#i feel like if your tarot cards are telling you someones cursing you to be friends with them you may be projecting a bit

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Maybe its just that I don't actually read tarot

But how the fuck are people getting such specific and direct answers from reading tarot lol

"They said he was using lucifer to force me to be friends with him" bestie how the fuck did you get that. Where are you getting that information from? I DO know what the individual cards mean and none of them say anything like THAT. What the fuck were you asking????? How are you inferring these things???? It feels like you're extrapolating quite a bit here.

[the-moon-devi]

𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝕾𝖆𝖙𝖚𝖗𝖓 ♄

Click Here, For Part 2.

Hey Guys! This PAC is from Lord Saturn, this may resonate for those of you who identify with saturnian energy or the number 6. Personally I've realized I receive a lot of insight/ downloads on saturn days! So this will be very interesting to channel! Saturn is a very Wise energy, and when I think of saturnian energy it can represent karmic cycles, and sometimes curses. Saturn also represents the third eye in my opinion! Saturn is essentially represented by the devil card in tarot. So basically this reading is literally messages from the devil lol! How ironic since the veil is thinning everyday, and halloween is approaching. This is going to be so interesting to channel for you guys! 😁😈 Choose between these piles and enjoy!

There are 3 more piles, this is just piles 1-3! Whichever Part you see first is for you!

𝔗𝔦𝔪𝔢: 3:13 𝔄𝔐 𝔖𝔲𝔫𝔡𝔞𝔶 9/24/23

(𝔰𝔞𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔫'𝔰 𝔢𝔫𝔢𝔯𝔤𝔶 𝔦𝔰 𝔰𝔱𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢 😂, 𝔭𝔩𝔲𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔳𝔢𝔦𝔩 𝔦𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔫𝔢𝔰𝔱 𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢)

𝔇𝔢𝔠𝔨𝔰 𝔲𝔰𝔢𝔡: 𝔄𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔠𝔞𝔫 𝔊𝔬𝔡𝔡𝔢𝔰𝔰 ℜ𝔦𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔒𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔩𝔢 𝔇𝔢𝔠𝔨, 𝔐𝔬𝔬𝔫𝔬𝔩𝔬𝔤𝔶 𝔇𝔢𝔠𝔨, 𝔗𝔥𝔢 ℌ𝔬𝔬𝔡𝔬𝔬 𝔗𝔞𝔯𝔬𝔱 𝔇𝔢𝔠𝔨

♄ 𝔚𝔢'𝔩𝔩 𝔞𝔩𝔰𝔬 𝔟𝔢 𝔲𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 ℜ𝔲𝔫𝔢𝔰, 𝔄𝔰 𝔦 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔰𝔢𝔱𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔲𝔭 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔦𝔫𝔤 ���� 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔩𝔬𝔬𝔨𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔞𝔱 𝔪𝔶 𝔯𝔲𝔫𝔢𝔰 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔱𝔥𝔢 "𝔘𝔯𝔲𝔷" 𝔯𝔲𝔫𝔢 𝔰𝔱𝔲𝔠𝔨 𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔪𝔢 𝔟𝔢𝔠𝔞𝔲𝔰𝔢 𝔦𝔱 𝔯𝔢𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔡 𝔬𝔣 ♄ 𝔰𝔶𝔪𝔟𝔬𝔩. 𝔖𝔬 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔦𝔰 𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔩𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔯𝔲𝔫𝔢 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔦𝔫𝔤!

♄ 𝔘𝔯𝔲𝔷 𝔪𝔢𝔞𝔫𝔰 𝔖𝔱𝔯𝔢𝔫𝔤𝔱𝔥, 𝔈𝔫𝔡𝔲𝔯𝔞𝔫𝔠𝔢, ℌ𝔞𝔯𝔡 𝔚𝔬𝔯𝔨, 𝔓𝔢𝔯𝔰𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔞𝔫𝔠𝔢, 𝔡𝔢𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔭𝔯𝔦𝔪𝔬𝔯𝔡𝔦𝔞𝔩 𝔢𝔫𝔢𝔯𝔤𝔶, 𝔣𝔞𝔠𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔤𝔢𝔰, 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔡𝔦𝔣𝔣𝔦𝔠𝔲𝔩𝔱 𝔰𝔦𝔱𝔲𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫𝔰, 𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔭𝔬𝔫𝔰𝔦𝔟𝔦𝔩𝔦𝔱𝔶

𝕻𝖎𝖑𝖊 1:

𝕿𝖆𝖗𝖔𝖙: 8 𝖔𝖋 𝕾𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖉𝖘, 𝕶𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖔𝖋 𝖂𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖘, 𝕶𝖓𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝕾𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖉𝖘, 9 𝖔𝖋 𝖂𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖘, 𝕵𝖚𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖈𝖊

𝕺𝖗𝖆𝖈𝖑𝖊: 𝕺𝖞𝖆 ~ 𝕾𝖙𝖔𝖗𝖒𝖘, 𝕹𝖊𝖋𝖊𝖗𝖙𝖎𝖙𝖎 ~ 𝕬𝖑𝖈𝖍𝖊𝖒𝖞

I felt called to pull From the goddess deck first, and your energy pulled "Oya" and "Nefertiti". If you guys could see these cards they both have a source  light around them, and they just scream big energy. I can tell that for one, you all have very strong energy. You like to be in control. You guys are Transmuters. Saturn is telling you to use your electricity to attract what you want. Your energy may be very intimidating but don't try to dim it down for anyone. It's crazy because I'm seeing that your energy is so luminous but also dark. So it's like you hold duality. I'm really getting primordial and warrior energies for you guys. Your laughter could be very loud or contagious. I just heard laughing so maybe you're the type to laugh when you're mad. So based on your tarot cards, I feel  Saturn is telling you to not entrap yourself. I also get the energy that there may be a male in your life who is very protective, and maybe very blunt or violent too. I heard sister, so maybe this is a sibling there may be someone around you who is trying to give you advice. This could be an ancestor coming through as well. You could feel very lost. Saturn is telling you to connect to others because you're not alone. You may need protection from something, it would have to do with court. Im hearing you'll beat the case. This could be the male figure, I'm hearing he'll break through chains. This definitely isn't going to resonate for everyone. This is some very strong energy I'm getting here. lol This masculine may have a very militant mindset as well. Im even hearing riots as well. So maybe the court system is doing something unfair, and it may be something you really have to work and fight through. Yes I see that you guys are very tired. It almost gives me the vibes of a woman holding a man down while he's in prison. So wow. This is very much saturnian energy. I hear screaming as well so torture. I'm sorry but this reading is so heavy. If it doesn't resonate, pick another pile but this is definitely a message for someone. This definitely has something to do with the court system. The justice card came out earlier but I put it back but I'm still seeing somebody being locked up, and they are very tired and angry. Saturn urges you to let go of limiting thought patterns, regrets  and hurtful pasts to get through this. If This is someone who's blocked you or is locked up dont make yourself feel bad i feel like you fought very hard. I feel like this is something that caught you by surprise but this is definitely an ongoing battle so don't lose hope. For your moonology cards you have to expect powerful change, believe in the impossible, and adjustments are required. I definitely feel like something will come through for you guys, and it'll be very unexpected. Even if this isn't a jail situation you could feel helpless, and you may be finding the power or a very powerful man to help you out of this.

ℜ𝔲𝔫𝔢𝔰:

𝔍𝔢𝔯𝔞~ ℭ𝔶𝔠𝔩𝔢𝔰, ℌ𝔞𝔯𝔳𝔢𝔰𝔱, 𝔭𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔢𝔫𝔠𝔢, 𝔗𝔦𝔪𝔢, 𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔰𝔭��𝔯𝔦𝔱𝔶, 𝔤𝔯𝔬𝔴𝔱𝔥

ℌ𝔞𝔤𝔞𝔷 ~ 𝔯𝔢𝔪𝔬𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔬𝔟𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔠𝔩𝔢𝔰, 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔤𝔢, 𝔠𝔯𝔦𝔰𝔦𝔰

𝔖𝔞𝔤/𝔏𝔦𝔟𝔯𝔞 𝔢𝔫𝔢𝔯𝔤𝔶 𝔠𝔬𝔲𝔩𝔡 𝔟𝔢 𝔦𝔪𝔭𝔬𝔯𝔱𝔞𝔫𝔱 𝔰𝔦𝔤𝔫𝔰 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔤𝔲𝔶𝔰 ℭ𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔢𝔩𝔢𝔡: ℌ𝔦𝔭 ℌ𝔬𝔭, 𝔐𝔦𝔩𝔦𝔱𝔞𝔯𝔶, 𝔘𝔭𝔥𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔅𝔞𝔱𝔱𝔩𝔢

𝕻𝖎𝖑𝖊 2:

𝕿𝖆𝖗𝖔𝖙: 𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝕾𝖚𝖓, 𝕶𝖓𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝕮𝖚𝖕𝖘, 𝕿𝖜𝖔 𝖔𝖋 𝕮𝖚𝖕𝖘, 3 𝖔𝖋 𝕾𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖉𝖘

𝕺𝖗𝖆𝖈𝖑𝖊: 𝕸𝖆𝖒𝖑𝖆𝖒𝖇𝖔 ~ 𝕾𝖊𝖑𝖋-𝕾𝖆𝖇𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖌𝖊, 𝕬𝖑𝖆 ~ 𝕲𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖋

Saturn's Message to you is to heal. I get the feeling that you guys have been on a journey towards healing, and right now you're in the grieving stages. This definitely has to do with love whether that be a friend, lover, or family member. I'm getting heavily a romantic partner though but I could also see it being a family member or friend. This could have felt like a death or maybe there was one. I'm seeing that you guys lost something, and this is taking you through a huge transformation. I think once you guys heal there will be a abundant start for you. If this had to do with losing a child or anything then I see you getting pregnant again. I usually don't pick up on that type of energy, but this is Saturn after all. I'm also getting that someone is watching over you, and they care about you alot. Their energy feels very loving, and pure. Also with this self sabotage card, im getting that don't be afraid to grow. Just because of the situation your in now don't let that determine your future. Because it's very bright, but also don't hide from grief or healing because you're scared of feeling alone.. you guys are very stubborn, i feel the saturn in you very strong. However you are also very courageous at the same time. Saturn is saying dig deep and find the source within you to fight these limitations. Some of you guys could have cancer placements. I'm also picking up on soulmate energy, I see a breakup that really took its  toll on you. oh wow! I'm sorry if this reading is all over the place but I was looking at this grief card, and the lady is pregnant. So we do have the sun card here which represents children, and also with this lunar energy here. I'm Getting a mother energy. Wow this saturnian energy is screaming today. If you haven't lost a child, maybe Saturn is blocking you from pregnancy because there's some other business you need to take care of. This Could be literally healing childhood wounds or even relationship wounds. I'm just getting the vibe that this pile has a broken heart, and please whatever this is don't let it turn you bitter. It's time to turn over a new leaf, and maybe go off on a whim. Don't get tied to an outcome I feel like is what saturn is trying to tell you. You have no idea how great it could be, I think Saturn wants you to step out of the driver's seat for a little while, and take care of yourself. If this has to do with love, I see if you guys heal or get over this person there may be a secret revealed to you. That makes sense because for your moonology cards you got Full moon eclipse~ Conclusions are within reach so maybe something you have been wondering about comes out. Saturn will be revealing truths to you.  You also got a Balsamic moon~ A time for healing, and New moon in cancer~  You and your loved ones are safe.

ℜ𝔲𝔫𝔢𝔰:

𝔗𝔥𝔲𝔯𝔦𝔰𝔞𝔷 ~ 𝔖𝔱𝔯𝔬𝔫𝔤, 𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔱𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔳𝔦𝔬𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔠𝔢, 𝔡𝔢𝔣𝔢𝔫𝔰𝔢, 𝔡𝔢𝔰𝔱𝔯𝔲𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔬𝔰

𝔏𝔞𝔤𝔲𝔷 ~ 𝔏𝔞𝔨𝔢, 𝔪𝔢𝔪𝔬𝔯𝔶, 𝔰𝔲𝔟𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔰𝔠𝔦𝔬𝔲𝔰, 𝔡𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔪𝔰, 𝔦𝔪𝔞𝔤𝔦𝔫𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔭𝔰𝔶𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔠 𝔭𝔬𝔴𝔢𝔯𝔰, 𝔦𝔫𝔱𝔲𝔦𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔴𝔞𝔱𝔢𝔯, 𝔯𝔢𝔩𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫𝔰𝔥𝔦𝔭𝔰

ℑ𝔫𝔤𝔲𝔷 ~ 𝔠𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔢𝔫𝔢𝔯𝔤𝔶 𝔟𝔲𝔯𝔰𝔱, 𝔣𝔢𝔯𝔱𝔦𝔩𝔦𝔱𝔶, 𝔰𝔢𝔢𝔡𝔰, 𝔢𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔲𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔣𝔯𝔢𝔶𝔞 𝔤𝔬𝔡𝔡𝔢𝔰𝔰, 𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔩𝔡𝔯𝔢𝔫, 𝔤𝔯𝔬𝔴𝔱𝔥

𝕻𝖎𝖑𝖊 3:

𝕿𝖆𝖗𝖔𝖙: 𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝕸𝖔𝖔𝖓, 𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝕾𝖙𝖆𝖗, 7 𝖔𝖋 𝕾𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖉𝖘 ⚔, 2 𝖔𝖋 𝕮𝖚𝖕𝖘

