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sleepyowlwrites · 1 year

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15 questions but it's the Tired Sleepy version

@the-finch-address dearest Finch! <3 tagged me. I've done this before but I'm gonna do it again. because I can't sleep yet until the tylenol kicks in.

1. Are you named after anyone?

no! but to be more interesting I'll tell you that my mom wanted to name me Jamie and my dad was vehemently opposed. so then she was like well what about Meghan and he was like oh I like that one. and she was like well what if it's a boy? 'cause they didn't find out with me (first kid and you don't find out after trying for five years? I don't understand) and my dad was like well I like Alexander is that cool and so that was the other option. I currently have one character named Alexander and he's evil. I really tried to like Inkheart 'cause the protagonist is Meggie but I couldn't. I did finish The Thornirds tho and there's a Meggie there.

2. When was the last time you cried?

I dunno, but I got teary finishing a book series for the fifth time. it's such a good ending! dragons! I don't CRY cry super often but I get teary at the drop of a hat. somebody plays the piano nicely and I'm feeling things about it. you guys it is raining so hard right now. and there's thunder. which I love, personally. the sky is crying so I don't have to.

3. Do you have kids?

nope. I don't plan on having any, either. I adopt teenagers and adults instead. give them snacks and hugs. help them out with their life stuff. coach them through bad days. sound familiar? I'm your mom!

5. What sports do you play/have played?

nothing team-y. in high school a few families used to meet up in front of the middle school down the road from me and we played flag football, and I can't really throw or catch but I could run and tackle. and I did karate for 5.5 years and horseback riding for 3?

6. What's the first thing you notice about people?

if they look like I want to talk to them or not. the vibes. I gotta know this since I work in retail. I usually call it correctly.

7. What's your eye color?

blue. people compliment them a lot, which I don't personally understand, 'cause they're not especially dark or anything. they're just regular eye blue. but people like them. so that's nice. some people also say there's silver around the pupil which I got a little bit of a complex over for a couple of years. but now I just think they're normal. who is even looking at my eyes when my hair is purple, though, right?

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

I don't like scary movies because I hate suspense. it doesn't really scare me it just gives me anxiety. I don't need a happy ending I just need it to make sense. make it make sense and I will not be mad at you. I didn't need the end of the mockingjay movie to be happy but I will forgive it.

9. Any special talents?

yeah, loads, but you'll have to interact with me to find them all out. one of them is that I'm super good at choking on beverages. one of them is that I can tell the difference between dark navy and black. one of them is that I can always beat my mom in boggle. one of them is that I can read really fast. one of them is that I'm tired all the time.

10. Where were you born?

the hospital where I just was last week for the stupid spider bite. it's literally up the road from my house. I use it as a frame of reference when people ask where I live. you know where this specific hospital is? continue down the road to the end and there's my house. there's a christmas wreath hanging on the garage.

11. What are your hobbies?

watching several hour long video essays about tv shows I have or will never watch, writeblr and sometimes even write-ING, art which I'm trying to make more of despite literally having stacks of it that I'm not doing anything with. anybody want some watercolor art? I'll send it to you. doing crossword puzzles with my dad in the kitchen. xbox games.

12. Do you have pets?

I don't, but there is a dog and a cat in the house where I live. the dog is the family's and the cat is sort of my sister's. I like him. he's the cat of knowing. follow the tumblr I made for him @orangejuni

13. How tall are you?

5'5", which is either tall or short and never average even though it literally is. I'm regular height, and, according to recent reports, a regular-ish weight?? I forgot to verify for myself when I got home from the hospital but apparently I broke 120lbs for the first time in my entire life and I'm very pleased. if I can stay there it'll be a miracle.

14. Favorite subject in school?

art, 'cause you don't have to write essays you just make stuff. I was always pretty good at history, though.

15. Dream job?

I wanna spontaneously have enough money to run like a boarding house for people who just need a temporary place to stay. in the meantime I actually enjoy working retail (when I'm not stuck in The Box) so I plan on staying for ten years so I get my lifetime associate discount. dumb? I don't care, this job makes me happy and I love my coworkers.

you're only allowed to do this tag if you can commit to also answering in a somewhat Tired Sleepy or unhinged kind of way. @zmwrites Ghosty? you're tired sleepy. @writing-with-melon Honeydew? hi. @klywrites Klove? you're unhinged. @rains-inky-mind Rainscribe? mm? @another-white-hole Voidlight? you know exactly what you are

#tag game #so sleepy says sleepily

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noroi1000 · 2 years

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Your matchups are so nice (especially the little character interpretation before the headcanons) may i request a romantic one for jujutsu kaisen too? (I'm okay with nsfw bits but i prefer sfw!!)

Basic info: I’m Bisexual, nocturnal, my pronouns are she/they, and my myers-briggs is intj-t. I’m not rlly quiet but i do overthink 24/7 which makes me go silent a lot (and stare at people accidentally), i'm kinda straightforward and cuss a lot but some people say i talk too gently(?) so it depends on the day ig 💀 and maybe i pull suggestive jokes unrpovoked to see someone choke on a drink or something, i like having conversaions/discussions about anything and love listening to people ramble, and i LOVE animals i have two cats who both sleep next to me, i come off as spontaneous but i actually plan a lot (i forget to say it). I love haunted places and ghosts in general but if i see a spider i will burn down the place.

Likes: reading (mostly) sci-fi, magical realism gothic horror/fiction, tragedy, satire, literary fiction, drama, philosophy & historical fiction but i pick up anything that catches my attention including textbooks- studying and researching (especially when it's about law or social affairs). sleeping anytime & anywhere possible, going to science museums and obstacle courses!! I quitted martial arts competitions due to covid but i still like sparring!! any kind of risk (played with fire inside a church once but shh-)

Hobbies: reading, writing (fiction n academic papers, especially personal book reviews!!), making lists of stuff, watching video essays, collecting knives/swords ( i have one katana and two hunting knives!!) and traditional weapons in my culture like nunchucks (got hit by someone n hit someone by accident the first time i tried 💀).

Other stuff: my love language (receiving) are physical affection & quality time. giving would be acts of service, physical affection (cuddles and hand kisses), and writing them letters with litte knickknacks inside like quotes they remind me of, and wrestling them (affectionately). I have kinda muscular thighs n calves due to the martial arts (taekwondo) thing but have comparatively weak ass arms.

Thank you for writing matchups!! Take your time and i hope you gain more audience for ypur works!!

a/n: I matched two people because I think they both fit you in their own way. The second person is briefly described.

I think your Jujutsu kaisen matchup is

Suguru geto

He can often be silent. Nobody knows why, but sometimes he is. But he himself is crazier and more energetic. He does not often pay attention to the people around him, and when he looks at them calmly and murderously, he makes them not want to approach.

He is direct, sarcastic, and often ignores the vocabulary. It depends on the person he is talking to.

He likes to joke and his days are often filled with laughter. How much you can piss him off with certain behaviors simply has to do with how much he pisses someone off. He sometimes annoys everyone. And he learned it, perhaps because he has such friends…

Seeing someone fall over, choking on laughter or doing prank? He is agreeing. But of course he has to know what the person is. But there are very few people he really respects (But that's at least something). No matter to whom they do it, everyone will know that it is his doing in a duet with his best friend. Even if it wasn't them, they wouldn't get away with it.

He's just in this humor.

He is planning a lot of things. However, his plans are made up spontaneously, and probably only he will know them. Strange as it may seem, he analyzes the situation quickly to find a solution as quickly as possible.

There are no things he will be very afraid of. Everyone is afraid of something, but he is already on such a level that fear has been put aside.

He is sometimes a fear to people. And what he can only fear are the curses over which he has power. He has long ceased to be afraid of this. And other scary things like horror movies and houses of fear are just funny to him. He had seen the worst things in his life. Spilling blood is a normal sight for him. But the fake blood running down the walls is a joke to him. He would never take it seriously.

It can be different with risking… It depends on what he can lose then, or who he can put into danger.

His sense of justice is quite high.

Therefore, spontaneous and strange things are normal for him. You just have to get used to the crazy side of this man.

And a calm voice can only be a cover for this.

Headcanon:

• If you try to make him laugh or say something suggestive to see him choke, you can expect failure. He himself will make you embarrassed and/or choke on drinking and even spit it out. There is simply no way to embarrass this man. He will laugh and then do the same to you.

• He wants to laugh when you start cursing, especially when you piss off someone. He likes you at ease, and he loves it, but he knows both sides of you. Quiet and impulsive.

• He enjoys talking to you and he really enjoys listening to you. And others too. Even though he really prefers your voice. But it will only survive if the topic of conversation is interesting.

• There is nothing to animals. The important thing is that they will be domesticated enough and nice. He couldn't stand a nasty pet in a house he has to sleep with.

• He's smart, so he knows exactly what you like to do. And the fact that you want to learn is normal. Maybe even help you if you need it. But even if he doesn't know that much, he'll try to help. He would love to be quite dry about other types of books.

• You can sleep on him. Might make a good pillow. It doesn't even bother him.

• Let him enter the obstacle course. Either he'll come it all at breakneck speed, or he'll be pissed off at an obstacle he can't fit.

• He's the perfect sparring partner. Martial arts are close to him. But you have to be careful that he doesn't take it seriously.

• While he may find the knives a little dangerous, he may eventually use them himself as a last resort. Who knows…

• He will watch you as you take the nunchucks in your hand. You can hurt yourself then, and he doesn't want to. And it would also have to be ready for random impacts. But since you have more experiences, he trusts you.

• He will tell you that he loves you, but he will mostly touch you. Sometimes words don't mean much. Therefore, it is better to lie in bed with him, cuddle up, and kiss him. And this man would do anything for the hours so spent.

• Gifts, some cute little things, it's him. When he finds something cute, he'll get it to give it to you. It will be more sweet in your hands.

• The only thing that can embarrass him are the really tender things he didn't expect. (Short-lived embarrassment)

• Legs or arms, he will draw lines on them to know how delicate they are. These are the parts of your body that he loves.

"You prefer to read now or spend time with me? Huh? Do you choose the former? Don't play with me like that. I'm not asking you the obvious, because maybe you have something more important now. Are you hugging me? You missed it, didn't you?"

I think your matchup could also be Maki Zenin

She is composed, but also explosive. She analyzes people quickly and has different opinions about them. She is tough, and at any moment gives the impression that she cannot be moved. And that she will not smile or laugh. On the contrary, she is a humorous person.

She is often busy. Workouts and stuff. But she can take a break to do something else. She certainly likes people who aren't mean. She hates people who put others under themselves and say they don't deserve something. Everything that the human mind has as equal. Unless that someone is mean or has the same last name as hers.

If you spend time with her, she certainly won't consider you a bad person. Maybe even help you. No matter what.

