kara i wanna know allllll about your reg. tell me EVERYTHING <3
so obvs canonically pretty much the only thing we know about reg is his betrayal of voldemort and the cause etc etc so i like to centre that in most of my thoughts about him……
he joins the death eaters bc he’s a loser w a freakish voldemort obsession who has like three friends and bc he’s lonely and he hates sirius and he wants to spite him by joining the group to which he’s so opposed. he wants to prove sirius wrong and prove himself right and i believe wholeheartedly that, even if he was influenced somewhat by the way he was raised and by the circles he runs in, he joined the death eaters completely of his own volition!!! i’m passionate about this!!! i think it destroys the nuance of his character to say that he was forced to join or that he joined w the intention to betray them all along or whatever . to me, he was fucking gagging to be a death eater and he’s so smug when he’s allowed in. i picture him ranting to barty and evan about ‘the great honour that has been bestowed upon him’ whilst lovingly stroking his dark mark
anyway, then he gets scared. he’s just a boy!!! and he realises he’s in too deep when it’s far too late… to me he just can’t stand the violence of the death eaters. like he’s a blood purist and further than that thinks he personally is superior to pretty much everyone else, on account of his black blood, but he hates that he has to get his hands dirty in order to see his idealised vision of the world (sans mudbloods and blood-traitors) realised…. he’s soft and weak and squeamish and lonely and always so so miserable at all times as a rule. he also tries to hide how scared he is by being a massive bitch. classic.
then he realises that tom has a horcrux (and imo he would figure this out fairly easily after the kreacher thing, bc he’s smart but also bc tom read about them in a book in the HOGWARTS LIBRARY!! so it’s not much of a stretch to say that the same book and probs further, more detailed books would be in the library at grimmauld, likewise in most of the darker pureblood family libraries…. this is another thing i’m passionate about. horcruxes aren’t this big secret. nobody makes them bc nobody’s a fucking idiot like tom is. they’re also warned off properly by their rents. tom doesn’t have this…. ANYWAY) he realises tom has a horcrux and that the guy he’s idolised and basically sold his soul to is fucking bonkers (shameless self promo - i write a bit about this realisation in the regulus letter in my fic ‘where can i put it down?’…. makes me crazy) and he’s scared and alone and he wants out and he does the one brave thing of his life in dying…..
and he doesn’t think it’s a brave thing. he tells himself that sirius was a coward for running away and betraying them and specifically him. he tells himself he’s being brave, braver and better than sirius, when he’s like sticking it out, joining the death eaters, following the role prescribed to him, so when he decides he’s gonna go to the cave it’s like giving up, it’s being a coward, its admitting to himself that he’s never been better than sirius no matter how much he want or tries to be, it’s betraying the cause and everything he’s stood for but he HAS to do it. for sirius and for kreacher and for himself and for the chance that maybe he’s not past saving. he spends his whole life trying to be good but in the sense of behaving and then his death, his first (and last) real rebellion, is the only time that he actively attempts to be good in terms of a moral act even if it has nothing to do w a renouncement of blood purity. and i don’t think he fully realises that when he does it bc it’s all so tangled up in other things. and i’m not saying that he’s like morally reprehensible the rest of the time (he’s just a boyyyy) but the majority of his active choices have been kinda bad ones up to this point even if he’s been like . passively good . and also literally just a child. an angsty teen if you will
his life is marked by inaction and bad decisions and his final act is kinda the antithesis of this and it’s tragic bc he’s not ever going to survive it. and sirius is never gonna know. it makes me miserable. does any of this even make sense lmaooo basically he’s a loser and he misses his brother and he’s so lonely and he loves sirius so much even as he hates him and he’s quiet and he wants so desperately to be a good death eater bc this is everything he’s ever wanted but he just can’t in the end!!! he’s just a boy!!! a boy who would nurse birds with broken wings back to health and cry when they flew away, a boy who would hold his brother’s hand and hang on every word he says and exist almost entirely in sirius’ shadow until said shadow is suddenly gone and he’s left reeling, a boy who’s so so soft and gentle but who hides it all behind layers of barbs and cold remarks, a boy who is desperately desperately sad and scared and GOD I LOVE HIM……
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Ride 726: Sakamichi until the Central Sports Park
Pag 1
1: Two hours earlier, Sohoku High School racing team is on the mountain road towards the training camp
2: Are you alright, Onoda-san!?
Ugh....
Y- your condition... ahh, ahhhh
Captain!!
3: We were descending at a high speed, and then the moment we entered the mountain road his face turned... white
What do we do about this training camp
Is- is.... is he going to be alright?
4: Yeah, don't worry
It's Onoda-kun's specialty that we've gotten used to – car sickenss!!
I didn't think it would happen three years in a row
Pag 2
1: At the same place!!
2: I'm- alright, Naru.... ko... kun
Yeah you don't look alright at all
Your face is as white as paper
3: During these three years.... I've learned... and
I've come..... prepared....
