#i criticize myself enough and don’t need or want strangers to do so on my art! especially when it is not asked for!

[coincasual]

please do not offer criticisms on my art/style unless you would like to be blocked💖🫶✨

it is rude, and i do not care!

like it or not, i make my art for me, and choose to show it on the internet!

if you don’t like it, simply click away! and refrain from making comments on peoples art that they don’t ask for💖🫶✨

thank you all for your kind comments and support thus far!

🥰💖💕🫶✨

[esoteric-chaos]

Safety in Witchcraft

What’s not talked about enough in the spiritual community is mundane safety along with spiritual. Critical thinking is vital. I wanted to share a lot of my personal rules for myself that I have adapted into my craft.

Fire safety, never leave an open flame unattended. Ever. Always burn in an open enough area with a fire safe dish or on ceramic tile away from animals and children. If you leave the room extinguish the flame. Do not sleep with fire going. I know we want to keep that spell going even during a nap but sometimes we don’t wake up in time for danger. This is absolutely vital to keep you safe. It won’t ruin a spell I promise or anger anything. Please do not add those herbs to that candle. I know it’s nice and pretty but that is a fire hazard. Stay safe.

On that note always have an open window or a well ventilated area when burning items. That goes for herbs, incense, or candle. Smoke inhalation can ruin your lungs.

Rodents, reptiles, birds, any animal is sensitive to scents and have small respiratory systems. Be careful using anything around them. Research what can be used around them. I mean research! Cross reference. Use veterinarian hospital guides, not pro essential oil blogs. Please don’t put any essential oils on your pets. They can be seriously harmed.

Moon water actually molds, very easily. So can herbal blends if not stored correctly. Check frequently and use before end of date. Distilled water is your friend to prolongs shelf-life along is storing in a cold dark place.

Witchcraft and magic is not a replacement for medical treatment and medically prescribed medication. It absolutely can aid your treatment but it is never a replacement.

Do not ingest any herbal remedies without consultation with your doctor and/or Herbalist. Especially if you have pre-existing conditions and need to take medications for it. Things can conflict and are deadly.

Also forage responsibly. Unless you are 100% certain what you have foraged is the correct plant. Don’t even chance it. It’s not worth sickness or in worst cases death.

Do NOT ingest essential oils. I don’t care what you have heard from pro essential oil pages. The distillery methods are not safe for ingestion. It can tear up your stomach lining and throat. Cause extreme nausea and vomiting. Seizures and in worst cases death.

Some covens and practitioners are not your friends. Be cautious and use stranger danger. Be cautious and never give out all of your personal information online. There are predatory people everywhere, including in this community. Please be safe. Always use your gut instinct.

Please feel free in the comments and tags to add important safety pointers you have.

[captain-krow-drozdov]

Two For The Price Of One

(Linked Universe/BOTW Wild/Link AU)

BOTW Link Has Two Braincells Souls

1. The Hero That Died 100 Years Ago (Link)

And

2. The Artificial Sheikah Soul From The Shrine Of Resurrection/The Player (Tech)

Upon Finding Out From The Old Man That Having Another Person In Your Head Isn't The Norm They Decided That Link Gets To Keep His Name And The Artificial Sheikah Soul Will Now Be Dubbed Tech (Once Joining The Chain Link Picks Up The Nickname Unity And Tech Picks Up The Nickname Wild).

Unity/Link Still Has Amnesia But Ends Up Gaining A Lot Of Their Memories Back Pretty Quickly After Finding All The Picture Locations And Wild/Tech Literally Just Got Here When They Woke Up In The Shrine So It Was A Learning Process For Both Of Em.

Unity/Link Is Good With Swords, Shields And Most Weapons Whereas Wild/Tech Is Good With Archery, The Sheikah Slate(Mental Connection Go Brr) And Stealth. Unity/Link Has The Heros Spirit And Wild/Tech Is Just Here For The Vibes And To Be A Chaos Enabler. (Unity/Link Was A Domesticated Chaos Gremlin By The Time He Died And Wild/Tech Is Going To Un-Domesticate Him If It's The Last Thing He Does)

They Are Unfortunately Both Idiots/Chaos Gremlins And Socially Awkward And Will 100% Play Mental Rock Paper Scissors The Loser Has To Deal With Socializing.

Wild Ultimately Looks The Same But Also Has Some "Something Supernatural Is Going On There" Vibes Like Sharper Teeth, The Fact That Their Eyes Glow/Eyeshine, Scary Good Night Vision, Always Cold, Movements/Vibe Just Off Enough To Trigger Some Primal Fear In Strangers, Their Blood Has A Faint Glow To It And When Wild/Tech Is In Control The Blue Glow In Their Eyes Is Brighter And More Noticeable.

Mentally However, Unity/Link Looks Like He Did Back When He Was A Knight Before The Calamity Hit And Wild/Tech Looks Like A Sheikah Recolor Of Unity/Link But They Have Ancient Technology Markings Near Their Eyes And Where Any Visible Veins World Be As Well As Blue Fire Eyes That Glow In The Dark Similar To Guardians/Ancient Tech.

At This Rate Unity/Link & Wild/Tech Are On "Do Not Separate" Levels Of Chaotic Head Roommates. They Can Actively Switch Out Who's Driving The Body At Will And With Enough Focus Can Copilot The Body.

They Are Actively Keeping Score Of Who Is Closest To Figuring Out That There Are Two People Behind The Mental Wheel Of The Champion Link (Four And Zelda/Flora Have The Highest Scores).

{I Offer Incorrect Quotes For The General Dynamic/Vibe Of These Two}

~

Wild/Tech: If you See Me Talking To Myself, Go Away! I’m Self-Employed And We’re Having A Staff Meeting!

~

Unity/Link & Wild/Tech: Am I a Boy? Am I A Girl? It Doesn't Matter. I'm Going To Burn Your House Down.

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Unity/Link: Name A More Iconic Duo Than My Crippling Fear Of Not Being Worthy Of Being The Hero And My Anxiety. I'll Wait.

Wild/Tech: You And Me!!!

Unity/Link, Tearing Up: Okay.

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Unity/Link, Trying To Put His Knight Training To Use: Ok We Need A Plan...

Wild/Tech, Currently In Control Of The Body Pulling Out A Bomb Arrow: We Have A Plan. The Plan Is Burn Everything Until We Are All That's Left Standing!

Unity/Link, Fighting And Losing To His Pyromania Demons: That'll Work =)

~

Unity/Link: Wild/Tech...

Wild/Tech, Bloody And Bruised From A Recent Tumble Down A Mountain Due To Ignoring Shield Durability While Shield Surfing: Oh No, 'Wild/Tech' In B-Flat.

Wild/Tech: You're Disappointed.

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Wild/Tech: So That’s My Plan.

Unity/Link, A Trained High Ranking Knight: Are You Alright With Constructive Criticism? I Don’t Want To Sound Mean.

Wild/Tech: No, Go Ahead, I Want To Hear It.

Unity/Link: It Fucking Sucks We Are Going To Die.

Wild/Tech: That’s Not Very Constructive Of Your Criticism.

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Unity/Link: I Prevented A Murder Today.

Wild/Tech, Who Watched The Whole Exercise Of Self Restraint Go Down: Really? How’d You Do That?

Unity/Link: Self Control.

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Wild/Tech: I CAN'T DO IT UNITY/LINK!

Unity/Link, Laughing: I CAN'T EITHER!

Wild/Tech: I CANT FUCKING DO IT ANYMORE

Unity/Link: WELL I'LL TELL YOU WHAT WILD/TECH, YOU CAN GIVE UP NOW, OR YOU CAN FIGURE IT OUT. BECAUSE I CERTAINLY CAN'T DO IT WITHOUT YOU, AND I KNOW YOU CAN'T DO IT WITHOUT ME.

Wild/Tech: . . .

Wild/Tech: I Appreciate It,

Wild/Tech: BUT LOOK WHAT WE'RE DEALING WITH MAN-

Unity/Link: Wild/Tech-

Wild/Tech: YOU GOTTA DRAW THE LINE SOMEWHERE!

