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luvyunjinxo · 9 months
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I'll make you feel better || jang wonyoung g!p x fem!reader
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CW: mentions of cheating (do not cheat ever it's just for this fic 😡), g!p wonyoung, body worship, toxic relationship mentions, squirting & not proofread lmk if I missed one! (kinda longer than my usual fics btw)
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you felt awful. walls felt like they were caving in and your emotions were taking over, not to mention it felt like your life was over. you had just walked into your newly ex-boyfriend cheating.
for context, you just got off of work texting wonyoung saying how happy you were to finally see him after a long day. BUT. you and wonyoung had this thing. It was a type of tension between each other, something that you and him never had. You felt it, and she did too. yet, you denied your feelings for her always because you knew it was wrong.
continuing, you walked into your shared apartment with him and heard noises more like groaning coming from your room? You honestly thought it was just him jacking off or something which you were honestly excited for but instead you saw something else.
your heart sunk, broke, and suddenly you're on the floor. crying and screaming out curses "why would you do this to me!?"
"baby please, it's not what it looks like." he lied. what a fucking liar. he was literally just fucking a girl on the bed two seconds ago like crazy.
"I just felt lonely without you here, I love you so so much." he screamed back while trying to kiss your hands. cringey and pathetic. you told him that he was kicked out and never to come back to your place again, since you were technically the one who bought it for both of you.
he packed his stuff and left for good. blocking his number, throwing out his toothbrush and everything else he forgot. you were a mess and you could tell, so was he. but who the fuck cares he cheated?
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the next day now, still not doing well. you were forced to go to college by your strict parents so you had nothing to do but comply, and just go. You didn't tell wonyoung about what happened yet but you were planning to. you showed up to the class you had to go to which apparently wonyoung was in too.
now was finally the chance to tell her. she sat next to you like always, exchanging secrets always. but this time it was different. She looked at your eyes while she sat down and saw your red eyes and eye bags.
she was so worried about you. she really did love you. she didn't tell you, yet but she has a big crush on you but you just couldn't realize it fully. she scooted closer to you and tucked your hair behind your ear. with that she also lifted up your chin with her finger just so you could look at her. "butterflies😻" was all you could think of in your head.
"whats wrong y/nnie? what happened to you?"
"I d-didn't tell you yet but, he cheated as soon as I got home yesterday andicouldntcallyoubecauseiwasacryingmessand-"
you were talking to fast and you got cut off with her finger going on your lips. tears were threatening to fall out any moment now just by talking ab this topic.
too late. you were already crying so hard that you ran to the bathroom without notice and had wonyoung running after you like a crazy person.
guys this was like a k-drama really. running through the wide halls of the college and finally finding a bathroom at least 2 minutes away, you have slowed down. wonyoung caught up to you eventually as your pace slowed.
now walking there together to clean you up, you both made it and got 10 tissues. It was a cute moment:( . wonyoung looking at you straight in the eyes while wiping your tears with the tissue.
you were against the wall right next to the sink still crying and sniffing. There was that tension again. both of you now looking each other deeply. you got lost in her beautiful eyes.
you swear she was about to go in for it. getting more bold and eager she stopped wiping your tears and went to focusing on your soft lips that stood out to her the most. this was so bad. just getting out of a relationship and already falling for someone new.
all you needed right now was wonyoung. and wonyoung needed you. she now has trapped you with both of her arms, one on the left and one on the right so you could not escape from her.
"y/n, I know you feel this between us and I'm letting you know I'm about to do something to make you feel good."
you nodded eagerly as she smashed her lips onto yours. making out deeply. and shit, she was so pretty. moans slipped out of your lips as your tongues fight for dominance and wonnie being a switch, she still won.
realizing you were making out in the bathroom made it hotter for you. the feeling of getting caught frightened you, but who cares at this point.
you pulled away with a string of saliva leaving both of your lips. "you know were gonna get in trouble by the professor right?"
"yeah I know. but its worth it." she smirked, took your hand and lead you to her car.
you didn't know where she was driving to but I guess it was your apartment. one hand on the wheel while the other is gripping your thigh. THAT WAS SO HOT TO YOU.
it was supposed to be an innocent make-out session but now your starting to feel things. your getting more drenched and wet you just couldn't help but think about all the stuff she could do to you right now. and if she did you would gladly let her. god, you were such a loser for her.
on the way to your apartment unlocking your door with your keys, you bent down to take your shoes off and place them on your rack. she couldn't help but seem to notice and slap your ass<3. sorry just had to say it because she actually did. your dumbass let out a moan because of how needy you were. any touch from wonyoung would sink into your horniness.
"was that a moan l/n y/n?" she smacks your ass again, you covering your mouth trying not to make any noise this time.
"no let it out?.. I wanna hear you." one last slap and being the loser you are for her, the loudest moan possible slipped out.
no questions asked, you were now being pushed onto the bed while she crawled over your body, topping you.
wonyoung stripping you completely but also pinning your hands above your head.
"you look so pretty like this y/n, you were always mine in the first place not his." she says while brushing your torso with her slender hand admiring your body.
she was touching you so well. the places where you were sensitive at most. She started to kiss your neck sloppily, leaving marks all around you so everyone knows your hers now. all you could do is lay back and love what she is doing to you.
"wait y/n .. can y-you uhm ride my face? .." awh how cute. she was being shy for once. no questions asked again, you complied and sat on her face slowly, not wanting to suffocate her.
"fuck! wonyoung thats s-so fast!" you screamed out as her tongue kept flicking up and down in a consistent pace which left you a mess. you were moaning so much the neighbors could hear you at that point.
"yeah, can he fuck you like this? hm?"she groaned in a husky voice, also a little mumbly because of your thighs making her suffocated.
"I-I .. no .." funny how you can't breathe because of her fucking your brains out so good.
still eating you out, she has pulled down her baggy jeans to pull out her cock. shitttt, you had to admit you wanted some of that. she got off to the thought of you coming all over her face and the thought of you moaning her names and dirty stuff you could never imagine.
You looked behind only to see her getting off to your moaning and so much precum was dripping out from her.
"ive b-been waiting so long f-for this, please I'll be good for y-you and only you." you sobbed.
"I'm really gonna c-come!" screaming out loud so everyone could hear you at this point.
"sh-shit your body is stunning. i-im coming too!" you were confused and didnt know where that compliment came from but all you know is that you were squirting all over Jang Wonyoung's face ..
you immediately collapsed onto her titties which led to you sucking them while she started to ride out of her orgasm.
"looks like you need help cleaning up a little?" wonyoung chuckled and nod making you give her head.
your tiny mouth was swirling over the tip eating all her cum. so sweet yet so bitter, just how you liked it. she didn't like the way you were teasing her so she pushed your head down a little farther making you gag. all good though because you made her cum again<3.
while you guys were all cleaned up again and under the sheets together naked, you cuddled and confessed to each other in the endd. it all worked out.
- I'll make you feel better.
I'm sorry if this was rushed because it def was 💔
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nozunhinged · 5 months
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7 BL Newbie Moments of 2023 That Altered My Brain Chemistry
So I went through all my posts since the beginning of this journey and as much as I love dumping my insanity here without context or any punctuation, I feel that a lot of my fav moments deserve a bit more love and structure.
But first I need to put a bit of context so you won't be like "who the hell do they think they are" (aside from delusional I'm nothing, I promise) and my anxious overexplainer-heart is silenced.
My first BL TV show was Only Friends and only 5 months later I'm already throat deep into it (sorry). My watchlist is so endless that I sometimes (no, regularly) genuinely fear for my sanity. I'm still learning all the names and production houses but does that stop me from starting 10 other shows? NOPE.
I'm not new to queer fan spaces (avid manga reader since the yaoi days, my first ship was taito from digimon) but I am most definitely new to the brainrot levels these shows gave me.
And believe it or not, even though my shipper heart is over a decade old, I'm new to Tumblr and the fuel this platform added to the fire could burn down entire continents.
ANYWAYS if you're still here — please enjoy Noz's 100% self-indulgent moments!
1. The End And The Beginning - Only Friends
All I did was mindlessly scroll through the tumblr trends, no idea about how this website works, still sour and sad about the loss of my twitter bubble thanks to the elopocalypse—little did I know that fate would lead me to the wonderful world of BL shows! It was like this moment in isekai-esque movies where you get sucked into a world and you go WOOAAH once you arrive.
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There was this show—on YouTube—100% unapolagetic about sex, relationships and queerness. Five minutes into the first episode, someone asks if they can bring their boyfriend to a hookup. This was ALL of my wildest dreams come true! Oh boy, was I naive.
I feel like Only Friends had me speedrun the whole BL industry. Branded pairs, production houses, fanservice, obsessive fans & haters, audience reactions influencing the storyline, EVERYTHING happened during Only Friends and I was just like "what the hell is going on here?" It was like the perfect case study for literally everything. Honestly I still don't really understand what's going on.
Unfortunately, this also led to the awful ending I erased from my brain and don't want to get into, I'm just gonna say Boston I will never forgive the writers for what they did to you. I dropped that show like a hot potato, filtered all possible tags and moved on — or so I thought.
I feel like I'm trying to recreate that first excitement when I discovered OF. But 20 shows later, I'm still not there. Does this make me sound like an addict? Yes, and this is why Only Friends EP 1 is my No. 1 moment that altered my brain chemistry.
2. The Boeing Incident - Only Friends
I talked about it just yesterday and I need to do it again because Boeing was the beginning of a thing that thought I'd never be capable of: lusting after real person TV characters. I talked about it in length here and here so the only thing I'm gonna add just for good measure is that I'd do anything, anything for a BostonBeoingNOZ threesome. Holy shit I'm cringing just writing this down but I need to get my point across.
