#i hate when people make something out of nothing for their kinks and fetishes

[erosmutt]

Hi! I recently saw this post on my timeline, and I would like to know your opinion on it.. For anyone else reading this and you want a tw, here it is: Incest.

I see that you have your dad!hayden thing (which I think is incest, but I'm minding my own business with that.) I'm sending you this because I think you have good opinions on things and I know you really like Sam Monroe. So this sort of made me think of you (not in a bad way). Does that make sense? 😅) I just want to know your opinion on this.

https://www.tumblr.com/shipcestuous/786098672015376385/i-sort-of-ship-the-dad-and-hayden-christensons?source=share

and then there's this second link that's attached to that post, but I'll give you the link here as well.

https://www.tumblr.com/shipcestuous/147681787995/did-you-ever-see-the-movie-life-as-a-house-i?source=share

In my personal opinion, I think that these people are very wrong. Very. Wrong. “There were literally a couple moments in that film when I thought they were gonna start making out” ??? What..

link 1 link 2

WHAAAAAAAAAT? WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTT??????!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!

dude 😭 what the fuck 😭 did we watch the same movie ?!?!?!?! i'm genuinely like . what the fuck 😭 i'm so sorry and i wish i could say more but i'm at a loss for words. there was absolutely nothing even remotely incestuous happening in that movie where the fuck did they get that from

[nyxvuxoa-writes]

Hello, my love... so okay... yes... would you kindly do.... Prompt #176. “I’m going to fuck you against the windows, i want everyone to see how good you are.” This prompt is for Roman Godfrey...

👉👈Thank you 👉👈

Imma go hide in a dark corner now...

Excited to finally write something for you that is tailored for you and not having you just appeal to my obsessions. I hope you like this.

𝑨 𝑹𝒐𝒐𝒎 𝑾𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂 𝑽𝒊𝒆𝒘

Roman Godfrey x Fem!Reader

#176. “I’m going to fuck you against the windows, i want everyone to see how good you are.”

◢ Genre: A touch of fluff, Kink, Smut ---- Suitable For Adults Only

◢ Warnings: PWP, dom!Roman, submissive!reader, exhibitionism, sort of window fetish, sort of public sex(?), some spanking, unprotected sex, p in v, sex from behind, hair pulling, biting, creampie, sexy time talk. slight praise kink, begging, mention of aftercare.

◢ Word Count: 2.6k

◢ A/N: Okay, so I have never written for Roman before, but I feel this will be pretty straightforward. I hope it hits all the right spots.

You have become accustom to how your relationship with Roman had grown. There was a sort of mutual understanding on how things are with him. He is in charge, and you had a 'place' to be in, for lack of better terms. In some small way you had control, but not in the normal sense of things; you had the control that a submissive in a bdsm relationship would have it.

This is your relationship with Roman. You are his submissive and he is your master. But when you are asked to strip down and stand in front of floor to ceiling windows, you hesitate slightly. Your eyes gaze to the window, watching as people walk past it. You would feel and be rather exposed to anyone who had possible wondering eyes.

After a moment though, and wanting to avoid correction, you slowly manage to strip down to nothing. Kicking your clothes to side, you look down at them like you had just lost your security blanket. Instinctually you want to cover yourself with your arms. It was natural for you to keep yourself covered, feeling rather unconfident, but you knew he would correct you. A part of you hated it.

Slowly you take in a deep breath through your nose, your fingers pressing into the palm of you hand. Roman was always one to push those boundaries with you. He like getting you to try something new, even if it made you a little scared or uncomfortable. He damn well knew this was going to make you uncomfortable. A part of him questioned if you would need to use your safe word. He hoped not.

Walking around you like an animal observing a cornered prey, he couldn't help but smirk slightly, a small chuckle escaping him. His finger reach over and the tips of them so gently graze your skin, moving from the side of your thigh and up around your body as he walked back around to stand in front of you. He fingers come to your nipple and he pinches and pulls at it slightly.

You tense a bit, feeling a small bit of pain. For a moment your lips push out and your brow furrows, almost as if you are pouting at him for doing that to you. At least he knows that he has your attention. You're focused and not zoned out, or withdrawing too much into yourself. This was going to be a big step for you.

“I’m going to fuck you against the windows, I want everyone to see how good you are.” He states, cutting straight to the point for the reason he had you here right now.

Your eyes go wide. "What?"

"I'm going to fuck you against the windows." He repeated, his tone slowing down slightly as he is allowing the sentence to sink into your brain for a moment. He licks at his lips as his hands reach up and he starts to take off his suit coat, laying it over the couch. He doesn't opt to take off his shirt, instead he loosens the tie and rolls up his sleeves to expose his forearms.

You could have used your safeword at that moment. You could have stopped him dead in his tracks and kept it from happening. The choice was right there and for a moment you considered it. But at the same time, there was something appealing about the idea. How many people would notice? How many people could stop to watch to see what was going on in the window.

Watching as Roman turned around and slid his hands into his pockets, watching you closely, you could feel as your heart started to pound in your chest. This wasn't how you were expecting your night to go. It was scary, but exciting. A small part of you remembered that you could stop this at any point if it became too much, and you mentally reminded yourself of that.

Letting your body relax, you looked at Roman with a small smile before you nodded your head, giving him that sort of consent that you were going to give it a shot. Roman smiles slightly, approaching you to cup your chin in his hand as he lifts your head to gaze up at him. He leans in and kisses you, pressing his lips roughly against yours before he spins you around to the window.

Gripping your arms, he brings your hands up to the window and presses your palms against it as he bends you over slightly. His hands move to your hips and he brings your hips out slightly, bringing you to that perfect level for him. His hand move gently over your lower back, grazing against your ass as he gently grips at your left cheek, his fingers pressing for a moment before brings his hand up and smacks it down against your flesh.

You tense and jump slightly. You had been expecting the motion, but it still had caught you off guard. This only caused your heart to pound in your chest a little more. Why did you have to face the window? Couldn't he have just lifted you up and pressed you against it? By his logic, sure, and maybe at some point he will. But this way people could see the faces you make as he presses his cock into the dewy folds between your legs. Bonus points if there happened to be an ex that walked by at that moment, but he doubt he would get that lucky.

A small chuckle escapes him as he steps back and takes a moment to observe you and the people that were already glancing into the window. This was going to be satisfying. His jaw clenches slightly, feeling himself starting to quickly stiffen in the restricting fabric of his pants. He starts to undo his belt, a sound that causes your ears to hyper-tune into it with clashing of the metal buckle. But he doesn't take it off, he simply starts to unbutton his pants, letting them drop just enough with his briefs to free his growing erect self.

Keeping his erect self in one hand, he reaches forward wit the other and bring his fingers to graze against your lower lips. Roman can feel the dampness spread as he presses his fingers into the folds slightly and runs them against your clit. This causes you to lift your hips slightly, a wave of excitement rushing over you with that feeling of anticipation and being nervous. It was a lot to feel at once and it caused goosebumps against your skin.

His finger press into your hole, as if he was preparing you to be ready for what would come right after them. He slowly pushes them deeply, reaching the full length of the fingers and starts to do a back and forth motion. You moan softly, your legs spreading a little bit as your juices start to coat them. Feeling satisfied with how wet you are becoming, Roman removes his fingers from you and positions himself behind you.

For a moment, your eyes glance up at the window and you can somewhat make out your reflections in it. Your lips part in a heavy breath as you watch, your vision going from his reflection and the people outside. A few stood by to watch, acting as though they were just leaning against something. Others simply shook their heads and walked on. This caused your heart to race further. Could you get in trouble for this? Technically speaking, yes.

