#i dont actually act on either of course but i really cant say a lot of the violent destructive ones are intrusive

[mihai-florescu]

I have very little care for if a person is "good" or "bad" as long as they do good things tbh. I dont care that youre thinking up 100 ways to kill a man rn as long as you choose to act kindly in real life. Well maybe i just wish this was how everyone approached morality and essence or whatever because i am talking about myself

[wannabelife]

semicolon – ksy

pairing: hoshi × afab reader

genre: smut

synopsis: "stop acting as my boyfriend" "but then what's the fun in that?" (not original but a cliche that works right?)

warnings: fwb, jealousy, pinning, teasing, college au, kinda unhealthy, penetration, oral(f), workship, reader is kinda of a dick towards the end, lots of cum, slow

"stop acting as if you were my boyfriend"

"but then what's the fun in that?" he asks, playing a smirk on his lips that you hate to admit drives you crazy.

you know that is just the teasing you like to have in your relationship, but both of you never know if that's really just teasing or something else; and you will never know either, because you never talk about it. it is like your relationship stands in a semicolon, more to be just a comma and less than a point before something different.

"you come here in just a tiny skirt to see my friends and think i wont claim you"

"you dont own me, soonyoung"

"i know" he press your waist harder, coming closer to your ear "such a shame, isnt it?"

you had come to his dorm to leave his charger he forgot with you, you actually didn't know he had his friends over. jun is one of his friends and also someone who does some share classes with you. it's not a secret for both of you and soonyoung, that jun has a little crush on you.

the thing is that jun came to talk to you about the quiz you have next week, and you ended up staying more than planned. soonyoung hates that you two chatting and laughing together annoys him so much. he had to control his manners a lot while talking to wonwoo and woozi. not only because, technically, you two have nothing serious but also because no one actually knows you've been hooking up.

jun is back to his friends, getting things ready to play some online game as you approach them.

"okay, im leaving" you announce.

right after that, you feel someone get your wrist and pull you close, you stamble a bit and fall sit, only when you're already on soonyoung's lap that it hits you. what is he doing?

"oh no, stay over. i need to talk to you about something" soonyoung speaks up and you cant help the frown that appears in your face.

the boys are just as confused. and now that you realize, they are here and watching. you try to break from soonyoung's body, but he just presses your waist harder, hooking his hand under the pocket of your jeans.

"what's that?" you ask.

"just something about our class"

"but we dont have classes together this semester" you are still frowning and trying to understand this whole situation.

"what are you talking about? of course we do" he throws back at you in no time.

"are u sure because i looked at—"

"we do. the boys are already leaving" he cuts you off, and everybody else is just as lost as you because they were just about to start the game.

anyways, they did as soonyoung said and left. and that's how you two ended up here now.

"you like when i wear skirts" you say angling your head to the side while looking at him playing innocent, fighting the smirk that wants to appear on your lips.

he has you pressed at his dorm wall right next to the door where he sent his friends off.

"you right, i do" he burries his face on the crotch of your neck, leaving wet kisses there. he nibbles at your ear, whispering "maybe i should cum all over it to let everyone know im the only one who gets to see what's underneath it"

you gasp at his words, and he takes the hint to start kissing you. he cages you between the wall and his body, his mouth on yours and suddenly the room is too hot.

soonyoung brings your thighs up, taking you in his arms as you cross your legs around his waist "is this ok?" he makes sure and you nod.

having the green light, he walks with you in his arms to his bed, laying your body on the mattress. as you are laid down, he keeps eye contact while sliding his shirt up off his body, undoing his belt to take off his shorts right after it. you are hypnotized by him, his dick giving volume to his boxers.

he goes slowly to you, resting his hand on your leg before opening them up for him. your breath gets stuck in your throat when you see him sitting in between your thighs.

"can i take this off?" he asks his hand on the skirt you are wearing.

"yeah"

"but i dont want to" he goes closer to you, yanking your shirt up a little "what about this?" he asks playing with the material.

"yes, soonyoung. you can take it all off" you say already impatient for him to do something.

he pushes your shirt up and you help him undoing your bra taking it off too "fuck..." he lets it out looking at your hard nipples on full display to him "you are so beautiful"

"soonyoung... touch me" you whine, he smirking at your greediness for him.

he finally listens to you and go for a kiss, his hand making its way to cup your breast. you moan at the sudden motion, opening space for him to enter with his tongue, deepening the kiss. when he's done with one side, he goes to the other side, slightly pinching your nipple making you whimper in his mouth.

he continues, trailing wet kisses at your neck, sucking here and there, your panties starting to stick to your core. he keeps going, kissing down the valley between your breasts. you arch your back trying to get your cunt closer to his cock, as you moan, begging for more contact.

"you sound beautiful" he lets you know, getting your right nipple in his mouth, sucking the flesh. you tug his hair as he's moving to the other one, caressing his teeth around it, your eyes rolling back at the feeling.

when he is satisfied, your breast glistening with his saliva, he goes further down. trailing kisses down your belly until he places a kiss to your clothed core. you whimper needing more but he's taking his time.

he looks up, admiring your figure, your nipples hard, a wet spot on your panties, your eyes closed, collarbone and neck exposed to him with the red marks he left earlier.

"my god, you're heaven sent" he grunts slightly feeling his cock twitching on his underwear. his sweet words hitting you as you clench around nothing.

he dives right back in, taking your panties in between his teeth, pushing them down your legs off of you with his lips, finishing up with the help of his hands.

he kisses your inner thighs, sucking the right one, going to the left side afterwards, giving the same attention. he pecks right above your clit, not reaching where you want him yet.

"sonnie, please" you whine, eyes going shut and brows connecting in frustration.

soonyoung smirks at your desesparate figure, he didn't even have to make you say it, you're already begging. so needy, he thinks.

he licks a long strip of your cunt, down up to your clit, finishing sucking the flesh. you wince at that as he does it one more time. he teases your entrance, tasting your juices on his tongue.

focusing on your clit, he is back up, circling slowly the muscle before picking up his pace. you whine begging for more of him.

he hears you and adds a finger inside. your hands gripping at his hair, making him grunt on your pussy. he works his fingers inside you as he sucks your clit, the build right there on your lower tummy. as he greases his teeth on your clit, curling up his fingers inside you, you clench nonstop as you cum.

he slides his fingers off of you, and you whine at the loss. he replace it with his tongue to clean you up, moaning at the taste of your cum.

when he's done, he goes above you again. you two connect your mouths in a heated kiss, and you wince feeling your taste on his tongue. you start taking his boxers off, wanting it to be gone.

"you are just so impatient, arent you?" stopping the kiss, he smirks at you.

"quit it, soonyoung. i need you to fuck me" you say quite desesparate.

"i thought we had nothing to talk about" he provokes and you roll your eyes at him "don't do that, you're going to regret" he presses.

"stop talking" you reply, taking your hands down to get his length around your hands. he hinces when you were about to start stroking him.

he takes your wrist making you stop "is that right?" as he says, you angle your head to the side, looking at him with questionable eyes.

he goes closer to you, searching your eyes with his. he places a kiss on the top of your nose and smiles at you. you melt for him, and before you realize, he is hugging your waist, flipping you over. you yelp, your face hitting the mattress.

he gets your ass up by your waist, getting you closer, you can feel his hard cock pocking your asscheek as you swallow dry. your skirt still on display for him "should i keep my promise?"

he starts caressing your ass, slowly taking his length out his boxers with his free hand. you feel his naked skin on yours, so you open your legs, giving more access to him. he eyes your wet cunt on full display for him, the view making him gasp behind you. he plays his fingers up and down your slick, collecting some of your juices.

"please..." you beg needing him inside you.

he ignores you for now, collecting some more of your arousal with his fingers, bringing them up to his lips right after. he sucks them dry, humming at the taste.

attending you, he takes his cock by the base and aligns it with your entrance. you both breathe heavy at the contact as he slides in. the warmth of your pussy hugging his length just right. he throws his head back in pleasure, a low moan leaving his lips as he bottoms out. he gives you time to ajust, you clenching around him, making it hard to wait.

"ready?" he asks, and you push your ass slightly trusting on him, giving the green light.

he starts thrusting on you, the wet noises filling the room as he peaks up his pace. getting both of your hands entralaced with his fingers, he places it on your back as he keeps thrusting.

you close your eyes, feeling how good he feels, your face burried on the pillow as you moan. when you think it can't get better, he lays his body down. his sweaty upper body on your back, his face right above your shoulders. you can feel his hot breath on your skin.

he hands your waist with eagerness that will probably leave red marks afterwards, but you dont care as long as he keeps thrusting hard inside you. you can't help but bite the pillow to silence your loud moans.

"i wanna hear you, yn" he sounds out of breath, setting a peck to your exposed shoulder.

"soony- aah- fuck, you feel so good"

"shit" his cock twitches inside you, and he takes it off making you whine "look at me" he flips you over again, so easily like you weight nothing. your hair messy, plump lips and rosy cheeks. he looks at your wasted form above him and your heavy breathing.

he aligns his length with your entrance again, back at thrusting at you. he looks at your nipples and exposed collarbone, where he goes down to leave a love bite, making you whimper. he peaks up the pace again as you moan his name.

"you know what, maybe i shouldn't have sent my friends off" he gets his face close to yours, whispering to you, your lips almost touching "i'd love to make junhui hear you moaning my name and know he doesn't have a chance"

you clench around him because of his dirty mouth, hating that you like it.

he smirks on your skin "you love it when i say things like that, dont you?"

he goes back up, taking one of your legs on his hand, putting it up to his shoulders, his head cock reaching the sweet spot inside you, making you mewl at the contact. he ajusts himself, hitting your spot repeatedly as he thrusts, the new position reaching more of you. you feel your high building again, he presses his hand on your lower belly, and you swear you see stars.

he keeps his eyes on yours, you fighting the urgo to close yours, tears gathering around it as the feeling starts to get too much.

