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starillusion13 · 5 months

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“Obsession is a dirty aspect to look at, but the night is dirtier, my love. Either we kill you or we kill the night. What you say?”

Pairing: Criminal! Ateez ot8 x f! Reader

W.C: 2.3k (Main plot: ???)

Genre: Smut, Strangers to Lovers(?), Thriller , Yandere

Warnings: sweet threats(lol), meeting strangers, agreeing/ doing something without your consent, inappropriate touch (a little), mention of gun(not for shooting), pervert looks of Ateez. There’s not really any warning for here other than these all. (Rest all the warnings to be announced in the main plot.)

Network: @k-vanity

"Who?"

"I don't know." The young girl groaned and held her forehead, elbow resting against the wooden table where different liquor bottles and designed glasses were placed. "Honestly, I haven't seen them before and I don't think they belong here or from anywhere near, where are they actually from?"

You asked again, sitting in the stool opposite to her, "and if so, then why are you so concerned about them? They might be attending our night party like other men from around."

"Noooo." She whined and sat straight, giving her full attention to you. She eyed your white and brown combination dress with the knife placed in the leathered strap holder of your waist. "They asked Mr. Byun for an arrangement." looking into your eyes directly, the words fell from her lips.

You knitted your brows together and leaned forward, "and what for?"

"They want to have a party here." She scoffed and raised a brow before mimicking your posture, leaning forward and whispered, "and there would be only them. No one else is allowed."

"Why are you whispering this?" You asked her but in a whisper. "Also, how can it be a party if they are the only ones attending it?"

"Right? No. That's not the case. They want someone to accompany them through the night. A well known and trusted person of Mr. Byun and he even agreed to it."

A frown appeared on your face, "who is accompanying them?"

"You."

"No way." You stood up and glared at her, "don't tell me you supported him in this."

She slowly nodded. She remembered all the words exchanged between the men and the owner of the grand tavern of the kingdom, Mr. Byun. She was there from the beginning till the end of the goodbyes shared. Not really a proper goodbye. She remembered how a man with sharp eyes placed a box on the table and slid across from him towards the old man, before smirking at him.

When she wanted to protest against it, another man, might be the oldest one among them because of the way others were addressing him, he glared and stared at her as if challenging her to dare to speak.

She gulped remembering the scene. The box had some gold coins and jewels and the old man happily accepted the gift.

She flinched when you tapped her shoulder, "where is he? I need to talk to him."

She shrugged and stood up, "I don't know. Might be planning for tomorrow night. Soon, he will call out for you."

"I'm going out to search for him. I'm not accompanying some men whom I have never seen. If it was to serve drinks like any other night in the presence of others then I would have no problem. But alone, that's a different story."

You turned around towards the door and when you were about to step forward, she grabbed your arm and made you face her, "they offered him a huge amount of money in advance and also they promised to pay him more."

"So?" you eyed her grip on you, it was like a warning but also a pleading to accept the situation you were currently into.

"He won't be backing off. You know Mr. Byun and his greediness for money. Do you think he will change his mind?" she loosened the grip, when your hand fell by your side dramatically.

Why suddenly the situation is like this? Just a few minutes back, you were okay with everything then how the situation turned into against you and you are left with nothing just to accept your coming fate. It's not like you can't run away from this, but if you do then the consequences won't be good. Serving the guests with drinks and some occasional dance is what helps you to earn for your living and even if you run away from here, where will you go? Nowhere. You haven't been to any other place, other than the outskirts of this village.

You stared at her for a while and when she was about to speak something, you raised your hand, stopping her midway, "tell him I will be here tomorrow evening. Before...before the men could arrive at the tavern."

"...okay." her eyes followed your figure leaving the grand fancy wooden door of the inn. She sighed and slumped back into the stool beside, rubbing her forehead and mumbled, "I don't know if it's going to be good or bad." suddenly, she smirked, "but I hope she will get one of them for herself. She doesn't have to be single anymore and they are so breathtaking...oh my god."

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"Mr. Byun?"

Hearing your voice, he turned around with a smiling face and with quick steps, he strolled across the room to hold your hand and drag you inside. The more you explored your surroundings, the more you realized the men inside the room were all unfamiliar. You haven't seen those four faces ever and the way you were staring at them, it seemed sure that you were......attracted?.......curious? But they are literally attractive and breathtaking. Whatever. You averted your gaze back on the old man holding your wrist.

You could feel the four sets of eyes boring a hole in your figure but you didn't pay attention to them. Or rather, you didn't have the courage to do that. You were feeling so shy and exposed in the room, even when you were all covered and beautifully dressed up because you were planning to go to the market wit Miara and before that, you decided to meet the owner if he did need anything.

"Meet them, y/n. They are our new guests." he hummed and nodded towards them. You were questionably looking at him. Guests? And why do you have to meet them?

Hearing your name for the first time, they tasted the word again and on their lips. rolling their tongue lovingly to see how sweet it will feel and sound like to call you with the name. the name really suits you and they have to tell you to make you aware of it.

You casted a subtle glance towards them, before one of them could hold your gaze with him, you turned around quickly but still you noticed one of them smirked at your activity and the one near you whispered, "sweet." and you are sure, it was meant to be heard because the way someone behind you chuckled and the man in front of you joined in their play. "Isn't she sweet? She is the best worker of our inn and tavern. I know she will take good care of you all."

"Huh?" you were so confused with the way he was talking about you to those men in the room, "take care of them? Who are they? And I don't-"

The old man laughed cutting you mid sentence, "of they are the-"

"Wait." The tallest one of them stood straight from where he was leaning against a shelf. He was all in a brown and black pants with a brown long coat with several layers of clothing inside it.

He chuckled seeing your little scared expression which you were trying your best to hide from them with your strong facade, he noticed how your eyes were nervously looking around the room to avoid his gaze. The way you pulled your lip between your teeth and bit down on it, a groan escaped his throat and the dirty smirk grew on his face.

He stood tall in front of you. He looked taller when he was so close to you, you tilted your neck back slightly just to look at his face. "Well, I think I want to introduce myself to her." he looked at the man who was still holding your hand and noticed his grip, poking his tongue to the inner cheek, he said with no emotion, "I would like to have some space. No need for you, old man...ah wait what's again..."

another male, who was manspreading on the leathered and cushioned sofa spoke up, "Mr. Byun." and chuckled after giving away the old man's name.

"Yes, Mr. Byun. you can leave now. We can introduce ourselves to her." hearing the order from the man in front of you, he wasted no time to leave your hand and leave the room. Wow. he promised to give you shelter and keep you safe from the outside world, just to leave you to die in this dangerous inside world.

"Hello, pretty." he bent a little forward, his eyes scanning your face, a little mole on your chin. He touched it with his thumb and smiled. "You are really pretty when close to me."

Your mind was screaming to push him and step back. And you did listen to your mind, but to only one thing: to step back. He quickly grabbed your hand and again chuckled, "why are you running away, princess? We mean no harm." his other hand poked under your chin to make you look up. Wait! That feels like metal. Yes it is. A Gun. "or we mean harm." he pushed your chin up a little more and whispered, "but in a good way. By the way, I am Yunho."

you were staring at the ceiling in absolute fear.

"Yah...don't scare her." Someone separated you from the tall man who was smirking while standing a few steps back. The other male patted your cheeks and smiled, "I'm pretty sure if we introduce ourselves like that. She won't accompany us tomorrow."

You whispered, "tomorrow?"

"Yes. haven't you been informed about the party?" he asked and tilted his head, his eyes traveling down your whole figure. The thoughts running inside his head were more impure than his already dirty, flirtatious gaze on you. But his bright smile. Oh, if only Miara was here then she would have started talking with him this instance.

He was in a black tight pant and a loose black shirt hanging in his body with a black thin cotton belt around his neck. You have seen this style on some younger men in this area, "It costs a lot to look at me this long, sweet one."

You gulped and clutched your dress by your side, "I know about the party but..." so these are the men? That is why Miara was excited to see them again. "Well, this sexy and attractive face has a name, that's Wooyoung." he winked in the end.

The one manspreading on the sofa smirked and poured a drink into a single glass, only one-forth of it and took it in hold. He was in a pretty similar outfit like Yunho but his coat was light in color and shorter in length. The other glass in his other grip was half filled.

When he walked towards you, Wooyoung stepped aside for other one to come exactly in front of you. Well, the two who have already introduced themselves to you stood close enough to you to observe your small reactions to every little detailed movement of theirs. They were enjoying the control they had over you. They were satisfied to see how they were making you feel small in front of them.

The glass with little quantity of liquid was extended towards you, "Here a drink for you, my love. And, the name is Seonghwa." you grabbed it and eyed the liquid with confusion. "Not the drink. That's my name." you nodded absent-mindedly and he smiled sweetly at you, before brushing his fingers over your cheek, "i think I will enjoy the night a lot."

"Hm. me too." Wooyoung nodded and folded his hand.

Seonghwa made a clunk sound with your glasses and sipped the drink of his own. The last male, who whispered 'sweet' when Mr. Byun was there, stepped towards four of you, "drink it." there was an authority in his tone. His furry jacket with the fancy hat and leather pants, he seemed like to be extra fancy than others. As if his looks and how people would look up to him matters a lot.

"I...I don't drink." you mumbled.

"That's a good girl." the way the words sounded so attractive from his mouth and you felt like you were going to comply with every order dripping from his mouth but you scolded yourself. You are no one's property and without any reason, it's so wrong for someone to order you around except mr. Byun. "But a single sip won't matter."

You eyed the drink and glanced at him.

This time, Yunho spoke up and it had a demanding undertone, "drink it, princess. We usually don't repeat a word but for you...fine. We can be a bit dirty." He laughed afterwards.

After a mental battle of fighting yourself, you finally brought the glass to your lips. Their intense gazes on you and the way the fourth male stood beside you and placed his hand on your lower back to urge you to take the sip and Wooyoung patting your cheek slightly, you closed your eyes and gulped a sip, coughing a little when it directly went down your throat and you removed the glass from your lips. "This tastes so weird."

they laughed hearing your complain.

"I know. I know. Take it slow. But gradually, you will feel fine." when you kept staring at him without a word, he laughed, "I know what you want to ask. But that's for tomorrow. You have to impress me to know my name." he leaned towards your neck, inhaling your scent with his sharp nose like a pervert, "or it's too bad."

What exactly is bad?

Who are they? And why are they acting like this?

Seonghwa again clicked his glass with yours, "Arriba!"

COMING SOON...

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Note: please I want to thanks to people for reading and reblogging. Reviews are always appreciated. Spread love not hate. also, you can notice I haven't described the members in details because it will be mentioned during the main night event when others will also appear.

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kanmom51 · 1 year

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JK live 5 June 2023 7:03 am KST

Cr./ The creators of the media used in this post.

First thing first - we address the elephant in the room. JK cut his hair!

It's only a trim. Keep telling yourself that. Only a trim.

Breath in, breath out...

But I'm telling you, if he shows up soon with another "just a trim" I'm going to literally lose it. 😭😭

Now after we addressed that are we ok to move on? K?

This my peeps is a close to 2 hour live. I ain't gonna and can't talk about every single thing this man talked about. Not when JK was in such a chatty mood. Nope. No can do. In any case you should be running to watch this, cause the man is friggin adorable, and no matter how many times I say it or describe it, which I definitely will, it's no comparison to seeing him yourself.

JK is happy.

This is the second live we can see that figurative jump in his step.

The man is super chatty, sharing stuff that maybe, just maybe, he wasn't supposed to share (or another theory is that he's done this so his bf doesn't have to talk about that certain thing he promised us he will talk about in his next live...). He's also being an utter brat, and I am loving every single moment of it.

Figures.

I'm putting this here now.

Why, you ask?

Because you remember those Feb 2023 lives? You know, the ones where we felt something was off? When I said it looks like he was struggling, he's off quilter for lack of structure and support?

