#human behaviours are my hyperfixation

[lilithinchainsafterdark]

I think it's a counter movement to push back against people that have fallen into mentalities like "I'm not like other girls" where desire to be seen as an individual (removed from their femininity and by extension their femaleness). Specifically, those in the way of putting down girls, women and femmes to make themselves feel better about themselves. That movement to form distance has been twisted due to a human desire to polarise, categorising things into boxes we can label "correct" and "incorrect" /

"good" or "bad".

The apparent nature of the internet is to connecnd it has also become a force that escalates people's beliefs to be more firm or become unyielding on things that don't affect them

As humans(some/most in varying degrees) want to see/seek others whose thought and feelings reflect them irrespective of the personal experience of whoever is in their sights.

The scope of this is vast but I think it can rang from a reductive: "I like dogs. Anyone who doesn't is evil and wrong, they hate children and would harm them if given the chance" to wanting celebrities (often ones you favour) to have the same morals as you.

Perhaps, they desire them to be vocal about something like climate or discrimination.

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moral compass that views acts on a scale ranking like Dante’s Inferno rather than a tinted spectrum (influenced by personal experience).

Due to algorithms improving and a vague/shallow of understanding (how they are utilised to farm engagement from social media companies), people who have been radicalised (in one area of the internet) begin stumble across content from “the opposing side” as it recognises they share the same topic (without deeper insight since it is automated)

And it feeds back into this cannibalistic cycle, where we see people expressing extreme views that don’t seem grounded in reality.

Sincerely, someone raised (and is still being taught) by the internet.

*I lost this entire chuck/section and then accidentally hit a hard restart instead of an undo… so the flow of it may seem fragmented as I try to write from memory.

“let women date men” “let women shave” “let women be girly and feminine” what alternate reality are you guys living in.

[aubris-fox]

UPDATE FOR THIS they have been posted :)

currently collecting all of my stupid (mainly tiger behavior inspired) Horangi headcanons into a draft on here to keep track of them..dunno if im gonna post them tho.. we'll see

[queer-got-your-tongue]

Being fixated on human behavior and communication is great untill you have to do something only tangentially related

"Ya, sorry brain, you can't turn this into a case study. I know this is just barely outside of your focus, it has to stay there. No changing the goal, this is not your project"

(Most tasks are tangentially related, anything involving people is tangentially related, I Am Pacing Like A Caged Animal)

[masochist-marmot]

Sherlock & Co has good neurodivergent representation

I've been listening to a podcast called Sherlock & Co, and it has probably my favourite modern-day representation of Sherlock as a character. They chose to make Sherlock explicitly neurodivergent, and the proper representation fixes a lot of the issues I have with modern Sherlocks (looking at you BBC Sherlock, but also House).

He's not an asshole just for the sake of it. He doesn't lack empathy, and he genuinely cares about his friends and values human life. People aren't just a game to him. He's got trouble recognising and understanding social cues, so he comes off as rude, but he's not above apologising when it's pointed out to him. He can come off as arrogant or pompous when he gets in the zone, but it doesn't come from a place of perceived superiority. He can and will admit to being wrong. Sure, he also likes showing off, but that's the thing. He's a full, rounded human. And the show does an excellent job treating him as such. The characters close to him usually cut him some slack because of his neurodivergency, but they don't coddle him. He's expected to take accountability for his actions.

As for his relationships, this might be the only representation (modern or otherwise) of Sherlock and Watson where I fully buy into their close friendship. Because Sherlock doesn't treat Watson as a tool or someone he can show off to. He fully values Watson as a friend, and also relies on his medical expertise, people skills and pop culture knowledge. Early on he often asks Watson for his observations and deductions, and then explains his own thought process. It's clear that this isn't to shame Watson but to teach him (and the audience), to get him in on the deductions. We are shown that they value each other, not just told (which might be weird to say about an audio-based medium, but you know what I mean). And it doesn't make me constantly wonder why Watson even hangs out with this guy who clearly doesn't care about his feelings.

The show also gives Sherlock other neurodivergent traits like stimming, sensory issues, hyperfixations and rigid behavioural patterns, but they don't really become a focus at any point. It's just nice that they are acknowledged and presented as something that Sherlock needs to manage. It's also nice to have a Sherlock who knows a lot about very specific things but little about others (and also didn't do well at school because of it). He's not some supergenius with an unlimited brain capacity, he's just very dedicated to his interests and very indifferent about things that don't interest him.

Just to briefly touch on other aspects of the podcast, it's a pretty good modern-day adaptation. The cases are adapted and modernised pretty seamlessly, and they leave some room for the listeners to make their own guesses. I like the meta element of the podcast we're listening to representing the in-universe crime podcast Watson is making. And Mrs Hudson is replaced by Mariana, who starts working for their detective agency and is an absolute sweetheart.

Anyway, I wish we had more neurodivergent representation like this. All you need is a little bit of research, empathy and/or experience with neurodivergent people.

[l3st1b0urn3s-707]

It's been way too long since I've talked about books in here, I recently finished one of the best books I've read this year and I obviously can't keep my mouth shut about it, so this is a review of The left hand of darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin.

