#hidden longing

[itsalliny0urhead]

Only When No One Sees (Loki x fem!reader)

It began in silence — glances across court, secrets between scrolls, stolen moments no one else noticed. You were raised in the golden halls of Asgard. Loki was always watching from the shadows. Now your love is a secret bound in fire and risk — hidden behind stone walls and velvet curtains, too dangerous to name but too real to deny. You know it won’t last. But you keep coming back to him. And he keeps letting you.

Loki x fem!reader

You met him for the first time in the shadow of a throne.

You were sixteen, newly brought into the palace court as your mother’s position rose — an advisor, a scholar, one of Odin’s most trusted minds. You were quiet then, careful. You learned to walk the golden halls like a ghost: visible, but never watched.

Except by him.

Loki Odinson — second son, trickster, liar.

He saw you from the start.

He noticed the way you watched instead of spoke. The way you held your posture like a blade. The way your words were chosen, never spilled.

And over time, he began to linger in your silence.

It started with books, half-stolen from the library. Notes passed across tables in long, droning council sessions. Arguments behind shelves about power, prophecy, magic.

Then came the glances. The touch of hands too close when no one was looking. The nights in the observatory tower where the air between you grew thick with things you couldn’t say.

Until finally — one kiss.

And everything after that was war.

Not open battle — not yet — but a slow, consuming fire neither of you could put out.

You knew what it meant.

A handmaid caught leaving his chambers could be dismissed. An attendant might be overlooked. But you — the daughter of Odin’s inner court, educated, connected, loyal — loving him was treason.

And you did.

Gods, you did.

Even now.

You moved through the winding halls behind the throne room without hesitation. The guards were elsewhere. The court still distracted by the feast. You’d memorized the quiet hours — when the palace dimmed, when the shadows were your allies.

You ducked behind a thick velvet curtain and slipped into the servant’s hallway, heart already pounding.

He was waiting.

Loki stood in the dark, back against the far stone wall, arms crossed. The low torchlight painted gold across his cheekbones, shadowed his eyes. He didn’t smile.

“You’re late.”

“I wasn’t followed.”

“That’s not what I asked.”

You stepped forward, breath shallow. “I had to wait until Freya passed. She asked why I wasn’t sitting near my mother.”

“And what did you say?”

“That I needed air.”

He exhaled slowly, unfolding his arms. His jaw was tight — not with anger, but something else.

“Do you realize how close this is getting?” he asked. “One wrong glance, one servant with loose lips, and they’ll tear you apart to get to me.”

“You think I don’t know that?”

His voice dropped. “You shouldn’t have come.”

“You told me to.”

He stared at you.

Then — “I tell myself to stop wanting you, and it never works.”

The words landed like a blow. Not because they hurt. Because they were true.

You were in front of him now, close enough to feel the magic humming beneath his skin — cold, electric, familiar.

“I’m not afraid of them,” you said.

“You should be.” His hand rose, hovered near your face. “Because I would burn Asgard to the ground for you.”

You swallowed.

“And I wouldn’t regret it.”

You leaned into his touch, just slightly. “Then let them be afraid of me too.”

His eyes flickered shut — just for a second. And when they opened, something inside him broke.

He kissed you like he was starving.

Your back hit the wall with a soft thud. His hand curled at the base of your skull, the other gripping your waist like he didn’t trust himself to let go. You kissed him back, fingers threading into his hair, your heart beating like a warning.

It wasn’t soft. It wasn’t safe.

But it was real.

He pulled back, barely. His lips brushed yours as he spoke.

“I dream of you every night,” he whispered. “And every time I wake up, I wait for it to fade. But it never does.”

You held his face, kissed the corner of his mouth.

“Because it’s not a dream.”

A noise — faint, distant. A door closing. Footsteps, too close.

He stilled. You froze.

His hands vanished from your body. His face became stone.

You stepped back, breath shallow. Fixed your hair. Adjusted your sleeves.

When the door opened, you were standing beside a shelf, studying a scroll. Loki was near the archway, looking indifferent.

A servant passed through. Bowed. Said nothing.

When the door closed again, the silence between you was unbearable.

You turned to him, throat tight.

“This isn’t going to last, is it?”

His eyes found yours. And for a moment, they were soft.

“No,” he said quietly. “But we are.”

[hinamie]

long way home

[stil-lindigo]

the fox god.

a comic about a trickster.

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[justabeewithapen]

What do you think would('ve) happen if, like, Doey and the other toys/experiments (Lucas and Bella included) got out of the facility? How would they react? Obviously, they'd enjoy the freedom, but what else?

Text under the read more!

Phew! Sorry this took me so long to get to, but hopefully it was worth it! Someone else also sent an ask talking about how Bella and Lucas could have survived the HOJ (which I accidentally deleted due to lag while deleting spam TwT) so this is for both of you!!