"fuck... i- a- aaah- am- cum- ming" you were able to slur it out as your legs shake and you are cumming around him.

he doesn't ease on you, keeping the same pace riding your orgasm. your nails digging at his arm trying to find balance as he twitches inside you.

he takes it off on time, cumming all over your skirt and tummy, some of it hitting your breast. he lets it go with a low moan, eyes closed, and his head down hidden by his sweaty hair.

you are both catching your breath when he slides his tonge all over your naked body, cleaning his cum before it dries on you. you moan feeling like you could be wet again just by this.

after being done, he hugs you in his arm, laying beside you on the bed "you are perfect" he says, burying his face on your neck.

"i bet junhui thinks it too" you try to joke but he freezes, you feel his body getting stiff behind you "oh- i didnt mean it. im so-"

"shut up or im making you sleep outside"

he tries to ease the situation, but you can still feel the thick air formed around you. why are you two always like this? could you possibly be hurting him? is there a reason for him to be hurt? he would say it if that's the case, wouldn't he? maybe that's not a semicolon your relationship is standing on, but a question mark.

[sadkois]

nishiki thonkin tonight

spoilers for kiwami. some rggo stories. but maybe not accurate spoilers cause i feel my brain meltin. also warning for complete nonsense... and blood? anyways.

thinkin about how nishiki was like. so competent at what he did?? mans knew everythin about how the yakuza worked back in the 80s... U COULD TELL HE WAS WELL INFORMED OF EVERYTHING. he knew about the ugly parts. he knew about majima. and he was the one explaining to kiryu everything asgdhj like lets say. the consequences in their line of work.

fUNNY how it was cause of kiryu that he got into the yakuza in the first place. he totally just followed kiryu into it and said "ok well sOMEONE needs to know what we are doing" cause yea kiryu was just followin kazama like a lil puppy (and nishiki followin kiryu, tho he's more like a cat i think. maybe. nishikitty..........)

bUT ANYWAYS what i was getting at is. he's very competent. so. him snapping and getting to be one of the BIG patriarchs (GET TO THE TOP!) isn't really a surprise. OF COURSE that brings me to the other point...

HERES THE THING. in kiwami we don't really see much of this competence do we? (ignorin the writing of the first game for a second ok, wORKIN WITH WHAT WE HAVE OK)

first it's like hes barely there, then you have his subordinates just. making HUGE mistakes, not actually achievin -doin- anything or even just. NOT listening to him at all. like when they killed yumis "sister" or the whole. reina and shinji.

OK SO. everyones got their onions 🧅 on rggo stories. FOR THIS THONK IM ASSUMIN MOST OF THEM DID HAPPEN. so in rggo we have that one story about what happened with reina and nishki when she tried to shoot him. and its like. nishiki didnt actually order for either of their deaths??? basically we had reina pulling a 'y0 nishikigun' on nishiki. and then well....

god i really gotta talk about reina and nishiki sometime cause i been thinkin about em a lot too. like reina liked him a LOT and i think nishki liked her too as a... sort of distant friend? does that make sense? idk what its called exactly. but yea i cant recall if they have ever interacted outside serena. (except from when they first met, another rggo story.. but that was like. a few minutes and then they were in serena lmao) it feels like a. 'i only interact with u when i come to this place' kinda deal. of course, goin there used to be constant until... not. nishiki totally distanced himself even more after the whole ordeal happened. and trust issues. (@ others? @ himself? yea)

crap. what was i talkin about. sEE THIS IS WHY I DONT AHSDJKL. what i was sayin is that, in that rggo story with reina, it just looks like nishiki's subordinates do NOT listen to him. at all. shooting at her when he keeps sayin "DON TSHOOT HER" "DONT KILL HER" "BRING HER BACK ALIVE"

SO BETWEEN THIS AND THE YUMI SISTER THING. WHY DOES NO ONE LISTEN TO HIM??? AND WELL. ok listen if im statinn the obvious im sorry, again. just writin down what im thinkin cause im tired.

but yea i think the most logical thing is that, the way he's been managing things for the last 10 years has been very different to what we see in kiwami. why else would his men resort to shoot first questions later. it's almos like that was the norm before... as if that's how things worked in the nishikiyama family all this time.

so anyways. nishikis been tryina be cool about it. so so cool about it. but the moment kiryu got out of jail messed him up SO BAD man. i always say this but, mans was just 100% avoiding kiryu as soon as he stepped out, and i bet ya he started acting different to what his fam is used to, too.

like imagine u work for this boss at idk. mcdonals. you are familiar with the routine and what they expect of u. ur boss specifically wants you to always make fries a certain way, at a certain time, he himself showed u how. this is routine. one day as you are makin the fries, its suddenly WRONG and boss is upset and kills u and u dont know wtf is going on. (u r dead) because thats what we usually do?? why is it wrong all of a sudden?

tHATS THE KINDA VIBE I GET FROM HE IN KIWAMI

aight imma be honest i cant recall if he already had this whole plan before kiryu got out. like, did he take kiryu into consideration or not. cause he either. 1. did not take into account kiryu would be here 2. did not think kiryu being here would mess up his plans THIS bad (and when i say this i mean mess HIM up so bad he cant go thru his original plan) 3. everything was actually supposedly part of his plan (HA, I DOUBT THIS. MAYBE HED SAY THAT BUT WE KNOW IT AINT TRU NISHIKI OK) im leanin to 2

you know that part when nishki's like "i was shaking when i shot kazama". like, that was only cause he knew kiryu would hate him if he actually killed him, right?? right???? LISTEN I KNOW ITS LIKE A THING OR JOKE THAT HES BAD WITH GUNS OR SOMEHTING BUT i actually like to think he got good with those? i prob read it in a fic but i really like that headcanon asgdhj, i feel like itd make sense too. and him missin the shot cause of shakin hands, is because of KIRYU and kIRYU ALONE. where his hands even shakin actually?? didnt he just say that?? nishikis just got that unreliable narrator vibe. NAH HES THE WHOLE UNRELIABILITY. AND WHATSMORE. HE HAD TO COME CLEAN TO KIRYU THAT IT WAS HIM THAT SHOT KAZAMA. HUH? WAS IT EATING YOU UP BOI??? did you need confirmation that indeed, kiryu would hate you for it??? "hES NOT DEAD YET" yea??????? yeaaaa?????????????

LIKE LOOK. the few rggo stories we have of the era between 1996 n 2005 show that he IS indeed very competent! and he has very good control of his fam! and we have the proof of it in kiwami as well, even if its more tell than show? kind of? BUT THE MOEMNT KIRYU IS OUT THIS ALL GOES OUT THE DRAIN. WE KNOW HOW EMOTIONAL NISHIKI IS. WE KNOW IT LEADS HIM TO TAKE NOT SO RATIONAL DECISIONS. (Y0 FOREST NISHIKIGUN FLASHBACK) and god he tried so hard didnt he.

like ok ill admit u got good at repressin ur emotions boi. or turnin them into anger. or keepin a poker face. closing urself off or really just, started seein everyhing as hopeless in a 'whats the point anymore' kind of way. a combo of everything?

in a way nishiki did end up killin himself along with matsushige, but i dont think he did completely. but that's what he convinced himself of. yea? does that make sense? DAMMIT U ARE SO COMPLEX I LOVE IT

thonks. U KNOW its not like anything went right back when he was more... emotional in a way?. i mean, he always did kinda hide his emotions huh? just in a different way.... i mean, when we are first introduced to him in y0, i dont think anyone expected anything like the forest scene from him. i remember being speechless. like oh my god. and i have to say i am BAD at understandin stuff. like i usually understand plots/etc when im watchin reactors play the game asfdghj. BUT MAN did that scene leave me stunned asgdhjk.

but yea with how gOOD everyone around him was at displayin emotions, it makes sense how he ended up :) ... that was sarcasm, im sayin eveyrone around him freakin sUCKS at emotin asgdh, and in fact he was like, looked down at for it. MAN HE DIDNT EVEN CRY THAT MUCH. I MEAN, HE WAS GOIN THRU THE WORST CRAP EVER ??? WHAT DID THEY WANT HIM TO BE A ROCK ASDJKL TO BE KIRYU i guess the two most role figures he had were always very :/ but man this is why i keep sayin he needed an ichiban in his life. it would have been so good for him... an emotionally mature guy, who isnt afraid to cry and show his love for others.

GOD NISHIKI LOVED SO MUCH. IT HURTS ME SO BAD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

the way nish is just like. tryina become what he knows yakuza are supposed to be like.... what they are like..... his big man suit.... agh

idk where this thonk went. it started as a yes nishiki is very competent and he only had L after L in kiwami because kiryu being back threw him off so bad. so so bad it ended up the way it did :( if they had just talked, like really talked..................

man idk if anyones readin this, asdhgjasd kinda embarassin. hello hi. u are cool. uhh here have this drawin i did months ago that i havent posted anywhere (IT WAS BEFORE THE NEW YEAR RGGO CARD. not like it isnt just a combo of his two hairstyles but i was still like GASP)

hohooo with my attempt at a post kiwami nish :) did u know i also have a vampire au from months ago. would anyone like to read about that. its incredibly self indulgent. yea sayin this at the end of this nonsense cause im a coward agsfdyhgiog

[notthestarwar]

for the WIP game, can you tell me more about ‘Fox gets a job- quin/ Fox’ 👀👀

thank you for asking!

