#i cant believe that somebody as beautiful as her would choose somebody like me

[ty-the-trainwreck]

robin buckley is the kind of gf to take every opportunity to talk about her partner its true

someone mentions the newspaper? oh! nancy works for the newspaper! did robin mention nancy is robin’s girlfriend?

the color pink? nancy loves the color pink! also nancy is robin’s girlfriend.

books? nancy loves reading books! robin loves reading books with nancy, who is robin’s girlfriend.

she just loves saying “nancy is my girlfriend!”

[actualbird]

Oh god!

I really love the poly headcanons they are so sweet.... (or don't but that's part of it and i think the tot boys+MC deserve all the love the world has to give).

But, liking it or not, our 4 beloved boys are kinda complicated (that's what makes them perfect). Plus I never thought about how people get in poly relationships. So i was thinking, how do you think they all get into a polyrelationship together?

(I really have no idea of how that would happen)

hi, two anons!! im glad you guys liked my nxx team polycule stuff!! i'll answer these in one go, my "headcanon" (in quotes because i think this kinda turned into a character analysis/minific of sorts HAHA) being what first anon asked, How They Get Together.

heads up, wc of this is 1.9k words long so buckle up for a bit of a read jfsjdfkjbf

because first anon, youre right!!! the boys are stupendously complicated which i love so so much but canon has also shown us clearly that each of the boys' quirks and habits and tendencies causes a lot of (mostly played for laughs) friction. the bickering, the backhanded insults, the "im the best one here" preening contests. theyre all SOOOO RIDICULOUS and it is hilarious but yep! the boys r complex!! and that means this beautiful ship, imo, has a lot of phases to get to the actual romantic relationship bit.

how they get together, in my opinion, starts because of mc.

not in the sense that she matchmakes them all, but like.

phase 1 of the nxx team polycule is this:

through being in love with her (which we all know the boys 100% are), each of the boys come to terms with their own flaws and weaknesses. it's very apparent to me in all the story thus far that these boys are flawed as hell, it's very compelling but even more compelling to me is how all of them also do intense mental gymnastics to Not Confront Those Flaws. like, marius is a dickbag always teasing and toeing the line of insincerity, vyn is a controlling mf who always tries to sway situations to his benefit, artem is so repressed to the point that he has genuine trouble with emotions, luke is a self sacrificial bastard and also a huge hypocrite about how no, actually, hes the only one that should be hiding his pain and being dishonest, no dishonesty from other people!! in the beginning of the story, all the boys have their flaws and seem to have just kinda...not addressed how those flaws are harming them and the people around them.

and then mc rolls around and they all fall in love with her. and she sees those flaws and she doesnt let them slide. she challenges the boys in her own ways to see another side of the situation, to acknowledge what theyre doing. she doesnt want to get rid of flaws, thats impossible and also not cool. she just has this beautiful hope for like, all of humanity, that goodness can prevail with the right work. so when she sees her beloved nxx boys, she believes that for them as well.

which leads to phase 2 of the nxx team polycule:

the boys, more aware of themselves, become more aware of each other.

they werent Unaware of the others of course. it's just that they didnt like...truly connect on a personal level just yet. they saw the other teammembers with their emotional armor and flaws and saw a wall that wasnt worth looking past.

but after mc makes them realize that hey, flaws arent the end of the world actually, it's alright and the person behind them may just be worth it, the boys like. end up understanding the others. A LOT OF THIS BIT IS UNINTENTIONAL, ON THEIR PARTS KJDSBFS. like they stumble into understanding each other by accident, they didnt plan it, but over the course of nxx investigations, it's inevitable that they end up seeing the depths of the others. i delve into this a little bit in my fanfic "filler eps of the lost gold" where the boys are just going thru their actions and then trip over another boy's fears or desires and through that, gain a deeper understanding mutually.

and with understanding, sometimes, comes trust.

phase 3 of the nxx team polycule goes like this:

everybody in this team, whether they like it or not, whether they know it or not, has a heart that wants to give love so desperately.

marius lives in a world full of snakes so he cant have his heart on his sleeve for his own protection. vyn wants to be seen as perfect and the heart is inherently messy so he holds it back. artem for a very very long time was focused on work and success and achievement that he neglected his heart. and luke has been giving love all his life in a sense but in a way thats hidden.

all these tendencies that are brought upon their life circumstances results in this: they want to love honestly but they havent been able to do this

until mc. and all of them want to push back whatever fears or patterns their life has instilled in them because they see her and see somebody so unwaveringly good that all their hearts begin giving love to her to make her happy and to make themselves happy as well.

but heres the thing. the boys dont just see mc. by this point, they have connected and understood and come to trust each other as well, and the consequence of that is that They Can See Each Other Now Too, Truly.

and heres the thing. all of the boys are unwaveringly good as well.

one by one, each of the boys realize that what they feel for the other boys in the team starts to...change. yeah theyre all friends, they pick on each other a lot of the time, but the bedrock of the relationship is solid and strong now. but when marius is with luke, marius sees a light inside of luke so bright that he seems unaware that he gives off. when artem is with vyn, artem sees a goodness inside of vyn that hesitates to make itself obvious and known because vyn is scared of getting hurt thanks to it. all of them see the other and their goodness and, unbidden, their hearts want to give love to each other as well.

and because theyre all a bit stupid in their own way theyre like, huh, weird! wonder why this feeling is so familiar! and yet i cant seem to name it...and then they all independently compare these feeling with the feelings they have for mc, a feeling they do know the name of, and theyre like.

WAIT.

THESE FEELINGS ARE...VERY BASICALLY EXACTLY WHAT I FEEL FOR MC.

which only means one thing: theyve fallen in love with everybody else

marius: //goes to his studio to Think and sees that a bunch of his recent art actually had little crumbs of these feelings already, etched into the brushstrokes and scenes. has an emotional crisis about it

vyn: //records a 1 hour long entry in his audio diary to examine and gain control of his feelings but by the end of the hour all he knows is that he wants to hold these people and be held by them

artem: //quite literally just bluescreens, artem.exe has stopped working, sits at his study and slowly, slowly, thunks his head down onto his desk, valiantly trying to ignore the fast pulse of his heart

luke: //manically vents about it to peanut who, by virtue of being a bird, doesnt get it. just keeps talking at peanut to get a grasp of it all and then lies down on the floor, overwhelmed

mc, sitting in her apartment watching some netflix: ...why do i inexplicably feel as if something very, very important has just happened?

phase 4 of the nxx team polycule is basically:

pining: extreme difficulty level

because pining is already hard when ur pining for one person. what more for an additional 3 more people. and those additional 3 more people are pining back.

and all these boys are SOOOO OBVIOUS with their romantic feelings, in their own special way. the way they show their affection to mc starts to bleed into their interactions with the others and everybody can CLEARLY SEE WHAT IS GOING ON, LOL, but also all the boys are too chickenshit to confront it, because if they confront it, what will even happen??? being in love with each other, all of them, thats going to be such a complicated fucking relationship, holy shit. it's 2030, yeah, being a polyamorous group relationship isnt completely unheard of, but sue them, theyre scared.

but mc (who i forgot to mention already knows of the boys' romantic feelings for her, shes just hasnt made a move yet on any of them because SHES IN LOVE WITH ALL OF THEM AS WELL and shes been trying to figure out how the hell to make that work, she cant bear to choose just one of them, she'd be heartbroken over leaving the rest of them behind) sees that the nxx investigation team is now all pining for each other FULLY and she kinda wants to laugh when she realizes whats going on because like, what are the chances? that this would happen? that they all found each other and their feelings fell into just the right place for nobody to be left behind?

theyre all scared, she can tell. and she is as well, she wont lie.

but shes always had a belief that goodness can prevail with the right work.

and love is one of the greatest goods out there.

phase 5 of the nxx team polycule:

It's Time For Communication, Baby!!!!!

the exact scenes of how this happens is a bit vague to me. it could go two ways: mc going to each of the boys independently to talk about feelings, hers about everybodys and his about everybodys as well. OR they have a fucking meeting about it all together and artem literally schedules it in his google calendar, or something.

either way, they like, actually talk about this. starts casual, maybe over a chill date, maybe over dinner at a nice restaurant, maybe over a walk in the park as the sun is starting to set. but where ever it happens, the end result is the same: a heart is laid out bare and it is taken in gentle, grateful hands.

marius: OKAY, NOW THAT THE FEELINGS ARE OUT OF THE WAY, CAN I PLEASE KISS ONE OR ALL OF YOU, PLEASE, IVE BEEN WANTING TO KISS U GUYS FOR FOREVER

vyn, laughing fondly: has anybody ever told you patience is a virtue? we quite literally just talked it all out.

marius: //needy whining noises

artem, embarrassed: ive...never kissed anybody before

luke, embarrassed but trying to play it Cool: ....same here

mc: kissing is great, you two will love it!

marius: awesome, awesome, so is ANYBODY going to give me a go ahead or WHAT????

phase 6 of the nxx team polycule:

i dont want to say it's happily ever after, once they all get together. thats not really realistic.

they all have their quirks and tendencies and habits. and those will inevitable clash against each other. theyll have their arguments, theyll get upset, theyll sulk and be angry, sometimes. but also...

theyll see each other smile and feel like their love shining so brightly. theyll reach out for another's hand and be held in such a way that makes them think that their heart is in a safe place. theyll love each other and theyll put in the work to continue loving each other. because goodness will prevail.

and they all see each other as the most good people in the world.

so whatever happens, theyll get through it together.

[dawniebb]

Face reveal bc yes

So, guys...especially from the Renegades fandom bc i’m the most active there: you saw the title lmao. This will...barely get notes (i wonder if it’ll get notes at all) buuUUUT YEAH LET’S GOOOO (If you’re gonna reblog pls be respectful bc i have issues and btw reblog ONLY if we are mutuals)

THIS IS ME! <3 HELLOOOO!!!

Now, if you want to stop here, do it. If you don’t...well

I’m going to tell you a story about myself and why I decided to post this.

First of all, I’m not celebrating anything. I’m just celebrating me, I guess (?) and in fact I’ve been wanting to do this since my parents got me a She-Ra cake for my 20th birthday back in May, because I loved that thing and felt the physical need to shove that thing into everyone’s faces But I didn’t because I didn’t feel ready enough...then that thought left my mind, and it came back like two weeks ago.

I’ve had mental issues since I was in like...elementary school. I’m sure I had felt depressed before I turned 12; however, the first memory I hold of feeling so, it’s when I was already 12. Because it was then when I realized that I wasn’t just a dumb kid who didn’t know how to make friends xd To this day, I genuinely feel like I was suffering from isolation bullying; you know xd my classmates purposely excluded me from activities, they would find any excuse for not letting me join their work teams and stuff like that; during my last year at elementary school, I only had like one friend, and that one friend and I shared a sort of abusive/toxic relationship, as in: manipulation, “we’re best friends. you should only talk to ME”, and then this friend turned her back at me too, because she decided to join the rest of the group and ignore me.

lol.

And I remember wondering what was I doing wrong. Like, why didn’t people like me; why didn’t they want to hang out with me; why did everyone seem to have friends except me. And then I got trapped into a very...dark place, and I remember being overthinking one day, because I tend to overthink a lot...and I remembered this specific kid who was in the same class as me.

I was in the line for the teacher to check my homework, and this kid, a boy, was behind me.

You see. I’ve always been chubby xd I don’t think I’ve ever been skinny since I was 2 years old or so, because by the time I was in kindergarten my classmates’ moms were already calling me a ‘little meatball’ thinking it was a fucking adorable nickname because Mexican moms can be pretty shitty sometimes don’t let the media stereotypes fool you not all of them are all cheerful and upbeat and when I was in elementary school, for some reason, besides being chubby, I had a really bad posture. And this boy who was behind me started imitating my way of walking and his friends were laughing, so I turned around and asked him wtf his problem was xd and he turned around to his friends and asked “Do you see how hunchback she is?” like I wasn’t even there xd and I genuinely tried to slap him but I couldn’t, and he said “Yo, stop moving because you’re going to cause an earthquake”

And my mom has always felt personally attacked for the fact I’m...u know, fat. She has always been very insistent on the fact I need to lose weight and stuff like that. And her, mixed with my experiences at school, made me feel like I wasn’t enough.

But my mind started saying things like “And u know why you aren’t enough? Because you’re fat”

Because, like, the day of the hunchback insult, when I told the teacher, who was a very shitty teacher btw but i’m not talking about her again today (i’ve already talked about her in MANY of my university papers, because I’m studying to be an English teacher), she turned around at him and said “Don’t listen to HER” and to this day I still don’t know why xd

But it made me feel like I wasn’t enough. Because I was fat.

Lol x2.

To this day, I still don’t know if I have an ED. Like, I genuinely don’t know. But I can safely say that, if I have one, it’s more likely BED... because, through the years, I managed to lose weight when I turned like 15 and I had my quinceañera party, but then first year of high school came and I had a relapse into depression...like, this might come off as a very unpopular opinion, but junior high school was dope for me x’d I remember it as one of the best years in my life, right after my second and third year in high school (high school in Mexico lasts only three years) and so...when I started my first year in high school and got fucking depressed again, I gained ALL that weight back, and even doubled it. During my second year of high school, I met my friends. The friends I still keep with me to this day. And they accepted me like the fucking train wreck I was, failing math like three times in a row and crying about it every single one of those times  because I’m pretty sure I have dyscalculia but my parents won’t listen to me they think i’m just lazy when it comes to math even though they know i cant even read a fucking clock . And them, along with my another very close friend who I met via fanfction when I was 12, helped me go through it. Like, I did have some issues with my body during high school, but not as much as you would expect. They were getting pretty bad in my first and second semester, but during the other four my friends managed to stop me from losing my mind, even when it all went to shit in my third year again for different reasons.

Then I graduated from high school, and I made friends there too. Although my best friends are still my friend from fanfiction, my friends from high school and just one of my university friends. And you know...I was left...pretty scarred from the shit that happened during third year of high school, and even if I didn’t feel like I was *that* depressed, I did gain a lot of weight.

Like, the highest I’ve ever been. Then my dad got sick during October from last year, then my two doggies were murdered god i fucking hate my neighbors the same day my dad was released from the hospital and my mom went kinda nuts during December and I wanted to just...yeah.

So I did a lot of emotional eating. Like, y’all don’t understand.

It was like...I would go to uni and eat a brownie. Then chocolates on my way home. THEN a “a snack” like...fucking rice krispies. Then a huge ass meal, with soda bc why not. Then I would have either cookies or hot cheetos as a treat after my huge ass meal,

I’m a short person xd carrying that much weight was making my ribs and back hurt, as well as my legs and feet; my breathing was freaking awful, and there were some days were I got SO paranoid I just said things like “i’m gonna die today” or “out here trying to get diabetes like the rest of your family, aren’t you??” :’) but i didn’t tell anybody. My parents are not really an option in this case, BUT I didn’t tell my friends, because then I would have to explain that I ate a lot and that was something I was EXTREMELY ashamed of.

When February came, I was scared of going out, because I knew I would have to choose what clothes to wear and nothing fit me anymore and, the things that did, looked super stretched on me and, u know, I was sore. My health was getting bad. But I didn’t like to feel that way.

AND I MUST CLARIFY HERE. I’M WORKING ON THAT. I’M ACTUALLY A BODY POSITIVY DEFENDER, I JUST DIDN’T LIKE HOW *I* LOOKED AND, BESIDES, I WAS GETTING SICK. I GENUINELY THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE AT SOME POINT. I’M NOT SAYING BEING FAT OR CHUBBY IS DISGUSTING. NO. I BELIEVE ALL HUMAN BEINGS ARE EXTREMELY BEAUTIFUL. AND IF I’M WRITING THIS IS BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO KNOW RECOVERY IS DISGUSTING AND DIFFICULT SOMETIMES AND THAT IF YOU’RE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING LIKE THAT: I’M SORRY. NOBODY SHOULD EVER FEEL LIKE THAT. I SUPPORT YOU. AND I HOPE THINGS GET BETTER. AND NO MATTER WHAT OTHERS SAY, YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE TO CHANGE ONLY IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE. BECAUSE IT’S YOUR BODY. KEEP HOLDING ON.