Unity/Link: Wild/Tech We Gotta-

Wild/Tech: YOU GOTTA DRAW A FUCKING LINE IN THE SAND DUDE. YOU GOTTA MAKE A STATEMENT.

Wild/Tech: YOU GOTTA LOOK INSIDE YOURSELF AND SAY 'What Am I Willing To Put Up With Today?'

Wild/Tech, Motioning To Calamity Ganon: NOT FUCKING THIS!

[hanasnx]

some updates while i’m here. i miss you! whether you’re a casual enjoyer of my blog & i see you in my notes, or my mutuals, or my followers, i’ve been thinking of you :) rare vulnerable moment i do cherish this blog and all your well wishes. thank you very much. i was right, typing is a huge strain and taking a break has been very good for my hands, so i’m going to keep at it.

some things:

don’t be afraid to keep sending me asks! they’re a great joy to me, i love seeing a notif in the inbox. i’ve gotten a fair few already that i’m excited to respond to when i can come back.

i did post a fred weasley drabble and not that i have to explain myself but i wanted to say i’ve been watching the harry potter movies. i’ve never seen them in their entirety, and the earlier ones have always been christmas movies in my house so to speak so i figured id give them a fair shot. i did read the books, and i’ve seen bits and pieces of the movies (hence my interest in fred weasley when i was a tween, but seeing him again made me wanna write for him for the first time in years)

also! a very kind anon told me earlier that my response to someone wrongfully making an ai chat bot of my content was an overreaction. it was “not that deep,” i believe was the colloquial term used. so the inherent content theft of ai invading free creative spaces is solved everyone! well done! very special thanks to the anon that let me know i was overreacting towards something i am passionate about and had a strong feeling towards! wow :) i never would’ve seen it like that. genuinely i am sorry anon that you’re ugly irl and your mommy doesn’t love you, which is why you feel like you can’t have a backbone over certain things. maybe you should stop consuming the free content creators provide on tumblr because you feel so secure in criticizing the selfless service <3 it’s giving: “im an old bigot that thinks ppl must be talentless and stupid when they work at mcdonald’s, but i’m still going to eat the food from there.” you’ve been blocked btw so you’re not offended by my use of free will when making free content on the internet for your grubby little hands to get a hold of and your smooth brain to criticize my right to share my personal opinions.

because the internet is the way it is, getting “hate” online has never really bothered me since i’ve always been a person with a large enough platform for years. it’s very easy for me to ignore and block and never answer whoever has decided to send some worthless hate message. which is probably why i almost never get hate anymore but it does happen occasionally. this was different since it wasn’t an attack on me per se, more so someone trying to admonish me for having a fair reaction towards something offensive. so i’m here to tell you it’s alright to treat strangers on the internet as strangers. you’re allowed to reinforce boundaries. you’re allowed to tell people you do not appreciate their actions towards you, and don’t leave room for argument. i am a very direct person, which means i told that person firmly that they needed to delete that ai chat bot they made of my au without my consent. and i did it without remorse. and i was told “it wasn’t that deep.” well it was. and it is. it is that deep because it’s deep to me, and i know it’s something that happens to others and it is that deep to them too. so what’s the problem in it being that deep? there is none :) let things be deep. be sincere. it is very important.

also if you make ai chat bots without creator’s consent when using their content you’re a piece of shit and doing a disservice to the very person you’re trying to exalt. take a step back and reevaluate how ai harms your interests rather than progresses them as well as the creators you claim your respect and cherish. you’re a victim of propaganda, my friend! and i prolly wouldn’t have made this post if anon hadn’t said anything. so maybe they should’ve kept their mouth shut since they didn’t wanna see shit like this so bad lmfao

now that that’s out of the way, i am sending wet fat sloppy kisses to everyone’s lips tell me when you receive them

[curiositymemes]

MISTER MAGIC SENTENCE STARTERS : PART ONE.

taken from the 2023 novel by kiersten white. trigger warnings for unreality, trauma, religion, and cults. feel free to change wording and pronouns and provide context as necessary. do not add to this list.

“oh, i can see it in your eyes.”

“i’ve always known.”

“it’s okay to ask questions. questions are how we get to know the world.”

“safe, he / she / they’d say at the end of the day. safe, instead of good night, or i love you.”

“yes, it’s really me.”

“a lot of people never got closure. including us. especially us.”

“we all worried about you, you know.”

“i can’t believe i finally found you.”

“name, what did you do?”

“you don’t recognize me, do you? well, i’d never forget you, name.”

“what the actual fuck?”

“you’ve been here the whole time?”

“there’s always a spot for you.”

“i feel weirdly compelled to warn you about stranger danger.”

“i don’t remember you, but i know you. that’s enough for me, today.”

“i have so many more questions than i did before.”

“it was amazing, until it wasn’t.”

“we were all just kids.”

“time passed different then.”

“i’d say it’s like no time has passed but really too much has.”

“don’t overthink it. we’re almost there.”

“that’s so creepy. please read them all right now.”

“i changed my mind. i don’t want to hear this.”

“what’s fanfic?”

“sounds like one of those nonsense inspirational facebook posts.”

“this can’t be right.”

“i’m giving it thirty more minutes.”

“stay with us tonight, wherever we end up.”

“again, i ask: what the fuck?”

“it looks like someone put a regular house on a medieval rack and tortured the shit out of it.” / “funhouse mirror version of a house.”

“name said we aren’t staying here, and we all know she’s / he’s / they’re in charge.”

“it’s late and cold and none of you are wearing jackets.”

“is it okay if i spend the night? is there room?”

“did we all collectively dream this?”

“how does everyone remember something that, for all intents and purposes, never existed???”

“WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I MADE THE WHOLE THING UP”

“don’t sit too close. you’ll burn your eyes out, remember?”

“sorry, i’m exhausted. it’s been a long day. long year. long decade.”

“can we figure everything out in the morning?”

“let’s explore. up, or down? down, right? gotta be down. that’s where the bodies always are.”

“your mom- / dad- / parent-voice is powerful.”

“you haven’t changed at all.” / “excuse me, i’m much handsomer.”

“shut up, dork.”

“i can’t remember the last time i saw this many stars.”

“i feel like i’m losing my mind.”

“i just can’t believe you’re here. you’re really here.”

“i felt so guilty that i lost you, i shaped my whole life around the space where you were missing.”

“it was my job to watch out for you.”

“i wasn’t strong enough.”

“is it crazy that i feel closer to you than anyone else in my life?”

“it haunts us. knowing what we had, and that we can never get it back.”

“i never moved on. i never moved on at all.”

“i was only age but that shit has haunted me ever since.”

“if i had to live inside it all these years, so do you.”

“you really don’t remember it?”

“which question do you want me to answer?”

“i can’t remember the last time someone made breakfast for me. that was really nice of you.”

“i need this to work. it’s got to work.”

“i don’t want you to go through this alone. i’ll stick with you, if you’ll have me.”

“there’s something else going on here.”

“hey now, that’s not fair.”

“i guess he / she / they taught me how to survive.”

“they loved me in a way i needed to be loved. they were always there.”

“i don’t know what was real and what was nightmares after.”

“to be fair, no one ever thinks i’m a p.i., which can come in handy.”

“she deserves / he deserves / they deserve so much more.”

“not hidden, just unnoticed.”

“i’d say get a life, but i’m here talking to you about it, so i can’t really criticize.”

“married a kennedy. it was that or a bush, and kennedys throw better parties.”

“i’m trying to think what else i shouldn’t say about myself.”

“don’t worry about it. they won’t be mad at you, and they’ll be mad at me no matter what i say.”

“i figure, why poke a sleeping bear when you can kick it in the balls instead?”

“my rebellious-teen phase was cut short.”

“people think children’s lives are simple, easy, but it’s the opposite. everything that happens around them affects them, and they don’t have the power to affect any of it back.”

“you seem really intense about a show that ended thirty years ago.”