Well my friends, it looks like our JK is back. With his more or less set schedule. With his Jiminie by his side to be his anchor and his catalyst all in one.

Did I tell you yet how much I love this man?

shhhh, JK wants to set up a movie date with us. Don't tell the company about it though...

The whole conversation is happening but it's literally him just thinking out loud, hilarious.

JK brain power. That man is something so so special. The time and effort it took him to try to figure out what time he will be eating lunch when his dermatologist appointment is at 11 am and he has a workout straight after that. He's hilarious.

It was 1:30 pm. That's what his final result, btw, lol.

Mingyu and the Super dance challenge

I had a whole thing written in my vanishing post about Mingyu and how JK said he'd called him but that he's not serious. Speculating if this will ever come to pass.

Well, looks like JK decided to take things into his own hands now, didn't he?

JK caught him by surprise, so much so that Mingyu did the challenge in his socks. My guess is that JK is telling us all, including the higher ups, that doing this, dance challenges, is going to be on his terms. When he wants. Where he wants. With whoever he wants.

JK being JK

I love how JK tells it how it is.

He reads through the comments, says army is cute and will never change. interacts with comments. Answers questions. But he also isn't afraid to call bull, lol.

For example, loved his reaction to the comment "I'm not going to breath until you read this".

Being savage without being savage, lol.

The rainy day fight

D'ya think I wouldn't talk about this one? No way, no where, no how.

Do we ignore the fact that JK literally scrolled back when seeing the comment?

Nope. I don't think so.

JK saw the comment just run by, and he scrolled back cause he wanted to see it properly, and once he read it, well, of course, answer it. Idk what caught his attention there. Was it the account name? I saw talk and an actual clip showing that from the name it was a clear Jikook account. But then again, saw somewhere else mention that might not be true. This is one I'm not 100% sure about, so will leave it open with a question mark.

Anyway, that smile when reading the comment.

That last one was him reading the comment, not him commenting on if JM is or isn't doing a live.

But in saying that, JK with that smirk,

knew that JM ain't gonna be telling no rainy day story, so he might as well, lol.

The difference between JK describing it and JM, lol.

JM's short version:

JK's is a more lengthy one, although at the end of the day, if you pay attention, you realise that JK didn't tell us what they actually fought about, or more so, what was it that he said to JM to have JM tell him he's on his own from there on...

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So, let's talk a bit about the fight, why don't we?

First thing first, JK puts a timeline on the fight, it being during their trainee days. That gives us a clearer time stamp, which would be anywhere between mid 2012 to a day before debut, which is 13 June 2013.

Now, you may ask why is it that JM was so off with the dates? And more so, why didn't JK correct him?

To the first question I say that this fight was way more impactful for JK than it was for JM. JK was the one who wrote a song referencing it. JK is the one that brought it up to start with during Festa 2020, and it took JM a few seconds to register and remember it. He was kind of caught off guard and could have just messed up the on the spot math, or he could have forgotten exactly when it took place.

To the second question I say that possibly JK didn't want to correct JM in front of the cameras, that the timing was less important for him to talk about and more so the fight and the making up. Or, he didn't want to correct him to stop the flow of JM's story telling, or just didn't want to correct him in front of the others, or he did the math wrong too, lol.

Now that we have cleared up the timeline, pre-debut days, let's talk about the fact that the other members clearly did not know about this fight, including Hobi.

This was a fight that happened between the two. Something that had a profound impact on JK. So much so he referenced it in a song. So much so he brought it up to apologise for it once again in during the Festa dinner.

But as impactful as it was for JK, I feel like it didn't have the same affect on JM. Not that it wasn't memorable, because it was, we saw it was, but it wasn't life changing for him as it was for JK. Yes, I think it was life changing for JK.

So, what are my thoughts about why this fight was so etched in JK's mind, so carved into his consciousness, so much so he literally wrote a song about it (that is a hill I am willing to die on) and brought it up in Festa 2020, years later, with so much water under the bridge since then?

All while I don't think it meant the same to JM? Yes he remembered it. Yes it was emotional for him. But it wasn't as impactful as it was for JK.

I am willing to go as far as to state that I feel that this fight was teenager JK's eureka moment as to how important JM was to him. And please do not get me wrong, this is not about JK crushing on JM or realising he is attracted to him. Not then. Not yet. This is way back in 2012-13. But this is about JK realizing that he needs JM. That he wants him by his side, he wants him close as a close friend, as someone to look up to, someone to help guide him, someone to care for him, someone to look out for him, someone who can understand him.

Do we remember this?

Because of Still with you, because JK brought this up 7 years after it happened, because of JK's facial expressions while talking about it, this was a truly meaningful moment for him, in my opinion perhaps the moment where their friendship shifted for JK or more so solidified.

You know what they say? When you think you lost someone is also when you understand just how important they are to you. It takes losing them for you to realise just how important they were to you.

As for JM, well he always had a soft spot for JK. His behaviour through this also shows us that. He didn't scold JK in front of the others, respected him enough to take him aside and try to talk to him. Although he walked out, he answered JK's phone call and straight away went into carer mode. He forgave him pretty much immediately and was almost as emotional as JK was (crying hugging). So yes, it was a fight to remember (he does once JK reminds him of it) but it wasn't as impactful on JM as it was on JK because maybe for him it didn't change the way he felt about JK, while for JK it was, as I mentioned, a moment of clarity, of understanding.

Lee Mujin's Limousine Service April Fool's day - the JM episode.

Well, the episode shows up on JK's YT. Surprise surprise? Not really, lol.

JK's initial statement is that he should watch that...not that he hasn't seen it yet. And why the distinction you may ask? Well, because his behaviour during this was a little puzzling. On the one hand he does things like FF the episode and avoids Lee Mujin calling JM oppa, and you can't think that this was unconsciously done. Or he imitates JM down to the nose touch and it feels like this was not the first time he's seeing this. All while on the other hand his reactions at the start of the episode seem to be of someone watching the episode for the very first time.

Is it possible that JK's oh so accurate imitations stem from him knowing JM oh so well? Down to the nose touch? Of course it is. I mean those two are fully in tune. We've seen so many moments where it's like this is the same person, same brain. So, definitley a possiblity.

Either way, the look on his face and his reactions never lie when it comes to JM.

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JK sings Like crazy with JM.

First time he does this. Watch Like crazy with us and join in on the singing. And it's so beautiful.

Do we talk about it? Why it's taken him so long to do this?

Well, obviously I can't know for sure, but I do think that this one is an emotional one for JK.

This song is about JM's struggles during the pandemic. He told us so. Struggles that JK clearly witnessed. Struggles that JK clearly experienced with him. Struggles that JK probably also tried to help him cope with. Obviously this was not an easy time, and if this song was a type of release for JM, for JK it might be reliving something that is still weighing on him. A reminder of helplessness. Of not being able to help JM through. A reminder of the coping mechanisms. A reminder of not being enough.

But that isn't to say JK doesn't love the song. You can see how it does make him emotional, closing his eyes as he sings "you and I" and in several other moments during the song, including towards the end.

And maybe he wasn't ready to show us that just yet in his previous lives.

He was now.

And again, showing us he does like the song, he hums Like crazy again later on in the live.

JK is JM's happy place. That is part of his love language. He makes JM laugh, and many times it's by being his bratty cheeky self.

JK makes JM laugh. In JM's own words, he's his happy virus.

This part is funny and cute and JK just being JK by imitating JM.

And this time it's all about having fun, but JK as a whole mimics JM, not only for fun, but also as a compass, a guide as to how to behave or react. We saw him do it a lot in the younger years. JK wasn't joking when he told JM he's watching him, lol. We certainly do have the receipts for that one.

He has been doing this since forever. So very neuro divergent of him.

@jikookotters said to me after this live that JM should release a book - "My life with a brat".

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Well, it has bestseller written all over it, guaranteed.

LMAO.

All fun aside, I'd say it's a small price to pay. You know, having a bratty bf that brings a smile to your face in the process. Same man that looks at you like this:

For the whole world to see.

Literally the whole world, having millions of people just sitting there watching him watch JM and melt.

Songs JK listened to and sang for us:

Traffic light - Lee Mujin

Wasurenai TANAKA

Jay Park yesterday (Omg, the lyrics...)

Your love's the sweetest sound Around you, my heart just pounds Your touch, I'll write it down So high, I can't come down Was hopeless, took notice Baby, like a siren, mm, and you gave me faith, oh You're the answer, all my problems solved Life with you is so beautiful, I won't trade it away I was lost but found my purpose now I'm glad you're keepin' me around, I won't trade it away Whether I'm up or down or I wear no crown Love me the same way, the same way you did as yesterday Whether I'm rich or poor, just call me yours Love me the samе way, the same way you did as yestеrday Oh-oh, oh-oh Did as yesterday Your smile is all I need Without you, these lungs can't breathe I'd fall from the sky for you Wanna do better and thrive for you Was hopeless, took notice Baby, like a siren, oh-oh, and you gave me faith You're the answer, all my problems solved Life with you is so beautiful, I won't trade it away I was lost but found my purpose now I'm glad you're keepin' me around, and I won't trade it away Whether I'm up or down or I wear no crown Love me the same way, the same way you did as yesterday Whether I'm rich or poor, just call me yours Love me the same way, the same way you did as yesterday Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh

I know he's a problematic person, but that song, I definitley get why JK likes it.

I have seen many are worried this is a precursor for him having a collab with Jay Park (we did see JK in his studio last year), and that very well may be. We will just have to wait and see about that.

JK also watched "JK vocals I liked", well tried watching and gave up in the middle because The best of me on replay was just too much for him.

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And his G-Dragon imitations, lol.

This was in no way him dissing G-Dragon. This was him being a fan of the man, something he has also shared with us in the past.

OK, Is it time to address the other elephant in the room?

JK's unwillingness to sing a BTS song...lol.

Maybe better not🤣🤣

JK's goodbye to us.

Questions to ask ourselves after watching the live:

Is someone going to explain to JK why the comments are disappearing?

What is JK working on his English super hard for? He makes a point of telling us multiple times during the live that he's working on it hard... I doubt it's only for his TikTok narration for Take two...there is more coming from JK. Question is what and when? Hopefully soon.

So why did JK want us to know about the book he's going to be reading? JK made a point at the start of the live to grab the book and place it on the table in front of him, later to show us the book and tell us he bought it and will read it. Why did JK want us to know about Michelle Zauner or her book? Collab? This is a bit of a stretch, well ok, a huge stretch, but could it be because Michelle Zauner, an openly bisexual woman, married her bandmate Peter Bradley back in 2014? So many questions...

How many times does JK have to mention JM while talking about the rainy day fight?

What was up with JK's glasses? He clearly told us that he needs them. And he was also about to get up go get them, but then stopped and said he's too lazy. But was that it? Really? Or did he just remember/realise that he forgot his glasses at that very place he came from shortly prior to the live? You know, the same place he came from arriving at Brunnen and placing his jacket (is that a motorcycle riders jacket?) on the sofa. Same Jacket he moved aside so maybe we don't notice it too much.

JK getting the book and moving the jacket:

Will we be seeing JK at one of Yoongi's Seoul concerts? Did Yoongi see the live, hear JK's request for a formal invitation up on stage? Lol. JK did say that if Yoongi asks him up, he'll do it... Oh, and do we buy concert tickets for the streaming with those prices???

What's up with JK's YT algorithm?

Do I bring this up again?

Yeah, I guess that explains the algorithm with all the cooking and JM going on there...

Kookie, your obsessions are showing...

What was it with the guitar JK left out to tell us that he's not practicing at all although he should be? At first I thought it might have something to do with JM's acoustic performance, Letter with the guitar, you know, being the JM spoiler king and all.

But now that Take two is out, I can't help but consider perhaps this time it wasn't about JM but more about Take two... the opening guitar. Although (yes, this is me flip flopping here) the opening guitar in Take two is an electric guitar... So yeah, no idea.

