Fraying Hearstrings
we were so beautiful, we were so tragic
The saying goes that time heals all wounds, yet with every tick of the clock, it feels like the cuts in your heart become shallower while the pain only burrows deeper.
“That was so embarrassing. Why would you do that?” Jaehyun's voice slices through the tension in the room, sharp and unforgiving, as he tosses his things onto the sofa, hastily following after you. His hair is disheveled, the stress showing in the wrinkles of his crumpled dress shirt.
“Embarrassing? Really, Jaehyun?" you snap, turning to face him. Your finger jabs into his chest before his hand grips your wrist with a force that’s all too unfamiliar. You flinch, momentarily stunned by the person in front of you—your husband, or at least, the man who used to be.
“Yes! You were embarrassing,” he seethes, shoving your arm away. “Throwing a tantrum like some kid who didn’t get their way? In front of my colleagues, my boss—God! Do you ever think before pulling stunts like that?”
He scoffs, letting his gaze rake over your tear-streaked face with a disdain that cuts deeper than any words.
“Or were you too busy trying to prove you were ‘right’ with your baseless accusations?”
A bitter laugh escapes you, disbelief spreading across your features. You cross your arms, trying to shield yourself from the hurt threatening to spill out. "Baseless? Are you kidding me, Jaehyun? I saw you, with another woman, sitting on your lap!"
"Keep your voice down. The kids are asleep!"
You scoff, voice trembling with both rage and heartbreak. "Now you care about the kids? After everything, you suddenly care about them? Is it because you're scared they'll realize their parents' marriage is a farce, that it’s not as perfect as we pretend it is? Or is it because you’re scared they’ll figure out their father’s a lying, cheating bastard?”
You stand there, the air thick with tension, your heart pounding as Jaehyun’s expression shifts from anger to something almost unreadable. For a moment, it seems like he might say something—apologize, perhaps, or at least try to explain himself. But instead, he just runs a hand through his hair, frustration etched into his features.
“Look, can we just—” he starts, but the words die on his lips when you shake your head, the gravity of the situation pulling you further from him.
“No,” you reply, your voice steadier than you feel. “You don’t get to just brush this off. I can’t believe you’d think I’d let it slide after what I saw.”
He opens his mouth to argue, but you hold up your hand, cutting him off. “I deserve better than this, Jaehyun. Better than to be treated like a fool. You’ve made your choice.”
His eyes flash with something that looks like guilt, and for a brief moment, it feels like you’re peering into the depths of his soul. But then he masks it with defiance. “You’re overreacting. You don’t know the whole story!”
“Then tell me!” you challenge, desperation creeping into your voice. “What could possibly justify you sitting with another woman like that?”
He falters, his bravado slipping as he grapples with his own defense. “It wasn’t what you think. She was just—”
“Just what?” You interject, your voice rising with frustration. “Just a friend? Just work-related? I’m done with the excuses!”
Jaehyun’s shoulders tense, his anger flaring again. “You think you can just accuse me and then walk away? This is ridiculous!”
“Ridiculous? You’re the one who was caught! You’re the one who made a fool out of me!”
The room crackles with tension, each word throwing more fuel on the fire. “Maybe you should have thought about that before you made such a scene!” He shoots back, his voice rising.
“Maybe I wouldn’t have to if you weren’t so careless!” You yell, frustration boiling over. “You’ve turned this marriage into a joke, and I’m sick of it!”
He scoffs, shaking his head. “You think I wanted this? You think I wanted to be here fighting with you? Maybe we’re just better off apart!”
The words hang in the air, sharp and stinging. You freeze, your heart racing at the sudden clarity in his statement.
“Are you serious right now?” You demand, disbelief etched on your face.
“Yeah, I am!” He snaps back, anger and hurt twisting his features. “Maybe we’re just tired of trying to fix something that’s already broken!”
A bitter silence follows, the realization settling in like a heavy weight. You look at him, eyes blazing, and for the first time, you see how worn down he truly is.
“Fine,” you say, voice trembling with emotion. “If that’s how you feel, then maybe we should just stop fighting it.”
“Maybe we should,” He replies, his voice cold and distant.
With that, the air between you shifts, the warmth of your connection replaced by a chilling reality. You turn away, tears threatening to spill as you grapple with the decision that has emerged from the chaos. This fight may have revealed the truth you both have been too afraid to confront: it’s time to let go.
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Relationship with Daryl Dixon (headcanons)
This is my first experience writing headcanons, but I have a lot to say! And yes, I used a gif from Beth, but we don't support that pairing here, guys.....
Also, thanks to the author of the gif!
Pronouns: she/her (fem!reader) / (I'll do headcanons for Daryl's relationship for gender-neutral readers later on)
Pairing: Daryl Dixon/fem!reader (Y/N)
Warnings: no, not this time. Everything is decent (underage readers can read)
• Daryl Dixon is far from stupid. I mean, he can certainly tell the difference between romantic interest and friendly sympathy. He has Carol, his best friend, and he knows that he feels for her the kind of platonic friendly love he usually feels for a family member. But that's not the case with you. Sure, you've most likely known Daryl for a long time (assuming you joined Rick's group at any point from Atlanta to Prison, can pick at your discretion). So since you've known each other for a while, Daryl has had time to realize that his feelings for you are far from friendly. All the tenderness and care that he feels for you hardly compares to friendship. Daryl definitely didn't feel like kissing Carol's lips every time she came into his field of vision. That's the difference.