Your toes curl slightly against the floor as you feel the head of Roman's cock pressing against your hole and then slowly sliding into you. He lets out a heavy groan, his hands quickly moving to your hips as he grips on and presses his entire length deeply into you. Your body grips at him, taking him deeply as your muscles felt around him slightly, almost as if to pull him in deeper.

Your slow moan and gasp for air felt louder than you intended, as if it bounced off the window in front of you and back at you. Your suck in your stomach a moment, feeling you body tense as his motions start in. First he moved slowly, bringing himself back to tip before he pressed his length into you again. He relished in the moment of how you felt around him. He was the reason you were tight. He was the reason you were wet. That is a satisfying feeling to him.

His hands travel against your body, moving from your hips up your side and resting against your ribs. For a moment his fingers dig into you, sending a little pain to mix with the feeling of pleasure, and that causes you to moan a little louder and press your hips back into his. When your ass met his somewhat open pants and flesh, he groaned, tensing slightly. You were letting that wall down, exploring something new, and he was eating it up.

Roman starts to pick up his pace as he grips at your ribs, allowing for just slightly quicker motions into your wet fold. He keeps himself buried a little more, no longer letting you feel the full length, but instead letting you feel the slightly faster, forceful nature of his hips. His breathing starts to pick up as he hears your moans and for a moment he leans forward slightly.

One hand reaches forward, gripping at your breast. He squeezes it in his hand as he presses his entire length into you, holding it for a moment as he allows his hand to fondle with your chest. His lips start to wonder against your shoulder-blade, kissing at your skin with a sense of passion. It hadn't been just a moment into hearing you moan more that Roman starts his motions again, pumping his hips into you.

"You feel so good." He mutters. "So wet. So tight. Are you my good girl?" He asks, while still leaning over slightly against your back.

You nod quickly, moaning and breathing heavily. You had forgotten what your hands were pressed against, the feeling of the glass more slick under your palms with sweat. He smirks against your skin slightly as he presses his teeth into your shoulder, biting at you a little, as his motions become more rough. Screaming out, your head drops a little more as your body tense out in both pain and pleasure.

Roman comes from the bite, lifting his lips and teeth off your shoulder-blade to see deeply purple markings and a faint bruise already starting to form. What's his, is his and he has no issues with marking his girl. Feeling pleased with himself, his cock twitches and hardens a little more inside you, which causes him to bring his hands back to your waist.

He started to give rougher, more forceful thrusts into you. Groaning and moaning loudly with you. The occasional fuck or oh god leaving someone's lips in a breathy moaned tone. The louder you became the rougher his motions started to get. Eventually, Roman's hands were in your hair and he was pulling on it. He pulled you back slightly, arching your back a bit, as his knees bent just enough to give himself a different angle.

He pressed himself into deeply, finding that right length to insert that would hit your sweet spot. He causes your legs to shake, trembling under you and you feel like your about to give way and lose your self of balance. He knew what that leg shaking meant, that tremble that ran through your body was something he had memorized. He learned how to work you, to help you achieve the finish that you craved from from.

"Good girl. My wonderful girl. Does that feel good?" He ask. "Y-yes Sir." You stammer, your fingers and palms red from how hard you were pressing them into the window. "Would you like to cum baby?" He coos at you, pressing his length in deeply as he says the word cum.

You moan and nod, hoping that he doesn't ask you to beg for it. But it was instinct, and before he could even say it, you were already begging for that sweet release.

"Please, can I cum? Please? I'm right there." You manage to get out between moans and heaving breaths. Roman looks amused, and rather proud of you.

"Ask me again." He mutters, almost growling as he's trying to contain his own moans for just a moment.

"Please. May I cum? Please let me cum." You insist. "Alright. Cum baby. Make a mess for me." He says, as both his hands go to grip at your sides.

You start to take some sort of small control as you rock your body back and forth a moment, starting to bounce yourself against Roman's length. He doesn't stop you and you cause his body to tense and the pressure to build more and more. "Oh fuck..." He manages to mutter. "Don't stop baby. Keep going. Keep going." He says, almost begging you. "You've got me right there baby."

You pick up the pace, feeling that release right on the edge there. And as he speaks, that begging and slightly needy tone coming from him, you find yourself trembling with a finish. Feeling like electricity was moving from head to toe, your body tenses and you start to have a heavy tremble work it's way through you. You cry out, moaning loudly as you keep yourself bouncing back and forth against him.

The feeling of your finish drove him. The way you tightened around him and moved against his length with desire and need, worked him to release that finish. He let go, his own legs trembling slightly as his fingers press into your skin. At first his head hung back in a moan before it drops down and he starts to give you short, hard thrusts, making sure to coat your insides with his seed.

For a moment, you both stood there, allowing yourselves to come down from the moment. He couldn't help but chuckle, feeling as you press back once more against him. Roman gives a small thwack at your ass and another grip at it for good measure, before he slowly pulls himself from you. It feels like you have lost your sense of legs, they shake under you with a heavy tremble and you wonder if you are even able to walk right now.

Roman smiles, helping you a moment as he turns you back to him and wraps his arms around your waist. His lips met yours and he kisses you deeply before pulling from it, allowing himself a moment to simply look at your features. This man adores you, with every fiber of his being.

"I'm proud of you." He comments. "Why?" You ask quietly, gazing up at him. "You didn't need to use your safe word. You went with it." He tells you honestly before he kisses you again. "How about we get you into a hot bath and I order some food?" He suggests, reaching up to touch the side of your face. You smile at him, feeling almost shy about being praised, but it felt good at the same time. Hearing that you have done good, that you have made him proud, it sort of drives you. It keeps you going. It gives you the motivation to care.

"A bath sound good." You state. It wasn't always easy to let someone take care of you, but right now, it felt right. It was going to be a good night and everything in your body told you that. Roman didn't hesitate, he takes your hand and helps you to the bathroom, making sure that you have fresh clothes and a big, clean, fluffy towel to dry off with. You are a good girl, and he was going to make sure you know it. After all, he's not the type of man to slack.

[wolfertinger]

"[KEEP ANON]

I really do not think Salem's transmisogyny is discussed enough. The way he treats Wis makes it obvious to me- She's his attack dog girlfriend that he can use as an excuse for his weird caricatures of what he thinks women are like IRL. but the way he's talked about his previous transfem partners, blaming them anytime they got called out and were unable to defend themselves... he would routinely shift the blame from himself to his ex girlfriends whenever something bad happened, and usually would drop them just as unceremoniously.

This pmo especially because Wis is attempting to use these girls as proof that Sawyer is a transmisogynist when Salem was the one that attempted to "socially murder" them!

Examples so yall know Im not talking out of my ass:

Him claiming every single transfem ex fetishized him and "manipulated" him. At this point he'd dated Hazel, Salma, and Nell, Some other transfeminine people I can't remember right now.

What he had to say about Salma, who was already being attacked and harassed due to a callout regarding her being strange around minors and having "weird" kinks. He didn't try defending her once and falsely accused her of being predatory to him. I don't want to come off as defending her but at the same time what he did while she was already down was fucked up and wrong.

Salma gave her account of the situation and established how unfair it was of Puppy to have accused her of being a sex pest where she couldn't even defend herself, on top of her being harassed for her callout.

They even privately made up but Puppy/Salem posted a total non apology and I can't even find it because it was so incredibly vague.

He also HEAVILY shit talked Hazel, who was shitty too. But for all his talk about loving "problematic trans women" and giving them time to grow, he was more than eager to ditch her and shit talk her publicly when in the relationship he'd make excuse after excuse. He even says "every feminine person Ive dated has been a piece of shit" ???. Just wholly throwing transfems under the bus for his own shitty dating choices.

