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Victor's dating headcanon analisis
How is it like to be the one and only of the imperial 'monster', exactly?
CHARACTERοΌ Victor Perseus Aeneas
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Being with Victor takes a quite amount of patience, especially at the very start when it comes to deal with the indifferent, 'cold like' being that he appears to be.
It takes him a while to adjust to matters related to close relationships with other people who are not family, especially in the romantic part. He'll struggle when expressing himself a lot. And with his own abandonment issues kicking in the way more than once, often he will question if he's even doing well as a lover. But no matter what, he'll do his hardest to demonstrate that he cares, more than he will ever be able to show.
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βββ Despite him being a well feared but still respected figure in the empire, one would find it surprising that he isn't a talkative or social type like his brother. Even more awkward is that it's not often anyone could find him in company of more than one individual who is not either of his siblings or Alexander, his cousin. There will be many occasions on the daily that he's going to show himself off as uninterested or distant, with how he unwillingly speaks in a cold tone, his expressions as stoic and indifferent as possible.
And with the countless rumours of him being a cold monster roaming around, he'll always fear that one day you'll see him in the exact way he does. That's the main reason for his hesitation when it came to even approaching you in the first place. Often, Victor will wonder if he's even doing a good job as a lover. The fear of you leaving haunts him in every direction, whether they may be nightmares or anxiety attacks when you're not around. He has been looked down by his father for so long, It takes a lot from him to not break down in front of you when things are tough, he doesn't wish to worry you in any way.
βββ Victor will be very protective of you. He is who has lost lots of loved ones in his life, both personal and in the battlefield. From his mother to even his friends and comrades.
But he won't go as far as forbidding you to go around just to stay by his side, or locking you up in his room. It is not fair, and he knows it very well. He hates the idea of being like his father, or taking ideas from someone he loathes with all his might. The least he can do is just stay silent and be as vigilant as possible. Intervining when the situation is about to take the wrong path.
At that point, he doesn't care if others will see him as the monster they believe he is. Your safety is what matters the most to him, and he won't let it slip away just because of his reputation.
βββ At the same time though, Victor's a good listener and somewhat advisor.
He's not the type to judge so meaninglessly, especially if the ones that are talking are those close to him. If you have to let out some frustration or need to vent about anything, he's there for you, attentive and ready to listen to every word without a response of mockery. He's ready to be even your shoulder to cry on. And if an advice is needed, he'll say it, whether it might be a big or small one. He doesn't mind at all, helping you is his sole wish.
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Β βββ I. ACT OF SERVICE
Don't be surprised at seeing him dedicate poems, violin compositions for you during the free time he has. You may find those things unnecessary, but they're just some of his ways to show his love to you and he finds himself able to express his true feelings through them. And don't be alarmed to see him ready to give you anything you want, even. Especially during those times of sickness. To him, any wish from you is an order to execute. And he will never bring himself to complain.
Flowers? Done. Books? Done. Chocolate? Desserts? His company? Anything else? All done without any complaints.
He has experience with taking care of his ill loved ones, and he knows what to do during those times. Those said experiences do not come from only the battlefields. But also from all the time he spent raising and looking after his younger sisters, along with Verena, throughout childhood and teenage years despite the heavy schedule. And no, he won't let you repay him in any way, economically and wealth wise. All he wishes is to see you being happy and healthy around him. And, perhaps some cuddles can work too as repayment. . .
βββ II. QUALITY TIME
Despite being quite busy, Victor is the type to reach out to you as soon as his duties are finished. He always tries to make up for the time lost by helping you around. It doesn't matter how exhausted he is, being by your side is enough to soothe said tiredness within him. Especially at night, when you two cuddle together to sleep, he always makes sure to keep you close to him and never let go of your warmth.
And while he's away for missions in other nations or war, Victor will have Verena, or Andronica on a few occasions, checking up on you. Even if you assure that you will be fine, Victor doesn't wish you to be alone. Paranoia, negative thoughts and worst case scenarios that appear often in his mind.
What if you get kidnapped? What if his father sends assassins at you under his nose?
The fear of not being able to protect once more makes him desperately not wanting to leave your side, that's why you'll find him right before your door when it's all over. During those separated times, he will send you letters to assure you that he's alright. And at his return, he will try to bring you materials of the other nations, too. Whether they may be artifacts, scripts or art. Or simply pastries of the said nation's culture. He wants to share his discoveries with you alone.
Victor will let you help him tend his wounds while he talks about the events that happened, a silent gulp hearable every time you nag him about him not taking care of himself properly. But all will always end with the two of you relaxing in each other's arms, sleeping or reading a book together.
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If there's something certain about him, is that Victor will call you by your name most of the time.
He is awkwardly dry when it comes to call others with nicknames. After having the habit of using normal names or official titles for so long, thinking or even calling you with a petname will take him quite a while, especially at the start as he adapts to the situation. But if there are titles he would call you with, they are most likely to be:
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MY BELOVED ; DEAR
The date organizations will often be up to you
Poor man has no clue about ideal dates and really doesn't know what to do. After all, he has never been on an actual one, seeking advice from Verena is what he does the most if he's truly lost.
Whether they are trips, walks or even a shopping spree, he won't mind at all. His money is all yours to use. But even staying at home together is enough for him. It will be either you cuddling, cooking or him composing for you with his violin, or anything you want to do.
But on special occasions like an imperial or once in a century event, Victor is the one who wishes to make it all special. He knows the best spots for those activities and will always prepare it in advance, while also considering the possible downturns that could happen.