• But realizing your feelings is only halfway there. Daryl isn't the type to make the first move and declare his love. He's a very insecure person because of his past, so it would be hard for him to believe that someone like you would want someone like him. Daryl will just watch over you from the sidelines, he will make sure you are safe and will always be there to protect you. Even if it's just a harmless fall down the stairs when you were arranging jars of canned fruit on the top shelf in the Alexandria pantry. He will notice that the stepladder beneath you is wobbling dangerously and will be there to catch you and prevent you from bruising any part of your body. He will take great care of you.
• Daryl is probably the type of man who idolizes and admires the girl he's in love with. Both her character and inner world, as well as her looks. He would spend hours just looking at your unconditionally beautiful face. Every mole, every freckle, every wrinkle in the corner of your eyes when you smile. God, he could never get enough. Every part of you is perfect. Daryl's not sure he's ever seen a more beautiful woman. I mean, he probably had a soft spot for women he personally thought were pretty in the past, but it was never more than a glance in their direction. Just trying to say that Daryl isn't a pristine and innocent man who never thought about women. Over the many years of his maybe not the most prosperous life, Daryl has definitely had his fair share of beautiful women. But it had always been respectful. Mental admiration from the sidelines. Daryl never "barked" or "bit" like Merle. Daryl is much more respectful of women.
• That's why he likes to watch from the sidelines and think about you. A lot of thinking. Daryl is indeed a man of few words, but he has more than enough to think about. And when he falls in love, you become the center. Except when Daryl has to think about survival or when he and Rick are making a plan of action to save the group. But rest assured, all of Daryl's free time is spent thinking about you. He's very observant and remembers every little thing about you so he can think about it later. Do you like to read? Daryl will listen to you talk about your favorite books and find them during one of your outings, rest assured. Do you like wildflowers? Great, a bouquet of a hundred of them will be waiting for you on the doorstep of your Alexandria home when you come home after a hard day's work. Maybe you like a certain kind of clothing? Like something knit? Daryl will either find it during the outing or ask Carol to help with it when she's not busy. He won't say who it's for, but Carol certainly knows. And after you get those little gifts, Daryl will watch you smile widely because you know who left them under your door. And Daryl will think about your smile until he falls asleep at night. But he'll only dream about you, too.
• Somehow you were the first to admit your feelings because Daryl is actually cowardly about these things. A man can take on walkers or hostile people with his bare hands (like the Saviors), but he definitely can't just go and tell someone he really likes how he feels. No, you have to push him. And hints aren't enough, you have to say it outright. And then probably prove the sincerity of your words of love for the rest of your life, because Daryl Dixon is a very insecure man. He knows in his brain that you really do love him and will be faithful to him, but those childhood traumas are really getting in the way of his life. Be prepared for that.
• Your relationship with Daryl will gain momentum gradually. I don't think Daryl really likes all these formalities and labels like "girlfriend" and "boyfriend". You're just his and he's just yours. There's no need to complicate it all, the world of the zombie apocalypse is already very complicated. But if you care about dates and formalities, surely Daryl can learn to take it seriously. Not right away, but he will. Just give him time and he'll lay the whole world at your feet. And he'll start marking your anniversary with a marker on his calendar so that he definitely won't miss this important day for you (he won't admit it, but for him too). Daryl will be learning and you'll have to be a good mentor in this relationship for the first few years. It will be worth it, trust me.
• Daryl Dixon gets attached to people easily. He's like a big loyal dog. I mean, have you seen how loyal he is to Rick and Carol? He bites at first, doesn't want to let anyone in, but eventually he gives in and lets you take his heart and soul under his protection. Take care of that. My point is that this is the same way love works in Daryl's case. I'm pretty sure Daryl doesn't believe in the concept of love at first sight and stuff, he rather believes that love only comes about through the process of a relationship. So at first he thinks you are just a pretty woman. Then a friend. Then a good friend. And yes, he may feel sympathy, affection and probably crush at this time, but not love. No, he falls in love with you gradually. It's a slow process, but in Daryl's case it will be forever. He's definitely a one-woman man. And when he allows himself to really love you and not just be a little bit in love, when his heart completely belongs to you and he finally says "I love you" with all seriousness and responsibility, rest assured that this is love. This man will show you what true love is. Safe, sincere, and endlessly committed. Just give him time. Let him love you.
• The following headcanon (though I think it's unqualified canon) about Daryl's loyalty follows from this. You may try to be jealous of him or think he'll fall in love with someone else (it all depends on your confidence), but Daryl will prove time and time again that he's only loyal to you. This man is serious about his and your feelings and your relationship. Therefore, he will not give not a single reason for jealousy. But there could be quite a few women around (and men probably too) who might like Daryl. He doesn't care, he will never look at anyone else. Why would he do that when he has you? You're perfect for him and his heart doesn't belong to him anymore. So if Daryl notices your jealousy and insecurity, he'll spend all his time trying to prove to you that you're the one for him. He's deeply committed. To Rick, to Carol, to Maggie, to Alexandria. He's eternally devoted to you.
