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echhosworld · 1 year

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DAY 6 OF POORLY DRAWING THE NAMELESS GHOULS UNTIL I CAN GO TO A RITUAL

hey there, it's me with a reminder that working from 6 am to 2 am with a 1,5 hour break is not fun 😃 (it makes you look like this rain)

again, lots of love to everyone reblogging these silly drawings. i reread your tags whenever i feel down and it helps so much <3

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youredreamingofroo · 27 days

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Wake up Roo. Wake up.

> Regard this as some sort of late April Fools prank for the almost Reo (Roo/Leo) kiss 🤭

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minamotoz · 2 years

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riley asking shawn, "when you looks at me, does it remind you of what you can't have?" was a crazy ass moment because yes the line was about shawns intimacy issues and his inability to commit to a longterm relationship, but holy shit if that isn't the most blatant way you could confirm that shawn was in love with cory and the existence of riley was just a constant reminder that he had missed his chance and could never be with cory. what if i went insane

#boy meets world #shory #shawn x cory #i havent finished GMW because even though i like the dynamic between the kids everything abt the shaty ship tease makes me want to ***#it took me like 5 hours to get thru girl meets hurricane because i couldnt deal w the horrible way they dealt w angela #who even though i dont talk abt much is in my top 3 for BMW characters #but this one line from that one episode drove me mad like. did i die ? am i dead?#it actually took me until the end of the episode to realize what that line was supposed to mean #bc it read so explicitly to me as a confirmation of shawns feelings for cory #not to mention his ass literally LEFT THE CITY and never came back after riley was born #ignoring the continuity issues that crop up w this . its giving shawns wedding breakdown 2.0 lets discuss #i think that the take of 'shory is entirely one sided and shawns feelings for cory are unrequited'#is pretty surface level and it doesnt add up much if u take a deeper look into corys character #but GMW definitely leans into this take #what with shawn desperately trying to mirror corpanga in all of his romantic relationships (to run away from his feelings for cory)#like is it really in shawns character to marry a woman hes barely known a year ?#or is he just trying to mirror cory and topanga who basically rushed into marriage the second they. were legally able to #i'll let u be the judge #am i making sense idk im tired n i havent watched sn episode of GMW in months

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 6 months

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#tw suicide #no seriously heed the tw this is probably upsetting i just. i need to say it somewhere and i will not say it to my family.#puddleglum hours #personal #its just i was thinking.#tother day the doctor asked: do you regret it? about the suicide attempt tuesday night.#and i said something that i still feel: if i regret anything about it it's that i didn't succeed.#they're talking of discharging me tomorrow or something and im just.#what do i need to do to be kept in for longer?! damn it all i *know* how i could kill myself in here.#but i don't want to. i need them to save me #because i can't save myself! if they discharge me tomorrow i think it very likely ill be dead before the end of the week! or at least in #hospital from another attempt! this new med has made me more numb but the thoughts haven't gone away just muted. and then.#at times like this im perfectly wild about it! i cannot keep myself alive i need them to do it for me!#but when ive seen the doctor each time its been when im exhausted and numb and i don't care but that is not the case always.#i don't know. i don't see a good outcome any which way.#hopefully tomorrow the doctor sees me at a time when im feeling like this i think.#because i think i need to tell them. but i don't know how or even if it matters #and sometimes i just want to die.#im so tired of living guys. why #editing to add i am still on hiatus and if you want to contact me and know my discord contact me there #so i will not be responding to anything here for this moment at least

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amethystina · 9 months

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Wait wait wait you just watched Marry My Dead Body?!?? I need to commiserate then holy shit. I watched it yesterday because I was travelling and also figured it be a fun goofy film to watch while stuck in transit for hours and then suddenly it was over and I was sitting there in goddamn TEARS. I WAS NOT EXPECTING IT TO BE SO EMOTIONAL. IT MADE ME LAUGH AND THEN ALSO STABBED ME IN THE HEART. I feel like it played me for a fool, but in the best possible way. What a good ride it is :’)

OH MY GOD SAME.

Well, except I was at home and went: "I'll watch this before going to bed, I'm sure it'll be a fun time" and, I mean, it WAS but it also wasn't. Like, after I finished it I just sat there, not knowing how to contain all the emotions I was experiencing. How the fuck was I supposed to sleep after something like that?