“your hand okay?”

“i’ve never needed anything more in my entire life.”

“look elsewhere, sweetie. trust me. you don’t want anything out there.”

“the desert does have a way of wriggling into your soul.”

“you’re small, and you’re alone, and you don’t matter. and that’s okay.”

“go anywhere else.”

“this doesn’t have to change anything.”

“that’s what i want. change. it’s what i asked for.” 

“we’re not in trouble.”

“i should have given you a better warning.”

“i need to go alone. but don’t leave!” / “i’d never leave you.”

“if the cops come, we can thelma and louise it out of here.”

“name, you didn’t do anything bad. you were just a kid.”

“you can’t make me!”

“well, come in, i guess.”

“i’m afraid it’s not going to be enough.”

“did any of us actually make it out?”

“she / he / they didn’t ask anything of you except approval. maybe she’s / he’s / they’re still asking for that.” 

“you sound like a fucking psycho.”

“you can tell me if i did a good job, if people will like it.”

“we made a deal, so we’re doing what we’re told.”

“keep going. you’re doing great.”

“i did everything i was supposed to, followed all the rules.”

“i’m so sad, all the time, and i don’t know how not to be sad.” 

“i’m the link holding everything together and it’s all just weight. it’s weight, and it never lets up, and no one else ever holds it. no one else even notices it.” 

“i don’t understand how i can be there every moment of every single day and somehow not exist at the same time.”

“i’m not happy, and i don’t know how to be happy.” 

“i want this part to be over.”

“do you have any questions for me?”

“you were getting better.”

“we were doing what was best for you.”

“but you always got your way.” 

“because he’s / she’s / they’re an idiot, that’s why.”

“i was going to be so proud to be your mother / father / parent.” 

“even now, they blame me.”

“did you look for me?”

“i need your phone.”

“we were playing a game of hide-and-seek, but no one was seeking.”

“what do you want to do?”

“i like it better this way. adds character.”

“i thought you couldn’t remember what happened.” / “i didn’t say i didn’t remember. i said it doesn’t make sense.” 

“you’ve been through a lot.”

“i don’t matter.”

“all that matters is figuring out the truth.”

“listen to me: it wasn’t your fault.”

“i’ve always known i did something unforgivable.”

“you still blame yourself.”

“you were my responsibility.” 

“it feels unfinished, doesn’t it?”

“you want to stay?”

“this is a celebration, not a tribunal.”

“she says  / he says  / they say they’ll meet us there in a couple hours.”

“oh, it’s not that bad of a joke.”

“why are you sleeping, lazybones? there’s so much to do.”

[eowyntheavenger]

Also, I think we need to talk more about how women contribute to patriarchal gender norms. When people have policed my gender expression, it’s sometimes been men criticizing me for not being “feminine enough,” but more often than not it’s been women—trying to pressure me into wearing skirts, dresses, makeup, nail polish, heels, removing my body hair, etc.

I will wear what I want when I want. I find it so unpleasant when women apparently think I’m so unacceptable the way I am that I have to be molded into something else. Can we talk about how fucked up it is that a woman JUST EXISTING—with no makeup on and hairy legs—is seen as somehow non-normative, not to mention unattractive? Let me exist in peace!

And when I started weightlifting in college, it was overwhelmingly other women who tried to talk me out of it. My friends were like, “Cool, you do you,” but a weirdly large number of complete strangers would actually come up to me IN THE GYM and tell me I shouldn’t use the bigger weights because “you’ll end up looking like a man” and “guys don’t find muscular girls attractive.”

One, I don’t base all my decisions on whether men will find me attractive. Two, I think that’s a lie. There ARE men, as well as women, who find muscular women attractive, and women without makeup, and women just existing. I’d rather someone be attracted to me in my natural state than to have to constantly modify myself.

This shouldn’t be hard. Just leave people’s self-expression up to them. Women who choose not to wear makeup or not to remove their body hair are already going against the current. We are tired of being constantly pressured to change.

[xalygatorx]

just an a/n from ao3 about fic comments and messages on death in pink

I’m a little surprised this needs to be said, but I’ve also not discouraged it before now, so some of that’s on me—picking apart a chapter I’ve posted (criticizing it, overanalyzing it, projecting on it, whatever) except to like maybe note a line you liked or something is not conducive to the enthusiasm and joy it takes to continue and ultimately finish what’s essentially a serialized WIP.

Additionally hopping into my Tumblr DMs and getting overfamiliar with me is also a source of discomfort. Asking a question is fine if you don’t want to use an actual “ask” for that, I get it and it’s cool, but anything past that is more than I signed up for. Getting those critiques via DM is, believe it or not, also not great and is somehow more uncomfortable than the AO3 comments described above.

Maybe you think you’re helping. Like fair enough. But it’s not helpful. Please don’t do either. It freaks me out to a degree and adds pressure to something I am doing for fun and posting for fun. 

It’d be different re: the picking apart of actual pull quotes if this were a finished work fully posted but it’s not. Usually when I’ve posted a new chapter, I’ve been working on it up until literal seconds before it shows up in your inbox/bookmarks. Getting those sorts of comments or DMs within minutes of that sort of work is a fucking atrocity to my motivation and mental health because it’s the equivalent of getting the half-digested, chewed-up version of something I spent hours on spat back at me.

The answer isn’t continuing to do as I’ve done and tolerate and maybe unintentionally encourage it by responding and trying to nudge the conversation in a kinder direction (unfortunately). It’s not my job. :’)

I’m a sensitive person, it’s true, but I’m also published and no stranger to criticism…on a finished project that I’ve flung into the ether and have no immediate need to look at ever again if I don’t want to. I’m coming back to this every day, sometimes twice a day, and in the last couple of chapters’ worth of time, I’ve started to dread it. I’ll stop if I keep dreading it, so instead I’m writing a very uncomfortable A/N for the next chapter that I will now have to force myself through drafting. Or I’ll post this by itself. No idea.

I was going to just hide activity from users that this is happening with so only I had to deal with any fallout and didn’t create discomfort for the people causing me discomfort, but knowing what I’m like I’d find a way to read those sorts of things anyway. Honestly, I don’t even know who those comments are for—if they’re for me and meant to dissect what is essentially my ongoing draft in real-time, that’s kind of fucked; and if they’re meant to start a discussion with other readers, that’s cool and all but they come to my inbox and I read every single one.

No one’s called out. No one’s in trouble. Anything prior to this getting posted is off the board. That said, we can chill out and be lighthearted about the things we say from this point or the block button will become my new best friend bc I do want to keep writing this and I don’t have the emotional energy to afford space to people who make me uncomfortable. Especially after I've made my discomfort this (gestures vaguely) abundantly clear.

Anyway. This doesn't apply to the majority of people who have commented, so I also want to acknowledge and appreciate that amidst my boundary barf.

[kasienda]

So you reblogged a post recently about how you should never give unsolicited cc on ao3 fics and I 100% agree but I want to hear your thoughts on something.

Once several months ago I read a fic where the main characters were very misogynistic and the narrative was justifying their misogyny. I went into the comments and there were a few other people who pointed out the misogyny in the work. I replied agreeing and said it was kind of uncomfortable. The author replied basically saying "don't like don't read".

Ever since then I've wondered if I was being a jerk for making that comment. Is unsolicited cc justified if the author is misogynistic? Or should I have just ignored it and moved on to a different story? I've been wanting to ask someone else for a while now but I've felt kind of guilty about it

Hey anon!!

I don’t know if I’m an authority on this topic, but I’ve actually been in similar situations, and here are my few thoughts.

1) I don’t think the rules are different when I come across stories that don’t agree with my values. And I think that criticism will still come off as rude. And I think it’s up to YOU to decide if it’s something you care about enough to not care if it’s rude or not. And if it’s something you care about then, I don’t think you need to worry about hurting that author’s feelings. It’s definitely not worth your guilt for days or longer after the fact. Like it’s a can I live with being rude? Can I live with myself for NOT saying something even if it is rude?

