#i currently id as bi pan type

[cosmic-kaden]

Almost My Floor S/I

cw: Hallucination mentions (As it's important to the game's canon and story )

.: Basics :.

Character’s full name: Kaden Reese

Character’s nicknames: Cosmic & 703

Reason for nicknames: Cosmic is their online ID and 703 is what the other residents call Kaden as that is their apartment number.

Birth date: May 27th

Species: Human

Gender: Agender (They/Them)

Sexual Orientation: Bi/Pan & Ace

.:Physical Apperance:.

Height: 5'5"

Eye color: Green

Skin tone: pale

Predominant features: piercing gaze

Hair color: purple

Type of hair: Thick

Hairstyle: Short, slightly messy

Voice: airy

Usual fashion of dress: Casual, practical

Favorite outfit: Black/blue denim jeans with rips in the knees,oversized hoodies/sweaters, fingerless gloves

.: Personality :.

Good personality traits: Resourceful, charismatic, empathetic

Bad personality traits: Impulsive & secretive

Mood character is most often in: Reflective, mildly optimistic

Sense of humor: occasionally dark/self depreciating

Character’s greatest joy in life: adventure

Character’s greatest fear: Losing themselves

What single event would most throw this character’s life into complete turmoil? Betrayal by a loved one

Character is most at ease when: Alone with their thoughts, or in nature, gaming

Most ill at ease when: In large, noisy crowds

Enraged when: Witnessing injustice or manipulation

Depressed or sad when: they fail to protect someone they care about

Priorities: Personal growth, helping those in need

Life philosophy: "Life is a puzzle waiting to be solved."

If granted one wish, it would be: To understand the deepest truths of the world

Why? A relentless pursuit of knowledge and understanding

Character’s soft spot: Animals, especially rabbits

Greatest strength: Ability to adapt and overcome challenges

Biggest regret: Not reconciling with a past friend

Minor regret: Not traveling more when younger

Biggest accomplishment: Unraveling a major conspiracy

Minor accomplishment: Learning to play the guitar

Character’s darkest secret: Once engaged in illegal activities to survive

Does anyone else know? A former accomplice and their sister

.: Past :.

Type of childhood: Adventurous but troubled

Pets: Had a dog named "Ask Him"

Dream job: Explorer

.: Present :.

Current location: Dark street Apartments

Currently living with: a spider who lives in the corner of their living room.

Occupation: streamer

.: Family :.

Mother: Elizabeth Reese

Relationship with her: Strained, but improving

Father: John Reese

Relationship with him: Deceased, was close to him

Siblings: A younger sister, Emily

Relationship with them: Protective, loving

.: Favourites :.

Color: Orange/Purple/Blue

Least favorite color: Bright green

Music: Lofi, Jazz, game ost's, punk rock

Food: Greek cuisine

Literature: Mystery and thriller novels

Form of entertainment: Movies, particularly noir films and horror, gaming, streaming, reading, singing

.: Habits :.

Hobbies: Hiking, photography, playing guitar

Plays a musical instrument? Yes, guitar

Smokes: Occasionally

Drinks: Socially

.: Traits :.

Optimist or pessimist? Realist leaning towards optimism

Introvert or extrovert? Introverted, but can be sociable if they know them well enough

Daredevil or cautious? Daredevil.

Logical or emotional? Emotional

Disorderly and messy or methodical and neat? A bit of both

Prefer working or relaxing? Prefers a balance of both

Confident or unsure of himself? Generally confident

Animal lover? Yes

.: relationships with others :.

Opinion of other people in general: Cautiously optimistic but skeptical

Does the character hide his true opinions and emotions from others? Often, unless they trusts them

The person character most hates: A certain "therapist" who claims to "help" people

Best friend(s): Masha, Adam, and Lillia

Love interest(s): Alex and Kate

Person character goes to for advice: Adam

The most important person in the character’s life before the story starts: their father, John Reese

Lore - Making this in small chapters kinda like how the game introduces levels as chapters!

Chapter 1: The Meeting in the Virtual World

Kaden, known as "Cosmic" in the online world, was a popular streamer who loved playing horror games. Their streams were full of spooky stories and thrilling gameplays that attracted quite a lot of viewership but not really enough to gain anything from it. One day, while playing a new horror game, they met a guy named Alex, another player who shared their passion for scary adventures. They quickly became friends, chatting and playing together almost every night after Kaden streamed. They would talk about their pasts, their hopes, and dreams, and found out they had a lot in common. As they played and talked, Kaden and Alex eventually started to develop feelings for each other, but they had never seen each other's faces as Kaden wasn't comfortable displaying themselves online.

Chapter 2: A Surprising Discovery

Life had an interesting twist for them. Kaden and Alex, without knowing, lived in the same apartment building on Dark Street. upon talking more, namely about their mental health, they found out they even had the same therapist and were on the same medication for their mental health, what are the odds!? More likely than you think as another resident Kate was also on the same meds from the same therapist. Finally, they decided to meet in person. The moment they saw each other, they felt like they had known each other forever who knew someone who once seemed so far was so damn close! They lived on the same floor! The introduction face to face was a little awkward as they both don't really know how to talk to one another but it wasn't unpleasant.

Chapter 3: The Nightmare Begins

Things took a scary turn when Kaden and Alex started seeing strange things in their apartment building. Eyes watching them from the walls, monsters lurking in the shadows, people they once knew sounded and looked off, speaking eerily. The lights had hands reaching from them and the vents bled a thick meat like ooze... It was like their horror games had come to life. They were trapped inside the building, no matter how many buttons they pushed in the elevator they couldn't stop going up! There was no way to the main floor... There's no way to escape. It felt like a nightmare they couldn't wake up from and they were terrified.

Chapter 4: Escape and Aftermath

With the help of their mutual friend, Kate, who lived on the 2nd floor, they tried to escape, Kate mentioned that you could jump out the window and be on the ground floor OUTSIDE the building. the fall wouldn't hurt them! Kate, who was in this shared hallucination, tried to burn down the building with Alex and Kaden. Before too long though, Adam, Kaden's mutual friend and detective showed up. He was investigating this strong of missing people and murders from people who have gone "crazy" He called Firefighters and the police came, and the 3 were taken to the hospital. The doctors found out that the medication they were on was causing horrible unbreakable hallucinations that altered the mind so intensely that it caused a negative reaction, making the users feral, they seen friends as enemies and often resorted to violence after too long. After getting the right treatment, Kaden, Kate and Alex were safe, the therapist was investigated and taken to prison, but things had changed.

Chapter 5: New Challenges and New Beginnings

After the incident, Alex developed agoraphobia, a fear of going outside, and Kaden started suffering from paranoia and anxiety. They both had a lot of traumas to deal with after what they went through. But they had each other. Their bond, formed in the virtual world and tested in a real-life nightmare, had grown even stronger. They supported each other, understanding what the other was going through, they even invited Kate to their places regularly to check up on her.

Chapter 6: Together Against the World

Kaden and Alex became a couple, facing their challenges together. They found comfort and strength in each other. Even though life had thrown a scary other wordily horror at them, they found love and hope in the midst of it. Their journey wasn't easy, but together, they were ready to face whatever came their way because nothing in the rest of their lives would be as bad as that horrifying experience.

tagging: @heatobrienswife || @mahitoslittlebird || @kylars-princess || @roboraindrop || @dragonsmooch || @ama-ships

No pressure to read this right away I KNOW It's A LOT!! I'm just really excited about this self-insert/ship!

[chisatowo]

Ok so. First things first to get this out of the way, I don't support bi/pan/mspec lesbians/gays, at least not the label. I think it's at best misguided and at worst actively harmful and at times malicious. That being said, I really, REALLY wish ppl would stop using "the split attraction model is for aspec ppl ONLY" as one of their arguments against mspec gays. Like there's so many reasons and Ill try to simplify em so I'm not typing this all day, but hoo boy. First of all, it's just not a argument built in any form of more solid facts like most other arguments, which mainly have to do with language and history, along with the effects that normalisation of the label could have. The split model being only for aspecs is just such a nonsense statement next to those.

Like ok lets compare for a second, one other common argument against mspec gays is that while lesbian used to be a term for all sapphic ppl, it's since evolved and changed past that and it's current meaning isn't that anymore. Now while I do feel that often times when that argument is used ppl miss puting in some important details, such as how the separation of these terms is typically seen as a good thing, and that these separate terms are important to our current community, you can generally get the context from the base point that there is background behind the statement. There are details abt reality that have been examined, and this argument is a result of conclusions made from that. "The split model is for aspecs only" isn't that. It at best implies a history that isn't there, and it is just such an arbitrary argument that... Doesn't rly prove anything in regards to the existence of ppl who aren't aspec who do experience split attraction. You could argue that those experiences aren't real (comes off a shitty cause it is), you could argue that there's specific reasons that the split model as a term should only be used for aspec ppl (Id disagree plus it doesn't inherently make it a point against mspec gays so ofc ppl aren't using this one), or you could argue why different mspec gay labels wouldn't be a good fit for these experiences (which leads back to the original issue and would be basically reusing the same arguments as before, making it pointless as an inherent argument against mspec gays). Basically, once you actually start trying to take it seriously as an argument, it just.... Doesn't hold up without having to brush the possiblity of ppl who actually do experience split attraction without being aspec under the rug. Like its one thing that it's just a poor argument, but it frustrates me most of all because if non aspec ppl rly are experiencing split attraction, then it's rly shitty to tell them "no you aren't, only aspec ppl do, your experiences aren't real." and I don't think that should need to be a controversial thing for me to believe. Like this doesn't contradict not supporting mspec gay labels, like you can super accept and support potential split attraction allos and still think mspec gay labels are bad. I simply think that we shouldn't be ignoring more potential nuances of human attraction if ppl have those experiences, and also as an acearo lesbian, I don't want aspec ppl to be weaponised in a bad argument that could potentially do far more harm than good, even if it's against a thing I don't support.

