#i don't know why but i love these horrible petty men

[fictionadventurer]

The more I learn about Civil War politics, the more I'm convinced that Lincoln's most impressive and useful leadership trait was that he never let his pride get in the way of doing his job.

Other people in Lincoln's position would have come to Washington with something to prove. They'd have resented the insults and tried to disprove them. They'd have tried to seize power and credit, rejected help, spent a lot of time trying to reach a certain level of respect.

Lincoln's response to, "You're just a backwoods lawyer with no executive experience who makes too many dumb jokes," was pretty much always, "Yeah. And?" He had no interest in petty personal power plays. He had a country to run. There was a war on. It didn't matter what people thought of him so long as the job got done.

He was aware of his personal shortcomings and was always willing to accept advice and help from people who had more knowledge and experience in certain areas. He presided over a chaotic Cabinet full of abrasive personalities who thought they were better and smarter than him, but he kept working with them because they could get the job done. For example: Stanton was absolutely horrible to him when they were both working as lawyers. Just incredibly mean on a personal level. But when Lincoln needed someone to replace Cameron, he swallowed his pride and appointed Stanton as Secretary of War, where Stanton proceeded to be mean to everyone in the world, but he whipped that department into shape and kept it running efficiently through a very chaotic war. Pretty much no one except Lincoln would have been able to put up with that. He could put up with people who were personally difficult if they could do the job he needed them to do--which he was only able to do because his own ego didn't get in the way.

Lincoln's example is a prime demonstration of how humility isn't underrating yourself--it's being so secure in your own abilities and identity that you don't need to attack anyone or defend yourself to prove your worth. He knew his shortcomings, but he also knew his strengths. He was willing to give other people credit for successes and take blame upon himself for failures if it kept things running smoothly. He was secure enough in his own power that he could deal generously--but firmly--with people who tried to undermine him. In a city full of huge egos, in a profession that rewards puffed-up pride, that levelheaded humility is an extremely rare trait--which is what made it so impressive and effective.

[humdinky]

i love pixar's turning red. it is such a good representation of girls at that age. they don't shy away from depicting the awkward and weird parts. it is so rare to see a movie depict girls and their silly interests without condemning or judging them. they just let the girls be girly, noisy, and silly.

fuck the hate this movie got on its release. i could go on for hours about society's uniquely shitty attitude towards teenage girls and their interests. there are countless examples. remember the feverish hate for twilight, a series aimed exclusively at young women? what about the hunger games? teenage girls were the first ones to fall in love with elvis and the beatles, and critics treated them like a joke. that is, until adult men started liking them. funny how that works. justin bieber fans, one direction fans, vsco girls, girly girls, tomboys, emo girls, indie girls, bookworms. you will see every single type of girl being made fun of for every conceivable interest a human being can have.

at a certain age you feel forced to make an arbitrary choice. lean into your feminine side and continue to get mocked for 'being shallow', 'only caring about your looks', 'being annoying' etc. or lean into your masculine side and get called a pick-me or told that you just want to get with their guy friends. you like things that are popular? you’re basic. you like things that aren’t as popular? you’re trying too hard. it is the entire reason why so many girls internalize this misogyny, why they start saying things like "im not like other girls."

i certainly wasn't immune to that trap. i didn’t fit the mold and got ostracized for it. the only validation i received for the longest time was from boys, when i turned my anger back on girls and girlhood. i was sold that narrative so many times that i wore it like some sort of badge of honor. it took years to unlearn. i feel sad when i look back on my younger self. i was so sad, so angry, and so scared all the time.

we get insulted for being happy. we get insulted for being sad. we get insulted for being mad that we were insulted for being sad. we get insulted for trying to forget what happened and act happy again. we get insulted for feeling hopeless. they beat the confidence out of you very early.

and it angers me how the emotions of teenagers as a whole are so often neglected. when you're around that age and grappling with big emotions, you've quite literally never felt anything that strongly before. a failed test, a best friend's betrayal, being cut from a sports team. it all feels like a rejection of your entire person, your entire being. you haven't lived that many years yet, and it's the first time you've felt this horrible. you don't have anything to compare it to, and it feels like nobody else could have ever survived feeling this bad before.

it's not petty teenage drama. it's not immaturity. it is a normal human reaction to the worst pain you've experienced, and it is happening at a time when your body is going haywire and your feelings feel impossible to control. you don't know how to cope with it, you can't possibly know, because it's the first time you've had this bottomless well of pain tearing you up inside. you can't look back at previous times you've felt this way to reassure yourself that it will be okay eventually. the first time is the worst and hardest and you have no resources to get through it yet.

a lot of adults scoff at and dismiss the feelings of teenagers. "you're young, you'll get over it"' they've decided that because you haven't dealt with this feeling before that you must be overreacting. sometimes you are, and sometimes you're reacting exactly how any adult would. it's an absolutely shitty thing to express to anyone. a teenage girl's pain is not any less real than a 50 year old's pain. so what if it will get better? it doesn't matter that it isn't going to be the worst thing that ever happens; it matters that right now it very much is the worst thing that's happened.

yes, teenagers overreact over a lot of things that aren't as important as they feel. as if adults, who don't even have the excuse of inexperience with deep emotions, don't? no one should ever dismiss someone else's pain regardless of their age or circumstances.

​im turning 20 in a few months. find the small joys of life, and don’t you dare let anyone take them away from you. if there is a teenage girl reading this, i love you, i am sorry, and it does get better.

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i feel horrible. I feel betrayed and I’m depressed but strangely not surprised?

Its not even, not even about who is worse or whatever, i just- I heard connor eats pants talk, he said how george and the dream team, (even if they don’t acknowledge it,) have a large young girl audience. That’s the part of the audience that helped them grow.(And id say the audience who was the most emotionally, young girls or queer people who a lot of the time grew up presenting female or queer people in general, who are also at higher risk of getting used or assaulted ) and how its disgusting and disappointing to see them drop these weird points about consent and i (as a part of that demographic myself) - that really hit me in some way. That really hit me and something about it rings in my chest with hurt an realisation. It makes me incredibly sad, and yet it makes me realise stuff.

That point to me seems incredibly important.

That fact makes their statements seem ignorant..

Im slowly coming to terms with how I personally want to move forward with acknowledging their content, the content that was genuinely helping my depression and was part of my routine. So I didn’t formulate this to be some sort of statement, but more of a “oh” moment that i wanted to share

These men don’t feel like they care about the large audience they hurt.. young girls, and how their respective statements about consent could affect idk their world view? :/

Something i got reminded of when reading tumblr after watching that connor tiktok clip of his stream.

I see where you're coming from and what you're feeling is valid and it's entirely up to you if you want to stay or not

I just think that we've seen a lot of examples of them being good to women, in a professional sense as well as personally (as recent as Sapnap's birthday stream we saw George direct the camera away from Sylvee's skirt while she was climbing the wall). This is not a defense of George's behavior regarding the Caiti situation in any way, shape, or form, but we also can't erase the good behavior that we have witnessed, you know?

Like, I've left fandoms for petty reasons and big reasons (i used to love shane dawson, I used to love david dobrik, i went on a weird hate watch spree for a couple depressing months in like 2018 for the paul brothers--i'm not proud) and when a cc's behavior becomes clear, I drop their ass. Even through the drituation, I've never seen behavior from the dreamteam that I thought was hateful against anyone and I believe they've always shown that they want to do what's right when they do mess up.

Do I think they have room to grow? Yeah, absolutely. But I don't think they secretly hate women or are exploiting us. ((no matter what Hannah is saying now, they have had many close female friends for quite a while--Puffy, Sylvee, Gia--and I feel like those people wouldn't have stuck around if they were shitty to women constantly when off camera))

I don't think this incident with Caiti is just another in a long line of dubious consent situations (not that I can know). If I thought they were doing this behind the scenes all the time, I'd nope out. I'm hoping that they can take this as a learning moment and find greater nuance in consent. We are always learning and Dream, the most, has always shown he's willing to take criticism and realize why something was wrong and not do it again. We've seen this from George too when he apologized for old screen shots with slurs. They aren't perfect, none of us are, but I have hope that they'll move forward with a clearer idea.

To be quite honest, I have seen the conversations around consent morph in my lifetime. It's a wonderful thing to see women speaking up and being believed and consequences coming down on men when, historically, that has almost never been the case. We need to keep having these conversations and reinforcing the line, no matter how uncomfortable it can be.

As far as dream team not caring about their audience, I can't really disagree with that right now lol. I certainly don't really feel cared for, but I'm here more for my friends now at this point.

Keep thinking through what this means for you and how you want to move forward for yourself. there's nothing wrong with putting them down for a while. I see a trend of former fans burning the ground as they leave, but like, you can just leave or take a little hiatus from dreamteam, and that's absolutely fine! You can always change your mind and come back, or you can find something else and get super invested in that. No one is going to track what you're doing and judge you, I promise.