• The relationship with Daryl will be full of complexities, let's not turn a blind eye to that. He's a complicated man with a lot of trauma behind him. The situation is more acute if you're a complicated person, too. There's a lot to put up with. Probably a lot of fighting at the beginning of the relationship, especially if we're talking about Daryl from the first seasons of the show. But if you're both willing to work on that relationship, it will work well. Again, not right away, but it will. Daryl is sure that his love for you will be enough for both of you and certainly for solving all your problems in this relationship. He will try his best for you and you will try your best for him too.
• Physical intimacy is probably going to be difficult. Daryl's not a fan of close physical contact, especially with someone he can't call his family. You know, the boy had a shitty childhood. But he feels the need to feel the warmth of your skin on his skin. So he may unknowingly touch you before your relationship even begins. It could just be a "casual" hand collision when you both reached for the same item on the shelf. Or he may lightly touch your shoulder when he needs to get your attention and say something to you. You shouldn't pressure him with this and force a hug or anything like that. He will definitely come to it on his own when he's comfortable and he sees that you're okay with it. As your relationship progresses, he will open up to new types of physical contact more quickly. Sure he'll hug you a lot, try to hold your hand in his, but it's all in private. And of course kissing. I think Daryl actually likes kissing, but he's not very good at it for lack of much experience. Teach him how to kiss well if you have enough experience yourself. He'll be a good student. Especially when it comes to lessons involving his lips on yours. I'm pretty sure Daryl will become very clingy as your relationship progresses. When you're alone together, he won't be able to feel comfortable unless his arms are around you in one way or another. He physically needs to hold you, to bump his nose into your neck and hair to smell your scent, which he loves so much. And of course kissing. Gentle kisses or passionate French kisses, he loves it all.
• Daryl definitely doesn't like the display of attachment on the publick. He considers it yours and his alone. Something private that needs to be kept out of the public eye. Well, he's also pissed off by those ambiguous looks Carol and Rick give him after you call him "baby" or "cutie" in public. But Daryl is willing to hold your hands and will even let you kiss him on the cheek in public if he's in a good mood. He'll save the rest for the two of you alone in your sweet home in Alexandria.
• As for intimacy, everything is ambiguous here. I think for Daryl it is not at all a mandatory aspect of the relationship. If you are asexual, he will have absolutely no problem with this. You are more than enough. The opportunity to see you smile, hug you and make you happy is all he needs. Sex is not necessary and Daryl can definitely live without it if you are not interested in sexual relations. But if you are not against it, then he will be happy to please you. I mean, he does it every day just by existing and loving you, but if he can please you in a sexual sense, he will be happy to do so. But again, not right away. You both will go to this gradually. Trial and error. Only when he completely opens up to you and is not ashamed of his scars, knowing that you love them completely and completely because they are a part of him. But most importantly, when you yourself tell him that you are also ready, then you can act. Daryl has some experience. Merle ordered Daryl... a prostitute for his twenty-first birthday and Daryl had to do it. I think he was the one feeling like a prostitute, not the woman. And maybe he's slept with random women from a bar a couple of times after drinking too much. But it was never anything special and not out of great desire. With you, it's different. Sex with you is his way of showing you love in a new way. Either way, he knows how it works, but you still need to guide him. Show him how you like it and help him the first few times. Daryl is a quick learner, especially if you help him. So pretty soon he'll memorize all the right places and positions to make you feel good as hell, nothing less. Daryl will make sure that you feel good first.
• Your comfort is Daryl's absolute priority. Over the years, he will learn to compromise and give in when necessary. Daryl loves you unconditionally and is ready to be on his knees in front of you, this is what you have done to him with your love and tenderness. Daryl Dixon has become soft and fluffy around you. Just for you. Merle would call him a pansy and laugh, but Daryl doesn't care. Not anymore. You're all he cares about.
• You're his safe place. His home. His heart and soul belong to you, take care of it. And then Daryl Dixon will move mountains for you, you bet he will.
~ A cute little headcanon as a bonus: I honestly think the soundtrack of the relationship with Daryl, is the song: The Goo Goo Dolls - Iris.
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Doing It All For Us (Pt. 5)
Masterlist
Rafe Cameron x Reader
Summary: Midsummerrrssss and sex :P
Warnings: Smut, language, alcohol,
Word Count: 4.5k+
Midsummers had finally arrived and you were ecstatic. Courtney had been telling you all about it for years and it always sounded so amazing. The fact that you'd be walking in with the Cameron's made it even more exciting.
In the short amount of time you'd been on the island, you'd become the official Kook Queen. People feared you and that fueled your fire. Even though your dad was never around, everyone knew who he was and respected him.
You'd made a reputation for yourself. You weren't one to fuck with. You were loyal to your friends. And you and Rafe were a packaged deal. When it came to him, you were a lioness, ready to protect him at all costs. He did the same for you.
"You look amazing!" Courtney gushed as she looked over your dress. It was light blue, to match Rafe's suit. Floor length and silk, it hugged your body just right. Slits coming up both sides, dangerously close to exposing you. Your breasts pressed against the fabric perfectly, showing just the right amount of cleavage.
"Thanks, Court! So do you!"
You and Courtney sported matching hair. Straight and long. Simple, but the two of you made it look breath taking. You decided against your regular gold body jewelry and opted for the silver necklace Rafe had gotten you. A diamond studded R hung from the simple chain and it was absolutely gorgeous. You were proud to wear it. Proud to make it known that you belonged to him.
