and this album delivered w the references!! i caved and bought the glow in the dark stars 😳

and the living even though it’s painful and scary, especially when it’s painful and scary vibes… fob always knows what we need to hear i swear!!! ur post abt the themes on this album is so so true <3

patrick dressed as a chicken playing the piano… i love him so much it’s stupid <3 also that music video nearly killed me. couldn’t see the screen super well when they were on fallon and didn’t process that the costume was like… a muscle suit for a solid minute. my brain literally shut down lmaooo 😭

ik there’s like… lyric parallels and stuff i got rlly excited abt but am totally forgetting rn! i’m sure it’ll come back when i listen to the album again (which i’m probably gonna go do rn) but… yeah!! so glad we get to be insane abt all this on here together lol <3 peace and love in fob world ☺️

- 🧋 anon

YESSSS the title track is INSANE with how good it is and how much is in it like. i swear every lyric hits Hard, the reprise absolutely breaks my heart it is so. Perfect. so so so valid for it being in your top 5 fob songs of all time already it is genuinely That Good!!! and made for you Clearly with that birthday shoutout!!! even with the gut punch after. every lyric feels like such a gut punch i swear kfgjdhfkjs

flu game is ALSO one of my top favs, i could not rank this album yet even if it would save my life kfjsdkfj but i know for Sure flu game is in like. top 5 territory. i'm obsessed w it for the same reasons fr it is. too relatable thanks pete (haha i said the thing!)

REAL i need them to perform what a time to be alive live SO bad literally just so i can scream that bridge i think that would fix me fr fr. also just love how dancey it is while having. incredibly depressing lyrics. vibe of all time fksjdhfks

patrick is flexing w his arranging skills all over this album but Esp in i am my own muse and i hope he keeps flexing forever bc it is. so good!!!!

OUGHHH heaven iowa being purpley blue it so pretty... to me it's like... idk a very warm song, orange/yellow/golden so. the opposite of you KFJDSK but still pretty i Also wanna live in it. we are So normal for that bff <3

they are literally sick for putting so good right now right after heaven, iowa it was Such an intense tone shift fsdkjfsh i Love so good right now tho it's slowly becoming one of my favs i think

i absolutely love how jam packed this album is w space references, i was anticipating it but Still am like. fuck yeah space fkjdshkfjs i'm still debating on getting the glow in the dark stars tbh... is u getting them a sign i should too... much to think about

but yeah the albums themes are SOOOO. like. i think what the world needed to hear right now, also what i needed to hear rn, what You needed to hear like. they always know!!!! it is just so cathartic to hear that things might not be okay or better but that you can still live and be fulfilled and have love Despite Despite Despite!!!!

and lastly fr i. didn't process it was a chestplate/muscle suit at first either so was like. ready to die over patrick looking like That lmao honestly i still am he pulls off that look way too well. also pulled off the chicken costume imo <3

[numetaljackdog]

what i'm listening to 5/5/2023 (song notes under cut)

spot. link//yt link

Laura Les - Haunted: haunted. by laura les.

Machine Girl - Dumbass!!: i was listening to a whole bunch of machine girl in the lead-up to the gecs n girl show and i feel like it made me a bigger fan than i had been previously. i honestly still am not like the most familiar with their individual songs but this is one of the ones that sticks with me. NO SUCH THING AS THE BOOGEYMAN!!!!

Cracked Out - If You Leave Me I'll Kill Myself: pretty tasteless but as soon as i came across this post and listened to it i was immediately hooked on this song. it reminds me of the dumb edgy comedy bullshit i would have listened to as a tween, but like, the better side of that stuff. it was basically impossible to find much of anything about this group, so the spotify track is a local file that you guys won't be able to play, and it wasn't on youtube so i actually uploaded it myself this morning just to put it in the playlist lol

Sum 41 - In Too Deep: i feel like sum 41 tends to kinda get dismissed as part of the obnoxious skate punk scene of the 90s-00s, and to a large extent that's fair, but man did they have some good hits. i feel like edgy teen songs like these really can work by being simple as long as they just hit the premise with everything they've got, and this would be an example

Tyler, The Creator - DOGTOOTH: i was very pleased when this reached the top 40, brief though its stint was. i've been getting more into tyler recently bc i feel like i've been missing out, he's really such an interesting artist and he balances a lot of different traits super well while still delivering the goods in terms of good beats, good lines, etc. seriously, "not sure what you overheard but it's probably what I said" is such a good fucking line

Nick Lutsko - A Ghost Story: would STRONGLY recommend checking out the video for this one, either in the youtube playlist or on tumblr here actually never mind i can't find it. watch it on youtube it's fun. i followed nick lutsko on youtube for a while before whatever network it was that he was producing for went under. probably machinima. i mainly knew him because of his limp bizkit parody which is funny bc i wasn't even listening to actual limp bizkit at the time. anyway i really like his voice and i'm actually glad that he's still finding success these days

Naughty By Nature - O.P.P.: as i've referenced, i've been rewatching robbydude's paper mario vods, which are very good, and in one of the early ones robby references this song and it made me look it up. and then i made this post and it was underrated. i don't really have anything else to say it's just a good classic rap song

Slipknot - Left Behind: putting this here as more of a landmark to represent that i've been listening to iowa (the album this is from) a lot in general. i've had slipknot on the brain recently more than usual (not for any reason of course. winks) and reminded myself of why everyone loves iowa so much. it's so fucking brutal and biting... nu metal <3

Busta Rhymes - Woo Hah!!: honestly another one where it's like yeah idk this is just a classic what do you want me to say. busta's a legend and this song is legendary and he tears it up and it's good

Sweet Trip - Tekka: probably the most direct of the violet finds from this month (hi violet :3) i had never listened to sweet trip before but tekka instantly grabbed me... it's all crunchy and stuttery and has yummy synths. i especially love how it just fucking breaks down in the second half it's like that machine that's breaking down and sweating and sputtering it's almost sexual. you know

Ike & Tina Turner - I'll Never Need More Than This: so i've been on my phil spector bullshit, as you might have guessed, so i was revisiting some of his tracks to just kinda take it all in. as always, it. well it sounds really fucking good, and tina turner turned in a killer performance as always. i love. sound :)

Rowdy Rebel - Computers (feat. Bobby Shmurda): I'M SLIDIN OVER CARS WHILE I SHOOT

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THEY THINK THAT I'M TOM CRUISE

Machine Girl - Scroll of Sorrow: it's really rather exciting. see for those in the know (which is all of you bc there's only two or three people reading this), you're aware that my mutual (hi again :3) had posted about how, at the live show, the vocalist of machine girl got up real near the crowd (including said mutual) during scroll of sorrow. as such, i was listening out for the song at my own show and well chat i'll tell you i was not able to recognize it :-) but there was one point where they got up on the railing above the pit and were singing from up there, and while it wasn't like exceptionally close to where we were at, it was still cool bc it was like hey! that's like the thing! that i heard about! :) amd anyway i like the song

Sonic The Hedgehog - His World: itsa banger... i actually heard the penny parker cover of this song from the sonic fandub way before ever hearing the original so even now i still mix up the lyrics but it's fine. i've actually never played a mainline sonic game or any video game or any media at all but i like the music

Strapping Young Lad - Oh My Fucking God: i straight up didn't know that strapping young lad was a devin townsend thing, not that i've listened to any of his other stuff. this song's weird and loud and stupid and i like it

