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antiendovents · 29 days
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// vent, medical ableism
tldr; my fucking DOCTOR is pro-endo and her source is a dumbass paper that proves nothing and now my healthcare is at risk!!
just had my appointment with my gender wellness doctor. she asked how i've been and i mentioned finding a 2nd therapist for specific stuff. she asked what and i said dissociative disorders. i wanted to be vague but she pressed me to talk about it and reluctantly i talked about having alters and answered her questions bc i struggle with saying no.
i told her i was ok with doing an adverse childhood experiences scale but that i had stuff i wanted to talk about (like my hrt not being at the pharmacy for months) she said "we'll get to it".
after the assessment she asked abt it causing distress and she was talking about how in the office they use the term "plural identities" i said that was fine but that its still a disorder. she was like "disorder is negative" and compared it to how it used to be called gender identity disorder (comparing the two as if she has any place to talk on it, being cis and a singlet) but its better to use "plural identities"
i was like "thats fine as long as its still seen as a disorder and caused by trauma" and she was like "no its not always caused by trauma" and i straight up said "do you have a source for that?" and she was like "google my husbands name" and i did and THEN she moved on to my actual issues with struggling to get hrt for months.
the whole time after i had to mask how i was feeling so i could get basic healthcare. after she hung up i burst into tears. its been like 10 min and im still crying and feel sick. ive had doctors say they dont know what DID/OSDD-1 is before. ive had them say DID is a personality disorder. ive never had anything like this before and i feel unsafe. the fucking endo community IS affecting healthcare. i dont feel like i can ever talk to a doctor about this stuff again. she completely talked over me and then moved on like it was nothing
btw this is the stupid study her husband worked on. read it and its not even PROVING ANY OF WHAT SHE SAID. its just "oh well some people THINK theyre plural and of course disordered people have to be miserable so if you like ur alters they must be magically there!" and was from the plural association. its fucking disgusting this is being used as fact when theres nothing but subjective opinion.
https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S246874992300042X
i genuinely think im going to go to planned parenthood from now on. i cant work with her anymore. its been 2? maybe more years of working with her but im done. im sorry to ramble so much. im still having a breakdown over this.
-arachnid anon
im really sorry about that arachnid anon. That sucks and if you can we hope you manage to get a new doctor because she is clearly causing you distress. This really sucks, I feel like endos don't always realise how dangerous this stuff can be for actual systems. If doctors don't see it as a disorder then they won't treat it as such, meaning you won't get the help you need and you won't feel safe with her (as you said), which like,, isn't good. She's not a specialist meaning if anything she shouldn't really be saying stuff about DID/OSDD at all, because that's not her job or her place ((I understand you brought it up, but still. She should keep her opinions out of her damn job))
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HIIII MACKINTOSH goob morning,,, pd episode 11 update ASHE MOMENT hi. hi oh my god. everyone HAS to be obsessed with him right?? he has to be like a fandom favorite guy HES GOT A CURSED GRIMOIRE!!! awsome. awesome sick i love him.
REALLY chewing on all the dakota & william stuff this episode... what will said about his wisp form being kind of terrifying because he never knows if he'll really be able to return to his body... ohh man thats so good. kid who's soul is just kind of held in by a thread rattlin around in there... + also this ep was great re: the trivia point u mentioned last night ab dakota & will clashing morality!! bc yeah!!! wild that wiwi's hesitance to Torture People wasn't because of the Torturing People part but just bc he's afraid of himself... dakota just having to Leave partway through... aughh. vyncent also holy shit!! all of these guys are having such a bad time.
I LOVE ASHE oh my godd. such a specific type of alt kid i love him. type of guy i would befriend like a shy stray cat at orchestra camp after complimenting his red jumpsuit apparatus hoodie. also there HAS to be insane amounts of discourse re: wavelength (holy shit. mark. mark. shrieked at that. i feel like i cant call him that its too weirddddd) parenting methods?? there HAS to be people who r like well i can excuse the murders but i draw the line at homeschooling ur bound-to-a-demonic-book kid. yeah youre right he & tide r so divorced 2 me. single dad & single mom. why is he so intent on getting tide back hmm??!!
anyway... hghghbk. good episode i won't make this even longer & start talking ab the spirit world stuff (!!!???!!!?!!?!!) BUT i hope u r having a good dayyyyy <3333
FUCK YEAAAAAH IM SO EXCITED YOUVE FINALLY MET ASHE I LOVE HIM SOOOOO MUCH. I LOVE HIM SO VERYMUCH . AUAGHGHHH. ashe winters my boy forever... i KNEW u would like him i could feel it in my BONES. hell yes. love love love a grimoire guy :]
I CANT WAIT 2 SEND U THE TRIVIA FOR THIS EP i started writing it out at the beginning of my shift this morning and then had to go to like a billion meetings so you dont get it until i get home. but theres some TASTY behind the scenes characterization discussion. ohhh thays my favorite. esp irt dakota this ep :] i love him so much . i love all of them so much
ANYWAY. william ashamed of his powers mkment!!!! my boy he is made of catholic guilt. anyway. i fucking loved how he ghost shaped his spirit form for intimidation instead of actually using it. hes so smart hes so cool hes everything to me if i start thinking about william wisp for too long ill go fucking bonkers crazy.
MARK. MAAAAAAARK. DUDE IM SO FUCKING GLAD YOUVE FINALLY LEARNED HIS NAME BC IVE ALMOST CALLED HIM MARK IN UR NOTES SO MANY TIMES AND IVE HAD TO CORRECT MYSELF. wavelength who. this is my deadbeat dad best friend mark winters. HES NOT A DEADBEAT DAD. IM SORRY. ok ok ok. i cannot say much irt him rn but there IS a reason hes like this hes not just shitty for the sake of it. he does care very much hes just bad at it. uhhhhhhghdgdgdgggdgdrrrghg i love him. a lot . #1 mark winters apologist blog right here. im not even sorry. luckily..luckily i have not seen the discorse about him yet but i know its out there somewhwre. sigh.
u know whats funny. youll hear this a little bit but its mostly in the bts stuff. grizzly fucking HATES mark. and that bleeds into how he plays dakota which makes sense but its SO FUNNY in the rolleds just how much he gets mad at mark. which !!! understandable he sucks hes terrible. but im built different i love him.
AND TIIIIIIIIDE. hey. hey remember when william was interrogating mark the first time. in the holding cell. and he tried to use a ghost shaped tide at first but mark called bullshit right away because "tide's never spoken to me like that before" hey . fellas.
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cutepastelstarsalior · 6 months
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Clone high season 2 live blogging
Episode 6
:( the dinner is going to be sold
Yeah I can see why some people don’t like the dinner because of the racial segregation….
Did some guy just buy to eat the dead wife????
👀 disabled Joan!??? Let’s goooooo!!!!! Detective Joan!!!! Awe cute Joan had a cat <3
“Psylly legs is build up nostalgia the legs get psylly”
….So Joan is just stimming???? (I thought she’d had restless leg syndrome)
If people bullied Joan because of her medical stuff, why didn’t Joan help Ghandi when people hated on him for his adhd? Also man does this town have an ableist history…..
Blood pack!!!!! Same big mood with the doctor not handling blood 😩
Yay Joan’s weird French films!!!! DAVID FUCKING TENNANT???!!!!!! <3 ohmgggg I love him as 10
Heyyy trash Mandy Moore lady is back!! :0
Did I meant I love the colors in this show? I do…
Noooooo jfk cheating on Joan? Wait…or not? Hmmm I feel like kissing another girl is bad…..FUCK is this is Total Drama and the Bridgette and Geoff scene >:( damn it!!! (Yes I know that they are 2 different shows but listen……hyperfixation™️ also my mom thought CH was TD lol)
Yay jfk and Harriet told Joan the truth….oh no Joan is going through so many emotions and drinking :0 hmmm 👀 (idk why but the little montage of Joan going rapid through different emotions feels like something bpd???)
Episode 7
Confucius parents took his sister to Bali but not him :( awwww his family didn’t care if he got lost in the dessert. Man Confucius family sucks, no wonder he tried to hard to be popular online, he just wanted attention :(
:( Abe and Joan army friends anymore noooo. Damn. Abe lost Joan and Ghandi, this dude is going through it….
My favorite background clone is Cathrine the Great, I think her design is so cute <3
The bus crash and now JFK brain is bigger….i think you have internal bleeding there bud…
“As a woke straight male ally let me put my lips on this unconscious black women to show how woke and straight I am” ……..topher bud….
Why is George Washtion Clever peanut man getting bigger??
Mr b using a short to cover his head <3
Ew why is jfk vice like that….
“Lo-fi haunted ghost screams” 👀
Smart jfk…Joan taking the lead. I feel like something bad will happen OR this is a dream.
:0 DJ Mr b!!!!!!
Cannibal dessert zombies….. scary!!
JFK calling people darling is cute :) <3
If jfk brain is smarter while in hot weather/if he’s overheating why didn’t this happen when he’s in the gym or doing sports? 👀
Smart jfk face : ☺️🫤
The husbands trying to snort each other 😏👀
Arroyo are gully in southwestern us….meaning the clone home is somewhere between Texas and California….
Joan wants someone who is emotionally intelligent and emotionally available….she and Abe become friends again……I’m guess they’ll end up together?
Episode 8
Oh snap they actually broke up! Also they co-own a tortoise? Cute
..,,,making the whole school sexual……😬 interesting…
“Where do you want the seaman to drop their load”
“For starters in my mouth” HA….🫵🤨 I know what you are doc
Frida having a crush on Cleo! Was not expecting that…Cleo doing her weird flirting again…was DEFINITELY not expecting that….
Harriet x Confucius is a cute ship….their such nerds <3
😬😬😬 the teacher flirting with Abe…:ma’am that not ok
“Virginity is a social construct” asexual Abe real!!!!!!!
I was going to say seaman I love you but I realize that sounds absolutely horrible out of context….
Singing pirates I love you and you talking about lgbt identity..
Topher the pirates thing you’re into Abe….. 👀
JOAN DONT PUT THE TOURTISE IN THE WATER JOAAAAAANNNNNNN!!!!!!! Oh thank goodness Abe rescued the pet
“It’s ok if a minor and a teacher are together” not the fuck it’s not lady!!! Topher why are you filming this???? Call the police????? Topher please 😬😬
Oh thank god she dead. But ahhhhhhhh still hella uncomfortable!!!!!!!!!
The “statutory-rape-death-by-orgasm situation is very troubling” MR B WITH THE FACTS!!!!!!
“So we’re not telling the police?” You can Mr b! Please call the police. Mr b I love you so much for looking out for the students.
Topjer blackmailing Abe because he (topher) is into Joan…..🤨🤨 are you topher?? Are you really??
One one hand, I’m like this is a stupid subplot, Abe just tell Joan how you feel who care about topher and his blackmail. But on the other hand, this situation kind of feels realistic? Like a weird way to talk about victim blaming?
Oh thank god something positive in this shit show….yippie Cleo and Frida got together!!!
Joan underwater with the emotional music…her screaming underwater…..cinema™️ :) Joan and jfk having a nice talk :)…:noooo rip Shelly the tortoise
Background gay couple yay :)
Episode 9
Noooo the husbands are fighting AGAIN….oh yay Joan and Mr b time!!!
Omg Mr b lore!!!!
He has a human twin brother??? HES RELIGIOUS????? Oh snap biracial Mr b 👀
Wait nevermind…. Awww Mr b didn’t know he was a robot :( and nether did his twin
:( noooooooo!!!!!!!! He left his brother 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
OH MY FUCKING GOD Mr b was a sex worker
Noooo Mr b please contact your brother!!!!!
Awew yay Mr b life getting better!!! :0 he got married!!!
Noooo his wife cheated on his and his son wasn’t biological his!!! :(
YES!!!! The twins reunited!!! :0 awew he’s an uncle now!!! Wow 2 nices and 2 nephews!!
NOOOOOOOOOOO HES BROTHER DIED!!!!!!
👀 Mr b was an actor!!!!
🥺 awww he thinks of Joan as his daughter!!!!!!
NO MR B DONT DO IT!!!!!!!!
Oh thank god doc saved him!!!!!!! 🥺
Oh my goddd…..the cliff!!! The choices!!!!!!!
THETE FAMILY AND HE CRIED!!!!
Favorite episode!!!!!!!!
Episode 10
Oh thank god, it’s the last one!!!!
Ponce’s dad is back!!! :)
It’s the last day of the school year…the teens are 16, so there sophomores???
Clone high college :0 oh!!! I was wonder what would happen to the senior class!!
West Dakota?????
Since the sisters didn’t make it into the death maze, do they life? Get immediate killed? I forgot that the government is trying to groom the most successful clones. So I guess this is a survival of the fittest….and since the OG clones were from the first project, this is a very new things. (Trying to make a mental timeline thing.)
The four amgias….
NOOOOO VINCENT DIED (maybe not?)
4 boys who are friends-ish
4 girls who are friends
Battle of the sexist 👀
Also both groups are the main cast….ok not topher he’s more of a side character…but still..
Yay Abe and jfk friendship :)
Ok so this is my 2 favorite episode.
This gives me minor hunger games vibes. The whole government watching kids fight to the death part; not the trying to stop the government and corrupt dystopia part…
Oh hey! That weird one type flute thing, forgot about that! :)
Frida has 2 different shoelaces :)
Joan leaving the group because Frida chose her girlfriend over Joan. I mean, that understanding to be angry, but I don’t think she should leave the group….
Yessss jfk breaking topher phone!! :) now Abe won’t be blackmail anymore!!!
Gay energy jfk x Abe
Lone wolf Joan….hmm maybe she is the most powerful/sussefual clone they made? 👀
Joan setting traps to capture her friends!!!! She IS the most dangerous clone!!!
Ok Joan keeps putting people into holes, either she doing that so she the only one to hit the button and go to college OR she doing that to save everyone from the death maze?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHJHH Joan foster mom standing by Joan, using her daughter and grooming her to be the next leader!!! AHHHHHH I love it!!!!!!! Sidhaisn
!!!!!!!!! Them using the clones as backups!!!! Me think how it was weird that the government would let a clone die so easily!!! They won’t!!!!! The government controlling them to be successful puppets!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! The angst, and tension!!! The betrayal!!!!! Love it!!!!!
👀🥺 doc think of the clones as his children!!!!!!
They lost their memories!!! But Joan giving it back!! Her caring about her friends!!!!
Oh my god the stupid little hands gesture!!!!!! <3
….
That’s it??? THATS the ending? The mother showing everyone what Joan did during the death maze? And everyone being anger at her?
Ok, I feel like the twist to that, if there a season 3 is that her friends will forgive her.
Ok! Thought time!!!!
Ok, the fist half of this so is ROUGH! Like it has an idea (government wanting to groom the kids to be a successful leader) but the comedy and drama got a bit out of hand for the plot. I think want to say around 7-8 is when the show gets more, lore like? Or as close to plot as possible.
This season is VERY Joan centric. It gave her SO much character development. At first I thought it wouldn’t work, it made Joan feel like one of those not like other girls, and loser girl gets popular troupe. The whole love triangle with jfk and Abe was a bit rough. It was weird that Joan decided to be with jfk, after sleeping with him on prom night. But I guess since Abe was with Cleo and Abe only paying attention to Joan after she change herself, it make a TINY bit of scene.
The writing try to make it seems like Joan still loves Abe with that sexual dream she had, but I feel like after that episode, it wasn’t brought up again until episode 7. When Joan wanted jfk to be more emotionally invested in her. Also the whole Abe being in love with Joan? Also the random Abe getting mistreated it felt…..odd?
As for the other characters; out of the OG cast (Abe, ghandi, Joan, Cleo, jfk) only jfk had some character development. At first he was sexual with some emotional intelligence (when he comforts Joan at prom, him and Abe talking in the thinking dock, the whole ponce situation)….in season 2 he was more sexual with some minor emotional scene. I feel like episode 7-10 is were jfk is the most emotionally here.
Cleo….she basically only has 2 episodes for her character development. Episode 4, and Episode 7-8. In episode 4, she gets the crown and gets power hungry, after Joan apologizes to Cleo, she and Joan become friends-ish. In season 1 Cleo and Joan spend a lot of time together, because their parents were dating. They mostly argue but were friends-enemy? So Season 2 feel both a continuation of their season 1 relationship AND just a way to re-write Joan and Cleo relationship.
As for the other episodes? It basically her and Frida because friends to lovers. To be honest while the ship is cute, I wish it was more slow burn?
As for the new clones Harriet and Confusious. I’m mixed. Togher they make a cute couple. But separately I like them more as individuals. Harriet is the most developed out of the 3 new clones. She was awkward and a bit anxious (I think?) around episode 1, then as the show progressed she only hang around Frida, then she became closer friends with Joan. In episode 5 it’s really were Harriet feels the most….developing? She gets angry and worried over feeling Joan about how she feeling about the play! But she expresses herself and that cool!! She also has a weird little friendship with Frida, the 2 of them make a weird little group.
Confusions. At first I didn’t like, he was just a random guy who I hate his outfit. By episode 5, he gets some personal! He wants to have people pay attention to him! And by episode 6- 7, that when you know I bit more about him! He has a rich family who ignores him! His family likes his sister more and seem to emotionally neglect him. He’s a bit lazy and like to go with the flow and not have to work.But besides that…..I can’t think of anything else to say?
Frida. She’s…..there. She hangs out with Abe and Joan and Cleo sometimes. She paints, skateboards, and is the most popular girl in school. Besides that? There not a lot of info about her. It seems like this season had a few too many characters so they made Frida fade into the background…
At first I hate the new Joan new mom. (Candid? I can’t remember her name) I felt like she was a random character that didn’t need to be there. I felt like she was just there to replace the doc and just be annoying? But as the show progressed she was more of a background character that was silly. As for the final; I feel that were she shines the most!! Her wanting her foster daughter to rule the world, that idea is so cool!!!!! I love how she talk to Joan, how proud she was, and how she was going to use the clones as backup or to try to make them more perfect!!! She’s a character a feel like could work If she wasn’t stuck in a comedy.
My b my beloved <3
Topher is a dick. Hate how he blackmails Abe and try to push him and the gross teacher thing. Hate hate the show decided to do that. Like man!! If topper was really into Joan and wanted to blackmail Abe he could have done it a different way!!!!
The humor in this show….don’t feel there? I had like, a few chuckles but that was mostly because from the Doc. Or like from physical gags like the slow float or the couch catching on fire. The animation is fluid and I could see it like, a few times. The colors are a bit brights but I love the background!!! As for the voice acting….its a hit or miss.
5/10
Very Rough start but love the final 3 episodes.
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tobi-momo · 3 years
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Cuddling With Them While They Game PT 2
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a/n: kasjsdhakdjs pls- when i got this req i sqealed srsly i love it ty for this :p
Type: Headcanons
Genre: Fluff, crack???
Warnings: none :)
i made a part one with bakugou, kirishima, and todoroki!