(Btw pls don't derail this post into just mspec gay discourse that's a separate discussion to the one at hand and not what I'm here to argue abt)

[aro-culture-is]

I currently id as pan and I'm in a relationship with an amazing gal. I am nearly certain that I do not love my gf in the same way she loves me. I enjoy our physical relationship and emotional closeness but I don't think that is the same as romantic love. Reading through the experiences of other aro people has helped and I identify with a lot. I never had crushes, just fell into relationships, don't really understand being real upset after a breakup. Is this a normal? I'm v confused with myself

hi!

so, i’m not 100% sure what you’re asking me, but I’ll do my best to respond to what I think you mean.

you’ve described a fair amount of common aro experiences here -

id’ing as pan or bi sometimes relates to being a-spec and assuming equal attraction due to 0 = 0

the sense of a different type of love

identifying with a lot of aro ppl’s experiences

never having crushes

just falling into relationships

not understanding being upset after breakups

i do want to emphasize though, you can be both aro and pan, it’s just not uncommon to assume “oh i’m equally not attracted to all genders”.

as you are in a relationship, know that you can be aro and enjoy dating and being in a relationship, have complicated feelings about the whole matter, or hate the idea of being in a relationship like that as you process this. what you do with that relationship as a result of this is up to you and your gf.

i hope this answers your question

- mod kee

[vampireqrow-moved]

hey so I agree with a lot of the stuff in your post about the transphobia involved in the origin of the pansexual label, but I just have one question: what are the actual impacts of people with good intentions calling themselves pan? If you don't hate pansexuals and consider them bi, why type up a paragraphs long manifesto on the harms of the origin of the label if it means the same thing in the way that most non transphobic people (your audience) use it? a lot of identities can be used in transphobic ways (like bi and lesbian and anything really) and plenty of valid identities from problematic roots and evolve over time as people use them differently (queer, transsexual). so how is a person with good intentions using a not-perfect label in a way you don't like a threat to the community? if someone is using the label pan transphobically, wouldn't their bigotry exist independently? if pan people do not act in transphobic ways besides using the label pansexual, realistically what is changing if they call themselves bi beyond holier-than-thou aesthetic activism? plus, a blog on the internet isn't going to get everyone to stop identifying as pansexual, especially considering multiple prominent celebrities ID as pan. so why spend all that energy quibbling on semantics because some bi people use a slightly different word when you could be worrying about Literally anything else? just feels like you want to find something to argue about lol. extremely disappointed that I had to break a mutual

im going to respond to each thing you bring up chronologically- im not trying to nitpick or prioritize certain things you say ill just forget things if i go out of order and i dont want to miss something important. ALSO! i will be typing less formally (like keysmashes and shortening words n stuff) in this response than my og post bc its 1am as im starting to type this so im tired but i want to be clear that i am like. taking this seriously and im not like. mocking u in anyway if it could read that way?? i hope not but just in case anyways here it goes!

in terms of actual impact people with good intentions identifying as pan: honestly im not  sure the full scope of the impact this has, so ill only be speaking to what ive personally seen which might not be all. but like... id argue my younger self has good intentionals iding as pan. i wanted to support trans people, even if i didnt understand a lot of the nuance involved. as a result of this, i developed a sense of superiority over other bisexuals and a mentality that bisexuality was a primitive and lesser sexuality. that mentality is harmful, and although im not sure if it affected bisexuals around me (of which there are many most of my friends are bi ajfjfjf) its still a harmful mentality and can easily hurt people even if i specifically didnt. also using it even with good intentions, which i know many people have, still spreads and further normalizes a label that imo can not be separated from its transphobic origins. this effect is not as extreme as other forms of transphobia and biphobia by A LONG SHOT. the bi community faces a lot of other issues but that doesnt mean this one isnt worth addressing if that makes sense?

if i dont hate pansexuals: ik this is part of a larger point which i will adress but i specified this in my post bc i see a lot of other posts that are negative towards pansexuality have "i hate pan ppl" somewhere in it or a close equivalent. i do not shame these ppl for their anger, i just wanted to be clear i think a lot of pan ppl are bi ppl with good intentions choosing a label they dont fully understand based on a misunderstanding of bisexuality.

why write a paragraphs long manifesto on the harms of pansexuals origin: ok 😭😭 the real reason here is that im literally just bad at summarizing. like thats literally it. i also like talking, its a bad combination. plus ive been thinking abt this for like. over a year im not even kidding and just like i have a lot of thoughts and figured if i was going to bother making my own post instead of rbing someone elses that i might as well get everything i wanted to say off my chest. ALSO BTW i literally got an ask like a week ago that was several paragraphs long asking me to explain my thoughts on why pan was harmful and some other stuff so like. this is partially responding to that and partially just me wanting to air my grievances ? idk if thats the right expression 😔😔

why write the post if my audience of people who identify as pan arent doing it in a transphobic way ? again sorry i didnt really understand the phrasing so i hope this is a vaguely correct summary!! um but like... again imo i think pan cant be separated from its transphobia and like. again imo iding as pan is like. a transphobic action/choice? obviously one transphobic thing does mean someone necessarily is like officially a Transphobe (it CAN be depending on the action but i dont think that applies here) but that doesnt mean there arent problems with what they did. this is like very complicated, but like. someone doing something harmful without the knowlege that its harmful doesnt make that person a bigot by any means it just means they didnt know. and i feel thats the case here? a lot of ppl (myself included until recently) know next to nothing abt pansexualitys origins so a trans inclusve sexuality might seem like a safe and good bet just because they dont know too much abt it, and like? i cant hate those people cause that was me for 5+ years and djgjfjdj you just dont know what you dont know!

basically i think iding with a transphobic label is inherently a singular transphobic action that doesnt make the person transphobic by itself, but is still a transphobic instance.

a lot of identities can be used in transphobic ways like bi, lesbian, etc.: this is true and a point i attempted to make on my original post, but i might not have clear enough. my issue with pan is specifically that it is a transphobic response to a preexisting identity. lesbian isnt an attempted trans inclusive indentity that replaced an identity that already existed (which have many trans ppl identifying with the og label). transphobes can use whatever labels they want, but transphobes using a label vs a label having a transphobic origin is very different. bigots use inclusive and supporting language for their bigotry all the time but language that originated with that bigotry is worse.

many valid identities stem from problemstic origins (like transsexual and queer) but the words evolve: ok my paraphrasing is a little weird there. anyways. the thing here is that. those are slurs. reclaimed slurs that can be empowering to many people, yes, but slurs nonetheless. reclaiming a slur is taking a harmful word and wearing it as a badge of pride. first off, pansexual is not a slur (ur not implying that in anyway just. saying) and it isnt being reclaimed when people dont treat it as having harmful origins. transsexual is the way some people identify but ppl acknowlege its a slur and originates from transphobia. ppl love to act like queer isnt a slur, which is an issue in and of itself, but just. factually it has historically and is currently being used against ppl with the intent to hurt them. pansexual isnt on the same level as these and other words like the f slur, d slur, etc. pansexual originates from trans and biphobia WITHIN the community and not outside of it, and most pansexuals dont see themselves as reclaiming the title because they dont think anythings wrong with it in the first place. and reclaiming it just seems unnecessary considering its history? theres no empowerment from using pan as a label as opposed to queer or transsexual, and it just divides the bisexual community for no reason.

how is a person using a not-perfect label a threat to the community? ok i dont think its a threat but still an issue if that difference makes sense? id like to reiterate a few things ive said before, but for me personally, it made me look down on bisexuals and see them as lesser, and it made people around me see pan as the "trans inclusive" sexuality as opposed to bisexuality, and basically its usage just leads to further biphobia. is this the worst of biphobia? no!!! but its still biphobia and why not attempt to target and minimize that? i have no way to singlehandedly stop biphobia, but my post might get through to my friends who id as pan and that small thing is better than nothing.

if someone used the pan label in a transphobic way, wouldnt that bigotry be different from people using it not transphobically?: someone claiming all bi ppl are transphobic and only pan is the acceptable label is obviously a lot worse than someone iding as pan and saying bi/pan solidarity but again, the second isnt not an issue because the first one is a bigger issue, its just a smaller issue in comparison. i wouldnt say the bigotry is different, one is just worse than the other, but it still has the same problems.

if pan people dont do anything transphobic other than id as pan then what changes with iding as bi over pan other holier-than-thou activism: its just one less person using a transphobic label? which isnt that big but it might lead to their friends stopping iding as pan and cause fewer people around them to see bi as a transphobic identity. which is small scale stuff, i wont try to blow it out of proportion, but thats still a step in the right direction and hopefully more people follow with it. its not terribly huge or lifechanging but something small that may only affect the people close to you is still something rather than nothing.

a blog the internet isnt going to get people to stop iding as pan: oh absolutely not. honestly i expected to get unfollowed/blocked more than change peoples minds regarding the pan label (im surprised i only lost two followers so far honestly) but again, someone literally asked me to do this and i wanted to be clear on my stance on the label, since in the past ive been supportive of it. im not expecting the post to get more than five likes, its more directed to my followers rather than the internet as a whole. im not expecting a large impact, im hoping to change the minds of my followers and friends who id as and support the pan label. thats it. if something bigger comes from it- great! but thats not what im aiming to do.

prev point + many prominent celebrities id as pan: the first name that comes to mind is someone im not a fan of for separate reasons but thats irrelevant. i mean im repeating myself a bit but some celebrities in the past validated and made me feel excited abt my identity as a pan person when they came out, and it justified the label to me, even when i had doubts. i have never interacted with a celebrity and do not plan to change their minds abt their identity. again, my post was for my friends and followers and maybe who ever was scrolling through the biphobia tag and decided to read my post.

why spend that much energy worrying abt the pan label instead of something else: ive spent waaaaay more energy thinking abt a singular meme i didnt like regarding my favourite rwby character so like. maybe i just overreact to things lol. maybe i have a lot of energy and since i cant talk my friends ears off abt my favourite fruits or the different voting methods i learned in my math class or what would dreams taste like, then i gotta put my energy into something. idk. i have a lot of energy and honestly? this didnt take that much. but i felt it weighing on me as my friends talked positively abt the pan label, when i felt guilty for the superiority i felt over my bi friends INCLUDING my best friend and favourite person in the world so like. i spent enough energy worrying abt it, and like. in hindsight since its been over 12 hours since posting it, im thinking abt it less. i was more worried abt feeling dishonest with my friends than actually worrying abt pansexuality, but i figured i owed them an explanation for why my feelings around it had changed.

just feels like you want to find something to argue about: okay i DO love arguing but im not pulling this out of my ass for fun. its in response to posts ive seen on my dash, asks i recieved abt pansexuality, and my way of letting people know my views have changed and why since i know at least some people are curious.

i am sorry to lose a mutual as well, and i genuinely hope things go well for you, but uh yeah thats that.

again, if people have further questions im willing to answer them i just might take a while bc i have school and other stuff 2 do but uhhh yea sorry if im clogging ur dash sjfjfkkf

[a-very-large-pile-of-hats]

Idk i just copy the questions in the notes app and then answer the questions there and then copy and paste back to the post :3 - ultimate frog

3 Sexual Orientation: Pansexual

6 What made you realize your current label fit you?: It just felt right, I didn’t vibe with the bi label as much for me

9 What names have you considered using: Just Gabe or Gabriel, idk about anything else

12 Favorite flag (visually): The poly flag is honestly pretty nice

15 Favorite thing about being lgbtq+: I get to connect with all the other lgbtq+ people, and I dont have to hang out with all the cishets anymore which was starting to break me a bit

18 Are you questioning your identity?: Well i think i might be NB but i havent, made any major discoveries since i realized i was pan.