Therefore, be ready for her smile.

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk x you #jujutsu kaisen matchups #geto suguru #anime matchup #jjk headcanons #jjk #request #jujutsu kaisen requests

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appreciatingtokrev · 7 months

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i don't remember much of the film but he had a very hard life so i can't imagine it ending on a happy note.

i think most mobile players are android but prob works better on iPhones but I've realised that I must have trapped myself with playing it on my phone forever because I saved everything with my Apple ID ;-; damn, which laptop was that and what is your current one now? I guess GI will have some limitations since it is a free game and have you tried updating the game/reinstalling it instead? I don't know much about PS5, only nintendo switch lol. which phone are you thinking of getting?

yikes, that's so bad ;-; i'm really sorry to heard that but hang in there, i hope the anxiety isn't too bad. ah but i feel like a study's buddy need a certain personality so you don't get sidetrack and start slacking off as a duo lol. i've heard it better to goes over past papers with others.

isn't switerzland more mountain based? that's true, your high school era is very long lol, well i've heard that dentists get paid lot more if they goes private but obv medicine/nursing is more rewarding/impactful. that sound complex but i was never a stem major lmao but def interesting. i think on my end, you can goes into lab testing if you study biomedical science.

i no longer listen to kpop at all so you're more of a devoted fan lol, but during my turn, i do remember plastic surgery was quite common, i don't know about now though.

i agreed that silver is appealing because it blends in with more colours, gold just naturally stand out but what do you think about rose gold?

oh nice! which characters had you tried to cosplay? what's the longest explanation video have you watched? also, have you seen anime house? edits are super fun but i know some apps watermark the edits unless you pay for a subscription.

it is shocking at how much wigs can cost a fortune. is it even real hair ? also, do you have uniqlo on your end? I do and every few months, the brand release a range of anime t-shirts, right now they are doing JJK where I brought one and I managed to get the last one for Chainsaw Man too!

ah that's true! i dk if we will have to switch to discord or something else though considering how long our messages are, i'm sure tumblr dm will crash with our essays lol.

still sounds interesting, i actually quite enjoy stuff with a sad/bad ending

oh,, i’m pretty sure you can add your email as additional log-in data for genshin somewhere? maybe on hoyolab? i’ll try to figure it out later & update you on it. there’s got to be a way bc two years ago i used to do piloting + traded some genshin accs and one of the ones i got had an apple ID AND an email address. phew, no clue what my old laptop is (i still have it.. i just. never use it lol) but my new one is actually a convertible, it’s a lenovo yoga... 4? or so. not entirely sure but something like that. i had to get it for school in summer 2021, but i quite like it. yeah, i’ve tried like everything TT. multiple times. except a clean reboot, but i don’t think i’ll do that,, currently still waiting it out and hoping adhkgdfjk. my little brother has a switch i get to use too :D tho there’s a bunch of games that only work on ps5 (or ps4 or sometimes xbox too) i’d like to play so. phones... well. my Ideal Phone does not exist bc it would be a samsung phone with a 4.7" diameter, and that.... simply does not exist. my phone rn is a samsung galaxy a3 2017 btw,, and i’m thinking of going with a samsung in either the a or s series with a diameter of 6.4" because those are the smallest ones you can find... i did think about maybe getting an iphone because they still make smaller phones (or an interely different brand) but then i realised that i have all my fic wips and a ton of other notes on google notes and i very much have to be able to access them still so.

ty, it’s managable TT my study bestie & i work together perfectly, luckily enough :D sometimes someone else joins us too but it still works nicely. they both have the motivation to keep going, and i can’t slack off if they don’t either.

i think a good half of switzerland is just the alps lol. yeah, but to be fair i’ve technically repeated before. usually it’d either be 3, 6, or rarely 7 years depending on which school you go to, but for me it’ll be 8 years now bc i switched 4 years in. still pretty long though if i think about it,, hm personally i’m hardly interested in medicine with live patients at all (that sounds horrible.... i’m just a very science guy TT) and the part that interests me about forensic pathology is the science aspect. so no clue about that stuff lol.

no clue what's going on in the kpop scene, i just listen to some songs asfjfhasj

i like rose gold! more than typical gold too. i'm just not really a fan of yellow gold.

i'm technically working on a low-cost dottore cosplay rn, and i'm also counting that low-cost kazutora cosplay i'm also still working on, so those two. haven't ever gotten to a finished cosplay sadly asfhfjask. i don't keep track of the yt videos i've watched but i'm pretty sure the longest ones i've seen should be in the 5 hour category,, you know those iceberg explanation videos? i had a phase where i'd watch a ton of them, the longer, the better, so those should be the longest ones i've seen. no, i haven't! just checked it out though, seems cool. edits and apps.... okay. i used to make gacha edits. back in 2019 to 2021. i don't think i've ever published one because i never finished any of my edits, but because of that i've had my fair share of experience with editing apps lol. all the ones i'd found always have a watermark on them, but tbh i don't really mind them on edits.

agreed. i think good wings are made from real hair, worse/cheaper ones just plastic. i've never heard of uniqlo,, i just checked google maps and the closest one is 250km away and out of country lol. so, uh no :( tho we've got an animanga store in the city i go to school at which has some merch!

maybe one day.. i'm hardly active on discord (i don't have any space for it on my phone lol who would've thought) and my phone keeps crashing anyway so... at the moment this works just fine xD though do tell me if you've got technical problems on your end, and we'll see what we can do

#☆—`ask #anon: z

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mothunmuted · 2 years

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orchid, sage, chamomile

from this ask meme (gonna get long)

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

lmao, whenever I get a question like this I immediately forget every song I’ve ever heard, and then I tie myself in knots with questions like “well what would make a song perfect?”

Anyway I’m gonna pull out a Boring Classic and choose Eleanor Rigby by The Beatles. I know it’s kindof a boring choice but I feel like anything “perfect” would almost have to be?

I also find myself feeling like “perfect” will also mean “short”— one of the easiest offenses a song can make is padding itself out and overstaying its welcome.

anyway, it really cuts through the noise in the sense that it can make me feel more in its first 5 seconds than most anything else can in that time, especially if you’re going with the video from Yellow Submarine. it is a Mood, and I can’t think of anything else by any artist(s) that’s doing quite the same thing.

another choice might be ol’ J.S. Bach's “little fugue in g minor” (BWV 578) which has lived rent free in the back of my head since I was like 6 or 7. here’s a decent video of that.

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

I mean it’s gotta be music, anybody who knows me knows it‘s gonna be music, right? (though video games get a significant nod)

like I appreciate other media, they’re great and they can do some wonderful things, but I don't think a painting or sculpture has ever ripped my heart out or started building spiderwebs in my mind quite the same way.

—but maybe that has more to do with exposure than disposition? Maybe the film that would bring me to my knees is out there and I just haven’t quite found it yet! Or maybe I haven’t built the same framework for interpretation of other media that I have with music?

Jacob Geller's video essay “The Future of Talking About Games” touches on that last part. While it is (obviously) primarily about video games, a fair amount of it comes from engaging with them in ways similar to how we engage with other art forms.

(I’ve been watching a lot of Jacob Geller’s videos over the past week or so— I saw “Who’s Afraid of Modern Art: Vandalism, Video Games, and Fascism” years ago and imo it’s the OG classic, but I recently watched his most recent video,“Every Zelda is the Darkest Zelda” and started falling down a rabbit hole. “The Golem and the Jewish Superhero” is pretty good, and “The Game That Won’t Let You See All Of It” has got me thinking about all sorts of stuff.)

anyway this question is a little weird to answer when I’m currently hitting a noted spike in Depression™ and find it hard to feel “touched” by anything in general, oops, but I’m workin’ on it

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?

in order of preference:

Thoughtful well-considered surprises that I would’ve asked for if I’d thought to, or sometimes if I’d even known such a thing existed

Media that holds meaning to the person giving the gift, that they are sharing with me without necessarily knowing how I’ll like it. Even if it ends up not being My Thing, that kind of connection always feels nice

Things I specifically ask for— historically these have largely been media like CDs (rip 😭), books, games, etc., but occasionally more practical considerations like “socks” will find their way into the list

cash.

I decidedly do not like receiving physical souvenirs, knick-knacks, tchotchkes, etc., in the vein of “I was thinking of you!”— I get paralyzed with not wanting them but also not wanting to get rid of a gift from somebody who cares enough to get me a gift.

#m.m.#asks

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hurdlehoops · 4 years

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SPN did Market Research for Dean & Cas

Disclaimer: Yes this is a sock for safety reasons. Post is long, but please read it.

No shit there I was checking my email, as you do, and I saw I had a screener from one of the market research groups I’m signed up with. On average, I do a market research thing every 3-4 months because I like non-reportable money. And giving my opinions. And talking to people behind 2 way mirrors without having to go to a police station.

Market research itself was early December, 2016. First email contact with the screener was late October or early November.

I see it’s an “offsite,” meaning a market research company is subcontracted by another company who wants to do the market research at their own facility, but doesn't want to find the participants on their own, so they use the Market research company (in this case Schlesinger and Associates) as an intermediary. I can’t remember if this screener identified itself as being for TV, not all do, some might identify only as entertainment, and some might be even more vague until you get into the screener. Regardless of the identification for the screener (TV or entertainment), I fill out almost every screener I receive unless it’s obvious, from the subject, they won’t want me (ie looking for certain types of professionals)- it didn’t matter, then, if the subject matter was something I particularly like, I would’ve filled it out anyway.

After normal, but more detailed than usual demographics questions, the screener asked about TV habits. Eventually, it said the word “fandom” and asked what TV fandoms I’d count myself in. It was roughly a list of 20 shows and listed “fandom” (defined as I watch every episode and read additional materials about the show. Note this is not what fandom itself would consider fandom, but people most fandom dwellers would still count as GA). Beyond fandom, one could indicate they: watch all episodes but don’t seek out more, watch most episodes, have seen some episodes, watched a few, or haven’t watched. (I just got a screener for soap operas and realized that part was the same and made note). Therefore, fandom, to corporate, are people who watch everything and maybe buy some swag for the show- magazines/shirts. Then, they asked about conventions I might have attended. And then asked about my dream vacation, so I babbled a lot about my dream to go to SDCC (I hadn’t at this point). Supernatural was on the list of shows, so I made sure I answered the essay questions about it, because why not? It was my favorite of what was listed. It was a long screener. I don’t remember the rest. Though sometimes I might remember a detail if a screener reminds me of it. Most fun screener I’ve filled out.

A few days/weeks later, I got a call for step 2- the phone screener for the people that sounded good when filling out the form. And where they try and make sure your answers match or fit that same person who answered them. I passed step 2, and was told there would be homework, and asked ifI’d have time for it, since I would only have so many days to watch the assigned material and write essays about them.