𝕺𝖗𝖆𝖈𝖑𝖊: 𝕷𝖔𝖓𝖌 𝕭𝖚𝖇𝖇𝖞 𝕾𝖚𝖟𝖎 ~ 𝕾𝖍𝖆𝖒𝖊, 𝕸𝖔𝖉𝖏𝖆𝖉𝖏𝖎 ~ 𝕸𝖆𝖓𝖎𝖋𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓, 𝕹𝖆𝖓𝖆 𝕭𝖚𝖑𝖚𝖐𝖚 ~ 𝕾𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖔𝖓𝖘

This pile's Message is super clear, while pulling your cards I began to see that you guys have a lot of doubt. I think this doubt is you doubting your intuitive abilities. Saturn is teaching you to believe in yourself. You guys may have the ability of foresight or some of you may be amazing manifestors. I think Saturn kept some of these gifts away from you guys because there might/may have been some lessons you needed to learn in order to keep and maintain these gifts. Saturn didn't intend for you to lose all your hope. Saturn just wanted you to understand what it meant to take care of what you have, and maybe the timing wasn't right. You had to learn to believe even though you couldn't see that. Some of you guys may have saturn in pisces/12th house or this may even be the transit we are going through right now.  I say this because we have the moon card here which is pisces and also for your other cards, your energy pulled; New moon in Pisces ~ Meditate and contemplate (111) as i'm typing this! That 111 is a sign because I almost forgot to mention that for your oracle cards literally two of them had the number 1. And the other card had 9. So like I was saying to tie this back into what I was saying earlier. This has something to do with seasons. The timing may have not been right, but now it is! You guys are wrapping up cycles. I think there were definitely some adjustments to be made . Ironic because for your other moonology cards you pulled third quarter Moon~ Adjustments are required, and New Moon in taurus~ Prosperity lies ahead. Now I'm also getting something with the cow and fish. There’s a lot of feminine ,and growth energy around you. I Get the feeling that during this harvest season everything you planted ,the seeds you sowed during spring are going to start coming back to you now especially with the star cars here, and the manifestation card. I feel like you guys were really set on doing spells, and chants etc to get what you want. Saturn Made you do all of this to understand work & what patience means. It's like Saturn collected all this energy from you whether that be good or bad and it saved it for the final result. They always say Saturn may take you through hell but in the end the results are amazing. This may be a partnership that you've been praying for or even dreaming about for so long. You may have told others and they thought you were lying so you kept it to yourself. They made you feel ashamed but those people who doubted you are really going to feel stupid. Also a the bottom of the oracle deck it said have faith in your dreams. That's such a repeating theme within your reading like seriously believe in yourself. Stop the self doubt and shame because whatever dark space or low place you're in you will come out of it. Also the transit of uranus in taurus will be very good for you. This could be a business partnership that will be very abundant, and creative. You will definitely be able to share your knowledge with others without them judging you. Another thing I'm getting is you may have thought that your dreams or spells were wrong or that it wasn't working. You may have felt like someone literally put a curse on you. I'm also seeing that a union will be very important for this pile. If you look below you'll see that there were like two runes that included union. So union is really important for this pile, I feel like this will bring a lot of clarity , and happiness to you. I think this will happen before the end of the year because I just saw 23 twice. So wow!  You need to allow Saturn to take the shame away from you and step into this season of harvest time for your blessings to overtake you with joy. Don't slip off on your routines either is something I just heard as well. Make sure you guys are eating well too, or eating enough. Connecting with rain or water may benefit you. New beginnings are coming your way. What has been taken is being restored with a lot more than you could ever imagine. (Also connect with your higherself, and intuition you are very powerful and unique)

ℜ𝔲𝔫𝔢𝔰:

𝔄𝔩𝔤𝔦𝔷 ~ ℌ𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔢𝔯 𝔰𝔢𝔩𝔣, 𝔡𝔦𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔦𝔱𝔶, 𝔥𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔢𝔯 𝔫𝔞𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔢, 𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔫𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔡𝔦𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔦𝔱𝔶, 𝔰𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔦𝔱𝔲𝔞𝔩 𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔫𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫

𝔊𝔢𝔟𝔬 ~ 𝔢𝔵𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔤𝔢, 𝔤𝔦𝔣𝔱, 𝔰𝔞𝔠𝔯𝔢𝔡 𝔲𝔫𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔰, 𝔰𝔞𝔠𝔯𝔢𝔡 𝔪𝔞𝔯𝔯𝔦𝔞𝔤𝔢, 𝔟𝔩𝔢𝔰𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤𝔰

𝔎𝔢𝔫𝔞𝔷 ~ 𝔨𝔫𝔬𝔴𝔩𝔢𝔡𝔤𝔢, 𝔱𝔬𝔯𝔠𝔥, 𝔩𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔭𝔞𝔱𝔥, 𝔥𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔥, 𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔡𝔦𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔴𝔦𝔰𝔡𝔬𝔪, 𝔤𝔲𝔦𝔡𝔞𝔫𝔠𝔢, 𝔦𝔫𝔫𝔢𝔯 𝔊

ℌ𝔞𝔤𝔩𝔞𝔷 ~ 𝔥𝔞𝔦𝔩, 𝔰𝔲𝔯𝔯𝔢𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔯, 𝔬𝔭𝔭𝔬𝔯𝔱𝔲𝔫𝔦𝔱𝔶, 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔤𝔢, 𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔫𝔰𝔣𝔬𝔯𝔪𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫𝔰, 𝔯𝔦𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤, 𝔲𝔫𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔞𝔠𝔠𝔢𝔭𝔱𝔞𝔫𝔠𝔢

𝕯𝖎𝖛𝖎𝖓𝖊 𝕯𝖊'𝕷𝖚𝖝𝖊

ℭ𝔥𝔢𝔠𝔨 𝔗𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔒𝔲𝔱!

©𝓟𝓻𝓮𝓽𝓽𝔂 𝓒𝓪𝓻𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓵

[grimoire-of-geekery]

What is your advice for someone who can read tarot relatively okay for other people but is trash when it comes to reading for themself? (Cards dont make sense and literally every card is reversed despite careful shuffling to get a healthy mix of both upright and reversed cards)

*hugs* I know that frustration all too well.

Ok, so here are some things I say to everyone where tarot reading is concerned:

It's not just what the cards say, it's what they don't say. A tarot deck works by representing the whole world and all of the various turns and twists of fate people can experience. When Death shows up, but not the Ten of Swords, that's because you're dealing with Death, but not in the form of an ending. Likewise, if the Three of Coins appears and not the Eight, then your experience will reflect financial growth and demonstration of your mastery, rather than the learning of that skillset.

For this reason, I encourage diviners to adopt a different method for reading inversions than "the bad version of this card" or "the opposite." For the latter, there's already a card in the deck for any "opposite" meaning you could come up with. For the former... every card can be bad or good in the right circumstance. For myself, I use a method where the inverted cards are signs that the querent will have difficulty understanding that card, and I should take pains to carefully explain that one, pointing out nuances that might be missed. Generally it means the card is "shadowed," or their own beliefs and views obstruct the truth. Another really good one I read recently is the idea of an upright card being "invoked" and an inverted card being "banished," which is a very interesting perspective. I like the idea of "this card is departing from you, or taking its blessing/curse/experience away."

Those two things I say to everyone, just to clear space. The first really specific piece of advice I'd give to you if you're having trouble reading for yourself is do not add cards. Read what's already there. Take a picture of it, note everything in a journal, and look at it periodically. Focus not on what your feeling is, but what the card means. Do research, look it up in books, especially your own writings on the card if you have them. Seriously, adding too many cards makes the reading even harder to read. "Clarification" cards are a joke.

In addition, check your spread. The spreads we use are how we talk to the world and ask for information. Make sure that when you lay those cards in that pattern, you actually want the information the spread can offer. If you're looking for advice, don't ask a spread that's solely about prediction, that sort of thing.

I'd also suggest you take a look at the deck and see if it really expresses how you experience the world, and then I'd do divination that has nothing to do with your wishes for a while, to see if it can accurately relate the world to you. I wanna be specific here- what I'm talking about here is not how you wish the world was, but rather how you experience the world as it is. The deck is meant to reflect the world as it is, and reveal its secrets to you, and if the deck isn't doing that for you in your readings, you may need to use a different deck, or maybe even a different divination method at all.

If all your cards are coming up inverted all the time, that's a sign. The deck is specifically speaking to you and saying something to you. If it were my own deck, that would be a message that "you ain't gonna get it, so you may as well stop asking." I can't say what that omen means for you, but I would consider it a big one, maybe a step or two above "stalker" cards, and just below the significance of a reading that's more than 80% one suit. If that's the case, I'd ask your cards what they're trying to tell you that you're not getting, and record the answers. For myself, I use three-card combinations for those kinds of specific questions.

If you wanna reach out and talk to me more in depth, I'm definitely available if you wanna come off anon and have a conversation, or you can just send a few more anon asks if that's your comfort level. I hope I helped, one way or another. *hugs*

[shinestarhwaa]

SEVEN OF CUPS || CHOI JONGHO

Summary: choosing between your toxic boyfriend and your loving best friend should not be this hard

Part of Ateez Tarot Event July 2023

Learn more about this card here

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Pairing: bff!Jongho x Fem reader

Word Count: 0.9K

Tags/warnings: toxic relations, domestic violence, named boyfriend (disclaimer: it's just a name, I did not mean to link him to any celebrity)

Please don't read if you are triggered by any of the tags mentioned above!

Taglist: @anyamaris @a-soft-hornytiny @whatudowhennooneseesyou @star1117-archives @wooyoungmybelovedhusband @pyeonghongrie-main @woosanbby @dreamlesswonder86 @lemonhongjoong @babesindestroyland

ENJOY!

The door slammed shut hard, triggering your eyes to tear up instantly. The room was silent, yet louder than ever. It was the thousandth time your boyfriend had gotten mad about a little thing and left you alone to go out for drinks.

You rubbed the scar a piece of glass left on your arm before cleaning the broken glass from the floor. Tears fell on the wollen carpet you picked out last year. He didn't like it.

Now Younghoon wasn't a bad person, that's what you told yourself. He brought you flowers and orgasms from time to time so you could be doing worse, right?

Your friends had to disagree, telling you to break up with him, especially Jongho was so against him. Speaking of him, he suddenly showed up at your door. You opened it, confused, but welcomed him in.

"I saw Younghoon at the bar, I figured he must've thrown a tantrum again," Jongho explained. You nodded, walking back into the living room to clean up the glass and throw it away.

Jongho sat you down on the couch and took your hand. "Why do you still put up with him, Y/N? We both know this is not okay," he sighed. "Jongho it isn't that easy, I love him," you explained.

The male rolled his eyes. "He treats you like trash, like you're nothing. He breaks your stuff and more importantly; your heart." You were aware that Jongho was completely right, but it wasn't easy to let go of someone who you've loved for so long.

"Jongho," you started, but your throat closed up, unabling you to speak. He pulled you close and held you tight in his arms. "I know it's hard for you to choose. But you know you have to make a choice, okay?"

"I-I can't make a choice, who do I have if I lose him," you cried softly, nuzzling your head in the nape of Jongho's neck.

"Oh, but darling, you have me," Jongho whispered, "no one can take me away from you, darling." His soothing voice consoled you, drying your tears. You looked in his eyes and nodded. "I have you."

"Ofcourse you have me," he smiled.

-

A month later Younghoon had the biggest anger attack he has ever had. He threw with plates, he screamed and yelled and yanked the curtains down, the curtain rod falling onto your head, making you bleed in the process. He had nearly stormed out again, until you found the energy to fight for yourself.

You got up and grabbed him by his tie. "Listen to me, dickhead. You're gonna disappear now, okay? I don't ever wanna see you again cause I am done, done with taking your bullshit, done with your drama and anger, done with your stupid dumb face. So leave, don't ever come back, okay?"

You could vaguely hear shards of curse words and names, but they didn't land. Your heart raced so fast and you panted as you watched your man walk out, throwing his key on the floor. You cried for a while, right there on the floor, out of happiness, or victory.

You finally chose yourself for once. You chose yourself and you chose to be happy and healthy. You grabbed your phone and dialed Jongho before you knew it, but he didn't answer. Instead you got a text that made your heart sink deeply.

Jongho

Hey Y/N, can't talk, i'm on a date ;)

Y/N

Okay babes have fun

You sighed deeply, feeling disappointed. Your gut feeling was right. You wanted to be with him. You knew it all along and you hadn't been fair to yourself, Jongho or Younghoon in this.

Jongho was your safety net, your teddybear and your best friend, but you wanted to kiss him so bad you'd give a million bucks for it. You decided to get yourself cleaned up and dressed properly. You checked instagram and saw Jongho's story. He's in his favourite coffeehouse.

Before you knew it you were driving there, clearly passing the speed limit but you had to tell him. He had to know. He had to.

You parked your car and ran into the coffeehouse, startling some customers sipping on their mocha's. You apologised quickly, eyes scanning to find your Jongho. Your eyes landed on him and he looked at you right away.

"Y/N? What are you doing here?" He asked confused. "It's over with Younghoon, it's over. I'm free," you smiled, tearing up slightly.

You realized the person sitting with him wasn't just a date. It was his best friend. Your heart lifted up as you realized he was joking about having a date. You pulled him up, startling him and his friend as you did so.

"Y/N, what are you-"

You pressed your lips against his, cupping his soft, rosy cheeks. You could smell his natural scent mixed with his perfume, awakening every nerve in your body. You felt like you were on fire, like he lit you on fire in the best way possible.

His hands were placed on your hips, trembling slightly. He held you in his arms, making you feel safe, something Younghoon had never truly done for you.

You kissed for only a few seconds, but it felt like ages. His friend sat there, watching the two of you with eyes bigger than ever. "You kissed me," Jongho panted out, smiling in the cutest way ever.