I' m going to start by saying that I didn't think I was going to like this book that much (I even foud it a bit slow at the begining) but boy was I wrong. So if you start it and think it's boring I can assure you you'll probably like it if you keep on reading.

So what's this book really about? It's a science fiction novel in which the main character, Genly Ai, a man from Terra (our Earth), is sent to the planet of Gethen to try to convince its people to join an spacial human alliance. What's really interesting about Gethen (appart from it being super cold) is that all of its people are ambisexual. They usually only present sexual characteristics once a month, in some kind of heat called kemmer that lasts about a week. During this time they can present either female ol male characteristics, but these rols can vary, one month you may have male genitalia and on the next one you might present as sexually female. The rest of the month, when they're in sommer they don't present any sexual characteristics whatsoever and look kind of androgynous. Gender isn't a thing in Gethen. And Genly Ai, who isn't used to that, will have to adapt to Gethen's culture.

I think I must also mention Estraven, my favourite character (I'm sorry, you know I had to), who guides Genly in this new world and shows him how things work there. I think he's a remarkable character, his relationship with Genly evolves into a pure and strong bond, not necessarily romantic, but described by both of them as love.

The left hand of darkness has heavy feminist topics that are treated in a really interesting point of view. It doesn't talk about women (there aren't any female characters in it), but it shows a society without gender norms or differences because gender does simply not exist. It shows that humans, at the end, are all humans, at that's what really is important. When Genly indentifies some steriotipically feminine behaviours in other characters and treats them as inferior you'll probably get mad at him, because he doesn't seem to really want to understand the people arround him. That's a strong message itself.

This book's exploration of gender is fascinating. It might be because I've always felt something for the concept for androgyny, but Gethen's people and culture go further and make you question your own. A book published in 1969 happens to have more feminist values than most books of the same genre nowadays. And that's what I love about this book, and specially about Le Guin. Oh, and it also critizices extreme nationalism!

So yeah, I think that's it. If anyone read this post completely I want to thank them because this got really long (I'm sorry). But I really loved this book and I can't stop thinking about it, so I needed to write something. Anyway, I really recommend this book, and I'll probably be reading more of Le Guin's novels because this woman's amazing. (And if you've read it please talk to me about it because it's now my new hyperfixation).

[on-leatheredwings]

i've found your account only a few days ago but ever since then I've been STUCK here rereading your fanfics, especially ones with damian. i wasn't even a dc fan (heard about some stuf, watched some films and cartoons, but that's it) but now im reading comics since im Obsessed and need more batboys in my life (rip my productivity😔)

Anyway, after Sleepover i'm curious what will Bruce (and maybe even Thalia) think of batboys strange behaviour towards reader. He's smart, so he definitely notices it early on, but how he'll react....

I can see him being weirded out (like he was by Jason's anger issues, before his death), but he also can be an enabler, since Robin (literaly any of them) had a hard life, so if those relationships can help him why not pretend that everything is normal? you'll be safer in a Wayne's Manor anyway

All in all, thanks for a new hyperfixation 💞💞

P.s. About games:

1. Boyfriend to death 1&2 - since you're into yanderes you might want to check this game out. I prefer the second game, but the first is also fun. But beware the trigger warnings!!

2. Long live the Queen - more of a raising sim than dating sim but you still can romance some guys and girls.

,3. Hatoful Boyfriend - mostly a comedy, but there is a yandere.

4. The Royal Trap - it's been a long time since i played it, but it used to be one of my favorites so i'll just mention it.

5. Higurashi - once again not really a romance sim, but its an interesting horror mixed with a slice of life

;A; AWWWW THANK YOU IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKE MY STUFF.... THAT MAKES ONE OF US GIJSDOFAFGHFOJDSD

and yes yes get into DC!!! (girl who hasnt even read a full run since like. injustice)

damn now you got me thinking and excited. incoming spiel

i agree entirely about bruce just knowing how Bad things can get, so to make things simpler, he's like "yes, your darling(s) can stay in the manor, boys. 🙄"

mmm yes..... when it comes to bruce noticing the batboys are yandere, i think it's always sinfully delightful to just have him be reluctantly okay with it. 😈 it's also easier narratively ngl but i also like the idea that the batfam is all just corrupted.

bruce's thoughts are that they (his sons) fight for vengeance and justice but this is where they could use some leeway.... we all need our vice... they fight so hard for gotham, they deserve a little treat (getting rid of your human rights)... it's very "Dad who wants his sons to have happiness even if its not healthy" of him. in fics where bruce is a yandere, well, he's the exact same way so he can't judge. although if that's the case, i like the idea of bruce just being like "yes what we do isn't right. let's not talk about it. just don't kill <3"

still wondering what i like more. a yan!bruce who's self aware what he's doing is wrong but he just refuses to think about it. or a yan!bruce that justifies it all because of his paranoia, Tower of Babel style (if you don't know, that's when it's revealed batman has plans to subdue/kill the justice league just in case they go rogue.)

for the batboys depends on their personality... for damian, he's so resolute in things that i prefer when he just believes 100% what he's doing is okay, if not actually righteous. ^_^

hmmm talia.... I'M STILL UNSURE HOW I PREFER THAT AS WELL... i think talia being a you-arent-good-enough-for-my-son mom is a little cliche but also. she kinda would say that. you'd have to prove your worth somehow but idk how tf darling would do that LOL. in the end, i think talia is just relieved/comforted that her son indeed feels desire and wants love and will continue the family legacy (regardless if youre afab/can biologically have children.)