Homework arrives: I have to watch and write essays on all the bonus features of Supernatural S10. There might’ve been something in there from another year, too. And all the bonus features from some season of Big Bang Theory. Essays for all of it, too. And I mean essays, not short answers. It was like the SATs, and I was analyzing blooper reels (among other things). I still don’t get why they wanted essay questions on blooper reels, but I’ll always happily write one again cause that was the funniest essay to have to write!

I had to both print and bring and email all my answers ahead of time. I did not keep them. I’m honestly curious what I might’ve written.

So in December, I get to go to WB’s market research department. Fun fact: the entrance to that building faces what had recently been the Supernatural poster. I check in. At this point I think it’s a group. Because most market research is done in groups. Also they said I was there for the “DVD bonus features study”

I wait in the lobby, but I’m surprised there seem to be very few others around. I don’t think I got there too early, but all the others were taken back before me. And they didn’t seem to be there for the same study. Oh and I wore business casual clothes but had some show-based earrings for fun.

Finally a nice lady brings me back to a room. She turns off the lights and gives me a fancy remote and has me play with a new system for watching bonus features. I had to start with BBT. Then we did something else. Then I was allowed to scroll through and I picked Supernatural, and answered all the things. By this point I figured I would be released soonish because I was supposed to be there only for an hour. And this was at least half an hour at the most. No clock, though and cell phone off. Maybe this part went faster than I remember, but it was less interesting so it felt longer? Or less interesting compared to what came next.

We switch gears. I’m no longer allowed to pick what we watch and talk about my thoughts on if SDCC panels belong in bonus features. (Me: should have a preorder and you get to watch it when the season airs with DVD to arrive when season ends. Silly to watch it after the season when it’s mostly vague spoilers for the first episode or so). Obviously WB doesn’t listen to me about everything.

Oh! In the screener as part of normal demographics, I was asked about my sexuality. It isn’t completely rare (I can talk about another market research where you had to be queer to be part of it), but there were some short answers about representation or something similar. Something that is significant *now,* but at the time I didn’t notice as being too weird. Since they probably had me listed to the people behind the mirror as X (if they even got my name) Y resident, bisexual, age. I very specifically said stuff to her about representation cause I wasn’t gonna miss my shot.

Anyway so we switch from dvd extras and she queues up video from another file.

She puts a scene of Supernatural on and has me watch. Then repeats it. And asks questions about my opinions on what’s happening. Then has me watch and only pay attention to Character D and tell her what I think his emotions are. Then again but with Character C.

Complete torture… lol… at this point I’m confused, but enjoying this torture.

So there I am watching the Crypt scene over and over and analyzing it. And talking about their feelings.

And then I stop her and say something to the effect of “look I’m bi. There’s not a lot of good representation on what being bi is like. But from episode 1 I’ve known Dean is Bi.” And I babbled about how important a macho badass but closeted character is for representation. And that I hoped they did more with that. I included some anecdotes from other lgbtq friends and straight allies and how they all felt as I did- Dean is Bi, Cas is whatever he wants to identify as, and we felt we recognized our experiences on the screen and hoped for continued and louder representation.

Bam. My interviewer was called out of the room by the people behind the mirror. Suddenly I’m getting a whole new set of questions

Like this is the most baffling and amazing thing that's happened to me in years. It imprinted in my mind, and I haven’t mentioned it to too many people, because of the NDA and being afraid to jinx things. But now I don’t feel like it matters to be as quiet. Obviously I don’t want WB to go after me but... market research isn’t unusual, just mostly used for spin-offs or new shows not for plot points of shows already happening. At least, that’s my understanding.

The interviewer comes back after a short discussion with whoever was behind the glass. Asks a few more questions

We’re now very much going into various things about what I’d just said. I took my shot. And apparently it paid off big time. At some point she’s pulled out of the room again and given a paper with more questions. Some were about Dean’s bisexuality, or how I, and anecdotally my friends, saw him as bisexual. Others were about the potential romance. None, that I remember, were about Castiel’s sexuality- I guess that was a given or not important.

I don’t know if any of the writers were behind the glass from the beginning, but I felt like they stalled to get someone there, maybe.

The interviewer was baffled and made sure I knew nothing that was happening was normal. They wanted to ask me more questions than they usually care to get out of their market research volunteers.

So those are the most important parts. Basically almost everything I was asked after that was about character analysis and queerness and a whole bunch of other things that were related (I also mentioned needing more disability rep, too). I was back there for at least 2 hours.

#supernatural #spn #destiel #deancas #castiel #dean winchester #misha collins #jensen ackles

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honklore · 3 years

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would you please consider doing maybe a soulmate au where anything you write appears on your soulmate with karl? i just love the idea of maybe doing little doodles all over your skin and it appearing on his and he likes talking about it on stream which is maybe what brought you two together? one of your friends who watches mcyt saw a clip of him talking about a specific flower they remember you drawing and this lead you to maybe writing out a small message for karl during a stream that made him super giddy? sorry if this was very confusing and i totally get it if you don’t wanna write it, thank you for your time! :)

sincerely yours | karl jacobs

(gn reader, soulmate au, chat is supportive, karl’s lil doodles like he shows on his priv but he draws them on his skin instead)

listen to: make you feel my love (cover) by jj heller

karl jacobs my beloved !!!!!

the sweetest romantic when it comes to the soulmate bond

counted down the days until his eighteenth bday when he could finally communicate with you

okay i’m going to switch your request to where karl is the one constantly doodling if that’s okay !!!!

with all my heart i believe karl would doodle every single day!!! never misses a day to the point where jimmy is like. bringing cleansing wipes to mr beast filming like,,,, dude i’m sorry but you can’t have squiggly marks up your neck while we’re filming we are ~professionals~

a total romantic,,,, like. downloads reddit and reads thru r/soulmatestories before he goes to bed,,, scrolls soulmatesuggestions blogs on tumblr

he’s just so in want of that close bond that he does everything he can to get into contact with you

tries to join late bloomer groups before they tell him that 22 years old isn’t late and he’s still extremely young

he’s just v impatient okay !!!!!

once he begins streaming regularly instead of a tattoo check chat asks to see whatever doodle he drew or received that day !!!!

worries a lot bc he hears a lot of rejection stories and he’s scared of being rejected

so sometimes when he’s rlly anxious or insecure he’ll scrub all of the writing off in the shower and wear long sleeves to avoid looking for your scrawl

YOU ARE ONE BUSY BEE

between school/job/life/family/friends and whatever else you do or don’t have going on, you often forget to draw notes for your soulmate

you’ve gathered a LOT of things about him tho

he writes his name w a lil smiley almost every week

(hey it’s me karl :))

writes u a Goodnight Drawing before bed

except for him goodnight is just right before whenever he goes to sleep and for you it’s like. 10pm.

so you’ll wake up to pee at 5am and find a drawing of a worm on your leg (goodnight!!)

writes lil notes about his tales ideas except you have no idea what they mean rip

(inbetween segment longer? talk to ranboo)

doodles his favorite cartoon characters (ayo!!!)

has colored markers for when he’s feeling especially creative

let’s say you have a retail job

and you can’t have drawings anywhere noticeable per company policy

so you spend most mornings scrubbing off any evidence of karl

which like,,,, makes karl extremely sad but he’s a streamer AND his friends are streamers so he forgets some people have like. jobs that require dress codes

even when jimmy makes him scrub off his drawings, it’s only if they’re extra distracting

one day you finally get tired of waking up thirty minutes early every morning (can u pls draw somewhere that’s not noticeable in a uniform? thanks.)

karl draws a lil kermit the frog on his tummy and it shows up on yours. the marks are all jagged bc he kept laughing whenever the pen tickled him

but it’s so endearing that he followed ur instructions

he keeps the drawings to stomach, thighs, and sometimes his feet which he thinks is literally the funniest thing ever to your dismay (nice to feet you !!!! haha !!!!)

you don’t have time to watch streams unfortunately, but your best friend does :))

your bsf is on quacktwt so she knows who karl is

in one of quackity’s jackbox streams they make fun of karl’s drawing skills

and your friend is like ಠ_ಠ that is the same worm that is always on my bestie’s shoulder

and you’ve never told anyone that you know your soulmate’s name

so your friend only has a stupid (endearing) worm drawing for reference

she screenshots it and sends it to you like, lol quackity’s friend karl draws worms that look just like ur soulmate’s drawings

and ur like,,,,,, karl? his name is karl?

and bless ur heart that’s how u find out ur soulmate is a minecraft twitch streamer (derogatory)

you do your best to watch his streams and try to figure him out ,,,, like who he is as a person

and he’s just the biggest sweetie pie :((

you drew a rose for him during your lunch break one day and that night he showed his chat and got so excited

“chat i think they’re romancing me 0.0”

you get so thrilled that you draw him another doodle, this one of a lil heart

and he literally squeals and shoves his wrist against the lens so quickly that it blurs and makes you audibly laugh

you continue to draw him stuff throughout the next few streams

until finally he’s doing a chill alt stream, watching some yt vids

you know when karl is wrapped up in his fuzzy blanket and yawning while he tries to focus on the video :(((((((( yeah ://///

and you get so overwhelmed with fondness that you uncap your marker

(i like you karl)

and he doesn’t see it until he takes his arm out of the blanket to grab his can of monster

chat sees it first so they’re spamming

and when he reads it he gets SO red and he literally has to call the stream bc he’s too flustered to think of anything else

like he’s finally getting somewhere with you and he’s so so excited

when the stream ends he writes on his arm this entire anxious essay basically asking if you guys can find somewhere to meet or if he can at least have your number

and you can fill in the rest, but ofc the two of you become quite literally the dynamic duo.

absolutely adorable

your bestie makes you promise you’ll help her meet quackity since she basically made the discovery but that’s another story for another time

thank you for requesting !!!

#karl jacobs x reader #karl jacobs au #karl jacobs fluff #mcyt x reader #mcyt au #mcyt fluff

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akookminsupporter · 3 years

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About the different standards between TK and literally every ship and jikook comes down to mostly, in my opinion, homophobia.

With every other single ship in bts it basically comes down to basic bestie moments and skin ship. And every member in bts are fairly attractive men, TK specifically being voted number 1 handsome man and number 1 sexy international man. Its a visually pleasing pair that allows people to enjoy a fantasy. Enjoy creating moments. It's literally fiction. And that's fine (to a point, TK has a tendency to take way too f*cking far). Its literally part of the kpop culture to allow those fantasies and fictions.