"How could I not?" You laughed as you hugged him. "It's always been you, Jjong," you whispered. "Always you."

[sixthwater]

Hello all! I was finally able to do the pac I wanted to do! So, today we will be looking at shadow traits that you might be unaware of, and some advice as to how you can healthily integrate them into your life. Hopefully this will be helpful to those that read it! So let's get into it.

(Left → Right / Pile 1 → Pile 4)

Decks Used: Horror Tarot, Abadoned Oracle, Tarot Familars, claves astrologicae, Seed & Sickle

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Pile One

Shadow

Cards: X of Wands, II of Swords, Strength Rx, Judgement, King of Wands (The Hanged Man), The Cyclist Rx, The Beast, The Curse

You try to carry everything on your back, very resistant to relying on others or asking for help, whether you realize it or not. When you weight the pros and cons of a situation, subconsciously you’ve already decided that in the end you’re just going to solve the issue yourself. Strength in reverse usually stands for a lack of willpower or can point to insecurity. The inability to rely on others around you and showing off the bravado (KoW) or exerting yourself beyond all means (ToW) can be thrown into a warped mindset of what strength and resolve means. I don’t think you’re doing this on purpose (re; the topic of this pac) but it’s probably sourced from past wounds or traumas that made you believe you can’t rely on others or were shamed into relying on yourself. There’s also this idea that going through these trials are going to empower you or make you a better person in some way. Like people who have those ‘been through the fire and flame’ stories but they turned out okay, and life doesn’t have to be this way. Sort of like ‘who am I if I can’t even handle this’. There’s a possibility of overworking yourself as well or being apart of grind/hustle culture because there’s a lot of skeletal/bone imagery and I know this is a horror deck, but there’s actually not a lot of skeletons in here. So you might be prone to working yourself to the bone in order to prove a point to yourself or others. With The Hanged Man sitting at the back it’s interesting because usually that means a change in perspective or taking a breather but it’s like your decision making just circles the drain? The man is caged up, so it feels like the perspective can only go so far out before your decision is made, and even in the Two of Swords the person is buried already, so ‘the grave is made’, right? So you’ll ponder what paths to go down but ultimately they all end up leading back to you dealing with everything alone, even though that doesn’t have to be the solution. Under that we have the Queen of Swords and she comes off as more independent and sharp in this deck, kind of like the gaslight girlboss energy, you handle shit alone. With your oracle cards, there’s definitely a feeling of being shamed or punished over something in your past and now there’s extreme fear if you don’t have complete control over the outcome. Some earth energy (Virgo, Capricorn) and a little bit of air but I can’t pinpoint it honestly. Sisters Are Doin It For Themselves and Do It Like A Dude started playing. It’s repeating everything I said so I won’t go into much detail, but looking at the imagery there’s a lot of stuff going on around the head, and then the last guy is tied up; think the eight of swords. The Curse deals with feeling trapped or having constant misfortune. Meanwhile the other two cards deal with underlying aggressive thoughts but the mental landscape is a bit of a hell. The only thing that stands out is The Cyclist can sometimes be a bit of an escapist, which lines up with The Hanged Man. It tells me that you’re a bit more aware of the source or issues surrounding this, or someone has pointed this out to you but you don’t really have a grasp regarding how to control it. Really all of this is coping with not having people lash out at you for things out of your control, for the most part, but it’s manifesting negatively since it’s having a bad influence on your health and mental, so let’s move on

Integration

Cards: IX of Pentacles Rx, II of Swords Rx, VII of Wands Rx, The Devil, Last Quarter Moon, 1st House, Basil, Wisteria

Retrograde by Cartel seems to fit this section. You probably could’ve guessed this advice but: you need to fold in on some of your beliefs, trust people, and try out some different avenues when it comes to problem solving. There’s nothing wrong with being a powerhouse or being independent; but when you struggle to go to those around you it can be detrimental to relationships and also yourself. It’s kind of silly because they’re basically showing you one of the ‘marry for money’/lack of independence cards in this scenario, so it’s like…yes. Go rely on people. You don’t need to always go out and study fifteen different topics to solve every issue that comes to you, maybe Suzy can solve this problem because she already knows enough about it so you have one small thing off your plate today. She won’t kill you. You need to really give yourself some time to go through all problem solving or just toss it and start over because it’s not helpful for you right now. You can slowly ween yourself off in ways that you just break up the task and you still do a little bit but you need to get to a point where someone else helps you. Completely. It’s okay. That’s why we all exist together on this planet, we cannot solve everything on our own, there’s a reason why we are all different and excel at different things or have our own little quirks. Even these shadows of ours can be useful to us sometimes. It would be recommended that you take a closer look at yourself and whatever issue(s) caused this and figure out your trauma response. Even if it’s not a trauma response, something is making you go to drastic measures to prove yourself to only you at this point. If journaling is beneficial to you, break it down step by step (issue > your feelings > your reactions > how you act today > work backwards > etc). If not, pay attention to when this attribute jumps out. Why did it do so. What caused it. What were you feeling. Trivial events might trigger us and we won’t realize it until hours later, it happens more often than we realize. At my old job I had a SV who reminded me of my mother and I didn’t realize why I clashed with her so much until I realized her interactions with a CW of mine (who reminded me of my younger self) triggered me every time. If someone you’re not so fond of have particular characteristics and someone else happens to do them, you might be reacting out of protection without realizing. You’re just being encouraged to do some self-reflection so you have an idea of what’s upsetting your internal balance. it’s also to gain more self-control and understanding of yourself. So in this case, The Devil is pointed more towards obsession with yourself. Besides that, be more open to assistance, take paths you don’t usually travel down, dip your toes into the energy of The Fool a bit more, but like…mentally. Absolutely try to embody the energy of The Empress during this time though, take care of yourself more.

Songs: Sisters Are Doin It For Themselves (ft. Aretha Franklin) – Eurythmics, Do It Like A Dude – Jessie J, Retrograde – Cartel, Lucid Dreams – Juice WRLD

Pile Two

Shadow

Cards: The Lovers, Queen of Swords Rx, Six of Cups, IX of Pentacles Rx, The Star (The Empress Rx), Ink, Blasé, Blessings Rx

Okay before I even pull cards the energy is very excited to get going lol Exact opposite energy of Pile One. There is a feeling…there’s a rush of different messages, the oracle will pinpoint it but someone is very heavy here. Right now there is a mourning of an ex or ‘what could have been’, and constant verification for the situation? Checking transits or readings to see if things will change or if you were right about the person, that’s what a lot of this energy feelings like. Moving on from that, in general it feels like a big open wound, I feel like I got this energy before in a previous reading so welcome back? With The Empress as the overall energy, especially with its imagery, it’s a very heavy feeling in a sense that you know it’s looming but you don’t feel like you have anything in your power to stop this insecurity or fear. Or control? Over this fact. Anyway the cards — there’s just a lot of strong emotion here. We don’t have The Devil, but we do have a lot of cards speaking towards feeling strongly and then The Lovers, which deals with feeling passionately to the point of obsession and the lesson is to learn balance over time. While The Queen upright in this deck speaks to being more cold and harsh, in reverse it speaks to lashing out in fear to cover up for what she lacks. The main issue here is that you guys are very sensitive, which is never a bad thing, but considering the combination it’s like you suck up issues that hit you and then they bubble and boil within you. If you can’t come to a solution it eats you alive and you obsess over it, not in a mercurial way but you’re just easily affected by the external world. Using Abbott Elementary as an example; Gregory (although pretty dry) obsesses over the principal position in the beginning. When he finds out it was compromised he basically spirals for almost two episodes and doesn’t know what to do with himself until he gets guidance. That’s what this energy feels like. You just feel things deeply. It feels like Scorpio or Pisces — or hey maybe you have Saturn in Pisces since that’s relevant soon hiiii~. So there’s a constant need for reassurance or looking for guidance and feeling lost and frustrated. Again there’s a small split where there’s some of you who are very/easily affected by love. I’m not feeling the hyper independence like Pile One, it feels more like scarred by previous relationships or worried by not having had a relationship and if it’s something about you, and it results in this ‘but look I have such and such so I’m fine!!’ mindset, when under the surface it’s eating you alive. Okay oracle cards…interesting. Had to pull one more and we got Viewing in reverse. Shufflemancy is also very strong right now. This is going to be a bit difficult to explain but; you have tumultuous energy and right now you’re aware you’re out of balance but you’re not sure how to get back in tune with yourself. It feels a bit like you’ve given up because it’s a bit hard or there’s no point. Yeah this feels a bit Plutonic/Scopionic. You are constantly going within or doing shadow work but you feel like you’re not seeing any changes within your life that reflect that — or you may not even be aware of it since shadow work is usually related to intense murky changes and sometimes that’s just…not always the case. So it feels like straight apathy and an attempt to make drastic changes to your life in order to bring some excitement back but it’s not doing anything and you’re running out of ideas on how to fix the issue or the hole in your chest that you can’t seem to reach? It doesn’t feel like you’re doing anything extreme or dangerous but like maybe changing jobs, moving, getting tattoos — things like that. I think we’ve laid the groundwork down so let’s get to the integration.

Integration

Cards: VII of Wands Rx, The Sun, X of Swords, V of Wands, Sagittarius, Cancer, Feverfew Rx, Buttercup

Beautiful. You need to see the darkness before you can see the light. What I mean by that is you need to purge whatever emotions you’re feeling right now before you can get back up and face another day recharged. It’s difficult to try and keep throwing darts in the dark to see if something will work when you’re running on empty. Sometimes you need to just go for a walk without any destination in mind, sit at the beach and take a breather, or literally just cry it out in bed for an hour or two. That’s okay. Let things go so that you can enjoy something for a minute. You need to nurture yourself first so you can get back up in the first place. Since I mentioned you seemed very sensitive, you guys might be sensitive to the music you listen to as well. Unfortunately there is some truth to that. Songs like Sweet Thing by Rufus & Chaka Khan would be very beneficial for you during this time since they’re soothing and there’s nothing to throw your mood up or down, just to stabilize it. There’s also a small message of reaching out to those you haven’t spoken to in a while. For this one you’re probably going to have to sit on it for a minute to figure out who it is, I always have to. That’s the point. The main message is to get in contact and to share some warm words and converse with them, sharing this energy will not only energize and soothe you, but them as well. It’s not supposed to force you to get socializing, but it’s to remind you that there are people out there that care about you, even if you aren’t always talking. It’s also reminding you to keep those you don’t always speak to in your heart as well. Reciprocal energy, basically. It helps a lot more than you think. Besides that, when you have the energy again, you need to know when to pick your battles and have a little fun. Don’t take things too seriously. Your lessons really is about balance and figuring out your internal alignment. Five of Wands usually talks about disagreements over petty stuff, I also see it as siblings bickering. This combined with Sagittarius? You need to balance out that sensitivity of Cancer with the light-heartedness of Sag. These are conflicting energies so I chuckled a bit when they both came out, but again: balance. It’s okay to feel, but don’t drown in it. It’s okay to be a little crazy and take some risks, but don’t have your life revolve around it so you can ‘feel’ something when you’re actually shunning all of your emotions away in the process. Ultimately you shouldn’t give up on your resolve or that resilience (know you love seeing that word) that’s gotten you this far. That’s not the point, but you do need to figure out when to pull from…which tank? If I were to give you a visual, I will not be using two wolves. Let’s say you have a sensitive highly reactive tank and a risky move first think later emotionally depleted tank. You have to figure out how to have a give and take between them, is how you can integrate this shadow and not feel like you’re being dragged throughout life. Trust me, it’s a lot easier said than done, but you learn with baby steps. Especially when you turn them into metaphors or visuals like that.

Songs: The Glamorous Life – Sheila E., I Just Don’t Care That Much – Matt Maeson, Call My Name - The Unlikely Candidates, Pure Love – Hayley Williams, Semi-Charmed Life – Third Eye Blind, Move – Little Mix

Pile Three

Shadow

Cards: Page of Cups, Ace of Swords Rx, The Tower, IX of Pentacles, VII of Cups Rx (King of Pentacles), The Plant Rx, The Viewing, The Specimen Rx, The Cat

You tend to get ‘lost’ easily. It’s like trying on different hats before realizing it doesn’t fit or you don’t like it. I can’t help but notice the Page of Cups is stuffed in this box and the figure in the Seven of Cups popping out of a cup looks like the figure on the Nine of Pentacles. There’s a lot of…being lost in the woods, or trying to have your feet fit shoes that are way too big or small for you. Your view of what you are or where you want to go feels clouded but it’s fueled by wanting to be secure. Which is understandable. However at the same time you undermine that because you’re constantly changing hats, or at least you want to be and that leaves you either feeling emotionally unfulfilled or with a tight customer service smile. With this specific Tower it’s like you’re pretty well aware that something needs to change but you want to make sure all your ducks are in a row before it falls, which is not the point of the card. It also feels a bit like you make sure you’re just safe enough to get away without any scars, which still isn’t the point of it being upright because it’s supposed to make you understand why it got taken away in the first place. I haven’t pulled the oracle cards this early for anyone else but I’m curious. Okay yeah I figured. Fueled by stability and security but you’re blocking yourself from going after either a passion or fulfilling whatever life mission you’re put here to do. Considering the current state of the world, it’s not so easy to say ‘oh just go do what you wanna do’ because we do have bills, unfortunately for our guides or ancestors we do have to hit certain requirements before we can throw caution to the wind. Anyhow, pretty sure you’re at least aware that you’re not where you need to be. Not sure if you know what your specific path is, but you know what you’re doing isn’t it. You could be avoiding it due to a fear of failure, rejection from society or parents, any sort of external reaction, or you’re just simply not ready yet — but if you’re wondering why your life might be fluctuating or giving your so much resistance this might be partially why. As someone who also needs to have some sort of stability, I’d never tell someone to just quit and go for it, but you should give some thought as to what’s holding you back or some thought as to what gets you excited. What would you not mind waking up in the morning to go do. For example, I had a former job surrounding kids that for the first time in my life, waking up at 7 AM was not a problem, I was actually excited to go to work. You need to figure out what that is for you if you don’t know what it is yet. You are someone who is not made to just have a job, sort of like Pile Two but the energies are significantly different. With these cards, The Tower is making a bit more sense. Some of these talk about external issues causing friction, and there’s a figure hiding Within a fully intact tower while there’s a storm going on outside. So absolutely I wouldn’t be surprised if one of the issues stated before is what’s holding you back. However, you should keep in mind that you have The Viewing (dealing with ancestry guidance) and The Tower here — even though this is a shadow integration reading, it’s going to happen sooner or later. Hopefully you don’t take this tone as scolding, I’ve dealt (still dealing actually) with this same issue and it’s not easy at all. Speaking of which, let’s get moving.