But they matter in a little amount. He just wants to make you feel loved in the best ways possible. Even if it might end up with you sleeping in his arms in the middle of a star gazing session, his happiness still remains intact, as he prays for those moments to forever remain.
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Since you want headcanons for him:
Joe "Bear" Graves who keeps you on your back for hours with your hips slightly elevated because he does not give a shit if his balls are too hot for his sperm he is breeding you the way it should be and he does not care how long it takes even if you can not sit down for the next few weeks
Joe "Bear" "I will get you pregnant no matter what" Graves who said fuck you to his apparently hot balls and is hellbent on creating a family and getting you pregnant with his baby <3
He may be already up there with age but he has the stamina of a bull and if he sees you in that cute little sun dress with the low neckline? He's hard as a rock in record time and he's not letting you off of his cock for the rest of the night :((
In fact, after he comes back home from a longer deployment you're absolutely not getting out of bed for the first day or so; Joe would be very touch starved and clingy, not to mention pent up to the point of his balls hanging full and low and starting to ache, so he obviously takes this as a sign to plant his sperm as deep as he can in your precious pussy and hope that it will take :((
Will deffo keep your hips up hours after he came four times inside you and will shush you if you whine at him, tenderly kissing your cheeks and forehead and lips, begging you in a hushed, desperate rumble to please stay still a little bit more while he situates himself between your elevated hips and massages the soft flesh of your hips and your lower tummy where your womb is. He wants to be a daddy so so bad, he wants to father a baby with you, so please, stay like that a while longer to make sure Bear's seed is doing its job and that soon you'll have a belly full of his cub <3
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Okay so I have more thoughts on Dead Boy Detectives but this is less about scene analysis and more about my own personal interpretation of Charles as I truly believe Charles' inability to fully "reciprocate" Edwin's feelings is less about accepting his sexuality/lack of awareness about his sexuality and more about feeling unworthy of being on the receiving end of Edwin's love (and about bad timing - them being in an afterlife or eternal suffering situation on the literal stairs of hell, but I digress lol). This would explain, pretty seamlessly, why he seems to seek out fleeting or "fun" romances and flirtations. It would also explain why, immediately following the confession, there are micro-changes, blink-and-you'll-miss-it differences in Charles' behaviors and expressions. It's clear that our boy is reflecting, and he meant it when he said he intended to "figure out what the rest means..." even if it takes him forever (and I doubt it will, but again... I digress). This is why calling his reassurances to Edwin on the staircase a "rejection" and putting Charles in a box as default-straight is a complete disservice to his character, to the writers, to the queer brilliance that rings beautifully in every facet of this show, and to Jayden Revri who is an exceptional actor with a palpable, deep love and reverence for the character he's portraying.
As a repressed PTSD bisexualβ’οΈ myself, I can't help but connect Charles' history with abuse alongside his poor perception of self, people-pleasing tendencies, and his quickness to stifle and repress his own feelings and desires to his fear of being a "bad person." It would not surprise me if Charles would fear the possibility that he is capable of taking something fragile, beautiful, raw, and vulnerable (Edwin's love) and destroy it in the way his father did.
Charles has always loved fully and without caution; I would even say he loves recklessly at times, throwing himself in front of danger, even to his own detriment. But has anyone fully loved him back in the way he loves? Charles has always loved Edwin, but did he ever allow himself to humor the idea that Edwin might just love him back?
It's evident that Charles had very little kindness in his life. Charles' friends were conditional at best and violent/abusive at their worst, his father was a monster, and his mother (who, in all fairness, was also a victim of abuse) was quiet and complicit in the abuse Charles received from his father. His entire afterlife is intrinsically connected to Edwin's - his entire existence, and Edwin's entire existence, are so closely entwined to one another that to "screw up" the delicate balance they've struck would be more than unfortunate - it would be earth-shattering, a loss like no other. Charles is impulsive, but he is not careless...quite the opposite, actually. I truly think whether or not he's attracted to men is not the issue; it wouldn't surprise me if, at the very least, Charles is aware he is attracted to people regardless of gender and just doesn't have the language to put a label to that sensation yet (he might have never been compelled to put a label on it, frankly). The issue is that Charles is unsure if he is deserving of someone not just loving him, but being in love with him... especially when it's coming from someone he thinks is the best person in the world, the most important person to him, the only person he would deny heavy and defy hell for.
Honestly Charles might even already know he has feelings toward Edwin specifically that are not strictly platonic, but taking that gamble even though he struggles with feelings such as being undeserving of Edwin; that he would be selfish to take a love he's undeserving of; that Edwin might come to realize, at some point, that he was mistaken in loving Charles and that being with Charles isn't actually enough/what he hoped it would be and he regrets his confession all together. Or, perhaps worst of all, what if Charles finds that the nagging fear he's buried deep down was correct all along... that he actually is like his father and capable of hurting Edwin and bastardizing the concept of love as a whole?
There are stakes when it comes to loving Edwin - if he were to screw up what they have, the consequences would be disastrous, it very well might destroy him. He cannot be careless, he cannot be impulsive, he cannot risk destroying what he and Edwin have. I'm not sure Charles has ever not loved Edwin, but he probably never humored that his Edwin: touch-reserved, buttoned-up, logical, stubborn, beautiful, kind Edwin who brought a warm light to Charles in his darkest moment, could feel that way, too... especially about him. What is he to do with that?
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