OK so i know i've talked about this on here before but i love this au so i'm gonna repeat myself a bit probably.

so its set post war, no order 66. The idea is that the war opened everyones eyes to cloning, in a very bad way. loads of half bit criminals are like. free labour? people we can raise to do whatever we want? why don't we give it a try. theres a background of a lot of shitty gangs going about trying out cloning in a way that would horrify the kaminoans really. this is not good science, this is comic book-esque backstreet cloning in order to take advantage of people.

they are largely not successful. the problem isnt that there are loads of gang owned clones around. the problem is that they keep trying even tho they dont know shit about cloning and so vulnerable ppl are getting kidnapped off the streets for gennetic material and in a baby farm type way to grow clones in. its bad.

enter fox. he's drifting after the war. he doesnt really know what too do with his life. he is looking for a job and he says he wants a job but everytime he gets an interview he's overly honest and tells them things like 'yeah i killed my last boss' (palpatine) and 'my greatest flaw? i'm too competent. it makes my bosses feel inferior' and so understandably nobody will give him a job

he doesnt actually need a job. quin is paying all his bills cause theyre in a weird not relationship and wont admit they care about eachother. fox is deadly embarrased about whatever quin funding him and spending all his days off in fox's apartment might signify and so it is a MASSIVE SECRET that must be kept from fox's brothers.

so fox at this point in his life, stumbles on to one of these cloning ops and ends up helping someone. and it becomes kind of addictive. he wont admit it but helping these people, who are being hurt by cloning, settles something in him. maybe it settles the thing in him that he wont admit is so hurt by the cards he and his brothers have been dealt, by what was done to them.

so fox sets up as a private investigator. but because he's a weirdo who runs from intimacy he kind of. doesnt tell anyone (he cant. this is important to him) but of course, his brothers find out anyway and they also find out that he's running the worst business ever because he's not taking money from his clients. because he doesnt feel right doing it.

now where this is building to (and this is the part that i kinda got stuck on) is he stumbles on to a BIG criminall gang cloning conspiracy. one where they are actually succeeding in cloning people. he ends up investigating this one with Boba! which pretty much happens cause at the start before he knows how big this is, he walks in to this lab, and who has also broken in to the lab and is investigating the same conspiracy? BOBA. and its just like. fox and boba stood on either side of this illegal lab like. spiderman meme pointing. looking out of the window of a car as they drive past each other. that vibe.

and the rest of the story is boba and fox on this unwilling team up. neither of them wanting to admit to feelings but having to kind of both admit. yeah. bad things happened to us and i dont like the idea of anyone else being out there with similar stuff happening to them. they also unwillingly get close. then theres the side plot of fox having to admit his feelings when it comes too quin and admit that theyre kinda living like theyre in a committed relationship without the words. and then the other thing thats going on in the background is cody and obi wan, who are living together, in a happy relationship apart from the fact that they never have an empty house becuase one of them is aways inviting some wayward sibling or other to stay with them. cody and obi wan respectively have no shortage of family so its just constant and both of them act like theyre annoyed each time the others do it, but really, its why they love each other and theyre both so big brother coded and yeah.

so i know i've alread shared some bits of this here and here (and possibly theres a third one floating around here as welll? cant find it)

so here are some other snippets from other parts of the au:

and from a bit later on, a quin/fox bit

later on, fox being uncharactaristially honest (it's easier when the person doesnt matter to him)

and finally, fox's thoughts on the cloning problem

and i've shared loads sorry so i'll stop now, but yeah. this is an idea i am very excited about and i am very frustrated that i havent been able to form a conspiracy that fits right for him and boba to investigate

[suffarustuffaru]

I've read some rezero crossover fanfics , but I really don't understand why some people like to impose the whole background and character traits of other characters on certain characters in Rezero, and some fics even directly stated that A in Rezero is in fact B from a certain work, which is very bizarre and disrespectful to both canon source material, it's like B is cosplaying A but is a completely different person on the inside, if you want to insert a character from other works into the rezero world why don't you just keep their original identity and characteristics? Personally, I really hate this type of rezero crossover fics tbh :///

anon i understand you so much hah.

i joined this fandom months before season 2 started airing, so i was there to see rz ao3 pick up and the fanfic scene in rz be more established—so seeing this trend in rz fic has always really confused me tbh?? 😅 and i dont personally like it either for the same reasons you stated. its just one of those rz fanfic tropes that i 1. am not very fond of and 2. am continuously confused by given these arent very fandom typical trends, theyre extremely rz fandom specific if that makes sense (the react fic trend… re:forgotten… etc)? and i dont often see crossovers treated like this in other fandoms, and rz in general seems to be a fandom that really enjoys fic because its kind of. astounding?? that theres a whole fanfic thread that gets continuously renewed on rz reddit and is almost always pinned right at the top of the page. its rare to get a fandom that very openly acknowledges its fic in this way i feel? but you know, you go on that fic thread and you see a lot of people suggesting crossover ideas that—as you said anon—tend to be very “rezero but character a is character b”?? its like such a commonplace thing that occasionally i just go through that thread out of curiosity and read it like you would a morning newspaper hah and you cant go more than a minute without seeing a crossover idea like that.

and if anyone else is seeing this and confused on what the hell that means, one example i see a lot is “rezero but subaru is guts from berserk” wkfndnd

i think subaru is the one this happens most to, just because various audiences have various relationships with subaru, mainly because there tends to be a habit of 1. using him as a self-insert and 2. thinking hes absolute hellspawn or the best most perfect person to ever exist with zero nuance, so the whole “person a is now person b in everything but name and looks” thing is so. telling. like sometimes when i see people talk about a character like subaru it always boggles my mind because its like?? do you… even like subaru as he is? and if youre warping rezero to be more like that other media youre crossing it over with, do you even like rezero either? anon saying “its like B is cosplaying A but is a completely different person in the inside” is exactly how it feels like?? T^T

and of course its not as if you cant write crossovers. i love seeing crossovers!! i read some crossovers myself and ive written a whole bunch of crossovers and i come up with all sorts of ideas. its super fun to do and i completely get it. but the “person a is person b” thing is odd to me because at the heart of it, it feels like it basically means “*insert character* but theyre not actually themselves”. and of course its not like you cant make AUs where things are changed from canon, or AUs where the character grows and changes in general even if its different from canon. but theres a difference between “im gonna put this character through shenanigans and see how they change as a person but theyre ultimately still the same deep down and im examining how theyd most likely realistically act in this situation if this happened to them” vs “im gonna change the entire point of this character until theyre only recognizable in name”. i feel like it completely misses exactly what makes these characters and stories so good in the first place.

also side note: headcanons are a whole different thing because thats just “i have specific ideas about how this character is like” and is usually fine unless youre being pushy about it or condemning others for having (innocent!!) hcs you dont agree with wkdndn

and okay, i also get it if people have issues with how characters or media are written and want to change it. i myself have issues sometimes with how tappei handles rezero, but i still like rezero and so many of its characters. you can critique a media without trying to change what the heart of it is, and rezero for example is ultimately a story with a lot of heart to it and clear purpose behind so much of its writing. and its clear to see some things this crossover trend because so much of it is done with subaru. because it 1. misses the point of all of subarus nuances, complexities, the intent behind his character writing, and what makes him so good in the first place and 2. shows that people dont want him to actually be subaru. they want him to be someone else, which is ironically a plot point that comes up again and again in rezero wkdndnd. its interesting that it comes up so much in rezero too, because i feel like its in part most likely commentary on how audiences react to subaru and often try to change him to fit what they want.

but yeah thats just my thoughts on this whole crossover trend in general 👍👍

[anti-endo-haven]

not exactly sure how to trigger tag this so tldr: venting about an ex friend who fakeclaimed me and a therapist i used to have who didnt really help me and kinda did the opposite (probably not on purpose, but it still kinds fucked some things up for me)

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thinking about the times ive talked about the possibility of having did with an old online friend of mine (who was a singlet) and they never believed me. i did so much research and trying to open up about it but when they told me i should stop it felt like everything i knew had fallen apart and was different

back then i remember before i told him about it i actually had known about some alters i had, they had actual names and personalities and even innerworld features. i remember one of them was a little kid with blonde hair and a pink dress and a black cat hat (exactly like a hat i used to have irl) i havent seen her around anywhere in a couple years sadly, since my friend told me i was faking. i wish she was around longer because she seemed really sweet. i think she went dormant bc of the stress our friend had put us through

i remember i had what i assume was a full switch to her which is why i wanted to talk to someone about it but the online friend i had at the time would constantly fakeclaim me and say things like "you cant be a system if youre under the age of 20" (even though... systems usually develop before the age of 10) and "youre faking because your typing is weird" (this alter was a little, a fucking child, so of course her grammar wasnt gonna be perfect) i literally remember switching to her as me and this person were talking and they still thought i was faking because "you just learned about this disorder and now youre acting like you have it" (maybe because.. ive had it for so long that when i finally found the words that have helped me describe it im trying to embrace it and learn to heal. maybe because for most of my childhood i felt like something deep inside me was wrong and broken and when i found out about did things suddenly started clicking for me)

even my therapist at the time didnt even try to figure out why i thought i had such a serious disorder, she just immediately dismissed it when i brought it up with her. i find it a bit funny though because before i brought up did with her she had told me i probably have *some kind* of dissociative disorder (she never specified) and she even gave me meds for it (which honestly made it worse, i can only remember like one thing from that time period and it was someone telling me "my energy felt off") while i dont think a therapist should always immediately agree with their patient when it comes to trying to diagnose something i think they should try to help them figure out if what theyre suspecting is truly what they are dealing with or if its something else, ykwim?

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im so sorry for this being so long :( i didnt mean for it to be but it still ended up being a whole essay .. anyway this is my first time posting to this blog so hi !

id like to claim an anon tag, would 🌌🕹️ or tsc/the stardust crusaders be okay?

