I will not celebrate the ides of march. My goal is merely not to get so annoyed by it that I make an angry post about it that makes me become ostracized. Because really, why are you celebrating Julius Caesar's death? The man has been dead for years, let him sleep! Let the poor man rest! How would you feel if you were only remembered because people joked about killing you? Yeah, it's not a pleasant thought. And I will not budge on this. It's stupid. Always will be, and I can't stand it.
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New rule. No one in the online neurodivergent community is allowed to use the word "spectrum" until they actually learn what that means and understand what it looks like in the real world.
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Moving In – Part 3 of ? (Sickness And Catch-up)
Howdy guys! Little #blog post today. Haven't made one in a while, and you'll see at least 25% why in-post. Hoping this is part 3 of 4 in the #movinghouse series, because I'm almost there!
Hah…
16th of January…
Let me try to think of what’s happened since.
On the 14th of December, I got really sick with what I initially thought was the flu. I had shivering, fever-like symptoms. Aching and general fatigue. I had to take the next day off of work. I had 3 regular days off after that, so my timely sick day turned it into a 4 day “holiday” where I managed to recover… or so I…
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February/March 2024 Update: Extended Hiatus
Hey guys!
So, ASD’s hiatus might be a bit longer than I expected…
You see, I think my life is starting to take a bit more of a different direction than it originally did, with the main reason is me considering making my first Visual Novel (which is based on a canon series that I know). So of course, it's going to require a lot of practice, watching tutorial videos, time, effort, and dedication. However, I am uncertain about the exact amount of time it will take. While I would like to believe that I can manage both a VN and ASD simultaneously, the truth is that it won't be easy. Therefore, I have decided to focus solely on my visual novel project as it would be more manageable for me.
I hate to make this decision, but as I’ve said countless times before (sorry 😅), the truth is that ASD is based on a story that has ended long ago. Although I don't want to let go of ASD yet, I want to focus on developing this new Visual Novel, in which I plan to work on alone also as an indie developer. This project may take a few months to a year, or even longer. Therefore, I must be honest and say that I don't know exactly when I'll be back (or if I am coming back). I want to come back, but it will take longer than one month. So, I'm technically going on an indefinite hiatus, but I hope to return to ASD in the future.
You are still allowed to send asks, but this blog might be inactive for quite a while, or at least the story itself will take a break. Maybe I’ll come back within time to post some EQG & ASD-related art from time to time. Now, do I recommend that you unfollow me? No, I don’t. I mean, I wouldn’t want you to. However, it wouldn’t be right to hold you here either 😅 So the choice is solely yours.
If your still looking for some Sonata Dusk askblog content, I recommend @sunsets-serenade. It’s the only MLP/EQG blog that I know it’s still active at this point. So all in all, the Ask Sonata Dusk story is on a semi-indefitnite hiatus, but it might post from time to time for art. I’ll let you guys know when I’ll return to continue the story!
Thank you everyone for following Ask Sonata Dusk for all these years. I hope to return soon one day!
- @ask-sonata-dusk Moderator
If you to reach me, contact or follow @misssakurapetal27
Please take care everyone 💖
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My Writing Journey
I'm still writing my NaNoWriMo Novel in late March, with April right around the corner. Almost 200,000 words now.
How did I get here?
