#i am neurodivergent

[ruthytwoshakes]

THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE TRANS GIRLS + TRANS FEM🫡🫡🫡🫡

I swear you guys make the majority of the stuff I see, watch, and listen too,, like how do you guys just make the best shit I don’t get it?????? So cool I’m in awe

also soldier from tf2 is here yay

[stormsandskies]

Hi! I am doing a research project for my Education class on Neurodiversity in schools and how they are perceived and treated based on gender.

I would love it if you could fill out the google form attached, it should only take about 5-10 minutes.

If you could reblog as well for more reach i would appreciate it! /nf

Thank you so much!!

edit: Thank you to everyone who filled this out!! I am closing the form now so I can get started with the project! ❤️

[impressive-imperfection]

This past year has been full of revelations and most have been life altering. In the past year, I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD & highly likely autistic, and found out that I have aphantasia (which means I have the inability to visualize…my mind’s eye is blind, which is fascinating and saddening).

Aphantasia is a rabbit hole, which I’ll save for a different post. I’ll concentrate on the AuDHD…

Apparently, women and girls are under diagnosed or diagnosis has been missed completely. It seems we women/girls have the ability to “mask”, a term I have only just become aware of but completely relate to!

As a masker, we can “fit in” with neurotypicals, but at a price. Masking is expensive, it costs us our mental and physical health. The constant vigilance causes anxiety and stress which in turn triggers inflammation and pain (just to start). As a masker we naturally become a people pleaser and mentally bend ourselves into the shapes that those around us demand. We’ve had the mask so fully “on” that many of us lose ourselves, and blame ourselves for being “broken”.

My inner dialogue was AWFUL! I was horrible to myself and it wasn’t fair. It wasn’t my fault. My brain works differently than others, that’s all. It isn’t anything to be ashamed of, and I’m not. Not anymore. That being said, I still have to live and work in a neurotypical world, so I’ve had to come up with my own ways of doing it, and I’m still working on it.

I chose medication as one of my tools and luckily I found an ADHD med that work for me. With it, I’m better able to focus on tasks and emotionally regulate…MAN, I wish I had been diagnosed at an earlier age.

I’m 44 and was diagnosed over the summer, now I wonder if I had known why I didn’t easily “fit-in” and why everything was so hard, would it have made my life easier. Not that a diagnosis and medication magically made me neurotypical, it didn’t. I still struggle…every day…but as G.I. Joe used to say, “Knowing is half the battle.”

Knowing how my brain works is helping me build a life that works for me. It isn’t perfect, I still fall into “bad” habits, but I’m not giving up. I’ve been trapped in my own mind, buried under the rubble of misconceptions and missed diagnoses, but I’m slowly freeing myself, one traumatic rock at a time.

[doctorloup]

Networking

Networking with other scientists: Hrm hrm I am very serious here is my poster about the serious disease thing. Networking with other audio fiction creators: * flailing arms * I FUCKING LOVE YOUR BLORBOS AAAAAAASDF&*^)$*$^*$^%$&^$ 

[apologydanceenthusiast]

i'm feeling burnt out so i'm a bit slow w the theories and being creative in general lately, which is rlly annoying and frustrating--

HOWEVER

I still got *stuff*

Meaning i still think abt stuff ive noticed in my (literally) over 100 times that i watched season one (somehow i am proud of that)

(in the show) when Crowley as Nanny Ashtoreth sings Warlock to sleep, there's a bunch of dinosaur figures (as well as some other Easter eggs that i might just infodump abt in the future just bc i can, even if other ppl already noticed) in the back.

And i keep thinking abt that bc its either that Warlocks parents just assumed he liked dinosaurs the whole time and kept giving him dinosaur related toys and stuff and never bothered to check what he's actually interested in and he just snapped that day when he was on the walk with his mom

Or he just pretends to hate them for the sake of the argument with his mom because puberty

Or he really used to enjoy dinosaurs and his parents just didn't pay enough attention to even notice when he started outgrowing that interest

[birdynerb]

My friend was freaking out on the last 5 hours of Alhaitham's banner after losing the 50/50 with him. "I want my bird (Alhaitham)! ;~;" "You have other birds that you adore so much." (referring to her fave XIAO followed by Diluc, Kaeya, etc) "But they're not you..." "....... I am... strangely touched by that comment. Log off right quick." and proceeded to log onto her acct to buy her primos for him. She got him at pity 85. "I now have the embodiment of my bestie in my collection! Thank you birby! <3"

"You're welcome."