21 Is your family supportive?: i dont know about my aunts and uncles but my immediate family and my cousins are all cool with it

24 Favorite lgbtq+ canon character: hm probably peridot. i know she might not even be lesbian in canon but theres no way shes straight

27 Any lgbtq+ peirings you ship: lacenet,whatever name quirrel and lemm have, id say lapidot too.

30 A trope you dislike about your identity: people saying that pan people will fuck anyone or saying that we would fuck animals. the definitions changed since the 1920s assholes

33 Something you dislike about being lgbtq+: facing a lot of panphobia for it almost as soon as i came out.

36 Do you align with any gay subcategories?: listen in person i practically embody the spirit of 2014 tumblr in the way i move and speak so sure i guess im a twink

39 Do you have a type in partners: not really, i just want my partner to be my best friend, ideally. i wanna be able to talk to them constantly and have them be on the same level of humor as me. i dont want a clone of me just someone who can keep up in a full on conversation with me

42 there was no question 42 actually.

[sapphic-sex-ed]

do you think someone could turn straight? i am afraid i'm turning straight after identifying as a lesbian for super long and i am very much afraid og being straight. Many say that's enough proof that i'm not straight but i am surrounded by lgbt friends and i am afraid i just want to fit in.

I don’t think you can “turn” anyone into any sexuality - people experience attraction the way they do, it’s just our own understanding of those attractions, and the language used around us, that influence how and why we change labels.

But more to your point: no I don’t believe you are “turning” straight, I believe you’ve been gaslit by society to doubt your attraction towards women and play up any positive interaction with a man as possible attraction. This is what heteronormativity does to LGBTQ+ people when they ask us stuff like “but how do you know you like girls?” or “are you sure it’s not just a phase?” and give statments like “you’ll change your mind when you get older” or “don’t be silly, of course you’re not gay”. Gaslighting in this context on a societal level in regards to sexuality (esp. wlw) is what you’ve might have heard called compulsory heterosexuality/commp het or coercive heteronormativity. 

Almost all lesbians, and a lot of other wlw, experience this. It’s most talked about in lesbian citcles because the leack of genuine attraction towards men makes it easier to identify, but bi, pan, ace, and other wlw do experience it to some degree, but it will look a little different since there might be some genuine attraction towards men, or in the case of ace wlws, no sexual attraction at all, making it harder to identify since there is no real attraction to compare it too. 

Comp het doesn’t just cause confusion on weather your attraction to men is real or not, but it also make you believe that you can’t be wlw because, well, that’s what society says. Like, yes there are gay people out there but they are the other, not me, not my family. So things like believeing you can’t really be a real lesbian/wlw because you’re not cool enough or that you want to be a wlw but just faking it are actual common signs. 

I would have linked a google doc on comp het here but it had been removed by google for ~breaking their rules~ (there was nothing explicit in that doc and nothing that would break google terms of use, so yay youtube’s anti-lgbt stuff is spreading smh). 

I also want to touch upon that bi/pan/polysexual/omnisexual wlw exist, and if you do feel attraction to men that does not automatically mean you aren’t LGBTQ+. I don’t know if you currently id as lesbian or another wlw sexuality but remember that attraction towards men does not erase your attraction towards women. Some wlw start out id-ing as bi/pan/etc. and then realize they’re lesbian (that would be me), but other start out id-ing as lesbian and later realize they’re bi, which is less talked about but just as valid. 

Regardless if you are attracted to men or not, if you are a woman/woman-alinged non-binary person and feel attraction towards women/woman-alinged, you are wlw, you are LGBTQ+, and you are a part of our community. You could talk about this with you LGBTQ+ firends - cis-heteronormativity does stuff to all of us, make us doubt, separate us from our families, makes us lie, makes us hide parts of ourselves at times, makes us self-hating and shameful (which is why prode is called pride). Even if we heal and move past that to a better place, live in a safer community where we don’t have to hide, feel secure in our selves, we all still have the memmories of those feelings, and most of us feel some type of better after talking about them with people who know the struggle too. 

I wish you all the best

-mod liz

[ecoqueer]

The more often I see pan defined as basically bi but with no preference, the less I identify with it. I started using pan back when it was established to mean attraction to ALL genders while bi meant attraction to more than one, and preference had nothing to do with it.

I feel like this movement occurred as people sought to differentiate pan as a completely separate identity that can’t be considered under an umbrella (because anyone who matches pan matches bi if they want), but the new view is even more reliant on bisexuality? If that makes sense? Like... “well, bi is attraction to all genders yeah, but pan is attraction with no preference” just seems even more under the bi umbrella?

Idk if I’m effectively communicating what I’m trying to communicate, but from my perspective, pan could be considered under an umbrella of bi because bi includes more people than pan, but everyone who ID’s as pan could also ID as bi if they want. However, I also completely understand when people don’t like looking at it through this type of framework, and you don’t have to! There are so many different ways to create a framework around the distinction that bi is >1 and pan is all, and it’s a very solid distinction!

But when it comes to people saying bi is all and pan is all but with no preference for any gender(s) over others, I just don’t see how to interpret that other than “bi without a preference”, which is also ignoring that there are bi people with no preference?

I mean, I don’t really mind viewing pan as a more specific subset of bi, but I understand why many people don’t like that. It just...seems like the transition was fueled by the drive to distinguish pan from bi, but then it had the opposite effect? For me, at least.

And I just realized, the distinction that I’ve always known between pan and bi fits in with ply a lot better than the current trend for where the pan definition seems to be heading.

Tl;dr Idk if I’m making sense here, but I’ve seen the definition for pansexual shift over time in a way that makes me identify with it less, and that I just don’t totally understand.

[catboyfeli]

nobody cares but yknow after one person pointed out why they dont believe in the sam, i kind of agree

sexual and romantic attraction are all parts one one WHOLE attraction. so if you’re asexual, you’re still bisexual or whatever, not biromantic. asexual just describes how you experience your sexuality, in that case meaning you lack sexual attraction, but still experience other types.

plus the sam can be harmful for bisexuals. like me. and how i used to id as heteroflexible biromantic and stuff like that. it may have been helpful at the time but ultimately it would’ve been better if i just accepted that i was bi and didn’t have to fit into a box. it helped the internalized biphobia i was experiencing by not iding as fully bi.

so anyway like... the feelings are obv real but i think the labels themselves aren’t. i think they do more harm than good since attraction is complex as it. i don’t rly care if people use them or anything but yeah. they can be harmful but i don’t think they’re inherently harmful, or at least not on a high enough scale for me to actively be against it, unlike the whole pan discourse.

and actually i do think separating types of attraction (ex: romantic, sensual, sexual, platonic, etc.) is helpful, but it shouldn’t be treated as separate things. this can especially confuse neurodivergent people, specifically autistic people.

so yeah. sexuality may have “sex” in the name, but it’s not about just sexual attraction, therefore you can be asexual and still be bisexual or whatever, and saying you’re biromantic is unnecessarily separating the types of attraction and over complicating things. that’s my current opinion :P

i know no one cares but ranting like this helps clear my head. hooooooooo...... *deep dramatic breath*

[wheres-my-miiiiiiind]

Help Me Im Confused!

Hey guys. I need some advice and second opinions bc im super confused about my sexuality. Im a 15 y/o cisgender girl and have always identified as straight but as im maturing ive found girls to be attractive. Ik thats kind of a "ok so ur bi" type of thing but it feels more complicated to me. Ive had a few crushes during my short life. Maybe like two long term ones. As ive come to find by talking with friends this is pretty unusual. Most of my friends at this time have liked a whole bunch of ppl. But all the ppl ive seriously liked r guys. And ive been in a relationship with 2 guys. But now im starting to find girls hot, and ive had fantasies of being intimate with a female. And the more i think about it im pretty sure i used to like my best friend for like a month or two in 7th grade. I super admired her and always wanted to be around her and thought she was pretty and smart. But i dont currently wanna date any girls ik. And most of the girls ik im not sexually attracted too. But thats all the same with the guys ik too. Im really only attracted to a person if i like their personality. Idrc what they look like. So im wondering if im straight, bisexual, or pansexual??? Ive taken some test online that tell me im bi. And there was one that told me im pan. But i kinda hate the labels. I just dont feel like straight fits me bc i think girls r attractive and i dont feel like bi or pan fits me bc ive never seriously like another girl. And ive imagined me living my life and telling ppl im bi but then i dont feel like i would have the need to broadcast my sexuality, take part in huge lgbt movements, or know and obsess over lgbt celebs just bc theyre lgbt as i feel all my other lgbt friends do. And when someone tells me theyre gay or lgbt im always like "cool ig?" not "omg really?!" cuz i honestly don't care about that i just care if ur a good person. Id see if i could date a girl to see how i feel about it but im currently in a relationship with a boy who i care about very much and dont want to break up with just bc of this. Hes bi and ive kind of talked to him about this but not much. Hes actually liked a couple guys for real unlike me whos maybe possibly liked another girl. If u have any advice feel free to message me or reblog. Sorry this was so long and if ur still here thanks for reading!

