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paradisobound · 5 years

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Sail Away With Me: Part 6

Summary: It was a fluke. Dan shouldn’t have ever gone with Sam to a party on a yacht. He shouldn’t have trusted her to go. But in a chance encounter, he ends up in bed with Phil Lester, a billionaire CEO of a luxury clothing company. When he thinks he’s screwed up enough, he realizes he’s in way too deep. Because Phil Lester has fallen in love with him. The catch: Dan gave Phil a fake name and all Phil has to remember Dan by is the tattoo on his hip and the necklace he left behind.

Rating: Explicit

Word Count: 2.2k

Warnings: Mild Sexual Content

Pairing: Instagraminfluencer!dan and CEO!Phil

This is a chaptered work. Updates every Saturday around 1pm EST

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PHIL POV

“I’m close.”

“Me too.”

Phil thrust in one final time into the male and then fell forward, hiding his face in the males neck. He told himself he wouldn’t do this again. But he fell into bed with the first male he saw at his party tonight and now he’s here in an awkward situation. The male hasn’t finished and he’s feverishly working his hand over himself to do so and Phil is already pulling out and ready to get cleaned up.

The male finishes and they both stand up and separate as Phil takes his clothing and walks to his en-suite bathroom. He doesn’t even remember what the males name is. He just can’t help but notice the resemblance to another certain male that he, hopefully gets to meet tomorrow.

He washes up and cleans up in his bathroom and walks out to see the male is gone and his clothes are gone too. He goes to his bed and runs his hands over his hair and face as he struggles to come to terms with what he’s doing.

He’s just hoping that by tomorrow night, he’ll have the actual male he wants in his bed. Not just some random male to fill the hole in his heart. He reaches into his bedside drawer and pulls out the necklace that he can’t wait to give back to Ethan. He holds it in his hand and looks it over one more time before throwing it into its safe place and laying down into his bed, hoping sleep will come a bit easier.

He tosses and turns most of the night and by the dawn, he’s almost fully awake with nerves. He gets up from bed and walks to his living room to be pleasantly happy that all of the guests are gone and minimal needs to be done to adjust his place.

Phil gets out his laptop and opens it up as he takes a seat on his couch and looks through his emails and then decides he need to just stop doing that. He goes onto Instagram, something he doesn’t do very often, he finds himself looking through random things on his explore page.

But suddenly he comes across a profile from daniel_howell and he clicks on it because the male looks just like Ethan. But the photo can’t be right because this guy is named Daniel and...his head is playing tricks on him. It has to be. He can’t let it do this or else he’ll never find his Ethan.

He gives up on staying up and decides to go back to sleep, hoping his delirious thoughts of this person go away by the time he wakes up for real.

***

“I had the weirdest experience on Instagram last night.” Phil says to Jeanna as he gets to his office a few hours earlier to prepare for meeting his Ethan.

“What happened?” She asked in between bites of her lunch from Costa. She had even brought Phil a sandwich and he thanked her immensely for that since he hadn’t thought to even eat today.

“I went on Instagram and this guy showed up on my explore page and I could have sworn it was Ethan.”

Jeanna’s eyes widened and she looked at him with her hands in the air. “Phil, that’s fantastic!”

“But there is no way that it could be.” Phil says, immediately shutting Jeanna down. “Because the guys profile said his name was Daniel.”

Jeanna furrows her brows. “Oh that’s unfortunate.” She says. “It must be just someone who looks like Ethan.”

Phil shrugged and took another bite of food. He swallowed it down between answering. “But I’m almost sure it’s him.”

Jeanna just looked at him. “But if his name is Daniel, I doubt it would be, right?”

Phil shrugged again and then went back to eating.

“Can you find his profile for me?”

Phil looks back at Jeanna and fishes his phone out front his pocket, ignoring the way his fingers brushed against the necklace that he was still holding just in case he was able to give it back to Ethan today.

He opens his phone and goes to Instagram. He goes to the explore page and goes to the search bar and searches the name of the profile that had came up last night. He remembers it so vividly. He clicks on the profile and he feels his eyes widen a bit in his head because that was Ethan. This guy looked so much like him.

“So this is Daniel?” Jeanna asks, holding the phone in her hand. “He’s handsome.”

Phil felt his cheeks heat up. “Ethan looks just like him.”

Jeanna bites her lip and nods as she hands Phil his phone back. She doesn’t say anything more and Phil doesn’t either. They finish their lunch in peace.

They only had a few hours to pull this event off and if they didn’t get started, they would probably fall behind.

***

“I’m sorry, Phil.”

Phil doesn’t say anything. He just sits back in his chair and looks down at all of the photographs of the thousands of Ethan’s that showed up and feels his heart break a bit more. He shakes his head and tries to ignore the pang in his chest.

“I knew it wasn’t going to work.” He says. “Ethan’s gone.”

Jeanna puts her hand out and puts it on top of Phil’s. He was shaking a bit, both at the nerves that hadn’t quite went out of him and from the fact that he’d literally just spent three hours of his life meeting men that claimed to be his Ethan but no one even came close.

“We’ll find him.” Jeanna says, her voice soft. “I promise.”

***

DAN POV

“I couldn’t go.”

Sam just shook her head as she took a final drag from the spiff between her lips. She took the end and rubbed it out in the ashtray in her flat and blew the smoke out past her lips. He knew she would be disappointed.

“Why?” She asks.

“I didn’t want to confront him.” Dan says simply. “I didn’t want to go there and confront him after everything that has happened.”

“You’re an idiot.”

“Get it all out now.” Dan says, rolling his eyes.

Sam sits up in the metal chair and looks shakes her head. “You’re really going to shoot your shot with Phil Lester because you don’t want to confront him?”

“What else am I supposed to do, Sam?”

“Go and see him!” Sam says. She picks up her phone and looks at the time and then sighs. “Fuck, actually. I bet he’s not even holding the meetings anymore. It’s well past five.”

Dan just shakes his head and pulls his legs tighter to his chest as he wraps his arms around himself. “I shouldn’t have gave him a fake name.”

“No, you shouldn’t have.”