Integration

Cards: II of Swords Rx, Page of Swords, The Devil Rx, II of Wands Rx, Virgo, New Moon, Dandelion, Buttercup

Simple messages, ‘Just stop caring and don’t give up on your dreams’ thank you thank you so simple. In a way, they’re right. They’re not saying to throw out all of your precautionary tendencies, but you might think too much. Worry too much about the world around you and how those might react to you. In some capacity, it’s reasonable and necessary, in others it’s really not. Some people need to fall away or they’re just not relative to what you’re doing so why do they matter. I’m under the assumption that a good majority of you have been wanting to do something for quite some time so I’m going to speak from that perspective. You need to loosen up and let your worries go. Sometimes it’s better to move first without thinking, which should balance out the qualities you already have. If you don’t have every single aspect figured out, that’s okay, laying down the most important groundwork will be good enough for you to land on your feet and you can figure out the rest. However you have a tendency to flit around so you don’t have to make big or bold decisions, which is what they want you to stop doing. The Page of Swords holds a key and besides being innovative and energetic, this points to you already holding the answer but being afraid to open that door. You have Virgo here which stands for organization, planning, details, etc. Dandelion basically is repeating everything that I spoke of in regards to making a move, not standing there twiddling your thumbs. Whatever you’re thinking of, I think you sort of got started or you have the idea in your head but you’re scared of taking the plunge. Look back at it and loosely plan it out. If you need to step away sometimes and come back, that’s fine, but you either do it or you don’t. What you’re doing needs your full commitment; not in a sense that you immediately go full time but you can’t just half-ass it. I’m sounding like a mom because I used to get this message. You need to be consistent if you go through with it because you’re clearly passionate about it. If it’s not perfect on the first try, it’s fine. If people have critique’s, it’s fine. Hell if people don’t like it, as long as you’re not spreading hate speech it’s fine! You’ll never know if you don’t try right? Flowers never bloom if they’re not cared for Pile Three. Are you going to care for your dream or no, it’s all in your hands. I’m not sure if this’ll be a completely different path since this isn’t really an energy check, but in some sense you will gain some emotional satisfaction and sense of wholeness within yourself. I also notice that you really didn’t want to give any songs during the entire process. It could be that some of you’re really not sure where you’re going, which is completely okay. You could try checking out some readings regarding careers or life missions, or if you’re able to just try out a bunch of hobbies to see which ones bring you joy. However most of these cards point towards implementing your plans and they’re all active, so I think that’s only a few of you. I believe in you Pile Three.

Songs: Where Did The Party Go – Fall Out Boy, How Far We’ve Come – Matchbox Twenty

Pile Four

Shadow

Cards: Page of Pentacles, The Fool, X of Cups Rx, Justice Rx, King of Wands Rx (Ace of Cups), The Infant Rx, The Egg Rx, Blessings Rx, The Madwoman

A feeling of abandonment that you try to avoid facing. The fact that I want to avoid getting serious is kind of confirming the overall energy here but I’m going to try to not get affected by that. The energy feels like when early childrens TV always had that one episode about the kid who acted out in class and everyone thought they were just the class clown for no reason but they had their specific explanation behind it. You tend to either act out or do reckless things but I don’t think you realize how it effects those around you? Like you’ve experienced instability within your life so when you throw yourself into more or do something ‘a bit funny’ and others are annoyed or worried and frustrated with you, you’re confused as to why it’s a big deal. There’s also a small feeling of not fully — it’s like offering promises or commitment but getting cold feet at some point or not really being there? It feels like the Aquarian stereotype, full stop. I’m sure a good amount if not all of you have experience an unstable, or unfavorable at the least, childhood and that has resulted in you closing your emotions off from people. What I mean by that is you will be social you’ll be open and engaged, but people don’t really know you. They wouldn’t be able to name what moves you what your biggest fear is — things like that. It’s a form of self-protection. This causes friction because those who think they’re close to you will feel slighted when you don’t reciprocate that energy, and I mean you won’t necessarily feel any need to soothe them, so you can come off as very selfish or like you’re prioritizing yourself. It also feels like you’re looking for something or someone to help heal broken pieces of you, not in a worrying way, but in a sense that we’re all looking for our soul family. I think you can sometimes be a bit too dependent on this idea, while also holding parts of yourself back? Why is this another Scorpionic pile and why are you so complicated to explain lol. It’s part: you’re looking for people who understand you because your background is harsh and difficult to explain, you’re looking for people to be yourself around, you’re looking for deep connections because you never really got those. All of this, mixed with the natural self-defense of holding yourself back, makes it seem like you’re only trying to use people when you know more about them than they do you. Which obviously makes you feel some type of way so you shut down on them. Yes. Sometimes it’s a bit of just needing to feel intense emotions so you simply just do something risky. In general, there’s an imbalance but that can be stated for any shadow reading? Oracle time. Okay the first two just shot at me hi. Yeah, there’s an avoidance of facing issues stemmed from childhood. The first two cards speak of being unfavored, but after a hard search the solution to their problems can be found. Blessings also speak about falling out of favor with people. It’s kind of just repeating what I said and I don’t want to sound like a broken record. Madwoman speaks to the reckless behavior but makes sense as to why I wanted to add She’s A Rebel so badly. Infant and Egg also speak to children being abandoned & creations not being able to be contained, again. Same story different cards, so let’s move on to helpful messages.

Integration

Cards: II of Wands, III of Swords, Queen of Swords Rx, Strength Rx, Sagittarius, Aries, Bracken, Chamomile

Be vulnerable. Easier said than done, but that’s how you need to work with this. The strongest card I think you have here is Chamomile with Strength. It’s asking you to rely on any bonds that are already there and solidified. Who do you feel most comfortable with? I’ll rephrase that even to who knows the most about you? Have you thought about being vulnerable with them or are you willing to break down a few more walls. I’m also being called to tell you to let yourself seek out music as a safe space. There might be some artists that have music that reaches parts of your soul that some people just haven’t been able to yet. Now obviously I don’t mean lean on them in a parasocial way, but finding these artists or songs would be very helpful at some points to help soothe or make sense of some emotions. You also just generally need to face your wounds and be okay with…not being okay. Also small signs of going to therapy or something like it? Maybe not literal therapy but if there’s something that’s very therapeutic to you or if you have something that could help break down these issues, then do it. It’s like you need to make connections between your actions and your childhood, I think you’re just simply not aware as to why this is manifesting the way that it is. There’s also a possibility that there will be someone coming in to help you through this, and you need to get better at opening up. Regardless, the same advice applies; don’t clamp up, be honest. This isn’t to say like…spill your whole biography or anything. But like…if you’re not close to someone don’t imply it, if you do feel close to someone, let them know, etcetc. Aries and Sag are known to be very blunt. One without thinking and one without caring. You need to take on those energies when it comes to these issues. It’s funny because I think you overthink without…intending to? It’s precautionary measures. Like I said, you protect yourself before others can hurt you, which is a form of overthinking in a way. Which is not what these two signs tend to do. This is very random but tea and nature might also just help to relax you a bit. Green Tea, not black. Make sure you get sunlight as well. Walks at night are nice but the sun vitalizes you and changes your perspective (something something science). All in all, you need to be proactive with yourself in regards to your background and your emotions, and you need to work on being more vulnerable with people over time. Baby steps.

Songs: Just One Yesterday – Fall Out Boy, Give Me Novacaine/She’s a Rebel – Green Day, Bitch, Don't Kill My Vibe – Kendrick Lamar, Hard Place – H.E.R.

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Heyo!! So I was just thinking, I think I've only ever read one fic of a marriage candidate being divorced and then memory wiped. And I'm in a bit of an angsty mood. So! If you want, maybe some headcanons of the bachelorettes' reactions to getting a divorce? Of course you can choose which bachelorettes you want, or just not do this if you don't want to, no pressure! ^^

bachelorettes reacting to divorce || headcanons

are you sure you want to divorce your loving wife? ... okay, i don't know if you'll like the aftermath, though ...

warnings: LONG post, good lord. super angsty, but most of them have mini redemption arcs. hints of depression and self-depricating thoughts, mention of pam's abusive tendancies.

requested by: @ambersky0319 , thank you so much for the request! angsty time, here we come. funsies <3 i managed to keep it together until i got to penny's and i started crying 💀 my babyyyy :(( but yeah, this is really sad, you've been warned.

abigail

• Abigail thought she had done enough for you. She thought she was the perfect little house-wife, even though that's really not who she was at all. She was always looking for adventure, until she sacrificed most of that for the farm life with you. And she loved you. But when you suggested divorce, she was upset. She spiraled through the five stages of grief in an instant, stuttering and trying to say the right thing even though her feelings were so huge.

• She yells at you, she can't believe after everything, you're willing to throw it all away. She threw all of her possibilities away for you. You. But it's okay, it's fine. If that's what you want, that's what you'll get. The loving wife Abigail was is gone, replaced by an uncaring girl who's trying to get back to the things she used to love before you came along.

• She moves into the basement with Sebastian, opting out of moving back into her parent's place. She needs freedom, to do the things she loves. Adventure. Game. Find herself again. She would do it with a friend, someone who appreciates her. Unlike you, apparently.

• Most nights she can't sleep, however. She replays everything in her mind over and over, and most nights she gets up to play games. Sometimes Sebastian notices this and plays with her, and sometimes he lets her do her own thing. He knows when to intervene and when not to, and that definitely helped Abigail. She's healing slowly, but some nights are just really hard without you by her side. As much as she would love to not care, she just ... can't.

• If you try speaking to her, you get met with a glare and a scoff. She tells you to leave her alone and not to bother her anymore. She can't take talking with you again, it would kill her. She's going to be herself again, by herself! And she's going to love every ounce of herself, without you. So, fuck off.

emily

• Emily thought that you two were written in the stars, lovers until the end. Apparently, she had thought wrong. She loves you, she thought that you loved her just the same! But when the divorce papers were handed her way, her stomach just dropped. Everything slowly fades around her as she stares at them, not registering yet. Her mouth is slightly open, before she just walks out of the room. She gathers a few belongings before slowly making her way back to her sister's house.

• She's numb at first, not really knowing how to deal with something like this. She can't speak for hours, and Haley knows something is wrong. Emily mumbles something about the divorce papers her way, and she's instantly on her way out the door. A very angry Haley is at your doorstep, seemingly more upset than Emily, but it hasn't hit her yet. You get cursed out and told to never show your face in town again.

• As she sits in her own room, she turns to tarot cards, crystals, anything. Everything tells her same thing: better luck next time. Her heart is shattered. As she tries for the fourteenth time to pull a card that represented you coming back, and the love rekindling, she gives up. She gives in and puts the cards aside as she cries. She bawls her eyes out for the first time as she realizes that this cannot be undone.

• Slowly but surely, Haley will try to help her feel better. She'll make all the food, suggest things that they can do together, even takes one of her shifts at work for her. But nothing works ... until she sits her down and puts a sewing machine in front of her. She puts on a show, begging her to sew her a dress because her clothes are suddenly out of fashion. And that reignites her passion. She begins to love her work again, and in turn, loving herself.

• Speaking to her is absolutely out of the question. What's done is done, and she won't talk to you afterward. If you try, she'll ask you to leave her alone, and that she's trying to get over you still. If you don't respect her decision, Haley will probably be at your doorstep in an instant. She's getting better, but she needs you out of the picture.

haley

• Haley has a very fire-y spirit, and when she's pissed off, you'll see it from a mile away. However, when you bring up the thought of divorce ... she's shattered for a moment. Her guard has slipped to the point of vulnerability, and now you're slapping her in the face with it. She stares at you for a moment, a sorrowful expression. She can't believe this is happening- the love of her life, the person she married ...

• She puts on a powerful facade, glaring at you before beginning to yell. Words spew from her lips that she's never even said before, which is surprising. She's been hateful, she's been a bitch, but she was softer now. Well, she WAS ... until you stomped her heart into a million pieces.

• She moves back in with Emily, who takes a few days off of work to take care of her sister. Haley doesn't want you to know she's taking this awfully, though, so she puts on makeup everyday and goes to the saloon. She pretends to have fun so that she can claim she won the breakup, before returning home to continue grieving.