Oh and can't forget how despite still having ageplay and diaper kinks himself he throws the "poor braindamaged Black homeless trans woman" Torin under the bus when it took heat off his own back.

Oh and while looking through screens I found these of him just being hateful in general. Wishing bad things on people that did nothing but wish the best for him is his true mindset, I wish people would get this through their skulls. He likes transfems because they're sexy to him. If they fuck up, everything was actually their fault all along, not his. If his friends stop enabling him, suddenly they're evil abusers that make him want to attempt. He's an opportunistic loser.

[alpaca-clouds]

I hate the "kink at pride" discourse

Let me just say this: I hate the "kink at pride" discourse each and every year again. I hate it, because it mostly is really this thing coming from often white queers, who wanna cuddle up to fucking evangelicals. And the arguments? The arguments are frankly just stupid.

I hate it even more, because that entire thing still comes from how sex negative our society is. People make such a big deal out of sex and of protecting children from the mere knowledge that sex is something that a lot of people have and enjoy.

And while this is a general modern thing, but a lot of it originates with the US. Because I can tell you: When I look at older European media for example this was not that bad. (But let's not get distracted.) Especially when it just comes to the depiction of sexuality in media.

You know what I mean? You can get blood and violence for a PG-13 shipping, but woe you, if somehow a "female presenting nipple" escaped your editing process. That will at least an R-Rating.

But what does that have to do with "kink at pride?"

Everything. Because this originates with this idea as well. A lot of people who do not want anything kinky at pride want to ban anything explicitly sexual from pride parades and events. They want to appear tame for the straights to not alienate them. But what they don't understand is, that those straights, who do think that queer folks are always inherently sexual will not ever care.

Those folks, who then want to ban kink at pride, do not realize that to a lot of those straights they want to appease any trans person existing publicy and openly is also inherenly sexual. Same of course for drag queens and drag kings. And those are the people the "no kink at pride" folks want to cuddle up to.

And let's make this clear: "kink at pride" normally involves people wearing just a bit of leather and costuming, like puppy play masks. Which is just... It is fine. There is nothing more inherently sexual about that than a lot of other clothes.

I mean, all sorts of people run around out there in super sexy clothes, that are revealing. You wanna ban them too? Would you want to ban them, if you knew they actually had some fetish about it?

And again, just this idea of banning sexual stuff from the public in general is shitty. Why would you want that? Why would you think that is a good thing?

It is just another part of the purity culture.

I mean, no, we should not have orgies at fucking open pride event! (Though maybe we should have pride themes orgies at sex clubs ;D) But let people wear their leather gear at the fucking events. Who fucking cares?

[mrghostrat]

dude. that reverse bnf fic sounds SO fucking good… the ideas u have cooking up in there… i’m excited just thinking abt it ASKFNKF

YAAAS THANK YOU

i had more thoughts today... thinkin of the ask i got about the "i'll always know the stain was there" scene and how i've never written that before. which. ofc. turned into more ace porn.

Aziraphale spills wine on himself at Crowley’s place. He’s resigned to throw the shirt away. Crowley, Mr minimalist clean freak, rolls his eyes and takes charge of cleaning it off. Aziraphale hesitates then takes his undershirt off too, and Crowley bluescreens. Aziraphale half-asks him, “I’d hate for it to be stained too. It might be an undershirt, but I’d always know the stain was there.” Crowley takes it as well, leaving Aziraphale shirtless in his house.

While they sit around and he scrubs on his homemade stain remover, Aziraphale sits a little shyly, clearly affected. His nipples are hard. Crowley gathers the courage to ask him if it turns him on. “What, you cleaning??” “No. Being exposed like that. The air on your skin.” Aziraphale hesitates because he thinks Crowley is calling him out on some kind of abnormal kink or fetish, so he deflects, “Is that some ace thing as well?” not expecting Crowley to say yes. Crowley sits next to him.

“For me anyway. It’s not the person who turns me on, it’s the touch. So, sometimes, that touch comes from unexpected places. Cold tile on my skin after a shower. Satin sheets.” Aziraphale noticeably shivers.

“S’why I like, personally… Being teased. Light touches; Chasing after it. That anticipation adds to the sensation.” He grazes a hand over Aziraphale’s bare arm and Aziraphale gasps. Crowley laughs at him.

“Ffs. No wonder you struggle getting off if you’re watching the same porn everyone else does. Probably Google Imaging boring old pin ups of girls in fancy bras—“ Aziraphale gives him a LOOK, so Crowley adjusts, “—Or, Boys in skimpy briefs. What good’s that going to do if you can’t imagine how they’d touch you?”

Aziraphale is momentarily perplexed. “You know, I can’t think the last time anyone assumed me anything other than flamingly gay,” but it somehow doesn’t feel avoidant of the topic, he’s just so caught off guard by it.

Crowley’s suddenly a little annoyed, mostly at The World, but a little bit creeps in towards Aziraphale. “Assuming doesn’t help anyone. It only gets people confused about the boxes they’re meant to fit into. Bloody useless things, boxers. Er, boxes.”

His fingers have been dragging idly up and down Aziraphale’s thigh the whole conversation.

He stops when he realises Aziraphale’s hands are strategically placed in his lap. Crowley stops. Apologises, didn’t realise what an effect he was having, he just wanted to make a point—

But Aziraphale hasn’t felt like this in such a long time. He’s worked himself off, but nothing’s compared to this feeling of anticipation and bone deep arousal. He somehow finds the words to ask if Crowley would keep going. Show him what kind of touches he likes, maybe it would be informative. Crowley gets him off on the sofa, teasing and working him to a climax that has him death gripping Crowley’s arm and whimpering into his neck.

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Later, hours or days later, Aziraphale is watching Crowley move around the house, maybe in his pants or a towel or something, but being totally innocuous. As innocuous as Aziraphale’s voice when he pipes up, completely unprompted, “I don’t think I’m asexual, Crowley.”

“This again?” Crowley’s exasperation is fond.

“No. Sometimes the sight of you makes me want to… Pin you against a wall or something.”

Crowley freezes, a mental ngk that takes a few minutes to reboot him. He tries and fails to sound casual and unaffected when he says “Maybe you’re demi,” and keeps folding his laundry like Aziraphale hasn’t just shoved a hot poker into his brain.

“Mmm,” Aziraphale agrees, even though Crowley knows he doesn’t know what that means, but he’s too busy leching to follow up and ask.

[starmocha]

This is def not dead dove don't read situation. it's VERY far from it. it's a breeding kink fic and, ahem, do they think the baby doesn't move while having sex as a pregnant woman in real life??

besides, it's obvious to those with reading comprehesion, that the thrill comes from knowing he put that baby there, it has NOTHING to do with the actual baby.

These people have never read a breeding fic before, apparently. I bet if they read Elisyum, especially the part before she goes into labor, they'll clutch their pearls lmao

Seriously, I'm not telling you what to do with your own blog, but I'd advise not to engage. Just ignore them. Trust me, I wouldn't be surprised if that person came from a certain part of twitter that has decided if people don't write what they want, then it's wrong (although there was a horrible reason behind it all that validated a serious approach but some people took advantage of that and, like I said, they're basically hunting everyone who doesn't conforme to their standards).

You're one of my favorite writers, anyone with half a brain understood what that paragraph meant and whoever took it out of context did so on purpose or they're really not that familiar with breeding kink fics.

My apologies if I offend anyone here but unlike some writers that think a breeding kink is only having the characters say "i'm gonna fuck a baby into you", you know how to write an actual breeding fic that goes way beyond that kne line.

You did absolutely nothing wrong and I hope you don't let this get to you. 🫂

Can't wait to read more, can't wait for the entire "snowdrop conception fic" because I was here since the start and i'm emotional 😭😭😭😭

I think so too! "Dead dove, don't read" would only apply to something heinous and disturbing meant to unsettle the readers.