I chose to be a writer when I was eleven. By the time I was eighteen, I had three incomplete novels, a thick packet of writing notes, and a long list of story ideas I wanted to write before I died. I also had a short attention span that I can blame on my ADHD and ASD, a declining love for reading due to required school reading, and competition with distractions like the internet/social media. I was able to devote a good deal of my spare time on my prize WIP, a unique fantasy titled The Keeper of Maralla. I didn't spend as much time writing as I should have. My writing confidence was low. After I earned my first bachelor's degree in Child Development, several amazing things happened. First, I worked briefly as a custodian (aka janitor or caretaker depending on what part of the world you're in) when I got the idea for my current primary WIP, The Blood Cleaners. At that time, I thought TBC would be an urban fantasy. A few years later, I realized the story worked best as a post-apocalyptic dystopia. I personally feel that you don’t find the stories; the stories find you. Such was the case with TBC. Then, in 2008, I won my first NaNoWriMo when I wrote the first draft of The Star House Club, an MG/YA urban fantasy. It meant the world to me when I finally had a complete novel in my hands, even if the writing was really bad. My next complete novel was finished in 2009, a Christian historical fiction novel called Miriam and Yosef. Then, from 2010 to 2011, I wrote my first really long novel, my sci-fi first contact story called Columbus Day. It was 170,000 words long! The best part was when I wrote my first complete second draft by rewriting Columbus Day. I saw how rewriting really can make things better, even if only a little better. It was also at this time that I earned my second bachelor's degree. I earned my post-baccalaureate degree in English. Then, things kind of shattered. I lost all of my confidence in my writing. I almost gave up completely. I also stopped reading. I've learned that the less you read, the worse your writing is. I went nearly a decade without reading and writing. There were some pluses that happened during that time, such as getting a technical writing job with my current employer. For the most part, I had little ambition and few goals. That was until early 2023, I experienced some epiphanies. I went through some religious/spiritual experiences that allowed me to realize I was meant to be a writer. I needed to get my ideas down on paper before I died or else the world would never know them. I opened up my old writing notes to get to work. I thought about which of my WIP's I would make my primary WIP. It was hard when I felt passionate about a half dozen of them, knowing I would regret failing to finish and publish either. I was hit hard with reality when insomnia hit me. I had been in denial about my need to read. Just as I had to get back to writing, I had to get back to reading. I wanted to say I had read enough and needed to spend time writing. When I discovered reading was the best medicine for insomnia, I realized what I needed to do for both my physical health and writing health. I read about 15 books in 2023. The more I read, the better my writing got. My best read was Scott Westerfeld’s Uglies, a book that reminded me of why I love the dystopia genre. By July, I made the decision to focus on The Blood Cleaners. I spent four months brainstorming and outlining. I began drafting in November for NaNoWriMo. I wrote 50,000 words in 30 days, but the story wasn't over. That brings me to where I am now. My manuscript is almost 200,000 words long. I hope to finish in the next few days. I can’t wait to rewrite and cut this thing. Writing is hard, but it's worth it. My journey isn't over, obviously. I can’t wait to see where this journey goes.
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My Story: A Journey of Loss & Depression
Let me start by saying this isn't a blog about Eddie. I'm not sure why I'm even posting this here, except that for the longest time, I've needed some sort of outlet for some of the things I'm struggling with... and as this is my only blog, I guess this is it. Maybe someone out there will read this & be able to relate. Maybe it will help explain why my blog on Eddie has gone largely silent. Or maybe no one will even notice. Whatever. I need to get this out.
So first of all, hey there, I'm Marci. You know me as an Eddie Redmayne blogger, but I'm also a mom to a son who has ASD & a person who has dealt with what seems - to me, at least - to have been a lot of crap to cope with over the past 8 years. And I've reached a point where coping is more like just existing but more on that in a bit. Maybe.
My dad was always the strongest person I've ever known. He wasn't perfect, but he was one of those dads that could fix anything & always knew the answers to anything you want to know. In October 2013, my dad was diagnosed with cancer - specifically non-Hodgkins lymphoma. My family wasn't new to this particular diagnosis, as my brother, Jeff, was diagnosed with the same cancer in 1999. At this point, Jeff was considered in remission after successfully completing chemo & radiation treatment. So we thought we knew what to expect. Thing is, dad's cancer was in his stomach (my brother's started in his neck) & it was extremely aggressive. I became my father's caregiver. Besides cancer, he was diabetic & dealing with kidney failure. We saw doctors 3-5 times a week for the next year+. My dad went through 3 different types of chemo, including one clinical trial. None of it made any difference, and the cancer continued to spread. In January 2015, he was put on hospice, & in May 2015, my dad died. I wasn't entirely unprepared for this - I mean he was on hospice, & I've worked at a hospital & nursing home, & seen how this sort of things goes many times, but seeing it happen to your own dad - & someone who was so freaking strong - was really rough. It was a horrible experience.