But going back to the story...

My friends used to tell me I looked pretty all the time, which I appreciate a lot to this day. But my parents were like

Me: I’m fat and I look deformed.

Them: I agree.

Because yeah.

Just before the pandemic madness happened, I went on a school trip with my uni friends and one of them triggered my isolation trauma in the worst way possible...and that, somehow, ruined ALL the photos I took throughout the trip. Because I wasn’t enough. Because I was deformed and fat and I looked like an apple. Because nobody wanted to be seen near me. And my personality was shitty.

Like, I should’ve known I was worth it. I’m still worth it and I know that. But I wasn’t less worth it when I was chubbier. And maybe I didn’t look as bad as my head made me believe. But at the time my mental health was extremely awful.

Now, covid happened.

Not gonna lie. Quarantine fucked me up as much as it fucked everyone else, but for me...by not going out, I stopped being near trigger foods, and I was even able to consult a dietitian.

I’ve lost 15 kg since March. And I’ve managed to love my past self, but I love this one because changing it was my decision. Sure, my parents didn’t help a lot, but in the end it was MY decision. I’ve come to accept I was worth it even when I felt disgusted by myself, and all of those awful things people said or did to me, like my friend during that trip...

I didn’t deserve any of those things. Because NO ONE deserves to be treated that way.  No one deserves somebody else making fun of them. No one deserves somebody else doing awful things to them that they know damn well that they trigger their childhood trauma. No one deserves to be judged for the way they look.

I was in a very dark place, and sometimes I’m still inside there. And like...during all those times, I kept posting in here.

I remember being next to my dad in the hospital, telling him “Guess what? Supernova drops this week” or “We’re going to watch TDP together, right?” or “Let me talk to you about She-Ra...” ....those were things that like...saved my life for a while, though mostly Supernova. Because, actually, Marissa Meyer has helped me in my fucking darkest years x’d from my third year of high school until now.

Her books didn’t take my depression away, but they did make things a little lighter for me, even when I felt like dying.

And I know this fandom is like..full of minors, so...I don’t know if any of you need to hear this: But you’re worth it.

If you want to change anything in your body, do it because YOU want to.

Because YOU’LL like you better.

Because it’s YOUR body, and it’s the only part of yourself that you and other people can touch.

Nobody should ever tell you you’re worthless because of your weight and your physical appearance. And if they ever do, then they’re the ones who should apologize, not you.

Nobody has the right to mistreat you, abuse you, or use your own body against you.

As for me...my ribs don’t hurt anymore. Nor does my back or my feet, and my breathing is getting better; I took the conscious decision to lose weight but, like I said, now that I’m not in such a dark place, I’m staring to realize that the past me wasn’t as hideous as my mind was making me believe. She was okay; she was broken inside, but she didn’t deserve anything that happened to her, nor did she deserved to treat herself that badly.

I posted my photo just to celebrate that I can finally said I’m not disgusted anymore. I can finally see myself in pictures again. And see my own reflection. Or go through my closet. Or do my makeup, because I LOVE doing my makeup and I was even ashamed of that. I’m not fully okay yet, but I’m healing.

So, if there’s any little Dawnie around here: I hope you give yourself a chance and realize you’re beautiful.

I hope that, if you change, it’s because you wanted to do it.

I hope you know that it’ll get better even if the healing process it’s not that easy.

I hope you know there’s people who love you.

I hope you know that you are beautiful. You were always beautiful and, no matter what path you choose, you’ll always be beautiful.

And worth it.

And human.

And important.

Take care of yourself, because you’re wonderful, no matter your size <3

[firemblem-fics]

hello 💚 if you’re available: hc of hubert w a crush on a reader who doesn’t believe it ? every time he tries to show sings they’re like “nah he couldn’t like ME” . I get this is a bit of a more complex request, so if you choose to pass it up no worries

it's not complex at all! thanks for requesting babes! i will say i did kind of go a different route with this, but i hope you like it nonetheless ~

letters. | hubert

hubert sat silently, eyeing you as you poked and prodded at the black box on your desk.

you had come in a few minutes later than he and edelgard did, chatting happily with dorothea. when you'd noticed the box, your eyebrows had furrowed and you asked dorothea.

the said girl looked over her shoulder when you weren't looking, making eye contact with him and winking.

hubert had flushed red but quickly turned away to talk to edalgard and now caspar, who had joined the group.

he still watched out of the corner of his eye as you opened the box and picked up the letter. he had spent hours writing it to try and mask his handwriting.

"y/n,

you are truly gorgeous. im not one to be overly sappy, or sappy at all, but i cannot hold it in much longer. you make my day better and i enjoy seeing you smile every day."

you leaned over to dorothea, showing her the letter. your voice echoed across the classroom, reaching hubert's ears.

"this writing sounds like ferdinand," you said thoughtfully.

"y/n, dear, it's not ferdinand." dorothea responsed.

"it's gotta be, nobody else speaks like this-"

"it's not. i know who it is, and i promise you it's not ferdinand."

--- --- ---

once again, you looked at the black box that was placed beside your plate.

you had only gone outside to speak to sylvain, who could've put it here this quickly?

you opened it up and read the note inside, this time accompanied with a small charm necklace with your initial.

"y/n, my dear,

im glad you're using your process of elimination. im certainly not ferdinand. i'd rather die than be that pompous. but since my anonymity is still secure, i'd like to tell you that i have feelings for you. feelings of affection, desire, love. everyone told me to drag out my confession to make it more meaningful, but why should my presentation be more memorable than the confession itself?

thus, i will only give you one more letter. if you do not figure it out... you'll see."

you shook your head as petra read the letter from over your shoulder. "who do you think it could be?" she asked.

"i don't know. i cant think of anyone who'd be interested in someone like me," you sighed. "i would think that their insult to ferdinand would give something away, but i can't think of anything."

"what about hubert? he's always insulting somebody." dorothea chirped.

your cheeks blossomed a small shade of red as you glanced over your shoulder at the man you sitting at a table near you. "no, impossible."

taking your friends' silence as a question, you clarified. "he's wonderful. he's got so much going for him, he couldn't possibly want someone like me. i cant get my hopes up just because i might like him."

dorothea and petra looked at each other slightly knowingly before joining you in changing the conversation. none of you noticed the raven-haired male with his eyebrows furrowed, wondering how you couldnt fathom his affections towards you.

--- --- ---

"y/n,

this is my last letter. maybe you're denser than what i had originally thought if you still cannot figure it out. but i must say, i love your density. i love everything about you.

-H"

"h... h... HILDA!"

dorothea slapped her forehead. "no you dumb bitch!"

"who's name starts with an h? what the fuck-"

"HUBERT! ITS HUBERT, Y/N, YOU STUPID FUCK!"

your eyebrows only furrowed. hubert? impossible.

he's so emotionally ... unavailable.

"how do you know?" you finally asked.

"all of the black eagles are in on this. y/n, he's been planning it for weeks. he's not good with words- he tried to practice with edelgard and nothing worked, so he just wrote you letters. please."

you only looked at her and stood up, walking to said man's dorm room. you knocked on the door, your heart racing. a few seconds later, hubert opened the door with a single rose in his hand.

"it's you?"

"yeah," a rare smile crept on his face. "its me."

"but- but why? why me? you're so, so above me. i just don't understand-"

"how is it so hard to understand?" his head cocked slightly, "you're wonderful. you're one of the only people i can stand here."

"i just don't-"

"listen, y/n. im not the best with words, but i'm gonna try. you're beautiful. you're strong, caring, loving, and everything good in the world. i need someone like you to balance me out. i dont have a reason why i love you. i just do."

a shy smile crept its way onto your face. "i love you too."

[wolf-stark]

You ask I deliver — both tfatws asks in one!

tfatws weekly ask 1

i finally saw ep1!! i wont be able to see ep2 until thursday at the earliest but i already have some Thots on this ep. here are the ones I remember

first is, and i'm so sorry for this, a grammar lesson. an appositive is when you stick an additional phrase in between commas, dashes, or the like. i actually just used one! the "and i'm so sorry for this" in the first sentence of this paragraph is an appositive. thing is, most english speakers don't normally use them when they speak, only in writing. so i'm always on high alert whenever i hear somebody in tv or movies use one. (it's generally a marker of bad screenwriting). anyway there was one right in the beginning of the episode. the white army guy yelling at sam wilson said "first lieutenant Torres, our intel officer, will be helping on the ground." yeah so. the writing of this series started out on the wrong foot for me. but the rest of the episode was obviously tons and tons better (every interview i see with malcolm spellman makes me love him more and more)

the contrast between the opening minutes (falcon action sequence) and the rest of the ep.... i would 100000/10 rather watch a series with just sam and bucky dealing with life. i dont give a single crap about the flag-smashers or any of that. i just want sam, sarah & fam getting their boating business back on the ground & yeeting racist dickwads, bucky going through therapy and making amends, sam and joaquin being bros, sambucky homoerotic tension, etc.

the cinnamontography! wandavision mostly used cinematography to signify era n stuff. tfatws doesn't have wv's premise to go off of, so here's some tricks i noticed:

with sam there's obviously all sorts of shots with the captain america iconography next to his face, but he hasn't totally claimed it. there's the mural of steve rogers in the background; there's sam staring into the shield like it's a spectre of steve's face; there's sam looking into the exhibit, the shield and sam separated by glass and a layer of camera focus. steve is a constant spectre, always there, an idea, a symbol himself. sam's relationship with this iconography is distanced. he is separated by glass exhibit walls. by painting canvases. he doesn't yet feel worthy to take on that iconography. this whole thing was pulled off quite well but also a bit on-the-nose if only in quantity. there's just sooooo much fancy iconography stuff

speaking of the exhibit, there's something that i get real pissy about. it's when like, there's an action going on you're supposed to be paying attention to but the cinematographer is like,,,, hey! check out this location! or this headline! or something! there was a lot of that in the exhibit. the camera was like, you could focus on sam and rhodey's convo (which was fine but could have been so much better with an extra like 10 minutes of deep character study talk) but noooo you want me to look at the symbol for the united nations and read all the text about bucky who hasn't even showed up yet. shut up i know the lore and ill watch the shot-by-shot breakdown yt vids you don't have to make the shot this long jkdsalcjklasejf

my fav trick was with bucky and the therapist. i had seen a clip of the scene with bucky and the therapist beforehand and i thought the cinnamontography was super obnoxious, but then i was like, oh duh. the shots frequently change the distance between the camera and its subject. sometimes it's uncomfortably close and sometimes it's really far. a clear allegory for the duality of therapy, esp for bucky! therapy is an invasive process wherein he is ruthlessly examined, picked apart, and berated for his trauma (this therapist is crap in every way btw, "mean therapist" works for greg house and greg house only). so the camera goes close. it makes the viewer claustrophobic like bucky. but when he's like "no i haven't had any nightmares" the camera suddenly goes really far. we see bucky as this tiny head in the center of the bottom of the frame. we are distanced from him. he has pushed us away. we cannot see him. he lies because he is vulnerable. so yeah, amazing work there. the therapy scene was hard to watch on purpose!

did bucky slip a note to yori inside the dollar bill? bucky stop making me emooooo. the suuper awkward fake smile has me 😭 (veteran trying to adjust!)

mark my worrrrds when sam asks someone y the govt picked john “white bread” walker they’re gonna say “we needed somebody everyone can get behind....someone uncontroversial, someone everyone can see themselves in” like that exact racist dog whistle

tfatws weekly ask 2

just saw ep2 so im taking advantage of the 2 seconds i can be on tumblr without worrying about tfatws spoilers before new episode drops

when isaiah said "your people put me in prison for being a hero" and bucky thought "your people" means hydra. 🤦‍♂️

speaking of racism, the interplay between sam being Black (anti-Black racism) and sam being the Falcon (negrophilia, "can i take a selfie w you as i deny you a loan?") and the intersection between the two (j*hn lichrally called sam "steve's wingman"! he takes the crypto out of crypto-racist in like 2 seconds!) !!!!!!!! a Black celebrity's Black experience, the separation of man and identity!!!! (thinking about vanessa bayer in snl in that skit "beyonce is black" telling her black friend "you're not black, you're...my girl!")

after sam gets racially profiled by cops we see j*hn standing in front of cop cars cinematic parallels turns out j*hn is racist who knew

this therapist sucks major ass but she got bucky and sam together in the same room and ready to collaborate...that's something ig. it was lichrally couple's therapy she said she used her miracle exercise with couples sambucky antis get blended

bucky says "he was wrong about you so maybe he was wrong about me"...that's not how people talk. when therapist asks bucky, the guy who doesn't talk at all about himself, "y do you hate sam", the last thing bucky's gonna do is actually connect his hatred of sam to his own self-worth issues. bucky generally refuses to talk about himself, so why would he talk about himself in the one context that nobody ever links back to their own neuroses: hatred of other people? one thing human beings hate most is admitting we're wrong. admitting you hate someone because of your own issues? that's a major therapeutic step. bucky would absolutely have to be prompted to do that. even like one or two lines of dialogue more would have set up that line better. but in terms of the actual thought? an amazing way to take the sam/bucky relationship. bucky bases his self-worth on steve believing in him, and if steve is wrong bucky has no self-worth, so 1) he has to develop self-worth disassociated from steve's assessment of him and 2) he has to love himself before he can love sam, and 3) he has to realize that sam giving up the shield is a sign of sam's humility not his unworthiness.

conversely, we don't get into why sam hates bucky? yeah sam has the right to hate a guy that has tried to kill him (albeit while brainwashed) multiple times, and now shows up in his life just to bash him but. everything happens so fast i cant follow their relationship

in fact i dont feel like i understood much of anything. like y did bucky and sam go on that mission together? how connected are sam/bucky/joaquin with the government? doesn't bucky just want to retire now? literally what is everyone doing/feeling and why???

if battlestar becomes a knowing commentary on the black best friend stereotype i'm gonna party, but i dont expect much of that

the interplay between man and symbol. captain america is obviously a symbol. the shield is obviously a symbol. but steve rogers? the. man behind the cowl? he too seems to become a symbol. a paragon of a good guy, so good he's unreachable. steve was just a guy stop idolizing him the last thing steve would want is to be idolized

as the resident musician/music nerd on mcublr, 1) that captain america rally music slaps, but 2) re: the song at the end of the ep, if you're just gonna rip off mozart's lacrymosa then at least play mozart's lacrymosa. we wont blame you the lacrymosa slaps (if you dont know what im talking about go on yt and search it up youll recognize it fo sho

look i love enfys nest as much as the next guy but if tfatws is gonna get erin kellyman to play another innocent little gurl blackmailed into the fakeout-villain position (her text seemed to suggest as such) then 😡 like why can't women just....be evil? young, freckly, innocent-looking women? girls are not untouchable pure objects but full of rage and resentment just as much as anyone can be

bonus ep1 comment: bucky says about that senator whose car he hijacked, "she continued to abuse the power i gave her." fictionaldarling on yt say that he says "i" because he can't disassociate himself from his winter soldier persona which begets endless and senseless guilt. like dude. can i not be emo for like 1 second.

OKay. First off, as much I enjoy your sending it to me, what made you decide to send me these??

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TFATWS WA #1

Don't worry about getting this to me as early as possible. I usually don't watch the episode right away.

1. Cool writing lesson.

2. Everyone wants a comedy show [like Friends] about the MCU superheroes.

3. Cinematography is always a beautiful thing.

4. Sam definitely has to carve his own Captain America status for himself, outside of Steve's ya know everything.

5. They have to do that for people who was just now tuning in because they're in love with Sam Wilson or Sharon Carter.

6. I think the therapist was taking a 'tough love' approach for Bucky, because she likely has some very strong opinions about the literal assassin she's been assigned to give therapy too. She did not choose to talk to him, she was assigned that make that clear in the second episode.

And, Bucky isn't lying when he said it wasn't a nightmare. It wasn't a nightmare, it was a resurfaced memory. So, technically he wasn't lying - and yes, the camera does move away because while he's saying he didn't have a nightmare, he's not expanding on what actually happened - so, he's still pushing the therapist/us away.