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3. Still Looking For That Kiss - Love in The Air
I know this is a general experience at this point but the chemistry between the couples in Love In The Air opened a whole knew world for me. I thought I knew chemistry but when I saw them, I realized I knew NOTHING.
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It may sound weird but I'm still looking for that perfect kiss that's hitting all the right neurons in my brain. I have a hunch that one of these two pairs will deliver them one day, but until then I NEED to watch a million kisses for research.
This post by @talistheintrovert explains perfectly what I think about kissing in shows. Ji Chang Wook is still the blueprint for me.
But do I have a favorite BL kiss so far? Yes, yes I do. It's this ShinPeach beauty.
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4. Main Lead Syndrome - Kiseki: Dear To Me
I am a second lead, side couple enby before I am human but I will defend these two until the end of time. My TL is flooded with Chen Yi, Ai Di, Nat and Louis while these two are over here falling in love over strawberry cake, cat analogies, failed cooking and all sorts of memory loss. Zongyi opened a fucking bakery for his babygirl and Zerui pretended to be a pretty dumdum to protect the love of his life.
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I don't care how much you all love the two dumb (affectionately) gangsters, these two deserve the world, end of story. Also Kai Hsu and Taro Lin are bff's irl now, Taro said that Kai helped him get out of a very bad mental tate and I take that very personally.
5. The Fanservice is Fanservicing - Kiseki: Dear To Me
Speaking of Taro and Kai, the fact that I even know that they're bff's is another brainaltering moment that needs recognition because months later it led me to this TikTok of two actors I don't know of a show I don't watch, staring at them for ages and really considering watching it just because of it.
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That is the power of fanservice my friends and I can put on my clownmask now because I avidly screamed left and right that fanservice should be forbidden when I learned about it. I blame Kiseki for that. But my point still stands, I hate actors doing stuff they're uncomfortable with. I just hope they're all friends and have fun and get that coin.
6. The One Just For Me - Playboyy
I've been lurking around Playboyy from the moment I found out they have the same writer as OF. And boy did it deliver so far! I already wrote a bunch here about which role Playboyy plays for me, but it's also a wonderful case study for my producer heart — watching the acting, directing, lighting, sets, props and storyline interact is fascinating.
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People say the less you notice the better the show, which is correct, but I love all the flaws of this piece of media. IMHO it's the last puzzlepiece of the amazing, important social commentary the show delivers. All of the topics the couples represent need to get their very own show.
7. The Holy Grail - The Sign
Speaking of the less you notice — this is the sign for The Sign (again, sorry). There's a reason this show is loved and praised so widely because the production is on a whole other level. Adding the beautiful story on top of that, we have the potential for a holy grail here and I'm so in for the ride.
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I keep saying I've entered the world of BL in it's absolute golden era. Never in a million years did I think I'd watch 5 shows simultaneosly but I love every single one of them so much I keep a whole spreadsheet on how I can be on time for every premiere every week alongside my work schedule.
Honorable mentions
KinnPorsche: VegasPete were my first dark, angsty, morally questionable couple ever (I'm a sissy okay)
Last Twilight: When I watched Extraordinary Attorney Woo, I cried several times about the wonderful media representation of disability. It means so much to me and Last Twilight is on par with that.
Bake Me Please: Thank you for giving me this beautiful kiss
Manner of Death: Thank you MaxTul for making gay makeouts fashionable
Bad Buddy: The one time I was glad I persisted so I could watch them most adorable phone scene on the planet
I Feel You Linger In The Air: It was too painful for me to finish but I loved the show with my whole heart and it deserves all the awards it got.
Kimi ni Todokanai: Japanese shows just hit different. I'll never get over the kissing Taiyaki.
The Novelist Series: THIS is how you kiss the one you're horny for my friends. Take notes directors.
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Semantic Error: My fav webtoon -> Got Viki for the Series -> Found the BL corner of Viki -> Drew my attention to Tumblr -> This post.
Thank you for being the butterfly of my butterfly effect.
And thank YOU if you read until here! To a even more wonderful queer year 2024! I'm so ready for this ride.
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tell us everything about your day yesterday
oh, ok!
i woke up at 5:30am and went out for a run. it was pretty short, 3 miles, i was back in a half hour. i got really sick a few weeks ago and my lung capacity is still not 100%, i ran five miles a few days ago and i threw up on the sidewalk.
anyway, when i got back home i paced around in the backyard for ten minutes to cool down, and then i slipped back into the house to my bedroom and woke up jake by sucking his cock. we fucked (me on top, no real foreplay, the cocksucking only lasted a few seconds and we went straight to fucking) and we came at the same time, and then i laid in bed leaking while jake got up and showered as the kids woke up. at this point it was like 6:40. i got up and made oatmeal for my kids (with blueberries!) in a robe and jake was all dressed and ready before 7, so i left him to get the kids dressed and stuff and i answered a bunch of emails. i do this now in the mornings so i can get to the office after everyone but i already have them working on stuff. LOL.
the kids were playing for a bit before school, and margot woke up, so jake made breakfast for me and margot and himself, so i ended up out there with them having coffee and chatting until 8:10, and I was still in just a robe, so Jake walked the kids to school, which is usually my job.
i got dressed (no shower, LOL. white panties, no bra, jeans and a t-shirt - very professional) and margot was making a shopping list so i tried to remember everything i needed (i forgot most of it, i always do, so i have to go to target today). and then jake got home so i kissed him goodbye and left for work. i got to the office at 9:20. i had meetings with various little teams from 10-12 and by the end of the second meeting I was very bitchy and everyone was like, "OK stop giving angel new information" which i thought was a very insightful analysis of me as a coworker.
i had coffee and two cigarettes with jane, a fairly recent hire who is like a 40s goth punk chick who reminds me a lot of ivy if ivy had never gone corporate and had a dozen babies. i love jane, she's 15 years sober from heroin and she rocks. she also compliments my waist a lot, she (like many of you lol) can't believe i pushed two kids out of my pussy.
then i walked to my friend casey's work to meet her for lunch. i don't know if i ever talked about casey. i think so? she is like 27 years old and she has a baby and a much older husband and a stepdaughter who is 19. when i was in my lexi-obsessed phase she was adjusting to returning to work with a baby in her life so we didn't hang out much but now we see each other all the time.
we had lunch at a bagel place and i was back at work by 1:45, just in time for more meetings, but these were with clients and i was nicer. the t-shirt with no bra was a very good strategic decision, one of the bigger guys at the company stared at my tits the whole time, and agreed with everything i said. i wore my hair down too and played with it a lot, you know, alternating between ditzy hair twisting and sort of gathering it and arranging it behind my back like i was about to put it into a blowjob ponytail.
N.B. the ponytail blowjob is such a stereotype/meme but i never do that. i let my hair fall all over the place when i am sucking dick. men love my hair.
i had an hour in my office during which i accomplished literally nothing. i looked at my phone and deleted some emails. that's it. then i had a meeting with my boss, and we talked exclusively about sex with our respective partners. his wife is cumming really easily lately, which on the one hand he likes and on the other hand doesn't like because she's wrapping up sex really early. he said about half the time he doesn't get beyond eating her pussy; she cums and then sucks his cock and won't stop until she's swallowed every drop. but even when they get to fucking, he said she cums in like 40 seconds and hops off to suck his cock. i told him to start slapping her clit with his cock to stop her orgasms. he said she'd get so mad at him if he did that and i said, "i would beg for more." anyway, he told me i am doing a great job with the team lately so i flashed my tits at him.
alice called me at 4 and just clearly wanted to talk at me, but i let her, it's kind of like a podcast, and so she was in my ear for the end of my work day and my ride home.
when i got home, margot and the kids were in the park, so jake fucked me in the kitchen, quick and hard, panties and jeans down, bent over the kitchen island, his hand on my clit. he came inside me again and i pulled my jeans and panties up right over the mess and walked around like that all afternoon, making dinner and catching up with everyone. dinner, did a puzzle with my daughter, bathtime for the kids, storytime, bedtime, and i just took my jeans off and relaxed on the couch with jake and margot and we watched a movie. i fell asleep on jake's shoulder after the movie was over, and he moved me over on the couch, took margot to her room, fucked her and came on her tits, took a picture of it and sent it to me, which woke me up, LOL, but i was too tired to move so i let jake come in, naked, and carry me to bed. at some point in the night i took my panties off because they were full of dried cum, and this morning i woke up next to jake, he was naked and i was in just a t-shirt, so i pushed my ass against him until he woke up and fucked me from behind nice and slow. i came twice.
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lostfirefly · 1 month
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Life Must Have It's Mysteries (Ch.12, The Epilogue)
I promise this is the last chapter of this story, but not the last story about Buggy and Catherine :) I can finally close all the tabs and audiobooks about Egyptian gods! Hah!
English is not my native language, errors may occur. As always, feel free to share your thoughts :) Masterlist is here.
Description: Our heroes came back home!
Warnings: Fun, fluff, inappropriate jokes, swearing (as always). Shitty shit again:).
Words: 2853
Taglist: @gingernut1314 (thank you for your idea!), @operationroots, @hey-august, @rorywritesjunk, @yujo-nishimura (I hope you still like it!)
The title is taken from “Life Must Have It's Mysteries” by Hans Zimmer (OST Inferno).
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Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, Chapter 11
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Buggy walked out of the bedroom into the living room, swaying and holding his head. No one was in the room, but he heard sounds coming from the kitchen. Shuffling his feet, he went to the sound and carefully opened the door. He leaned against the doorway, crossed his arms and watched Catherine rummage through the kitchen cabinets, humming, and danced slightly, glancing occasionally at the frying pan. He can't stop smiling while listening to one of the variations of his favorite song. 