no THANK YOU FOR THE ASK!!! AND THANKS FOR RECS!!!! heheh yeah ive checked out btd and im not averse to the warnings its more like im not that most of into the designs ngl. fox guy seems cute? AND LMAO FUNNY BC IM ON A HIGURASHI REWATCH (never played it tho)

[waxdream]

I think in this world, acknowledged and unacknowledged traumas are a key way of dividing us. Someone with a debilitating fear of spiders for example, is going to be dismissed as childish by at least a portion of society, even if their phobia forces them to stay inside, hyperfixated on erradicating all spiders in their space. And yknow, that person may not be depressed, they may not have anything else other than their phobia, but their phobia is disabling. And they go online and see people validating those with disabling depression, and I just think that when something engulfs your life so largely, it's hard not to take that as 'the world doesn't care about my phobia. They just care about depression'.

I've battled with this feeling a lot thoughout my life. I've thought 'noone cares about adoptees', and I just didn't understand why. I remember my school doing an assembly on Autism, and all I could think of was 'well, there's more adopted people than there are autistic people, why aren't we doing that assembly?!' . I tried to make that assembly happen, and was told no because the school had an adoptee who didn't know they were an adoptee. Fucking disgusting behaviour, imo, limiting the education of an entire school because some adoptive parents didn't want to have an uncomfortable conversation. I could have done some good there, I could have taught people what the school refused to teach. The only mention I ever heard of adoption in that school was in health class, where they said 'some people in the UK choose to put their children up for adoption. This is very uncommon'. I felt gross hearing that. That school spent hour long lessons on how to clean your teeth, yet can't even acknowledge that adoptees grow up and sit in your classroom.

It's a kind of outrage you feel, like you're being snubbed in favour of another cause. It's jealousy - I know I feel jealous of people with traumas that are talked about, and I'm not ashamed to admit that. Jealousy is only ugly when you act on it. Feeling it means you're human. But in the real world, I gotta know that it's not the fault of other communities, it's noone's fault other than a society that likes to sweep adoption under the rug.

Recently I feel like the transracial adoptee movement has hit the mainstream, and I see people talking about it as if interracial adoptees don't exist. So I'm going to say that I think being adopted by someone who is the same race as you is an unacknowledged trauma. I think people dismiss our adoptions and pretend we look like our adoptive families. I think our adoptive families get away with pretending we are birth children, which lets our history fester in it's wake. I think not being told about our adoptions is a disgusting thing, and it happens because adoptive parents think 'oh, we can get away with not telling our kid they're adopted, they won't guess otherwise'. I think that even adoptees who aren't told about their adoption are adoptees, and I know they feel the same level of pain as I do. I think interracial adoptees are commercialised and objectified.

I think 'matching a child to the adoptive parent' is not always in the childs best interest. I was put in fostercare at 2 weeks old, and I stayed in it for 2 years because the UK system didn't want my foster carers to adopt me. They wanted to 'match' me to someone else. My parents were considered too old, this being part of the same ruleset that prevented transracial adoption in the UK in the early 2000s. I was desireable as a newborn. People want to adopt newborns. I think if they succeeded in taking me away from my adoptive parents, I would have been trapped in the fostercare system - two year olds are less desireable after all. I have trauma from feeling objectified because of this knowledge. I think anyone would, if they know money was spent, lots of money in court fees and all that, to take me specifically away from my family. And that's a trauma created by the idea that 'every adoption should be a perfect match'. That's why I think the adoptee community needs to come together as adoptees and be a group of it's own, because otherwise we create an artificial divide of people. I think 'adoption should be a perfect match' as an ideology is unrealistic. Sometimes it's just as important that a baby stay with their first match for example, to prevent further trauma. The UK adoption system almost bankrupted a working class family of fostercarers because they felt that it was more important for my adoptive parents to be a young, rich couple. A family of fostercarers who dared to do exactly what a fostercarers is meant to do - love their child unconditionally, to the point that they wanted to stop fostercaring and adopt me. And even though my folks are older, and don't understand autism or any of the stuff that makes me different from them, I still think this is the perfect place for me.

So yknow, I have different experiences to a transracial adoptee. I think mine are less blatantly obvious, because racism is pervasive in this world and disgusting. It makes sense to me why the plight of transracial adoptees is so loud and important. Hell, even your word is being stolen by the 'trans race' community that's trying to essentially cosplay as other races. I also think the adoptee community should be more united - and we should listen to each other, and work as a team. Because Jealousy is a human emotion, I think we're all projecting and feeling jealous of each other, when in reality, we're all jealous of folks who aren't adopted. And that's okay friend. Jealousy is okay. Taking actions based on jealousy isn't, but the feeling? It's okay. I'm jealous of folks who have something they can point to and say 'that's the root of all my problems', because I don't think I have that. Doesn't mean I'm gonna be a dick about it, and it also doesn't mean my feelings reflect reality. Just like how the idealised idea of interracial adoption doesn't reflect reality. It's two different sides of the same coin, like many things in the adoption world. I think the true path to change is changing the views and mentality of those who aren't adopted. Because they just. Don't. Get. It.