Sam isn’t holding anything back and Dan lets out a sad sigh. He could really use the comfort of his best friend right now but he knows she’s not going to give him that. Not when she thinks he’s being an idiot about something.

“You should have gone.” She says, adding onto what she said before. “You should have gone anyway and just spoken to him. I’ve told you before that Phil is a nice guy. If you were to just tell him I’m sure he’d understand. If he’s this keen on finding you, he obviously thinks you’re worth it. Do you know how long its been since I’ve ever heard of Phil Lester dating someone?”

Dan shakes his head.

Sam lets out a sigh. “My family has known Phil Lester since he began his company. He got invited to all of my dad’s special meetings and they’ve always been two people who associated with each other. But since Lukas died, I haven’t seen Phil date anyone.”

Dan furrows his brows and opens his mouth. “Who is Lukas?”

Sam looks rigid and she tenses suddenly. Her mouth open and closes and then she finally answers. “You’ve never heard about Lukas Laurent?”

Dan feels like that name sounds familiar but he can’t really place how he would know so he shakes his head and rests his cheek on his knee as he looks over at Sam. “No I don’t think I have.”

“Lukas Laurent was the founder of Le Grand Amour, you know, Phil’s company. He and Phil technically founded it together but Lukas’s name was always the one getting recognized.” Sam swallows and pauses for a moment. “He was killed a few years in a hate crime in Paris. He was there for business and he went out to a bar one night for a few drinks and on the way back, he was ambushed. His body was found the next morning in a back alley.”

Dan’s mouth fell open and Sam nodded. She pulled her lips in a tight line and then let them go. “That’s horrible.”

“Phil took it really hard. He and Lukas had been together for over ten years and they literally built their lives together and...well, it was all ruined in just one night.” She sits up and adjusts her legs as she sits on her foot and swings the other. “So to know that Phil is looking for someone to love again is such a big deal, Dan. That’s why I’m saying that you should have went to that meeting. You should have went and told Phil who you are.”

Dan felt his eyes cloud up as he struggled to hold back the tears of guilt that were flushing his waterline. He felt like an idiot now. He felt guilty that he didn’t go and try and speak to Phil. And as he picks up his phone and looks at the empty calendar reminder, mocking him on his home screen, he shakes his head and looks out at the foggy London evening.

***

Dan sits the next few days alone in his London flat. He doesn’t bother to speak to Sam and he also doesn’t bother to make an effort to do anything. He does a few more sponsored Instagram posts and he answers a few more emails, but he mostly sits alone and thinks about the what if’s.

What if he had gone to meet Phil at his office? What if he had given Phil his actual name? What if he had made an effort to actually speak to Phil and not just run away with his tail between his legs?

He’s sitting in his flat on a Friday evening with a glass of red wine sitting on the coffee table. His toes are on the edge of the wooden table and he’s hoisted his laptop on his knees to his face.

He goes through a few more of his Instagram dm’s and he answers a few of them and then he notices how his follower count is growing a bit and he’s reached his next milestone, effectively having 500,000 followers now. Which is a lot, he reckons. And he doesn’t quite know what to think if he’s being honest.

Just as Dan is reaching for his glass of wine, his phone buzzes and he picks it up in his head. He reads over the notification saying it’s a dm on Instagram and he cocks his head because he just checked them and surely he can’t have another already?

He opens the message and he sees it is from someone named Jeanna Dupoint and he furrows his brows as he reads it over.

Hello Dan! My name is Jeanna and I’m Phil Lester’s assistant here at Le Grand Amour. Phil noticed your profile the other day and mentioned that you were very reminiscent of a man he met in Italy by the name of Ethan. In fact, he’s saying you both are identical. He doesn’t know I’ve messaged you but given his reaction at seeing your profile, I’m wondering...are you the Ethan Phil is speaking about?

Dan feels all breath leave his body and he begins to hyperventilate as he reads over the message over and over again. Should he answer it honestly? He should, shouldn’t he? He’d be stupid if he didn’t.

He begins to type out a message but then he deletes it and backtracks. Fuck, he doesn’t know what to do but the waiting isn’t going to help anything or anyone. He needs to answer her. He has to. He can’t let this get away. But before his thoughts fully can’t comprehend the situation, another message comes through.

I’d like to arrange a time for you and Phil to meet, if you’re okay with that? I know Phil says he has a necklace for you and if I remember correctly, I had a few conversations with someone over a missing necklace for Dan. Would that happen to be yours?

Dan sits back on his couch and curls up staring at his phone. He shuts his eyes and squeezes them tight as he struggles to gather his breath.

This wasn’t real. He had to be dreaming.

He picked up the wine glass and finished it all in one gulp.

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musings-of-a-rose · 3 years

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thedivinefish · 4 years

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divinefishingtips · 4 years

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TGIWednesday and being thankful for your blessings

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365dailyaffirmations · 4 years

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TGIWednesday and being thankful for your blessings

TGIWednesday News

TGIWednesday Download

From the Fish Box

LIVE Appearances - Free Healing

Tampa Office Sessions

SWANN HOLISTIC HEALTH SOLUTIONS FRIDAY DECEMBER 11th from 10-4pm

Please call their office directly at ☎️ (813) 873-7773 in order to get on the schedule for 15-minutes $38 or 30-minutes $68. If you’re new to working with me, I suggest you schedule 30 minutes.

FRIDAY KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS

Fish Food

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

The Jimmy Mack Healing Show

Yesterday's Replay with Special Guest Psychic Joanne Leo Numerology/astrology/angel cards reading from the heart www.psychicjoanneleo.com

November 10th - NO SHOW THIS WEEK

November 17th - Michael Sue Scott | Cards, and intuitive readings LIVE Visit her Facebook page

November 24th - Rev Debbie | Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page

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Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy

The 30-day service is now being offered exclusively and you also have the option of selecting an ongoing subscription ($95/month) which is managed through PayPal only.

Go deep sea "fishing" with Jimmy!

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ksl57 · 5 years

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What the Match Tells Us about Ourselves: Social Experiment of an MS4

A few weeks before notifications of our residency match status were released, it became increasingly obvious that the topic of the SOAP* was taboo.