Rae Sremmurd - No Flex Zone: okay now. based on this one and the previous song, can anyone guess what semi-popular artist playlist i was listening to this month? i tried to listen to a lot more rap this month, because i wish to learn more about this beautiful world. no flex zone has been my first exposure to rae sremmurd and it was a good one, although i like one of the guys way better than the other one. slim jxmmi i like him better

glass beach - classic j dies and goes to hell part 1: i didn't really "get" glass beach for a while, i thought they were alright, but this month they started to click (once again with some help - check out this post teehee). they're cute, earnest, and high-energy; i have to kinda be in the mood but i can get into it 👍 i've also seen the band described as sort of a modern emo type deal and while i don't yet know if i agree or disagree with that it compels me

NLE Choppa - Final Warning: straight up this dude is weird and has a weird hit on the charts rn but bc of that i was like "ok let's see what he was like before his big image change" and ended up liking some of that stuff. he's so energetic and it really gets you pumped up, which is def what i'm looking for in this type of thing. he's got some interesting lines, too. it almost makes me wish he hadn't changed at all - i feel like i missed out lol

Vanilla Ice - Prozac: okay look i try not to vanillapost too much but like i'm a little bit insane about vanilla ice. i'm obsessed with his career path and it is not uncommon for me to just sit and think about it for an hour or more. i really enjoy his nu metal stuff, at least the earlier portions of it, and this is a top-tier track from that era. real headbanger. FUNKY RHYME KILLER, THE DOPE SONG DEALER

[bishiglomper]

Our bodies have a strange way of "decompressing"

I've been having aura on and off since coming home. Especially in the morning. (And gut problems. But only every other day 🤷‍♀️)

Yesterday I'm super glad bro took my sister shopping because he had to go in and pick her off the floor at Walmart because she started getting one of her hemiplegic Migraines. Which are scary because they mimic stroke.

Thankfully it was pretty mild and she recovered her words and faculties after a nap. But damn. I can't drive so we would have been stranded for a bit if I had gone instead..

Also everyone suddenly got sick with a cold or allergies the moment we got back. I was the only one missed?? At least so far. 👀

Lol we walked in from the trip and visited bro and he starts sneezing. I said we still smelled like Ohio. Maybe he was allergic.

Maybe we're allergic to Iowa and just haven't acclimated back yet. 🤣 or maybe it because I was sick BEFORE we left so I've filled my quota already.

I just want to make it to craft club this afternoon before i catch it. My tarot friend hasn't had a day off in over a week and one finally landed on craft club day so she's very looking forward to coming to play with me. 😚

I'm sure I'm not gonna make it out unscathed because yesterday the 2 month old was IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD. Sniffly as all get out but she was SMILING. SO MUCH.

I didn't know a baby that young could smile. Was always told it was just gas. But this kiddo was cooing and grinning constantly. So of course I had to get in on happy baby snuggles. 😚

Lmao it was so funny. Last night she threw up all over her mom. But as it was literally pouring out of her mouth, she had a big smile on her face 🤣 🤣 🤣

[xmystophalesx]

Best New Heavy Metal Releases Week of October 7th, 2022

This post will be a little abbreviated as I am officially in the realm of stupid tired. I was up at 3:30am on Sunday to get ready for work and set up my playlist for the day. After work, I drove for almost 2 hours to get to Iowa City to make the Saidan show. Tired, but sooooooo worth it. Saidan played a killer set. Hopefully, they set up a full tour instead of just a couple of one off dates, so more of you guys get a chance to see them. Definitely the highlight of the weekend, but there were other highlights in the new release category. Look at that seamless segue…lol

Korrosive-Toxic Apokalypse (Thrash)**

I enjoyed this band’s last album quite a bit, and it wasn’t all that long ago. “Kaustic Hordes” was released just a little over a year ago. As much as I enjoyed that one, this is a large step up, comparatively speaking. This is in the Havok and Warbringer style of dirty and aggressive Thrash Metal and where their last album was just a notch below those aforementioned bands, this one puts them squarely in their company. Riffs for days and breakdown sections worthy enough to be on an Exodus album. Add to this, vocals that sound like a verbal ass kicking and you have a killer Thrash Metal album. This band is now officially now on the “must see live” list.

Queensryche-Digital Noise Alliance (Heavy/Hard Rock)**

I only recently got back into this band after urging from a friend who’s musical taste I respect (Thanks Cryptos). I had written them off after the late 90s and all the drama surrounding them and Geoff Tate. Not to mention some incredibly subpar albums. I am now certainly glad I gave them another shot as I have come to really enjoy their output going all the way back to “Dedicated to Chaos” in 2011. I think I am pretty confident in saying this album could very well be the best of everything I have heard since coming back to the fold. This album just showcases a band that is incredibly confident in their songwriting. Even the cover of Billy Idol’s “Rebel Yell” is a complete banger. If you haven’t heard Queensryche in a while, give them a listen, you may very well be pleasantly surprised.

Atruta-Da Varot Apramietnaj (Melodic Black)**

Debut album from this Melodic Black Metal band out of Belarus and what a debut it is. I came across this one early and it was one that kept drawing me back in and I went back to it as the week went on multiple times. I gave it the genre of Melodic Black Metal but honestly I think this band leans so heavily into the area of melody that this could be considered Black n’ Roll just without the frenetic pace that genre usually has. You could even go with straight Heavy Metal but with Black Metal influences. As you can tell, this one gave me some trouble in the genre designation, which I only care about to inform the reader what to expect. Whatever the case may be, this album continues getting better with each successive listen. Even if you are not really a fan of Black Metal, give this one a shot, It could change your mind.

Ensanguinate-Eldritch Anatomy (Death)**

Classic Death Metal is the order of the day from this debut album from Ensanguinate out of Slovenia. Adding a small dose of Thrash Metal to the mix also doesn’t hurt matters any. Once again, I am shocked at how superb the songwriting and the production are on debut albums. The production on this album is absolutely flawless, especially for a Death Metal album. It really feels like the album is giving you a full-blown workout with just how heavy it is.

Steel Arctus-Master of War (Heavy/Traditional)**

When it comes to the best metal scenes in the world compared to the size of the country, I don’t believe anyone can hold a candle to Greece. I mean, hell, there was even a documentary done about this exact subject. Star of the show here is shared between the vocals and the guitar work. Tasos Lazaris sounds like he hits every note with ease and his range is as good as you will find this side of Bruce Dickinson. Nash G shreds just as effortlessly with leads that are not just impressive technically, but also memorable, which is not always a straightforward thing to accomplish. Definitely a band to keep a very close eye on.

That is it for this week. Go see some live music and support these bands! Music is life! Until next week, and as always,

BANG THY HEAD!!!

