#its harder than it sounds

[cstarling]

i plan to be here at some point today, i just have to... get out of bed...

[emptyoutthebrainjar]

"Many couples come to therapy when their home life becomes intolerable. They work on removing the bad, and the environment at home improves. Some erroneously believe that this lack of bad is good enough and do not continue the work to rebuild the good, which robs them of the potential potential for soaring to new heights in their marriage. We encourage couples to use the two-pronged approach to avoid settling for the good-enough marriage"

Married roommates, by Talia Wagner and Allen Wagner

[kelocitta]

I'll say that I have been in some fandom with extremely impressive and dedicated artists but consistently some of my favorite artists are ones who technically make 'unimpressive' art to outright loving posting 'low effort' doodles. I love skilled work thats beautiful, but I also deeply admire a freedom from perfectionism and ambition. Sometimes those are just non-complicated but still clearly skilled works, and sometimes thats loving the wobbly simplicity of crude lines vs. rendered beauty. One of my favorite artists back when I was big into Hollow Knight was a korean artist who could absolutely make some extremely beautiful stuff, but many of the pieces I remember most and loved the most looked like this

Even here I know I mentally worked harder to make this imitation than they did for the OG. I can't draw fast and loose, and I like work that is clearly faster and looser than I can do. I envy people who can do things imperfect and carefree. Sometimes thats still very obviously skilled work, sometimes its very stupid doodles that were blatantly done in 30 seconds in mspaint. I don't think its say, disrespectful to love the doodles more than the rendered stuff said artist makes- but my love for it comes from a place that a lot of people wouldn't guess. That is to say, its hard to tell who, why, or when something you make might click with people- and it doesn't take a masterwork for someone to see something in your art as inspiration.

[simptasia]

LOST: Season One

[skrunksthatwunk]

actually i'm still thinking about the moral orel finale.

he has a cross on his wall. do you know how much i think about that bc it's a lot.

a lot of stories ((auto)biographical or fictional) centering escape from abusive/fundamentalist christianity result in the lead characters leaving behind christianity entirely. and that makes complete sense! people often grow disillusioned with the associated systems and beliefs, and when it was something used to hurt them or something so inseparable from their abuse that they can't engage with it without hurting, it makes total sense that they would disengage entirely. and sometimes they just figure out that they don't really believe in god/a christian god/etc. a healthy deconstruction process can sometimes look like becoming an atheist or converting to another religion. it's all case by case. (note: i'm sure this happens with other religions as well, i'm just most familiar with christian versions of this phenomenon).

but in orel's case, his faith was one of the few things that actually brought him comfort and joy. he loved god, y'know? genuinely. and he felt loved by god and supported by him when he had no one else. and the abuses he faced were in how the people in his life twisted religion to control others, to run away from themselves, to shield them from others, etc. and often, orel's conflicts with how they acted out christianity come as a direct result of his purer understanding of god/jesus/whatever ("aren't we supposed to be like this/do that?" met with an adult's excuse for their own behavior or the fastest way they could think of to get orel to leave them alone (i.e. orel saying i thought we weren't supposed to lie? and clay saying uhhh it doesn't count if you're lying to yourself)). the little guy played catch with god instead of his dad, like.. his faith was real, and his love was real. and i think it's a good choice to have orel maintain something that was so important to him and such a grounding, comforting force in the midst of. All That Stuff Moralton Was Up To/Put Him Through. being all about jesus was not the problem, in orel's case.

and i know i'm mostly assuming that orel ended up in a healthier, less rigid version of christianity, but i feel like that's something that was hinted at a lot through the series, that that's the direction he'd go. when he meditates during the prayer bee and accepts stephanie's different way to communicate, incorporating elements of buddhism into his faith; when he has his I AM A CHURCH breakdown (removing himself from the institution and realizing he can be like,, the center of his own faith? taking a more individualistic approach? but Truly Going Through It at the same time), his acceptance (...sometimes) of those who are different from him and condemned by the adults of moralton (stephanie (lesbian icon stephanie my beloved), christina (who's like. just a slightly different form of fundie protestant from him), dr chosenberg (the jewish doctor from otherton in holy visage)). his track record on this isn't perfect, but it gets better as orel starts maturing and picking up on what an absolute shitfest moralton is. it's all ways of questioning the things he's been taught, and it makes sense that it would lead to a bigger questioning as he puts those pieces together more. anyway i think part of his growth is weeding out all the lost commandments of his upbringing and focusing on what faith means to him, and what he thinks it should mean. how he wants to see the world and how he wants to treat people and what he thinks is okay and right, and looking to religion for guidance in that, not as like. a way to justify hurting those he's afraid or resentful of, as his role models did.