[crepes-suzette-373]

I once wondered if there's an "evil version of tsundere", and I just finally remembered that there are. It's called tsungire or yangire. Basically it's like tsundere and yandere, but without any visible "affectionate" (dere-dere) moments.

Like, I usually say "tsundere" here because it's what people know more, and I haven't found the correct term yet before, but I think yangire/tsungire are more appropriate terms.

Well, you can argue that the "dere" is sort of there in the anime, but it's not really there in the manga.

The tsungire and yangire are typically just cranky/crazy by default, but they might sometimes have a target of obsession. Sometimes, there's even a very very very lowkey "dere" feelings for that target. Doesn't have to be romantic, but it's things like caring, affection, concern, companionship, etc.

If/when they do, they don't make an obvious show or talk about it. Outwardly it's just a constant stream of barbed wire, and if the dere is actually there, it's kind of hard to filter out from all the violence/insults (according to Pixiv anyway).

That's it. That's what Niji is doing. He's really like a feral alien who doesn't know how human behaviour works and even if he's being nasty it's fascinating to look at.

This here is probably the yangire:

And then it feels more like tsungire here:

(basically that whole part of Germa returning to cover for the Straw Hats' escape, starting from him taking the initiative to ask about the Straw Hats on the phone)

More serious analysis (sort of) below.

Niji acting like this to Sanji is about the same like Law insisting he doesn't like Germa in the comics, but rambles on and on and on about them to the point that the fandom for the most part just agree that "He totally is a Germa fanboy".

I wrote this post about why I think the brothers actually all wants to get along with Sanji, they just have a very terrible perception of what is "normal" and what to do when something is "not normal".

And see, my read of why Niji in particular is so fixated on Sanji is this:

Until proven otherwise, I think this means they had to re-train Niji to also take over Stealth duties because there will be nobody to wear the Stealth suit. And I think Stealth Black missing is what's making Niji so crazy about this.

Not necessarily because he hates doing stealth, but for some people, the awareness that "something is supposed to be here, but isn't" is very aggravating. Even if they don't actively interact with or particularly need "the thing", just knowing that it's not there makes them abnormally hyperfixate on the "thing" instead.

In this case the "thing" is a "someone", but the point is the same.

For whatever reason, there is this "shadow" of the Number 3 space that is constantly present in Germa. The number 3 raid suit exist. There is the number 3 chair ready for Sanji somehow. It's like they can't ever forget that "number 3 should be here, but is gone" no matter what they do.

And because Niji is probably the one affected the most, both because of his personality and the practicality of how things work, he is the one that lashes out the worst.

He doesn't like that Sanji isn't there. When Sanji's there, he's behaving "wrong" and that makes Niji mad.

(Plus, the alternate take on the Stealth technique is that it actually has nothing to do with Stealth, but he himself called it that because he's just so fixated on "Stealth Black" missing, which is kind of even worse)

Also:

Once again, now that we know Sanji can do this, I desperately want to see him and Niji both do that vanishing act to an enemy and just kick that enemy to oblivion.

[cult-of-the-eye]

Ok I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna make the new hyperfixation post:

CRIMINAL MINDS:

I started watching it cause I was on the internet during the Dr Reid thirst trap era and let's just say a scrawny motherfucker with autism is the surefire way to get me to watch something

Especially when everyone is going through the horrors

I am in love with the format of the show, with the whole quotes and then different characters saying the quotes and the isolated cases with the slight hints of more background for each of the characters it's really keeping me going

I'm not great with gore and shit but like it's got shitty 2000s CGI so like it's easy to tell myself it's just actors with fake blood

Also listen I had to tap into my 9 yr old undiagnosed autistic obsessed with psychopaths phase at some point

It just tickles the right parts of my brain

Anyway the characters are why I stuck around

Gideon <3333 I love that strange walrus looking man I love how he's simultaneously such an emotional rock for everyone in the BAU but also dealing with his own things, he goes into each of the crimes with such calmness and compassion and I just love that weird old man especially when he introduced himself as Jason to the little girl he was saving in that one episode, i was like HE'S MAKING HIMSELF SEEM LIKE LESS OF A THREAT BY INTRODUCING HIMSELF WITH HIS FIRST NAMEEEE, HE'S TRYING TO PUT HER AT EASE

Hotch oh man it was one scene specifically that literally started my brainrot for this guy, I wasn't that into him in the first couple of episodes and then it was revealed that he was horrifically abused by his dad and actively chose to go into a pathway that would catch people like that and people who get abused and then go on to abuse others and I just. AH. i am such a sucker for any character who has endured things that no one ever should endure at the hands of another human being and then instead of becoming completely bitter and taking the eye for an eye mindset, they vow to make sure the cycle stops with them and they may not be all sunshine and daisies and instead rough a lot of the times but they do it and they do it realistically

He's got a wife and a kid!!! He did it!! He made a better life for himself and it makes me feel like I could too, he's so strong and I feel like my strength can one day be used for more than just survival

Elle!!!! God I love her I feel like she's so realistic for a woman in her field, she's smart and strong and capable and she acknowledges all the things she has going against her, she's compassionate to the female rape victims, she gets furious at the people targeting women in particular what i would do to be this woman's friend