All worthy of a listen if you like the genre

*= standout in that genre

**=best of the week regardless of genre

Best of the Week

Korrosive-Toxic Apokalypse (Thrash)**

Borealis-Illusions (Symphonic Power)**

Queensryche-Digital Noise Alliance (Heavy/Hard Rock)**

Atruta-Da Varot Apramietnaj (Melodic Black)**

Steel Arctus-Master of War (Heavy/Traditional)**

Riot City-Electric Elite (Heavy/Speed)**

Ensanguinate-Eldritch Anatomy (Death)**

Standouts in their genre

Lamb of God-Omens (Metalcore/Thrash)*

The Loom of Time-Grand False Karass (Extreme Progressive)*

Lifetaker-Der Letzte Raum (Grindcore/Death)*

Mosh Pit Justice-Crush the Demons Inside (Thrash)*

Faust-Cisza po Tobie (Melodic Death/Folk)*

The Antichrist Imperium-Volume III-Satan in His Original Glory (Progressive Black/Death)*

Blodhemn-Sverger Hemn (Black)*

Ellefson-Soto-Vacation in the Underworld (Heavy)*

Get the Shot-Merciless Destruction (Thrash/Hardcore)*

Psychophobia-Mask Theory (Melodic Death)*

Brotthogg-Epicinium (Melodic Black/Death/Progressive)*

Goatwhore-Angels Hung From the Arches of Heaven (Death/Thrash)*

The Killerhertz-Starburst (Heavy/Hard Rock)*

Micarlla II-The Martyrs (Atmospheric Black/Sumphonic)*

Rexor-For Glory and Freedom (Heavy)*

Parius-The Signal Heard Throughout Space (Progressive)*

Statement-Dreams From the Darkest Side (Heavy)*

Worth a listen if you enjoy the genre

Trishula-We All Fall Down (Hard Rock)

Mercythrone-Trinitatis (Black)

Woewarden-In the Art of my Caged Existence (Atmospheric Black)

Pavianass-Fuck the Rest (Thrash)

B.O.W.-A Dump of Twisted Destinies (Hard Rock)

Pinchbeck-Coalescence of Time (Heavy/Progressive/Hard Rock)

Blackened Temple-Blackened Temple (Black/Death)

Blodsvart-Ara Des Zorns (Black)

Blind Illusion-Wrath of the Gods (Thrash)

Captain Black Beard-Neon Sunrise (Hard Rock)

Mastic Scum-Icon (Brutal Death)

My Funeral-Funeral Manifesto (Thrash)

Gohrgone-Fulgur Imperii (Black/Death)

De Profundis-The Corruption of Virtue (Death)

Leaderless-Shattered Worlds (Melodic Death)

Memories of a Lost Soul-Redefining Nothingness (Melodic Death)

Acedia-Fracture (Black)

Iron Blade-Stormrider (Heavy/Speed)

Pick of week could of easily been the Steel Arctus album as well but in the end I let the CEO of The Metal Bulldog make the choice. Her choice was Korrosive-Toxic Apocalypse and who is going to argue with that face?​

[ones-delight]

I unfortunately won’t have therapy until the end of this month (I should have scheduled one earlier this month ugh lmao I thought one later this month would be better) so I’m doing what my therapist suggested, write down all what’s going through my head even if it doesn’t make sense to help bring myself back to reality. lol. I’m very much lost in my own sauce of feelings and thoughts. it’s allllll about my ex again so ugh lmao. My main anxieties are just feelings about my ex and what’s coming up this semester.

I’m currently in my apartment in Iowa City since we’re about to start back up my usual routine. I’ve been here for almost two weeks now which is nice because I’ve been trying to take my time to relax and get myself mentally prepared for this upcoming semester. I’m also low key glad I’m having these overwhelming anxieties right now instead of later this week. I need to ask my therapist again what exactly I am feeling (if it’s like a panic attack because i truly dont know) because I’ve been feeling hella anxious the past few days (in general) and yesterday my anxiety was so intense that I barely ate and I felt sick to my stomach. idk if others have the same too but when I also get hella anxious, all I want to do is go to the bathroom so tmi lmao. I feel this way now and I just cannot stop crying so again, I’m just writing everything that’s going through my mind lmao.

#1) Related to my ex, heart break

Yeah.. I literally keep talking about this/him and I’m glad I have multiple outlets that I can say what’s going through my mind because if I keep these thoughts to myself, I keep spiraling. I’m also very thankful I have multiple strong support systems from people where it truly doesn’t get annoying to them when I keep talking about him/my overall heart break/healing journey. I know I don’t want to burden my friends with my own thoughts (it can be a lot) so overall very thankful for friends, family, and my therapist lmao. 

I think the last time I talked about my heart break was the letter I wrote to him. I wrote it and sent it to him lmao. I also wrote his mom a letter in Spanish because I want to stay connected with her and very thankful she reciprocates the same energy, Apparently, he never received the letter even though I sent it over 3 weeks ago, but anyways yeah that’s a story I will tell later in this post. Anyways, it’s legit easier said than done to completely stop checking on his social media. I was doing great before winter break. Now that winter break has happened (still kind of is for a few more days), I have relapsed where I was checking very often. The break was great since I got to spend quality time with family, however, unfortunately being back in Wichita still floods a lot of my emotions where there are still a lot of memories of him and I that still makes me feel sad (luckily no longer sobbing about but I do still feel some type of way. It’s getting better thankfully). It also hurts that he’s making new memories with his new girlfriend Kylie so I was def feeling all sorts of things. Sorry, I’m trying to go onto chronologize order of events that have happened. I’m jumping back and forth lmao 

First, did I mention his mom called me the day before Christmas? I was SHOOOOOK when I saw her name on my phone. I legit froze because I wasn’t sure if it was actually her so I accidently missed her call. I’m so glad she left a voicemail so I could listen first and immediately call her back LMAO. But basically, she wanted to check in to see how I was doing, wish me and my family a merry christmas/happy new year, and asked if I could come see her. We joked a bit back and forth like how she was learning English for me while I’m learning Spanish for her. lmao. so after this phone call, I wrote her a letter to update her on what I’ve been doing. I wrote it all in Spanish since that’s her primary language so thank god for google translate. overall, I told her about how I’m about to earn my masters degree in may, I’ve lost now 30 lbs of weight/having a better relationship with food, how I’m honestly still hurt about her son cheating on me (I was in my feels. You know if you ever get those feelings like you want your mom? She legit is like a mom to me since my mom isn’t an active part of my life so yeah I guess you can say I got mommy issues but anyways) I also told her that if she’d still like me to come over, I’d love to come over and see her.

Few days go by, I’ve been creeping onto his social media, it stings to see how he has flaunted his relationship with Kylie. It hurts because I keep playing this comparison game because he truly has NEVER allowed me to post about us and he would himself refuse to post about us on his social media. So, just to see how he’s been basically spending every single day with her and posting her throughout all of his social media, makes me feel an extreme type of way. during new years, she had a party at her house where it was him, her, his brother paco (which I was SHOOOK because she met paco and not everyone has ever met paco, who is his oldest brother), miguel and his girlfriend (both are super cute btw), Blake (surprisingly), and Erik. I felt some kind of way because obviously I know they would share a new years kiss even tho they’ve only been dating for literally a month. I dated him for 3 years and NEVER got a new years kiss (because he wanted to be with bros). Valentines day is coming up and it’d be their “two month” anniversary and I just KNOW he’d actually put EFFORT into spending that day with her. 3 years I dated this guy and he never ONCE did ANYTHING for me for valentines day. ok I’m getting more hurt thinking how he’s treating his other girls better than me so anyways BACK TO THE TOPIC