After dad passed, a lot of things changed. Jake & I moved into a house my dad had left us, leaving my mom (with whom I'd always had a very complicated relationship, to say the least) on her own. In late 2016, while watching 'Fantastic Beasts', Jake suddenly exclaimed, "Mom, Newt is autistic like me!" It caught my interest, & my blog was born of it. For the next year & a half or so, it was an amazing creative outlet for me. Eddie is an incredibly talented actor & a truly kind-hearted human being, who actually makes it a point to connect with his fans. I've spoken to him a few times during the fan interviews, & he even wrote me a letter during the pandemic, which was both shocking & awesome. To be honest, though, the best thing about my blog was meeting Charlotte, AKA @bespokeredmayne, who has become one of my dearest friends, & is an amazing person in her own right. (total shout out there!)
My mom didn't cope well with my dad’s passing, & in March 2018, she had a stroke. She died less than a month later. I've already said we had a complicated relationship - without going into that much more, my mom was a narcissist who enjoyed hurting people. My feelings about her are still not great, even after she's been gone for over 5 years. I have a lot of guilt about that, but it is what it is. What I don't understand is why, after she died, my creativity died, too. I couldn't blog anymore. Mind you, at this same time, I was dealing with some health issues - I'd been having mobility issues, which I started seeing a doctor for in early 2018, but mom's sudden passing kind of shunted all of that to the side. Still, I can't even begin to explain the way things changed for me, much less to understand why I was so affected.
The next year was okay, we went to England, which was a lifelong dream, & things seemed like they were mostly going well enough, despite my increasing mobility issues as well as memory issues. While sorting through all our parents' stuff to get their house ready to sell, my brother, Jeff, and I became closer - we'd always been reasonably close, I guess. We got along well as siblings, despite an age gap of just over 10 years (he was older). He'd looked out for me when I was little & we were friends as adults, which is more than either of us could say about our other sibling, who has been estranged from us both since the 90s. So, yeah... we were pretty close.
So I mentioned about mobility issues, memory issues, etc. I had thought that at least part of this was some kind of ongoing complications from a car wreck I was in back in '95. Turns out, it wasn't - I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis 3 years ago. In the time since then, with the pandemic in full swing for much of the time, I became homebound. Besides the MS, I have asthma, & also a vaccine allergy. Between that & the autoimmune disease, I cannot be vaccinated, & I am at high rick for severe covid because of my health. Ironic, no? Add that to my increasing mobility issues & my life became more & more isolated.
The summer of 2021, my brother, in his 50s at the time, was diagnosed with heart failure. The cardiologist he was referred to said this was likely a complication of the chemo he'd had years earlier. In December 2021, just a few days before my birthday, he texted me that he was going to the e/r - this was around 2 in the morning. He texted me one more time after that, & then... nothing. I kept trying to get ahold of him, or the hospital, to find out what was going on, but no one answered until about 4 hours later, when I finally got someone at the e/r. To my absolute shock, she told me my brother was dead. He died less than an hour after his last text to me, of a sudden cardiac arrest. I couldn't believe it. I still can't believe it. To this day, I cannot really cope with it. I don't know why it's hit me so hard - I see people who cope with loss & move on, & I did that with my parents, but this one, I couldn't. It was like it was too much, losing both parents & then my brother. It has destroyed me in some way. I'm not the person I was before. So much loss, & then everything else....
One the day my brother died, I went to the hospital to say goodbye to him. I didn't leave my house again until about 4 weeks ago when our cat needed the emergency vet. For a year & a half, I stayed home. (& I haven’t gone out again since bringing our cat home) I work from home as a data analyst. I pay my bills online, & have my groceries, etc, delivered. The only person I see is Jake. My world is so isolated & so depressing. I'm very limited in what I can physically do & that adds massively to the depression. Plus, & this will probably sound selfish, but it's true nonetheless, ever since my brother died, I've felt this sense of impending doom & hopelessness. Like I'm next & it's only a matter of time. I don't know what to do about any of it. I sit here, in my messy house (I hate mess, but I can't physically do most of the cleaning, & Jake doesn't really do cleaning, despite being a huge help to me in other ways) & I exist. Nothing much changes from one day to the next. I feel not only so depressed, but such a horrible anxiety about my life, & about what will happen to Jake if something happens to me. And yet I feel totally helpless to do anything to change any of it. I just feel so emotionally exhausted all the time, like I can't cope with anything at all.