As far as content to help you through depression, I can't recommend Brittany Broski and Trixie and Katya enough. I've been listening to Trixie and Katya's Podcast, the Bald and the Beautiful, for my long commutes and they keep me laughing. I'd start with their "Unhhh" youtube series though because it's..... Hilarious

Sorry this got so long. Classic Scoops

[xxblackgardenxx]

Laito And Abandonment Issues

There is this behavior I have noticed from Laito, that happens whenever Laito thinks Yui is trying to "escape" him. This is just one thing that makes dating Laito so toxic. He has this constant fear of Yui leaving him and her dying. This is seen with the Daylight CD's and chapters in the games.

(bit of a long read)

Pretty much, his BIG problem with why Yui and him fight is because of this mindset and trauma. Of course this mindset and trauma became a thing because of his horrible mother. With her having a sexual relationship with him and using him. The abandonment issues all started then, he loved her and she only used him, she was not his and this has effected him greatly in relationships. He NEEDS people(men) to know that Yui is his, because in the past his "lover" was not. This can be seen with Kou in MB, when he flaunt the pictures of him and Yui, he NEEDED Kou to know to back off and that Yui was his, and there is nothing he could do about it. This way he is in control, which in most in his life, he was not. (his a petty bitch-I love him).

But I mostly want to talk about his way of "putting Yui in her place" I guess you could say, In Date Fate and Chaos Lineage. Right so in Date Fate, Yui is trying to help Laito by talking to his brothers, so she tricks Laito to make him fall asleep and go to the castle. But Laito being big brain, he knew something was up. He then followed her and was big angry deep voice boy. He believes that Yui wants to get rid of him, that she no longer loves him, or maybe it was a lie from the start. His used to this treatment, and that was his only "love" he has experienced, so of course he is going to have not only abandonment issues but trust issues as well. For "betraying" him, he legit is like "Oh you love me? Then you can never leave my side" Again. That need of staying in control. Well if you tie her up, she cant do anything you don't want her to do.

And we see this again, in Chaos Lineage. Laito getting jealous of Kou and tying Yui up. I believe this time was more, not him scared SHE was going to do anything, but "protecting" her. DF was more out of fear of her leaving him, while CL was more the fear of men taking her away from him. So either way, he is afraid of losing her. Of course people are afraid of losing their lover, but I think it is clear that Laito CANNOT deal with the mere thought of Yui leaving him in a healthy way. This now comes to Daylight. Laito becomes very impulsive under a lot of stress. He holds a lot of emotions, and it is hard to digest when he becomes like this. Everything he was holding back behind that mask comes to light all at once, I cannot think of how awful that must feel like for him.

Under stress, he becomes angry I have noticed, and puts all of his stress and anger onto Yui. He does not know how to cope with this height of stress, he laches out because he does not know, for one, that he acting in that way, two, how to calm it and third, how to catch it before his mind goes wild. Honestly, as I am a person with anxiety, I think he may have it as well. It seems like once he is in a runt, it only gets worse and worse to the point he gets like in Track 4. He realizes reality, he cannot deal with dubbed reality and closes his heart and acts as if he is not hurt. What he does is getting rid of what is hurting him, and plans to kill Yui. (Messed up I know, like what the fuck is up with Laitos routes and CD's and dying? Like omg please stop. LE ending fucked me up :))

This mindset, the mindset of him only able to see the bad, he is only able to see that one day Yui will die and so that means his life will be worthless. This is why he doesn't stop wanting to die, even though finding love. Even though he has found happiness, the world will just not allow him to fully keep this happiness. It is truly a tragedy, as Yui is not able to life forever, he knows this, and acts out. Whenever I am reading Laitos route, I am always thinking of how fucked up he is going to be once Yui is gone. It is truly is tragic.

[all-seeing-ifer]

Wait I really like ats s5 it has some banger episodes, why don’t you like it?

oh man. season 5.

so, in theory, there's a lot about season 5 that I should like. I think it reinvents the show in an interesting way and I love the themes of never stopping fighting even in the face of the knowledge that the good guys are never going to truly win and that the deck is always going to be stacked against them. the fucking dialogue between gunn and anne in the finale? "I'd get this truck packed before the new stuff gets here"? holy SHIT it is so good!!!

I totally get why people like season 5 I do think it genuinely has a lot going for it BUT you DID ask so I will now be presenting Isabel's List of Varyingly Serious/Petty Beefs With Angel Season Five. In No Particular Order:

Spike's a good addition to the show and god knows angel season 5 does more interesting stuff with him than buffy season 7 ever did but it is fucking insane to me how much focus and development he gets while gunn fred and lorne, who have been mainstays of the show since like season 2, continue to get absolute jack shit to do

just generally let's be honest. anyone who isn't a white guy this season is fucked. harmony gets no development despite being granted main cast status illyria gets nothing to do despite being set up as a super duper important addition to the cast I don't even know what they were fucking thinking with eve. etc.

THEY FRIDGED CORDY AND FRED WITHIN THREE EPISODES OF EACH OTHER. AND AT NO POINT DID ANYONE IN THE WRITERS' ROOM THINK THAT MAYBE THE FACT THAT THEY WERE WERE STARTING TO RUN OUT OF WOMEN WAS PERHAPS A PROBLEM

speaking of cordy my best girl of all time, I know people love you're welcome but i'm sorry i remain deeply ambivalent about that fucking thing. like yes it's nice that the cordy we know and love gets to come back for one last hurrah but also the episode basically never treats her like a person with feelings of her own and instead she's just there to motivate angel and then die so he can be sad about it. i can't believe it only took 40 minutes to set feminism back 4000 years

also sorry but did they really think you're welcome was going to be enough to make up for what they did to her in season 4? have you seen season 4? one episode where cordy looks hot and has her tits out and swordfights will NOT undo the damage that has been done

and then they proceed to set feminism back even further by just refusing to acknowledge the existence of their show's secondary protagonist for the basically the rest of the season and also fridging fred in an arguably even more horrific way three episodes later so wesley can be sad and so they can introduce a new character who does nothing

like seriously nothing makes me more rabid in season 5 than the scene in power play where the characters all vote on if they're gonna go through with their suicide mission against the circle of the black thorn and it's just all the men voting on it bc illyria's been incapictated bc I guess in angel season 5 women don't get to have agency even when they're literal godlike demon lords

on the subject of the illyria plotline i fucking hate how gunn gets treated. like sorry all the men on this show (sans lorne. unproblematic king) have done awful shit why does gunn get singled out as having done something uniquely horrible just for a shady business deal he couldn't possibly have known the consequences of. like we know why but still

and on the subject of gunn.... the fact that they wrote a storyline implying that the only way for the only black main character in the show to become smart and capable is for him to have his brain magically altered and NO ONE in the writers room was like HM MAYBE THIS IS A BAD LOOK ACTUALLY. christ i would feel way better about the whole "gunn feels like he's just the muscle" conflict if the show more consistently came down on the side that players does where gunn does actually have way more to offer than being the muscle but has just come to see himself as just The Guy Who Fights. but unfortunately they spend at least as much time writing gunn as Actually Just The Muscle. usually to make wesley look better (i promise i'm not bitter about it)

and perhaps i'd be less annoyed about all this if gunn also got literally anything else to do this season but this is truly all he gets until not fade away

which i guess is still better than fred? like fred just dies. that's it

guys i don't think we shit on the girl in question enough. like it's bad. it's really bad. i'm so glad we're currently in the shit talking lies my parents told me renaissance but can we also start bringing that same energy for this piece of shit

nina's an art student so i hate her by default (<- guy who went to art school <- i am allowed to say this)

despite spike being intended to serve as a replacement for cordy they just straight up don't give him relationships with any of the characters other than angel (and fred for like. one episode) and it results in him just feeling incredibly out of place

just in general actually it feels like the writers kind of stopped caring about any of the character relationships aside from angel and spike and fred/wesley (which they only care about bc it's a reason for wesley to be sad anyway)

the pacing is a nightmare and i do not give a shit about the circle of the black thorn. sorry

and just as a disclaimer i would like to acknowledge that like. ats was always fairly shitty about race and gender this isn't unique to s5 but MAN does it feel like season 5 in particular is just. saying the quiet part out loud constantly every episode

anyway thank you for giving me free rein to just bitch about angel season 5 for an extended period of time this was fun. still i'm honestly glad that you enjoy it like really truly I wish that were me

[andypantsx3]

Tw: Misogyny and discourse (pls don't feel obligated to answer this)

Ok soo Andie I feel like you are so good at giving advice and you are just such an amazingly sweet and kind person and I aspire to be like you. That being said I am just stuck in a very uncomfortable situation and I sadly can't talk about this to other ppl close to me (you'll see why).