7. Bucky, and Steve, have/had a TON to adjust to.

8. Yeah, I agree that will be the bullshit line they give. If they ever actually talk about it.

TFATW WA #2

Yeah, always got to take advantage of avoiding those spoilers lmfaoo.

1. Honestly, that line was double meaning. Both about White people and Hydra [which is made up of mostly white supremacists/nazis] So, the line is gesturing to both White People in general and Hydra assholes together. I think the terminology is “double edge sword”??

2. This whole paragraph structure confused me, ngl - so I'm going to answer it the best I can. I do like that they're not ignoring the fact that Sam being Black is 1000% the reason he's not the Official Captain America - because the gov't is racist as hell.

I also like the little lines about how they point out little things about Sam's Falcon persona, like that kid calling him 'Black Falcon' specifically and Sam's response show the split between Sam and Falcon itself.

John is a dick for calling Sam the wingman of Steve Rogers. Sam was a hero all on his own before Steve asked him to join up again. [Side note, it's lichrally??]

3. Exactly, the parallel of Sam being profiled and surrounded while just on the street and John being surrounded by fans and being able to spring Bucky with apparently only a few sentences shows a Loooooot

4. Honestly, at this point I wonder if she's not actually a therapist and is just an agent assigned to assess Bucky outside of an Official Building. I do know, however, that her 'look at each other and speak' exercise is actually a real therapy practice. It's just a little slower.

5. Actually, I think he would've blurted that out. That whole line. I don't think Bucky hates Sam. I think they could've done the scene better, but I think that had Sam prodded him/the therapist been more annoying Bucky would've lost control of his emotions and blurted out the whole "If he was wrong about you, he was wrong about me" but I feel like the writing for this show is just... not there. Sometimes you blurt shit when you get overemotional and I think that was what Bucky was supposed to be like.

6. I don't think Sam hates Bucky, I think he doesn't trust him though. I do wish they'd talked about that though. The whole 'talk to each other' scene should've been a LOT longer and a LOT slower.

7. Sam and Bucky's relationship is being fast tracked because they don't really know how to work the relationship out, writers-room-wise. Bucky is technically retired, but I feel like he's trying to live up to Steve's expectations and doing what Steve would've done and we all know that if Steve was there, Steve would've jumped on that plane with Sam. It looks like Sam/Bucky/Joaquin are a side-team based from Military services but as Sam says they're all free agents so...?

8. Sadly, They seem to just be propping up to be another stereotype.

9. Captain America is a symbol. Steve Rogers is a man. But now Steve Rogers is an idol because of all the shit he's been through and honestly, it's not a bad thing he's become an idol for people - it's using Steve as a reason to make White Bread Walker the next Captain that makes Steve's idolization so fucked.

10. I don't know anything about music so I have no opinion here, sorry.

11. Enfys?? Also, I think they did the whole Innocent Girl Thing as side commentary for Bucky lowering his guard about seeing a young girl rather than a guy.

12. Bucky is the Winter Solider. The Winter Solider is Bucky. That is how Bucky will always see it because although he was brainwashed, it was still him and he remembers all of it. When you have constant memories of something 'someone else' did, you tend to not be able to pull the two personas out of each other. I want Bucky to take up the title, White Wolf instead of Winter Soldier. Honest.

This is all my opinion, I’m honestly a little disappointed with the writing of TFATWS so far so... I’m not really optimistic about this.

[that-weird-fandom-girl]

Prompt List And Who I Will Write For

When requesting a oneshot you can but are not required to choose a prompt off this list (which is one of @marauder-exe‘s prompt lists that im using because i physically cant produce prompts lol) and just tell me what character you want it with (i will list characters and ships that i write for at the end)

Send requests here

Angst 

1. “I love you ! Is that what you wanted to hear ?”

2. “I love him/her, and I know that I shouldn’t.”

3. “Can you just shut your mouth ?” 

4. “wHY DO YOU KEEP LYING TO ME ?” 

5.“We both know that I should walk away, but I can’t.” 

6. “Wait, he/she has a girlfriend/boyfriend ?“

7. “I lo—-” “No, please… Don’t say that. You love her/him, not me.”

8.  "Could you just take this pain away ? It hurts, so much… Help me.”

9. “You’re safe here, I got you.”

10. “Don’t ask her out again, please… You’re killing me, every single time you ask that.” 

11. “Look, he/she wants you, just make him/her happy.”

12. “If you go, I’ll know that you never loved me.” 

13. “We never were just friends, and you know it.” “I know it, but you deserve someone better than me.”

14. “SHE WAS CRYING BECAUSE OF YOU!!!” 

15. “You love me like I’m the person who actually deserves your love.” “But you are the only one who deserves it.”

16. “I know for a fact that you’re not “fine”.” 

17. “You’re looking at me like.. you’re disgusted. What did I do? Just tell me what I did, please!” 

18. “What happened between us?” 

19. “Nothing has changed!” “Yes it has, and you know it.”

20. “Love isn’t supposed to hurt this badly.”

21. “You said you needed space. You were 5,000 miles away for a year, and you’re still unsure. I’m starting to think that an entire universe apart wouldn’t be enough space for you.” 

22.“I remember when he/she/they used to look at me that way” 

23. “I want you to list every lie you ever told me. Then I’ll forgive you.”

24. “I don’t hate you. I hate that after all of this, you’re still trying to lie to me”

25. “I can’t keep this secret for you anymore.”

26.. “I’m sorry I’m not what you signed up for.” 

27.“Why she/her/them? It could have been anybody, and you chose to betray me with her/him/them.” 

28. “This will be the last time you lie to me.” 

29.“You never loved me, did you?” 

30. “You made me miserable and I still loved you.” 

31. “Everytime something goes well, I momentarily forget how much I despise you.”

32. “We’re never going to have a happy ending, just remember that.” 

33. “Don’t pretend like you’re not happy to see me like this.” 

34. “Your mind must be a horrible place.” 

35. “Hand me the gun and I’ll kill him myself.” 

36. “And I thought you loved me.” “ And I thought I loved you.” 

37. “ Aren’t you even going to cry?”

38. “I didn’t expect you to wait forever. I just hoped…”

39. “Did you always know that you were going to leave?” 

40.“If you cry, I’ll stay, and if I stay that will just give you another reason to hate me.”

41. “I’m addicted and at this point I don’t think anything could make me stop.” 

42. ”If you wanna know, then ask.” 

43.“You never asked because you knew I wouldn’t tell you what you wanted to hear.” 

44. “We grew apart, and at this point I’m glad.”

45. “Find somebody else to kiss your ass.”

46. “When are you going to stop clawing for something that’s never going to happen?” 

47. “What you’re doing is going to kill you one day.” 

48. “It was easier to believe that the you I knew was dead than deal with the fact that I still have to see you every day.” 

49. “What you’re doing is going to kill you one day.” 

50. “Why do you have tO BE SUCH A HYPOCRITE ALL THE TIME” (this is my prompt bc the numbers were being weird)

Fluff

 51. “You’re hair is really soft after you wash it.” 

52. “Ssh. Stop fussing. I’m just braiding your hair.” 

53. “You smell really nice.” 54. “Would it be all right if I borrowed your sweater? It smells like you.” 

55. “I might have slept with your robe when you were gone.” 

56. “If you steal the blankets, I am going to put my cold feet on you.” 

57. “Here, let’s share the blanket.”

 58. “You’re comfy.” 

59.“You are very endearing when you are half-asleep.” 

60.“But I want to hear you sing.” 

61.“Don’t get up - I’ll do it.”

 62.“Care to give me a back scratch?”

 63.“I think I love you.”

 64.“Your bed head is really cute.”

 65.“How about a kiss?” 

66.“You made this for me?”

 67.Aw, you’re blushing.” 

68. Uh oh, I know that look. What do you want?” 

69. “Let me help you with that.” 

70. “I don’t want to forget this moment.” 

71.“Are you really flirting with me right now?” 

72.“I like the way your hand fits in mine.”

 73.“You have something in your hair, umm… Do you want me to get it out?” 

74.“It’s nice that your voice was the first thing I heard today.” 

75.“This movie is really scary, but you’re into it so I’m trying not to cover my face the whole time, but- WHAT IS THAT?” 

76.“Wait, don’t pull away… Not yet.” 

77.“Half the time I get too embarrassed to say anything” 

78.“No, it’s fine.  I can wait until you’re done talking to them.” 

79.“No, like…. It’s just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.” 

80.“You’re a big piece of inspiration for this, honestly.”

 81.“I’ve been trying to get ready for like an hour and a half, because I know you’re going to look so good and I need to try and match up.”

 82.“I wanted to say “I love you” for the first time without stuttering, but that failed.” 

83.“My friends get so annoyed by how much I talk about how sometimes.” 

84.“No, mom, don’t tell him/her I said that about him/her!” 

85.“I can’t get over how a few months ago I wanted to learn your name and now you’re having breakfast with me in my sweater.” 

86.“ You are so beautiful — So fucking beautiful. “

 87.“And just WHERE do you think you’re putting your hands?” 

88.“Wow, you look even better in the daylight.” 

89.“I don’t remember ever having this many hickeys. But I don’t mind.”

 90.“We could order pizza and just stay like this all day.”

 91.“It was always you.” 

92.I love you in every possible way.” 

93.“I didn’t mean to love you so much.”

 94.“Don’t you hurt a single hair on his/her/their head.” 

95.“Duck, you idiot!” 

96.“Hey. Pal. I’ve got a wand and I’m not afraid to use it.” 

97.“Shh, you’re safe. I won’t let you go.” 

98.“It’s not a double date. We’re just third and fourth wheeling.”

 99.“Look, I know we don’t know each other that well, but I’m still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone.”

 100.“I remember practicing how to ask you out in the mirror..” 

Sarcasm 

 101.“Define normal.” 

 102.“Do I get bonus points if I act like I care?”

 103.“Just remember if we get caught, you’re deaf and I don’t speak English.”

 104.“Don’t look for any redeeming qualities. I don’t have any.” 

 105.“It’s amazing how fast the world can go from bad to total shit storm.” 

106.“I love you. You enormously stubborn pain in the ass.”

 107.“And you wonder why you’re still single.” 

108.“Remind me to kill you. Please.” 

 109.“That’s a little melodramatic, don’t you think?”

 110.“She’s crazy. And just when you think you’ve reached the bottom of her craziness, there’s a crazy underground garage.” 

 111.“She may seem like lollipops and rainbows but I bet behind close doors she’s latex and whips.” 

112.“If my day gets any worse, I’m asking hell if they’re having an exchange program.”

 113.“Sorry. I don’t speak skank.” 

 114.“My middle finger salutes you.”

115.“I don’t have enough middle fingers to let you know how I feel.”

 116.Somebody’s cranky.” “Somebody needs to shut up.” 

 117.“Oh darling. Go buy a brain.”

 118.“Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn.”

 119.“All due respect, but that’s a bunch of crap.”

 120.“I am one of the few people in the world who can murder you and leave no forensic evidence behind.” 

121.“Excuse me. I have to go make a scene.”

 122.“What did I tell you about calling her/him the devil?” “That it’s offensive to the devil?”

 123.“I heard that!” “You were supposed to!” 

124.“I need therapy after this.” 

 125.“You didn’t get in trouble for lying. You got in trouble for lying badly.” 

 126.“I turned out liking you a lot more that I originally planned.” 

 127.“I think you’re weird.” “I think you’re boring.” 

 128.“I’m afraid I’ve been thinking…” “A dangerous pastime.” 

129.“Wow, there’s a big surprise. I think I’m going to have a heart attack and die from surprise.” 

130.“I’m gonna hit you so hard, it’ll make you ancestors dizzy.” 

 131.“Sarcasm is the body’s natural reaction to stupidity.” 

 132.“Well, excuse me, psychic wonder!” 

 133.“Don’t look in her eyes, she might steal your soul.” 

 134.“She’s hot, but she’s evil.” 

 135.“Do I regret it? Yes. Would I do it again? Probably.”

 136.“I already know that I’m going to hell. At this point it’s really go big or go home.”

 137.“I’m not a damsel in distress. I’m a damsel doing damage.” 

 138.“So stick that in your juice box and suck it.

” 139.“Never take life seriously. No one ever comes out alive anyway.”

 140.“Sometimes I question my sanity. Occasionally it replies.” 

141.“Why should we date?” “Because we are attracted to each other.” “I am attracted to pie, but I do not feel the need to date pie.” 

 142.“Neither one us is drunk enough for this conversation.” 

 143.“You’re questioning my methods.” “I’m not questioning it, I’m saying it’s stupid.” 

 144.“Wow, somebody needs a Happy Meal.” 

 145.“I didn’t do it!” “Then why are you laughing?” “Because whoever did it is a freaking genius.” 

 146.“Idiots. I’m surrounded by idiots.”

 147.“You couldn’t handle me even if I came with instructions.

 148.“Obviously you have mistaken me for somebody who gives a shit.”

 149.“Rule number one: don’t bother sucking up. I already hate you, that’s not going to change.” 

 150.“You make no sense to me.” “Welcome to my life.” 

 Drama

 151.“Can you stop thinking about yourself for once?” 

152.“Can you stop thinking about yourself for once?” 

 153.“Don’t think I forgot about what you did last time.”

 154.“I know you lied to me.” 

155.“I’m not even sorry.” 

156.“You backstabber!” 

 157.“I never want to see you again.”

 158.“You never mattered to me.” 

159.“I knew this was a bad idea.” 

160.“Rot in hell.” 

161.“It was supposed to be a secret!” 1

62.“No one loves me.” 

 163.“He/she/they is/are so petty…” 

164.“You made me cry.” 

 165.“I don’t know who you are anymore.” 

166.“How DARE you?!”

 167.“I know you’re not talking to me…” 

168.“I SAW you with him/her/them!” 

169.“Just leave me alone.” 

170.“What did you do?!” 

171.“I told everyone that I didn’t want to talk but I’m actually dying for attention.”

 172. “Just admit that was extra…”

 173.“I forgive, but I don’t forget.” 

174.“Did you see what he/she/they was/were wearing?”

 175.“So what if I had sex with your ex?” 

176.“There’s something I have to tell you…” 

177.“I can’t do this anymore.” 

178.“You weren’t there for me when I needed you the most.” 

179.“I never loved you.” 

180.“It’s too late.” 

181.“Quit ignoring me.” 

182. “Don’t you get it? It’s because I love you!” 

183.“I love you. I’m sorry.”

 184.“I don’t want to be friends.” 

185.“Can we please pretend I never said that?” 

186.“Friendzoned again.”

187.“You should’ve loved me when you had the chance.” 

188.“Fuck you for toying with my emotions like that.” 

189.“I was there for you when no one else was!” 

190.“Alright – I can tell a ‘no’ when I hear it.” 

191.“I’m sorry I acted so creepy.” 

192.“Fuck. It’s like what they say – nice guys finish last…” 

193.“I’m tired of keeping this secret. Even if you don’t love me back.” 

194. “I knew that’d be your answer. That’s why I never told you before.” 

195.“When I said I loved you, I meant it.” 

196.“Is there any part of you, deep down, that might love me back?” 

197.“You were the one that left all those notes for me?” 

198.“You’re in a relationship with another person – you know this can’t end well.” 199.“We agreed this was just physical!”

 200.“I love you. I know you don’t love me, so don’t say it back.” 

Characters/people i write for 

Marvel

Steve rogers 

Clint Barton

Scott Lang

Tony Stark

Sam Wilson 

Thor Odinson 

Loki Laufeyson 

Bucky Barnes 

Peter Quill

Peter Parker

Pietro Maximoff

Bruce Banner 

Stucky (ship)

Criminal Minds

Spencer Reid

Derek Morgan

Aaron Hotchner 

Greys Anatomy 

Alex Karev

Mark Sloan 

Andrew Deluca 

Actors

Matthew Gray Gubler

Chris Evans 

Tom Holland 

Tom Hiddleston 

Johnny Depp 

Jensen Ackles

Sebastian Stan 

Daveed Diggs

Colin O’Donoughue 

Once Upon A Time

Killian Jones 

Jefferson 

Harry Potter

Fred Weasley 

Sirius Black 

Remus Lupin 

Draco Malfoy 

James Potter

 wolfstar (ship)

Miscellaneous

Steven Hyde (That 70s Show) 

Jack Sparrow (Pirates Of The Caribbean)

Dean Winchester (Supernatural) 

[unwrittenmusings]

Rosvolio Drabble Challenge!