“Milk, some eggs, a little flour,
Making breakfast for my clown.
Pancake one, pancake two, I'm cooking them for you.
Pancake three, pancake four, with every day I love you more.” 
“Fuck! Gotta admit, koalas look pretty damn good on your legs, cotton candy!” He plopped down on a chair. “Morning!” 
“Shit! You freaked me out!” Catherine carefully flipped a pancake with a spatula and smiled broadly. “Morning, my blue-haired love!” She immediately poured him a glass of water and pulled out a painkiller. “Here you go, after your binge in the bar last night, you need it more than me. How’s your head?” 
“If you lower your voice a tone and a half, it will be better.” He rested his head on the table. “You stole my t-shirt again.” 
“I like wearing your t-shirts, deal with it, clown.” Catherine ran up to Buggy, put the glass on the table and kissed him on the head. “Here, this is some extra medicine for you.” 
“No, no, no! Wait, wait, wait! Did not work. I need more help.” Buggy raised his head and extended his hand to her back.
“Liar!” Smack. “Stop grabbing my ass, jerk!” She slapped his hands. “Drink you water.” 
“Fine!” He exhaled sadly and took a sip. “Fuck! That’s what I need. You're my best!”
“You told me this yesterday when I dragged you home.” Catherine kissed his temple and went to pour him coffee. “You almost tore the bar apart last night. I'm surprised we weren't thrown out when you and Cabaji were completely drunk.”
“Oh, I’ll find out if he left with that pretty waitress yesterday.” He took another sip of water.
“He almost went home with you, Buggy! I understand he's your friend and I like Cabaji,  but sorry I don't want and don’t like experiments.” Catherine put the mug on the table and stroked his loose hair, trying not to laugh at his blank look. “Don’t you remember? Oh, I’ll tell you a funny story. I walked away literally for a minute, and when I was returning to you, I saw how drunk Cabaji grab you by the neck and was about to kiss you in your mouth. Don’t look at me like that. I don’t joke about such things. You were so, so close, my love!” She was actively gesticulating and started laughing, looking at his shocked face. “So! I rushed to stop this madness, at this moment the waitress approached you with your drinks, and I had to push Cabaji to her. And while he started passionately kissing the waitress, you climbed over the bar counter to get me the biggest bottle of wine. And when you climbed back up, you fell, almost broke the bottle, and then yelled all over the bar that I was the love of your life.” 
“And what about Cabaji?” Buggy looked at Catherine, stroking her back. 
“And your beloved friend continued to kiss the waitress. It seems to me that he didn’t understand what happened at all. I love you, but I'm sorry, I wouldn't want to kiss you after him.” 
“But it was fun, right?!” He took a sip of coffee with a proud look. “I'm surprised, by the way, that you got out of bed and walked on your own feet to the kitchen. If you know what I mean. That night was amazing. Fuck! I still hear your voice moaning my name loudly, feel the warmth of your hands and your hot kisses. Your legs don't hurt?” Buggy chuckled and sipped his coffee. “Shit, my head.” 
“First, you're disgusting, you know that?” Catherine came up behind him, stood on tiptoes and kissed him on the top of his head. “Can you think about anything else sometimes? Not just about sex, my ass or naked body? Second, It was hard to get out of your arms, my Buggy the Octopus, but I did it. You snored like a chainsaw, and you practically pressed me into the bed with your body. I had to push you away with my feet. But I thought you might be hun~. W-w-why are you staring at me?” 
“Right now, I'm thinking about your cool ass and envying koalas.” He sent his hand to the refrigerator for a beer.
“Oh, god!” Catherine rolled his eyes and pulled out a plate. “No beer, Buggy! Put it back in its place. You drank enough yesterday. You’ll drink later.” She glared at him, Buggy sighed heavily, set the bottle back down and reattached his hand. “Good boy! Hungry?”
“I'm always hungry, and I don't just mean food.” Buggy giggled idiotically. 
“Fuck you honestly!” Catherine came closer, lightly hit him on the head and smacked the top of his head. “How many pancakes do you want me to put on it?” 
“The more, the better, cotton candy.” He sent his hand to pour coffee for her. 
“God, you're just some bottomless black hole, Buggy the Clown!” Catherine put ten blue pancakes on his plate, poured maple syrup and sat down next to him. “See? Today's pancakes are the color of your beautiful hair.” 
Catherine ran her hand through his loose hair. Buggy’s hand brought her a cup of coffee and a plate. She watched him happily munch on the pancakes, sipping noisily on his coffee, and started stroking his hair. “Tasty?”
“Since the first time you cooked them for me, it tastes better and better every time!” He said with his mouth full and smacked her on her lips.
“Buggy! What are you doing? Your mouth is covered in butter and syrup.” She shrieked, grabbed a towel and wiped his lips. “Chew, wipe, and only then you can kiss me. I taught you this. Geez!” 
Catherine wiped her face, took one pancake from his plate and squinted her eyes. “So, when you go to that man's place, can I come with you?”
“I don't know, cotton candy.” Buggy stuck his fork into the pancakes. “Depends on how you act.”
Catherine sipped her coffee and sat on his lap, facing him and wrapping her legs around him. He threw down the fork and immediately hugged her around the waist.
“So am I being good enough, Buggy-sama?” She whispered in his ear.
“Fuck, I told you a million times, don't call me that!” Buggy clucked his tongue and pressed his torso against her stomach. “Have to admit I already like this morning, cotton candy!” 
“Yeah?” Catherine tilted her head and brushed her lips over his. 
“Oh, yeah!” Buggy slowly began to lower his hand to her leg. “I wish I could take your shirt off right now. You know, we need to introduce naked breakfasts. I don't know about you, but I love seeing you na~.”
“Shush, clown!!” Catherine covered his mouth with her palm. 
He removed her hand. “But why? Just don't talk to me about manners. We are sitting at home.” Buggy grinned and put his hand on her thigh. “And it doesn’t even bother me that your koalas are looking at me.” He whispered near her lips.
Catherine moaned slightly and reached her hand towards the table. “My little bear…”
“I’m listening, my Cathie-pie.” Buggy looked into her eyes and was about to kiss her. 
Catherine suddenly grabbed the pancake and shoved it into his mouth. “Eat your breakfast, asshole!” 
“Little shit!” He swallowed the food and looked at her with his round eyes, not knowing whether to kill her or not. “I thought we’re…”
“You're so easy to fool.” Catherine started laughing and looked into his upset eyes. “Are you kidding me? Wasn't the night enough for you? Oh, my sexy clown, you fucked me so, so hard that my legs hurt, I can't walk or talk. I have the best sex of my life with you, and I want more right now! Is that what you want to hear? Give me a break, for god’s sake!”  
“In my defense, I love hearing you moan my name loudly. Do you know how hard it is to stop at that moment?” Buggy looked at her proudly and winked. “And thanks for the compliment about the best sex. I knew you would like it since the moment we first met.”
“Blue-haired pervert!” Catherine squinted her eyes. “You couldn't know that. You pissed me off and wanted to leave me in the desert!!”
“But I didn't leave you!! How many times do I have to be reminded of that?”
“Shush, clown! I’m not talking to you!” Catherine wrapped her arms around his neck, pressed her cheek to his cheek and began to lightly shake him from side to side. “I.. love.. you!!” She squealed quietly and kissed him on the cheek. 
“You'll stun me, cotton candy! Why do I let you do this to me?” Buggy reached out and took the pancake.
Catherine heard him slurp and looked at him. “Are you fucking kidding me? You should be ashamed. I confess my love to you, and you’re just eating the food.”
He shrugged. “What? We’re not going to the bedroom, we’re not going to the sofa. I’m hungry.” He took another pancake and began to chew it without a trace of shame on his face. 
Catherine threw up her hands questioningly and rolled her eyes. “I hate you!”
“Oh, wait!” Buggy separated his hand and sent it towards the box near the microwave. The hand took out the chalk and flew to the fridge, on which hung a magnetic board with the inscription “Pie’s I hate you.” The hand drew the line and put the chalk back to the box.
“Seriously? Idiot. Have you switched from numbers to lines?” Catherine shook her head.
“Yes. You know, like in prisons. Draw along the line and then cross out the month.” Buggy took her hand and kissed it.
“You know better, a man who was in prison.” Catherine kissed him on his nose and went into the shower. 
After finishing breakfast, Buggy tried to sneak into the bathroom to see her naked, but was chased away by a washcloth. After the shower, Catherine followed him around the room, asking to take her with him. Buggy growled but agreed. She quickly dressed, and he led her somewhere along the streets of Cairo. Catherine didn’t stop talking the whole way, endlessly asking where they were going, who they were going to and how soon they would arrive. 
“Is there something I need to know?” She asked when they reached the brown door of the house in the center. 
“All you have to do is remain silent.” Buggy looked around and opened the door. 
They entered a large room filled with purple and red furniture decorated with monograms with drawings in the shape of the sun. It was a little dark and smoky inside. Catherine looked around and saw chairs with backs in the shape of lightning bolts, and glasses filled with booze in the shape of tusks on the table. Waitresses dressed in kimonos walked past her. 
“Buggy the Clown!” A low man’s voice was heard from the corner. “And his.. And who is this with you?”
“It's Cat~” 
“Oh, my god!” Catherine could not contain her surprise. She widened her eyes and pointed her finger at the approaching body. “He looks like a big blue onigiri!!” 
“Fuck, Catherine!” Buggy hissed though his teeth. 