So, yeah... that's me. If you've made it this far, you're probably either bored to tears or disgusted with my moaning. Still, if you've read this, thanks. If anyone reads it, at least I'm not keeping it all to myself anymore. Maybe offloading all of this here will somehow make it easier for me to cope with it. Either way, it's out!
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hey guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my name is aster.
my pronouns are she/her/they/them.
my main is @anxiety-lemsbian
If you want other blogs to follow my art/music sideblog is @phoebes-bridges
i love musicals, especially hamilton, matilda and heathers
my comfort movies are mamma mia and high school musical
likes: cats, phoebe bridgers, finland, vintage teacups, watercolours, music, bracelets, queer people, radio silence, taylor swift, rain, cardigans, knitted vests, embroidery, green, lorde, dangerfield, drawing, quirky stuff, ducks, stars, girls, tumblr, tacos, art, ballgowns, long skirts, oversized shirts/jumpers, sweetpeas, rainbows, alice oseman, daisies, mochi, lily of the valley, eliza and the delusionals, pale sunlight, typewriters, rotary phones, earrings, like three people, lavender, floral scented soaps/conditioners, peppermint lip balm, blue eyes, the texture of velvet, being alone, apple pie, gilmore girls, people using my correct pronouns, heartstopper, little women, reading, nice pink watermelon, british accents, a flower fairies treasury, sarcasm, sunflowers, the ocean when it’s raining or dark, stuff that’s naturally grey (rainclouds, etc.) lemon iced tea, frances janvier, spanish, macarons, bubble tea
dislikes: math, global warming, migraines, the sun, tight clothes, pimples, homophobia, spiders, racism, transphobia, shitty people, terfs, aphobia, tiktok, wasps, watermelon when it’s too red and floury, my father, school, most people, being bad at spanish, being alone when I feel people will judge me for it, depression, anxiety, people being ignorant, my mother, drunk people, smokers, feeling uncomfortable, most men, vomit, rejection, being delusional
i’m a minor
i speak un peqeño español and i love cats
my pronouns page:
i love osemanverse but im especially addicted to radio silence, solitare and loveless (i kin frances sm)
im gay (in a sapphic way)
BETH MARCH STAN OMG
love love love darcy olsson and sam kerr lol
i loveeeee enola holmes
im in love with the one bracelet i own
i have depression and anxiety, and probably asd and adhd
feel free to drop into my inbox at any time i love getting asks
i like sleeping
this is a list of songs i claim as my own:
liability, ribs, no better, stoned at the nail salon and sober II (melodrama) by lorde
happiness is a butterfly and cinnamon girl by lana del rey
not strong enough, anticurse, letter to an old poet and true blue by boygenius
meteor shower by cavetown
the story of us, seven, illicit affairs, you’re on your own kid, would’ve could’ve should’ve, if this was a movie , hoax, i don’t wanna live forever, right where you left me, i can see you, invisible string, the lakes, mirrorball and this is me trying by taylor swift
motion sickness, moon song, graceland too, garden song, kyoto and i know the end by phoebe bridgers
watch you sleep and rue by girl in red
there it goes and you’re just a boy (and i’m kinda the man) by maisie peters
summer child by conan gray
all-american bitch, brutal, deja vu, lacy, bad idea right?, hope ur ok, teenage dream, get him back! and good 4 u by olivia rodrigo
just exist and cigarette by eliza and the delusionals
ok i think im done
am i done?
i think imma make an aesthetic board actually
lets do it!!!!
also pls tell me if ur uncomfortable being called babe/darling/love
general DNI's apply, terfs, homophobes, transphobes, NSFW accounts etc etc
have a wonderful day i love you :)
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Some stuff abt me ig
Minors DNI
This is not an ED blog, it's a diary. Buzz off and block me
Pr0 4n4'5 can fck off 🖕
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Had an 3d for 10+ years
Diagnosed - BPD ASD ADD 3D PCOS FIBRO + more it's exhausting lmao
Trans-nb he/they
Stats
Height - 5"4
SW (May24) - 196
CW (June24) - 192
GW1 - 182
GW2 - 168
GW3 - 154
GW4 - 140
G Date - Nov-Dec (6mnth)
UGW - ?