• Many late night talks with Emily are sprung about, Haley finally talking through her emotions. She needs to get to a better place mentally, and Emily knows that. So, she'll ask for Shane's therapist, who now has Haley booked for a session. And it helps. So. Much. Haley begins to be a better person not because of love, but because of herself. She's kinder and sweeter, and tries her best to be her best self.

• You run into each other a few years later, and she seems more radiant than ever. She tells you that it's fine, and that she understood why you had to do it. It made herself a better person, and hopefully it did the same to you. She bids you farewell with a soft smile before walking away. She definitely won the breakup, though.

leah

• Leah loves you harder than anything she's ever loved before. The passion that she has for you is beyond the moon and the sun and the stars ... but she's noticed that it's not been reciprocated recently. And she brings it up to you, asking what's up in a soft and caring tone, before she drops the bombshell. She thinks you're joking at first, laughing softly, before her world crumbles before her.

• She doesn't leave immediately, she can't let this go. She argues, asking why you would feel this way, and what she can do to fix things. What can she do to be a better spouse? Nothing, apparently. You claim that you're happier by yourself, so ... she leaves. She moves back into her little cabin.

• She uses art to work through her grief, constantly painting out her sadness or carving out her anger. Art has always been how she expresses herself, and that certainly hasn't changed one bit. She's still a strong, independent person, she always has been. That doesn't mean it doesn't hurt, though. She's trying to get out her feelings in the healthiest way possible.

• She tries not to let the grief of this relationship weigh her down, but sometimes she doesn't leave the house for days. Painting, sleeping, eating, sculpting, eating sleeping. Elliot eventually gets sick of it, dragging her out of the house and to the beach. They sit and talk through it all, although Leah isn't the greatest with her words. Elliot helps her vocalize her grief.

• Seeing her, you notice how she's still glowing. Nothing has changed about her, aside from being a tad bit more confident. She's beautiful, she's stunning, and she knows it. And she knows what you're thinking, so she gives you a soft smile and let's you know that she's happier on her own. Farewell.

maru

• Maru adores you, and she loves talking with you about the things that interest her, and the stuff that interests you! However, you've been talking a lot less ... and it all makes sense when divorce papers are laid on the table. She takes a moment, trying not to lose her composure. She asks a few questions, logical ones. Why? Is there anyone else? No ... you've just lost feelings. That almost hurts worse.

• She packs up her stuff immediately, and temporarily moves in with her parents. She's planning on finding a place in the city, her talents will be much more appreciated there. Not in a place like this, not where you are. She works and works, day and night, so she doesn't have to think about it.

• Eventually, she breaks. She talks to her dad, holding her face in her hands as she stutters and breaks down further and further. But she'll compose herself. Of course she will, this is Maru. She's smart, competent, and strong. Even the strong have to break a bit sometimes, but she'll find ways to learn from this. She won't make the same mistake again.

• She moves out to the city, getting a nice house to work in. Her career takes off without you, just how it should be. She's come to terms with the fact that you aren't in her life anymore, even if she had to move away to deal with it. But she does, and she's working her ass off. And her life is better without you.

• Coming back to town to visit her parents, she runs into you. You try talking with her, wanting to talk about all the memories you had ... but she cuts you off. She tells you that you have nothing to say to each other anymore. There is nothing here for you, nothing her for her. Silence is what you both need, and you part ways.

penny

• Penny finally found a home in you. You were like her knight in shining armor, getting her away from her awful life with her mother. Until you started saying things that began to match up with her mother's words ... and it began to kill her. After you finally dropped the bombshell and showed her the papers, she almost passed out. She begged and pleaded, cried and sobbed at your feet. She couldn't take this, this couldn't be happening ...

• She couldn't go back to her mom, but she couldn't stay here. She bought a very small cabin, which Robin helped her pay off, and spent several days in there. The first few days, it was only a bed and a small kitchen. Her days consisted of crying and watching TV, trying to get the thoughts of you out of her head, but it didn't work. God, nothing would work.

• Slowly, she decided that she had to start doing something. Staying home wasn't good for her, and what about the kids? They were probably worried. As she exited her house, she checked her mailbox and saw several "get well soon" cards from Vincent and Jas, and then everything hit her at once. She needed to get better, not just for herself, but for them as well.

• She found comfort in decorating her new home, even creating a small, mini-library for the kids. Her classes could be held in her home, so she had to make it the prettiest place possible! She remembered how much she loves helping these kids, and it helps her through a lot. She begins to love herself, too.

• However, she still can't speak to you. Even looking at you makes her break, so she tries to avoid you as much as possible. If you try to speak with her, she tells you to leave her alone, beginning to get teary-eyed. She goes home to recover, making herself some food. She's getting better at cooking too. Maybe she's better off without you ...

[escapingrealtiylovinginsanity]

Nick Torres: Smudged & Loved 

I’ve had brainrot for Nick with a metaphysical girlfriend. He acts like such a skeptic but underneath I think he is a believer. I want to throw out that everyone practices differently and there is no wrong way to have spirituality. If this topic makes you uncomfortable, please do not interact. Much love xoxo  

Nick had found it strange at first. The spiritual stuff that you were into. He hadn’t really noticed it the first few months you were dating. You seemed normal. He took you out on normal dates to normal places. The two of you had fun together. When it got to the point where sex got involved it was amazing. And usually at his apartment because he had a more unpredictable job. 

 He knew you were superstitious he recognized the evil eye clipped to your purse to keep someone from cursing you or sending bad luck your way. Other odd but not notable habits. It wasn’t until he saw your apartment that he had any real idea. Crystals, tarot cards, and candles in a corner of the living room and in the bedroom. Crystals were randomly sprinkled throughout the rest of the apartment as well.  

He hadn’t understood it, but he had respected your need for spirituality. You never pushed him into anything. Until he came over to your place at two in the morning in a bad state. While he couldn’t tell you the specifics you knew it was a bad one. Any case that involved kids was always bad for him. He woke you up with a phone call while he was outside your door. You had let him in, and he had slumped onto your couch. You had thrown your hair up and went to grab a beer out of the fridge. He was reaching for it when you pulled it back slightly. 

“Look I know this is your go-to. But can I try something? Can I smudge you?” He looked at you with tired eyes. He put out the front that he thought was all hocus pocus but with the way he reacted to moving the dead and how superstitious he could be you always wondered if maybe it was more bluster than anything. “What’s the worst thing that could happen? You feel the same as you do now and drink a slightly less chilled beer? What if it makes you feel better? Even just a little bit?”  

He gives you a faint nod. You’re not sure if it’s from his exhaustion or just to appease you but you grab a bundle of sage. When you return, he has his shirt pulled off and he is working on his jeans. “What are you doing?”  

He looks at you like you were the one doing something strange “Getting undressed so you can smear me. Isn’t that what you wanted?” 

“Smudge you,” You correct while watching the ripples of his chest and arm muscles, “And you don’t have to be naked for it.” Then you add softly to yourself, “Not that I’m complaining, it would be a lot more fun for me if you were.”  

Nick still looked adorably bemused. “Don’t you need me to be for you to ‘smudge’ it on me?” You push down a giggle as you realize what his mind has gone. He thought you were going to have to smear something onto his skin. You walk up and press a kiss to the top of his head. You were only taller than him when he was sitting down.  

“Baby, you smudge with the smoke. Nothing actually touches you.” 

You take your time smudging him. Letting the smoke permeate around him. You watched as the thick smoke thinned into wispy swirls taking with it the bad juju that clung to him. Even as you could see him physically relax into the couch, you could see the doubt in his eyes. He was definitely doing this only because you had asked him. He was a skeptic, but you knew he had some belief. When he talked about not moving the bodies of the dead and respecting their resting place.  

When you were done, he raised a tired eyebrow at you. You had smiled at him not pressing him with questions of if he was feeling any better. Instead handing him his still chilled beer and pressed a soft kiss to his lips.  

Nick wouldn’t realize the change until he woke up the next morning. He would wake up late, the sun high in the sky and penetrating through the window. He was alone in bed the sheets cool with your long absence. He stretched feeling the relief as his back cracked releasing pressure on his upper back. It took him a minute for his mind to wake up but when it did it was blissfully clear. Then he realized that he had slept. Like really slept. No nightmares, no tossing and turning, no waking up and struggling to go back to sleep with his racing thoughts torturing him. These were all common things for him after bad cases. Yet he had experienced none of them.  

He lazed in bed enjoying the lightness he felt. You find him there a half hour later resting on his stomach sheet bunched around his waist arm hugging a pillow. You had come to check on him, not used to him sleeping in late. He rolled onto his side at the sound of your footsteps. He gave you a sleepy smile that you returned. “You planning on staying in bed all day?” 

“And if I am?” 

Your smile widens, “Then I request to take the place of that pillow.” He hums in thought, his hand tilting back in forth as he considers you.  

“Granted, on a condition.” One of your hands locks on your hip. “You strip down first.” You laugh and he wiggles his eyebrows at you. You start taking off your clothes, and he throws the pillow to the floor. You climb into his outstretched arms. His skin is warm, and his smell encompasses you. You press a kiss against his neck as he pulls the covers around you. “Thank you,” Nick whispers to you a few minutes later. You pull away from the curve of his neck that you are curled into to look up into his eyes. They are a warm brown. “I feel better. Lighter.”  

You start slipping crystals in his pockets. Rose quartz for love. Tourmaline for protection. Amethyst for safe travel and stress relief. Nick almost always finds a crystal when he slides his hands into his pockets. The feel of them made him smile and he would pull them out trying to figure out what they were for. And after a time, you find it becomes a normal occurrence for him to come into your apartment after a bad day and ask you to “smoke his bad juju away”. 

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hi! 💗 I was wondering if you could do a reading on Lewis Hamilton on his personality/true self in public vs private? thank you and love your blog 💗💗

Lewis Hamilton tarot reading

personality in public vs private

do I have his energy permission to do and share this reading? knight of pentacles

i sense some hesitancy from him, it seems he has experience with people trying to uncover secrets to ruin his reputation, so I will be as nice as I can! I only tell what the cards show me, which is what he has given permission to share.

his personality in public, in front of cameras, celebrities and bosses

knight of cups reversed, page of wands, king of swords reversed, the star, hanged man reversed, the devil

he tries to impress mostly with his body and face, but also money, like he's casually living the lavish lifestyle, he can get really superficial. he is perceived as untouchable, not only for fans, he has a confidence in himself that people aren't used to seeing in stars. he is someone that people would give up everything to have - business people, crushes and fans - he is incredibly valuable, he has great reputation and power. he likes to be seen as a man with pure intentions, someone who can create greatness out of dry land, a pure heart who inspires others to be good. when it comes to love and romance, the general opinion seems to fluctuate, some may think no one is good enough for him and others think "he doesn't want commitment, not that he is a player but he never gets married, so there must be something wrong with him", it seems he wants to get married and have kids, he just might think it's not possible for him, for some reason, maybe because of his job and his environment, he may feel a little stuck, like people say sometimes that "fame is a curse". i think he is really sensitive and delicate, so he tries to look as badass as possible so that nobody tries to fuck him up. he knows money and palpable things is power in his work so he may show off as a message for the bad people around him. his hair is definitely signature for him, body is important, to stay strong and mentally bright + the public must know he is healthy, chains, expensive wine, philanthropy/charity work/activism, he must have a thick layer, authoritative, powerful and ruthless.

how he is casually, with close friends and family

3 of cups reversed, ace of pentacles reversed, 5 of wands, 9 of swords, page of swords, the emperor reversed, the magician reversed, bottom of the deck 4 of cups (so many cards 😭)

in privacy, he doesn't feel a need to be so powerful and strong, he rests and he allows himself to accept help, he doesn't try to look strong or loud or like a star, he's just a guy. I think he really, strongly appreciates quietness, calmness and just an opportunity to rest, I think he doesn't go out much. I remember zendaya saying that her job is so demanding and crazy, that when she has time for herself, she doesn't like to travel or go to parties, she just likes to be home, watching tv and sleeping, I'm getting that same vibe for him, specially since he's a racer, his job is literally very fast and physically, mentally demanding, his life is constantly at risk, so, in privacy, he just is, he just exists. the cards are very cancer directed. he might like to study and plan for his future, I can see him listening to music quietly and just staring at nothing, thinking about everything. i think he is very patient, but also overwhelmed, so he prefer to be alone in almost complete silence, he doesn't seem to be fond of surprise visits, he would be nice and you would feel at home and comfortable, but secretely he would be wishing on your demise. I don't think he lies about who he is when he's in public, he's just an introvert acting more extroverted because he's at work, he seems to enjoy the same music and clothes and movies, it's just a more quiet version of what the public sees. I think he likes the sound of silence, birds chirping, cars passing and the faint noise of people talking. I think when he's with family, he is the type to be in a different room with the pets, but still enjoy being part of the conversation and being included; his close friends would definitely know to or text and wait for him to answer before showing up at his house, I think he ignores calls and may be the type to pretend he's not home if somebody knocks on the door. he seems quite immature in private, childish, childlike, prone to baby talk, for sure. he seems really fond of animals, probably talks to his pets and tells them secrets. I don't think he's very outdoorsy, he may love the purity of nature but as long as he can stay home, without bugs, humidity and allergies, he may like the beach or have a mountain house, idk. hobbies would include studying, analyzing, watching tv, maybe documentaries, fashion/modeling, flowers are revelant but idk why, he seems to love water, spirituality/religions is definitely something he genuinely enjoys, I looked him up and he is a catholic, I think he prays a lot in privacy, that makes sense with the previous messages. teddy bear, playful acting, dressing up and styling his hair differently, the type to get up when watching tv to imitate a scene, definitely talks during movies, really enjoys having people around and would love a big family, is however very closed off and likes to be alone most of the time. will likely have his dream life he desires when he retires and have more opportunities. also, he is definitely very emotionally attached to pop divas and sings his heart out to songs made for young girls, I did search his birth chart and it says he has a moon in cancer so he may feel particularly represented in taylor swift, mariah carey, shakira and dua lipa songs (same moon sign), he might have also been a fan of britney (same mercury sign) or katy (same rising sign) when he was younger, because I'm mostly getting songs from them. this specific song seems relevant for his current energy:

[khaire-traveler]

Tarot Divination When You Think You've Been Cursed

Being cursed does not happen very often. Curses require a lot of energy, time, and materials, and generally speaking, magic practitioners don't usually care enough to curse every single person they believe has done them wrong. So, your chances of actually being cursed are slim to none. Sometimes, you're just going through a down period in your life. Other times, you're unknowingly contributing to your own misfortune. And even still, other times, it's just sheer luck that something didn't work out the way you had thought it would.