Breeding/Pregnancy kinks are not that. At all. It is not everyone's cup of tea, but that would be the same for many other fetishes. You are responsible for your own internet experience and I feel like when you read a line that starts as "The polite thing for Zayne to do is masturbate in his home office to his wife's sexy pregnancy polaroids" you should know what you are getting yourself into. Unfortunately, if you don't get the appeal of a pregnancy kink, people tend to jump to wild conclusions and misconstrue it as something actually disgusting :| of course these are probably also the same people who think pregnant women shouldn't be having sex at all 🤨

omg I feel like Sylus' fics are a bit more wild, but tbqh, I've read more insane pregnancy kink fics that would make them faint in shock. Maybe that's why I'm so desensitized to so many things around here 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

Very sound advice! I would typically do that, too. I don't like engaging in unpleasant situations (why you won't see me on Twitter except to look at pretty and/or horny arts lol), but it amused me that they sent it as two separate messages, almost like "...AND ONE MORE THING." idk I'm too stubborn to be kink-shamed.

I have confessed on here before that I do write these types of fics more because of the very reason you've mentioned. I'll see "breeding kink" listed in tags, but then it's like...one quick line and they moved on so my itch didn't get the scratch it desired :|

Don't worry! I'm doing just fine. As I've said, I'm too stubborn and thick-skinned to be kink-shamed. <3

👀 You'll be happy to know I've been working on it yesterday and a little today, so it's currently at roughly 9.8k words.

The conception part itself....7.8k words....incomplete still.... I was going to finish it after dinner but then I saw that message and was like LOL OK. FIRST HATE MESSAGE. or second idk I'm a bit dense sometimes and don't realize people are mad at me until two or three messages in lmao

[anglbnny]

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[facelessoldgargoyle]

Amy Dallon as the Minotaur

The Metatextual Monster: how reading Amy Dallon on multiple levels is necessary to understanding her.

I'm gonna be real, this started out as a daydream about drawing Taylor as Icarus, but I care way more about the Minotaur, and Taylor isn't the Minotaur. Possibly some art about this to follow, but I type faster than I draw. ~700 words.

How many of you have read House of Leaves? Wikipedia. The most important thing to know is that House of Leaves is three stories, which occur nested within each other. The story at the heart is a documentary about a house in which a closet door suddenly appears, which eventually grows into a hallway and then a labyrinth. The next layer is a blind professor's commentary on this documentary, which was discovered scattered around his apartment after his death. The top layer is the chronicle of a tattoo artist trying to reconstruct the commentary. All this to say: it is a book about meta-commentary, which makes describing its themes difficult.

In House of Leaves, the professor has tried to remove all references to the Minotaur by burning the pages of his notes about him. The tattoo artist writes down everything that failed to burn, and indicates that it was burned using red, struck through text. The Minotaur is a character which does not exist, but he haunts the book.

On the top level, he represents the constant editing, rewriting, and destruction of the book itself. Down a level, he is a monster who is stalking the characters in their minds. A claw mark is found next to the professors dead body. Down a level, he's the guilt and shame growing within each author which they project into the house. The labyrinth in the house is a black hole, it signifies nothing, but the human mind impresses its own ideas and image into it.

I'm now realizing that I've written three paragraphs without mentioning Amy once. Shit. Ok. The good stuff.

On the level closest to the text, Amy the character is the malformed, rejected child. When her malformation makes itself known, she is permanently rejected and confined in an inescapable prison. Like the Minotaur in House of Leaves, her ghost haunts the people who fear her and obsess over her. They can't stop thinking about her (Victoria) despite how that obsession only hurts them. When Amy's status as monster can be instrumentalized, it is, like how the Minotaur of myth was used as a method of execution for the youth of Athens. She's set free and used once again.

On another level, Amy Dallon haunts Worm. Her arc is fully fleshed out, and it is tragedy. Like the Minotaur, on one level she must been seen as symbolic. She represents the self-destruction of the nuclear family. In one version of the myth, the Minotaur is the bastard son of Minos. The king did not sacrifice a bull sent to him by Poseidon, and so the queen was cursed to fall in love with the bull. Here, the Minotaur represents the ultimate perversion of the natural order. The king did not honor the god, and so the wife did not honor her husband, and so the child did not honor his mother. Amy represent the same overturning of the natural order. Carol hated the daughter, and so the daughter destroyed her sister. These stories suggest that the so-called natural order actually has something deeply wrong with it!

On the top level, Amy is a scapegoat for the audience. Like the Minotaur in House of Leaves, the reader projects their own hatred on her; they treat her with the same lesbophobia as the text does, if you read her a layer below the symbolic critique of the family, if you read her as a character. People consistently write about her as having an incest kink, or other deviant, highly stigmatized fetish. People post about her being dirty, or ill-intentioned. This reading accepts her as ontologically evil, rather than a product of an oppressive structure. The exact form of the Minotaur (deviant, dirty, ill-intentioned) varies from person to person. He acts as a Rorschach, illuminating what the observer finds offensive.

Like the Minotaur in House of Leaves, Amy must be read on multiple levels. She is a character, she is a metaphor, she is a mirror. Isolate any of these levels from the other, and they fail to make sense. Separating the symbolic from the personal is often what leads people to falling into the trap of projecting lesbophobic narratives onto her!

The Minotaur is out to get you, and Amy is too.

[billyvell]

So, this might be a bit weird but, after finishing Room No.9 and everything, I wanted to, kind of... Defend ending A a bit? I've seen people's (negative) reactions, some even saying they considered that worse than the ending where Daichi kills Seiji… Which is kinda crazy to me. Even if you hate it, I think it's at the very least better than that, and maybe than endings D or E?

If you think about it, there's nothing really too shocking happening. Their friendship is gone which is sad, but that also happens in every ending besides F (the "good one") and maybe C (stay in the room). Unlike C, they're at least out in the real world, and, while in a sense they might not have "really left the room", the implication is that they're doing fine living their lives and functioning in society outside of their relationship with each other. We don't even get Daichi going on about how he doesn't really care about his job like in ending B (which is very interesting for me, to wonder how he's doing as an elementary teacher while being how he is with Seiji lol).

And while it's definetely sad that there's not really any friendship or love in their relationship anymore, and that it has only turned into what it did due to what they've went through, it's really nothing too bad? People have sexual relationships without romance and explore kinks, dom/sub, humiliation stuff and whatever else they're doing there in real life too, and it's not neccessarily something bad in itself (outside of the context of what initiated it here). They're not even as sex addicted as ending C, cause they don't meet up every day or anything.

I don't think anything Seiji is doing there (because, yes, he's doing it, it's not just something being done to him) is something to truly pity him for. It might be called abuse ending but he's consenting to it, out of the room, with no drugs/aphrodisiacs like in there. And the guilt he probably feels, and that Daichi does on the other side of it, it's something that many people feel about their own kinks/fetishes. The sad part of that ending is really more the feeling of what has been lost, as Daichi says at the end.

I've seen people talk about how Daichi "turns" into a sadistic or into something, or just how they change on that ending in general, but I don't fully agree with that. I mean, it's kinda true, in that they definetely wouldn't have turned out that way without what happened, but, in a way it was also something in them that was awakened.

No matter which route you take, Daichi and Seiji are still turned on from what they have to do. Seij still gets an erection when Daichi face-fucks him. Daichi still talks about how deep down he actually does want to have sex with Seiji at certain moments, about how bad he feels that he's kind of excited to do certain tasks, about how sexy Seiji looks during them. In the shower scene (of the third route, which is the "good one"), he even considers that maybe the idea of doing it to help Seiji is just a rationalization and he actually just wants to have sex with him (well, I'd say it's both).