2) on the other hand, saying something in the comments is not really going to change anything. There’s lots of people who are prejudice in some way and that’s always going to come out in their artwork. That’s the world they live in in their head. And hearing from a stranger on the internet is not likely going to change their minds or make this person suddenly reflective and self aware.

I have learned (by making a lot of mistakes! Haha!) usually that if I’m reading a story that I don’t like because the author and I clearly have very very different values, that I’m better off just not engaging. I hit that back button. Because if I do say something, and the author responds we usually just get in a back and forth and I get all worked up and angry, and they get all worked up and angry and double down, and it’s just not worth it.

Now I have made an exception before when it felt like the writer wasn’t aware of how it was coming across, and would want to know. But even then, I don’t phrase it as criticism! I usually say something like, “omg! This is so good! I have so many feelings! I can’t believe character x didn’t respect character Y’s no!! I can’t wait for Y to kick them into the sun!” And this works because a lot of the time the author DID mean to write it that way and this comes across as me engaging with their story instead of criticizing the story! And if they didn’t intend for x to be unlikeable in that scene, well, now they know that it landed that way anyway!

I will tell you that if someone has already commented about my issue, and the author has responded defensively or reflectively, I don’t need to say anything.

It also helps me to remember that stuff I find awful is always going to exist! Always! And it being awful is not a reason for it not to exist! Because there’s someone out there who is going to find some of my stuff just as awful! (I’ve even heard from some of them!). My comments and values are not going to stop that kind of stuff from existing. I respond by creating stuff that I wish existed instead. I call that spite fic! Haha!

I also want you to know that I’ve messed up before, I’ve been rude on purpose before (usually in defense of writers, but not always), I’ve apologized for my impact before when something didn’t land as positively as intended, and I’ve not commented on stuff that I abhored before. I’ve done it all! And from that, I’ve learned how I want to engage with fic and fandom. And I have gotten to a point where I almost never comment criticism to a writer I don’t know. But it wasn’t always this way. I LEARNED that by doing it other ways and it blowing up in my face. Mistakes are awesome like that because they are the biggest opportunities to learn.

So if you take one thing from this, I hope it’s this - your guilt is not needed. If it was a mistake, learn from it and move on. But only you can decide if it was actually a mistake or not.

[daggersandarrows]

i’m having a lot of feelings about seeing more people of color on critical role. i have spent so long both consciously and subconsciously working to appear white. i was raised “white”, i was taught to conform in the exact same breath that i was taught to speak. (quite literally--spanish was not spoken around the house except as a secret; trini slang only comes out when my mother gets very emotionally heightened. i speak like a white person, because for me to learn spanish was for me to “reject the gifts of america”, and people can’t understand my mom unless she adopts her deliberate american accent).

i’ve spent so long learning that this was the only way to acceptance; you pretend to be the same, you take every single microagrression, every single “of course it was two black girls ‘working’ when i got there, standing around and talking no doubt”, every stranger putting a hand in your hair, every “jesus, speak english”, and you pretend you don’t see it, you don’t hear it, you don’t feel it.

you pretend you approve. and that’s the only way to stay safe. that’s the only way to move up in the world. “sticks and stones” was repeated so often in my household that we only needed to hear the first three words to know what mom meant. “sticks and stones”. you’re getting too worked up about racism again, remember, just pretend you’re fine and you will be.

you are invisible, you are fine.

i consume content made only by white people because why would i consume anything else? if my goal is to blend in perfectly why would i look for stories that speak to me about the part of me that i’m doing my damndest to hide?

i made the mistake of stumbling into creators who love themselves enough not to hide. i felt almost betrayed, watching aabria dm for exu. no one ever told me it was possible to sink your teeth into that kind of gentrification-critical worldbuilding, to say it with your whole chest, and not...immediately get ostracized by all your white friends?

(to be clear: i know matt’s doing something very similar in c3, and that’s great. but it is inherently different to say that kind of thing without fear when you’re a poc.)

it’s nothing huge or obvious, but the unapologetic claim that the cast holds on their identity is simply indescribably touching to me. when i was a kid i badly wanted to be “a punk”, and in my mind this was obviously just a white person thing--how could it have been anything else? it was all i saw. super pale skin and stick straight hair was a requirement. so i tried to make myself whiter. staying inside in the summer and spending hours straightening and damaging my hair. i squashed myself into this ill fitting box because it never occurred to me that i could be both black and punk.

and that sort of continued as i got older. cosplays were all model-esque white people. how could i be both hispanic and a cosplayer? how could i be (someone who rode horses, liked video games, was a nerd, a theater kid, hell, someone who fucking enjoyed themself in any way outside of the very specific stereotypes i was given to act out)?

to see aabria dming, playing a high powered and highly emotional woman, mica’s cosplays and her riding adventures--mica playing a literal angel (black angels, guys! how many black angels have you seen outside of the past five years?), aimee playing a character with questionable morals and cool hair, khary playing a disabled character who also somehow just gives off raw sex appeal?, robbie playing a socially awkward, soft, affectionate guy with an appreciation for fancier stuff, erika’s gender fluidity and sheer enthusiasm for everything (getting too excited wasn’t cool, it was too “white”, an actual thing my mother said to me--i know, double standard), anjali’s mixed affection and exasperation as a sibling figure, and more recently lou and luis...i didn’t have this stuff as a kid. i wasn’t allowed to see myself as anything but one dimensional, so i had to alter myself to either fit that one dimension, or pretend to be who i wasn’t so people would accept that i had more than 2-3 emotions and character traits.

i wasn’t aware that it was possible, to be any of this without flattening myself. i wasn’t aware that there were white people out there who wouldn’t immediately hate you for unapologetically existing in their space without squashing yourself into their box.

[i-want-my-iwtv]

That you for being supportive of people criticizing the new show! All is see when I go into the tags is what feels like toxic positivity while Lestat's "it wasn't that bad, Louis was making shit up" narrative that show is adapting is literally typical abuser rhetoric, and as an abuse victim this whole "Louis is a liar and Lestat wasn't that bad" narrative makes me really uncomfortable and angry and I hate that with this show it will probably only become more prevalent in the fandom, as I'm already starting to see it.

[Tha[nk] you for being supportive of people criticizing the new show!] 

You're welcome, Anon! *hugs* 💗 (I assume you meant “thank” 😅) 

This response got very lengthy, my apologies, I can’t edit it down further. Also, I’m using brackets for your message clips, and italics for things I’m quoting later on, I wanted them both indented.

[All is see when I go into the tags is what feels like toxic positivity...  and I hate that with this show it will probably only become more prevalent in the fandom, as I'm already starting to see it.]

Yes, I’m seeing it pushed harder in both directions, as more pics, clips, articles, and trailers come out, the side that is super excited about it is going to intensify, and the side that wants to criticize it is going to do that, too, as they get more material to evaluate. There’s tons of criticism about fandom and canon, that’s the way some ppl happily engage, especially if they’re writers/artists themselves, by trying to unpack what the showrunners/writer’s goals are and how they seem to be achieving those goals (or not). 

If you need to take a break from fandom, you might want to do it. You can also block my #iwtv amc tag, bc I’m still going to be posting about it, but this way you can block seeing content about it from my blog, at least. I am sorry, though. I don’t think there’s any chance of ppl agreeing to use one unified tag so that others can blacklist it if they need to. I’m trying to navigate how much I want to engage, myself. Fandom is supposed to be a happy place, an escape from reality, not a battleground... but this is a historic moment in the fandom, so I’m documenting with as much capacity as I am able, and advocating for people to express themselves.

TL;DR: All this to say, I can understand where you’re coming from, that the changes to the story seem to disrespect the actual suffering Louis reported as a victim of abuse. Perhaps they’ll take that part out. It seems like they’d prefer to mold Louis into a better companion for this revised, softened Lestat. 

(Anon, I’m going to need to keep going with this response a bit more, I hope that’s alright with you. You can skip this from here if you’d prefer.)