few days go by and I got another call from his mom. I actually picked up this time because I was really excited to hear her voice again. I legit would die for this woman legit #1 mom. She asked if she could see me and I happily said yes. It really means a lot that she still gives me the same energy that she gave me when I was still dating her son. One of the hardest parts of us breaking up was the potential of losing his family too because they are all truly good people and I am NOT the CEO of letting people go lmao. okay back to subject, I had TONS of anxiety driving over to her house because I had so many thoughts. I asked on the phone if 1.) is Lalo there. She said no. 2.) Is Paco there. No, he apparently flew back to California that morning. I was low key hoping paco would be there still because it would be cool to catch up with him but anyways my main concern was if eduardo was there so since he wasn’t, I was like “ok vroom vroom let’s go” lmao. WOWOWOWWO seeing her just made my heart so happy. She def has a lot more gray hairs since the last time I saw her lmao she’s the cutest anyways, I’m really shook that HIS DAD FREAKING HUGGED ME. THIS MAN NEVER USUALLY HUGS ANYONEEEEEEEEEEE. Typically how we greet each other, it’s like a wave from a distance and we obvi acknowledge each other. so WOOOOW I was very thankful and shook he hugged me. Anyways, his mom showed me around the house with the Christmas decorations, I noticed her birds were still doing well, she even showed me her new plants she got lmao. We sat at the dining room table and talked and ate mexican snacks. She has broken English and I have broken Spanish so literally thank god for dualingo because it has helped me. I love how when we are together, we talk really slow and try to annunciate for each other LMAOOO. Anyways, THIS WOMAN ALSO GOT ME A STOCKING filled with Mexican Candy. omg this woman i love her so much. Anyways, I showed my tattoos to her and she legit wanted to murder me lmao but she says she likes them but hates them at the same time. She also sat me down and we had a serious conversation in terms of how she sees me. She said that I am no longer known as lalo’s novia, what I am to her is a daughter. I am evelyn’s sister and yo boi that got me crying in the club because that’s what I would love to have, to maintain my relationship with them . Okay, to kind of speed things up, basically we kept talking about Evelyn’s quinceanera that’s happening this year AHHHHHH, dropped Evelyn off and her friend to a friend’s quince, and his mom took me to eat at paleterias tropicana where I tried elote for the first time and had a jugo verde WOOOOOW SOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOD. literally cannot stop thinking about it. Anyways, random note, I noticed my old K-State beanie in the car and his mom said it was Evelyn’s. It gave me a weird feeling because it was originally mine that he gifted me on our first Christmas together but obviously I knew he wouldn’t keep it so I’m not suprised he gave it to Evelyn. It made me wonder then what did he do to the other gifts that he originally gave me but I gave it back to him once we broke up.. okay that was a tangent, anyways, that was it with the night with his mom and ughhh it was a really fun night and I really am looking forward to seeing her again.

Now fast forward to now-ish, me not doing good of not checking his social media, I got triggered because they now made it “facebook officlal” that they are dating. it triggered me because again, he refused to publicize our relationship and it really threw me off that they’ve only been dating for a month (technically interested in each other since October, started dating November) and already publicizing they are together. they moving hella quick and basically, I got hella bitter. I felt reckless and I texted him. I KNOW I shouldn’t have texted him because I immediately felt a sense of regret after but also low key glad I did text him. ugh i hate me lmao. Anyways, i texted him and he asked if he could call me so I said yes. Luckily, the conversation was better than I expected because it was simply like two old friends catching up. It was a really good feeling even tho I’m honestly still hurt about the way that he treated me. It caught me by suprised when he said that he has talked about me with Kylie and he actually stated that he knows what he did and feels regretful for the choices he made. That was a huge shocker and I do still have trust issues because I try to take things that he says with a grain of salt. He may be saying things to me that I want to hear but it’s not the truth so anyways lmao. Our conversation was good and it really got me thinking what exactly am I doing/how am I really feeling.

I really am happy for him. Yes i’m still deeply hurt and feel a type of way about how he treated me, but I can’t do anything about the past and all I can do is just simply be happy for him. I will always love him without a doubt, but he isn’t my person. I hope this doesn’t come off as selfish but he will never find someone better than me, he is simply finding someone better suited for him. What helps me the most about this is thinking about ME because that’s the situation for him, however, I know I will find someone better than him because I deserve the best.

I felt bad for asking because I am just fucking nosy and I’m glad he was okay with me asking about what happened with his relationship with Lila (the girl he left me for) and how did he start dating Kylie. He shared with with me that even though it was all great in the beginning with Lila (and let me tell you dude, he totally was hella infatuated with her lmao), they started becoming two different people. She apparently wasn’t emotionally there for him when he needed her (IRONICCCCCCCCCCCCC BECAUSE THAT’S EXACTLY HOW HE WAS WITH ME THROUGHOUT OUR 3 YEARS TOGETHER) and she ended the relationship. It did make me sad to hear because everyone needs support and it is sad when you go to someone for support and they don’t give you it, ya know? anyways, he said with Kylie, they’ve been friends for two years (I knew who she was when we were together but they’ve always only been friends since they worked at the Sunflower together. This will sound extremely bad but I never thought about her being a girl to worry about because she did a lot of “white” things that we make fun of white people for and so it kind of shocked me that he is dating her now but anyways) apparently he said that “they were hanging out and next thing he knows is that he kissed her and that’s how they started dating.” dude didn’t want to go into detail which was fine but I’m also in my head like “ok lmao you literally just got broken up by your ex and then immediately start hanging out with another girl? ok” ANYWAYS, I really am happy for him and wish him the best. 

It was cool to hear about what he’s hoping to do. He shared a lot more detail than usual which again caught me by surprise. Anyways, he shared that he is currently looking for a new place to live (a house to rent) somewhere in college hill (conveniently where Kylie also lives lmao) with Erik. He is also hoping to find another job soon because things at KWCH are no longer making him feel happier so he’s looking to see if he can work for a non-profit org which makes me happy for him because I’d also want to do the same. If I’m at a job where I’m not excited to be, I’d want to also try to make a switch. He also shared that junior (martin, his little brother) will be moving to Cali in May to move close to paco which wow made me really happy for them all. Anyways, he shared that he is hoping to stay in Wichita for about one more year and then possibly relocating to KC or somewhere in Oklahoma. i did encourage him KC because it seems that KC has much more opportunities than Wichita and Oklahoma. Only thing we both hate is driving in KC lmao

Okay, so overall, I’m still really hurt about how our relationship was and how it ended but I’m very grateful that I’m doing what is best for me to make progress because this is not an overall easy thing to do, move on. I do feel low key embarrassed that I still am not over our break up but I’m very glad that I know that He isn’t my person. we will and I cannot get back together with him even if he stated that he has “changed” Yes i invested so much in him to be my forever partner and it didn’t work out but that’s okay. I’m always willing to invest in people to be the best version of themselves and it really makes me happy to see people thrive. I truly cannot and will not take him back if there was ever a time where he wanted to give us a second try because I need to remember how he treated me. If he really was always thinking it was me, then he shouldn’t have cheated on me, treated me so poorly. I’m okay with us remaining friends, but as partners in life? that isn’t it. I deserve so much better and the man of my dreams will come. I’m 10000000% okay with being single because I know I need to work on myself so that I can be fully ready for my next. I really wish my next relationship is my one and only, but hey we’ll see. 

so this is already extremely long but I’m very glad I got this all out of me. I know I have other anxieties such as starting school again, which will be my last semester before I earn my masters (FINALLY), RA training coming back up (so me working is coming back), JOB SEARCH. So much is coming up and AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I need to get my head into gear. 

