#i guess. mostly for clout though

[hiemaldesirae]

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[pinkaditty]

Who's Passing NNN? Tokyo Debunker

sigh

a/n: this is extremely low effort but in my defense im pretty sure i was drugged on halloween. *ahem* originally this was SUPPOSED to be low effort but clearly i got way too into it. anyways. i’ve been working a lot lately which is why i don’t have many works out rn! i work weekdays from 8 in the MORNING so it’s a lot going on but i use what little free time i have yk? ntm i have MULTIPLE projects im also working on 4 a different site so it’s a lot. i don’t think anyone’s gonna read this but im working on being a vtuber so its lots of prep lmfao! and with that, my weekends are mostly spent sleeping or with friends, but i really enjoy my work. ill be going back 2 school eventually so i need 2 figure out how the hell im gonna make that work, but i will. amen. pray 4 me y’all. oh also reqs r still being worked on i promise. just gotta get this fucking schedule under wraps.  anyways. this came 2 me on a random sunday (betraying the lord as usual) and i decided. lets write porn. i wanna do something silly bc my friends have been panicking abt climate change and its rubbing off on me. amen! quick disclaimer that i write these under the assumption the tokyo debunker boys are at least 18 years old. they appear to be present at a university considering there are professors and a chancellor. not to mention the boys drink, smoke, gamble, and refer to themselves as adults.

summary: who out of the tokyo debunker boys will pass nnn? who will fail? cliche i know but let me have this

cw: jerking off i guess. mc mentioned but no physical appearance described. MINORS DNI!!!!!!! Frostheim || Vagastrom || Jabberwock || Sinostra || Hotarubi || Obscuary || Mortkranken (before you ask vagastrom and jabberwock r already written jus not posted yet)

MINORS DNI AS PER USUAL TY FOR RESPECTING MY BOUNDARY!

Frostheim:

Jin Kamurai: Pass

Pretty touch and go with this guy. He’s never heard of it before, so when it’s a sudden trend around campus, he’s not visibly piqued, but he is… interested. Outwardly, he’d think it’s absolutely fucking ridiculous. Inwardly? He’d want to do it to prove something to himself. Of course, on the rare occasion he has an odd dream… well, he prioritizes his own pleasure over some pathetic game. 

He finally wakes up from a rather interesting he just had after lounging around and avoiding his work. You’re supposed to be coming soon to drop off some documents. Maybe that’s why you were in his dream. Hmph… What, he dreams of his… servants, now? Rolling over proves to be a challenge when his half-hard cock jumps at the slightest shift of his sheets. Now this? Well, he won’t hesitate to take care of it. A simple pillow will do the trick. In mere moments he’s humping into a large pillow, burying his face in one end and thrusting his hardening clothed cock in the other end. The friction more than satisfies his needs. He’s so focused on it that his vision swims, most of his body going slack except for his arms squeezing the pillow taut to his chest and his hips insistently searching deeper, warmer, and wishing for wetter, tighter. When it’s all over, and his focused expression melts into a slack-jawed, bleary-eyed one, he knows he’d much rather stay here, in his sheets. His warm, sticky release, however, will eventually turn uncomfortably cold, and he knew you were on your way. 

Tohma Ishibashi: Pass

He’s participating because he knows Jin is participating. That’s really all there is to it. He’s not interested in any clout or anything, just thinks it’s funny. He doesn’t do this too frequently, but often enough to keep his rocks off, you know? Sometimes, though, he doesn’t really get any free time for months cleaning up after Jin, so… It’s those times that are more interesting. 

He tries rather hard to go slow for the sake of savoring it, but fails miserably - it’s been months, after all. His uniform is much too hot to be doing this in, but god forbid he waits another minute. A sweaty collar and cum-stained slacks could be washed, anyway. Despite starting with slow strokes, before he knows it, his hand is wrapped around his dick, rubbing furiously like there’s no tomorrow. His other hand claws into the bedsheets beneath him, pulling them every which way. His face contorts into a number of different expressions: his jaw clenched tight and his eyes narrowed harshly, or his jaw slack with his tongue lolling out and his eyes rolling to the back of his skull, or even his lips pressed tight together to stifle moans with his eyes screwed shut just as well. Regardless, he’s enjoying himself and desperately trying to keep a hold of himself. Finally, when the wave of pleasure comes, he presses his face into his pillow, knowing it’s hopeless to attempt to keep quiet. He spills more than he intends every single time, and when he collapses on himself, feels his dampened body melt into his equally dampened sheets. His hair is disheveled, his uniform is sloppy, and his monocle slips off his face. Fuck. He’d have some washing to do. 

Lucas Errant: Pass

Do you think this guy masturbates? Like genuinely? I don’t doubt it but I think if he was challenged to go a month without it he’d manage fine. I think, at best, he does it when he’s so fucking exhausted from studying that he can’t focus. 

Like, he’s studying one night. An itch makes itself known, but it’s easily suppressed. He smoothly focuses on his work. The itch rises again. He ignores it again. His leg begins to twitch. He ignores it even more. His leg starts bouncing without him realizing it. He presses a hand down on his knee, purposely avoiding touching his thighs, and attempts once again to focus on his work. The itch spreads, reaching from his groin to his legs, slowly crawling up his back. He still stifles it and forces his eyes to absorb the words on the paper of the book in front of him. The itch reaches his neck, creeping up his spine to his face. Suddenly, he’s flushed, and he realizes that, despite his best efforts, here he sits: half-hard, not absorbing the information in the book, his breathing heavy and his vision swimming. Damn! He allows himself the slightest freedom, knowing that will lead him to the gates of release whether he wants that or not. When he’s covered in his own sticky release a few minutes later, clarity hits him at last. He bites his lip and suppresses a groan as he stuffs himself back into his pants, shaking his head to rid himself of the cloudy orgasmic feeling. Finally, back to work. 

That being said, November is a cinch… unless this happens. 

Kaito Fuji: Fail

I don’t need to explain myself I think lol! Horniest virgin on the face of the earth. Yes, he fails, to thoughts of you, at that! I’m even willing to bet the one time he tries, he fails accidentally via wet dream. Sucker! It’s surprising, though… When he puts his mind to it, he really can keep his hands off himself… for less than a month. 