Reid. Oh lord. Listen I'm not on the thirst trap train but I do understand the love for this guy. My love for him however stems from the autism. The whole wanting to be useful and only knowing how to through interests and hyperfixations and feeling like he's missing out on some things cause he's different

It was the hostage situation on the train that got to me he was just so REAL and it's so awesome to see autistic people succeed in stuff like this

It's also nice to see him accepted by the team for who he is

I do also like him cause he's cool but it's easier to explain the autism stuff

Garcia - wonderful amazing spectacular I love me a confident woman in stem

Morgan - i like how he's sort of the "cool guy" archetype but his whole thing is getting into the mind of the UnSub I feel like it gives him more depth

JJ - god she's so cool and calm under pressure I love her

So yeah. The BAU is my new comfort character crew I'm taking Elle with me everywhere

But also do I have major issues with the idea of behavioural analysis in crime? Absolutely. It is so insanely subjective the way they're going off of probability, the way their precedent probably lacks temporal validity and also population validity with both the androcentrism and ethnocentrism it does feel wrong to be coming to such a conclusion about the UnSub so quickly and decisively, even though I understand their whole thing is getting there quickly. I just know that categorising human behaviour is never as simple as it seems.

Do I think they tackle some of these issues in the show? Sort of. Am I also aware this is a fictional drama TV show and it may not be that deep? Yes.

Anyway

[russeliarat]

The Magnus Archives oc incoming, one of two that I have created with my boyfriend <3

This is Vivienne, full name Vivienne Nimue S. Olila, and they work as a very creepy mortician dealing in the supernatural that jumps about the place until they end up in London, finding themselves at The Magnus Insitute's door after ignoring them as they are contacted several times about several statements made about their odd behaviour inside mortuaries across England.

Fortunately, Vivienne is just a tall autistic albino person with a hyperfixation on death, lack of social skills, and a very creepy way of motion. Oh yeah, and their arms got replaced with mannequin arms around 2010/2011ish.

Theyre aligned very heavily with The Stranger and The End, yet don't actively partake in scaring people, people just find their autistic rizz too scary naturally. Vivienne has a distinct lack of identity, with them telling no one their age at all and avoiding all references in the past as to ensure no one knows very much about them. They don't have much of an identity at all tbh until they reach the institute, they develop it alongside Martin and bond because of their isolation and such, along with bonding with oc #2 called Marlene but more on her in a different post.

Boring (but not really) backstory stuff below the cut.

Vivienne is a mixed race, half Filipino, half English person. They originally came from a Filipino province on the main island before their parent split and their English father took them to live in Liverpool, shortly before moving to London for jobs. At some undisclosed time in their formative years, Vivienne mysteriously, and without any memories of it happening, turned up floating across the River Thames on top of a discarded wooden door. Their father was beside them, dead of course, rotting.

Vivienne was eventually rescued but the trauma caused them to devote themselves to a life of caring for the dead. They didn't want other families to see their loved ones as rotted as Vivienne did theirs.

They first went back to Liverpool to take on a mortician job, though had to switch to other spots such as Sheffield, Nottingham, Northampton, Luton, Southampton, then finally London as either businesses would shut down or their uncanniness made others hostile towards them.

Eventually, after Jonathan Sims and his crew of gay researchers keep trying to contact Vivienne enough because of continuous statements, they turn up at the institute and reveal that they are in fact very human, just a bit creepy and missing some limbs. It's even revealed that since they moved to London in about early 2016, they were the one contacted to deal with Jane Prentiss' body, and have the holes in their wooden arms to prove it. They eventually get taken on as an honorary researcher and a mortician for the institute and archives as the staff so need them. They hold a lot of connections from bouncing around, you know?

[passionwillow]

I just recently stumbled into the SWAT fandom and I always love another perspective, so I would be curious who you'd see with me (though if someone from another fandom is jumping out at you, I am curious too :) ).

I am a queer, bilingual (German and English), disabled (AuDHD) woman, so living with me is not easy (sensory sensitivities (cannot leave the house without sunglasses and headphones), struggles with social interactions/cues (I will take what you say at face value so you have to be direct with me or I will not get it) and low social battery, focus issues, the whole nine yards). In my friend group, I was always dubbed the "mom friend" (including the first aid kit and the protective behaviour for others. Like I won't say something if you disrespect me, but if you disrespect my friends, you will meet the fury of the heavens). My brain is running 100 miles an hour and switching gears super fast. One moment we chat about the weather and the next I rant about how Lafayette's "declaration of human rights" wasn't one of human rights because like they are teaching it in school because in french there are two different plurals, based on whether it's only men or if there are women in the group (like one is enough. My french teacher would be so proud that I remember at least one thing XD ) or why I think Burial at Sea is the worst thing to ever happen to the Bioshock franchise (I will die on that hill). I always have a documentary or video essay running in the background because I cannot stand the quiet otherwise which means that I know the most random shit imaginable (like in the 15th century at some tournaments knights weren't allowed to wear armour that had bible verses or imagery of saints engraved because it was considered white magic and therefore an unfair advantage) or I rewatch a movie/series for the 100th time, sometimes saying the lines with the characters and in normal conversations I often answer with quotes, likely from some obscure play I saw ages ago. I live with a cat in dog's fur (Akita) who taught me patience and I love going for walks with her, preferably in the forest because it's beautiful and the quiet really helps to calm the running thoughts and sort shit in my brain. If I am not falling down research rabbit holes for random hyperfixations, I love to write or do fibre arts (spinning, weaving, dyeing, sewing). In my former life, I was a theatre girl (and I still miss it sometimes) and even though it is sacrilegious, my favourite Shakespeare will always be Much Ado About Nothing (what can I say, Beatrice and Benedict are goals). My perfect vacation is a city trip spending my time in museums (even if I hate that usually, it's so full with people but hey. You gotta do what you gotta do), my favourite painters are Van Gogh and Botticelli, my favourite painting is Starry Night by Van Gogh, my favourite book as a child was Igraine the Brave by Cornelia Funke, and my favourite singer is Freddie Mercury. Oh and if it wasn't already showing, I cannot keep stuff short for the life of me and I've been told that I talk too much.

