#i’m just tired and gay

[annieroses-rant]

junioritis

am i doing enough? am i doing it right?

halfway through

the stack of homework i can’t finish tonight

are you still proud of me?

though i’ve fallen from grace

am i still beautiful with all this shit on my face?

do you want more from me

than what i already am?

will you still sit with me if I tell you I can’t?

i waste my time writing this

and feeling like a lost cause

feel like i’m the one booing over all the applause

smart girl

kind girl

“fine” not really fine girl

straight girl

strong girl

do you even try at all girl?

if i live up to what you ask of me

is it something you’d even see

if i could ever do enough

would you give me more, call it “tough love”?

every week feels like a year

and every slumber twenty seconds

blame it on my low attention span

and all my screwy methods

i can never stop trying all the way again

cause i’d lose all my passion and all of my friends

can’t afford to start over

only keep moving on

i seem to run so much

i don’t know what i’m running from

and will the hardships take that from me too?

i’m not living loud enough

so everyone tells me I'm through

something in me says, keep walking

smile as if you're still alive

some fighter spirit keeps me going

maybe soon I'll learn to thrive

and so close to something but so far away

my heart has begged so many people to stay

if i could write a poem called

sorta somewhat like okay

if i could get a streak going

happy day after happy day

but i’m three years into high school

and every day is just the same

i say i’m gonna work hard

and then i play video games

cause i’ll never be the girl everyone wants

so why even try to be something i’m not

i’m sleep deprived with no tears left to cry

and i’m fine for now

but i knew something so profound

and then i promptly forgot

[watchyourbuck]

There’s some people on Twitter saying that if Eddie were to have a queer storyline he’d necessarily have to come out as bisexual because otherwise it would be like – and I quote – shitting on Shannon and Chris, and I just wanted to come in here to say that that makes absolutely no fucking sense. I don’t think anyone here has ever doubted the love Eddie has for Shannon, even after her passing. Particularly after 7x05, with the context of the now canon catholic guilt, Eddie being gay (not that I think he’d label himself anyway) would complete a puzzle for him. This man was brought up in a catholic home, with catholic teachings, and I can tell you from experience that most of those schools intervene in every aspect of your life and not just your studies. He has said it himself that the reason he married her was because she was pregnant, which again, is a very common catholic view of life – and I’m not speaking deprecatingly – but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t love her, or his son. Eddie loved Shannon, he would’ve given her life for her, and I also know he never used her as a beard, nor has he done that with Ana or Marisol. He’s never used any of the women in his life, and in fact, he actually broke up with Ana the second he realized his heart wasn’t in it. Eddie Diaz is a good man who’s had to unconsciously and subconsciously hide parts of himself, and even though all we can do is speculate about his sexuality, his coming out as gay would not destroy his family, it would actually only strengthen it, considering he’d be more comfortable being who he is, regardless of who he’s with.

[thebroccolination]

THE EX-MORNING SERIES CONCEPT

By now I think many people have heard that KristSingto’s upcoming series is an original script that was written for them. What we also have confirmed is that it was written about them.

[source]

KRIST: This series was written by P'Backaof and directed by P'Lit where they created this script from the start deliberately for the two of us and they got information for the characters etc. from KristSingto directly. In the series, the name for P'Sing is Tamtawan, and my name is Phatapi. And Tamtawan Tamtawan and Phatapi are KristSingto themselves.

INTERVIEWER: Does that mean you play yourself?

KRIST: [laughing] Yes, we act as ourselves, so it's not difficult at all.

Today, Aof elaborated on his part on Twitter:

[source: @backaof]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

And Jojo added:

[source: @jojotichakorn]

[translation: @_beinglistener]

So, two gay men are the leading creative minds behind KristSingto’s comeback series. Time to study up on your KristSingto history, kids. \:D/

Long live sanctioned RPF. 🎉

[squeezetheduck]

Here’s the thing with people shipping Alastor, I could not care less about who people ship Alastor with or whether they ship him at all, what I do care about though is people making him allo.

This is one of the few cannon ace (possibly aro) characters out there and he can 100% be shipped in verity of ways without ignoring he is ace or aroace.

Make him aroace but still platonicly obsessed with Lucifer or Vox.

Make him sex repulsed or indifferent it doesn’t really matter (I could 100% see him having sex with someone for entertainment purposes just like I can see him being sex repulsed).

Even make him Demi/grey-ace if you must show him reciprocating sexual attraction.

Bonus points if he’s aro and you play around with platonic relationships/QPRs.

I know at the end of the day he is a fictional character and people will do what they want, but please listen to aro/ace fans when we ask you not completely ignore his sexuality when there are so many ways you can still play around with his characterization without disrespecting one of the few cannon ace characters to exist in TV.

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

Well. This didn’t turn out to be the complete banger I thought it would. But okay.

Inspo + sketch under cut!