[almaasi]

reaction post typed while watching SPN 14x16 “Don’t Go In The Woods”

oh man as a forest-dwelling human I OBJECT TO SCARY FOREST MONSTERS

but i’m on board for girls flirting with each other

04:04pm

hey guess what!!! i’m really sick

so i’mma maybe mostly watch this, comment if there’s something i HAVE to comment on, but otherwise save it all for the end maybe

no idea what to expect?? i hope cas is in it, at least a bit. or some destiel parallels or something. i like those, they taste good

-

04:07

oh hey the girls got to hold hands in the recap without another scene fading in over their precious 0.5 seconds

-

this recap is jumpin’

-

rip snek

your death was a mistek

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04:11

DEAR FELLOW HUMANS, IF YOU HEAR A WEIRD NOISE IN THE WOODS AND YOU’RE IN A CAR JUST LEAVE

JUST LEAVE

WHY IS THAT SO HARD FOR STRAIGHT COUPLES WITH BROWN HAIR WHO GO OUT TO MAKE OUT IN CARS IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE TO UNDERSTAND

-

also i was gonna say they were white but the boy and his sheriff dad are clearly native american so that’s cool

they better not die

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04:16

aaaaaand the girl is dead

/checks who wrote this so i can tell what brand of bullshit is coming next

davy perez

hmmm

unsure what kind of bullshit

seems to be a variable kind

will find out

-

04:18

so i guess dean just calls EVERYONE sunshine now

cas, lucifer, sam

welp

-

04:19

sam: “the internet is more than just naked PEOPLE”

HE SAID PEOPLE

not WOMEN

PEOPLE

dEAN IS BI AND SAM KNOWS and has probably known since at least season 7 let’s be real

also, second time in a few episodes that people was enunciated like that, i notice a trend of pointed gender-neutrality and i think i’m into it

-

sam: “the internet is more than just naked PEOPLE, you do know that right?”

dean: “not my internet”

the porn....... it must be.... a lot........

i find it fascinating that the show is being so obvious that he used to sleep with women/people all the time but now he’s just watching porn, all the freaking time

like he’s not even trying to look for relationships

I WONDER WHY

A CERTAIN ANGEL, PERHAPS

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04:30

how does dean know cas left early that morning

either cas woke him up to tell him

or he was there (IN THE SAME BED) when cas decided

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04:34

HE IS SO PURE

and also what the heck was the rest of the list

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04:35

dean: “got cat-like reflexes”

yes he is a cat, his patronus is a cat

give him cuddles and watch him jump 3 feet in the air because he wasn’t expecting it and he forgot he had a tail

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04:37

they all seem pretty gay to me and i love them all

and apparently the ghostfacers are still kickin’

-

elliot: “are they fighting GHOSTS?”

jack: “what’s a ghost?”

JACK YOU PRECIOUS DIMINUTIVE EXPLETIVE

-

04:42

jack: “i don’t like to lie. it makes me stomach hurt. like when you have to burp but you can’t burp? yeah.”

I’M SO HAPPY THIS ENTIRE SCENE EXISTS

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04:43

“but    the   store    is    closed”

jack’s speaking a lil weird

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04:45

“beer, kleenex and old spice”

yeah pretty much

idk though old spice smells good

BUT THE FACT MAX THINKS THE BUNKER WOULD SMELL OF KLEENEX

WOW

SHE HAS PORN!DEAN DOWN TO A T

-

texan star beer cases in the bg

i haven’t kept up with the beer symbolism but i know it means something

pretty sure it’s the queerest beer

-

04:48

jack: “dean usually picks. i’ve seen lost boys like 36 times”

i haven’t seen “lost boys” but now i gotta

just from the title alone it sounds like a nostalgic coming of age boy’s adventure story with an underlying current of repressed homosexuality

@ me if i’m wrong

edit: @ myself, i googled it and i’m wrong, it’s about 2 brothers hunting vampires........ still sounds gay though

-

04:51

jack: “i’m two.         wwwwwwwwwenty.              two.     i’m twenty-two!”

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04:45

FUCK THAT SHADOW IN TH WOODS IF FUCKING FUCKIF UFCK

THE THING IN THE WOODS WAS FUCKING SCARIEST EPISODE OF THE X FILES AND WENDIGO WAS THE SCARIEST EPISODE OF SPN I HATE THIS I HATE THIS FUCK

THINGS IN THE WOODS ARE 100% THE WORST MONSTERS I HATE THIS FUCK 

LIKE

OH GOD

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045:i can’t fucking look i’m 

this if sognna fucking give me nightnamres

-

i can’t even skip because i have to look 

fdg

help

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05:01

jack: “dean says any music made after 1979 sucks ass”

TELL THAT TO HIS ENJOYMENT OF TAYLOR SWIFT

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05:07

I’m sensing a parallel to the time lucifer stabbed cas in the back and dean watched

oh no

oh no please fix this jack

ALSO? SHE LOOKS LIKE CAS at least a lil bit

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05:12

why on earth would you curse someone to always be starving and then be surprised when he eats more people

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05:16

fuck that shadow is the ijfsjgfjsfjskf

i hate

maybe it’s because i live in a forest with a lot of shadows and i only feel safe because i know none of them are these things and/or people and this makes me doubt that safety

-

05:18

for some reason there’s an ad in my video file

who forgot to take this out

how the hell do you 'muricans watch stuff with ads in the middle, it breaks the immersion completely

-

05:26

OH NO JACK LIED EVEN THOUGH HE HATES LYING AND CAN’T EVEN USE FAKE ID EVEN THOUGH REAL ID WOULD SAY HE WAS TWO AND DEAN AND SAM JUST EQUATED TELLING THE TRUTH TO SHOWING LOVE FOR SOMEONE and he still lied by ommission

-

05:27

i loved the storyline of this, it was great, 10/10

can kind of excuse the dead girl and dead black dude because there was another black dude and multiple girls so ..... cool ???

NATIVE AMERICAN CHARACTERS WITH CHARACTER GROWTH YAY

but man would i love to see lady native people?? i’ve mostly only ever seen men in fiction. the story could’ve worked just as well if the sheriff was the kid’s mother

anyway it was well written regardless and i loved that dean and sam’s story led them back to jack and they told the truth

BUT JACK’S ADVENTURE HURT MY FEELINGS

WAH

:c

-

also

 something i failed to note last time those three kids had an episode. max had blue/pink(/yellow?) bi/pan pride colours behind her in LITERALLY EVERY SHOT I SCREENCAPPED

including on the shot that’s frozen on my video player right now

my favourite part of this episode was the girls flirtingggggg~ and elliot being a kissblock (like sam clearing his throat real loud)

i can’t wait for the episode where they finally kiss and it’s the most destiel parallelly thing ever

[grandzealot]

ive done this for his mainverse so im gonna go ahead and do it for his fc5 verse:

𝑪𝑯𝑨𝑹𝑨𝑪𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑯𝑬𝑬𝑻

repost,  don’t reblog !

𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

FULL NAME.  Brian Richter NICKNAME.   n/a GENDER.   male HEIGHT.   6′2″ AGE.  late twenties when he joins the project, early thirties by the time of the game ZODIAC.   virgo SPOKEN LANGUAGES.  english

𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

HAIR COLOR.   dark blond? EYE COLOR.    dark blue hazel SKIN TONE.    white guy bit ruddy bit tanned BODY TYPE.   thinner than his mainverse but still strong with practical muscles VOICE.   his soft canon one DOMINANT HAND.   right POSTURE.   trained to stand straight but a lot less stern than his mainverse SCARS.   nothing notable before in game events TATTOOS.   he gets the projects cross tattooed over his right eye around the time of the game BIRTHMARKS.   idk unremarkable boring ones lmao MOST NOTICEABLE FEATURE(S).   his face tends to look more gentle and be more expressive than in his mainverse. it grows more stern by the time of new dawn

𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝 !

PLACE OF BIRTH.   ohio somewhere HOMETOWN.  somewhere ohio SIBLINGS.   older brother off living an incredible successful life somewhere PARENTS.   mother deceased, father still in ohio

𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 !

OCCUPATION.  ex veteran turned law enforcement turned hunter in jacobs region CURRENT RESIDENCE.   isolated cabin owned by his bf atticus starling in jacobs region CLOSE FRIENDS.  atticus starling  RELATIONSHIP STATUS. hes very attached to atticus. they believe each other to be soulmates but hell have physical relations with others with the blessing / encouragement of atticus lmao FINANCIAL STATUS.   he was modestly taking care of himself but he ends up fully involved w / dependent upon the project DRIVER’S LICENSE.  yes CRIMINAL RECORD.   guilty of project things VICES.   atticus lmao

𝐬𝐞𝐱 & 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 !

SEXUAL ORIENTATION.   bi / pan PREFERRED EMOTIONAL ROLE.   submissive |  dominant  |  switch. PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE.   submissive  |  dominant  |  switch. LIBIDO.   maintained TURN ON’S.   atticus TURN OFF’S.   sinners LOVE LANGUAGE.   kinda joins the project for his partner. in general changes a lot for atticus RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES.  generally too self-sacrificing in every verse

𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬 !

CHARACTER’S THEME SONG.   HM. dont have one for this verse but two possibilities are iamx – bring me back a dog or vast – i can’t say no ( to you ) HOBBIES TO PASS TIME.   FISHING. ( seriously my best friend would be in his menu or taking a break or something and id have richter fishing before he finished saying brb ) MENTAL ILLNESSES.  idk i never feel qualified to answer this LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED.  same as the other one i forgot. the methodological one PHOBIAS. hes afraid of wolves and bunkers for awhile SELF CONFIDENCE LEVEL.  its not very high in this verse. he tends to be more nervous, feels like a fake. something of an imposter syndrome VULNERABILITIES.   atticus

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[vorpalgirl]

Introducing: The Inclusionist WLW Pride Flag Design, by VorpalGirl The lack of something quite like this has been bugging me for some time, so I decided to do something about it! tldr on the background of the design: I’m a wlw who wants to express solidarity with her sisters and Pride in her identity as a wlw, but who also includes asexual spectrum, aromantic spectrum, and trans and nonbinary  people who wish to ID that way, in the category of “women” and “wlw”, and who welcomes Queer folk of that type into the “wlw” and LGBTQ/LGBT+ fold with no problem.  That’s who and what this flag is meant to represent. More on the background: There wasn’t yet a flag that is THAT specific, which is I why I wanted one. There are bisexual and pansexual pride flags, but they don’t indicate that the individual is specifically someone who identifies as a wlw, and they furthermore would seem to differentiate more strongly between “types” of wlw than this would (in that they are specifically for people who are not monosexual and/or not monoromantic); there’s at least two common-ish “lesbian” flags, but they have the reverse issue, they seem to carry an implication of not being “for” bi/pan-ish women...and at least one (the labrys) has been heavily claimed by exclusionists, to boot. Meanwhile, I adore the classic rainbow and the newer queer chevrons, but again, those are far broader in meaning!  I know it’s such a small, perhaps silly thing, but I wanted to have a flag that was more specific than the rainbow, that embraced my “feminine” identity while still being NOT exclusive of either monosexual lesbians OR bi/pan women...and which definitely could include ace or aro and trans or enby people by default. So I made this, to capture all the parts of my queer, wlw identity that I felt were important to me, and I’m sharing it because I get the feeling there are others out there who might share some of that :) tldr on the design itself: - the actual design is a magenta-pink field bisected horizontally through its center by a purple bar, effectively forming three stripes. The purple bar is thick, but slightly narrower than what is showing of the pink.  - the magenta-pink for the background was chosen to be a bold, strong color that still reads as what my (Western) culture currently codes as “feminine” or “female” (representing both what the individual at least loosely identifies with, and what is at least one of the things they are drawn to in others)

- the purple bar, which is a medium shade of purple, is for a bold, strong representation of “queerness”, which at least as of the 20th and 21st centuries, was commonly represented in the West by various shades of purple or violet.  Less-tldr explanation of meaning: In this context, the “queerness” represents: - a recognition of the existence of heterosexism, aka mainstream Western culture’s biases towards ideas of a “sex binary”, “gender binary” and “gendered behavior” stereotypes, as well as its insistence on the narrow way romance, sexuality, and relationships in general are all “supposed” to work between consenting adults - it also recognizes that while existing in a culture that runs on heterosexism may have impacted us, heterosexism itself is unscientific bullpucky, a set of cultural biases that is unnecessarily and irrationally restrictive, and often damaging  - and it thus accepts that not everyone “fits” in those neat tidy boxes of “cisgender perisex heterosexual heteroromantic and gender-stereotype-conforming”, nor should they have to. - by necessity, it welcomes many, many people who do not feel they fit the heterosexist model, into the fold of “LGBTQ” or “LGBT+” or whatever other term of solidarity they prefer, including bi/pan, trans or nonbinary, and asexual or aromantic individuals.