I commend you if you are still with me reading this and I hope you are having fun and if you are not, please feel free to skip it. This is all for fun after all :)

I hope you are having a lovely day wherever you are and may the muses smile upon you.

This was absolutely fascinating to read. I loved every second of it. 😂

I see you with two different people.

Hondo from SWAT for sure. He’d LOVE to listen to you talk about anything and everything. He’s fiercely protective of those around him and is definitely content staying in and watching movies or documentaries.

But McGee from NCIS also popped into my head. I think he’d be SO fascinated by you. He’d love to talk history or movies or- whatever with you!

Your quotes during conversation would make both of them grin, and McGee would be with you through every hyperfixation.

[soongtypemutant]

A myriad of headcanons regarding Mr. Thawne, if you please. I think about him a lot- he fucking sucks, I love him. Under the cut btw.

-Comic book mental health representation is historically awful, but as someone who is autistic, I find some of these traits reflective of my own; a lot of Eobard’s behaviour can make a lot of sense if you choose to read him as someone on the spectrum that never received the acknowledgement or accommodations that he needs.

-Eobard falls on the Autism spectrum but due to the lack of prioritization regarding mental health in the 25th century, this is never something that gets properly revealed to him. He mostly struggles with tone/expression, social cues, emotional empathy, and a flat affect. He becomes quickly overstimulated in crowded environments and struggles with heavy socializing. He is very prone to hyperfixation. His special interest is obviously The Flash, but also extends to history in general, with a focus on the 21st century.

-Eobard is very taken with 21st century technology and is frequently enthralled by it when he visits that time period. It doesn’t really matter what object it is, though he is rather fond of a walkman he found once. Film is something he also finds quite amusing and he enjoys seeing the progression of technology in media.

-In continuation, Thawne, like any historian, is prone to making mistakes once in a while. Sometimes he gets confused when addressing 21st century objects and technology. He frequently mistakes modern appliances for one another- and once referred to a toaster as “some sort of primitive communication device”.

-Eobard is interested in arts and humanities and general, and has experience in museum curation of all kinds, not just historical artifacts. He is well versed in art as well but again, due to his century’s priorities, hasn’t had the resources to do much with that interest. He can draw quite well though when he actually bothers to. He has a sketchbook filled with renderings of various artifacts he’s favoured from all over the timeline. The ones he is most proud of are referenced in person- in their respective times. Of course, he also has quite a few sketches of various “””historical figures””””” he is fond of.

-Continuing from the last point, Eobard has made a hobby of traveling to various time periods to witness historical events first hand. He rarely meddles with them unless it benefits him, but rather just observes as a historian.

-Eobard found out the hard way that average 25th century clothing is quite clocky in other time periods, and as such has spent quite a long time studying the fashion of other points in history. In the 21st century, he favours comfortable yet modest and professional clothing. He wears a lot of turtlenecks. He does not like scratchy interior tags that are common in the late 20th and 21st century and usually rips them off. (Sensory issues are not pleasant)

-Eobard’s voice is ironically nice to listen to outside of the context of who is speaking. He struggles to convey tone but he’s quite soft spoken. He rarely raises his voice- and only does such if he knows that doing so can garner a reaction.

-And finally, Eobard smells slightly metallic and sterile. Almost like a hospital in a way, it’s a bit unnerving. To indulge myself, I will say that he would possibly favour sweeter citrusy scents, though logically I would assume that he just wouldn’t bother with colognes unless a situation calls for it. (I have gotten myself into a rather deep cologne/perfume rabbithole and it is surprisingly quite interesting- I have a whole list attributing scents to the Rogues if that’s interesting enough to share despite it being a ridiculously minor thing to think about)

Anyways byebye

[trickstersintime]

RP PARTNER MEME! - Knowing your partner well can potentially make writing together a lot easier

(Please repost, don't reblog :D)

NAME: Pirate

PRONOUNS: She/her but if I'm being my muse you can use theirs

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION: Usually tumblr IMs. I'm a neurodivergent hermit with only a small capacity of a bubble for close friends but if we click with our hyperfixations or mutuals want somewhere easier to plot, I can share my Discord.