"So, are you nervous to meet his family?" Courtney asked.
"Yeah, kind of," You admit. "I just hope they like me."
"What's not to like?"
"I don't know, maybe the fact that I'm a violent junkie who's richer than everyone on the island, including them." You say, anxiety coating your voice.
Courtney sighs. "Listen," She starts as she picks up your brush and runs it through your hair. "You're strong and smart as hell. You hold your own and you'd do anything for Rafe. Just be yourself. They are going to love you."
You smile at her in the mirror and nod. "Okay," You agree.
"Y/N?" You hear Rafe call from downstairs.
Your stomach drops. "Fuck, I'm not ready for this."
"Here," Courtney says, pouring you a shot and handing it to you. You throw it back quickly and ask for another. She pours you one and you drink again. "Now go be the bad bitch you are!" She says, pressing a kiss to your temple.
You and Courtney make your way downstairs. You stop in your tracks when you see Rafe. Holy shit. His hair was slicked back, blue suit and bow tie, flowers in his hand. You swear you'd never seen a more perfect person in your life.
Courtney ran and jumped into Kelce's arms. You snapped out of your trance and walked over to Rafe. You could see a nervousness on his face.
"Oh my God," He said. "Y-You look like an angel."
You bit your lip, looking down to hide the red glossing over your cheeks.
"You don't look half bad yourself, Cameron." You said with a nervous giggle.
"What are you two like in the fourth grade?" Kelce asked. Him and Courtney laughing at your nervous exchange.
Rafe shot him a look.
"We're gonna head out," Courtney says, pushing Kelce towards the door. "We'll see you guys there!"
"Uhm, these are for you," Rafe said as he handed you the bouquet of pink and black roses. Your favorite.
"They're beautiful," You say with a smile. You walk over to the kitchen and grab a vase. Setting the flowers up in the middle of the island.
"Baby," Rafe says as he walks over to you. "You look so fucking perfect."
Before you could say anything, his lips were pressed to yours, kissing you hungrily. You knew you were going to have to fix your lipstick but you didn't care. You brought your hand up, running your fingers through the back of his hair and you pulled him deeper into the kiss.
"Hands where I can see them," You heard your dad enter the room.
Rafe backed off quickly, holding his hands up in surrender.
"Dad," You hissed. "What are you doing here?" You hadn't even heard him come in.
Your dad just laughs. "Don't worry, son," He says, placing a hand on Rafe's shoulder. "I don't own a shot gun."
Rafe relaxes with a nervous chuckle. "Good to see you again, Mr. Y/L/N."
"Please, call me Elliot." He says with a smile. "I assume you are taking my daughter to Midsummers?"
"Uh, yes sir. We were just about to head over to meet my family."
"Dad," You interrupt. "What are you doing home? I thought you were gone this week."
"I head out again in the morning," He said. "But I have a few business strategies to run by some folks at Midsummers tonight. Including Mr. Cameron." He says as he looks to Rafe again.
"I-I'm sure my dad would appreciate that, Sir." Rafe says with a smile.
"Okay, well, we have to get going," You say as you pull Rafe towards the door. "See you tonight, dad!"
"Drive safe!" He calls after you.
Once you reach Rafe's truck, he pulls the door open for you and helps you in. Once he's in the drivers side, he lets out a sigh of relief.
"Sorry. I had no clue my dad was going to be home."
"It's okay, baby girl," He said, placing his hand on your thigh. "Just, caught me off guard is all."
You smile at him. "You look so handsome."
He looked away as his cheeks turned bright red, making you giggle.
"Let's go," He said, starting the car. "Rose will kill us if we're late."
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"Wow," You said as you pulled into Tanneyhill. "This is beautiful."
"Yeah, uh, Rose works really hard on the garden."
Rafe goes to get out of the truck but you stop him. "Rafe?" You ask, a tinge of fear in your voice.
"Yeah, baby? What's up?"
"Uhm...What do your parents know about me? Do they know about the...uh...the overdose." You ask disappointed in yourself.
"Y/N, baby," He starts, cupping your cheek and brushing his thumb across your skin. "Look, I have no idea what they've heard but I know they will love you. And we are both clean now. That's what matters."
You smile at him. You always got lost in his ocean eyes. The way his eyes could change from a calm sea to a hurricane in an instant was one of the many things that turned you on about Rafe Cameron.
"You ready?" He asks.
You shake your nerves away. "Yeah, I'm ready."
Rafe comes around and helps you out of the truck, being careful of your dress.
You cling to his arm as he walks you up to the front door and into the house.
"Dad!" He yells as you enter the home.
You swallow your nerves and put on your confident front.
"You're late," A young girl scolds at she enters the foyer.
"No, we're not, Wheeze."
"Who's this?" She asks, looking you over.
"Wheezie, this is my girlfriend, Y/N. Y/N, this is my youngest sister, Wheezie."
"Nice to meet you," You beam.
She offers you a small smile. "You too,"
"Wheezie, go tell your sister it's time to go." A tall blond walks into the room, fiddling with her earring. "Ah! You must be Y/N!" She squeals as she comes over and hugs you. You were taken aback but returned the hug. You watched as Rafe rolled his eyes. "I'm Rose!"
"It's really good to meet you!" You say with a big smile. Happy that his family was taking to you well.