Do his neighbours, by this point, have Hybe on speed dial? I mean, I'd love to have JK as a neighbour, I really would? Nah, I lie. I love JK, you know I do, but my god, the noise that man makes, I would be hospitalized by now for sleep deprivation. And the creepy creeps that are out and about looking for him? Nah. Love him, but would rather not be his neighbour, lol.

And last but not least what so ever - why the heck is this man so utterly adorable? This man that on stage is a lean mean killing machine (well, most of the time). How can that be the same person? HOW?

Once again JK has come to us, in his time and on his terms. And once again he's shown us in few words and many actions just how much he loves and appreciates army, and how much he loves JM. He does what he does, says what he says, within the limitations, showing us all his love and support for JM.

He's so friggin loud even those that are unwilling to see are having difficulty ignoring it.

So, are we taking bets on when we're going to be getting him live next? And will we finally be getting a JK Letter sing along? Now that we have an official Letter (Dear.Army) release on YT that is. Now, wouldn't that be an interesting one?

#Jungkook #JK #JK Live #Jikook #Kookmin #Minkook #Jimin #JM #Youtube

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cherryxblossxms · 2 years

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Ikemen you say? Mind if I be a little greepy and ask for c, d, h, k, r, t, and x with Clavis?

Sure! I have to admit im not sure I have a great grasp on Clavis' character so I hope these are alright!

[GN reader, but one mention of femdom]

Clavis

C for Cuddling (How do they cuddle after sex?

Honestly I think Clavis is very clingy after sex. In general, he just loves keeping you close in his arms, he likes physical displays of affection very much. But especially when the oxytocin is running high, the need to hold you close is even greater than usual, his heart full to bursting with love and affection for you. Even if you're sweaty and in need of cleaning up from lovemaking, he can be found pressed up against you spooning (big spoon or little spoon, he sees the advantages to both). Other times, he's lying on top of you with his head resting over your belly or chest, his mischievous fingers and hands roaming the length of your thighs lazily, sometimes reaching up to squeeze your rear. If he accidentally incites your passion again, he's happy to indulge his lover, especially since he is to blame for it.

D for Dirty (How do they dirty talk? What do they say?)

He loves using his pet names for you, first and foremost. Anytime that he's addressing you, it's typically involving "my sweet bunny", as well as "my sweet lover", "my darling", or some iteration thereof. He's a gentleman, after all, and he makes sure that his dirty talk is still (somewhat) sweet and romantic.

But overall, he will definitely make use of pointing out your reactions during sex, telling you about how loudly you moan for him when he does a certain action, or pointing out the way your body quivers when his fingers stroke your arousal. It's partly a little ego boost for him, knowing that it's him that's making you feel good like this, but he does also kind of enjoy flustering you just to see your reaction.

H for Hands (What do they do with their hands during sex?)

His troublesome hands are all over the place during sex. Obviously, he enjoys caressing your thighs and butt with them, as a known leg man, sometimes gripping your ankles as an anchor as he pounds into you. If he's using his mouth on you, they're gripping your thighs or hips to keep them wide open for him, thumbs caressing your skin as he does it. And if he's feeling particularly naughty, he may be up to using handcuffs, rope, or ribbon, to bind hands together; either yours or his, or perhaps even binding his to yours.

But when you two are deep into things, at the height of your passion, he's either entwining his fingers with yours or cupping your face with his hands as he sweetly kisses you.

K for Kink (What’s their secret kink?)

We all know the man has a kink for legs, so I'm not sure it's very secret. But honorable mention anyway, 'cause boy does he go nuts for his lover's legs, especially the thighs. When he asks to lay his head on your thighs, its a 50/50 chance it'll lead to him burying his face between them.

I also like to think Clavis has a praise kink. It's a little hard to find out because he's so used to being a troublemaker, that it's hard to get direct words of praise from even his lover (not for lack of love; he's just too much of a tease). But when the words come out of your mouth during intimacy, whether accidental or intentional, be prepared for his loving to turn up to 200%. It really gives him a burst of energy and stamina, knowing that he's pleasing you so well, and it makes him eager to do more. He'll never admit it directly about the power your words have over him, but it's eventually pretty easy to tell, given the sudden pink in his cheeks and glowing in his golden eyes.

I also feel like Clavis may be into femdom. I can't really elaborate, and it feels rather self-explanatory, it's just a feeling lol.

R for Role Play (What is their role-playing fantasy?)

Instructor and student. I think he'd just love the idea of "teaching" you how to please him, not to mention being called "professor" or something would really get his rocks off. Letting you work towards earning "extra credit" with him. Same thing with being caller Master and doing like a Master and servant scenario.

Also, spinning off of his referring to himself as a gentleman, he'd like knight+royal roleplay too, "saving" you from a danger and you repaying him/showing your gratitude through your body. He just might be a little bit of a shit and let you stumble upon something actually dangerous, but only if he knows that it's something he can handle by himself.

Lastly, going the opposite direction of the gentleman shtick, I think Clavis would love roleplaying that you two are having a secret love affair. We know he hates boring things, and what way to spice things up than to pretend there's a forbidden romance going on? He'll really pull all his best moves at sweet-talking you and courting you, approaching you at an unusual place and pretending you're not supposed to see each other. He makes sure to point out how indecent this all is, what a minx you are for accepting his advances. It's a very passionate roleplay, but hard to pull off when practically everyone in your country knows what he looks like lol.

T for Trust (How would they implement rough sex or kinks?)

Honestly, Clavis isn't the best with verbal discussions about implementing a kink beforehand. He may bring it up, but it's rather like an off-handed comments instead of sitting down and discussing it; we know he kind of dances around discussions with his flowery and frustrating language.

However, with that being said, if you ever express discomfort or disinterest with what he is doing, he will stop things immediately. He's not an asshole, he still wants you to enjoy yourself and what he's doing, and he never wants to scare you away, despite what his insecurities say. He's also fairly good at picking up on what you may like, such as similar interests, so the things he introduces in the bedroom are only ever things that he believes you'll enjoy already based on prior conversations. If he's not at least mostly certain you'll enjoy it, he's unlikely to bring it up at all.

X for X-Rated (What kind of porn do they watch or read?)

Stemming from his dislike of books, I don't think he'd read any porn, he'd find it too boring. But if he could watch porn, he'd love to watch porn involving face-sitting and intercrural/thigh sex. Also mutual masturbation.

I also believe he'd love watching homemade porn, stuff that you can just feel the love and trust between the individuals as they're filmed in their moment of passion. (If we were talking modern AU, I also believe Clavis would be into making sex videos with you too; probably not to post, but just for you two to watch).

#clavis lelouch #ikemen prince #ikepri clavis #ikemen prince clavis #ikepri hcs #ikepri smut #i hope yall like these he isnt one of my favorite suitors but i like him enough #edited to fix something cause realized id repeated a part #spicy minx 🔥#the minx can write ✍️

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destinyc1020 · 10 months

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I think a lot of the Austin hate now stems from Jacob fans, bt i find many of Jacobs "fans" to b very fleeting. i think the voice comments will always b there bt a lot of ppl got over the unjustified rumors of him cheating on Vanessa and ppl do think he/Kaia gerbers age gap is weird (ik i do 🥴) bt Austin just got famous from Elvis last yr n I dnt really think Kaia is that relevant in pop culture so some ppl will point it out bt I think their kinda overlooked as a couple. I think over time he will b fine though his fanbase seems to b strong

Yea, the Elvis/Jacob/Austin comparisons were bound to happen, so that was a given. 🤷🏾‍♀️

I still don't really get the voice thing tbh. Yea, his voice might be slightly different, but if you compare it to 7 years ago, his voice/accent basically sounds the same. He just has an older voice now, and maaaybe a less hard enunciation of certain words probably due to the Elvis vocal training all those years. But other than that?? People drove that voice thing into the ground imo.

Look, even Tom has an older voice now. That's what normally happens when you age. Your voice (yes, even women's voices) change a little, and usually get deeper with age.

But yea, I'm sure eventually people will get over it with him just like they got over the Anne Hathaway hate...

I'll address the Kaustin and Vanessa stuff below 👇:

RE: Kaustin....

I've already talked about what I think about them as a couple on my blog several times before... 🤐 Honestly? They as a couple have always seemed a bit OFF to me (and I'm not just talking about the age gap thing ; which is cringe in itself) and idk why. Look, I've tried to like them as a couple, and her, but I just can't get over the nepobaby-ism, and the weirdness of that family. I actually used to think they were real (and maybe they are?🤷🏾‍♀️) but this year, certain things about their relationship have seemed a bit contrived and pap-heavy??

Not only that, but they barely even look like they're close friends w/each other half the time ROTFL. 😅🤣 Their vibe is so off to me lol. I'm sorry. But the gut doesn't lie. They look so bored and dead w/each other sometimes. I keep saying that Vanessa is the one who got away... 👀 Want proof? Just do a simple Google search photo comparison of his "couple" pics with V and his "couple" pics with K. That's all I'll say lol... 🤭

But hey, if they're happy, then I'm happy for them!? 🤷🏾‍♀️ Idc who he dates honestly, just as long as she's a kind person, is genuine, down to earth, and is dating him for the right reasons.

Here's some tea☕for you.... There's been some in the fandom who spilled that supposedly, Kaia went after HIM. 👀 That wouldn't surprise me lol.

RE: Vanessa...

Yea, I never fully believed the cheating rumors tbh, cuz things just didn't make sense. And no woman I know would be hanging out with the girl who her bf of 9 years cheated on her with. Add to the fact that their families (esp her sister?) still follow each other?🤔

Also add to the fact that Ash Tisdale is still SUPER close to Austin, and I know she is/was a close friend of V's as well, so I doubt she'd be hanging tight with him if he cheated on her friend like that. 🥴 So things just never made sense?

More tea ☕ for you....Take this with a HUGE FAT GRAIN of salt (because who knows if any of this stuff is true?), but word on the street is that supposedly, Vanessa was the one who broke up with Austin. 👀

IF that is true, then that would explain a LOT. Supposedly, it had to do with Elvis filming. 🤐 Supposedly, they had already broken up before the film even started filming. It's a long story.

Anyway, they seemed really happy together all those years, so it's kinda sad they weren't able to try to work things out again. But oh well! It's too late now! V is about to be a married woman (if she isn't already!). 😅

Honestly?? I don't blame her if she really wanted marriage and a family, and she didn't want to continue to spend more time waiting for him (and his career, etc) to catch up.

#sorry for the dissertation

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thedeluluverse · 1 year

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First time doing a crossover/multi-fandom fic, I was so nervous throughout writing this, but I hope it’s decent! Obviously, no hate towards Jimin-ssi, ult is BTS just a fun idea I had inspired by the song “Boyfriend” by Dove Cameron.

Summary: Despite the love you have for your boyfriend, you can’t help but feel invisible at this party. He would rather play games but all you want is to feel seen. Will your wish come true?

Pairing: idol!Jimin x curvy!freader x idol!LeeMinho

Genre: idol!au, angst, fluff, mentions of smut-related topics, acquaintances to lovers, secret mutual pining, crossover, hurt/comfort, songfic, oneshot, RPF, toxic relationship, neglected partner, slight slow burn

Word Count: 4,148.

Warnings:. swearing, angst, toxic/strained relationship, feeling neglected, jealousy, manipulation, guilt, crying, mention of sex, illusions to cheating, gambling, reader is made to feel insecure about their weight, slight bullying due to weight, lack of self worth, gaslighting.

Six months ago, you started dating one of the most talked about K-pop idols, Park Jimin. You met him at a fan sign event for his new solo album 'Face' and hit it off immediately! However, it was still quite shocking when he slipped you his phone number and said he couldn't wait to see you again upon that first meeting. Chalking it up to fate, you texted him later that night.

Y/N: "Hey, it's y/n from the fan sign earlier today. This seems surreal, but I wanted to message you before I lost my nerve. It's late, so I hope I didn't wake you, talk to you later!”