It’s late at night and he’s not studying, rather rolling around in his bed, back and forth, trying to resist the insistence of his cock, pressing into the mattress at full mast. He huffs face first into his pillow, feeling his cock strain against his underwear. He could stand this for a little longer. Just a little longer… November just started, sure, but if he beat his record of one week, that’d be accomplishment enough for him. He has to resist the urge to whine as he rolls over again, his cock pressing and pressing and pressing against all things within reach. He rips the covers off of him, frustrated, feeling warm from the heat of his arousal anyway. He could get through this, right? His fingers grip his shirt collar, bunching it into his fist. His other hand gripped his phone, as though using it to ground himself. He shifted the screen to his face. Maybe he’d be able to find something to take his mind off of things. He opens WickChat and scrolls, searching for a distraction. However, the gods must be against him, because all he can do is open his chat with you, and pretend you’d sent him nudes. He tosses his phone back onto his bed, clenching his hand into another fist before it could drift any further towards his groin. He bites furiously on his fingernails, burying his face into his pillows. His cock continued to beg for attention. 

a/n: well, i hope u enjoyed! im so tired and i have work in 6 hours. goodnight lmfao!

note that i appreciate likes, comments, and reblogs!! im not open for reqs atm, but please feel free to just hop in 2 give little random thirsts or something, i don't mind!

[thoughtwriter]

multitudes [part 3] - a. tv

summary -> your first pub golf and you meet the one and only arthur tv who is infatuated from the moment he lays eyes on you | fem!reader x arthur tv

PART 1, 2, 3, 4

wc -> 1.1k

masterlist | main masterlist | requests

you hadn’t even fully shut the car door before your phone buzzed with a twitter notification

ARTHUR TV AND Y/N SPOTTED—CONFIRMED COUPLE?!

and under it, a blurry screenshot of you and arthur on willne’s balcony, mid-kiss, mid-softest-moment-of-your-life.

he looked great, of course. he always did. soft curls. the gentle lean-in. a hand on your waist.

you looked… like someone who had just fallen into something terrifyingly good.

arthur glanced over from the driver’s seat, seeing your expression, “they got us, didn’t they?”

you nodded, screen still glowing.

“we’re a tag now,” you said. “they’ve already named us.”

he groaned dramatically. “oh God, let me guess. ArthuYou? TV-Me? FlamingoPower?”

“TV-Me actually slaps.”

he gave you a mock glare and then smiled. one hand reached over, fingers wrapping around yours, thumb brushing a small, grounding circle on your palm. that had become a habit. his way of checking you were still with him.

“you okay with it?” he asked, voice lower now. sincere.

you were. mostly. but part of you… part of you was scared. not of him - never of him - but of what came next. of how the internet can take something warm and genuine and twist it until it no longer feels like yours.

still, you nodded. because it was true.

“i’d rather them know than pretend you’re not my favorite person.”

arthur’s smile widened into something breathtaking. and for a second, the twitter noise faded.

the first week of public-couple-life was a whirlwind.

suddenly, your comments section wasn’t just “great vid!” or “this made me laugh” - it was:

userone - can’t believe arthur bagged the smartest cutie in the game.

usertwo - their chemistry is illegal.

userthree - god-tier couple. when’s the double q&a???

and arthur? he handled it like he handled most things - quietly amused, sweetly proud, and far too eager to repost memes of the two of you with captions like - shoutout to flamingos for getting me a soulmate.

it should have felt overwhelming.

but it didn’t. not with him.

things weren’t all cameras and compliments, though.

you learned pretty quickly that being loved publicly also came with pressure.

you were on your way to a shoot with chunkz and beta squad—arthur tagging along for moral support (and mostly snacks)—when your phone buzzed with a comment.

funny how they suddenly started dating AFTER getting added to the golf group. convenient.

and then another.

feels like a clout thing. no shade. just saying.

you didn’t reply. you never replied. but arthur saw the look on your face as you locked your phone, and he didn’t let it slide.

“hey,” he said, pulling you gently to the side before you reached the studio. “you don’t have to pretend that doesn’t hurt.”

you exhaled, slow. “i know it’s not true. i do. but there’s a part of me that’s scared they’ll convince you it might be.”

arthur blinked, almost stunned by the suggestion. then he stepped in, both hands on either side of your face, grounding you.

“listen to me,” he said. “i didn’t fall for you because you’re in the scene or because the views are up. i fell for you when you compared yourself to a multi-fact wikipedia rabbit hole and then sang ‘valerie’ like it was a national anthem.”

you snorted, but his eyes were serious.

“this isn’t for the comments. it’s for me. you’re for me. and i’m not going anywhere.”

weeks passed. the two of you made a joint appearance in a sidemen sunday challenge—couples vs friends which got 10 million views in two days. fans started tagging you in every quiz video and fact meme imaginable. arthur even began quietly referring to you as “the smartest person on youtube” in interviews.

your comments? still unhinged. but this time it was stuff like:

can y/n explain black holes while arthur proposes???

my ideal relationship is facts, soft hands, and pub golf flashbacks.

you couldn’t lie. the support was unreal.

but what mattered most weren’t the retweets or thumbnails or couple edits. it was the little things that never made it online: the way Arthur instinctively reached for your hand when you crossed the street. how he always waited until you picked the crisps before finalizing your lunch order. or how, whenever you were filming something nerve-wracking, he’d kiss the back of your hand just before the red light blinked on.

one night, as you lay on his sofa wrapped in one of his hoodies, watching old top gear reruns and arguing about the science of jet propulsion, arthur suddenly went quiet.

you turned, “what?”

he looked at you for a long second before softly speaking, “do you ever think this is it?”

“it?”

“like… the person. the ‘oh-it’s-you’ person.”

the air shifted.

your chest tightened—familiar, but not frightening. just real.

“yeah,” you whispered. “i do.”

arthur smiled, slow and small.

“good. because that’s what i think every time i look at you.”

your next video was a q&a. just the two of you, sprawled on his living room floor with mugs of tea and zero script. it was honest, warm, funny. people loved it.

but the very last question hit different.

“what’s your favorite thing about each other?”

you looked at Arthur. he looked at you.

he answered first.

“y/n makes everything feel like a secret worth keeping. even when it’s not.”

you blinked. you throat tightened. your turn.

“he listens. like, really listens. and he never makes me feel like i’m too much. just… exactly enough.”

the video ended there. no flashy outro. no music.

just a soft cut as arthur leaned over, whispered, “you are exactly enough,” and kissed your temple.

OHHH I LOVED THIS PART

🏷️ @wherethezoes-at

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

Hey there sex witch! This one might be a little bit out of your wheelhouse, but I don't really have anyone else to ask 😅 and this seems mostly relevant to what you talk about.

So recently I (a very shy person for a long time) have gotten pretty active in some fandom discord communities, and I've been making a ton of friends. Which is great because I used to have social anxiety to the point where I could barely talk to people, especially online. The problem is that my new friends are all VERY horny, all the time. Which, great for them, I don't really feel the same way. They're also very interested in ERP and other varieties of e-sex and often ask if I want to join. I really don't, but it's fine that they're into that. One guy in particular is really starting to freak me out though. He's a semi-popular creator and a mod on one of the servers. He's becoming a pretty good friend of mine and I play online games with him and others a bunch. He, like the rest of the crowd, is also very horny all the time. He often makes sexual comments about me, sometimes very graphic ones. Stuff like telling me to take my clothes off IRL while on call with him or saying stuff like "I want to fuck you until you cry" or just dming me asking if I want to have sex with him. Sometimes he notices that his comments make me uncomfortable and he did reach out to sincerely apologize for it once, but he hasn't changed his behavior a whole lot.