“Oh, fuck off. I've never seen anything like this.” She extended her hand to the big fish. “Hello! I'm Catherine! His gir~” 
“God, this isn’t a joke? Buggy the Clown got himself into a relationship?” The fish said in surprise, straightening his kimono.
Catherine looked at Buggy. “Listen, why are they all surprised by this?”
“My guys said they saw you with some girl, but I thought you were just hiring a girl for one night. You know. A one-night stand whore. But as I can see she's not a... you know...not a clown’s whore.” 
“Hey, Jinbe!” Buggy barked. “Don't dare call her a whore!” He felt how Catherine squeezed his hand.
“I'm sorry, ma'am, I didn't mean to insult you. I was just surprised that he.. you know.. and you.. you know.” He came closer. “I'm a man of honor. Nice to meet you, young lady!” Jinbe extended his hand, took her hand and kissed it. 
“Oh, my God! How does he walk?!” Catherine pointed her finger at him and repeated his movement. 
“Jinbe, excuse us for a second!” Buggy took Catherine's hand and pulled her outside. “Wait here!”
“But why?” She asked with sadness in her voice. 
“Seriously?” Buggy rolled his eyes and groaned. “You just called him onigiri! Wait here!” 
“Stop! Won't he hurt you?” Catherine ran her hand over his shoulder. 
“Nooo, it's okay. I'll be back.” Buggy took her hand and was about to kisse it, but stopped. “Cathie-pie, wipe your hands, the fish kissed you after all.” 
Catherine watched as he closed the door behind him and sat down on the wide windowsill, crossing her legs in front of her. Buggy came out about an hour later. He looked at her and laughed. 
“What?” She asked, licking the spoon. “Come here! Try it! Coconut.” 
“Nothing.” He came closer to her. “I'm just glad that while I'm possibly between life and death, you're sitting here peacefully and enjoying some ice cream.”
“You drove me away yourself, and I was bored.” Catherine took the ice cream with a spoon and put it in his mouth. “So what? Did you manage to sell it?” 
Buggy began to nod, breaking into a smile. 
“Fuck you!” She jumped up onto the windowsill with her feet. “How much?” 
Buggy whispered in her ear. 
“Wha-a-a-t??” Catherine dropped the ice cream from her hands. “It's impossible! Are you kidding me? That's a lot of money! A lot more than I thought! Pinch me if you're kidding!” 
“No! 350 million, cotton candy!” He smirked. “I told him what it is and who it belongs to. In general, all these smart Egyptian things of yours. You should have seen his face at that moment. He said I'm lucky to have found you.” Realizing what was about to follow, Buggy spread his arms. 
Catherine stood silently and blinked at him. She clenched her hands into fists and began to squeal, stomping in place. She jumped from the windowsill onto Buggy, hugging him with her legs and arms. “Love.” Smack. “Love!” Smack. “Love, love, love you!!” Smack. Smack. Smack.
“Yes, yes. I love you too!” Buggy stroked her cheek. “Well, what does my Cathie-pie want now?” 
“Your Cathie-pie wants more ice cream!” Catherine kicked her legs. “Can you buy me another one? Blueberry flavor! No! Cucumber flavor! No! Lavender flavor!” Smack. Smack. 
“I can buy you all the ice cream in the world! You're my lucky star now!” 
“And wine! I also want to go to that cafe on the embankment. Can we go? Right now!” Catherine stroked his hair. 
“Let's go wherever you want, cotton candy! I’m yours a-a-a-ll day.” Buggy squinted his eyes. 
“Also, let's go to your favorite bar! My Buggy Bear needs to be rewarded too.” Catherine pecked him on his lips. “You'll drink, and I'll let you stare at pretty girls. And even let you flirt with the bartender.”
“Can I touch their asses? I used to do that.” He kissed her cheek. 
“Isn't it enough that you're doing it now? How do you even do it?” Catherine kissed him on the lips. Her kiss was deep and long, she tried with all her might to control herself. Breaking the kiss, she jumped off him to the ground and wiped her mouth with her palm. She took his hand and dragged him towards the embankment. 
Catherine constantly talked like crazy, actively gesticulating and telling Buggy that she loved him very much. Buggy looked at her, constantly smiling, still not understanding why she was with him.
Catherine once again understood that fate had once given her the biggest gift in her life. Buggy was secretly glad that she was braver than him one day, and stayed with him. 
Catherine knew that she loved him more than life itself. Buggy knew he loved her more than life. 
Catherine knew that for his sake, she would kill anyone. Buggy knew that although he was a coward, but he would kill anyone for her sake.
Catherine knew that she will always be by his side. Buggy will always be grateful for this.
Catherine knew that he loved her, although these words were not always easy for him. But she didn’t know that Buggy kept a piece of the diamond for himself. And only he knew for what purpose.
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allisonlol · 2 years
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Hi how are you? First I wanna tell you that your writing is amazing and I really enjoy reading you work. Keep up with it💕
So... can request headcanons (or drabble, whatever you prefer) where the reader asks Nikolai gogol (they're dating) to cut her hair? I think his reaction would be funny cause he seems to care deeply about his hair...
Tysm and also, no pressure!💕💕
a/n: i'm doin pretty good, thank you sm :D this is such a cute req i added some others as well if that's alr <3 it's fitting since yesterday i literally chopped off all my hair lmao, i feel like nanno now hehe
warnings: implied fem reader, no specific hair type or length mentioned
(Nikolai, Dazai, Chuuya) When Their S/O Asks Them to Cut Her Hair
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Nikolai
i can't decide if this is a good decision or a disastrous one
granted he does have pretty hair and seems to take good care of it himself but...
i just think that nikolai + a pair of scissors + your hair = a possible disaster
but you were willing to give it a try, apparently
when you told nikolai that you wanted him to cut your hair, his face lit up immediately
throws you into a chair and pulls all the stuff he needs out of his overcoat??
you're starting to have second thoughts that this MIGHT not be the best idea when he literally grabs a chunk of your hair and just...cuts it off
too late to stop now huh 0-0
mf also doesn't let you look in a mirror until the very end?? so ur anxiety was skyrocketing while he does who knows what to your hair
teases you at the end and won't flip the mirror around for you to see so you YANK it out of his hands
but?? you're shocked to see it actually looks?? really good??
bro even styled it for you like damn! nikolai why are you busy being a terrorist when you could be a hairstylist instead!
& depending on the length you wanted it he may have given you a little matching braid like his <3
Dazai
um so we all know how i feel about him
and i'm sorry but there's no way this is turning out the way you wanted it. like why would you even let this man bring scissors near your hair
you'd wanted to change your hair pretty drastically and figured hell, why not ask your bf so you can save money instead of going to a stylist
and sure it's a great idea on the surface, but this is dazai we're talking about
ofc he's all excited about it. won't shut up about how he's going to make you look "better than ever before" ??
dazai's like "i do my own hair so, as you can see, you can trust me" mf all i see is ur goofy ass uneven haircut but ok
another one who won't let you look into the mirror until he's finished
does it in like 10 minutes too?? and that's when you KNOW something's gonna be very wrong
spins your chair around to face the mirror and you're fr flabbergasted. like >:0
pls you jump up from the chair and are ready to start throwing punches ngl!!
let's just say you lost more money afterwards trying to get it fixed than if you'd went to the hairdresser in the first place
Chuuya
aah. my beloved <3
so. you either hate or you love chuuya's hairstyle and i'm one of the mfs that loves it (it is very gorgeous to me??)
n i already know y'all are gonna be like "how ru gonna say dazai's hair is bad but like chuuya's" it's an acquired taste alright
some may call it BAD taste but i think this man knows what he's doing when it comes to hairstyling. not as good as nikolai, but you can trust him whenever you wanna change things up
i feel like he's definitely nervous about it tho :') like he's just so worried he'll mess it up & you'll be mad lmao
hit him with the "so you can't do it? alr i'll ask someone else" and BAM he's shoving you down in a chair & asking what you want done with ur hair
works every time
is overly cautious. sits you right in front of a mirror and fr asks "is this ok" before cutting each section?? ur just like "yes sweetie, for the third time that's fine" :')
chuuya just wants you to be happy okay
the end result is no surprise since he basically walked you thru the whole thing but, i'll have you know it looked great <3
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iluvmissmaximoff · 11 months
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Sneaking out.
Hobie x you
Context: you and Hobie are dating and your a Spider-Man/Women but still a bit new to the whole thing so your clumsy and a bit reckless and Hobie basically forbids you to go on fights w/o him. But your Spider-Women he can’t ground you… right?