However, if you fear someone has cursed you (or sent generally negative energy towards you), there are three tarot readings you can try to figure it out. These readings are meant to be done in order as they are presented and can shed some much-needed light on your situation. I recommend making sure you have a lot of time set aside to do these readings.

The readings will be listed below as the questions you are meant to ask, as I don't personally work with spreads. You can create your own spread based on the questions, if you would like to.

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1. A general overview of your life, as it is, currently

What you're looking for are any outliers - people, archetypes, and situations that shouldn't be present in your life currently. This can be a card representing your witchy ex, major arcana with magical implications despite a lack of recent magical workings, or even cards describing past situations with people you've cut ties with. Ask yourself these questions:

Are any names/faces coming to mind as I interpret the cards, specifically ones I haven't thought about in a while? These can serve as clues to whom put a potential curse on you, especially if you've been having nightmares and dream-warnings of this person as of late.

Do the cards keep bringing up a specific situation from the past that I was involved in? This can serve as a clue - whom put the potential curse on you and why.

What major arcana archetypes (The Empress, The Fool, The Hermit, etc.) are present in this reading? This can be yet another clue as to whom put the potential curse on you. Remember that seeing an archetype card does not guarantee that it's about a person separate from yourself. The card may present itself because it simply has a message for you.

2. Negative Influences That Are Currently in Your Life

What you're looking for here are any cards that feel out of place, such as mentions of a specific past person or situation repeatedly. Note here that this reading may also cause you to face some difficult truths with yourself, as sometimes, we get in our own way. If that's the case, then it's likely you aren't cursed. Ask yourself these questions:

Could this be related to a current mindset I have or action I keep repeating? ALWAYS assume mundane over magical; like I said, curses do not happen often.

Does the same archetype keep being mentioned (The Empress and Queen of Pentacles, Death and Eight of Cups, Judgement and Justice, etc.)? Archetypes can serve as clues for whom put a potential curse on you and why.

Is there a person from my life that keeps being brought up in a magical context? Cards I would consider "magical" include The Magician, The High Priestess, The Moon, and Nine of Cups. If you keep seeing the same person, reflect on the relationship you have with them, as it could just be that this person is unhealthy for you in a non-magical way (The Devil and The Tower would be strong indications of this).

3. What is Currently Causing Your Misfortunes

This is obviously the most direct of the three readings, but interestingly, you may not get very direct answers. The cards may focus more on giving you advice which, while helpful, doesn't really answer the question at hand. My advice is to talk to your cards before doing this reading and tell them you're not looking for advice but are seeking direct answers.

An important note here is that your cards may tell you that your current actions or mindsets are causing the problem you're facing. They may also tell you that you're honestly just going through a low period in life. Be aware that curses are not always the answer. I have to keep repeating this because sometimes people get paranoid that they are cursed when the cause is really something mundane. I don't want to encourage fear or paranoia over curses.

When interpreting this reading, ask yourself these questions:

Is there a specific person being brought to my attention? Keep in mind that people can cause problems in non-magical ways, so be sure to pay close attention to the surrounding cards and whether or not they imply magical workings.

Are the cards evading an answer/not making any sense? This can happen sometimes as a signal of a curse - something that is being kept hidden from you. It can also be a sign to cleanse your cards, so I'd cleanse your cards and try the reading again before jumping to conclusions.

Is this a mundane answer or a magical answer? Think this through very carefully. I'd even recommend taking a few days to think about, if you're able to. Usually, the answer is more mundane than we initially think it to be.

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If you feel you're cursed, I recommend cleansing your space spiritually as well as yourself. There are spells you can do to counter curses, such as this spell (curse removal and reversal), this spell (curse-removing bath), and this spell (this last spell is actually a short list of return-to-sender spells). After cleansing, I recommend putting up spiritual protections. This (everyday protection), this (curse decoy), and this (simple spell) are good protections to try, if you're not sure where to start.

Best of luck to you all! I hope this post helps someone! ☺️🧡

[heiressofdoodles]

Journal of the Last Prophet (Part Two)

November Seventeenth, 1635

I was summoned to the Queen’s Court yesterday afternoon. Non negotiable, even in the case of emergencies. If she had more honesty with herself and with us, she would’ve sent her guards to drag me to the castle at swordpoint. Being in her presence is sickening, and even though I was allowed to bring my spouses here, I… was unable to sleep last night. The anxiety was so intense, I felt ill just attempting to sit up. I was dreading the idea that the second I closed my eyes, her guards would break down the door, and throw me into a cell… or worse…

I’ve… heard stories of a place in the castle… Dull Glass. You can use it to travel across Wonderland if you know how to use it, but… if you aren’t careful… it’s a never ending maze… What’s worst of all, again I’ve only heard stories about Dull Glass, is that if you are not of sound mind or are hiding dark secrets, even if you don’t know those secrets exist, it will haunt you. Follow you, chase you relentlessly, stalking you until they break you… figuratively or literally… or until you find the way out. I don’t want to find out if those stories are true. There… is not much I can do against the Queen. No matter how much I want to…

The sun is rising as I write this. I just hope they make hot chocolate or coffee here to help me feel more awake…

It was… not a pleasant visit, I must say. She was so calm and friendly to us when the rest of the court had arrived. Somnia was even joking with us a bit… in her own twisted way, of course. Taunting me for the curse she forced upon me… After lunch, she had invited me into her office. Still, she was calm… right up until she had dismissed my spouses and her guards. The moment those doors were closed, her needlessly cruel and sadistic tendencies were on full display. For one, she had… a strange box in front of me, just sitting on the desk. When my curiosity had gotten the best of me, I saw there was a strange, soft blue, whispy pearl looking thing in the glass box. I knew what it was before she had even said anything. 

“So, how is your situation going in Tarot Town, anyways? Everyone is happy and content?” It was sickening to me that she could talk to me as if there was nothing wrong; as if she hadn’t stolen my voice from me. I tried to give her the best answer, and she just laughed at me. “I’m still surprised they keep reelecting you as Mayor when you sound so pathetic.” I said nothing… What was I meant to say? She just… stared. “I’m certain you’ve noticed this little case on my desk. Would you like to know what it is?” That smile… How could someone be so wicked…?

She… I don't know how, but with a snap of her fingers, a soft, red glow appeared, and… I had my voice back; the glass box was empty. I could speak again. I could genuinely speak, and not just in those strange phrases. Real words and real sentences again. I had been dreaming of this day, the moment that I’d be able to speak normally again. I even had a plan of what I’d say… I’d tell my spouses that I love them. But I highly doubt I’ll be able to do even that before she reverses the spell again… Trapped… in this one room with the person that had done so much to people that only wanted what was right… She certainly was expecting me to be at my nonexistent feet and begging for her mercy and forgiveness. When I did nothing of the sort, she seemed more frustrated and angry.

I tried to block it all out… Her anger, her hatred, and the threats… but nothing I could do really… helped… After a while of failed negotiations, I… seem to have worn down her, because, she… did exactly as I feared she would. Our meeting was over, and she had stolen my voice again. I was just as ashamed of facing my family as I was… when this curse came into effect. And to think that we’re trapped here in the Card Castle until the Queen dismisses us… I just want to go home… But I think that the Queen ordered at least two of her soldiers to stay posted outside my bedroom… I can hear them talking through the door, and the windows are locked. I don’t want to die here.

January Twentieth, 1640

The weather has been a bit clearer lately; we’ve had a few days of blizzards and snow which had snowed most of us inside. I’ve been going through the town as I usually do now, checking with every family as I go. Sadly, I don’t have time to socialize with all of them, but it’s certainly better than not having anything. Quite a number of families were glad to hear that the storm had cleared, and not just because they needed a break from their families or needed some more food. I just hope the grocery store didn’t lose power.

I heard stories when I was a child of someone called the Snow Queen. She’s somewhat of the physical embodiment of winter with all the metaphors and characteristics of its hostile nature. Lonely and cruel, with a never ending hunger for power and a thirst for violence. Despite this, I’ve also heard tales of sympathy, calmness and even friendliness to those that respect her and her rule. While her appearances and stories about and including her have become sparse in recent years, she is known to be petty, and causes unnaturally violent blizzards to those that disrespect her. If any of those stories are true, I hope that she is doing okay, wherever she is.

About half past three, I had knocked on the door to the twins' home. They seemed to rush beyond the door, before opening it. “Oh, Mayor Aeon,” the one twins had said to me. “What are you doing here?” I had mentioned that I was here to make sure everyone was okay. They seemed… hesitant, before they opened the door to let me in. Their home was cozy and warm, even if it was a little bit dull here and there. They didn’t seem to mind, however. In fact, I think it was rather put together and calm. It wasn’t quite like the other villagers. “Hey!” the one twin called. “The Mayor is here!” I tried to tell them (to the best of my ability) that there was no need for them to be so… worried about speaking to me. But they insisted that I stay for some time…

They had made some hot chocolate to help warm me up, and had welcomed me to hang up my coat and veil. Naturally, as I didn’t want to disrespect them, I did as they asked with a smile, and sat down on the couch. They were rather decent hosts, I must admit, and the conversations were far more pleasant than normal. That is, until they had asked if it was true, what I had said to the Queen almost five years ago now… the stories of my “bravery” having apparently spread across the town, yet never having been said to me… I’m… still surprised that people hold me in such high regard… It doesn’t quite feel like something that would be said about me, I guess… But, I did confirm it. I had done that… I had spoken against the Queen, and I had rejected the chance to be given back my voice…

“Then… you truly are the Mayor of the people.” I was somewhat confused… They had sat down across from me, and the weight of the air… it grew heavy with anticipation. They seemed to be… holding their cards tightly against their chest, however. “Are… you sure you won’t tell her anything?” I nodded my head. I restated what I had told her all that time ago. I will not bow to her, and nothing she can do to me will change that. They seemed to be afraid… 

“We are… from Underland, Mrs. Mayor.” My heart sank. Not because they had lied to me, but because it all made sense. The strange, subtle movements they made, their unwillingness to give their names, the look in their eyes… How could I look upon them with any discontent now? Peaceful lives weren’t going to be available to them so long as Somnia sits on the throne. “We had moved to Wonderland about… oh, fifty years ago now? But… with what happened nearly thirty years ago… We had been desperate to hide ourselves. We heard what she had done to the Bishop, and… we dread that if she learned there were Underlanders living in Wonderland for even longer than him…” The one with the cane shook his head, trying to block out the thought. It must’ve been a dreadful idea, if he couldn’t even speak it.

The other spoke instead. “None of us want to face her wrath. Because she’d almost certainly burn this entire town down to make us pay for existing. No one would be innocent in her eyes; all co-conspirators in sheltering us from her… Not even you, Mrs. Mayor.” My hands shook. All this time, they had been living in fear of the Queen, and of anyone that got too cozy with her. I still feel so horrible for them. How could anyone be able to live that way? They… didn’t say much afterwards… I understood why. They must’ve felt like they had already told me too much. But it was better for them to tell than for this secret to be stressing them with their every moment. I left shortly after, thanking them for the hot chocolate, and finished greeting everyone not long afterwards.

I hadn’t even told Kaseki, Kamenshi or Galacta about this… I’m just writing it down, in this book, where no one will ever be able to find it. They trust me with their life, and I trust that this secret will stay in this book. I don’t even care if I have to rip out these pages to protect them; I will do it. No one deserves to live in such terror and fear for every day of their life. I swear, I will never tell her anything. I won’t let any of them down.

I would rather die than tell her anything.

July Thirty First, 1642.

Today marks one long decade of my curse. There has been no sign of it breaking. No sign of release or freedom from this dark spell, and yet, we have overcome the troubles she had forced upon us. While the world is indeed suffering, the town has slowly been clawing out of the worst of it. Well, as best we can thanks to the Queen’s regular intervention. If I was not so… polite, I’d already have written out a rant of less than appropriate words to describe her. I have reason to believe she’s become paranoid with me still being in power, but I don’t have any time to make a revolution from the town. And besides, I’m not a Suit; I don’t have the power to take away the throne from Somnia, and no one has heard of the Spade, Diamond or the Club in ages. It’s like they’ve just up and vanished without a trace.