I have a cousin brother who is staying in the same city as me, because of his Uni he sometimes comes over when he has holidays or on the weekends. There is ofc nothing wrong with that, I like that he can relax here a bit and I get to spend time with him (it's my parents house btw). Everything was fine and well but then sometimes out of nowhere he'll start acting weird (also he's a devoted andrew tate fan so....). He'll just come and say horrible things to me like how I should take care of the house (he says its a girls job to do all the work whereas men should be allowed to laze around) , force me to do his uni work and projects and belittle and humiliate me when I refuse, he lectures me about my weight and calls me a cow, he takes my things without asking and goes through my stuff and messes up my room when I go for my lectures. He's just really nasty to me in general.

My mom doesn't say anything to him and she instead scolds me. She says that he is our guest and I am overreacting. She says he has done nothing to warrant my dislike for him and that I am being very petty and unreasonable even though SHE SEES THINGS HAPPEN RIGHT BEFORE HER EYES?! We also have this very toxic culture in my family where women are expected to give everything up for men's comfort without complaining and it is our job to bend ourselves backwards to keep the peace in the household by not fighting. She says these are just normal sibling things and brothers are allowed to do all this and I am just being oversensitive.

I really don't know what to do Andie. I definitely don't hate him because he's my brother but I don't know how to handle him or my family without getting distant or fighting with them :(

Hello my love!! This is such a tough situation and I am so sorry you've been put in this spot!! I am sending you all my love and support and hoping your family cleans up its act soon, but it sounds like instead you might be waiting a while!!

I am a very direct problem approacher by nature, so I'm not sure that what I would do would work in this situation!! My first thought is that it's your house, and you can welcome him into it while still establishing boundaries. If I was in this situation, I would probably end up telling my brother once he starts in on one of those behaviors again that he can stop right now and still be welcomed in your house, or he can insist on his course of action and will have to find somewhere else to stay. It's his choice.

In his own house he can have his own rules, but in yours, your feelings and your time and your boundaries are to be respected. I would hope framing it like that gives him the idea that he's welcome in general but with options and consequences to consider, instead of him just feeling like he's allowed to be there and do what he wants. But unfortunately it does sound like this approach would still make waves in your family if he chooses wrongly, so you would have to be prepared for that.

I'm not sure if it's best to take a less direct approach (be aware this is not a strength of mine) by doing his projects so badly he does poorly in school and then feels the need to do them himself, by buying a lock and key for your room so he can't go in it when you're not there, or by keeping your house even dirtier or something so that he doesn't like being there. But again this is like, not my strength so idk how good this recommendation is.

Idk!! This feels like such a bad situation to be in and you might just have to weigh which outcome is the most bearable to you; fighting with your family for some amount of time, or feeling shitty for the amount of time you have to see your brother while he's in university.

(Also if anyone else reading this has been in this situation before or has recommendations, please give them in the replies!! I feel like I'm such a bad problem solver because I only know how to bulldoze!!)

Anyway I just want to reiterate that I feel for you and I hope you are keeping your head up! While not exactly the same as your situation, I grew up in a physically and emotionally abusive household with a very misogynistic father and so I know all too well the kind of toll gendered standards (and blindness to/deference to male figures) can take on you. I have been told I was basically born with a stick in hand and all I knew how to do was poke the bear, so that's all I can think to do now lol. But regardless of how good or bad my advice is, I am 100% there with you and supporting you with my whole heart!!

I hope you find your way out of this, and I'm happy to chat/let you vent to me if you ever need it!!!!

[smoughenthusiast]

Ok, it’s time.

Hello, my most mysterious mutual that I am well beyond my obligation to reach out to. I admire your dedication to Soulsborne, and admittedly if I were not so immersed in Bloodborne right now, I’d be all over your blog.

(My Dark Souls/Demon’s Souls hyper-fixation will come back stronger one of these days. I just tend to focus on one game at a time).

Anyway, tell me—how did you end up loving Petrus, the character everyone wants to kick off the Firelink Shrine cliff? I am extremely curious and want to hear your inevitably brilliant insight.

(I don’t care if it’s for meme purposes, that’s still amazing. Also what’s your take on Reah and Petrus? I want ALL OF THE JUICE <3)

Well well, isn't this quite the inquisitive ask...hehehehoho

Well then. I will tell you, why I like Petrus so much, mutual. I will give the EXACT reason why I have an attachment to one of the most underwhelming, horrendous, sadistic and horrible-haircut'd men in soulsborne. Are you ready? Yes, I think you are ready, truly. The truth is near...

Yeah sorry this mightve been a little underwhelming LMAO autism said he looked cool and now I have to follow it like a dog to its leash shrugs...i still do kill him sometimes tho, don't get me wrong, he is a bastard through and through and he made getting my Prayer of the Maiden achievement a little more difficult then it should have been... but he is forgiven because autism said so. Waiting for this specific hyperfixation to end ngl, BUT THE GOOD THING IS, I also like Rhea and it made me have huge, in-depth theories on the two honestly. That, and I've worldbuilt Thorolund with my own ocs, but that's for another ask's time hehe

So on Petrus/Rhea dynamic, I actually wrote a HUGE fic on this topic, detailing their time on Thorolund and how it associates with the game's time. Basically, Petrus had always despised the pettiness of the rich, and now that mostly everyone is undead his time has come to murder and slaughter. Rhea used to be one of his students during his time as a schoolteacher (hc moment), and he knows that she used to hang out with Vince and Nico often, which is why he expresses they could be a bad influence on her because he thinks they might put the pieces together to deduce he is NOT a good person...

Gaslight, gatekeep, boyboss Petrus. Rhea is better though she is precious and I will not be letting Petrus touch her nono...he can die...i want my pretty maiden...

link to the fic, if you'd like (7k word oneshot moment I HAD to get it out at some point)

Thank you for the ask mutual, and I hope a kitten kisses you in your sleep. From DarkDemonsouls fan to Bloodborne fan, I shake your hand in "its ok I had a mini bloodborne phase ngl"

[cakegatedisaster]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Thanks....

NnnggaAAAA

I hope you understand how exceptionally difficult this question is. But alas, I will try my best.

Ten characters are a lot and I have no way of rating them, so I'm going to talk about my favorite 9 characters, then my favorite of all time.

10. Magnus Bane, from the Shadowhunters series and TV show. I love this man. SO MUCH. He is an immortal warlock with a soft spot for black hair and blue eyes. Those books were some of the first YA I ever read, and Magnus and Alec, his husband, we're the first queer relationship I became obsessed with.

9. Percy Jackson, my king. This man. God how I love this man. Percy was my first favorite character in any media. When I first read PJO, I aped through those books in a week, then the next series, then the next. Today, I've read all those books and own each physical copy. When the TV show comes out, I do NOT apologize for the person I will become.

8. Bryan Stark, from the DRAMA series by Paul Ruditiz. I have never seen someone online talk about these books, and it's a damn shame. Read the first two when I was in 6th grade, and since then I've reread the series more times than I can count. Bryan is just such an entertaining character. The author managed to make him gay without making that all his character is. Such an underrated book.

7. Kaz Brekker. Sigh. Anyone who knows me knows that I have a thing for traumatized men, and this boy fits the bill. He's just. I don't have the words. He is so smart, which automatically makes a person a great character for me, but he's also so mean, which makes me love him more. He cares so much about his love, but has no clue how to display that. Which is my type. I have issues. And of course Six of Crows is one of my all time favorite books.

6. Draco Malfoy. Okay, I know there's some major controversy with anything dealing with Harry Potter stuff, which I get, but that will not stop me from enjoying content about the characters. Now, it's not so much canon Draco that I enjoy as much as it is FANON Draco. His character got smugged horribly in the original material, and I love seeing people's interpretations of him as a character outside of what he was written as. I ship him with Harry, and the amount of fanfiction that I have consumed is ridiculous at this point.

5. Klaus Mikaelson, from the Originals. I watched Vampire Diaries, liked it, but my favorite character from that show was Klaus. There's just something about a man who's willing to rip out the hearts of hundreds of people for his family, for his child, that just hits right in my brain. Love this man with all my heart.

4. Andrew FUCKING Minyard, ladies and gentlemen. Everyone knows he was going to be up here somewhere. Many are likely shocked he's not at number one. A year ago, he would've been. When I read All for the Game, I really was not expecting so much to come out of it. I formed my entire Tumblr personality around it, read millions of words of fanfiction, and wrote MY first fanfiction for the series. I've daydreamed hours and hours of content that will never actually see the light of day, used it in school assignments. And the entire time, I loved one Andrew Minyard. Again, big thing for the traumatized boys, and my God does this poor thing take the cake. He's one of the most interesting, compelling, and agonizing characters I've seen in any fictional media.