To everyone I had mentioned it in the past week, I was returned a bewildered expression. Some said, “You’ll match, you don’t have to worry about that.” Some said they were too scared to even think about it. Some just stared at me with an expression that was a mix of terror and confusion. Few, if any, knew how the process worked.

So, I decided to perform a social experiment. Two weeks ago, I started to prepare for the SOAP, simply because I could. I reasoned that although the probability of any one individual not matching is not high, it still exists – and thus, fair game. I had watched a SOAP webinar sponsored by the residency matching system overlords (i.e. AAMC ERAS, NRMP, ECFMG). I had reached out to my advisor to make sure I understood our school-specific procedure. I had the schedule of the SOAP and all its three rounds open as an internet tab for weeks. Yesterday, the morning the results were to be released, I reviewed the schedule. Got semi-dressed in case I needed to head over to the Student Affairs office where the SOAP process would be conducted.

I looked at the clock – 10:52AM. 8 more minutes. By then I had rehearsed the steps I would take several times in my head that I felt ready, and calm. The thought of receiving a message to tell me that I would need to enter the SOAP was no longer a formidable foe, but a task that needed to be completed. Business as usual. A few minutes later, the email came, was read, and was responded to appropriately.

With that, the results of my experiment were manifest – I had found the antidote to medical student anxiety.

The thought of not matching alone strikes fear and terror into our hearts. It is this concept of experiencing “failure” that makes it difficult to face. This fear of failure is not uncommon in the medical student stereotype. We quarantine ourselves for Step 1 (undoubtedly more religiously than we are doing for COVID-19); a grade of “High Pass” (one step lower than Honors) is unacceptable during clerkships; toxic Google Spreadsheets are created to obsess over the residency application process so that news becomes viral if program directors so much as raises an eyebrow at one applicant and not at another.

At baseline, medical students are anxious. Because we lack experience of failure, we become afraid of it. The reflexive response is to decrease the anxiety-producing triggers in our environment. For example, the USMLE declared around a month ago their monumental decision of making Step 1 pass/fail. Their claimed reasoning behind this is to alleviate the intense anxiety and distress around a single exam and to promote wellness. However, students will find another target for our anxiety. We are constantly being compared with our peers, so anything that stratifies us is a source of distress. We are simply afraid of being at the bottom of anything. We are so used to having our works and accomplishments define us, that a failure in anything means that we, intrinsically, are a failure.

My therapist had once told me, “You cannot always control your environment, but you can control how it affects you.” Initiatives to control our environment, such as the Step 1 pass/fail initiative, does little if anything to affect the way we inherently cope with anxiety. In Harry Potter, He Who Must Not Be Named was feared by everyone, and avoiding Voldemort’s name, i.e. the environmental change, did little to quell fear. Instead, doing so became the source of his power. However, the more the citizens of the wizarding world faced reality and used his real name, the less intimidating he seemed. Likewise, the more we avoid our fear of being unmatched, the more we are feeding it, and the more powerful this fear will become. However, as I realized through my experiment, the more I prepared for and expected the SOAP, the less scary it became to me.

As a trained speaker for a national mental health advocacy organization, I and some colleagues recently gave a talk at a public library. During our Q&A session, one participant asked, “How much do you think social media is contributing to increasing rates of mental illness?” Referencing the little research involvement I’ve had on this very subject, I stated that yes, social media may contribute to some degree of anxiety and depression in adolescents. People commonly present themselves in idealistic ways: beautiful, successful, passionate, and interesting, largely unrepresentative of reality but inevitably leading to unhealthy and false comparisons in which others’ successes are reminders of our shortcomings. But the solution to this is not to ban ourselves from social media – after all, it is an extremely effective way to foster connections and breaks boundaries to communities and social supports, and doing so can instigate social isolation. Rather, we can change the way we respond – that is, realize that we are not a failure, remind ourselves of our own successes, and realize that our worth is in more than just pretty pictures and blue thumbs-ups.

Whether or not we are matched, the world will move on. We may go online on Friday and see everyone post their good news of getting into their top programs and then proceed predictably to compare ourselves to everyone. That’s okay, and that’s normal. But realize that there are so many more things that define us. We are more than a number, more than a name on a list, more than bullet points on a resume. And the next year of our life is one that we are blessed with, to learn more about who we are, and to make us a more resilient person despite whatever failures lay ahead of us. Come Friday, March 20, 1pm EST, we won’t be any more or less smart, or more or less successful, or better or worse off than the classmate next to us. We’re all off to our own adventures in the next chapter of our lives. In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; And the peace of God, which surpasses every man's understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 *SOAP = Supplemental Offer and Acceptance Program. An alternative to securing a residency program for those who find out they are unmatched or partially matched.

#match #soap #medical school #residency

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sunflowerplumbobs · 7 years

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So here’s what I’m thinking...

On Thursday,I’m working 1pm to 10pm (EST),so that means Cats & Dogs will be out midnight my time...which is kind of a good thing because then I’ll be able to keep myself busy instead of staring at my screen counting down the hours,lol. But I also have to work Friday 1pm to 10pm. So,I’m thinking I’ll install and play for at least a little bit after release and try to get at least a couple posts queued before I would have to go to sleep.

But Saturday I’m off work so,that will probably be the day I get the most play time in and start getting posts queued. Now that I’m going to be working,I’m probably going to have to adjust the amount of posts per day again. I really,really want to keep it at 11 per day but I don’t know if I’ll be able to do that. I’m working part time so my schedule is always going to be changing,with different hours and different days off. I’m gonna try my hardest to keep posting daily though,just might be some trial and error for awhile to see what is going to work best :)

#love-and-sims personal

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lotrewrite · 7 years

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LOT Chat Recap

So the chat went very well! I have grouped the subjects into thematic categories for everyone's ease.

A few up-front things for everyone:

Scheduling

Everyone will have two more weeks to revise their drafts or send in comments. Writers, please send me the edits you want me to make to your episode outline, which will be posted to the outline doc; you can also start drafting your final episode. If writers have any further questions about your episode, send in submissions or asks and they can be discussed by the group on this page; I am also always available to talk by messenger. Readers, please send in your comments and questions on episodes. I will be posting "let's talk about these three episodes" posts every day for the next week so that people can submit specific comments about those episodes if they have any additional comments to make.