Jikook though, they make people uncomfortable because they threaten the fantasy. People cannot even include them in a fantasy because they break it so often. Their moments are too tender and too romantic and too real. They go past the skinship, they go past the general "I'm a decent person and care about you so obviously I'm nice to you" moments. They also threaten every other single fantasy created for other ships just by existing next to each other. I'm an avid supporter of their relationship and fully believe they are in love and are boyfriends. And even i sometimes get uncomfortable watching them together simply because I feel like I'm intruding in an intimate moment that I shouldn't be allowed to watch. Lmao and part of that stems from how they talk to each other, part from how they touch each other, stare at each other, support each other, etc. I won't get into WHY I believe they are real, thats been talked to death over here lol, just that I think they are.

And the simple fact that jikook exists negates every other ship from being real. And I don't think its just opinions about TK not being close anymore. They literally said it themselves, that makes it fact. Even TKKs could see it, the amount of theories and posts and complaints about how there was a "drought" of TK content and obviously BH was hiding stuff from 2016 to 2019 was INSANE. Over the top. They KNOW but they don't WANT to know. It threatens the fantasy so they ignore it. I will say that personally I have been seeing a mark difference in TK interactio since ITS and I absolutely love and adore seeing them try and rebuild that friendship back up and become closer. I think for a long time they were mostly coworkers and friends but they were not besties and definitely were never romantically inclined. And this is nothing against them. I LOVE them. JK is my wrecker and Taes voice is one of my favs. They are goofy and silly and troublemakers and are some of the cutest members ever when they have their REAL moments. I love seeing it!

Honestly Taekook REVOLVES around jimin. Both members are obsessed with that man. TK lies and many other have this narrative that JM gets in the way or inserts himself between them or is causing problems when its actually taekook that drag him into everything. If Taekook WAS real (and they aren't, but lets pretend) then they are trying VERY very hard to make Jimin their third. They would both choose jimin first over each other and have proven it time and time again. Jimin is the center of that triangle, not anyone else. Lol and he is the center because JK is his boyfriend and Tae is his bff. He is their glue and they love him almost too much. But if Tae had to choose, he would pick Jimin. And if JK had tochoose, he would pick Jimin. That alone disqualifies TK from being real. Lol

And lastly (sorry for this giant ass essay!) I've seen all the talk about Jimin and femininity and how the fandom sees him and i generally hate it. The intro to bts videos never give him the credit he deserves but only ever focus on his insecurities, etc. He has an extremely dominant personality and is a very natural leader. RM has stated multiple times that he has gone to JM to talk about leadership things and that he leans on him alot. JM has stepped up to mediate fights between members as well. He is not a soft fragile little girl like most of the fandom seems to like to paint him as. Have you seen the clips where Jimin tells JK what to do? "Stay here" "sit down" and jk just.... does.... jimin is IN charge. He lets JK be on equal footing with him because he loves him. Not because he is a pushover. Jk also doesn't just listen to any of his other hyungs the way he listens to jimin. There is a reason there are those "I'm large but he is in charge" comps around.

I also agree that if I were to name the touchiest members, it would be Tae, Hobi and JK. They are all very tactile people. If I were to name the flirtiest members it would be Tae and Jin. (Don't get me started on taejin on stage because wtf are boundaries?? But no, I also don't really think they are real either) but seriously Jin flirts with Army like there is no tomorrow and is very receptive to verbal flirts/praise. Tae flirts with everything and anything. Lmao I wouldn't be surprised to see him giving his trademark bedroom eyes to a tiny tan statue next. And the way he flirts on weverse to army is next level. Jimin mostly just gives touches to those who crave it and praise to those who want it. And he mostly just honestly actually flirts with jungkook.

Jimin IS touchy, but he also keeps to himself. Every member has said that when jimin struggles, they have to pry it out of him to get him to lean on them or accept their comfort. (JK doesn't seem to have that much trouble with it though 👀). And every single member has at one point said that when they need comfort, they go to jimin. And that Jimin gives the best hugs. He is very sweet and very caring, but that doesn't make him have less of a dominant personality. I always think of Jhope reaching out to bring Jimins arms around him when he cried on his birthday. Or Jin accidentally missing a beat on stage when dancing and getting embarrassed and walking literally across the entire stage to where Jimin was so that he could get a hug from him. Or RM breaking down in tears when Jimin praised him as a leader and giving him a hug. Or Yoongi talking about how much it meant to him when Jimin called to check on him after his surgery.

I'll stop now, sorry. But basically I agree with you about jimin and how wonderful he is but how he is very far from submissive and soft. My favorite thing to watch are clips of Jimin literally softening his entire hard demeanor whenever he sees JK. I think that speaks for itself honestly. Borehae! You are doing a great job with this blog, thanks for making such a safe space for ARMY and jokers here!

I honestly have nothing more to add because anon said everything that needed to be said. Thank you anon.

#anon #ask #JM #opinions that are needed #serious conversation

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myhoneststudyblr · 4 years

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every single student in the world has likely procrastinated at some point - i know i definitely have! sometimes i think it can be quite helpful because means that you don't spend every minute of every day studying... but on the other hand, it can become very hard to beat. there are so many advice posts in the community on this topic but i thought that i would share my own tips!

disclaimer: everyone studies differently and these are my personal tips. they may not work for you but they can be a good starting point

What is Procrastination?

i found this little summary of procrastinating on the internet and thought it completely covered everything that i wanted to say on this point:

Procrastination is the habit of delaying an important task, usually by focusing on less urgent, more enjoyable, and easier activities instead. It is different from laziness, which is the unwillingness to act.

Procrastination can restrict your potential and undermine your career. It can also disrupt teamwork, reduce morale, and even lead to depression and job loss. So, it's crucial to take proactive steps to prevent it.

The first step to overcoming procrastination is to recognize that you're doing it. Then, identify the reasons behind your behavior and use appropriate strategies to manage and overcome it.

- How to Stop Procrastinating by Mindtools

so what is learnt from this is that:

procrastination is not being lazy

it is avoiding tasks by doing other easier tasks

it can have negative effects

you need to proactively take steps to avoid it

first, recognise the procrastinating then use strategies to break the cycle

Conventional Tips

these are the basic tips that are some of the most well-known strategies for ending procrastination and can be some of the most important steps!

1. get organised. tidy up your desk to study space because there is nothing worse than having to work in a place that is chaotic and mess. collect the information you need for the task, for example, notes you've made or a textbook.

2. to-do lists are your friend. a lot of people (including me) really struggle with timetables for studying because it can seem really structured and there is no flexibility or real allowance for things that may crop up during the day (your food takes longer to cook, you have to unexpectedly do a task around the house, you get a really bad headache and need to take a break). in my opinion, to-do lists help solve this problem! you can clearly see the tasks that you want to get done for the day but you don't have stressful time constraints. personally, i always use todoist to keep track of everything. to-do lists also make it easier to break tasks down

3. break the task down. one of the biggest cause of procrastination is having a huge task or project ahead of you because it seems really daunting and where on earth are you even going to start? so break it down *completely*. in your to-do list, don't just write ‘german homework’, write down even task that you need to do within it and be specific: for example ‘pg. 11 ex 4a, 4b and 4c’, ‘textbook listening task on pg. 47′ and ‘250-word essay on social media in Germany’. breaking it down makes the tasks seem more attainable and when you’ve done one and you can cross it off your list, it gives you a boost to keep going

4. eliminate distractions. this is a big one. even if you do all of the above, if you are constantly being distracted by things, you aren't going to get much done. try to find a place that is quiet enough that you can focus and you feel comfortable studying in. as well as this you need to think about what to do with your phone as the likelihood is that this will be the most distracting thing. you can simply turn it off, put on do not disturb, leave it in another room or use and app like forest (that last one is what i use and i don't know where i would be without it!)

5. use incentives. finishing a task is an achievement so treat it like one! before you study, decide on something that you will give yourself as a reward for doing it. this may be watching that new episode of your favourite programme or a tasty snack!

6. set timers. don't just launch yourself into a task, because that again can make it seem daunting and feel unending. rather, set a timer for a specific time because you’ll know that you just need to focus for that specific length of time and then you can go take a break and do something nice. for timing your study sessions, you could use the Pomodoro technique

7. allow for breaks (but try to avoid long ones). you are not a machine and as much as it would be great to be able to, you cant study for hours on end without giving your mind a break from focusing. so schedule in break time for yourself, particularly for times that you know your motivation dips, and do something nice. but be very careful that you don't accidentally slip back into procrastinating habits and keep breaks short. unless you are very disciplined it is unlikely that an hour-long break will stay just an hour.

8. know how you study but don’t be afraid to mix it up. everyone studies differently and so there are going to be some study methods that work better for some than others. so try to make sure that you are studying smart and that you aren't wasting your own time cause that can be incredibly unmotivating. HOWEVER, if there is anything that I’ve learnt from online school its that doing the same task all the time, every day is mind-numbingly boring and you just want to do anything else. so try to switch up what you are doing. if you usually just type notes from the textbook, maybe try doing it in a mindmap one week, or on flashcards, maybe do some practise questions to keep your mind engaged.

9. play music. now this one really depends on the person and how you study. some people need absolute silence and that is fine, but others need something to fill the silence or maybe cover up background noise (for example if you live in a busy household). try to pick music however that is not going to distract you - the key tips for this is to pick music without lyrics. this can be classical music, video game music, or general ‘chill’ music (there are so many playlists out there for chill studying music). i personally listen to Francesco Parrino religiously while studying because he does piano covers of pop songs, so i know the songs and enjoy them but there are no lyrics that can distract me

10. stay hydrated, well-rested and not hungry. this is part of eliminating distractions because if you are thirsty, you are going to be thinking about how you want a drink; if you are tired, you are going to be thinking about how tired you are; if you are hungry, you are going to be thinking about what you want for lunch or whatever. make sure you are hydrated, well-rested and not hungry so you can focus solely on your task or work.

Unconventional Tips

these are some slightly more unusual tips that you might not have seen before but that I've nevertheless found very useful!

1. video yourself or do a timelapse. this is something that I’ve only recently done because i saw a tip on this from someone during my quarantine challenge and thought that it would be cool to do. and it really works! i did it twice once when i was typing notes and a second time when i was handwriting notes and it really made me focus on what is as doing because the video put some pressure on me to look like i was properly studying - i could take a 5-minute break in the middle of my work to mess around with my pen, I just had to keep going so it really forces you to do the work. also watching the video when i was done made me really proud cause i had visual proof of how much i completed!

2. accept that some days you are going to get very little done. this may seem a little bit odd to put on a post that is meant to avoid getting nothing done but it’s actually a very important thing to remember. sometimes you need to take days off because otherwise you are going to burnout and some days you are just not going to be in the right mindset for studying because maybe you are exhausted after a big exam, or you have a headache or you feel unwell. you just need to accept it, draw a line under it, take time for yourself, and resolve yourself to work tomorrow once you feel a bit better. there is no shame in taking time to make sure you stay healthy. if you can, try to get your quickest, easiest task done so you have some sense of accomplishment.