The first thing on everyone's mind after escaping would be food, food and drinks of any kind. Playtime Co. controlled most of the toys via starvation, and the food they did get was really low quality junk. Doey is more than familiar with crawling through vents, and what is that Walmart employee really going to do about him. While grabbing most anything in reach, there was definitely a preference towards junk food, they're all still kids and chips and soda are like ambrosia and they're going to eat until they throw up, and then they'll probably eat more after XD

After they finish gorging themselves I think they'd probably hide? Try and find somewhere to hide out either just in the woods or if they can locate an abandoned building. Anything to stay out of the weather and away from people, especially that last bit. None of them want anything to do with people, interactions would be rare and as short as they possibly can manage (they're all very scared of being dragged back). Getting Lucas and Bella's collars off is one of those rare people interactions, that poor employee who had Doey's stalker form looming over them while they tried to turn off a shock collar attached to a stuffed animal (who was also alive). Like, the second they left the store that dude 100% fainted BAHAHAHA. Doey's main focus is on himself, Bella, and Lucas, though I think it'd make sense for them to pick up a squad on the way out. Most toys were enjoying the carnage to some degree (or being torn apart in it) and most of the mini toys couldn't do much even after getting out of the building, these three were just lucky. There is no way in hell any of them would be willing to go back into the building, as much as they wish certain friends were here, it's just too much risk.

Honestly even after escaping I think they'd still be stuck in survival mode, scared of being dragged back at any moment and living in a world that is so new and scary. Most don't have very strong memories of being human, everything is new and to them, anything new is dangerous. They'd settle into a routine eventually I imagine... I believe in them :] Also for funsies! The Bron's name is Brandy, he remembers the most about being human (though not his own name as Brandy was a name he took after being a toy) and is in charge when it comes to figuring out new stuff. He is also the oldest of the group! The Daddy Long Leg is Dill, he also doesn't remember his real name. Dill and Doey are the main ones who do any sneaking that needs to be done, Dill is small and flexible, Doey is large and flexible. Finally there is the Catbee Amelia, who the only thing she remembers is her name. One of her antenna snapped off before meeting Doey and gang and she was the leader of her little squad, though I think she enjoys being able to take a backseat nowadays.

[thousand-winters]

Currently thinking about how Saiki got SO pissed about the bullies having beaten up Akechi that he pretty much blacked out and ended up destroying the classroom and hurting everybody in the room accidentally.

And how later, when Kaido and him were getting robbed, he just let it happen, and when they got the opening to run and Kaido got caught again and the thugs told him "you know we're going to beat up your friend, right?" he just kept running, fully willing to just get himself out of that situation.

Until Kaido expressed his relief that at least Saiki would be okay in his thoughts and he just... couldn't do it.

Like. He was trying SO hard not to care because last time he cared, his powers went out of control and he caused a disaster. And he's been in denial for so long about his friends being his friends because Akechi was his friend and his emotions got too compromised by that fact.

But he still couldn't do it, not when Kaido cared so sincerely about him.

He was willing to let Kaido find out about his powers right there and then to save him. And I cannot imagine the Akechi incident wasn't on his mind through the whole thing.

[north-noire]

a FNAF AU I've been writing for a good while where Henry finds out about Charlie's spirit possessing the Marionette weeks after her unsolved murder. Haven't reached the 1987-1990s part yet, but it feels nice laying all the groundwork properly in art form at least. (Hidden Hands AU fic link here)

[thepatchycat]

*GUNDAMs your clones*

[moonyswarmsweaters]

Regulus Black everybody

[signanothername]

Stifle the fire lest it spreads

I always thought P03 was a lot more timid as a stoat (despite his slight snarks every now and then)

[mari-lair]

so the anime adapted this

but didn't adapt this...?

ok, sure, let's make the already most shallow friendship in this manga even more of a yuri bait.

[pastelaeqy]

i'm over making human designs for non human characters. What if they were sick dragons.

orange clearly still a WIP but look he's so polite.

[stemmmm]

Billford fic recs!

I was asked a while ago (i believe by @kerink ?) when I shared a list of the currently active fics I was reading if I could do a broader rec list as well, so here it is! not a ton of oneshots since I didn't try to keep good track of fics until very recently. will likely update this over time!

there is ONE non-triangle bill in here, but what he is in that one is vague so maybe he could still be the triangle. schrodingers triangle.

Collections:

Valentines 3K challenge (all explicit)

you know it. you love it. if you haven't read all of them though, you're missing the fuck out

Stan Bros Coffee (G and explicit)

the espresso-Bill AU! there's a bunch of little fics about it and they're all in here!

Billford Egg Hunt 2025 (all explicit)

that man gets eggs laid in him

Oneshots: (most oneshot recs are in the collections)

Eternal Devotion - Illusions of the Heart (explicit)

have you ever read a horror story posing as a love story? are you interested in the most unhinged yet cohesive internal monologue ever crafted? do you wonder why keyhole suddenly became so prominent in the fandom out of nowhere? all of these and more await you in here. click the link-- i am a normal fanfic

touch and go (teen)

it's portal ford, baby! great exploration of what prolonged isolation does to people and has excellent bill being sweeties

Haha He Fucked That...Spider? (explicit)

again, portal ford! he's the master of getting himself in stupid situations, and bill is the master of getting him out of them in the ways ford appreciates the least

Hazing Ritual (mature)

Ford takes a hike in the woods in the middle of the night with his cock out and Bill comes to say hi

Longfics:

Theseus' Guide To Ruining A Perfectly Good Boat (mature) (complete in my heart bc i know what happens)

why are you still following me if you haven't read this yet. y'all know what this is

Then it becomes, it becomes, it becomes a problem (mature) (complete)

how bad do things have to get before bill finally chooses to cut his shit out? the answer may surprise you! during-betrayal fic where bill makes the ingenious decision to bring a third party into the mix as if that would solve anything. breathtaking prose, magnificent character work, and the best fucking bill cipher writing and analysis there is! SO funny, SO raw and emotional. Jan deserves to ascend to godhood at the cost of all of her family and friends. as a treat.