We will have another chat on Saturday June 24 at 1PM EST (unless people prefer a different time)

Fully written episodes will then be due on Friday, July 28. We will then have two weeks of editing and proof-reading, with the goal of posting the complete season to Ao3 by August 15.

Format

As people are welcome to start drafting their episodes ASAP, we need to decide on format. I will post a separate post in regards to this question with a poll.

Recap

Queen B

We're using the "Queen of Bialya with mind control powers" version, with an amulet instead of "pheromones" because it corresponds with Amaya's symbolism-wise; Queen B is from 2016

Motive: she's sensitive about the fact that she's illegitimately in power, which is why she isn't in Bialya

Legends could use in the Roman Republic episode where she's pretending to be a Queen; that’s why she has a feud with Mari, who has been helping undermine her power base by helping prove that she's not legit; she wants the spear so she's legitimately the queen of Bialya, which is why she joins the Legion (also because messing with Amaya will interfere with Mari)

Femme fatale style villain, which would make the scene in episode 16 where instead of seducing/convincing/mind controlling the guard, she just punches him, SO MUCH FUNNIER (like she saunters up, you think she's gonna use her powers, she smiles all seductive - and WHAM)

We need to pump up her role in the various episodes - she can take Merlyn's place as the "person who snarks with Darkh"

Amaya

Needs more development of her plot where she’s thinking about her future and trying to think of whether she should change it or not

Episode 10: Amaya and Queen B fight - Queen B hints at things, building up Amaya’s curiosity

Episode 13: Queen B has more revelations for Amaya, telling actual facts

Amaya is thinking about changing: the destruction of her village and the fact that Mari grows up in the foster care system

That means we can have her start to angst about changing things in the Tudor episode (14) and New York (15); maybe a scene in 14 where she does research about her future secretly and then in 15 more debate about changing it, with the events of 15 inspiring her not to change it

that way we have a 5-part arc for Amaya about it

and her later confrontations with Queen B in 18 and in Doomworld work stronger because of it because Queen B’s taunts don’t work as well any more

Compass

They pick it up in Episode 8 from Constantine in return for helping with the Crusade; Lily gets brought in to use her micro-tech knowledge to amp it up but really because Stein wants her around, but otherwise I think we can limit the references to it to "so Gideon says the compass goes to Y time period" – but it should be referenced consistently after Episode 8

Lily first appears in Episode 7 just like in canon, possible reference to present day Clarissa

Lily first gets picked up in episode 15, and ends up having her fight with Stein about him hiding her aberration status in episode 15 so that 16 starts with them still fighting; she can just be brought in as an "expert" in technology to help calibrate the compass, not because she’s an aberration – Rip can reveal it to her because he’s a Time Master and objects

Relationship with Stein: he’s still a workaholic, tries to over-interfere with her academics, distant but proud of her accomplishments and they bonded over their intelligence, he’s a good mentor figure; she’s pissed off that he didn't tell her about the aberration thing - it makes her feel like he didn't trust her, and she presumably had to fight HARD to get to a position of academic achievement where she felt he respected her instead of humoring her because she's his beloved daughter; a case of "daddy knows best" when it comes to the aberration issues. And she can be like "this is just like when you came to my dissertation defense!" It also explains why she forgives him in episode 16: she's kind of used to him being a bit of an oblivious tactless dumbass

Oculus – Spear

The Oculus' destruction and the scattering of the spear pieces are somehow connected – they were using the spear to power the Oculus; when it exploded, they scattered

as a Time Master, Rip knows where to find them – the piece he finds in the time loop with the 81 people is one of the pieces from the Oculus; the pieces want to get back together and are powered up by one of them being used

they don’t whisper and cannot be used to guide to each other – they don’t work by “wishes” per se, they just allow people to make changes to the timeline (good luck in succeeding in changing history to your will); only the spear together can you “wish” a new world into existence

The spear pieces weren’t “always there” – they were scattered there

Re-work the pilot so that the piece Rip gets is from the Oculus and maybe we can scatter the information that they had been powering the Oculus with the spear into episode 4 (Eo's explanation) and episode 8 (Constantine can do a bit of an info dump, he's a magical character)

Len

Len ends up just hovering in the background in a lot of the episodes and he never seems to get any lines that talk about his bitterness/resentment, so we need to use him more.

He is connected to the Oculus and that's why putting the spear back together = we see him more

Len’s appearance guide:

First few episodes, we have ONLY "visuals" of Len, just momentary glimpses, through episode 5, but nothing more - no comments, just blink-and-he's-gone.

Episode 3 is our first appearance of blink-and-miss-him - thematically appropriate since we're also bringing in Amaya

More blink-and-miss appearance in the next two episodes

We have the "funeral" episode as the turning point between “blink and gone” and “talking” next episode

Then in episode 6 we have our first appear-and-talk Len, the big moment where Mick is taken aback and is surprise (like in canon, where Mick has to give a gruff "You're not real"). But at that point, he's still only showing up briefly.

Len starts showing up more as the episodes go by; episode 6 through 10 we have him saying things TO Mick and Mick trying (and failing) to ignore him

Episode 10 being the episode where he's talking enough with Mick that the others notice

Episode 11 they test Mick for hallucinations, but Len's still there

Episode 12 Len doesn't do much, but the audience finds out he's real

Then from episode 13 to 16, Len should really be written as a full member of the cast just one that no one else can hear but Mick.