In other words, SUPER TLDR: This flag design is for my fellow wlw-identifying people who are Inclusionists, who see bi/pan, ace/aro, and trans or nonbinary identities, as well as those which combine or blend such identities, as generally valid, and who do not exclude them from the category “LGBTQ” or “LGBT+”.  

[theonyxpath]

Changeling: The Lost 2nd art by Michael Gaydos

Rich is away this week (see last week’s MMN) and I have temporarily taken over the blog! Speaking of the blog, we’re working hard to get a lot more content for you in addition to our new releases featured on Wednesday and our previews of fiction on Fridays. This includes more excerpts and previews of upcoming books, developer notes about games and settings they are working on (take a look at Eddy Webb’s Claws and Effect launch post for example), plus a new series all about creating characters for our RPGs. We’re kicking off this new series tomorrow with a post from Bill Bodden, who’s work you maybe have read in Ghouls & Revenants and Madison by Night for V20, plus upcoming books like World of Darkness: Ghost Hunters and Pan’s Guide for New Pioneers for Pugmire. Bill will start a bi-monthly series with a new character for Exalted 3rd Edition and then move on to other core books. Plus we’ll have guest posts from other Onyx Path crewmembers and maybe a few surprises along the way, too. Our goal with this series is twofold: first, take some of the intimidation out of building new characters and (hopefully) encourage new fans to jump in and play and second, nudge experienced players to dive deeper into their players and think about this important aspect of gaming.

In other exciting news, last week Rich announced the Salrecian Vault community content program for our Scarred Lands fantasy setting. Much like the Canis Minor community content program for the Pugmire RPG, we’re getting ready to launch this community content program soon. You can read the current FAQ for the upcoming program here on our forums. I’m really looking forward to seeing new adventures, classes, Ghelspad locations, and more! Remember, our Scarred Lands program will be open to both Pathfinder and Dungeons and Dragons Fifth Edition systems. If you’re curious about this setting, all you need is the Scarred Lands Player’s Guide to get started.

Pan’s Guide art by Pat Loboyko

White Wolf’s V5 distribution partner announced.

Our friends at White Wolf just announced that Modiphius will be acting as their distributor for Vampire: The Masquerade Fifth Edition. Since there’s already been some confusion about this deal, remember this is about distribution as opposed to publishing. White Wolf is still designing and producing the new corebook in hous, and Modiphius acts as the hub to ship this new rulebook out to stores and more. If you’re curious about this deal, you can read the press release on the White Wolf Facebook page, and further questions should be directed toward them. Stay tuned to the Monday Meeting Notes and our Gen Con panels for more Vampire news from the Onyx Path team.

Speaking of Gen Con…

Event Registration for Gen Con Indy just went live yesterday! You can search and sign-up for a ton of games, panels, and more! The Wrecking Crew will be on hand running all kinds of World of Darkness, Pugmire, Scion, Chronicles of Darkness, and other games the entire convention. We will also have a demo crew in the Onyx Path booth (#501 again). If you are going to be at Gen Con, we’d love to hear from you.

Kithbook Boggans art by Brian Leblanc

BLURBS!

KICKSTARTER:

We’re in the final hours of the EX3‘s Dragon-Blooded Kickstarter and we’re over 400% funded with over 2000 backers so far!

We’ve hit 24 Stretch Goal rewards, and counting, including a t-shirt, two more silk bookmarks (at least!), increased art budget, a Dragon-Blooded novella, adding on the Storyteller Screen, opening up additional Reward Tiers for more custom charms and artifacts; new Charms, 2 sections of info on Lookshy, 2 sections on the Forest Witches, 2 sections on Outcastes, Cadet Houses, and Prasad to the Heirs to the Shogunate Dragon-Blooded Companion PDF and lots more! Phew!

Thanks so much for everybody’s support so far! Even though we’re doing great, the best is yet to come and we hope that folks can get the word out on their social media and to their friends. Everybody deserves a chance to check out this latest EX3 “fatsplat” for the most elemental of the Exalted.

Which every backer can do, because each week of the campaign we’re releasing a quarter of the Dragon-Blooded book’s text so that backers can check the whole thing out by the time we are done. We think you’ll really love what we’ve done with the DBs, but if for some reason you don’t, you can drop your pledge before the KS is over and walk away easy peasy!

So, here’s the link and see you there! https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/200664283/dragon-blooded-what-fire-has-wrought-for-exalted-3

  As we try and find ways to enable our community to more easily play our games, the Onyx Dice Rolling App is now live! Our dev team has been doing updates since we launched based on the excellent use-case comments by our community, and this thing is both rolling and rocking!

The devs have added a whole bunch of new game lines’ dice and rolling bg’s and got caught by a bug Apple needed to fix, so be sure to update your app and soon that should be fixed.

There’s been tweaks to all elements of the UI, you can now preview every die type in the store, and you can use multiple die types per roll! Here are the links for the Apple and Android versions:

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(The Solar Anima special Dice above)

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Demon: The Descent: Demon: Interface (Kindle, Nook)

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Deluxe W20 Shattered Dreams: http://www.indiepressrevolution.com/xcart/W20-Shattered-Dreams-Deluxe-Edition.html

W20 Shattered Dreams Storytellers’ Screen: http://www.indiepressrevolution.com/xcart/W20-Shattered-Dreams-Storytellers-Screen.html

Plus price adjustments on M20, Book of the Wyrm, Anarchs Unbound and a few other projects!

    DRIVETHRURPG.COM:

Ask the darkness, and it shall answer: the Beast: The Primordial Player’s Guide PDF and physical book PoD versions will answer your questions Wednesday! on DTRPG.com! http://drivethrurpg.com/product/236135/Beast-Players-Guide

The Beast Player’s Guide expands on the material presented in Beast: The Primordial, with additional information on the Families and Hungers, what it feels like to be a Beast and experience the Devouring, and how to commune with the Dark Mother. You’ll also find two new Families and two new Hungers!

The book also includes a plethora of new Atavisms, Nightmares, Merits, and Birthrights, as well as systems for creating smaller, subservient versions of the Horror, new forms of Inheritance, and details on the mysterious Obcasus Rites.

        There are some things that even a Demon fears – Night Horrors: Enemy Action for Demon: The Descent has arrived in PDF and physical book PoD versions: http://drivethrurpg.com/product/236133/Night-Horrors-Enemy-Action

“Fighting the Machine is like fighting the ocean. You literally cannot hurt it. Doesn’t matter how much poison we dump into the ocean. We’ll only kill the things in it. We’ll never kill it. Same with the God-Machine. Kill angels, traitors, stigmatics, cultists, cryptids, whatever, you’ll never hurt the Machine Itself. No, that doesn’t mean we stop trying. You stop trying, you drown. Screw that.”

—Mr. Bliss, Guardian Inquisitor

Night Horrors: Enemy Action includes:

• Dozens of Storyteller characters, including Unchained, angels, exiles, cryptids, and stigmatics, for use as antagonists, allies, or just inspiration

• Multiple plot hooks and story seeds for your Demon: The Descent chronicles

• A brief look at cults in Demon, including the Ten Thousand Names of God, a secret society fueled by the God-Machine

      When you need a Changeling 20th character and a way to get started with C20: here are the C20 Ready Made Characters in PDF and physical book PoD versions! Available on DriveThruRPG.com! http://drivethrurpg.com/product/225641/C20-Ready-Made-Characters

Running a one-shot game of Changeling: The Dreaming 20th Anniversary Edition? Starting up a chronicle with new players who aren’t sure what to play? Looking for some examples of how the various kiths might look?

Thanks to our generous Kickstarter backers, these thirteen ready-made characters cover each of the Changeling kiths. Each character is provided with background, roleplaying suggestions, art, and some potential motleys and story seeds — everything you need to immerse yourself in the Dreaming!

        Coming NOW as both PDF and physical book PoD on DTRPG, we reveal The Secret of Vinsen’s Tomb, a Jumpstart adventure for Pugmire. www.drivethrurpg.com/product/232337/The-Secrets-of-Vinsens-Tomb–A-Pugmire-Jumpstart

A cat living in Pugmire disappears, but neither the police dogs nor the cats of the Cat Quarter know why. When zombies attack the heroes, however, all signs point to an invasion by the Monarchies of Mau. But how does this intrigue tie into the lost tomb of the first king of Pugmire?

The Secret of Vinsen’s Tomb is a Pugmire story for three to six characters. This jumpstart contains all the rules and characters you need to play — just grab some dice and go! You can also use this adventure with the full version of Pugmire.

The Secret of Vinsen’s Tomb contains:

• An evocative and mysterious setting that’s both family friendly and deep enough to create compelling stories.

• A summary of Pugmire’s traditional fantasy rules system. It’s designed for streamlined play, with an emphasis on cooperation and action over competition and violence.

• A complete adventure for a Guide to run for three to six players. Also useful for Guides running a full Pugmire game of first or second level characters!

• Six ready-to-play characters, so you can jump into the action.

Can your good dogs discover the secret of Vinsen’s Tomb?

  Also available NOW, are two physical PoD spell card packs and PDFs for Pugmire: the Artisans‘ and the Shepherds‘ spells.

        Appearing now on DriveThruRPG are the PDF and PoD physical book versions of Arms of the Chosen for Exalted 3rd Edition! http://www.drivethrurpg.com/product/226224/Arms-of-the-Chosen

Take up the panoply of legendary heroes and lost ages, and awaken the world-shaking might of their Evocations. Before the dawn of time, the Exalted wielded god-metal blades to cast down the makers of the universe. In an ancient epoch of forgotten glories, Creation’s greatest artificers forged unimaginable wonders and miracle-machines.

