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lilywily143 · 11 months

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3rd Live-Blog: Ep 5 of Murder Drones!

Spoilers under the cut

hhhhh I'm so scared

WHAT HAPPENED TO THE INTRO IM ALREADLY SO NERVUOS I have the bubbles in my chest dont like

This has to be the tape N found last episode...

Gosh idk what to say yet, sounds like a average tape for the drones?? I'm so scared

No it's talking about disassembling drones :[

The "base form" looks of the drones in the tape are making me giggle

Fun x1? hhhh i dont wanna know

IS THAT IRL FOOTAGE?!

wait,.... it this a faulty look for the AS symbol

RAHHH Out of the tape and crow? there's a crow now

hhhh so many drone bodies

we zoomed on one, don't tell me it's that 4th DD

IS THAT A BULLET HOLE IN THE VISOR?

Oh no they're trapped :[ also it ain't Tessa Jr

hhh that place from ep 2

Restricted Sign with claw marks..

Oh! The teaser drones! they are all flashing the DD symbol

NAWWWW IT'S N!!! He's reading a doggy book awwwww

hhhh J stop being mean. She draws well!

oh N just threw that drawing into a pile of other drawings. Probably also J's

"Naww That's why they're good with kids." N you are presious

oh no a teaser drone

book "Danger"?

A LOT of books are falling

"ENTER" "The Spooky Basement" uh oh

The trapdoor is openeing I didn;t see that before!

N just peaced out!!! LITERALLY HE PEACE SIGNED AND WALKED AWAY!!! UGH I LOVE HIM

A bug!!

"Stab"? THATS THE SOLVER VOICE

"Big brother N"? What??

HBUHUGVUBHHUVGHBJL THE VOICE WAS THE FOURTH DRONE WHAT?!?!?! ANd ugH it was the edritch form for a moment RAHHH

Naww they are acting so sweet thou

HHHH "Climing! CrissCross Apple Sauce!" Stop being cute you monster! This drone has some wiggly movement, she's kinda limp

hhhhhh gross gross blood blood not oil

"Basement now!!! Stop ignoring me!!"? oh nooo

N just keeps ignoring, which is good. Be safe

HHHHH THe drone made her visor get a puppy on it for "Puppy Eyes" jngfakndv

Why are you so creepy and why is N always so cute?!

"Movie Niiightt!" N you sweetie

"sheepish nod" STOP BEING CUTE 4TH DRONE

They are staying close and safe with each other, I'm so nervous

Naww she just keeps saying "Shuffle"

Her head is just so limp? She tried to put it back up but it didn't work...

OOOOO I LOVE TESSA She looks pretty even as the silohete

JJJJJJJ

Naww J and Tessa

Wait why did Tessa blinks sound like a clink of glass?

What is in the reflaction of those wine glasses?

NO DON'T BE SAD J She's worried about Tessa! I knew I'd like J even more

Tessa is such a sweet child She got so happy seeing N that she broke a glass

WHAT THE FUCK?! "when u about 2 frickken die speak aloud ID" WHO IS LOOKING INTO THE FUTURE AND SCARING N?!?!

NO Tessa don't hate the 4th drone

"Seems J forgot to let me out of my basement time out agian"? WHY WERE YOU THERE?!

"Annoyed expression" 4th drone oh you sweetie

NO N is sad 4th was locked up :[[[[

"Tessa James Elliot" Long name

"Dumpster pits"? THE DRONES ARE NOT TRASH >:[

noooo this mom sucks

WAIT SHE THREATHED J AND N THEY LOOK SO SCARED NOO

4th please help out, don't get hurt

N DON'T TRY TO HELP HER NOW YOU"LL GET HURT

N NO COME ON

hhhhhhh oh thank god he's not being devorued, he's getting tickled by crows! Naww

He has a sweet laugh

He calls things goobers LIKE RON!!! YEAH I LOVE THAT

Why did the crows get green eyes???

NO NOW THEY HURT HIM?!?!

He said the ID!

bhaobdvefjn WHAT THE!? THE SOLVER SYMBOL!!!

woah robot crow..oooooo the thumbnail one!

FUCK WAIT THAT SOUNDS LIKE UZI WHAT?!?!?! of course it was something goofy she says

TESSA IS CHAINED UP NOOOO

hhhh J really doesn't want to upset the corprate... Also she's on a rocking horse ^-^

4TH IS CYN!!!!

She's tearing apart dolls. Wow she loves that solver

HHHHH ELDRITCH CYN

Gah J and Tessa are mortified

wait what...? N is in his past body relieving this stuff?!?!?!

"You cute weird weird butler" This has to be Uzi helping out

YEAH SAVE HIS MEMORIES!!

evil ghost witch HAH

PRESENT!!!!!! Oh gosh V is here to

okay so Uzi is hacking them to get memories and important information and Khan interupted XD

"NOT A SLEEPOVER" "It's life or death." THat bug and Uzi are epic

HBSJNLVSHBIFDSJVN WHAT WHAT WHAT DEAD DRONE!!! LOOKS LIKE DD"S WHATUHJSDFBLK BLOOD BLOOD

Nooo N wants to leave the memories....

What kinda red vines are all over the walls......?

Wait... ohhhhhh It is just past N with Uzi helping him??? idkkkk

NO IS THAT V?!?! I SAW HER GLASSES

help her N please... YOU PUSHED HER OUT OF THE WAY?!

noooo J has the key they need...

oh no V V V V WHAT?!

EYE EYE EYE IN HAND

oh gosh back to J and Tessa. J IS HELPING TESSA... by chomping her chain...

GO J!!

They sneaking!

" It's a revolver IDK (shut up, gun nerds)" Oh that's funny

A nice gun for J~

and a sword for Tessa!

oop they swapped

FUCK NO V?!?! HER GLASSES

WAIT IS V IN THE FORM UZI WAS IN LAST EPISODE?!?!?

Uzi really bragged that she killed J to past J...

Oh gosh Tessa and J KNOW Cyn will kill... but poor N...

NO V

"Not creepy! Sweet!" oh N

N you dork

V's wings look silver!

YES J HELPED N!!! J I AM LOVING YOU

WHat did that guy say? It is just way too accented

"Why are you talking like that?" EXACTLY

GO N GO

Bleh bleh body horror drones...

STOP WITH THE RED VINES ALONG THE GROUND

That's a weird version of the Solver symbol...

XDDD N really called Uzi the goof name XD, fuck but he is so sad she got hurt...

N N NO

UZI YOUR BACK!! WAIT SHE"S THE ELDRITCH HORROR NOW?!?!

"and J is useless" oh no V is back

"Is V okay in the future?" "Unfortunatly" DONT SAY THAT UZI

WHAT THE HELL?!?! Was Cyn designing the DD FORMS?!?!

oh oh that's the actual past N?!?!?! HHHHHHH IT"S SO GROSS

hhhhh N stop being sweet and concerning

slkjsanwef dvnk DOLL WHAT

DOLL IN PRESENT SHES BACK WHAT?!?!??!

what she got a button eyepatch for her eye!

NO CYN"S BACK

DON'T RESET HIS MEMORIES!!!

no no no no PLEASE N

"well timed. Giggle" Cyn stop....

RAHHH THAT'S COOL [oh okay that leaked yt thumbnail put me in the wrong direction. It wasn't Tessa with claws, it was Cyn kay]

"You didn't have to-" Shot

Tessa tried again

XD Tessa keeps throwing shit at Cyn and it won't land XD

THE TEASER DRONES

NO J

"You didn't have to see this." No Tessa what happens to you here?

Fuck Cyn can't pick up her weopons XD

"Solver of the Absolute Fabric" Whahat?

NO STOP DOLL DON'T TAKE THE BUG

N IS GETTING HURT NO

"This is the only clue to what is wrong with me!" No Uzi you gave that up to save N SGHDJKVNLBNDSKV MY HEART

Khan your awesome

Past V can't help Cyn with grabbies!!!

N gave V her glasses....

N DON'T LET THIS BACKFIRE

HHH V yes she's back!!!

NO CYN DON"T HURT V

YES YES YES UZI

Naww They [N and Uzi and also N and V] are so sweet

wait V didn't want this?

Nawww V

oop wait V wants to kill for the momery looking

Doll? WHY ARE YOU SEEING PRESENT J AND TESSA?!?!?!

The bug is a key?

oh gosh everyone is here?!?!?!?

#lilywily post #murder drones #murder drones episode 5 #murder drones ep 5 #Murder Drones Spoilers #murder drones episode 5 Spoilers

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mythicalshipping · 2 years

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Y’ALL.

THIS GMMORE. I CAN’T.

Rhett’s entire tone throughout this was just like...strikingly soft and intimate? I’m like “should I go? Am I intruding?”

...I gotta wonder what all goes down in their writer’s room. There are so many close ups from this ep that are just...well. Also the lil’ peek of Rhett’s chest through the unbuttoned top of his shirt omgggggg.

O.O

O-

OKAY SO THIS IS JUST A THING THAT IS HAPPENING. JUST RIGHT HERE. IN FRONT OF MY SALAD.

WHAT?!?!?!

“ONE POKE PLEASE” OR ELSE EVERYONE WILL SEE MY CHARLES THE THIRD LEG.

THE WAY HE FULLY TRACED THE TRAJECTORY TO HIS...**90S SOUND EFFECT**?!? AND RHETT’S FACE HERE?!?

AND NOW YOU’RE ASKING HIM THIS?!?!

Rhett “I’m not retrieving it” McLaughlin everyone. How is...HOW?!?!

DID HE ALMOST TOUCH RHETT’S?!?! The S*XUAL TENSION BETWEEN THEM THIS EP?!?!? Link getting all tongue-tied AGAIN.

THIS CLOSE UP THOUGH LIKE I--

O.O A what kind of candle now? (It seems like this is from a previous ep and possibly some sort of “Goop” overly priced item meant to resemble human anatomy but doing an incredibly poor job because if your *candle* is burning then you should see a doctor product).

Okay he’s talking about the yodeling pickle here but with EVERYTHING ELSE I JUST--

LINK’S LIL GIGGLE HERE I CANT?!?! WTF?!?! It’s like the rest of the crew isn’t even in the room XD

PUT YOUR NOSE AT THE...

BRO.

PUT YOUR NOSE AT THE TIP. IS THIS EPISODE ALLOWED?

Link.exe has stopped working, wtf he got so FLUSTERED. BRUH. How is this more ;alsdkjf;ldsakjf than GME?!?!?!

WHAT IS GOING ON?!!?!

OHMYGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD?????!?!?!?!!?!? WHY DOES THIS LOOK LIKE A THUMBNAIL FROM A TOTALLY DIFFERENT WEBSITE IYKWIM?!?!?!

I mean...d*ck? But I don’t think he’s allowed to say that on YouTube?!?!?

WHAT IS THIS INTENSE FACIAL EXPRESSION?!!? WHY IS LINK TIGHTLY GRIPPING HIS OWN THIGH?!?!

THEN WHY DID YOU SAY THIS IN A BREATHLESS AND SULTRY VOICE LINK?!?!?