I genuinely had no idea what to do with myself (I still kind of don't tbh). I did NOT expect to cry as much as I did. Quite a few things can make me cry but this just hit me right where it hurts. And I didn't expect it, in any way, shape, or form. I was completely unprepared.

It was supposed to be a silly comedy!

But, like, for real? The "my husband" moment? You should have HEARD the fucking noise I made. It was guttural. I was fucking obliterated.

(and oh man, I so desperately want to make people feel that way with my writing. I am so, so inspired!)

Long story short, I'm emotionally compromised and I have absolutely no regrets. I just love, love, love becoming this invested in a story and I'm still neck-deep in feels. It's been two days already but my thoughts just keep returning to this movie, time and time again.

So I'm guessing I'm going to rewatch it in a day or two x'D

#Amethystina Replies #wolfandrain #Marry My Dead Body #This won't be something I write a fanfic for tho #I don't have anything to add #Like I genuinely can't think of anything to write because I'm afraid of ruining my current feelings for this movie #I want to leave it just the way it is #So I guess I'll have to find and outlet somewhere else #And considering the level of emotion I'm itching to convey?#Time to get back to Who Holds the Devil I guess #Since that's the only story I have right now which is intense enough #I am going to wreck some shit up #Which was planned all along by the way #I usually take a break after a big emotional climax #But I actually did the opposite this time #I paused because I needed to brace myself for what's to come x'D #So I apologise in advance I guess #This will hurt

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dukethvmas · 2 years

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So I understand why there’s people who say that Bruce should have killed the Joker, I really do, but I’ll be honest I actually understand more when he says things along the lines of “it would make me just like them” or how he wouldn’t be able to go back from that. Like just bear with me.

I think it makes more sense to interpret it as him not wanting to gain that power or the state of mind that would come from killing a person, even the Joker. Like it’s a slippery slope for him or something. Because not only would it be fairly difficult for Bruce to be held accountable as Batman (the whole secret identity thing) but there’s also the fact that Bruce is a literal billionaire, so with all the wealth he has also comes a certain amount of power he’d have in daily life right. It’s about the fact that someone with all that money and power shouldn’t be able to play judge, jury, and executioner with someone’s life. It doesn’t matter that it’s the Joker, it’s still a life. And even if it wouldn’t happen, Bruce wouldn’t want to reach that point of no return with the whole ‘power corrupts’ thing.

#bruce wayne #batman #dc #like am i the biggest fan of him? no #but i think it's weird how there's this big push for him to murder when like. why would we want a literal billionaire out there killing peop #people and why should it be bruce wayne when lex luthor is right there #and it's not bad to have heroes who don't kill lol like it rlly doesn't make them boring #plus bruce is already fucked up enough as is why add killing #and i mean. the joker wouldn't stay dead even if he did kill him that's just how comics are they need the stories

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prismit · 4 months

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you KNOW i had to learn how to add the spin attack as an expression

#dead cells #dead cells spoilers #vrchat #hi yeah i'm STILL working on this lmao. ACTUALLY almost finished for real this time #i am 100% done with the blender side of things now and i just really wanted to add this animation gvhjfdgv #i alsooo kinda wanna try making the fireball attack too. might mess around and see where that goes #(side note: yea the spinny wind particles or w/e are visible from the outside too. personal mirror just doesn't reflect particle trails)#(and idk how to bring up the actions menu with the camera active on desktop)

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bisaster-energy · 8 months

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dean saying he needs cas is just as insane as cas calling dean the one thing he wants

#like who allowed this tbh #they're both crazy for saying this and the mfs who wrote it are crazy too #the angel meant to be removed from human emotion describes you as his one great want #the human adds you to the list of things needed for him to live his very life (food water air cas)#neither view these admissions correctly #dean needs me because i am a tool because his survival depends on my usefulness #i made cas want and now he's dead i killed him #but that wasn't the point the point was that it's love. love as each of these idiots knows it #i just. yeah just thinkin #destiel

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thatswhatsushesaid · 11 months