Now, in the Age of Sorrows, kingdoms go to war over potent artifacts, scavenger princes risk everything to uncover relics of the past, and the Exalted forge great arms and armor on the anvil of legend. These treasures are yours to master.

Discover the mystical power of the five magical materials and the secrets of creating your own Evocations. Wield weapons of fabled might and don the armor of mythic heroes, making their puissance your own. Claim Creation’s wonders: the miraculous tools of the Chosen, living automatons, flying machines, hearthstones, and more. And unleash the mighty warstriders, titanic god-engines of conquest and devastation, to once more shake Creation with their footfalls.

      CONVENTIONS!

Fast Eddy Webb will be attending the East Coast Game Designers Conference (ECGC) all this week in Raleigh, NC, where he’ll be presenting a seminar called “Writing for Franchises”.

So if you are going and want to meet up, let us know!

  And now, the new project status updates!

DEVELOPMENT STATUS FROM FAST EDDY WEBB (projects in bold have changed status since last week):

First Draft (The first phase of a project that is about the work being done by writers, not dev prep)

M20 Book of the Fallen (Mage: the Ascension 20th Anniversary Edition)

C20 Novel (Jackie Cassada) (Changeling: the Dreaming 20th Anniversary Edition)

Aberrant 2nd Edition (Trinity Continuum)

Lunars (Exalted 3rd Edition)

M20 The Technocracy Reloaded (Mage: the Ascension 20th Anniversary Edition)

M20 Victorian Mage (Mage: the Ascension 20th Anniversary Edition)

Spilled Blood (Vampire: The Requiem 2nd Edition)

CofD Dark Eras 2 (Chronicles of Darkness)

Night Horrors: Shunned by the Moon (Werewolf: The Forsaken 2nd Edition)

C20 Players’ Guide (Changeling: the Dreaming 20th Anniversary Edition)

Wr20 Book of Oblivion (Wraith: The Oblivion 20th Anniversary Edition)

Aeon Aexpansion (Trinity Continuum: Aeon)

In Media Res (Trinity Continuum: Core)

  Redlines

CofD Contagion Chronicle (Chronicles of Darkness)

Deviant: The Renegades (Deviant: The Renegades)

Dystopia Rising: Evolution (Dystopia Rising: Evolution)

  Second Draft

WoD Ghost Hunters (World of Darkness)

Tales of Good Dogs – Pugmire Fiction Anthology (Pugmire)

M20 Gods and Monsters (Mage: the Ascension 20th Anniversary Edition)

Guide to the Night (Vampire: The Requiem 2nd Edition)

  Development

Signs of Sorcery (Mage: the Awakening Second Edition)

Night Horrors: The Tormented (Promethean: The Created 2nd Edition)

Hunter: the Vigil 2e core (Hunter: the Vigil 2nd Edition)

Fetch Quest (Pugmire)

They Came From Beneath the Sea! Rulebook (TCFBtS!)

  Editing:

GtS Geist 2e core (Geist: the Sin-Eaters Second Edition)

  Post-Editing Development:

Changeling: the Lost 2nd Edition, featuring the Huntsmen Chronicle (Changeling: the Lost 2nd Edition)

Dragon-Blooded (Exalted 3rd Edition)

The Realm (Exalted 3rd Edition)

Kithbook Boggans (Changeling: the Dreaming 20th Anniversary Edition)

Scion: Hero (Scion 2nd Edition)

Trinity Continuum Core Rulebook (The Trinity Continuum)

Trinity Continuum: Aeon Rulebook (The Trinity Continuum)

Ex Novel 2 (Aaron Rosenberg) (Exalted 3rd Edition)

Exalted 3rd Novel by Matt Forbeck (Exalted 3rd Edition)

Gods & Monsters (Mage: the Ascension 20th Anniversary Edition)

  Indexing:

    ART DIRECTION FROM MIRTHFUL MIKE:

In Art Direction

Ex3 Monthly Stuff

Scion Hero

Changeling: the Lost 2 – Sketches and finals coming in.

Trinity Continuum

Boggans – Contracted.

Wr20 Guide for Newly Departed – Everything with Gaydos.

  Marketing Stuff

  In Layout

Wraith 20 Screen 

Fetch Quest – Working on the logo. KS How To Play video was shot last week.

EX3 Dragon Blooded

Monarchies of Mau

  Proofing

Cavaliers of Mars – Splats and map should be in by end of the month.

Scion Origin

  At Press

Beckett Screen – At shipper.

Scarred Land PGs & Wise and the Wicked PF & 5e – At fulfillment shipper. PDF and PoD physical book versions on sale at DTRPG.

Changeling: the Dreaming 20th Anniversary Edition – Rewards are shipping.

Prince’s Gambit – Being sent to the US.

V20 Beckett’s Jyhad Diary– Deluxe edition files at printer. Interior proof approved, printing now.

Scion Dice – At fulfillment shipper.

Wraith 20 – Errata phase.

Beast PG – Final PDF and physical book PoD on sale Wednesday at DTRPG.com.

SL Champions of the Scarred Lands Anthology PoD – Uploaded and processing.

Pugmire – Pan’s Explorer’s Guide (or whatever) – Backer PDFs out, errata?

Book of Freeholds – Backer PDF out to backers, errata being posted.

  CONVENTIONS!

Matthew Dawkins, Steffie de Vaan, and I will be at the UK Games Expo in June running games and talking shop with fans and retailers. Prep is also underway for Gen Con 2018 in August, which takes place in Indianapolis, IN. In addition to our booth presence, be sure to check out the games and panels in the Gen Con Event Schedule.

If you are going and want to meet up, let us know!

TODAY’S REASON TO CELEBRATE: With convention season in full swing and plenty of new games on the way this year I’m really looking forward to meeting many of you and trying out different play styles, genres, and more!

[sapphic-butterflies-queer-arson]

If you choose pt1

It’s not a choice.

As I feel more like I could be called a lesbian, I know that I should maybe not be. Although my wlw/sapphic meter of attraction has largely increased, I acknowledge that I am not some overlap of bi/pan and lesbian. 

So much of me has tried to scope out any attraction I have to male aligned folx and be done with it, because it truly feels like a distraction from something better. LoL this is truly just my opinion and just where I am at currently, because no type of attraction or sexuality is superior to another. It is just that for me, wlw type attractions and full crushes often feel much more intense and make me feel more fulfilled.

It’s not like I've had some burst of wlw lesbian romantic success as I’ve searched for love. Quite possibly the opposite in reality, since I’ve come across more and more disappointments. Maybe its the way Hinge gave me more boys to match with than non boys when I put my preference on everyone. maybe its the culture of being a lesbian just having the potential to be tied into a deeper type of feminism.

Maybe its just the label that brings a different sense of understanding and struggle than the words bisexual and pansexual. As I yearn for queer sapphic romances, in representation from media and life, I realize my struggle and experience is different than what I have perceived to be a “lesbian experience”. however, parts of it are also the same. As I think about my interactions with girls that made me nervous in a way I brushed off growing up and my consistent thoughts of, “oh I need to kiss a girl first” to know if I was gay but that didn't happen so I “never knew for sure” until a crush in college. I think of this but I don’t want to negate all of the crushes, and encounters I had with “the opposite sex”.

““Some people choose to be Gay”“ one of my best friends told me sometime in the last five years, we were referring to someone who was known to be bi in our friend circle. This phrase is highly controversial but I know what they meant. When you’re bi(or pan), you have heterosexual attraction to hide behind. I know because if I wasn’t into boys at all , growing up would have been much different, the crushes I would feed and let grow, the ones I would hide...

If I was only into girls (/ non guys) my entire life, who would I be in disney? what couple would I empathize with in the books I read? The love songs that fed my hopeless romantic heart? As I yearn now for songs about girls(/nonguys) that give you butterflies, sweep you off your feet and make your heart sing, its a different type of isolation than just being single. This isn’t meant to give or receive pity, but to say being bi and/or pan is definitely different. I don’t think this difference is acknowledged enough because too many people and places want to erase bi people and just pretend like this identity doesn't exist. It’s like PiCKk ONE!! ..like its that easy, and as some one who has tried to fully surrender to my sapphic desires and eradicate any desire of the male form as if it is an illness, it is not that simple. yes sexuality and identity may be fluid and ever changing but we’re in a society where some are more comfortable than others, more celebrated, even within oppressed communities.

I definitely feel more comfortable in the lesbian identity currently, but I know “lesbian” doesn't truly and entirely define my experience. Every identity has its own set of sparkles and colors. Some definitions of bisexual, and also pansexual say that bisexuals can “fit in “ with the straights and the gays equally, this is debatable as bisexual is its own identity with sometimes different oppressors from all groups, who simple don’t want us to exist for various “reasons”. Identity is a mixed bag with labels imposed from within and externally, as homos of homo sapiens we are constantly trying to figure out where and with what we identify. I’m not sure what a completely figured out identity is but I will be one to admit I am still figuring out mine.

This post will definitely be expanded on as this is pt 1 of ?? ID something sexuality?

[iamtheepicemily]

tagged by @endernadra​, ty frend

Rules:

1. Post the rules 2. Answer the questions given to you by the tagger 3. Write 11 questions of your own 4. And tag 11 people

Endernadra’s questions

1. How many books do you own?

TOO MANY. I’ve cleaned out the basement at least a dozen times but I get too nostalgic to donate my precious books ;A; I have a bunch of crates and bins full of books that I read YEARS ago ajkfbfa

2. Favourite song?

oh boy don’t make me choose. I can’t choose my favorite band or even genre. I’m all over the place. The song I’ve liked for the longest is A Team by Ed Sheeran but it’s definitely not my current favorite. idk man, anything by Dodie Clark, Owl City, We the Kings, or Set It Off is my favorite song

3. Favourite book?

oh god I really don’t know I’m bad at these questions im sorry

4. Sign? Aries, Taurus, etc.

Leo. I live off of attention, love me 

also snake for Chinese sign thingy

5. How long have you been in fandoms?

I joined tumblr about a year ago? I think my first actual fandom might have been the Dodie fandom lmao and I only discovered her about a year and a half ago

i’ve been a fangirl all my life tho :’) me and my cousins were cringey af when we were like 8 and wrote bad fanfics together about Fairy Tail and Inuyasha

6. Do you have any pets?

Yeeeee I have two dogs, Oliver and Mason. Oliver is a boofy bichon frise and Mason is a brown Shih-Tsu Poodle Mix. Ye they’re small but they don’t shed so its grEAT.

also i have two turtles, Athena and Ares but I haven’t much to say about them. Athena is constantly hungry and Ares is aggressive af.