Creative Solution (unrated, but i'd call it mature) (complete)

what if bill erased ford's memories of the betrayal and weirdmageddon happened? touches on what it's like to be in a relationship where you're both deeply mentally ill and insecure in a way that really, truly hits me. absolute masterwork of digging through bill's fucked up psyche and the ways in which he Can and Will spiral forever AND BE SURE TO STICK AROUND FOR THE EPILOGUE: A VISIT TO THE PINES WHICH IS MY FAVORITE SHIT EVER!!! proving to your parents what a failure you are will always have good results! definitely break no-contact, only good things can happen!

Property of Bill Cipher (explicit) (good as complete)

pre-portal character exploration. the only fic i think ive ever seen that dares to say bill was doing extremely fucked up shit with ford the entire time before things went bad between them, it's just that after the betrayal, ford viewed it all in a different light. handles bill's obsession with the guy so nicely, does not shy away from the scary and unnerving in just the way i love it! it's incomplete, but the story is really just a series of vignettes leading up to and a little after the betrayal, so we all know how this is all going to end anyways. this one is formative billford for me

Multiversal Manhunt Moved to Your Backyard (explicit, but only the final chapter) (complete)

set during weirdmageddon, bill and ford make a deal to play a game of sexy scary hide and seek. it's so fun to root for the villain. this author has an amazing grasp on the character voices and tone, this is SUCH a delightful read and despite knowing exactly how it's gonna end, the tension still keeps you at the edge of your seat!

On the Level (mature) (incomplete)

marine biology AU where ford is a researcher on a deep sea base and bill is some sort of eldritch horror at the bottom of the sea. writing is lovely and it's really got the slow, ominous horror vibe down pat. it's tagged for Alien(1979) references so i'm personally waiting for bill to violently murder all of these people <3 also this is the non-triangle fic i was referring to

Take A Chance (explicit) (incomplete)

handyman bill thats very focused on how poorly bill and ford are able to communicate with each other, and boy, theyre bad at it. lots of cute family shenanigans and overall a very lighthearted read!

Dream Operator (mature) (incomplete)

post canon billford my beloved. Bill is trapped in the Theraprism, Ford is off doing his boat adventures with his brother, yet neither of them get the other out of their dreams. Literally. goofy dream shenanigans abound!

tear flesh from my skeleton just to feel something genuine (rated teen, it is NOT teen) (incomplete)

VIVISECTIONNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s Better Than Sex! It’s Vivisection! (mature) (complete)

ONE FUCKING GUESSSSS!!!!!!!!!!

Impossible Geometries and Biologies (explicit) (complete)

pregnant bill fic that i have some Opinions about but it gets to stay because I like the speculative bio they do just that much

[dailyhmsw]

loop 178

[freak-motion]

save me machine x angel save me...

[jayrockin]

What's a bus line? And where did you find the knowledge on all the technology things that you draw? (Like the process of how Talita repairs the power for Bip)

A bus or databus is the means by which data is communicated between different parts of a computer system. You might be familiar with the Universal Serial Bus, aka the USB. The "bus lines" that were severed by the Runaway's collision transferred data between Bip's servers and the functions of the ship. Even on emergency batteries, Bip was unable to control important aspects of the ship like the thrusters and life support systems.

Also, I find out this stuff by relentlessly searching the web for the information I need and asking my engineer friends a lot of questions. Let's hold hands and watch this industrial tutorial for splicing medium voltage cables, together

[whump-queen]

tw: domestic whump, bruises, physical abuse

“Stop—! You, you can’t just keep hitting me whenever you want.”

Whumper smiled.

“Oh yeah, I bet that hurts you, doesn’t it.”

“Could you be serious for just one fucking second? You seriously can’t keep doing this anymore. People are starting to notice!”

Whumper scoffed. “Please. Whose ‘people’?”

“My coworkers—yesterday somebody asked me if I was ‘okay’— I told you that concealer wasn’t doing shit for the black eye.”

“I don’t give a shit what your coworkers think.”

“But I do. My job could be on the line here!”

Whumper’s face twisted.

“So? That stupid job is the only reason I don’t have you completely to myself.”

Whumper advanced, forcing whumpee to back away.

“Seems like if you lost it you’d have more time on your hands for more important things.”

“Like being your fucking punching bag??”

Whumpee let out a tiny gasp as their back hit the wall. Whumper hummed, amused.

“Well for starters, yeah.“