The fandom seems to be on the brink of war over this show and some ppl have said that I have also spread “toxic positivity” myself, not about the show, but by running the fandom gift exchange last year, when the fighting was at a fever pitch, and my few statements basically saying: “Let’s try to be kind to each other.” I have friends on both sides, which makes things difficult, and I’ve chosen not to engage in those discussions. Maybe there are issues in the fandom, but no one has any obligation to enter a discussion with strangers on the internet. This is the case even if one of your friends has chosen to fight about it, but I have on rare occasions stepped in when it was needed to stop a fight from escalating. A person can ask for peace even when their friends, with their own agency, choose to engage in public discussion and even fights.

But because of those fights, I’ve stopped asking for peace. I’m instead trying to state the obvious that there’s enough room in fandom to criticize the show (as we would ANYTHING else), and be hopelessly in love with it, and everything in between. 

Hit the jump for more, cut for length.

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I think some of the friction we’re having currently is that the new series uses all the familiar canon tags, and I’m seeing a growing trend that at least some of the fans who are excited about it want it to subsume previous adaptations and canon. Rolin Jones re: essentially hopeful that this will in fact replace the (much beloved) 1994 film: (Den of Geek, July 22, 2022)

What are you most excited about for this adaptation?

Most people have this image of Tom Cruise and Brad Pitt. In this, the emotional stakes are super high. It’s Love with a capital L and Hate with a capital H, Remorse and Regret, and mostly reverence and respect. I gotta say, I’m really mostly excited for everybody to see Sam and Jake. You will not be thinking about Tom and Brad, ever again. Of that, I am supremely confident. It’s a very big, grand show. AMC is taking all the right risks on this thing. They are putting something very aggressive out there. They put more money into this than they thought they would, and I don’t think that they’re upset about it. There’s a big, big thing coming.

So this reads like he definitely wants the AMC show to replace the ‘94 movie. Again, I think some fans are thrilled about that. RJ has big shoes to fill, and he knows the comparisons are already being made, so as a showrunner I think he’s probably obligated to address it and show confidence that his adaptation will overcome the previous ones, but it does come across as smug, to my mind. 

[while Lestat's "it wasn't that bad, Louis was making shit up" narrative that show is adapting is literally typical abuser rhetoric,]

I think you make a very good point here. More on that in a bit. 

[and as an abuse victim this whole "Louis is a liar and Lestat wasn't that bad" narrative makes me really uncomfortable and angry and I hate that with this show it will probably only become more prevalent in the fandom, as I'm already starting to see it.]

I’m sorry you’re an abuse victim, and I can’t begin to understand how belittling it must feel be to see, essentially, an abusive character softened/defanged, “washed of his sins,” and therefore make the victim look like a liar. Jacob!Louis certainly looks terrified of Sam!Lestat in some of the promo stills, but is he afraid of Lestat as a vampire, as an abusive person, or is he frightened of being in love with Lestat despite those things? Or, and I hesitate to even call it out, is it none of those, but instead, “gay panic,” because this is the first male person that Jacob!Louis is attracted to romantically? “Bless me Father, for I have sinned. I have laid down with the devil” maybe he means it metaphorically? 😬 That’s another topic for discussion when we see the show. I hope they handle that respectfully. 

Rolin Jones seems to have made this Louis a more confident person, he’s not wallowing in depression when Lestat meets him. I think they’re taking out the abuse entirely, and skipping to the shipping.

Will the new adaptation be able to explore the fluid sexuality of the books? 

It’s aggressive subtext in the first book, but by the time you read books eight and nine, it was the love affair of the century. Without spoiling too much, subtext becomes text in our show.

Why is Louis’ situation changed from the book?

...I’ll say this, we’ve given Louis a little bit more of a spine.

Rolin Jones re: inserting later canon Lestat back into IWTV:

How does the contemporary setting affect the timeline?

One of the things AMC asked when they tasked me with the gig was: here and now, how does it change?... The timeline is not going to be wildly different. Lestat was born exactly when he was born. He might meet Louis a little bit later than in the books. We’d go into a big hole if we were to write the Lestat from book one because book two and onward is the “Brat Prince.” We wanted to quickly establish the Lestat that she settled on and put him back into the first book.

Canon Lestat of IWTV has only been a vampire for 10 years in 1791, and he’s been abandoned by his only 2 fledglings, one of which was his mortal lover Nicki, and the other was his own mortal mother. He’s barely 30 years old in mortal years. He’s already gone to ground to deal with these losses, and not much time passes before Marius scoops him up, makes him feel like he might finally fit in somewhere, and then Lestat’s fiasco with waking Akasha gets him kicked out of Marius’ life. AND he has his mortal father to take care of. 

But in AMC’s timeline, which I think starts in 1910, if we keep Lestat as being turned in 1780ish, then he’s 130 years older. Maybe he slept through all that time, and was frozen psychologically. 

So he comes to the New World fairly battered by all he experienced in his first 10 years as a vampire*, and in the novel, Louis has been inviting death so much that the state of his health seems to pressure Lestat into turning him sooner than he might have preferred.

*Of course, all this is a retcon because of TVL being written after IWTV, it’s up to the reader to decide what they want to accept as canon, and how. 

Either bc of Anne Rice setting Lestat up initially as an exciting, beautiful, but also horribly cruel antagonist in IWTV, or bc of Lestat’s backstory revealed later, (or both), the Lestat of IWTV era is cagey, secretive, abusive, and dismissive of Louis in many ways. He acts impulsively to create Claudia (as I always believe, to save Louis from the ultimate shame/guilt of giving into his own vampiric nature to kill an innocent child, which Louis might never have recovered from) to keep Louis with him. Would later canon Lestat have made that same choice? Knowing Armand’s suffering as an immortal teenager? 

Also, there seems to be a sort of flip flopping between this Lestat and the original. In the clips we’ve seen, he seems to be this almost kind and generous teacher that canon IWTV era Louis would have adored. Then in one scene, he tears a priest out of the confessional with Louis in the adjacent booth, to brutally murder the (innocent?) man in front of Louis, to terrify him? Into compliance? I’m confused about what the showrunners want here. Is Lestat the angelic wonderful person (debatable lol) that he tries to be as the Brat Prince in later canon? Hearing disputes and trying to resolve conflicts? Or is he the brash and frightened young vampire who was terrified of revealing too much about himself or showing weakness for fear that Louis would leave him, like Gabrielle did? Or hate him, like Nicki did? 

It looks like this Lestat is a confident, at ease, more generous, more compassionate (or trying to be) like later canon Lestat. We’ll see. 

[kiatheinsomniac]

𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏𝐒 | 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒

Hey, I saw your post about the ships. I'm saving up some money for a large commission but this small one I would like to 'participate in' :)  Name: Alexandra, but my best friend calls me Sasha (Russian short version)  Gender: sex is female but tbh, I always thought of myself as an individual and not strictly male or female. I don't know what this is called :/  Sexuality: I once thought I'm bi, but I never enjoyed sex with my ex. I find men and women attractive equally but don't feel any specific sexual attraction, even though I do have some fantasies about a specific fictional character. So I think the best that would describe me would be demi bi sexual, or some sort of it. I apologise for the long elaboration  Appearance: neither skinny nor heavy. I'd say a good middle (I used to be obese and have stretch marks in hips and thighs, but I also was anorexic, now I'm happy to be in between with slight curves and a few muscles that slowly show themselves as I'm working out quite a bit), brown hair till past shoulders, brown eyes, high cheekbones. I'm around 176 cm tall  Personality: I can be impatient, but when it comes to others or animals I'm very patient. I like the nature and animals, sort of pagan believe, I like reading and drawing but also action as I used to race in horses (barrel race but also carriage races), I'm seeking adventure and have done a lot of crazy stuff, like skydive, hitch hiking and other stunts (when I was younger though). I still like a good adrenaline rush but in a controlled way. I like horse riding and motorcycling (again controlled in a good manner). Both give me a feeling of freedom. I guess I could be described as sporty. I'm empathic but also stubborn.  Coming from a family where domestic violence was used to break me and make me follow what I was expected to do and how to behave. I need time to warm up to people. While I'm friendly to strangers, it takes a really long time until I warm up and even longer to let a person in and trust that person. But once a person is' in my inner circle', I'm loyal and protective.  I love walking barefoot (something that pissed my parents off and I received a few bruises for that, still liking it though). I love a good banter between friends, and can be sassy (when I feel comfortable around the person). I also tease and appreciate the small things in life, I don't need big presents or anything but am quite happy when I can be with the people I hold dear and enjoy the time with them, if it's a calm evening or some adventure/action.  Oh, and I don't wear dresses! I feel uncomfortable in them! No high heels either. Not very practical.  Please know that you can take your time and I'm in no rush. Like I said, I can be impatient (especially when it comes to myself, as I'm my worst critic and have high expectations of myself) I'm very patient when it comes to others. So I don't mind if you work on others' ships and requests first. I hope this is enough and not too much. Let's see who you ship me with from the Assassin's creed series :) – @havatnah

I ship you with Kassandra! 