OH GOD AND NOW RHETT IS GESTURING TOWARD HIS MCLAUGHLIN BUT TRYING TO MAKE IT NOT LOOK LIKE HE IS GESTURING BUT ACCIDENTALLY ENDS UP MAKING THE MOVEMENT SO ELEGANT IT’S LIKE “WOULD YOU LIKE TO TRY OUR SAMPLER PLATE TONIGHT SIR?”

Link pls you cannot be saying this after all of that...

...

I don’t have words for this but I stg if my post gets f*agged for Not Appropriate For Professional Environments content...

WHOA.

ISTHISFOR*PLAY??????!?!!?

OKAY SURE BUT *I’M* THE WEIRD ONE OVER HERE WITH MY FANFICTION?!?!?!?!

So yeah I totally forgot Link had another turn after all of that lmao. And I just...

The way Link is standing, he may as well have set up a Link figurine between his legs like:

Rhett mentions that Chase gestured to him during this, and before Rhett can even get his full sentence out, Link has already responded possessively. Like, I can only imagine how much that man (Chase) has seen...

SO LIKE LINK JUST DID, 5 SECONDS AGO?!?!

So...idk how...this happened, but Rhett is asking about the item Link has in his pocket and asks something along the lines of if it is an item involved in people having an o*gy in the park, and A.) I cannot recall how in the world he got on this tangent, and B.) What kind of parks do they have in Burbank?

LINK.

SIR ARE YOU *TRYING* TO END ME?!!?

THAT HAS BEEN MY QUESTION THIS WHOLE EPISODE MY DUDE.

Rhett literally says this mid-reach, as if he was going to deny Link lol.

And this was just cute. :3

But *WHEW* I need to lie down lmao.

#rhink #gmmore rhink #gmmore rhink 2247 #mythical ot4 #kinda

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barkspawn · 1 year

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IDK if you’re still up for taking anonymous prompts but if so, if you’re in the mood for it, can I get some Seb/Amelia sweetness/fluff please? Pre-relationship/established relationship doesn’t really matter, I’ve just had probably the worst day of my life to date (ended a 12-year relationship) and could use something sweet. But if not, that’s okay. :) I love all of your Seb/Amelia stuff and will probably go back and reread it.

Heyyyy. Sorry it took longer than I meant. I ended up scrapping the first try, but this one is one of my favorite cutesy ones. :)

Feel free to reach out and I hope all is well. <3

Amelia paced through her living room, stopping every so often to check something on the presentation on her laptop.

She felt like an idiot for this but enough was enough. She pulled her phone out and took a deep breath before calling Sebastian.

It only rang once before he answered.

“Ames, to what do I owe the–”

“Can you come over?” she blurted, mentally cursing herself for not being cooler. He's her best friend, why is she being so weird?

“Uh, yeah…?” he commented. she heard him moving around, “is everything okay?”

“Yeah, yeah. I just… Need to show you something?” she cursed herself for the fact it came out as a question.

“You're scaring me a little.”

She sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose, “I'm fine… Just when you can?”

“I'm on my way.”

He hung up as she groaned in frustration.

Really smooth, Amelia. Definitely qualities he wants.

She set up a sheet and a small projector in record time. As she finished, Sebastian pushed the door open, looking around for anything off before his eyes fell on her. His breath was a little heavy and she couldn't help but wonder if he ran here. She chewed on her lower lip as she often did when stressed, gesturing to the couch.

“Sit please?” she asked, his brows furrowing as he walked over to her, putting his hands on her arms.

“Ames, you feeling okay? What is all this?”

She sighed and offered a shy smile, which he hadn't seen in quite some time.

“Please? I… Need to show you something.”

He looked behind her, noticing the setup, “oh? Uh, alright.”

He moved to the couch, sitting with his elbows on his knees in concentration as if he was both deeply curious and very confused.

He was both.

Amelia ran her fingers back through her hair, pointing at him for a moment, “ground rules.”

He blinked, sitting back like he had been scolded in class, “shit, alright. Shoot.”

“You are not allowed to laugh at me. I will definitely not be able to finish if you do.”

“I can promise to do my best?”

She paused for a moment, “Fair. You have to hear me out. No cutting me off or chiming in until the end.”

He blinked, a small frown forming at his lips, “can't say this isn't concerning, but I trust you.”

She took a deep breath, “and it's not allowed to change anything between us,” she added, her voice soft, “not in a negative way.”

His frown deepened, running a hand back through his hair, “I can't see that happening. Ames, this is--”

“I swear to Yoba, Sebastian, if you laugh at me I will end you.”

He laughed aloud, stopping himself and holding his hand up, “sorry, it's just... Funny when you get all threatening.”

She rolled her eyes, “I'm starting to rethink this whole thing.”

Before he could continue, she turned the projector on.

It was an-honest-to-Yoba PowerPoint. It seemed incredibly professional, up until he read the title.

Why you should ask me out*

With very small print at the bottom:

*I am not joking, if you laugh I will fight you.

Sebastian stared at the screen, trying to see where it said it was specifically for him because there was no way she could like him. He looked over at her and opened his mouth to speak.

“Let me finish, please.”

Something about the look in her eye convinced him. He sat back and watched closely, chewing at his thumbnail in thought as the slide transitioned to the first reason.

“Okay… So,” Amelia started, “I'm super cute and a little bit awesome.”

Sebastian cracked a smile at that one, relaxing a bit as he watched. He smiled but resolved not to laugh. He already knows his answer, but he couldn't pass this up.

“As you can see,” she pointed to the screen with an old, broken TV antenna. That nearly broke him. She glared, continuing as she pointed to a selfie of her which must have been earlier today, “I can pull off overalls. Who else do you know who could do that?” she paused, “well, you probably could. But there's a lot you could pull off,” she mumbled the last part, eyes growing wide as his eyebrows shot up, “oh my Yoba, I meant clothes! Your clothes!” she groaned before collecting herself, “you would look nice in a lot of things– don't you dare!”

She scolded as his face grew red with the attempt to stop a laugh. He collected himself and pointed to her, circling his finger before pointing at the screen.

Her face faded pink as she pointed at him with the antenna, “this… Okay, if it adds to my case, then I'll take it.”

She took a breath before moving on to the next slide, “okay, I'm awesome at cuddling; like next level. I'm also great at giving massages,” she glanced his way as he gave his best expression of consideration.

She paused before moving to the next slide, hoping he didn't notice that she skipped a point. He did, however, and shook his head, signaling for her to go back. “Fine,” she went back, sighing before continuing, “I can't say for sure, obviously, but I like to believe I'm a great kisser.”

He smiled, nodding in appreciation of her going back. She rolled her eyes but continued, “I run a very successful farm. I'm sure you knew that but think of all the fresh food and how awesome it will be to hang out with the animals,” she gestured to Loaf, “he counts too, by the way.”

Sebastian gave Loaf a small wave before looking back up at her.

“Let me reiterate the cute overalls while I'm here. The farming comes with this awesome house that you know is sturdy because your mom built it,” she paused, frowning, “Yoba, that sounds like I'm asking you to move in. I'm mainly focusing on the whole privacy thing.”

He nodded along, the smile never fading.

She moved on to the next slide, smiling sweetly, “I might not be perfect at it, but I'm super romantic. I'll surprise you with little things and probably some bigger things too, come to think of it. I am a little awkward, so I can't say I'll be great at flirting, but I can guarantee I'll try to.”

She moved to the screen which simply said Conclusion.

She took a breath before starting, “to sum it up, Seb, I like you. Like.. I really like you,” his smile faded into a look of admiration that she thought to do this in the first place, “and I think we'd be great together. I'm cute, a little bit of a mess, and definitely more than a little anxious,” she gestured to herself and the screen, “but these are the reasons I think you should date me.”

She gave a small nod before moving to the last slide: questions/concerns?

His eyebrows raised before pointing to himself, verifying that he could talk. When she nodded he smirked, “did you really just give me a whole presentation on why I should date you?”

Her face burned red and her smile faltered, thinking he was making fun of her.

He stood and walked over as if examining her. She froze, watching him.

“You forgot to mention that you're funny. Also badass. You're the only person who's ever beaten me at pool, which I find oddly attractive. You're also incredibly mistaken if you think I didn't already know everything you presented,” he stopped in front of her, his smile genuine, “well, almost everything, but it's not something I’d know until it happened.”

She frowned, “what? I didn't think–” she inhaled as he stepped closer, leaning in just a bit.

“How would I know if you're a good kisser or not?” she couldn't help but smile, humming her response.

“I could give a demonstration if you'd like.”

“Oh, please do.”

She laughed quietly before standing on her toes and pausing just before pressing her lips to his, her hands resting on his chest. It was sweet, simple, and intended to make him want more. Although it was difficult to stop, her whole body tingled a bit as her heart raced. At least his heart was too.

A moment after he pulled away, he gave a breathy laugh, “not too bad, Ames,” he met her eyes, “I think you've sold me. When can I take you out?”

Her face lit up, a wide smile spreading over her lips, “I should go into sales,” she teased before pointing over her shoulder at the fridge, “we could have our own date here? I may or may not have made sashimi in case you were on the fence.”

He laughed aloud and shook his head, “Ames, you could literally have just said ‘date me’ and I would have agreed. But I won't lie, you are fucking adorable,” he paused before lifting her chin to meet his eyes, “even if you said I could pull off any clothes,” he teased before halting her protests with a kiss. She hummed in surprise, his hand moving to frame her face as he allowed himself to deepen the kiss slightly. She moved to pull him closer by his hoodie, inadvertently pouting as he pulled away.

They both were blushing, the action in itself feeling like it was right. He shifted and hummed, “that,” he paused to press a light kiss to her forehead, “was for the sashimi.”

#sebastian sdv #stardew valley sebastian #stardew sebastian #sdv sebastian #sebastian stardew valley #sebastian x farmer #sdv #sdv fanfic #stardew valley #stardew valley fanfic #stardew #stardew fanfic #one shot #fluff stuff #oh look a one-shot #barkspawn oneshot

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penwrythe · 8 months

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Kinda had this thought occasionally about being online as an adult artist and creator: on parasocial behavior and inappropriate conduct

Long post, putting it under a read more

Reflecting on a few past events online where some adult creators behaved inappropriately around minors and younger adults, I just have this thought about how some adults feel so comfortable having an audience of any type that makes them feel okay to befriend, or worse, develop an interest in pursuing a relationship with someone vastly younger than them.

I believe it is not okay for adults to befriend minors for any reason. Like, full stop, it's not okay. Or having easy avenues for minors to contact them via dms or other private means.

And I understand that some younger people see online spaces as an escape, using online communities to find a space that's safe for them and all. There's a post about how some adults online can help minors find a safe space in fandoms or communities, but idk, I think not all of us have the best interests in mind for minors.

I just reminded myself of a recent thing where a former OSC Youtuber was called out for joking around about nsfw content with a minor friend. It's obviously bad behavior, but like why did you do that??? Why that was even a thought in that person's head that it was okay to do?? Get adult friends, please??? (not to mention the YTer's video topics and thumbnails were also inappropriate, too, and had no warnings or disclaimers)

And three former mutuals I had long ago did bad shit as well (one of them lying about their age while underaged, you-know-you-know. And the other had no transparency about how they handled their Objectshow project, having no separation between of their private 18+ art and their project. Third mutual, I tried seeing things from their side of the story, but what happened was still bad no matter what). No boundaries or anything, just absolutely weird bad inappropriate behavior.

