#i’m inpatient

[fizzytoo]

i’m trying to crochet a book sleeve and baby you’d think it’d be easy

[elliewilliamsisactuallymygf]

i hate waiting for ppl to text back like ughhh i know u have better things to do but i dontttt

[winterfireice]

My family wants to buddy read it and I’m on page 78 and it’s killing me having to wait for them to catch up

[watermelonbird]

Where is Dream???

[squeaky-potat]

Happy Free Day of Narumitsu Week 2023!

Maybe this is their wedding? A friends wedding? A generic party? Either way I wanted to draw them dancing under tea lights and being married.

[swordsandspectacles]

Entropy’s no. 1 Rule, the glowy bits on the suit look better in daylight if you’re backlit then if you’re not.

1 hour-ish cool-down doodle - uh- inspiration. Struck.

[mistersillyyy]

(Waaaaa sound effect)

[scribesofcalamity]

A quick small piece of vent art.

Avoid the tags,I am putting all the Blegh stuff there. Things are rough right now and have been for multiple weeks….but I am holding on. I’m going to try and do sketches for the rest of the people I want to hit for art fight. I’m going to catch up on my work and keep doing well. I’m going to have a good weekend with my partner. I’m going to be ok. It is going to be ok.

[never-not-ever]

I forgot to mention in that update that I’m 2 weeks free from self harm… don’t know what to make of it. But I feel like it’s done for now. For this relapse, this 10 month episode. We’ll see what happens in the future and where the future will take us.

[isdalinarhot]

Like. I dunno. I have ten billion years of psych ward esque mental health lessons because I’ve been hospitalized like a dozen times. And like I did treatment through school and 90% of alcohol treatment bullshit is the same as suicide treatment bullshit except Killing Yourself is replaced by Getting Shitfaced so they would not tell me anything new at rehab

[wldfireheartt]

orange child proof bottles are starting to grow in numbers

the glue needed to hold my tattered parts together

make the air I breathe no longer suffocate my lungs with every breath

I wish I would of been stronger when our souls were sewn together

maybe then I could of kept us from unraveling at the seams

I am left with the threads woven around my hands—wondering how to piece us back into one

— I am poison too // Kimberly Anne

[davidjrpalos]

also thinkin about how fucked up my my sleep was in the hospital, I’ve woken myself up kicking and fighting before (which I did most nights there too 😐) but I’ve literally never woken up full on screaming in my life until my stay this time and that shit is so surreal I scared myself even more and ig, unsurprisingly, the staff did not come to check on me lmao

[alyoshka-karamazov]

I do think a lot of people who constantly bring up recovery to those who suffer from EDs come from a good place, but I don’t think they understand that they’re really just creating more problems. No one wants to be told (in a manner that can often come across as patronizing) that they have to do this. I guarantee you, we know what we’re doing to ourselves. And then of course there’s the people who bring up recovery as a way of establishing their “moral high ground” and all this combines to make an already resistant group of people even more resistant to getting help. This is made even worse when you go into spaces ED suffers have carved out (like the coquette aesthetic) just to criticize. Yes, no one will ever be truly ready to get better, but there’s a difference between someone who wants to and is open to getting help and someone who very clearly just wants to vent. Sometimes you have to take that step back, no matter how frustrating it is.

[thirteens-earring]

book I’m reading: a lot of people experiencing mental health crises turn to libraries which are unable or unwilling to meet their needs

me: alright yeah

book: this is because we got rid of the asylums. open the asylums

me: um

[johndonneswife]

not a sad ‘woe is me’ post so don’t send me weird messages but: the thing abt cycling through every ED possible and being bulimic for like 10 yrs & making yourself vomit up to 10x times per day on ur worst days is that your teeth and gums will eventually give out on you (bc it doesn’t make a difference if you’ve been good & it doesn’t matter how well you’ve taken care of your teeth for the last x years) and u will be 30 years old crying to your very sweet and kind dentist when she tells you about the 1 million things that are wrong with ur teeth

[theashleygrave]

Cw food struggles! (due to autism)

Ugghhhh I wish I didn’t have all these weird issues with food. I guess it makes sense I do, considering my source, and also how my bestie in the system has a lot of its own food struggles and we front together sm.

I have so few foods I’m willing to eat, all other tastes and textures are bad bad bad, but I a hard time accessing those safe foods. And I KNOW I need to eat rn but there’s nothing in the house I wanna eat, but I don’t wanna give up front to someone to eat for me either. This is a recurring issue for me, I NEVER wanna give up front when I get like this and idk why!

:(( I have a soda at least. I can drink that if nothing else.