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he doesnt usually play games but when he does he tries his best and its so cute🥺
feel like he has game rage, but its like him trying to smile through the pain and act like he isnt mad💀
HE PLAYS CONSOLE KASKDJSAKD BUT NOT LIKE THE BEANBAG LIKE KIRI ITS CONSOLE WHERE HES ON THE FLOOR RIGHT UP CLOSE TO HIS TV SITTING AT THE FOOT OF HIS BED
KASSDSKHGDAK THATS SO CUTE PLS-
so imagine: you walking in his dorm room, expecting him to be studying or working on his technique, but instead you find him on the floor in front of his bed, a blanket covering his head as he presses the buttons ruthelessly while he whispers little curses at himself starting to get mad
you closing the door got his attention, so he invited you to sit next to him, so you do
at first it was a little awkward bc he wasnt sharing the blanket (you cant convince me he isnt a blanket hog you cant) and his eyes were glued to the tv screen like he forgot you were there
you started to get tired, your head drooping on his shoulder- his body goes absolutely stiff- like- midoryia.exe has stopped working youre gonna have to wait for him to windows 8 reboot
once he finally looks at you and youre like this close to falling asleep he turns your body away rq to move the blanket off his shoulder so your head can rest on his actual shoulder and the blanket is around you too
he usually doesnt have his mic on at all, and if it is he usually doesnt talk unless hes going along w a joke? iykwim?
i feel like he plays games like call of duty and halo (he loves animal crossing and sucks at among us) but he doesnt like when he sees them actually die? like the gore and stuff? idk he just gives those vibes yk? i feel like hed feel really bad kaskjdshad hed get over it tho
i cant really see him play minecraft, tho, i mean unless youre playing w him, i dont think he would play it by himself unless he was like building a fucking castle for you or sum-
but ya you start to go to his room more when he games to hang out and every. single. time. you. fall. asleep. he isnt complaining tho he loves your sleeping face :p
when you sleep on him he usually wrapss an arm around you and when he can presses little butterfly kisses on the top of your head and takes his hand to rub your arm up and down oml kdajsd pls-
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he plays both computer and console i just think he plays he console a bit more?
ok this is a lil soft and maybe a bit ooc but i like if you were to come in while hes playing games you would sit down between his legs, your back to his chest while he plays
he would either rest his head on whatever is behind him or he would rest it on your shoulder (if youre more on the taller side)
and okokok i feel like if you were curious ab how the game works he would def let you play for him for a sec, he would guide yu on what the buttons do and what your tasks are yk? (again w the soft shi im sorry kasjhsdfjf *cri*)
he would keep an arm around your waist while letting you play or he would rub your thigh (maybe both kasdjshd) while he watches you play
if you get a lil frustrated he would totally tease you ab it then tell you how to do it right oml
if you get tired he would take the controller from you and let you sit back on him chest, resting on him while he games
he might turn the volume down a lil, but i also think he doesnt care that much LMFAO
i feel like he would rub your side a lil its almost tickly but hes a lil more firm than that yk?
he would keep his curses at a minimum although he doesnt have that much game rage at all bc again, he doesnt care, but ppl are stupid so he might get frustrated sometimes
once you fall asleep and hes been playing for a while he might just leave the game hes in and carry you to bed and get in with you
i dont think hes much of a cuddler at all but a little bit of contact is ok w him
but then you start to shift and scoot towards him in your sleep
until you are either completely ontop of him or your head is in the crook of his neck and hes just sitting there like 😐😤😒
but he warms up to it bc he wuvs you (read: hes fucking whipped)
ao he lazily puts an arm around you and bears it for a couple more hours
but when yall wake up he finds himself literally clinging to you KASDJHSALKDJ
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he. plays. computer. end of conversation
he got the wasd game iykwim😩 (ill shut the door on my way out)
he absolutely loves it when you come to sit on his lap while he just- he loves it sm
he plays all types of games (except overwatch. you will not catch this man playing overwatch pls-)
i feel like you wouldnt run into him playing games he would always play them once youre with him in the room
he wants you to be w him while he games, he wants you to watch him or just be there
youd be laying on his bed, hust doing whatever, scrolling on your phone while you hear him set up
you love to cuddle him- i just KNOW hes amazing at it
so when you hear him clicking away and see him sit down you stand up and walk to him
he doesnt even have t look at you before he opens himself up to you to sit on his lap
you watch him play (and his hands kasjlsdh) and sometimes you ask him questions ab it- hed be happy to walk you through it and explain
if you wanna play he'll let you play, teaching you everything ab the character and shit
he is the most patient person on earth i KNOW
he doesnt get game rage
he is literally so stoic- so calm i swear
he doesnt use his mic like at all
HE LOVES PLAYING WITH YOU
teasing to the max th- its cute tho he isnt being a meanie
loves playing among us and animal crossing (he def plays)
yall usually go to your island bc he likes it more kasdslahd
and when hes the imposter? hes like fucking corpse i swear
if youre sleep he's literally a perfect pillow, plus the sound of him breathing while he rubs your back is-
momo.exe has stopped working
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HE PLAYS BOTH COMPUTER AND CONSOLE EQUALLY
he uses the mic constantly and is kinda loud- but you dont hate it
he laughs a lot, and gets some game rage but its pretty controlle, he just gets butthurt sometimes :/
when you walk into his room he is getting so into it like he doesnt even notice even notice you come in
he only notices your presence when when you put your hand on his shoulder- he literally jumps
when he plays console he's on his bed, just laying there chillin so when you walk in and say hi he is sooo happy youre there w him omg
he just loves you presence
i imagine you climbing into bed w him and he continues to play his game although he loves it when you touch him (not to sound sexual at all he genuienly loves your touch)
and you up to his side- he wraps an arm around you, telling you how he missed you how mych he loves you (ksadksjhaksd)
when you fall asleep he turns the volume down and probably tones down his voice, although sometimes he jolts bc of some kind of mess up
but he manages to keep you asleep on him until he gets tired too- turning everything off and just wrapping you in arms (he'd prolly end up on your chest ngl)
on the computer when he plays you hesitate o cuddle ONLY bc od how much he moves, like you arent gonna be there comfortable for a while but eventually he calms down
he just gets nervous- his heart starts to beat rapidly and his leg bounces (same kaskh) espECIALLY when you straddle him oml he BREAKS
but he eventually calms down so its more comfy
when you fall asleep he will constantly press kisses on your head omggg
so soft kasdjhksajf pls-
i feel like he plays longer when hes on the computer so he would prlly still be on there when you wake up- looking absolutely dead insode aksjdshadl but you convince him to go to bed, bribing him with a 'i'll go too'
hes literally whipped for you :)
~.~.~.~
hope yall enjoyed a part 2-
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whats ur writing schedule/process like! not in a “write faster” way, but i think once you mentioned writing in script form? and i like the way you wrote ur most recent fic! just curious bc ur works are just really good :)
this is a great question!!
if its not slippery slopes, ill usually get an idea for something and periodically jot down notes when they come to me until I feel like i have enough information to start writing (or if im just motivated), that's what i did for my horror challenge rewrite. and for stuff that's like... rewrites of an episode that aren't as character-focused as slippery slopes, i usually read the episode transcripts and try to replicate that total drama style with my own writing
for shorter oneshots, i usually just get a vague idea and run with it until i find a good ending spot, then i go back and clean it up a bit so the structure works
slippery slopes is an... interesting cycle. chapters are getting long enough that i cant just write them in one sitting any more (i think ch5 was the last chapter i did that for) and instead ill agonize over the beginning (always the hardest part to write for me) but once i get going with that i usually finish the chapter within a few days. then i reread the previous chapter to make sure it flows ok (and there aren't any contradictions) and then ill give myself a break where i dont do anything total drama related before coming back to edit and post. though before I do all that I type up notes and rough dialogue bits
and then once i post it it's like... a weight off my chest? like ive been purged or something?? idk its a weird sensation but im just like i Physically Cannot Write Anything For This Right Now and i don't start on the next chapter until that goes away. and then i either start the beginning and do nothing for a week before going back and finishing the chapter or i go into a manic state and write nonstop for a few days. right now i haven't reached a point where im ready to begin writing chapter 10 but i have a lot of notes for it.
(also as soon as i finish posting a chapter i try not to go on my laptop for like 12 hours so i don't obsessively refresh my email for comments. i love reading comments so much holy shit. please comment guys it makes fic authors feel so happy we will love you for it)
as for scripts: i am working on being a writer professionally, but specifically a playwright. writing in a script format comes more naturally to me than writing prose. funnily enough, i started posting fanfic just to practice my prose (and fix stuff in cobra kai that i didnt like) but things sort of... ended up here? idk man but im enjoying it.
right, so because writing in a script format is easier when im really struggling with a section in a fic ill usually scrap whatever i had and write it like a script, then translate that into prose. i was very excited to write the family videos for chapter 9 of slippery slopes, but i was Having Issues, so i redid it as a script and then rewrote that as prose. ill put the script version under the cut if you're interested in that.
but thank you so much for the question!! i do think my writing process is a bit unconventional but hey i think things are turning out well! if you have any more questions feel free to send them in!!
ok here is the last scene of ch 9 of slippery slopes in script format:
[SIERRA]
MOM: Hi honey! Omigosh this is so exciting! I bet you’re having such a great time! Especially since Chris is there! Is Chris watching this? Hi Chris! You know, I loooved you on that ice skating show. Your hair was fantastic! Well, it always is, haha. Do you really make your own hair gel? I’ve been trying to perfect the recipe but you’re just so hard to track down! Oh, you’re such a funny guy! I laughed sooo hard when you made all those jokes about marrying Chef.
Chef: hey!
Chris: ok just for the record, I wasn’t joking, we are married, Sierra tell your mom we’re married
Sierra: …can we just turn it off please
[COURTNEY]
DAD: Courtney, sayang, I know you’ve been going through a lot right now—
MOM: So you’d BETTER make it count. You’ve made it this far before, I want to see you getting all the way to the finale this time. And winning it. Enough moping about those hideous, good-for-nothing slackers! That’s what you get for hanging around freaks like them. You’re doing this for the million, now get the million. Is that clear?
ZARINA: And kick ass!
DAD: Zarina!
Video cuts out.
Alejandro: courtney you good?
Courtney: no, she’s right. Mama didn’t raise no quitter
Alejandro: [knows she’s still upset about duncan and gwen]
[ALEJANDRO]
MOM: Hola, Alejandro. We hope you are doing well, especially in such unsavory conditions. I’m glad to see you’ve made it to the final four— we expected nothing less, of course.
DAD: You have been utilizing your skills quite well. Though I wish you hadn’t been so… blatant about it. You’ll have to work twice as hard once this is over to convince people you’re trustworthy. But surely you were aware of that going into this… odd endeavor. That’s just politics. Reputation is everything.
JOSE: [snorts] Oh, and what a reputation you have, Al. I could easily compile hours of footage of your failures, but I, unlike you, do not waste my time on the frivolities of reality television. Though you always have been lacking in taste. Especially with that bratty girlfriend of yours— oh, my mistake, aren’t you dating the whiny weakling? It’s so hard to keep track! [laughs]
Alejandro: callate!
MOM: I’m sure Alejandro is just working an angle on them.
DAD: Whatever the case is, do not disappoint us.
[NOAH]
MOM: Hi Noah, I’m sorry, I don’t have time to record a full video, but I’m proud of you! Here are your sisters!
ISWARI: A million dollars? A million [bleep] dollars? Win it, Noah! Win it!
RUTH: Dude!! This is crazy! I know you can do this— good luck! Ark misses you! [holds up Ark who barks]
MARA: Are you insane? Why aren’t you dating Alejandro already?
Noah: shut up, mara, just because you can’t keep a boyfriend—
ANYA: Don’t let ‘em trick you! No mercy! Crush their skulls if you have to— no, wait, you’re not strong enough for that. We’ll get there!
LIYA: I say this as your sister, someone who loves you but is constantly annoyed by you— for someone who is quite literally a genius, you sure can be an idiot sometimes.
BALLARI: Okay, I literally have no idea how you’ve made it this far without an athletic bone in your body— are we sure you aren’t adopted? I’m kidding
ABS: You’re stubborn as hell when it comes to me, so you better be stubborn as hell when it comes to winning! And when you do win, get me a frozen yogurt machine, will you? I promise I won’t make you rock climb again!
JAEL: If you lose this, I’ll kill you with this racket. And then use your guts to make myself a new racket. So don’t fuck it up. Again.
Noah: [frozen, ashamed]
Sierra: well that was a mess
Courtney: ok show of hands, who felt better after hearing that? [no one raises hands]
Chris: yeah I was expecting this to be a lot more heartwarming…
Chef: chris just look at them. If they had stable home lives they wouldn’t be doing reality tv
Alejandro: can we please stop talking about this. Also aren’t you supposed to be flying the plane
Chef: oh fuck
Chris: yeah sure. I think im gonna call my mom
Everyone: …
Noah: ok so that was really shitty. Why dont we all go to first class and try and ignore our problems
Everyone: yeah ok sounds good
***
Courtney: so that sucked
Alejandro: at least your dad seems ok
Courtney: true. What are your guys dads like
Noah and Sierra: bold of you to assume I know my dad. Jinx
***
Alejandro: that last girl… you mentioned a sister who does tennis and hates you
Noah: yep
Alejandro: why?
Noah: none of your business. but… it is pretty justified
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Omg so I find that CM, like most other cop procedurals (and CW shows), suffers from Too Many Seasons Syndrome. Like, I kinda have to empathize with the writers, it can't be easy to come up with over 300 ideas for unique episodes. Personally I find that in most shows, it's usually Good™️ up to season 3, and then after season six it really starts to suffer, and by season 10, stuff just kinda happens and you have to accept it. There's this video on Youtube by Drew Gooden called "Jumping the shark" which talks about shows going on way past when they probably should have stopped, which I find reflects most of my thoughts on it.
I have only watched up to season 8 (I'm on episode three or four now, I'm kinda stalling because I'm dreading the whole Maeve thing), and it's not that CM is not good or interesting, it's just that it has more misses than the earlier seasons, and it's so very noticeable when the creators of the show tries to do something to not make it similar to last 200 episodes.
(that being said, I'm really happy that it does have so many seasons, because if not I would be done with it too quick and sometimes you just need something you can put on and watch for six months without having to repeat seasons or episodes)
yeah it definitely went on too long... i think a big part of that (other than the network wanting to keep reeling in money) is that its hard to end a show like this? i dont watch any other cop shows really.. they're either to bright/shiny, tooo explicit w their copaganda, or they're just not interesting (criminal minds walks that fine line for me - it's usually more ab the murders/crimes than the law enforcement side of it, and the characters are so fucking interesting where a lot of cop shows kind of fall flat into those tropes that can get so repetitive). so maybe im just an idiot akjshdlg and dont know how they're supposed to end but like... a procedural like this seems difficult to just wrap up neatly? its not plot based, and if there's no reason for the characters to all leave... why would they?
the show that i always compare it to is supernatural ajsdhlga just bc it lowkey is season-for-season a beat-for-beat match. almost eerily so. compared to spn and other shows of similar length, i think criminal minds tends to hold up a little longer than the others. like spn got absolutely insufferable by s6 as far as i can recall, and that really is usually when these kinda shows tend to peeter out. for me at least, cm holds up until ab s10. ik u havent gotten there yet and there are def some things in the seasons leading up to it that are just fucking miserable like maeve's plot but the episodes themselves stay pretty interesting fairly consistently up until s10.
i mean it definitely all sucks the first time you watch it bc you have nothing to compare it to other than the better versions of the episodes before, but once you watch the whole thing, i think it's easier to go back and appreciate s6-9. like.. ok this is how i see it: if i'm on a casual rewatch where i'm only watching episodes that i like, if i can watch 2/3rds of the season, it's still good. and i can watch most of the episodes up until s10. (there are def good episodes beyond s9... some very very good episodes actually lmao like boxed in, rock creek park, awake, hostage, etc) so i say just push through it and then when things start to get genuinely miserable around s12 asjdkhlaksd maybe do a rewatch and use the momentum of actually enjoying those middle seasons to push through to the end
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Summer Time Chp. 2  Here Cums the Girls
Well as I was checking out the bank lines and waiting for Mark to return I reflected on just what had happened.I would have never imagined the feelings I had at that moment.I didnt know if I was gay or what but I couldnt deny that what me and Mark had done was probably the greatest thing I have ever done in my short life.As I sat there nursing my beer I relived the feeling of Marks cock in my mouth, hard yet velvety at the same time.And then the way Mark took me in the ass for the first time of my life.What ever happened next I knew that this would always be a time that I would remember for the rest of my life.Just as I was about to drift off to sleep I heard the unmistakable sound of Marks pickup, I got up to climb up the side of the river bank to help him carry the stuff down to the camp site.When I realized that Mark wasnt alone.He had brought his sister, Becky and her friend Karen.Now a little bit about the girls, both were 15 at this time and were basically glued at the hip, there was a lot of rumors going around about if the girls were lesbians.While both were about 52 , 53 with Karen being the taller by just the slightest amount.And since they were on the school track team they were about 115 lbs and rock solid physiques.Becky had a set of abs that most guys would love to have.Karen was black shoulder length hair with about large B cups with legs to die for, and Becky had strawberry hair that she kept fairly short and her breast were just a little bit larger than Karens.
Becky bounced out of the pickup and waved her arms at me shouting hi Jimmy,hows the fishing.I dont know why but I just hated being called Jimmy and Becky knew it but would say it all the time just to rub it in.So I gave her a hurt scowl look and she came up to me with that puppy dog look and kissed me on the cheek.Usually this is as far as it goes, it was becoming a private game between the two of us, but this time instead of saying there, there Jim it will be alrightshe surprised me by reaching around and grabbing my ass and whispering in my ear Mark told me everything.
I must have looked like I had be hit by a cattle prod at that news.I couldnt believe that Mark would have told anyone at all about what had happened earlier.For a minute I felt betrayed and hurt but, Becky leaned to my ear and said ‘not to worry stud Mark and I share every thing.At this she stepped back with a serious shit eating grin and I stood there looking like a dork, I was completely confused.She had never acted that way toward me, I used to be the neighbor hood geek now she was calling me stud.And what the hell was this share every thing shit.But before I could say anything Mark and Karen came up to us carrying some ice and more beer.
Well Jim did you catch any fish. asked Mark
I dont know about fish but if Jim doesnt close that mouth of his, hell sure as hell catch some flies. laughed Karen as they walked by.
Oh, by the way there is some food in the truck Jim why dont you get it for us. Mark said over his shoulder.
So, after I got the food and came down to the camp site I say Mark sitting next to Karen and Becky was on the other side of the fire and patted the ground next to her.Not being one to disappoint a lady I sat down next to Becky and she leaned on my shoulders.Now I know what most of you will think that the first thing I noticed was her tits or something like that, but, I just couldnt get passed how good this girl smelled.It wasnt overly perfumed or anything like that just a good clean smell.Well after a minute Becky looked up to me and said that this was the point when I was supposed to put my arm around her and hold her.I smiled down at her and held her.Even though me and Mark had just fucked holding Becky was just something that I knew I could get used to.Where Mark was hard teenage muscle Becky was firm but not too hard and her skin was so much softer.Well we sat there talking about school, summer and about anything else we could think of, and of course drinking beer.After a while Karen got up and grabbed Mark by the hand and led him off.
Now I wonder where those two are off to.I asked Becky.
She grabbed hold of my face and said to give us some privacy silly.At which she leaned forward and kissed me.I was a little shocked at first but, that lasted about a second and then I figured after what I had already done that to just go with the flow.So I reached around and held her and started to kiss her back.I guess in my eagerness I was to hard because the next thing I knew she pushed me back.whoa stud, when your kissing a girl you need to take your time.Just remember that ladies like to make love, guys like to fuck.So stud just take your time because we have all night.
I do have a question for you though.I said as I laid down next to her.
Whats that Jim
What did you mean when you said that you and Mark shared everything.
Well, lets just say that I havent been a very good girl.She said looking off into the distance.Im not sure why but all of a sudden Im kind of embarrassed by this.As she said that I sat up and looked at her with a confused look on my face and she reached up and grabbed my arm and said.Oh now Jim I dont mean you or this, its not you, its just , , , you see, , , well.Oh hell there isnt any easy way to say this so here it goes.Me and Mark have had sex together, it started one night we were kidding each other and he dared me to show him my pussy and I dared him to show me his cock.Well the next thing I know Im on my knees sucking him off and then he eats my pussy.Dont get me wrong he didnt rape me or anything it just kind of happened, but we have been doing it off and on since then.I even let him fuck me in the ass, good thing I was drunk that night or there is no way I would have done that, and I havent let him do it since.But there is one place he hasnt fucked me.