That ex-friend is wild… You can absolutely be a system under the age of 20, I’ve seen 14 year olds get an official diagnosis and be able to get some help/support for it. Not a lot of people might know about it until they’re older especially in therapy because they have to cross bases and make sure it isn’t something else. And even if someone does months/years of research, they might not fully know or be questioning for a while.

Some people also accept it faster than others. That doesn’t make them fake either. For us, we had started questioning when we were around 19, doing research and everything to help out and going to different sources, we’re now 20 and a little bit past the “I’m fake” self-doubt (imposter syndrome) and doing what we can to function.

Your therapist should have absolutely made sure to cross bases. I’m not saying that in like a bad way. But the medication pushing just… isn’t it. That seems really strange to me to just agree, not ask questions on why, and just give medication out like that…

But you guys aren’t fake, that friend is gone, hopefully that therapist, too. I hope you all are doing better!

And, yep! You can claim all of those!

[sirwolficus]

Tell me us more about your version of MJ Watson! What do the initials stand for in Earth-6260? How much of canon!MJ are you incorporating into him? Does Peter tell him about the spider powers, or does he work it out on his own? Is Aunt May still the #1 PeterMJ shipper?

good question, uhh.. theres a lot of different versions of mj! as much as i love the og spiderman comics, theres a lot of them i havent actually read yet (its been going on for how many decades? i dont have that much free time, lol). most of my spiderman knowledge comes from the games, movies and one and a half shows (spectacular spiderman and exactly one season of the 2017 show)

a lot of what i see of mj reminds me of april oneil from tmnt actually, where she's a kind of damsel in distress character that, mostly recently (?) is moving away from that role, and i always remember these characters being like "im not useless i can kick ass!" and then having to be saved. again, obviously, thats just from the media i consumed growing up

so a lot of 6260's mj is actually based on gwen from the amazing spiderman, because i always loved her character. love intersts who actually do shit are my favourite! see anne from the venom movies, being perfectly capable of holding their own even without powers (barring the, uh, having to be saved by the protagonist thing)

since i dont really know that much about mj from any given canon universe (either through lack of characterization in the media, or from me just not consuming certain media) i cant really say that theres a lot of canon mary jane in mj's character. most of it is i tried to look at 6260 peter's softer, more uncertain personality and tried to create someone that could act as his foil, but also push his character arc (in theory).

aunt may is still a huge rooter of their relationship, and rightfully earns the title of #1 wingwoman (right after harry, of course!)

[pesterloglog]

Nepeta Leijon, Jaspersprite

Act 5, page 3894

AC: :33 < jaspers i guess i should say furwell to you now :((

JASPERSPRITE: Why nepeta?

AC: :33 < beclaws this is the end of your timeline and i dont know what catpuns to you after this

AC: :33 < i mean happens to you after this, heheh, that one was kind of obtuse, sorry

JASPERSPRITE: Whats a timeline? :3

AC: :33 < hmmmmmm thats a hard question

AC: :33 < ok imagine a long tempting strand of yarn

JASPERSPRITE: Yes! Oh yes so great.

AC: :33 < now imagine instead of being made of wiggly enticing stuff, its made of what lets you exist

AC: :33 < and you are right at the twitching tip of it, dont you s33? look at the sky!

JASPERSPRITE: Meow yes i see the sky and can tell that indeed something is going on.

JASPERSPRITE: But aside from that i dont really understand what you said being a cat and all.

AC: :33 < thats fine, you dont have to try too hard

AC: :33 < all you have to know is its the scratch and im not a hundred purrcent sure what happens next fur you

JASPERSPRITE: Purr purr i still think its nice how you slip cat things in the things you say youre so clever and wonderful nepeta!

AC: :33 < h33h33h33 :DD

JASPERSPRITE: Whats the scratch? :3

AC: :33 < well you know roses friend john?

JASPERSPRITE: Yes of course!

AC: :33 < imagine that he is using this great big circle like a really fun scratching post, and it makes all this light come out that changes everything

AC: :33 < just after he starts doing that the sky goes funny everywhere and then i cant s33 you anymore

JASPERSPRITE: Yes. :3

AC: :33 < thats what it is

JASPERSPRITE: I think i understand that completely!

AC: :33 < im a bit nervous for you, especially since you remind me so much of someone i already lost

AC: :33 < but maybe youll be ok? i dont know

JASPERSPRITE: Im not worried nepeta so you shouldnt either its not as if i have never died before.

AC: :33 < you are a brave kitty, just like pounce was <33

JASPERSPRITE: Pounce was a cat like me?

AC: :33 < yes! she was amazing, i bet you and she would have gotten along famousely

JASPERSPRITE: Ooh i bet youre right! Purr purr.

JASPERSPRITE: Was she nice to sniff?

AC: :33 < yes she smelled really good, and also, she was SUPER beautyifful.

JASPERSPRITE: Wow!

AC: :33 < did you ever have someone nice back on earth who you loved?

JASPERSPRITE: Rose!!!!! I loved rose. :3

AC: :33 < h33h33, of course you did. i mean a nice cat who was your matesprit?

JASPERSPRITE: There was a time i remember i was thinking about girl cats a lot for some reason.

JASPERSPRITE: I would saunter around the house making all these big meows and looking out the windows with my nose touching the glass.

JASPERSPRITE: But then roses mom took me to this place where i was scared to be for a while and then when i was at home again i didnt do the meows anymore.

JASPERSPRITE: I guess i didnt think about the girl cats after that which is just as well because none ever came to the windows really not even when i did my biggest meows.

AC: :33 < thats too bad

AC: :33 < but i bet lots of girl cats would have loved to be with you, if only there had b33n some around to hear your lovely meows :33

JASPERSPRITE: Youre really nice to say so nepeta what about you though?

AC: :33 < me?

JASPERSPRITE: Yes. :3

AC: :33 < well

AC: :33 < i have never told anybody this not even my moirail

AC: :33 < heh, actually hes the LAST guy i might tell, he so wouldnt appurrve X33

AC: :33 < but yes i have liked somebody for quite some time, but alas he doesnt know it

JASPERSPRITE: What dont you tell him?

AC: :33 < hmmmmm

JASPERSPRITE: Maybe you can win his affection by rubbing your cheek against him thats what i would do.

AC: :33 < ohhh no no no, im too shy even for that!

AC: :33 < and he is so adorably grumpy all the time, it probably wouldnt go over well

AC: :33 < its hard to explain, maybe cats think diffurntly, but trolls tend to be pretty cautious about expressing their f33lings when it comes to the flushed quadrant

JASPERSPRITE: Whats a quadrant?

AC: :33 < it is

AC: :33 < ummmmmmmm

AC: :33 < okay it has romantic applications but it is also something more general than that

AC: :33 < a quadrant is

AC: :33 < how do i say this!

JASPERSPRITE: :3

AC: :33 < a quadrant is a thing in a group of things that consists of four similar things

JASPERSPRITE: Like paws?

AC: :33 < EXACTLY like paws!!! :DD

JASPERSPRITE: I see thats really easy to get.

JASPERSPRITE: I think you should tell him that you like him you might not get the chance if you dont.

JASPERSPRITE: For instance i think instead of meowing at windows i should have just scurried out a door before it could close!

JASPERSPRITE: Then i might have found a girl cat to sniff oh well. :3

AC: :33 < i know, but its just not that simple. i could make someone else jealous i think, and what if he doesnt f33l the same way, and, urrgh, its so complickated

AC: :33 < maybe i just n33d to let go of the silly infatuation

AC: :33 < i think its never going to happen honestly

JASPERSPRITE: You shouldnt lose hope!

JASPERSPRITE: I have another story that might give you hope even though it should be noted again that im only a cat.

AC: :33 < oh?

JASPERSPRITE: Yes one time i was with rose and i was sitting there dressed up in my suit with her as happy as can be.

JASPERSPRITE: But then she disappeared!

JASPERSPRITE: The whole place disappeared and i was in another place. There was no rose there was someone else.

JASPERSPRITE: I guess i loved her too in time but never as much as rose it just wasnt the same.

JASPERSPRITE: I kept waiting to see rose again but never did and finally i lost hope that i would and then i died.

JASPERSPRITE: But then i became alive again and i got to see her and i was so happy! Purr purr purr purr purr.

JASPERSPRITE: Thats my story and thats why i think theres always hope even if you die.

AC: :33 < so, youre saying that maybe i will have to die to get to be with him?

JASPERSPRITE: Yes maybe. :3

AC: :33 < i hope thats not the case!

AC: :33 < but i guess you just have a different way of looking at things

AC: :33 < thank you for the advice jaspers!

JASPERSPRITE: Purrrrr.

[sumbier0]

JUST FISNISHE DWTACHING FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDYS FILM AT CINEMA. BOY

IM SO GIDDY

SPOILERS OF COURSE!!!

IM so glad [atleast in my country] its classified as thriller it does wonders because its just clearly not horror. Its like Goofy 80s horror film and I love it. It still got some mystery [well to people who already know the game snot that much but theres still some sliver of it]. Idk i cant classify it as any genre

BUT FUCK IT I HAD FUN!!!! THATS WHAT I HOPED FOR!!!

The beggining and end were the best, middle atill was okay for me still fun :] I didnt expect Cute moments with the animatronics it was so goofy and I dig it <4

And!!! Im glad that vanessa wasnt just the love interest! I dont think it even was implied that either mike or vannessa fell in love with eachother actually. Hell for me, who knows most of the fnaf story, she was most of the mystery! Sure her plot was predictable but I think it DID make sense in the movie so its really enough for me. Tho she really has a lot going on and it would have been nice to see more of her past! Or to see that in the future?