[spaceradars]

i’m once again, talking about the M*A*S*H finale

im sorry in advance

The other post can be found here

I think we all know what this episode means and is about so i’m not going to talk about that. i’m not going to get into the story that absolutely broke my heart or about what happens during the first half, because i’m interested in the second one, in the fact war is finally over and everybody will go home and enjoy some peace. Anyway the thing is Hawkeye’s back from a psychiatric hospital where Sidney was treating him after a particularly traumatic experience he had, of course, repressed and that made me cry a lot and the 4077 is experiencing its last days with patients. everyone’s trying to deal with that in the best possible way, except for doctor California aka BJ Hunnicutt who has left to go home in order to be there for his baby’s second birthday (spoiler alert: he won’t make it and will have to go back to our favorite M*A*S*H unit). anyway the thing is he makes it back, the peace is announced and the last wounded are being operated. and in a particularly emotive scene, after they share their last dinner as the 4077, they start making plans on what will be of them after they go back home and this is, i believe, the most wholesome (but also somehow heartbreaking) part of it all:

Col Potter announces he’ll go back home in Missouri and spend all the time he can with his wife (which is the sweetest thing ever), Kellye asked to be assigned to a hospital in Honolulu in order to be with her family, Rizzo will go back to Louisiana, Hawkeye will go back to Crabapple Cove and go into private practice (which will allow him to get to know his patients), BJ makes a joke about running away with a woman but we all know he’s looking foward to returning to California and watch his kid grow up and make up for all that missing time with both her and Peg, Igor is going to become a pig farmer, Father Mulcahy will begin to work with the deaf (remember he nearly lost his hearing on this episode so...), Charles will work at the Boston hospital he wanted to work (thanks to Margaret) in the position he was looking foward to (although he reflects on the fact that music will forever be a reminder from now on of what he lived in Korea, i mean remember the first half of the episode in which he teaches Chinese musicians to play some Mozart and then they all get killed :(( ), Margaret decides to return to the USA and work in a hospital there (and talks so good about the nurses in the 4077 <3) and Klinger announces he’ll marry Soon-Lee but he’ll stay in Korea until she finds her family again (<3). So he marries her the next day, in a cellebration that allows our favorite MASH unit to be together for the last time or at least the last time there bc i know they all will get together again in the future I KNOW IT OKAY?

I think here comes the saddest part of it all; we spend 11 seasons wishing for the war to be over (because they make sure to SHOW us how horrible and inhumane it is and how bad it is, for both sides) and for all of them to go home. And it’s not just that; it’s the way BJ talks about Erin that made me wish for eight seasons for him to go back home safe and sound, the way Klinger talks about Toledo, the way Radar talked about Iowa, Charles about his sister, Hawkeye about his dad, Col Potter about his wife... but right now, I didn’t want them all to split up, you know? and i know it’s sort of logical after 11 seasons but I just felt so sad because i spent so many episodes/seasons like “make them go home PLEASE!!!!” and now it was like..... “sir that’s my emotional support ‘found family trope’” so i cried a lot.

So, Klinger gets married (with Col Potter as his best man) and leaves with Soon-Lee (who I hope finds her family <3). 

Father Mulcahy leaves next.

Then Margaret does, to the 8063, and says goodbye to everyone (+Charles gives her a book she had borrowed from him and loved). Also, her last moments with Col. Potter? S O F T

Then Charles leaves, to the 8063 as well but with Rizzo on the garbage truck, as the Swamp is dismantled </3

Then we have left Col Potter, who rides Sophie for one last time before leaving her at the local orphanage, and he tells our two last remaining 4077 protagonists, Hawkeye and BJ “it would be hard to call what we’ve been through ‘fun’, but I’m sure glad we went through it together” and i think that sums it all up because that’s what’s sad, of course; we’re not sad because the war is over and they’re going home, but because those making each other laugh/pulling pranks on each other moments, as well as all the tender ones and the cute ones, are over (and duh, the series is). Anyway, before Col Potter leaves, both BJ and Hawkeye salute him and <3

And we have left both BJ and Hawkeye, who have left the last five minutes of screentime and they say goodbye with the cutest of exchanges, and I don’t mean “the cutest” because it’s them but because it comes from the heart and you can tell. I mean, Hawkeye’s “I want you to know how much you’ve meant to me”? those “i’ll miss you”/”i’ll miss you... a lot”? BJ literally saying “i can’t imagine what this place would’ve been like if I hadn’t found you here”? 

and basically Hawkeye gets on the chopper and BJ leaves in his bike and tells him  “i’ll see you back in the States, I promise!” BUT adds that he left him a “note” and the note is like 

Anyway, this final episode was perfect in every single way and I found it to be great. I’ll never get over it (or this series) but that’s another thing. 

Waching M*A*S*H was an experience, as i’ve mentioned before, but it was a GREAT one and I’m so glad this series exists and I get to be a even a small part of its universe by watching it/loving it the way I do. I can’t way to rewatch it asap lol

[queenofthearchitect]

Star struck

A/N: this is the other request I took off @writtingrose shoulders I hope I’m doing them justice lol. She also came up with the name 🙈🙈

The name of the song in this fic is wonderful life by bring me the horizon ft. Dani Flith. The reader and her band will sing that song. So listen to it.

Summary: Hunter and Stephanie invite his celebrity crush to preform on RAW. Dean and Roman push him to talk to the Reader because he’s nervous; Requested by anon

Warnings: cussing thats about it

Parings: Seth Rollins x Singer! reader

Taglist: @theworldofotps @writtingrose @new-zealand-chic @sassyspacedust @wolfiegal98 @haharollins @the-beastslayers-queen @sausagefest1996 @itsicantbelievethis666 @thatwrestlingfan91 @queenslayer1985 @yafav-q @geekgirl007

Please enjoy 🦄

I got a call from Stephanie McMahon asking if me and my band could come preform on Monday night raw and Of course we agreed. We were on the next flight to Davenport Iowa when I was scrolling through twitter looking at WWE’s feed, I had stopped on a particular post it was wishing Seth Rollins a happy birthday and I put two and two together. That’s why we were going there. I couldn’t denie he was attractive I cleared the feed off my phone, I put my head phones on and hit shuffle on my music. When we finally landed, we walked towards the baggage carousel.

My black boots made a noise against the ground we had made sure to put on disguises so no one would know who we were. We wanted it to be a scecret as possible, my best friend walked up and looked at me. “Oh come on Y/N it’s not that big of a deal it’s just wwe it’s not like it’s a secret.” I looked at him shaking my head in disbelief. “I know but just in case let’s just stay like this please.” He rubbed his hands over his face letting out a low groan. “Okay fine but you owe me big time.” I roll my eyes at him and I rub his head. “Oh hush this little costume won’t kill you it’s only for a few more hours.”

We arrived at the arena for Monday night raw and I started to get nervous, I have no idea why I’ve always been calm before a show it’s always been one of my band memebers who got nervous never me. I played with the end of my jet black and fire engine red hair, I sat in hair and make up thinking of what to wear, I didn’t know if I wanted to do my usual black skinny jeans and t-shirt or if I wanted to wear a dress. I decided to just wear my usual, I put black heel boots on. We were last of the show so we had some time, I was doing my vocal warm ups when one of the backstage producers knocked on the door, I told them to come in and the let us know we had 10 minutes.

I looked around at my team and my band and the smiles at me. “Y/N are you ready to do this?” I looked at my manager and I nodded my head. “Yes but what if we don’t sing that guys favorite song?” She raise and eyebrow at me and kinda smirked at me. “Who says it’s for his birthday?” “Well I was looking at their feed on Instagram and his birthday today and he only listens to rock/metal music so I kinda put two and two together.” I replied and she didn’t say anything my drummer went to say something but was interrupted by the camera guy telling us we had to get into position.