So, I feel like that ending is in a way the one where they are their truest selves. Primal, deranged, twisted maybe. But they're not in denial anymore (well, the way Daichi reacts to one of the guys thinking he's Seiji's boyfriend makes me wonder if he isn't a bit more in love than he admits, but I might be reading too much into it). Maybe ending C (stay in the room) too, but in that one they seem to be just going with it without thinking more than anything, while in this one, there's more of a realization for them, an inner knowledge about themselves.

I don't think Daichi's sadism is completely created by "the room". And, I mean, it's just sexual sadism. He still never really harms Seiji. It's all very common kinky sex stuff. It's more humiliation/degradation than actual violence. I don't think he's really evil for it. He kinda thinks so earlier on the route, but that doesn't mean we have to agree with it. While I love the sweet Daichi from the third route (and even the second one, if he chooses to stay with Seiji), I gotta admit that route 1 Daichi is also kinda dear to me in a different way. I thought some of his thoughts (like blaming it on genetics) were kinda stupid, but, that sense of guilt over what turns you on, but still wanting to do it anyway, that guilt sort of mixing with arousal because it being taboo and "wrong" is part of why you're into it...

Seiji's situation is a bit more complicated, cause he essentially gets his body "trained" to that kind of stuff (is that even realistic? probably to some extent but not as much as in the game). But I can't see Daichi turning like that if their roles were reversed, and I can't imagine him turning into a dom/sadist either, so it's probably still something somewhat innate to him that he just wasn't likely to discover.

[idksomething327]

Asexuality

I don't intend to give much about myself on here, but I think this is really something that needs to be talked about. I mentioned it in my pinned post, but I'll be going into more detail now- I'm aro-ace. This stands for aromantic-asexual, and is often misunderstood. Aromantic is being uninterested in romance, and asexual is being uninterested in sex. I will be talking about asexuality for the purposes of this page.

Asexual can mean many, many things, as long as they fall under the umbrella of feeling less, little, or no interest in sex. This means that someone could have absolutely no interest in sex- hate it, be disgusted by it, and not have any kinks or other ways of experiencing sexual desires or pleasure. This is what most people assume. But there are other types, as well. Another example is someone who is slightly less interested in sex- unable to be sexually attracted to strangers, unattracted to porn, but still enjoy their own fantasies, even regarding sex, but simply need a partner they are incredibly close with to experience pleasure outside of their imagination.

I, myself, am somewhere in between. I do not like sex. Its honestly pretty gross, though I obviously don't judge people for liking it. Even imagining a hypothetical partner or one of my crushes sexually disgusts me. But I do have a few fetishes. The main one is emeto, with most of the others revolving around it. I am able to get pleasure and desire from this fetish. Despite all this, I don't mind talking about sex in a mature manner. I'm actually really interested in the biology of it, and know quite a lot about it, even enough to teach some of my friends things they wouldn't know, and am even okay with making a few jokes about it, as long as they aren't graphic. I just hate the idea of thinking about, seeing, or participating in anything sexual.

Its important to understand that there are a million more types of asexuality than what I've described. Nothing at all is black and white, especially when it comes to sexuality. Things are fluid, too, and things can change over someone's life, or just day-to-day. Its also important to know that not everyone has only one sexuality- a word that I hate due to it not being clear whether discussing romantic attraction, sexual attraction, or both. Someone could be super romantically attracted to women, but asexual. Someone could hate the idea of any kind of romance, but be bisexual when it comes to sexual relationships. Though I am aro-ace, I've only ever really found myself attracted to men, romantically or sexually, which is why I consider myself gay as well.

One point I really want to make is that you shouldn't assume anything about someone, even when they tell you their sexuality. If a man tells you they're gay, although it usually means they are both romantically and sexually attracted to men, don't assume that. Just take it as, they're attracted to men in one way or another, and honestly, it's not often anyone's business exactly what they mean by that. But if you're close enough with the person and truly are curious, just ask. Most people are happy to elaborate. Just talk about it, please. Its the only way you'll know for sure.

One last thing- asexuality doesn't imply anything about the person's mental state, past, or immaturity. Although someone may become asexual due to factors such as having been hurt by someone in the past, it is absolutely not something to assume. A lot of people think that being asexual means you've just gotten out of a relationship and feel you can never love again or something, but most often, that's not the case, and even if it is, don't assume that. Its also none of your business if it is. The person is asexual. Just accept it. When I was younger, a young teen, I had a therapist that I told I was aro-ace. She seemed to assume that I just hadn't hit that point in puberty yet, that I just needed to wait a couple more years, that I was a late bloomer or something. That just wasn't true, and it pained me for her not to understand no matter how much I explained myself. Im so, so sick of people assuming things about me that they wouldn't with any other sexuality. So please, be respectful, that's all I ask.

This went on for a long time, but I think it's something that everyone should hear, just to understand. Jaiden Animations has a great video about being aromantic, which I would love for you to watch, because I probably won't be making a second post for the subject. I just want to spread the message that asexuality is a real sexuality, not something wrong with me or just caused by something that happened to me. I hope that someday, the world can be a place that, when telling people my sexuality, I'm not met with judgement, assumptions, or lack of recognition.

[quiet-admirer]

Re: healthier variety in feedist fics

How did you escape the shame cycle that helps you enjoy feedist fics that don't essentially boil down to, "hey, everything's okay, gaining weight did not make you unattractive, unhealthy or a bad person, you don't deserve to hate yourself because you're fat" ?

I don't engage in a lot of fics myself, but I've been some level of fat my whole life and struggling with restrictive ED recovery for the last few years. I don't know how to stop telling myself that I just wanted an excuse to be fat without feeling guilty about it, which only makes me feel more guilty about my body and being into feedism. I would be grateful for any advice you might be willing to share.

If I understand right, you're asking about how to enjoy angsty fics without internalizing fatphobic or kink-shamey messages?

I wrote my entire tmi life story below, but the Too Long, Didn't Read of it is that I went to therapy and also had a long, several-years break from angst and shame fantasies and took that time to focus on my own shame about this kink in general before I was able to engage in it in fiction, so now there's a gap between the fictional shame and my own, making it more easily separable in my head and they don't entangle and reinforce each other as easily.

And because I'm incurably wordy, the Too Long of it goes under a cut:

But for me, the way my journey worked itself out isn't what I would necessarily endorse honestly! As a teen and young adult, most of my feedism fantasies were "guy is super depressed and binge eats and gets fat and is distressed about it, partner still loves him and he accepts it and gains more weight." I was definitely trying to process shame about having a weight gain kink: I needed the characters to feel guilty about their weight and then become more neutral or okay with it almost like an atonement - well they're fat and gaining weight but it's ok because they're not happy about it at least!

As I was exposed to body positivity and then eventually fat liberation, I started feeling super guilty about these fantasies and told myself they were wrong because there's nothing shameful about being fat and I shouldn't fantasize about distress and internalized fatphobia like that. I felt bad and a little stupid when I realized that there was that dynamic of "atoning for" my fetish in my fantasies.

My reaction was to avoid fiction with similar themes of shame altogether and to stop fantasizing about these scenarios. In a way it was helpful to put my total focus on other themes and ways of viewing feedism and other tropes, like a bootcamp of sorts. I think I really did need a long break from shame-focused narratives. It made me anxious reading those tropes by that point and there wasn't any fun anymore because all it did was echo what was already in my head that was causing me distress.

But distancing myself from those narratives was unfortunately also paired with labeling that genre of trope as bad or backward or "problematic." I had the mentality that it was just people projecting their shame and I had "evolved beyond that."

