i shouldnt have to pry for attention from my friends that ive known for my entire life. Sure im not anywhere near their number one but would it hurt to think of me?? I think that i should just stay out at my school next summer
maybe i wish they would see this. I wish i could tell them that im frustrated. I fear that any hint of a negative feeling would push them further away and i have to put on a whole act to keep my only friends. My only friends lmao they dont talk to me.
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The thing about me is, that eventually, every person i once met and got close with, will forget me.
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TOA Canon [Underground Citizen of Abyss/Ashen Wolves Professor at the Officers Academy]
FATES [Post Hidden Truths, Route Unspecified]
Post Hidden Truths, revived the power of his dragon half. He is mentally unstable due to the influence of King Anankos, and does not remember any of the time between his death and arriving at Garreg Mach. He knows he died, and then he woke up at the entrance to Abyss. Hence he decides to remain there for now, he does not know himself anymore and does not wish to accidentally hurt anyone with what he does not know. He is confused for the most part, but he knows that he has done awful things in the past. Atonement is not an easy path, but... is there not to be something said for trying?
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He is not aware of the events of any of the paths, returned to rest with the body as an empty husk of a soul. It doesn't really matter which route it is, since the details are handwaved anyway lol.
He will behave in much the same way as he does in Heirs of Fate, confused and slightly erratic. His memories are a tangling mess, so he isn't exactly sure what is what anymore.
He has only ever loved two people, Cadros and Mikoto. Though he will never acknowledge his love of Cadros, as he feels as though he betrayed him during his accidental death at his hand.
He likes animals, as they will not judge him as humans will. His favourite animals are turtles, he feels a bit of kinship to them, given that dragons are technically reptiles as well.
He loves his children very much, though his knowledge of them is limited due to dying soon after learning Lilith was his daughter and because he sent Corrin away with his mother when she was still a baby.
Because of his benevolence, and a deep love for the world and everyone in it, even if he is terribly confused as to who he is, he has a tendency to somewhat take any students without parents/who seem lonely under his wing, treating them as if they were his own children.
He does not think of himself as ever being a king. Valla’s only true kings were Cadros and his family line, he does not deserve that title.
Chronic apologizer, even for things that he was not responsible for. (Not actual fates events, more like. If someone else knocks something over in his presence, he'll act like he's the one who needs to apologize.)
He does not retain any of his draconic powers, at least for the most part. And he doesn’t mind that all that much. He is perfectly content with remaining as his human avatar. Things are better this way, they feel better this way.
His appearance either looks something like this or this. As much as I like the look of normal Anankos, I think he deserved to be a little fucked up even in his human form. There has to be a reason why he hides under his cloak all time, after all.
He does not know of Kana or any other children that Corrin may have.
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I just can't have a decent day can I (vent)
I hate life. I'm sick and tired of having to deal with anxiety and pressure at skl everyday. Like they go on abt how our mental health matters yet they take the piss with the amount of stress they put on us. Often I just wanna kms cos I'm just sick of everything. Nothing I do makes me feel better. I like to do what I do on this but it doesn't make my problems any better. Another thing, my period can go jump off a microwave. Another goddamn week of constant pain and crying. Wooww its November, I can't wait to sit in my room crying & shaking every night cos the stupid fireworks scare the living hell out of me. Like when can I ever just have a decent day, honestly, i just wanna die.
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