You mean your pussy is still cherry.I looked at her with disbelief, especially with everything that she had told me.
Yes it is, I know that this is going to sound silly but Ive had a crush on you for a long time.And I just knew that I wanted you to take my virginity.And when Mark fucked my ass that time I cried for a whole week knowing that I hadnt given you the chance.But you would hardly talk to me, so I thought that you didnt like me.After saying this she looked down and I knew she was about to start crying.
I lifted up her chin and gave her a pick on her forehead and told her Dont cry its partly my fault too.She looked at me with doubt and tears starting to form in the corner of her eyes.I thought that you didnt care for me and I was scared to ask you out. For fear that you would turn me down and make fun of me.
OH GOD, no Jim I wouldnt do that.I know that I have teased you in the past but that was child stuff and it will never happen again, I promise.Saying that she wrapped her arms around me and held on tight.After a moment I could hear her starting to quietly sob.I was so stupid to treat you that way, its all my fault.
As I was holding her close to me I said softly to her ear No its nobodies fault were just two young kids that didnt know what we were doing, but that is changed and now that we know how we feel toward each other things will be different.
Just hold me for now ok.
Sure anything that you want.So there we were two kids just holding each other after opening our hearts to each other.Now I know what your thinking what about what I had said to Mark, loving him and all that.At that time I wasnt really thinking of that, I figured that I would just have to sort that out later.After all Mark was probably fucking Karen right then at that moment.Then I felt Becky start to stir and rubbing her hand up and down my chest, I just laid back and enjoy the feeling then I felt her hand go for my waist band of my shorts.Reaching down I grabbed her hand and told her you dont have to do this to prove your feelings toward me.I dont want you to ever regret this moment.
She looked at me and it looked like she was about to cry again and I thought oh shit what did I say this time.Becky just looked at me and said that was the most beautiful thing you could say to me.I want to fuck you so much now you just dont know.She reached in my shorts and started to stroke my cock and said you know for being the cutest dork around you can say the smartest things.Smiling down at me she started to pull on my shorts so I help her out and took them off.Damn, not bad size and your young, I think with some care on my part it will grow some more.with that comment she leaned down and took my cock in her mouth.While Mark was able to take my cock completely in his mouth Becky was only able to take half before she started to gag and back off.But, what her mouth couldnt handle she stroked with her hand.So this is what making love feels like, I realized that what I thought was love with Mark was in reality just great sex between two guys.I looked down and watched her bob her head up and down on my cock and for a moment I could see a small tear running down her cheek but she wouldnt stop.I started to feel the sensation that told me I was about to cum so I put my hand on her head and told her, but she backed off and said no Jim I want this, I want all of it I never let Mark cum in my mouth but I want you everywhere.With that she returned to my cock and started to suck with more vigor.Then it hit me and I couldnt hold back anymore I arched my back and dug into the ground with my hands as I started to cum in Beckys mouth it must have been six or seven squirts and she tried to swallow it all but some came out of the corners of her mouth.I must have blacked out because the next thing I knew Becky was next to me with a look of contentment on her face.Welcome back to the living stud, you know Ive heard the other girls say how they like their boyfriends cum and now I know what they were talking about.
I gave her a big hug and told her well I guess its time for this gentleman to do his duty.with that I started to kiss my way down her neck and kissed her left nipple while I messaged her right breast.I kept nursing, for want of a better word, while stroking her body making a special effort to avoid her pussy area.I had read a story from Penthouse how that was supposed to drive a girl crazy and now I was going to find out if the guy knew what he was talking about. And so far it seemed like he did, because the more I suckled her breast and rubbed her body the more Becky started to squirm and beg me to touch her pussy.So finally I gave in and started to rub her pussy, at first I thought that she peed herself she was so wet.I kept working my way down kissing her everywhere, when I got to her belly button I put my tongue in and sucked.She jerked hard screaming how that wasnt fair to be making her feel like cumming and tickling her at the same time.But, I just smiled and kept on going, finally I got to her pussy.There was a muskiness to the smell but not bad I could get used to this, I thought.I ran my tongue up and down her slit and every once in awhile I would give her clit a suck.Then with outwarning my sweet petite Becky grabbed my hair on my head with the strength of a bull rider and clamped her legs around my head.For a minute I was wondering if she was going to let go but, then what a way to die LOL.Then all of a sudden she started to squirt her own juices in my mouth I tried to swallow but there was just too damn much fluid.
Finally she relaxed and I moved up and kissed her on her lips.Damn Jim where did you learn to do that, you been practicing on other girls.
NoI chuckled just a healthy dose of Penthouse Letters.
She cradled my head and stroked my hair and jokingly said Well thank God for pornography and maybe well have to write out own letter someday.But, first are you ready for the main event.
Are you sure.I mean I would love to but…..
Jimmy stop talking and get ready to make me your girlfriend, lover and best of all your woman.
You keep calling me that and Im going to have to spank you.
Promises, promises.she said laughing now lets get this done before I start thinking about it
Yes maam. with that I got between her legs and looked at her laying there.I moved up and placed my cock at her opening and started to move in when all of a sudden I hit something and she arched her back and put her hands on my chest.She was actually panting, I asked her if she was alright and if she wanted me stop.But she shock her head and said wait so I stayed in the same position and she said now.So I leaned into her.I could tell by her face that it was hurting her and was about to stop when all of a sudden I broke through.
Becky arched her back and screamed, OOOOOHHH GOD THAT HURTS.I was scared that I had done something wrong and started to pull out when she grabbed me and shouted for me to stop moving and just let her get used to it.So that is what we did and after a while I started to move in and out of her and she said that it was ok, and that it was actually starting to feel better by the minute.So I started to work myself in and out of her, her pussy felt so good around my cock that I never wanted out.I was thinking then that what I did with was Mark was nice but this was even better.So I kept up and I even started to pick up speed.Becky started to grind her pussy on my cock and telling me how good my cock felt in her pussy.Then all to soon that feeling came over me and I knew I was about to cum when I said I should pull out and not cum inside her, Becky wrapped her legs around me and said No you dont I want your cum inside me, dont you dare pull out Jim, if you do Ill never forgive you.So stop thinking and just fuck the shit out of me. Ooh God that feels better and better.Dont stop fucking me Im going to cu……with that she stiffened and I felt her juices on my cock and that sent me over the edge and I shot my load in her pussy.There we were two teenagers whose bodies were locked in a missionary position our bodies spasmingwith the pleasure of youth.Finally the feelings subsided and we parted and laid side be side and just sat there enjoying the afterglow of great sex.
It was only a couple of minutes when I heard noises and looked up and I saw Mark and Karen walking toward us.The first thing I noticed was that they were both naked and I could see cum running down Karens leg look Mark I think theyre finally doneKaren said with a smile on her face.
Yea they sure did take their time, for a minute I thought I was going to have to fuck you again.Mark joked while he had a finger in Karens ass.
Now stud that wouldnt be so bad would it.Besides the way she was screaming I wont be surprised if the sheriff doesnt show up.Hey Becky how about you let me have a go at Jim and see how he is. Karen asked Becky.
I dont think so Karen, at least not for awhile but right now I want to keep him all to myself and that means you big brother.You keep your hands off of him.Becky said while we were still laying on the ground with me on my back and her with her right arm and right leg draped over me.I do know one thing and that is I need to cool off.So Jim get your but up and lets jump into the river and cool off for awhile.
With that she stood up and grabbed my hand and led me off to the river.While heading to the water I heard Mark tell Karen What did I tell you
Youre right Mark they do look like a cute couple.But, you know what Im going to miss most.
Whats that Karen.
That sweet pussy of your sisters.
I looked at Becky and she just gave me that impish smile of hers and said Ill tell you laterI cant wait for that story
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gender-chaotic · 4 years
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Oh boy b**tleba*bes talking about stuff they have no clue about lmao
Warning talk mentions of b**tleb*bes, over sexualization of minors, and a bit of adult stuff.
Im goldenbeetle shipper whos been here a while now and is a proud drinker of loving barbara maitland juice not gonna deny our community has some issues mostly in the past with leaving babs out of fics and art and focus more on adam and beej as well as more adult content. But this is something myslef and many people IN OUR OWN COMMUNITY has been speaking out about for a long ass time now you can search the tags for posts adressing leaving Barbara out including by myself so jot that down, so we dont need b**tleb*bes who barley know anything about our community telling us about our content especially when some of y'all openly mock our ship and made it clear you do not care about it, thanks. many of us especially more recently add barbara in, ive seen so much goldenbeetle content that includes babs including again my own content, ive purposefully drawn solo babs and beej so if you're saying there no content that includes her or just beej and her you're very VERY wrong, come to me or most shippers we can provide lots of golden beetle content with babs and even just babs and beetlejuice. Not to mention a few of your own b**tleb*bes have made beetlejuice and adam content and usually leaves Barbara out and focuses just on adam and beej but go off i guess lol.
Many people draw barbara also draw her based off her actresses' who are both women who don't have very large breasts on top of that gena davis' dress for Barbara did not reveal much, kerry's showing a bit more with a deep neckline still covered alot of her body. Many people arent drawing babs with big knockers and sexy clothes because were trying to repress her sexuality and make her dress like she's in the handmaids tale, shame women for being sexy, its because barbara and adam are canonically a white bred suburban couple who are "vanilla" its their personailty, i drew babs with smaller breasts and more "canon compliant" for a while before i changed it up. Obviously you CAN draw barabra and even adam as sexy and babs with big tiddies, i draw barbara with larger breasts now, and show her cleavage and I've been doing this for a while and i have draw PLENTY of sexy and pin up style babs as well adult content with her beetlejuice, and adam, I've also posted it on here so again y'all dont know what you're talking about. I know others who have drawn sexy barbara and barbara with larger breasts just because its not common and YOU haven't seen it doesn't mean its not out there.
Have y'all seen art of anyone oc's like including self ship oc's with beej?? many of them are sexy and/or have pretty bug breasts (not complaini g btw yall are doing gr8 i love your oc's) or other adult female characters in the show I've seen of art thats sexy of miss Argentina and delia as well as art of them with larger breasts and dressed more "sexy" because that's their character, dress more revealing and prefer to be "sexy". Ive also never been attacked or seen any other "anti" attack a creator for making sexy art or big breasted versions of female characters that are canonically adults in beetlejuice, this includes myself who has openly posted suggestive content of babs even on here infact Ive seen people actually like that stuff they just don't make it themselves so claiming "no one is allowed" to draw barbara sexy or adult content of her is also a huge load.
Not to get too personal but speaking from experience as a person who developed at a very early age i got my first real bra at 7 or 8, had D-DDD breasts throughout middle school and highschool, currently has g-h cup breasts, has been overly sexualized my entire life by people of all ages because of this, and also deals with ALOT of dysphoria because of It am A-ok with representation of women with larger breasts, including suggestive/sexual art of them, women of all body types including their breasts but that's the thing i highly doubt y'all care about large breasted women I've seen the argument when talking about the over sexualiztion of large breasts
"well you dont care about women with big breasts we exist too!"
"Dont erase our body breasts!"
I get it! But its pretty clear this argument is usually only being presented to tokenize us and then someone will draw a big tiddied lady with wide as birthing hips, a dumpster truck ass, back that looks like it son the verge of breaking, and a waist that varies from size skinny to "holy sh*t did all your organs get sucked out???" If yall really care about women with big breasts draw women of differing body types with big breasts, draw them chubby, fat, ACTUALLY curvy, give them stretch marks, a double chin, ect. You fucking cowards say were mysoginists for "not giving barbara big tiddies"
Most of b**tleb*abe adult lydia art looks like a mix of jessica rabbit, elvira, and morticia addams with the same 2 or 3 body types over and over again, infact ive run into plenty of b**tleb*bes art where lydia has either has big tits or like a B-ish cup ("aged up" lydia thats looks almost exactly like her teenage self canon(s)) not really an inbetween but you "totally care about women with large breasts" its not tat you only care about adult lydia to make her ooc, project onto her and make her to sexy goth queen many of us wanted to be when we were young and watched beetlejuice, ship her with beej so she can be his big tiddy goth gf its TOTALLY about ""feminism"" uh huh....
And where has YOUR sexy barbara art been hmm? b**tleb*bes draw so little art of barbara or either maitlands other than to be in the background and react to beej and lyida's shenanigans, or scold them because babes portray the maitlands or way more protective and prude than in canon, and the little art I've seen babes draw of her isn't sexy big tiddy babs. I have at most seen a handful of deetzland fics with adult content including barbara and that's it. Its very clear many of yall care mostly about lydia and beej especially boinking be honest now. So dont bring up our ship or barbara as a "gotcha antis".
And lastly Lydia, i dont think any of us are saying she cant grow up, we literally just think its gross to sexualize a character who is a minor in canon and age her up solely to be with a canon adult. Ive seen "antis" draw adult lydia in a tasteful way and develop her as she grows up because they're interested in her charcter and no one has taken issue with it at all. Lydia in all canons doesnt have big honkers in any canon either, yes minors can have breasts, even larger ones. I mentioned above that was me, and you can have a character who is a minor who looks more developed than others where its not gross and sexualized (jackie lynn thomas from svtfoe is an example, mami from madoka isnt really sexualized in canon from my memory) i think representaion of all body types abd breast sizes is important for young women but lydia isnt one of those characters even in canons where shes 15-17 and going through puberty.
Let lydia be a child jfc, stop being creepy and getting pissy when people draw lyida with the same breast cup in canon and make her look like the average teen/tween she is, that isnt misogyny its treating a character who is a minor appropriately.
The ACTUAL misogyny is over sexualizing and aging up a tween/teen character soley to do the horizontal monster mash with a adult charcter, write her so that she really only cares about said adult character and the spawn that pop out of her from him, she dies young but parents and friends who cares shes got beetlejuice!, Forget the entire life she leaving behind too, and giving her the body of a pixar mom or h*ntai protagonist a majority of the time.
Your performative white feminism is showing.
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You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say STAND WITH HONG KONG AGAINST THE CCP!
Stranger: hi
Stranger: haha sorry
You: nice abs
Stranger: lol thanks
Stranger: like your smile btw you seem cute af haha like wtf
You: how mamy times ur on the gym
Stranger: try 3-5 times a week
You: that dedication tho
You: hahaha
Stranger: haha i try
Stranger: oh shoot and you got that freckle dayummm
You: i did go once
You: i puked
Stranger: you got the whole package hahah
Stranger: oh shoot that means you a hard worker
You: its a beauty mark
You: more like a cursed mark
Stranger: it really is
Stranger: nah
Stranger: beauty mark for sure
Stranger: dides find that super sexy ngl
You: hahah calm ur tits boo
You: im here for wholesome shit
You: but i dont know why im on the unmonitored sec
Stranger: yeah? for example?
Stranger: oh lol like what wholesume shit?
Stranger: you low key "bored" or nah ll
Stranger: sorry im so excited
You: im here for stories and confessions from you guys
Stranger: just always haha like what?
Stranger: what you tryna hear?
You: im not into sext and stripping stuff. Treat me like a commercial from dicks lol
Stranger: haha aight
Stranger: where you from tho?
You: im in the middle east rn
You: working :(
You: you?
Stranger: really
Stranger: how old are you?
Stranger: im basic form the us
Stranger: in FL
You: 23 haha do i look younger?
Stranger: haha yeah you look good for 23
Stranger: is it cold there?
You: haha dont make me smileeee
Stranger: haha why
Stranger: you have a fucking great one lmao
You: nnah im just covering my ppajamas hahaha
Stranger: haha ok..... why tho?
Stranger: protection from the dicks?
You: coz people might think ill strip when i have this angle
You: and they see a shoulder and shit
Stranger: ahh gotcha
You: hahahah correct
Stranger: oh shoot that shoulder...
Stranger: lmao
You: haha shhh
Stranger: haha you funny
Stranger: what time is it there?
You: so are you here for dicks or boobies before u met me?
You: its 2am
Stranger: honestly?
You: oh shit its the us timezone wait
You: 125PM
Stranger: dang nice
You: were on the opposite part
You: wait my sister is calling
Stranger: gotcha makes sense
Stranger: ugh and your voice.... :)
Stranger: you are literally the cutest thing lmao idk why tf you on omelge haha
Stranger: I hate to break it to ya bt... I saw your pajamas
Stranger: haha and even your shoulder ;)
Stranger: watch out
You: hahaha dont get horny or youll leave me
Stranger: haha I would never leave you
Stranger: you would leave me if anything
You: i would if you start asking me to strip off my comfy blanket
Stranger: haha dang
Stranger: I just want you to feel good lol
Stranger: so if you comfy that's chill
Stranger: but you did ask why I was on here....
Stranger: you honestly want to know?
You: noooo haha
You: youre naked
You: and shit
You: so i kinda figure it out
Stranger: haha i got pants on
You: im just stalling you before u encounter some dicks again
Stranger: lol sorry a man's curious
Stranger: ive just never done anything with a girl so i can't help it
Stranger: you know?
Stranger: you gotta remember back in the day don't ya?
You: back in the day?
Stranger: haha when youve never actually done anything with a guy
Stranger: you weren't curious?
Stranger: or want to experament?
You: oh okay
You: so how was your experiment going?
Stranger: haha not good everyone skipped and there were no girls lol
Stranger: that's why im shocked you stayed
You: hahaha so thats why stayed with me
You: even tho i want that non stripping part
Stranger: hnestly yes.. and you are super cute fr
You: haha dont make me smileee
Stranger: I mean idk... even if you don't want that I can't skip you haha
Stranger: I wish i could make you smile lol
Stranger: your so chill
Stranger: and are those little dimples?
You: i dont have dimple look
You: i wish i had.
Stranger: you have little ones
You: how about u?
Stranger: one the corneres of yor mouth
Stranger: nope i dont
You: i love how you smile then go back to the poker face
Stranger: hah you do it too :D
You: haha copycat
Stranger: nah nah nah
Stranger: im defo not copying you
Stranger: i don't have that much style lmao
You: hahaha stop idolizing me
You: its just meeee~~~~
Stranger: haha im not
Stranger: youre just you....
Stranger: and super dope and cute lol
Stranger: haha yes that' smile
Stranger: i love it
You: hahaha tell that to girls around you and you'll get a girlfriend instantlyyy
Stranger: what's that?
You: are u shy in person?
Stranger: kinda
Stranger: like irl yeah...;(
Stranger: kinda sucks
Stranger: like I can talk to em but like scared to shoot my shot and have it be wrong lol
Stranger: guess that's why ive never done anything
Stranger: I just want them to be happy
Stranger: ya know?
You: aww you are soo sweet
Stranger: I don't wanna do anything they have to or want to say no to
You: i bet your future girlfriend would be soo lucky
Stranger: haha hopefully
Stranger: only she might be disappointed I don't know what im doing...
Stranger: do ya think?
You: you look like a nice guy not the douche type you know
Stranger: lol thanks I guess
You: and i bet youll love her endlessleyyy
Stranger: that's the goal ;)
You: well they say nice guy finish last hahahaha i remember the niggahigga
Stranger: haha ess
You: but right now ur stuck with me haha
Stranger: nigahiga is hilarious
Stranger: haha happy to be lol
Stranger: jk..
You: so good to hear that ahaha
You: lol
Stranger: it actually sucks to have to look at your smile all the time
Stranger: like ughhh
Stranger: man its horrible
You: whyy
Stranger: *note lots of sarcasm lmao
Stranger: im kidding your too cute
Stranger: it would never be horrible haha
Stranger: and you have those deep eyes you look deep into
Stranger: why can't you be in the staes?