he's coming to his own conclusions rather than obediently, unquestioningly taking in what others say. but he's still listening to pick out the parts that make sense to him. (edit/note: and it's his compassion and his faith that are the primary motivations for this questioning and revisal process, both of individual cases and, eventually, the final boss that is christianity.) it makes perfect sense as the conclusion to his character arc and it fits the overall approach of the show far better. it's good is what i'm saying.

and i think it's important to show that kind of ending, because that's a pretty common and equally valid result of deconstruction. and i think it cements the show's treatment of christianity as something that's often (and maybe even easily) exploited, but not something inherently bad. something that can be very positive, even. guys he even has a dog he's not afraid of loving anymore. he's not afraid of loving anyone more than jesus and i don't think it's because he loves this dog less than bartholomew (though he was probably far more desperate for healthy affection and companionship when he was younger). i think it's because he figures god would want him to love that dog. he's choosing to believe that god would want him to love and to be happy and to be kind. he's not afraid of loving in the wrong way do you know how cool that is he's taking back control he's taking back something he loves from his abusers im so normal

[televisionlassie]

It’s actually insane that some comic book writers hate FICTIONAL characters so much that they write them doing awful things to turn people against them

[sistersofsilver]

hello fellow shades. hades 2 nation. free icarus reminder for the night: not only did he burn, he drowned after. maybe it's just my experience with dying via drowning¹ but i think we should play in that particular space more.

melis not the sun, and she's never going to be. she's not the moon beat for beat either. shes the beautiful distorted reflection of the moon on churning powerful waves, shifting, a bright spot in an almost perfect void. and when you fall (and you will fall) its going to hurt, that impact, the water filling your lungs, the weightlessness disorienting, but you look for it, that reflection, that fixed point...

cough. anyway, how we feelin' tonight. we good?

[chiquilines]

Hiiii helloooooo have some lineart peices i refuse to color <3

[naoreco]

Localizers' Dance in Purgatory

Happy anniversary. We're doing this again.

FE15's localization has been a hot button topic on twitter for the past couple of days, which made me want to examine some more localization changes - and what better for me to use for this experiment than my other favorite scenes in the game? Having noticed that the anniversary of when I posted about that scene with Alm and Mycen was coming up, I figured the timing was just too good to pass up.

We'll be going over Alm and Berkut's encounter up until the battle officially starts, Berkut's battle dialogue, and the scene after with Rinea's spirit. So rather than having one big moment that changes the tone of the scene like last time, this one has a few of these changes along with MANY smaller expansions on dialogue that just make it too much of a pain to go through one by one. Some of these are more contentious than others!

Luckily I have a solution for this: Pour everything into a spreadsheet and throw in commentary as I see fit.

I had to write out a lot of things by hand even if I was able to copy the scripts from elsewhere so I'm so sorry for any typos 🙏 Enjoy!

[sammygender]

im new here- is dean abusive?

imo yeah. smarter people than me have written dissections of the way he treats sam & others (he’s also Awful to his psuedo-son jack, but i haven’t gotten to that season yet), i’ve probably reblogged a bunch of them.

he certainly doesn’t mean to be & i don’t say it to condemn him as a person or as a character & i’m still very attached to him & he loves sam very much (not that that makes a difference in whether u abuse someone or not) - but the way he treats sam a lot/some of the time is emotionally abusive and sam is clearly badly impacted. s4 and s8 come to mind as his worst moments also ofc moc era - after that there’s less interpersonal conflict (up to where i am at least) but that’s because sam mostly stops disagreeing with dean not because dean actually gets much better <3 spn is cycles of abuse show after all. family is hell. dean’s learnt pretty much everything about how to behave from his abusive father and as a result. well. cycle continues

[boatemboys]

time for my weekly identity crisis

[xycuro-illuminati]

Go ahead and explain your reasoning in the tags if you like!