In Episode 14 L!Len steals the piece while O!Len is around, which is when O!Len realizes for the first time that Legion!Len is around; we could have a scene with O!Len asking Gideon "WTF was that"

NOTE: once Len is a full cast member, he can have scenes by himself, he doesn't always have to be tied to Mick or to another cast member, but before that, when he's just a hallucination, he shouldn't appear solo

Episode 16, he argues with Mick and leaves to go with the Legion!Len, who he discovers can also see him

Episode 17 is the episode where he helps Legion!Len fight the Legion

Episode 18 O!Len comes back and re-joins Mick's side, but isn't able to convince him not to go with Legion!Len in episode 19

Episode 20, Mick discovers Len is real

Episode 22, everyone else does and Len gets resurrected

Bambi

Decision made that Bambi survives; Pan will fix the details

Because Bambi survive in episode 2, there will be a line in the very end of the finale, when they crash land in LA and there are dinos there, just as the scene is fading to black we get a Ray voice-over going "wait...Bambi?!"

because that would be A, hilarious and B, a good tie-in to show that time is broken and they didn't land in a different part of the multiverse

Pencil

It's a convenient device that Nate would have around that the audience won't immediately go "ah-ha! mysterious item gets mentioned! will be important!"; him waving around the pencil in the pilot is a nice, easy way to bring it into the audience's view - but not emphasize it

It's his "lucky" pencil that he only uses for important exams; think of the kid who has a pencil box where he lovingly keeps that ONE PENCIL that he passed a test with and he uses it ONLY for tests

Nate inadvertently creates his own closed time loop: the spear is scattered through time and appears in Nate’s possession, which he thinks is a gift from his grandfather – it immunizes him from the changes in time (Nate tells his grandfather "you gave me your lucky pencil"; his grandfather who does not' have a lucky pencil gets weird about it then grabs a random pencil from the mission ( the spear piece) and gives that to young!Nate thereby completing the circle)

The JSA is there on a legitimate mission that is being messed up by the spear piece being there but since they're IN the time period, they don't realizes it's being messed with; the Legends, however, realize something is wrong and figure out that those weird glowing sticks might be involved and go looking but also try to help fix the original mission, which they mess up and show how unprofessional they are; however, in the end, they manage to help the JSA complete their mission and in the process, Henry grabs the spear piece he doesn't know it's a spear piece because the legends never shared that info

He takes the pencil because Nate told him he gave him his lucky pencil and Henry didn't have one but he doesn't want to disappoint his grandson so he picks one up going "this is a good memento of a really weird mission" and the Legends realize that that's how Nate got the spear piece in the first place it plays on the nature of time travel

the pencil is a closed time loop - it's a really nice way to play with time travel without being too cliche - it's the "being your own grandfather" trope but funny

the fact that we have two "time loops" in the early episodes - but not really in the later ones - could be a symptom of the timeline freeing itself from the "set" history of the Time Masters

which would be really cool thematically, with the Legends being set up by their various experiences in season 2 to actually start /deliberately changing history/ in season 3

Nate

Nate's hemophilia resolved with Gideon just saving his life, but doesn't fix his hemophilia

would be really funny to have Nate cameo in Doomworld by literally doing the same thing he does in the pilot - breaking into the mayor's office and babbling about history something. except this time it's Darkh; but then darhk would kill him, but it'd be undone by the end of Doomworld

Ray breaking his suit

The full sequence is episode 6 (damage) episode 7 (overshadowed by Invasion) episode 8 (breaks) episode 9 (unsuccessful repair; acknowledge that he won’t be able to use it) episode 10 (can't use it all; trying new personas).

Because it's his screwing up in episode 6 that causes it, but it doesn't fully break it. and he's not a big player using his suit in Invasion, which we're mostly leaving alone

In Episode 9, he’s trying to put the suit back together but has only gotten parts of it to work; he shrinks due to an error and is worried he won’t be able to get big again – should have a moment at the end of the episode where Ray acknowledges he won’t fix it any time soon and realizing he needs to try to be a hero in a different way to set up the episode 10 montage

Ray montage

in terms of visuals, the scene should probably focus on Ray in the center, with whoever commenting doing so from off-screen

Ray tries to give himself powers; "I'm going to Captain America myself" "Remember how that went for Bruce Banner?" - a good way to point out that the Marvel universe are comics in DC

dress him in the GL outfit and he's explaining to someone that "so it'll be based around this ring -" "won't work"

dress him as the Blue Beetle for a second before he goes "naaaaah"

booster gold and Gideon advises against

We should have him in a superman costume at one point but with no "s" and he's saying "I dunno, maybe if something went in the middle?" (that is also a Powergirl reference - the superman outfit but the "s" was a chest-window or the "atom" LOT symbol, and then you have someone (Jax?) off-screen going "no, man, no")

possibly one piece outfit, Naruto outfit - Mick offscreen just goes "NO, haircut"

Vikings

Jax says Stein is his dad, possibly a mentor instead? Or a specific reference to multi-cultural Vikings

the changing vs. preserving history argument

They are split up as sara, ray, amaya for preserve and mick, jax, stein for change, but by the end of episode 13, it ends up as mick, jax, stein, amaya vs. sara, ray, rip once rip's brainwashing is removed and amaya hears about her future from queen b

Cameos

Jason Blood in the background for a few episodes

I think the references to Poison Ivy not returning their calls and then having a discussion of Poison Ivy in Doomworld worked really well using Kendra three times was also really great

the Lanterns should also be foreshadowed more, if they're going to appear (one reference to the Lanterns in our rewritten Invasion, so if we have maybe one more somewhere, it'd be enough)

References to the other rogues: both in the future and mick, len, and lisa talking about them

Need to fill in reference in filler episode (Selina Kyle? Someone else?)

Trauma

Should have some scenes dealing with the trauma Ray went through while surviving in the cretaceous period and dealing with the effects Rip's brainwashing had - both characters would try to deny it, powering through until they break (Ray when his suit breaks for good in episode 10 - he mentions that he feels empty without his suit and all alone like he did in the Cretaceous period)

Rip and Mick should definitely have a moment to discuss brainwashing, if possible

Ray's suit is some symbolism for his psychological journey

Episode 3

Possible move to D Day or using the 1942 occupation of the south of France because of the Allied invasion of Morocco

Episode 10

Stein goes undercover as a Brit as well, and that's how they find out that the Legion are influencing the Brits; That way he gets stuck on the British ship and can't form Firestorm until the climatic battle moment

episode 8

Zatanna and Madame Xanadu should appear briefly in the beginning (wild goose chase montage when they’re trying to hire someone other than Constantine)