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re: that last post I reblogged about 3zun and each of their respective efforts into trying to make the sworn brotherhood work

while I do absolutely agree that they are all trying, if you asked me to tell you which member of the venerated triad is actually trying the hardest to reconcile the diametrically opposed worldviews of his sworn brothers and his obligations to his sect and family (rather than trying to strong-arm reality to align with his own worldview, or not look too closely at the intensity of the conflict that is developing within these relationships)

it's jin guangyao

#mdzs meta #he did crimes??? good for him 😌#i will avoid dropping this in the tags today not because it is particularly salty or contentious #i just got shit to do today lol #bills won't pay themselves #(the audacity tbh)#like nmj spends over 4 years un-murdered from the time the sworn brotherhood is established to his qi deviation #and we know that jgs was putting pressure on jgy to eliminate his political rivals and to smooth the way forward for him #to ascend to the role of chief cultivator #i realize this is speculation on my part but we know that jgy DOES start with negotiations before he reaches for the political murder stick #that's exactly what happens with the tingshan he in the villainous friends extra #and I think if jgy had not actually tried negotiating with he su #he-zongzhu would have called him out on it in that moment (he was not exactly holding his tongue)#so wrt nmj we are left with a fractious and terrifying relationship that spans 4 years #where i am positive!! that jgs wants nmj dead!!! and jgy does not do it!!#so what is happening here??#(edited to add: heheheh he-zongzhu wasn't holding his tongue heheheh #SOMEONE ended up holding it for him tho #thanks xue-gongzi)

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confinesofmy · 4 months

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my grandma does so much stuff to piss me off and i feel like i can't vent to anybody else in the family about it bc it sours them on her and makes them less likely to help her so then it always all comes down to me when she needs help so she's just getting more and more isolated, and weird in her interactions with me. and the cycle repeats again.

#i'm driving her to an appointment tomorrow because no one else will (2 hours one-way)#and she just tacked on going and visiting with someone afterwards which will add on a minimum of an hour #plus i honestly don't want to see that person again. she reminds me of my dead mom bc my dead mom is our connection to her.#and i hate driving generally. like my bi-monthly drive to go get groceries from the walmart 5 towns over stresses me tf out every time #and i know for a fact i can drive 30 minutes further for even cheaper groceries but i can't do it because it's such a stress #so i told my grandmother there's just no way and there's got to be an alternative #and she got really really upset so i said you need to find someone else to take you to visit her on a different day #and if you can't find anyone else then i'll take you if it comes down to it #but tomorrow is not going to become a 10 hour day no way no how #and she got so upset she said she had to go lie down 😑#sorry you didn't get your way. i am allowed opinions and autonomy.#even if they interfere with what you want to do.#adam talks too much

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vvanessaives · 1 year

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used this picrew to make my new skyrim crew :3

Hiraeth (they/she/he) || Sibylla (she/her) || Dervera Sathro (she/they)

the dragonborn, the ex-dragon priest now vampire and pain in the ass, the dunmer fed up with everyone's bullshit

#rena.txt #they all mean soooooo much to me in such a short time it's crazy #some cool facts i think are Very Cool: dervera has a enchanted prostethic arm (her left one) which is a spriggan's arm basically but the #typical very long claws of the spriggans are..shorter kjdfk so she can actually use her fingers. sibylla has basically seen soooooo much of #the world's history. she was a dragon priest yes and she used that power to trans her gender. yea. with how powerful dragon priests #were i'm 100% convinced someone could do that with magic. am i wrong? idc. she died at some point bc she betrayed the other priests #when the rebellion started and didn't end up as a crusty lich. Things happen and she's reborn as a vampire let me just say molag bal wants #her dead and both me & sibylla want that bitch dead so we're a team.#still working on my google doc with the info might share it when done idk...if anyone wants to hear the Lore..play with our ocs like dolls #in my tes phase again fr. reading the lore isn't enough i need to get run over with it #oc: hiraeth #oc: sibylla #oc: dervera #these picrew is so cute i might add it into the doc #i'm so brain dead with them that i kept typing lore while watching masterchef 🇮🇹. didn't follow the ep with the 3 stars michelin #restaurants WTF WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME that's usually my fave ep. oc love makes me do silly things

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ayakashibackstreet · 2 months

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No, no, this is fine. I can't bring myself to look at this wretched thing anymore and I'm at least a month behind schedule but this is fine. I will graduate, this is totally fine. I couldn't be more fine. This is fine. I am fine. I am so fine.