"Ward! Y/N and Rafe are here!" Rose yells. This makes your stomach turn slightly. Rafe has told you all about his father and you know how badly he wants his dad to accept him.
"Coming, honey," Ward says as he steps out of his office. You could feel Rafe tense up at the sight of his father. You brush your thumb over his, reminding him you're there. "Son, good to see you," He says as he approaches you and Rafe. Then he turns to look at you.
"Dad, this is Y/N." Rafe says without hesitation. "She's my girlfriend."
Ward gives you a kind smile. "Y/N Y/L/N," He says. "It's a pleasure to meet you. I'm looking forward to meeting your father tonight."
"He's looking forward to it as well, Mr. Cameron." You say, confidence filling your voice. You knew your dad had influence over the island. Whether Ward really liked you or not, he was going to respect you. And seeing the way you clung to his sons arm seemed to make him almost proud. The fact that his son was now dating you gave him an instant in to doing business with your dad.
"Y/N! Rafe!" You heard Toppers voice cut through the moment.
You turn to see him and Sarah descending the stairs. "Hey, Y/N," Sarah says. Offering nothing but a glare to her brother.
Topper approaches you and gives you a hug and dapping Rafe up.
"Are we all ready to go then?" Rose asks, impatiently ushering everyone out the door.
"I'll drive Y/N, Topper, and Sarah." Rafe offers.
"Okay perfect. We will meet you all there." Ward says.
Rafe helps you into his truck and Topper and Sarah climb in the back. Sarah seems less than happy to be here but you couldn't care less.
"Y/N," Topper says, leaning forward and offering you his flask.
"Oh thank God," You say as you take the flask and begin to chug.
"Hey, Top?" Rafe says as he backs out of the driveway. "Don't get my girlfriend wasted." He scolds.
"Just gonna get a little buzzed," You promised your boyfriend before handing the flask back.
Rafe smiles at you as he drives. His arm rested on the center console and you ran your fingers over his open palm.
"They like you," He said, grinning from ear to ear.
"They like her dad's money," Sarah scoffs.
"Sarah," Topper hisses.
"What was that?" You turn and look at her.
"Oh you really think you're anything special? Rafe's just dating you so my dad will let him back into the house." Sarah spits.
You feel Rafe's hand on your chest, pressing you back against the seat as he slams on the breaks.
"What the fuck, Rafe!" You hear Sarah yell.
Rafe turns around and points his index finger in her face. "Don't you EVER say some fucking dumb shit like that again, Sarah!" He says, chest heaving. "You don't know shit about me or my relationship and if you wanna keep running your mouth I'll kick you out right here and you can walk your sorry ass to the club."
You smile, loving the way Rafe stands up for you.
He turns back around and places a kiss on your cheek before settling back into his seat and driving off.
You can hear Sarah and Topper bickering in the back seat as Rafe clutches your hand tightly. You run your fingers over his skin in attempts to calm him down.
As much as you didn't want to believe it, Sarah's words lingered in your head.
When you pulled up to the club, it was already packed with people. Sarah and Topper got out to meet up with Rose and Ward. You began walking with them but Rafe grabbed your wrist and pulled you back.
"Y/N, listen," He said, his eyes following Sarah as she walked off. "I don't know why Sarah is being such a bitch but I need you to know what she said isn't true."
"I know, Rafey," You said as you reached up and fixed his hair.
"Baby, whether my dad says I can come home or not I really don't care. As long as I have you I'm happy. There is nothing I want more than you."
You smile up at him. You believe every word he says. Sarah hasn't liked you from the beginning and you know her and Rafe had never been close. She was just trying to get under your skin.
Rafe cups your cheek and pulls you into a kiss. You smile against his lips as you savor the moment.
"Rafe!" Wards voice cuts through the air.
You pull away from each other quickly. Your cheeks turning red as you'd been caught for the second time today.
"Coming, dad!" Rafe shouts back. He holds out his arm to you and you link yours through it and smile up at him. "Shall we?" He asks.
People began clapping as the Cameron's entered the party. Rose and Ward walking in first. Rose's golden head piece making an instant talking point.
Topper, Sarah, and Wheezie just behind them.
You and Rafe walked in last and all eyes instantly fell to you. Rafe stood tall and proud knowing he had the islands prettiest girl hanging on his arm. You took confident strides, smiling and waving at people as you walked by.
"What an entrance," Courtney said as you approached her and Kelce. You flipped her off. She chuckled and handed you a glass of wine. "So, how was meeting the family?" She asked as she pulled you slightly away from the boys.
"It went really well for the most part," You said. "But Sarah..." You said as your eyes trailed to where her and Topper were arguing.
"Yeah, she's always been a bitch."
"She said Rafe was only dating me for his fathers approval." You confessed.
Courtney snorted. "That's a load of fucking shit. Rafe's been drooling over you since the second he saw you."
You smiled at her words. You knew deep down Rafe really loved you.
"I think...I think I'm going to do it. Tonight."
Courtney's eyes widened. "Really?! Oh my God I'm so proud of you!" She said as she brought you into a hug. "Are you positive you're ready?"
You nod your head excitedly. "I love Rafe so much. I want it to be him."
Courtney gives you a genuine smile. "I'm really, really happy for you, Sunflower. Rafe's a good guy. I like him."
You beam up at her. "Me too."