G Date Feb-March?
I have to start off slow to avoid loose skin, a plateu, risk of giving up etc
It sucks but it's the best way for me to ensure this is the LAST time I have to do this. I have the control now
I do NOT encourage 3D behaviors. I never will. It's one of the horrible disorders that's ruined half of my life. If you are a minor or are in the early stages of this. RUN. It's a dangerous, DEADLY, permanently damaging disorder. It's not glamorous. It's not easy. It sucks the life out of you. It will. Ruin. Your. Life.
Please seek help
Stay safe
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Oh you went from volunteer to employee too?! Congrats! Is it the social worker with kids thing?
Close!
Three years ago I started what we call in France a civic service, which is when young people from 16 to 25 do volunteer work for various administrations/NGOs... Can be done in France, can be done abroad. It was basically introduced to replace military service, a middle ground between "we need to occupy the youth and have them contribute to society somehow but military service sounds to fash (nevermind that Macron is trying to reintroduce it now)".
I was volunteering for an organisation that accompanies disabled people. Originally I was supposed to work at a daycare for adults with ASD, but they proposed me to work in an ESAT and I foolishly agreed.
An ESAT (établissement et service d'aide par le travail) is a factory for mentally disabled people. And yes it's as bad as it sounds. And on top of that it was factory work and I was not paid and I had 3h20 of commute every day.
After two and a half months I asked to be transferred to the daycare which where I applied for in the first place.
I did the rest of my volunteering there and at the end my boss said that they liked my work but if I wanted to stay in that field I needed a social workers' degree.
There was also the fact that I had a master's degree in law which made me kinda overqualified for the job.
Initially I thought about getting the special educator degree but I had an excellent colleague who sat me down and screamed at me.
"you have a master's degree. You could be an attorney ffs. The fuck you're gonna waste your time being an educator. Aim higher become head of service"
Yeah but my boss thinks I'm too young...
How do you rate your bosses opinion?"
I didn't. When she asked me again I said I wanted to get the certification to be head of service in the social field.
They were opening another facility with a daycare and inclusive appartements. They were going to recruit a head of service anyway but they could use help so that's how I got my apprenticeship.
And then the head of service became vice-director and I got her position. I was acting head of service since march. Officially head of service since September 1st.
And I get to also run the daycare where I started.
So far I'm in charge of two daycares for people with neurodevelopmental disorders. 1, soon 2 inclusive appartements, and an outreach team. 30 workers. 44 beneficiaries. (So far).
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✨💗 September Goals 💗✨
Hey everyone! In Australia it is now spring! Thankfully that means it will be warming up soon and will mean that, once I am feeling a bit better that going out for a walk (or even playing at the park) will be achievable!
♥ Implementing more routines (e.g: skincare, outside time, cooking etc.)
♥ Having at least half an hour of mindfulness a day
♥ Clearing the bedroom
♥ Getting everything done and ready for my ASD assessment on the 27th (school reports, psychological reports, handwritten notes and transportation)
♥ Finalising certain aspects of the wedding
♥ Drinking more water every day
♥ Ensuring I take my medication
♥ Try some new recipes/meals
♥ Concise meal planning
These may appear as simple goals but, I feel everyone should have some kind of base level goal especially those that lack motivation (like myself) as it can feel quite rewarding once you have completed them! I actually was quite happy with myself a few days ago as I finally got through a thing of facial cleanser/exfoliator for the first time in a long time!
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Also as an explanation that no one asked for, for the image below:
♥ My partner and I went to see the Winnie The Pooh musical on the 31st of last month, he bought me a Pooh plush and I adore it!
♥ I also collect Squishmallows so that bag showing up on my Instagram was an AH THEY HAVE PLUSH BAGS moment.
♥ I also got the pink barbed wire tattooed on my collarbone last month alongside my sternum tattoo so, that is visible alongside my currently unfavourable septum piercing (I got it in March before my birthday as I became enamoured with cows, the end came off of the last piercing so I have this octopus at the moment).
-💖💐
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Hi y'all!