You: hahaha that why i dont stare at people.
Stranger: why its a gift
You: they get hypnotizedd
Stranger: haha ok that makes sense then hah
You: hahaha US is crazyy right now
Stranger: true that
You: even in my country is crazy
Stranger: what is your country?
You: i can't even visit US even tho i want to.
You: lot of racist stuff on the internet
Stranger: oh dang that sucks ;(
You: Philippines
Stranger: the internet is garbo
You: but most people think im chinese
Stranger: don't listen to it
You: coz of my eyes
Stranger: ahhh that makes sense haha
Stranger: nah that's why you so cute idk why but phillipino's are so attrative
You: hahahaha coz we got everything in our blood. americans, spanish, chinese
You: maybe indian too?
Stranger: haha that explains it
Stranger: got the best of all worlds
You: hahaha we like the powerpull girls
Stranger: lolll you goofy :P
Stranger: what do you do for work?
You: maybe u can visit PH then, my face is very common there
You: im in corporate bullshit haha
Stranger: haha doubt i
You: you?
Stranger: t
Stranger: ah gotcha
Stranger: im in colleg still
You: what course you taking?
Stranger: business managment/ entreprenuership
You: i hate collegee haha the test and stuff
Stranger: haha its tough fr
Stranger: good for me tho
You: haha ur same like me. your gonna be stuck to a desk too in the coming years
Stranger: nope
Stranger: I hope never to be at a deskjob 24/7
Stranger: hope to start a company or go into relations and build a small company
Stranger: my dad does it and has his own businesses and that's wht i hope to get into
You: i hope you achieve that!
Stranger: be my own boss its stressful as heck but workhard itll pay off
You: Dont be a corporate slave like us haha
You: yeah youll be so good at managing people
Stranger: haha someone has to do the dirty work
Stranger: lol why do you say that?
You: hahaha true dat
You: well based on our convo
You: you look nice but has that fierce aura haha
You: im not guru
Stranger: lol fierce aura
Stranger: your too nice
You: haha i hope it wont be a disadvantage
You: being too nice
Stranger: haha you can never be too nice so long as you know when to switch
You: haha from dominant to submissive?
Stranger: haha what do you mean?
Stranger: don't get me don't tease me lol
You: haha sorry your confused face made me smile
Stranger: lol
Stranger: ywe talking about business thenyou ask, dom or sub?
Stranger: haha im lost
You: i think cockteaser is my worst trait. I lead you but no action :(
Stranger: haha i mean...
Stranger: you could change that
Stranger: nothing you dont wanna do tho haha
You: haha naahh im good with reading
You: aww you know me now
Stranger: haha in some senses
Stranger: ;)
You: hahaha im more like into imagining than action
You: i love reading those confessions
You: on what guy do to girls
Stranger: ahhh gotcha
Stranger: haaha that's kind hot
Stranger: im more into action but I love pleasing so like compromise?
Stranger: lol
Stranger: wanna know what i sevretly fantasy?
You: whaaat
Stranger: like very intamate sensuall start with like cuddling ahhh
Stranger: it would be amazing
You: have you ever tried that?
Stranger: be the big spoon holidng someone so close
You: youre good with words
Stranger: keeping each other so warm as i wrap my arms arudn them
Stranger: then softly kissing the back of her neck with my lips
Stranger: as she feels my soft breathe on the back of her neck through her hair
Stranger: ugh it would be amazing
You: i had goosebumps reading that
Stranger: ugh such a tease... I want her to feel so good
Stranger: get goosebumps and have the shivers
You: she would be very lucky
Stranger: just tease her and let her feel amazingg
You: tell me more please
Stranger: id just be holding you close hands on your hips wrapped all the way around you
Stranger: as the little spoon youd look over your shoulder
Stranger: our eyes would meet and lock gazes our lips moving slowly closer and cloer
Stranger: seemingley drawn together
Stranger: then our lips would finally meet
Stranger: softly caressing eachother as our eyes closed and we just felt the moment
You: its so good it hurts so much. i cant even breathe
Stranger: so close so warm so much energy courseing between us
Stranger: ugh yes
Stranger: wed bgin to roll aroudn on the bed
Stranger: so much passion
Stranger: our lips locked so tight
Stranger: our lungs would be gen to get sore and tight from not breathing but i wouldnt care
Stranger: id just press into your lips more
Stranger: you being my everything
Stranger: then finally to breathe id slip my lips down look you in the eyes and wed both smile
Stranger: as m my eyes looked at your whole beautiful body as we were on the bed
Stranger: so amazing
Stranger: slide my lips down sloly from your lips down to your chin
Stranger: to your neck
You: damn ur sooo good
Stranger: you trusting me wholly exposing your vulnerable neck
Stranger: thanks ;) just imagine what i wish we could be doing
Stranger: your beatufil amazing self ughhh it would be soo good
Stranger: its honestly making me horny.. so sorry if i get too excited ;)
You: girls would be so jealous reading this chat from you
Stranger: id be kissng your neck softly yet passionately as my hands held you by your smalll of your back and your hip
Stranger: feeling your body up and down with my waarm rough yet gentle hands
Stranger: just teasing you wanting you to feel soo good my lips would continue to move down
Stranger: slowly kissing your chest
You: never in my entire life i would imagine this would happen
Stranger: looking you ito your eyes after each amazing smooch
You: i feel like reliving those gone wild stories on reddit lol
Stranger: well if you wre from FL it would have to happen
Stranger: haha yes it would be so perfect
You: if i were in florida you would never glance at me
You: im too small to be noticed haha
Stranger: my hands would slip up under your shirt and yud draw a short breath but trust me anyway
Stranger: amazing things come in small packages
You: that could be ur branding for ur business haha
Stranger: my hands would realol sure
Stranger: ugh you are so cute i love it
Stranger: does it make you feel good?
You: the air here is so thin i have to breath so heavy
Stranger: ughhh that is amazing
You: its so good it hurrrrts
You: thank you for making me feel this way :)
Stranger: ugh id wanna make your eyes go back into your head just imagining
Stranger: how amazing it would be bb
You: my feet is all curled up just imagining it
Stranger: ugh yes ;)
You: you swoop me with you words :(
Stranger: should I keep going?
You: go on
Stranger: and feel free to add in or suggest things
Stranger: where was i?
Stranger: u remmember?
You: wait
Stranger: ugh and you have th eperfect hands <3
You: your hands is under my shirt
Stranger: yes thats right
Stranger: Im just about to make my big move
Stranger: im so nervous but I go for it annyway
You: but you found out i have a petite body
Stranger: my hands under your shirt my lips kissing your ches from your
Stranger: low cut chirt that sags
Stranger: your petite body is so small under me and my big hands
Stranger: im 6'2
Stranger: (fr)
You: you would just toss me
Stranger: and my hands slip behind and unclip your small petite perfect bra
Stranger: id be very gentle or unless you wanted something else
Stranger: ;)
You: gentler please
Stranger: your bra would just seemingly slip off
Stranger: and wed again look at each other and grin
Stranger: you slightly nervously in anticipation
Stranger: but exceited
Stranger: i relieved you are feeling soo good
Stranger: id then go down to your stomach
Stranger: lifting your shirt up and crawling it up your stomuch right above my lips
Stranger: at your wasitline moving up
Stranger: then to your bellybutton and slightly above
Stranger: before id pause
Stranger: look you in the eyes and keep going
You: damnnnn its so hot!!!
Stranger: running my hands up ands down your perfect petite and small body
Stranger: you are amazing
Stranger: so sexy and hot
Stranger: in those same pajamas your n
Stranger: in*
Stranger: then id get to your ribcage with my lips
Stranger: youd draw in a deep breathe of pleasure
Stranger: it wold give me the courage to keep going
You: my hands is so sweaty just reading
Stranger: right up to the very bottom of your bossom
Stranger: id be in awe of your amazing bidy
Stranger: making me so tunred on
Stranger: my lips wold quiver and keep going
Stranger: so softly yet excitedly with passion
Stranger: (if we disconnect add my snap)
Stranger: masonbrink 8
You: i just waxed down there :o
Stranger: masonbrink8
Stranger: your perfectly smooth body
You: i dont have a snap!!!! :(
Stranger: im at the bottom of your soft boobs so amazingas im lifting youru pj's with my hands kissing rihgt behind
Stranger: how can we find if we lose eac other?
Stranger: my intenet is bad
Stranger: internet*
Stranger: I keep lifting....
Stranger: your pjs are now up to the bottom of your nipple
Stranger: im teasing you so hard and it feels so good for both of us
Stranger: as I rip my shirt off too
Stranger: show my abs as you run you perfect hands over my abs and i have you lift your hands
You: my heart is beating soo fast
Stranger: we hgaze deep down into each others eyes and I lift yoru shirt
Stranger: exposing your amazingly soft supple body
Stranger: your petite breasts
Stranger: are they big or small or medium?
You: my boobs are small but my nipples are always hard
Stranger: ugh that' the perfect comboooo ;)
Stranger: kissing your underboob
You: perfect for bitting
Stranger: working my way up not missing a single spot
Stranger: except the nipple
Stranger: im just teasing it
You: what a tease
Stranger: making them harder and harder
Stranger: my hands are grabbing you by the hips feeling all along there
Stranger: my bb is amazing
Stranger: then I do it
Stranger: look up and grin
Stranger: I move right to your left nipple
Stranger: teasing it soft t first
Stranger: with my tongue and lips then to your other one
You: jusmyo marimar
Stranger: as I get a little bit more playful
You: hahaha
You: its omg in spanish
Stranger: haha what is that?
Stranger: ugh yes perfect
You: i want to roll on my bed its so perfect :(
Stranger: then I tease your little rock hard nipples with my teeth
Stranger: fotly biting them teasingly as my hands are having a great time on your perfect body
Stranger: and you are running yours all along my abs going down to the waist
Stranger: feel free to do whatever bb
Stranger: i want you to feel soo good
Stranger: if your want to rooll or rock a little or tease a little feel free ;)
You: my hands is too small to explore every inch of you
Stranger: your small little hands meeling the edge of my waistband
Stranger: feeling*
Stranger: teastingly snapping it as I giss your beatiful nipples
Stranger: and I do it right back slipping my hands into your tight little wastband
Stranger: ugh yes your sooo cuteee
Stranger: so sexxy
You: sorry i have to get comffyyy
Stranger: its perfect i can teell you are because I think you are moaning a little bit ;)
Stranger: that is so sexy making you feel soo good
You: i know its so hard not toooo
Stranger: just echaling with pleasure
Stranger: do it I want to make you moan bb
Stranger: I want you to just feel it all
Stranger: so then I was teasing your waistband as I kissed your nipples
You: this is heaven right nowwww
Stranger: id slowly go down off of them
Stranger: never missing a spot but working my way back down
Stranger: then skip a bit to your bellybutton
Stranger: wanting to make yowanting to make you soo wet for met
Stranger: your freshly waxed body id just slip right down it
Stranger: my lips nearing your bandline
You: its hard for me to get wet. try harder :)
Stranger: edge of your underwear and your pajamas
Stranger: ok:P
Stranger: tell me if you are getting wet tho bb
Stranger: with my lips nearing your sensitive spot
Stranger: my hands on your thighs as im on top of you
Stranger: your layig back with your arms above your head
Stranger: clenching the pillows trying not to squirm too much
Stranger: my hands soflty touching your thighs teasting them
Stranger: just brishing closer and cloer on your inner thigh
Stranger: you know its coming but cant wait
Stranger: so sxcited you can't contain a little shiver and soft moan
Stranger: so I think im gonna do it
Stranger: should I d it?
You: no
You: you go back to my lips
You: teasing me more
Stranger: you knew what was coming :P
Stranger: I keeo going down but then
Stranger: im sooo close to your tight little pussy starting to get wet then I pull back
Stranger: look you in your eyes and go back to your lips
Stranger: pasvery softly very softly
Stranger: quick kiiss then pull away taking it all in
Stranger: feeling every inch of your soft lips as they are so moist and n chemistry with mine
Stranger: i continue to hold you by the small of your back and do this over and over
Stranger: holding the back of your head and kissing you
Stranger: softly
Stranger: slowly getting more passionately
Stranger: we begin rolling on the bed and around the room
Stranger: we don't care we are just locked in enamored
Stranger: just fully enveloped in teh moment and each other
Stranger: I pull away once again
Stranger: leaving your lips midair trying tdeperately to meet mine
Stranger: then you feel my lips on your neck again
Stranger: with your eyes closed you jsust embrace it
Stranger: it feels so good
Stranger: sending shivers throuout your body
Stranger: sort engouh to be gentle and leave yo wanting a little bit more
Stranger: just a little bit mroe passion
Stranger: the passion that is always growing between us
Stranger: you just close your eyes in pure bliss
Stranger: as I pull away and you never know where my lips will land
Stranger: jsut slowly teasing yoru chest
Stranger: maybe surprisingly on your nipple as they are soo perky and hard like they are so cold
Stranger: or maybe on your vulnerable exposed nck
Stranger: or maybe on your perfect soft lips wating there to meet mine
Stranger: my hands just holding you close
Stranger: pulling you in
Stranger: as you wait for my lips to land in thos places you are running your hands along mmy body
Stranger: from my chest across my abs
Stranger: to my beck as our lips meet
Stranger: neck*
Stranger: around my back just soaking it all in
Stranger: as am I with you
Stranger: you feel over my shorts how beautiful you arelly are
Stranger: with how much you are teasing my
Stranger: me
Stranger: with your small little hands you just feel how hard your making me in my pants
Stranger: busting to get out but I won't stop kissing you
Stranger: I won't stop n omatter what you do
Stranger: then I finally give us some distance
Stranger: we look each ohter up and down
Stranger: you grin and slip my shorts off
Stranger: leaving me in nothing but my boxers
Stranger: you can feel my warmth as my shorts are slipped off and feel me pressing up against you
Stranger: once again my lips begin to make their way down your body
Stranger: just crawling ever so slowly
You: this is ittttttt
Stranger: it seems like a lifetime
Stranger: i get to your waistband of your pajamas finally
Stranger: I look up, we grin
Stranger: we both know this is it
Stranger: I slip my hands down your pajames holding you by your hips and go give you a quick kiss
Stranger: right on the kips
Stranger: foftly as I slowly slip donw your pajamas
Stranger: you hardly notive but feels so good as your being freed
Stranger: what did you say?
You: dont type so fast
You: cant barely read it
Stranger: ok perfect
Stranger: you are just so beautiful
Stranger: I see your whole body laid out before me so small and beautifully petite
Stranger: perefection
Stranger: I continue to slip your pajames down and take them off your ankes as they get caught
Stranger: you are just lying there... in bliss
Stranger: we are feeling so amazing
Stranger: almost as if te moment will lsat forever yet only 2 seconds
Stranger: completely naked except our unerwear we are in totall hapiness
Stranger: your eyes rest on my boxers and you grin
Stranger: hands go down and tease me so much
Stranger: right around my cock making it sooo hard as you brush the edges of it
Stranger: it feels so good on your small hands
Stranger: evyour hands are even
You: i dont really know how to do hands
Stranger: a bit sweaty beacuse your nervous
You: im more of a mouth kind
Stranger: its ok
Stranger: then you surprise me
Stranger: I go back up to your lips and neck
Stranger: teasing them once more
Stranger: then
Stranger: all the sudden
You: why are u thinking
Stranger: you reverse it
Stranger: I lie down and you come up on me
Stranger: our lips still locked as we flip
Stranger: but now your on me your short little legs feel my whole body as your resting on me
Stranger: then you begin to do something
Stranger: exactly what I did to you
Stranger: you you work slowly from my lips
Stranger: to my neck
Stranger: caressing so carefully and gently with your perfect lips
Stranger: I let you go becaues it feels soo good
Stranger: then you keep working down from my neck
Stranger: occasionaly pausing
Stranger: as you run your funger down the center of my abs
Stranger: feeling every bumb as syour finger and lips pass over it
Stranger: you are just seeing the pure tease on my face and are enjoying every socnd
Stranger: your lips begin to get close
You: i love every word
Stranger: you see the elastic of my boxers
Stranger: with a great smile you continue
You: think of me when you do your thing later
Stranger: with great anticipation
You: WAAAIIIIT my battery about to die
Stranger: plug it inn
Stranger: all fresh and ready to continue?
You: go on
You: is it kay to eat my sandwich
You: youre making me hungry
Stranger: :P well you wil be eating something soon ;)
You: hahaha
Stranger: do you ever tease yourself while you read?
Stranger: too feel good to the max?
Stranger: even if you don't show
You: no i just let it feel sore down there
You: throbing
Stranger: haha your such a tease
Stranger: is it throbbing rn?
You: it stopped coz u stopppped
Stranger: ugh well you were so close
Stranger: so close to my waistband
Stranger: your eyes begin to catch my bulge
Stranger: a perfect smile goes
Stranger: across your face
Stranger: your blood is rushing full of pure bliss
Stranger: your hands are sweaty
Stranger: you are trhobbing from all the teasing
Stranger: so you contnue
Stranger: your view is here iwth only my boxyers
You: damnnnnn
Stranger: then you see my bulge
Stranger: kissing each abdomen
Stranger: you want cam on my face or here?
Stranger: because I want you to feel so good
You: faceeee. i love ur reaction
You: every small breathe
Stranger: ughh yes
Stranger: you are such a tease
Stranger: makng me so tunred on
Stranger: do you think you can help me after?
You: lets see how it goes
Stranger: ok ;)
Stranger: so you were at my waistband with your lips
Stranger: questioning
Stranger: do you make the move and finally give me everything ive been wanting?
Stranger: you decide not yet
Stranger: run your finger along it then you go back to my lips
Stranger: lying right on top of me
You: tease you moreeeee <3
Stranger: and we go into another long makekout
Stranger: im practically bursting at my boxers
Stranger: but you dont care
Stranger: you can tell
Stranger: you feel it on your body as your laying on top of me
Stranger: then onve again
Stranger: I flip you over
Stranger: this time exploring a bit
Stranger: kissing your shoulder
Stranger: gently right to your collar bone
Stranger: making you really feel every breathe as yoru lungs are so tight
Stranger: your small little body is so wound up
Stranger: you can't take much more so you decide to do it yourself
Stranger: you rub your hands and fingers across your clit really quickly as you quickly inhanle
Stranger: it is so close throbbing
Stranger: but you take them off
You: but you stopped me
Stranger: just teasing them that muchh more
You: you want to be in control
Stranger: I grab your hand
Stranger: yo need to wait
Stranger: You need to wait for my mouth to finally please you fully
Stranger: you won't want to move your hand but you allow me to place it back on the bed
Stranger: where you have to hodl the covers
Stranger: im holding each breast taking turns
Stranger: mteasing you more and more than I thought I could each time
Stranger: your nipples are so hard
Stranger: sticking straight up
Stranger: right into my mouth where they brush my teeth as i gently play with them
Stranger: softly yet a little tough so it doesnt hurt
Stranger: you are having to do all you can to keep you hand from slipping back to your underwear
Stranger: slowly teasing under there
Stranger: you begin to move your hand
Stranger: but again
Stranger: I catch it
Stranger: you trhob harder and faster than you were before
You: you tease so mch i love ittt
Stranger: your body is seeming like it is yelling every muscle in your body
Stranger: just do ittt
Stranger: it weill feellll sooo goood
Stranger: just rub it a little more
Stranger: but im hokidng your hands in place iwth one of mine
Stranger: as I sense your uge and am fighitng it for you
Stranger: you can't control your short sharp breaths
Stranger: and your exhales as you are moaning
Stranger: so softly
Stranger: yet so despereatley
Stranger: I begin to notice something as my lips once agin slip down below your belly button
Stranger: your panties are getting a bit wet
Stranger: i grin and look up at you
Stranger: I see you want me to keep going down so bad but i continue to hold your hands
Stranger: Ido go down
Stranger: of shoot
Stranger: I randomly matched iwth someone else
Stranger: she has her tits out
Stranger: im sitll just holidng
Stranger: you
You: hahahahah what do you mean u matched with someone else
Stranger: another tab
You: go on let me eat first
Stranger: no
Stranger: Im gonna skip here
Stranger: dnne
Stranger: you are too aamzing
Stranger: my lips are still hovering so close as they pulled of your stomach
You: she must do all the action im here for the pussy throbing stories of yours
Stranger: right above the wetspot on your panties
Stranger: you want it so bad
Stranger: but I continue to move downward
Stranger: right to your bare thighs
Stranger: my lips land right on thm after softly kissing your panties on the way by
Stranger: you though that's what you wanted....