[lily-of-the-valley66]

I'm like a vampire in the sense that I will not step foot in someone else's house/room without a clear invite first.

Want to talk to me? That's okay I'll just hover around the doorframe until you explicitly say I can come in.

[queer-whatchamacallit]

Because I am very much neurodivergent, and enjoy spreadsheets, I found some info on the IMDb ratings of all the criminal minds episodes

The overall average is 7.480

100 and entropy are tied for top at 9.1

Future perfect is the lowest at 6.6 and is also that episode directly before entropy

Lowest to highest of seasons goes: 14 at 7.444, 13 at 7.521, 15 at 7.593, 6 at 7.603, 10 at 7.606, 12 at 7.660, 1 at 7.783, 8 at 7.795, 11 at 7.797, 5 at 7.812, 2 at 7.951, 7 at 7.957, 9 at 7.971, 3 at 8.023, and 4 at 8.039

But if you count ‘to hell’ and ‘and back’ as the same episode, season 4 gets bumped down a space with an average of 7.972

Without entropy, season 11 would be ranked between seasons 12 and 1

Season 9 has never really felt like a top season to me, but it’s so high mostly because none of its episodes rate below 7.4

9’s top episode is demons at 8.6

Top 10 ish episodes are Penelope, zugzwang, and demons at 8.6, fisher king part 2, Lauren, mr scratch, and date night at 8.7, revelations and Mosley lane at 8.9, and entropy and 100 at 9.1

Bottom 10 ish episodes are demonology, beyond borders, neon terror, submerged, all you can eat, and mixed signals at 7.0, internal affairs at 6.9, a good husband at 6.8, awake at 6.7, and future perfect at 6.6

Season 3 ranges from 7.4 for identity and higher power to 8.5 for lo-fi

The lowest 5 ish in season 4 are cold comfort at 7.5, house on fire and roadkill at 7.4, catching out at 7.3, and demonology at 7.0

The lowest 5 ish of season 14 are Luke, flesh and blood, and night lights at 7.4, broken at 7.3, and innocence and sick and evil at 7.2

The top 5 ish of season 4 are memoriam, conflicted, amplification, to hell, and and back at 8.4, and mayhem and omnivore at 8.5

The top 5 ish of season 14 are starter home and truth or dare at 7.6, twenty seven at 7.7, chameleon at 8.2, and 300 and the tall man at 8.3

Episodes directed by Matthew gray gubler have an average rating of 8.175

Here’s the little graph I made for it:

You see that weirdly flat bit around the 200s? That’s season 9

See that huge spike a little bit before 250? That’s entropy

I am deeply obsessed with my useless little math projects

[eggshells-and-simple-spells]

My infodumping comes in two different flavors:

-Everything. All of it. Better be taking notes because after this paragraph I'm typing in the span of a few minutes I'll expect you to get my favorite thing as much as I do (but not too much, or I will Kill You)

-Equivalent to being slowly boiled. I'll be normal SOMETIMES but you will hear so much about my favorite thing over weeks, months, even years and you will slowly go insane and wish you didn't show interest in that clip of said thing I showed you.

[the-significant-clam]

Me in therapy today: hi Dr T, I'm kinda fucked up this week

My therapist, after we've run 15 min overtime: ....wanna meet Monday? You're right about being a bit fucked up this week.

Me, after sobbing my guts out at least 3 times in the course of 75 minutes: that might be a good idea

[takemebythehand-andsetmefree]

You are NOT your diagnosis

But you ARE responsible for your actions.

Stop saying your diagnosis MADE you do something. You chose to do that, your diagnosis might have influenced that decision, but ultimately you are responsible for your actions. Stop blaming your diagnosis for them.

[doctorloup]

Sometimes I forget I'm neurodivergent

And then I spend five minutes repeatedly pressing ctl + v because the windows error sound is in the same key as the drone in Wardruna's "Helvegen" and I like the way they sound together.

[apologydanceenthusiast]

It's so embarrassing when people ask me for my interests outside Good Omens and Doctor Who and I'll have to be like

"No, this is actually my whole personality. Take it or leave it."

[etherealspacejelly]

sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

[absentlyabbie]

no multi option, agonize and choose, no results option, pick one to find out or scroll onward

[succuse]

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