[llegato]

making a ref sheet for a character and im trying so hard to not make it obvious that im watching one piece

[eddie-rifff]

lol. im gonna be ruminating about my interaction w bill bruford in the hotel for the rest of my life. he was clearly like not expecting a fan to approach him then and there but he was also trying to be cordial and normal despite me probably looking like i had just witnessed a tragic event or something. we exchanged a few words n then he was like "ya so we're heading up to manhattan now" just like making small talk and i was so intimidated and starstruck i dont even remember what i said LOL i think it was pretty normal but i wanted to ask him something (if the weird modulated voice on back to the beginning is him tho im pretty sure it is but id like confirmation) and get a pic but. i was unable to do so on account of the being absolutely petrified. anyway props to bill for trying to be normal to me when i was probably visibly trembling

[sayaberry]

completely sane and comprehensive walpurgis rising trailer analysis (+ concept trailer stuff)

from a normal madoka fan who can be trusted with lore

for coherency sake im putting this in sections of this doesn't completely look and read like word vomit, these are just some observations and theories i had about the stuff in the new film trailer

(im so fucking sorry for how long this is)

Homura’s new role

i’ve seen other fans bring this up over the past week so i won’t go fully into detail, but i do agree with the sentiment going around that homura has taken up kyubey’s role as the one who gives out contracts to new magical girls. mainly this part is just to further give evidence to this theory + other observations I noticed in relation to this

while there are some lines of dialogue in the trailer, what’s interesting is we only have 3 speaking voices in the entire film - homura, madoka, and what i believe might be walpurgis themselves (keyword here is might be, but we’ll get to that). focusing on the lines homura however, they sound interesting don't they?

they sound like she’s asking the viewer (possibly even a new magical girl) if they agree to the terms of a deal - a contract.

there is also that unknown new girl where, not only with her outfit having motifs of homura's original design, but in the background of the scene she first appears in, we can see homucifer's symbol appearing as she begins to cast her magic - a way of indicating that homura is giving magic to these girls maybe?

not to mention that the dress homura is wearing in this shot is absolutely emulating walpurgis’s aesthetics, so if homura really is playing villain like she claimed she would be at the end of rebellion to madoka, then taking up the role and dressing up as the 2 things that hurt her the most is a good way to show it

Multi-homu

the devil herself has some very… inconsistent character designs shown in the trailer - going from having a new dress to completely lighter hair and a new headband in her uniform to even in the POSTER design with a red ribbon similar to the one on her ultimate form

i want to posit this theory; that the homura’s in both the trailer and poster (with the exception of one) aren’t homura at all, or at least not a true homura - they’re her clara dolls

i have good reason to believe this, see, the multiple homura’s we see do have one thing in common with each other despite the differences in their designs (save for the fact they’re all homura) and that is they all share a design with a certain corresponding clara doll

the contractor homura we see at the beginning? she’s the 10th clara doll due to the flower clip and the similar looking shawl this homura wears:

uniform homura? that’s the 2nd clara doll due to the cross pattern found both on homura’s new headband and the nekura’s hat:

ribbon homura from the poster? its a little tricky since we can’t see her front but judging from the ribbon this could either be the 4th clara doll or the 8th clara doll, due to them both having ribbons in their hair design wise.

alternatively, this COULD also be the real homura, but the tell of whether it’s the real homura or not is obscured in the poster for the same reason we’re able to tell which one is the real homura in the trailer

the real homura? it's the one we see sitting in the chair on the school roof, and we know this is her because this is the only homura we saw with her soul gem:

her soul gem being here is important bc from what we can tell, the other copies don't have soul gems on them - for example, contractor homura summons the rotary phone right? if this was the real homura the she would have had her gem visible on her hand AND be able to summon the phone with it instead of using a proxy (the lizard, notice how the magic to summon the phone is also red?)

one more thing that proves this could be what's going on is in the concept trailer, we hear this conversation between 2 girls, and since the clara dolls are technically alive, this could be referring to them pretending to be homura (although i'll admit this could be a stretch)

i assume having multiple homura's is real homura's solution for not only keeping an eye on things, but a way for homura be near madoka 24/7. even if homura is the devil she can’t exactly be everywhere all at once (she only has a piece of the law of the cycles, so unlike godoka her powers are assumingly more limited than we realize),

therefore in my mind her solution then would to put a fake homura in locations that she would be able to keep constant watch over madoka - and with the ones we’ve seen so far; one at the school, and one for her magical girl duties

and why wouldn’t homura do this, after all the real homura is a clara doll herself! she’s canonically the 15th clara doll that’s missing, ai; and if the real homura can be a clara doll, why can’t the clara dolls become homura herself?