So, this is kind of a bonus. It wasn’t planned at all. These sentence prompts were too good to pass up so I complied a list. Let’s keep the momentum going with more Rosvolio content! Send me an ask if you have questions. 

Rules:

Choose a prompt(s) to use for your own inspiration or prompt someone else (if they are accepting prompts from others of course)

HAVE FUN!

Prompt List:

“I think this is the start of a beautiful friendship.”

“You did all of this for me?”

“You didn’t just wake me up at 2am because you were ‘in the mood’.”

"Can somebody escort the 30 year old having a temper tantrum out of the building?"

“Well..I’m pregnant.”

“I’ve seen the way you look at me when you think I don’t notice.”

“I read a lot of fanfiction. Trust me, I know how this will turn out.”

“You legit have no chill, whatsoever.”

“You’re not as quiet as you think you are.”

“It could be worse.”

“Marry me?”

“Do you really think I could ever replace you?”

“I can’t believe you talked me into this.”

“I wish I could hate you.”

“Bite me.”

“You’re lucky you’re cute.”

“Looks like we’ll be trapped for a while.”

“You fainted…straight into my arms. You know, if you wanted my attention you didn’t have to go to such extremes.”

“I got you a present.”

“We’re not just friends. You know that.”

“They didn’t just find out. They already knew!”

“I’m baking a bunch of go fuck yourself cookies for you”

"I think my body forgets what shame is when I get drunk."

“You’re cute when you’re all worried.”

“If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you were trying to seduce me.”

“…or we can chill in our underwear.”

“No one needs to know.”

“I want to spend the rest of my life annoying you.”

“When I was told I was going on a blind date, I never thought it’d be you.”

“If we get arrested, it’s your fault.”

“I am very turned on right now.”

“I don’t need a hero, I need a husband.”

“Sometimes you just gotta dance.”

“No matter how bad things get, I’ll always be here for you.”

“Wow..um, you look really fucking sexy in that.”

“Please, don’t leave.”

“Is there a reason you’ve taken over my bed?“

“If you die, I’m gonna kill you.”

“You’re distracting me and it’s very irritating.”

“Well this is awkward…”

"Just for the record, I’m uncomfortable."

“Everyone keeps telling me you’re the bad guy.”

“Even if I had a week, I couldn’t list all the reasons why this won’t work.”

“The paint’s supposed to go where?”

“No, wait…did you just say you love me?”

"You have to stop kissing me if you want to actually catch your plane."

“Come over here and make me.”

“I swear it was an accident.”

“Kiss me.”

“I couldn’t stop thinking about you.”

“YOU DID WHAT?!”

"Can you at least admit you were little worried about me?"

“There’s no use in hiding it, I know you love me.”

“How long have you been standing there?”

“Have I entered an alternate universe or did you really just crack a smile for me?”

“Does that line ever work?”

“Who we are and who we need to be in order to survive are very different things.”

“We’ve become the clingy couple that you used to complain about.”

“We finish the same way we started, together.”

“If I’m lucky, you’ll stay for a while.”

“You want forgiveness? Fine, I’ll give it to you. You’re forgiven, okay?”

“Nothing could ever make me hate you.”

“I’m pretty good at providing distractions.”

"You can’t dirty talk your way out of this!"

“Hey, I’m with you, okay? Always.”

“You’re the only one I trust to do this.”

“You are the human version of a migraine.”

“And that’s how you ruin a life. Congratulations.”

“Hush, I’m trying to kiss you.”

“Both of you have been glancing at each other for the past two fucking hours when the other isn’t looking. Will you please make out already!”

“Is it too early to have a breakdown this week?” “It’s Monday.”

“You’re like a giant cinnamon roll.”

“You’re so clingy, I love it.”

“It’s only stupid if it doesn’t work.”

“I’m not going anywhere.”

“Wanna dance?”

"Please don’t punch him too hard in the face. I like his face."

“I think I’m in love with you and I’m terrified.”

"I do see the appeal in wanting to start a fight with her, but you do realize she would absolutely destroy you."

“Watching you get angry is half the fun!”

“If we’re about to die right now I want you to know…”

“Sometimes you just gotta dance.”

“Don’t touch me. We’re fighting.”

“I guess…this is when we kiss?”

“Wait a minute. Are you jealous?”

“Are you okay?” “No, next question.”

“I’ll take the couch.”

“Well I fucked up again.”

“I’m your husband. It’s my job.”

“You left your underwear back at my place.”

“I didn’t mean it like that, and you know it!”

“Have you lost your mind!?”

"Look at my cute ass face and tell me you don’t love me"

“I’m not drunk enough for this.”

“We’re in the middle of a thunderstorm and you wanna stop and feel the rain?”

“I lost our kids.”

“That wasn’t very subtle.”

“If I die, I’m going to haunt your ass.”

"I didn’t become a journalist for this bullshit!"

“You’d look better in my shirt.”

“You deserve to know what love can feel like.”

“Let’s move in together.”

“I think people hug at this point.”

“You make me want things I can’t have.”

“Oh god, I need a drink”

“Stop pretending you’re okay, cause I know you’re not.”

“I’m going to need about six more cups of coffee before I lose the nerve to do this.”

“I don’t hate you.”

“I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings.”

“This is bad, right?”

“We need to talk.”

[go-diane-winchester]

Misha Collins cant keep track of his own lies.

Misha ''I was a homeless kid' Collins was interviewed by an art magazine, because apparently he is very artsy fartsy.  Whilst given the opportunity to speak about his supposedly favoritist subject: himself, Misha couldn't  remember all the fallacies he had spouted over the years.  I guess Misha figured his mostly underage, deranged fanbase might be too busy, furiously fingering themselves to badly written fanfiction, to actually read something from an intellectual source.  Something tells me that, just like in the mugging case, this reporter wasn't quite buying his lies.  Here are some of the highlights, with Misha's self-indulgent rambling in italics, and with my running commentary in bold [the interviewer is in bold italics]:

''Like most kids, I liked making things with my hands, and my mother helped facilitate this when I was pretty young. But I followed that impulse to an apprentice-level devotion. I would seek out woodworkers when I was 10 or 11, going into shops and learning how to use a lathe or – just asking. I grew up in western Massachusetts, and by the time I got into high school I was fully into this – just talking to people and learning things from them in person.''

So his hippy, drug addict mom who stashed pot down her youngest child's underwear for fear of being arrested, and who, for a short time, raised poor Misha in a car, honed his artistic skills when he was pretty young?  When?  When they were living in the woods?  And using a bowl of ice as a refrigerator?  So either his story of his childhood is greatly exaggerated or....yeah, that's all I got.  How gullible does he think people are?

Then in high school, I needed a job, so I started doing some manual labor.

So whilst at his elite private school, where there are rich dads and moms dropping off their darlings every morning, Misha chooses manual labor.  He likes to talk to people but he didn't speak to Mr and Mrs Moneybags?  He could have been a petty gopher in one of their companies and fared better.  After all, he needed a job.  I wonder why he chose ''manual labor''?  And why he chose to word it like that, instead of saying ''I became a carpenter's apprentice''.  I guess it sounds honorable.  That's is nothing dramatic about  saying that you flip burgers at McDs.  Saying that you work in a menial, underpaid job for a multimillion dollar company, does have a more dramatic feel to it. 

I built that barn on my mother’s property. Our house had burned down, so with the insurance proceeds, we built that and...

Wait, wasn't Misha's mom a pothead who lived in a car for some time with her two children?  Now, not only does she have property but she has the money to pay for insurance.  When did you live in the car, Misha?  When the house burnt down?  Why didn't you live in that house you showed footage of, on twitter?  Its a nice house, complete with Christmas stockings.  It doesn't quite gel with your underprivileged childhood narrative, but nice nonetheless.   

I worked a lot when I was in college, probably 30 hours a week most of the time. I did some handyman stuff, some carpentry stuff. After sophomore year, I took a year off. I interned at the [Clinton] White House, worked at NPR, became an EMT, started a summer camp for kids. It was a great year.

What is he?  A career whore?  So he was artsy fartsy, but he worked everywhere doing jobs that were unrelated to each other, instead of staying in his field of carpentry, and making money from that.  He got EMT certification.  Was it free?  Did he pay for it with his tuition fees?  What was the purpose of it, if making money for fees was of paramount importance?  That doesn't make sense, because if he was working 30 hour weeks, when did he have time to study?  The average work day is a tad longer, about 40 hours a week.  And if he was studying and working, when was Superman sleeping?  Why was he working so hard?  To put himself to college, don'tcha know.�� Even though colleges offer student loans and don't accept their fees in installments.  And yet, he took time off for one year after sophomore.  Was it to make a lot of money for his tuition fees?  Nope, it was to become an EMT and start a summer camp for kids.  I guess summer camps are big business and you can pay off great debts if you start one.  Good to know.  His internment at the Whitehouse only lasted four months, and yet he has acquired all the knowledge there is to acquire, to become a political knowitall on twitter.  Sidenote:  Is it normal for internships at the Whitehouse to last, such a short time.  I am genuinely curious, because it doesn't sound right. 

This is where I think the interviewer started to sound like she was side-eyeing the wood working maestro and his yarns of tall tales.

After graduation you got into acting, and in 1999, you moved with Victoria to Los Angeles for film and television work. There, in 2001, you bought your first house. Tell us about it. You were a starving actor?

Yeah. Right after we bought it, our realtor said, “There’s a TV show that would like to shoot your house.” They brought this [house-hunting] couple through, and when we saw the episode, they had surveyed the house and were like, “We don’t want to touch this piece of s---.” It was a real wreck, had been seriously neglected. It was built in the 1920s, and built by people who weren’t carpenters, didn’t know what they were doing. It was built so poorly, and everything was sagging – the window frames, the eaves.

Can you believe that?  The starving actor bought a house.  Let that sink in.  He recognized that the house was built by non-carpenters [how was this building standing.  Twas a miracle, I tell you.]  And despite being a starving actor with a small amount of money, and a knowledge of carpentry, he bought a house that was badly built by non-carpenters.  So he knew he was buying a liability.  Why?

The kitchen floor you put in is beautiful. Yes, that’s gunstock, from a gun manufacturer in Northern California.

Mr Gun Free supporting the Gun manufacturing industry.  Man, this guy is a hypocrite. 

You lived in that first house for 11 years. Do you still own it? We rent it out to some lovely people who love it, so it’s good.

Fun fact:  Mr Humble Pie has two pieces of property.  And he is making money off of one, but he chooses to attend cons with the same torn T-shirts from years ago, or has to fleece off of Jensen's wardrobe and generosity, otherwise he would be doing his panels naked, poor thing.  Why doesn't he stop his cruises for a year, and use that money to buy decent threads?  One shirt can last a few years.  The lies are  embarrassing, but miraculously his minions believe him. 

On the way to this house, you became very successful with this hugely popular TV series. Life changed. Do you still manage to make time for handwork? 

Yeah. I’ve discovered that I really like working. Work can be respite for me, and switching gears is really key. Going from working on scripts to working with my hands is therapeutic, for sure. I am still managing to work with my hands. I was just doing some woodworking yesterday. I do a lot of cooking. That’s a big part of my life, and also I think a barometer of emotional health. When I’m not cooking, it’s a sign that I’m too stressed out and I’ve got to dial things back a little bit. I do a lot of canning. I put up 120 jars of blackberry jam this fall.

What an irony!  One of the greatest instigators of stress for his co-workers and their fans, gets stressed out himself.  Yeah, guilt can do that.  Plus, he likes quantifying accomplishments.  That is why Gish exists.  Quantity over quality. 

Which artists inspire you? I love Christo and Jeanne Claude, because of the mind-bending scale on which they’ve created things, like they’re rethinking what’s possible. I’m somebody who kind of likes to break rules, to bend rules when appropriate.

I could write a whole big post, on Misha's rule breaking and bending.  From stealing Whitehouse property [and bragging about it] to telling fans about the scratched line in the Crypt which got Jensen a barrage of abuse on Twitter.  The one thing that he spoke about that doesn't make sense is his story about almost getting arrested for reading a book on a building rooftop.  It makes no sense.  There is a portion of the story that is missing, I'm sure.  Misha is a great exaggerator.

Have you turned any Supernatural castmates on to craft? On a set, there’s tons of downtime, a lot of sitting and knitting and crocheting. And I have occasionally been in the mix there. Last year Jensen [Ackles], my co-star, walked up and saw me knitting, and he just looked at me and said, “Really?” But I could tell there was jealousy behind it, more than criticism. So I’ll teach him to knit, and it’ll be fine. We’ll get through this.

Will you look at that?  There are around 70 people on set at any given time.  Many of them must have seen Misha knitting.  And look who Misha decided to mention.  Was that a ''just in case, a nutty heller is reading this'' insertion?  No mention is made of Jared, because who cares about him, right?  Got to give the crowd what they want.  I am side eyeing the knitting claim myself, because I do knit and having seen a photo of him knitting, I can safely say that, that is not how you grasp at the yarn.  You knit with loose fingers because yarn is abrasive. 

The first big project we did with Random Acts was we built an orphanage and community center in Haiti. I would not have thought that was a tackle-able enterprise if I didn’t have a background in building.  Our biggest fundraising driver for the projects that we do – like building a school or an orphanage – is we bring folks down in groups of 25 or so to Haiti or to Nicaragua, and they help in the building process. We roll up our sleeves and get our hands dirty.

Wow, he built the 500K orphanage with his own hands, but didn't think about lights for the children.  His response regarding the lights was ''it's Haiti and it takes three f*cking years to get an electrician''.  Wow, I am a third worlder too, but we have electricians.  How backwards is Haiti that he couldn't find a single electrician in the whole country, to light the place up for the poor orphans?  He couldn't squeeze in one electrician in the group of 25 or so.  Are there no philanthropic electricians in his circles?  My word, electricians are such selfish people, don't you think?  They don't want to roll up their sleeves and get their hands dirty.  Why couldn't he just pay for one instead of waiting three years?  Fun fact:  According to their website, the orphanage, aka, the Jacmel children's center houses only 15 children, but another page says there are 27 children living in the house.  They don't know how many children they are looking after.  But that is still a small amount.  So where did all these kids go?

Misha either staged this picture with school kids on an excursion or all those kids got adopted by the staggeringly high quantity of rich couples living in Haiti, right Misha?  SMH

This question made me smirk.  The interviewer had to know Misha has never been to public school.  Look how Mr Bleeding Heart answers the question.

As we know, art programs in K-12 public schools these days are in decline, especially shop class, manual arts. How can we nurture creativity in kids, and why is that important? When I was 9 years old, I had a paper route. One day my younger brother and I were collecting money, and Mr. Haigis answered the door. He started talking to us, and he discovered that our parents were separated, and we didn’t live with our father. In the 1960s, he had run a woodshop for little kids. He had stopped doing it because he got busy with his career. Now he was retired. These two boys show up delivering papers on his front stoop, and it just comes to him: “I’ve got to do the same thing for those kids.”

So Mr Haigis left all the poor, underprivileged children and decided to help these two boys who were going to an elite school?  Sounds legit.  What about public school children, Mr Haigis?  Don't you care about them?   

I was a starving actor for at least a decade.

Misha was a starving actor who worked on 24 projects before getting SPN, but he still managed to buy a house.  Fun fact:  he was an  associate producer on a docu-movie, ''Loot'' which won best documentary at the LA film festival.  His movie didn't need sock puppets to win this one.  Misha should produce more.  That way he wont be on screen, festering up the frame.  The less we see of him, the better. 

http://www.jacmelchildren.org/about/team/

http://www.jacmelchildren.org/

https://craftcouncil.org/magazine/article/builder-baker-angel-maker

[siriuslymarauders]

600 Follower Celebration!

Hello, world! Starting today, for a limited time, I will be taking requests for drabbles! I will be writing for my two favorite boys; Sirius Black and Newt Scamander since those are the only two I am comfortable writing for right now. Also, this prompt list does not belong to me. I grabbed a couple of lines from several other prompts and created some of my own.