3. ‘churn it out and f**k off’. this was my mum’s motto when she was studying and working in academia. and she recently told it to me when i was getting stressed about all the big tasks during online school. i am a perfectionist and i always want to hand in my very best work, put 100% into everything, but honestly that is impossible. some days you just need to get stuff done and if that isn't your very best then it doesn't matter too much because at least you got it done. and once you get it done you can just forget about it.

4. ask a friend or parent to check up on you. when you are studying by yourself it can be hard to motivate yourself because you know that no ones actually going to check whether you made those votes or did the reading, so ask a friend or someone you live with to check whether you've done the work or get them to read essays. you then get an external reason to study or do your tasks because you need to show them something.

5. rephrase how you think of tasks. when you think that ‘you need to do this task’ or ‘you have to get this done’, a lot of the time this causes unneeded stress and anxiety that is not going to help you at all. also it makes it seem like you are being forced to do something and human beings generally don't act great when they are forced to do something. so try to change your language when thinking about task into one that is more forgiving such as ‘i choose to do this project so that i can go meet my friends tomorrow’ and ‘i choose to read this book now because it will help me in the lecture next week’. this is probably the most difficult strategy on this list and it will take a lot of practice (i am certainly still practising it) but in the long term, it can help you change the way in which you view studying for the better.

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i hope this was helpful and that these tips will be useful, and perhaps you've discovered some new ones! if anyone has anything to add please feel free to reply or reblog with the advice <3

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fantastic-bby · 3 years

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SKZ vs. their crush

Pairing: Gender neutral Reader x Member

Word count: 3.9k

Genre: Fluff

Summary: It’s just them crushing on you

Warnings: -

Masterlist

A/n: I tried a different format this time and used bullet points rather than just making it like a full story since my brain was going crazy when I wrote this. Let me know which format you prefer and maybe I might incorporate both bullet points and the essay ones since I actually quite enjoy writing using both.

Chan

You guys only met because you knew Jeongin

The tiny babie brought you to meet his friends

Chan was smitten when he first met you

He thought you were so pretty when he saw you following behind Jeongin

“Innie,”

“Yeah?”

“Who is that?”

He wants Jeongin to introduce you two

Sensing the vibes, the maknae is more than happy to introduce you two

if he was being honest, he already knew Chan would pretty much fall in love with you immediately

Chan’s flustered when he introduces himself to you

He’s almost blubbering all over the place

You find it kinda cute but he’s scared you found him really weird

He tries to steal little moments to be with you

Like ‘accidentally’ bumping into you in the hallway

Or how he just so happens to walk into Jeongin’s room when you’re on a call with him

Or how he just so happens to be lingering around the flea market nearby your college campus

Chan takes care of you without even realising it

If you bump into each other he asks whether you’ve eaten or how your day is

He loves the way you seem to parent his friends like he does

“Jisung, put the knife down. You’re going to hurt somebody”

“Hehe, make me”

“PUT IT DOWN 〴⋋_⋌〵”

Chan’s surprised he listens to you

He loves how everyone only seems to listen if you’re the one talking too

If you’re hanging out with them at the dorms and Chan can’t seem to control everyone, you just step in

“Guys, please”

And suddenly the chaos has calmed down

Chan finds it amazing

Everyone just… stops when you ask them to

You find it amusing

It’s like watching a single dad trying to control his seven wild sons

He chases after Felix around the dorm a lot because he’s usually done something weird with Minho and Jisung

He manages to get your number using an excuse of needing you to calm down the boys

“Please… they don’t listen sometimes”

Jeongin finds reasons to push you two together

“Yay! You guys made—oH nO I ComPleTeLy foRgoT!!”

Leaves the two of you alone

He honestly just thinks you two should get together and so does the rest of the group

So they find excuses to get you two alone together

But your relationship takes f o r e v e r

Only because Chan wants to be absolutely certain that he likes you

He doesn’t want to commit to someone he’s worried he’s not sure of yet

Slowly but surely, he starts to ease into the relationship

He sends you music he thinks you’ll like

Eventually he’ll start sending you his own music

He only confesses when he’s absolutely sure he’s pretty much falling in love with you

The way he does it just wins your heart immediately if you weren’t already as whipped for him as he was

He writes a song for you (´༎ຶ ͜ʖ ༎ຶ `)♡

Minho

Bumped into you at a dance studio he goes to often

He thinks your dancing is amazing

At first he doesn’t want to bother you

But then he’s all like “heyyyy I’m Minho”

And you’re pretty much taken away by how gorgeous the man is

Minho wouldn’t be too flustered

He would keep his cool around you

Doesn’t mean he wouldn’t try to impress you with his sexy dance moves

Tries to win your heart the romantic way which doesn’t work because half the time you’re too busy dancing to actually realise he’s trying to flirt with you

“Hey, baby ;)”

“Huh?”

“Nothing”

Wonders whether he should just make a dedicated advance towards you

He likes your humour

It’s similar to his

You both just laugh at really weird stuff together

When you share your numbers, he sends you weird videos that he thinks you’ll like

Minho’s not much of a texter, but when you do get a message from him, it’s either something he’s really excited about or something really weird

Only realises he’s actually crushing on you when Changbin points it out

“Why are you so nice to them”

“Who?”

“(Y/n)”

Then Minho realises that he really likes you

Starts slowly working harder to win your heart

Helps you with your dancing

“Your body looks a bit stiff”

Buys you lunch

“I got you the lunch box from 7 11”

It’s always something you end up liking if you hadn’t tried it before

Buys you drinks from the vending machine

“What is this???”

It looks like a double shot coffee

“Energy?”

Minho doesn’t know either but you both drink it anyway

And end up being at the studio until 3 a.m. because you’re both so hyped with caffeine

Offers to walk you home if it’s getting late

“It’s not safe on your own”

“Minho, I’ll be fineeeee”

Doesn’t take no for an answer and forces you to let him

His advances work

You’re pretty much whipped for him by the time he confesses

Which Minho does by buying you flowers and bringing it to the studio

Changbin

You work at the music shop that he goes to often

When he’s browsing the CD’s and the vinyls, he spots you at the counter

His heart almost explodes when he sees you

The first thing that caught his eye was the way you were dressed

Fits Changbin’s style

He’s nervous to approach you with the vinyl in his hand

Why was he so nervous?

Oh right, he was pretty much completely smitten by you

“Hi!”

He loves your voice even more

“H-Hey,”

Changbin’s so nervous

He likes your bracelets too

He thinks they’re really cool

He ends up coming back a lot and you wonder why this man needs so many CD’s and vinyls

Eventually, he builds up the courage to talk to you

Changbin comes by every once in a while just to say hi

Sometimes he just comes in to talk to you during your break

You tell him you’ve always wanted to try making music

He tells you he makes music

You’re all :0

Changbin tells you about it

And you get really interested in his music

He starts coming after your shift or during your break to play you his songs

He gets all uwu when he sees the way your eyes shine

You have him wrapped around your finger without even knowing it

Doesn’t admit that he’s pretty much whipped

Even though he visits you almost every other day

And how he buys you your favourite snacks

Or how he stays way longer than he expected to just bcs he’s talking to you

You’re just as whipped tbh

You love talking to Changbin

You like his music taste and he’s fun to be around

Confesses to you by taking you out on a date

He brings you to his studio

Shows you how he makes music

He finds it adorable how you’re so amazed by his equipment

So he teaches you whatever he can in the time you’re together

You both spend the evening just messing around

You make a short track that you’re sure sounds really off

Changbin reassures you that it’s nice

He teaches you how to layer the different tracks

And eventually teaches you how to edit them despite the few hours you have

You’re so excited

He smiles every time he looks at you

Bcs you’re so adorable he feels like he might burst

Confesses at the end of the night

“I like you a lot”

He blurts it out and it catches you slightly off guard

But you like him back so it’s fine

Ends up offering to take you to the studio anytime you’re both free

Hyunjin

Met you through Felix

Felix invited you to play a game with him and his friends

Hyunjin hears your voice the first time and he’s already curious

He thinks you’re really chill and he likes your vibe

You end up playing more games with them

He ends up wanting to get to know you more

The thing that honestly gets to him the most is the way you take every loss so lightheartedly

“There’s always another game”

You don’t rage or stress out over it

Over time, he starts spending one-on-one time with you

Until you’re both just doing literally anything else but gaming together

He denies them as dates whenever his friends ask, claiming that it’s just friend time

Until one night you’re both awake at four a.m. and talking about everything and anything

He likes the way you think

“Hyunjin, did you know that sometimes in movies, they use trash cans to replicate tiger roars”

“What???”

He likes how you’re joking talking about starting a revolution

He knows you won’t

“So, yeah, fuck capitalism!”

“Yeah!”

He loves the fact that you’re so open about what you think even if it’s something small or weird

“Mercy’s ass is so thick… for what reason…”

“She’s a video game character??”

“Felix, her ass is so thick, she could kill someone with it”

Hyunjin loves hearing you rant about your day

“And?? It’s so stupid!!”

“Calm down, (Y/n)”

“Don’t tell me to calm down, you egg!”

Hyunjin thinks you’re adorable when you’re all riled up

He finds it amusing because he likes hearing you talk

“You live there too?”

He didn’t expect to be so close to you

“Yeah, that’s how I met Felix”

He never realised you and Felix knew each other in real life

You spend more time together

Talking about whatever comes to mind until the dead of night

Sometimes you watch movies together

You stay away from horror movies because he doesn’t like it that much

But you’re always talking about something with him

The two of you are always the last to leave the call because you end up talking after games

Hyunjin asks you out without even realising it sounds like a date

“Is that a date??”

“Sure”

He didn’t even realise he asked you out until after he’s left the call

?!?!?!?!

Goes into panic mode

He just asked you out!!!!

Starts asking Felix about you

He laughs at Hyunjin but helps him anyway

Shows him what you look like on your Instagram

Hyunjin thinks you’re so pretty on your posts

When he sees you in person for the first time

He’s so taken away

You’re gorgeous

Whatever feeling he didn’t realise he had for you comes rushing in

Hyunjin loves your laugh

You spend the whole day together just walking around town

It’s nice to hear his voice when it isn’t coming out of your headphones

By the time the date’s over, Hyunjin wants more of you

So he tells you he wants to take you out again while he’s walking you home

You accept

He turns to you with a c: before asking if he can kiss you

Jisung

You’re a barista at the cafe nearby the JYPe building

Jisung was designated as the drink buyer that time by the rest of his group

If he was having trouble remembering all their orders before

He has even bigger trouble now when he sees you

YOU LOOK SO CUTE IN YOUR APRON

He freezes the moment he sees you at the cashier

“Hi! What would you like?”