#the moment my supervisor messages me I am dropping dead on the spot #mum told me to 'just add a few sentences to it to get rid of the anxiety' the way I usually do #but lads. I don't think it's working anymore.#I'm 17 pages into this damn chapter #and I can't even see the end #I wrote an outline for this subchapter #but so what?#I still have one to go after that #and they're taking an awfully long time #and they're awfully long in general #gahhhhhhhh maybe the pinched nerve /was/ caused by stress after all #if I ended up going to that PhD programme it would legitimately kill me #and GOD I still am yet to submit abstracts to those damn conferences #do I even /want/ to put myself through that? God help me

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pandoratheprocrasticreator · 1 year

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huntlow shippers who cherry-pick every single frame where these two stand next to each other and TJLC it into a secret metanarrative that they’ve actually been madly in love since the moment they met, but disney forced the crew to cut the token m/f couple during The Shortening bc somehow there was no way for these two to have any meaningful conversation in the many many times they were onscreen together

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huntlow dislikers who cherry-pick those same screenshots and say that because other characters blush in non-romantic contexts sometimes, it definitely means every single interaction between these two were 100% platonic on both sides and all huntlow shippers are under a collective delusion, and that dana terrace is being held at gunpoint by disney/other members of the crew to add in a romantic subplot she hates against her will. despite it also not being romantic somehow

FIGHT

#ive talked to both kinds of ppl and i dont think either side understands my stance #i am taking the bat i beat the dead horse with and i am swinging it at the hornets nest #toh #the owl house #to be clear my stance is that i dont think a romantic subplot would add anything significant to either of their arcs #that isnt already fulfilled by their relationships to their other friends and family #in fact i think its very disjointed from hunters arc which is centered around found family #in a full season 3 i would have wanted them to explore how willows history of being bullied tanked her self esteem #causing her to have a hard time believing someone actually likes her #and feeling like she needs to put aside her own issues to focus on hunter bc hes 'more' traumatized #and feeling bad if she ever gets frustrated at him because she subconsciously feels unworthy to have a boyfriend in the first place #so being angry at him would make her feel like shes 'ungrateful' to hunter for liking her #meanwhile hunter would be overly attached to willow like he is to all his other friends but also in a blind trust in authority way #and if they do have problems in the relationship he would blame himself and try to 'make up for it' in acts of service willow doesnt need #if they are to date at all then having that kind of problem pop up and them addressing it is the only way i can think of #where being in a romantic relationship adds something to both their characters #but with the shortening the show isnt going to have time to explore any of that so i think they should have just cut that subplot #unless theyre setting hunter up to be rejected which. well see how that plays out #and also the fandom certainly doesnt want to explore the huntlow dynamic beyond 'angsty white boy and his emotional support girlfriend'#maybe 'two menaces and their friend gus' once in a blue moon #oh and 'child abuse victim wants his girlfriend to beat him up' that ones a classic #what im saying is that the saturation of huntlow fanworks where They Would Not Fucking Say That really didnt endear me to the ship #and also srsly they should have cut out that subplot in the show i know its not the crews fault they got cancelled #but they still have a responsibility to tell a coherent story and that means cutting out unecessary romantic subplots if they dont have time #and the crux of my position is: even if all the TJLC-ing came true and huntlow was entirely developed through totally real longing glances #i should not have to go into the show armed with 80k words of huntlow meta to understand why they want to date each other #willow especially has shown no overt interest and its clear most of the ppl who say she does dont understand or care about her character #yes shes buff yes shes confident can you list her character nuances or is she just your self insert to ship hunter with #someone is going to misunderstand this and assume i just 'dont understand why they ship it' and explain it to me again lmao #lowhunt

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jinxofthedesert · 3 months

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To all wanting an update: I am hoping to get chapter 29 of Carve My Name Into Your Skin out next month. I was really hoping to make it for January but I just haven't had the time.

To those who are unaware, I began my Masters Program at the start of Jan and that is literally all I've been doing. It doesn't leave my mind with much clarity afterward, so the writing has been incredibly slow.

Ironically the chapter is getting long despite this as I've been working on it when I can. I was hoping there would be a place to break it off, as I've done with the last few chapters concerning the scene with Thorfinn and Bjorn. Make it a 4 part, instead of my planned 3 part. But there has been no good spot to end the chapter, unless I did it mid-dialogue which isn't something I want to do.

Currently the chapter is sitting at 18k, very close to 19k honestly. I have a possible place I could break it off a bit further from where I am and end the chapter early since the conversation will be switching but . . . we shall see. That would be great.