Rules: 

 Must be following me

Send up to 3 prompt numbers

Choose either Sirius Black or Newt Scamander 

If you want to be specific, go right ahead! This is for you guys :P 

This celebration will be open up until Sunday, December 23rd. I will be writing as asks come in. Feel free to send more than one submission, but I ask to please refrain from spamming me :) 

> I will also be posting the Word Prompt list as a separate document after this 

                             Harry Potter Word Prompts

“You’re doing it wrong!”

“I’m afraid” 

“You don’t talk much, huh? That’s okay, I talk enough for two people.”

“I swear, If I die I’m going to kill you” 

“But we have a test tomorrow!”

“Are you happy now?”  

“He didn't deserve you”

“You’re actually going to stand there and make me admit that, not only was I wrong, but that I’m also sorry?”

“You’re going to pretend you didn’t just say you love me? Really?”

“Please be careful”

“I’m staying. Forever this time”

“Your eyes are adorable”

“Murder is always an option, but never an optimal one”

“Don't scare me like that!”

“I hate you” 

“You’re willing to bet on anything. Stop using that phrase”

“You awkward little bean”

“You’re not them.”

“I just woke up… It’s 4 AM… Is this really necessary?”

“Don’t let go… please,”

“I can’t lose you…”

“I love you so, so much,”

“Your smile… I’m looking at your smile…”

“It’s not safe here.”

“I want you to be there. I wouldn’t want anyone else.”

“Didn’t we agree that you’re only allowed to have one dragon? Where’d the other six come from?”

“Isn’t it a beautiful day to create some chaos?”

“Why are you covered in blood? What happened?”

“Are you okay, Merlin, please tell me your okay!”

“I should wait until I’m slightly more… sober.”

“There couldn’t have been a worse time to figure your feelings out.”

“Dance with me”

“I don't want her”

“You know how to drive?”

“You will be the death of me.”

“Oh. That’s great…that’s cool and good.”

“I’m happy for you”

“People are staring.”

“Can we please not fight?”

“I’m a filthy mudblood, okay! I’m dirt and you’re, you’re a bloody diamond”

“How could I possibly forget you?”

“I wonder what it would feel like to have your hand entwined with mine.”

“Complain all you want, you know you’re still going to do it.”

“When you say it like that, you make me sound evil.”

“How did I end up with somebody like you?”

“You are so beautiful“

““I can’t help it! I’m prone to laughing at inappropriate times!”

“You don’t think, that's the problem”

“Where were you?”

“I’ve never known you to give up. That’s what I admire about you.”

“You can't ignore me forever”

“Are you drunk?”

“Please get down from there”

“What were you thinking?!”

“Are you checking me out”

“I’d rather you be alone, then not with me”

“If you’re happy, then I’m happy” 

“I’m very good at multitasking”

“Hey! When have I done anything to betray your trust?

“Love, its freezing. Please come back inside”

“I believe in you”

“This is what we’re supposed to do. It’s what we’ve always done.”

“It’s not because of what you said. It’s because of what you didn’t say.”

“You cant ignore him forever”

“I’m not him”

“You’re lucky I love you.”

“We’ve been married for two years” 

“I’m so sorry, but we have to do this…and it’s gonna hurt like hell.”

“I love you and I always will. Forever.”

“Best of wives and best of women”

“Come back to bed” 

“I’m not mad... okay fine I’m a little mad” 

“I know that everything has a flaw, but I can't find yours”

“You’re cheesy”

“Can we do this the muggle way”

“I kinda like it” 

“I’m afraid I’m holding you back” 

“I’m selfish” 

“You cant use magic to fix this mess” 

“What in the bloody hell in that thing?”

[wakandascrystal]

Imagine this….Part 2

“…so if I fuck some guy here……..you won’t care?”

He flexed his jaw and his eyes flinched. You could see it would obliviously bother him but he swayed his head signaling a no.

“Its your pussy mah do what you have to do.“

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 

“You should have fucked somebody at that damn club...maybe a white boy with red hair just to rub it in. If Malik tried that shit with me it would have been over.“ Tinah said boldly

“You mean your relationship?” You asked softly.

Your hoarse voice clearly giving away how much crying you had done the night before.

“Nah I mean his life.” Usually, you would have laughed at a funny remark like that but not today all you could put together ways a weak smile and a deep sigh.

In dead silence, Tinah and yourself laid in your warm bed watching reruns of Insecure. As you both sluggishly took popcorn from the bag you witnessed how Lawrence was trying to handle Issa cheating on him. The awkward moments, the silent conversations, the friends picking sides just the whole mess.

You were Lawrence! Maybe not totally Lawrence but you related to him a bit.

You didn't want to put the friend group you and Erik had in a position where they had to pick and choose. This was between you and him. Surely he thought the same right?

And that's why you slipped out of bed made your way to the bathroom and called him. Your hands were sweaty and your heart beating craze, even more then the time Erik was randomly being searched for drugs by some Cops. You remember telling him in a whisper to give you anything he had on him because if he got arrested he would lose his Scholarship, his job, life. Basically everything.

You washed your face with cold water and made the phone call.

Ring... Ring. . . Ring. . . The person you are trying to reach isn't accepting calls at this time.

“Come on Erik don’t do this to me”

You said under your breath. You tried again another 5 times and he still didn't pick up. You couldn't make any more excuses for him. You knew how organized that man was. His phone was always charged and on him. He damn near owned 3 power banks to your knowledge. This was the first time he had left you on voicemail and you were not pleased.

A notification popped up. The split second of hope that maybe he was getting back to you died.

@ErikKillmonger66 just posted.

You clicked on it to find the shook of your life. The sweet picture he took of you at the museum he had taken you to a couple of weeks back, where your highlighter and hair looked bomb had been deleted. Now replaced with a picture of some girl with neon green on his lap.

That’s when you knew he was really trying you. It was really over now. Him putting that picture up meant to you and the thousands of followers he had that you were no longer his girl.

No longer Erik’s Girl.

Anger surged through your veins. Storming into your room Tinah was half asleep.

“TINAH!“ You normal voice was slowly coming back to you.

“What in the hell is going on.”  You held the picture to her face and watched how her expression changed.

“Is this Erik ?...with...with Cassie“

“Who the fuck is Cassie ??“ You were sure the people up and down stairs could hear you but you really didn't care

“Look..... don’t worry about her, she steals everybody's man. Who you need to worry about is Erik and his head-ass.“ All you wanted to do was to rip that Shrek looking wig of her head hoping its glued down so her edges would be fucked up too.

“I hate him. I hate him so much. After everything Tinah! Everything....I've been loyal to him. AHH ........fuck what if he's been fooling around with other girls since the beginning and I didn't know. I must have been some stupid idiot to him...I was a just good pussy that had a place to crash and free food.“ You paced up and down your room. You didn't know if Tinah was even listening to you but you didn't mind, you just needed to vent.

Tinah made a face as she secretly scrolling through your DM’s

“umm, good pussy?? ...your pussy fucken fantastic bitch. Don’t downplay yourself like that.“ Tinah’s attempt to gassing you up was slowly working.

“Your ass is in MIT with no kids and no ex’s that would start shit with him. You beautiful. You play fucking sports and cook like a certified chef and he acts like that. CUT! HIM! OFF! (Y/N)“

Even thought Tinah tried to get you to leave him for 7 days now, deep down she knew you wouldn't. You seriously loved Erik. She saw the way you looked at him and how you touched him in public. Griping on his thick bicep, hugging his waist or placing your hand on his thigh when he drove you around, just little sweet physically reminders that told him you were there for him.

Tinah noticed how you would go out of your way to make him happy. She didn't think it was unhealthy at all. Erik had never asked for anything drastic or selfish and you would never do anything you were not comfortable with. Tinah deeply appreciated that equilibrium. So much so that she would compare her relationship with Malik to your own relationship with Erik. She would never admit it to anyone but she really didn't have any positive relationships to look up to growing up. It was either Mr. and Mrs. Huxtable or Beyonce and Jay Z.

But now it was you. If she was having problems with Malik. She would think

“What would Erik and (Y/N) do? ”

“How would Erik and (Y/N) solve this? “

“How would Erik and (Y/N) go forward from here? “

The whole situation obviously didn’t hurt her as much as it did to you but she felt some type of way about it.

“.....You know what? You right...”

She looked up at you still in your oversize pajama top, hair all over the place.

“What?“

“You are absolutely right. I should get over his ass. I put some much time, love and effort into him and look at me.....“

“ so what’s about happen now...“ Tinah asked carefully

“Am about to get in the shower while you make me a tinder profile and find me, good-looking men, to mess with....“

Tinah erupted in laughter.

“Yes. yes, Bitch... am here for you. This is why am here....Get your sticking ass you there and clean up while I look for some Nubian dick.“

“Hey. Ill take Colonizer dick too!“ you shouted back to her, scrubs, oils and towel in hand as you head to the bathroom.

Water cascaded down your form. Fulling up the room with steam. You were nervous but you didn't want it to show. You were a little confused as to why you felt guilty. You hadn't even done anything yet and you felt bad until you had the flashback to Erik looking down at you, face filled with tears and he did nothing but disown you. That’s when your fire reignited again and hell...it didn't help that Tinah was blasting Beyonce’s Sorry from your laptop.

It was about 7:45 PM and you noticed Tinah was getting ready with you.

“T, where is your ass going? You cant go thoting with me.....You still have a man.“

She helped you clip in your wig and iron it down.

“Please... Malik knows I won't do anything crazy.He worries but he doesn't care.“

“Well, it's either your a changed women or he doesn't know about your past...“

“listen to me (Y/N) there is something called Trust okay...It's something I want but doesn’t give out“ You laughed, Fully this time. A genuine laugh that tickled your tummy.

“You mean head??“ Clapped her hands.

“....I suck my man's dick for my-“ You quickly covers her mouth with your hand but careful not to mess up her stunning makeup.

“No!!“

You enjoyed this atmosphere. Just you and your friend having a laugh. The smell of hairspray and perfume. Getting ready to slay with Beyonce playing in the background,  what more could you have wanted. For a brief moment, you forgot about the whole Erik mess and just watching Tinah happily picking out an outfit from your closet and trying on your clothes.

After 2 hours you finally ready to leave. Tinah had found 17 guys who were ready to meet you. You knew 5 from school, 3 were Erik’s friends and the rest were good-looking strangers.

“I like this one.“ you pointed at the profile of some guy from school who took some classes with you and Erik. You had hit the jackpot. You going to make Erik eat his words.

Making your way to the front entrance of dorm building you see the UBER Tinah had called for but right next to it parked the Jeep you knew too well. Erik was leaning on his black Jeep with his phone in hand. You froze and both Erik and Tinah looked at you. She followed your eyes and saw Erik walking towards you.

“Where you going dressed like that. Does Malik know you here.“ You knew he shouldn't have said that.

“Nigga keep my man's name out you dirty mouth...You hear me?!“ She pulled you towards the UBER while she warned him.

“Look I don’t wanna fight with you... I need to talk to (Y/N)“

“No, what you NEED to do is take your little as car and go to your Quinceañeras bitch and leave (Y/N) alone “

during the back and fourth Tinah and Erik were having you noticed how tired he looked. Red eyes and how messy his dreads were. All you wanted to do was to run and hold him. Place his head in the croak on your neck but he hurt you. He didn't have that privilege anymore.

Tinah had pulled you to the UBER but your feet stopped walking when you heard him say the words you had been imagining him saying all week.

“Baby am sorry.“

It was like a tug or war and you were the rope. Tinah physically pulling you to one side and Erik pulling you with his words.

“Why should I believe you? You insulted me Erik and left me hanging. Am sorry baby is noting going to cut it! “

“You right ...I messed up ...big time. Am just dealing with some issues I -“ You cut him off

“Issues?! You had me out there looking like a fucking fool because you had issues?? Nigga, I have issues too. Big ones but you don’t see me playing around with what we have.....what we had... You clowned me and that’s okay. I fell for it just like all the hoes you been with.‘‘

You could see that angered him.

“You know that's not true. You not like them hoes.“

“Is that why you couldn’t pick up my calls this morning?”

“Bicth you called him...For what?” You ignored her question waiting to see what would respond with.

“Let’s forget about this confused Nigga and go!“ Tinah stated pulling you to the UBER again

“Okay ama say it -“ You paused and turned again to face him

”- I love you. I don't like you..... or I don't kinder feel you, Nah. Not all of that. I absolutely love you and am scared as shit ...that I will lose you just like I did my dad..my mama. I figured if you hated me and you didn't want anything to do with me It would be easier to part ways. I rather have a heartbreak now then later. I won't lie..... I stayed cause you were a good fuck but then you started talking. Making me food and shit. Taking me on cute little-unplanned dates like I was 14 or something. No one in my life has ever given a shit about me the way you did. I mean ...no one! I didn't even know how to receive that kind of treatment.....All I kept thinking was shes just doing this for something in return, that’s how the world works right. Give and take. nah not you. You didn't even tell people we were smashing...that shit blew me away. You helped me figure out a lot of things about myself without judging or looking down at me. If I told a bitch why I got these scars they would....they would run and never look back but you believed me when I said that lifestyle was over and that am here to start afresh...That shit I said at the club was bullshit and am sorry that I hurt you...I don’t wanna to hurt. You're my princess..... why the fuck I wanna see you cry. That shit al almost killed me. I also have to say sorry you to Tinah. Am sure I put you in a weird position with Malik being my Boy and all. Thank you for being by her side.”

Erik’s apology was so deep and sweet even the UBER driver had been sitting and listing from his car.

“I know I messed up but please just give me one more time ....the both of you. Baby (Y/N) I’ll be a better boyfriend, Tinah I’ll be a better friend. Y’all can think about it.“

What would you do ???.

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[letthesparkleshine]

You remembered.

The very much delayed part 3.

Oh and sorry for any writing mistkaes and such, english is not my first language. Hope you enjoy!  😁

Words: around 2.6k

Group: BTS

Members: Jungkook and Taehyung X you (might have lied a little in this chapter)

Part 1 *  Part 2

‘’What do you mean you met someone?’’ 

‘‘Y/N I’m so sorry..’‘ says Taehyung while he starts crying more and more with every second passing.

‘‘What do you mean you met someone?’‘ you say this time louder so everyone could have heard you, even the guys outside.

He still doesn’s say anything, he only starts crying louder. At this point you’ve had it enough and you go to pick up your things but he suddenly grabs your hand. You let go of his hand and just as you were about to open the door he says: ‘’ I never cheated on you I promise. I just met someoe and happened to fall in love with her.’’

You wanted to open the door again and he says: ‘’ I’m so sorry Y/N I really am. You don’t deserve me. But we don't get to choose who we fall in love with.''

Tears started pouring out of your eyes even more, you could hear your own heart breaking at his words. You wanted to leave again yet he stopped you with saying: ''Please just hear me out, I want to explain, I owe it to you.''

You stood in front of his door not knowing what to think. You heard his words yet you couldn't process them. Nothing made sense. How could this happen when couple of days ago was your 3rd year anniversary.

''Talk.'' You said with the last bit of energy you had in your body.

''It was somebody I met through Mingi. She was just a random girl and we hung out for that one night. Later on she became our makeup artist and we spent more and more time together. With certain amount of time passing she developed a crush on me and I told her directly that I have a girlfriend. I loved you so much Y/N I could never hurt you.''

''Loved'' you said silently, not wanting to hear your own words.

''I promise you that i never cheated on you Y/N I swear. Please believe me I respect you so much. And again I am so so sorry for not being the man you deserve. But believe me I never cheated on you, I could never do that you know that in your heart.'' At this point Taehyung was sobbing and so were you. Both of you were heartbroken but both for a different reason.