And so when I think about this, I'm like "By my age and experience alone, as an adult, I am capable of doing great harm to the youngest members of my following/community/mutuals, etc. Holy shit, I should not treat them like buddy-buddy as though they are my adult friends. They are not. They are kids or teens and having some kind of boundary between myself and them to protect them is better than nothing. Their safety is more important than me gaining loyal fans."

Anyway, that's why in the top FAQ section of my carrd and my Interactions and Boundaries list while I welcome minor followers, I do not want private dms, I'm transparent on my project and its target audience, and how I go about online. I'm open to critique and change (yo, please let me know if I did something wrong or crossed a boundary. Do not put me on a pedestal). I had my own setbacks and I hold myself accountable for them, but I know not to mess with minors.

~hmmmmmm~

There's also my other concern about parasocial relationships and how easy for both minors and adults at any age can get sucked into one. And while a part of it is uncontrollable and unavoidable -- just by reading this post, you are engaging with me in this matter -- there is a part of it that is controllable:

How do you (the creator, artist, etc.) treat your audience? How do you engage with them on any platform? Do you treat them as family, or as friends (like a thousand friends)? Or do you treat them just as an audience, acknowledging them as their own people who want to support you? Do you have minor followers/mutuals and do you respect them, especially as an adult? Do you try to contact them anyway or do you have restrictions on how you communicate to them and vice versa?

Note: I think it's okay to follow and support minor artists and creators as long as you respect them. I'm not saying you should unfollow them. What I'm saying is, do you respect them and their boundaries? Do you have minor friends? If so, do you respect them? (There are young people who become 18 and their friends might be 17 or so. I'm more concerned about 20 or 30+ year old people being friends with underaged people.)

Also, The same for adults, too. Yeah, adults can be fine with inappropriate jokes or whatever, but that does not mean you can do whatever you want with them. Do you respect your adult friends' and mutuals' boundaries? Do you try to settle things respectfully or just use any mistake or flaw for clout?

Also sometimes fans can get weird towards the creators they like. Do you treat your favs as people or as an ideal? Do you hold them accountable or do you ignore their mistakes - even serious shit that harmed people? Even if they are good people, do you hold them accountable still? Do you have extremely high or low expectations of them? Do you hold them up to an ideal so impossible that it becomes concerning and could put them in danger? (stalking, monitoring them, pursuing them for a relationship they clearly do not want?)

While writing all this, I'm reviewing my past behaviors, too, some of which did pop up more on having trouble separating myself from the people I follow and like. Something I need to work on now that I'm aware of it.

But yeah, just want to put this out there cause I seriously think a lot of people (heck mainly adults) need to seriously think about how they go about things online.

Sorry for typos. I started writing this just when I woke up this morning.

#mystuff #personal #vent #// vent #tw vent #neg #online spaces #online etiquette #online safety #tw grooming mention #tw grooming #parasocial behavior #parasocial relationships

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villainspe · 6 years

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MY FIRST ANIMATION MEME EVER..!!! it’s by no means perfect BUT im really excited i got it done & im eager to do more! feedback is appreciated nqn

#trainer gold #pokemon #pksp #pokespe #pokemon adventures #animation meme #ani #dex data #IM SOO HAPPY IT'S DONE BLAUGH.. that was a lot of work! but it paid off!#idk why the thumbnail is all weird.. but okay

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canceltheact · 2 years

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I’m so so so so so so so glad to find people who have the same concerns as I do when it comes to the whole MLU(Markiplier Lore Universe)! I read your pinned post, and I have a few ideas and questions to throw at you if you’ll let me! Okay, so, one, Are we still dealing with Lunxian? I honestly suspect we are, because of the recent clips of lixian at that shady entrance “Iplier Corp.” Two, I’ve always wondered why this hadn’t caught the attention of MatPat? Idk if that’s insulting, but he’s already done two other Markiplier or Markiplier related theories, so why not a continuation of the one he did on the MLU? Maybe Actor convinced him not to? It’s weird…anyway! Three; Do you think that the lights Mark has in the background of his videos gives a hint of which ‘Mark’ we’re dealing with? I’ve always suspected that, because when those lights are certain colors, ‘Mark’ acts accordingly. Example: His shut in video. When he played the game shut it, the lights in the back were all red. And frankly they have been for most of his recent uploads. While he’s playing shut in, he’s acting much more exaggerated, but like a subtle exaggeration??? It’s hard to explain. It miiight be a bit of a stretch though. Undoubtedly, I suspect that Darkiplier is going to make a bolder return soon, given all that weird stuff that Mark uploaded while he was in Canada. It was like seeing actor lose his MIND. All attention was not on him, and he was stuck alone. All the time. Or maybe it was dark in some way? I highly doubt that, because most of the videos, whether it be thumbnail or actual footage, were in RED. The notorious color of ACTOR, not Dark. So, what do you think? This is all I have, especially the short ‘theory’ about the lights in the background. Sorry for word dumping here, I got really excited finding this page! Thanks for putting this all together, and keep up the awesome work!

WOW! This is one of the most comprehensive responses we’ve gotten to our work. We appreciate your thanks and response so much! After some thinking time, the members of our team are here to answer your questions. (We love a good idea dump 😉)

First regarding Lunxian…we definitely think he IS there, but not in the way he was prior (the arcane energy that made him up possessing Lixian). From the looks of the glitching and such, it seems like Lunky basically is costumed and disguised as Lixian (in the 3SG vids, at least). Lixian seems to DEFINITELY have been trapped within Plier Corporation due to images and the audio from the latest 3SG, which you can find in our post here.

Second question…well, we wish we knew. We’ve given slight pushes to try and garner his attention, but sometimes things just aren’t in the cards. One thing that would REALLY support us is watching and sharing our theory video linked here! This is the definitive theory but brought up quite a bit to the present (minus the Plier Corporation) and snazzes it out a lot.

3, according to our sources, we’re not quite sure about Mark’s Canada vids being canon (canadon?), but for other normal videos, we ABSOLUTELY think so. The lights seem to have indicated that for a while for 3SG. In fact, one of our team members has made a comprehensive list of the lighting cues and background lights from all of the scary games, if you’d like to take an even DEEPER dive. And Dark…Dark COULD be coming around. If this Plier Corp business gets amped up more, who knows?

We truly appreciate your support, and we’re happy you found our little corner of the web!

#canceltheact #markiplier #markiplierlore #lixian #lunky #actormark

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m-o-o-n-s-g-o-o-n-s · 3 years

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IT’S MUSIC TIME MY GOONIES PT. 3

FT. MY YOUTUBE PLAYLIST

hehe, so i have been wanting to do one of these again for a while now, so here we are! but instead, we’re doing my youtube playlist, which has all the slowed, sadder versions of songs that i like. yes, i like sad songs, oops :P. ballads have always been my jam, probably always will be so, here are some songs from my playlist! once again, putting the playlist on shuffle and just going with the flow besides the occasional skip lol :P

people i feel like would like to see this: @loth-wolffe @weirdcharacter @ladykatakuri @ahsokasleftbicep

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happier by olivia rodrigo but it’s ten times sadder

by wisterxiaa

i love slowed versions of songs, that is like the way to my heart lol 😂 this is really nice, her voice sounds really cool slowed down like this. the electric guitar in like the middle sounds so cool omgg. is it sad? yeah, a little, but it’s really nice slowed down like this. most of the time, the titles say this in my playlist, but i just like the way it’s slowed lol 😂. the thumbnail is so pretty 9/10, love the purple and the monarch butterflies :) overall, recommend this song when your in the mood for some olivia rodrigo, but a tad bit sadder. AND THE OOH’S AT THE END HIT DIFFERENT OMGGGG AND SHE SOUNDS SO BROKEN AND SOFT AT THE END APOBIHJ[OADSIJB

everybody loves somebody - dean martin (slowed n reverb)

by starclouds

pretty sure i got this song from General Angsty (if i didn’t, apologizes), but this slowed down verison HITS THE SPOT. i love his voice in this slowed way, it is so interesting. also, it’s reverb? like? yes, please. the thumbnail is actually a GIF that is a fountain, it’s pretty cool, 7/10, also this makes me wanna sway with like Echo or something (actually now that i think of it, i’m pretty sure i got this from General Angsty’s dancing post with the boys, which made me so SoFt omg :)) overall, recommend listen to this when you wanna sway with your lover in like a dance club, but your nestled into their neck and your pulled so close and it’s warm in their embrace :) the instruments also are really nice in this verison.

Clair De Lune Ethereal Remix

by A.Krishna

IF ALL MUSIC SUDDENLY BECAME ETHEREAL ON YOUTUBE, I WOULD MOST LIKELY CRY. so i love ethereal remixes, there’s just something so… whimsical about ethereal remixes. this song is so pretty and beautiful on ethereal omgggGGGg. the thumbnail is beautiful 10000000/10. I just- this sounds like a song you would use as like a look back through your entire life, like every memory and moment just appearing as this song plays WOW. and when the piano climax’s in the midDLE OMGGGG it is INSANE, LIKE THE EMOTIONS THAT GO THROUGH MY BRAIN AOBIASDNB and then it gets super soft and quiet aaaahhhh CAN YOU TELL I LIKE ETHEREAL?? IDK IF YOU CAN 😂 anyways, overall recommend this song when your just watching the rain fall and reminiscing about good times in your life :)

heather - conan gray ( slowed + reverb)

by Vibey

okay definitely this song is sadder slowed, like THE FEELS OMGG but it’s amazing slowed, like the original is awesome, AND THEN THIS???!! so the thumbnail is a really pretty GIF of this VHS tape just playing, and it’s purple so 10/10. this definitely brings the raspy part of his voice, and i really like it (or that’s just the reverb lol 😂) only thing i do not like about this slowed version is it cuts off the end of the song at the end of the video, and I don’t know why, but it’s still really good, so i don’t mind too much :). it’s very pretty and sad all at the same time. overall, recommend listening to this song when your just chilling, staring up at the ceiling and your like “let’s be a puddle of sad for a sec”