There can often be an undercurrent in soft feedist spaces of an attitude like "well I'm a good feedist and fat liberationist unlike Those Feedists who are ignorant about fat liberation and are into degradation or shame kinks, which they wouldn't have if they were enlightened like us" and there was definitely a brief time where I felt that way, even if I probably wouldn't have admitted it at the time lol. I thought that if I was actually committed to fat liberation I wouldn't be thinking up or enjoying stories about unintentional weight gain that causes distress!

But there's nothing wrong with fantasy. There's nothing wrong with enjoying angst or shame it degradation in your sexual fantasies or play!

In the past 4 years or so it's been a slow process of breaking out of those mental barriers. If I'm in the mood to read something angsty, I should get to do that without beating myself up about it! And I like angst in all kinds of fiction! I love the hurt-comfort trope in vanilla fiction, so what makes it bad suddenly once it's about feedism?

And there is something to be said for narratives about working through shame to self-love, especially when we have more variety in the way self-love is achieved that doesn't always end up just mimicking fatphobic dynamics in the way the self acceptance happens (like if the feedee/gainer accepts themselves without input from a thin feeder/encourager for exmple!). Those can often be healing to read for sure!

What really helped me the most though was seeing other people in the feedist community that I really respected and who discussed and promoted fat liberation in the community who shared a variety of their fantasies and fiction, some of which included those themes that I had made taboo in my head. 20/20 hindsight makes it obvious, but I had a realization that oh! You can be a committed fat liberationist and enjoy whatever you want in kinky play! The messaging that "there are no thought crimes" and "kill the cop in your head" also helped me.

Another healing process for me was writing my own fiction. I challenged myself to write something with zero shame about kinks or fatness in it. I was still in the "I'm not allowed to enjoy shame dynamics" stage when I started my current ongoing fic in 2020, and it was kind of shocking to me to find that I had to rewrite the first 3 chapters a literal six times before I weeded out all the shame. I think it was an important step for me to separate my actual shame from fictional shame.

I also had therapy with an incredible kink-knowledgeable sex therapist for about 2 years where I worked on just being able to give myself freedom to fantasize and self actualize about this kink to my fullest extent without holding myself back and without withholding pleasure and connection within myself and with others. It's an ongoing process for sure, but I've come so far from starting therapy in 2020 and crying every single therapy session, and without even saying what my kink actually was until probably a month or so in!

I still don't engage in shame dynamics in fiction very much. I've probably read a handful of angst fics in the past 2-3 years. I have to be in the mood, and I still sometimes come out of immersion in the story by distancing myself with thoughts like "you don't actually believe this in real life, this is just for fun". I guess it's good messaging to give myself but I think it's a step along the process to just being able to enjoy it when I feel like it without having to reassure myself that I'm not a bad person for reading it.

And then other times it can be activating for my own shame so I stop and revisit it another time. It happens!

I don't know if I'm ready to have my own fantasies and stories that I make up with the shame dynamics still. Or maybe it's less that I'm not ready and more that they just aren't a focus of my kink right now. I dunno, I'm having fun with what I'm working on mentally right now, which is opening myself to exploring more of the weirder shit, so exploring shame stuff isn't as much a priority for me right now.

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As far as eating disorder stuff, that sucks and I'm sending good + healing vibes. That was a journey for me too, though I was only chubby for a few years as a kid and didn't have any gaining desires myself until recently, so I don't have much personal directly relevant insight there unfortunately.

For me it was more like torturing myself over the fact that I was supposedly body positive/a fat liberationist/loved and respected fat people/found fat people hot and liked seeing fat people get fatter and yet had a restrictive ed myself and a fear of gaining weight. I felt like such a a hypocrite, but like, brains, man. Eating disorders.

A lot of times with the vague eating disorder thoughts that do come up, I have a "maybe and what about it?" approach. "Not exercising and your weight caused your chronic pain" - "even if that was true, who cares? I just do my PT and I feel better regardless of what caused it." "People are going to judge you because you gained weight, they're going to make all these assumptions about you because your body changed" - "maybe, sure, but who gives a fuck."

So "You're just gaining to give yourself an excuse to be fat" can be responded to like "okay, why not, I can gain weight for whatever reason I want, didn't ask + cope."

Instead of spending time reasuring myself that people don't care what I look like or that there's poor evidence for a causal relationship between weight and chronic pain, I just bypass all that with a "so?" Maybe a gentler approach would work better for you but personally I'm like that "silence, liberal" crab with the laser eyes.

EDs can twist your thoughts and make you think and believe all kinds of shit that you don't actually believe and that don't align with your values. To me almost literally feels like [unreality cw] there's a virus separate from myself that implants thoughts into my brain and distorts my perceptions, like a break from reality almost. It's so weird honestly, the other day I was like "what if I stopped eating cheese" and I was like... "why...? Sounds potentially reasonable but tell me more... 🤔" And it took me 3 days of the cheese thought popping into my head to be like "oh, I am feeling not in control of my body because of chronic illness progression, therefore I am trying to alter my food to feel in control again." It's like it overrides anything obvious and reasonable in my brain and makes me think silly things from The ED Dimension from time to time lol.

Basically what I'm trying to say is, you don't have to listen to those kinds of thoughts or entertain them at all as reflecting your own moral code or beliefs. And you don't have to beat yourself up as being a bad person for having ED thoughts that are shitty about fatness and feedism. You can let those thoughts happen anyway and acknowledge that they have no weight or value to you.

You might not be able to stop your brain from firing bullets at you, but you're Neo and you're dodging them 😎

Far easier said than done, but it can totally be a fake it til you make it mentality along the way.

But anyway, that's just my 47 cents, and it sounds like fat-knowledgeable eating disorder therapy could still be helpful for you if that's something you're able to access!

[gemandthesnots]

Hey just wanted you to know I feel you with your last post. I’ve never told anyone I knew in real life about my fetish and I honestly don’t think I ever will. It’s just so deeply embarrassing and I just can’t bring myself to share it with anyone

I've been pretty open about it with people in the past few years, and generally people have seemed cool about it, but it's always come with the feeling that I can't just talk about it openly like other people can with their kinks, because it's too weird or gross or unlikeable, you know? I get your hesitancy, and I don't want to encourage that shame but, the fear is real. It's a vulnerable part of us. I think it might be the most "me" I ever am. Before I knew my gender or my sexuality or any of my other preferances or identity, I knew I liked sneezing.

I actually never intended to tell anyone, but when I was 17 I was playing truth or dare with a few friends and aquaintances from school, and my friend's boyfriend asked me what my biggest kink was. Everyone thought it was hilarious and wanted explanation. It was eh. But later my friend told me about her weird kink and we bonded about how we were both weird. That was okay. For the first time I shared something deeply intimate about myself, and I wasn't hated for it and I wasn't alone.

A few years later I told a few close online friends in private about my kink. We had a small kink server, with five of us, just to talk about adult stuff because our other friends were still in high school. They openly shared about all sorts of stuff they were into. I felt simultaneously very tame and boring with my one kink and (at the time) very very low interest in "real" sex, and also like the grossest person there. They all liked a lot of the same things. Obviously nobody else liked sneezing. Opening myself up was hard, but one of my friends was curious and very accepting towards me. Everyone else shared very personal things, shamelessly meant for mainly their enjoyment only. I shared some art I made and one of my friends said "ewww." They later told my boyfriend about my fetish without my permission. I thought it was fine at first because he was cool with it, and also told me his weird fetish. But then my boyfriend told a bunch of our other friends as a joke, and one of those friends brought it up as a "gotcha" in another bigger server.