Kassandra is really drawn to how you don’t really fit the ‘norm’. She’s no different to you and she is also drawn to adventure and living her life as she pleases without feeling the need to conform to societal standards so much. She really enjoys that you’re someone she can share adventures with and so she always invites you along to wherever she goes. She especially likes horse riding with you and the two of you often end up racing each other for the thrill on your way home – it’s something she always loves doing with you! Like you, Kassandra is very active and so she enjoys spending time with you when the two of you work out together, she pretty much considers it a date and she’ll be very supportive of you and flirty the whole time (see: likes to flex to try and impress you, she wants to show off and be your big, strong girlfriend). 

Kassandra is very understanding of your past as she has a troubling story about her childhood too. She’s friendly but she can be slow to trust too and so the beginning of your relationship starts as friendship. The two of you take things slowly and learn to trust each other as friends before you open up more and become lovers and Kassandra really wouldn’t have it any other way because it means she gets to fall in love with you twice. She admires your loyalty and protectiveness as they are core traits of her own and traits that she attributes to any good person. She also doesn’t mind that you’re not big on dresses or heels as she isn’t either so it just makes it more likely that the two of you can share clothes and she just loves seeing you wear her stuff and especially loves when you return it and it smells of you. 

♡ Kass loves going on little adventures with you! Whether it’s just a casual little outing such as a hike or perhaps something more daring and adrenaline-inducing, she wants to bring you along in order to share the thrill with the one she loves the most! Considering the long ziplines in the game, I can 100% see her taking you ziplining! The two of you strapped in and just going over deep valleys all for the thrill and the rush of doing so! She’ll make a whole day out about it too – a hike, maybe a packed lunch you made together the evening before, having a little dance between yourselves to some music in the kitchen. She loves days out with you. 

♡ She likes going to your gym or bringing you along to hers too (whichever one offers you the best memberships). She likes working out with you, supporting you and making teams with you, will be checking you out half the time too, she just loves seeing what you can do! She’ll try to show off a bit with weight because she likes knowing that you find her fit and attractive, she wants to be at her best for you. 

♡ Like you, Kassandra is also outwardly friendly to those she meets but she’s also slow to trust after her upbringing of her family being torn apart and having to find her own way right afterwards. She understands what it's like to feel betrayed by the ones who you were supposed to be able to depend on and she feels the reluctance to trust that follows such a thing. This causes your relationship to start off as the two of you just being friends; you’re getting to know one another and trust each other at the slow pace you both need. Each one of you is there for the other when it’s needed and eventually the two of you grow comfortable enough with one another from your love to develop into something more than that of just friends.

♡ Kass loves sharing her clothes with you! She doesn’t really wear super feminine clothes like dresses or hells either – even when she’s going out somewhere fancy, she feels much more comfortable in a suit than a dress. The result of this is that the two of you have a good chance of adapting certain aspects of each other’s styles and sharing clothes! Kass will practically throw her hoodies at you because she loves that when she gets them back, they smell like you. 

♡ Kassandra isn’t really one for flowery words so she shows her love with lots of gestures: big and small. One thing she does is that she makes sure to keep the floors of the house clean for you to walk around barefoot without getting your feet dirty. She knows it’s something you like and after finding out that you were mistreated for it, she goes out of her way to make sure that you can feel comfortable with it around her. 

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[thestrangerthingsgirl]

the tutor (2023) my review and opinion

hi guys, i know i haven’t really been on here in a while and I apologize, I really don’t know what to post on here anyways but I have recently finally watched The Tutor after looking for it for so long so I wanted to come on here to just say my opinion and review, now don’t hate on me because this is all just my opinion, we all have different  opinions and I wanted to just post my opinion and review on here since those movie review websites usually have harsh critics and I don’t really care much about what the critics say.

i do give the movie around a 9.5/10 because I want to give it a pretty fair score and not end up saying 10/10 because noah’s in it and such, i know he’s in it and i’m aware, i’ll get to talking about the characters soon, other than that, the movie had some plot holes that did get pretty confusing but it seemed like a solid good indie movie, I normally don’t watch psychological thrillers but I do think if you enjoy those type of movies you’ll enjoy this one if you don’t really mind the plot holes, because I clearly didn’t really mind it

This may contain some brief spoilers so stay away from this post incase you haven’t seen the movie yet, I won’t get into a huge ass summary because the movie is quite long and it’s better enough to see for yourself than reading this but It starts off as like a normal movie with Ethan played by Garett Hedlund most known for the Tron Legacy tutoring some high schoolers for the SATs, the movie starts off nicely introducing us to the characters we’ll be meeting along the way, We meet Annie played by Victoria Justice most known for the Victorious series and other stuff., who is Ethan’s pregnant girlfriend, and then later in the movie we meet Jackson, who is played Noah Schnapp, mostly known for Stranger Things of course. The movie slowly gets progressively darker and darker as we see our characters venture through finding out the truth, Jackson is figuring out about his family and what happened to him as he’s the only kid in the family other than his cousin Gavin, and the plot twist, I won’t get to that at all because I’d let you guys find out yourselves on what happens in the end since it gets crazier and crazier.

I honestly think that the actors respectfully did an amazing job on their character, I’ve mostly only know Noah and Victoria so I'm not very familiar with Garett, I feel like Noah did amazing playing a character that he never really played before, I’ve never seen him play a character that’s psychotic, and manipulative, Jackson seemed as much different than Will Byers and the other actors did an amazing job, The movie itself really makes you feel like it’s hard to pick sides whenever you are in Jackson’s side or Ethan’s side and I feel like when it came to me watching it I kept myself on one side throughout the half of the movie and it switched on me during the end. 

Other than that, if you like psychological thrillers and you don’t mind plot holes, I do highly recommend the movie, it’s okay if you didn’t enjoy it, I won’t judge you for it but please don’t go hating on my for my opinion because I never really rate movies and I felt like I probably needed to since I do talk about Noah's roles sometimes. 

[cupidstwin333]

Hello, are matchups still open? If they are, can I request a My hero academia romantic matchup?

Here's my information:

Physical description:

I have long, straight black hair and brown eyes. My face is small and round. I have tan skin also my height is 4'9".

Sexuality: Heterosexual

Pronouns: she/her

Age: 18

My personality:

Strangers think I'm shy or aloof.

My friends think I'm kind, trustworthy, and smart.

I can be insecure at times.

I describe myself as funny, a hopeless romantic, sensitive (there's times I cry when yelled at), reserved.

MBTI: ISTJ

Hobbies: listening to music, playing video games, reading, writing, calligraphy

Likes: plushies, books, art, nature, music, animals

Dislikes: unsolicited advice, sudden loud noises, being interrupted

Thanks!

After a long time of thinking 💭 your match is...