So you’re getting your ass kicked by some villain. Of the week. Ohhh my God! Hobie literally took this guy out in 10 minutes yesterday. Why is this so difficult? You thought. Ok can we wrap this up dude? You asked while perched on a lamppost. Its like 3am you said looking down at your watch, than you realized.. 3AM!?! Oh fuck! Hobies gonna be home in like 30 minutes. Luckily you were able to web the guy to a billboard. And head home. You crawled through the window thinking you had just enough time… and boom, a light flicked on. (Shit) you froze. Well if it isn’t the friendly neighborhood “spider-women” he said sarcastically. Heyyy babe glad to see your back. Just went out for a late night swing, missed you. You said trying to play it off. Don’t even try ‘at dumb shit on me luv. Cuz it ain’t gonna work. Ok but this dude he was terrifying these poor people and- nuh uh, he said cutting you off. I don’t care what was goin on. We. Had. A. Deal. He said disappointingly. You don’t go off doing your little stunts unsupervised and you get full privilege of your suit. Which! You’re losin by the way. Bu- you interrupt, but he stops you. And you broke said deal. So there are gonna be som serious consequences. You just stood there nervously but also very curious as to what your boyfriend was going to do to you. Now come with me. He leads you into your shared bedroom and had you sit on the bed. Him still standing and you having direct eye contact with his clothed dick. You couldn’t help staring. But suddenly you felt your face being shoved into it. You wanna stare go ahead. Get a realll good look ‘ah it. He said dominantly while rubbing your face in his crotch. You tried to push him away but his strength overpowered yours, eventually he let you go and he took a deep breath. Now he said with a sigh “Get up” he said with his voice darkening. You quickly got up off the bed because you new he wasn’t playing anymore. He sat down on the bed and looked into your eyes with disappointment. You suddenly felt slightly guilty for disobeying him. “I’m sorry” was all that came out while you looked at your feet. Oh ‘yer gonna be sorry. Just wait. Your heatbeat quickened. He then pushed the button that released you from your suit (imagine it like Toms suit from the first movie) you now just standing there in your undergarments, shifted uncomfortably in the cold room. Waiting to find out what your partner was going to do to you. Suddenly you feel him tugging you down onto.. His lap?!! No no no you thought. The last time he spanked you, you couldn’t sit for a week. You struggled trying to avoid the inevitable. Stop squirmin luv. You’re only gonna make this harder. You stopped moving thinking he might go easier on you.. you were wrong. Halfway through you were bawling your eyes out begging him for a break. Please hobie! It hurts, you say while sobbing, please what? He asks clearly unbothered with your current state. Please sir. A break please. You hyperventilated, hmmm.. no. He quickly resumed with your punishment. Eventually he stopped to admire his work and bc your ass was redder than his suit. Look at this pretty ass. Good thing you slipped up I was just achin to put a brat in her place. Now. Are we gonna do that again? He asked. Noooo you responded while still sobbing. Excuse me ? No- uh no sir. You said. Good.
******************************************* you awoke early in the am on your stomach to Hobie getting a call from headquarters asking him to come on a mission. Ugh you sighed quietly. Apart of the reason you acted up was because you missed your boyfriend. Yeah sorry bruv. Got somethin come up can’t do it today. Yea, ok, peace. You smiled sleepily knowing you’d have him to yourself today. suddenly you felt someone spooning you from behind. Next time you miss me love, just tell me. Don’t go acting all bitchy on me. -the end. Babes I literally wrote this in 20 minutes so don’t judge it too hard ok? And this is the first fic going on my new account so send me any requests you want Love y’all! (And if my ask bar isn’t working I’m sorry please just message me the ask) or dm me instas in my bio!
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pbandjesse · 17 days
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I was maybe a little overtired this morning. Overly emotional. But I feel a lot more normal now. And today was good. For the most part.
After I posted last night I had a few more hours. I would have fun though. There was some more funny moments. Like when one of the staffers called me a cutie and then almost immediately started crying because he said it's like the end of summer camp and he's going to miss working with his friends and that was just so sweet. I would run around with Jesse cleaning and making sure everything was good. But at 1 I let him know I needed to tap out and it was time for me to go home.
With no traffic it was a 10 minute drive. Parking thankfully wasn't hard. And I brought everything inside.
James left the lights on for me which was nice. They were fast asleep though. I would eat some of my leftovers chipotle. Take a shower. Washed my hair. Sat in front of my mirror for a little bit. But I was in bed by 2 and fell asleep pretty quickly.
I woke up at 7 but when I found James asleep still next to me because they were going into work later today because of extended museum hours, so I decided I could sleep an extra hour too.
And I'm glad I did. When I got up at 8 I felt a little more normal. Not 100 but fine. My hair had dried crazy but it was fine. I got washed and dressed and felt good about myself. Though the humidity would make my hair get real frizzy later one. Ah well.
I left and James would leave to bike soon after me. And it was a fine drive even if traffic was a little annoying. The rain seems never ending. But it is making all the plants very happy I'm sure.
The piano was gone! I was surprised. But also not. It was bound to be gone eventually.
I would not be the first in today. Alexi was already there and Sarah came in at the same time as I did. I enjoyed telling them about last night. I was in a good mood. But weirdly that did not last long.
Pretty quickly Elizabeth was texting to check in about the lodge. Saying to go check it was clean because for some reason that wasn't done yesterday? So I walked over there with my little raincoat and was trying to not be salty but I was. Why wasn't the trash taken out? Did we have enough tables set up? I was just a little frustrated.
I cleaned the bathrooms. And was getting more and more worked up when I asked a question in the chat and it was not answered, instead a question I didn't ask was answered because they were making an (incorrect) inference. And like people do that all the time but man does it drive me crazy.
I was trying to not be insane but I was spiraling. I sat outside on the rocking chairs. And when the bus came I went down to meet them. And I didn't realize it was prek!! They were so little! And half of them came off the bus and immediately gave me a hug it was great and helped me a little.
But very very quickly I became wildly disregulated when Gabe got started with the group and announced we were doing lunch first?? And I hadn't set up my afternoon program yet because we normally do that during lunch and no one was communicating what project they were expecting and late Gabe said I wasn't snippy but I don't like how I was in that moment. And I melted down. Thankfully held it together until I got away from the lodge but I was walking across the field crying. Wishing I could quit. Not my best moment. And worst of all I knew I was being irrational. I was texting Jess in that moment about how irrational and ridiculous I was being. But I couldn't stop.
I went and set up my program and then headed to the office and ate my chipotle leftovers and literally was fixed. I felt better for the rest of the day. I got a hug from Heather and was all fixed and still felt a little sad inside but I was much better.
It was decided that they were going to order us lunch from Casa Mia, an Italian place, later. I was excited about that. I would request a grilled cheese and fried ravioli. I am very appreciative of Alexi appreciating us through food. It's my second favorite thank you after money.
I would go and get my group for our hike. I set myself up with Victor's group, who I haven't hiked with before, but I know he had a science background and I thought that would vibe well with me. And I was very right.
We had so much fun. We would go to the Glen, stopping at every mushroom I saw. We would turn logs. Look under rocks. And we even found a snake!!! This is my first time finding a snake all by myself. It was very exciting for me. And the kids were so young they weren't even afraid, didn't know they should be! It was great.
We let his slither away and headed to the tipi field to hang on the hammock for a bit. Then over to the fields. But the horses were to far. So I took them to the barns and there were horses there, including Obie the mini, and they fed them hay and it was great. They were all so cute being gentle and trying very hard not to scream. I was proud of them.
After a stop at the latrines to wash hands we walked to the field to get ready for our party free choice hour.
I decided to pivot and had the kids draw flowers and plants. Some kids drew other stuff but it was mainly just a nice calm program for me. I worked on a flower drawing and had music going and all the kids were being calm and sweet and wanted to learn some stuff because they liked my drawing. And I encouraged them when they said they were copying me I would tell them that they were inspired by me but they were making their own! That's just practice! I hope they internalize that and find their own confidence.
It was a nice hour. And once we were done I cleaned up all their pictures to hand off to Victor and the. Said goodbye and went to the office.
I took a few minutes break. Has a little snack. Elizabeth said lunch would be here in about a half hour. So I went to the lodge to clean the bathrooms. And then to the nature building to see Samson the turtle. Who apparently hit Sarah very very hard today which is not like him at all. Very surprising. Thankfully did not break the skin.
Joe was over there feeding them and I would hang out with him for a bit. Went with him to the chickens and even got to pick one up and held it for a bit. Which was nice. And then back to the office to send some emails before our lunch.
At first I did not join everyone else siting outside. It was cold out there. But I would eventually come out. I still was feeling a little other. A little off. But I shared my ravioli and my fries and things were good. There was even baby birds on the bookshelf behind me and I thought that was the best.
Elizabeth said I could leave whenever since there wasn't anything for me to do. And I took advantage of that.
I left and decided to go search for some more aquatic frogs since omelet seems to have??? Disappeared?? Something? I have seen him once since we got back from Africa. And I miss him. I love my frogs.
I was not having great luck. The first three stores has none at all. I would stop at a restore and found a little wine rack I think would be good for shoes. Ran into one of my BAS students but he didn't notice me so I didn't say anything. It was nice to see him out in the wild though!
I would go to five pet stores in all but I finally found some!! I was thrilled. I would get two. I decided to name them French Toast and Avocado Toast. The toast brothers. They are so very small. I really hope they do okay in my tank. I just want them to be happy.
I would head home and was very happy to be here. I would get my tank to the correct temperature and introduced them to the water. I would take Ruby the Roomba upstairs to clean. And I would set up the little wine rack.
Eventually I would head upstairs and tried on some dresses that I was given yesterday and a few of them were great. One is like a black tennis dress with built-in shots. Very excellent.
I took a bath. And have been hanging out since then.
James just got home! They are feeling a little sick but I am just so happy to have them here. I am hoping to get to bed fairly early. Tomorrow is another long day with a field trip and then an event. But I am looking forward to the activities. I hope you all have a good night. I love you all. Until tomorrow!!
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sachirobabe · 2 years
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Pranks | M. Atsumu x F!reader
Warnings: Small time-skip spoilers, cursing⚠️
An: repost from my Wattpad
Female reader.
Wc: 1,306
"'Nd don't forget!-"
You interrupted Atsumu, "I know! The cupcakes." You rolled your eyes, leaving the classroom to finally go home.
You're not sure why Atsumu wouldn't just have his brother bake him some cupcakes, he's literally planning on going into the food business someday.
But it does give you a chance to get back at him for the stunt he pulled the other day—well actually three stunts.