I met some new friends in a kink server so straight off the bat they knew about my kink. One of them thought it was so funny that xe invited me to xeir personal server and immediately put me in the nsfw channels, introducing me by my kink. I was happy to make friends and be included. I found out someone else there also had a sneezing fetish, and I didn't really know how to feel. They were super super nice to me, but I felt too shy and put on the spot by them. A few new people joined the server and we met in VC, and I was instantly introduced by my weird fetish. I felt the energy drop and become awkward, and I felt like I was in a zoo for display. I talked about my kink far less than anybody else talked about it in regards to me. I didn't want to be known for a part of me that felt shame.

I met my (now ex) girlfriend, and eventually I told her. She boasted about how great she was at sex and how forward thinking and accepting she was. She didn't reject me outright, but she clearly thought it was gross and wanted nothing to do with any of my kinks. She would make a point to hide her runny nose from me.

My other girlfriend was happy to learn something that turned me on and was excited to try, sending me videos of her inducing, but she wasn't able to do it. But I appreciated that it was the first time someone I liked tried doing something for me, just because I liked it, since I had internalized that it was just so weird and unlikeable that nobody would want to.

Since then I've told a few other friends, but I've been more closed off. It's like reopening a small wound and waiting to see if someone will poke it or give me a bandaid. It feels like such an unloveable thing to share. Even when I experience blinding acceptance and even genuine interest or participation in my fetish I feel gross and sick (in the bad way) and shameful and dirty and weirdly guilty. Like I'm imposing some burden on them. Like I'm a monster. And the past rejection always follows me, even to spaces where people are just like me. I can't pretend I'm normal without closing a piece of me away. Even surrounded by hundreds of people who probably feel or have felt the same way.

I hope things change, I hope we don't have to feel like we're forced to be private and hidden away someday. It kind of seems dramatic to phrase it that way, but you know right?

[dazzle-expandism]

There's a lot of things I want to talk about on here.

Opinion Bashers - I don't understand opinion bashers, hating on you just because you don't like something they enjoy. I saw some opinion bashing on here over My Little Pony and all that. And I gotta confess something. I don't really understand this whole "Hellpark" fandom. Is this something made up to be a "spin-off" of South Park? Either way, it rubs me the wrong way.

Rule 34 Haters - These are people who hate the 34th rule of the internet "if it exists, there's porn of it" people want it banned because it's inappropriate. Most of these haters are kids who were told sex was bad by their mothers. But I have something to tell you, you can't stop it. It's gonna exist until the end of time. There's nothing you can do about it. And fixing it won't help either.

Fetish Artists - Oh boy, this is what I am! But I'm talking about the fetish artists who make fetish art of minors. I saw fetish art of a SIX YEAR OLD, specifically Cream from the Sonic franchise. Like, I did NOT want to see that and I'm NOT sorry for calling out RidiculousCake on this shit, not to mention I've heard they stalked a kid too! And there are some fetishes that set me off. Like who the fuck is into people vomiting??? Or people pissing themselves??? Hell, there's even a fetish for mosquito bites! What the fuck is wrong with some people??

Age Regression - I have nothing against these people, just the people who do it for a fetish. This is gonna be short. I know some people mentally regress due to trauma or abuse when they were younger, and I respect and support them. But the people who do it for a fetish... wtf?

Fill-In Memes - Okay, fill-in memes. These aren't really memes. Aren't memes supposed to be funny? These "memes" aren't funny at all. There's lots of these. Including denying the "apologies" of characters or people the OP doesn't like. A lot of these characters don't even apologize for stuff at all. Don't get me started on the reaction memes. There are reaction memes of 9/11, politics, famous people's deaths, and even incidents like the titanic sinking.

Kphoria - God damn, this user has his own topic on here! I'm pretty sure you guys know who Kphoria is. If not, let me tell you. He was on DeviantArt and YouTube, and he makes vore content. I bet if you were a Sonic fan in the early 2010s (which I was) then you would've most definitely saw his content. This guy awakened my vore fetish and did the same for many. I should've mentioned this guy when I was talking about people who fetishize minors, but no. This guy has his own rabbithole. The character I remember getting used as the predator a lot was Amy Rose, who is TWELVE YEARS OLD. Thank god he got terminated on DeviantArt. He was also said to be the Elsagate before Elsagate got its name.

DeviantArt As A Whole - Okay, now we got the site known for fetish art itself! There's so many toxic people on there, and some people even defend horrible people. I can't even search for art of something I love without seeing fetish art, which is not a problem. It just depends on what the fetish is. I like any fetish involving stomachs as long as it isn't that extreme, and I have no opinion on the fetish for tickles or feet, but the fetish for heartbeats? No no no. Disturbs me.

Sleep Fetishes - Yes. There's a fetish for sleeping. Mostly women because apparently "they are nothing but sex dolls" as a female myself, this disturbs me. Why can't men and women have some equality when it comes to fetish art? Most of it I see are of female characters. But back to the topic of sleeping kinks, I've seen these posts that go under the Fill-In Memes topic too. Basically it's of a character watching another sleep. These characters watching them are always South Park characters and probably OCs too. I've seen these "What If" things to where a character goes into a deep sleep. This is OBVIOUSLY so the OP could fap to it.

Plushophiles - I am not gonna talk about these people. But just a quick explanation, these are people who do unspeakable things to plushies.

Hate Art - Okay, hate art. Something I've seen so much of. Basically killing a character or person you don't like. I've seen a lot of hate art of characters, mostly from kid shows like Peppa Pig, Caillou, ect ect.

Favorite To Least Favorite Lists - These are people making a list to tell their opinions on things, and they are mostly kids. And there are some that hate on kids shows because they're for kids or babies. There ARE opinion bashers in the comment section of some of those lists hating on the OP for hating something they like or liking something they hate, sometimes for hating something that's popular. And a lot of people actually respect their opinions.

I'm pretty sure we all know what pedos and zoos are so I'm not gonna talk about it.

People Who Steal Art - This is pretty self explanatory. People who steal art.

Self Shippers - Okay, I'm fine with these people (since I am one too) but there are some people who take it to the extreme by making a "child" and that makes me uncomfortable.

FurAffinity - It's basically DeviantArt, but for furries. No offense against furries, not all of them are attracted to animals.

Okay, the final topic. (I'm adding it for fun)

BUTTERFLIES! - 🦋The butterflies! There are many kinds even... heh.. Mon- oh god I can't even say it without getting a nosebleed. It's basically the butterflies with the orange, black and white wings. Pretty sure we all know what I'm talking about. I like moths too, they so fluffy and adorbs!🦋

[scarefox]

Can we finally stop demonizing NC / sex scenes or pitting them against each other to find out which one is more valuable and worthy of existence due to better cinematography and conveyed deep emotions?

Most NC / sex scenes do have a purpose besides fitting in a genre and age rating where they can be shown (talking about the BL/GL/QL realm here... not like american hete action movies with random banging out of the blue). Majority of NC have some storytelling, some character information or development in it. Even if they are not romantic or not artistically shot. A lot of people just don't see it or refuse to see it because some still see it as "sex = a dirty emotionless procedure for the depraved"

But here are some examples of information you can gather from NC scenes that often get overlooked because usually people just look for love and desire:

trust level in the partner

fun / happiness with eo

desperation & longing & hornyness (<- also nothing bad btw everything depends on context and consent)

character looks for distractions with the sex

carelessness for themselves

are they egoistic in bed or do they care for the others pleasure too

do they like to spoil the other? do they like to get spoiled?

are all involved parties actually really into each other?

level of experience (side not: first timer of course will be reserved and more shy... SAME FOR FIRST KISSES)

self-image (shy? confident? self-hate / guilt??)

some like it wild and hard some soft and slow, none of that is superior to the other it's literally personal taste

are there some fetishes and kinks at play (possible hint for a characters psychology, doesn't have to, can be)

even hidden feelings can be shown, like FWB who turn into more or a couple who's falling out of love and just doing it out of rutine

btw masturbation also counts as NC, it doesn't matter if the character is solo sexually active or with others.