4: Go ahead before me
5: There's no need to contact Toji-san either
6: From here....
Pag 3
1: To the Cycling Sports Park it's 18km....
I realized that on this mountain road
Pag 4
1: If I go with my bike, I'm sure I won't feel sick!!
Pag 5
1: I don't feel faint and I don't feel sick either
And I won't bother everyone
Ahhh... bikes really are the best...!!
2: But I'll be a little later for the start
I'll hurry as much as possible
(Time display)
4: But
5: The air is sweet, and I'm able to slowly enjoy the scenery
Ah, I can see the sea
6: I even started humming without noticing
Hm hm hm
Ahhh the “Love Hime”'s third season announcement PV only has the chorsu part of the song.... I want to listen to the opening!!
Even though I'm pedaling like this
Pag 6
1: There's many things to discover
2: 3km to go!!
3: This climb, and then the descent after it!!
4: Alright, I'm at the top
5: Hm hm hm
6: Hime hime
Pag 7
1: Hime.....
2: Waaaaaaaa, he's deaaad!!
3: Someone- someone's collapsed
Waaaaa my first dscorvery
Wh- wh- what should I do
4: My phone, my phone
Pag 8
1: I'm alive
A- i- u- e- o
Pag 9
1: See, I can even speak Japanese
2: I'm just resting
On the ground
3: You can go
Goodbye
4: O-okay
Sorry, you surprised me
5: What a strange person....
Well, then....
He was wearing a unifer, is he a student.....?
Pag 10
1: Hakone Academy is around here, maybe he's an Hakone Academy's student?
2: Uh-oh, I'm on my way to training camp! I have to hurry
I left the start to Naruko-kun, but....
4: Huh?!
This smell....
5: Just now the smell of plants was mixed a little with the smell of blood!!
Pag 11
1: He's injured!!
2: Maybe I'm wrong? Maybe I'm making a mistake?
Maybe he'll brush me off again!?
3: But
4: Let's turn back!!
Aaaaaaaa
Pag 12
2: Oh?
3: The four-eyes from before
Pag 13
1: I'm just resting, you can go
Yo-yo-you're injured!!
2: I have water and bandages!!
Oh
3: Are you kidding me
4: No way something so convenient
5: is... happe.... ning
Waa-
6: Are you alright!? Were you hit by car!?
Are you alright!?
7: Huh? No... on my own.....
On your own!?
Pag 14
1: Just for a moment, I looked away just a little
And then there was a hole and I fell
2: This is so hard, this is so hard
3: He's not listening
5: He's so bad at this....
6: But
Pag 15
1: You saved me
Thanks a lot
5: I'm glad!
7: By the way, that
Is the same as the one that a famous guy from Chiba rides
The bicycle
Pag 16
1: Huh
2: You know bicycles very well?
Yeah
3: I was riding one earlier
4: Earlier?
5: Now it's a little....
Waaa- It's fallen to the bottom of the valley...!!
6: I was riding, then I got caught in a hole
Kinda like that
Pag 17
1: Leave it to me, I'll bring it to you
2: I'll....
Ohhh, what a kind guy!!
3: I-!!
Waa--!!
5: …. well then, I'll go
Somehow now it feels reversed and I feel sorry
6: By the way....
Ahead of here
7: There's only the Cycling Sports Park
And from today for the next four days it's reserved so you can't use it
So where are you going, Four-eyes-san?
Pag 18
1: To the Cycling Sports Park
2: I'm Chiba's.... Sohoku High School's cap.... captain
Do you know of it?
My name is Onoda Sakamichi
We're having a training camp there from today
Pag 19
2: Who?
Huh- ah, no- haha it's it's just a name
He doesn't know me....!! This is so embarassing!!
3: You're kidding me.....
4: The super famous person of Chiba!!
5: This is baad... I was s surprised I bluffed and pretended not to know
Ah... uhm, and you?
6: Huh, me?
I'm- I'm!!
Pag 20
1: I'm Hakone Academy first year, the super rookie!!
I'm Tobirama!!
2: It hurts
This person's head looks like a scrubbing brush
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i told my mum about my date on sunday (bc it's now very much on sunday and im going to his HOUSE where he's cooking me DINNER if i see even a single candle im gonna make a break for it) and she's literally fucking ecstatic she thinks it's the funniest thing ever my favourite comments include:
every variation of 'please be nice'
'you're going to eat him alive'
'are you wearing that?' (i am in my pyjamas)
(upon finding out he's half american) 'that's not his fault. he cant help it'
'i cant wait to tell your sister so i can beat her with it'
'so you have a guy at home and a guy at uni now?' (STRAWBERRY GUY I AM CHEATING ON YOU LOOK AWAY 😭)
'i stayed the night at his-' 'I DO NOT NEED TO KNOW THAT'
'wear those boots with your skirt you always look so nice in that!' 'but i'll have to shave my legs :(' '*the most disappointed expression you've ever seen*'
'i hope he sees the more sensitive side of you that you dig out like. once a year'
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