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Murdoc (left): he/him

Emmett Becker (right): they/he

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Proship/comship/‘neutral’ DNI

[it-was-maroon]

I know it won’t happen, but I need a rep prologue that just says “I’m a girl kisser, xoxo Taylor”

[cloud-based-and-rainpilled]

Calling it now: The Michael Sheen autism show “The Assembly” is going to be a bigger bomb than the outrageously mediocre Frost/Nixon and I for one am an autist excited to be fed with cringe ragebait the world has not seen since “The Other Sister”

[o-wild-west-wind]

tumblr algorithm stop feeding me takes that this show is just a silly goofy comedy that shouldn’t include death or that Izzy is the token disabled elder queer on the show where an actual disabled elder queer is literally the romantic lead or that Lucius and Pete being called “mateys” is diluting their gayness because it’s not “husbands” or that it’s sexist that Zheng lost her fleet and later prioritized her love for a man or that Ed is Izzy’s abuser because we conveniently forgot all of season 1 or that trauma is never followed through with because sometimes actions are used instead of words or that Ed learned nothing because the inn was apparently a whim as if he hasn’t been obsessing over retirement from day 1 I swear did we even watch the same show?? I literally feel like I’m in backwards land?

I have a really novel concept for y’all complaining about character’s arcs not being fully resolved or healed and that’s called there is supposed to be another season of this show

I also have another really novel concept as to why every single character did not have a one on one trauma apology session and so much time was spent on Ed and Stede and that is because this is literally the Ed and Stede show and also sometimes parallels are meant to be inferred and extrapolated because that is what efficient storytelling does instead of spoonfeeding you

And my most novel concept of all as to why some beloved characters had less screen time is because Max is a massive jerk and cut the budget

Y’all this wasn’t personal and maybe this show was never about Izzy maybe the show called our flag means death is actually about death maybe sad does not equal homophobic letdown maybe the brown gay character introduced as the love interest from day 1 gets to outlive the angry white guy that had a redemption arc after actively bullying and trying to break up every gay couple for a season I don’t know what to tell you just can you please let non-white people have this arc for once without assuming it’s an attack on you I’m BEGGING y’all

[ratatattouille]

I miss when romances had pining and longing and uncertainty and friendship and nuance instead of instalove scenes with two scenes of characters staring across the room from each other in slow motion while dramatic music plays and then kissing maniacally and having sex in the next two seconds

I miss when characterization used to matter in how romances developed instead of making your characters make out as soon and passionately as possible so that a bunch of people could make gifsets of it

romance in stories today feels like how pop love songs are written nowadays, rehashed, impersonal, angsty, remixed, sweetened, surface, self-destructive, toxic, immature, brief, marketable and consumable

emotional manipulation that relies on overwhelm to make you feel something instead of sincerity. it is marked by falseness, thinking that’s what fantasy is, that’s what the escape is, when the true escape in any fantasy is silent, excruciating hope

[thefleshyougoveggie]

every time i see someone who listens to csh being surprised that csh is considered “furry music” & that spotify classifies it in the genre “furry” /being worried that it’s gonna be on their spotify wrapped it’s always a little funny to me.

i mean im guessing these ppl don’t know that much about the band, haven’t fully thought about some lyrics and maybe haven’t interacted that much with the fandom?? (tho tbf maybe the fandom on other platforms isn’t as many furries?? but i lowkey doubt it but idk??)

[wistfulenchantress]

reminder that gay people recognize gay people in fiction. if i tell you “oh their gay” they almost certainly are. like, i know for a fact.

[armoralor]

some folks are discussing fandom infighting, but I haven’t still seen any examples of wolfwren stans sending hate. I scrolled through every comment on the Ahsoka casts’ posts (yes all of them) and the only hate I saw was homophobia aimed at wolfwren.

does anyone have examples & links to wolfwren fans being toxic? so we as a community can block them + make sure they understand they aren’t welcome in the fandom? I have dozens of tangible examples of the vile hate people have sent to wolfwren stans (x x x) and a long list of transphobes/homophobes if anyone wants a block list.

[tea-cat-arts]

What’s with blue color palette characters and pulling bad bitches by being doomed by the narrative???

[gayboss-too-close-to-the-sun]

Okay but like

How much of the Tolkien fandom is homophobic?? Because from my experience Tolkien nerds are always either very homophobic or very queer positive, and I have no clue what the pie chart would show for how large each population is. It’s made me quite afraid of the fandom because I don’t know how to end up in only the gay parts and have had too many unpleasant encounters with the homophobic parts…

I know my exposure is only to a specific set of fans, so I don’t feel like I have enough experience to estimate and I’m just like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[jeireilostt]

Ah yes. I could just hear all of them internally (or externally for Klaus) screaming.

“BEAT HIS ASS BRO!! BEAT HI ASS BRO!! BEAT HIS ASS BRO BEAT HIS ASS BRO!!”

Most of them enjoy violence :) lest be honest who doesn’t.

[malenchka]

“If you’ll pardon the observation, you appear to be in your underthings.” “…Yes.”

I am once again asking you all to read Mortal Follies pls and thank you