Jisung’s eyes go ◑.◑

“Uhm… sir?”

“Sorry!”

He struggles to get his order out properly

But you’re patient with him and even though he barely knows you

He likes that you are

Jisung’s watching you the entire time you make his order

He can’t take his eyes off of you

You do notice it, but you find him adorable so you don’t say anything

He seems to be easily flustered

When you hand him his order, he’s still a blubbering mess

“T-Thank you…”

Your name tag says (Y/n)

So he thanks you using your name which you smile

“Have a great day!”

Jisung comes back the next day

He doesn’t even need any drinks, he just wants to see you again

When he does, he feels all fluttery on the inside

“Welcome back”

He orders a dark chocolate smoothie and an iced mocha for Minho

Minho would kill him if he found out Jisung went to the cafe without him

Jisung sits at an empty table and watches you again

The next day, the cycle repeats

And the day after that

Minho follows him at some point, wondering why Jisung seems to obsessed with the place

“Why do you like this place so much?”

“I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT”

Something’s definitely up with him

Minho only finds out when he sees the way Jisung’s face seems to light up when he sees you

“You like the barista, don’t you”

“WHAT BARISTA ಠoಠ”

That’s all he needs to confirm it

Minho lets Jisung order, seeing just how excited and giddy he is when he’s talking to you

Jisung’s practically bouncing up and down while you talk to him

When they leave, Minho’s all up in it

“You really like them, huh”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about >:c”

Knowing Jisung, he wouldn’t do anything about it

So Minho takes it into his own hands to bring you two together

The group is having a mini event and they need someone to serve drinks

Who else to ask other than you?

Jisung’s eyes almost bulge out of his skull when he sees you because

What are you doing here????

He’s so nervous

Minho practically shoves him your way

Again, you find him so cute that you don’t even realise he’s practically dying to know you more

“Hi Jisung!”

You learned his name over the course of him constantly coming back and Jisung just loves hearing it from you

“Hi (Y/n)”

“I can’t make anything ice blended, but I can trade if for an iced dark chocolate”

“Okay!”

As long as you make it, he’ll take it

The event comes to an end but Jisung’s pretty much spent more time with you rather than his group mates

Even they’re amused by how into you he obviously is

“Hey Jisung”

You stop him before you leave and he’s immediately at your side

“Since you keep coming over, here’s my number”

◑.◑

“Give me a call before you come in so that I can have your drink ready for you to pick up”

He’s so happy :D

He sends you pictures of cute animals and random snippets of his music

Felix

Met you through League of Legends

You have good synergy so you became friends through that

At first, he only managed to play with you occasionally

When he’s able to, he notices how you always sound so bright

“Hi Felix!”

He likes playing with you

You’re laid-back

You don’t stress over losses too much

“Ah, what to do?”

But when you’re irritated, Felix finds it funny

“Fucking asshole!”

“You were in the way, (Y/n)”

“Shut the fuck up!”

You’re so funny to him

“Felix, don’t go into bush”

“I can bait them”

“DON’T”

His character dies

“Oops ( ͡° ͜V ͡°)”

“-`д´-”

You’re easy to game with and that’s what he admires the most right off the bat

You always seem to be up for games

Even when he’s not able to play, whenever he logs into Discord he sees you’re online

Wonders whether you sleep at all

“I don’t need sleep. I am gamerrrr. Gamers don’t sleep”

“Please sleep”

“Lix, sleep is for the weak and I’m not weak”

“You passed out last night in call”

Honestly slightly concerned for you

Overtime he realises that he really looks forward to games with you

Before Felix would just go to sleep after practice or shows

But he’ll start waiting to see if you’re up for even one game

Which you always are

Slowly starts spending time with you just talking

Eventually it leads to the both of you staying up until 5 a.m. laughing at really stupid memes

During the day when Felix can’t join call

He sends you funny tiktoks and memes

You appreciate it because you like him

But you don’t admit it because you’ve never met him in person before

Until you both find out that you live only a few hours away from him

Invites you down to Seoul to spend time with him

You’re nervous

Felix is nervous

He knows what you look like

You exchanged Snapchats and started streaking a while before

He sends you funny pictures of his members

You send him selfies with random filters

But nothing could prepare him for when you appear from around the corner

He sees you appear and he’s all (゜ロ゜)

Your photos don’t do your natural beauty any justice

Is a bit of a mess when you’re walking around together

Eventually loosens up around you

Compliments you a lot and it makes you blush

You spend the day just wandering around the place

Felix takes you to his favourite places and favourite cafes

He wants to share his favourite things with you

You find it endearing

Tries to make you laugh a lot because he’s just grown to really like the sound of your voice

Since you’ve spent most of your time talking over call

Felix just loves hearing your voice

When the day’s over

He asks for more nights that aren’t just filled with games because owo he wants to do more with you

Seungmin

Bumped into you at JYPe because you were visiting a friend

Hears you singing with Yeji and he immediately falls in love with your voice

He peeks into the dance studio to see the two of you just sitting on the floor together

There’s no music

It’s just the two of you singing together

Your voice makes him :D

Seungmin leaves the two of you bcs he doesn’t want to intrude

But he ends up seeing you more often

Turns out you’re in Seoul for a while so you’re spending quite some time with Yeji

He sees you in the hallways a lot

When you walk past each other, it’s always just a polite bow

You don’t really think much of Seungmin other than the fact that you think he’s pretty handsome

Yeji teases you for that

When you’re walking through the building to look for her

You hear someone singing in one of the rooms

You peek through the glass

It’s Seungmin!

ಠoಠ

And he’s so good

You listen from outside the door

You knew he was good since he was an idol

But you didn’t think that he was that good

You don’t even realise he’s done when the door swings open and you’re standing there

When Seungmin sees you, he realises you were most likely listening

Now you’re just staring at each other like

(ﾟωﾟ;)

Because now he knows you were listening

And now you know he knows

“Uhm…”

You’re embarrassed

You’re lucky Yeji pops from around the corner and your eyes plead for her to drag you away

Which she doesn’t

“Sunbaenim!”

“Hi Yeji”

“Have you met (Y/n) before?”

You actually want to tear her apart

“Not properly, no”

“Well... “

“WELL WOULD YOU LOOK AT THE TIME”

You drag her away before she can say anything else

The next time you see Seungmin

You pass by him in the hallway once again while you’re looking for Yeji

“(Y/n)”

ಠ_ಠ

“We keep passing each other but we’ve yet to actually meet each other properly”

“Haha…”

“I know you were listening the other day”

“Haaahhhhhhaaaa…”

“I don’t mind that you did.”

“Huh”

You’re actually bit surprised that he doesn’t mind

“I overheard you and Yeji singing the other day in the dance room”

༼ : ౦ ‸ ౦ : ༽

“You sing really beautifully, (Y/n)”

There’s an awkward wall that takes a while before you two actually break it down

But when you do

It’s almost like you visit the building to see Seungmin rather than Yeji

She doesn’t mind since she saw it coming

Doesn’t mean she can’t tease you about it

Seungmin looks forward to having lunch with you in the cafeteria

At this point, the staff don’t even question your now daily appearance

You end up falling for Seungmin way faster than you thought possible

The feeling’s mutual

He just likes everything about you

You’re so sweet

You’re also really caring

He notices that when you follow him to the practice room where Stray Kids are

Changbin trips over Hyunjin’s legs

You’re rushing over to help without any of them really realising it

He loves how nice your voice is too

“Can you sing for me?”

You’re shook

You wonder why he wants to hear your voice specifically

“Your voice is just really nice

He realises he really likes you when you briefly disturb their practice to give Seungmin lunch

He briefly mentioned that he forgot his wallet and his lunch

Since you aren’t an idol or staff

You had to use your own money in the cafeteria

Seungmin’s heart flips at the realisation

Ends up asking you out so that you don’t have to spend so much time inside the JYPe building all the time

Jeongin

Meets you through Changbin

You went to the same high school as him and you kinda just stuck around

Changbin brings you to the dorm bcs he borrowed a hoodie

The entire dorm greets you really brightly

Jeongin’s the only one just watching in awe

He’s so shy when you wave at him

Seungmin notices and raises a brow

“I-I’m Jeongin”

“Hi Jeongin! Changbin talks about you guys a lot”

He’s so nervous

He wants to know you more, but he also doesn’t want to make it obvious that he’s taking interest in you

The others don’t really notice because they’re too excited by the new person

Seungmin, on the other hand, tells Changbin about it

Changbin now makes it his mission to bring you two together

He brings you over to the dorm more often

Especially if Jeongin’s the only one home

“(Y/n), you’ve met Innie before right?”

You nod

Jeongin’s adorable

Changbin ends up bringing you over for movie nights

Now you’re just an honorary member of the group

Everyone else loves you

Jeongin always tries to sit next to you during movie nights

Especially if it’s a horror movie

When you get scared, you hug his arm and he likes that

Makes him feel like he’s able to protect you like a big strong man ᕙ(`▽´)ᕗ

You kinda like him too

So you test the waters around him

You start talking to him more since Changbin told you he’s really shy

Jeongin slowly eases into your company

It takes a bit of time, but he’s started getting more confident around you

You visit the dorm thinking Changbin’s there because he stole your favourite belt

When Jeongin opens the door he’s all :D but when you ask where his hyung is he goes D:

Tells you he’s not home but lets you in anyway

No one else is home except for Jeongin and Chan

So you sit in the living room with Innie

You start talking about random things

You end up talking about almost everything because it turns out that Changbin’s gone way longer than both of you thought

Chan eventually emerges from his bedroom and waves at you

He orders fried chicken for you guys

You and Jeongin continue talking while eating

Chan finds it super cute

Jeongin’s playful around you

But he doesn’t want to make himself appear immature

But you like when he’s being playful so you slowly ease him into being more comfortable

He still just wants to impress you so you like him back

Wait, when did he start liking you???

He realised it when you were over for a regular movie night

You fell asleep in his lap

Jeongin thought you were so cute

When you wake up he asks you out

You accept

He cuddles you for the rest of the night and asks you to spend the night at the dorm

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dailybeastarsthings · 2 years

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Chapter 25 - My Summer

After the Meteor Festival, the summer break at Cherryton Academy begins almost immediately. Students, as a tsunami, flow out of the dorms and school buildings with their luggage to spend the months of July and August at home or on vacation somewhere else.

Each year, the students are required to write a short essay about their summer. This is a little selection of them.