3. Laurent De Vere, from the Captive Prince trilogy. Oooof, finally in the top three's. Debating between him and Andrew for this spot was so hard, but ultimately, I feel like the author fleshed Laurent's character out more. This man is so goddamn smart. And I would jump in front of a train for pretty petty bitchy smart sad characters. This series had the misfortune of being read a month before aftg, so it was sadly swept up in the storm that came after it. But now, looking back and remembering the experience of reading those books for the first time, I just keep thinking about how often I had to put my book down, or risk throwing it across the room, that's how insane those books are. I love this sad boy and all his trauma.

2. Bruce Wayne, or Batman. GOD this is hard. But I've been a Batman lover since I was a little girl. This man has some major issues, and a dependency on a fur suit and children decorated in circus colors. He has a weird queer-coded relationship with a killer clown. His character shifts so much that between one comic issue and the next I can go from wanting to strangle him to wanting to hug him tight and never let go. I don't think I could fix him, and I don't think there's much making him worse, but maybe I could get him into therapy???

1. Jason. Todd. The Red Hood. My baby, my child, the love of my life. Sigh. First place was never a question for me; even growing up with Batman, Jason was a more recent discovery and one I'm thankful for every day. This boy was sold to a mass murderer clown by his mother, beaten near death with a crowbar, and blown to bits. He was brought back, only to find out that his adopted dad not only didn't avenge him but changed absolutely nothing, putting another kid in the exact same spot he was in. Oh yeah, and being brought back required a trip into a nasty green pit that screwed up his head. And now, video games are making him look 40, comic writers KEEP killing him, no one can decide what his whole thing is supposed to be, and they gave him a FUCKING CROWBAR TO PATROL GOTHAM WITH. WHAT THE FUCK. So yeah, Jason needs some love.

And that's ten of my favorite characters in no particular order. As I'm finishing this, I'm thinking of like 20 other characters who could've gone on this list, but I'm happy with this for now.

Thank for the ask!

[xoteajays]

My preference in men chances. But I'm an extremist... Either the men I'm interested in are either violent savages, romantic sweethearts and ice kings. There is never the in between personalities with these guys. But one thing they have in common is that they're violent, tendencies range from fist fights to murder. I love men who can fight, or even kill, if the situation requires it. The protectiveness attracts me to them.

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No! That's a different scene. But the confetti scene is from an episode before the Carrie scene episodes later. Both scenes are funny though.

And there is a canonical queer character in the series. But.. He's really a completely cunt who so deserved everything that happened to him. That's just my opinion though.

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Oh! Hostel. That's my fault.. I didn't really realize that I spelled the title wrong last time. Then you won't like The Sadness. So you do not have to watch that movie then. Which is fine. The Sadness is a gory movie.

Who? Oh! Iko Uwais. Yeah.. I guess that I enjoy him as an actor, since I have seen quite a few of his work. And Joe Taslim is also in two of the movies too. They worked together a lot. Maybe because they're really martial artists who are in these action movies. Which is so fine by me.

Surprisingly, he's not one of the actors I'm not attracted to. But I have to say the short man knows how to fight though. So credit for that.

I'm thinking about watching Little Women. Maybe not at the moment though, but I can say that it might be a maybe from me. Because I've found out Joong-ki has a cameo in one of the episodes, and you have also wanted me to see some of Wi Ha-joon's work. I blame Vincenzo.

Actually I have already been trying to search for more work of Joong-ki (Vincenzo), Do-hwan and Sang-yi (Bloodhounds). Because why not see more talent from these pretty men. You can ignore me whenever.

Do you have Tubi? Because you can watch Masters Of Horror on that channel, app, whatever. Both seasons should be listed on the app.

Wait.. What? What about documentaries? I'm confused now.

Yes! Mainly their hairstyles. But something about the features, even a little, seemed like that could pass as relatives if they actually did have roles together. Maybe we'd be lucky to have them work together? But who knows.. If they do work together, hopefully in action roles then.

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Exactly! Either you're petty enough to kick a sick man when he would be down - literally, or you are afraid enough to have a group of people to jump this man when he's down. Nikaido's a cunt for any outcome.

That's how I imagined them dying. If they ever did kill Eri and anyone who was sick in Nameless, euthanizing them with drugs until they've died is there 'humane' way of letting them die. Besides car accidents.

Do you think Takeshi would have let Shion back into the family? Since you never see him again. Except in one scene after he left the city.

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You can have any headcanon you want. If that's what you believe then that's all that matters then. I don't care enough about the Ichigo Girls. Except when bitching about them, bitching about their horrible types of men their attracted to. Because they're still really stupid that way.

My Orange character is five feet tall, maybe even barely five feet tall if I'm being honest. You know.. "She may be small, but she is fierce."

Apparently our ships with Cobra are short women. I'm fine with that... Because that seems funny to me for some reason. I don't know why.

Maybe Murayama learns not to underestimate women, Rocky's really scolding at Murayama for underestimating how strong women are.

I can't lie. The only person I recognized was Ayaka Miyoshi.. I actually recognized her name. But I had to do some research on the others.

And I might be biased about Ayaka being Hiroto's love interest, when comparing to the other girls. But you choose your own face claims.

You're going with school uniforms? Well.. That makes sense since any Oya boys you see are wearing uniforms, same with most schools too.

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I've done bad things. Some things I would rather not mention, but the things I did were never what people have been lately. None of.. that...

And my punishments varied on what I did. Either a timeout, slap on a wrist, or maybe grounded. Depends on the severity of my crimes that I did. Crimes as in actions, not actual crimes. Not always. Anyway.

If it makes you feel any better, I'm a complete disappoint for everyone in my family. And I'm an only child. Which makes the situation worse.. My parents are bipolar. One day they'll believe in one thing, then they would believe in something else the next day. Completely whiplash.

My mother... The best way I can explain my mother, she is considered The Devouring Mother type of mother. That archetype is what she is.

Everything has been worse for humanity now.

mood. my preferences are a lil all over the place too. sometimes i’ll watch something thinking i’ll get attached to one character and then end up liking a different character more.

i do love a good fight-y man tho. fight scenes are so good!

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yea i’m a lil more of the psych horror side. i mean, i’ve watched gory movies too. i’m just a lil more preferable to mind fuck-y stuff.

little women is admittedly a bit slow and not very action heavy, but i was mainly watching it for kim go eun and wi ha joon. joong-ki was in one scene very briefly, which i did recognise him in since i’d watched those two episodes of vincenzo before watching that ep.

i do have tubi! i haven’t been on it in a while tho, i should recheck it out, there’s some decent movies on there.

nevermind that! i got masters of horror mixed up with a horror documentary series! that’s my bad!

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i think takeshi would invite him shion back if be wanted to come back. since they’d already lost one family member, i think he’d try to bring shion back to get all his childhood friends back together - and probably stop him from going to fight nikaido if shion found out he was behind smokey’s death.

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same i dont really care about the strawberry girls. not giving them too much though really.

ur orange girl + my ojou girl 🤝 being short, dating cobra, kicking ass.

rocky’s scolding murayama for underestimating women, but also turning around to his rascals like ‘if you see the ojou girls in a fight, make sure they’re protected’.

i do love ayaka. and she’s tall (well, 5’6) and i need to balance out my short characters. plus, tall chill second hand and short fiery leader is always a fun aesthetic concept. plus her and hiroto’s actor would be. a very attractive coupling.

if you’re referencing those gifs i sent, that’s more about how she’s acting in the scenes; i think her fashion and hairstyle would be different. the full time ojou students would probably wear uniforms, but the part timers wouldn’t.

more ojou notes!

if ojou’s colour isn’t pink, i could see it being purple. more visually similar to oya’s colours, but a lil more feminine. a ‘royal’ colour for the ‘young lady’ school.

alternatively to ojou showing up at a sword meeting, i could see ojou’s leader - i’ll just start calling her yui - going into sannoh territory to confront cobra, about the ‘o’ in sword situation and sannoh fighting oya/murayama. and then meeting him and being like ‘oh no! he’s hot!’ and then fumbling the ball on confronting him. she gets hit by The Crush™ and suddenly she’s all blushy and ‘uh. ehm…😳’.

if we’re putting a label on it, she’s a lil tsundere-ish

also junko hates her. yui’s so confident in being utterly herself, even when she’s suddenly shy around cobra, and he’s paying attention to her! meanwhile junko’s still trying to make herself look ‘cool’ in front of cobra and he isn’t giving her the time of day. also yui does not care about junko and is willing to fight her, but junko won’t square up.

cobra’s really getting clocked from both sides. he’s got both oya and ojou’s leaders being like ‘cobra-chan~ 🥺’ and then they’re bickering with each other because ‘fuck off cobra-chan’s my friend’ ‘you fuck off, he likes me better’.