Not even a full minute later, your phone buzzes with a flurry of new text messages from none other than Jimin himself.

PJ: "Hey there, y/n! I'm so glad you messaged me so quickly! You were so beautiful; I just had to get to know you more! Are you free to grab some boba and hang in the park tomorrow?”

Staring at your phone for what feels like 5 whole minutes (it was 30 seconds, calm down, drama queen, lol). You shakily manage to compose a reply.

Y/N: "Oh my, you got me blushing, Mr. Park! Lucky for you, I'm available all day tomorrow! Where should I meet you?”

PJ: "Don't worry about a thing! Just send me your address, and I'll pick you up myself! I am getting rather sleepy, but I will text you the details in the morning, cutie 😉”

Y/N: "Sounds like a plan; get some rest!"

In the beginning, at least for the first 2 weeks, he was a perfect gentleman and doted on you hand and foot. Until his first visit at your place, you cooked him dinner, and everything was magical! This led to quite an intense make-out session on your couch; once y'all took a break to breathe, he says

PJ: *raising an eyebrow and smirking* “Shall we move this to the bedroom?”

Y/N: *bites lip and looks down while fidgeting with your fingers* “I…um..thing is..”

PJ: *confused* "What is it, y/n? I'll be gentle, don't worry, unless told otherwise."

Y/N: "It's not that; I…ugh, here goes. I didn't know how to bring this up before, but I'm a...still a virgin..”

PJ: *processing* "Oh well, that's no problem! I mean, what better first time than with myself?! We can go slowly, and don't worry, I’ll make this night as memorable for you as it is for me” *lust clouds his eyes*

Y/N: “I wasn’t done…

PJ: "Well, c’mon then, someone is eager to meet you” *glances down at his bulge, growing with the thought of how tight you must be and how lucky you are. *

Y/N: *slightly frowning, not liking the vibes* "That's the thing, I want to wait a bit longer before we take that step. I have no doubt that you know what you're doing, and I want to, trust me… just... not tonight. I know that feelings will be intense after, and I don't want to just be a quick fuck, and then you move on and never speak to me again. I don't see you as that type, but you are an idol, after all, with girls throwing themselves at you constantly. You can understand where I’m coming from…right?”

PJ: “Wow, y/n… I thought you trusted me... I'm not that kinda guy. What the fuck??!! Well, I’m just gonna go since I’m so sleazy” *hurriedly puts shirt and shoes back on and grabs his keys*

Y/N: *prancing behind him, trying to stop him* "Wait, no!!!! That's not what I meant. I promise, come back. I have dessert...”

PJ: *ignores you until he starts his car* "Just let me cool off, y/n. It's messed up for you to get me all riled up and not put out. I need to mull some things over. I'll talk to you later…maybe."

Tears well up in your eyes as you watch him drive away, nauseated with worry that you may have just lost your one chance with one of your long-time biases. After multiple failed calls and unread texts, you fall asleep, exhausted from the constant sobs since he left. The next day, you sleep until noon, grateful you don't have work until 5. Eyes still blurry with sleep and post-cry puffiness, you check your phone to see no responses from your (ex?) boyfriend, Jimin. Heavy-hearted, you shower and get ready for work, unable to eat anything due to the dread in your heart. The shift is relatively slow at the coffee shop you work at, which does no good for your preoccupied mind repeating, "If he would just contact me, I'm sure we could work this out…." As if summoned, in strolls Mr. Park in all black, including his baseball cap; barely lifting his head, he gives his order avoiding eye contact. He occupies a corner of the café at a perfect angle to keep an eye on you while also blending in with the shadows so as not to be disturbed. As you clock out, you see him get up and head toward the door. Determined not to miss this chance, you jog after him as he gets to his car.

Y/N: “Hey! What gives? Did you yeet your phone to Hawaii as soon as you left? And then what’s with coming silently stalk me at work?? I had to lie to my boss and say you were a secret shopper observing the shift so you wouldn’t get kicked out for loitering.”

PJ: *scoffs and rolls his eyes* "Oh, I'm the problem here? You really are naïve, aren't you? You can't just do things like that to a guy. It was painful hence my reaction last night. I came here to ensure you were physically alright because your messages worried me last night."

He may be a jerk, but he had a point. You were naïve. Evidenced by his "being worried about you" being enough to melt any negativity you still had toward him.

Y/N: *lip quivering* "You…you were worried about me??? I'm so sorry; I was worried about nothing. You're so sweet. If you can be patient, I promise I'll be the best girlfriend ever!”

PJ: *his gaze darkens, knowing his plan worked, then switches to comfort mode* “Aww honey, of course, I was worried! I care about you! Now, what do you say we go grab some ramen and watch a movie, huh?" *Brushes a tear off your cheek with his thumb and gives a quick peck on your nose*

Things are on the mend until you see a tabloid cover 2 days later with him in the outfit from that fateful night he stormed out, surrounded by girls at a club. You confront him, but it's useless as he knows exactly what to say to soften you up and make it seem like he was just a victim of circumstance or was picking up a friend and got swarmed when they used the bathroom. Over time, you believe him less and less, but you stay with him because of your feelings for him and not wanting to seem like the bad guy anymore. After that night at the café, you compromised and agreed to exchange oral frequently. Still, it is to the point where with all of the rumors you hear and headlines you see about him with girls much thinner than you (which he makes sure to point out), you are never letting this dude anywhere near your pussy, even with his tongue. As a matter of fact, it's been about 4 and ½ months since anything but yourself has made you cum.

Having been cooped up in the house or work for months due to his “overprotectiveness” (a.k.a. making sure you aren’t going to catch him in the act or meet anybody actually decent), you jump with joy when he tells you about this colossal idol party, they are throwing this weekend with any group you can think of in the industry. Keep in mind he doesn't actually invite you. He only mentions it and says, “I mean, you can come if you want, I guess…" when you ask if you can accompany him. You both know he does not intend to stay by your side, but you don't even care. You need a night out around different people and scenery, plus it gives you a chance to wear that cute little dress you bought 3 months ago for your anniversary but never got to wear since he had to "work late"; yet came home with hickeys right as you were headed to bed.

As predicted, no sooner have y'all gotten checked in, and he is already antsy to leave your side. He quickly grabs and downs 2 glasses of champagne for himself, then looks you up and down and remarks.

PJ: "Damn baby, you look so fucking good…."

Y/N: *slightly blushes as it’s been a while since he’s complimented you* “Oh yeah? I’m glad it finally got to see outside of my closet” *giggling ensues with both of you*

PJ: *catches his breath and smirks* “Think tonight is finally the night?”

Y/N: *immediately stiffens* "I mean, I'll let you know, but not sure right now…."

PJ: *sighs* “Ugh, whatever. I’ll catch you later”.

Y/N; *feeling deflated, you catch a chill* “Wait!!”

PJ: *turns around exasperatedly* "What now???? I'm a very busy man, y/n."

Y/N: *thinks 'yeah, busy cheating'* "I'm chilly. Can I borrow your jacket? *thinks 'you seem to like taking your clothes off anyway’*

PJ: *cackles making a few heads turn* "You must be joking. Did your eyesight get worse? No way I’m letting you stretch out and ruin this custom piece. Why don’t you dance? That way, you'll warm up AAANNNDD burn calories" *walks away snickering*

Tears threatening to fall, you rush to the bathroom to salvage your makeup and gain your composure, all while simultaneously cursing him and believing he has a good point. Poor gaslit y/n!! After a few minutes, you emerge from the bathroom, and his all-too-familiar laugh draws your eyes to the gambling section of the party. You know he can afford it, but that doesn't change the fact that he seems to care more about winning than he ever did about you. Feeling invisible, you sit on one of the luxurious couches on the quieter side of the room. You scroll through the apps on your phone with one hand while the other is wrapped around your elbow, trying to warm up. You hold your head in your hands because you are actually considering taking his advice and dancing since you're about 5 minutes from becoming an icicle.

Suddenly, you feel fabric hit your leg. Snapping your head up, ready to chew out whoever is inconsiderate enough to not give you space, you are met with the kindest pair of brown eyes holding out a jacket to you. Furrowing your brows, you clear your throat and ask.

Y/N: *slowly standing up* “I… is Lee Minho really offering his coat to m..me?”

LM: *chuckles at your adorably flustered state while rubbing his neck with his other hand* “I mean, that’s my name last I checked, and I am not holding a ghost corpse so, I'd say you're right, y/n."

Y/N: *looking like you HAVE just seen a ghost* “Wait. How do you know who I am?!” *Legs threatening to give out*

LM: *wraps jacket around your shoulders with room to spare, then holding your hand as he sits back down with you* “I mean, for one, you’re almost as famous as I am. Disregarding dating an idol, the commercial for your photography studio has taken off! Second, you are many idols' favorite fans with your respect and thoughtfulness levels. Thirdly, you are easily the most beautiful girl here. How could I not be drawn to you?!” *Shyly smiles and looks down*

Y/N: *face has been a tomato since the jacket touched your skin* “I... I don’t know how to respond to any of that, but I appreciate all of it so much! *Dimple appears*

LM: *tucks your hair behind your ear, admiring your smile* "All I ask is that you believe everything I said is true. Just one question, and I don’t mean to pry… where is that boyfriend of yours? I don’t mean to offend, just... It’s bad form to leave your girl alone at a party, much less shivering too."

Y/N: *scoffs, rolls eyes, and waves hand in the general direction of gambler's corner*

LM: *purses lips in anger* Ah...I see…Well, I’m kind of bored and was headed to grab a snack and figured it only polite to see if you wanted me to grab you an appetizer platter, too, when I saw you freezing over here.”

Y/N: “Sadly, I'll have to decline. I've been trying to stick to this diet to look like I belong to this industry. Thanks though!”

LM: "Nonsense. You are gorgeous, and your talent makes you a part of this world, not your dress size. If anyone says or implies otherwise, they’re an idiot and I’ll be more than happy to relay that message to them as well… can’t promise it won't be with a fist, but…anyway, I'll be right back, okay?"

Y/N: *nodding and grinning ear to ear while you wait*

LM: *returns with hella snacks* "I wasn't sure what you'd want, so I just got a variety to be safe.”

Y/N: “You're such a sweetheart, even though you just threatened to fight people." *You chuckle*

LM: *raises an eyebrow and turns to face you* “Oh, it’s not a threat. I can’t stand people who think like that or treat people like shit because of their fucked-up mentality. Especially someone as amazing as you. Let me know if you know anyone who needs a knuckle sandwich, okay, pretty?" *Places a gentle hand on your knee*

Y/N: *you feel butterflies for the first time in months* “I’ll keep that in mind. But…what if...oh, never mind...”

LM: *grabs your hand, looking into your eyes* "What is it? You can say anything to me, I got you.”

Y/N: *holding back tears, feeling safer than ever* "Well, I was gonna say I'd make a sandwich order, but not sure my boyfriend would appreciate that since he would be on the receiving end" *you lightly chuckle and look away, realizing how unhappy you are*

LM: *abruptly stands up with clenched fists* “Wait are you saying…. he rea...really gives you shit about how you look?? Is he fucking blind?! That's alright; lucky for him, we have a combo special." * He says as he rolls up his sleeves*

Y/N: *eyes widen as you bolt up and lay a gentle hand on his forearm* "No, really, it's okay; he does have a point. I just am having a bad night. Please, let it go for me." * You knew it was a risk pulling that card, having just met Minho, but you could tell there was more he wasn’t telling you about how he knew you*

LM: *intensely exhales and unfurls fists* “Let’s get something straight. The only reason I am not putting that dude in the hospital is on your behalf. OOOOHHH, the things I want to say to that weasel!! *Sits back down, taking both of your hands in his* “Sorry, I'm calm now. I'm not trying to freak you out, but I must be honest…."