I hope everyone's had a good start to the new year so far. I'm solidly in week three of class, already behind, and having a grand old time.
Some little life updates from me, a "so far in my year," if you will:
Started doing yoga!
(Accidentally?) Joined a LARP group!
Ripped off half my pinkie nail (I am devastated).
Went to a doctor for ADHD testing, and they told me to go talk to their ASD specialist, which. Okay, fair.
Reacted poorly to mountain weather (fucking pressure fronts) and had a week-long headache! I plan to fight God shortly.
All in all, so far so good.
On to what y'all're really interested in, let's be honest:
The Dresses!
I'm working on getting the Roman Mini Project set up to finish, since I am so close to done! In short order, I need to:
Neaten up the skirt hem
Add in a waistband
Figure out the blouse top
Make a proper master post for the dang thing
Photoshoot!
Still aiming for the end of February to have that completed, tentatively thinking I might have it done by Valentine's Day (because Roman).
Orange Dress!
For the poll dress, I'm feeling much more into it and I'm super excited. I've got the design finalized (!!!) and just need to place a fabric order. I'll have a few more polls up in the coming weeks, so keep an eye out for those if you want a say in accessories and some light shenanigans!
Aiming for mid-March to have this project done! Hopefully the weather lightens up and I can do some cool photoshoots outside.
I've been itching to sew in the last few weeks, so here's hoping.
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LSD1 inhibitor ameliorates autism-associated traits in new mouse model. We need to talk.
In findings published March 26 in Molecular Psychiatry, a team of researchers from Tokyo University, Juntendo University, and RIKEN report that they have successfully created a new mouse model of autism spectrum disorder in what they have named Kmt2c+/fs mice. Then things get weird.
Short version: The model worked even better than they thought it would. It seems this histone gene, which is only different in a small fraction of autistic humans, affects a large number of other genes also associated with autism. And then they gave the mice a drug that affects the histone, and it 1) changed the expression of those other autism genes and 2) made the mice act in a way that most people would call "a lot less autistic."
And we'd better start the hard conversations about that now.
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They engineered the animals to have only one functioning copy of the lysine methyltransferase 2c (KMT2C) gene, which encodes one of the catalytic units of histone H3 lysine 4 (H3K4), instead of two. Histones are large molecules that act as spools when DNA coils up into its inactive state. They also allow the DNA to unspool so that it can be transcribed and produce the proteins and regulatory elements that keep living things running. A few people diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder have KMT2C haploinsufficiency, meaning that they have only one active gene, like the mice, but most autistic people have two active copies, like other humans.
When the mice were old enough to run a maze, the researchers ran exercises to assess their sociability, rigidity, cognitive function, and other traits that they defined as associated with autism (the mice were also hypersensitive to sound, but it's not clear if the scientists measured this). For example, they put the mice in enclosures that gave them the choice of either spending time with another mouse or hanging out alone. The Kmt2c+/fs mice chose to spend time alone significantly more often than wild-type (Kmt2c+/+) mice did.
Then the researchers examined gene expression a little further. They found the experimental mice also showed upregulation of the expression of other genes already known to be associated with ASD, something the scientists had not included in their design.
"This was somewhat unexpected," said study co-author, Dr. Atsushi Takata. "KMT2C mediates H3K4 methylation, which is thought to activate gene expression, and thereby KMT2C haploinsufficiency was expected to cause reduced expression of target genes."
In other words, less expression of KMT2C appears to mean more expression of genes affirmatively associated with ASD.
The researchers then gave the mice vafidemstat, a brain-penetrating agent that acts on lysine-specific histone demethylase 1A (LSD1A) and has been found to render histone problems less severe. The treated mice showed less social impairment, and the differences in their gene expression relative to wild-type mice became less pronounced.
As the research paper says as it draws to a close, "This indicates that histone-modifying drugs would be effective not only in patients with KMT2C haploinsufficiency, which represents a tiny proportion of individuals diagnosed with ASD, but also in a broader patient population with specific types of transcriptomic and epigenomic dysregulation." Or, translated into press release, "The results open doors to future research to strengthen the foundation for the pharmacologic treatment of ASD and other neurodevelopmental disorders." Give an autistic organism a drug that affects one gene, and it will in fact affect many genes, making the organism act more neurotypical.