LEGOSHI

As usual, I spent my summer at school, nothing new here. Since almost everyone was gone (except for the janitors perhaps and the kitchen staff maybe), I was all by myself most of the time. And honestly, I enjoyed that. Of course, I could’ve gone home to my grandfather, but we’re not on the best terms…

Being alone means that I could get up whenever I wanted to. Even if I didn’t have a chance to eat breakfast, it was amazing to sleep until noon sometimes. I spent most of the days watching videos about insects, societal norms and behavioral studies on EelTube. I also played some videogames but got bored of them pretty soon.

Some days, I also took out my pet beetle, Kabu, to the park so he could sunbathe and eat some fresh berries right from the bushes. He seemed to enjoy it quite much, although he was moving quite slowly, which might indicate that his time is nearly over. I’m hoping we will be able to celebrate at least Rexmas together.

During the evenings, I would either read some mangas or watch some other videos on EelTube.

For the last two weeks, Jack, my roommate, also joined me, so the amount of time we played videogames grew by a lot. We would also watch movies and series together and laugh hysterically at some of our silly moments together. He’s a really good friend of mine. I hope he knows that…

And basically that’s it. I know it’s not as sensational like other students’, but I enjoyed it nonetheless.

JACK

My summer was pretty nice. I went home the first day of the break and spent the next day or two by catching up with my parents. Even though we message each other almost every week, there was still a lot to talk about. I told them about how the exams were and they were really proud of my results.

The next week, we went on vacation to a resort. There was spa with lots of opportunities to relax, like massages, saunas and pools. They also offered other fun activities like bowling and even tennis. Unfortunately, I’m not the one to typically enjoy these kinds of relaxation, so I mostly spent my days there reading and studying well, revising some stuff from the school year…).

When we got back, we visited my grandparents, since it was my grandmother’s birthday. We baked a cherry cake for her, which is her favorite. She was so happy when we served it to her. Of course I couldn’t escape the usual “Do you have a girlfriend now?” question, which is seriously annoying. Sometimes I feel like a parrot that I have to keep repeating myself “No grandma, I’m focusing on my studies not flirting” – which of course my parents understand, but she has to go on how she met my grandfather when she was 15 and have been inseparable ever since…

Well, anyway, for the last two weeks of the break, I went back to the dorm to keep Legoshi company. I don’t like him being alone. I’m not worried about him or anything; it just saddens me to see him so desolate. He swears he’s fine with it but still… We spent a lot of time together while watching films and thinking back to our childhood memories. It was pretty nice.

I hope the next summer will be just as good if not better.

JUNO

After the festival, I was pretty upset that I had to see Legoshi light a candle with that rabbit. It made me worry that I might lose him forever.

During the first days of the break, I went home to my family. They announced a surprise trip to a nearby cultural hotspot – a city with lots of museums, theatres and concert halls. I was really excited about it, because I love music and dancing. I also like museums, but not that much – all that walking exhausts me…

We spent a good month in that town, watching at least four performances in the theatre and a few classical music concerts in the concert hall. We also visited a few museums, but for the reasons above, I didn’t really enjoy that. We also tried a few different cuisines by visiting international restaurants. I can’t really find a good reason why, but the Portuguese one was the best in my opinion. Maybe the seasoning or the combo of the flavors?

Anyway, after we got back, I still had a month on my hands. In that time, I met a few good friends of mine from grade school. Since we study in different schools, it was a great opportunity for me to catch up with them over a coffee or some pastries. I also spent a good amount of time thinking about possible ways to get closer to Legoshi and maybe even have him become my boyfriend, but I had little to no luck with that. I’m not giving up though!

I look forward what the continuation of the school year brings!

HARU

The moment we lit our candle with Legoshi was pretty special for me. I never thought I would have such a good friend in my life. I wish I could relive that moment.

I went back to my family on the first day of the break. They kept asking about my school year, my grades and my health, which was quite annoying. They also kept lecturing me how I should be more careful and look after myself better. I didn’t tell them about what happened just before the Meteor Festival (of course) – they don’t need to know about that. I hate to say this, but sometimes I wish they cared less about me…

I spent most of my time at home. We couldn’t really afford a vacation since my father had a huge medical bill to cover after his surgery – he had a serious ear infection going on. Fortunately though, it seems that the doctors had done a great job and he will recover soon.

Since we don’t live that far from the school, I was also able to go to the Gardening Club and take care of the plants. Since I’m the only member and the plants need caring even during the summer break, I had to. Boy do I wish someone would sign up for club, too.

I also spent a good amount of time reflecting on my kidnapping. I watched videos and read blogs about how I should deal with such trauma. But in the end, I think I’ll leave it to professionals and get an appointment to a psychologist after we return to school. Hopefully it will help.

I also hope we’ll be able to hang out with Legoshi, too (and that someone will join the Gardening Club! Please?)

DURHAM

I myself didn’t go to the Meteor Festival, but I heard it was pretty awesome. However, I was more excited about the music camp my parents sent me to. I arrived there on the second day of the summer break and stayed there pretty much the entire time.

We were accommodated in small wooden houses, which had beds for four students. It was a bit tight and the common bathroom was not something I was happy to visit, but at least the houses had some sort of air conditioning.

The food was pretty good, too. Not as good as my mother’s or the school’s but it was still delicious and nutritious. We even had barbecue and bonfire nights every Thursday. We sang a lot and told horror stories. Some of them were a bit more… ridiculous than scary, though.

At the camp, I had the chance to play a lot on my guitar and even learn new techniques, which I was very interested to implement into my routine. We even had the chance to team up and write songs together. Not to toot my own horn, but our team wrote one of, if not the best song. We had my guitar, a rabbit’s saxophone, an otter’s drum and a mouse’s violin in a rather unique, yet harmonious melody.

When the songs were finished, we could present it to an audience. We were pretty scared because we didn’t know what to expect, and even got petrified when we stepped on stage. There were at least two hundred animals there with curious eyes. We were all thrilled when at the end of our song, everyone was cheering and clapping wildly. It was a pretty darn good feeling. A manager even walked up to me and gave me an offer to write a single. His one condition was to find a vocalist as great as my guitar skills. I sure know who I’ll ask – Miguno, who else?

Before we knew it, the camp was over and I had to head home. The next thing I knew was that I was back in school, writing this essay. I can’t wait to return to that camp though – I might even bring Miguno with me…

ELS

I had a ton of fun this summer!

First, I spent some time at home with my parents. We caught up and visited some relatives to enjoy some time together. Then, we went for a short vacation to a beautiful forested area with a huge lake. Its water was so clear, you could see the bottom of it – and it was supposedly 30 meters deep! It was so mesmerizing to watch the water gently vibrate. During our vacation, we also went hiking to visit some sacred places and pay our respects to the elements.

After our return, I spent a short time at home again before I headed to a botany camp. It doesn’t seem that interesting, I know, but trust me, it was pretty cool. And it was not my first rodeo either. I went there for the fourth time this year!

At camp, we learnt a lot about taking care of special and exotic plants as well as some pretty succulents. I know I’ll use that knowledge to be a better owner to my pet plant, Bertha. We also spent a lot of time walking around the city and maintaining the plants and trees in the parks and along the roads. I know it sounds like free labor, but it felt so good to see the fruit of it.

As some ‘extracurricular activities’, we could make fresh lemonade out of the fruits that were grown at the camp’s area. I went with a classic – strawberry. Sadly, the camp was actually pretty short, only two weeks, so I spent the remainder of the break at home. I took some time to practice the dance moves of my role in the Adler play, which we will, as usual, perform at the New Students Welcoming Event. Honestly, at this point, I don’t even know why we have rehearsals for that play… Sometimes I really wish we had some sort of club at school, which is focused around plants… Maybe I’ll start my own this year!

#beastars #beastars overhaul

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itmeansapricot · 2 years

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hey i read the post about abby cox's video and (with the caveat that im just a history-enthusiast, and therefore have no real 'skin in the game') i was interested in your annoyance with historical bloggers like Bernadette Banner. do u think they misrepresent stuff? i watch some of those bloggers sometimes but i don't really know how reliably to take them. i do, on the other hand, tend to pretty much buy in to what i read on /askhistorians -- i find in general it's hard for an amateur who doesnt have historical analytical training and/or time to read monographs to gauge reliability/expertise, particularly in pre/early modern stuff

No, it is honestly 95% just that I am a bitter and jealous hag. I have been ever since Blogger. The way to get attention then was to actually sew things and then have photoshoots somewhere nice and show them off on your blog, and since my blog was mostly my research into things like terminology (my blog was one of the first places anyone posted about the polonaise being specifically NOT an anglaise with the skirts hiked up!) and my translations of the Galerie des Modes fashion plate captions, I did not get a lot of attention. I was a student and then a precarious worker so I didn't want to buy fabric, and I didn't really have friends so I also didn't have people to meet up with for picnics or other events. It was definitely the whole Instagram Culture problem before Instagram existed. When my book of patterns came out, nobody really cared and several of the BNFs of costuming declined to review it even for a free copy or did review it really lukewarmly. Then everybody transitioned to Instagram which ramped up the Instagram Culture problem.

Then everybody transitioned to YouTube and I was like, okay, I could get back into the game because I have lots to talk about. But there are two major problems with trying to make YouTube videos. One is that it takes an incredible amount of time to write, film, and edit them - you have to make Doing YouTube your hobby, and I spend so much time on AskHistorians (thank you for reading AskHistorians!!!) and on writing projects that I can't do that. The other is that I have a very flat affect and I just cannot manage the video-essay-talking-head manner, so the whole time I was editing and posting the few videos I made, I was cringing intensely at myself ... and then nobody really wants to watch them ... But ultimately the issue is that I just don't prioritize what I would need to prioritize to be a successful costuber, and I don't put in the work to learn techniques for making good videos. I cannot expect to excel if I do not practice a good deal!

The other 5% is that, yeah, they can be a bit shallow. They're just not aimed at me, though - their videos are decent introductions to e.g. the Gibson Girl, historical sewing techniques, pockets, etc. but I have pretty intense knowledge about lots of fashion history, but particularly the eighteenth through early twentieth centuries, which is what they talk about (particularly, like, 1880s-1910s for some reason). There also seems to be a lot of analyzing film costumes for accuracy, which can be an interesting topic (I have a whole tag on it), but ultimately it tends to be pretty repetitive and again, I have loads of my own opinions there. I also CANNOT watch video essays - I had to watch Abby's for the other post with the sound off and captions on - I would rather read blog posts.

#I know myself pretty well #I just get jealous when people hail XYZ as an expert because they make cromulent videos but don't know who I am #they sure know who I am on AskHistorians! because I ban them if they don't!