Stranger: but really
Stranger: It just made your urg efor more worse
Stranger: yurge for more*
Stranger: my lips are on your thigh
Stranger: slowly going to your inner thighs so perfect
Stranger: my hands up on your chest
Stranger: I feel something in your legs as I get close
Stranger: they quicker a bit
Stranger: jsut shake a little
Stranger: your hand begins to fight mine
Stranger: but I hold it down
Stranger: not allowing it to satisfy your pussy
Stranger: no matter how hard you fight i you can't get there
Stranger: liek now
Stranger: you can just brush over it yet you can't linger
You: sorry iwas distracted something in my mouth
You: from the nuttella
Stranger: as im hoding you ther all I can notice is your panties getting wetter and wetter
Stranger: its ok
Stranger: your moaning is getting more often and more often
Stranger: once again I lift my lips
Stranger: then ever so slowly
You: coz were getting on the best part
Stranger: move them to your panites
Stranger: right over them
Stranger: you can practically feel my breathe
Stranger: teasing down your clit and g spots
Stranger: you quiver again letting out a huge sigh
You: where is the g spot
You: i cant even find it
You: :(
Stranger: hopeefully we will find it in a minute ;)
Stranger: instead of kissing right down n it I smile again
Stranger: so gently rub up it with my han as I bring my face back up to yours
Stranger: our lips going to meet ocnce more
You: no
Stranger: only this time all that is racing through your mind is your pussy
You: dont kiss me
You: with vag juice on ur moth
Stranger: I will kiss you
You: noooooo
Stranger: i don't have juice yet
Stranger: I just barely kissed your pantie befre it was all wet
You: once u go down theres no coming back to my mouth
Stranger: But I still won't totally kiss you
Stranger: just one little smooch on the neck
Stranger: my hands getting as close as they have ever been
Stranger: just the edges of my fingers brishing the edges of your panties
Stranger: you can practiacally feel me going all the way
Stranger: yet instead
Stranger: I pause
Stranger: One more time
You: i still havent reciprocate
Stranger: Keep an eye on your hands making sure you don't go to please your pussy
Stranger: as I slip my boxers off
Stranger: since you know it isn't time yet no matter how much your pussy is screaming at you you woldiny jump on me as I allow you
Stranger: quickly kiss over my chist to my abs
Stranger: this time it isnt just my bulge you feel
Stranger: you feel mmy bare warm cock
Stranger: aginst your thighs as you slide down lips getting closer and closer
Stranger: you feel it pules as your pussy throbs
Stranger: seemingly made for each other
Stranger: yet I don't allwo it yet
Stranger: yout mouth is on my happy trail lips forming a kissing grin as you imagine
Stranger: finally
Stranger: you are getting down to what you pussy is really craving
Stranger: you feel it throb with your heart
Stranger: I put my hands on thour head
You: not yeeetttt
Stranger: holding your head steady
You: i need to do you first
Stranger: I make you look me in hte eyes
Stranger: I grin and say im a gentleman
Stranger: so a furiosly flip you over
Stranger: hold your hands down again
Stranger: this time go straingt to your thighs and lower abdowmne
Stranger: I notice your panties are almost soaked
Stranger: so much wetter than before
Stranger: I thin this is finally it
Stranger: your nipples are fully erect
Stranger: your pussy is so tight and wet it is throbbing harder than youve ever had
Stranger: your breath speeds up with anticipation
Stranger: as I look up at you kissing your inner thigh
Stranger: Once more I feel you quivker only more than ever before
Stranger: but you let out a sigh
Stranger: imagining it is just another tease
Stranger: im just gonna pull away leave you wanting forever
Stranger: but no
Stranger: as you close your eyes
Stranger: waiting to be left thhrobbing once again
Stranger: about to give up
Stranger: you suddenly fel it
Stranger: feel it
You: i want to be on top
You: guide me
Stranger: my fingers brushing acrossyour
Stranger: panties
Stranger: sliding them off finally
Stranger: as we flip over
Stranger: you getting right on top of me as I slip your panties onto the floor
Stranger: your legs spread on either side of me
Stranger: you are finally ready
Stranger: so excited of finally not being disappointed
Stranger: do you want to tease a littleunder your blanket as we finally make it? feel free it will add to the story if you want
Stranger: I hold your hips
Stranger: two hands as you are right on top of me
You: no i like your storyyy
Stranger: you reach down with your small little hands
Stranger: yes I will keep telling you
Stranger: it
Stranger: grab my cock and realize its been waiting as much as you
Stranger: you just feel it up and down
Stranger: fantasizing about how good it will really feel
Stranger: just lost in the moment
Stranger: it feels like perfection that will never end
Stranger: after a minute
Stranger: I take oe hand
Stranger: and finally decide
Stranger: to guide you
Stranger: I take control of my throbbing warm cock and look you in the eyes as you sit on both knees
Stranger: directly on top of me
Stranger: your eyes closed in pure bliss
Stranger: anticipation
Stranger: I take my cock
Stranger: with my other hand your body
Stranger: slowly guide it won
Stranger: down
Stranger: the tip just brusihng your throbbing pussy
Stranger: we are finally
Stranger: after everything
Stranger: both totally bare
You: is the other tab still open? :(
Stranger: exactly where we want to be
Stranger: no
Stranger: I skipped her for you
Stranger: ;)
Stranger: why do you ask?
You: i heard something just now
Stranger: as my tip just ever so slightly brusehd your pussy
Stranger: it is magic
Stranger: both of our eyes close
Stranger: we can't keeo em open
Stranger: as our eyes roolll back
Stranger: our breaths shorten
Stranger: we gsasp
Stranger: its more than youve imagined
Stranger: as I slowly rub my tip against your wet throbbing pussy
Stranger: slowly warming up
Stranger: your pussy seems to be reaching out and grabbing
Stranger: almost trying to pull me in it just want to go
Stranger: but I slowly just apply more pressure
Stranger: you just lower yourself with each inch your eyes go back further into your head
Stranger: and your exhalesrunrn into louder moans
Stranger: you sllwoly got down past the tip
Stranger: there are still 5 more inches and your tight pussy wants it all
You: what with the other sound :(
You: i cant concentrate :(
Stranger: you keep going as you feel it right up against your walls
Stranger: im sorry I have no idea
Stranger: its just me and you tho
Stranger: 5 more inches
Stranger: you just sit down even further
Stranger: 4 more
Stranger: it alread fells like heaven
Stranger: youre pussy is just gushing now
Stranger: just wants to lubricate to go deeper
Stranger: I go out after 3 inches in
Stranger: youve only gone halfway
Stranger: back in nice and slow
Stranger: as you exhale moaning with me
Stranger: as finally Im getting to enjoy your whole perfection
Stranger: as we become truly one
Stranger: you are up to five inches
Stranger: feeling so full and like you can't go
Stranger: but you push yourself all this anticipation building you up wanting to take it all
Stranger: finally
Stranger: you succeded
Stranger: you feel it up in your small body and it is pure completion
Stranger: you feel it right against your walls
Stranger: and wiggle in pleasure
Stranger: so warm
Stranger: so hard
Stranger: so tight
Stranger: so perfect
Stranger: you just go up feeling it slide along
Stranger: then back down
Stranger: youre still fully stretching and loving every second
Stranger: you on tom of me hands on your hips
Stranger: encouraging you to go faster
Stranger: you are slowly speeding up
Stranger: moaning
Stranger: more and more as we go faster
Stranger: just gasping for ari yet loving it all
Stranger: never wanitng to end
Stranger: then i begin to move my hips
Stranger: thristing
Stranger: somehow going deper than you though possible
Stranger: you know what we finally find?
Stranger: i ht something you neer have felt before
Stranger: it sends electricity througoutyour whole body like youve never felt before
Stranger: you shake
Stranger: as I thrust it happends again
Stranger: you are in awe
Stranger: pure pleasure
Stranger: just feeling us work as one
Stranger: so deep it is your G-spot
Stranger: every ride up and down is like a new snensation
Stranger: you can't stop
Stranger: it is the best feeling in the world as you feel it perfectly and me smiling up in bliss a tyou rding me
Stranger: your moaninng gets uncontrollable b
Stranger: but you don't care
Stranger: you just want more
Stranger: so I slow down
Stranger: then go nice and gentle
Stranger: as your breathing settles I then go fast again
Stranger: shocking you
Stranger: with that shivering g spot
Stranger: again your back to maoning so muucchh
Stranger: you can''t stop
Stranger: you are feeling as if your pussy is throbbing again
Stranger: youve never had this feeling or beeen this wet
Stranger: getting all over my cock sliding up and down
Stranger: we are running out of breath but don't care
Stranger: fater
Stranger: faster
Stranger: yes you moan
Stranger: just like that
Stranger: over and over
Stranger: felling of happiness overflowing
Stranger: screaming yesss
Stranger: it is everything you imagines
Stranger: then as we are going faster and faster you begin fto feel this new thing
You: everything and more
Stranger: yes and more
Stranger: youve never felt this before
Stranger: you feel as if your pussy isn't just throbbing but your gonna let loose
Stranger: a feeling you cant control
Stranger: you can't do anything but moan and go faster
Stranger: it feels better and better
Stranger: so your going faster and faster
Stranger: bumping up and down
Stranger: g-spot g spot gspot
Stranger: you didn't think this was possible
Stranger: then all the sudden you let one loose
Stranger: you scream as if in pain but it is pure pleasure
Stranger: you couldn't get wet boefore
Stranger: but now
Stranger: your letting it al out
Stranger: your pussy begins to gush all over
Stranger: squirting all over my cock as you go up
You: i neer tried that before
Stranger: it is so amazing
Stranger: you never triend squirting?
You: i dont think i can
Stranger: all women can if it is right i think
Stranger: some more and some less
Stranger: but you can
Stranger: did I make you wet at all?
You: when i feel i gotta pee i stop pleasuring myself
Stranger: you just need to let ygo
Stranger: that's the difference
Stranger: you feel it all building up
Stranger: then almost like you have to pee
Stranger: while your riding me
Stranger: but you don't care this tiem
Stranger: its too good
Stranger: you keep riding
Stranger: I don't stop
Stranger: then you let it all lose
Stranger: never knewo you could do it
Stranger: but let it all go almost like your beigng
Stranger: inly it feels like perfection
Stranger: you are in pure harmony
Stranger: squirting everywhere but I don't care because Im there too
Stranger: as I pull out you continue to squirt
Stranger: and on your final moan... i can't hild it
Stranger: let loose all over
Stranger: finally my rock hard cock can't take it
Stranger: it explodes shooitng cum
Stranger: all over as you are insipire for one last squirt
Stranger: as you rub your clit
Stranger: we finish together
Stranger: sighing with totall satisfctin
Stranger: it was perfect
Stranger: my first time
Stranger: and your first time squirting
Stranger: and finding your g spot
Stranger: we lie next to each other
Stranger: breathe
Stranger: look at each other
Stranger: then smile ;)
You: its so perfect
Stranger: then we fall asleep and can't wait for nect time ;)
Stranger: it is perfection :)
You: youve been rock hard for almost 2 hours
Stranger: hah ayeah.....
Stranger: its huritng my balls now lol
Stranger: so im starting to not get as hard its all pent up
Stranger: do you want to try something or are you satisfied?
You: im so satisfied i can touch myself
You: you need to do it also
You: or else it will hurt
Stranger: yes ;thank you
Stranger: do it together?
You: i dont like people seeing me when i touch myself. But i want to hear you
Stranger: did i earn it?
Stranger: it would be so amazing
Stranger: ighhh
Stranger: I can't make noise still but you can watch
You: let me turn off the lights so i can concetrate.
You: whyyy
Stranger: I have a roomate
Stranger: aww turning lights off ;(
You: hahaha how can you jack off with a room mate
Stranger: its ok I guess I just wish wait I can still see you
Stranger: because you are too sexy lol and he is sleeping
Stranger: its exciting
Stranger: daring
Stranger: edgy
Stranger: you ready bb?
You: i wish you could read some of it to me but you have a roommate :(
Stranger: yes maybe next time
Stranger: is there any way of contact?
Stranger: bfoere we do this?
Stranger: ugh your so dang hot teasing with that lip
Stranger: make me want to do this soo badd
You: our convo is too damn sexy
You: we can meet again here next week
Stranger: it is
You: its too dangerous outside
Stranger: email?
Stranger: yes
You: lets make a tag here
You: im only available every saturday.
Stranger: my email is [email protected]
Stranger: saturdays are best for me
Stranger: email for time?
Stranger: every sat is different for me
You: 2AM your time?
Stranger: 1AM my time?
Stranger: that would be best
You: whats ur timezone?
Stranger: Central
You: hmm whats our tag
Stranger: first timers"
Stranger: ?
Stranger: first timers
You: its too common
Stranger: what then?
You: blanket
Stranger: ok
You: can u check if theres similar
You: on your other tab while sexting with me
Stranger: sure
Stranger: didn't fine anything
Stranger: blanket
Stranger: 1am
Stranger: Saturday
You: what time is it now?
Stranger: 6:55
You: am?
Stranger: yes lol
You: you didnt sleep?!
Stranger: haha no
You: im sorry hahahha
Stranger: ive never done this and you were too perfect and you wanted to keep going haha
Stranger: so 1AM next saturday again?
You: wait let me set a reminder
Stranger: ok
Stranger: then we finsih off to make it memorable?
You: haha okay you can only here me okay
You: i need to concentrate
You: to find that freaking g spoty
Stranger: please to
Stranger: do*
Stranger: I will try my best without seeing you
Stranger: what do you want to see from me?
Stranger: face or my cock bb?
Stranger: yes bb tase it make it so wet for me
Stranger: tell me when your getting close with thumbs up
Stranger: im so hard for u rn
Stranger: if you can talk and tell me when your close ill cum with you
Stranger: yes find that g spot bb
Stranger: fast n slow
Stranger: deep strokes bb
Stranger: show me ur face if you can bb
Stranger: mmm im sooo hardd
Stranger: ready whenver you are bb
Stranger: get soo wet fro me
Stranger: so I can go nice and deeo
Stranger: scraping those walls
Stranger: and say yes bb when your close an dI should go
Stranger: ride me bb
Stranger: nice and fast then slow
Stranger: fast for a bit
Stranger: then faster then slowww
Stranger: im edging so hard for you bb so close
Stranger: take it niceand deep bb
Stranger: im so close to cumming bb
Stranger: are you?
Stranger: answer real quik sexy
Stranger: i can't hold much longer
Stranger: im about to cum
Stranger: did you cum bb?
Stranger: ready for me?
Stranger: thumbs up or say yes or type bb
Stranger: I wanna cum for you
You: soooo hot <3
Stranger: you too ;)
Stranger: wich you could see how much that was for you
You: sorry i didnt see ur chat
You: i was so focused
You: go clean an dsleep all sunday okay
Stranger: haha thank you
Stranger: do you finsih good?
You: i dont know if its done coz its still throbing
You: you know i cant squirt
Stranger: ;)
Stranger: well I hope you had a great night
Stranger: im gonna get some sleep now :)
You: go on then good morning haha byeee
Stranger: bye ;)
Stranger has disconnected.
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ok and i know yr on break so dont feel pressured to answer or anything!! and im sorry for writing a whole novel in yr inbox, i was trying to figure out how they might build up to actual penetrative sex and i got rlly invested 😳
omg do you know how much i love you!!!!!! I hope EVERYONE clicks on the read more because you are the best anon!!!!! I bolded and underlined my favorite bits and wrote a tiny thing at the end because you’re the BEST. I haven’t felt this rush-inspired in such a long time!!! Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank youuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!
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becky i was thinking ab yr nj humiliation drafts ([one] [two] [three] [four] [five] [six]) and how they might progress and i started thinking ab rope bondage and how at first she was too nervous to touch him but once she gets more comfortable its all she wants to do!! but hes worried bc of how restrained/repressed shes been in the past and to keep her from jumping the gun he starts tieing her up?? (1/5)
and its small things at first like restraining her hands behind her back so she wont touch him or herself while he makes himself cum (and then maybe if shes good and doesnt complain he’ll let her ride his fingers to get off, hers still tied behind her back. or if hes feeling mean he makes her grind herself against a pillow or the arm of his couch while he watches) (2/5)
and some mornings he’ll have her come over and strip so he can tie her up and then redress over the knots and spend the rest of the day like that under her clothes (esp patterns where the ropes pull straight up between her legs) and when he takes them off at the end of the day and hes rubbing her down where the skin mightve chaffed shes way more affected than she thought she’d be and comes untouched? (3/5)
and then one day when they both have a free day he spiral ties her legs and restrains her arms behind her and then after he makes sure shes comfortable and knows her limits he just- leans back on the bed and starts reading his book like she isnt tied up and at his mercy right next to him? (4/5)
and when he finally puts down his book after what feels like forever instead of doing anything right away he throws back to how this all started and tells her if she wants him to touch her tonight shes going to have to tell him exactly what she wants from him in excruciating detail. and before she can even think about it, this barely coherent, desperate plea for him to just fuck her escapes. and then after shes calmed down and can speak properly he does exactly as she asks. (5/5)
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You’re nearly in tears when Namjoon puts his book down - finally, fucking finally. You hate crying in front of anyone because there’s always so much snot that goes into production. It’s the furthest thing from pretty or ladylike or decent. You don’t want to show Namjoon that side of you just yet.
There is an ache that’s been building at your core for quite some time that’s exacerbated by the numbness you feel at your legs and hands. It’s not the most uncomfortable thing in the world, but people have a tendency to overlook the importance of fidgeting in every day life. You know that you certainly didn’t know how much you missed simple movement until Namjoon tied you up and allowed you to “relax” for a hot second.
At first it felt fine - good even. He asked you a million questions about your comfort, and it just felt like you were laying down. And you might have been able sleep were it not for the itch on your nose that bloomed unexpectedly.
It’s the small things in life that set you off, and fixation over a small itch made you desire free hands like nothing else. The only way you could get over it was to focus on Namjoon reading silently at his desk, feet propped up as he concentrated on the book before him.
He looked so good, so perfect - all long limbs and careless expression of height for no reason. His fingers turned a page and your mouth went dry. You had never been jealous of paper before in your life.
You could have begged him to scratch your nose for you, but it seemed like such a silly reason to interrupt his reading. And it wasn’t until he made eye contact that you were pushed into some weird territory of desire. But Namjoon didn’t stop reading. You knew he was actively absorbing whatever it was he was reading because he had his literature face on - scrunched eyebrows that moved expressively as he took in the text.
Your boyfriend is a pervert, but so are you. By the time your mind has sent you to and from four different fantasy trips, each involving Namjoon’s pretty cock, your lips are dry from sucking in too much air. It’s a sharp contrast to the way your panties feel.
He puts his book down, and your heart races.