Chiquitita(slowed+reverbed)💜

by Brown Aesthetic Syndrome

LIL’ SOKA, IT’S OUR SONG!! OUR SONG SLOWED AND REVERBED IS SO PRETTY, AND AWESOME!!! MKAY, SO THE THUMBNAIL IS COOL, 8/10, THE FLOWERS ARE PRETTY!! YES, I WILL BE SCREAMING ABOUT THIS SONG LOL 😂 THE PIANO SOUNDS SO PRETTY IN THIS, LIKE IT’S SO MUCH MORE BROUGHT OUT :))), AND THEIR VOICES SOUND SO PRETTY SLOWED!!! OH AND THE CHORUS ITS DIFFERENT OMGGGGG AOPBINAS[FDPOIBJOFIBOAFINBPOJ IT’S SO INSANE OMGGG AOIBAPDOFSKGN!! ANYWAYS RECOMMEND THIS SONG WHEN YOU ARE LIKE “I NEED ABBA VIBES, BUT SLOWED” ALBKNDSPFOBIN

billie eilish - my future - slowed dreamy reverb

by ayabe

so this song is incredible, like it slowed really hits different. billie’s voice has always been so interesting to me because sometimes she sings like very whisper like, and other times she is full on belting like going insane, and i really like that she uses her voice in multiple different ways during her songs. billie is the number one artist i go to when i really wanna be in the feels, and this verison of my future is so amazing. the beat is so interesting, and the thumbnail is really cool 9/10, also i don’t know what the language is nor, do i know what it says, so if you do, let me know lol 😂 but the picture is cool. this song is one i listen to all the time because it’s just- yes. overall recommend this song when your chilling in bed, just in the dark, with the window open on a summer night :)

friends on the other side - s l o w e d

by angelicsounds

THIS IS SO EPIC SLOWED OMGGGGG I CAN’T NOT EVEN EXPLAIN AOBPINADOPBNF I REALLY FEEL LIKE A SPOOKY DUDE WHO KNOWS HOW TO DO SOME SPOOKY STUFF OMGGG i love the original song, and i also really like the cover by annapantsu, definitely recommend her verison too! this has got to be the coolest disney villain song slowed down, hands down. the thumbnail is a GIF of this anime character’s eyes doing weird looking highlight stuff lol idk what to call it, 8/10. overall, recommend when you wanna listen to a song that makes you feel like the main villain in a story :) AND THE ENDING HITS DIFFERENT OMGGGGGGGG

le valse de l’amour - patrick doyle (slowed down)

by mari

okay, so we all know that I love Cinderella. and this song is so incredible, i can’t- okay, but just imagine… the bad batch, undercover at a senate ball, you, trying to make sure the senators are safe. the boys are in their separate locations, you know, watching, making sure everyone is good. some random dude from out of nowhere tries to make you dance with him. you are obviously like “um, what the heck, please no sir.” and suddenly…

“may i have this dance?”

it’s Hunter (or crosshair, but i’ve written a fic about Hunter dancing with the reader, so i feel like he would be a good dancer).

anyways, he whisks you away from random dude, and your like “Hunter there’s no music” because the orchestra just finished their previous song, and he’s like

“just wait.”

bam, this song comes on.

and suddenly, Hunter’s waltzing with you and you didn’t even know he could waltz. and it’s exactly like the scene from Cinderella 2015. So you two are doing your own thing in the middle of the ballroom, and everyone starts moving out of the way because woah these people are really good at dancing

and you are just shocked because HOW??

and he just leads you through the whole thing. he spins you around, and if your wearing a dress and it’s got some tulle on it, it swishes around when he spins you and oh my god the butterflies and smile he gets when you giggle because you love the way it swirls around you. and then people start backing up more, because at this rate, you guys are taking up the whole dance floor.

and you just keep going, and he starts pick you up and spinning you around when the harp comes on. and he grabs you by the waist and starts swinging you around just like Kit & Ella do in the movie. and then the end of the song comes, and he dips you, brings you back up, and that’s it.

and when it’s all said and done, you just look at him, and well, he obviously looks extremely handsome, his suit is all pressed, and his hair is done back in a bun, but he’s got a few wisps coming out from your whole little dancing experience, and all you can say is:

“I-”

“shhh, mesh’la. later. i’ll tell you later.”

anyways, thumbnail is a solid 11/10, and recommend if you wanna daydream about dancing at a senator ball with Hunter.

no i am not planning on writing a fic about this, what you you implying? okay, yes i am, i am. no shame 😂

sleeping beauty - once upon a dream (slowed + reverb)

by Paige Coddington

sleeping beauty is one of my favorite disney princesses besides rapunzel & cinderella, so i love this. The GIF is so pretty, 10/10. Aurora’s voice is pretty, and her vibrato is so much more prominent in this verison, and i am obsessed. this is so pretty, I- speechless, actually. and then philip comes in and it’s just ✨ also, i always like aurora in the pink dress when i was younger, but now i kind of like the blue dress more. they should have just given her a purple dress i guess lol 😂 overall, really pretty, recommend when you are in the mood for some more nostalgic disney vibes :)

D a n c i n g Q u e e n 女王

by v a p o r w a v e

okay so i originally found this on an edit of “the snap from avengers infinity war, but dancing queen” -

and when i tell you that the snap got even sadder, I-

anyways, i also really like vaporwave music, very interesting and very cool. i love the video because i’m pretty sure it’s the original music video, but it looks like your looking through a kaleidoscope, so 100000000/10. this song is so good vaporwave, like, just yes. like when i say this hits different, like for real, this hits different. ABBA is always good, but this by far has to be my favorite thing of ABBA music i have ever found. It’s like…

it’s just incredible.

like i said with the ethereal remix of clair de lune, this is like a song that you put on your life, and just look at all the memories and moments that have happened to you.

overall, recommend when you wanna just sit and think for awhile, or maybe make the snap from avengers infinity war sadder

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and that’s it! i decided that i would just stick to 10, the other ones i have done are about 12, and i just thought it was a good number lol 😂 i hope you guys enjoy these as much as I do, and check out my pinned post to see them all linked on one post :)

lots of spells (& music listening),

moony

#music #music time my goonies #youtube #hope you enjoy ☺️#wolffe :)#general angsty ✨#lady kuri 😏#bicep ahsoka 😎🧡💙#you need a new nickname lil’soka #since i call you that now #lil’soka 💙🤍🧡🌼

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nevergonnasimpyoumikey · 3 years

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I would like to clarify over the last anon you got that gay keeping of any form is wrong and it is horrible someone assumed personal things you hadn't shared publicly all because you wrote your ship in a way that "wasn't the REAL gay man experience" (which...what does that even mean) was wrong and left a bad taste in my mouth to see because it reeked of what happened to that one trans author who wrote that satire science fiction story and was bullied off the internet for not "being a real trans person."

I do agree if someone wants to create for a ship or wants to see whatever they wanna see they should do it without feeling bad even if the ship is popular. And there is nothing wrong with shipping any of ships for a number of reasons because these aren't canon to the story and rockstarz isn't going to be binging fanfics and suddenly decide to make a character being in a relationship with another just because a bunch of fans want it so it really shouldn't matter what people ship because people can literally just skip the ships they don't want to read or interact with just like someone would skip a youtube video if the thumbnail looks too boring or the title doesn't peak their tastes. (I know everyone knows this but people have been getting harassed over being "harassers" for having some hang-ups about the way some trikey shippers act on here)

HOWEVER I would like to point out that the difference between Michael/Steve ship and the Trikey ship is this exact reason. If someone doesn't ship Michael/Steve, unless someone is a hardcore Michael/Steve shipper (which I have yet to see but it is the internet so who knows) no one is going to claim a person is homophobic or not really queer if they don't like Michael/Steve. I have yet to see a post anywhere that claims that. No one is going to harass someone for not shipping Michael/Steve. However for trikey I can name three off the top of my head from this year alone. And I am not talking about the posts that are just a bunch of pictures of scenes that are clearly just meant to be fanshippy posts that aren't meant to be used as canonically evidence but posts that say "queer people have this unique experience...blah blah blah...which is why trikey will never happen and why there aren't any real gay characters in any GTA game..."

Except that there are...and it's a bit disturbing that there is this weird queer character eraser going on because games aren't as popular as GTA V or even the other queer characters in GTA V (including Trevor himself) that no one talks about...it's weird...and it's terrible because there have been queer characters and continue to be queer characters in GTA games who have helped pave the way for other more popular queer characters.

Not that you do this...but it is something worth talking about.

"it is horrible someone assumed personal things you hadn't shared"

It's okay, everyone assumes things :') I just don't usually talk about my gender or sexuality with strangers because 1. I'm confused and still trying to figure out what to actually call myself (to the people who have to deal with my monthly gender crisis, I'm sorry :D) and 2. I'm worried of some irl people finding me online so the less I say the better. I understand that it affects people's perceptions of me.

"rockstarz isn't going to be binging fanfics and suddenly make a character being in a relationship with another just because a bunch of fans want it"

They aren't? Then why am I doing this?! [deleted blog]

Yes, I'm funny :D

Idk what posts you refer to, unfortunately, or maybe fortunately 😂 But yeah, there are many queer characters in the GTA games, they just aren't maybe known because many haven't played the older games. And I understand if people are only interested in V because it's newer, although I gotta say that I recommend playing/seeing playthroughs of the other games too!

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obscureoperations · 3 years

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Idk if this is what you meant by weird stuff but here this is: I am currently in the dead of shark week and I feel like shit. Could you write a small drabble about Martin taking care of/comforting a trans male s/o while he's on his period? Maybe Martin like idk 👉👈 calls him handsome or smth 🥺 (And keep it sfw plz?) Thank you!!

Sorry for the late responce. I had a long day and actually wanted to type out a "dialogue"

That is the worst! Sorry man, it'll all soon pass. It's just a physical responce, has nothing to do with who you actually are.

At times Martin couldn’t believe he had met someone like you… he would talk, and you actually listen. You were one of the first people in his life who actually made him feel like he was important. You entered his life in a breeze, he could still remember the moment you walked into Cuda’s shop. His eyes were all on you as you skimmed through the various aisles. Something about you made it almost impossible to look away, you browsed the shelves as if you had all the time in the world.

Much to his embarrassment, Cuda was already off on one, urging him to pick his jaw up from the ground. He shoved a broom into his hand, urging him to either sweep or go home. You were always the first person to defend him, that day in the shop was the first of many. He stood at the counter, shaking like a leaf with barely enough courage to look you in the face. Cuda stood behind him, watching his every move, apologizing to you for his employee’s lack of manners.

“I think he’s doin just fine sir… If anything, you need to give this guy a raise.”

His eyes snapped to your face immediately, time enough for you to shoot him a playful wink. He was smitten.

You came into the shop all the time, the two of you seemed to click right off the bat. He found himself looking forward to the moment you stepped in, he had actually finally made a friend.

He thought about you … alot. And the word was mostly an understatement. As he’d sit at home, perched at the windowsill after dinner… he often wondered what you were doing. He wanted to see you. The two of you had become fast friends, you kept him company during his lunch break. You took him around town, to some of the local cafes… despite living there longer, he had no idea those places even existed. The two of you would bum around the park whenever he got off work, and you actually had a day off.

A crush. He actually had a crush on you… the idea didn’t hit as hard as he expected. Despite the fact of being raised in a staunchly Catholic home, everything about being with you felt so natural. He told you things, you told him things… the extent of his confessions were mostly about his sickness. Yours were about how you moved to Braddock to start over. Here you could actually be yourself.

Martin never really picked or pried, you told him things over time. From what he understood, you had a condition… one that required you to take these shots. Once the two of you actually entered a relationship, he had no problem administering them himself. He was really careful with needles.

He loved how happy you seemed to be the days following, every day you seemed to become more and more comfortable in your skin. He was elated, as much joy as you brought him every day, at times, you’d seem to get extremely down.

It was only for a few days out of the month, but during that time, he was always at a loss. He wanted to help you as you’ve always helped him… but didn’t want to mess up and do the wrong thing.