You feel Rafe's arm snake around your waist as he pulls you close and kisses the top of your head. "What are you ladies talking about?"
"Oh, just girl talk!" Courtney shrugs.
"Greeeeat," Kelce intervenes. "They're probably talking shit."
"Exactly." You confirm with a shit eating grin before sipping your wine.
"Man, fuck this shit!" Topper said as he approached your little group. He stole Kelce's drink and downed it quickly.
"Alright, alright, guess we're getting shitfaced." Rafe laughs.
"Your sister's a bitch man," Topper snarls.
"Tell me about it," Rafe says, taking a sip of his beer.
"She's cheating on me. I know it."
"Fuck Top, I'm sorry." You said, resting a hand on his shoulder. "You deserve better."
Topper laughs. "I, uhhh, I'm pretty sure it's John B."
"What?" Courtney asks. "She's sneaking off with a fucking Pogue?"
"Why can't they just stay on their goddamn side of the island?" You add as you glare over to where Kiara and Pope were standing.
"Come on," Courtney says dragging you to the dance floor. "Let's have fun!"
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You were smiling up at Rafe as you swayed to the music. Feeling lost in the moment when people started clapping again.
You look over to see your dad entering the party. You sigh and lean your head into Rafe's chest.
He smiles and runs his fingers through your hair. "We should probably go say hi." He says.
You nod in agreement. "Fine,"
You make your way over to where your dad and Ward were talking.
"Ah, there they are!" Ward says as you approach. "He places his hand on Rafe's shoulder. Beaming with pride. "Elliot, this is my son, Rafe."
"We've met!" Elliot smiles. "Spends more time at my house than I do," He laughs.
Rafe smiles uncomfortably.
"You two seem to have gotten really close," Ward smiles at you.
"Yes sir," You respond. "Rafe's been really great to me since I moved here. Your son is really special, Mr. Cameron." You smile up at Rafe, lacing your fingers with his.
He glows at your words. "I love you," He mouths.
"I love you, too."
"You help your father out with the business, Rafe?" Your dad asks.
"I, uhm, I-"
"He does!" Ward interjects. "He's been on a bit of a break, you know, to be there for Y/N. But now that she's doing better I think he's ready to get back to work."
Your father looked at you, slight disappointment in his face at the fact that the island knows about your overdose. You bite your lip as your eyes fall to the floor.
"Well thank you for being there for her," Elliot says. "It's nice to know she's in good hands when I'm away."
"Of course, sir." Rafe says. "I'll always be there for her."
"You kids go have fun," Elliot says. "Ward and I have a lot to discuss." He smiles.
"See you later dad, Mr. Cameron." You nod in their direction before pulling Rafe away quickly.
"My dad wants me back at work," Rafe said with a smile.
"That's great, babe! He seems proud of you."
Rafe gushes, smile wide on his face and it makes your heart swell to see him so happy.
Courtney and Kelce come stomping over to you. "JJ's here," Courtney announces. You glare in JJ's direction as you see him pass something to Sarah.
"You know? I could go for a drink. What about you Kelce?" Rafe asks.
"Yeah, I'm feeling a bit thirsty myself." Kelce responds.
You and Courtney watch as the boys head off in JJ's direction.
"When will they learn?" Courtney sighs.
"RIP to JJ," You laugh as you watch the boys take off after JJ and chase him through the club.
"So," Courtney says as she turns to look at you. "Did you tell Rafe you wanna do the dirty tonight?" She teases.
"No. I want it to like happen naturally."
"Are you nervous?"
"Kind of. I mean yes and no. I just want to make him feel good."
"Remember what I taught you," Courtney winks.
Topper approaches you, drink in hand, wearing a look of irritation.
"What happened, Top?" Courtney asks.
"Saw Sarah talking to someone. When I asked her about it she denied it but it's so fucking obvious."
"You can do better, Top. If she wants to be a Pogue then she can go live on the Cut." You say.
"I'm sorry for what she said in the truck," Topper says.
"It's not your fault she likes to run her mouth, Top."
"Yeah, but she's wrong for that. I was there the night Rafe saw you for the first time. If that wasn't love at first sight then I don't know what is. He hasn't shut up about you since."
You couldn't help the smile that spread across your face.
The three of you turn to look at the commotion that suddenly started. JJ was being dragged from the club by security.
"Hey baby," You heard Rafe say from behind you as he wrapped his arms around you and rested his chin on your head.
"What'd you guys do?" Courtney laughed.
"Just told him where he belongs," Kelce said as he stood beside her.
"Safe travels back to the Cut!" Courtney yelled as the four Pogues walked away from the club.
You turned around in Rafe's arms and wrapped your arms up around his neck. "What do you say we go back to your place?" You suggest, giving him lustful eyes as you pull your bottom lip between your teeth.
Rafe smiles down at you knowingly. "We're gonna head out guys," He announces, not taking his eyes off yours. "We'll see you tomorrow," He begins to usher you out of the party before you could even say bye to your friends.
"Subtle," Kelce chuckles.
Courtney smiles as she watches you walk away, skipping happily alongside Rafe as the two of you hurry out to his truck.
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The ride back to Tanneyhill was full of sexual tension. You were both quiet for the short drive back but you could feel yourself getting more aroused with each passing second.
Rafe helped you out of the truck and led you inside. The rest of the Cameron's were still at the party so you had the house to yourselves.