The big thing that worries me about him is the fact that he's 28. I'm 18, just graduated high school. He knows this about me. He does a very good job of keeping his server 18+ and would never make a sexual comment about a minor, but is still comfortable doing sexual things with people ten years younger than him. Another thing is that even though I've told him I already have a boyfriend, he assumes I'm in an open relationship even though I never told him I was. My boyfriend also says this guy kinda freaks him out and that he's a little worried about me.

I know that age gaps between older people can be perfectly healthy and problems arising from them vary pretty heavily from person to person, but I'm not entirely sure if this is ok or not. This guy doesn't want to hurt anyone. Have I probably just not properly expressed my boundaries with him? It's not like he's targeting me or anything, he acts this way with basically everyone. I'm torn on what to do, he's still my friend and I like him otherwise. Should I just keep laughing it off? I am uncomfortable but I guess it's not a huge deal to me. Should I stop talking to this guy?? Help??

🐟🐟 So I can find this quickly if/when you answer it

hi 🐟🐟,

this guy fucking sucks and needs to be banned from interacting with maybe anyone until he learns what "no" means. literally every individual thing you've described him doing would be alarming in it's own, but altogether this man is a walking collection of red flags. this is not your friend and this is not a guy who cares about your boundaries or well-being; this is a man using his fandom clout to sexually harass you (and likely others). him being ten years older than you isn't even really the biggest issue here; all of this would be shithead behavior even if you were exactly the same age.

get out of there, double fish.

[sapphire-weapon]

I've been thinking about this whole thing wrt Leon's morality and his conflict wrt his relationship to the government, and like

there's a big part of the story that's getting lost in all of this.

From 1999-2005, Leon was basically the government's little bitch. He was being held under duress via threats to Sherry's life and had absolutely no power, autonomy, or esteem within the government.

But after RE4, that completely changes. Yes, he still can't leave because of Sherry, but he starts to gain clout, and a sort of mythology surrounding him begins to form within the ranks of the government and the military. This is then amplified following Degeneration, especially after Ron Davis is found dead in his office (even though this wasn't Leon's doing; it was Tricell's -- but it was still Leon's actions that led to that moment).

We see the effects of that at the start of Infinite Darkness.

So then, fast forward to the end of ID -- the reason why Leon buries the story of what happened during ID wasn't because he was under orders to. I don't know where that perception comes from.

Leon buries the story at the end of ID as a thank you to President Graham. President Graham comes right to the edge of declaring war against a nation that didn't deserve it, but then he pivots at the very last second possible entirely based on Leon's word.

So, at this point, Leon has every reason to believe that he can effect change from within while also protecting people who have been good to him (in this case, the Grahams). And, as far as we know, there were no further incidents under President Graham's administration.

Then Adam Benford takes office, and now Leon has reached almost legendary status within the US government. He's able to -- seemingly right away -- get Benford to agree to open lines of communication with the BSAA (completely reversing course on the US's foreign policy up to that point), and the two of them work together to form the DSO. Remember -- the DSO was, at least in part, Leon's fucking idea.

Going into RE6, Leon has an enormous amount of political capital and uses it to the best of his ability. At this point in the series, if Leon wanted to start a civil war in the US, he'd have enough agencies and big enough chunks of the military behind him in order to do it. This is why Helena sought him out in the first place.

But then Derek Simmons turns out to be The Deep State (lmao), Leon is forced to kill Benford, and then we don't really know the state of the US government since then. It seems to not be going great, but we don't know why, and we won't know why until RE9 comes out.

If I had to guess, I'm willing to bet that Leon lost a lot of his esteem thanks to the events of RE6. Despite his legendary reputation, he still allowed Raccoon City 2.0 to happen under his watch in the form of Tall Oaks; Simmons was right under his nose the whole time, and Leon never sniffed him out -- so, not only did a fucking US President end up dead as a result, but the US was also then forced to put boots on the ground in China. It was a shitshow.

So, Vendetta and Death Island were almost kind of like... Leon attempting (and mostly failing) to claw his way back to where he was in his career pre-RE6.

Like, Leon has been an effective force for good in the US government. Him being a government agent doesn't make him morally gray because, within the confines of the story, he uses that position to enact positive change. And that's probably the biggest reason why he doesn't just leave.

But the conflict within his character comes in because he never wanted to be in this position in the first place and he resents it as a result, and the high-ranking officials around him -- with the exception of Graham and Benford -- don't engage with him in good faith. But he really just wants to cling to the belief that if he keeps doing a good job, they eventually will -- because he also knows that he'll have to take far more drastic measures within the government if he accepts that they won't.

And he knows that he can take those more drastic measures. It's within his power to do so. Because, at one point, he could have conceivably started a civil war.

But, being a Good Guy, he doesn't want that. So the conflict in his character persists.

[olderthannetfic]

If anyone here could name a more toxic and gleefully abusive fandom than OFMD fans I’d be shocked. They really do make Voltron look…okay not sane but still! I would say OFMD and Voltron are the worst two I’ve witnessed. And I guess Genshin too but they are mostly teens on TikTok so they hopefully have room to grow. OFMD was a group of whole adults that went full Moms for Liberty on a newly out queer actor for playing a character they hated. Just the worst kinds of homophobia and not to mention using anti racism smokescreen to be actively racist to black and indigenous fans they disagreed with. And they were doing it at the direction of a white guy pretending he was black! What a timeline.

--

I don't think OFMD is particularly worse than parts of Old Guard or the stories I've heard about that one drama llama from Phantom of the Opera or HIVliving or...

Racefaking is usually at the center of this type of brouhaha, though sometimes, it's just a self-appointed spokesperson for Morally Correct Art. The talking points about which ship or which dynamic is eeeevil are always the same, even when it's TJLC idiots wailing that putting the wrong middle aged white guy on top is pedo. The dynamics of clout-chasing and cults of personality around BNFs are always the same. The wank hitting the people with the least real world power the hardest is always the same. The Traitor To The Cause bilge is always the same, whether it's directed at nonwhite fans or at women.

This isn't just one anomalous wanker: it's a common pattern that fandom falls into by being extremely clueless about varied experiences on the one hand and intensely conflict averse until it's a literal call to action to harass someone out of fandom on the other.

[majaloveschris]

I hate that this is going to be an unpopular opinion but I feel it has strong merit:

The main reason people have been up in arms about AB since she entered the chat is because of her age.