He made frequent trips to the library and by now, he seemed to have a bit of a better idea what was going on. You never liked to talk about it. You apparently had a curse of your own to deal with. That was something that he could completely understand. All he could do during those times was sit back and listen for whatever you needed him to do.

Oftentimes there was nothing, you never liked to be a bother. You never liked to draw any more attention to what was happening to your body. Still, Martin would wait patiently along your side, prepared to do whatever it is that might make you more comfortable. As of now, you were curled up on the couch watching “spook-a-thon” on channel 6.

Martin stood poised over the counter, absentmindedly chewing at his thumbnail. . He was supposed to be making lunch, you were really hungry and needed something in your stomach. He had placed two tablets of aspirin in your hand before tossing you a coke from the fridge. He didn’t want to risk you getting nauseous now. He settled on whipping up a couple of sandwiches.

He could hear your groan of aggravation over the commercials, and began to pick up the pace. He offered to grab the heating pad from upstairs, but apparently “you were fine…” He hated drawing attention to it, he always felt as though might think he was being condescending. He only wanted to help, but didn;t want to hover… the least he could do was feed you.

He turns on the faucet, briefly washing his hands once again. He reaches for the cupboard, pulling out the value sized bag of salt and vinegar chips. It was your favorite,he always made sure to have some on hand for whenever you might be feeling a bit down.

The plates were set, but he almost forgot the pickles, with a sigh he grabbed the jar from the fridge. As he placed it onto the counter suddenly he had an idea. He picks up the jar lightly taping it against the tiles. He sighs, almost audibly, before tapping it again.

“Babe!” he calls

Silence. Surely you couldn’t have fallen asleep. From the way it sounded, if you didn’t eat something soon, you seriously considered biting his head off.

“Y/n!” He calls again, just as you casually pad into the kitchen. You sleepily begin to rub at your eyes. You wore one of his somewhat over sized pajama tops. You looked adorable. According to you, his t-shirts always feel a bit more comfortable. Who was he to argue?

“What is it babe… the movie’s about to start up soon..”

Martin sighs dejectedly as he picks up the jar, prying at the top. “I can’t- I cant get the top off… I’ve tried…” He was practically yanking at the jar with his bare hands. He was about to slam it onto the tiles before you speak up...

“W-woah.. Easy now.. Don’t drop it!” You laugh.

“But-- I it’s-- not..” He was about to hit the jar along the side of the counter again before you step in.

“Hey come here, let me try..”

With a sigh, he reluctantly hands over the jar but not before mumbling “It’s just really tight…”

“M-hmm.. Okay sure.” You smirk…

“It might be expired.. Thats why its so airtight--”

<pop>

You stood there for a moment as though you were waiting for an award, as Martin’s jaw continues to gape.

“No way…” He shakes his head.

“Did you even turn it?!” You laugh stepping over to the counter, surveying the freshly made plates. They looked awesome, he even made sure to layer your sandwich with extra pieces of Swiss.

“I did!.. I almost shattered the lid!!”

“Sure okay…” you shrug, placing the now open jar onto the counter.

“Lunch looks real good, are you gonna finally sit down to join me?”

With a sigh, he reaches for the jar placing a few of them onto his plate, shaking off his fingers. “I guess… "

"Good! Martin, stop sulking...you loosened it up!"

"You have to say that..." He whispers as the two of you walk over to the couch.

"I do...you could jus--"

Your words are inturrupted as he lightly pecks you on the cheek.

"Thanks handsome.”

#martin 1977 #martin 1978 #martin mathias #martin/reader #martin/ftm reader #martin/gender neutral reader

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waitimcomingtoo · 4 years

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I Keep On Missing You - Tom

First Part

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Authors note: The songs didn’t come out in that order in real life by any means.

Masterlist

Tom tracked your relationship with Brad with The Vamps music. Every time he heard Brads voice on the radio, he gave it a good old fashioned rage-listen.

“Oh how I wish that you could say you feel the same way.” Brad sang and Tom groaned loudly.

“She doesn’t!” He huffed and quickly changed the channel.

“I’d risk it all. I’d rather crash, I’d rather crawl than never have your love at all. With only bricks to break my fall, I’d risk it all.” Came on another time.

“Shut up!” Tom shrieked.

“We will dream a dream for us that no one else can touch. My dear, I’m here, so wake up.” Brad seemed to follow him wherever he went.

“Go back to sleep, and starve!” Tom grumbled.

Despite his hatred towards them, all those songs told Tom you guys were in the talking stage.

High Hopes came out a few weeks later and told Tom you were together. Lyrics like “I could move in with you and we could get married too.” cut Tom like a knife. He winced every time it played on the radio.

Worry told Tom you and Brad were fighting and falling apart, and he tended to leave that song on a little longer.

Finally, Million Words. A breakup song.

Tom wasn’t very experienced in love, but he wasn’t an idiot. He wasn’t gonna be that guy that tried to win a girl back right after a breakup. He gave you space but when he refreshed your Instagram one day and saw all traces of Brad had been deleted, he decided to reach out.

“Hey.” He wrote.

“hi.” You answered a few seconds later.

“How are you doing?” He sent.

“so you heard?” You replied and Tom let out a little laugh.

“Everyone hears everything in Hollywood, but that’s not what I’m here for.” He wrote.

“then what are you here for?” You wrote back.

“You. I’m here for you.” Tom sent.

“That was lame.” You replied after a minute, and Tom blew breath out of his nostrils.

“If I recall correctly, my lameness was one of the things you loved about me.” Tom messaged. He waited anxiously for a response.

“ew why’d you put “love” in past tense?” You finally answered, and Toms heart skipped a beat.

“Idk we’re broken up I didn’t want to assume.” He texted back.

“never mind. forget I said anything.” you sent.

“Okay. How are you feeling?” He asked.

“better. brad and I have been broken up five months now so I’ve healed.” You replied and Tom smiled to himself.

“I’m glad you’re okay.” Tom sent, then typed out “I miss you”, but he deleted it.

“i’m kinda glad you reached out. i miss you.” You went and Tom nearly threw his phone.

“You do?” He asked.

“we were best friends before we started dating and I thought we always would be. it’s been super weird without you this past year.” You sent. Tom didn’t know how to respond. His thumbs danced over his keyboard until you sent a follow up text. “i don’t like it.”

“Tom, you’re wanted on set.” Someone knocked are his trailer door.

“Listen, I’m on set right now and gotta go but I’m gonna text you later okay?” He sent. “I want to finish this conversation.

“okay” you wrote back, and Tom smiled.

“And btw, I’ve hated every second we’ve been apart.” He sent quickly and left to go on set.

Later that night, Tom got a text.

“are you there?” You sent.

“Always.” He replied.

“can you come over?” You asked, and Tom looked up to Heaven with a smile.

“I’ll be there in ten :)” He sent and quickly put on his shoes. He pulled into your driveway in no time and walked into your house with his spare key.

“Hey.” You came out of the living room in sleep shorts and an old T-shirt. You looked timid and a little worn down.

“Hey.” Tom said back and gave you a gentle smile, which you returned.

“How have you been?” You asked as you took a step closer to him. You rubbed your arms from the cold and Tom wished he was still the one who warmed you up.

“Do you want an honest answer?” Tom laughed halfheartedly.

“Yeah.” You nodded.

“Terrible.” He said, and heard you sigh.

“Why?” You asked lamely. You knew why.

“Because I just had to drive ten minutes to see the love of my life when I used to be able to roll over and see her asleep next to me.” Tom shrugged sadly. He looked small all of the sudden, and your heart began to break as tears stung your eyes.

“What happened to us?” You croaked.

“He did, love.” Tom whispered.

“He didn’t do anything to us. He just magnified problems we were already having.” You said and Tom knew you were right.

“I shouldn’t have gotten jealous or tried to control you. That’s toxic behavior and I know that now. I have no excuse for it.” Tom apologized for the first time and a weight came off his shoulders. All his guilt was coming to light.

“No, you shouldn’t have.” You agreed. But I should have talked to you first before making plans with Brad. I knew it made you uncomfortable but I did it anyway, and I’m sorry for that.”

“I’m sorry too.” Tom sniffled.

“Where do we go from here?” You asked.

“I just want you to come home.” Tom pleaded.

And so you did.

But the songs didn’t stop after you got back with Tom.

The Vamps released Same To You a week after you posted a picture of Tom kissing your cheek on your Instagram, a song asking if the love from your new boyfriend felt the same to you as Brads love did.

The Missing You EP was full of songs about losing your girlfriend and regretting it, making Tom wonder what actually happened between you and Brad. Lyrics like “maybe I should’ve loved harder, checked if you were all right” and “I’m a fool. I let you down, I messed around, I made waves. I’m ashamed.” made it seem like Brad seriously messed up and broke your heart. As much as he wanted to know, he didn’t dare ask. It wasn’t his place. He didn’t need to know how Brad Simpson had broken your heart.

Then, Stay dropped.

It was another song about begging a certain someone to come back and how sorry he was for his mistakes. Tom couldn’t help but notice how longingly you looked at the radio when it played and wondered if Brads songs were the only apology he’d ever given you. Tom felt his chest tighten at the lyrics, “darling, won’t you stay here? I promise I can change” ,and wondered if you had told Brad about the fight you’d had with Tom in the dressing room of the Graham Norton show all those months ago.

Tom never thought too deeply into the song until he saw his name and Brads name in a headline on Clevver News. A picture of you and Tom was in the thumbnail, as well as a picture of you and Brad. He looked around to see if you could hear and clicked the video.

“Watch Brad Simpson change the lyrics to “Stay” to diss Tom Holland in an attempt to win back Y/n L/N.” A perky “news” reporter said at the start of the video. Tom bounced his leg as the video played. He saw a sweaty Brad sitting on a stool with his guitar in his arms.

“And darling if you stay here, it won’t be a mistake. We can hide under the duvet, and Tom will have to wait.” Brad sang and let out a laugh. The audience laughed as well and Brad kept singing.

“Now, if you didn’t catch it, Brad clearly said “Tom will have to wait” instead of “time will have to wait”. Fans were quick to notice this little dig at Tom Holland while other fans denied Brad saying it. What do you think? “Did Brad change the words? Is he still trying to win Y/n back?” The news reported asked. Tom junked when he heard you enter the room.

“What are you watching?” You wrapped your arms around Toms neck from behind and kissed his cheek.

“He’s still singing about you.” Tom grumbled as you rubbed his shoulders, showing you the headline on his phone.

“Let him sing.” You shrugged as you sat in Toms lap, giving him a kiss on the cheek. “I’m right where I’m supposed to be.”

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cheseyre · 4 years

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good news, sluts! my brain's no longer being completely stupid (only mostly), i've seen the new asides and...have some thought-y thot thoughts:

*deep inhale*

Okay, first things first: this art style is soooo fucking cUTE and I'm a jealous, squealing bitch. Anyone who knows who the artist is, could you link me to them, stat? I think Thomas mentioned them at the beginning of the ep, but nYeh, brain hurt, doesn't wanna do wooork-

Okay, I'll admit, I was a little...apprehensive when I first saw the thumbnail and title. Part of it's just me being a bitter Remus Stan, but also...okay, deep breaths, controversial opinion time, get ready:

I don't ship Prinxiety.