Y/N: *leans head to the side* "What's on your mind? If I can be candid with you, it goes both ways, okay, Rocky?" *Stifling a laugh, but your eyes are shining with joy*

LM: *raises an eyebrow" "Rocky? That's a new one, haha; you're cute. Oh, right, my point! *facepalms* “SOOO, the ways I knew you earlier are all completely true; but there’s something else. Did you go to our concert about a year ago?”

Y/N: “I..uh..yeah, actually…how'd you know?"

LM: *twiddles thumbs* “See, the thing is, I've been trying to find you since then, but like not in a stalker way. Ugh, I'm messing this all up. Okay, let me rewind. We were performing 'Taste,' and I saw this radiant Stay holding up a sign that said, ‘I’m looking to adopt a kitt-ten if you need a MinHOE.' It caught my eye right at the beginning, and I couldn't help but laugh as my part began. It was adorable and funny, plus the owner was stunning, so I'll admit I was flustered."

Y/N: *soul leaves body* “Wait…I caused that chuckle?? You not only saw my sign but liked it???”

LM: “I loved it; super creative, honestly! So, I was in the back changing for the ‘Case 143' performance, and I couldn't stop blabbering about it to the rest of the guys. I knew I stood no chance against your charms when I saw the perma-grin on your face and damn near perfect choreography to the song. I tried to get your attention before you left, but you didn't see me. Ever since I've been hoping to get a chance to meet that magnificent girl again. And here we are!”

Y/N: *staring into space, processing what he said* "I... You…wanted to find me?? From a goofy sign?? I'll admit that you were more of a bias than Jimin. But...what now? I can’t just leave with your fairytale ass; I am not single, y/n, that I was a year ago when I made that sign. Thanks for the jacket, snacks, and honesty Min, but I gotta get going."

LM: *stands up before you and extends his hand to you, helping you stand* "I understand and respect where you're coming from. If you ever change your mind or want to order that combo, let me know, okay? It made my year just meeting you and getting that off my chest.” *Turns to help you find the way out while hiding the mixed emotion tears accumulating on his waterline*

Y/N: *checks phone and sees a message from Jimin saying he’s going to an afterparty and not to wait up* *chuckles incredulously while looking at the ceiling, stopping dead in your tracks*

LM: "Is everything okay, y/n?"

Y/N: *shows him the message* “I hate to ask this, but could you give me a lift back to my apartment? I know nobody else here, and no Ubers will be near here. I completely get; if not, I can try to see if his driver will pick up I ju…."

LM: “No no problem at all! I was going to offer, actually. Do you actually want to leave right now, or were you because of him?”

Y/N: “You know what? I think I want to dance. Because I want nothing else, I promise, but if you're ready to go, let me know!"

LM: *holds out his hand* "I have all the time in the world for you, darling. If you don't think my company is unethical, Ms. Not Single." *smirking*

Y/N: *gives the sassiest look ever* "Ha…ha, sir. Plus, the heat made me talk out of my head because I don’t think I’ve had a boyfriend in months.” *Raises a flirty eyebrow* (idk just go with it, y'all XD)

LM: *picks you up and spins you with glee* "THANK FUCK! I would've respected your decision to stay with him, but I am glad you didn't… why did your change suddenly? Not that I'm complaining AT ALL, just wondering what is going on in that pretty head of yours”.

Y/N: *wraps arms around his neck as ‘Slow Motion’ by AMARIA BB plays* “Well, I may have met someone tonight who helped pressure wash the brainwashing and gaslighting away and helped me see my worth in just a few sentences. I know it sounds crazy, but I feel genuinely good about them. I just hope I can get the courage to ask them out soon...” *looks down, nervous as hell*

LM: *can't help but give the biggest grin ever grinned* "I'd say your odds are excellent. They seem very gentlemanly and would gladly let you wear their clothes that are adorably baggy on you anytime. Also, would never have left you alone on your phone while dancing is an option or make you feel like you have to starve yourself to be worthy of love. Generally, feel like they’d do anything and everything for you. Not only because you more than deserve it but to show you that not every guy at this level is a douche.

Y/N: *butterflies return with a vengeance as the song’10:35’ comes on, and your back meets his firm chest as his strong hands find your voluptuous curves* "Well, in that case, I think I hit the jackpot, hehe, sorry I couldn't help it. It's true plus ironic given my ex’s, god, that feels good to say out loud, obsession with gambling. *Turns and hides face in his chest as y'all sway, and he kisses the top of your head*

LM: *smiles while tilting your chin up with his finger* “He may have been a gambler, but he can’t be that good if he didn’t bet on me finding you and you eventually realizing you deserve better."

Y/N: *stifles a laugh* “You did NOT just make a gambling pun… I loved it! He never appreciated my jokes…."

LM: "Well, you no longer have to worry about that. I'm here for all the jokes, whether good or bad. You can tell me anything, and I'll be open-minded, okay?” *Song ends, so he guides you to the couch again by his hand on the small of your back*

Y/N: *palms get clammy getting flashbacks to the disagreement that started it all*

LM: *notices immediately and cups your face with his hands* "Hey, hey, you, okay? What's going on, hun? Talk to me, please."

Y/N: *takes a deep breath and recounts story* "I didn't wanna drop that on you, right away, but I guess it’s better for you to know earlier so I don’t disappoint you too…tonight’s been really fun, but I understand if you bring me back home, and that's it."

LM: *pulls you into the warmest hug ever and strokes the back of your head down your back* “Oh sweetheart, if that’s enough to scare someone off, that’s their issue. I completely understand where you're coming from, and honestly, I'm proud of you for standing your ground. Also, I’m glad that selfish prick wasn’t your first glimpse into the world of sex cuz…yeesh…."

Y/N: "Honestly, same." *cackles* "I will say, while I can't promise a timeline, I feel like it won't take as long for me to be comfortable with the idea this time. *Instantly blushes*

LM: *kisses your forehead* "How do you look so sweet, yet that look in your eye is giving succubus? Anyways... I will wait however long you need to make sure you are truly ready, okay? Just let me know when you want things and what you want, alright princess?”

Y/N: *is too shook to be coy* “Wha..what did you just say??”

LM: *plays dumb* “Which part? The sweet yet succubus part confused you?”

Y/N: *both get up to leave* “Now you know damn well that wasn’t the part… to that point, however, … I dunno guess I'm just the perfect balance of everything." *Flips hair*

LM: *smiles at the newfound confidence and quietly catches up to her* “I guess that must be it.” *Puts coat on her*

Y/N: *is speechless and just grins, taking in the scent from his coat*

LM: “As for the ‘princess’ comment, I figured it only fair since you called me sir...*snakes hand around your waist*

Y/N: “I didn’t mean like th...oh, who am I kidding? I may have thrown it out there to gauge your reaction for future reference, science, or whatever…but I figured it flew over your head, or you didn't like it since you said nothing until now, haha! Is..is it bad that I did that?"

LM: *gently but firmly pulls her closer as they approach the car* “Hmm…" *opens the door and lets her get settled in the car as he starts it up* “I don’t mind that you called me that if that’s what you’re asking.”

Y/N: "Oh, thank god I was so nervous!"

LM: “I mean, it wasn’t bad in the dislike way. It may have been dangerous because it only made the desire to kiss you tenfold, so only that kind of bad did you summon.” *Smirks but keeps fiddling with the car’s settings and setting up music*

Y/N: *bites lip* “I mean… all I’ll say is you aren’t alone in that feeling...”

LM: *undoes seatbelt and leans over with superspeed and breathily says* “Thank goodness” *gently grips the underside of your chin with one hand, pulling you towards him as your hands roam into his hair, kissing with more love than you've ever felt*

THE END

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Choose violence ask: 10, 12 and 25 for Galactik Football

k imma be honest this was really hard cuz like. Galactik football is a really small fandom so we don't really have a general "fanon" consensus or really a general Anything consensus so i had to think abt it real hard

10. worst part of fanon

ok so we don't really have a fanon (again) but something i saw in some fics (not bashing anybody btw) quite enough was making the other SK super unlikable to the point of OOC just to make another character seem better or more sympathetic (it's Micro-ice). Just. Complete assholery to a ridiculous level that would never happen in between the main cast(at least in the first 2 seasons) just to make u feel bad for the guy.

And i don't understand that. Because like. Micro-ice is already kind of mistreated in canon? he literally never got an apology for the way he was treated (which made him RUN AWAY IN THE FIRST PLACE!!) and everyone just returned to being friendly with each other despite them never addressing Micro-ice's feelings in a proper way imo. So WHY would you feel the need to make the others OOC to a ridiculous degree to try and make people sympathize with Micro-ice??? He's ALREADY SYMPATHETIC!! Just adress his feelings !!!

Oh and this was also done mostly for shipping reasons because...of course.

Can't have a character have a healthy support system outside of the one person they're dating!! Nope!! We HAVE to isolate a person from their friends by making them uncharacteristically horrible just to make the only outside option look better!! Peak romance!! /S (literally it's just the family friendly version of that fanfic trope where writers kill off canon characters who 'get in the way' of their ship lol)

12.the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

Ok so i know "unpopular" in this context means hated or unliked but... I think i agree with most of the fandoms opinions on this one lol. Just to check, The hated characters that come to my mind are Yuki(don't really hate her on her own, but her relationship with Micro ice makes me wanna throw myself off a cliff so as a side effect i dislike her), Mark(no strong opinions to give except "he's boring" which we've all heard a million times by now), p much everyone in s3...idk i can't really remember anyone else. I personally find duke Maddox annoying but that's not the point of the question

So I'll take this as LITERAL unpopularity. You may have noticed but a while back i was obsessed with The Shadows and giving them personalities since i was upset that as the rival team they never got screen time. I think i was the only one that cared about them lol so there's that. It's just...Sinedd was a semi-main character! And they made a big deal out of him leaving for the Shadows!! And then NEVER expanded on them as a team other than "they aggressive 😢" !!! They should have done something with them!!!! Also the other rival teams as well. We should have gotten more alien content in this sci fi series goddamit!! They all have lots of potential that was unfortunately unused imo

25.common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

I agree with most common fandom complaints..but as this is a small fandom, so we probably think of different things (or I'm just forgetting something)

The most common complaints i hear are that the pirates subplot took up too much time, clothing design being wack and generally disliking season 3. i agree with those, personally.

Again you and i probably think of different things when we hear "common fandom complaint" so feel free to tell me which ones i may have missed because I'm probably forgetting a lot

#galactik football #milli's monologuing #choose violence ask game #the shadows #micro ice #Micro-ice #cuz they're mentioned

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fencesandfrogs · 9 months

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20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @yee-hawlw

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

208!

2. what's your total ao3 wordcount?

524,331

3. what fandoms do you write for?

top five would be warriors, moon knight, star trek, overwatch, and homestuck. i haven't posted anything for overwatch or homestuck in AGES tho, and i've got a good number of fic plans for fandoms i've never posted for. i just like to be complicated like that ig.

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

burned off the tapestry; drarry. written in high school.

ashes; squirrelflight/ashfur. in dear deserving of an update. i'll get there. eventually.

if i ever get the nerve to say hello; k/s accidentally secret relationship where uhura thinks she's dating spock.

better left unsaid; po3 slight-crack about everyone knowing the three aren't biologically squirrelflight's.

a cool summer night (and this sweet breeze); some hollywillow/kestreljay nonsense. can't believe this one is in my top 5. i don't even ship kestreljay. i don't even LIKE kestreljay. it's only in this fic because the premise required it.

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

i try, but not very often. honestly sometimes i forget, sometimes i'm busy, sometimes it's just too much. basically all my fics have moderated comments because i have had Issues with commentors in the past, but. i collect the comments in my inbox and love them very mcuh.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

oof, tough question. i'm gonna go with "anything at all," which uh. ends with a mother finding her teenage daughter dead by drug overdose. i don't think it's my best work, i wrote it when i was like 15, but it's probably the worst ending.