Apparently they had picked out everything for us, our set list, our theme and the rest. We watched Stephanie on the monitor and they told us our cue, she smiled widely at looked at Seth. “Well Seth since you just turned 33 we wanted it to be something you’d remember so we flew out bring me the horizon.” I looked at my band and they nodded their heads and we walked through the curtain and saw the quick look of disbelief on Seth’s face and when he saw me first walk out his hand went over his mouth. I smile as the crowd erupted into defining screams.

I went down the ramp touching the hands with fans, taking pictures with most if not all of them. I walked up the steps with my band not too far behind me, Seth quickly walked over and held the ropes open for me, I walked through them and I sent him a playful wink making him blush. I walked over to Stephanie and hunter and hugged them both, I walked over to the lead microphone and I looked at my band members and watched Stephanie, hunter and Seth exit the ring my guitarist started playing a the beginning of our song wonderful life and the arena got quite for a minute and I started the intro and the crowd started singing with me and my guitarist.

The part where I screamed came up, I could tell the crowed was waiting to see if I was going to do it or not. I had made glances at Seth while our intro was happening and he slowly started bobbing his head and when I scream the whole arena erupted into cheers and Seth was head banging. Seeing him enjoy is live made me happy but while they kept singing I got out of the ring and let him come in the ring with us. Before he got in the rings few of the front rows were near the barricade jumping with us. Now believe it or not when Seth got in the ring everyone had their flash lights on jumping up and down, it was honestly breath taking how many people here loved our music.

We preformed with ease with jumping, screaming, I’m sure everyone was surprised I didn’t break my ankle because I was in heeled boots but I’ve always jumped in my performances so my ankles were use to me. I could tell Seth was having the time of his life preforming with us, I was stoked to have him in the ring with us he lit a fire under all of us and made us preform that much harder, I mean after all it was his big day. As we finished our first set we sung three more songs and said our goodbyes and thanked Stephanie and hunter for having us.

My band members shook their hands Seth’s aswell, when it came to me I wrapped him and a hug and wished him a happy birthday. The look on his face was like we just made his 33 years of life, he walked with us backstage with us with a huge smile on his face and I was just happy we made him and the wwe universe so happy. A lot of the superstars were waiting for us backstage to get our autographs and I was so flattered, I felt like I should be the one asking for autographs. I’ve watched wresting all my life and I’m sure I got on everyone’s nerves when I did watch it cause I’d scream at the tv.

I wouldn’t dare tell anyone that my team, and my band memebers knew not to tell anyone about it cause I’d kill them. My eyes kept lingering to Seth and when he’d look at me I’d look away afraid of getting caught, a few of the divas were all over my band memebers and I thought it was hilarious, groupies at its finest so I was surprised when a few male and female superstars walked up and started talking to me about how awesome we were and how Seth was so lucky. At the mention of Seth made my stomach feel tingly, honestly I have no idea what was going on with me. I haven’t even talked to kid and I feel tingly around him.

I mentally kicked myself and got my ass in gear and just pushed that away, I mean I didn’t even have time for a relationship I was always on the road, and when I wasn’t I was home working on msuic and made appearances. After the group started to die down the band went back to the dressing room and I told them I was going to go get some air but that was honestly to get them to leave me alone. The adrenaline still flowing through my veins when I heard my name getting called out. “Hey Y/N wait up.” I stopped when I heard the voice and I turned around to see Seth looking at me and smiled. “Thanks for waiting up, where ya heading too?” “Um well no where in particular just walking.” I replied and he smiled at me. “So I um was uh waning to introduce myself officially.”

I smile at him noticing I made him nervous, I mean I couldn’t blame him, I was a wild card no one ever knew what I would say or when I’d say it. “Well it’s finally glad to meet you after ogling me all night.” His eyes widened and he started rubbing the back of his neck. “U-uhm sorry about that I-I just was really stoked to meet you.” I nod my head at him and I look at him but he looked everywhere but at me. I thought him being shy was adorably cute. “Seth come on there’s no reason to be shy, We are one in the same.” He let out a chuckle and started fidgeting with the bottom of his shirt.

“I-I know b-but you are I like you.. I-I mean I like your music.” He sighed and put his hand over his face and I noticed the deep red tint on his face and I grabbed his hand. “Seth it’s okay most guys get like this when they meet me.” He let out a chuckle and he wiped his palms on his skinny jeans. “Since I’ve embarrassed myself enough I’ll go.” “Well I didn’t think the Architect had a problem with the ladies.” His eyes widened at the mention of his reputation and he hung his head low. “I didn’t but I haven’t found the right one?” I stood there and looked at him and before I could stop what was coming out my mouth it slipped. “So you just jump from women to woman?”

I could tell I had hit his ego and I hit it hard, he turned a light pink and started fidgeting with his shirt now. “I- uhm- uh I know I use to be a ass but I swear I’ve changed and I’d like to take you out but I’m sure-.” He shut his mouth and his skin turned a lighter color, he coverd his face and let out a big sigh. I let out a small giggle and I get closer to him and I see him tense some. “Wait do I make you nervous Seth?” I bite his lip and just stood there I smiled and grabbed a pen and a piece of paper and I wrote something on it and slipped it into his pocket. “If it gets leaked I’ll kill you, I’d love for you to take me out but next time hopefully you won’t be so Star Struck.” He stood there frozen while I walked away, this was officially the best night ever.

A/N: thank you guys so much for reading I love y’all so much and thank you for supporting my fics I just hope y’all enjoy it as much as I enjoyed reading it I have a series coming out and I want to thank @writtingrose for letting me snag some of her request it’s been fun. ❤️

[the-claire-bitch-project]

Ah amazing!! Hope you’re having an amazing one! Nah, feeling much better today tbh. Long story short, I’m starting medication for my mental health for the first time and it made me feel really wobbly. Long term a good idea though I think! We shall see. I have no fucking clue what Iowa farm boys are but FUCK THEM! (Or go team? Not sure which side were on here!!?) what are you up to tonight then? xx.

Lol I’m a Texas fan (Longhorns) so we don’t like Iowa State, which is who we’re playing. Since Iowa is mostly farmland, I call them “farm boys.”

Starting new meds can be hard. If you don’t like them, you can talk to your doctor. I tried about 6 or 7 meds until I found the right one. My doctor did a DNA test to see how my enzymes in my liver function and match me to the right meds. Now that I’m on the right meds I notice little to no side effects. So that is the ideal in my mind and if your doctor doesn’t listen to you and try to get you on the best one, then get a new doctor. But I’m glad you’re feeling better and they seem to be working!

Tonight we’re going out again. Maybe a jazz club, maybe just the regular clubs. I’m not sure yet! I’m just happy to see my friends tbh.

[eaglebones-falconhawk]

ok. heres a write up of my astro weekend. sorry it’s so long. 

...or at least everything i can remember. 

i guess i’ll go in order. 

thursday: 

thursday was in athens. i sat around my airbnb room for a bit and then finally decided to go check out a shop around 2 pm. well apparently that fuckin shop was literally next door bc as soon as I turned around from loading up the parking meter, Birdstuff was there with the sound guy (his friend). I said hi and we talked for a bit, then I went into the store. I got a cool sweater and a cute dress and the girl at the counter took my picture to put on their instagram.  I checked out a few more shops in the area before I went back. Also, Reel Big Fish were playing literally right up the road and I heard them rehearsing. 