The first was practically harmless, but it did tick you off a little, you were in the middle of a conversation with him at night, talking about harmless things and you'd asked him a question and he sent you a gif of the typing dots.
You stayed there for a few minutes, wondering what the hell was taking him so long, then you realized what it was and yelled at him through the phone.
The second time was when you went to the computer lab at school, having to do some research together for school. Everything was well, he was being oddly affectionate and retaining information you gave him.
He even went as far as doing one of the three hard problems, which isn't really the bare minimum at all, but he never does his work so it felt like he did 10 of those.
You drank too much water and ended up going to the bathroom, when you came back and tried to use your mouse, it oddly stopped working.
After minutes of trying to get the stupid mouse to work, you finally had the idea to flip it over and you saw a piece of tape covering the sensor. Atsumu laughed his ass off, crying from tears at your frustration.
The third was just yesterday, he had slept over at your house because it was too late for him to go home and it had been raining, so your parents were okay with him staying, trusting him since you had been dating awhile now.
While you were in the shower, he cut up a bunch of tiny pieces of colored paper, making it into confetti, placing them on top of your ceiling fan, knowing you turned it on after a shower because you got too hot.
And he was right, once you came out all dressed, you turned the fan on and the confetti flew around, making a huge mess in your clean room.
"Atsumu!" You yell. "You're cleaning this!" You say, going back to the bathroom to take off the pieces that had stuck to you.
He did end up cleaning, your parents got a real kick out of his pranks these past couple of weeks, they were all harmless and he made up for them after with kisses and cuddles.
So when your lovely boyfriend asked you to make some cupcakes that he's been craving all day for, you decided it's your turn to get him back.
Immediately as you got home you began to set up the kitchen, and quickly got to mixing ingredients.
You decided to make two batches. One would be completely butchered, all the wrong ingredients so it'd taste nasty. Then the second batch would be normal, but the cake would be burnt, so he really wasn't going to enjoy these.
The first batch smelled terrible, you added some things you couldn't even pronounce the names of, the second batch, however, smelled amazing.
You even added normal frosting to both of the cupcakes so he wouldn't be able to smell the weird ingredients and the burnt ones.
He was over at your house straight from practice, already showered and ready to eat. You felt kinda bad at how excited he was, he was like a little kid in a candy store.
"Babe, 'm so excited, 'ya don't know how long 'ave been wantin' these." He licks his lips. "Doesn't it smell a little burnt in 'ere?" He sniffs.
"Hm really?" You act confused. "I've already had one and they tasted fine."
"'M sure they taste good. Wasn't sayin' 'ya messed up." He clears up.
"I know what you meant, 'Tsumu." You looked at him dreamily, stealing a kiss before he ate the cupcakes and changed his mind about cuddling later.
"Did I tell 'ya I love 'ya? Thanks for the cupcakes!"
You innocently smile at him, grabbing the first cupcake which was the one with all the nasty ingredients and handed it to him.
Before he took a bite he needed to say something else. "Oh yeah, 'Samu said to bring him home some so we can't eat all of 'em." He adds.
"I don't think he'll want them." You mutter quietly underneath your breath.
He took a huge bite, his warm smile and bubbly behavior quickly fading away, he looks confused and disgusted. He spits the cupcake into the trash can, along with the rest of it in his hand, he makes a beeline for the sink and washes his mouth out.
After his coughing fit he turns to you, "What the hell? I thought 'ya loved me." He pouts, wiping his mouth off.
"You've been pranking me all week." You crossed your arms around your chest.
"'Ave been cravin' these all day." He whined to you. "Did 'ya butcher all of these?!" He looks at the cupcakes.
You chose a random one from the second batch. "No. These ones are actually good, I ate one already." You hand it to him.
He huffs and takes it, muttering a 'thank you'. Once again after he took a bite into the cupcake he spits it back out again.
"Seriously? Babe. No way. This is a fate worse than death." He dramatically sighs.
"They're just burnt cupcakes, 'Tsumu. Don't be dramatic." You say. "You've done this all week to me."
"Yeah, but I didn't poison 'ya." He angrily pouts.
"I got you twice, in a row!" You laugh, after a little he was sitting all grumpy in his chair. "Well I'm sorry." You come to his seat on the island, moving his head to your chest, he wraps his arms around your waist.
"Hmp."
"We can remake them?" You suggest.
"No. 'M not cravin' them anymore."
"What do you want then? You haven't eaten and I know you're hungry from practice." You say. "And your big, strong muscles need all the food they can get." You boosted him.
"'Ya like my arms?" He grins.
You nodded, smiling like an absolute love sick idiot.
"Let's order takeout. I won't prank 'ya anymore, we can get 'Samu and Rin next week." He finally smiles.
You both got comfortable on the couch, watching a show you both agreed to, he had his arm around you, pulling you desperately closer.
"They were good pranks, baby." He finally says, kissing your forehead.
"Really? I came up with it last minute after your stupid stunt yesterday with the confetti." You giggle. "Which mind you, I've been picking confetti out of my hair all day."
"'Ma pranks are funny." He shrugs to you.
You scrunch your nose, he presses a quick kiss to it, making it so the two of you were now laying down, with you on top of him.
"Can I bring some of those cupcakes to 'Samu?" He asks.
"Atsumu, leave your brother out of the prank war. Besides I don't think he'll trust the cupcakes." You say into his chest.
"Worth a try. I'll record it." He adds. "I can get Rin real easy with that. His fatass eats everything I have." He furrows his brows.
You laugh, your shoulders shaking in the process, moving Atsumu a little. He lived for your laugh, maybe he should start finding pranks that actually make you laugh because he can live off of this forever.
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dazaikinning · 2 years
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you then walked out of the library and walked back home.
you felt tired but quite happy once in a while, you really did have a fun time..
coming back home to pure darkness. you made sure that you had lock the door and went to the kitchen to grab a leftover pizza from the fridge, eating it since you didn't even bother warming it up or cooking something else. after you had finished eating, you then proceed your way to your bedroom while groaning. "more homeworks i guess." you grabbed your backpack and placed it next to your table and pulled out sheets of paper and start working on it.
after what seems like hours, it was already 10:24 pm. you stood up and changed your clothes, brush your teeth like usual and went to sleep.
waking up, you were still half asleep and already saw the sun rising.
you forgot to put to turn on the alarm.
you were just laying down on bed and the next thing you knew, you were running your way to school panting. you weren't even halfway and you were already feeling tired. you were still making your way to school but all of a sudden, "i supposed you're late too?" you turned your head back and saw dazai, "dazai? what are you doing here?" you stopped, "there's no time for asking just hop on." you immediately got on dazai's bicycle and sat behind him, flustered as hell.
why is my heart beating? we literally just met yesterday- there's no way.
after arriving to school, you didn't wait for dazai you just rushed to your classroom, trying to hide your face. the bell rang just in time, "hey you didn't wait for me how rude!!!" he whined as he chased after you, "i'm so sorry dazai-! i didn't mean to-" you bowed down apologizing, people behind you looked at you weirdly. "no need to bow i'm sorry!!" as he bowed back at you trying to also apologize. you both stared at each other, snickering.
"ahem." your teacher was in front of both of you, you both immediately went to your seats. that was embarrassing. sure is embarrassing.
fast forward to when you guys been hanging out for a full week, your feelings for him tend to grow faster each day.
"helooo!!!!" he waved at you, "oh hello dazai!!" you waved at him back, "so i've found a nice café for the both of us! it's pretty nice, we could talk and read books all we want!!" he cheerfully suggested that you both go this weekend, you felt intrigued and you gladly accepted. he was cheerfully jumped, "can we please do a double suicide after visiting the café? please please?" he pleads, of course you declined his offer as he sends crocodile tears, you chuckled as you stared at his face for a good few minutes.
god why can't my feelings take a break?
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im sorry if i took so long i wasn't really feeling well mentally so yea, didn't really have much time either
anyways im very exhausted gnn
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joshuasearing · 4 months
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Saturday 20th January 2024
Hey journal so the past few days have been ok. So for today I really struggled to get up leading me to be about 20 minutes late to work. Work was ok today however they had the big boss in so everyone was so tense and on the ball with everything which was a bit of annoying. After work I waited at the bus stop and some people I work with also came to the bus stop a little later a bad waited and also got on the bus with me. One of them is called Richard and I spoke to him on my journey on the bus. I then got the bus to the gym, at did a gym session with Morgan. Me and Morgan did are session and it was really good and we also had some really nice chats as well. We mainly focused on chest and triceps and for the last ten minutes before the gym shuts as it shuts at 6pm we did some forearms. Forgot to mention on my break at work, I got loads done like writing in my online journal, doing some Duolingo and learning French and some elevate. I also managed to do my meditation in the crew room which went really well and was probably my best ever bit of meditation I have ever done in the days that I have done. Anyways after the gym me and Morgan spoke for a little before I walked home. On my walk home I just vibed to some music. Since I have been home I’ve spent a lot of time watching things on my phone and wasting time. I have also had a shower though, moisturised my tattoos, made some TikToks and also cut my toe nails. Also forgot to mention I got myself cookie dough ice cream at Tescos and ate that when I got home. I also had pesto pasta for dinner. One bad thing which is awful is my mum and dad have had a massive argument. I was just watching my then I felt this rumble and my room literally shaked it was awful, then I heard my dad screaming at my mum and shouting. Then my little brother started crying which was not nice to hear. This went on for a solid on and off about 30 minutes. I then at one point decided to bring my brother upstairs into my room so he can be away from it and so I can comfort him and have a conversation with him. He was not crying anymore at this point and it was nice to spend some time with him. Anyways about 10 minutes ago I had a conversation with my mum about it and she said they are still not talking it’s just pure silence which is awkward. I hate it when my parents argue and it is really rare that they argue badly usually it does not get bad at all, but today was not great at all. Also one really nice thing my brother did was he wrapped up a little chocolate with paper and wrote on the paper “To Josh from Kaiden” which I found really sweet. He sometimes pretends he doesn’t care but these actions prove otherwise and it is so cute when he does things like this. Anyways I will speak to you later journal, bye journal!