And you can just enjoy watching NC scenes without trying to find justification for it. It is literally legal and natural (heck even some social animals like watching other animals banging). You are also not intruding their privacy... it's literally just actors who just play pretend who all gave their consent to show these scenes of them to the public...

And no NCs are literally not the same as porn. ESPECIALLY when we talk about BL NC scenes because bruh, majority of it is so not explicit. All we see is foreplay and a bit of make out or aftermath, but there is rarely actual display of sex beyond that. Except for like Bed Friend and KinnPorsche, Love In The Air kind of spice level. And even they are 'just' on normal western level of sex scenes. The only kind-of-"""BL""" that is actually softcore is "The shortest Distance is Round" the main is even an actual porn actor and I bet some of the others too, the are just not listed on MDL. [all the trigger warnings for that movie series btw]

Does that mean there HAVE to be NC scenes in everything? No. It's basically an artistic choice and depending on what the creator wants to show and for what target audience they want to create. Same as when creators say they don't want to show much. 🤷‍♂️ But the less you show the more you have to tell via other ways. Which is sometimes frustrating for me when they cut the sex part (which again, is totally fine) but then the characters behave like nothing happened, nothing changed. OR THEY DO behave differently but nobody shows or says why! And if you are vague the audience has to fill the gap with their own imagination which can vary a lot from tame to horrible. It feels like I am missing out on their path.

But I do side eye everyone who calls a BL bromance just because it had one soft kiss in it. Or people who call a BL boring when they don't have sexual tension within the first 3 episodes.

Ending this with a nice quote I recently heard in a video about a similar topic:

"Just because something makes YOU uncomfortable, doesn't mean it is automatically something bad. It first of all just means it is not for you and that is ok." (unless it is indeed something bad and not legal then that's a different topic)

[loadednachosao3]

I am afflicted with a persistent sexual fantasy that I’d rather not have. In recent years, I have developed a slightly unhinged attraction to Republicans. I’m your typical college-educated, urban-elitist lefty. I want saved whales, married gays and socialized everything. But when a cute girl tells me that Ronald Reagan is her personal savior, I am sent into a sexual frenzy. I feel it important to clarify what this bizarre fetish is not; it is not “hate [bleep]ing,” nor is it one of those opposite-attracts, tension-filled things. It’s much more of a role-playing thing, because in the fantasy I am right-wing too. I have sought out such women online, and I have behaved unethically by lying to them, but it really doesn’t work without the lying. I would never want to be in a real relationship with a Republican; it’s just a sexual thing. My greatest fear is that on some level, what if I really have become the twisted persona I’ve created? Do you think there’s an ethical way to indulge or express this fantasy that will not make nice, liberal girls (who are the kind I actually want to spend my life with) totally creeped out by me?

you weirdly have no idea how apt it is that you sent this unhinged ask to me; I actually have extensive experience with political fetishes!

granted, okay, my experience is usually the other way around... Repubs who want to be with lefties... but the core tenets are the same! there's something very sexually appealing about things we "shouldn't" have, and what's more of a forbidden thing than the opposing side's political views? it gets people going more often than you'd think!

there IS a way to do this ethically without necessarily lying, though you may not 100% like the answer: there are sex workers for that right here on the good ol' internet! on NiteFlirt, Right-Wing Riley and Trump Girl cater to pretty much exactly what you're looking for. of course, this is pay-to-play, but most of the time when you have a very specific sort of fetish, that's what happens! if nothing else, their pages might be good fap material for you, anon?

if you don't want to go the paid route, I'd suggest just finding places to be open about your kinks, like maybe fetlife or reddit or something similar! you will get scrutiny for it from both sides, that's just life, but I think you'll find there are communities for political fetishists full of people from all areas on the political spectrum. r/politicsplay is one of those places, you may be able to find like-minded people there? I know of r/fuckingfascists and r/politicalfemdom as well. the former might not be your style, but the latter, I believe, has femdom from right-wing and left-wing perspectives.

all in all, try not to beat yourself up about it! it's a normal and understandable fixation to have, particularly in such fraught political times. remember that no matter how much of a traitor you feel like, you will never be as pathetic as a MAGA cuck who cries about BLM while they cum and then gets hard in the voting booth in November because a hot leftist with fat tits told them to vote blue. and that's on god

[xxchromies]

Random thoughts

It's crazy how much I've changed in the past couple of years, in a good way! I was just thinking about how if people I knew in high school found this blog, they'd probably faint. They'd be disturbed. They'd say I'm "going down the alt-right pipeline" and I'm an "evil TERF". And that would have bothered me in the past, but now I really don't care! It's not like the alt-right isn't a real thing, but I absolutely ABHOR people who consider anything that doesn't align with the most sanitized liberal thinking as being a part of the alt-right. Being conservative is not the alt-right either. I cannot help but CACKLE when people say that people like Ben Shapiro and Jordan Peterson are part of the alt-right.

I've learned a lot of things about the world in the past couple of years. I've learned to trust my instincts and to challenge the dominant narrative. I've learned things aren't always what they appear. And I'm so glad I did! I don't have to put up with any old bullshit anymore! I hate porn! I hate sex work! I hate gender ideology! I can't in good conscience support any of that bullshit anymore. Maybe I sound a bit crazy right now, but I really do feel like Neo from the Matrix. I feel as if I've uncovered the realities of the world, but at the same time it's scary because in many ways the reality is horrible.

I felt compelled to write this post because I've been seeing a few radical feminist tweets get absolutely dogpiled on Twitter. There was one about how BDSM and many other kinks are inherently abusive and a bunch of people were doing the typical "but they CHOOSE it" "it's more nuanced than this" bullshit. People were saying that radical feminism is just conservatism in disguise. And it just really opened my eyes. So many people are absolute hypocrites. These so called progressives will go on and on about how other people are problematic but the moment you turn the spotlight on THEM, they double down. It's fascinating.

I just want to make myself completely clear for anyone who comes across this blog, I do not hate trans people or want them to die. I believe being trans is a mental illness. However, there's nothing wrong with having a mental illness. I believe they are mentally ill people that are taken advantage of by the medical industry. People may think I'm insisting they don't have agency, but that's not it. I'm simply saying not all choices are good ones, choices don't exist in a vacuum, and you can easily be influenced by outside forces who don't always have your best interests at heat. No one is immune to propaganda. That includes you and me. If someone really truly wants to transition, they have a right to do so. BUT! I'm not going to pretend that sexual dimorphism isn't a thing. I'm not going to pretend that trans women are real women, or that trans men are real men. I will simply acknowledge that they are pretending to be the opposite sex. Nothing wrong with pretending, quite honestly. It's not a bad thing.

I also do not have any problem with kinks that aren't harmful to the self or to other people. I don't give a damn if someone has a foot fetish, a fart fetish, or even autogynephilia! But I do not condone anything related to BDSM, I just don't. If you enjoy a kink like that, I urge you to look within! I understand it may feel upsetting to realize that what you are doing is bad, but instead of doubling down, do some self-reflection! If you enjoying inflicting pain on people, that is fucked up! Even if they say yes! If you enjoy having pain inflicted on you, you have something wrong with you. But you're not a bad person necessarily, you're a victim. I have compassion for you. But don't lie to yourself. What you are doing is not healthy or normal just because you consented to it. Suicide is consensual, is it not? At the end of the day, it's a free country. But please cut the cognitive dissonance bullshit out.