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

oh shit i have to go thru all my fics again? damn. this is easier and harder than the previous one. i like to write happy endings! i prefer it! but i limited myself to only fics with happy endings, not, like. fluff pieces that are all happy. and with that, i'm gonna go with "i see the moonlight steal across your sheets." yes, it is the daddy kink tigerdove one, but it has a very happy ending with very little bittersweet.

runners up include: "a firefly is forever (you know my answer)", "a tree called life," and "it's mere assignment."

8. do you get hate on fic?

rarely. in my inbox is more common. i moderate comments for a reason tho LOL.

i think people on ao3 are much less likely to have problems with me because things are always tagged and warned for. you can't really go into a fic from me and not know what you're getting into.

9. do you write smut?

yes, but i haven't finished anything to publish. which is funny. because i write a lot of smut. [i do have one explicit fic, but. it's not smut.]

10. do you write crossovers?

my first ever fic (written and posted when i was ten) was a crossover. other than that...i write fusions, sometimes. i have a warriors & night circus crossover which is a proper crossover but doesn't really engage with the world as a crossover, if that makes sense. they're not really my thing tho.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i remember? i think i've had to address people over copied paragraphs, but i don't think i remember the details of that. it could've been me noticing someone else's work being copied.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

yes! and it was very kind of the person who did so.

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

...it's complicated.

i'm working on a co-written fic rn tho.

14. what's your all-time favorite ship?

character named james who goes by something else X guy who is constantly getting into situations.

(not really a joke, three of my favorite tags on ao3 fit this description. house/wilson, k/s, steve/bucky.)

15. what's a WIP you want to finish but probably won't?

ohf, i'll admit it here ig. i have a shrewsquirrel piece, "waiting for me in some unholy sunlight," that i really adore. but uh the ending. it ends in a bittersweet way, and uh. well. the ending i had planned ended up more-or-less happening irl. so. i can't. i just can't.

16. what are your writing strengths?

tenacity. lol. uh, i think i'm good at description when i let myself get into it. and i think i'm good at like. the structural elements of writing.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

actually fucking finishing things. and. i've gotten a lot better at it, but i still struggle to keep a balance between narration and dialogue. sometimes it feels like there are pages between two sentences in a conversation.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

goddamn this is something i've done. i think i've mentioned most of the fics involving this here also. okay. so. i'm going to answer with what i do, because there's not, like, one right solution to this. what i prefer to do is keep everything in english, and use dialogue tags to specify what language is being spoken. however, if it's a single word, or a specific phrase, i might keep it in the original language, for flavor/"it's a concept that doesn't translate well."

i have written a fic with sentences in spanish, and i took a long time to make hover translations work, except it doesn't have accents because to this day i can't figure out how to make it work. sobbing and crying etc.

i don't think i would do that with a language i didn't know. in that case, the character being latina was important to how i wanted to angle the story, so it made sense. i'm not sure if i'd do that in a different situation?

basically i play things very by ear. if i was writing a physical book with pages, i would use footnotes fairly heavily, but it's not the same on ao3. you have to lose your place to check a footnote. like, even if it's linked back to the spot (which, y'know, i would do, now that i know how to make footnotes), it jars you a bit.

19. first fandom you wrote for?

i'll give you half the cross over, MLP:FIM

20. favorite fic you've written?

that would be telling ;3

tagging @kudossi, @creed-of-cats, and @secondyearpigeon, with no pressure. anyone else who wants to is welcome <3

#mine #tag game

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riddle-me-ri · 2 years

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k hear me out we NEED the directors cut for taking care of Jervis through his depression

It has already been a huuuge experiment with his character but maybe theres still smth left to say u know👀👉🏻👈🏻

HNNGGG *vibrating with elated joy* IM SO GLAD YOU ASKED ANON when I saw this ask game I was HOPING someone would ask about Love and Suds! Because I HAVE A LOT TO DISCUSS HNNGGG

Because of that there's a read more tab lmao

I'm so sorry I know its a lot but just please bear with me because I HAVE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS I need to express lol.

So Jervis is incredibly interesting to me lmao.

I've been in and out of the Batman/Rogue fandom going on about six years. I've always wanted to like Jervis (I loved Alice in Wonderland as a child shush I still do plus mind control?? Hell yeah) but given his controversy and everyone just sweeping him under the rug, aside from BTAS and Arkhamverse, I felt like I was slowly getting a grasp on him but never quite got there.

Now fast forward after a year and a half out of the fandom and thwarting myself back in I am here and I've met a couple genuine Jervis fans for like years, fans, shout out to @march-harrigan and @jervis-tetch-my-beloved and when I read their work and thoughts I was like...Okay so it's not just me that thinks this...it was very affirming to see others got the same read on him.

Because I say this with 0 hesitation, Jervis can be a tricky mad lad to write for. I mean extremely (Jon moreso for me lately, stoicism isn't my strong suit but I'm working on it) difficult.

A lot of people have a bad habit of infantilizing him or making him out to be weaker than he is. Yes he's a wee mad lad with a penchant for rhymes, hats, and tea.

But he's also a murderer, kidnapper, manipulator, and a neuroscientist...he's one of the smartest bastards in the room but because he acts playful, and whimsical people misjudge and underestimate him

Also, Jervis has shown the capability of remorse (again varying iterations but he does seem the usual suspect to feel any sort of guilt whenever he's finally lucid) because of that, I felt a compulsion to do something DC writers are fucking terrified to do....actually give a rogue hope. They tried to reform Eddie but that didn't last (mostly cause of his own compulsions that were never properly addressed...poor baby..)

Now I know for many, a lot of these characters are BEYOND redeemable, Jervis included (y'know kidnapping, murder, mind control...yeah) and they're not inherently good people, but some rogues were once before...

And I truly do think if Jervis had a positive consistent in his life that was able to make reality a Wonderland, he wouldn't need the fantasy, he wouldn't need the delusion.

That's where the idea for Love and Suds came from.

I've written for Jervis a couple times before Love and Suds and when I tell you I had to stop myself from literally doing a character deep dive for a smut prompted request...I had to reel back A BUNCH. I would be almost 1k words in and remember oohhh they're supposed to be fucking goddamnit and have to edit the shit out of it.

So I knew I had to do something just to prevent it from happening again. Slowly but surely the plot came to me, but I was hesitant. Again, I didn't want to infantilize him, but I did want the reader to take care of him. Hence why a lot of the time in the story Jervis is scoffing at himself because he's in reality and he's ultra aware of what's going on but like he's also selfish and isn't going to pass up a chance to finally be clean.

Which is something else I hope I made clear was that Jervis was very much in reality during the entirety of the story whilst in his depression...hence why he wasn't rhyming, he wasn't absolutely appalled by the state of his home (scattered saucers, dirty tea cups everyone some broken after being thrown at the wall, hats with broken seams and holes in them, things I didn't really get a chance to describe). I'm sure you've figured that out but just wanted to confirm it.

It's one of those fics I hold near and dear to my heart.

Because one it was one of those fics I had going around in my head that I finally put onto paper and it was exactly how I envisioned it (its only happened with two other stories)

And two... I didn't realize how much it was wanted/needed? I knew since it wasn't a request from anyone it wasn't going to be everyone's fancy...but like the amount of feedback I got exclaiming that this is exactly what they want to see for Jervis? This is how they see him? Like I didn't realize that was something that people were looking for!

As far as if there's anything more to the story...when I tell you I have thought of sequel ideas for Love and Suds I have thought about it immensely...

I have a couple scenarios were Jervis returns the favor to Reader, one where Jervis comes to properly court the reader but overhears a heated argument with Reader defending Jervis to Batman, like the possibilities are ENDLESS but I also don't want to like...ruin it either you know? Too many may spoil it or make it bad?

But yeah...so sorry this is so long lmao if you guys do want more content regarding the set up of Love and Suds let me know! I may still write a couple connected drabbles here and there for a comfort project for myself but it's also good to know if you guys would be into it too! If tumblr could let us all have polls I'd put it in a poll but nooooo

Thanks for reading all of this lmao and thank you for asking anon I am so glad to get this all off my chest lmao

#ri rambles #ri answers #ri rambles A LOT #here #i havent stopped thinking about this fic #since it posted #im really proud of it #and i want to hopefully do more with it

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beautifulpersonpeach · 2 years

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BPP hi, I've wanted to send you a DM for some time, but every moment I chicken out. I'm new on Tumblr, just starting up my blog for jikook and want to ask you for advice. How do you deal with hate asks and comments? You cover controversial topics, talk straight and candid but in a level-headed way but at the same time you call out the b*llsh*t of both kpop stans and Armys and even Hybe. I just talk about jikook and I am getting people that already hate me and my blog. I imagine you must get more given all the topics you cover. How do you deal with it?

Lol I just delete them.

Actually, first I should say that if you're getting extremely abusive asks, escalate it to the reporting team on Tumblr. Use the report and block function and put in a formal complaint through the website. Some months ago I was getting hostile visitors to my blog that I dismissed as just trolls, after all, weird things happen online and especially on Tumblr every day - but turns out, they were more than just trolls. They were underemployed but fanatically motivated k-pop stans/commentators determined to physically hurt me in real life, because the facts I was pointing out were inconvenient for them, and my opinions critical of the k-pop industry and the sycophants trafficking in 'discourse' that excuses that bullshit, were difficult to counter with you know, words and reason. So physical harm in real life was apparently the only solution they had. I made a mistake by not taking them seriously till they tried actual physical harm. Thankfully, I was able to nip that in the bud by escalating to the privacy and reporting team at Tumblr, worked with some experts irl and now those people are permanently banned from using the platform under several IP addresses.

Of course, when I re-opened the blog, almost right away some people were upset that I was writing again, for whatever reason. But that's normal, lol, so I just ignore and delete those asks whenever they pop up. Lol. I don't know what to tell you Anon, but some people are just naturally... like that. They'd score above the average Dark Triad percentile. I know we typically make fun of toxic taekookers but many of those same behaviors we ridicule are found in various shades in k-pop spaces in general - the way this industry runs practically attracts those types. Like I'd go as far as saying the people playing the k-pop game best are taekookers and Tae solo stans. Hobi akgaes are really good at it too. I've said before, if you're a critical and contrarian person, k-pop is the perfect industry for you because you'll never run out of things to have a problem with.

Plus, half the time I have no idea what these people are going on about in my inbox anyway, so I just delete them. Before, during the pandemic, occasionally I'd post a few to tear down and laugh at since I had the time. But now airports are open and I'm back to working full time. I can hardly handle the 10s of asks I sometimes get daily, so it makes no sense to give those complaints any oxygen.

TL;DR

First, why are you chickening out? If you don't mind maybe not getting responses right away, please come say hi. :)

Sad to hear you're a new jikook blogger and already having to deal with BS. But also know it honestly just comes with the territory.

The way I deal with asks that are hostile or just read like they were written by an insane person, is to delete them.

There's also the option of turning off Anonymous asks completely. I know several bloggers sometimes take this route.

If it's especially weird, I report and block. I haven't had to do this in months but if it's extra weird, I report the ask directly to Tumblr's reporting team.

You should also note that the topics you write about can influence whether you get more or fewer weirdos. Shipping spaces are notoriously toxic, so if you'd like to continue writing on the topic, develop a tagging system that shields your content from taekookers, eg, abbreviate or add your blog name to the hashtag.

Good luck Anon. 💜

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How did Spring Break looked like for your MC during college/med school? Wild parties/vacation? Nice trip? Going back home? Staying behind to study? Anything in between? What about Ethan and Tobias?

Hey Nonny,

Thanks so much for this fun ask!

Casey/Kaycee:

Undergrad, NYU: I can see her going home to see her parents her freshman year and staying behind in NYC sophomore year. She was close with her family and was likely homesick, but in year two, she had made friends and wanted to enjoy the City a little more (plus she put in extra hours at The Strand for more $$).