I’m willing to bet 100% that if she was about 10 years older, or simply around his age, there would 50% less toxicity, while 50% of the fandom would still dislike her simply because she was with him. They would still dig up on her and the fact that she’s an obvious lazy opportunist would still be factored in, but they would treat her more like how they treat Annabelle Wallis since she is dating SS. Some don't mind her, some hate her, some like her/don't care. She'd be another boring blip in the radar.

The big thing here is that many of CE’s fandom wanted him to be a guy who “doesn’t date younger women” because that’s such a big deal for some of these people. It’s not for me, because despite whatever bs some people love making up on the internet, CE has always dated women his age and seems to get along best with people in his age group. If you look at his known relationships, both romantic and platonic, he gets along with women and men and his best friend of forever is older than him. His known exes are his age. His friend group outside of HW (and within it) are mostly people he’s known since HS and they’re all in his age group. His known flirtations with women in the industry have mostly been in his age group. these are real patterns that reflect and trying to make assumptions because he followed actresses or influencers in their 20s makes little sense because hate to say it, thats most guys married or not. He clearly connects best with people who understand the same references and cultural upbringing. You can see it when he talks to others. People bring up his old GQ interview where he was flirting with the reporter who did the spread. Guess what - they seemed to vibe because they were the same age and from the same area. She even wrote how he seemed to love that they got the same references and it just made it easier to connect. You usually do that with people in your same generation or demographic. I think the same thing happened with him and Jenny. Same age range, from the same area, got each other and just connected despite however their physical looks differed.

It’s due to his IG followings of some younger actresses and then AB that these rumors about younger women really began and to me, that’s projection. Also, lots of men do like younger women and that’s a pretty normal thing despite however you want to feel about it. It’s only a real problem now because people are much more aware of things like grooming and etc that they’re drawing attention to age gap relationships. But even Ryan Reynolds and Blake have a big age difference and he married her in 2012, when she was barely 24. He married Scarlett when she was also in her early 20s. Ryan is beloved (and now also hated) in the industry and known as wholesome family man but think about how his relationships being accepted but tbh could there also be some grooming involved? He was well into his thirties when he dated/married both these women but more or less the GP doesn’t bat an eye.

For CE, they couldn’t accept AB and that’s why the whole racism and problematic friends came into play so quickly after they went public. IMHo, the fandom needed a reason to dislike her even though she is easily able to be disliked even without her dumb friends tweets. She has no talent, no charisma, seemingly no work ethic, and is an obvious clout chaser with a very bizarre Lolita obsession and a weird obsession with older men.

That’s enough for me to side eye her but having the fans project things to hate on her makes them look worse and her like a victim.

But if she was the same age as CE, would it matter if she looked younger or did weird Lolita things? At that point, people would chalk it up to her just being a weirdo or at least compliment her for having good genes, but at least they’re the same age and then she has even less of an excuse to be as immature as she seems.

Her age and “inexperience” in Hollywood are the only passes I see her getting.

Also, CE clearly doesn’t find her attractive as his body language shows that literally for the past three years. Some of you need to stop attempting these gymnastics in your head and just admit that the relationship looks off because it is. It is most likely heavily manufactured and he needs to be married to someone to really uphold his rebrand. She clearly spends alot of time in a different country no matter what people wanna think and hollywood smoke and mirrors have a lot to do with it.

Yes, they are married and yes a bunch of PR rehearsed answers to push this and make people think it’s true love. But really…he is in the business of smoke and mirrors. Anyone who takes this stuff to heart really shouldn’t. It’s not that deep and will never be that deep.

I disagree but agree with you at the same time. I think her age plays a huge part in why people dislike her, but at the same time I don't think that's people's biggest problem with her. What I say is that even if she was older or closer to Chris's age, her behavior would still be the problem. I'm not saying people wouldn't just simply dislike her because she is dating Chris. That's a real thing and has always been in this fandom or even in different ones. I'm not in the Seb fandom, so I don't know how they treat her or what they are saying about her; however, the two situations aren't really comparable, since Seb is kind of over something similar to what Chris is still in (minus the kinda weddings part).

I think most people would've gotten over the age gap if she was a decent human being and if they actually looked in love with each other. I'm not saying that people wouldn't have disliked her just because, but it's much more than that. Her behavior is the problem; her friend's behavior is the problem. The age gap is also a bit problematic because she was only 23 when they got together. Their little trollings didn't help either. It's about her and her friend's personality and the way they behave around each other; the rest would've been forgotten after a while. 

As you said it, it's not that deep. Whether this is real or not, it doesn't really affect our lives. It isn't worth it.

[damnfandomproblems]

Fandom Problem #4680:

Outrage over shipping (or lewding) canonically aromantic and / or asexual characters.

I definitely understand the frustration of people just refusing to recognize or acknowledge their identity, since there's so few of them already. But i also see a lot of inflexibility in NOW aro / ace people are viewed or expected to behave. (Mostly either naiive and childishly innocent, awkward quirky teens, or cold robotic and unfeeling). And being aroace myself I rarely see any that actually resonate or feel compelling. Not to say those can't exist ever or that aspec people who ARE happy with them are "wrong" in any way, but I wish the perception what or how an aro / ace person can be wasn't so limited (and honestly---boring).

More of my characters than not are SOME flavor of aspec and all of them have very, very different ways of experiencing it. (And it's not all just "for the representation!!" they just feel natural to the characters and a lot of them are experiences I personally relate to) This includes:

a clout-obsessed social climber who uses relationships as a way of getting what she wants and to boost her ego, and nothing more

someone who's obsessed with the IDEA of romance and really really WANTS to fall in love with someone but it just never happens

someone completely repulsed with sex and romance althogether

an asexual person who wants to try it just to know what it's like but that's all

a sex worker for whom sex is quite literally just "showing up to work" for her, not awful or traumatic or anything, mostly just kinda boring

an aroace person who is so codependant with someone (who's allo) that they basically just form a relationship (along with all the things that usually go with it that the ace person doesn't mind going along with for their sake) I guess what people may call a QPR but that's not a term I personally like to use or find any use for it's okay for others though

someone who's still figuring themself out who hasn't really landed on any specific labels but also isn't really stressing on it that much

someone who takes longer to realize they're aro because for so long what they assumed were romantic feelings was really just feeling flattered, so thought they were "in love with" anyone who was nice to them

aliens whose anatomy includes no sex organs

And sometimes, characters are hot. And characters that are hot get shipped with other hot characters, often with no rhyme or reason other than "hot". Regardless of their canon sexualities. It kinda just comes with the territory of fandom.

(And again I'm really really tired of people using us a a shield to hide their ship hate and sex negativity. Seriously, don't.)