Also here are some photos from yesterday as have none from today! ���️
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now-we-say-c0ral · 5 months
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January 7, 2024
Woke up at 9am today. Slept soundly last night but I had a hard time sleeping last night. Probably because of the coffee that I have been taking before going to the gym. Ed and I had the tuna bake that he did yesterday for breakfast today. I made some mung bean soup with the mung beans that I left soaking overnight yesterday. It tasted so fine. Everything tastes better with coconut milk.
I just played some Pokemon Unite and called mommy and Aira afterwards. It was getting colder again. Last week the temperature was around 10-12 degrees celcius but now it's dropped to 4-5 degrees. I kind of hate that.
I went to the gym and did my shoulders, lower chest, triceps, biceps, and my abs. I was there for more than 2 hours. I'm just getting my time now because I won't be going to the gym tomorrow because my body needs to rest. It's been 6 days now this week that I've been going to the gym and I have to stop overdoing it. It might not be doing me so much good. Took the bus home which took 50 minutes because of traffic to which then we had to reroute.
Ate the mung bean soup with Ed and prepared our lunch for tomorrow. We're watching Saltburn now. We're working tomorrow and there's a tube strike. I hope it won't be too busy but even that's wishful thinking. Good luck to us!
January 6, 2024
Ah, my day off! I woke up around 8:30am for some reason. It was such a lazy morning for me and I didn't want to do a thing. I got up around 10am when Ed called for breakfast. We had the pasta that I asked him to buy yesterday from PaStation because I was craving for it so badly. I had too much spicy chinese food from last night and now my butt's paying the price. I pooped like three times in the morning and my goodness I was literally praying for it to stop because my butthole hurts so much already from the spices that were put. They literally weren't kidding when they had three chilli emojies on the chicken options.
I went to the guy around 3pm and did legs and back. I planned to do my triceps but I was just too tired. It was a good session and my heart is speeding so fast in my chest I thought it was going to explode.
Went home and Ed made a tuna bake for dinner. It was so good. Just spent the night folding the laundry and just chilling. It's been a good day!
January 5, 2024
I think I've had it begging people to let me in because I lost my badge. I was assigned to do the Haemonc list in Th2 but it wasn't due to start until 9am. Went down to security and secured my temporary badge and told Raman to make me the paperwork for my badge because Elli was off sick, bless her, she works so hard.
The Haemonc list was busy because of how fast the pace was but overall it was okay. There were just a lot of crying from the parents. It didn't faze me. I probably won't understand how it would feel because I won't be a parent because I'm gay except when I decide to adopt but as of right now, I'm just not fazed at all. I'm just there to do my job as good as I can. At lunch break, I finally collected my new badge and I can get through doors on my own again thank goodness!
Went to the gym but just did 20 minutes of cardio. I didn't feel like working out at all. Just went home and just played Pokemon. Ordered some spicy chinese takeaway from Oodles and it was so good! I feel so full though. My intrusive thoughts won tonight. I was supposed to be fasting but I was hungry, too hungry, for some reason. It was an okay day for me.
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pandesalmonster · 8 months
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It's 4am and i haven't slept.
Blame the iced coffee i made earlier. Blame the Excel spreadsheet that I should have worked on this evening. Blame Twitter and Reddit for the unlimited content that's kept me up.
Lots of things on my mind again.
FIRST: my growing kpop collection expenses. oec and loossemble had comebacks this year and OOOOH. SHINY POBs. I want all the POBs. But I have limited money. I have gone over the supposed 3% allocation for kpop. I have too many albums (3 versions instead of just 1), Chuu and Heejin are comebuting this year. And Red Velvet! I don't have the money and space for all that! in general, I just bought so many things that they are piling up.
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like that ^ is literally my philosophy for collecting loona items now. even if they're pretty, even if the store says it's limited. even if i have to wait 10 years for the prices to go down. I'm still working on accepting the reality though *cries in poor*
SECOND: the ongoing war in palestine and israel, and am i retweeting the correct information? do i have the correct information to form the best opinion? 2 filipinos have already been killed by hamas. if i retweet a tweet condemning that does that mean I don't support palestinians right to their land? if i don't fully agree with one side then does that mean I wholly support the other? Is it truly possible to support and condemn both sides at the same time? Maybe this is the "black-and-white" thinking that the boomers are talking about. This is a good thread: https://twitter.com/Ike_Saul/status/1711780282725011520
THIRD: kpop fancalls and the people who say "[group members] recognize me!" because they've met and talked with the members multiple times, and they went to all of their concerts. Like I'm jealous you know? How do they have the money, and the time, and the energy? And I don't even want to meet the members, I just want the clout and admiration that it gets them. I want others to envy me, if you get my drift.
FOURTH: is it possible to escape social media and screens? because just yesterday I felt sick, and I don't know if it was because I spent 30 minutes waiting for a bus, then 1 hour standing on that bus due to traffic, or because I spent an hour carrying my very heavy bag on my shoulder, or is it because the aircon was very cold when i went to the office, or is it my looking at screens. But like I want to be the cool girl who doesn't need social media. Or at least get my screentime down to 2 hours a day. I watched social dilemma and it still didn't stop me from doing 4-6 hours a day. Maybe I need to be more mindful of how people/ the algorithm is manipulating me to stay there.
FIFTH: Am i gonna get the drive to be better? Because I keep writing out my problems, searching for advice in forums, and then I open a distraction and forget everything that I wanted to improve in myself.
- You know what, maybe I will. I am typing this on a lovely laptop but it is company owned. I want to buy this laptop for myself. I want to edit my videos, and I will definitely need a fast laptop for that. Because my sister will be using the ipad, I cannot use that.
So maybe my drive will be to save up for that laptop as fast as possible. I've been wanting to buy a new phone (specifically, one that supports a stylus. So I can draw on it).
SIXTH: Am I ready to buy a house? I submitted a bid for a foreclosed house and lot near my sister's. I don't think it was approved, because I'm not on the list of winners, and nobody has contacted me yet. Personally, I don't think I'm ready to buy a house. But my mom is pushing me to buy one, because prices are only gonna get expensive.
SEVENTH: Am I gonna get the work ethic and drive that I admire so much in my co-workers? I will admit that I am not very fond of my job right now, but they are very lenient, allowing me to work from home, but I repay them with sleeping on work hours and not doing any work. I want to be like the ones that stand on their word and are very dependable. But I am not there yet. I want to work on being that someday.
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You see, I rarely go on here, but when I do, I always have so many things to say. That's what happens when you bottle up your thoughts. I should be writing here more often. maybe everyday. Here it's easy to catch up to my brain. Writing on notebooks, although recommended by some, is really tiresome, you know? Here it's easy to backspace and just type, as many words as you want. When I write with my pen, my hand tires easily. Maybe because I've been using my phone more and my pen less.
They say hand-journaling is better for distracted people, but for me, typing is so much better.
Maybe I should write with a pen less, draw with a pencil more, and type on a keyboard more.
Anyways. It's 4:30am. I need to sleep for 2 hours. and catch up on the work I missed.
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afr0-thunder · 8 months
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[Poor Chronicles Pt. 18]
*BEHIND STARBUCKS EDITION*
“How are you ‘poor’, but you’re almost ahead on ‘monthly expenses’…whatever that means?”
Why do people think poor means, “I live in a box.”? Are you fucking retarded or something? Like you are aware that they live the same life…just poor. You’re broke. Worry about that. How are you struggling with a $30K or more income?
Also, I’m not a dumbass. Fairly easy.
Contrary to this poor lifestyle, I was asked to go OT this week by turning my two of my last three shifts into doubles. Was not thrilled about these spontaneous decisions, but I still have a No “No!” policy. Still poor, just not poorer.
We’ve got a new regular. Her hair is red, so I was like “Thumpaz?”, then I was like “Can’t be.”. Wasn’t a natural red. Ass wasn’t like bongos. Hair still looked great. Ass still was fat. She works at Sephora from what I know. She’s a make up artist from what I hear. My African American manager and I did a joint effort on this information between today and yesterday. I got the first half. He got the second. She was a bit shy today. I was right next to him for the second part.
The amount of women that come in with their significant other and I have to ignore her attraction or flirting is outrageous. I’m just like “Bitch!”. Sometimes they just don’t notice, sometimes they moderately intervene. I just try to refuse escalating the intensity of the conversation. There was one today that had two babies strapped to their chests (one each). I was just like, “Ma’am this is not the time to explore your newfound interest in African American men…he’s watching us…”. The other was an older woman. She always knew about hers, this was just the revival. I was almost in tears because she didn’t know I was catching on. I noticed he hadn’t though. I was like, “Bro! This bitch is DIRTY. Please stop her.”. He did no such thing.
In another instance, the other night, it’s about 10:20pm. I see this couple. Woman closer to me, but east, facing west. Man further, to her side, also facing west. I’m coming from north. I notice she had an outrageous poke. We make eye contact. She literally faces him entirely and flashes me her whole ass. It was great, but I literally would commit suicide if I was white. That is hell equivalent.