[ryuseibutgayer]

I saw your match up game and thought why not so here goes

Fandom preferences: demon slayer, chainsaw man, & MHA

Gender preference: men

I'd say my loudest traits are that I don't give up easily, I put way too much faith in people (even when they don't deserve it), I'm a bit eccentric, and I love studying anthing and everything. Plants, mushrooms, rhetoric, you name it. At the same time I'm kind of an airhead. I can also befriend literally anyone if I try hard enough, and I'm also wildly competitive, but I'm a good sport about it.

My main toxic trait is probably that I don't give up, and I don't know when to. Despite the horrible things people do I always manage to have faith in them, most often for worse. I tend to internalize issues with my partner and blame them on myself. But I can also be kind of petty and revenge seeking when someone crosses me.

I require my partner to be as strong willed as I am or stronger, as well as goal oriented and independent.

I can overlook someone being a bit of a loner or on the flip side, being a bit of a flirt with other people. I'm not the jealous type.

Generally I looked for a life partner in a relationship, but I'm okay with it not working out. I see casual dating as a waste of time and energy.

I prefer super early morning before and around dawn, and sunset/blue hour.

Thanks

Xoxo

Your personality is both unphasable and flexible- above all, admirable and respectable. Your expectations of yourself will rise like the sun of dawn, but you mustn't just sit and watch as it sets to crash and burn beautifully but unknown, lonely on a hill. You are bound to find a strong and cautious individual who will help ease the burn of your gradual internal crumbling- although it can't be up to someone else to restore what you once were.

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CHAINSAW MAN

Aki is a very goal oriented individual who will eventually allow the seen path of vengeance to eat away at his once intense focuses, but with you at his side, being the one to offer a few temporary moments of peace and proving yourself as a trustworthy, strong headed ally, maybe he'll learn to prioritize realistic missions. He will never be the same as before, and you know it. You'll keep this from happening, whether it be joining him for that smoke break or persuading him to put the last one out. You and Aki almost perfectly match and will probably make it through quite a bit if not a while, as long as you don't mind putting your patience to test.

DEMON SLAYER

Giyuu is an interesting match for you, simply because you would both see a part no other may. While his inferiority complex would assure him staying silent is the best option to please you, your self burdening shone through your hardworking appearance and his overthinking to scream clarity into his mind. While you are a determined person, you may become unsure around Tomioka, flipping the hidden nature between the both of you into play. As you may run from this possibility, this would only push him to chase after you further. He'd become a very reassuring partner for you,whether comfort is what you believe you are in need of or not.

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The thing I like the most about your results is the color scheme of your matches- both an antagonizingly beauteous and taunting blue like the sky :>

[the-firebird69]

We're not this Petty pile of s*** that you call your friends here Tommy f and we're not wimps and we're definitely smarter than you and your men are not that bright they're boys and babies and we're going on killing them because they're gross and do all sorts of crimes don't care at all it worse than these idiots and I'm taking all your stuff it won't be long now Mac Daddy plan to do it and I tell you what he has all these Banks no he doesn't run the banks he has this money you know in them and Trump's just run the bags and they're having a war alone was against you. And we are going to war with people like these people who sit there and say we're complete trash and have absolutely no means and sit there in front of our son and say it and we and he says it and we said weapon systems were taking and we say it too feel it soon the fact you see before you'll be real and you'll be in jail in prison a lot because the cops were arrested in terrorism yeah I guess you wouldn't come out. What's going on today that we're taking tons of stuff from you and your attitude is really bad and we're going to make sure you pay for it.

Today then get shot again and tonight last night was shot by Joe pesci and RD and today he goes out and shoots them and tonight he gets hit again and someone else it's trumpster beats him up and viruses wife sister no it's actually Lily who's the idiot EMT in training. She has practically no control over herself it's horrible the judge was going to have arrested my son didn't see it she's looking at her saying out loud stop looking at me that way stop smirking your lips stop smacking your lips she said I don't have to and did a bunch and she said you will be in contempt of court started mumbling all the stuff so that's enough shut up I finally she shut up and she's outside talking all the smack you can't judge talking to him a little bit I want her to be held she says anything threatening against me and she didn't and she's outside and she's saying this I'm going to get that b**** and the judge had the bailiff go out there and she's arrested and she's held with no bail or threatening a judge in Connecticut.

And then goes on tonight and get shot again no you're saying this shot again good try and shoe horn that in there.

And then gets his head kicked in and then tomorrow gets to run over after he gets shot yet and yeah it's the two getting him back and it's from the attacks that we're going on in Vegas are the biggest area and New York City and places like that but Las Vegas is very hot and we're building the second block right now and it will be done and we're calling them blocks because like neighborhoods and people noted that is there a wondering why and if you look at the first block looks different than the second it's like a different type of neighborhood the first area is like a standard casino for those who don't want to venture into the wild weird stuff and then you venture into some strange designs on buildings expires and pyramids and and strangeness and after that is the fourth third block which is a magnificent show of opulence so you work your way up there it's kind of the path our son is taking. As well deserving it's not really a Gamble but boy the comments people are already saying it's very rude it's huge and your casinos are like the same size laid out kind of similar it's not very rude next to Las Vegas probably but it's all new and it's beautiful and inside is on eight and it's really well done everything is a full stone but it's hard and it's rock and it's not flammable and they're commenting on it and complaining it looks too nice and they don't like it the threats and comments like that and love Mafia guys are trying to find the owners and the same stuff to workers and you guys would never make it I also you would have flipped out our son would simply get security which happened a lot. It looks fairly stupid standing there issuing threats and they're just kind of saying it and we walk up and grab them everybody can hear what they're saying too and wanted them out that's why they're doing it so you grab them and they tried to send a bunch over to grab them and they're doing it now non-stop I really needed it it's a big break it's a terrific idea

It's a minor opening it's not fully open but we've had about 450 million customers this morning and open this morning and that's a huge number they're going in and trying to win and going out this thing I should win right away they're not us some people won and they're absolutely insane with it and they go out and they do something illegal and they get arrested by there on people

These people are nuts okay they're so crazy people here are absolutely insane and start banging machines or rest and they go what for this is not our machine but that's what it's for. And the screaming stuff clone and all this other crap and I'm telling him to be quiet so we put a gag on them and they're going in there choking and saying them s*** with signals the question them and we send for the police this is an army of cops down there too and we're there as cops tons of police too

Thor Freya

We need more help here and he's going to eat and stop for a minute

Hera

Sending units now big ones and more permanent bases are going in now I'm ordering it we're always behind here

Thor Freya

Oh estimates of what we really need here please submit them being shy and timid with these people is turned out to be a mistake

Olympus

[willowwhispersspeakeasy]

I want to analyze Azul's character for a minute.

(and the trans vibes he has)

warning: discussion of ED, fatphobia, and trans experiences below.

disclaimer: I absolutely do not wanna take away the very real trauma of cis men with eating disorders. ED is horrible for any individual who suffers from them and my support and sympathy goes out to each of you.

however, individuals in the trans community are at higher risk of developing EDs.

I found it curious the route they took with using Ursula as inspiration for Azul. his suave personality mirrors hers in many ways and its clear to see the inspiration. but I never got the impression Ursula was displeased with her body.

she always seemed comfortable in her own skin. moreso to me it seemed as another piece of evidence as to why she was cast out of the rest of the merworld (that fatphobia played a roll in her judgment).

her villainess motivation was revenge from my reading of her. cast out for looking very clearly different then her peers.

Azul doesn't seem as caught up in petty revenge when we meet him. hes already enacted plenty of it, getting back at a number of his childhood bullies by making contracts.

his motivation is amassing power, and erasing his old self.

Azul does not want anyone to see him as an "octo-twerp" ever again. anyone (cis, trans, fat, or thin) who underwent the kind of bullying Azul did would have life long insecurities because of it.

we also see at the end of ep. 3 Azul does not return to his merform when entering the museum. while the twins are perfectly happy to swim around in their merforms, Azul refuses to do the same.

The Little Mermaid, both the Disney adaptation and original story, are well loved by the trans community, and it's not hard to see why. the mermaid's longing to be "part of that world" echos many trans individuals own experience.

it has always been a queer story, as Hans Christian Anderson wrote it inspired by his own experience of unrequited love with another man. we have a variety of written evidence (primarily his personal journals) to show that by todays labels, Mr. Anderson could be considered biromantic asexual.

as for Azul, I did not get the impression he was primarily bullied for being overweight, rather that it was simply because he "wasn't like the other kids". so, a combination of, not being conventionally thin, and that as a octomer he cannot swim as fast as his peers, or move as "gracefully" as others.

in my own experience as a child, it's rare a kid is bullied for only one thing. its always a collection. if someone dislikes you or enjoys making you react they will use any ammunition they can find against you.

and we know from Floyd that as a child Azul was a cryer. children are cruel and making another child cry is a hell of a power trip.

now, while I do not suffer from an ED myself, I have had loved ones who have. when I had to unlearn my own misconceptions about them, the one that caught me the most be surprise was, the desire for control.