Like, at all.

I can see the appeal, and these dorks were so very, VERY cute in this particular ep, but I was honestly turned off by the ship long ago due to how overwhelmingly popular it is and how some fans characterize these two and treat this relationship as if it's the only valid one, y'know, the works—slight tangent, but that's also why I don't ship Logicality or Remile. I honestly vibe much better with ships like Roceit or Analogical, y'know?

Cutting in for another brief tangent: I'm surprisingly okay with Demus/Dukeceit/Receit/Trashnoodle/Whatever-Their-Ship-Name-Is-Oh-God-Why-Do-They-Have-So-Many-Fucking-Names; maybe it's cause they haven't actually interacted in canon and the fan content gives me such good Gay Disney Villain content, idk man im weird—).

Still, their interactions were both hilarious and sweet and like I said, I see the appeal, it's just not my cup of tea. y'all Prinxiety fans got fucking FED and I'm happy for you nerds. Enjoy ze happy boys!

I guess another factor in my...low-key hesitance when I first saw what the ep was about is that...okay, get ready, another controversial opinion, le gasp: well, I'm not a big Virgil fan. In fact, at times, he swaps places with Patton as my least favorite sides—especially with some of his recent behavior in eps like DWIT (the "prohibit your breathing comment" really triggered me, for example). Sometimes, his attitude, especially around other sides like Roman or Janus, reminds me a little too much of my sister, who I don't have...a very good relationship with. Add to that how the more...intense side of the fandom has a disturbing tendency to turn him into the 'uwu precious woobie emo baby who can do no wrong' while unnecessarily villainizing other CERTAIN sides in the process, and...I think you all see where I'm going with this little rant 😅

However, upon actually watching the ep, he wasn't...that bad? I don't think? I enjoyed watching him be a flustered, disaster-y mess and genuinely excited at the end, his interactions with Roman were nice enough, and him literally pushing Thomas to make a move with Nico despite his obvious panic attack was a nice moment of genuine character development. I like seeing that, that's the good shit right there. And him being all flustered and shit, and smiling so much at the end of the vid was just...well, adorable. This man has no fucking right to be this cute, my god

alsoooo

pURPLE EYESHADOW

PURPLE EYESHADOW HE LOOKS?? SO GOOD?? WTF?? SLAY EMO, SLAAAAAAAY FUCK, DOES THIS MEAN I HAVE TO CHANGE MY HALLOWEEN COSTUME NOW?

alsoooo

hAPPY ROMAN

YESSSSS~ MAH BOI MAH SON MAH DUMB BITCH HIMBO PRINCE MAH EXTRA MESSY CINNAMON ROLL

ITS BEEN SO LONG

AND HIS LITTLE HEART EYES THROUGHOUT THE VID, OH MY GOD-

IMMA JUST IGNORE THAT "ADDING [MISTAKE] TO THE LIST" COMMENT I AM LOOKING AWAY I DO NOT SEE IT LALALALALA

THOMATHY, SIR, YOU HAVE NO RIGHT MAKING THESE TWO GAY IDIOTS SO BAEBY

Okay, but Virgil not realizing that "cyberstalking in real life" is literally just stalking is both a big ass mood and further proof that, yes, Logan is indeed the only one holding the braincell out of this disaster of a lot. God help them all if he ducks out in the next ep.

👀

And Thomas x Trash Can is my new OTP. I dub thee ✨ "Trashmas" ✨

we sTAN TRASHMAS

Wait, does that mean Remus actually WAS in the ep? Cause, y'know, trash man?

hmmm

👀 👀

Okay, okay.

With how much Virgil and Roman were going off about Thomas constantly lying, I was (understandably) a tad bit disappointed my snek son didn't even make a fucking cameo, but y'know what? In hindsight, I'm okay with this it's fineee~

He was just off playing with shadow puppets and stealing money from us desperate, content-starved peasants with his sheer extra-ness and, honestly? Gotta respect the hustle.

Get that precious, precious coin, dapper snake! Wring us poor losers dryyyy!

*evil snek laugh*

Also, this is a breather ep and adding Janus in probably would've caused unnecessary drama with the Roceit breakup and the constant antagonism between Virgil and him. It probably would've distracted from the point of the ep (flirting with social anxiety, exactly what it says in the tin)—much like it wasn't really Virgil or Remus's place to show up during POF. Does that make sense? I think it makes sense. Sorry, brain going brr-

Still, I can't believe the "Fuck Janus Sanders" Club is actually canon now 😂

God, first Patton in a skirt and now this.

Thomas Sanders, you delight in fucking feEDING this gremlin nest of a fanbase, don’t you? You RELISH our screams of joy and pain and suffering, dON’T YOU?

What's next, actual canonical Janus and Remus interaction? Patton saying the fuck word? The Dragon Witch comes back? Janus's bowler hat gains sentience and takes over the world, Doris-style? What do you have planned, Thomas? Joan? WHAT ART THOU PLANNING, I MUST KNOW YOU HEATHENS YOU FIENDS-

And Virgil's little "would it be fair to him" comment, tho.

👀

Like, I get in the context of the ep, he was likely talking about Nico and how it wouldn’t be good for a potential relationship with Tomas to be founded on lies, but still...my anxceit heart aches, man.

Gimme that sweet, sweet angst with a side of mutual regret and possible future reconciliation and maybe something more wink wink nudge nudge on top, pls

...and fries.

Honestly, tho, that entire bathroom monologue was fucking beautiful, man. And relatable, too—i can't tell you how many times I've talked to myself in public restrooms because I just didn't know how to get the words I wanted to say out. It's...kind of embarrassing, tbh

Speaking of embarrassing, uh, crying stall guy.

Just...

Crying Stall Guy

Like, I was expecting someone to come out the bathroom stall after Thomas stopped talking, but...I honestly wasn't expecting that. God, that whole scene was so cringe worthy and fucking hilarious

Honestly, Thomas in the ep in general was a huge ass mOOD and we collective gay/bi disasters ALL related with him, and if you say you don't, you're either lying to yourself or a demon.

There is no in between

sorry I don't make the rules

Like, I get this series is literally a gay disaster talking to himself for thirty minutes or longer, but like- EMPHASIS on the 'disaster' part 😂

Like...Thomas, you're lucky you're such a goddamn bean, because GOD, I cringing so hard when he first started talking to Nico

Although, I too have apologized profusely for genuine mistakes and am a flustered bi mess around my crush sooo

😅

And god, Roman's "thirty = old man" jokes made me feel old...and I literally just turned twenty, like, come on, man!

Maybe that's because I was literally watching this ep after finishing my ACT and had been sitting with a bunch of high schoolers, with their tiny fucking desks and tiny fucking water fountains smeh

*clears throat*

Anyways, uh, we STAN Nico Pintrovert Florés in this house

He gives me such big Carlos from WTNV vibes for some reason and this makes me sooo happy

and YESS, he's a WRITER

And he's??? So sweet?? A pure bean?? Just sits on his laptop at the mall food court all day, like a god-fucking iCON?? A Nightmare Before Christmas fan?? weARS GLASSES??

my hEART

*cries*

The fandom seems torn between "Nicomas" and "Karrot Kings" as a ship name atm—personally speaking, I'm casting my vote for the latter

*crosses fingers* please dont be another janus x remus multiple ship name issue guys, please please please I can't keep track of them all-

*clears throat*

On that note, I'm guess I'm gonna go try and whoo over my crush with carrots now. If THIS disaster can do it and make it actually fucking work, god damnit, so cAN I

Meanwhile, in hell, my brain's just screaming "CANON LOVE INTEREST CANON LOVE INTEREST CANON LOVE INTEREST-"

God, I hope Nico isn't just a one-shot character, he's too pure and Thomas and him are adorable gay Disney fans and I stan

Oh, I wonder how the other sides'll react to him.

Wait.

Oh god.

This ep just unleashed a new fresh hell of potential Nico x Sides ships, hasn't it?

Welp, time to prepare for ze incoming flood of fanfics, I guess. I'll get my umbrella and rain boots.

That last shot of Virgil during the endcard was so fucking ominous oh my god mom im scared can you come pick me up-

Goddammit, Thomas and Joan, I'm NOT fucking ready to be traumatized again, fUCK

I wish I wasn't a broke ass university student so I could contribute to Thomas's gloriously extra Patreon—both so I can support my favorite content creators who make this amazing blessed content and also, to join my boi Janus in fucking destroying society by giving money to the people who actually deserve it, fuck YOU GOVERNMENT-

Okay.

New headcanon time as to why Patton, Remus, and Logan weren't in the ep: they were helping Jan film that Patreon promotional video.

Remus directed it, Logan helped with the lighting and script, and Patton was just there as the cheerleader.

The reason Janus made a dog with shadow puppets wasn't just to flaunt his deity status and prove how he is truly above us mere wretched mortals

despite that being the absolute truth and we all know it, don't lie to yourselves

No, it was really him trying to do something cute and silly for Patton, because Moceit rights, daMMIT

*inhales*

noww

guys, gals, and nonbinary pals

it’s time forr

the most wonderful time of the yearrr

WAITING FOR THE NEXT EPISODE

Step right up, folks! Hear ye, hear ye, my prediction for the next episode: Prinxiety v. Moceit! With special guest stars: Karrot Kings vibing in adorable gay and Intrulogical, bitter at being excluded aGAIN

Who will win? Who will lose?

here’s a hint: we all will because in this sick twisted game they are no winners only losers-

Place your bets, folks! ✨

Haha im not readyyy~

tl;dr

this episode has cleared my skin, watered my crops, and ended my suffering—an adorable calm before the... angsty fucking shitstorm that’s coming far too soon. Prinxiety stans, enjoy your food. Place an 'F' in the chat for me and my fellow grieving Remus stans. Trashmas is the true OTP, but Karrot Kings is cute too I guess. I've only had Nico Florés for 24 minutes, but if anything happens to him, I'll kill everyone in this room and then myself. Purple eyeshadow Virgil makes me question my sexuality aGAIN, and happy gay disney prince rights y'all. Say a big ole 'fuck you' to capitalism by giving your local dapper snake moneys. Concussion makes brain go brr and imma go buy some carrots and be gay now.

psst hey @quarantinevibes2020 you wanna join me in being disaster-y? i’ll bring my best gay stare and you bring the wine

Until next time, my lovelies! ~ Ches 🖤

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bisexualhobi · 3 years

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so ive been seeing all this drama from the sidelines and i mean a-list artists have been making 80s retro pop throwback songs since like 2019 or prior so by no means superm are copying bts and bts arent the pioneers of anything here so lets make that clear, the only thing that i noticed from the thumbnail and some gifs of the mv i saw here was how similar the background and set in one scene looked to the dynamite grammy performance at the heliport with the fireworks? anything coming from lsm doesnt seem like a nod to them for me but, i mean i guess?? it was literally the same and i get why people were pressed about it, or maybe its just funny idk cause i dont think the spirit was to tribute bts so why do that

okay but like, bts' grammy performance was less than a month ago. do you think this mv was shot and designed 3 weeks ago?? they started teasing this song at the beginning of March 😭

I don't think it's that weird to have them dance on top of a building with fireworks on the background when as you say, it's been done by artists like Katy perry, Bruno mars, gaga, even I think one direction had a backdrop with fireworks at one point 😭 it's just a really common, recognizable concept. which tells you that when bts did it they took inspiration from another source, so yeah superm copied it but not directly from bts. it just goes to show that whole aesthetic and especially the poppy song vibe is recycled.

also superm's song isn't a comeback. it's literally a commercial jingle ordered by an insurance company 💀 they had creative direction and an idea in mind so obviously the prudence guys saw it was in trend and told SM yeah we want that. that's not the idols' fault but to answer your question that's why they did it

#you make a good point because I noticed the similarity too but not because of dynamite per se #but because of the riff and the instrumentals #dynamite literally sounds like can't stop this feeling by timberlake and we do sounds like a Jonas Brothers song so 👀#asks

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Stargirl 1.10 “Brainwave Jr.” is out now on DCU and I’m here to talk about it.