Also its so funny to me how the plot with jane ended with her just getting fucking killed lmao

AND IM SO SO GLAD WILLIAM DYING IN SPRINGLOCKS HAPPENED. I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE IT. SURE IT WASNT WOAH SO GORY BUT IT WAS THERE AND THE PERFORMANCE WAS GOOD IMO!

also hehe william really didnt give a fuck about anyone I dig that actually

Also all the references/easter eggs were fun!!

Also lmao when I realized that waiter guy was matpat. I whezeed.hes here

Love how our hate for baloon boy got acknowledged as a gag

AND WHEN THE CREDITS ROLLED. THEY PLAYED THE FIRST FNAF FAN SONG. BOY SO MANY OF US IN THE CINEMA CHEERED

To conclude: as a fnaf fan I had fun!!! Really I think my expectations have been met I didnt expect a stellar film and yeah its no that but I had fun!!

Objectively? Yeah of course its not a great thriller. Average I would say. The plot is still holding together but no tense atmosphere is really there. Characters were fun, not woah complex but fun and acting was neat! I quite enjoyed the soundtrack of this film :] a lot of 'emotional' moments didnt hit it for me but hey im still glad mike and Abby are happy

Honestly I just think there isnt exactly a good film genre for this film? Maybe im just not knowledgable enough? But it doesnt feel right to say its thriller. And its also not right to say its comedy for me

Its just. A fun movie. Nothing stellar but fun and I wasnt bored!

Okay no this si not gonna be exactly related to the movie but

IM FUCKING SERIOUS WHEN I SAY I FUCKING LOST FEEL IN MY FINGER NERVES AFTER CLAPPING AT THE SPRINGLOCKS SCENE WHEN WILLIAM AFTON SAID HIS FUCKING THING. EVERYONE WAS CLAPPING AND CHEERING AT THAT POINT TOO I THINK

Just in general love how we all in that cinema at some points had the same reactions dhdhds

Everytime afton showed up I was laughing in mischief

It was awesome to watch it on a premiere day :]

[wswe-autism-fic]

seeing as ive already given my opinions on the entire mario timeline, i may as well do sonic. no, it will not be as in depth. why? because oh my god have you ever tried piecing together the sonic timeline??? dont.

basically, i believe most alternate universes to be canon. and by the way, if its an au i havent enjoyed, im not counting it lmao.

classic games!!!

i like the generations version of things, where the classic games are when they're all younger. i'd say sonic's probably about 12, tails 5, knuckles 13 and amy 11. robotnik can be about mid to late 30s at this point and i cant be bothered with any other characters lmao

and before someone goes 'bit odd that sonic's eye colour changed lmao' ik but like it reminds me of my brother. he had the same colour eyes as me when he was a baby (really dark brown) but now his eyes are hazel (or, as my dad calls it, 'autumn'). i also like how the only reason they specifically chose green was for green hill zone. i think that's really sweet.

i also like to think the OK KO crossover happened about here, if not, very early on in the modern games. maybe sonic underground??? actually, no, i dont think sonic underground could be canon.

modern games!!!

the modern games happen in the order that they happen in. dont ask me about the weird bit. actually, just dont ask at all - nobody knows what to do with this bit. im also counting the idw comics as modern games seeing as they're apparently canon now? yeah idk either.

as for fleetway, archie and any other comics i cant think of, i havent read them, i dont know.

for the ages, generally, sonic's 15, tails 8, all canon ages, yada yada EXCEPT for amy. i dont like amy being 12, so in my head she is 14. i dont even ship sonamy, just the entire thing of her being 12 when sonic is 15 and those two being probably the most canon sonic ship out there that isn't technically canon (STOBOTNIK DOES NOT COUNT JUST IN CASE IN THE FUTURE ITS EVEN MORE EXPLICIT) really makes me feel grossed out.

oh yeah and seeing as he doesnt have a canon age, robotnik is vaguely 40.

post-timeline stuff!!!

this is mostly where actual theory comes into play, because before this point its like, yeah? we knew that? i get that sonic boom is an alternate universe, but i... i like sonic boom. i like it a lot. so it's canon in my eyes. tbf they do all look and act much older, so i'd imagine boom is a future where they're all adults. as of posting this, sticks has only just been made canon, with that mention in frontiers, so if she really does end up in any mainline games, they just happen before this. probably. i dunno, maybe they'll ruin this entire portion.

i think that robotnik is probably late 40s, early 50s by this point, and tbf i think the main cast overall is only rough suggestions, because i could imagine sonic boom happening over the course of a few years. sonic is probably about 19-25, knuckles 19-26, amy 17-24, tails 11-15, and im pretty sure sticks is about knuckles' age canonically? so we'll say she's 19-25.

i get that shadow is 50 and whatnot, probably about 55-60 at this point, but i generally think he's like, a few months older than sonic if we're going based on why we count age (experience and stuff), so probably 19-26, like knuckles.

this is where i think most crossovers take place: mario & sonic, all the weird sega sports games from the late 2000s to mid 2010s (im looking at you, sega all stars tennis/sonic and sega all stars racing (but specifically for the wii (because thats the best version))), stuff like that. with the mario timeline, i said most crossovers aren't canon, but with sonic, anything is possible! because of that, the only crossover than comes to mind that definitely wouldn't be canon is smash, and thats because smash is canonically a kid playing with their toys.

the bit where i lose my mind (aGAIN OMG THIS HAPPENED WITH MARIO)!!!

I AM NOT DOING FULL RAINBOW FOR THAT TITLE OK I CANNOT BE BOTHERED SO YOU GET IT IN PURPLE INSTEAD BECAUSE I LOVE PURPLE.

anyway, this is the bit that couldnt possibly be canon. or hell, maybe it could, the sonic lore is never logical. basically, if you havent read the mario theory, i ended up linking it to undertale, saying that undertale is basically the future of mario, at least for my favourite characters, wario and waluigi. this is like that.

hear me out:

my hero academia?

i'm sorry, but i cant help but think mha is like sonic now. its definitely more of a stretch than undertale and mario, so this one i count as being less reliable, but like... yk how shadow in every tv show has to beat tails to a pulp? shadow is bakugo and tails is deku. as for rouge, rouge is transmasc legend, kirishima. idk who omega is, but tbf he doesnt have a life, so maybe thats why.

and sonic is like all might! and knuckles is like kirishima again! but knuckles can also be iida, if he likes! and amy is uraraka! and i need therapy!

sorry. again. im very sorry. i formally apologise. i could never make this up to you. sorry.

[menalez]

hi. you dont have to reply to this ask if you dont want to or if you do you can make it public Idm. also I dont mean to trauma dump so pls just delete this because tbh its too much. tl;dr at start Im starting to doubt my sexuality despite being in late 20s. also, tw sex, rape, csa, cocsa, etc. so, I've always known I kinda like girls and that Im more likely bi than straight. I was in love with one during highschool and I felt intense sexual attraction towards a close friend in uni. I was p far left back then so I thought this must be that demisexual thing where you only feel attraction once you get to know people LMAO. then I had some crushes on guys here and there, was virgin till 24 and then slept around way too much with guys. never had experience with a woman. now Im in proper relationship with a really nice guy. recently I started watching a show and identifies way too much with a lesbian character. like from how she acts to what she says regarding women she feels attracted to. I havent been able to sleep for past two nights and Im starting to wonder if I even feel attracted to him.

until we recently moved in together we had sex. a lot. but I had a meltdown because of past sexual trauma, all the sleeping around because of other reasons than wanting to have sex, (loneliness, low self esteem) csa and cocsa at hands of female relatives, so that also confuses me. we havent had regular sex, maybe once in a month. and last time I was hoping it to end soon and just waited it out. I dont blame my bf, hes never done anything wrong, and I was the one who told him to keep going. ofc I had told him Im bi but now Im so unsure if about what even attraction means. I honestly never felt that intense attraction towards a guy, ever. Ive felt that with several women, like random passerbyers and such. some women I couldnt take eyes off of and had to just move along because I felt like a creep (which also factors in me not wanting to look at women In That Way because thats how men look at women and its just hella confusing as a fellow woman who doesnt want to objectified by men either) Idk how much Im convincing myself I love men and society has brainwashed me. Idk what Im wishing to get out of this, Im just stressed I dont love my bf in That Way and this is just platonic love, that Ive convinced myself into doing even stuff like kissing and hugging because Thats What Im Supposed To Do.

anyway, thank you if you read it so far, thank you for your time. I would really like some advice if you have any but you also dont have to if you dont want to. btw I love your blog and if you cant tell I follow you on here. keep up the good work. <3 I hope you have a nice day!

aww that really sounds stressful and like a difficult situation anon :( honestly i think many lesbian & bi women go through some moments of doubt and confusion at least at one point in our lives so you’re not alone there. tbh i would encourage talking your feelings out with someone who knows you well and someone you trust, they can help give you perspective. sometimes we identify with something a lot that it can confuse us in many ways. and if possible, maybe experiment with women? it’s kinda hard to understand your attraction when it’s kinda just .. abstract?

to me it sounds like you may indeed be bi & maybe cycling (bi cycle) or perhaps you have a strong preference and are just realising it. however, i can’t determine your sexuality for u as i do not know you. this is why id recommend experimenting but of course you should be transparent with everyone involved (your boyfriend- idk whether you’d ask him if it’s possible to be open or something else, and whichever woman you experiment with). i overthink and doubt myself a lot and actually being with a woman definitely helped me. pushing myself to be with men to “test” whether im into them was personally highly traumatic for me so if someone thinks they’re a lesbian but has never been with a man & isn’t sure if they’re into it… id highly recommend NOT trying. getting clarity faster will never be better than not pushing your own boundaries and risking traumatising yourself. to me it sounds like you really need to be single right now and just explore yourself and try being with a woman and see how you feel from there. there’s also no shame in being unsure and not labelling your sexuality either.