The organization should be 1, Rip being chased; 2, intro sequence; 3, Constantine sequence with Zed getting the vision; 4, they go after Rip and I think 4, the feudal Japan sequence, should be longer, with more chasing and action sequences, as well as a scene where the Legends lose Rip to the Legion because Ray’s suit breaks and where Rip thinks Eobard is friendly before realizing he’s not;

needs a scene where the Legends return to Constantine and he offers them the compass in exchange for help with the Crusade, THEN intersperse the Rip interrogation with the Legends defeating the Crusade

#recap #episode 3 #episode 10 #episode 8 #episode 5

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paradisobound · 6 years

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I Want It, I Got It: Chapter 13

Summary: Phil Lester was a worker for the BBC in London. Working in the advertising department, he was content being alongside his friend and fellow coworker PJ during every shift. However, the BBC is temporarily being used as a film set for a new movie staring Hollywood ‘It’ star, Daniel Howell. Being stuck as an extra on the set, Phil finds it’s hard to ignore the famous star. And maybe, just maybe, Dan finds it hard to ignore Phil as well.

Word Count: 3.5k (this chapter)

Warnings: Occasional swearing and mentions of sex

Rating: Explicit

Updates will be every Sunday at 1pm EST

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A/N: Surprise! i had this chapter done so I decided to post it anyway :) don't get used to having the same upload schedule though if I do in fact have chapters done. This is just because this chapter is 3.4k and i think it's the best I've written so far so I'm eager to see you guys read it!

Dan’s name popped up on Phil’s phone under a feeling of vibrations. Phil found himself holding his breath, willing his stomach to unknot and the feeling of guilt to leave. He shut his eyes briefly and attempted to run his hands through his slightly sweaty hair to hide what just happened. Unfortunately, the blush in his cheeks was going to last a while.

He unlocked his phone and answered Dan’s Facetime request. On the screen, Dan’s face popped up and he was in a dimly lit room with a rack of clothing behind where he was sat. Phil assumed he was still on set.

“It was so awful, Phil!” Dan whined, his voice childlike. “The director wanted us to do all this crazy shit and God, it’s going to look so fake. I can tell already. And I wasn’t into. Mimei wasn’t into it. It was just awkward.”

“I’m sorry.” Phil says, biting his lip. He genuinely was sorry. He still couldn’t imagine how it must feel to be forced into a scene like that. He assumed that Dan still had a bit of say in the matter but at the same time, he doubted that.

Dan let out a sigh. “I have to go back on set for another scene in fifteen minutes but I really needed to―why are your cheeks flushed? Did you just go for a run or something?”

Phil felt his cheeks flush even redder as blood rushed to his face. “Oh…uh…No. Just kind of warm in my flat tonight.”

Dan cocked his eyebrow and gave a smirk before he let out a breath along with a chuckle. “Okay mate.” Dan says, dragging out the words, laughing a little himself.

Phil was thoroughly embarrassed now.

“Ya know,” Dan continues. “If you were in the middle of a wank, I could have called tonight after I got home.”

“Oh no!” Phil says, quickly trying to divert the topic. “No! It wasn’t that.”

Dan smirked at him again. “Sure, mate.” He lets out a sigh. “I have such a busy week ahead of me. I’m not looking forward to it.”

“What are you doing?”

“Well,” Dan says, looking down at his lap before bringing his attention back up to the screen. “Tomorrow, I have a cover shoot for People magazine followed by an interview for an article that they’re writing on me to do with my movie. And then the rest of this week, I have a mix of public appearances I have to make. One of them is actually that I’m cutting the ribbon at this new theater in downtown LA near WEHO. And then Friday, I have to attend a premiere for another movie that I was invited to and my manager booked me for. All the rest of the time, I’m filming the rest of the movie.”

Phil listens with intent to everything Dan says and he finds it all a bit overwhelming. Especially considering that Phil is just going to be going to work, eating, playing with Spike, and repeating the process for the foreseeable future. He never had anything as exciting as Dan always had going on.

But in a way, he didn’t envy Dan for that. In fact, he felt bad.

“Oh!” Dan says with a sudden thought. “And then this weekend, I’m attending a party that is being held by Kylie Jenner.”

Phil feels his body stiffen. “Kylie Jenner?!” He finds himself exclaiming.

Dan nods. “Yep! She’s hosting a party for her new collection of make up that has to do with ‘saving world hunger’ or some ploy like that and I was invited by her PR team because apparently I would be good PR to have at the party? I don’t fucking know. So I’m attending. Maybe I’ll get a Kanye autograph while I’m there.”

“Where is it going to be?” Phil asks. “Surely, it’s not at her home, right?”

Dan shrugs. “No idea actually. I’ll probably just walk in, sip some champagne and have a few cocktails, take a couple of photos, and then peace out for the evening. Those events aren’t really my thing.”

“That sounds exhausting.” Phil says. “I can’t imagine having to be around that many people and having to talk with them and take a bunch of photographs.”

“Not your type of thing either?” Dan asks, relaxing back in his chair. It creaks and Phil watches Dan’s eyes widen as he quickly looks down at the sides of the chair. Phil chuckled to himself because it sounded like the chair was in pretty bad quality. Probably some cheap plastic seat with a vinyl or canvas fabric to sit on.

Phil shook his head. “No. I’m not the most social person.”

“Me either.” Dan says. “Which I know is ironic but…” He shrugs.

“Are you an introvert?” Phil asks. He actually does want to know.

“Yep.” Dan says with a smile. “Are you?”

“Oh totally.”

“Oh good.” Dan says with a knowing glance. “I was ready to say we can’t be friends if you were an extrovert.”

Phil lets out a laugh and Dan follows suit.

But then a loud voice cuts through the laughing to Dan, saying “five minutes before you’re needed on set.” Dan gives him an apologetic glance and tells Phil that he’ll talk to him later.

Phil doesn’t promise that he’ll be awake to answer but he does hope he will be. He wishes Dan better luck on his shoot and then they hang up and Phil is left alone again in his bedroom.

He throws his phone to the side and then stands up from his bed. He walks over to the door and opens it, letting in Spike who was sitting on the other side waiting, his stubby tail wagging back in forth. With the allowance back into the room, Spike runs to the bed and hops on and burrows onto Phil’s pillow, resting his head.