However, during junior year, her first love, Tomas, tried to implore the notion that those who work hard have to play hard, too. He took her away to the Mexican Riviera for the week (and took some amazing photos that Ethan/Tobias stumbled upon years later... led to some fun stories! lol)

By her senior year, Tomas had moved to California, and she had her first heartbreak and was in no mood to travel. She decided to spend the time going back to Philly to prep for med school (she knew she was attending U Penn already.)

Med School, UPenn: In Med School, Casey/Kaycee was very much about studying and volunteering. So Spring Break didn't feel too different from the rest of the year. However, she and her girlfriend Jessica did take some time off to go to Cape May one year, and it was such a lovely trip they promised they'd do it again - but Jessica went off to her residency in another state, and they didn't get to. :( C/K did try to have fun but tended to stay more local.

Find out about the guys below:

Ethan:

Undergrad, Brown: Spring Break didn't mean much to him. He looked at it as time to catch up with studying and to put in some extra hours at work to make more money. But the year he was dating Cassidy, they did take some time to visit her family in Mystic, Connecticut, and enjoyed some time at the beach there.

Med School, Hopkins: I'll address this below :)

Tobias:

Undergrad Howard: Spring Break meant traveling and partying, some of which he even remembers. His Freshman and Sophomore years were spent in Cancun (and nope, he never went with his college girlfriend). Junior year was spent in the Greek Isles, and Senior Year was in Miami Beach.

Med School, Hopkins:

I'm melding Ethan and Tobias's Med School experiences because, as best friends for most of the four years, they were interlinked.

Tobias & Ethan were good for each other because Tobias brought out Ethan's mischievous side that had largely died after his mother left, and Ethan brought a sense of stability to Tobias that helped him excel more than he would have otherwise. Coming from a wealthy family, Tobias had much bigger purse strings than Ethan did, but he wasn't leaving his best buddy behind. In year one, I see them in Cancun; Tobias wanted his friend to get the full spring break experience he never got in college. It was fun... and crazy... but they both realized they might be a tiny bit too old for that already.

So Year Two, they chose to go to do something fun but not as crazy. A group of friends from Hopkins was going to Barbados, and they joined in.

By year three, their relationship was strained (though not broken), and Tobias's father, Charles, was in the last stages of cancer before he died. Tobias chose to go back to DC to be with his family, and Ethan stayed behind at Hopkins to study and spend time with his girlfriend, Vincenza (He didn't do much of the latter, which led to their eventual breakup.)

By year four, they were no longer friends, and each of them was going through a lot of shit. Ethan took a couple of days in Providence with his Dad and spent the rest in Boston, getting to know the area he was about to call home. Tobias joined his mother and brother at their family's beach house near Assateague State Park, Maryland, but he left after a few days because of tension with his brother. He went back to Hopkins and spent time with friends there.

#ethan ramsey #tobias carrick #my mc #casey mactavish #kaycee macclennan #spring break #asks answered

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lapeaudelamemoire · 10 months

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ii. (triptych middle)

mandarin chinese drama ost track playing out of my phone on my bed next to me on repeat. (云泥 by 希林娜依，高, from 云之羽.)

leaving my partner's apartment today i realise that i no longer know what i want to do or have anywhere i want to go for leisure. that i've given up on doing something in my free time.

i don't know any good cafes to go to that are open after 3pm. (3PM.) Or maybe 4pm. Maybe 5pm at the latest. Certainly not near me. Not even in the city. Not anywhere, hardly anywhere really. Libraries close around this time too. I've said it many times before, and I'll say it again - even in Norway/Oslo there was a cafe that stayed open until 10pm every night. Maybe this is a sign that I've thoroughly suffocated; that there is truly nowhere to go. In this 'city'. In this place that calls itself a fucking 'city'. (If you can't tell, I spat that.)

Even when the nights don't fall until past 8pm now, there is nothing to fucking do. No thing. N o t h i n g. So I don't think about going out any more. There is nothing to do. And nothing to dress up for. Just a whole lot of nothing. A whole heap of nothing.

So I go and get my bread and bubble tea and prepare to go home, which is when I realise as I'm walking down the street that I would have used to go out to sit down somewhere for a coffee and read, but there's nowhere. And all the fucking coffee here sucks. (Lol, because I tried to tell K that the coffee here is really good all that time ago. He would have died of boredom here and gone tf back to London, which, fair enough.)

People talk about the outback or whatever when they talk about the colony called Australia, but even the 'cities' are pretty fucking barren, at least to me.

time to start pulling my guts out of my mouth, i guess.

there were things i really did want to say, which were that i haven't really felt actively good about my body for a while. not really sure how to address this internalised fatphobia when it's me. stopped feeling sure about myself and confident once my body started changing, although i think i've done pretty well so far. but i also don't like feeling like i need to feel attractive to others. dislike the feeling of wanting validation from others, and also which is almost always about wanting to feel attractive to men. feels like i'm 14 again. which was half a lifetime ago now. cognitively, i realise this is all bullshit. but in my body, i haven't been feeling it. and maybe it's also because that's not really something expressed a lot in my relationship with my partner. i realised too that and which isn't helped by the fact that when my body started changing, it seems i leaned right into being cute, rather than 'sexy', which was what i felt i was when i was slim. and i realise too that that's societal, that you're sexy when you're slim but cute when you're not. one or the other, it's still about making yourself attractive in some way. this isn't nice or poetic or whatever, it's something i need to untangle. and so it just is.

i watch tv and play FF and realise that everyone is slim. now i have to avoid looking too much at skinny women because their visible ribs remind me of when i was a teenager and EDs were all the rage. i don't want to go back there again, walking towards the mirror and watching how much my thighs jiggle. that in itself is something that needs addressing. the avoidance - i guess. the feeling that i'm unsure how i look to others, the sense that i don't think i 'can' be attractive or sexy. it's like puberty all over again. and as i write this i realise that this is probably something that will happen more and more as i age, and get older, and my body continues to change, and i move further and further away from the societal beauty ideal of young and slim. when i was that i never had to think about it. and now i do. welp. that's privilege. you can be aware of it and still never know how it feels not to have it, until you don't fit into that circle any more.

and my body - well, my body. the issues stack like a vulnerability stack in a game. noticing patches on my skin that are dry, that are discoloured, that spread. i worry. walking to the train and realising on the train that my soles are burning a little. it's hard to feel good about my body when my body is now mostly a source of concern and worry, but above all now also a source of uncertainty. physically and aesthetically.

maybe that's also why i've stopped wearing lingerie. i've been thinking it would be good to do a shoot again, that maybe that would help. but as with everything these days - well.

- interlude -

well the autosave draft post feature has come in very handy, thank you tumblr. (laptop crashed.)

and then - well, the suddenly i don't have family to speak to in my other native language any more, because they aren't safe to be around. because it was after this that all these issues with my body started happening. maybe it was linked, maybe it's just because it's come time. but either way, i can't seem to disassociate them.

#personal

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beausuphs · 1 year

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The cherry on top of the sitcom that is my life. This lives rent free in my head forever and would only happen to me.

Remember how you told me you needed a ride home so I came to pick you up from a random address and waited outside for 20 minutes? Then as I was about to leave you came outside with your ex boyfriend all kissy and touchy, FUCKED up on K, and insisted I come get a tour of a man's house that we'd spent the last month talking shit on? Not uncomfortable at all. Then, when I was hesitant to go any further than the front door, you grabbed me by the waist and tried to drag me inside.

Confused why I wouldn't move, you barked "Youre so stubborn, why are you like this? Is it your zodiac?"

I could have fucking exploded lol

"Because im a Leo fucking boar. Why are YOU like this? You're a dragon Capricorn, no? Sure fucking acting like it"

The silence was immaculate.

I would pay money to watch that moment from an outside perspective. The look on both of your faces gets me off lmao

I wish I could say I left after that, but we know that isn't true. We all sat on the couch and watched True Blood?! God almighty.

Remember how we were cuddled on the couch and you were rubbing my legs? Acting like you had not just been kissing the blonde skeleton beside us? Weird. Remember him telling us we should leave cause he was tired and it was awkward and I was like "yeah, bet man, I agree" and you were like "why is it awkward, cause your cum is in my ass?" And we were all just ~too~ stunned to speak.

Do you remember going to the grocery store after that? Probably not. You were really high. Good thing I'm always DD for my friends? I guess? Do you remember insisting I get Ketamine prescription I didn't need so you could buy it off me? Is the blonde skeleton not enough or...?? Remember how I brought in all your groceries for you cause you were fucked up? Do you remember me leaving that night? Again probably not.

Do you remember asking me the next day to come over and watch a Disney movie? I know that you do. Your ego can't handle being left on read. This ghost enjoys listening to you beg for something that will never happen. Remember that. 👼

#anyone else?#lol #me #gay dating

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unculturedswine-101 · 2 years

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Uptown girl (Eddie Munson x popular! reader)

1.2 K words

Warnings: None (Eddie is just a huge simp lol)

"She'll see I'm not so tough Just because I'm in love with an uptown girl You know I've seen her in her uptown world She's getting tired of her high-class toys And all her presents from her uptown boys"

Eddie had fallen for you. And he had fallen hard. Every time you entered the cafeteria his eyes would always follow you, distracting him from the other members of hellfire discussing the next campaign. Unfortunately for him, you were apart of the popular crowd; always sitting with Chrissy Cunningham and her Boyfriend Jason Carver; the biggest dickhead of Hawkins High, he never had a chance. You looked beautiful as always today, your hair was big and curly; the curls bouncing every time you laughed or moved your head, your perfectly glossed lips that shone when you smiled; you were like an angel to him. He's pulled out of his trance when Gareth is snapping his fingers in front of his face, "Eddie are you even listening?" his eyes don't even leave you though, he only mutters a "yeah, yeah". Dustin chuckles, shaking his head, it's this that alerts Eddie's attention; "something funny Henderson?" he asks, eyes piercing into Dustin's. "Oh uh nothing.." he shrugs, "it's just that everyday your eyes seem to be glued to y/n when she enters the cafeteria" the group released varieties of relief when Dustin finally mentions Eddie's constant 'wandering eyes'. "Finally someone mentioned it" Mike sighs, putting his head on the table, "yeah, took you long enough Ed" Gareth laughs. Eddie Scoffs "What are you guys even talking about" leaning back into his chair, arms crossed, trying to seem tough. "I mean, you don't hide it, man. As soon as you see her you go all heart eyes!" Lucas jokes, making the rest of the group laugh..except for Eddie.

There was a long silence, until Eddie spoke up “you know what boys?” he announced, slamming his hands on the table to emphasise his words, “I think today might be the day that I ask lady l/n out!” Just as Eddie finishes his sentence however, the bell rings as everyone rushes to third period; including you. His body shook with fear, afraid that he could never muster up this kind of courage to ask you out again as you giggled with Chrissy through the cafeteria doors. Before he could potentially lose this golden opportunity, he jogged over to the doors to you and Chrissy. “Hey l/n” you whipped your head around; your curls bouncing from the sudden motion at the mention of your last name. You were met with none other than the acclaimed “freak” of Hawkins high; Eddie Munson. “Hey Eddie!” you beamed, Eddie was shocked that you knew his name “what’s up?”. Eddie’s mouth suddenly felt dry, it was like his body shut down; his body almost shaking with nervousness. “I was uhhh, just wondering if I..If you..” you turned your head to the side, trying to understand what he was trying to say. “I was just wondering since exams are coming up, you might want something to uh” he clears his throat “to relax” he blurted out. “I’ve actually been meaning to ask you that..” you smiled, looking down at the ground then back at Eddie. “Oh really?” he was honestly surprised that YOU would come up to HIM for drugs. “Yeah..so um..cool if I came over at 8?” you asked, Eddie was a blushing mess just from talking to you for a couple of minutes. “Uh yeah 8 works, do you want my address or something?” He asked, you shook your head, “You live across from Max right?” he nodded “cool then I’ll see you at eight then!” You called, waving to Eddie as you rushed off to class, linking arms with Chrissy. Eddie was completely speechless: not only did he have a girl coming over to his house, but you were coming over to his house.