7. If you could spend $1000, what would you buy?

I actually... don’t need anything substantial. I’d probably just hold onto it and accidentally spend it all on food cause i hang out with my friends too much

8. Are you into makeup/hair?

nope. i put on wonder pencil (which is like foundation in a pencil, it’s gr8) when there’s an event and ik there’ll be photos. that’s kind of it. i touch my face too much for makeup tbh, id smear it everywhere by accident

also my hair is TOO GODDAMN SLICK for me to do it up. it doesn’t stay in braids nor pony tails very long, much less anything fancy

9. Can you play any instruments? if not, what intrusment would you like to learn?

nope i play vocal chords and not very well. if i could, though, I want to learn ukulele *-* ukuleles are by far my favorite instrument, it’s so goddamn cute and i immediately fall in love when i hear someone play it

10. Do you write fanfiction, or make fanart?

i make fanart !!! i have an art side blog cause i feel weird posting it on my main account :’)

i don’t write fics cause i’m like trAUMATIZED from reading the fics me and my cousins wrote when we were in elementary school. goddamn.

11. Can you speak another language?

Yeeeee except it’s not useful at all. I speak Teo Chew, which is a type of Chinese that noBODY KNOWS ABOUT. NOT EVEN OTHER CHINESE PEOPLE. but it’s fine cause i can freely gossip with my family in teo chew without having to worry that someone will understand us. 

My Questions (I’m gonna answer my own questions cause im extra)

1. Cats or dogs

dogs cause i used to have a cat and he was a goddamn jerk, i’ve never met any jerk-y dogs

2. Do you have any pets?

3. What fandom(s) are you super into rn?

bnha and voltron :’)

4. What fandom(s) do you wish weren’t dead/were more popular? 

oNe PiEcE G O D D A M N

5. What’s your favorite blog on tumblr?

ipxakachi. xeiv is so goddamn cute and kind and talented and I’m tears over them

6. Do you write and/or draw?

7. How do you feel about rain? fog? candy?

ew, ew, and ew

8. What kind of music do you listen to?

iM ALL OVER THE GODDAMN PLACE, I LIKE BOTH SOFT WHISPERY SONGS AND SCREAMY METAL ONES

9. Hows/how were your grades in school?

eh. As and Bs.

10. What shows (esp anime) did you watch as a kid?

ICarly, Inuyasha, Fairy Tail

11. Are you good at math?

n o p e

Optional: What’s your sexuality?

pan/bi cause everyone is lovely and deserving of love

I’ll tag...

@thatsociallyawkwardgirl @fox-fly @celestialanimeworld1 @wakan-nai @acey-poo @rollypollypolnareff @gaysimulator @blogofperseus @angry-mina @thesmallestcinnamonrollofall @uselessvalshit

as always, y’all don’t have to and if you don’t want me to tag you in stuff, just tell me (i dont bite lmao)

[punkcherries]

get ready to rrrrrumble

jesus christ this is a long ass submission so uh puts it in a read more also puts my txt in bold so its easier to read 👍

Right, so I’ve just read everything that happened in the last few asks you got and I’m just gonna sit down and tell you this right now. You better strap the fuck in because this is long and if you’re not gonna read it, shame on you, because all of this is specifically about YOU and the problems people have with you (the people Blu mentioned). First off, I’m not Blu, so don’t go and start calling him names in your server because you’re finally, FINALLY, being called out on all the bullshit you do. I used to be your friend, I left on semi-good terms, and this entire thing is going to explain WHY I left + why you need to square the fuck up.

sounds like fun whoever u are

You need to get your shit together and seriously change yourself, but of course you’re not gonna do that, because you’re an incompetent piece of shit who has your head so far up your ass you can’t see all the things you do wrong. You act like you’re the person who suffers the most, and that anytime anyone is rude to you it’s THEIR fault, not the fact that you did something terrible to someone or that you started some drama. I’ve been fed up with this shit for months, and have been hesitant to say anything directly to your face, because you don’t even know me that well and we hardly talked. We did interact a few times, but those few times were absolute hell to me, because I must have literally retracted some kind of disease just from being near you. You are the fucking EMBODIMENT of tumblrina, and it’s so fucking sad because you weren’t like this before (based on what a few others have told me).

the use of tumblrina here is jus makin me laugh ur a funny guy buddy but i feel like my past self is worse thn my current self like past me participated in cringe culture so like ew

The way you talk? Absolutely fucking horrid. Sit the fuck up and talk like a normal goddamn human being. I’m here to talk to you, not to decipher some 57 commas and abhorrid shortening of words. Jesus fucking Christ Sombre, I can understand Internet slang and cutting some words up, but you fucking butcher the English language so bad it literally sounds like a toddler having a stroke while mashing at their keyboard. It’s “that” not “tht”, it’s “thing” not “thng”, it’s “something” not “smth”, and for GOD FUCKING SAKES IT’S “THE” NOT “TH”. ARE YOU LITERALLY SO FUCKING LAZY THAT YOU CAN’T EVEN TYPE “THE”, A THREE LETTER WORD. I don’t give a shit if you’re talking like this to sound like an anxious uwu tumblr piece of SHIT, it sounds fucking IDIOTIC and it’s an ABSO-FUCKING-LUTE PAIN TO READ.

language is fake and is mostly just sounds we give meaning, im very sorry if you have trouble reading the way i type and id be more than happy to try and not speak to you like i usually do to everyone else if you just asked politely and talked it out with me (tho the idiotic part is accurate im not very smart lmao)

SPEAKING OF YOUR TUMBLR, LET’S TALK ABOUT YOUR UPSET.TXT TAG. If you think anyone is gonna pity you, SPOILER ALERT! THEY’RE FUCKING NOT. Unless they’re your shitty “friends”, NOBODY fucking gives a shit, alrighty? Speaking from my perspective and a few others, nobody’s gonna see this venting on their dashboard and give two shits. Unless they’re your mutuals, they won’t care and it just leaves a bad impression. It’s pathetic how when ANYTHING negative happens to you, you decide to take to Tumblr to boo hoo crypost about it. You wanna vent? You wanna cry yourself to sleep? Cool, talk about it on your server, NOT FUCKING TUMBLR, WHERE LITERALLY ANYONE CAN SEE IT. This is just like how Facebook used to be, you see these posts of people posting personal shit and getting bit in the ass for it later, YEAH WELL THAT’S WHAT’S HAPPENING TO YOU RIGHT NOW BUDDY. DON’T LIKE IT? DON’T FUCKING VENT ON TUMBLR.

i rarely vent on here dude like?? do you see the time gaps between the posts in my vent tag? its also my blog so i can post whatever i like as long as im not hurting anyone yo, plus the point of venting for me at least isnt to like get attention or sympathy its to let off some steam not to mention most to all of my vent posts are vague as hell so like…. why do you even care though?? if i get bit in the ass then thats my problem not yours

Right, so let’s talk about your “im gay” tag too! You identify as male, correct? That’s cool! Congrats. But you’re not gay if you clearly show an interest in girls. Doesn’t matter if they’re fictional or not. Your “im gay” tag is filled with girls (Bismuth, some anime girl, pinup girls). NEWSFLASH ASSHOLE! You’re male, those are females! Opposite genders! That means you’re NOT GAY! WOAAAAAH! So who are you to be reblogging and posting all this shit about how hetero people are the devil, hetero people are the worst wah wah, when you yourself identify as a guy and clearly seem to be interested in girls, even if just a little?

dude i used to identify as nonbinary i only recently started identifying as male, hell i used to identify as female ages back so like? the posts in that tag are most to all old and i do realize my attraction to girls isnt gay, hence why ive only been referring to my attraction to dudes as me being gay post-male identification i guess

Speaking of all the heterophobic shit you reblog, have you not considered it could make some of your followers feel absolutely terrible? I’m bi myself, I like both guys and girls, but holy FUCK when I see that shit on your blog it makes me feel guilty for liking guys at all! Is that how you want people to feel? Whether they’re pan, bi, or straight, that shit’s literally so fucking damaging and it sure as hell hurts to see! And don’t throw that “some of those posts are jokes” bullshit at me, because guess the fuck what! They may be jokes to people who aren’t hetero, but they sure as hell don’t seem like jokes to those who are! How would you feel if I made a joke that was even SLIGHTLY negative towards homosexuals? Wait, no, don’t answer that, because I already know how you’d feel. You’d get pissy, you’d stomp your little baby feet over to Tumblr, and then crypost about it, saying you’re facing homophobia and being harassed blah blah blah.

HETEROPHOBIC IM LAUGHING…. buddy…. pal…. heterophobia is fake and im very sorry if those post make you feel bad as a bisexual person (im also bi so) but heterophobia isnt actually a thing, comparing jokes directed at straight people to lgbtphobia is inherently lgbtphobic as it compares little jokes most to all directed at bigoted/ignorant straights to something that can often result in the actual literal death of hundreds of people for their gender/orientation- that doesnt happen to straight people dude

Also: you don’t have autism. Were you officially diagnosed? Because I’m gonna be real fuckin’ honest, it doesn’t sound like you have autism. You sure have something, hoh yeah, but it’s sure as hell not autism. You put your “autism” up on a pedestal and act like it’s one of the only things about you, like no hunty, your mental illness doesn’t define you. Nobody gives a shit, okay? Your mental illness isn’t an excuse to act like a literal fuckface, it’s not an excuse to treat people like shit, and it sure as hell isn’t an excuse to blame everything on others and make yourself out to be the good guy because “my autism made me anxious or forget things ;w;”. This is the exact kind of tumblrina thing I’m talking about, people on this goddamn website act like their mental illness is the only quality about them and that not being neurotypical makes them special. NEWS-FUCKIN-FLASH, it doesn’t. It really doesn’t. You don’t see me using my mental illness as an excuse for my actions, because I actually step the fuck up and take responsibility for shit I’ve caused. My mental illness does not define me. There’s more to me than that. You need to realize that your fake-ass autism isn’t an excuse for you to be a fucking asshole to the people around you, and that your actions do have consequences. Stop blaming others for shit you’ve caused, stop calling people jackasses when it’s YOU who’s insulting people and twisting the truth, and for the love of God tell your white knights of friends to shut the FUCK up if they don’t know all the details of a situation.

i was technically diagnosed albeit in a nontraditional fashion (a psych at our middleschool was the one who diagnosed me) and i have never defined myself solely by my autism nor have i used it as an excuse for my fuck ups, ive literally apologized and stopped doing the things i did since the blu incident, i recognize i fucked up there and i apologized and i havent done the whole lying out of anxiety thing since, also my white knights of friends??? YOURE the one coming into MY inbox to tell me how shit i am after i blocked blu i literally just want this to be over leave me alone dude

Alright, so now that we’re done talking about YOU, let’s talk about your fandoms. You like Osomatsu-San. Okay, that’s fine. What’s not fine is how FUCKING obsessive you are about it. There’s nothing wrong with liking something and being attached to characters, making art of it, having a blog, reblogging it, talking about it, that’s okay. That’s okay! But you? You fucking hold the characters so close and act like they’re your own characters. You get upset when something doesn’t go your way in the show. This was evidenced by how many times you’ve complained about episodes (guess where? upset.txt) after they’ve come out. That anon about the straight joke? You got so heated over that, didn’t you? Saying Chibita was “out of character”, BITCH, what do you fucking know? He’s not your goddamn character! The writers will write him however the fuck they want. It’s THEIR fucking show, it’s THEIR fucking characters, and it’s THEIR decision of who does what and who acts like what. There’s a VERY thick line between canon and fanon, and you can’t seem to distinguish that AT ALL. You merge your shitty headcanons with the canon universe, and when something doesn’t go your way, you FREAK THE FUCK OUT and go crying about it in your server or on your tags.

youre blowing that ONE FUCKING POST so out of proportion ive never complained abt ososan in upset.txt outside of MAYBE episode 4 and that would be because of the NONCONSENSUAL SEX SCENE i KNOW my headcanons arent canon i KNOW that the chibita/snowtoko complaint was MINOR and i fucking LIKED THAT EPISODE A LOT!! i didnt cry i just felt that based on how the staff have characterized chibita up until that point it was a little jarring to see him react like he did THAT IS ALL! what the fuck!! how would you even know what i talk about in my servers!! youre obviously misinformed my guy!!!