If you’ll remember from last week, we ended on the cliffhanger of Barbara walking in on Pat, Courtney, & the Staff, and now she’s going to have to learn the whole thing. From Promo it looks like a lot of drama is surrounding that, which is awesome. We can also see Courtney & Henry together in the thumbnail for today, which is probably going to be them having a bit of a spat with the rest of the JSA. I personally love drama episodes, and we know a lot more is happening than just drama, so I’m really excited to see what they have in store for us tonight.

The opening crawl is set to Ain’t No Mountain High Enough, which makes this the second time the song has shown up in the DCU shows (now here, and Hank & Dawn sang it back in Titans season 2). I wonder if someone in charge has a thing for the song or what. But following that up, we get to see Pat & Barbara meet! How cute!! We got the story back in episode 1 but now we get to actually see it. They both get a banana split but there’s only banana so they share it, that’s so fucking cute. The one het coupe I support. And then move into them telling Barbara and Courtney is out here like “oh that’s a broom” like seriously? Really Court? I love how Barbara is taking no shit during this conversation. Barbara “get outta here with that Starman is your dad bullshit” Whitmore, iconic. OH SHIT AND BARBARA FUCKING KICKS PAT OUT OMG! I am living for this omfg.

And now we cut to the King’s and it seems Henry Sr has lost 10ish years of his memory, wild. I’m interested to see what this will do to Henry Sr in the future, and if his forgetting all the current ISA shit will have anything to do with Henry Jr’s character. Also, is it just me, or does it sound like Icicle killed his wife. How many loved ones of allies has Jordan killed? About two scenes later, Henry Sr mentions Jordan by name in his dreams, which really feels like conformation that Jordan did it to me. Then Jordan fucking shows up at the hospital like a bitch! What the hell man, just go die already. And now we see that there’s well over 3,300 of those VHS tapes Henry Sr was making, how obnoxious was that to move? “Merri the girl of 1,000 gimmicks,” was Henry’s mom a superhero??? MERRI’S BROTHER WAS STARMAN!?!? EXCUSE ME?!?!?!?! Hold on, I need a minute. Well, I’d say this is Henry’s motivation to try and work with the JSA.

This little scene with Pat & Mike is really sad. Mike is such a good kid, I love him.

The Staff comes to see Courtney in her room, how cute. And then fucking dips off to the Garage by itself, and is clearly holding a grudge against Jordan, that’s awesome. The Staff is such a fun character. And then it comes to the hospital to fight Jordan & Henry Sr by itself! ICONIC!! Oop, now it’s frozen. Fuck. Anyway, the more Jordan talks, the more he sounds like a crazy Colonizer. And is Henry Jr only cowering from Jordan, or is he also cowering from his dad?

The drama with the Whitmore family continues, Barb wants to move them both out of Blue Valley. And here comes Henry to fill in Courtney on the drama, and showcasing a new ability in the process. And thus kick-starting Henry’s involvement in the JSA and the team’s first real mission, only 10 episodes in!

OMFG shit must be serious, Barbara emailed Sam (who comic fans know is a real piece of shit). And then later, when Jordan and his parents show up, and Barbara records what they say in Norwegian? Amazing. It seems she’s at least going to give Pat & Court the benefit of the doubt after seemingly doing some research on Starman. And further on, Sam has actually emailed her back! Are we gonna meet Sam Kurtis??

I don’t wanna talk to much about this lunch scene because there’s a lot of opinions. Yo & Rick are totally valid in their thoughts and feelings, but also, like, there’s bigger shit to worry about kids.

But which tunnel entrance do we think the kids used? At the school? Do they just keep their uniforms in their lockers?? And it’s Grundy! Soloman Grundy!! OMFG!!! Rick, sweetie, maybe don’t go yelling at the fucking zombie in the secret tunnels under the town? Dragon King is here doing some real weird looking shit to Brainwave. And the Starsquad + Henry Jr is gonna fight all these creepy zombie slaves of DK’s, and once again proving how Court & Yolanda are the most prepared for a fight, they’re th eonly ones we know have some kind of martial arts training. RICK WHY ARE LETTING OUT SOLOMAN GRUNDY?!?! Fucking idiot boy. But man do I love watching Courtney & Yolanda kick ass. Especially followed by the older villains once again proving how big a deal experience is. Oh fuck DK’s face is disgusting. It’s real gross. I do appreciate Henry Jr fighting back against Henry Sr. He, at least, is not cool with the whole supervillain killer thing, which is good. I am once again talking about how cool the CG is for Court’s staff. And Henry Jr is straight up going to sacrifice himself for the Starsquad??? Maybe we don’t hate him. If they can handle his redemption properly, I may be able to support it in the future. As long as this isn’t all of the redemption arc.

WAIT HENRY SR KILLED HIS WIFE?!?! EXCUSE ME?!?!?! And now he’s threatening to kill his own son, real supervillain material. I’m glad Henry Jr is making the right choice though. And to see all of the Starsquad fighting so hard to help him, and Henry really apologizing for what he did to Yolanda. I’m glad it wasn’t a last minute “i love you” because that would be so unearned.

HI DCU STOP KILLING FUCKING KIDS!! I SHOULDN’T HAVE TO SAY THAT!!! AND THAT’S HOW IT ENDS!?!?!? FUCK THAT!!! Okay, but I’m still super in the Joey Lives camp, and we know that Henry Jr is at least decently important in comics, so maybe we’ll get them both back? Idk. I’m a little undecided on whether I want Henry to have survived because this really doesn’t feel like the end of his arc, but more the start. So I want to see that really get addressed. But at the same time, I want death to have consequences (unless it’s one of my loves, obviously, I’m fine with being a hypocrite for that).

I have so many thoughts, I’m really not sure where exactly to begin (beyond what I’ve already been saying), but that’s all things we can address later. That’s it for this weeks episode, for now, which means that I’ll see you next Sunday for Stargirl 1.11 “Shining Knight” it’s a fucking Shining Knight episode guys, that’s awesome! Honestly this show just ups the bar every episode, it’s probably the best DC show around currently period. It’s amazing.

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Number 73 "take mine" I'm thinking jacket sharing with Harringrove (either offering the jacket) if you have time!! 💖 💖

so. it’s not jacket sharing, i hope that’s okay!! and it’s actually a sequel to your first prompt? @bambixxblue and i were talking about a fix-it sequel where billy comes back and im weak for fix-its so i ended up with this. it’s. angsty. but also. soft? idk, i hope u like it anyway!!

basically the premise is billy and hopper were both in russia and had to break out together. posted on ao3

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Max turned seventeen three weeks ago. It’s hard to keep track of the days sometimes but Billy’s pretty sure he’s right. It’s hard to wrap his brain around Max being seventeen. When he pictures her in his head she’s still a bratty twelve-year-old with skinned knees who doesn’t know when to shut her mouth.

He tells Hop. Tells him about the birthdays he was there for, wonders about the ones he wasn’t. Cries a little too. Funny how easy it is to do that now. It used to be an ordeal, would burn and claw at him until he broke. He’s too exhausted for that nowadays, lets his tears fall unfettered and ignores the shame that still sneaks up on him when he does.

They have to be quiet, always afraid of being caught again. Billy’s constantly looking over his shoulder, jumping at shadows. It’s stupid to risk it, for something so trivial, but he can’t stop the words from spilling out.

“You miss her.” It’s not a question. Hop doesn’t ask that kind of shit, he just knows. Which is why Billy doesn’t respond. Doesn’t have to.

He pats Billy’s shoulder awkwardly. It’s the clumsy kind of affection a father is supposed to offer and it sets Billy off again, tears dripping down his nose and cutting streaks through the dirt smeared on his cheeks.

They’re holed up in an abandoned warehouse this time. Waiting. Always waiting. The plan is to stow away in the next cargo hold with enough space but in the meantime they’re fugitives, laying low wherever they can find empty, forgotten places.

Hop tells him about El while they wait. Billy’s heard most of his stories by now, but he listens anyway. Listens to the wobble in his voice as he talks about teaching El to read, hears the question under it all, about whether he’ll ever see her again.

Billy wishes he had an answer.

The first time Billy set foot in Hawkins, Indiana, he was seventeen, angry and wanting nothing more than to be anywhere else.

It’s three days after his twenty-second birthday the second time. An icy December evening, dark and windy. He’s exhausted. He hasn’t eaten in two days. He’s a patchwork tapestry of scars that weren’t there before, a battered effigy of the person he used to be, cobbled together with scraps of what he could salvage.

Hawkins is the same unremarkable, rinky-dink town it always was. Seeing it again is a relief and a punch in the gut all at once. It’s all he’s wanted for three years, but it’s terrifying.

They end up in Loch Nora, of all places. The Byers’ old house was empty, and going too far into town is risky.

It doesn’t feel real. Standing on Steve Harrington’s front porch, suddenly all too aware of the layer of sweat and grime on his skin. This place is too clean, too quiet. Peaceful, in a way that can’t be true.

Billy chews on his thumbnail, stands behind Hopper while he bangs on the door. There are no cars in the driveway, which means at the very least Steve’s parents won’t answer the door. But there’s no guarantee that Steve even lives here anymore.

He’s getting antsy, glancing around, heart pounding.

Then the door swings open.

Billy is seventeen, half-drunk and stinking like beer, colder than he’ll let on because fucking Indiana and its shitty weather, wiping the drool from his chin when he spots him across a room, already half in love by the time he’s clambered over a couch to get a closer look.

He blinks. He’s twenty-two, pale and shivering, thumbnail still between his teeth, and Steve Harrington’s doe eyes still make him weak in the knees.

Steve’s hair is longer, brushing his shoulders, but other than that he doesn’t look any different. Except that he isn’t looking at Billy with thinly veiled contempt or anger.

“Hey, kid.” Hopper says. “Gonna let us inside, or what?”

Steve is silent. Staring, lips parted. One hand still on the doorknob, the other slack at his side. He sways dangerously, and Billy tenses, prepared to catch him if he falls over. He doesn’t, but Billy’s still itching to touch him.

“Am I dreaming?” Steve blurts, looking dazed, unable to decide who to look at and ending up unfocused and hazy.

Yeah, it’s me, don’t cream your pants. The memory feels like someone else’s. A lifetime ago.