[unreleasedtaylorsongs]

Someone asked me about a demo I had never even heard before and I was like, "How did you hear about it?" and they said they saw it on the Tumblr account 'taydemodesc.' Anyway, PSA to all Swifties out there that taydemodesc is an absolute liar and makes up descriptions for demos that straight up don't exist, my best guess is for clout even though it is a very small community on a mostly dead website. They are a laughing stock to the actual unreleased community. Most - if not all - of their demos are fake. Not only that, but they have written in their bio that they don't share their supposed demos/unreleased stuff because it's piracy. How convenient for them. Also, it is piracy simply to own them so don't act like you give a shit about that, lmao.

Just wanted to share so no poor new collector soul finds that account and wastes their time desperately trying to find shit that doesn't exist.

[sugarywishes]

How did the Aftons react to Evan's death via the bite?

About time I get an angsty question, let's dive right in!!

The Afton Family (we'll get into specifics in a minute)

- Well, it was a death in a established/popular entertainment location. Not to mention a gruesome death, so obviously everyone and their mother not only made several tabloids and news reports, they also interviewed/interrogated EVERYONE AT THE PARTY

- so what a joy it was to not only have the company's name slandered, but your family was constantly harrassed about the whole situation too!!

- Michael and Elizabeth's classmates would always ask them about the incident, to the point where William pulled them out of school for a while

- Their neighbors became extremely nosy abt it as well (asking about funeral plans, if they were gonna have Michael arrested etc) and the family itself was already pretty isolated, so they basically became antisocial afterwards and avoided talking to people

- I briefly mentioned this in the Charlie post, but William was kicked out of the company shortly afterwards (my version of Henry was originally kind of a self-centered, prideful man before Charlie...yk ☹) bc of the bad publicity towards him and the fact it was fucking up the business now (I'll list more reasons in a bit) so now the only friend the Aftons had was giving them the cold shoulder and cutting ties with them to avoid affiliations

Okay specifics time!! (This might be a long post so grab some 🍿)

Michael Afton (not the Michael color, I know, there's no gray!!)

- All Mikey wanted to do was just prank Evan, teach him a lesson for getting him in trouble more than usual.

- Nice going, Michael.

- Oh boy. This guy went to a literal state of shock (I'm talking HE FROZE IN FEAR KINDA SHOCK) as soon as Fredbear's jaw closed

- He didn't even manage to 'wake up' until they were already in the hospital (Lizzie dragged him there)

- and of course Mike was scared and remorseful, his prank was quite literally meant to be a funny haha moment which ended up as him technically becoming a murderer 😭😭

- He nearly vomited and passed out as soon as he heard Evan died

- When Michael returned to school, best believe he lost all his popularity, now everyone knew him as the guy who killed his brother (the other kids involved in the prank distanced themselves as far away from it as possible) and so he became a friendless outcast :(

- Even Jeremy stopped talking to him, mostly because of what Jeremy's mom said about them for clout

- which totally didn't help his now declining mental health

Elizabeth Afton

- Lizzie was actually hanging around the bathroom area talking with Charlie when the bite happened, she would've been too late to stop it anyway

- She literally lost her twin. It's not the best feeling in the world.

- Of course she felt terrible about the whole situation but also,,,a sense of liberation??

- like, the one person who stood in the way of her gaining her father's love is dead. Mike doesn't give 2 shits about Will, and Clara is already in a loveless relationship with him. So now it leaves her as his new favorite

- she surprisingly was able to move on faster than the rest of her family (at least on the outside, as I said she did lose her baby brother)

- but it's not a fun life afterwards, considering she no longer had friends at school now since Will pulled her out quickly (and plus, Henry started cutting ties with the Aftons so now she couldn't hang out with Charlie!!) And again, she started losing her mind just like the rest of the family

Clara Afton

- Girly was just tryna to find a camera in the car outside, she didn't see or hear the bite thankfully (she did have to see the image of her bleeding son being carried out by his father though)

- Evan's death is truly what got her motivated enough to actually start fighting against Will's constant mistreatment of her and the kids

- but of course that doesn't last long. (Guess who ends up in Ballora?)

- because of the news (and more specifically, one particular news article made by a Mrs. Helen Fitzgerald, mother of Jeremy Fitzgerald,,,👀) she was now labeled a neglectful, hosebag mom who was probably in it for those Afton bucks 💸 which ruined her relationship with her neighbors and friends

- Remember, EVERYONES reputation was terribly slandered by the bite (and by the media wanting to cause more drama)

- She was already a stressed out, meek person because of her marriage with William, she got a lot worse after her baby died

William Afton (his is the LONGEST sorry for the text walls)

- He was just about ready to carry out Evan's birthday cake as soon as he heard the screams of terror

- He reacted almost instantly. William is not a very physically strong looking man, but he is powerful enough to break a robot's jaw open.

- He pulled Evan's body out (as best as he could, he was rushing to save him so who knows if some...chunks were still left inside 🤢🤢 sorry for the mental image)

- He didn't acknowledge ANYONE else in the room. And he didn't even have the rest of his family get into the car, he placed Evan in the back with a blanket wrapped tightly around his head and drove off, leaving the rest of the family to find another way to the hospital

- but of course his efforts were all for nothing.

- Everyone kinda expected him to become deranged and violently (publicly) abusive but for a while he was just...numb. and detached from everyone and everything. He wouldn't talk to a single person and would isolate himself in his workshop/basement to grieve

- (he didn't even bother punishing Michael for the accident, which set off a lot of red flags for Mikey who knew that something would snap inside his father soon)

- His already inconsistent sanity started cracking when his name and family were considered pariahs now (thanks a lot Helen for further spreading rumors about them)

- it became even worse when Henry kicked him out (According to Henry's excuses, he knew Will was likely never going to recover from the bite so he might as well give him an 'early retirement')

- (Basically, Will wasn't coming to work at all and wasn't making them money, his damaged reputation would ruin the now shitty rep of the diner more, and bc of the Aftons now being associated with the words 'horrible' 'neglectful' and 'irresponsible' , Henry just decided to tie up loose ends and get rid of him to save face) (Remember that Henry was an asshole and only got to his redemption journey once his daughter died)

- So, great. But what's this?? The closed Fredbear's Family Diner Fredbear animatronic is acting?? Off?? Sort of seems...alive??? You bet it is!!

- And of course, we all know what happens from there.

Thanks for asking! If you want more just ask!!