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After watching nct dream reflecting back on their past and present selves for the hello future videos i'm honestly really worried for renjun. I think all of them went through a lot in the industry, especially considering they were minors and how controlled and handled they must have been and still are, not to mention just the general effects fame can have on you but renjun is such an emotional person, he was described in mental training camp as the "artist type" who feels a lot and gets lonely easily and he basically confirmed it himself by saying he gets lonely even on sunny days. He said he values freedom a lot and being able to hold conversation comfortably and without restrictions. I think he's a very determined person and has a good head on his shoulders (in the interview with eric nam he said he went to Korea at 15 bc he wanted to sing and would've done it even if his parents said no. When I was 15 I was just figuring out what music I liked and how I wanted to dress and trying to adjust to highschool, like his determination is insane) and he knows what he wants to get out of life, I think he also lives for himself, and is very confident in who he is but like everyone else he has bad days and I imagine if he gets down it really hits him bc of how emotional he is. It was even said that his personality is very rare and he's just such a precious person. I also worry bc he seems to look detached at times and not really present or in his head compared to the dreamies, but that may just be part of his personality. I hope he can always be happy and experience freedom in the way he describes it and live his life to the fullest. It's also clear he means a lot to his other members, especially jisung and I hope he can rely on them and confind in them (along with his other loved ones) when he needs it. Sorry for the essay but that video hit me and I'm in my soft hours 🥺

On another note he's just such a dreamy and ethereal person, like his mind amazes me. He's so well-spoken and expresses his thoughts so eloquently and gently. Whenever we get glimpses of his thoughts and imagination via his stories is so dreamy and beautiful. Again, with eric nam, when they described their own ideal country he said he would want people to live together in a tree and wear old, classic clothes. Like his mind bruh!! I also liked when mark said he wants to try a more acoustic sound and that he would like to write short stories, like edgar allan poe. It's obvious these boys are much more and deeper than what their loud, celebrity personas show and I really liked some of the personal things they shared.

yes omg get ready folks this is gonna be long lmao

first of all, i totally agree with you! i feel like renjun is getting to the point where he feels comfortable sharing this vulnerable side of his (and true self) with us, and maybe he doesn't feel the need to fit this certain image anymore. remember when he said that sm wanted him to act like a "pure" boy? right, i think he's done with that lol

and yes, they were sooo young when they got into the industry and it would honestly be scarier if they hadn't any issues mentally cause of this. but i love the fact that they are somewhat able to talk about it and while they probably have to walk on eggshells anytime they do, i can just appreciate that (esp. renjun) they feel comfortable enough to want to share it. renjun doesn't strike me as an overly sensitive guy, more like you described: emotional, passionate and introspective.

his determination is really something, like you're totally on point with that! with 15 i was in no way in a headspace where i could have pursued an artistic and/or public career like he has. especially with the harsh trainee schedules, pressure and everything. thinking about my 15-year-old-self moving to a different country and going under such strict training, i probably would've cried every night lol. i hope he could deal with it somewhat good and that with his therapy (and other means) he can take care of his mental health <3 it really itches me to think about him too much, because i just feel so conflicted for him and i can't even imagine how he must feel (since he is actually living this life ya know).

i just hope he doesn't regret with how he chose to pursue his life, i can imagine that, as an idol, you sometimes wonder if it wouldn't have been better to choose a more relaxed career (i have to think about mark saying that he had a lot of doubts). and with what they said about his personality... i mean yes, if he says he does get lonely often, then that isn't pretty at all. and all we can really do as fans is to support him and hope he takes care of his own well-being tbh. i totally agree with you that he has a very interesting mind and can express himself very uniquely, in a way that makes you instantly comfortable. i think that are definitely some of his best strengths. he's very compassionate and considerate and he shows it so effortlessly (honestly i don't even think he realizes what nice energy he has).

and boy, don't even get me started with mark. dude, he is one of the nct members that get reduced to like 3 character traits and then people just move on. like yes, he is a cheerful person who laughs at everything and it's adorable. he may be a bit awkward and he is an insanely talented rapper, but he is also so much more! the fact that he enjoys writing so much really makes me soft!! mark is also much more sensitive and emotionally tuned than what we give him credit for. i feel like people just underestimate fire placements and disregard their emotional nature so often, just because they usually are enthusiastic and not as much the "motherly/comforting" type like water placements. but they also have emotions!! a lot, actually! he is someone who can make people really comfortable around him pretty fast and i can not imagine that many people don't like this guy tbh. his Cancer Mercury (i think) also shows so much, because he is very considerate and i think he takes others way more into consideration than we think. and the way he carries himself in the studio is also so interesting!! anyway, i don't wanna go on forever, mark is best boy

(and side note to mark: acoustic sound?? yes pls i love acoustic stuff T-T i am becoming a #1 mark supporter haha)

and the dreamies in general are of course not those 2-dimensional characters that entertainment industries or their fans often make them out to be. i feel like almost all of them have sides of themselves that we don't know and will probably never get to see and that's totally how it should be. but i feel like people like jaemin or haechan, who have a very unique and expressive way of carrying themselves, get mistaken for just those things too often. the members have mentioned so often that haechan keeps them together and is the one who can cheer them up at all times. i do believe that he can act like "the glue" sometimes, because he is a person who can understand others very well and can communicate smoothly in order to mediate between them. he also has a Cancer Mercury, and from my personal experience as someone with a lot of Cancer/Gemini dynamic (and a Cancer Mercury), that is a combination that does make you want to mediate all the damn time haha. i often find myself in similar situations in my friend groups, where it's always the other people fighting and i become the neutral middle ground where both people go to vent T-T. but i think that is such an underrated quality of him! i feel like he picks up other's moods or problems quickly and is eager to help people, which are amazing qualities!!

and jaemin is just... a mystery to me as well ngl haha. but i feel like he takes such good care of the others without even wanting something in return. like when he talked about doing jeno's laundry in that one live and being like nagging but not seriously lol. he is just someone who takes care without much boasting around or smth and i feel like he plays an important role, that is more in the background. i often wonder what he is like in the dorms and in 7chillin i thought he had such a nice dynamic with all of them. but i feel like he isn't very open with his feelings, which is (his damn Cap Moon) unfortunate, but again, i can only hope he finds a way to cope with his feelings healthily.

anyway, to wrap it up finally; i really like the honesty the dreamies have at the moment and i am glad sm let's them talk a little more personally. i think after coming together again as 7 members, they really realized how much they like being together! and it's so heart-warming to see <3 renjun is truly an amazing person from what we see of him and i love having these conversations about him haha. i feel like he is really getting a lot of well-deserved attention lately and i love that for him <3

#this is soo long #i'm so sorry #i hope you can get smth out of this lol <3 #but yeah i love talking about the dreamies #replies 💌‧₊˚#mndchldsung

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can we get a taste of what your 40 min long mccoy video would be like please speak your truth

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok so like when i started watching star trek for the first time, mccoy wasn’t my favorite character. it was spock. i thought mccoy was an amusing grumpy doctor man and i didn’t really give him more thought than that. i was also a really big spock/kirk shipper because i mean... have you watched TOS lmao.

funnily enough, it was jj abram’s extremely EXTREMELY flawed 2009 movie that made me appreciate mccoy more. i didn’t really care that much for the portrayal of kirk OR spock in those movies. there’s a whole other essay i could write on how they took a genuine and caring friendship and turned it into a macho rivalry and i HATE it. but because i didn’t like spock or kirk’s portrayal as much in 09 trek, it kind of forced me to appreciate mccoy more. even if he wasn’t given a lot to work with, it’s obvious that karl urban put a lot of love into the character because he’s a fan of TOS.

i kind of like TOS and AOS mccoy pretty equally. i think they’re the closest of their counterparts in terms of personalities and ideals. i think that mostly comes down to karl urban’s respect for the source material. so the stuff i love about the character fits both versions of the character for the most part.

the thing about mccoy is that on the surface he is just a grumpy doctor man with poor bedside manners. but here’s the truth about mccoy: the man has the biggest heart of gold. he’s a meanie because he cares. he barks out orders and huffs and puffs and yells indignities because he can’t control just how much he cares about EVERYTHING and about everybody’s safety.

bones is an extremely anxious character! he’s always worrying about someone or something. he’s always fretting when someone risks their lives. he wants to protect people so bad. jim and spock nearly give him heart attacks on the daily with their recklessness. but bones is kind of a hypocritical bastard too. he’ll chew jim and spock out for risking their lives, but at every opportunity mccoy has to sacrifice himself for others, he takes it. we see it in miri where mccoy injects himself with a potentially life-threatening vaccine because he doesn’t want to test it out on others first. we see it in mirror, mirror where mccoy risks almost getting left behind in a tyrannical alternative universe so he can save a spock he doesn’t even know. the biggest example of it is in the empath, where mccoy makes sure that aliens brutally torture him instead of spock or kirk. mccoy will always value others before himself. the self-sacrificing love of my life.

something i love about mccoy as well is how much he WASN’T a fighter. he didn’t have the brute strength of a vulcan or the fighting skills of kirk. he obviously passed starfleet’s basic fighting training, but that’s about it. mccoy is a healer through and through, even when he’s portrayed by hunky alpha male karl urban. i love this personality trait in both version’s of mccoy, but i love it a little bit more in 09 trek if only because i find it so endearing that someone who looks like karl urban is such a caretaker and non-combatant.

he’s a pacifist but he’s not a push-over. in space seed, khan held a knife to his throat and he dealt with the situation with such calm confidence that he earned khan’s respect (the ONLY member of the enterprise to have khan’s respect btw!)

mccoy is the ultimate “kind, but not nice” character. he’ll try to get a rise out of spock and angrily debate him but will also jump to his defense in a moment’s notice if something unjust is happening to him (see: plato’s stepchildren.)

and to finish this off because it’s almost 1 am and i’m hella tired: my favorite thing about mccoy is that his greatest strength is also his greatest weakness: his emotions. mccoy is a deeply emotional character, that’s the entire point of him. he is the id to spock’s super-ego. they don’t butt heads because mccoy just wants to be a contrarian to the annoying vulcan. they butt heads because spock will always choose the logical solution and mccoy will always go for what’s morally right.

but the thing about that is that while spock represents extreme logic, mccoy represents extreme emotions. mccoy feels things SO deeply. while his emotions and his morals are what make him a great person, they’re also his downfall. mccoy will sometimes let his emotions control him to the point of pure irrationality. he’s SO concerned with doing what’s morally right he fails to see the bigger picture. when someone will always unflinchingly choose being good over being lawful, it’s going to create serious problems for them in certain scenarios.

anyways i really could write a ten page essay about this because i just love mccoy so much. he’s one of my favorite fictional characters ever created. but it’s now 1:03 am and i have work tomorrow. thank you so much for sending this ask tho! i will always make time to gush about my baby daddy.

#leonard mccoy #star trek #tos #aos #Anonymous

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