You took a deep breath trying to calm yourself down with that stupid technique but it didn't work. You could hear Jungkook laughing at you for being so silly and it made you calm for a moment. You opened your mouth wanting to scream to yell out your feelings but instead you said: ''Answer me just one question and I'll leave.''

''Anything for you Y/N.'' said V still crying his eyes out. He was heartbroken too. The girl he loved the most and still cares about is crying because of him. He never wanted to be the reason of your tears yet he still made it happen. One of the most important people in his life is crying because of him and there is nothing he could do about that. He was heartbroken indeed.

''When did you realize you stopped loving me?’’ you said as calmly as you could

Taehyung just stood there. He didn't want to answer that, he couldn’t. How could you ask him such question.

'' Y/N I can't answer that plea-''

''You said it yourself before that you owe it to me'' as you said those words you turned around to face him. You looked at him with your teary big blue eyes and he just brooke down. He couldn't hurt you like that he just couldn’t.

'' Y/N I can't –''

'' If you ever truly loved me then answer me please. Just say it and I'll leave you in peace with your new love.''

'' Y/N come on I don't want us to end like this, we cant end like this we were Tae and Y/N, two very good friends.''

''Well what do you want from me Taehyung, you fell in love with another girl, and I wish i could hate you I truly do but i can’t. Because even when you fell out of love with me you stayed loyal to me, and I wish you didn't.'' with these words you took another deep breath and you looked at him. He was a mess but you were no better.

You picked up the last strength you had left in your body and said: '' Now please, answer my question, give me a reason to hate you, I need that rason.''

Taehyung didn't know how to react. He stared at you blankly for couple of seconds, his gaze was beautiful it was always very beautiful and loving when he was looking at you, at least that's how you felt.

'' It was at my birthday party. You didn’t come, but she did.''

As V said those words you went numb, you felt a sharp pain cutting through your whole body. You never felt something like that before. So many tears were coming out of your eyes but you didn't feel them. The pain was just outstanding it was too much for you to feel anything else.

''Thank you for all the beautiful moments and for the beautiful memories.'' As you said that you took out of your purse the sweater you knitted for him as a gift for your anniversary.  You put it on his bed and left instantly, not wanting to give him time to react to your gift.

You closed the door to his room and took a moment for yourself. You needed a second to realize what had just happened. You wiped your tears and headed for towards the exit. You passed by the living room and saw his friends sitting, waiting for your talk to finish. As soon as they saw you they got up. Jungkook ran straight to you wanting to hug you and console you but you stopped him.

''I'm sorry everybody, I hope I'll see you around sometimes'' and after saying those words you ran.

You didn't know where to go, you just had to leave, you couldn't face anybody right now, you didn't want to face anyone right now. You just wanted to be alone.

You walked to the park where Taehyung and you had your second date and sat down on the bench. And that's when it happened. You started crying and there was no way you could stop. Everything you ever felt was leaving your body through tears. And it was good. You were supposed to cry, they said it helps. But screw them, what do they even know about heartbreak I mean they said even the deep breating helps and it clearly didn't. But wait, in that moment you thought about Jungkook, your Kookie. He looked very worried when you left their dorm and he wanted to help but you just coudn't stay there any minute longer. But Kookie was your best friend, you wanted to call him but he reminded you too much of Taehyung and any thought of him at the moment was killing you. So you decided to stop thinking and just cry your heart out instead.

After a couple of minutes your tears started to dry and you were organizing your thoughts. You picked up your phone and saw 20 missed calls, 11 of those being from Jungkook. But you decided to call back your best girlfriend Miri. She was your soulmate but in another way. She understood you and she understood how love works and that was the most important thing to you.

''Y/N where are you, what happened? JImin called me saying that you and Tae broke up, what in the world is going on?''

''It's true Miri we broke up, I don't wanna talk about it though I just wanna see you and cry with you so please can we do that?'' you said already in tears.

''Of course honey, meet me at my place I'll be home in 10 minutes.''

With that you hung up your phone and went to Miri's.

As you reached her apartment your phone suddenly rang. It was Jungkook calling you for the 100th time this day and it made no sense to ignore him so you answered his call.

''Kookie I can't talk to you right now so please leave me alone for couple of weeks, I'll see you soon I promise.''

You wanted to hang up but since Jungkook is a loud baby you heard him screaming: '' No! I need to see you right now. You see I'm having trouble breathing and I need to practice my technique with you.''

It made you laugh for a mere second. You were really grateful for having him in your life but you reached a point where you couldnt see him, it would just break you more.

''I'm sorry Jungkook but I really cant see you right now, I'm in good hands though, I'm not alone don't worry. Oh and thank you for making me laugh I needed that, I love you.'' And you hung up.

''You're here honey come in'' said Miri while running towards you to hug you. You really needed a friend at this moment, and you got the best one.

Jungkook's POV

''Well what did she say?'' asked Namjoon.

''She said I love you'' said Kookie with the biggest grin on his face.

''Oh hell no'', Jin could be heard coming from the living room '' no way, not happening.''

''What are you talking about?'' asked Kookie playing blunt.

''I know you like her and there is no way you guys are getting together. No way. No. I don't accept it. You do that and I am disowning you.'' Says Jin so fast you could barely understand him.

''First of all, I don't like her,'' as Jungkook said those words Jin's eyes visited his upper lids.

''and second of all, you are not my mother.''

''How dare you, you ungrateful little brat, I raised you.''

''You gave me nothing.'' Said Jungkook proudly.

''Well you can just fuc-''

''Okaay you two just stop. Jungkook we all know that you like her and there is nothing wrong with that, but you can't just go running after her when they just broke up. I'm sorry but Jin is right.'' Said Namjoon.

''I know but i just want to help her,I need to help her she needs me.'' Kookie was protesting the best that he could.

''I think it is you who needs her, and once again that is okay but you need to give her some time, she just had her heart broken, she'll come back eventually.'' Said Joon.

''Rap Monster is right.'' Said Jin very seriously. ''Oh come on bro '' said Joon while laughing.

Jungkook laughed at Jin's remark too and hugged the duo.''Thanks you guys, but you know how I am and that I cant wait.I need to see her now.''

''Jungkook she loves you but only as a friend, If you have to go to see her go as a friend because that is what she needs at this moment. A friend.''

Namjoon's words stuck with Jungkook the whole way he was walking to Miri's apartment. Yes she is just your friend Jungkook and yes she only does love you as a friend, but that can change, right?'' thought Kookie to himself.

When Jungkook reached Miri's apartment he stopped for a moment and thought of what he would say to you. He wanted to tell you everything, but Namjoon was right, it's not the right time. He should respect your decision and wait. He shouldnt have come. he turned around and walked back to his dorm. And as he was walking, his heart was hurting a little bit as well.

''I guess it just wasn't meant to be Miri, he was loyal to me to the end, he didn't cheat.. I can't be mad at him.'' You said.

''Oh screw him Y/N I've been sitting here for the last 3 hours listening to you crying about a man who is obviously being used by that sponge chick.''

''She's their make up artisti Miri.'' You defended her.

''Oh same thing she uses a sponge for her carrer path.''

''You know that's very offensive to other make up artistis'' still defending her.

''Yeah but we don't like her Y/N come one you cannot be defending her. Screw her. Screw them. We are going out tonight.''

''No way my boyfriend of three years just broke up with me there is no way I'm going out tonight.'' You say

''Oh but you are, you have no choice, you owe me remember?’’

''Seriously Miri?'' you ask sounding so devasteted. ''I just can't I don't want to please we'll go next time'' you try to compensate but you're in no luck. When Miri decides to go out you go out. And just like that 3 hours passed. It took Miri one hour to finally convince you to go out, and two hours to get ready.''

As the clock ticked 9 PM you were leaving Miri's apartment. The night was just starting and you wanted nothing more but to go back to your bed and sleep for the next week straight.

Once you reached the club, Miri got you in through her connections and as soon as you set your foot in the club, Miri was already putting a drink in your hand.

''No Miri I can't I shouldn't.''

''Just drink Y/N, I didn’t ask you andything.'' Says Miri.

''You know you can be a real b-'' and as you were saying those words Miri looked at you with a burning look so you just said with the biggest sarcasm: ''a real sunshine sometimes.''

And you took a drink from her hand and started drinking. And that didn't stop for some time. After 2 hours you were completely relaxed and had already forgotten about Taehyung situation. Well for a moment at least. But as the night progressed, you drank more therefore you were drunk more and more. Miri was in no better situation than you. She was off somewhere in the club dancing with probably the hottest guy in that place.

After couple hours of dancing and drinking you couldn't stand on your feet anymore, you had to sit down. A bartender saw you and how drunk you were so he called you a cab. From there on you didn't remember much.

You saw a familiar face taking you out of the club, leading you by holding your hand. After a moment or two you started kissing and things became heated.

But you didn't care about anything at the moment. You just wanted to be loved in any way possible. And you were.

You woke up with surprisingly not as huge headache as you would expect. It took you a moment to realize where you were. You were naked in some guy's bedroom. And he was still sleeping. You had no clue who could it be, you seriously didn't remember anything from last night.

You looked around trying to get your things without waking the guy up. You really didn't want to face him but as you got up to pick up your shirt you were wearing last night, the guy turned around in his sleep and you could see his face.

It was Jin.

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215 Cute Prompt List

Please feel free to submit a request and reblog. Just some basic rules:

1) This list is purely for fluff blurbs/imagines. I am working on a different list for smut prompts/blurbs etc. So please do not request any smut from this list, thank you

2) Pick a prompt (obviously), and a character from the list below :

Shawn Mendes - Dylan O’Brien/Stiles Stilinski - any Teen Wolf character or their respective actor/actress - Tom Holland/Peter Parker

3) Please do not request a prompt that I have already written or am in the process of writing. Finished prompts will have a “ ** “ by it, works in progress will have “ ~ “ by it, followed by who the character in the blurb is. Only reason for this is there are over 200 prompts available to choose from. Once the list gets fuller, I will make repeats available.

***Note: I did not come up with these prompts on my own!! I do not claim ownership for any of these prompts!! I pulled all of these prompts from a mixture of different prompt lists already on Tumblr.

Thank you for the submissions, I love you all!! xxx

1. “ Not you again.. “

2. “ Leave me alone. “

3. “ Why do you hate me? ”

4. “ I lost the baby. ” ~ Shawn Mendes

5. “ I don’t need you anymore. ”

6. “ We cant keep this up forever. ”

7. “ You’re a disappointment. ”

8. “ Don’t die on me– Please. ”

9. “ I never meant to hurt you. ” ~ Dylan O’Brien

10. “ Are you upset with me? ” ** - Shawn Mendes

11. “ I’m going to kill you! ”

12. “ Please don’t hurt me like this. ”

13. “ Dont call this number again. “

14. “ Why did you spare me? ”

15. “ I’m sick. ”

16. “ I’m dying. ” 

17. “ I wish i’d never met you. ”

18. “ I thought we were family!”

19. “ There was never an us. ”

20. “ I fucked up. ”

21. “ I came to say goodbye. ”

22. “ I don’t deserve to be loved. ”

23. “ About the baby… Its yours. ” ~ Shawn Mendes

24. “ Dance with me! ”

25. “ Isn’t this amazing? ”

26. “ I wish we could stay like this forever. ”

27. “ Will you marry me? ”

28. “ I’m pregnant. ” ** - Shawn Mendes

29. “ I’m going to keep you safe. ”

30. “ Do you trust me? ”

31. “ Can I kiss you right now? ”

32. “ You’re cute when you’re angry. ”

33. “ We’d make such a cute couple. ”

34. “ I want to take care of you. ”

35. “ Can we cuddle? ”

36. “ It’s lonely here without you. ”

37. “ Shut up and kiss me already. ” ** - Shawn Mendes

38. “ Is that my shirt? ”

39. “ How did we get here? ”

40. “ You own my heart. ”

41. “ You’d be a great dad. ”

42. “ I want to protect you. ”

43.  “ You’re so beautiful. ”

44. “ Is that a new perfume? ”

45. “ Stop being so cute. ”

46. “ You’re making me blush! ”

47. “ You’re teasing me again… ”

48. “ This is why I fell in love with you. ”

49. “ Oh, Are you ticklish? ”

50. “ Of course I remembered! ”

51. “ You’re one hell of a guy. ”

52. “ Are you jealous? ”

53. “ Stop hogging all the blankets! ”

54. “ Are you drunk? ”

55. “ We cant go in there… ”

56. “ Well this is just great. ”

57. “ Don’t touch me. ”

58. “ Not sure if you could tell, but I’m not exactly a people person. ”

59. “ I don’t remember that! ”

60. “ Get that thing away from me! ”

61. “ You owe me. ”

62. “ Do you believe in ghosts? ”

63. “ Are you hitting on me? ”

64. “ You did what?! ”

65. “ Why are you bleeding? ”

66. “ Where did all these puppies come from?”

67. “ Don’t make me come over there myself! ”

68. “ That wasn’t funny. ”

69. “ Are you mad at me? ”

70. “ Can I borrow that book of yours?”

71. “ Let me help you with that. ”

72. “ Take that back! ”

73. “ I brought you your coffee. ”

74. “ Don’t fuck this up. ”

75. “ I haven’t slept in four days… ” ~ Shawn Mendes

76. “ Your turn to do the dishes. ”

77. “ Was I really that drunk? ”

78. “Give me back my phone! ”

79. “ Are you cold? ”

80. “ This place gives me the creeps. "

81. “ It’s just your imagination. ”

82. “ Stop being such a baby. ”

83. “ Go back to bed. ”

84. “ Are you okay? ”

85. “ What on earth are you wearing? ”

86. “ Stop texting me weird stuff so late at night. ”

87. “ Put me down! ”

88. “ There’s only one bed… ” ~ Shawn Mendes

89. “ It isn’t what it looks like! Okay.. Maybe it is… ”

90. “ How did I loose it? ”

91.  “ I read your diary. ” ** - Shawn Mendes

92. “Just remember if we get caught, you’re deaf and I don’t speak English.” ~ Shawn Mendes

 93. “I love you. You enormously stubborn pain in the ass.” ~ Shawn Mendes

 94. “And you wonder why you’re still single.” ~ Shawn Mendes

 95. “That’s a little melodramatic, don’t you think?” 

 96. “Were you dropped on your head?” 

 97. “Sorry. I don’t speak skank.” 

 98. “If I survive, can I go home?” 

 99. “My middle finger salutes you.” 

 100. “I don’t think I could ever stab someone. I mean, let’s be honest. I can barely get the straw in the Capri Sun.” 

 101. “I don’t have enough middle fingers to let you know how I feel.” 

 102. “Oh darling. Go buy a brain.” 

 103. “Somebody’s cranky.” “Somebody needs to shut up.” ~ Shawn Mendes

104. “Excuse me. I have to go make a scene.” 

 105. “What did I tell you about calling her/him the devil?” “That it’s offensive to the devil?” 

 106. “I heard that!” “You were supposed to!” 

107. “I need therapy after this.” 

 108. “You didn’t get in trouble for lying. You got in trouble for lying badly.” 

 109. “I turned out liking you a lot more that I originally planned.” 

 110. “If history repeats itself, I am so getting a dinosaur.” 

 111. “I’m afraid I’ve been thinking…” “A dangerous pastime.” 

 112. “I’d explain it to you, but you’re brain would explode.” 

 113. “Sarcasm is the body’s natural reaction to stupidity.” 

 114. “Don’t look in her eyes, she might steal your soul.” 

 115. “She’s hot, but she’s evil.” 

 116. “Do I regret it? Yes. Would I do it again? Probably.” 

 117. “I already know that I’m going to hell. At this point it’s really go big or go home.” 

 118. “You’re going to burn in a very special level of hell. A level they reserve for child molesters, animal abusers and people who talk at the theater.” 

 119. “I’m not a damsel in distress. I’m a damsel doing damage.” 

 120. “So stick that in your juice box and suck it.”

121. “A little gasoline… blowtorch… no problem.” 

 122. “Good, bad, I’m the one with the gun.” 