Phil leaves the room and goes to the bathroom and shuts the door behind him. He walks in and slips his pants off into a pile on the floor. He grabs the bottom of his shirt and takes the off as well, throwing that along with his pants onto the floor. He bends down and turns the water of his shower on and lets the droplets from the faucet run over his fingers. When it’s a suitable temperature, turns on his shower and steps inside, pulling the curtain back.

He stands under the warm mist and washes all of the sweat and dirt from his skin. There are also some particularly stickier areas as well but he takes his time washing all of those away.

He quickly washes his body and then grabs for his shampoo and wets his hair under the water. He pushes it back before the water can drip down his face and he squirts the shampoo into his palm before running it through his hair and lathering it.

He’s rinsing his hair out, his eyes still closed to avoid getting the shampoo into them. When he knows it’s rinsed out, he steps out of the mist and shakes his head a little, wiping his face off with a damp washcloth that was hanging from the side bar of his tub.

He opens his eyes slowly and realizes that there is a shampoo in his shower that he’s never seen before. He bends over and picks up the bright orange bottle and reads it over. “Curl protectant shampoo for men.” He laughs to himself. For men. How absurd is that? He uses whatever shampoo has the most pleasing scent.

It’s half used and he opens it, gagging a little at the strong scent that comes out it. But he leans back down and takes another sniff. It’s Dan. That scent is Dan. It’s so familiar.

He feels a bit sad now, a pit forming in his stomach. He shouldn’t feel this way about a half used shampoo bottle that Dan must have left behind. He’s never noticed it before in the shower, but most of the time, when he showers, he doesn’t have his contacts in so he blindly grabs for his shampoo and body wash, recognizing the different sized bottles.

He sets it back down on the edge of the tub and then turns around, turning off the shower as the water begins to run cool against his skin. He pulls back the curtain and steps out, grabbing a towel from the rack and pushing it up to his face to wipe of the water on his skin.

He grabs the rest of his towels and finishes drying himself off before wrapping them around his body like he always does. He makes a pit stop at the sink and removes his contacts, putting them in the pot before setting them back on the sink. He stumbles blindly from his bathroom, grabbing his dirty clothes on the way, and makes it to his bedroom where he grabs for his glasses on the night stand and puts them on.

Spike is still sitting on his bed, watching him as he moves around the room and slowly dresses into a new set of pajamas and pants. Once he’s settled into his emoji pajamas and a black shirt, he flops onto his bed and picks up his phone. He has a couple missed messages.

One from PJ and two from his mum.

He looks at the one from PJ first which is just saying “drinks tonight? My treat.”

He looks at the time. It’s a little after 6pm. He could probably do for a drink or two. Not even to get drunk but a couple to ease his mind. He texts back PJ asking for when and where and then opens the texts from his mum.

Mum: are you doing anything this weekend, hun?

Mum: your father and I would like to see you.

He lets out a sigh and then opens his calendar. He doesn’t have to work this weekend―thank god, but he’s not sure if he can find a way to get to the Isle of Man on such short notice. He’d love to see his parents but he doesn’t think it’ll be plausible.

In the time of him going online and looking up flights, he gets a message from PJ telling him to meet him at this pub near his flat at 7:30. He has time so he goes back on Safari and ends up finding a flight that leaves near 6am this Saturday and then he found a return flight for 8pm on Sunday back to London. He could do that.

He books the flights and then takes a screenshot of the confirmations and sends them to his mum. As soon as the messages are sent, his mum calls him and he answers.

“Child!” She chimes through the speaker.

“Mum!”

“You found flights alright?” She asked. “Your father and I weren’t sure if you were going to find any on such short notice.”

“Isle of Man isn’t exactly a hot spot.” Phil says with a chuckle. “I normally can find flights pretty quickly.”

“You’ll have to tell us about Dan when you get here!” She says, wasting no time in bringing him up. “Your father and I have a lot of questions.”

Phil let’s out a sigh. ‘There isn’t much to say, mum.”

“Dear, your father and I have watched Dan in movies before. We have a lot of questions about how you two even met.” She says, her voice soft. “Plus, he’s a nice-looking boy.”

“Mum…” He groans, feeling his body cave inward from the secondhand embarrassment.

“Oh hun, you know it’s true.” She says with a laugh. “And I also happen to know that he’s your type.”

“I don’t have a type.” Phil corrects.

“I don’t know about that.” His mum continues. “Your last boyfriend―Jonah? Was it?”

“Joshua.”

“Joshua! Yes, him! He was tall with curly brown hair and he had brown eyes too.”

‘That doesn’t mean anything.”

“Okay, Phil.” She says and Phil rolls his eyes. “We’ll pick you up from the airport as usual on Saturday. You should visit more often!”

“I don’t have a lot of time anymore.” Phil says because it’s true. He really doesn’t have a lot of time anymore between going to work and being busy with work. And he also does have a social life sometimes. Not often, but he does when he goes out with PJ. Like he’s going to tonight.

“Well make time, child!” She pips up. “We miss you!”

“I miss you too, mum.”

He can tell she’s smiling on the other side. “Well, I’ll let you go. But do call a bit more. I’ll see you on Saturday.”

He says a quick goodbye to her and then they hang up.

He gets up from bed and begins to get ready for the pub when his phone vibrates against the bed. He’s ready to roll his eyes again, sure that it’s his mum texting him goodnight or something. But instead, it’s from Dan.

He quickly grabs his phone and opens the message. A photo pops up and it’s one from Dan, a selfie in a mirror. He’s dressed in a suit and his hair is perfectly groomed. His eyes are slightly squinted but his body language is poised and just…well, Phil can’t help but feel butterflies when he looks at the photo.

Yeah, he’s fucked.

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Phil’s one raspberry beer down at the pub and PJ and him are laughing over some dumb thing that they remembered from work that happened nearly two years before. Phil’s not even sure how they got on the subject of this, but he finds himself laughing so hard his sides hurt.