It’s… fine, though. We are doing what we can do without them. I’ve held up my promises to the town, which must be why I’ve held office for so long. Despite my curse, and despite the long hours of work… I do try my best to make sure we’re all protected… My mother seems a bit on edge with some of the things I’ve told her, though. Of course, I haven’t told her any secrets that I promised to never share. I could never… But, from what my Mother has told me… things have been getting worse over at the castle. People are being thrown into the prisons, some are being killed over petty slights… and Somnia seems to be driving herself even more mad than before…

If it was anyone else, I’d feel sympathy. Pity, at worst. But I don’t. I feel horrible for the people she’s betrayed, however. She had sworn to protect Wonderland when she took the throne, but she is just using her power and privilege to make everyone around herself suffer. She’s not cruel because she’s alone. She’s alone because she’s cruel. At this rate, I don’t think anyone should take the throne again. From what I’ve read of the history of Wonderland, it’s just more corruption as the line goes further down. Every power vacuum creates another crisis… I can only assume Underland or whatever other realities out there are doing far better than us.

…I’m just rambling again. I’m sorry.

August Twenty First, 1643.

My mother passed away today. I went to her house this morning to talk to her and to go out for breakfast, but she was already gone. She passed away peacefully. It feels… so wrong for her to not be here. I miss her so deeply, but it’s only natural that it would’ve happened. Her health had been in decline for some time now - since last year at least, but losing her still feels horrible. There are still so many things I want to ask her about, so many things I want to learn, and yet she’s taken her knowledge and experience into the void with her. Doing my work for the town will be a bit difficult, but I pray that this wave of misfortune will pass over soon.

August Thirtieth, 1643.

I… severely over estimated how hard losing my mother would be. When I went to the office the day of and after her passing, the others told me to go home and rest. After a brief protest, I did. But I still feel so exhausted. I wish she was here. I try to distract myself with my work, but it doesn’t work for long. I don’t know what’s worse now; this curse, or this… feeling that I could’ve helped her. She was going to die eventually, but we had plans. Places to see, things to do. And there are things I wanted to talk to her about, answers that I couldn’t find for myself. Kaseki and Kamenshi said this is normal after losing a parent, but… I still miss her so deeply. I want to keep her close, but just memories of her aren’t enough. Not really. Maybe if I actually had my father here to grieve with me… or if I had already learned how to grieve if he's not alive anymore, maybe this wouldn't feel so much worse… I hate to end this on a negative note, but… I just have nothing positive to say today.

September Fifth, 1643.

I've been doing more of my job to the best of my ability. Things have been rough, but the people have been understanding. There has been no word from the Card Castle for too long; I'm expecting a visit at any point. I hope that no one has noticed my stress, but it's a bit difficult. How long can I wait without an answer for the question if I’m even going to be alive at the end of the week? Somnia’s rage grows with every visit and every refusal.

While I was making my rounds, I believe the Twins had taken notice of my gloomy state. They were sitting at the café again, before they saw me and waved me over. While they still haven't told me their names, they’re pleasant as long as they don’t bicker. Which… Now that I think about it, it isn't very often. Probably not the best way to describe them, then. Those two will find anything to argue about. It’s rather impressive, but can also be draining to be around them for long.

The first twin, the one with the cane beside his chair, asked me how I was doing without my Mama. It… was hard to answer honestly. I don’t like being vulnerable to a good amount of the town, and with those two in particular, it’s best that you have your defenses up. But he was calm and sympathetic. Didn’t even raise his voice when his brother made another ill-timed joke. “I understand, my dear,” he said to me. “It’s very hard to lose someone, especially if they’re the only one that you’ve had for so long.” I… didn’t really want to hear it. I’ve been hearing things like that since Mama passed, and it was more so getting on my nerves at this point. When you hear the same thing over and over, even the most sympathetic of phrases can become nails on a chalkboard.

“I… Both of us had gone through something like this, dear. This… realization and pain of knowing they’re gone.” I gently excused myself the best I could, (I had no translator again today, but they seem to know what I said to them, even without Galacta’s help) but the more I think of it, the more I needed to hear what they said next. “Your mother would be proud of you.” I turned to look at them again, astonished at the gentleness of his voice. His brother was completely silent, but the look in his dark glasses told me that he was thinking the same. “You’ve been through a lot, and if anyone else was in your position, we would’ve caved to the Queen’s demands. Yet you still fight her tooth and nail for every shred of dignity that she wants to rip away from you.” I almost didn’t want to accept such kind words, but it felt very nice to be appreciated in that regard. I… hope that’s not my ego talking.

After a bit longer, I said my farewells again, and left them to their coffees. I can never tell what I’m going to get myself into when I go to talk to those two, but just knowing that they care about the struggles it takes to keep this town safe from the Queen… It just helps. I think that maybe that’s why they left Underland all that time ago. Despite the risks, they somehow knew things were going to get bad on this side of the rift. I spoke with my spouses about this earlier, and I was surprised to hear that they agreed. They said that my Mama had done the best she could, but even she couldn’t stand against Somnia like I have. Again, it might just be my ego talking, but it feels like I’m carrying on the torch. Leading the town to a time and a kingdom that is safer for everyone. Not just for the one at the top.

September Eleventh, 1643.

Queen Somnia is paying the town another of her surprise visits. I had been warned by Galacta as her carriage and her royal guards appeared on the horizon. She's done so much to myself and my people. Why does she still feel the need to come to our home and spit in our faces? He's going to accompany me during my meeting with her, translating as he often does now. I still feel so foolish speaking to my people; talking to her will be like a nightmare. I wish Mama was still here. If not to guide me, then to at least hold my hand and understand what I’m going through.

When she arrived, she was her usual self. Soft and sickeningly sweet to the people, but the moment that she and I were behind closed doors, her vile self was on full display. Galacta Knight stood beside me, and his grip on one of the swords, even if it was just for decoration, was terrifying. His stare was blank and empty, but I know that he was furious to see her again. She laughed and taunted me, asking if I was finally ready to tell her my visions. I refused again, and that just made her more furious. She threatened to sentence me to Dull Glass if I refused any further. But I won’t bow down to her. And she knows that if she so much as raised a hand to me, she would come to regret it. She left without any sort of pleasure from the trip.

But regardless, if nothing is done to stop Somnia, she will become so powerful that she's going to starve the land, and even if she doesn't, her thorns will choke the life out of the people she had sworn to protect when she was crowned. When she had undoubtedly stolen the crown from the poor soul that was the Ruler of Wonderland before her. If only I could do something. If only any of the other suits were here to do something. Please, Club, wherever you are, please come back to us.

September Fourteenth, 1643.

The Club has returned.

I had a vision not long before I woke up this morning. There were vines covered in poisonous thorns spreading across Wonderland, and the world shattering like glass, leaving only a void in its wake. Then I saw a green glow, with clover flowers blooming, healing and piecing back together the broken world. From the furthest corner of the world where the light was coming from, there was a figure standing there, a young Bluebird child, with the Club in the palm of their hand. Our world, all of Wonderland, will come to the brink of destruction at the cruel hands of the Queen, but the Club will defeat her in some form or another. The Diamond and the Spade couldn't do it; I just pray that this nightmare will finally be over.

There was… another part of my vision however. When the world was falling to pieces, I saw the Moon. It appeared suddenly, and it glowed an ominous blood red. I… will have to do research on lunar imagery in Wonderland's history. The moon on the sleeve of my priestess gown is symbolic of wisdom, fertility, womanhood, and empowerment… But I don't think everyone would have used her symbol so kindly. I'll have to be extremely careful if the Queen pays another visit to our town. She has some way to tell if someone is lying to her; if she asks about the Club, and she learns that they’ve returned… There won’t be any way to save them.

September Seventeenth, 1643.

The world had fallen to ruin, if only briefly. When I woke up after everything went to black, the world was still and quiet. Whatever had happened, it was sudden. The Club was gone, but, to my joy, so was Queen Somnia. I can finally speak again. I can finally speak clear, proper sentences again. I’ve been waiting for this day for over twelve long years. The first thing I said to my spouses when they came home early to see if I was okay was “I love you”. We… We wept and laughed in joy, just holding each other for hours. We had taken the rest of the day off, and just spent the day together, finally able to just talk without needing someone to translate my words anymore.

September Twentieth, 1643

I was making my daily rounds today, a grand weight lifted from my shoulders, when I heard a small commotion. Some of the children were playing in the fields like usual, but some of the adults were standing at the edge of the town, staring at something. I went to investigate, and I’m not too sure how to describe what I saw. At least, I wasn’t sure without drawing potentially unwanted comparisons. There was a man playing in the fields, running around with the children, but also using a cane to help support himself. He had long, wavy, silver hair, two pairs of arms, and clothes like other Wonderlanders, but some of the movements he made resembled those Twins that came from Underland. As if he wanted to move slightly further or slightly less, but couldn’t compromise with his body. I went over to greet him, and he stumbled, before turning to look at me. That smile he had was slightly disturbing, but I think what was most concerning to me were his eyes. Or rather, the lack of his eyes, hidden behind those colourful glasses he wore. I tried to shut it out; it was horrifically rude of me to judge him based on something that he clearly tried to negate with his glasses. 

The children ran to me, cheerful and happy as ever, and the man greeted me like I was an old friend. “Oh ho! It has been quite a long time since I’ve seen you, miss. Perhaps… Twenty five years? Maybe longer?” I opened my mouth to respond to him, but I don’t think he had many people to talk to. He was so excitable, and even I couldn’t help but be lost in his amazement at just… existing, I suppose. “Ah, it doesn’t matter. How are you, though? How have you been? I’ve been meaning to find the place you described to me, and now I’m here!” I… gently expressed my confusion, and after a small chat, I… I knew I wasn’t crazy. I knew that he wasn’t gone forever. That was Shard. Shard was standing right in front of me! He really was alive… or as alive as you could be, trapped under a curse for that long. Had it really been over twenty five years since I saw him? I’ll have to check.

I spent the rest of the day just talking with Shard, or Lucid as he preferred to be called now. It wasn’t a name he chose for himself, but it stuck, and he didn’t think he’d change it. He stumbled through the streets, even when Kamenshi came over to help him walk. Lucid was still taller than Shimi, but the support was deeply needed. A cane could only do so much for him, as we quickly discovered. I can’t imagine sitting down for so long, and even being able to walk or float ever again. And yet, here he was, walking, running, and just breathing in how life should have been for him. A life that the Ex-Queen Somnia had stolen from him. I will have to inquire how the Club had even defeated Somnia and how she was dethroned, but I think that might be a bit too soon to discuss. Perhaps at another date.

For now, Shard, Lucid, whatever his name will be, is alive, and I believe the guest bedroom will be occupied for some time.

September Twenty Fifth, 1643.

Something rather unexpected happened today. I had woken up today with a bit of a cold, and we’re out of medicine at the moment. Kaseki said the soonest she’ll be able to get some cold medicine is tonight, but it’s bad enough that I don’t think I’ll be able to go to work today. Lucid had caught wind of my ailment, and offered, chipper as ever, to take my place for the time being. I… attempted to persuade him to not take the offer. Even a calm day was still quite a lot of work, but he seemed up to the challenge. He clumsily let me know that the town was in safe hands. I kindly asked Galacta to keep an eye on him and to help him. I don’t want him to overwork himself or to do something that would take more than a small conversation to undo. I doubt it would get that far, but the chance is still there.

For now, I’m just sitting in bed, reading a few books, the fan on to keep the room decently cool, and a nice drink of warm water, lemon juice and honey to soothe my throat. Perhaps I can use today to continue more of my research, but I'll have to take more notes to make sure I actually remember anything. I’ve seen more than one instance of Lucid’s newfound clumsiness get him into more than a spot of trouble, but with no word from the Card Castle still, maybe we’ll finally get an easy going day for Lucid. He did say he was the Bishop of Underland, but I don’t think that Wonderland is the same, even back when our worlds were connected. So long as he tries his best and Gala is there, I should be able to rest easy.

Probably.

October Thirteenth, 1643.

When the wrath of the bloodstained moon bathes the sky and washes over the land, the nightmares that burned up our imaginations will come to flesh. All corners of the Divided Realities shall be consumed by The Lands Between. The Traitors and the Sinners will perish in the flames, and the Bystanders will be without hope. Our Judgement Day is arriving.

I have no recollection of writing this. Did I write it and pass out? Or did I write it in my sleep? I… I don’t even remember having a vision that could prompt this… I’ll have to get into contact with the Card Castle soon… As much as I despise that place… I need to speak with the new Queen. Wonderland is in more danger than I thought we were.

October Twentieth, 1643

The Club has returned again.

It’s… strange. Mama said that out of all of the Suits, the Club has always been the most mysterious and the least likely to be around for significant amounts of time. They primarily appear when the Divided Realities, as my… as my blackout vision described it, are in immediate danger, possibly even when they are close to complete destruction, and soon after the source of the problem has been removed, they disappear into the pages of myth once more. The history books are full of the first three suits, but the Club is barely present for more than two sentences. It’s… frustrating to say the least. It doesn’t help that there’s so much missing. I’ll have to ask the Jailer, Dero, about some of Wonderland’s past.

The trends that I’m finding are most interesting, though. The Heart is most often the ruler of Wonderland. The Spade is often a powerful Lord or Lady, sometimes at the right hand or even the consort to the Heart. The Diamond varies, but in times of unrest and war, is usually the first to rebel against the throne and even be the leader of a rebellion faction. And the Club, whenever they make themselves known, is often the mediator; the one to take control of all of Wonderland, even for a fraction of a second and even if they don’t know it, to ensure the future of Wonderland is in good hands. Perhaps there was a flaw in how they did it recently.