I got to the venue right before the doors opened and ran into a guy from the fan facebook group. we talked for a bit and he said he flew in from new york for the show. super nice dude. I went in and no one checked if i had a ticket or id’ed me or anything. kinda weird. Anyway i just kinda sat there for a while while people came in. avona nova waved at me when she showed up, then coco said hi later while I was talking to someone. the other guy was like “you know that guy...i feel like i should know him!” I had to tell him who it was, I thought that was pretty funny. 

I also saw Birdstuff again before their set. He gave me a setlist but only if i promised not to look at it. I shoved it in my pocket and forgot about it til the next day. lol.  Their set was really good. They opened with one of my favorite songs, and played the MST3K theme song. They also played one new song. Coco grabbed my head during one of the intro samples. Birdstuff also fed a chunk of pizza to the guy next to me.  Oh shit, I almost forgot about Pylon. They played before astroman and were AMAZING. Also Vanessa (the singer) told me she liked my jacket when i picked up their new record from the merch table. I’m really really glad I got to see them.

After the set I stuck around to say hi and stuff. Me and my new buddy from the facebook group both talked to coco for a bit. I showed him my tattoo and he said he’d make sure i’d be on the guest list for the rest of the weekend buuut that never happened. I dont think he was lying or forgot but I never did get on that guest list :/. I gave him and everyone but star crunch some stickers. Avona Nova asked me about my shoes, and she was so into them. It was adorable! I love her.  That’s about it for thursday night.  Friday: 

The friday show was in atlanta. I went to check out the botanical gardens in athens before i left town. it was unsurpisingly not that great on the last day of november but i still enjoyed it. it was nice to go for a peaceful walk through nature and i still got to see some cool plants. I left and drove to atlanta and went to my favorite shop in little 5 points, then left because i didnt wanna deal with people or traffic anymore. (i still got stuck in traffic). I did get a cool MoAM magnet though. 

The show in atlanta was in the same place i saw them last year- except they expanded so the venue was about twice as big. i got there kinda early (they also opened the doors way later than advertised) so i sat with one of birdstuff’s friends/the sound guy for a while. hes a really nice guy and showed me pictures of his cats. he also introduced me to some other people that work at saturn.

the merch table was on the old stage and i fell a little bit and almost spilled my drink on star crunch who was unloading tshirts. he was like “oh...hi”. after the show he told me his dog died :/

 the first 2 opening bands were kinda weird but i had fun watching them. Arcwelder played and I really enjoyed seeing them. I think i’m gonna try and get some of their cds. I saw coco in the audience again and i think he waved at me but i cant remember if he said hi. my new buddy was kind of impressed that any of the band members did say hi though. lol.  i think avona nova musta said hi that night too bc at some point he was like “you’re like the astro-insider”. I thought it was hilarious. 

The set for this night was pretty great. they opened with With Automatic Shutoff again but it sounded way better. they also did a few improv songs, and played the mst3k song again, but it wasnt on the set list. Coco fell at some point during the set and kicked me in the face a little bit. I told him afterward and he felt really bad. He also knocked over one of the monitors when he fell, and i had to hold it up with 2 other guys to keep it from falling. I got to wear coco’s helmet for a minute but its heavy and smelly so i put it on someone else as soon as i could. also henry (the guy who put all the shows together as his birthday party) told me he was really glad i came. it was kinda weird but it was nice. kinda made me wanna cry though. 

After the show i stuck around for a bit. this time i did get to talk to the band a bit more. I asked star crunch how he was doing and he was like “i’ve had better weeks....my dog just died” UM. OKAY. he did seem really sad though. i feel bad for him. hes such a nice man. We talked for a bit and I gave him some of the stickers i made.  birdstuff knew i was going to drive from atlanta to birmingham for the next show so he offered to find me a place to stay as they all claimed “the drive back was really boring”. star crunch was like “you could stay with my parents, my dad could teach you how to line dance.” lmao. him and coco also told me about a time they apparently both interviewed and applied for the same job, with the idea that theyd both work the same position for like half the year and get twice the amount of work done, so they could tour the rest of the year. i had to tell him that basically the same thing happened in an episode of its always sunny in philadelphia. lmao. i talked with them all for a while before they started leaving and stuff. i mean i didnt have anything better to do. i said see ya later and got an uber home. my airbnb was cold as shit and i didnt sleep very well. 

saturday: 

the saturday show was at Saturn in Birmingham. and it was perfect. i slept as late as i could then just chilled in my airbnb (it was a converted airstream trailer- hella cool but kinda cold in late november/early december) until it was time to go. i packed all my shit but wasnt really sure if i wanted to stay in Bham because i figured i’d have to stay with a stranger or something. the drive from atlanta to birmingham really wasnt that bad, but i’m also not a 40 year old man. I got to bham way earlier than i expected so i went and tried to get something to eat. the sandwich i ordered was amazing but i just wasnt hungry. did i  mention i have appetite issues when i travel? because i barely ate anything all weekend. anyway i went to saturn and just sat around for a while til i met another person from the facebook group. which was nice, because i basically wasn’t alone at any of the shows. this guy was also super nice. avona nova came up and said hi and asked me about video games? i wasnt feeling good and i was really confused when she said that. it was still cool she said hi though. she’s so sweet. 

once again i wasnt on the setlist even though coco told me twice he’d make sure i was on there. i was kinda mad about it til he came up before their set and asked if i got in okay. (he also startled me when he did this because he came up from behind).  Arcwelder played again this show and they were really good again. Tar was also super good and the singer told me he liked all my space shit after the show. he was really nice. 

This show was played on the floor with a huge parachute as a backdrop. it looked awesome and made for a nice intimate setting. the band came through the audience instead of from the back and scared the hell out of me when they came up from behind me. 

This show was probably my favorite of the whole weekend. I think the set was a little longer but they also just sounded great. 

early on in the set star crunch’s microphone was like, electrified and it shocked him in the middle of a song. he put his guitar up to it to prove it and there was a bright spark. someone said “put a sock on it” so coco, being the fucking weird man he is took his shoe off and offered his sock to star crunch. but like its a sock and your mouth goes real close to the mic so he was like “no!!” coco just threw his fucking sock into the audience and played half the show with only one shoe on til the rest of the band made him put the other one on (with no sock). 

the theremin broke at some point during the set (it fell...but a cymbal also fell and broke the cord. who knows which truly broke it) so they almost didn’t play principles unknown, but birdstuff had the sound guy put a bunch of reverb on the mic and made coco do the fucking theremin noises with his mouth. and it was fucking incredible. he did it like, perfectly and TBH it was amazing to witness. i got it on video and i’m so glad i did. 

coco put the space helmet on me again during this show, and i tried to take a selfie with it but it didnt save :/. oh well. it got passed around the audience and everyone that got it seemed super happy. 

they played the mst3k song one more time this show, and birdstuff dedicated it to me :) he said something like “she drove all the way from fucking new zealand!” and this guy with a real heavy southern accent tapped my shoulder and was like “new zealand?” no...just iowa. lmao. it was so cool he did that, though. i’m really hoping someone recorded the whole show so i can go back and listen to it later. 

birdstuff did his regular drum kit sculpture but this time he stole a bunch of people’s belts (yes....he asked the audience for belts and then took them) and hung the snare drum from the ceiling. the second funniest part of the show was watching people try to find their belt from the pile. 

after the show i saw another guy in a jumpsuit so i went to tell him i liked it, just for solidarity i guess? turns out he went to high school with coco. weird! he was a super friendly guy and was kind of enthralled with my outfit. he took a picture with me and coco lol. 