The Moon

one of the first shots we see within the trailer is of this room. the first thing that someone will notice is the giant half moon with telescopes embedded into it in the dead centre of the picture.

of course, this isn’t the first time we’ve seen this moon before is it, it's also at the very end of rebellion!

due to the angle of the framed moon, one might assume that the one we see in walpurgis is the missing half of the moon from rebellion, but it's not! the halves are the moon in both walpurgis + rebellion are meant to represent homura and madoka respectively; with homura’s half being the one hanging in the sky and madoka’s half being missing. this can be further proved with further context the moon in walpurgis shows us

i want to talk about the actual frame the moon is being enclosed by. the frame itself isn’t really a frame at all - it’s a tarot card. specifically, it’s the tarot card for The Moon (XVII). not only is it fitting, but it’s also proof that what we are seeing is homura’s half of the moon given the meaning of the tarot itself

while i'm no expert in tarot, from what i’ve read The Moon seems to symbolize bad energy, false friends, deception, and intuition in people’s lives. but this is just the main meaning of the card, for those who don’t know tarot cards can have 2 different meanings. when The Moon is upright it’s a symbol for anxiety, illusion, fear, misconception, etc - basically, negative emotions. when The Moon is reversed however, it becomes a symbol for unveiling secrets, truth, regaining composure, and generally more positive/intuitive things

don’t these descriptions sound familiar? they are meant to represent madoka (reversed) and homura (upright) respectively, and due to the frame being in the upright position, it’s clear that the moon here is actually homura’s

if this is not proof enough, look at the telescopes imbued into the missing half of the half moon. what other character would it be other than homura that would be constantly looking for/at their missing half (madoka)?

(side note: while her half is still missing, those pinned butterflies we see could represent madoka here, as pinned butterflies often represent something that is innocent and fragile when alive being now trapped and dead, but still just as beautiful. great way to present how homura views normal madoka and godoka visually/subtlety)

Voice on the Phone

the trailer has 3 characters who have spoken lines of dialogue; homura, madoka, and a third unknown voice we hear talking to homura over the phone, and i have 2 ideas who this could be

here is the dialogue spoken by the unknown voice in the entire scene (+ one other character but we'll get to that)

(note: the pink line is madoka's line, just highlighted it for clarity)

before i explain who i think it might be i wanted to point out smth, the “it’s a secret/don’t tell anyone” lines might in fact be related to what hitomi of all people says in the concept trailer, the secret obvs being about madoka being a god and if she were to find out, everything would end:

additional context aside, one person i believe to be that voice on the phone is actually walpurgis. after all, the film is named after the stage witch and therefore playing a central part of the film, so them being a character would make sense. walpurgis is also a witch who is implied to be made up of other witches, so having multiple voices would make sense as well

as for the dialogue, it’s clear that it’s asking for homura to set madoka free so she can bring hope again. considering the end of the original series and how madoka brought hope for all magical girls who despaired and became witches (esp if they were the witches who became part of walpurgis by the end), it would absolutely want madoka to come back and bring them hope again. she was their salvation (just hope), their “best friend” who they don’t really know (madoka disappears due to her wish) but know they love - exactly why it’s able to call homura out on her hypocrisy of her doing this all for madoka in the first place. plus the trailer shows shots of walpurgis from the original show during this scene so it could be the trailer’s way of showing not telling who’s on the other side of the phone

as for the second person, you're gonna have to hear me out on this one; i believe there is a strong chance that the person on the other end of the phone is actually godoka - or to be specific, what's left of the law of the cycles (LoC)

remember, madoka split into 2 pieces; the piece that homura stole for herself - the human girl known as ‘madoka’, and the law of the cycles (godoka). if one piece is being under constant surveillance, where is the final piece? also crucial to point out that despite madoka being “normal” again and homura in charge, madoka’s wish is still in effect. this is both proven at the end of rebellion, the concept trailer, AND the new trailer - and the how is simple; the magical girls are still fighting wraiths, meaning the witches are still gone!

in rebellion homura states she still needs to deal with the wraiths, in concept trailer we see oktavia fighting a wraith + concept art for one, and in walpurgis we see the word wraith what im assuming to be a per-transformation scene (we'll get to that soon):

going back to the dialogue, it also would make sense this is LoC calling homura out to free her other half. Loc is like a cog in the machine without her human half, she only knows her job is to bring hope (just hope) but lacks the humanity to understand everything else, which would leave her without her emotions (something essential to magical girls) and sort of… monotone, perhaps even something like the voice speaking on the phone. without her humanity, LoC wouldn’t know who homura actually is (magical girl i don’t know), but she might retain that homura was her best friend that stole her humanity. not to mention madoka herself was also THERE when homura made the claim that she was the devil and doing this out of love for madoka! and call her out for it as well!