EDs often have a link to the person having a feeling of no control over, themselves, a situation, their future, what have you. Azul made contracts to be able to swim faster, to use his differences as advantages, and to control himself and those around him.

when he looses his contracts, he quite literally looses all control over himself and overblots.

I don't see Azul returning to the sea as a permanent resident again after graduation. even if it would cost him greatly to maintain his human form (repeated use of potions, physical pain, I have some headcannons about it you can find here) I believe he would not hesitate and see it all as necessary.

in many ways I think Azul will mirror Ariel more than Ursula here. Ursula's future was always the sea, seeing the land as only a means to an end. for Ariel, the land was her future.

for Azul, his need to shed his past reputation, and very real physical body, in exchange for the one he has built upon hard work and intelligence will keep him here on land.

Azul is not an "octo-twerp" but a human man. he certainly "passes" better then the twins. (personally I was shocked the rest of the cast somehow didn't know the twins were merfolk. but with Azul it's harder to tell.)

of course the "point" of being trans isn't "passing", I only point it out to showcase that Azul keeps himself looking more human than the twins care to. Floyd and Jade are perfectly content to be merfolk, and they clearly feel more comfortable in their merforms than human ones.

regardless if you headcannon Azul as trans or not, I simply wanted to take a minute to analyze him and his experiences, and acknowledge them. Azul's story is a trans one, even if he canonically is not.

[istanbulite]

Now that the Lovestruck is ending i wanna say 1 more thing abt my fave series, route — the worst part of Astraeus' story is that you can't be less apologetic about destroying Olympus... (I wanted to like..rub it in Zeus' face (,,ΦωΦ,,) and like.. What gives? Why am I supposed to feel bad... other than like.. harming one of my friends (Cyprin) mother who i also don't care abt... they are there doing absolutely nothing good but being rich and petty

Fr tho never in a moment it felt like the DarKest EndIng as people like to say here, to me its in fact the only Good ending - you save a persecuted group from eternal torment and get to have revenge on the rich elite, get revenge on your unjustly sacrificed mother, gain your freedom and give knowledge to the ordinary people (knowing gods exist etc), have your own power w/o depending on the love interest and w/o giving yourself as sacrifice to Pantheon (everytime she declared she was ThE GoddEss of FaMilY in some of the other routes I cringed so hard.. No girl you ain't) I literally couldn't enjoy any other routes BC it simply does not compare.. At all

Hydra was good I guess but I thought the mc was too much of a damsel in distress and Hydra was a total asshole who's only redeeming quality was not liking Hades

Didn't read Medusa but from what I heard I know I wouldn't like it

Chimera and Cerberus... yeah nothing good to say about it Chimera was slightly better i cant get over the fact mc literally had to b passed around like sheep in Cerberus' story, oh good now Cerberus owns the mc bc he Fought W Another Man how romantic

Alex.. I could never get into it... idk can't really place it... But I can't see them anything but a friend to the mc - not even a crush.. It felt so mild and emotionless.. Anticlimatic.. WhERE ARE THE FEELINGS,, THE LOVE??? Annnd it lowkey pissed me off when the story said the mc's mom was buried in Olympus tho like -- no? i totally refuse that lol she died a horrible death bc of the gods.. no way let the woman Rest

Hades --- yeah the capitalist in a suit we established that.. i liked his route for a moment when i ignored %75 of it, wouldve liked it better if he had long hair and robes or sth different.. sth charming.. But nooo we cant let men be pretty here </3

[everyhowlmarksthedead]

big brother to the rescue.

BEN MILLER

TRIPLE FRONTIER. ┃ USEFUL LINKS.

❝ request by @meteora-fc: hello hello! hope you're doing well :) i was thinking about a ben miller fic where when they're in the bar towards the beginning the reader is there with her friends and the boys push benny to talk to her bc he's getting distracted from conversation by her across the place. thanks a ton 💖

❝ words: about 1.6k.

❝ a / n: if you'd like to read a second part, lemme know! don’t forget to comment and reblog if you liked it, i’d really appreciate it!

“C’mon, little brother. She’s been looking at you the whole night”. Will says palming his back, after catching him distracted for the third time.

“Go, before I do”. Frankie challenges him with a petty smile, knowing it’s going to be enough to force the boxer to take the step.

Taking a deep, deep breath, finding in that gesture the encouragement he needs, Benny goes straight to you, waiting for the bartender to serve you another beer.

At first, you don’t notice his presence, until the unknown guy stops by your side leaning too over the bar. You two cross your gazes, sharing a soft smile that makes your knees tremble. The blonde looks really good, but for some reason, you have the feeling that he could be an idiot, so when he throws at you one of those horrible pickup lines, you can’t help but roll your eyes.

“I’m gonna give you advice. Don’t hit a girl like that”. You just reply with a chuckle, referring to his words.

“I’m more into hitting men”.

For a second, where you were about to leave with your drink, you squint at him having a sip and trying to understand the meaning of his affirmation.

“I box, professionally”.

“Oh…” You nod your chin, puckering your lips, showing him that this fact doesn’t impress him at all. “Congrats. Good luck in your next fight”.

Not giving him the chance to continue the talk, you come back to your table under the attentive looks of your friends, who are laughing at the poor guy and the gesture on his face. His brothers, on the other hand, have slapped their faces whilst shaking their heads disappointed. As soon as Benny joins him, Santi slaps the back of his neck, causing him to choke in his beer.

“There must be something wrong with my eyes, ’cause I can’t take them off you? Really, Benny? Really?”

The guys are laughing when Pope repeats his sentence, as Will puts an arm over his shoulders. “You’re lucky to have me… Big brother to the rescue”.

Anna nudges you, making you turn on your stool to watch a second guy walking towards you, very secure of himself. The only thing you wanted tonight was to have fun with your friends and seems it’s not going to be an option. Crossing a leg over the other and nailing an elbow on the table, resting your chin on your palm, you force a smirk when he offers you a kind smile.

“Good nights, ladies, sorry to interrupt. William, a pleasure”.

The man holds your free hand without asking for it to stretch it. Firmly. Like only a soldier would do —as your father does. He turns for a second to his friends, laying his oceanic and hypnotic eyes on you with a charming and funny grimace on his face.

“Sorry ‘bout my brother, you know... too many punches”. He has captivated your friends, who are gasping for him and the honeyed tone he’s using, covered by a raspy voice. “He has watched you looking at him and he was nervous, but he’s not a bad guy. Just a little asshole. But he’s worth it, believe me”.

“Okay”. You reply slowly, raising an eyebrow earning your attention little by little.

“He has begged me to not come, but I think you’re too smart to not have a date with him”.

“Your brother was right, you didn’t have to come. And you’re wrong, more or less. I’m very smart, but having a date with him doesn’t seem a very intelligent idea”.

“Got it. But he’ll be waiting for you at seven in Kaleo’s, tomorrow night”. A negative it’s not an option to the soldier, showing you his perfect white teeth in a huge smile clapping his hands before leaving. “Good night, ladies. Have a good time”.

Since last night, you've been debating with your friends if you should go to the date just to prove both men were wrong. Lucy would call you crying if you text her in case the guy is another idiot.

The first test is to see if he'd wait for you, arriving thirty minutes later than the hour William told you. Your heart can't help but race a little when you find the blonde boxer sitting on the hood of a black Mustang, in front of the restaurant. Wearing a white t-shirt and black jeans, he has both legs crossed and his hands laced over his lap. Head bowed down and a sigh escaping his lips as he checks the clock on his wrist. Poor guy, he's thinking you are not going to come.

You send a picture of him to the chat group where your friends are asking you if he's still there and, in less than a second, you receive a bunch of heart emojis from all of them. Keeping your phone in a pocket, as you tuck in your hands too, you begin to walk towards him. Step by step. Taking your time with a soft smirk curving your lips as you come closer and closer. Watching him texting someone too, you roll your eyes, imagining it's to some random chick to hang out with, due you have stood him up. Until you're almost leaning above his shoulder and you see he's texting his brother —who is very interested in knowing if you're there or not. You melt as he replies: “amma wait another thirty minutes, maybe there's traffic”.

“You can say to your brother I'm here”. You whisper into his ear, taking him by surprise and causing the boxer to jump off from the hood.

“Oh, fuck. You scared the shit outta m— Where you readin' my phone?”

“Nah, I've some witch in me”. You lie terrible, feeling goosebumps on your arms when his gesture changes suddenly.

A grin like a Cheshire cat decorates his face, offering you his phone as he pressed the small microphone in the bottom right corner.

“Hey, big brother, I came. I hope you weren't wrong”.

“I'm Ben, by the way”. He introduces himself as keeping his phone in a pocket, to offer you his right hand.

“(Y/N)”. You stretch it then, feeling a little nervous at his touch.