Billy bites down on his lip, battling an inexplicable, and slightly hysterical, urge to laugh.

“Dream about me often, Harrington?” Billy says, because apparently it takes more than nearly dying and spending three years as a fugitive to get over his inability to keep his mouth shut around pretty boys (or one in particular). Though now his voice comes out soft, quiet, betraying genuine sentiment. He’s not sure if that’s better or worse than the armor of taunts he used to cover that shit up with.

Probably worse.

Steve’s looking at him. Only him. Billy had almost forgotten how addictive that is. He watches Steve’s mouth open and close, tracks the way one corner curls up a little when he lets out a little disbelieving huff that isn’t quite a laugh. “More than you’d think,” he murmurs.

And Billy’s brain shuts off. There are a thousand questions stuck up there, but he can’t get a single one of them out because he’s too busy trying to get past, more than you’d think, echoing through his head in surround sound.

He’s startled out of his Steve-induced haze by Hopper’s pointed cough.

It seems like he’s not the only one, because Steve visibly flinches, “Right, shit,” he stammers, “Get—uh, get inside.” He ushers them in, glancing around, checking the street behind them.

The Harrington residence is one of those big fancy houses with more rooms than anyone could possibly need, but that means multiple bathrooms so Steve (as politely as possible) tells them they can both shower whenever they feel like it. And he fusses. A lot. All nervous hands clutching his elbows and teeth worrying at the inside of his cheek, eyes darting between Billy and Hopper like he’s sure they’ll vanish any second and never have been there at all.

Billy isn’t sure how to deal with it, so he avoids his eyes. Then misses looking at him.

An hour later they’re all in the kitchen. Billy keeps plucking at the sleeve of his borrowed sweatshirt, trying to keep calm. It’s too much, all at once. His skin feels raw, weird and tight. The overhead light is too bright, and the smell of Steve on everything is making him lightheaded. The soft detergent scent from his clothes, the shampoo Billy used when he showered (his hair is a lot longer than it used to be, it took forever to detangle it all).

Steve makes some calls. It’s late, too late to be calling people’s houses but he does it anyway.

Not long after, the front door bursts open.

Max is taller than he remembers. Rougher around the edges. Her hair is a choppy mess, auburn waves sticking out in every direction, curling around her ears, and there’s the sharp glimmer of silver in one lobe. She’s wearing a jean jacket with a torn elbow.

And she’s crying, messy and red-eyed, not bothering to wipe the snot from her nose.

“Where. The fuck. Have you been?” she sobs, shoulders shaking, and she practically trips forward in her hurry to throw her arms around Billy’s neck.

He opens his mouth. Closes it again. Feels unsteady, like he’ll fall to pieces if he moves wrong.

“I’m here now,” is all he can manage. She doesn’t need to hear about military hospitals and Russian prisons, about being kept in a cell, wondering if he’d ever see sunlight again… She doesn’t need that right now. Hell, he’s not ready to talk about it. Might never be.

He hugs her back, torn between wanting to squeeze as hard as he can, make sure she’s real, and being terrified of breaking her.

She still uses that shitty coconut-scented soap, and that’s what shatters him. He’s crying into her shoulder, clutching the back of her jacket. He used to dwarf her, remembers her being tiny and fragile, despite her fierceness, yet now she’s supporting his weight while he buckles.

They’ve never actually hugged before, he realizes, and that realization opens a door he wishes he could’ve left closed a little longer.

Guilt. Like undertow, pulling him back to harsh reality, cold steel gripping his heart, weighing it down. He should’ve been better. Treated her better. And now she’s here, crying like she actually missed him, and he doesn’t deserve it.

He pulls away, wiping the back of his hand across his eyes.

She’s still looking at him, hands on his shoulders, a wobbly smile on her face.

Billy is overwhelmed again. It must show, because suddenly Steve is at Max’s side, eyes gentle and his soft mouth pinched in a frown, “Max. Maybe give him some space.”

She clenches her jaw, probably physically holding back an argument, and nods, stepping back despite the reluctance written all over her face.

“I’m sorry,” Billy says, barely louder than a whisper. Then he can’t stop himself from saying it, again and again, gaze fixed on the floor, tears still dripping down his chin. He has to bite his lip hard enough to draw blood to finally stem the tide of apologies. He squeezes his eyes shut, tries to will the world away.

“Billy.” Steve’s voice is soft. He has a nice voice, so Billy focuses on it, through all the angry buzzing in his ears. “Billy, I need you to nod if you’re listening.” He doesn’t want to, he wants to curl up and fucking die, anything but be a person right now because everything hurts and there isn’t enough air in this room and— “Billy?”

He bows his head, twitches, it’s barely a nod but it’s all he’s got.

“Okay, good. Can I touch your hand?”

Billy’s heart stutters, aches. He’s having a hard time concentrating through the burn in the back of his throat, the static drowning out his thoughts. He nods again.

Steve’s fingers are gentle, pulling Billy’s hand from where it had tangled in his hair. He hadn’t noticed the fingernails digging into his scalp until Steve took one of his hands away. It ends up pressed against something warm, soft material under his fingers, moving slow—oh. His hand is on Steve’s chest.

“Can you breathe with me? Concentrate on me, okay?”

He does.

Steve’s cradling his hand. He’s got callouses along the top of his palm, barely there but present. He’s breathing deep, calm and steady. But despite his outward demeanour his heart is racing, Billy can feel it through his shirt. He curls his fingers into the sensation, fingertips digging in as far as he can push them.

Billy almost forgets to breathe he’s so fixated on Steve’s heartbeat.

It does its job either way though, because exhaustion is starting to hit him as the static recedes. He sags, relaxes. Every muscle in his body feels leaden.

He opens his eyes, squints against the sudden light.

He’s almost afraid to look up. Afraid of being judged, of triggering another episode, so fucking terrified, all the time—

“Billy?”

His fingers twitch reflexively, tightening his grip on Steve’s polo.

“You good?” His voice is still so soft, and so close it hurts.

It takes several long moments for Billy to collect himself. Then he looks up.

Max is hovering, standing behind Steve with wide eyes, her worry palpable. Hopper looks grim, but then again, he kind of always does. He’s a respectable distance away, watching. And Steve… Steve is right there still, holding Billy’s hand and looking at him like he cares, doe eyes shining, fixed on Billy’s face.

“I’m okay,” Billy says, voice rough. He sounds like hell, but they all visibly relax anyway.

The room is silent for too long after that. It feels tense in a distant way, like it would be awkward if Billy had the energy to care, was awake enough to feel anything but vaguely fuzzy. He’s still got a handful of shirt and doesn’t plan on letting go any time soon. Steve’s the only thing keeping him upright, and he hasn’t let go either.

“Did… did I do something wrong?” Max asks, her voice is small and tremulous and cuts right through Billy.

“No!” he’s quick to cut in, “No. Max. It’s…” Billy trembles, stutters to a stop. He has no idea how to explain, even to himself, let alone Max. Steve squeezes his hand. His stomach flips. “It’s not your fault.”

She doesn’t look like she believes him, but she doesn’t argue. He wishes he could make it better, but he’s got no idea how.

“We should all get some sleep,” Steve says.

And that’s that. His tone brooks no argument, even in a room full of stubborn assholes. Apparently, the past few years have given Steve time to hone his babysitting skills. Or maybe they’re all just as exhausted as Billy is.

There’s some squabbling about sleeping arrangements though.

Everyone insists Hopper take the master bedroom, Steve says his parents won’t know or care, his old friends did worse than sleep in that bed. They all poke at him until he relents and trudges off, bidding them a quiet goodnight.

Then Billy says he’ll take the couch and both Steve and Max yell at him.

Billy rolls his eyes. “It’s fine, guys,” he mutters. He’s not about to make Max sleep on the weird little couch (he’s done enough to her already) and putting Steve out in his own house would be shitty. “It’s not like I haven’t slept on worse.” He winces as he says it, realizing as the words come out of his mouth that it’s probably the wrong thing to say. It was meant as a reassurance, that he would in fact be fine with the couch, because at least it’s clean and warm, but all it does is make Max look sad and put a little wrinkle between Steve’s eyebrows.

“I’ve slept on this couch before,” Max says, a stubborn tilt to her jaw, “I’ll take it.”

Steve scoffs at that, “You complain every time you have to sleep on that couch, Max. Take the guest bed. Billy can take mine.” His fingers tense when he says it, and Billy realizes they’re still holding hands. His hand slipped from Steve’s shirt while they were bullying Hopper into taking the master suite, but Steve has yet to let go.

And… suddenly he wants nothing more than to sleep in Steve’s bed. But. “Only if you come with me,” he blurts.

Which is really not how he should have said that, but it’s out there now.

“Oh my god,” he hears Max mutter.

His whole head feels like it’s on fire. “Shit. I—I mean—”

“Okay,” Steve says hurriedly, then clears his throat, “Yeah. That. That works. Uh. Okay.” He’s glancing at Max awkwardly, nervous, but she just rolls her eyes. Billy barely notices her do it, too busy looking at Steve, his heart hammering.

“Steve, it’s okay. I’m—” It’s her turn to look uncertain, but it’s only for a second. “Me and El are dating. We’ve been trying to figure out how to tell everyone, and—yeah. Anyway. I’m not going to judge you, or whatever.”

Well, that was not at all what Billy was expecting. He takes a moment to worry about both of them, be terrified of what would happen to them if someone found out. Then he remembers that El can kill people with her brain and Max once threatened to castrate him with a spiked bat. The knot of anxiety doesn’t dissipate but he’s freaking out less.

“How long has that been going on?” Steve asks, sounding more bemused than anything.

Max turns pink, and it’s kind of fascinating to watch. She’s flustered. That’s adorable. “Since, um. Since April.”

“Happy for you, kid,” Billy says. And he means it. He barely knows El, in theory, but really. The kid’s been in his head. He could recite every story Hopper’s told him about her from memory. He died protecting her.

He knows her well enough to know she’s good for Max, and he loves Max enough to want her to have good things.

She grins, bright and real. Billy’s fairly certain he’s never seen her that happy before, and his heart clenches.

“I’m not sure who I’m supposed to give the shovel talk to here,” Steve says, more to himself than anything.

Billy snickers, and tugs on Steve’s hand, “Like you could take either of them.”

Steve steps closer, looking faux-offended, “I’ll have you know I won a fight once.”

“Yeah, three years ago. You’re a has-been, Harrington,” Max chimes in.

“Isn’t it past your bedtime?”

“I’m seventeen, dingus.”

“You’ve been spending too much time with Robin.”

He missed them so much. Missed something he, if he’s being honest with himself, never really had in the first place. They both hated his guts before, and he… he was a mess. Still is. Just a different kind now. But being here, being part of this, is something he always on some level wanted and…

“Oh my god, Billy, are you okay?” Max asks, concern bleeding into her voice.

He’s crying again, smiles through the tears. “Yeah. Yeah I am.”

#steve harrington #billy hargrove #harringrove #harringrove fic #a raven's writing desk #i kind of want more to this #like #el didn't even SHOW P #UP*#but it's almost 2am #rn #and #this is already so long lmao

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