and if that still wasn’t enough the ONLY other voice we hear speak in the trailer is madoka herself, and only during this dialogue. at this point there’s enough of her to keep the witches away, but not much else

Unknown Magical Girl

as everyone knows, we see an unknown magical girl (who is wearing an outfit reminiscent of homura's) getting ready to fight something offscreen, and while we don’t get a really good look at her she doesn’t seem like someone we recognize. this is girl is highly likely one of the new magical girls we saw in the concept trailer, and while designs have obviously changed a lot since the trailer came out back in 2015 (and yeah, it WAS that long ago), if i had to take a guess on what concept design she would be, i'd guess this one:

her bangs are the closest to the new girl's hair from what can be seen so currently, she's the most likely contender

another thing to help prove this is a new girl is the shot we see of abandoned shoes on top a building (something that is usually seen as a way to imply suicide in japanese media) and a girl falling off a building into a cloud of pink.. something. im fairly certain what we're looking at is a pre-transformation scene, as:

even though the girl is falling, interestingly enough, if you look at the environment around her the rain has suddenly stopped, as if we’ve frozen time again (more proof for homura being involved with the magical girl process via a contractor this time around?)

is when the text for ‘wraith’ pops up

in a blink and you miss it moment, we see this kanji repeated on screen - and with my shitty transitional skills, the kanji shown here is the one for “who”, as in “who are you?”

pretty close and shut case right? mainly because i'm a contrarian i do want to throw out that this could absolutely be a red herring and this isn't a new girl at all, and actually madoka, but i might actually save that for an entirely separate theory post since it mainly fits into that

Hidden Images

now this is the one that I'm going to sound completely crazy for, which is why i saved it for last, but I fully believe there are hidden images hinting more to stuff that might happen in the film within the credits over the course of the entire trailer

i don't think any of these are new scenes, but just like with the walpurgis/homura part they’re showcasing relevant scenes from the anime/rebellion. But the keyword here is relevant, and it’s VERY interesting if i’m right on the scene they’ve hidden throughout the trailer.

first one is straight forward, there’s a hidden walpurgis in this shot here:

the second one however is way more interesting, as it appears MULTIPLE times throughout the rest of the trailer! once at 0:42, then again at 1:12, and the finally at 1:21 with the title credits. this is the image as i can get it most clearly:

doesn't that look familiar? it should. because this is none other homura than wrapped up in the karmatic strings from the original anime; the same strings that we ALSO see madoka is wrapped in!

of all the scenes to chose, it's fascinating that they choose the karmatic strings where homura specifically (since the girl in the trailer doesn't have madoka's pigtails, so we can conclude it's homura) is wrapped up. in the anime the original context is talking about homura becoming a witch (which shows her turning into a grief seed which is also in the trailer, not adding the screencap tho since its harder to see), and considering the stuff happening in walpurgis this is probably another red flag we're seeing for homura

(side note: im also personally interested for a different reason due to another theory i have related to homura being an anomaly since the end of the og anime like madoka but i haven't written/posted yet but i will someday. probably. bringing it up here tho just in case)

Extra

this is just some extra stuff i noticed that didn't really cleanly fit into a theory:

while im not 100% sure what the object contractor homura is sitting on (i know it's SOMETHING, but i cannot for the life of me remember what it is, looks a little like a mix of a harp and iroha's crossbow ironically tho), what is identifiable are the lights that surround her

specifically, the pink-ish sand we see in the lights is the same sand we see in homura's shield, the same sand she uses to reset time with

and of course the most obvious one, sayaka's new outfit with the bandages is a redesign of her with the mask we see in the concept trailer! shame we can’t have a better look at the original but tbh i like the new one better

(note: i do think the new designs for everyone tie into the previously mentioned theory from the unknown girl section but im putting this one here bc why not lol)

i believe that's mainly everything i wanted to talk about, idk how to end this

[dnangelic]

Zeni vc I'm sorry that in my sleep i gained tbe strength of like 400 men and tried to kill u. Do u still think im cute / world's dumbest ask award

@thunderbringcr

yeah it's okay it's gonna take a lot more than like 400 men to kill me . actually . yuo're still cute !!!