I asked coco if i could take a picture with all 4 of them. i hadnt done it yet and i was like why not! its a special weekend!. he was like “yeah! if we can get everyone all together” which yeah, took a while. i also made sure i asked star crunch since he usually disappears first.

there were some teenage girls there who were trying to get the band’s autographs, and it was awesome. they were nice and i hope they had a good show. one of them told me she thought star crunch was cute. lmao. i kinda wish i’d gotten some autographs but i had such a good weekend, it doesn’t matter. 

i hung around until finally we got everyone in one room so we could take a picture. my bud for the night from the facebook group also got to take a picture with them. 

birdstuff asked again if i wanted to stay there, and i was like “sure!” mostly just so i could say i did it. man, it was an awesome place. they put in  some rooms and bunks above the venue so bands could sleep there. none of the bands that played that night stayed though, so i got the whole front room to myself. birdstuff showed me around and tried to get netflix on the tv to work but couldnt so he just showed me where the dvds were. i found a simpsons dvd and watched that. 

let me tell you- staying the night in saturn, watching the simpsons after an amazing MoAM show where they dedicated a song to me and then i got to hang out with them for a bit, that’s my idea of heaven. it was such a perfect night. i also took some pictures in the upstairs of saturn, partially because i wanted to be able to prove i was there, but also because the art and decorations were fucking awesome. such a good night. 

i did have to take a shower without a shower curtain though. birdstuff couldnt fix that. i didnt even care though. 

sunday:

the sunday show was in atlanta again, at a place called whirlyball. now what i didnt know about this place was that its not a fucking venue but basically an arcade. or well, more like, its this sport played on bumpercars with lacrosse sticks. theres 2 courts and a few games in the lobby, oh and theres a stage too. what a weird place. i was starting to feel sick by this day so i just sat on the couch for a while. avona nova sat on the couch next to me and we talked for a minute, and the others said hi when they saw me. 

i watched people play whirly ball for a bit, chilled while the first band played, then while the next band set up i went and found a bar chair in the lobby. one of the OTHER guys from the facebook fan group came and said hi and gave me an envelope with a ton of cool MoAM flyers in it. he also printed one of the pictures i took at the friday show and made me a custom record with that as the insert cover. it was fucking awesome but unexpected, i hadnt seen this guy all weekend even though he was at the other georgia shows. 

this was an all ages show so there were a few kids there. (including coco’s kid, she was adorable). pretty standard set again. i was feeling kinda crappy so this show felt weird to me, but it was still a lot of fun. at the end they pulled up a few kids to play bass and drums, and it was awesome. i found those kids after the show and gave em some stickers. they were so excited. 

i waited around after the show for a while again. avona nova told me she was gonna find the merch they brought so i could get some pins for my friends but mostly i didnt want to leave. she also asked if i wanted to take another picture with all 4 of them but star crunch and birdstuff were out of sight so i just took one with her, and then coco. shes so sweet. 

i met one more dude from the facebook group, this time a guy that came with his kid. they were both so excited to be there and it was adorable. he saw one of the pictures i had posted of a huge leaf i found at the georgia botanical gardens and showed me one he had taken earlier that day of his son with the same type of big fucking leaf (it was as big as him!). I gave them some stickers, and then they left. i think they had a bit of a drive. 

i hung around for a bit longer, talked to a few more people but there wasnt anything special really. some ladies really liked the jumpsuit i wore (lol). eventually i was ready to leave and birdstuff gave me a hug ( :)) ). he was worried about me driving back and offered to find me a hotel room. he also said to “make sure you stop at a rest stop if you start getting tired” which is exactly what my mom would say, lmao. it was sweet though. i said goodbye to him and daniel (the sound guy) and left. 

i got gas and then cried while i was driving because i had such a perfect weekend and i wasnt really ready for it to end. but like i was getting sick and ready to go home. anyway i drove home overnight (like 10 hours). 

anyway i had the most fun i’ll probably ever have for the rest of my life and it was worth the long fucking drive. my only regret is being too anxious to eat and not doing more shopping. 

thanks for reading this, if you did in fact do so. part of this was just to act as a journal if i want to go back and look at it later. 

sorry its so long. 

[fanfic-inator795]

2018 Year in Review

Finally got some time to sit down and do this! Thank you to @amber474 for tagging me!

Top 5 films you watched in 2018

- Spiderman: Into the Spider Verse. I don’t even care about Spiderman that much and I still loved this movie!

- Early Man. Not my favorite Aardman movie - that’s still Pirates! Band of Misfits with Chicken Run being a very close second - but still cute and fun!

- Black Panther. Best (live action) superhero movie since Wonder Woman!

- Crazy Rich Asians. SOOOOOOO GOOD! Absolutely loved it!

- Hotel Transylvania 3. Still a fun, cartoony franchise that I like to watch when I’m in the mood. Also that so called ‘cringey’ ending was hilarious, fight me.

Top 5 TV shows in 2018

Iiiiii admittedly don’t watch a ton of new shows, simply because it takes me forever to actually sit down and start something. I continued watching shows like Grey’s Anatomy, Bob’s Burgers, The Good Doctor, My Hero Academia and various cooking shows and cartoons that seem to have random release schedules, but I didn’t really keep up with all the hyped up new shows on Netflix or Crunchyroll (the latter I don’t even have). 

I think the only new shows I watched this year and actually kept watching were Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (an awesome cartoon that I’m SO glad I was eventually able to get into) and Making It (a fun crafting competition show that my mom got me into, lol). Also Unikitty and Aggretsuko, did those shows come out this year? I honestly can’t remember, lol. Also: shoutout to Mighty Magiswords, which ended this year. I still need to catch up on Season 2 admittedly but I just enjoyed Season 1 of this show so much and I miss it...

Top 5 Songs of 2018

The Middle, Girls Like You, Shallow, Is That Alright, and High Hopes (these are all just random top 100s that I just liked listening to whenever they came on the radio, lol)

Top 5 Books You Read in 2018

Lol, iiiiiiii mostly just read comics, manga and fanfics this year - though I did finally get around to buying the book that ‘Love Simon’ is based off of, so hopefully I read that this year.

Though, shoutout to @onthespectrumwriting, cause for the past couple months I’ve been binge reading their excellent TMNT fics - including the awesome AU story ‘Three Days to Live’. Even if I don’t have the time to read full books these days, I’m so glad I still have awesome fanfics to read! ^v^

Five good/positive things that happened to you in 2018

- All the way back in January I was able to quit my job at Walmart and work somewhere that, while still having some frustrations and annoyances, has a much better working environment and better pay/benefits overall

- My parents adopted a new kitty named Thunder! It took a bit of time for her and their other pets to get used to each other, but they all warmed up to each other eventually and Thunder seems very happy in her new home ^v^

- I was once again able to go to GenCon with Tessa and have a blast playing all the tabletop games, and I hope we’re able to have just as much fun together at Anime Iowa this year! ^v^

- I was able to write several original short pieces of writing, publishing them on my own portfolio site. I’ve still got plenty of ideas, so here’s hoping this year I can write even more and hopefully get a couple of them professionally published!

- Ummmmmmm... Iiiiii can’t think of a fifth one so I’m just gonna say the moment from a few days ago where my brother and I won over 1600 tickets on one game of Wheel of Fortune at Fun City, lol. 

Alrighty! I’m gonna tag @mitkitty , @prismatoons, @rinnysega and @darkwingsnark