[9w1ft]

When was the last time taylor actually did or wore something that karlie then referenced / copied? I feel like its been mostly taylor referencing karlie for ages

examples of karlie copying from taylor?

from the viewer perspective it’s probably the t-bar necklaces just this past week with the estée lauder ladurée collab, matching the necklace taylor wore to inside the puck building? though i guess technically karlie recorded wearing it first. but you couldn’t seen her necklace clearly in the preview footage so unless you knew she was wearing it you couldn’t have guessed.

another example of that (seeing it on taylor first and karlie second but karlie’s photoshoot would’ve predated taylor wearing it) was when they both wore loro piana randomly this past summer

as for a straight-up example of karlie referencing taylor after taylor, one i can think of is this look with the hair ribbon that karlie did which matched the ttpd album photoshoot,

and there are also her midnight and poet sunglasses and that poet shirt too, which she wore after ttpd was announced (release week i think).

and there was a several alien themed things too, karlie referencing aliens after down bad already existed, etc. something with the background music in her instagram content, i think? anyone have a link?

and there’s been a lot of us seeing karlie wearing something first and then taylor second but taylor would have recorded wearing it before karlie, that kind of shenanigan. like this fortnight mv example:

at any rate, if it’s true that taylor is copying karlie more, then we have all dreamed for times like these! it would be super funny because not too long ago all anyone who wanted to debunk kaylor would ever talk about was the opposite— it was always people saying hurrr durrr karlie is always copying taylor for clout 🤪 i guess you can’t please everyone, if it’s not one thing it’s the other!

but the fact of the matter is it’s always been a forever rotating and interwoven combo of each different type. taylor referencing karlie, karlie referencing taylor, taylor referencing karlie which ends up being karlie having referenced taylor, karlie referencing taylor which ends up being taylor having referenced karlie. idk i always find it fun 😂

anyway for more twinning examples check my twinning tag! and if people have other examples they can think of please add them!

[colorful-white-ideas]

Eija's getting way too much attention with being pregnant so OF COURSE Alida posts 3rd baby pic. And OF COURSE it's from Semra who posted a lunch pic of 2nd baby when Minou was that age. Liza went private after that "reunion" video total was nothing but Alida and Bill mostly. Guess she finally got sick of being called out for being the Bill paparazzi for Alida lol

Hant isn't even talking about Alida anymore so her paid source for leaking shit must be gone. Yes, I'm happy Bill's a girl dad and all. But his baby mama is still all about the clout. What's shameful is she can post selfies or cute pics with the kids faces covered on her own but NEVER DOES!!! She never misses a chance to repost though lol It's like she's not allowed to post personal stuff on her page. Bc if she could she would.

Mmmm I don't know...

Maybe it's a matter of perspective, as I said before I won't perceive her posting as a way to steal the spotlight from Eija, because I don't think she'll be that stupid.

And even if she is trying to do that, what can we do ? That's a

✨ Skarsgård ✨ issue so don't stress too much.

[arachngel]

i just need to infodump about this staticdust human au fic i’ve been on/off writing because i don’t have anyone to talk to about it

so basically vox is a bitter old cunt in his late 40s who just finalized his divorce from his “terrible” wife (she’s no worse than him) and he’s equal parts stressed and relieved about the split that’s been in progress for almost a year. so his fwb val recommends him a drag lounge to visit to “blow off steam” and at first vox is like bitch no i have better things to do but of course he ends up going and tells himself he’ll just drink and enjoy some eye candy because he’s Earned it.

who else is singing at the club that night but Thee angel dust and vox is immediately intrigued by him (he has a beautiful voice but also he’s extremely sexy. we know this already) but doesn’t think much of it until after the show when he spots angel again by the bar, flirting with the bartender. he kind of just watches him from a distance and angel catches on pretty quickly and decides he wants to entertain this miserable looking old man because that’s exactly his type. also he looks like he has a lot of money but that’s beside the point.

anyway angel saunters on over to him and starts flirting and vox is reluctant to indulge him because he’s not sure what he wants but angel’s aura is a little too strong and his skirt a little too short so they do end up talking and vox buys him a drink and despite their 20 year age gap and seeming like they wouldn’t have anything in common, they kind of hit it off. to the point they end up leaving the lounge together and have nasty freaky car sex and it’s meant to just be a one and done thing but both of them are kind of curious about each other and angel ends up slipping vox his number to hit him up if he ever wants to “do this again.”

because he is not normal vox goes home and lowkey cyberstalks angel and learns that he is actually a hugely popular influencer (and onlyfans baddie but that’s beside the point) and singing at the lounge is something he just does for fun because yes he does buy a subscription to his onlyfans for Research Purposes and quickly learns that angel is making at least $1 million a month from that shit. so obviously he doesn’t need the money. but he also manages to dig up all of angel’s personal information because again, not normal. he learns that his real name is anthony d’angelo and that he’s from long island (he could have guessed that from the ridiculous accent when they were talking) but he’s mostly based in nyc these days. he lives with his two also-famous best friends in manhattan. they party A Lot.

he spends a week kind of lowkey developing an obsession with angel and val and velvette definitely notice and think he’s having a midlife crisis but also he’s been having a midlife crisis for like the past 5 years so it’s not that alarming. velvette is shocked that he actually managed to pull Thee Angel Dust but is also wary of him because she’s also an influencer and she knows his type. (vox is also famous-ish but he’s into Traditional Media so the suspicion is that angel is interested for clout purposes). but when she expresses that to vox he’s just like “well so what i use people for clout all the time i respect the hustle.”

vox doesn’t physically see angel again until he’s out shopping with velvette (aka vel is shopping and he’s there to carry all her bags) and he spots an unforgettably familiar face while standing outside a fitting room. angel notices him too and they kind of just awkwardly stand there for a moment because what do you say to somebody who creampied you in his rolls royce but vox is actually the one to approach him this time and he notes that when he’s not in his Persona, angel is actually a little shy and it’s kind of charming. angel quickly warms back up to him though and ends up inviting him to a party the next day at his home that his best friend verosika is hosting and, very much interested in seeing angel again, vox agrees.

velvette immediately roasts him like wtf is your old ass going to do at an influencer party and vox is like . (1) you sound jealous that i was invited and you weren’t and (2) i’m bringing cocaine.

and ofc he is obvi like a black sheep once he actually gets to this party (verosika doesn’t even want to let him in until he’s mentions he brought coke) but once he finds angel he doesn’t really care and he kind of hates hanging out with all of his loud annoying friends but eventually they do go off alone together and i’m sure u can guess what happens once they’re in a room with a bed. except this time angel is a lot more dom with him and totally rocks his shit and now he’s gone from mildly obsessed to mega obsessed.

yeah and then they start dating and all of angel’s friends hate his old flop boyfriend but he doesn’t care. that’s his man and he’s gonna stick beside him

[maddy-pxii]

Introduction and DNI (not fully finished)

Main fandoms 💗

 • Undertale / Deltarune

 • Hazbin Hotel

 • My Little Pony

 • The Amazing Digital Circus

• Disney

• Hazbin hotel

 • Miraculous ladybug (10 years, baby! 🎉)

 • Wicked (and musicals in general but I love wicked)

Things I collect 🏆

• Barbie (all generations until 2015)

• Bratz

• Littlest pet shop

• My little ponies (all generations until G5)

• Dolls of fandoms I’m in (Miraculous, Disney and wicked for example)

• Mostly toys from the 80s-90s and 2000s if it’s not character or brand specific.