NAMES OF MUSES: Loki, Captain Jack Sparrow, Astarion, XI. I also have some side muses connected to XI that can be requested. I'm considering adding in minor muses/OC's on a discussion basis since I'm now a multimuse at last.

BEST EXPERIENCE: When you make such a connection that you're in harmony with your partner and you and your muse get super excited, but more importantly meeting amazing people and writing epic stories.

RP PET PEEVES/DEALBREAKERS: I mean, I have far more than I'd like. I'm pretty easygoing, I think, but I have a bunch of things that will prevent me from starting a partnership or leaving it later down the line. If you post a lot of insecure/dramatic ooc it's going to put me right off. If you are overly rude about things I like in your rules or with your opinions on your blog I may get fed up. My brain cries if your muse splices mine's dialogue and forces something to have happened in the past so they can't react to it. I'm also weary of the rare but painful times of thinking I'm getting close to people and then them blocking me without a word like I meant nothing at all, which smacks of backbiting and bad faith interpretations on this hellsite. It's human that we hurt each other, and I'm definitely no saint on that front to the point my trying not to hurt people makes things worse, but some of the behaviours on here I've seen in the past 12 years beggars belief. I'm so too old for this place XD

MUSE PREFERENCE: I have to feel a strong connection to them, and that doesn't mean that I'm like them. Usually I just really vibe and love them enough to want to write about them. They're nearly always tricksters with British accents because I'm a cheat who is already British. I like a fantastical or sci-fi background for escapism and layered exploration.

PLOTS OR MEMES: I like both. I like to see what plot I can spin out of a good meme as it gives a baseline. Plots are good for when you really like a ship or when you're first starting out planning something or if there's a trope or other plot bunny buzzing in your brain you want to share with someone. I'm honestly more open to plots than the impression I give. My limited time means I tend to just go full robot once we have a story going and I bat it back and forth until completion (while enjoying it as we go) but I'm always happy to help inject curveballs into things or skip ahead if a partner loses the vibe for a thread.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: For me, I do shortish to medium replies. I'm fairly succinct and don't take a lot of time to do descriptions, especially as it takes me 30 mins+ for each post because I'm a slow writer. My partners can do what they like and especially a starter can be as long as you want, though I usually get put off by 'novella'/extensive multi para. I respect it but at the same time I feel like a lot of those things are best reserved for if you're writing fanfiction, because I feel like you're not focusing enough on your partner (or conversely you're overfocusing and replying about every single thing your partner did). That's of course not always the case and many writers do it beautifully. I tend to find though that overly long replies run the risk of overstepping into your partner's roleplay space or sometimes causing us to pressure ourselves into perfection. In the end, I think it's preference and time. Roleplay is my junkfood writing, it's not my painstakingly crafted art.

BEST TIME TO WRITE: Annoyingly it's when I'm not really able to write because I'm at work, so I do a couple of replies in my work breaks. 10am to 3pm are my ideal brain times for writing. This makes it hell for trying to get my fanfiction and original works done.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSES: Hardly at all. Some of them I want to be more like, some I'm glad I'm not. I have some of their insecurities and desires. My brain works a little like a couple of them. I speak a bit like some of them (less posh). But I crave stability and safety, I find lying exceptionally difficult (except when I desperately try not to hurt people's feelings and then inevitably do), I have grown rubbish at travelling, and I sadly can't stab or bite people or exit time and space when I've had enough.

Tagged by: @antvnger (thanks!)

Tagging: All mutuals who haven't done this. Let me know more about you if you wish ^ ^ xxx

[alkeneater]

It's really weird that you're into a 16 year old

oh my fucking god guys... don't make me explain this again... vvv

i'm into him SINCE I WAS 16 MYSELF, i just haven't stopped liking him. You want me to become a hater as soon as i turn 18 or what? shut the hell up

Ofc i worried about his age that's why i specifically created an AU where we both are the same age. I literally did that because I KNOW THAT DATING MINORS IS WEIRD.

He's like my soulmate, also my highest kin and a f/o, and i have very warm feelings for him. I've spent months and years trying to defend him from haters, worrying about his life in the canon universe, researching about his cloneparent. Yeah, it might sound like a huuuuge obsession, i know, it's kinda weird (like any character hyperfixation yknow), but... uhhh... is it UNCOMFORTABLY weird?

Selfshipping or fictosexuality is not only about having boombayah with your fav character. It can be platonic. Anyways, do i look like i'm sexualizing this mf? Seriously. Bro. I'm not even posting inappropriate content with him. We both are literally the victims of csa. I can't disrespect his trauma. All i want for him is to be happy. Sincerely. So i draw wholesome content where he is loved and appreciated, because this is what he deserves.

Ughhh.... Guys, there are real weirdos in real life putting real children in danger, but you prefer to look for chronically online people who just like to have fun on the internet and ship themselves with a bunch of pixels. And then bully them. Guys..... STOPPPP.....

I'm extremely lonely and feel like this character is the only one who understands and appreciates me bc we're really similar. Don't take that away from me. Leave me alone, I'm tired of these false allegations. You don't even know me personally. Stop watering down words, changing their definitions just to make yourself "morally correct" in others eyes. I'm not a pdf, these people are weird and dangerous. They only want to harm their victims. And I want to protect this FICTIONAL CHARACTER (just a reminder) from any harm. I would literally die for him. And you guys call that a predatory behavior. Disgusting. You don't care about the real victims, you only care for yourselves and your image.