“And then Gemma’s face was priceless!” PJ continues, his laugh carrying through the loud atmosphere and Phil is following suit. He picks up his bottle and finishes the rest of the beer before he stands up.

“Want another one?” Phil asks, pointing to PJ’s empty pint on the table.

PJ shakes his head. “I said the drinks were on me tonight!” He stands up and grabs the pint and the bottle. “I’ll go grab us a few drinks. What would you like?”

“Surprise me.” Phil says, climbing back onto the stool and sitting down.

Dan hadn’t been able to text him much but Phil did find himself replying back to Dan’s photo with a smiley face. He doesn’t know why that is what he sent but he did and he can’t take it back. And he also doesn’t want to take it back because Dan sent back a blushing emoji.

He still hasn’t been on Twitter or Instagram or YouTube and that’s okay because he doesn’t want to read everything that he knows is going to be on there. He wants to remain a happy medium in this entire situation.

Which reminds him, he’s going to need to go on his YouTube eventually because he’ll need to make another video soon. What should he even do for this new video? Maybe a Q+A? That might be fun? But then that is going to require him to go on Twitter.

“I got you another beer.” PJ says, setting a pint down on the table of some pale drink. “It sounded like one you might like.”

Phil lifts up and eyebrow and picks it up, taking a quick sip. He doesn’t particularly like beer but he’ll drink this since PJ bought it and he’ll feel bad not finishing it.

“So, what’s the gossip about Dan?” PJ asks, taking a long sip of…that looks like Guinness but Phil’s not sure.

“What gossip?” Phil asks, genuinely confused.

“What’s he like!” PJ asks. “I want to know what the famous guy is like to be around.”

Phil shrugged. “He’s like a normal guy?” Phil says. “I mean, he’s fun and he’s loud. But he also is super understanding and he always is really easy to talk to which you know how awkward I am. But it’s not hard to build a friendship with him.”

“When are you going to ask him out?” PJ asks, taking a long swig of his drink.

Phil follows and takes a sip, wincing a bit at the bitterness. Yeah, this beer is definitely not his thing. “I don’t even know if I will.”

“You two seem right fond of each other.” PJ says. “That video was the definition of sexual tension.”

Phil scoffs. “I doubt that.”

PJ shook his head. “No mate. That video…if no one knew who you were, they would have sworn that you were Dan’s boyfriend. I mean, he was looking at you up and down every second.”

Phil felt his face flush. “I’m sure he doesn’t find me attractive.” He says. “And besides, we’re just friends.”

PJ frowns. “Don’t do that.”

“Do what?”

“Undermine yourself like that.” PJ says.

Phil looks down at his drink. “It’s true though.” He says. “There is a reason why guys don’t want to date me after a year.”

“You just haven’t found the good guys.” PJ presses.

Phil shrugs. “No one wants to date me, PJ.” He says. “They just want me to put out for them so they can get off and then they want to leave.”

“Once again,” PJ continues. “You’re not finding the right guys.” PJ pauses. “I think Dan looks at you differently than I’ve ever seen a guy look at you.”

Phil shakes his head.

“No!” PJ adds. “Dan is into you, Phil.” He reaches out and lays a hand on Phil’s arm. “Drop some hints at him. I guarantee that he’s into you.”

“How would I even do that?” Phil asks, giving in a little bit. “I don’t know how to flirt. I’m not even sure where to begin. My last boyfriend messaged me over Twitter in my Dm’s.”

“Just say things to him that might come off as flirty. Tell him you like his shirt or maybe you’d like to see it off.”

“Peej!”

“I’m being serious, Phil! Maybe send him more photos. Send him a selfie and see if he’ll send one back. Hell, send him a picture of your dick and see if he’ll one back.”

“I’m not doing that, PJ!” Phil exclaimed, his voice drowned out, thankfully, by the loud murmurs. “For one, I think that counts as sexual harassment on paper.”

PJ rolls his eyes. “Well, then just talk with him and get a little bit flirtier. Tell him he has great eyes and that you want to get lost in them. Tell him he has a great body and you want to get lost in it.”

Phil scoffs and feels his face flush―and it’s not from the alcohol or the warm room. “I don’t know.”

“Just try it!” PJ presses. “Get out your phone and send him a text.”

“Right now?”

“Yes, right now!”

“This is ridiculous and stupid.” Phil says as he reaches into his pocket and pulls out his phone. He sets it on the table and PJ gestures to it.

“Send Dan a text. Just send him something short. Maybe like a “I miss you” or “Can’t wait to see you again”. Just start simple.”

Phil bites his lip and opens up his phone, clicking on the messages app and opening up Dan’s messages. “What was the last thing he sent you?” PJ asks.

“A selfie.” Phil says, looking down at the photo.

“Okay, what did you say to him about it?”

“This feels like an interrogation.” Phil counters.

“Well, do you want to get laid or not?” Pj asks and Phil lets out a breath. He picks up his beer and takes a long sip. He’s going to need it.

“I just sent him an emoji.”

“OH PHIL!” PJ cried. “What emoji did you send? Please tell me it was the eggplant.”

Phil coughed and blushed. “It was just a smiley emoji.”

PJ cried out again and reached for Phil’s phone, snatching it from his hands. “What are you doing?” Phil protested, reaching for it. But PJ’s fingers were too fast and he was typing and all Phil could do was wait.

PJ handed his phone back to him and Phil takes another swig of his beer before grabbing it. He reads it over and feels the color drain from his face.

Phil: I forgot to tell you this earlier but I think you look amazing.

“PJ he’s going to think I’m weird!” Phil whines. “This is too much!”

“No, it won’t be.” PJ said. “Just wait and see.”

No messages come as Phil finishes his beer and PJ finishes his. Neither one of them want another drink so they both leave, completely sober still and head back to their flats.

Phil gets into his flat at a little after 10 and greets Spike with a little rub down and then a chance to go to the courtyard for the bathroom. When he lets Spike back in, he goes to the bathroom himself and gets ready for bed.

He goes to his bedroom and climbs into bed, knowing he has to be up early to go to work tomorrow. He grabs his phone and goes to plug it in when he sees a message from Dan that stops his heart.

Dan: thank you <3 but I think its you that looks amazing not me

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