also facing previous trauma like CSA especially can really make it hard to understand your sexuality, from my experience most bi & lesbian women who go through such intense confusion and identity disturbances like what u described have faced CSA too.. so you really aren’t alone there ❤️❤️ i wish you luck anon. you’ll figure it out you just need to give urself space and time

[dumbbitchfrommars]

i might be completely crazy and delusional for thinking this is going to work in the way i want/hope/expect it to. its not like hes spent the last 4 years missing me, wanting me back, or hoping to one day win me back. its not like he even tried. he let me go...

but somehow were still inextricably linked. we keep holding on and thus keep on appearing in each others paths. but could it be fate, or could it be our own doing?

im in my head.

realistically, he is going to put this in the too hard basket and leave it be. because of course he wouldnt want to be rejected by me again. i tried leaving him time and time again, and when he tried to get me back i kept on resisting. resisting and resisting for years.

its high time i get a taste of my own medicine.

i think its only right if i message him, i cant expect him to reach out. ive made the connection. ive sparked his attention, i followed him. follower number 111. now i have to ask for what exactly it is that i wanted to gain from this.

hey... i know this is going to sound completely crazy and out of the blue. and i totally respect if you're not interested. but i was hoping, if you'd be down, to catchup sometime for a coffee and conversation. i think there is a lot that was left unresolved between us and i would really appreciate the opportunity to talk to you, properly.

then what...?

we meet up. we talk. i somehow bring up the question if he'd ever want to be with me again. high chance he doesnt. lets say he does... we somehow, awkwardly, and completely unconventionally start catching up again...? then what? how long would it take for us to even warm to each other again? were not even friends....

we aren't even friends. i dont know him. he doesnt know me.

but maybe the connection is still there!

my certainty is suddenly dissolving.

i dont know. i dont know... i still trust my decision to unblock.

but i am confused. what comes next? does nothing come next? is this the point of it all? even more self analysis and instrospection?

could we be together again? could we love eachother the same way again? would that be possible? theres only one way to find out. and it feels like there are a million and one barriers resisting us from getting there. why am i so deadset on this all of the sudden? this is what confuses me most. how i can go from one extreme to this seemingly out of the blue. all because of one sex dream. all because of a fucking planet spinning in reverse.

this doesnt seem right all of the sudden.

im not really sure how to go about this to make it work in the way i want it too. maybe it is simply too late. maybe - thats okay. i miss him. i want what we had again. but maybe, thats not possible anymore. maybe it wasnt possible when i ended things between us. maybe it was never meant to last.

i remember once saying it wasnt fair, that he had asked me to catchup. it was when i blocked him from my facebook. he took an opportunity that he felt was the only right thing to do, in that moment. exactly like what im doing now. but it was fair, actually. its hard to have to be the one with enough sense to put the foot down, to say "this isnt actually for the best, for either of us." it was always me. its nice that the responsibility isnt on my shoulders for once. this is my final goodbye, i suppose. this was my closure.

weirdly enough, i feel secure in that. more secure, and in the flow, than when i am hoping for him to reach out. i know what will happen. and he wont reach out. and thats how god planned it.

thats okay.

something shifted again. i maybe acted irrationally. maybe a bit impulsive, and spur of the moment. but thats me. and it needed to happen to set me free. there was no need to cut the cord - because it was barely hanging on by a thread to begin with. im setting us both free. youre welcome, darling. im gonna miss you. but im so, so, so glad its done. i love you. i want the best for you. i wish you all the best and happiness you could ever dream of. its time to go our separate ways... how fucking terrifying is that.

but how can it be scary, when ive been doing it for the past four years already? at the end of the day, of every day, ive got me. ill be here waiting to take care of me, love me, and look after me. ive got my people. ive got people who love me and support me and respect me. ive got higher powers looking out for me, guiding me, and protecting me. its safe for me to let go. my heart wont shatter. my heart wont shrink until it ceases to exist. its still here, big and beautiful and strong. and full of love. full of space for more love. more and more and more love. endless joy, love, and romance.

i trust you. i trust you. i trust you,

i love you. i love you. i love you.

its beautiful. the change, its so massive, its transformative, its magical and so emotional. i feel on the verge of tears, but i know that i am safe. i am okay. just completely in the flow of what is meant to be. having an inner knowing that there are forces much bigger than me at work, guiding me and leading me to where my frequency is matched. like im riding a wave. im floating on a boat on the most hectic, roughest waves ive ridden in my life. im healing. im growing. im aligning with my highest self. ive levelling up. im literally shifting into a new fucking dimension of being. im evolving. im becoming the most beautiful, powerful, divine embodiment of ME.

i love you. i love you. i love you.

ive got you, always. ill protect you. ill take care of you. im sorry that this is so confusing and difficult. growing up was never easy... change was never easy.

ive got you. and God has got me, too.

[dateamonster]

if anyones curious, heres a big ol list of anime horror ive enjoyed that dont revolve entirely around cute children being harmed for shock:

paranoia agent: an awesome single-season show thats perfect to binge-watch imo. it follows the interwoven stories of several victims of the phantom figure known as shonen bat who takes the form of a child in rollerskates and attacks strangers with his beat up baseball bat. the only thing that seems to connect these victims is that they are visited by him in a moment of absolute desperation, and somehow their lives seem to improve after being attacked. to say anything else would ruin the mystery. give it a shot. this series owns and the intro music is iconic.

perfect blue: i feel like everyone who likes animated horror already knows about perfect blue but if not, you absolutely should. a suspense heavy, brain-breaking thriller about an ex-pop-idol who quits to become an actress, only to be haunted by a mirror version of herself who is less than happy with her decision. her grasp on reality starts to slip as the pressures of her new job and a string of violent murders slowly chip away at her sanity. definitely mind the content warnings for this one.

yamishibai: an anthology series of short scary stories presented with fun, simplistic animation. every episode is fairly short iirc so its very easy to just plow through the whole series. especially good if ur the type to enjoy a classic ghost story.

serial experiments lain: sort of hard to explain. this is another like Classic. it is about a highschool girl so i am sort of breaking my own rules here but like the vibe is entirely different then what you might expect. its a trippy, deeply weird series from 1998 about the ways technology may begin to encroach on our lives and shape our identity. i really love older media that speculates about the ways our relationship with tech might develop in the future. if you like scifi and psychological aspects to your horror, you will probably like this.

pet shop of horrors: i havent actually seen the anime so i dont know how well it holds up but i was obsessed with the manga as a Youth and id recommend at least giving the series a look. anthology-like with a connecting thread of a spooky pet shop where rare exotic and sometimes deadly creatures are sold.

lily c.a.t.: its alien except its not. scifi horror about the crew and passengers of a spaceship whos interstellar journey is thrown off course by a shape-shifting alien invader. literally if you like alien or the thing or anything like that, this is that but animated. i think the strongest thing about this one isnt necessarily the horror of the alien itself but the horror of being stranded, far from home and trapped in a confined space with a bunch of near strangers and a massive yawning void just outside your window. there are some moments in lily cat that just made me think about how huge and unforgiving not only space but the passage of time is and im honestly still a little freaked.

akira: i mean, obviously. i dont know what i could say about this that hasnt already been said except this is the movie that made me start getting into body horror. its beautiful, its horrific, its a fucking staple of dystopia fiction. i guess you could argue its more scifi/action than traditional horror in a lot of ways, but some of the stuff near the end (that i def saw when i was too young to be watching this) taught me a whole new definition of fear so. do with that what u will i guess.

there are a couple more i cant remember the names of right now so ill come back to this if my brain ever decides to start working again. almost all of these contain some really heavy subjects so be careful and seek out content warnings if you need to.

also i dont really care about subs vs dubs arguments but a lot of these are on the slightly older side and as a result some of the english voice acting work is... not great. either way do what feels right to you just keep that in mind.

[technowoah]

Hi! If you do tommyinnit x reader (romantic), I would like one where reader is tubbo's sister perhaps? She would have the feature reader has still not tubbos. Maybe they meet when tubbo and tommy meet up and he just kinda starts to like her? If not that's ok! -paw <3

Prepare For Trouble Make it Double

I hope this suffices 😋

Requested!

Romantic(?)

Tommyinnit x Tubbo's sister!reader (blurb?)

⚠︎ its tommy so it'll be slight swearing-

It wasn't a secret that Tubbo had siblings, he had Lani of course, but what people didn't know that he had another sister closer to his age.

You tended to stay out of the spotlight, for reasons. Streaming was interesting but not your fortè. You usually tended to stay behind the camera when Tubbo was streaming or off to the side quietly talking to him as he did his own lore or sitting on Lani's bed doing your own thing listening to her talking to her viewers.

Your siblings never tried to convince you to go out of your comfort zone and appear on streams, only once in a blue moon you would talk to Lani out of frame. Lani of course would respond, the chat would freak out asking if you were a friend, finally the moment was gone as fast as it came.

Thats how days go in their household. Tending to hover around eachother and whatever they were doing at the moment. But it was this one particular moment when Tubbo was streaming and he suddenly decided to bring you on to show his 700k viewers that he had another sister.

He had pulled up a brown folding chair next to him and patted it beckoning you to sit down in frame.

Tubbo was currently streaming on the Dream SMP, you didnt think he was doing lore today so you hesitated a little bit. Other days you wouldn't have budged out of your spot out of sight, but he looked so excited in his yellow jumper you had bought for him whe going to out to the shops.

In a unrelated note You remember saying that "yellow is your color" and he ended up buying it, and his stans loved the jumper. So a win win.

"C'mon Y/N!" He yelled as continued to pat the folding chair next to him.