This shit is not a joke or a fun trend, it's very serious. Again, I was a victim, and i found a character with the same trauma that i want to protect. Yes, I selfship with him just to show how much i care about him. Because when i was young, nobody fucking cared. And that ruined my life. And even if Abe isn't real, i want to show him, that he is still loved, cared for and his traumas are not a joke. Okay?

IS THIS A PREDATORY BEHAVIOUR TO YOU? Do I look suspicious for projecting my traumas? Do i look like a weirdo for feeling a special connection to a fictional character? Not my fault that i'm A LIVING HUMAN BEING that ages! And he's not! Oh my fucckkkiinnbgggg goooooodddd......

Touch grass, eat grass, drink grass smoothie, idk. Whatever. Just leave me alone. I'm developing pocd thanks to you guys. I'll talk about yall to my therapist on my next session, i swear to god.

[livrere-green]

Hello Everyone!

I'm posting this to leave some important information about my blog, so you have a map of all the madness going on here, or at least, you're warned about it before following or interacting.

About Me:

My name is Liv 🍃, 23, bi, my pronouns are they/them, but I'm fine if you use bro, man, girl or queen interchangeably.

I'm autistic so I tend to have difficulties with communication, and my memory is terrible when it doesn't have anything to do with my hyperfixations.

Also I'm a spanish native speaker, so y'all never gonna know how truly smart I am (I'm just mentioning this so you know I may make mistakes using english, and also that you can tell me if i do... Please, tell me).

Hobbies:

Writing, Reading, Doing Research, Analysing Music, Baking, Travelling, Watching TV Shows, Collages, Drawing.

Fandoms:

I have some knowledge about the following media, even if I don't reblog or post stuff about all of it.

Anne with an E

American Horror Story

Avatar: The Last Airbender

Avatar: The Legend of Korra

Avatar Comics

Bridgerton Series

Brooklyn Nine-Nine

Chilling Adventures of Sabrina

CSI

Criminal Minds

DC Comics

Dead Boy Detectives

Game of Thrones

Good Omens

Gossip Girl

Hannibal Lecter (Books)

Heartstopper

House MD

How To Get Away With Murder

Julie and The Phantoms

Law & Order: SVU

Lucifer

Marvel Cinematic Universe

Merlin

Modern Family

One Day at the Time

Percy Jackson Universe

Red, White & Royal Blue

Sense8

Sherlock

Sherlock Holmes (Books)

Star Trek

Star Wars

Stranger Things

The Crown

The Fall of The House of Usher

The Good Doctor

The Haunting of Bly Manor

The Haunting of Hill House

The Sandman

The Umbrella Academy

This is Us

X-Men

Young Royals

Yuri On Ice

Side Blogs:

@livrere-purple / mcu - x-men

@livrere-blue / criminal minds

@coffe-min / bts - army

@dragon-fruity / tlok, atla & natla

@niko-sasaki-dbd / dead boy detectives + the sandman

[my main blog contains everything and nothing depending on my mood]

Other Interests:

Art / Literature / Astronomy / History / Law / True Crime / Human Rights / Psychology / Architecture / Design / Classical Music / Witchcraft / Ballet

Playlists:

I love making playlists based on fandoms, characters, ships, fanfics and many other stuff! (I accept requests if you have one)

Spotify Here 🖤

Warnings:

If you're part of a hate group please do not interact.

If you're a minor, I'm trusting in your capacity to evaluate the risks, be wise.

I may post/reblog nsfw content, it will be tagged as #safe for me or #nsfw.

I may post/reblog content related to mental illness including depression, bpd, antisocial behaviour, paranoia, self harm, ed and suicidal ideation. This is not common, but it can happen, it'll be tagged as #liv md.

Tags:

#liv rambles - for text post about stuff

#liv writes - for posts about fanfiction

#liv draws - for the occasional drawings/fanarts

#liv asks - for polls

#mutuals - for the tag games and interactions with the moots <3

That's all for now, thank you for reading and enjoy the ride! 💫🌙

[lovelaughsimp]

Ahem! What you are interested to know me?

Well, please only communicate with me through the language of love and kindness.

I'm not a human being, I'm just a concept.

I'm prolly cry if you are ever mean to me and will think about it for the rest of my life.

this is who you are hurting btw^^

Some things that I enjoy ( I hyperfixate over new things everyday )

Zayne ( i have daddy issues )

Poetry, cause I love the way poet describe things. ( sometimes i write as well )

Writing, it makes me feel calm and happy.

Nature, oh God I'm in love with nature.

Hugging trees, for it makes me feel better.

Most importantly, I love God! He's my beloved of them all :3

Some things that makes me uncomfortable or perhaps I won't enjoy.

Making fun of someone's insecurity.

Physical abuse or abusive language.

Spreading hate.

Creepy behaviour

Pushing your anger on someone else!

Someone who doesn't understand my depth in things and make fun of it.

Self deprication jokes ( not funny baby work on yourself )

don't come to me if it's not for lifetime, I get attached easily.

Also, don't be mean to me I tell God every single thing. So don't blame me if anything happens.