Lemme tell you something, Sombre: Karabita isn’t canon. OH SHIT! I SAID IT BOYS! THAT’S A FUCKING CURSE ISN’T IT!! No, sorry, sit the fuck down and suck those tears up, because it’s true. It’s not canon. It isn’t. You grasp at straws to say it is, but it isn’t. Chibita wore somehing blue? Oh shit, it’s Karamatsu! He’s clearly in love with him! No, sorry honey, that’s not how it works. Of course Chibita would feel pity on him and let him stay with him (ep 24), because who wouldn’t? That doesn’t mean they’re dating. Karamatsu may be the most bisexual person ever, but he sure as hell isn’t dating Chibita (at least, not canonly). Speaking of Chibita, you need to stop acting like any other Matsu x Chibita ship is literal hell. They’re not. There are some decent ones out there, and although they’re rarepairs by now, they’re a lot better quality than the Karabita bullshit you spew out.

me saying karabita is canon is a joke, and my disdain for non karabita matsubita ships is based half in coping reasons and half in chibita has literally no chemistry with the other matsus and seems to not like any of the other bros at all whereas hes actually shown some level of tolerance or interest in karamatsu

While we’re on the subject of non-canon ships, Atsutodo isn’t canon either. Fuck’s sake, they were on screen together for 10 damn seconds. Yes, I’m aware there’s card art of Atsushi and Todomatsu having a meal together, but they’re very clearly not dating if Todomatsu is still going out with girls and holding their hands etc. Oh, speaking of Todomatsu: Your trans hc of him? Generic as fuck. He’s not trans. Call me a transphobe, I don’t give a shit, but he’s not trans. Look at the -kun animes. He’s a guy. Where in his life would he have magically been a girl and then go right back to a guy? The time span between a 12 year old and a 21 year old isn’t long enough to allow you time to transition. In that day and age, it wasn’t even acceptable to be transgender. So none of the Matsus are trans, get that out of your head. Get those “autism hcs” out of your head too, because I KNOW you hc Kara and Jyushi as autistic (and I’m aware you used to headcanon Ichimatsu as autistic too, but we’ll get to that later).

i know atsutodo isnt canon i never said it was all the “x ship is canon” jokes are about karabita and theyre jokes dude, i just think atsutodo would be cute. why the fuck do you even care about my trans hcs?? theyre HEADCANONS they dont HURT ANYONE and like dude there are trans children out there….. stop being a fuckface about simple headcanons what the fuck.

Lemme tell ya something. Karamatsu sure as hell isn’t autistic. Literally the only reason you headcanon him as such is because you yourself claim to be autistic and because “uwu he’s m fav,,,, i relate to him,,,”. Also, I realize “jyushi is autistic xD” headcanons are common, but JESUS FUCK it’s time for them to die. Jyushimatsu is just bizarre in and out, it’s his personality and his way of life. If you’re gonna hc him as autistic for his personality, you’re obviously ignoring his physical abilities. What about that time he cloned himself? Grew different sizes? What about how he seemingly has no bones (tentacle arms)? But oh, let’s ignore that, because he’s always got a smile on his face and he has a childish personality so DURR HE’S OBVIOUSLY AUTISTIC. Also, you used to headcanon Ichimatsu as autistic, but as soon as you started hating him you threw that headcanon out the window. This is PROOF you only headcanon your favorite characters as autistic, and that’s some of the STUPIDEST shit ever.

literally just let people headcanon what they want if it doesnt hurt anyone, im sure in canon theyre not autistic but this is HEADCANON. and is this also to imply that just because a character can do bizarre thing with theyre body they cant also be autistic?? what the fuck does that have to do with anything??? and i didnt throw my autistic ichi hc out the window because “i hate him” i dont even hate him im indifferent to him i hate his fanon incarnation because its stupidly out of character and one note, i also didnt even drop the autism hc for him i feel like he definitely 100% could be autistic but i just dont think about it as much because i think about other characters more than i think about him

Oh yeah, I’d love to hear why you hate Ichimatsu so much? Shut up, I know it’s because “hhhh he abuses kara” but that’s fucking wrong. Listen, Ichimatsu isn’t exactly my favorite either but at least I don’t make him out to be a fucking asshole to Karamatsu. All of the brothers have treated Karamatsu like shit at one point or another. They’ve thrown things at him, ditched him, called him names, ignored him, it’s a fucking trope in the anime that Karamatsu was the one to get hurt. Sure, season 2 has kinda turned that around, but the whole “Ichimatsu is bitter to Karamatsu” thing is the dynamic between them. They DO have moments where they’re not onto each other, though. See how Ichimatsu followed Karamatsu into the woods? Remember the episode where they switched clothes? They didn’t kill each other neither of those times, did they? And yes, I’m aware Ichimatsu has hurt Karamatsu at times (the bazooka, I think smacking?) but he doesn’t LITERALLY ABUSE HIM. You don’t see him kicking him around, PUNCHING HIM, HITTING HIM, EVERY SECOND OF HIS LIFE. Yes, he calls him names. Yes, he’s threatened to hurt him (“I’ll kill you, Shittymatsu.”) but he’s been stopped or HAS stopped every time. If he really was so intent on hurting Karamatsu, don’t you think he wouldn’t ignore his brothers and hurt Karamatsu anyway? But no, he didn’t, and he stopped each time he grabbed Kara. That’s because the entire “Ichimatsu despises Karamatsu” thing is a GAG in the show. It’s meant to be funny. It’s not meant for your negative ass to label it as abuse and then boohoo about it every time Ichimatsu is mentioned. That’s not a valid reason to hate a character, hell, even Karamatsu’s seiyuu said in a Doramatsu CD that Karamatsu was just comic relief. And if you’re gonna look for a reason why Ichimatsu dislikes Karamatsu, consider the hinted and well-supported reason: Ichimatsu “hates” Karamatsu because of how confident he is and how he can always be himself. Ichi is insecure. Ichi is antisocial. Kara, on the other hand, can express himself and show how “cool” he is. Consider that Ichimatsu wants to be more like him, hence why he said he’s the “number one Karamatsu boy” in that one episode.

okay this is just ridiculous i DONT HATE ICHIMATSU and i KNOW its a GAG, i KNOW they get along sometimes i KNOW all the brothers have shat on kara I KNOW THIS abuse takes many forms though and in a more serious anime the way the bros treat kara would probably be depicted as abusive, but it isnt a serious anime so its a gag and i understand that thats FINE, did you even watch the ichimatsu incident? ichimatsu got plenty fucking pissed off at karamatsu and stuff and the “number one karamatsu boy” nonsense was him being concerned about how karamatsu might think of him as such not him calling himself a karamatsu boy, and yes i know the whole ichi wants to be cool and confident like kara thing i understand that but even so that wouldnt logically excuse his bitterness toward kara but again, its a gag anime so its whatever, youre also ignoring the facet of his disdain towards kara being in part because kara is also vain and ichi finds this annoying and thinks kara is fake as hell because of it there was something in i think a magazine where the bros are all asked what they think of eachother i think and i THINK ichi said something along the lines of him not liking kara because he fakes being nice for the sake of his own ego or something (which is likely ichi just having a negative image of kara rather than that actually being the case because i dont think karas that smart but who knows i dont!!) so like y’know

In conclusion, I would like to say you need to shut the fuck up and chill with your fandoms and headcanons, realize headcanons aren’t canon, and also get your head out of your ass. You’ve done so many wrong things and need to stop blaming them on others. You’ve lied, insulted, and put the blame on so many of your old friends, you’ve avoided people who you deem “toxic” (simply because they have different opinions than you), you think people can’t form their own opinions, and you don’t back up your friends when they’re getting shittalked. You act like an assoholic brat and cannot, for the life of you, open up your eyes and see this. You’re lucky the dicktwats on your server are there for you, because if they weren’t, you’d be all alone, and honestly? That seems pretty good at this point. Fits you perfectly.

i know headcanons arent canon, i know ive lied (though ive really only insulted people who were dicks to my friends and maybe blu which probably not a good thing but i mean hes also insulted me so?? even i guess??) and i regret that, im more honest now and try my best to show kindness to people who have done me and my friends no wrong, ive only ever put blame on blu i literally dont blame anyone else for anything, i dont avoid people i deem “toxic” i avoid people i dont get along with because if i dont get along with them then theres no reason to talk to them im gonna let them live their lives, of course i think people can form their own opinions what on earth are you talking about???? when did i not back up a friend when they got shit talked?? i dont remember that but id like to deeply apologize if i ever did, unless youre talking about when someone in my server insults blu over ykno… him not leaving me alone and harassing me when ive done nothing but mind my own business since the incident, then while it was kind of uncomfortable for me because i felt it was the wrong thing to do i couldnt exactly muster the words to protest it. im very sorry you feel that way im always trying to improve and i like to think that im making some level of progress in being more sensitive and kind to those around me. but also dont insult my friends they didnt do shit weve been minding our own goddamn business this entire time blu is the one who started it back up again.

Now, go back to crying in your server and soaking in self-deprication, fuckass.

yknow i get the feeling i know who this is but i dont want to jump to any conclusions so, uh, okay! see ya my dude :0c