Lucid said the Club is a child; a young bluebird by the name of Fylass. He left to travel the world a few days after I recovered from my cold, and visited again briefly yesterday to return to Card Castle. I was able to ask him about the Club, and said “they are a troubled youth, but I’m sadly unaware if they are even alive anymore. If they are, it breaks my heart that they haven’t come back to say they’re okay.” I believe the current Club is the same one that assisted in dethroning Somnia… Speaking of Somnia, I haven’t heard of her since she was dethroned. Not even Lucid really had an answer as to where she disappeared to. While I’m curious… I can’t say I’m sympathetic. After all, she almost certainly made enemies in every village, town and district in Wonderland. I think the only choice she’d have now is to disappear completely; leave Wonderland to find some place that she could eventually call a home for herself again.

I just know it won’t be here.

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Fylass in Wonderland belongs to @george228732

Aeon and Cresunsa belong to me

Queen Somnia belongs to @stardustshimmer

Shard/Lucid belongs to @lostsoulau-ask

Dero belongs to @monsterhatdoodles

[the-dendrophile-bookdragon]

Never Say Never

Warning: none, fluff Pairing: Dick Grayson x reader (mostly gn but at the end I use female pronouns)

Summary: Rachel talks you into a tarot card reading which may influence your future.

"Is it really that good of an idea?" You looked over to the girl. You could see the excitement in her eyes. "Yeah, please! I practiced with Gar, Kory and Konner. All my readings were correct."

You shook your head before shrugging. "Let's do it. But if you curse me, I will haunt you in your dreams." Your eyes glowed dangerously blue. Rachel only shrugged. "Won't do it. I swear on my grimoire." You nodded in satisfaction.

She gave you the deck of tarot cards to shuffle. One card fell out while you shuffle. You wanted to pick it up and put it pack but Rachel shook her head, "First rule, if a card falls out it's a sign." You nodded slowly before resuming your shuffling.

"When you feel like you shuffled enough you can pick your other cards." You stopped and laid the deck in front of you, "How many do I pick?" Rachel looked up from her cheat sheet, "Five. When you picked them I will tell you what they mean." You nodded before picking the four missing cards.

Raven placed them in front of you. The one which fell out of the deck in the middle, the second you picked on the right, the third on the left. You gave her the fourth and she put it above the first card. The fifth and last one you put under the first. You exactly looked at the young sorceress and waited for further instructions. "Now you pic one by one like in the order I showed you. Every time you pick a card I will tell you the meaning."

You nodded and picked the first. Rachel smiled at you. " So the first cards position is to ask yourself if you are ready. You picked the hermit. This means you explore or are still exploring your life as a single. It could also mean you are afraid of being alone even if you are in a relationship. So you have to ask yourself if you are ready to enter a relationship." Your eyes were a little wide. Maybe there was some truth in the cards.

You pointed at the next one, "Can I?" Rachel nodded. You picked the card and turned it over. Rachel looked at it once before looked back up at you. "Your partner is self-confident, spirited, fun-loving, proud, strong-willed and passionate. Interesting! I want to meet your future partner right now." You only shook your head. A little heat rising up your cheeks.

"What's next?" "How are you gonna meet?" Rachel exclaimed. You turned over the card. The tower. "You will meet suddenly." She wriggled her eyebrows at you. You rolled your eyes pointing at the next one. "Tell me the meaning of the next card. What is its saying?"

"How will the relationship be? Let's have a look. Oh the emperor. You will be each other’s safe heaven. You will give each other stability." You let out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding in. After so many guys drained you emotionally you wanted one good relationship. Maybe even your last one.

You turned over the last card and looked over to the sorceress, raising one eyebrow. "You will care for each other. You tell each other every desire, ideas and wishes. So the potential of this relationship is big."

Your eyes stayed on the cards in front of you for a long time. Before Rachel could get you out of your trance Dick walked into the room. You jumped while Rachel smirked. "Hello ladies. What's going on?"

Rachel shrugged, "I'm only telling our dear Y/n her future. Oh my, I think I forgot to read something very important. " The teenager sprang up from her chair, picked up her cards and darted out of the room.

With panic written over your face and bleeding eyes you watched Rachel walk out of the room. Dick took the place from Rachel and smiled. “What was it about.” You looked down. Suddenly the table top became very interesting. “I heard Gar talking about Rachel telling futures with the help of tarot cards. The last time I had someone tell me my future was in the circus.” You looked up and smiled softly. “It was really silly.” Dick raised an eyebrow, “Really? I overheard Conner and Gar talking and it seemed everything Rachel told them came true.” You shrugged, “Maybe I wanna believe in what she said but know it won’t come true.”

Dick took your hand which was laying on the table in his. With his thumb he caressed the back of your hand softly. “Never say never! Maybe someday it will come true what Rachel told you.” You looked into his shiny orbs. Oh, how you want it to be true.

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Energy comes from two places: we create it from the inside or we catch it from the outside.

The world is crazy and people are crazier.

On a normal basis, we can be affected by someone else’s energy such that we absorb it.

Each and every one of us has the ability to create personal energy shields.

What is crucial to know is that no one can invade our “space” without our permission. Hence, a big part of energy leakage is caused by the failure on our part to take actions to protect ourselves. It is our personal responsibility.

One need not be a "witch" to create a boundary, a personal energy field, or a "forcefield" around ourselves.

If we don’t create our own energy, we can catch the energy in our environment, mostly from the people in it. It gives them control over us. It means we are a prisoner to the mood to whomever is around us.

The energy around us doesn’t always work for us. It can distract us, discourage us, derail us.

Environments, like people, are unstable and unpredictable. You can’t rely on your environment to give you the energy to motivate and move you. You can’t rely on other people either. You can rely on yourself.

It all begins with intent.

An intention is a directed impulse of conscious energy that contains the seed form of that which you aim to create.

We all can get caught up in thoughts, emotions, and memories as well. This is un-intentional.

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Where more connections are present, recall can have more details. While we all may certainly show a tendency to recall more emotional and traumatic memories more readily than those which are more neutral or positive.

The goal is to feel that you’re in control of your thoughts, not the other way around.

This leads us to mindfulness. Mindfulness is identifying when this happens so we can control the energy flow. Once identified we can use techniques to change or use this energy.

Meditation, witchcraft, spending time in nature, spending time with a pet, visualization, grounding, externalizing the thoughts and memories (telling ourselves that they are no longer real), writing it down and burning the thoughts, are all ways to help be in control of our energy.

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As the studies have shown, stressful, painful, and angry emotions/energy are most powerful. This is why curses and hexes work so well. It takes much energy to create the power needed to curse.

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Hello mam, can you please do my future spouse reading? 😊

My Moon sign- Aries

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Hello! Here’s your future spouse personality reading.

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The Rider Tarot: The Sun (rev), Judgment (rev), Severn of Swords (rev)

Archetype Oracle Cards: Athlete and Pioneer

They’re very ambitious. I feel they might be a business person or at least a pioneer in their field. They want to be able to do/create things nobody else has. They have a lot of willpower and drive so they can absolutely achieve anything they set their mind to. They have a very strong spirit. Also they’re probably physically healthy. Fitness and health are important to them. Athletics might also be an important part of their life. Maybe they play or watch sports as a hobby or they could even be a professional athlete.

They have extremely high expectations for themselves and they always want to keep achieving things. They also have high expectations for other people. This means they can be very critical of other people and they have no issue with telling someone when they’re falling short. It’s not hypocritical- they apply the same standards to themselves. But they may not always understand that people have different strengths and weaknesses as them. And applying the exact same standards they set for themselves to everyone else isn’t always fair.

Speaking of fairness - it’s very important to them. They hate double standards and hypocrisy with a fiery passion so you’ll never have to worry that. They’ll never ask you to do something they wouldn’t do themselves.

They’re very honest and straightforward. Which is both a blessing and a curse. You’ll never have to guess their feelings for you. They won’t play games with your feelings. And if they do something wrong they’ll always be honest and come clean about it. But also like I said earlier they can be critical and sometimes even a little harsh about it. They don’t mean to be malicious or a bully or anything like that but sometimes that’s how they come off. On the plus side they’re always trying to improve themselves so if you voice things they do that bother you they will put forth the effort to change.

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Key words: will power, dedication, passion, forward thinking, pessimism, self doubt, critical, straight forward, honest, open minded, open communication, fairness

Zodiac: lots of fire and air energy. Maybe a fellow Aries! Strong Leo, Gemini, and libra placements.

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A Spiritual Perspective on "Tarot" the Movie's Premise

Superstition and spirituality are frequently mistaken as the same thing to capitalize on our fears.

Popular culture has a way of emphasizing what we fear and what we revere as a society. I do my best to keep up with the latest trends and shifts as illustrated in our movies, music, and social media. Yet, I also know how to stay in my lane as far as sharing my opinions on popular topics goes. I pay attention to it but do not comment. My expertise is in the spiritual world.

Pop culture has come into my lane, so I will share my take.

I just saw that there is a movie out called "Tarot" I didn't have to look at the description to know it was a horror movie. Why wouldn't it be? Hollywood loves making spiritual practices not only weird but dangerous and even deadly.

It is a way to take advantage of superstitions and fears surrounding occult practices. I don't blame the movie makers for showing how our lack of spiritual awareness causes us to fear the healing practices of spiritual people. It is par for the course. But it seems it is time to change the course.

Note that I am only going to comment here on the premise of the movie "Tarot." On Rotten Tomatoes the premise states, "When a group of friends recklessly violates the sacred rule of Tarot readings -- never use someone else's deck -- they unknowingly unleash an unspeakable evil trapped within the cursed cards. One by one, they come face to face with fate and end up in a race against death to escape the future foretold in their readings."

Let's first talk about the use of tarot as a spiritual practice. Tarot is a guidance system that helps us navigate our lives. Most often, people use Tarot as a predictor to gain insight into where they are headed. I think of it as high-beam headlights. It allows us to look a little further down the road so we can navigate our lives better by telling us if there will be obstacles ahead. That is all. It is not strange.

Humanity has been using oracles of this nature since prehistory. Such as getting a reading on the energy patterns by throwing the bones, using runes, the yarrow stalks of I Ching, gazing at tea leaves, and such. These methods use random patterns or symbols to see what is to come. The difference with Tarot is that it is a modern oracle, fairly new on the scene of oracle history. But it follows the basic principles. The tarot itself is simply a deck of cards. No one has foreboding feelings about tea because tea leaves can be used as an oracle. Just as a deck of cards is just a deck of cards. I'm pretty sure you can't trap evil in a deck of cards.

Let us get into the "sacred rule of Tarot readings -- never use someone else's deck…" This foreboding statement is a corruption of the common practice of respecting the spiritual tools of others by not touching them without permission.

Every spiritual practitioner, of every spiritual tradition I know of, has sacred tools. From altars and chalices to stones and cards. The rosary and the jewelry of the ordained. The power tools of the medicine healer such as pipes and drums as used in ceremonies. People treat these objects with respect and acknowledge that only the owner of the objects should touch them. It is a show of respect that they are not touched unless permitted by the owner, carrier, and keeper of them. These are sacred objects because they are objects that bridge the worlds of heaven and earth. It is customary practice to show reverence even if it is not your belief they are sacred. Just like it is customary not to wear someone else's clothes without their permission. If you were to do it, it would not harm you, but it would be disrespectful.

Tarot decks are sacred objects for the serious spiritual practitioner, so no, you should not use them without the permission of the owner. But if you did, no harm would come to you other than the potential ire of the owner.

Let's move on to predicting death using tarot. Typically, people do not use Tarot as an efficient method to predict death. But even if it predicted a death, a prediction is not a fact. One reason is that the future has not happened yet. (Theoretically, but let's not get quantum.)

Correctly interpreting an oracle allows for the shifting, changing, and altering of anything it shows based on the actions that follow the prediction. When using tarot, anytime you get a prediction that is not pleasing, you can also ask tarot what you need to do to avoid that outcome. Back to the headlight analogy. Using the high beams helps avoid obstacles. You don't see a pothole and think, "Oh well, I guess my tires are goners." Knowing there is a pothole coming allows you to move out of the way. You can use tarot in the same way. Tarot doesn't predict your fate; it predicts what lies ahead so you can change what is coming based on your desires. This makes using oracles empowering and even healing for the user.

Superstition is fear-based. Spirituality is faith-based.

Unfortunately, many link the two forms of belief, not seeing that superstition has nothing to do with spirituality. And spirituality is not superstitious.

Storytellers and even religions love to keep us confused on the matter because fear makes money. Fear is big business and keeps us in our smallness. There is a great deal of money being made from fear. Think about what you give your money, time, and attention to, and seek an understanding of why it is important to you.

The greatest step forward to empowerment is self-awareness. Get an understanding of what you fear and why. Do some soul-searching. Ask yourself why you feel the way you do. Ask yourself if it is reasonable or true for you to believe what you believe. Do this with everything you believe as it comes up, focusing on what makes you uncomfortable and dive deep into it.

Once you have a greater understanding of your fears, no one, not any one person in this world, can manipulate you.

Shedding your fears means you will be free to discover your true potential through any means, practice, or belief without censoring who you are.

Imagine a world in which our movies reflected the consciousness of wholeness and not fear. What if our popular culture’s media showed spiritual practices leading us out of our fears and into the most authentic version of ourselves? Instead of raising ghouls from the underworld, what if movies showed rituals that brought healing? What if there was a plot with an oracle reading that guides someone towards their most empowering experience? What if we see spiritual practices as taking us out of the darkest fears and into the Truth?

Those movies would be something worth seeing.

Janet Kadow is a spiritual teacher, writer, and professional psychic who helps people learn how to live a spiritual life with integrity by using their natural gifts.

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