“So, this is the plan. We have a beer, and if you think I'm a freak, you can run away before dinner. No questions, no explanations. You just… leave”.

God, that's really sweet. He's nervous too and you can see in his blue eyes how scared he is if you really decide to disappear.

“Deal”. You accept, tilting your head to the restaurant.

A couple of minutes later Ben is sitting in front of you and the first thing that captivates your attention is the fact that he doesn't put his phone on the table. Living in the technology era, everybody keeps an eye on their devices. Constantly. But he's not like everybody. He wants to talk. Know about you. What you do in your free time, what you do for a living, what unveils you at night… And you talk for hours.

Ben tells you what pushed him to be in the army, why he decided to dedicate his life to boxing and he also jokes about how you could fix him up after his fighting. Something like a plan of the future. Together. As friends —as he points out to not make you feel uncomfortable, thinking that he is forcing you to have a relationship. You also discover that your taste in music and movies are very similar, just like your hobbies. And that makes you think about the fact that William will tell you “I wasn't wrong”.

The boxer gladly takes you home, not stopping your chat even when one of the two of you doesn't know what to say, Benny has shown you in some way he enjoys too much the sound of your voice though —how it goes a little higher when you're excited about something, how your throat vibrates when you laugh. And he's falling in love with the disgusted tic that wrinkles your nose when you don't like something, in a funny gesture.

You would die for staying together a little more, but you have obligations to attend tomorrow and your friends haven't ceased sending your texts asking you how it's going. As Ben stops his car next to your house, you sigh not knowing what to do —if just say bye, thank you, ask for his number, kiss him? Yes, you'd like to kiss him right now, but what does it say about you? Should you wait until the second date?

“Got a fight tomorrow night if you're free”. His proposition pushes you back to reality, turning at him on your seat while resting a shoulder against it. “You can invite your friends, mine will be there”.

“Your brother too?” You ask giggling, noticing the change on his grimace to somewhat underwhelmed because of your interest.

“Yeah, he will come”. Ben mumbles pressing his lips after nodding briefly.

“Ugh… Is he the kind of person who has fun saying I told you?”

Ben's gesture suddenly changes again. The shine in his blue deep eyes reappears and you provoke him a strong laugh when you furrow your nose like he literally adores.

“You've had a good night then?”

“Yes”. You don't hesitate to respond, leaning towards him to press your lips on his cheek with a loud kiss.

“See? He told you”. Ben can't help but make fun of you, earning a soft punch to his shoulder that makes him laugh one more time. “It's in the Holou gym, at seven”.

“Okay, I'll not forget it”. You reply, taking your phone and setting an alarm an hour before starting to have time to get ready. “Good night, Ben”.

“Good night, (Y/N)”.

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Why these Lookism Bad Guys are liked, a rant by me

Alright, so I have came across a post talking about how Johan is hated on despite being a "bad person", and trashing other characters for absolutely no reason other than guilt tripping people. I personally think the post is immature, but due to my own personality and mental state, it has still got me kind of pressed, because it all sounds ridiculous. This post will be about some people in Lookism that are viewed as a bad people and or are hated on, and why I think they are liked. I won't speak for everybody liking these characters, and it will include some characters that I hate. This post is just to give a general idea for people who are really ignorant about why some characters might receive love. You might have come across that post, and if not, I am talking about this one below. - Well, only a small part of it, that threw me off. -

I didn't include the person's username out of respect and also so they don't feel attacked or anything of the sort.

Before starting this off, there are a few things I would like to say. If I sound petty, I truly don't care. I never saw anybody hating on Johan, at max maybe give criticism, I also don't hate Johan or try to disvalidate anyone's feelings, just get some things straight. Liking someone's looks does not immediately mean you are attracted to them, neither does liking the person's look you are attracted to mean you are toxic. It means you are loving. If you like someone's personality, you will find them beautiful consciously or subconsciously. If someone finds a character handsome, it is not a crime, people have types and preferences, and if they do it's none of your business. Hating good looking people doesn't make you woke, neither hating on people who are attracted to good looking people. What are you, Crystal Choi? And yes, people will be attracted to looks, it's a normal human act. People will notice if they find someone more attractive or unattractive which is not a bad thing. What is a bad thing when they start treating people different because of it. I assure you, most of the lookism fandom that I have came across doesn't do that.

This post will not include Seong Yohan because I never saw him get hated and I don't think nobody knows where he is coming from.

Samuel Seo

Yeah, so what seemed to be a surprise for me is that not a lot of people like Samuel, or at least understand why the people liking him would. Now, I personally feel no romantic attachment towards him. - Which is yes, normal, even if he is fictional. It's called fictophilia and I better see no judgement about it. - However, I do love Samuel a lot, and would love to care for him and grow a strong bond. To me, Samuel is not a monster. At all, believe me, Samuel isn't liked only for his looks. For me, personally, I love him so much because I can relate to him. I absolutely hated him at first, but grew to love him because he is human. He is complex, has a hard life and isn't perfect. That's exactly why I love him, and someone else I really adore does too. Yes sure, as you grow to like someone's personality, you find them handsome and or pretty. It's so much easier to say someone is pretty than to say, 'Hey, I love this person because they helped me go through so much.' Not everyone has the same love language, not everyone is comfortable with blunt affection. Besides, Samuel can and will achieve anything he wants. He has SO much sides to himself, not just 'good looking violent guy with big tits'. That's not Samuel at all. Besides, if PTJ oversexualises him, it's hard to not notice his body.

Yes sure, Samuel hits women, but I personally, don't f%cking care. Your vagina doesn't define if you deserve violence or not, your behaviour and the person's you face personality does. I am personally someone that doesn't mind violence as long as the person deserved it, because some scumbags in this world do. If they happen to be a woman, that's not on me, they shouldn't have done whatever they did. If you are not a violent person, I am not even sorry to tell you this, but you are probably sexist. It's not like all women are fragile and unable to get hit. Besides, if his violence is the problem, why is it fine that he hits men? Because men can handle it? According to statistics women have a higher pain tolerance. By your logic, you should call him out for hitting anyone in his way. Stop acting like hitting women is a necessarily bad thing, start saying that hitting innocent people is a bad thing.

If you must hate on him, maybe use the fact that he killed his abusive and neglective parents. Don't give a hard time to others for liking him though.

Ahn JongGun

Does Gun seem like a bad guy? Absolutely, he has done some horrible things. Then why do we like him? Because he seems to have a smaller character development coming, he has so many things to him and he is an absolutely incredible and complex character. I am very curious of his background and what caused him to be so violent and yet so calm. I like him because he allows himself to be human. From his religion, to his knowledge of material arts, to his adoration towards Vasco's material arts teacher - I forgot his name, so excuse me for that -, to his attention to details, to his fashion sense, it all makes him human. It's nice to see someone be a human, instead of just 'hot guy' or 'villain'. He is a nice character that brings many depth to the story. I could list a hundred of reasons why I love him, and no, none of it is his "weird" fashion sense. I do find him incredibly stylish, I just think some people in this fandom don't understand fashion. - Oops, I guess. - My main reason to liking him is that he is most likely either bisexual or pansexual. That he has a crush on Daniel. I might seem like I have a weird fetish or something, or that I am a crazy "fangirl". That's not the case though. I am a part of the LGBTQ+ community, and while not huge, I adore the hell out of the representation. It's nice to see such a smart, elegant and powerful guy be the representation. Because he is a character that's not there simply to be gay and full of stereotypes. Like, no hard feelings if you fit into stereotypes, but as a person who doesn't fit into them, it's a refreshing thing to see someone that's allowed to have many sides to himself other than just 'the gay friend'. Of course I am sure there are a lot of people who have many other reasons to love him, like his endless knowledge of material arts. There is so many reasons to be interested in his character, and just because you can't see it that doesn't mean others are blind to it too.

Yeah, he might have slept with countless women, but the main reason you can't count it is because he never stated the amount of women he slept with, neither did anyone else. Sure, he did say that Daniel is better than any women he ever slept with, but for all you know that could have been 3. Even if, it doesn't matter. He could have slept with 3, or 70 women. It doesn't matter, because not everyone's sexual life will reflect your own. And other people's sexual life is none of your business. Sure, you can say it's only fiction, and that I am overreacting, but when it comes to such small or personal details, people tend to put their own personal view into it. It's really not fine to shame others for their sexual life. As long as he uses protection, and didn't make anyone pregnant and doesn't play with the feelings of anyone, who gives a f%ck.

Some people tend to lash out sexually if they experience trauma or stress, and no, I don't mean they go and r%pe people, I mean that they go and have sex with different people who give consent. Even if he doesn't do it because of that, why does it bother you so much? Sex isn't a disgusting act. Some people like it, some people don't. Whatever their decision is, as long as no one is hurt, you should respect their decision.