The second the door closed behind you his lips were on yours. Kissing and nipping at your lips down to your neck. You jumped up and wrapped your legs around him. He gripped your ass tightly as you went at each other hungrily.
"Take me to your room," You breathe. Rafe did as you asked, careful not to trip up the stairs as he carried you.
Once you were inside his room he put you down. Still keeping his lips locked on yours as he ripped his jacket off and threw it to the floor. He brought his hands up to cup your face. "I love you," He whispered between kisses.
"I love you too, Rafey." You smiled. You reached behind you and unzipped your dress. Rafe watched you as it fell to the floor. Staring at you intently, taking in all of your beauty.
You stood before him in your bra and panties and bit your lip. He loosened his bow tie and unbuttoned his shirt, adding it to the growing pile of clothes on the floor before picking you up and carrying you to the bed. He let out a moan as you sucked at the sweet spot on his neck, leaving as many marks on him as you could.
He unhooked your bra and pulled it off of you slowly. He kissed his way down your neck and chest before sucking on your left nipple, palming the other one as he did.
"Fuck, babe." You moaned. You could feel his erection growing against your core.
"Is this okay?" He whispered against your skin.
"Yes, baby, please keep going." You beg.
Rafe kisses you down your stomach, running his fingers over your clothed pussy. You squirm beneath him, silently begging for him to do more.
He places kisses up and down your thighs. Feeling his breath on your skin sent shockwaves through your body. You felt him tuck his fingers under the hem of your panties and pull them slowly from your body. You were completely exposed to him now.
"So fucking beautiful," He says against your skin. "I want to make you feel so good."
Before you could say anything his tongue was exploring your folds. "Holy fuck!" You cry out at the sensation. Your fingers found his hair and you grasped onto him for dear life as he tongued circles around your clit.
Your legs were over his shoulders and you were afraid you were going to suffocate him as you climbed to your high.
"Oh...my god," You moan. "I'm gonna...I'm-"
You couldn't even get your words out as you reached your orgasm, your body vibrated as you squirted on Rafe's face.
You gasped and clamped your hands over your mouth, completely embarrassed at what you'd just done.
Rafe looked up at you wide eyed and smiling. "Holy fuck, that was hot." He panted.
"I'm sorry! I didn't know I could do that!"
Rafe crawled back up your body and pressed his lips to yours. "Do NOT apologize. You're fucking amazing." He says as he licks his lips. "You taste so fucking good."
You smile and pull him in to kiss him again. His hands run freely up and down your body and you can't deny that you want him. Need him.
"Rafe," You whisper. "I need you."
Rafe pauses for a moment, lips hovering over yours as he looks you in the eyes. "Are you sure, baby?"
You nod eagerly. "Yes. Yes, please." You find yourself begging again.
He smiles and quickly stands up, ridding himself of his pants and boxers.
You bite your lip with both nerves and excitement as you take in his size.
He climbs back into the bed, pulling you under the covers with him. He places kisses all over your face as his hand strokes your hair.
"You really want this?" He asks, unsure of himself.
"Yes, Rafe. I'm in love with you. I want it to be you." You respond.
He presses a kiss to your forehead. "I'm in love with you too." He says. He positions himself between your legs, running his tip through your folds. "It's going to hurt for a second, babe." He told you.
"I know."
"I'll go slow,"
"Okay," You nod, clinging to his biceps.
He lines himself up at your soaking entrance and slowly pushes into you.
"Ow, ow, ow!" You cry as your fingers dig in to his skin.
"Do you want me to stop?"
"No, keep going." You demand.
Once he bottoms out he stays still, smiling down at you. "Are you okay baby?" He asks as he lets you adjust to his size.
"You're fucking huge," You laugh.
Rafe smiles and kisses you again. You run your fingers through his hair as you enjoy the feeling of him inside you.
"Do you want me to move?"
You nodded needily. "Yes, please."
He pulled out slowly and pushed back into you again. The first few thrusts hurt but as he kept going it began to feel good. Really fucking good.
"Go faster," You breathed.
You kept your hands tangled in his hair as he rested his head against your shoulder, thrusting into you faster. He brought his thumb down to circle your clit and and your breath hitched at the sensation.
"Fuck, baby, I'm close." He whispered in your ear.
"Me too, oh my God."
You wrapped your legs around his body as you climaxed together.
His thrusts got sloppier as he released himself inside you. Your body vibrating under his.
Rafe was still inside you as you both fought to catch your breath.
"That was fucking amazing," You sigh.
Rafe pulled out of you and laid on his back beside you. "I'd do fucking anything for you," He admits, eyes closed and a smile wide on his face. "Are you okay? Does it hurt?"
"A little bit." You admit. You run your hands over your legs, feeling the wetness that lingers there. "Fuck, I'm bleeding." You say as you bring your hand up to examine it.
"That's okay. That's normal, baby. Let's go take a shower." Rafe says as he gets out of the bed.
You scoot towards the edge of the bed but Rafe picks you up and carries you to the bathroom.
"I'm sorry," You whisper as Rafe sets you down and starts the shower.
"Sorry for what, baby?"
"I'm bleeding everywhere." Your eyes begin to water.
He turns to you and cups your face, forcing you to look up at him. "Sweetheart," He begins. "You were a...a...you were a virgin. Bleeding is normal."