“You’re so obvious,” he says, eyes dripping with fondness.
“I’m not hiding anything,” you tell him, sincere and horny. “I want you so bad.”
And Namjoon is overjoyed really, and so, so proud that you’ve come this far. You admit things to him, but more importantly, to yourself without shame. You’re the same woman he met, but he’s pretty sure you’re a bit happier.
Namjoon pushes because that’s what he’s good at.
“I can tell,” he replies, undoing a few buttons of his shirt. He’s about ninety-nine percent sure he’s going to make you cum tonight. “But I’m not going to touch you until you’re more specific.”
You moan, biting your lip as your arousal grinds a heavy ax on your core.
“You need to tell me every, little detail,” Namjoon orders, “or I’m not doing anything.”
It’s excruciating the way you open your lips for nothing to come out. Speak, your mind begs. You’ve just had four delicious fantasies for material, and yet there’s a disconnect between your mind and your mouth. All you can think about is the lump in his pants covering his cock, and the way that cock felt in your dreams.
And you’ve done everything with him except actual, vaginal, penetrative sex. Namjoon makes your jaw hurt and your throat raw whenever you suck at him, and not a day goes by when you don’t think about how sore your vagina would feel with him stretching you out. Just two of his fingers feel like the end of the world for you.
Despite your reservations about penetration, you want to experience it. You want Namjoon to experience it. You’ve watched so much porn together - you seated on his lap with one of his long fingers shoved up your pussy while the two of you viewed some girl getting pounded by a well-endowed man. Every time you pictured Namjoon would one day try fucking you just like that.
A whine escapes your throat as the images are too clear in your mind. Namjoon has you face down on the bed in your fantasy, spreading apart your asscheeks with two hands to scrutinize your holes. He’s picking one to fuck and settles on rubbing his cock against your filthy slit weeping with arousal.
Namjoon in real life is patient as he sees you working up the courage. You waited for him as he read, and he could most certainly wait for you.
“Fuck me,” you whisper, and the expletive sounds like a gunshot even though your tone is softer than feathers. You close your eyes. “F-fuck me… ngh.” And in your head, the fantasy of Namjoon sinking in and using you until he’s satisfied play out again and again until the only things that come out of your mouth are sad little begs.
Namjoon still waits, taking in the show you’re putting on for him because it’s not every day you fantasize about him right in front of his eyes. He likes to watch you think things through.
You take long, shuttering gasps of air to calm the fuck down because you need to talk if any of this had a snowball’s chance in hell of coming true. And after some tens of seconds go by where the only thing you do is think of absolutely nothing, you are finally able to open your eyes and dislodge the stopper between brain and mouth.
“I wish you would untie me first,” you start. It’s not a question or a request. “Then undress me. Undress yourself. Touch me.”
“Slow down,” Namjoon chuckles. “You’re skipping all the good stuff.”
“All I want is for you to spread me open with those big hands of yours and shove your cock in whatever hole you want,” you continue as if he never said anything. You didn’t care about going through what he wanted because this is your fantasy, and he’s just here for the ride.
“Keep going.”
Good, you think. Namjoon is playing along.
“You’re going to choose my pussy.”
“Interesting that I have no say in my own choice.”
“Shut up.”
Namjoon’s heart seems to stutter in its beating, and he can tell you’re also surprised by your own outburst. He’s almost scared that you’re going to backtrack and take it back, because you were doing so good so far.
“Um,” you pause, “yeah… shut up.”
He can’t help but to smile when you forge ahead, and he zips his lips like the obedient boyfriend he wants to be for you.
“You go in slow just to test me. First the tip to see if I can take it at all. And then you push right in even though it feels like I’m going to spit you out.”
This is exhilarating. Your mind provides words for you easily, as if you’re lying down in bed with your phone in hand typing out something naughty for Namjoon. It feels just like that moment of freedom, and you relish it.
“You don’t go slow,” you say with a laugh. “You’re fucking me for you.”
“Stop right there,” Namjoon interrupts. “I’m going to untie you.”
“Thank you.”
It doesn’t take long for Namjoon to remove the ties and toss them off the bed. He massages your arms and legs to help with the circulation and holds you as you shake from the pins and needles shooting its unpleasantness up and down your body.
“Is it going to be tonight?” Namjoon asks. “Because we don’t have to.”
You smile, a little teary because the pain was real after the ties were loosened. “I really want it to be tonight.”
Namjoon kisses your forehead.
“Okay.”
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photonconductor · 7 years
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i dont have an ao3 but shout out to my homeboys
once upon there was a gay on th e moon bc of a really lovng alternate au idea where elc turened BAD and klaus had a 1000 year nap and it'd take too long to fucking explain this so just roll with it ok. this gay--its elcrest btw hes also a Bad Boy now; he rly likes hot topic and thinks those t shirts with sarcastic sayings are actually rly funny but we all know they aren't--was feleing emo bc he couldn't see his bf xen o bc he betrayed him. so he stayed in his room whining abt how fgay he was until eve showed up
"hey whats wrong elc mother is here for u" even tho shes like 5000 years old and looks like shes 2 and also a rock (but im not rockist guys i promise). elc looked at her with his optics shining in the pale argentate light. good thing hes the seme here bc otherwise he'd start crying. in reality he rly wanted to fucking bone xeno bc obviously they had a lot of gay sex b4 they tried to kkill his mom once nad staring at rocks all day kinda sucks.
a;so burnign alive but hes kind of over that phase.
"im sad my bf left me for 1000 years can i pls go back to earth my raging hard on can't be satisfied bc rocks. my dicks not a jack hammer even tho im jacking it all the time (thats what guys do right bitch i dont know)" eve was so offended she put her hands on her giant rock self thats not just herself. its rly fucking complicated shut up u came here for the gay sex not instructibles on how physical forms manifest.
"we dont say ROCKS in this household young man!!!!"
"BUT MOOOMMMMM sorry i forgot to turn off my seme voice lemme adjust my mic it happens when my dick is hard" elcrest coughed twice "ok sounds good, BUT MOM I RLY NEED TO NUT. YOU KNOW NUT I'M SAYING... ITS ALL OR NUTTING BUT MOSTLY NUTTING IN XENO'S SWEET HOT BUNS"
"stop talking abt nuts u disgusting boy fine, god, if u leave me alone u gaylord"
and then eve punched him so hard in the dick that elcrest landed on earth in a giatn crater. how hes still alive is bc he still had some continues left like in mario even though this is a srpg game. once elc recovered he struck a pose and laughed evilly while twirling his mustache.
"finally...... I have RETURNED for xeno's hot man breasts! the world cannot stop me now!!" he cackly cackkled and quickly ripped off the fake mustache he put on just for this one scene. then elc went on a quest to find where klaus was and bc the author is too lazy to write any tansitional scenes.
elc found him chilling in his bed reading a book that was called Sweets and You: Do sweets make u inherantly Gay? elcrest made the PFFT noise. ofc they make u gay, fuckiing idiot book. he could write better than that author. in fact, elcrest was gonna do that when he got home bc obviously if this trash is published any shit elc wrote would be good.
NO! he had to focus! but he couldnt stop staring at xenos man boobs and felt his dick get hard again. elc got a nose bleed too bc thats what happens in anime right. i played persona 4 i know what im about
"damn u xeno." elc said thru his nosebleed and klaus looked up bc the author cant fucking rmemeber who is klaus and who is xeno and was surprised i remmebred his name but could not remember remember the 5th of novemember
"what"
"XENO IT IS I" since h e was caught red handed he just kickflipped through the window anyway. he did a sick flip then stood in the middle of klauses room. klaus made a gay gaspp
"alto! what are u doing hre!?" klaus said, bc in this AU that was his codename. elc wanted to be currently doing that but eve said no. fuck his mom. except please dont bc i know you sick fucks are thinking abt it.
"I HAVE COME TO BRING YOU BACK TO THE GAY SIDE, XENO WE HAVE COOKIES. bc i really miss that bammin slammin bootilicious sex we used 2 have and you are in fact bammin slammin bootilicious. also have u heard the word and gospel of our savior mother" elc said gayly
"dude no please stop preaching in my house im a changed man now" xeno pirouetted out of bed
"cmon man im ur seme u cant refuse we made like a yaoi blood oath u cant go back on ur word" elc pushed him back on thebed bc he'd have his ass yet anyway so no real use getting up. bc what is consent anyway hes Bad
"o shit really huh" klaus paused in thougt and bad elc laughed evilly. his plan was working!! all he had 2 do was the final touches! i mean besides touching xenos dick or whatever we're not yet. sorry u have to suffer for ten more paragraphs for sweat boy on boy. elc then turned around an produced a kitty keyboard from the recesses of his coat tails. xeno made the :O face and elc sat down bc playing while standing rly fuckin g sucks
"i wrote this for u on the moon so you'll be hypnotized by my sick beats" then he pulled the mic out of the keyboard and made a sick beatbox noise. No i dont know what the fuck it sounds like just google it. klaus blushued and made another gay gasp and elc made the >:3 face
then be started to play the piano keyboard. he was playing cruel angel thesis, their theme song that they had decided at 1am while xeno was drunk af.  it was their theme song despite none of them speaking fucking japanese but they just felt it in their SOULS. it was rly gay. elc was going so fucking hARD that his hard on was getting 40 hard ons. and thats four tens the hard ons. and its rad.
except the ebst part was it was all in meows so it spoke 2 klaus' furry soul.
klaus nyaed softly in surprise and suddenly all his memories of being xneo were restored!!! he gave into the desire that he craved in his soul and opened his big man arms bc for some reaon everyone thinks dudes are thirsty af. dont ask me why
"elc1!1 pls take me!! but be gentle my ass hasnt been ravaged in 1000 years (sick reference to hilda and altos magical wedding night by sorunort like, comment, subscribe for more sick referneces like this one)" xeno mewled like afucking furry and elc nodded once. xeno walked up to elc an touched his man boob sensually even tho xeno is like 60 feet taller than elc just imagine it ok
elc now has sunglasses just bc i think its a funny image
"xeno...... lets do it" elc said softly
"o h elc senpai......." xeno meowed
"and i'll keep my sunglasses on bc i hate the sun #moonlifeforever" and xeno gayzed into his emotion shields sensuallyier. then elc kissed him passionately and their tongues battled for dominance but we all know klaus is a fucking bottom bitch as stated in hilda and altos magical wedding night by sorunort paragraph 17 and 18 bc it was a dialogue.
then elc ripped off his clothes bc hes fucking JACKED and jACKED OFF and xeno gay gasped forlike the third time in this fic. elc was fuckign shredded. legends told of his abs but this time it was real. almost like the fact that shaved ice flavors dont actually exists the syrup is just food coloring.  his dong dangled in the breeze and xeno was turned tf on so he took off his clothes too bc hes not a god damn animal god whats wrong with u elc.
except elc didnt take off the sunglasses like he promised so those were still on dont worry readers i got you covered.
"get on ur knees dude and give me a wet willy but like on my dick" elc demanded
"wtf no"
"dude u cant say no its a smutfic"
"ok yeah i guess i kinda do like sucking dick or somethign"
"PREPARE TO EAT YOUR LAST DICK, XENO" elc cackcled and then xeno succed his dick like no tomorrow. elc practically creamed right there bc he couldnt get his rocks off on the moon for 1000 years (hahaha no im not gonna stop makign rock jokes). also xeno has no gagreflex bc he succed dick like a thousand times. once that was over elc just punched his dick in xenos hot cross buns and xeno meowed again
"why are u still a furry after 1000 years" elc asked but continued to Ravage The Promised Ass
"do u nyat like it erucu-kun???" xeno purred and elc shook his head
"no ur still banging its ok"
NUT THEN (i wanted to write but but i typoed and decided to keep it its funnier this way) xenos ass started 2 glow with a new holy light
"WHAT tHE FUCK" elc yelled
"my ass was actually the only way we could turn u good again! the more u fuck me the gooder u are!" and elc gasped gayily! no! his plan was working against him! he could alredy feel the goodness (haha get it bc fucking is hot i guess) turning him good! he had 2 pull out but found he couldnt. xeno was just too bammin slammin bootlicious
"HOW DARE YOU TRICK, I, ELCREST THE CONDICKTOR" he roared and xeno was tuned on again bc roaring is prolly a furry thign im not a furry im sorry
"it was for ur own good elc bc i love you!" xeno dokied so hard there were shoujo sparkles and even elc got shoujo sparkles. his azure optics glew like stella glow and u could almost see constellations in them. except there were sunglasses so u couldnt actually see it but the reader can. xneo was right. he was his tru  love..... not the Mother..... his mom was lame anyway all she did was talk to rocks
"xeno.............." elc said wiwstfully before bangin xeno harder. their bangin was so intense everyone could hear it in the kngihts barraks. it was so loud that even ana in her coma woke up for like a second to be like The Gays are At It Again. soon enough the banging was sucessful. elc glew in a beautiful magical girl ligtht and he was become good again. xeno shed a single tear but licked it away
"im cured! xeno ur ass did it! plus that was hot" elc smiled and im pretty sure xeno cried bc look at that man. hes so beautiful. please take the $2 from my purse. they embraced in a gay way. it was cute and xeno did a thumbs up and ana's face appeared at 20% opacity in the bg and she was also winking
"elc i am so glad u are back and i love u" then they made out. for a rly long time too bc theyre so fucking GAY good lord how could stella glow keep this under wraps. then they decidd they had to punch eve in the rock bc she was a dickw hile elc was being emo and stuff. BUT FIRST, xeno got porked lke 80 more times b4 then bc 1000 years does a lot do u.
the end remember to like, comment, subscribe for more fics like this one, seeya
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crispyninjadonut · 7 years
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Keeper Group Chat Chapter 2
A/n hey guys sorry I don't have a schedule set up for updating I procrastinate and end up writing this on notes going to and from class XD  Enjoy
  As always under the cut for people that don't want to read (but why wouldn't you)
Linh: fitz did you have that science test yet Fitz: yeah earlier today Linh: how hard was it Fitz: define hard Fitz: like bash head against the wall hard Linh: definitely not that hard hopefully Fitz: yeah it wasn’t tHaT hard Linh: phew Sophie: hey guys Fitz: yo soph Linh: how was your morning Sophie: tiring Fitz: I don’t blame you Linh: yeah Sophie: I wonder where everyone else is Fitz: probs getting to class Linh: yeah doesn’t biana have maths across the school next? Sophie: tru Fitz: yep Sophie: I am sooooo ready for lunch Linh: saaaame Fitz: gtg bells about to ring Linh: me too Sophie: bye
Keefe: I have the fear Biana: you okay Keefe Keefe: t h e l u n c h l i n e Dex: oh my god Biana: how long have we been going to this school Tam: too long Biana: -_- Biana: my point is that you’ve gone through the lunch line before stop being so dramatic Dex: ohhhhhh Dex: she told you Keefe: if i die you aren’t getting any of my stuff Biana: just go! God Tam: see you at the table Dex: ugghhhh why does my locker have to be so far away Biana: c'mon Dex stop talking more walking Dex: I’m coming sheesh
Sophie: I don’t wanna go to maaaaath Fitz: c'mon that’s our only class together Keefe: I see why you don’t wanna go Fitz: -_- Keefe: ALLL byyyy myyyseeeeelf Keefe: don’t wannaaaa beeee Biana: oh my god Sophie: I know Tam: keefe could you shut up Keefe: nevverrrrr Fitz: uhoh Biana: the bells gonna ring you better shut up Sophie: if you make my phone go off in class Ill kill you Fitz: hahah HAHA Fitz: go to class Sophie: I swear if you are ditching again Keefe: me? Pfft Keefe: no way Biana: -_- Keefe: maybe a little Fitz: KEEFE Biana: you are so getting detention Fitz: don’t skip the detention Keefe: of course I’m gonna skip the detention Sophie: Keefe no Keefe: Keefe yes Tam: I do not condone this Keefe: hahaha see ya later guys Fitz: are you serious
Dex: FREEEDOOOOOOM Linh: yep Biana: let’s freaking go Im ready Sophie: where is my bus Keefe: with all the other busses Sophie: thanks Keefe Fitz: UGH I’ve got so much homework Dex: haha sucks to suck Fitz: what Dex: forget it Sophie: I CANT GIND MY BUS Biana: noooooooo Keefe: Foster it’s right over there Sophie: where the heck is that Keefe: the front Sophie: whys it over there Linh: go before you miss it Dex: oh my god soph XD Fitz: what are we gonna do with you Biana: :P Sophie: ha ha ha Sophie: ha ha ha haaaaa Sophie: -_- Dex: it’s okay Sophie: I’m disowning all of you Biana: you do that Sophie: jk jk love you guys Tam: I’m trying to do homework can you guys SHUT UP Keefe: you can’t tell us what to do bangs boy Biana: so what do you guys want to do on the ride home Dex: cry Keefe: um Dex: ;-; Linh: you okay there Dex: nO Fitz: do you want to talk about it Dex: no I’m just never okay Sophie; IM NOOOT OKKAAAAYYY Sophie: IM NOT OKAAAYYYYYYY Biana: sophie stap Sophie: ok I’m good Keefe: that happened Fitz: indeed Biana: I see the house on the horizon Fitz: woot let’s go Keefe: see ya guys Sophie: byyyye Dex: ughh five more stops Dex: I’m gonna do a little homework Sophie: ok talk to ya later Dex Keefe: bye!! Sophie: and then there were 2 Keefe: make that 1 my stop is in a minute Sophie: ugggggggggggg Sophie: alllll by myyyyyseeeelllllllfffff Sophie: fine I’ll do homework then
Sophie: HOMEWORK SUCKS Linh: I feel you Sophie: math Sophie: I hate math Dex: *maths Sophie: yeah yeah whatever Biana: XD Fitz: you having trouble Sophie: AM I HAVING TROUBLE Fitz: *? Fitz: need some help Sophie: yea Fitz: FaceTime me I’ll help Sophie: omg thanks Dex: hey linh do you get the music homework cause I don’t Linh: what part Dex: every part Linh: well that’s helpful Dex: wait google is being helpful Linh: okay Linh: am I being replaced by a computer? Biana: XD Dex: nooooo Dex: it’s just that google understands me Linh: XD okay
Keefe: it is already dark out!!! Tam: yeah that happens Keefe: but I have practiiiiiice Tam: deal with it Keefe: sigh Keefe: oh I see how it is Keefe: your just gonna leave me here with my boredom Keefe: ugghgggggggghhh your all so boring
Biana: hahaha sorry Keefe Keefe: -_- Biana: :P Keefe: hey hey did you know Biana: the more you KNOWWW Keefe: did you know that how to save a life is ten years old now Biana: WHAT Biana: ARE YOU SERIOUS Keefe: yep Biana: man I feel old Keefe: I know right Biana: wooowwww Biana: welp I gotta go Keefe: ugh just leave me be Biana: XD see ya
Dex: I STILL DONT UNDERSTAND THIS MUSIC HOMEWORK
Sophie: hey at least its not math Dex: *maths Sophie: sigh Dex: technically it is like maths though Sophie: oh shut up Dex: XD Dex: I win Keefe: foster nobody calls it math Sophie: AMERICANS CALL IT MATH Keefe: I rest my case Sophie: ohhHHHH ITS ONN Dex: look what you did Keefe Dex: I just wanted to complain about my homework Dex: but nooooo Keefe: hehe sorry Sophie: UGH Sophie: you disgust me Keefe: I try ;) Dex: ew Sophie: omg Dex XD Dex: ^-^ Keefe: I am highly offended Biana: why am I not surprised Dex: heyy biana Dex: you have mister austin for music right Biana: yeah Dex: did you have any music homework Biana: nope we were running late Dex: are you serious Biana: sorry buddy Dex; well im gonna fail Sophie: no your not Biana: why are you taking music anyway Dex: my parents like TORTURING me Sophie: -_- Biana: cmon music isn’t that bad Dex: you know im terrible at it Sophie: your never gonna get better with that attitude Biana: yeah Dex: hmf Keefe: Guess who’s back Dex: an idiot is back Sophie: ab argumentative idiot is back Keefe: ack I am highly offended Biana: good Keefe: why do yall hate me Sophie: keefe Keefe: yah Sophie: never say y'all again Keefe: okay Dex: XD Keefe: hey Keefe: hey hey Sophie: yeah? Keefe: biana Sophie: oh Dex: XD Keefe: bianaaaaaa Biana: what is it keefe Keefe: is fitz around Biana: -_- Biana: he’s shut up in his room doing homework Keefe: ohhhh Biana:facetime him or something Keefe: I can’t he set it to do not disturb Dex: what do you want wonderboy for anyway Sophie: dEX Dex: yeah yeah don’t call him wonderboy anymore I know Sophie: :-: Biana: welp I don’t know what to tell you Keefe: tell FiTz that there’s a rugby game this saturday Biana: fine Sophie: ope Sophie: dinners ready bye! Keefe: bye foster! Dex: see ya soph Keefe: sooo Dex: I’m doing hw talk later Keefe: mkay
Biana: just told him Keefe: thanks Keefe: imma go take a nap Biana: XD okay Keefe: see ya tomorrow
 Chap 1
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survivorwakea · 5 years
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Episode 9: “Anabel back on her crackhead bullshit.” -Asya
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Justin going out after getting a self-vote. Don't trust anyone, not even yourself.