You ended up shuffling over to the seat next to him and smiling at the camera. Over in the corner of your eye you saw the chat which was going 1 million miles an hour. You saw some comments that were basically copypastas of other comments in the chat. It was basically nonsense, now the only thought in your mind is that you're going to make an uproar on twitter.

"This is my sister chat!" Tubbo said while shaking you around by the shoulders making the both of you laugh.

"Yes chat! I have more siblings" he continued while rocking back and forth in his gamer chair.

He continued to answer more questions and ask you some too, wanting to include you in the stream.

"Lani isn't the only one! My big sister is just shy."

"I just chose not to be on their streams! I was in the background of Lani's streams though."

"Out of frame. Dosent count." Tubbo said bluntly while still walking around SnowChester in the Dream Smp not looking your way.

You could still see the chat in the corner and you couldnt tear your eyes off of it. It was slight glare from the lights and the sun shining in his gaming room. He always had the lights bright in his room. The chat was spamming purple hearts and either still freaking out that Tubbo had a sister. It was getting old to you, so you decided to lean into Tubbo's space focusing on his screen as he quickly hopped around the map.

He continued talking to chat about anything else, but your presence. He continued to talk about gathering supplies and what he needed to bring back to SnowChester. You knew a lot about the Dream Smp lore because you weren't in it. Spending time on Twitter interacting with people and their theories and also making theories and showing them to Tubbo and him debunking them, or accepting them in some way.

"So we need some more lapis." Tubbo said suddenly after being quiet for a while.

"I can help you!" You said wanting to be apart of the stream.

You might as well, you're already here.

"I dont think you can help, 'cause you're not on your account. Plus it'll be awkward with your laptop." Tubbo said while speeding through his water transportation system.

"Well I can just point it out to you." You said while leaning back into your seat.

"Talk to the chat while I go mine for lapis."

"Fine then." You smirked as you turned your attention to the speeding words in the chat.

"Is there a slow mode on this?!" You laughed.

Tubbo laughed as well. "This is on slow mode!"

You both screamed in fake agony and then turned your attention back to the chat where the you caught a few questions. You were about to answer until the chat stopped for a quick second and you saw one comment out of all for a quick second.

✔tommyinnit: HI TUBBO'S SISTER IM TOMMY LETS MAKE A VIDEO TOGETHER

After that comment the whole chatt was just spamming the word 'TOMMY' or 'TOMMY IS IN CHAT'. That confused you even more than that comment.

When you did know about the Dream Smp you also knew a little bit about who Tubbo hangs out with. You knew about the time Tubbo had met up with Wilbur Soot, Philza, and Tommy. And that prompted you to look up their individual accounts and get into their content.

You knew about Tommy and his character and channel, you enjoyed his content a lot as well, but you wanted to play around a little bit. Hopefully Tubbo will play along.

"Why is the chat spamming Tommy?"

"Tommy? You know Tommy don't you?" Tubbo asked with a small bit of shock in his voice.

"No I dont, who's Tommy?" You asked again, acting oblivious.

"Oh. Oh well then, Tommy is like my best friend, we're actually meeting up soon!" Tubbo said with excitement.

He continued. "You hear that chat! You get Tommy and Tubbo content!

You had lost interest in Tubbo talking with his chat about hanging out in Brighton with Tommy again. Your eyes drifted towards the chat again and saw Tommy comment in the chat again.

✔tommyinnit: HOW DARE YOU NOT KNOW WHO I AM

✔tommyinnit: I WILL NOT MAKE A VIDEO WITH YOU ANYMORE

"Well Tommy I dont have an account so, sorry I cant get you views whoever you are." You said responding to Tommy with a smirk.

"Woke up and chose violence huh?" Tubbo laughed and you joined in as well.

"Tommy chose violence today too."

"You both are violent you will be nice together." Tubbo said with his focus still in his screen.

"Together?!" You exclaimed.

"Yeah together!" Tubbo said matching your energy.

You rolled you eyes and continued answering other comments instead of thinking about Tubbo's answer.

After that whole, incredibly longer than you thought, stream Tubbo decides to invite you along to their little meeting. Which you didnt know how you found yourself walking along Brighton's rocky shore in old Crocs. You were walking along the shoreline letting the cold water come up and hit your feet every so often.

He was waiting for Tommy at the moment, but you wanted to walk for a bit, he let you ho on by yourself while he waited for Tommy by himself.

You were quite a long way from where Tubbo seated himself on the rocks, you were doing your own thing looking at people who stared back at you for temporarily blocking their line of view of the shore, and little kids who decide to run away from their parents who weren't paying attention. Your peaceful walk got interrupted by your thoughts because you were quite a long way from Tubbo's resting place.

You started to head back, following back the way you came, but this time picking up the pace a bit to reach your destination. As you came upon Tubbo you saw a taller figure approach Tubbo and they seemed to greet eachother, it was hard to see where you were standing. Of course it was Tommy so the two of them started talking about who knows what, until Tubbo pointed your way.

As you kept walking, Tubbo continued to wave you over enthusiastically. You waved back with the same energy, finally making your way over to the both of them.

"What's up?" You asked the two of them with a smirk.

"Nothing much! Apparently you two haven't met before! So Tommy this is Y/N! Y/N thjs is Tommy!" Tubbo user hand gestures to introduce eachother.

You held your hand for Tommy to shake it, "Hey Tommy! Im a big fan."

"Big fan?! I thought you said you didn't know me?" Tommy exclaimed.

He was a lot less shouty in real life, than online. He was still loud, but to a lesser extent.

"Yeah I lied back then." You sent him a huge grin.

Tommy scoffed and groaned a little, "I cant belive you fuckers lied to me."

"Im actually a big fan. Well not big, but a fan at least." You laughed.

Apparently you and Tommy were the only ones standing while Tubbo typed on his phone while sitting back on the rocks not paying attention and letting you both talk amongst yourselves.

"Oh! That's an honor that Tubbo's big sister like my videos." Tommy's eyes widened slightly as he talked to you.

"Big sister only by 1 year! It's close!" Tubbo complanied, looking up from his phone.

"It still count big man." Tommy said to his friend.

"Thanks Tommy!" You thanked the tall man standing next to you.

"It's only a year! It dosent count! We're the same age!" Your brother continued to complain.

After the laughter and joking around calmed down you and Tommy stood there awkwardly until he spoke up again.

"Well good thing I know what I have to deal with. I cant deal with one of you, now I have to deal with two." Tommy joked around taking a seat next to Tubbo.

The exact moment when Tommy took a seat next to Tubbo, Tubbo shot up from his spot on the ground.

"Do you think we can do Uber Eats here?" Tubbo asked as he stood up.

You say down next to Tommy. "Yeah maybe if you go to a certain place and not say "the beach".

"I'll go to the pizza place and order there. What do you both want?" Tubbo asked, ready to put in any order.

"Just get McDonald's really." You sighed leaning back on the rocks.

"Im not hungry." Tommy said bluntly.

Tubbo nodded and walked away from you both leaving you two to sit in silence for a while with the small waves crashing, and kids having their own fun. It was a comfortable silence to you, but Tommy kept figeting over where he sat criss-crossed.

Tommy finally spoke up. "Im actually fucking starving ya know?

"No I don't! You should've asked for food!" You laughed in disbelief.

Tommy sighed. "Do you want to get some food and ditch Tubbo for now?"

Your eyes widened, not opposed to the idea, but was this his plan the whole time?

He continued on, "We could go sit at that pizza place and order some food there. Just the two of us until Tubbo freaks out."

You opened your mouth to protest leaving your brother in the dark, but he beat you to it.

"Dont worry about Tubbo! Stuff rolls off his back easy."

"No it dosent-"

"Yeah it does! You wanna just go out with me now?!" Tommy exclaimed.

"Are you getting annoyed?" You asked amused at his words.

"No I am not I just-"

"Yeah I want to go to the pizza place now. I would love to Tommyinnit." You smiled at him and he smiled back.

Both of you got up and made your way over to that small pizza diner close to the beach. You only could hope this goes as well as you wanted it to

[levisgirll]

𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 (𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐀𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫)

text: hello everyone! first off wanna thank each and every one of you that liked and enjoyed my writings <3 this honestly makes me happy and I’m glad to know that! so I decided to write this out for everyone as I had many ideas about this cute idea! you, y/n is levi ackerman’s first lover! it was stated by hajime isayama (author/illustrator of attack on titan) in a interview that levi has never been in a romantic relationship, but that all changes when he met y/n. It was also stated that when it does come to romance and love, isayama said that he expresses levi as awkwardly/clumsily when it comes to his lover. So find out some cute headcanons about him in his first relationship with Y/N!

synopsis: how’s it like for levi ackerman to be y/n’s boyfriend? and not only that but it’s also levi’s first partner ever, and including you! But you both don’t know that :,) so, what are the things you both would do as newbies in a relationship? (incoming real cute fluff- and levi trying his best to be your best boyfriend.)

fluff, headcanon, aot world ♡ —

To start off, you guys are both confused. Not sure what to do. Levi Ackerman’s first relationship and his first time having a partner actually makes him feel quite nervous as he wants to make sure he comes out as an ideal boyfriend for Y/N. Would definitely also start to overthink a lot at his start of his new relationship.

That’s cause, he wants to show you he is cool and got things under control and also even stronger towards you, he tries his best.

BUT, he doesn't know that it’s also y/n’s first relationship! and when they joined the Levi squad after Eren was taken in by the survey corps. Levi caught their eyes, and their causal interactions, talks and bond started to grow and slowly developing feelings.

Eren would definitely figure out that you had a crush on Levi and he would say in a shocked tone “Seriously...out of all the men. It’s the scary captain you like!”