Hawks

Background:

You’re a third year student at UA. You have always been someone who prioritized her studies over anything. You did everything to be in class 3-A, because only the best of the best can be in class 3-A. You’ve always wanted to be a hero, you wanted to mean something for society. But lately you’ve been too self critical and insecure about your abilities and if you’re worth it. You know you’ve been working hard, but was it enough...? “Earth to y/n!” Suddenly someone nudges your shoulder, startled you looked up confused. “You good?” Hawks the number two hero asks you. It was your first month at the hero work studies. The Wing Hero Hawks had sent your school a personal request for you. Personally you didn’t really think much of Hawks but you weren’t stupid to throw away this huge opportunity, especially after you saw the reaction of your classmates. They all envied you. You quickly shrug him off “I’m fine.” You tell him not even sounding convincing to yourself. You realised you were day dreaming once again. You have been out of it lately because you feel like you’re behind on everyone at school. “You just started your work studies and I know that I haven’t known you for that long, but for you to zone out that much is not like you.“Hawks says actually sounding concerned. “You’re someone who’s very serious and hardworking.. a little too serious if you ask me.” He says in a joking manner. “I’m sorry, I guess I’m just a little tired. I promise that it won’t happen again”, you respond. “Do you really think that’s my concern here? I’m just a little worried don’t you think you’ve been overworking yourself?” He said looking into your brown eyes. “I don’t know, maybe? but then again why do you even care?!” You snap at him. “I’m the one who has to prove my worth to the whole world not you! So I don’t need you’re pity. If I have to overwork myself then so be it!” You let out angry. You couldn’t believe your ears the number two hero was asking you if you were overworking yourself!? Wasn’t someone like him supposed to know that that’s what it takes to become a hero. You avoid eye contact as you stare at your feet that are dangling from the the edge of the building you were sitting on. You and Hawks were on patrol for villains.

How it started:

“Y/n!” Hawks whines. “Come on I was joking!”

“No shut up, you’re so annoying.” You say as you turn your back to him and walk away, you notice civilians on the street gasping at the sight of the number two hero. “Okay, I take it back. Your hero name isn’t stupid, it’s very unique!” He tries to keep up with you as you start walking into random a alleyway seriously trying to shake him off. You started to regret this whole work-study thing. Hawks doesn’t even teach you anything whilst the other students in your class are gradually getting stronger. “Hey, we still need to patrol the main city!” You hear his voice in the distance as you’ve successfully lost him. You know he’ll catch up to you sooner or later but for now, you’re enjoying your few seconds without his annoying ass. Only four months have passed since you first started attending your hero work studies, but Hawks seemed to have opened up to you a lot. You don’t like to admit it but you have been kind of harsh to him. You quickly noticed that he may act confident and cocky all the time, but he’s actually deeply insecure and needs a lot of reassurance. This makes you feel guilty about the way you’ve been treating him but you would never admit that out loud. After five minutes of wandering around the alleyways, you started to realize that it has been quiet for a while now. “Hawks?” You call for him. He should’ve caught up to you by now, he is known for being too fast after all. After you didn’t receive a response you started to feel like something was wrong. You quickly turn around and start walking back to the main city your eyes searching for his big red wings, but nothing. It took everything in you to send him a text.

Y/n:

Where are you?

He wasn’t reading his texts. You huff and push your phone deep in your pocket as you decided to walk back into the alleyway. “Hawks! Okay I’m sorry!” You yelled out as you assumed that he might’ve been upset and walked off. He wasn’t the type to hold grudges or anything but he is the type to sulk for attention. Funny how a literal pro hero acts like a baby. You stop in your tracks as you smell something burning. An alarm in your head went off. Something is definitely wrong. You run to where the smell is coming from as you suddenly remembered something Hawks told you.

“My weakness?” Hawks asks with raised eyebrows. “Hmm if I had to pick something it would be fire.” He says staring off into the sky. “Cause even my fierce wings can burn.”

“Hawks what did you get yourself into.” You mumble to yourself as your gut feeling was getting worse. Smoke started filling your field of vision as you arrived at a dodgy-looking apartment, you heard muffled voices. You quietly walked closer to the scene as you held your breath. The smoke was thick. Your eyes widened as you take in the scene in front of you. Hawks was laying beat up on the floor and his wings were all burned. A man with a patchwork face was laughing like a maniac as he stomps onto Hawks’ wings. Blue fire burning the blood-red feathers into ashes. You quickly move before you can stop yourself. Your hero instinct kicks in as you sneak up behind the black-haired villain, kicking hard into his side, the villain falls to the ground. You jump onto him as you manage to throw in a strong left hook knocking him out, you quickly take out a pair of handcuffs to cuff the villain. “Y/n?” You look to your side your gaze meeting Hawks’. “Are you stupid!” You yell as you jumped up to your feet. “Look at you, your wings all are messed up!” Hawks start coughing and having difficulty breathing because of the smoke. Your eyes softened as you crouched down to him. “Hey, are you alright?” You ask concerned checking for serious injuries. “I’ll call for help.” You say as you’re about to reach for your phone but Hawks stops you. “Y/n you’re seriously amazing.”

General headcanons:

💘 Hawks brings you breakfast in bed but it’s all chicken (because he burned the eggs and toast, so he ordered something quick)

💘 Hawks will flirt with his fans just to see your reaction

💘 Since you're on the short side you’ll get wing slapped quite often (on accident of course)

💘 He’ll carry you bridal style and fly with you to show you the beautiful scenery from above (especially from nature)

💘 Hawks is the type to rent out an entire arcade just because he heard you say that you like playing games once.

other possible matches: Shota Aizawa and Overhaul

PS: I would appreciate it if you'd repost this, and I hope you've enjoyed reading it <3

[rebrandedbard]

Alright so, I’m gonna send this as an ask instead of clogging your comment box on ao3. And I’m still laughing at the fact you call these essays when it’s just unedited night ramblings. 🫡

Full disclosure, I have absolutely zero knowledge about music. I’m not even going to pretend like I knew what I was doing with those annotations and I certainly don’t know enough about poetry to articulate how that would work either… But I still very much hold firm to the belief that this would make an excellent recitation. The only other way I can articulate it is by insisting that it is a melodic kind of language. I see what you were going for and you’ve done it so well and I am so excited to see this kind of style and specific diction of language.

My education and experience is more in painting, art history, critical analysis so you know I’m not a complete hackjob and just blowing steam out of my ass! But I really have like no knowledge of music. 💀

I also very much hold firm to the belief that Jaskier is always going to be a choice. That is ultimately at the heart of the found family trope/genre. It’s not about shoehorning people into traditional family roles, but rather and I’m going to borrow from your fic here to support this, it’s about people coming together and the care and love that exists between them regardless of background, experience, and pre-ordained fates.

“Ciri put herself between the stranger and Jaskier, waving a large branch in warning. “Keep away,” she growled. “If you come any closer, I’ll scream.”

This is great. This is important. This is also really funny. A small child protecting a larger child. I know Ciri is more powerful, and perhaps even stronger than Jaskier. But the mental image of her defending Jaskier against a witcher with a branch is hilarious. I bet Lambert was telling everyone about it when they got to Kaer Morhen.

What’s important about this observation is that Jaskier lets her. It cannot be easy for a grown man to suddenly have to rely on a child to take care of him, but he lets her and there isn’t a shred, not an ounce of resentment between them.

Also, I did not originally mean to analyze this against the hero’s journey and the monomyth, but the witcher so often explores the concept of destiny and fate that I find myself falling into it constantly. What this fic does though, as I’ve mentioned before, is refuse the call and subvert the myth which I love.

I’m very interested in that perspective, thank you. I was a little suspicious because Jaskier was clearly picking up on something but I knew from his reaction at the end that he really didn’t know. It’s that thing where as an audience we have more information than the characters which again very much puts me in mind of a play and the fics other artistic qualities. I think I feel more like Ciri in this instance, and also a little like Jaskier. One is kept in the dark because she’s a child and the other because he’s literally blind.

Omg okay last disclosure… I couldn’t remember the word for prose poetry (idk why) and it sent me on a deep-dive. I just really love writing, and fanfiction and all this shit. It’s my goddamn jam, and I’m literally incapable of shutting up. I’m about to vibrate out of my skin.