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ZACK FOUND THE FUCKING IDOL. ZACK FOUND THE FUCKING IDOL. ZACK FOUND THE FUCKING IDOL.
Me, Ben, Elmo and Zack were on a call and we all did an idol search and ZACK FOUND IT AND I SCREAMED AND ITS 3AM BUT I DONT CARE ZACK HAS A MOTHERFUCKING IDOL.
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Oh sweet fucking jesus.
So I get off call with Elmo, Ben and Zack and Zack is like hieee can we call? and im like okay? I have absolutely no idea what to expect at all. He's like I have something to tell u, at this point I'm like fuck this sounds like bad bad news or good news but idk if im mentally stable enough to handle either. He tells me he has the fucking premerge idol and that he got it on his first run. I'm sat there basically starting to cry like oh my god zack I cannot believe this right now. and he's like no there's more. My stomach fucking drops. He tells me Elmo knows as well. I'm like ok sis what the fuck. He had to tell Elmo because it was his first go and him and Elmo were sharing guesses. Okay I guess I understand. But he also said something like Elmo said not to tell me. Which really does have me thinking. I thought me and Elmo had a lot more open communication now, and the fact he didn't want to tell me something like this is a reason as to why I have been hesitant to talk game with him. But according to Zack he also said he doesn't think I would leak so maybe he was just thinking about not wanting too many people to know. I need to have a chat with Elmo tomorrow so we can clear some stuff up so I can know better where I stand, or just have Elmo lie to my face which I end up finding out later down the line when he inevitably tries to vote me out again. But oh how ironic it would be if I could convince Zack to use the idol on me to get Elmo out. Please note ~ I don't dislike Elmo, in fact I adore him. I just see me and him as very similar players and therefore I feel he would be one of my main competitions especially as this game gets further on. I just have a lot of feelings and a lot of things to discuss right now
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I've had so much to think about the last couple hours my mind is spinning. Justin voted out because of his own dumbass move to tell Johnny about his self-vote, like that's not a death wish waiting to happen. Hell I would've been on board with voting Justin had I known. He was a clear threat but I was planning on waiting 1 more tribal before trying to get him out. I was lied to by a lot of people, maybe 2 tribals in a row now which leaves me shaking and scrambling. Where the fuck do I stand with any of these people? Zack who I adore with all my heart where do I stand with you baby? I know you said you would use your idols on me and help get us both to the final. But I am scared, I am so so scared you could be lying to me. You said it yourself earlier you are so used to lying to people in this game that if someone asked if your name was Zack, you'd tell them it wasn't. I think it would hurt me more if you told me about your premerge idol and said you'd get us both to the end and then voted me out more than if you never told me anything at all. Did you tell me this because you're worried about your position or because you genuinely meant it? Remember I could be on the jury. Asya, my sweetness in this game. We didn't talk for a full day after Joey got voted out. It was only when I decided to own up to the fact I wrote her name down tonight that we opened a discussion and I feel we cleared the air a bit, both of us felt we had no choice when writing down each other's names. I hope things improve between us and we can work together again, however you have appeared to be inactive which kind of scares me. Johnny having kept the vote of Justin from me after I told him I felt I wasn't being listened to with the people I was aligned with has kinda rubbed me the wrong way since I very heavily hinted I wanted Justin out, but you can't be sayin those kinda things to people you're aligned with cause they could so easily turn on you. Although I had mentioned it to Zack and I think Zack would've been down as well so that was my plan for a couple tribals ahead. Do you really want to work with me or has this all been lies? Ben I do not trust as far as I can throw him right now. After Zack gets the idol he conveniently says he forgot to mention that he landed on one of the bonus spots on the way to the idol and got an extra vote. Okay bitch boy how the fuck does that just accidentally slip your mind? Do not trust one bit right now, once he realises he's on the bottom he's definitely gonna flee like fuck. Has a soothing voice though, I enjoy being on call. He's kinda funny, even if he does make Zack mad by the fact he's getting comfortable with us and calling us bitches. Bodhi is just a lying fucker and I want him out ASAP, he should've been the person we got out or at least tried to instead of Asya but whatever, there's always next time. Lily I have no idea what the fuck is going on in her head right now, she messaged me with some half hearted apology and then wants to create a group of people to work together but when I asked who she wanted to involve she has just ignored me, whatever your time will be up soon enough unless I try to drag u to the end with me so I have a goat since I haven't seen u do much other than win like 1 immunity challenge. Jared I wanna work with but idk how much trust is there, plus he's a strong player and I feel could do well so I want him out kinda soon oopsie. But who knows, if we start working together maybe it's something that could work out for us. Sometimes competition is good. Anabel a cutie but also a massive liability, never know what's going on with her and where she truly stands with anyone. I wish she would just be properly up front with me about who she's close with. Wish she spoke more game to me than she actually does. Elmo I've already wrote down a lot about how I feel about you but ya I love u so much I just think you're such a threat to me and there could be a vote where if it's not you that goes home it will be me. Also where the fuck do I stand with you? Are you being open with me? It'd crush me if you weren't I've been trying this game with you I really have. This is long and turned into something I didn't expect it to be and its like 5am so I need sleep. So much has gone on and I've so much to think about I don't even know where to turn right now.
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i manifested that, right.. like.. i literally JUST said in my last confessional how me and chloe eventually wanted justin out and then it happened.. now, it didn't go how i would have wanted it to go, but it still went.. would i have loved to be part of that plan? duh. but i think justin leaving might be a blessing in disguise. or a huge curse. i guess we'll have to wait and see. all i have to say is this.. justin did that to his damn self. how stupid of him to tell johnny about the alliance we're in and the fact that he has a vote against him that round.. like WHAT is wrong with him.. all he had to do was keep his mouth shut and he would have been here kJGDSKS... and the fact that he literally told johnny EVERYTHING like what the fuck is wrong with you justin.. so stupid on your part and im so fucking pissed bc it fucks with my game. now.. some bigger news.. i found the merge idol?? KLHDFKLJSDKFGJL.... now i have two fucking idol. i can't believe IT. manifestation really does work. so ben, elmo and chloe all know about the merge idol because we all been helping each other find it.. and i told chloe i have the pre merge idol today. i told her elmo knows and that elmo didn't want me to tell her. i'm doing what i have to do in order to secure me spots more weeks into this game. but now this round is a speed round and i work 12-7 tomorrow so i'm gonna get no social game in really... this sucks and i just have to pray and hope they don't target me this round because i don't wanna have to use any idols yet. i really just wish this round wasn't sped up because it's really fucking with me and i hate the fact
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sorry i pressed enter before.. i hate the fact that i know i'm not gonna really be able to talk to people this round bc of work so i have to trust my allies will do everything correctly.. unlike how justin did anything he did.
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Zack found the idol and I told our alliance about the extra vote. I am ride or die with Anabel's Angels at this point
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Ignore everything I said in that last confessional. I don’t know what I’m doing. Getting Justin out was essential to moving those who I know I can trust to work with further in the game. Finally in an alliance with Jared and Johnny. I feel really solid about that. I’m continuing to not tell Elmo anything but still wanting to work with him so that’s a mood. But it sounds like my alliance along with Bodhi asya and anabel should be able to come together again and vote. But let’s find out cause I sure don’t know. Also Justin danggggg you were really coming out the gate. We gotcha but really respect how you make moves.
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wow,,, speed round,,, crazy stuff miss aj,,, lol im so stressed ab this i literally dont know what im doing. jared wants to vote out ben and honestly i kinda do too, and i would w/o hesitation if it wasnt for zack elmo and chloe. i told them my voting justin out and lying to them was a one time thing and i like desperately wanna hold true to that, but jared brings up some INCREDIBLE points. i wanna tell them i wanna vote ben but ik they wouldnt react very well.. i just feel like voting him is best for my game bc like hes potentially the person whos playing the very best and im terrified of that bc i wanna win!!!! not him!!!!! it is just. hard. ill get back to u later prolly thank u for listening :)
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so..... i lived
my heart was literally POUNDING during that tribal like i was fully prepared to drag anabel and johnny out behind me by their noses but ! i stayed ! sucks it had to be me or justin but according to chloe he may or may not have REALLY hardcore been pushing for me to go so.... the superior hawks stan won ig
oh yeah i talked to chloe. i’ve been putting it off but she messaged me and it wasn’t as bad as i thought bc as far as i’m concerned we’re even now. i want to really try to be a good ally to her. i know i have my alliance of 5 (6? are we counting lily in the alliance? she’s not physically in the chat but she’s been more of an ally to me than anabel so,) but i’m not stupid enough to think that those are gonna be the last people standing at the end. there’s always room for error. so i’m gonna do my best to work on my individual connections this round. it’s rough when these people literally just tried to send me home but we try anyways.
now. today’s issue. i literally want anabel gone So Bad. but johnny. he thinks that he has her on lock but like. if that was the case then the joey thing wouldn’t have happened (or maybe it wouldn’t have happened if the dumbass men listened to opinions other than their own but w/e). like she’s playing the game and doing it well. we’ve had two merge votes, both split down the middle almost. anabel is the ONLY person to vote on the right side both times. that doesn’t work for me. i don’t think she’s like actively targeting me because as far as i know, the facebook people kept justin’s self vote a secret from her? which means she might not have known we had the majority anyways 6-5 and she just voted him because she didn’t want me to go. and that’s all well and good, but i definitely see her being a problem for me in the later game. so. something to think about
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Trust List 3.0:
1. Asya 2. Bodhi 3. Lily 4. Johnny 5. Chloe 6. Elmo 7. Zack 8. Anabel 9. Ben
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anabel back on her crackhead bullshit. all i’ve said is that i won’t vote chloe because i gave my word and now suddenly she wants to vote chloe because johnny doesn’t want zack to go for some reason and his ass was out all day so basically he comes home two hours before the vote and starts changing shit up. i’m LIVID
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https://soundcloud.com/bodhi-small/week-8/s-SjYaD
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Ben is voted out in a 5-4-2 vote. He becomes the third member of our jury.
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dogjaws2 · 7 years
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the older i get: the more i find myself writing things about how i am getting older.. And The more I find myself saying things like, "the older I get, _____" like I've won my right to wax poetic about growing. Growth. The transition from one dimension of suffering, to another. Only in the beginning, it doesn't seem like suffering. I don't know. The older I get, the more I suffer. I just accept it now. And Parts of me still fight, but my brain is just like, "yo man that's just how it is going to be. Ok?. Ok." Accepting a reality that you don't agree with is hard. Its like your constantly hating the world and yet still choosing to live in it. The older I get, the more I realize I am just going to have to live through the shitty parts. there is a certain versatility to getting older though. where in, you stop caring so much about fitting into whatever fucking thing you were trying to fit into when you were young. Cool shit isn't really a priority anymore. Cool things become kind of like this bonus part of your life. Like oh hey wow that's really cool. Or at least that's how I feel. I feel like I used to be cool. Maybe that was an illusion. I feel like a loser now. And when I stumble into some cool shit I'm like oh dope I'm hip. What up. I don't know. I guess you become familiar with losing. Unless you're like a fucking jock or something. But You realize that the world can really fuck your shit up. It can take things from you, without asking. So you learn the hard way, that you gotta hold on to the good stuff.. even though sometimes the good stuff is slippery. Sometimes the good stuff doesn't want you to hold on to it. Where am I going with this. Fitting in. You don't put the effort into it like you used to. You're to busy to worry about fitting into some mould. Fuck the moulds man, the moulds are the devil. You want to be the cool guy with the leather jacket and cigarette, nah man that's a hollow fucking identity. With any luck, you start to develop a sort of moral integrity that acts as a compass in social situations. Should I stay and do cocaine all night with these 3 sketchy people? Or should I go home and sleep. Well lets do the math. What do I want out of life. What do I need to do tmrw. Who do I want to be? Morally speaking, is this a good idea? I don't know. The older I get, the more I realize that I have all these great ideas about how to help myself, but I never actually follow through on any of them. You know? Like I end up staying and doing the Cocaine with the 3 sketchy people. Because I cling to the fun side of things still and that's not always practical but its hard to have fun now in days and so when I have the option I'm like fuck ya. I don't know. The older I get the more I realize I don't follow through on things. Getting older has this versatility though, that's where I think I was beginning with this whole thing. Like listening to music for instance. I just have this crazy ability to listen to whatever the fuck I want, and not worry about what anybody else will think. its the effort that starts to slip, i think. i used to be stuck listening to certain genres like a sucker because i thought it had some affect on how others might view me. Seriously. Like I wanted to be perceived a certain way so I had to edit my life accordingly. I couldn't listen to country music because it would mean I'm not cool. Not that I want to listen to country music now but you know what I mean. I'll listen to anything now, because I don't feel like the music I listen to, reflects that much information about me. The only people that would judge me on my music tastes are assholes, and see then fuck those people anyways, right? And yet people are still sooo particular about their music. Like is tied into their ego. Like if you put on the wrong song, you're a loser. sometimes its like its tied into their ego. and i get that, you wanna be about your interests. You wanna seem metal or punk or- eventually you realize that there are things you need to hate, and things you dont. feelings are involuntary most of the time, but experience allows you to develop some sort of clarity in regards to when and where you want to feel stuff. at least thats what i pretend. And so I have stopped hating genres of music, because I feel like that's a waste of time. I know this guy who acts like he knows the best music. Only him. Like if you put on a song and he doesn't like it, he's like all snobby about it and its like. Fuck off. You're being an asshole. I used to be like that but man I have since then learned to appreciate a wide variety of music. I feel like the older I get, the more accepting I am of lots of things. And maybe that is because most of the things I didn't accept when I was young, I was taught not to accept. So somebody else was forming my opinion. I saw somebody else do something and I thought ok ya me too. But when you get older you start really taking stock in your individual tastes in things. You start investing in your own preferences, and its fine and fun to go your own way. When you are young, and you try to stray from the pack, people criticize you for it. I remember people saying to me, "oh you're just trying to be different" "oh Greg always has to be different" and its like, fuckin eh. I was trying to follow my own nose. I was trying to listen to myself instead of just doing what everyone else was doing but it's lonely sometimes. And that's why people always come back to their egos because they feel like it protects them from loneliness. They feel like it insulates them from being looked at as a weirdo. I invested so much time into my ego when I was a kid. Because that's what you think will help you get laid. But Its so liberating to just let go of all those expectations. I can put on spice girls in my truck and fucking blast it with the windows down and roll down the street and not even give a care. When did that happen and like how did that happen? Why was I so afraid when I was a kid. Is that just like part of it? Like you follow the group for survival, and then you realize you can survive on your own so you start celebrating that fact? anyways, i feel like i can listen to anything, freely now. and in part, that is also due to the fact that music is literally accessible from my pocket. it takes me about 34 seconds to find the song i want to listen to. and if i feel like looking for new music, there are limitless opportunities for me to discover new bands. But to be honest, half the time im just trying to remember all the songs that have slipped away from me. all the music i used to listen to, before mp3's were the norm. or at least, all the music that was on my computer, 6 computers ago. and if im not trying to trace those songs down, im looking up new songs, by those old bands. i feel like music should just stop for awhile so i can catch up on all the old stuff. it shouldnt even be an option that you can listen to a single song by itself. it should be the entire album or nothing.like a record. I should buy records. i have heard one song, by 3 million different bands. And I feel badly about that. Maybe the rest of their music is fantastic? But I'm so busy listening to 6 thousand other bands that I only have time for this one song. No that's not true actually I have tried to listen to some albums in full, and in realizing there is only one song i like, i develop a sort of hatred for the band. like, uh ok so i spent 30 mins on this shit and there's nothing catchy. This band sucks. Although I would never say that. okay so then i take back what i said about how you should have to listen to the full album. the fact that you can look up a single song and download it and sing along to it and show your friends and maybe even put it on in the car or at a party and dance to it, thats so cool. and so ya anything goes now. i was looking through the archives of old music blogs i used to visit, and found some 2006 shit and it brought me back man. 10 years ago. i found all these songs and bands that i listened to back then, but never really understood the lyrics to. But now when I listen to that music, with a better understanding of the world, it all sounds a little different. The same. But different, like I can extract more meaning from it or I can see the desperate parts more clearly. also, there was obviously this big high of nostalgia. because it reminded me of myself, back then. in 2006. i graduated in 2006 and life was so fucking different. and its fun to have an excuse to launch yourself back into those memories. some of those memories i never would have remembered had it not been for some of that music. the songs had latched onto the moments better than i had, you know? all of a sudden its like your watching this movie of yourself at 17 or 18, except its not a movie its just music but with that same amount of colour and motion. i can see my friends back then and my old house and i can feel the energy almost. i can feel where my head was at. like my brain is being put into an old shell of itself, but it expands and fits into it like a glove. like ice cubes freezing into a tray. and im there. i think everyone in the world has a love affair for the music from their youth. its got this really sad poetic glow to it, that you can only see when your looking at it from where you are now. there is a song somewhere that has lyrics about something like that "how you can only see the magic password when your looking at it backwards, or through a rear view mirror" or something like that i dont know. and i like that idea in itself, too. i like that idea of reflection. mainly because im at an age where it still feels fun, and not forced. im 28 so its kind of a stretch for me to sit there in a rocking chair and recall my teenage years. i see older people talk about when they where young and its depressing because they are so fucking far away from those days. its literally been a lifetime since they've done some of the shit they talk about. my youngness doesn't feel out of reach. and maybe im delusional because you obviously cant travel back in time, but it still kinda feels like i can talk about it without people rolling their eyes at me. for the record, i do like hearing older people talk about their youth, i know i will get old too. and i dont mean to sound like a hypocrite but. now that i am older. ish. 28. i can listen to anything i want. and that same sort of freedom can be translated to other parts of my life as well. i can eat what i want. i can say what i want. both obviously have repercussions, but nobody will stop me. anything goes for me right now. i do have some financial limitations, and presently, some legal limitations, but nobody is telling me not to have chocolate cake for breakfast. nobody is telling me i can't talk about how trippy the human eye ball is. in fact, i've made it so that the people i spend most of my time with, accept most of the things i do and say. i've surrounded myself with friends that even encourage me. they support my ramblings. they think its cool that i eat chocolate cake. if they didnt think it was cool. i wouldnt hang out with them. Instead of vice versa. one thing i do care about still, is how i dress. it gives me great anxiety to get on the bus in a dirty shirt. i still have trouble finding pants that fit. i am self conscious about how i walk. i can't seem to stop worrying about my physical appearance. high school was way worse, but i just can't shake the feeling that people are paying attention to my outfits or my facial hair or my skinny elbows or my really skinny legs god do i hate my skinny fucking legs. And this is just me being honest. I fucking wish I didn't feel this way oh my god I wish I could just put on pants and a t shirt but nothing fucking fits properly. I see these people who walk into a store and grab the first shirt they see and it fits. I'm like woah how did you do that. Being tall and lanky is a fucking curse when it comes to clothing. maybe this is reflective of my own interest in others physicality. maybe it shows that i am still interested in what other people wear. if i can change my outward perspective, maybe i can change my inward perspective. im gonna work on that. it takes time to learn things about yourself. so much of your young life is spent just doing things because you want to. when you start to figure out why you want to do something. thats when things become complicated. then you develop this ability to feel guilty about your decisions. when you are young, you can avoid all that sort of emotional, moral, responsibility. but when you are older,ish, 28. you don't just see your face or your body in the mirror you see this whole entire life. you see everything its connected to, you see last night and you see the meeting you have tmrw morning and you see this fucking bill you really have to pay but you just cant afford it because you spent all your money on alcohol. again. I guess sometimes you can get away with a good hair day. sometimes you can be on some fucking weird trip that allows you to look in the mirror with confidence. and in those moments, its just a mirror. its just some shiny thing that lets you see how you look. maybe for that moment, you look how you want. sometimes you look in the mirror and you are content. but most of the time, you want something from yourself. when i think about the freedom i have now, vs the freedom i had when i was a kid, i stand on a fence. nobody tells me what to do anymore, but that is also kind of the scary part. i think that freedom to make your own decisions is much more important though, because that's where the individual begins. I miss having my dinner made for me and my food paid for but like i have way more options now. being young, i tried so hard to be this cool guy, that i wasn't even really myself. it was like i was creating a video game character. i was so into myself, that i could barely understand things that didn't somehow have to do with me. like a sunset. i saw it, but i wanted it to be about me somehow. i wanted someone to know i was seeing it or i had to be with someone to prove it was there, maybe? now i have found that i can experience moments in life, by myself and i can let them change me on their own. and that can be my interaction. that is enough on its own. But im not on some conquest to be lonely here either, thats not what im saying. even in moments with people, like the man at the store who i talk to for five minutes. i know ill never see him again and i know he cant do anything for me or my image or whatever, but i actually enjoy talking to him and learning about whatever the fuck it is hes saying. does that make sense? i dont need anything from it. i just enjoy the experience itself. there is that versatility again, like the music. i can listen to anything i want to right now and if someone was to look at me and say, "greg are you fucking listening to dmx," i would say fuck you man this music is what i want to listen to. and i would have conviction saying that. because i believe it. on that front, i have complete freedom. i feel like i can listen to anything. but my favourite thing to listen to, still seems to be, the music that i grew up with. Weird.