• I have like 2 undertale things so I’ll pretend that’s one too lol

General Rules 👑

 • PFPs and edits using my art are fine, just credit me. I still see people using my older and newer art on here despite my absence and I keep seeing all my old five nights at Freddy’s art and old Disney art on Pinterest all the time and despite the fact that I don’t like these drawings anymore and even though they have a watermark on them most of the time, it’s best to credit.

 • I’m Canadian.I don’t engage in American culture war discourse. If I suspect extremist behavior (left or right wing) gets an instant block. I don’t believe that right wing people even exist on this app so this is mostly here for the “Down with cis/Acab/Pro anarchism” lefties despite me falling more into the left myself, I’d never self identify myself as that.

 • My work is mine and mine alone. I control what I draw, where it posts, who follows, and who doesn’t. Respect that. Viewing my art and interacting with me is a privilege that can be taken away.

 • My art style tends to attract viewers from “regression” communities. That’s fine I guess. But let’s be clear:

  Non-sexual age stuff is okay.

  DDLG or kink content involving my work is an absolutely not.

  If you sexualize this space, you’re gone. No exceptions.

• I speak freely. If you’re easily offended reclaimed language or blunt opinions, this isn’t the place for you. I’m autistic and have no filter with absolute pride.

⸻

DNI (Do Not Interact) 🚫

Hard block if you’re any of the following:

 • MAPs

 • Terfs

 • Zionists / Israel supporters

• People that self diagnose themselves with learning disabilities. (It’s okay to suspect you have autism but don’t call yourself something you’re not officially diagnosed with and try to take resources and accommodations you don’t need)

 • Trumpies

 • American extremists (Acab people, anarcists, your body my choice people for example)

• AI art users or defenders

 • Tucutes

 • People from extremist religions

• Proshippers

And fans of the following celebrities or creators:

  • JK Rowling (you can like HP, but not her)

  • MrBeast

  • Amber Heard (very shocked to find out that a lot of people on this app defend her, like wtf?)

  • Cardi B (🍇ist)

  • Gal Gadot

  • Tana Mongeau

  • James Charles

  • Dream

  • Chris Brown

  • Timethy Heller (not a celebrity or a creator, but due to the clout she’s farming again I’ll put this here too)

If you dislike the following creators, you might want to leave. not a hard rule, just a heads-up for your comparability.

 • Ariana Grande

 • Sabrina carpenter

 • Lizzo

 • Melanie Martinez

 • Pewdiepie

 • Pyrocynical

 • Clara Dao

 • Trey Parker & Matt Stone

 • Idina Menzel (okay I admit I’m a hypocrite for this one 💀)

Things to note (unfinished)

- My views and facts I’ve shared and opinions have not changed one bit since 2017-2021. All views, thoughts, facts, and theories I stand by.

[o7o7o7]

Love Live Manga Vol. 2 Assorted Thoughts

I really like how in the manga Honoka relentlessly pursues Nico…….

In the anime Nico will be the one causing conflinct by herself, right? :( ^ (still hasn't watched it yet)

She's so pathetic I love her!!!!!

The natural talent here is switched with the secret weird confidence.

Well, they all have in common that they want the stardom, at least.

UTX is such a big plot point in the manga, but is mostly there as an inciting scene in the anime and then disappears.

Man, I love how Eli is taking the initiative to help them herself in the manga, despite also putting forth the roadblocks as the student council president. She's the cool one here. In the anime she's a little pathetic.

This is fun.

WTF. Nozomi is not the vice-president in the manga????????????? They don't even know each other????

Nozomi is the president of the SUPERNATURAL RESEARCH部????????????

LMFAOOOOOOOO.

I love that she loves fortunetelling. It's a super girly hobby tbh.

Nozomi's supernatural otaku gimmick in the manga is much cooler than the washi washi teehee sexual harassment thing she was given in the anime.

Nozomi is SO different in the manga. She comes off as like, Honoka 2.0 kinda, but about supernatural stuff. She wants to help save the school for the sake of her club. She immediately takes to Eli and is pretty chummy, but completely lacks her aura of mystery.

WTF. Okay, confirmed that Anime!NozoEli is literally manga!Eli split in two, lmfao. And Nozomi completely disappears as a character (she's just kinda Honk 2.0 in the manga).

Eli is so weirdly pushy here, lol. Nozomi is completely unwillingly recruited lol.

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LOL. They are getting paired up so much for no reason in the manga.

In the first PV their interactions were more like mutual self-absorbed gremlin rivals.

Here, Maki is Nico's put upon minion. Maki with the effortless talent but pathetic 'tude. Nico the tryhard loser but with a strong 'tude.

Oh no I'm really liking manga Maki's "full of herself" thing which she actually masks decently.

Wait!! So the real point of contrast is this? Nico: inferiority complex hidden behind a mask of overconfident brattiness. Quite mature. Maki: bratty overconfidence hidden behind a mask of reasonable stoicness. Quite immature.

Nico puts up resistance in the manga because of her clout-minded view of things. She's being pragmatic from her POV I guess.

WAT. Maki…… Are they both clout chasers??? No. She just wants to be in the trendy, advanced school, right?

LOL. Maki is destined to just be a minion here.

My reading speed slows to a crawl whenever Nico is on screen so in that sense I'm kinda relieved we're going back to the main squad, lol.

Nozomi is so freaking stupid in the manga, it feels unreal. Literally just Honk… With Honoka being more down to earth and reliable here.

RinPana are nothingborgars in the manga though. Sucks to be them.

Nico literally pulls Maki into the club in the manga. Wow.

I can't get over it. She's so full of herself. I can't get over it. I love it.

Maki is full of herself and gets off on the praise, while Nico seems more business-minded.

Oh thank God, she's allowed to be good at it here.

They're such a pair, man… Author is obsessed.

Is she bailing out because she found out it's too tough?

NicoPana LET'S GOOOOOO

I'm enjoying NicoMaki both in the anime and manga tbh. Maki is MUCH more openly bratty in the manga. Nico is less standoffish, just nicer even if it's out of two-facedness. Like, more successful about it, I guess. Anime Maki is more introverted and quiet, just as full of herself but doesn't externalize it in the same way, which I guess means she's more successful at keeping up appearances. Actually, that trait is inverted as well. Manga Nico is extremely successful at keeping up appearances, unlike Manga Maki, and vice versa.

Aw Maki-chan, not like the other girls, huh.