THE DISRESPECT CONTINUES! My former favorite coworker asked about my background. He identified me as one of…THEM! He asked if I was fucking Puerto Rican and thought I was biracial. He then proceeds to ask if both of my parents are light skinned. Does it take two gingers to make a fucking ginger? I realized he’s a minor and may or may not have taken biology up to that point. He then goes on to (in shock) say “Really?” about 4 times when I tell him both of my parents are African American. I think he got scared because I was clearly pissed by this assumption and did not laugh with him until the last, “Really?” because otherwise my anger was going to show if he asked one more fucking time. He then went on to say our Puerto Rican coworker had an “afro” and said he would’ve thought I was one. I said, “I don’t consider that an afro”. After 2 minutes of silence I just said “Hair and Teeth…that’s the difference” and just moved on.
He later asked us (My African American manager and I) “Polo Ralph Lauren or Tommy Hilfiger?”. He was so uncomfortable when without hearing the other’s response first said, “Tommy Hilfiger don’t like black people”. He didn’t know what to say.
Back to my baby mommas. I’m getting one is Venezuelan. I never saw myself with a Venezuelan, but no bad bitch I know is going unfucked. Ironically there are a lot nearby my job and where I live. I saw a few at my laundromat as well. I’m also getting one of them is Chinese and her name is “Mi”. I also am getting that one is Mexican and she works for the fucking Chicago Police Department. Typical Mexican shit. Being a fucking OPP! One of my baby mommas… I’m also getting majority of them will not speak English (or very good English), so I’ll spend most of my time reading to them, teaching them to read in English or watching American film/television.
They got rid of one ingredient in my favorite chicken salad. It is one of my favorite ingredients, so I’ve decided to not only make some alterations to it, but also use it until we say farewell. I miss watching Christmas movies (not the typical ones like “Elf” though) and listening to Juice WRLD. These are terrible living conditions as far as occupying time goes, but oh well. I thought I would post this tonight, but Starbucks will likely be closed. I will have to check the week 4 and 5 NFL scores when I post. The Bears were up 21 by the time I checked and turned on the TV to them losing right after I got home.
Beth Behrs makes me want to impregnate her. That’s a fine white bitch.
I have been getting more ideas for my kids lately, they should be having a fun life. Enjoy it all.
Eagles vs. 49ers NFC Championship Game. Chiefs are pissing me off with these 23-20 field goal win games. Shit’s been going on for 3 seasons. Lamar Jackson…help…please!
- MH (2023)
[10/05/2023 - 8:24PM]
[10/08/2023 - 2:20PM]
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kikibridges13 · 11 months
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So I'm posting this here instead of anywhere else on the interwebs because shy of a select few friends I mutually follow from college, nobody from home, friends, family, or people at work know about this platform. And right now it's the only safe place I feel like I have.
Yesterday, I got a call from my doctor updating me on some CT results I had to get done over the weekend. Backstory: Almost 10 years ago (September 29th, to be exact) I was diagnosed with a brain tumor on the lower hemisphere of my brain - it had been a slow-growing, tangerine sized mass that had been there probably my entire life, it just had finally grown to the point it was affecting my life. Anyway, surgery was required, radiation followed, despite being benign. There was a 85% chance of it never returning. It wrecked my entire fucking life; I had been out of college 4 months at this point, and my doctor wanted me to do nothing for a year.
What a way to start your life, right?
Fast-forward 10 years. I've been married, divorced, been at a job for the last 5 years that I finally love and thinking about going back to school for social work so I can expand on my current discharge planning occupation. Been in a relationship for 4 years with the sweetest guy.
And then my dizziness symptoms return. First it was a couple of times when getting up and thought it was normal. Then I started having them completely stationary at work. So I called my doctor.
And that's what you missed on Glee!
Despite my dry attempt at humor and acting like it's not a big thing, I'm absolutely fucking terrified. After I got the call yesterday, I was shaking so back my supervisor kept asking me every 10 minutes or so if I was okay.
It seems like every time I get to a good place in my life, everything fucks up. Graduated college in 2013? Four months later, diagnosed with a brain tumor.
My first job once I was able to work at let me go the same day I decided to move in with my ex-husband.
Said ex-husband announced that he had been cheating on me pretty much our entire relationship when I suggested that we start trying to expand our family. Guess I should thank anybody out there listening that I never got pregnant by him.
Went on vacation once travel restrictions had let up post-Covid, just to wreck my car the next day.
Recently, I traded said car for a new one at the beginning of June. Got called into a department meeting a week later that our on-site call center was being removed to remote and some of us wouldn't have a job. My ever growing skill set and the fact I'm a reliable employee saved me, and I transferred to where I am now.
And now, here I am, about to maybe move in with my boyfriend, thinking of other life changes, and I get a call I've been absolutely dreading for the past 10 years.
I'm posting here because I'm absolutely terrified of what is going to come out of that neuro consult when I have to go to it. Most likely I'm going to have to do an MRI, I know that. But if they tell me another surgery? Another round of radiation? The last round damn near killed me, literally. I stopped eating, lost over 60 pounds in about 5 months, and it left me with no appetite and no will to even continue on with my life. I fought so hard to build where I am today. And I'm terrified of watching it all crumble down around me.
I'm tired of all the "thoughts and prayers" posts that now litter the post I made on the book of faces. I realize I live in the heart of the Bible Belt and there are more churches than literally anything in Southwest Virginia, but to be honest, I stopped believing in a lot of things related to religion years ago. I just need a place to feel scared for a moment, and to have my feelings valid, and to take a moment to get this all out somewhere. Because if I bottle it up, then somebody I love is going to get the brunt of this and it'll be another bridge burned to add to the pile that's been growing for the last 10 years.
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I don’t know what to do anymore, in november i started having non-epileptic seizures, they started off with one every few days and progressed into having multiple per day. i ended up being stuck in a hospital for a few days to try and figure out what’s wrong with me. they couldn’t give me an answer, they prescribed me some medicine to slow down my heart rate and sent me home. after having that medicine in my system the seizures stopped but then i started passing out. but it’s weird because i never actually lose consciousness. i can still hear, i just can’t move or speak, my whole body goes limp. i can’t even open my eyes. they started getting really bad where some of them i couldn’t breathe and would be like that for 10-15 minutes. (most of the normal episodes only lasted up to a minute) so i went and saw my doctor and she sent me to the er. they did some tests and it came back that i had a blood clot. so they did more tests. turns out i had four. two in my arm and one in each lung. so they admitted me into the hospital for a few days. my “passing out” episode became worse while i was there. they couldn’t find out what was causing these episodes. but on the good side they found out that the reason i had the blood clots was because of my birth control. so now i’m on blood thinners, and if the clots come back after i’m off of them they said i’ll be on blood thinners for the rest of my life. so now i’m back home and i’ve almost been home for a week and the “passing outs” have not stopped. actually they’ve gotten worse. yesterday i passed out 13 times. mind you i woke up at 11 am took a nap from 4-6 pm and went to bed at midnight, so in just 10 ish hours i passed out 13 times. it’s to the point i can’t do anything. i walk- i pass out. i lay in bed- i pass out. i play games- i pass out. i go to the fricken bathroom AND I PASS OUT. I TAKE A SHOWER AND I PASS OUT. I EAT AND I PASS OUT. anything i do i pass out. so i’m pretty much stuck in bed all day. the only time i get up is to go pee, ride with to pick my boyfriend up from work, and get food. that’s it.
so why am i posting this on my ED account? because i feel so so so lazy that i don’t deserve to consume food. i can’t burn it off, i can’t use it for energy because i don’t do anything all day. so i feel like there’s no point for me to eat anything now. and the sick part is i’m happy about it. i’m happy that now i finally have a good reason not to put food in my body. and i’ll finally lose weight. i’ve been stuck losing and gaining the same 5 pounds the last three months. but hopefully now i can finally lose the weight. i’m tired of being this big, i miss when i was skinny. i miss it so freaking bad. and all i want is to be skinny again.
(also the number of “passing out” while writing this is two, im literally just laying in bed typing this and i’m passing out.)
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ineedacalicocat · 1 year
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Is it just me who after jks live becomes more sure that yes jikook are great friends but definitely not romantic. I mean he asked jimin first thing, "How have you been?" Like he didn't talk to him in days. And later he didn't even read his comments. And when he later acknowledged that jimin commented again..he still didn't try to read his comments by scrolling like he did for tae yesterday. These are just small things i know and i agree they are great friends as jimin didn't behave with him like someone who doesn't like jk's behaviour but still not romantic acc to me. And i think people are again misinterpreting jimin's words..yes he did say that he will come back after work but i think he means to come back to see his live not at his home like jkkrs assuming but who knows at the end.
Yes. I also thought the same thing. But this is what jikookers do usually. Theyre always misinterpreting it. I thought he will come back write simething and go. I just wish he stop giving his time to either of them cause they just font deserve it and definitelly doesnt want to be near jm. He literally ignored him. I also went to check the live after seeing jimins comments on the ti.eline just to see jimins reaction. For like a 10 minutes jk avoided looking at comments i was like whu??? And now taekookers saying he avoided because of jimin. Now they have another think to talk about and make fun of. This is what i hate. I also saw jimin wanted to a vlive with suga but they couldnt. Suga probably didnt want to and found an excuse. They dont like him. But jimin still doesnt thinks bad about them. This is what i hate. Jimin is just too good. He shouldnt be. Like their behaviors became more absurd. They are treating him like he is someone outside of their friend circle. Its so disgusting. And seeing jikookers having fun with it makes it much more disgunting than it is. I wish jimin just comes to vlives to talk to us. He doesnt have to entetain us just come seeing you is enough for us jimin we dont need other members in your live just u is enough. I dont know why he always wants to bring someone... i just eish he just stops giving them his time...
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