After you guys got together, he started at first to show you some of his affections which is ruffling your hair, and he would do that whenever he catches you looking down or not smiling. He wants the best for you, and to smile instead. He wants to see that on your face cause it was one of the many things he loved about you. You lowkey liked that everytime he would ruffle your hair and you could feel his soft and gentle fingers on the top of your head, so lovely it makes your heart race.

He would let you call him Levi at first and he would kinda get upset sometimes when you say captain.

Whenever you go outside the walls, he knows you will be on the other side sometimes and not in his zone and that makes him worry like shit. He cant even focus on his mission and would think “Y/N, please dont die. Please.” Begging that you would be safe. When everyone regroups, he would look for you and and in a split second he recognizes you from afar and that makes his whole tense body relax. “Fuck. What took you long?” he would say that and go up to you, “I went to get some water for my horse, are you alright Levi?” He just stood there, studying your eyes which would make you blush and you guys....end up giving butterfly kisses to each other! and that now become your thing. And guess what, he REALLY likes them, it ironically gives him butterflies in his stomach too.

Once you guys part away, he would touch his eyelashes softly just to feel your touch again and sense that are you still by his side. alive. (please give him more hugs)

Whenever you get a cut, even the smallest ones, he would always say and bring his hand out towards you “Come here”. “Levi, dont worry its a small cut!” You shyly say, “I see the injury, so come here.” and he would proceed to treat you so carefully and his full focus and attention while treating you makes your mind race like crazy. His sharp grey eyes on your knee and his finger tips would be cold when he touches your skin and that would make you shiver but you felt his love. And it made you love him again and again.

He would take any opportunity to treat your smallest injuries just as his ‘excuse’ to be really near you. And when he is done, he would look up and glance at your eyes and you guys just sit there looking at each other so loveling. He wants to try kissing you so bad and you can tell by the look of his eyes on how he focus on your pupils as it dilates, and he gets lost in your beautiful eyes. You both were about to kiss until someone calls out your name and that broke your focus and jolted up so quickly, blushing like crazy. He gets also lowkey embarrassed, and both of you get up. “O-Okay, I have to go....thanks Levi.” and he would nod with a slight blush.

Whenever he sees you carrying stuff as he would pass by, he always offers to carry it for you but still takes it away from you either way. 

He notice he is such a gentleman towards you especially and he is actually a loyal and a great man for you (too great).

He knows he stutters a lot whenever he tries to talk to you, so he doesn't trust himself to talk much to you cause he always fucks up, so he would rather listen.  When you guys meet up and talk about your day, Levi ends up being such a good listener and he loves hearing what you always had to say. “Go on, tell me more.”

Later in the relationship, he starts to feel less nervous after having many talks with you during late nights in his office and he open up to you. About his past, his life in the underground and then you later realized he is quite talkative. Would  definitely bitch about you with others and he does that on purpose cause he wants to see you laugh about it, and when you do he feels so great, you boost his ego. 

Once he was with the other soliders to train them combat style training, and he did such an impressive move that you saw from a distance. You would later go up to him and he noticed you, "Wow you're awesome when you did that move!" you would say with such an amazed expression and that actually makes him happy inside but then said “...and when I don't?" This man is always concerned, and he kinda lowkey wants you to complement him more?? Becomes needy about it.

Mentioning that, you guys slowly started to use pet names for each other. He really takes pride to it and feels so lucky to have someone to call him that and not anyone but you saying it to him meant the world for him. but, once you did not say love just once, and he actually went back to his office and really though about it for the rest of the day. He becomes really quiet in the evening and you can’t figure out what it is. So you asked. “Love what’s wrong?”. And there, he started to talk a lot more now. He realized then he can act like a kid sometimes but you found it so cute.

He also memorized and remembers your knocks and footsteps and just calls you in before even addressing anything. He was secretly waiting for you to come and he got the tea ready, and of course the table clean and even the chair extra clean cause he doesn't want any dirt on you. And of course, you are his lover so he wants the best for you.

You and Levi planned to go out to the city to buy some stuff, but he wanted to surprise you and take you to wall sina instead to this small shop to buy you an accessory that you liked. But that failed since it started to rain, “Great, shitty fucking weather.” 

Always touches your cheek tenderly and ask what is wrong when he sees you down. “Love, tell me.” He would keep looking at you and you would suddenly forget what made you upset and start to get timid . “Come on...stop you are making me shy..”. He just loves looking at you especially your eyes. “Y/N”. Suddenly he got all serious, and he gently grabbed your both of your shoulders. “I really…l-like you…” he tried to say all clumsily while leaning close to your face, but you know he is trying his best to show you his affection and love.

Whenever he gives you his back and you would see his neat and clean undercut, you would leave small kisses on it. That’s when you found out thats his soft and sensitive spot and he blushes like crazy, not expecting it but doesn't say anything. Once he was in his office alone, he would cover his face with his left hand and start to nervously say ‘Fuck...why is Y/N so damn cute, I’m gonna lose it.’

Levi loves to tease you sometimes, when they tell Levi to cut it out, but he would turn around and give you a small smirk and...chuckle a bit? You would think, wait actually nevermind let him continue.

Anything, literally anything you ask Levi to do or bring something, he is already up and willing to get it for you. “Hey love, could I please-”. “Here.” He knew what you wanted, a snack, so he just open his drawer and gave you your favorite pack of biscuits. “Have it all.” It was one of his ways to show affection and would actually feel good once you thanked him. Watch him giving you more next time.

Keeps. every. single thing. you give your man. He even has a separate drawer for you and he cherish the things you give him. You are the only one who does that to him and he loved that you were the one.

Outside, in the training area, when no one was looking he would push some of your hair that was hanging on your side behind your one of your ear. And you both would exchange glances, a look which both needed the other and the love was real.

Surprise, but he loves it when you kiss his Adam’s apple and would close his eyes while hugging you tightly.

You are the only one he trusts to have his keys to his office and once when Levi entered his office, he saw y/n laying on the coach, sleeping so quietly it warmed his heart. “Y/N waited for me this whole time?”. He would sit beside y/n and cover them with his jacket. He secretly then takes your hand and kisses it.

Overall, Levi has finally found the one, which is you, y/n. And this man would risk his life just for you. He would love his partner so deeply and wants to always be by your side and make sure that as long as you both had each other, things will be okay, and once everything is over he already thought that he wants to spend the rest of his life with you. 

well this was longer than I expected!! I really do hope you all enjoy this and somehow you felt some love and fluff from Levi c: please do leave a like or a reblog if you liked it! 

[lizandbo]

chubby crushes pt 6 w/ hq bois

Tendou 

- I mean this man is a fucking chubby chaser, like i cant even explain how much he likes you

- and yes whenever you get bullied by some unimportant bitch he understands of why you are sad and he can relate to that becuase of his appearance

- “y/n, appearance doesnt matter, only your moral compass!”

- he’s fuckng trying, let him have the spotlight rn

-  i feel like he would love your boobs, no matter how big or small (now i just sound like that kid from up)

- also he appreciates some chubby fingers 

- whenever you say that you dont like your chubby fingers hell always remind you this

- “look y/n if you dont like your fingers then thats fine but always remember that, your fingers are the only pair of fingers that looks like that becuase you have them. And everything about you is gorgeous”

- he does that lil dance and has a singy songs voice how much he loves your body 

- of course your blushing, it doesnt matter if it can either show it not, or you just dont get flustered often

- SOME HOW IN SOME WAY HE MADE YOU FLUSTERED NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU BLUSH OR NOT

- hell pass a note saying that after all these trying to hype you up because he wants you to be confident in yo own skin, he wasn’t kidding around saying those things and he loves you<3

Lev

- You two are like the total opposite 

- but ya guys actual do act liek your guys are dating

- his childish personality caught your attention 

- and if your as childish as him your a power couple!

- but besides that, lets talk about your beautiful body<3

- whenever talk about your body bad, he doesnt really hesitate to be a blunt bitch and curse them out

- he does give you a lot of food, liek he really loves chubby peeps ngl 

- he could die for it, and almost has becuase once you came inside with a dress, he basically died inside cuz like...how could he not like you and your body????

- someone would be crazy if someone said lev wasn’t all over you and had a crush on you

- lemme just say that he loves you for you, and he’s actual quie surprised that you took interest in him just being friends 

- soon or later y’all be cuddling like life is depending on yas 

- gives you his hoodie a lot, for no reason he just likes it on you 

- the way he confesses is prolly doing something like really cheesy

- like giving you a rose and say some random punch line from Twitter or something liek dat

- “..ya know y/n your too bright for the world”

- “ummm I’m sorry? Ig idk”

- “becuase your my sun and I’m your stars”

- kuroo in the background “a sun is a star”

- “LET US HAVE OUR MOMENT KUROO”

- as in that he kisses you all over your face then your nose

Osamu 

- ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS MAKES A BENTO FOR YOU

- but seriously tho, like he would literally feed you if you tryin for a liek a starvation diet or something

- please dont do it tho, please

- all he wants is a healthy and plump future girlfriend and/or wife friend

- sneaky glances here and there, especially on the thighs but we ain’t talki-

- YES WE ARE NOW SINCE IVE HAD IT IN MY HEAD FOR AGES

- when you wear a skirt holyyyyy fucking shiiiiit

- not only did he lose his mind, but he also lost the power to look everywhere else except for the fucking thighs

- plus, he does over feed them too btw

- like.. a lil too much 

- but not at the point that you cant move without feeling like exploding

- will absolutely glare if someone said something mean bout your body or anything about you

- has a thing for stretchmarks 

- ok here’s a list that he loves about you: E V E R Y T H I N G

- will admit he has a crush on you by food

- he made cookies for you, and it had m&m’s in it spelling: I luv u