 123. “I know you can’t kill anybody, ‘cause I can’t kill anybody.” 

 124. “You’re insane, but you might also be brilliant.” 

 125. “Why does everyone assume the worst of me.” “It saves time.” 

 126. “I like you. You’re different.”

127. “Wow, somebody needs a Happy Meal.” 

 128. “I didn’t do it!” “Then why are you laughing?” “Because whoever did it is a freaking genius.” 

 129. “Idiots. I’m surrounded by idiots.” 

 130. “Well behaved woman rarely make history.” 

 131. “The universe may not always play fair, but at least it’s got a hell of a sense of humor.” 

 132. “You haven’t even seen my bad side yet.” 

 133. “How’s life treating you?” “Like I ran over it’s dog.” 

 134. “Rule number one: don’t bother sucking up. I already hate you, that’s not going to change.” 

 135. “You make no sense to me.” “Welcome to my life.” 

 136. “Damn, you’re strong for a little thing.” 

 137. “I made a new friend today.” “Real or imaginary?” “Imaginary.” 

 138. “Where have you been all my life?” “Hiding from you.” 

 139. “Do us a favor… I know it’s difficult for you… but please, stay here, and try no to do anything…stupid.” 

 140. “I know most people don’t like me; I don’t care, I don’t like most people.” 

141. “I didn’t steal it. I permanently borrowed it.”

142. “If you pull out my earphones, I will pull out your lungs.”

143. “Are you crying?" "No, I’m impersonating a fountain.” 

 144. “You’re kinda anti-social, you know that?” 

 145. “My advice is much more subtle. Stop being an ass.” 

 146. “I’m just gonna pack up and go straight to hell now.” 

 147. “My ex? Yeah, I’d still hit that. Except this time it would be with a car or baseball bat.” 

 148. “And just like everything else we do around here, it’s about to get weirder.” 

149. “Such big evil in such a little thing.” 

 150. “Why do I still like you, knowing you’re a total asshole?” 

 151. “And hello to you too… little home wrecker.” 

 152. “I don’t need anger management. I need people to stop pissing me off.” 

153. “What doesn’t kill me might make me kill you.”

154. “In another life, I think I was in a mental institution.” 

 155. “I’m not crazy. I’m just interesting.” 

 156. “This is fun.” “Seriously, we’re trying to hide a body.” 

 157. “ She’s not yours. “

 158. “ There is no us, there never was. “

159. “ Why didn’t you tell me? “

160. “ If lies keep spewing from those lips then i’ m walking out that door. “

161. “ Are you ever going to listen? “

162. “ Don’t leave me. Don’t you dare leave me. “

163. “ Shhh. I know. “ ~ Tom Holland

164. “ Tell me a story. “

165. “ Leave. Before we wake up regretting what we’ve done. “

166. “ All he ever did was use you. Why can’t you see that? “

167. “ Alcohol’s the only constant in my life. “

168. “ I was doing fine. Really, and then you waltz back in like you didn’t break my heart. “

169. “ You’re married!! “

170. “ He’s a fuck-boy and he’s never going to treat you better than this. “

171. “ H-how long? “

172. “ You still wear my hoodie? “

173. “ I’m too sober for this bullshit. “

174. “ How did you imagine our future together? “

175. “ That was supposed to be me, not him. “ ~ Dylan O’Brien

176. “ I didn’t have a choice. “

177. “ Compromise. "

178. “ His finger was right on the trigger but he wasn’t fast enough. “

179. “ Leave him and marry me. “

180. “ It’s okay if you have to go. “

181. “ Always and forever. “

182. “ You always cared more about her than you ever did about me. “

183. “ You had a kid and decided to walk out. You don’t get to call the shots round here. “ ~ Shawn Mendes

184. “ I fell for you. “

185. “ Daddy, how did you and mommy fall in love? “

186. “ I‘m never going to be good enough for you, am i? “

187. “ He already boarded the plane. We’re too late. “

188. “ That look in his eyes. That was enough to tell me he didn’t feel the same anymore. “

189. “ Who the hell abandons someone they ‘love’? “

190. “ The moment you saw me as a bet was the moment you fucked up. “

191. “ Meet me upstairs in 10. “

192. “ One more chance. “

193. “ It doesn’t have to be that way. Come with me. “

194. “ I don’t love you. “

195. “ You were my everything. “

196. “ You’re never seeing either of us again. “

197. “ Trust you? You don’t know the meaning of the word. “

198. “ You made me feel loved and wanted and for that, I’ll always love you.”

199. “ She’s lost without you. “ ~ Shawn Mendes

200. “ Don’t you get it? I’m in love with you and it scares the hell out of me. “ ~ Tom Holland

201. “ I want to be alone. “

 202. “ D-did i ever tell you how beautiful your eyes are? “

 203. “ Step out that door and i swear we’re done. “

 204. “ What right did you have keeping it from me?  “

 205. “ Running seems to be all you’re good at. “

206. “ What the fuck is it that’s so funny? “

 207. “ She always burned so brightly. “

 208.  “ We aren’t even in the same book, let alone the same page. “

209. “ I don’t want to live in a world where I’m not with you. “

210. “ Your hair still looks so good. “

211. “ You say this is what you want but your eyes are telling me a different story.“

212. “ Murder was apart of the agenda for today. “

 213. “ What if i just break his nose a lil’? “

 214. “ Hurry up, before we regret it. "

215. “Didn’t you read the sign?"

[debooted]

Part 5 of the continuing story: Having Andi for Dinner!

As small as Andi was she put up a good fight. Both Helga and Maria were working up a sweat holding and binding the small girl. Had they not drugged her with the spring water, she really would have put up a fight. Helga could easily knock Andi unconscious, but the warlock they were preparing to sacrifice to did not like his sacrifice to be harmed in any way.

‘SOMEBODY HELP ME-he…..PLEASE NO, NO…….OH GOD, NO……….’

‘Get her done!’, Helga exclaimed to Maria as she finished binding the girl’s wrists to the metal tray. ‘I’ll tie her waist, Maria, you go help with her ankles.

With Andi’s wrists bound,, and her ankles still being held, she was completely defenseless. It was now too easy for Helga to put her palm in the middle of the your girl’s back and wrap the strap around Andi’s waist. At the far end of the tray the yet to be named lady pressed Andi’s right ankle down onto the tray and Maria began to strap it down.

Andi now almost completely bound to a metal tray at the mouth of a huge pizza oven began to hyperventilate…….’pl pl pl EASE……..is is is t-t-his a ja ja ja joke………no no no no………..’

But the three women were methodical and showed no empathy for for their young captive who had been reduced to a sobbing mess. Once they had Maddy’s left ankle secure they would then be on the verge of preparing tonight’s sacrifice and also a portion of tonight’s dinner!

Andi was in shock as she looked into the mouth of the large pizza oven.

Her eyes widened and her mouth and lips went completely dry. This couldn’t be happening. Both of her wrists, her waist and now both ankles were firmly bound to a metal tray that was made to slide into this oven. Already there was an eerie orange glow coming from the bottom of the inside of the oven. And Andi’s face felt the unmistakable waves of hot air that were flowing from the oven’s open mouth.

‘This can’t be happening! People know! My sisters all know! If you’re trying to scare me…..OH GOD, you HAVE!! But……but…….ohhhhhhh, I think I’m gonna be sick……..please……..’

Maria, stroked Andi’s hair, ‘ I know this is hard to understand. It’s not that your friends don’t love you, but once we sacrifice you, we feed them just enough of you, that they’ll be under our spell, they’ll believe what they’re told to believe. They’ll remember what they’re told to remember. I’m sorry that it had to be you. I think you’re a very pretty sweet girl…….but you fit the pattern and the time has now come.’

Andi then Andi felt Maria pour some type of liquid over her head and then on her arms. The liquid ran down Andi’s face and onto dry her lips. It was some type of oil. As she tasted the oil, she felt Maria begin to rub the oil over her arms hands and fingers. ‘NO NO NO NO———-you CANT! Oh God……..’

As Maria oiled Andi’s arms, hands and face, the lady at the far end of the tray poured oil onto the sole of Andi’s left foot and watched it run down, puddle up and glisten on her toes.

Certain part of the sacrifice pattern was to choose a girl from a family who may not have the resources to adequately investigate their daughter’s disappearance. It also helped if someone in her family suffered from addiction issues, making it more conceivable that Andi had drank too much and maybe allowed herself to be in a situation in which she could be swept away in the river.

But the pattern also had a lot to do with physical appearance. The warlock that they were sacrificing to once walked this earth and had a passion for taking beautiful petite girls with shapely legs and small cute feet. Everything about Andi fit the pattern. Andi was a beautiful blonde with big blue eyes, naturally full lips. She had cute perky breasts and a shapely body. Her legs were short but muscular and well toned. And her feet also fit the pattern, they were small and cute. Her soles were wavy and the ball of her foot and toes were just a little meaty, exactly what the warlock desired.

The witches were allowed to enjoy the sacrifice, that’s why this particular witch had chosen to work this end of the tray. As this witch watched the oil glistening around Andi’s clinched left toes, she couldn’t deny her foot addiction so she slowly leaned down for a quick nibble.

[mentalmimosa]

that damned beautiful problem

Prompt: Ghostbusters AU. Prompt from this generator.

“Let me get this straight: there are ghosts?”

Spock’s expression was pained. “I’m afraid so, Captain.”

“Ghosts as in, spirits of the dead?”

“I believe that is the traditional definition.”

Kirk scratched his head, tried to swallow his bewildered. “Well, hell. That was the last thing I was expecting.”

“The probability of such an occurrence is exceptionally low.”

“Exceptionally--? Spock, you can’t tell me ghosts factored into your calculations. They aren’t real! I mean, I thought they weren’t. Are you telling me that you…?”

Spock bristled. “I am telling you, sir, that I do my best to consider all possibilities. Even those I consider highly unlikely.”

“Like ghosts being real.”

“Yes.”

Kirk opened his mouth to argue, got his finger all set to point, but McCoy came skidding around the corner like a man on fire, his eyes as wide as they were wild.

“Goddamn son of a bitch!” McCoy panted, canting a hand against the bulkhead. “I know it sounds nutty, Jim, but I swear I just ran headfirst into a ghost!”

“Why, doctor,” Kirk drawled. “You don’t say?”

*****

They were on Starbase 74, ostensibly, to investigate radio silence, an unexpected loss of power, and general lack of hi there’s from the place in three solar months. Somebody should’ve hoofed it out sooner, that much was clear to Kirk now, but given the base’s lack of strategic location and her skipper’s reputation for pique, nobody in the Fleet had taken it seriously until the Shenji had shown up for her regular supply run and not in actual fact come all the way back.

The ship had, all right, but her crew? Either missing, catatonic, or so terrified they couldn’t speak.

So Kirk had gotten the call from a gaggle of nervous-looking Admirals; less nervous, of course, about what was actually happening than what the galactic press might write about it when and if the word, as it were, got out. So the Enterprise was in a race against time (and headlines) and gods only knew what was going to happen at HQ when Kirk’s report landed--assuming that he’d have a chance to write it. Running pell mell for his life from a horde of angry alien ghosts wasn’t making that seem very likely. But optimism--or at least stubborn faith in his crew’s resilience and ingenuity--was always the order of the day. Even if said crew he’d beamed down with was looking less resilient and more and more freaked the fuck out.

“Explain this to me again,” McCoy hissed as they cowered in the weapons control room, waiting for Spock to decide it was safe for them to make a break for the main shuttle bay. “Ghosts are real ?”

Kirk sighed. “And they’re trying to eat-slash-occupy-slash-possess us, yes.”

McCoy sat back on his heels. “Oh my good and merciful gods. What in the ever loving fuck.”

There was a shriek outside, a thunderous wail, and the bulkhead shook something awful, as if a pair of giant, invisible hands were trying to shove their way through it, and they recoiled, tucked themselves tighter against the far wall. Kirk aimed his phaser at the door, knowing it was fruitless, kicking himself yet again for not beaming down with a full security team like Spock had advised. There was just something hinky about the scans, something not quite right about the whole situation, that’d made him reluctant to spare anybody he didn’t have to.

There’d been volunteers, of course there had; that was his crew. But in the end, he hadn’t been ready to risk the whole ship; he’d ordered Sulu to take her as far out of range as he could and still catch their comm signal.

Now, though, their communicators were useless, scrambled by the base’s weird energy; they couldn’t call for backup--or for pick up--even if they wanted to.

They were, in a word, screwed.

Unless Spock could get one of the base’s ancient shuttlecrafts going.

Unless he and Bones could manage to not get fucking devoured by creepy shit from the way back beyond.

God, he needed a vacation. A nice long shore leave somewhere. Somewhere private, where he could walk around without fear of being recognized, where he could drink too much if he wanted and screw beings he liked without worrying about whether they’d stop in the middle of the act and squint up at him in the warm dark and say, Hey, aren’t you that Starfleet guy? The captain? The one who saved the--who stopped the--? Yeah, you are! It’s you.

He hated having to lie, to disappoint them, to tell them no I’m not but I get that all the time and can I finish getting you off, please?

Sometimes they didn’t believe him; sometimes, they were sure. And sometimes, it didn’t matter what he said because they were gonna tell their friends they’d fucked James Kirk whether he copped to his actual, non-vacation identity or not and why he was worrying about this in the midst of a life-or-death standoff with spirits, he had no fucking idea.

Ok, no. Yes, he did.

It was the life and death thing. It’d been weighing on him lately. Less a sense of mortality (god) or old age (not yet), and more a feeling of impermanence. The five-year mission was zipping by, one month falling after the next, and that was part of it, probably. Then there was the feeling of loneliness that was waking him up at night, sometimes; this hole, this crawl, deep in his gut. It’d started when Sam had gotten married the previous year and asked Jim to be his best man, to haul ass back to Earth and stand by his side. Seeing Aurelian come down the aisle, seeing the look on Sam’s face, it’d shaken something inside him, like an apple tree caught in a storm, and shit he hadn’t thought about in years, feelings he’d stuffed under his bunk the first year at the Academy, had all come flooding back.

Yeah, his career was important, all the good he could do; being a captain was the thing he was best at, the thing that made him feel like he mattered. But there was the small problem, small, of being lonely, of being acutely aware that he was out here doing all this on his own--or at the very least, with no one to come back to, no one to fall into bed with at the end of the day.

Dancing with Aurelian, with her friends, he’d thought: a relationship right now would be selfish. To let somebody love him, to let himself love them, and then to throw himself into the arms of the universe, the whole great unknown, seemed like a lot to ask of anybody.

His job was dangerous, space was dangerous, and the whole James Kirk name only went so far; it’d be cold comfort to love somebody famous when they up and went and themselves dead.

He’d gotten maudlin drunk, after, and crawled back to his hotel room sad and utterly smashed. He’d taken a shower and lost his shirt and rung up Spock out on New Vulcan, and made zero attempt not to be a damned mess.

“Jim,” Spock had said once he’d spilled the whole story, lost himself in year’s worth of snot and ugly tears, “affection and professional success need not be separate. Your mother met your father onboard ship, did she not?”

Kirk had waved his hand at the eyecam, too worn out to bother sitting up. “Meeting somebody isn’t the problem, Spock. Fuck. I meet lots of people.”

“I am sure that you do. But you have not, it would seem, yet met the right one. Or ones. Love, as you know, can be a transitory emotion, and one that is often not permanently fixed in its--”

“Stop, stop. Fuck, stop. I don’t need to hear that right now.”

Spock had pursed his lips in a way that meant that he was fighting a smile. “What do you need, then?”

“Why are you humoring me?” Kirk groaned. “Aren’t you supposed to be out planting Vulcan green beans or something?”

“Believe it or not, there are others here capable of tending to the gardens without me.” Spock tilted his head. “But there are none, I suspect, as adept as I at listening to you.”

Kirk sniffed. “You’re not listening. You’re consoling.”

"However you would choose to characterize it.”

“I hate this. I hate feeling like this.”

“Perhaps if you had imbibed less, the feeling would be somewhat less acute.”

“No, if I’d imbibed less, I’d be hurting worse.”