Eddie was anxious for your arrival, he wanted everything to be perfect for when you arrived. He even cleaned his roomm and made his bed so you knew that he was not a slob. It was 8:01, maybe you were just late? Or maybe this was some cruel joke. He bounced his leg anxiously, hand cradling his chin when there was a wrap at the door. He jumped up at the sound and opened the door to see your gorgeous face “sweetheart” he smiled, holding the trailer door open for you. You smiled as you entered the trailer, the smell of weed, cigarettes and musk fills your senses as you look around. “So watcha looking for? I’d suggest a couple of blunts to get ya started” he suggests sitting on the couch pattinga spot next to him, opening his trademark black lunchbox. “Uh yeah sure” you smile nervously, you had never taken drugs before, only the odd drag of a cigarette from one of your friends. “So how about uh..3 for 10?” Eddie had never gone so low for his merchandise, but for you, it was different. “Yeah that works” you beam, you feel almost guilty doing this exchange, but at the same time it was exciting.

You flip through some bills that you pulled from your bra and hand him a crisp 10 dollar bill. Eddie is transfixed by the action, looking at the bill that had just been pressed against your tits. Realizing he was staring, he quickly snatched the money and looked through the box for the blunts. “One, two, three!” He announces counting the blunts and dropping them in a little bag. “Could..could we share one” he smiled at your nervousness as he took one out “of course princess” Eddie begins to feel like his confident self now, he sees how calm and down to earth you are in person that it makes his heart flutter. He pulled a silver lighter out of his pocket “I’m guessing you don’t know how to smoke” he chuckles, you put a hand over your chest in sarcastic fashion “Edward Munson, are you accusing me of not knowing?” He laughs at your joke “By no means sweetheart, you might just not know how to really smoke a blunt” he winks, flipping up the lighter.

“So what you wanna do is” he instructs putting the blunt in his mouth and lighting it, “inhale” he takes a long drag. “Inhale again, with the smoke you just had” he barely manages to say, trying to keep the smoke in his mouth. “And exhale” he sighs as he blows out the smoke. He looks gorgeous like this, the smoke flowing out of his perfect pink lips and his goofy smile afterwards, you start to feel a blush creeping on your cheeks. “See something you like?” shit, you were caught. You laugh a little, taking the blunt from him and inhaling “good, now inhale again” you nod, inhaling the smoke again letting it go farther down your throat; burning it slightly. “And exhale” he commands as you blow the smoke into his face, all Eddie can think about is how pretty your lips looked around the blunt..he wondered how they would look wrapped around something else.. “See something you like?” You tease, repeating his phrase frok earlier. Eddie slowly moves closer to you, “actually..I do” Eddie almost whispers, cupping your cheek with his hand which is invitingly warm in contrast to the cold metal of his rings.

#eddi munson x reader #eddie munson fluff #eddie munson #eddie munson smut #stranger things 4 #joesph quinn #hellfire club #mike wheeler #nancy wheeler #johnathan byers #will byers #steve harrington imagines #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington smut #stranger things s4 #eddie munson imagine #eddie my love

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i-did-not-mean-to · 3 years

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Damn! How lucky am I in getting a 2 part story!! It's wounding but so exciting! THE SUSPENSE! YOU ROCK!

I love it soo much! This is my 4th time reading it! And I still blown away to the hills! Thank you! I'm sorry for making it been specific!! I honestly thought you were gonna deny it, but oh my actual- you have blown me off miles and miles!

I ADORE YOU I-DID-NOT-MEAN-TO

Dearest anon...I am so very sorry, but your prompt was SO detailed that it will take 3 (!) parts to get through it LOL

I promise I am not artificially trying to prolong this :(

Part I

Vows (Part 2)

Words: 1,7 k

Warnings: rejection, pain, sadness

When he left to join Tauriel in her chosen exile – to follow a dwarf, you could hardly believe it – you decided that even your patience had to reach its limit at some point and that this very moment had finally arrived.

What shame and indignity you had endured at the hands of an ever distant or even absent husband, yet you had persevered – faithfully – for you honoured your word and your duty.

Now though, you had to lay down your arms – puny and worthless as good graces and mild manners might be as weapons – and declare yourself defeated.

You would not be pulled into a mess that had grown into a proper love-polygon over time, with Tauriel pursuing a paltry dwarf, Legolas following her across the wilderness, and you sitting at home pining for a love that should have been yours by right.

Your heart broke as you slid off the slender band – testament to a promise as empty as the ring itself – from your finger and left it on top of the carefully worded letter you had addressed to your husband; you wished you could have accessed that deep well of humiliation and pain festering within your chest, but it was too late for that.

Day by day, your softest emotions and most tender hopes had been ground to dust and – turned into mud by the incessant flow of secret tears – time had baked bricks of misery out of that mud that never dirtied any of your beautiful dresses.

On the outside, you were ever-smiling and genteel while – within that shell of good breeding – a wall was built, brick by brick, second by second.

You were not sure if Legolas would even care when – upon returning – he’d find a politely worded letter of goodbye from his betrothed; sooner or later, in this world or the next, you’d meet again and – by then – your heartbreak, throbbing and stinging like an actual broken bone that never healed, might well be but a vague memory.

You wanted to forgive him, but it was too early for that. How cruelly ironic your situation truly was: too late to spew your just anger but too early to bury the hurt along with your failed marriage.

Thus, no harsh words had been spoken; you had simply acknowledged – a bit too late, maybe – that neither of you were truly happy in your relationship. Eternity was a long time to spend long, indolent days plagued by the dull, nagging ache of disappointed longing.

There were so many small discomforts that drove men mad – hunger, grief, deprivation – whereas, to you, they were just that: a stone in your shoe, a twinge in your back, a pin digging into your scalp.

It was not enough to run out and throw yourself into death; it was just persistently paining you, troubling your sleep, making food taste like ashes, and effectively turning your long life into a desert of ‘almost’.

Maybe, he’d even be relieved; oh, the mere thought of getting a genuine smile out of him by leaving his hearth and home forever stung like a blade pushed smoothly between your shoulder blades until it slid – unseen and unheeded – through that unwanted heart of yours.

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“How can you say that you feel nothing for me?” Legolas hated how trembling his voice sounded, “I have noticed all the efforts you’ve made to ensure my safety and happiness.”

He repeated the instances of goodwill and genuine care – the snacks in his favourite tree, the lamp left burning on the balcony, the small notes reminding him of his most pressing duties – in the same toneless, almost reverent voice he had used every night to keep his love alive when hope seemed like a will-o’-wisp dancing behind the tree line.

Tauriel cocked her head in confusion before a twinge of genuine regret washed over her beautiful face.

“Friend,” she whispered softly, “it was not I who has taken such meticulous care of you; you are a man grown, my superior, and my friend. I am glad to have you with me – you are a great warrior and a reliable hunting partner – but it is neither my place nor my heart’s wish to mind your domestic comfort or bliss.”

She gave an awkward chuckle at that.

“What are you saying?” Legolas asked, aghast and humiliated by how easily she dismissed those expressions of tender attention that had meant so much to him.

“Legolas,” she sighed, “I am not your wife; I am sorry to say that I’ve never wanted to be and that I’ve never – not even in thought – tried on that role. The things that you describe are the actions of a betrothed, not of a sister-in-arms.”

She touched his shoulder cautiously to get him to look at her.

“You are talking to the wrong woman, Legolas,” she smiled awkwardly, “I am so very sorry; believe me I am very flattered that you’d think me capable of such an honourable behaviour and that you’d wish me to display it towards you…”

“But you haven’t, and you won’t because you don’t care for me,” Legolas exclaimed, fully aware just how childishly petulant he sounded in this very moment.

“I do care for you a great deal,” Tauriel contradicted, letting only a sliver of annoyance tremble in her melodic voice as she stepped back, “but not like that. Let me repeat once again, I am not your wife.”

And, in an expression of feminine solidarity, she asked sharply: “You do remember your own wife, don’t you? The woman who let you pursue your foolish misapprehension with the patience of a saint, the woman who took care of you and your business behind your back consistently and tirelessly, the woman who seems to love your ungrateful self enough to sit and smile through your indifference.”

“Oh, don’t be silly, there’s another one who does not care for me; she wanted to be a princess,” Legolas snapped, feeling the anger rise white hot in his throat which made every syllable burn like fire as he spoke it.

“My liege,” Tauriel bowed mockingly, “forgive me.”

“For what?” Legolas asked, suspicious.

“For my having to call you a fool thrice over; when you thought that I had done everything you just described, you found those actions telling enough to imagine yourself in love with me and strongly expecting me to feel the same. Now that I tell you that it was the woman you are married to who has acted in such a way, you claim – adamantly – that these self-same behaviours do not indicate affection in a person who – by definition – would be more inclined to love you than a friend and fellow warrior?”

She shook her head to express her deep regret.

Legolas merely spun around on his heels, leaving her to her fate and her futile attempt to win the love and the hand of a dwarven prince.

Her rejection stung like nettles dipped in blades and snake fangs, but – as the miles melted into the ground behind him – he had to admit that she was not entirely wrong.

He had indeed based his whole suit on the assumption that she had done those different things that he had considered such strong indicators for romantic interest; as she was his friend and reasonably attractive, he had been swayed into taking a deeper interest in her as a direct consequence of his unfortunate erroneous belief.

As he made his way back to his home, Legolas was suddenly overcome with a frantic sense of urgency; a part of him had always known that he had been amiss in his careless treatment of you, but now that he had learned just how much you had done for him, he understood how unforgivable his behaviour really had been.

Selfish, he berated himself for his change of heart, did he really mean to mend his ways only because he had found out that you had – secretly and consistently – indulged his childish fancies?

His steps slowed while his mind raced; it was the discovery that you cared much more than the actual things you had done for him that changed everything.

Since being told that you were to be his bride, this was the first time that Legolas had the impression – nay, the proof and the knowledge – that it was him you cherished and not his title or his position.

The truth he wouldn’t find the words to express was – to his utter shame and dismay – that Thranduil had chosen a woman who was worthy of his royal status, which – unfortunately – also made her superior to Legolas in many ways.

Polite, genteel, and affable, you had always struck him as a perfect lady and – he was only too aware of that – he, himself, had a tendency to be just the slightest bit uncouth at times, making his father frown and the courtiers gossip.

Compared to the flawless perfection of his people, Legolas often felt like a young elfling still: eager to run in the forest and hunt game rather than to sit and listen to long meetings where much was talked about without anything really being said.

How had he been to know that you longed to be his friend and partner in this ordeal rather than just another person who’d be slightly disappointed and silently judgemental whenever he fell short?

It was only natural for him to feel drawn to someone more accessible, someone who did not make him feel as if he was at fault all the time, someone who shared the same wild and rough tastes.

Tauriel had rejected him in no unclear words though, Legolas remembered, swallowing against the wave of bile and anger rising in his throat; he had made a mess of everything and now, he had not only lost the respect of a friend, but he also had to face the momentous crime of neglect he had inflicted upon his own wife.

Running up the steps to your rooms as if a whole pack of orcs were on his heels and calling your name, he burst through the door…only to find the room empty.

Your smell still lingered in the air but – as his eyes scanned the empty room frantically – he could only gape at the pervading sense of emptiness drawn like a cloak over the soft moonlight filtering through the high curtained windows.

And then he saw your discarded wedding ring on top of a pristine white letter.

So, this was the second part...

Let's see what happens next :D

Koala and Cleo seem to have chosen this one to finish first ;)

-> Part III

Taglist:

@pepa-madrigal-enthusiast @otakumultimuse-hiddlewhore @sopanngon @eunoia4mind @professor-petty @monswolff @xinnyscorner

(As per demands on the first post)

#request #writing #fanfiction #the hobbit #LOTR #Legolas #legolas x reader #anon ask #sadness #emotional cheating #leaving your absent husband #rejection #tauriel #kiliel

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