Whereabouts do you live, roughly speaking, and what drew you to that place in particular?
I'm in Michigan, and that's as specifically as I will answer that question! We have really lethal lakes.
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Kt has been one hohr and durimg this oje hour span ive washed the dishes, taken out trash and recycling, and shoved allllll of our stray clothes laundry shoes etc into the places they should go/areas where i can sort them out later. Its 330 am. I,m. Gonna ride out this momentum and then. I domt know i dont wanna sleep but ive been keeping up a good 8 hr sleep time lately for the sake of my health. Its atrocious out here. I want to relapse so bad but im so depressed im like no it would hurt,,,,,.. and yeah im right it would h7rt andいまぃっtぇsorryabdi am a little wuss wuss anout pain. Btw this cleaning spree was inspired because i saw the biggest fucking roach ivr ever seen crawling around my rotten left over ramen bowl and. I WANT TO CRYYYYYYYYY ARUGGGHHHHH AAHGGHHHHHH IM IN PAINN AAHHHH AHHHHHH AAAAHHHHHHH i cant keep doing this alone anymore but i dont want to cry about itim trying to be strong for myself here. Im trying to do thinges for me now. Ipthats the whole point i moved out wnyway i should fucking care more about myeself i have 5o do that selfcare shit. DO NOT FUCKING THIMK AHOUT YOUR FAMILY OR YOU 2ILL HAVE A MENTAL BREAKDOWN. YOU CAN 5HIMK AH9UT THEM LATER!!!!!! anyway. After my cleaning mania is over Ill probably stay up as late as i possibly can drawing gay sex until i grow too tired to draw
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probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.
we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."
at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.
the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.
the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.
what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.
here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.
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she is here
phantom arle but i get lazier 😔 i couldn't do signora i was getting sleepy hhh someday i'll draw my woman properly
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Drew a Xie Lian yesterday to let off some steam after work. 🙏
Sketch on paper with digital adjustments.
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