Nico is the one who goes to recruit her… wow...

Nico's big sis energy is way stronger in the manga……. The contrast here is not gremlin/big sis, but rather, clueless cutesy/big sis.

Homosexuality.

WTF?????? NicoMaki canon………

I guess she means she's compelled to take care of her.

So the straightforward interest Nico takes in Maki in the manga is not really about the clout she can get from her, but rather, she genuinely does seem to want to take care of her. Cute.

Bruh. Chapter 12 is all a long NicoMaki moment. Maki wants to go to the good, trendy school and not to a dump where they are, but decides to stay exclusively for Nico.

Nico projects this super outward big sis energy, rather than it being always hidden inwards. It's like… she took that part from anime Nozomi as well, lol.

Maki really IS…… ineffective and just Nico's minion, lol. Oh how the turn tables…

I like that she kept her nervous tick of twirling her hair.

UGH they RULE. Nico pulled Maki into her scheme to only join them to get to UTX and then ditch them lmfao.

She IS two-faced… I hope she wins. She really can do no wrong in my eyes SMH.

HonoUmi canon……

No, I mean, wtf is going on in this manga???

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LMFAO I can't handle how relegated Maki is to being a minion man. I mean I love it.

Nico is not really acquainted with the other 3rd years at all, she's just doing her own thing by herself, so it makes sense she's paired up with Maki only, who also has no connection to anyone.

Hell yeah.

Nozomi and Honoka immediately take to each other too, that's so funny.

LMFAO, COME ON!!!!!! They're IDIOTS!!!!!

They're perfect. They're the comedy duo. Nico is pulling her along just because she likes her, lol.

They're the self-serving, dummy duo I guess.

The manga's pacing is so weird though. Sometimes it feels like things are happening out of order, or like, the way in which things happen is not really smoothly transitioning between each other.

Honoka has this strong childhood memory with Eli in the manga… I wonder if it will be retained in the anime.

NicoEli crumbs……..

LMFAOOOOOOO.

LOOK omg, Nico standing besides Nozomi…… NozoNico crumbs….

it's particularly special in the manga where Nico has zero connection to anyone but Honk and Maki, and even Honk is barely there.

The pacing between the comedy and plot scenes feels so weird in the manga. Like, they're not really following up. Or like, they're making a skit or fanservice shot for us, and then carrying on with the plot.

Like, this part where Nico complains about Eli stealing the spotlight if she joins because of how hot she is, but then immediately the conversation moves on to whether she will convinced to join or not and how Maki ended up giving away… there's barely a transition there, and even if that's fine, Nico's feelings don't stay consistent there (she doesn't even seem ambivalent, just seems to hope she will join). Maybe I'm missing something in the translation.

LMFAO. COME ON!!!!!!!!!!! She's such a piece of shit, lol. Clout chaser. Big dummy.

Bruh NicoMaki is so canon in the manga…

Maki gets strongarmed into treating Nico to food, lmfao. She's a real pushover. Or rather, gets pulled into Nico's pace super easily.

Nozomi is so cute in the manga. My ideal Nozomi I guess is more like an in-between of this and the mature, motherly anime version.

[javert]

Whale novel questions:

1) You went from proposal to product quickly (in part due to grant timeline of course). Had you been thinking about the novel for a while before creating the proposal or is it usual for you to go from idea directly to complete execution?

2) What was the impetus for changing Atlas' gender?

3) I can't remember if you mentioned them in the "they should be at the club" post but I think Tobey and Amos should both be at the club. This isn't a question I guess but you can answer it as though it is one. ? (Giving you a classic "member of the public asks a question that's more of a comment at the reading" moment here.)

project timeline

lmao 1 is kinda funny as a question because compared to my norm, whale novel had /significantly/ more time to gestate (ew. sorry for using that word) than most of my other projects. i wrote the proposal in the summer of 2023, did research from october-december of that year, and didn't actually start writing the novel until january of 2024. which is *very* unusual for me. historically, most of my projects have been written on a whim [for better or for worse]. arcadis park was written in like 6 weeks, speaking in tongues was written in 3, etc. obviously i'm a slower writer now, so I haven't done that in a while, but it is (what i like to think of as...) my norm

writing slower these days has kinda been my downfall of late, b/c if i'm IN a project, especially one that is flying by, it makes it easier to get through the tricky parts that mostly occur in the first 1/3 of the story. if i'm being slow and get trapped in that beginning section, the project is going to die in the water (as has happened to several projects i've tried and failed to get off the ground recently). whale novel had this same kind of "infant death" issue, where the beginning of the marcus and bryanne section was absolutely not working. and i guess the question is 'was i treading water because it was going badly, or was it going badly because i was treading water?' but either way, whale novel, unlike other projects, had someone i was accountable to and had to turn in a manuscript to on a deadline. so i was able to push through this dangerous phase and turn things around. (not without much wailing and gnashing of teeth. and straight up throwing away iirc like 15k words of the manuscript lol)

but the *ideas* of whale novel have been inside me for quite a long time. not the specifics of who/what/when/where/etc, but Noodle Novel Completionists who read whale novel will immediately recognize several things

whale novel is a spiritual sequel to Arcadis Park, my other novel about whales and labor, which also features a main character working a tourism industry job and suffering lol. AP is based on Bible Jonah, and whale novel has a Genesis thing going on, but they are spiritual twins lol. [uh if you haven't read AP don't let me saying this convince you that AP is great haha-- AP is a Teen Murder Mystery™ and i am notably not a skilled mystery writer.]

marcus's final scene in whale novel is near identical to a sequence that happens in ItSoH act 2. the only difference is that marcus, importantly, knows how to swim. yan does not.

[artist statement voice] I have always been interested in historical questions of labor and class, and how the need to survive causes people to work against their better nature,,,

etc.

not rlly whaling specifically though. i always imagined that if i was going to write a historical fiction novel it'd be about new england cotton mills, as they were thee thing i had a for real autism special interest in for like 10 yrs in my childhood

atlas gender

another funny one. uh well atlas was actually originally always supposed to be a woman. but then i was like "wait hold up. this novel is already doing several different things. i cannot also make this a gay novel. i do not want to write a Gay Novel For Clout" or whatever. so i made her a guy briefly. but then em told me to stop being a coward and put her back lol. so i did.

though she is-- and now that i've left this job i can admit it-- based in mannerisms and appearance of a coworker of mine at my former job, who was a guy lmfao. [though her family backstory is based on my friend nadia. no one tell her this lmao.] so whatever. atlas vanderhook most transgender cis woman character of all time i guess 😅

tobey and amos at the club

yes they should go to the club. however i assume that tobey would find himself embroiled in an argument with the bouncer that amos would sadly have to drag him out of. take him to a secondary location.

so maybe it's for the best that they didn't have the club back then lol