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sleepy90 · 7 years
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A long steak.
It was the end of April and fat girl season had just ended so it was time to get rid of the bbw and find an active tall sporty girl for the spring time. I never been much of a dating person but my friends insisted that i find someone to be with. I was constantly bugging them all the time and they said I needed a women in my life. I guess they were right since they were all married and I was the only one out the group that was still single. It’s not like I never dated I just had enough of the childish games plus I’m 36 how can i find someone at my age. I’m getting to old. But then again I’ve been seeing a lot of ads and commercial lately especially Friday night’s when I’m home alone.maybe it’s a sign I need to start looking.
I figure I’ll try the commercial Match.com that I keep seeing .
So that night I sign up it seem ok at first, you answer a bunch of questions then you see who like you. Or who you match with but then they want you to pay to see. I didn’t see the point of paying it seem like a scam.
So I went to another website pof.com plenty of fish… That was one hell of a experience same bull shit, different site. What made this one different is they had prostitutes and hookers on this site… But I figure why not keep searching at least I don’t have to pay to see who like me. So I finally started talking to a chick. The conversation was going real good until she broke the news. She text me one day…..
“Hey I gotta tell you something before we go any further”…
My mind started wondering what the hell could she be wanting to tell me.maybe she had kids. I looked at her profile again naww can’t be kids.
Fuck it , I text back What is it.
“I’m a man” he text back.
On the inside I was turning into the hulk ready to smash his ass and kill him. I looked at his picture in the profile. I’m not use to this shit, the motherfucker got me good. I sent that shit to My homegirl cause I needed to make sure I’m not tripping.
Hey does this look like a women or a man she busted out laughing!
Bruh that’s a man wtf bro please don’t tell me you talking to him
Mannnnn! I got tricked… ima call you back I need to set this straight. I hung up and send a straight forward message.
“Please do not contact me no more! I am on this earth for pussy I am not gay nor confuse.”
I immediately logged out. After that humiliation and experience I figure I’ll give it a week before I try any other sites.
I remember a month ago I’ve overheard someone at my job talking about a site where he “smashed” a lot of females on the first night. Me personally I think someone that brag about getting pussy a lot doesn’t really get it, it’s really annoying as fuck. I be wanting to say who give a fuck but I don’t be trying to argue. The site was okcupid.com, I never gave it a go because I’m looking for a women not a hoe. But anything is better than POF.COM.
Later that evening I went home and downloaded the app it seem pretty solid and had similar features to the other apps I downloaded. They also had exclusive feature such as “the swiper”. You can swipe right if like the person swipe left if you don’t. I didn’t care about looks nor did I feel like or had the time to sit and read profiles so I swipe right for every female. At first it was cool, I met a chick named Julia on there, but then it turn out she was a little to crazy for me. she admitted she was bi polar. I don’t know if I have the patience, I had to end that quick. good thing I didn’t give her my number. I started reading profile after that but then these girls profiles be sounding depressing especially when you see stuff like. “My parents recently died looking for some comfort” “Looking for a man that can take care of me” “Getting old i need some children from a rich man” Sometimes being single is the best route, then again it sucks not being able to share a off day with someone and though I’ve been to a lot of countries would have been nice to have had a lady with me.. It’s been 6 years since my last relationship and I’ve gotten so much stronger mentally over the years it’ll be hard to change that Sigh…. Then again who wants to be pushing 40 and be alone. I guess I’ll keep looking. I started talking to another chick by the name of abe, she was 34 nice slim chick the conversation was going good until we started talking about kids. She was telling me about how her sisters all have kids and she the only one that haven’t had any. I ask her how many she want. Her response was 5. Then she follow up by telling me that she loves sex and when her man cums she don’t let him pull out. I couldn’t believe my ears, I had to escape asap. I had to think of something unattractive quick to say. “Well I’m sorry but uh, I got fixed. I can t have kids” Ain’t no coming back from that. I didnt care this girl crazy I’m not trying to have 5 kids in this ecomnoy, I’m the wrong person she talking too. Oh wow, I didn’t know, she said. Well I’m sorry I don’t think this going to work. On the inside I’m jumping up and down all excited and shit that I avoid this crazy chick. But in reality I responded…. “Aww dont be like that, we can adopt if you want to” No I want my own kids she said. “Well I can’t change the pass but I really enjoy the conversations. Well I guess I’ll talk to you later. Bye.” Dodge a bullet there. Thank god! I left this okcupid shit alone for a second I needed a breather I figure I’ll just see who like me, instead of me sending the first message. I waited a couple days try to take my mind off these few bad experiences fromthe site. Okcupid wasn’t the best but it was the best I seem so far from time to time I went back to pof but I kept getting prostitutes and a bunch of trans so I just left it alone for good. I went back to the site. I had about five girls that like my profile 3 of those girls were bbw… to bad it isn’t September.….. 1 girl sent me a message just saying hi another sent one saying “you’ll fine.” I naturally just went to the one that say I look good. I’m looking at her profile.. tall, plays basketball , likes rap and 32 years old no kids alright now let me see her photo… Hmm. Not bad, nice size tits, perfect size, no weeve at least not with the naked eye Very sexy and the outfit she had on was nice. I think I can dig it. Ok good enough. I sent a message back. You’ll very beautiful too. I was losing my patience with these sites and females, I had no more time for bullshit so I sent a disclaimer: “ I want to get to know I hope you can handle me I’m a very complex person” She replied I wanna get to know you too and I’m. It sure what you mean by complex I need better clarification. I didn’t respond wanted to let it pounder in her head for a sec. Give her something to think about. Sometimes you gotta say things and give people a chance to think about it before explaining yourself. That’s a broad statement anyway. Don’t get me wrong I’m not a bad man I’m really simple but nowadays simple is complex. Sometimes for some people they want to go through the struggle because that’s what they been use too.. I message back the next morning Morning beautiful! Morning! hey can you text me I can respond better that way. Aww shit! I got those digits.. Now I just have to have one conversation with her and I can get a date. I had a ways with my words because I was a car salesman so i read a lot of books on sales, analyzing and psychology. I responded of course I can. Better yet let me call you after work are you going to be up. Ok cool, I’m off tonight so I’ll be free she replied. I couldn’t wait i text my friend tyrone throughout the day. Sending pics of this chick. Ay bro what you think?… It’s something about getting unofficial approval from your homeboys it’s not like it matter at the same time it’s like a silent competition who can get the badest chick not just in looks but in qualities too. Is that you bro? Ya man I think she like me. I said Why you say that? Well she said I’m fine. That doesn’t mean nothing dude did you meet her yet. He said I replied no, but I will soon, ima try to set something up this weekend I been wanting to go to six feet under downtown it’s a nice restaurant that oversee the city heard they have live jazz and concerts, its a nice setting Well you have fun with that let me know how it go. Aight no problem, ima call her tonight hopefully she has good taste in food. Ttyl got another customer walking in. The day was going good, I made 3 sales. gotta love tax season. Everyone wants a new car for the summer time. I went home the good thing about my job I could test drive all the new cars and I had a gas card from the company. We just receive the brand new Mercedes jeep wagon, I’m more of a Acura guy but it was so sharp I couldn’t resist. It was so smooth an classy. I thought to myself what if I’m able to take her on a date in this maybe she’ll fall in love with me. Nawww.. it’ll be the car more than it’ll be me. I want a girl that’s down for me not a car. I drove home thinking how this conversation is gonna go. It was around 8pm I decided to go for it. I was little nervous hoping that this doesn’t turn out wired like the other girls. Hello she answered Hey how you doing I responded. I’m doing good how are you? I’m good I’m so glad tomorrow Friday I need a break Yea me too I hear ya. We begin talking about our careers and past jobs. Then we got into relationships…. aww shoot here it goes I ain’t had the best of luck I try to change the subject but she insisted I tell her about my past relationships… i couldnt say nothing but they drove me away from dating for six years I had enough and I felt I was losing control over my life and becoming someone I wasnt. I explain to her how it torn my heart in my recent relationship that I was cheated on. It wasn’t that she cheated on me that hurt it, it the fact that it was with someone in prison. How he get a phone inside..She asked. I wish i knew the answer to that. She went on to tell me about her past relationship and how her boyfriends abuse her emotionally and sometimes physically. It anger me when a women tells me they were physically abuse. A man to much of a coward that he feels he gotta hit a women. At that point I had to get off the subject. Good thing you know me cause I’ll never abuse you physically or emotionally I’ll walk away from you before I even think about touching you in that way.. so tell me something what kind of food you like?. I like all kinds! She said Ok good so when I take you out it won’t matter then huh. Im gonna take you to China cafeteria. And if you do that don’t be surprise if I don’t call you no more..ahe replied. I’ve laugh I’m just playing any women i take out will eat nothing but luscious food. Oh really now she said and where might that be.. Well for you we can start at six feet under this weekend there’s a group by the name of street jazz that’s performing and I wanted to see them how that sound. Hmm. Sounds interesting.. what kind of food? All kinds… good thing you like all kinds of food. Oh so you got a smart mouth I see. I smiled.they are famous for their steak but they serve all kinds of food.. so how does Saturday night sound? I can meet you down there at 530pm. sounds good she said. Ok ima talk to you later I have a big day tomorrow we having corporate come by. Ok talk to you later she responded. Yes I got a date! After 6 years I still got a little game. Now I got go shopping. The next day I asked my boss could I leave early I wanted to get a fresh haircut and do a little shopping for this big date. It’s been so long since I’ve treated myself to a nice outfit. my uniform was pretty much the best outfit I had. I was somewhat a workaholic never cared about the dress to impress bullshit. I already knew what shirt I wanted, a dashiki but i didn’t know how I would match since they are usually colorful shirts. I headed over in the hood.. the Westend mall. After picking out the shirt I got some help from a young lady for the jeans. I told her I would wear some sandals. She had the perfect jeans to match. It felt good shopping it was a relief.. finally went home and chilled the rest of the night. I text her the next morning confirming our date. I kept the conversation short because I didn’t want to run out of topics so fast. I started getting ready early in the day around Iron my cloths military style use by usher cologne and made sure everything was straight.….. i was finally dress I felt as good as I looked. Later that night I called her to hear her voice one more time before we finally met up. Everything was going so smooth and she was the first that got a chance to actually meet off these dating sites. I just hope all goes well. I decide to drive the Mercedes, I wasn’t trying to impress her but 1st impression is always important though. I just knew I would have to explain this car is not mine later on. I finally arrived I was a little early I sent her a text. Hey I just arrived im in the a white Mercedes jeep. Ok cool I’m five mins away. She finally pulled up in a Acura tl I couldn’t believe it she’s Acura fan too. She pulled up like she couldn’t believe I was in a g wagon. Because of my job I wasn’t so easily impress by Mercedes but for some reason I always loved the Japanese car family.especially Acura. I walked up to her nice to finally meet you you’ll even more beautiful in person. Thank you, you very handsome yourself. Nice car too by the way. Thanks it’s a company car.. Oh really, … Let’s go inside, it’s getting cold out here. Here you go I got something for you I handed her a jacket. I know the temp is going to drop and wasn’t sure if you knew that this is an outside setting. No i didn’t know, thank you that’s so sweet of you cause I don’t have a jacket. No problem….. Mama taught me well I didn’t have much of a dad but when I was in my mid 20s I met a pimp and he gave me a lot of pointers on women. I did everything I could remember open the door pull out the seat wait til she take her first bite, and pray over the food together. After getting seated It didn’t take me long to figure out what I wanted. But she couldn’t decide between t bone steak or top sirloin. . What’s the difference between the two? I asked It’s not much of a difference she said one is long and the other is fat and thick. I stare at her. oh really…which one do you prefer most of the time? I like the long sirloin most of the time but I heard the t bone is a lot more juicer. Why not get the sirloin go for what you like and then I’ll buy the other one for you to take home. Oh you’ll do that for me. Sure I want you to have a good night and have what ever you like. Oh really. Can I drive your car… I gave a her a smerk… like good one, nice try. Then I though about for a sec. Maybe It won’t be so bad. One block isn’t so bad. Sure I can let you do a 5 mile test drive. Really! She said. I could tell that made her happy she smile so hard. We finally ordered our food and talked for the next 15 mins. I told her my job duties and she was astound. Finally the food came. Ive never seen someone eat so fast, apparently she really like the g wagon. She ate half her food, received a to go box and took the rest with her I ended up doing the same thing. I wanted to stay for the jazz concert but I guess the plan changed. I gave her a tour of the car like I would at the dealership. We sat in the back seat. Wow I can’t believe it’s so big on the inside. I started showing her all the features. I showed her how the seats goes down and it’s so comfortable you can lay on it if you need to. She then laid down. Oh I can get a back rub back here. Or have a nice picknic She said. I responded, i used to be a massage therapist I can give you a quick massage if you like. Oh really. Yes but, not here, hop in I’ll let you drive us to one of my favorite spots in the city. I did security a long time ago at some apartments that had parking decks that over saw the city. I still had the keys to get in. We begin to drive. How does it feel do you like it. I love it she said. Ok good turn in here and go all the way up. We arrive at the apartments. Wow this is gorgeous do you stay here. No I use to work here. But it’s a beautiful scenery.. But you should be use seeing beautiful everyday, unless you don’t have a mirror. Aww thank you. Ok reverse park it right there. I got out the car let down the seat, do you want a shoulder massage or neck massage. Can I have both she asked. Sure. I touch her skin on the back., I haven’t felt something so soft in So long she had beautiful skin. I think I might have some lotion with me are you ok with that. Yes that’s fine. I grab the lotion and started massaging her back she suddenly got quiet I could tell it felt good it’s been years but my magic touch never went any where How does it feel? I asked It feels good? She said What you thinking about? I asked Nothing… Yea right I thought to myself, of course she a not gonna admit she getting all warm inside. I played it cool. An.important rule I’ve learned early: never bring up sex or go too far be bold but be respectful at the same time. Be patient. I begin to work my way to the front side of her neck… She was still quiet not saying nothing. I rub for neck for about 90 seconds, slowly making my way down to her tits I ddint want to go all the way down but I wanted to go just enough to rub the top. She was still sitting there quiet. Not saying nothing I started rubbing her neck and the top of her tits at the same time. Can you do me a favor she asked. What’s that ? Can you get my lower back. She took off her shirt nothing but bra on. I grab my lotion I could feel the tight spots in her back, I push down with my thumb … Oh shit… Did I hurt No it actually felt good. I kept going then started rubbing with my hand. She begin to bite her lip keeping herself from moaning.. She had some very beautiful lips nice drip down lips she look like a great kisser… maybe I’ll be lucky and get one on the first date. I kept going, I reached down in her jeans being bold begin to rub the top of her booty.. Can I do something to you that will feel good? What you wanna do she asked? I can show you better than I tell you. Don’t worry I’m not talking about sex. Ok good, go ahead. Ok close your eyes. I rub on the top if her butt then I started slowly kissing down the middle of her back. She jumped, oh wow. I didnt see that coming she said. I took my left hand and rub on the top of her tits while I rub her neck and kiss it at the same time.. She grab my hand and put it on her nipple. I begin to go in a circular motion while I kiss her neck. Can I ask you something? I said Yes I whisper in her ear, are you getting wet yet? Oh Jesus! She said. I put my hand on back slowly making my way to her butt. Took my left hand and felt her panties.. damn they were soaked. Wow! Is it wet enough for you? She asked Hell yeah. Well good maybe you’ll get to feel it one day when I get to know you better. I was speechless and a little disappointed but then again I was happy because sex on the first night isn’t good. I continue to rub all her hot spots getting her to moan from time to time. She was so beautiful and she had a cute face when she bite her lips. They looked so soft maybe I can at least get a kiss. My hand were getting tire I went ahead and ended it plus I was getting horny too and it was becoming a self-tease. Being in the presence of a beautiful smooth skin strong African women that along had my me rock hard. Ok that’s it, Oh wow I didn’t want you to stop. I can give all my treats away in one time gotta leave room for another day. Did you like it though? Yes it was good. Good! I’ll drive you back to your car.. We got back to her car and sat for a sec. She looked at me my face gave it away that I was thinking about that kiss. What you thinking about she asked? Guess. I said I don’t know… Well look at me hard in my eyes and think about it I got as close as I could and stared at her She laughed. I give up.. Well, there’s a time and place for everything guess you’ll find out next time. No tell me, I want to know! Can I get a kiss good night? I asked Hell no! but you can give me a tight hug she said I gave a her a tight hug she smelled so good I didn't want to let go. I looked at her and said I really enjoyed myself I couldn't ask for anything more. I enjoyed myself too.thank you I walked her to the car Call me when you get home so I know you made it safely I said Ok I will...bye talk to you later.
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