Kim JoonGoo

Alright, this got me f%cked up. Goo is such a good character, and no way he would ever cheat on his S/O. He has morals and a lot of good sense in himself. Sure, he might have said that Samuel will be his secret friend, which led OP to believing Goo would cheat, but that's... a terrible reason, in my opinion. Gun knows that Samuel works for Goo, and Goo owns up it too. Besides that, nothing, absolutely nothing would lead to the fact that Goo would cheat. Because he wouldn't.

Now, why do I like Goo, and why some other's might like him too. He is such a well put together character, unpredictable yet so simple. He damages people to a point they have to retire, doesn't get scared of murderer, is a money maniac and hates his boss. You would think, he is dirty and fits the "gangster" stereotypes. That's not the case at all. He is more hygienic than most of the characters of lookism, if not the most hygienic one. He hates drinking and smoking, doesn't have tattoos - not that there is anything wrong with that - and is incredibly patient.

He might be a money maniac sure, but his ability to control money so well the way he does just shows how high his IQ is. I find that amusing, since it's something hard to do. What I completely love to the moon and back about Goo is his creativity.

When he gets into fights, he is patient and maybe let's himself get hit a few times. That's a good thing because he has time to learn about what he is facing. I think that's neat, because not a lot of people think about that during fights, and he taught me to do that. Also, the way he harms people is very creative too, no matter how harsh that sounds. He stabs people with chopsticks, kicks people with a glass piece stuck in his shoe and harms people with a katana. It's all so unpredictable yet fits him so well. I really love the way he fights and handles situations because it tells so much about him. Also, he is so fun, who would do karaoke after beating a bunch of guys unconscious? Only your one and only Kim JoonGoo. He is such a fun person to study and to read about.

So, no, I will not put up with the bullsh%t that he would cheat on his s/o, because he is a very respectful and none judgemental person. Just because his fights look violent to you, and his friendship with Gun unstable, that doesn't mean he is a bad person. It just means he is different from you, and yeah, he does f%cked up things, I won't deny that. That's exactly what makes him an interesting character.

Xiaolong

Now, I personally don't like Xiaolong that much, so this will not come from heart, but a place of logic. For a disclaimer, I am not caught up on the latest chapters, because I want to binge read it.

Now, even though I do not like Xiaolung, I can see why other people would.

He is a responsible person, who takes good care of himself even though he has to look after Vivi 24/7. He is not only good in his job, but takes it very seriously too. He isn't afraid to take action to make sure his job is going smoothly, and that everything is on it's place. He would do anything to protect Vivi, which can be appealing to some.

And from what I saw from spoilers, he is very strong. No, admiring his strength does not make the person toxic or fragile. It means they find the place in their heart to appreciate the type of struggle and hard work he puts into it. He has an unique way of fighting, which I could only see a small portion of. However it's clear that he must be impressive. I completely understand if people find that neat.

Also, Xiaolong seems like such a f%cking loyal person. That's so incredibly important. A lot of people can find that appealing, for various reasons. I am aware there are poly people, or anything similar to that, but loyalty is so important for some people and can form a very deep sense of love.

Yeah, he might take care of Vivi when she is drugged and let her get away with drugs but consider this that's his job. He is payed to do that and swore to do his best in it, as it's very important to him.

Outro;

Yeah, I don't care, like who ever you want to and defend them, but if you drag down other characters and guilt trip people because of liking specific characters, you are not going to be "woke" or special. And I will find you, and e a t you. - For legal reasons, that's a joke. -

That is not the only post that I saw shame those characters and people who like them, but is the one that made me messed up.

This fandom absolutely loves shaming people if they love the character design and looks of their favourite character. Let me tell you something though; You are missing the point of the whole manhwa you are reading.

Finding people attractive and beautiful is completely normal. Treating them differently because of that is not. As far as I am concerned, I never saw any lookism fans hate on characters they find less attractive. - Rather on the attractive ones. -

People have a type and that applies to looks and personality. Literally everyone does, even if it's unconsciously.

If you want your favorite character to get more love, don't make other people's comfort characters look bad on purpose, because in their eyes they aren't simply the bad qualities you see in them. And if you highlight them at least make sure they are true or at least reasonable bad qualities.

Well yeah, that was my little rant. And I didn't even mention the psychological aspects of why each character is like, or in other words what people they might attract. Or, the difference kind of personal life experiences people had to go through to appreciate each kind of little detail about the characters.

Yeah, this is the end of my little rant. If this post will get actual mature answers and discussions, I will make a similar one for Vinjin, Logan, Olly and Jiho. Yeah, I hate all of them, but other people might not.

END

[its-tie-kir-ra]

Isn’t it funny that shipper love to preach that fiction doesn’t affect reality and that anti should get a life yet here they sending anons and saying horrible shit. I been in many fandoms before but this fandom takes the cake for being the most delusional and pathetic individuals I ever seen. This is what antis mean when we say that shipper self-insert themselves into rin. No one should get this mad over a ship or people opinion of said ship. However, these shippers take it so personally. It sucks even more that people can’t even have an opinion on the show because if we do shippers will complain and say we are fake inuyasha fans. Even though yashamine contradicts everything in inuyasha. Yashamine is a horrible show, sessrin is portrayed horribly in yashamine which shippers should be more mad about, and finally the show and ship will never be canon.

I've been in a ton of fandoms too (I'm like 720 in fandom years, lol) and maybe i've just had really bad experiences with fandom, but i don't see this ship war (for lack of a better term) as something that's the worst of the worst. Like there's been some godawful stuff that's been done in the name of fandom.

In terms of your other point, personal anecdote time:

My first ship EVER was Sailor Moon and Tuxedo Mask. My mum would rent the VCRs for me and I'd wear them out (i didn't have TV channels growing up because we lived so far out of town, so my parents would rent out old kids cartoons for me, I grew up with the original pokemon series from the 90s rather than the one that was airing when I was a kid). I have vivid memories of pestering my mum into rewinding the scene where they discover each other's identities over and over and over again until she finally just showed me how to do it. One of my first memories watching TV is when Mamoru (or Darien, depending on the version) was angsting over who Sailor Moon is.

Like they were my Inukag. I loved them then, I love them now. They're the reason I am a sucker for opposites attract and I'm 99% positive that the only reason I like tall, awkward, geeky, dark haired men is because of Mamoru Chiba (he's such a loser nerd, I'm smiling, I love him). I have very personal feelings for them. And I won't lie, when I see personal headcanons I don't agree with, I'm extremely petty about it (internally, I wouldn't ever say something nasty to anyone over it). I know it's childish, I know it's silly. If a show came out that had the two of them breaking up, I'd be absolutely heartbroken. It's a very personal, intense feeling that makes no sense and I know is absolutely nuts. And I'd wager a bet that a lot of us have a ship like this to some extent.

I'd imagine a lot of SessRin shippers starting shipping it when they were very young, maybe even Rin's age themselves, and she was the character they related to the most. Moreso, they liked the idea of just wandering around the forest with a tall, pretty demon protector, which like, I get it, that sounds cool. But they also had to deal with the idea of being attracted to him too. Like they didn't want to be Sess's child, they wanted to be his spouse (and there's just the whole thing about how a lot of people often find the concept of a completely platonic relationship between a child and an adult is wrong because why would an adult want to hang out with a kid it must be sexual to some extent but we don't have time to unpack all that and also the glorification of romantic connections in the media we consume across the board because platonic, who?). They wanted to grow up and marry him themselves. So, they start shipping him with Rin. And this attachment to the ship continues throughout adulthood because why wouldn't it?

So, when it becomes canon, you have this overwhelming need to celebrate it. Because this is what you wanted, right? This is the thing you've been waiting for your whole life? No matter if it makes sense or not. No matter if people around you are saying it's terrible. Your ship is CANON and that's what matters. The word "canon" means a lot, no matter how much we scream about how something being canon doesn't matter. We're emotionally attached to some ships, it just is. Who/what we ship can say a lot about a person, and a lot of people have shipping patterns (for example a lot of people who ship Inukag also ship Edwin from FMA, two idiot hotheads ships where they're also extremely protective of the other). Emotional attachment to ships just happens, just like how we're emotionally attached to stories.

And in that situation, it doesn't matter whether things make sense, whether you like it because you feel validated by the creator. It's why you see people jumping through hoops over the whole "hogosha" thing even though, like, language doesn't work like that. Words mean things, friends. You're high off of being canon. Like we've seen this happen before where ships are badly written but it doesn't matter because being canon matters.

Shippers should be mad about how it went down. I'm angry for them. They deserve more than what it turned out to be. It would be like if Usagi and Mamoru got married at the end of the manga without seeing their relationship over time, when no, that moment was only so great because we saw how it went.

sorry for the ramble. and sorry but I am adding gifs of my heart, because a re-read is almost in order and I'm in a mood. 🌕❤️🌏

Thank you for the ask!