"I just don't want to make a mess."
"D-do you regret it?" Rafe asks, his voice almost pitiful.
"No!" You say without hesitation. "No, I don't regret it, baby. I'm just...overwhelmed." You give a small laugh.
"Let me take care of you, pretty girl." He says as he pulls you into the shower with him. He sits down and pulls you back against him.
You lean back and rest your head on his shoulder as he slowly spreads soap over your body.
"Do you realize how perfect you are?" He whispers in your ear. "I'm the luckiest man in the world."
"I can't remember what life was like without you," You confess. "Please don't leave me."
"Leave you?" He scoffs. "I can't live without you, Y/N." He reaches down and takes your hands in his. Rubbing his thumbs over your fingers. "One day I'm going to put a ring on your finger."
You smile at his words. "Endgame baby."
"Endgame." He promises.
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Landoscar, bookshop and coffee AU?
from here
eee this was unexpectedly fun. these are my most behated tropes but i actually enjoyed it hahaha.
so this snippet is like the start of this au :) i also added in enemies to lovers
Oscar is nervous, but prepared and excited. His shoulder aches with the weight of a well-filled leather bag, stacks of paper ready for whatever the realtor asks of him.
It was perfect. The property on the corner of Cornelia Street was exactly what he needed, what he’s been searching for for months for his bookstore. Arched windows, big doors, existing bookshelves and a kitchen section in the break room for peppermint tea.
He spent all week researching and gathering documents in order to make a good impression today.
His hands shake a little as he knocks on the locked door, puts his face up to the window to see if the lights are on yet when someone opens the door for him.
Oscar puts on his biggest smile and sticks out his hand. “Hi! Oscar Piastri, Jen, I’m assuming? We spoke on the phone Wednesday.”
“Ah, yes. Hi, Oscar. Come in please,” Jen replies and steps out of the doorway to let him by.
The main room is a little stuffy, but it’s exactly like the pictures he’d been staring at since the building was listed. Tall wooden ceilings with exposed beams, good existing light fixtures, and a beautiful herringbone floor.
“Wow. It’s as wonderful as the pictures,” he grins, eyes darting around to capture it all.
“It truly is,” Jen says with a smile. “So this is the main room of the property as you can see, and right back here is where the previous tenants had a till.”
It would need a little work, but- God. Oscar is truly enamoured. It feels so right, so perfect for his plans. Just big enough for a beginning bookstore, with the bones to expand into something even bigger and better.
“Okay, where do I sign?” Oscar asks.
Jen laughs at his eagerness and pulls out a form from her own bag. One of those big ones that Oscar’s sister always asked him to buy her.
“Well, Oscar, I have this form for you to fill out and then we can get the ball rolling. I do have to say, however, that I have one more person coming over soon for a viewing.”
Just then, the bell above the door chimes.
Oscar’s eyes dart over to the man that just entered his bookstore. He’s wearing a blue hoodie and loose jeans, and the kind of sneakers that Oscar just finds utterly obnoxious. Way too clean and white. The stranger’s hair is tussled in a curly mess above his head.
“Hiya,” he chirps. Oscar hates him already.
“Hi! I’m Jen, you must be Lando?”
Oscar watches them shake hands and do the awkward introductory dance around each other. He tears his eyes away from the shape of Lando’s nose and forces himself to take a couple of deep breaths.
In and out. In and out.
He’s filling out the form when he hears Lando yelp out, “I’ll take it! This will be perfect as the second location for LN Coffee.”
Within an instant, Oscar’s spine snaps up straight and he whips around to where the shrill of noise came from.
“Excuse me, hi,” Oscar starts, catching both of their attention. “Lando, is it?”
Lando nods.
“Okay, hi Lando. So I was here first and I was just filling out the application for this property so I’m afraid it’s off the market,” Oscar states, arms crossed in front of him and a smile that he knows screams bye on his face.
The air between them grows thick for a moment before the tension bursts with a laugh. Lando’s laugh. A deep, loud boisterous cackle.
“Right, okay then. And who are you?” Lando challenges, amusement on his face.
Oscar keeps it short, better to not feed into whatever this is becoming. “I’m Oscar. I’ll be starting my bookstore here.”
Lando raises an eyebrow at Oscar and turns to Jen. “How much is the rent on this place again, Jen?”
“1400 with first and last month down.”
“Okay, cool. I’ll take it,” Lando says, hand in front of him as if to close the deal with Jen.
Oscar slams the form he’s still holding down, to hell with the crinkles in the paper.
“Did you not just hear me?” Oscar asks, crossing the short distance to Lando and Jen.
Lando ignores him. “I’m happy to do 1800 a month if needed, Jen,” he smiles.
Jen’s eyebrows shoot up and she opens her mouth in surprise. She looks over at Oscar pointedly.
Oscar falters. “I- I can’t do that.”
Jen smiles apologetically at him for just a second before turning her attention back to Lando to congratulate him with the property.
Oscar just stands there, doesn’t even hear the conversation anymore. His hands shake as he tries to put the pen back into his bag, the bag filled with useless fucking documents and an empty dream.
“It was nice to meet you, Oscar!” Lando yells out after him as Oscar feels the wind of the door closing behind him.
and then they keep running into each other and fuck and have nasty sex and start falling in love but denying it and then lando ends up giving him the property :)
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