Spock made a small, sad sound. “Jim.”

Kirk knocked the cam away for a moment and scrubbed at his eyes. “Spock, would you do something for me?”

“What is that?”

“Talk to me. Tell me what it’s like there. How it feels to hang out with an old and gray version of yourself.”

There was a pause, long enough so Kirk had caught the play of the wind beyond Spock’s shoulders, a gentle rush that made the long lines of the sand behind him dance.

“There are two full-grown settlements now,” Spock said at last, his voice slower now, low and deep. “A thousand Vulcans have made this planet their home. Jim, you should see it.”

“I will,” Kirk had said, “if you tell me about it.”

He’d fallen asleep with Spock’s voice in his ear, with images of a far-away world at work behind his eyes.

When they’d met again, on the Enterprise , Spock hadn’t mentioned it, his captain’s late-night drunken call, and that more than his hazy memory had made Kirk feel foolish about the whole thing, embarrassed, had convinced him that he’d stepped over some kind of unprofessional line that colleagues--even friendly ones?--should not cross.

Spock hadn’t brought it up and so Kirk hadn’t, either. Had made a point of not wondering what in the worlds made him think of Spock, of comming Spock, when he was smashed out of his mind and so terribly fucking sad.

When he was thinking about the damned beautiful problem of love.

They’d known each other for years--four, now. Or was it five?--and there’d been times when he’d considered it, in his baser moments: how Spock would taste, how his body would feel stretched out over Kirk’s, what his smile would look like when he was too busy to hold himself back. For a long time, though, Spock had been with Uhura, and Kirk had set those thoughts aside, bottled them up in the shadows of his selfish head tight. But then they weren’t together, then she’d found Christine, and Kirk had felt a lot less guilty about what flashed behind his lids in the last moment or so before he came.

But he’d never said anything, never let himself ponder it in the light of the actual day.

Kirk was Kirk and Spock was Spock and they had jobs to do, damn it. Planets to save and galaxies to explore and admirals to appease. They didn’t have time for....whatever else they could be.

Besides, Spock hadn’t said anything, either, had never given Kirk a hint that the door was even open, and so, ipso facto: case closed.

Why was he was worrying about it now, again?

There was a roar from the corridor, a hair-raising, icy-heart clench, and beside him, McCoy let out a moan.

Oh, yeah, Kirk thought, that’s why. Life and death.

Kirk’s communicator beeped, kicked him out of his reverie, and for a moment, his heart leaped: Enterprise? But no, it was strictly binary code only: two short, one long, then repeating--the basic signal he and Spock had agreed upon, had sincerely hoped the communicators were still capable of. And they were.

Kirk took a deep breath and reached for McCoy’s arm.

“In sixty seconds,” he said, pitching his voice over the din, “we’re making a run for that door.”

“What?!” McCoy spat. “The one with the ghosts behind it? No, we’re not!”

“We are. We’re going through that door and we’re turning right and running like hell. You think you can do that?”

McCoy got to his feet as Kirk yanked and glared at him, pale face and all. “Something tells me I don’t get a choice.”

“Right,” Kirk said, counting off the last seconds in his head and dropping into a stance. Picturing the first few steps, the turn, the look on Spock's face when they made the shuttle, when Kirk shouted Go now! “If we're getting out of here in one piece, you don’t.”

*****

It was a solar week before the news hit the lines, before the public comm channels exploded with a flurry of news: Starbase 74 destroyed, critical reactor failure, and yeah, ok: space ghosts. But nobody bought the ghost part.

“Beings are often more reluctant to believe the truth than the stories they tell themselves,” Spock had intoned at dinner, a gentle response to McCoy’s incredulous rage.

“Yeah, sure,” McCoy said, “but come on! Starfleet talking about spirits? Why the hell would they lie about that? Why would any civvie assume that they’re making up that kind of shit?”

Kirk clapped Bones on the shoulder and snatched his last handful of fries. “You ever think maybe beings are more reasonable than you think? That it’s hard for them to get their heads around something as out there as oh, you know, ghosts?”

McCoy rolled his eyes and sighed. “So sue me. I’m a fan of the truth, no matter how weird.”

And it was a solar week, too, before Kirk stopped chasing ghosts in his own head and headed down the corridor after dinner, tapped the chime on Spock’s door.

“Hey,” he said when it opened. “There’s--can I talk to you about something?”

Spock--soft in his sleeping robe, his feet bare--stepped aside with an almost smile and beckoned Kirk inside. “Always.”

[honey-baes]

ALL THE EMOJI ASKS PLS RACHEL

I DONT THINK U REALIZE HOW MANY THERE BLOODY IS THIS TOOK ME SO LONG AHGSJHAGSJHAGSJ

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be? @occultlike she looks like she’d be soft n squishy n im here for that

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why? litwick!!! idk its just so pretty!!!! i also love darkrai n jirachi cus those were two of my fave pokemon movies as a kid!!!

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like? p fucking gay ig uhh there would be flowers every fucking wear for sure

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had? i dont dream much?? the last dream i had all i remember is like,,, somebody ik dying?? idk

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend? idr have a best friend BUT i love all my friends for being the most TALENTED N CREATIVE people ever im. gushing

😘 talk about your crush or partner - dude i have a new crush every week but uhh but i kinda have a thing for my friend ajhdahdha

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back? def not!!!!! i hate confrontation n i usually just stay silent (although that never fuckin works n i really need to stand up for myslef ahdgahd) tho if its playful ill def be a bitch

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!) I’ve gotten through so much n im still here!!!!!! // i try to be kind to the people around me // 

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it? uhh this is dumb but really myself??? like, my paranoia is really shit n it makes me scared of alot of shit im fully aware isn’t a threat or anything 

🎁 what never fails to make you happy? flowers!!!!!!!!!!!!

💙 what annoys you about some people? people who are rude for no reason!!!!! it just annoys me when people say something in a rude tone for literally no reason yknow

😤 do you get angry easily? uhh yes unfortunately!!!! i have alot of pent up anger ahdhaajsdhasd

🐇 what do you always daydream about? alot of things!!! i’ll often daydream about mundane stuff like what i’m gonna draw later n that

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change? 

✈️ what is your dream city and why? hmm vancouver looks pretty cool!!!!!! idk im a lil bit sheltered n a lil bit bad at georgraphy

☕️ talk about your ideal day - i’d wake up n make some green tea and honey and then do some painting in my room, n have pasta for dinner!!!! i love pasta jadhajsdja

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert? introvert definitely!!! i love my friends but being around people, especially outside is really draining hh

💧 when was the last time you cried? uhh yesterday hjdgasd i cry p much every day HhhhH

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment - wetsuit // a lack of colour // drop pop candy // talk too much // if you’re over me

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why? i’ve always thought itd be awesome to be able to read peoples mind!!!! ig i really just want to know what people think of me?? ahdhags

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say? please for the love of god don’t eat that much icing at once it won’t end well

💚 who are you jealous of and why? idrk um i’m naturally kinda jealous of loads of artists??? just cus i think my arts been p bad recently n im really envious of others art hhh 

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why? kindness!!! i’m none of those things except for kind so i might aswell go that route yknow ahdhadgaj

🙊 what are you ashamed of? dude alot of things honestly most things i do adjhadhass 

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn? i know english and welsh!!!!! i don’t think i’d be able to learn another language tbh hh

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be? hmm i love tomoyo daidouji n i’d love to be her friend!!!!! (she’s from cardcaptor sakura!!!)

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today? i’m in the proccess of drawing something for someone!!!! n fufilling reqs!!!!

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why? a siren bcs theyre pretty and murderous n i like that

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike - ash she’s a real dumbass yknow

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately - everything tbh hh ive been going thru a rlly shit rough patch atm but!!! im still here so 

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now? i wanted to be a artist, n i didnt for a couple years but i do again!!!!

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods? chocolatechocolatechocolate 

🍑 what are you obsessed with? currently bnha n kiribaku!!!!!!!! n uhh kamideku/tododeku/kamisero/ashido and happiness

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed? i uhh cry hh

😪 what are you sick of? it being so hot!!!!!! gahh

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker? nO

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person? i’m definitely trying!!!!!! i don’t know if i really am yet though ahah

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies? painting!!!! video games!!!! i love doing sumi-e/oil/watercolour/digital painting n i love nintendo games!!

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself? i sang Hot n Cold ahddgahdajadh

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it? me being a bit of a pushover hadahdsjjah im trying to stand up for myself but it usually just ends up in more grief HHH

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored? eyes!!!!!! i draw eyes all over my school books, and bloody hands!! // i like doodling blood hh

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams? i’m like uhhh 2 years old ig

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you? i havent,,, done that hhh

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why? off the top of my head i love jenna coleman cus uhhh shes a pretty lady

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person? o fuck yeah

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them. alices adventures in wonderland // ‘she generally gave herself very good advice, although she very seldom followed it’ | through the looking glass and what alice found there // ‘Thy loving smile will surely hail the love-gift of a fairy tale.” | the lion, the witch and the wardrobe // ‘She did not shut it properly because she knew that it is very silly to shut oneself into a wardrobe, even if it is not a magic one.’ 

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help? i listen to music!!!! 

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad? def my friends!!! i don’t acc like talking about things that are bothering me but i know they’d all be willing to listen and care about what i say n that makes me happy ahhh

🌍 which country do you live in? wales!!!!

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words - salty, tired, TIRED

💭 do you keep a diary? i have tried but alas i cant keep up w that shit

💫 who inspires you? so many people!!!! my science teacher is p cool n i wanna be like him!!

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why? idk but uhh i like buzzfeed unsolved so

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like? black, hoodies n sweaters n LEGGINGS

🎬 what are some of your favourite films? the captain america movies!!!!

[guidingthulite]

A very, very long tag

tagged by: @deira-luv

rules: answer these 92 statements and tag people (i’m not tagging though)

THE LAST:

1. Drink: Pineapple Juice

2. Phone call: My dad I think?

3. Text: My dear dear Amaury. Or @srta-double. Can’t remember

4. Song you listened to: LOVE! LOVE! LOVE TOGETHER BABY

5. Time you cried: I can’t remember? I think it was last Friay but you’d need a bit of info to understand why.

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: Bro. Not even once, much less twice.

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Nope, not that either.

8. Been cheated on: No relationships, no cheating UwU

9. Lost someone special: You mean to death or that we just... Lost the bond or something?

10. Been depressed: ;v;

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Not really, no.

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: Blue, Red, Orange

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes!!! And I love them!!! With my soul!!!

16. Fallen out of love: *looks out the window and that flute cover of My Heart Will Go On plays in the distance*

17. Laughed until you cried: I think?

18. Found out someone was talking about you: People do, and I know that, but I haven’t caught anyone talking about me yet.

19. Met somebody who changed you: (AH, SHUSH, YOU ARE) Definitely.

20. Found out who your friends are: Specially in this year, yeah

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: My Facebook is dead my dude. Doubt it was even alive.

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: As I said before...

23. Do you have any pets: My brother is half cat! That counts, right?

24. Do you to change your name: Yes ;v;

25: What did you do for your last birthday: I think I kind of died because I got too much love and I couldn’t handle it. Also I chatted with my cousin. Have I ever talked about my cousin? She’s one of the most purest and sweetest people on Earth and we do not deserve her.

26. What time did you wake up: 7 am, and it was horrible ;v;

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Either reading fanfic or sleeping. Maybe studying? I don’t know

28. Name something you cant wait for: MARRYING MY WIFE I don’t think there’s something in specific? I guess you’ll know when I am excited XD

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: *peeks from the door* Hi, mom

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I want to meet my online friends, come on, I wanna give all of you a big hug ;_;

31: What are you listening to right now: IT’S STILL LOVE TOGETHER OOOOPS

32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: Not as far as I remember...

33. some thing that is getting on your nerves: Me and my drama that I, might I add, INNECESSARILY put onto myself.

34:most visited website: Tumblr and YouTube, I guess

35. mole/s: I have lots of those... And I have a big one... IN MY FFFAAACEEE

36: mark/s: That weird stretch thing all over my torso. My mom’s been freaking about it but meh.

37: Childhood dream: I wanted to be a singer, or an actress, or a teacher, or a reporter, or...

38: Hair color: Do you know why I paint my hair blonde when I draw myself? Because IRL my hair color is a MESS

39: long or short hair: Short is best!

40: Do u have a crush on anyone: Bro, if I told you... 

41: What do you like about yourself?: I am very spontaneous. I like weirding out people I don’t like.

42. Piercings: No? Seems like a very uncomfortable thing to be honest ;v; If you want one then go for it though!

43. Blood type: A-

44. Nickname: Lulu, Lou, Blueberry, Alma, Lula... I think I’m forgetting some.

45. Relationship status: Singler than a... Uh, what rhymes with Single... Pringle?

46. Zodiac: Gemini

47. Pronouns: She/Her

48: Favorite tv shows: Emotion-Connection-Wise it’s definitely Adventure Time, but my current obsession is VLD (Jeremy Shada is an angel though)

50. (did we skip 49?) Right or left hand: you’re Right keit

51. Surgery: No?

52. Hair dyed in a different color: Mmmmaybe

53: Sport: Rollerblading, the only thing I’m decent at. And swimming.

55. Vacation: I don’t care the place, I just want to be with my friends ;-;

56: Pair of trainers: On... My Feet?

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: Homework Nothing at the moment

58. Drinking: Nothing 

59. I’m about to: Keep doing Homework

61: Waiting for: sleep. my bed. what a bless

62: Want: The sappiest thing you can imagine. Like, imagine sappy, then turn it sappier, then more and more and that’s not even the beginning. I’m cheesy.

63. Get married: I would really, really love to.

64. Career: Translation is where I’m headed, apparently. Which now that I think of it is kinda useless. I want to move to USA. Why do I need that.

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses: I want to be showered in both you can’t make me choose

66. Lips or eyes: EYES. THEY ARE LIKE GALAXIES AND THEY’RE ALL BEAUTIFUL. I LOVE EYES

67. Shorter or taller: I don’t mind, really

68. Older or younger: Older maybe?

70. nice arms or nice stomach: arms arms arms arms

71: sensitive or loud: Sensitive? I don’t like loud soooo

72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship!!!

73. troublemaker or hesitant: Wha?

HAVE YOU EVER:

74: Kissed a stranger: No kisses means no strangers, duh

75. Lost glasses/ contact lens: I don’t wear glasses, sooo

76. Turned someone down: Yes, and it haunts me to this day (it’s part of my lore my friends)

78. Sex on the first date: No? Unless you already were into that kind of relationship and you’re just trying out dating. But I think it kind of defeats the purpose.

79. Had your heart broken: Buddy my love life is a MESS, you could write a novel about it.

80. Broken someone’s heart: Oh gog I hope not.

81. Been arrested: I don’t think so? I mean, no, not really, no

82. Cried when someone died: I can’t. Like, I am unable to cry when someone dies. I don’t know why.

83. fallen for a friend: uUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHH... Yes. Maybe. Definitely. More than once. Yeah. Affirmative. Positive. Yes again.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. yourself: Sometimes ;v;

85. Miracles: CAUSE I STILL BELIEVE IN MIRACLES I SWEAR I’VE SEEN A FEW

86. Love at first sight: Kinda, but not really. It’s... Complicated.

87. Santa Claus: I played detectives when I was 8 and found out that he didn’t exist and it was super dumb but I am proud of it

OTHER:

90. current best friend name: Alma is not my name! I wish ;-; Alma is a super cool name I COULD have had, but no, my parents decided to name me Lourdes after my mom. And I don’t like it so maybe that’s why I like nicknames so much ;v;

Anyways I can’t choose a best friend aaa ;-; But Internet Best <> Friend <> Award goes to Deira and IRL BFF Award goes to...

I don’t really have an IRL best friend, @sweetdemon933 doesn’t count, she’s my partner in crime ;-;

91. Eye color: Brown as the bitterest coffee you can find. Like, really brown

92. favorite movie: You could never guess. Really. No one expects it. Ever.

Well that was all! Gotta keep doing Homework then ;v; See ya :D Have a pleasant day and all