Either way, thought I'd let you all know! Wishing you all a fantastic rest of your weekend and a good luck to the start of your week. You got this~

#thought I'd give you all an update. I believe some who follow me are here from ao3 specifically #and I wanted you all to know that I am still working on the story.#ugh I wish I could've updated this month but it wasn't in the cards.#i knew it would drop severely given they slam you with the easiest class and the hardest class your first semester #and both have a shit ton of reading regardless so it leaves you kinda dead thought-wise lol #can't wait to get the next update out though. hoping you guys will like it #writing #personal #a little bout me #fanfiction #ao3 #writing update #Carve My Name Into Your Skin update #i would add the ship names but I know Tumblr won't put this on the tag unless I mess with this post over and over again #and I'm just to tired to do that tonight #so no askefinn or askefinnbjorn aside from this #hope you're all well regardless

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birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo · 11 months

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MORE GREAT LINES!!!

'u don't love lori. u think u do, but u don't!'

'i'm just some guy!!'

'we haven't had.....the Talk 👀'

'GET OFF ME MAN'

'what's he gonna do? kill me for committing suicide?'

'that is MY wife. that is MY son. that is MY unborn baby.'

'if u wanna kill me, ur gonna have to do better than a wrench'

'that is MY wife. that is MY son. that is MY child' (reprise)

ALSO shout out to my fav subtitle, [Maggie and Beth arguing]. AND to andrea for WRECKING LORI'S SHIT IN BROAD DAYLIGHT. DAMN!!!! she really gave out to her didn't she??? im glad somebody's said it tho, i mean just bc lori is content with being mrs housewife and letting The Men do the fighting and protecting, that's not to say everyone else is as well!!! besides andrea's become a crack shot!! having her play lookout is quite helpful, i think!!

#birb watch #the walking dead #i want 'the walken dead' instead #where every character is played by christopher walken #ESPECIALLY the zombies #RAR i AM. going to Eat u. RAWr. ZAHMBIES!!! the WALKEn dEAd!!#poor randall! i feel sorry for him!!!#first he gets impaled on a fence #then they perform field surgery on him in a barn #THEN they try to leave him in a parking lot full of zombies....#idk man if he really DOES know where the farm is then just. KEEP HIM THERE #JUST ADD HIM TO UR GROUP #he's literally just a guy #pretty weak-willed it seems!! surely u could make some use of him #(if ur not interested in just. being nice i guess lmao)

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mogai-sunflowers · 1 year

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Am I the only one who really hated the year where the "nobody asked thing" happened a ton? It was used against me a lot whenever I overshared and as an autistic person I have trouble regulating that so I just stopped talking at all.

YEAH IT'S SO RUDE AND FOR NO FUCKING REASON??????????????? one time someone said that exact thing to me and i had a panic attack and felt so horrible but now looking back on it....... yes! yes you DID ask!!! because you made a public post with an opinion and gave absolutely no instruction as to who you wanted to respond! this is on YOU! /nay anon

#🌌written in the stars ; asks🌌#im so sorry anon thats really sucky #u can overshare with me anytime and i wont be like that and im dead serious.#the way internet leftism practically requires you to be perfect is so fucking annoying #people act like if you aren't a part of a certain group that youre an asshole if you ever engage in convos about said group.#which is fucking RIDICULOUS!!#like for context #this person made a post sharing an opinion on unlearning racism. and i added my opinion because i too #am a person who has had to unlearn racism. what a shocker.#so i added on agreeing with their point and adding a little of my own insight.#and they responded saying they didnt ask for my white opinion and i needed to shut up #and its like. i understand and respect if you dont want white people interacting with your posts. but you DIDNT SAY THAT!#and sense you didnt i assumed that it was okay to add my opinion because THATS HOW HUMAN CONVERSATIONS WORK!!!!#it was perfectly normal for me to engage in a discussion on racism. i wasn't speaking on an issue i have no say in #i was simply talking about the importance of unlearning racism and doing the work because i have experience with that and its true.#this is true for all nuances and group dynamics im just talking about this rn #please dont get me wrong im not trying to undermine the importance of centering poc #and im not in any way trying to say that white people are always qualified to talk about racism or that we should always share our opinions #OR that poc are obligated to be nice to white people when they're disrespectful to them.#but my point is here that i was entirely within my lane #entirely respectful #but because i misinterpreted a social situation that was not at all clear i was suddenly the bad guy #and its infuriating because this has happened so many times. im not a bad person for getting shit wrong and its done so much and i mean SO #FUCKING #MUCH #harm to my mental health to think of myself as a failure because of my mistakes #it's just. ugh. stop

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