I never ever ever forever want you to shut up. I love this. I love ALL of this. I want to read this analysis like I'm in an english lit class. I am eating it up with two serving spoons like I've been given the entire tray of sweet potato casserole to kill off at thanksgiving. PLEASE I beg of you, CLOG MY INBOX. I would LOVE to have this in my inbox to keep and to treasure. In fact, I keep my favorite ao3 comment emails in a special folder! Please please PLEASE copy and paste this and put it beside the other half so they are together. Your comments are FAMILY you can't separate them! They need a loving home!

[iloveyou-writers]

Many things—this is the vent anon from earlier—in the last week ish, my parental has threatened to kick me out, but just to my other families, who I hate. Got mad and yelled at me for not doing something how they like it, not sitting how they like it, on a wooden seat; smacked me on the shoulder for throwing a small paperback book, by accident at a door; for me not saying anything as they drone and rant on at me, practically/implying I’m dumb/stupid since I’ve got nothing to say back, implying that I’m special for not being able to talk.

And on top of that they have also threatened to take my room, because I’m not keeping one specific place clean, as I am literally cleaning and organizing my room, which I literally had to ducking cry for. Not in the prissy way, I literally had told them multiple times, even on my BIRTHDAY that I wanted it. Just yeah.

and then my sibling who is literally a fraction of my age is starting to act more and more like my parental, which is fucking ridiculous. And even the sibling doesn’t even listen to me. Has never listened to me. Hates it when I question things, yells at me for it, hates me for trying to get them to bed on time. (Which has never ever ever happened, and nobody enforces it wellish but me) and I don’t have that authority because I am not their fucking parent. Obviously. But I have changed enough goddam diapers to be.

and and I have not had a single friend in 7 years, so I’ve got no one to talk with because my family is like some mine field and or like the game of thrones people because they all fucking gossip and rag on each other!

and that same parental has taken money from me for shit they didn’t need, that I was gonna use to get myself something nice, which I never do.

and now again they are taking even more money that I won to pay for reasonable things this time, bills etc, but still does not treat me reasonably, or take a reasonable amount of household chores. And always demands I do things. Doesn’t ever ask, just demands. And I brought this up. They selectively heard.

If I wanted to be ordered around and traumatized, I’d have fucking joined the stupid ass military.

OH and let’s not forget, they fucking threatened me with fucking therapy at the crappy ass hospital for the umpteenth time!

And I know I fucking need therapy but it sure as hell won’t be there. And they sure as hell need therapy too! Fucking probably subconsciously isolating myself+immediately family. Never moving on. probably some sort of codependent. Sure as hell fucking Parentified me as a child.

TW fire? I have literally seen my childhood home go up in flames! From next door with strangers. and I fucking saw the goddamn gurney rolling away with my only supports covered body on it. I have literally been questioned that day next day smh by cops.

I know I fucking need therapy but I have and will have literally no boundaries respected here and the only reason I stay is because of the mean sibling.

doesn’t help that I’m wondering if I am nd or just traumatized, and I want diff pronouns because I hate that the main three all have ‘he’, but my family is shit and old. And yeah. Not helpful that I am probably demi aro/ace+bi, but I don’t know because I am socially inept and a recluse to strangers. Oh! And they have us fucking pray before dinner and I want no fucking part of that nonsense shoved down my throat

don’t even get me started on the historical/generational trauma either

My life is shit, and what I love I get criticized for.

yeah that went pretty long. Whoops.

I literally did one impromptu therapy session and that was good. Wish I could go again and get another hug. probably need a lot of dpt too. I like my soul getting crushed into this vessel. Almost makes me feel loved. Unconditionally.

and I also want a pet. But no money+Sibling being scared of dogs for no apparent reason+no pet rule=no pet.

And the stupid I carried you so blah blah blah jokes.

I hate them. I didn’t choose to be alive to be born. She did. I fucking hate those jokes.

and when she says ‘we’ and means that I have to do whatever she fucking said that ‘we’ we’re gonna do.

oh and the phrase ‘I hope…’ fucking hates me too. Hope fucking hates me. Every time I’ve hoped. It’s been the end of the literal goddamn world, or some other kind of dumpster fire.

yay 😠😩🤕😞😞

I-

That's a lot. Sounds like your mother needs to learn about boundaries. Yes, our parents gave us live and raised us, but that doesn't mean that we don't deserve respect and love from them. And it doesn't sound like you're respected.

I'm so sorry to hear all of this. I'm glad I can give you a place to vent but that's simply not enough, not with all of that going on.

The fact that she's taking money from you alone is..... wow.

And it sounds like you're an adult? I hope you find a way to get away from all of that.

Here's a gif of me with my chinchilla; I hope it at least somewhat cheers you up:

Hang in there. Things will get better some day.

[yallcantread]

I am not going to delete this blog because I believe in maintaining accessibility to sources. In the future, I might use it to discuss situations involving other artists or actors, but that’s uncertain for now. If people come across this blog and I seem to attain a following, I’d use it to correct common misinformation. There’s nothing else I can contribute to towards this app.

I want to emphasize that celebrities don’t owe us anything. They don’t owe us their political views, their time, or personal details of their lives. They create art, and it’s our choice to consume it. Similarly, it’s their choice to create art. Both parties benefit in some way, whether it’s success for the artist or enjoyment for the fans and consumers.

Being a fan by listening to the music is enough. There’s no need to engage in fan wars with other fandoms or obsessively follow every aspect of a celebrity’s life. Unless they’re involved in illegal or harmful activities, it’s not our business to know who they’re dating or why. We often spend too much time invested in other people’s lives.

With this blog, I aim to promote genuine care and fact-checking. I encourage you not to blindly trust TikTok users seeking attention through likes and views or Twitter users parroting others’ opinions. Have a mind of your own, even if it means facing potential backlash from the online world. The internet may seem important, but it ultimately doesn’t define our lives.

Sadly, it seems like genuine care is lacking on the internet. So, I hope I’ve inspired or encouraged you to fact-check and be mindful. My intention was never to dissuade anyone but to provide factual information. However, I urge you to stop wasting your life on trivial matters. Many of us, myself included, are in our late teens or early twenties, and we witness people wasting time arguing with strangers from different fandoms across the globe, people we’ll likely never meet, all because they criticized our favorite artist’s singing abilities.

Instead, focus on meaningful activities. Write a book, go hiking, learn a new hobby, reach out to your friends or family and express your love for them just because. Get that tattoo you’ve been contemplating, text that person you’ve been thinking about, or head to the park and play fetch with your dog. Engage in activities that bring you joy and are centered around you. Making music may seem insignificant compared to other pursuits, but it’s the one thing that brings me joy and motivates me to get up each day. It makes me proud of myself to even know I created a piece of art. The only reason why I’m proud of myself. I cringe when someone asks to hear my music, and I struggle to share it, even though I want to be known for my art. It’s a peculiar situation.

Life is undeniably short, and at times it feels like we’re living in a dystopian movie, experiencing one tragedy after another. It can be overwhelming and exhausting. However, I believe we should strive to make our time on Earth meaningful. We should try something, take risks, and contribute positively to the world. Aging is a privilege, and how we spend our lives matters. It’s a reminder to live authentically, focusing on ourselves and people like us. How do you want to contribute?

As corny as this may sound (and trust me, I’m quite nihilistic and tend to avoid these types of things because they make me cringe), I still believe it needs to be said: You don’t need a lover to live. You have yourself, and the love you have to give can be directed towards the person who deserves it most: you. It’s essential to prioritize self-love and self-care because, at the end of the day, you are the most important person in your life. Remember, a celebrity isn’t the center of your world; you are. You are more than your love for an artist.

Anyways, that’s enough of that for today. Thank you all for reading and sharing the blog. And if someone tries to engage you in endless arguments about this situation, simply send them the thread to this post and leave it at that. No need for back-and-forth exchanges. They can choose to read it or not.