And we'd better start the hard conversations about that now.
Each study is one tiny step toward understanding, and the researchers are professionally clear about the work that remains to be done before their findings can be used in drug discovery, but there are a few things to keep in mind as we head down this road:
First, ASD itself is poorly understood, partially due to unclear diagnostic criteria that were only somewhat remedied when the DSM-IV became the DSM-V. In a hundred years, we may find that today's ASD is really five or six different neurotypes with overlapping presentations.
Second, scholars of prehistory are beginning to speculate that ASD, ADHD, dyslexia, and other conditions considered disabling in today's 9-5+ job market may have been beneficial to early human communities, even if they pose a problem at the individual level today. Some people with ADHD feel more alert and productive at night. There was one guy in the village who didn't mind night watch duty. A big part of autism is about seeing the world differently. Only one adult needs hear the tiger break a twig before it pounces on a posse of tribal toddlers. Medicating ASD out of existence could rob humankind of something that we don't yet fully understand.
Third, our school systems already have a habit of reaching for drugs out of convenience. The Body Keeps the Score cites the use of antipsychotic meds "to render 'difficult' children more tractable."* Autistic students are often inconvenient. There are autistic adults who describe the applied behavior analysis (ABA) interventions they received as youngsters (sometimes the only intervention covered by insurance) as functionally torture to make them pretend to be normal. The capacity for abuse of any autism-ameliorating drug treatment already has a fully developed infrastructure.
If these findings described an avenue for treatment of epilepsy, we'd shout hooray and move on. Offer epileptics a way to no longer have epilepsy, and almost all of them will cheerfully agree. Offer the parents of epileptic children a cure for epilepsy, and they will gladly consent on their child's behalf. The patient will likely grow through all stages of youth and adulthood with few conflicted feelings about this. The thing that is making an epileptic person unhealthy is often epilepsy.
This is because epilepsy is a disease, not an identity. Ask an epileptic if their epilepsy is an essential part of who they are as a human being, and most will give some version of "no." Ask an autistic? If you've met one person with autism, you've met one person with autism, but you're more likely to get a "yes."
Autism is part of how autists see, hear, think about, and interact with the world. It can be a disease, but not always. It can be a disability, but not always. It is an identity. The thing making an autistic person unhappy can be autism, but more often it's the way other people react to autism.
Even if we assume that some autistic individuals would benefit from drug intervention that brings them closer to what we think of as normal health, there is likely to be a large swath of autistic individuals who would be better off without it but are not in a position to refuse. Autistic children are often more work than their parents and teachers expected and do not always involve the same emotional and social rewards as their neurotypical counterparts. We should expect a large cohort of parents ready to jump at the word "cure" and a large number of strapped school systems ready to demand they do so. It isn't as if no one's doing it now.
We may be a long way from "Here is a pill you can take that will make you not autistic any more," but it's not the first time many autistic individuals will have had to deal with the idea. Autistic adults can tell stories of being medicated or threatened with medication for failure to hide their neurodiversity thoroughly enough.
Some of the nineteenth-century scientists discovering genes for the first time were asked whether their work could be used to improve humanity. The response, imperfectly paraphrased from my years-ago read-through of The Gene by Siddhartha Mukherjee, was that we would need "radical social equality" before we should even attempt radical genetic manipulation.* We had to know not only what each gene does but how it got there and what the true implications are. Similar caution is called for here.
Nakamura, T., Yoshihara, T., Tanegashima, C. et al. Transcriptomic dysregulation and autistic-like behaviors in Kmt2c haploinsufficient mice rescued by an LSD1 inhibitor. Mol Psychiatry (2024). https://doi.org/10.1038/s41380-024-02479-8
*Quotations are from memory and may be imperfect.
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cw vent // possible discrimination(?) // and maybe a long ask
I know that I already talked to my high school counselors about this but I feel like I should also tell you this.
So, one of my periods was Culinary 2, I already attended Culinary 1 w/ the same teacher and her class is also bake-shop. We'll call her Mrs. K. Now, Mrs. K IS a nice teacher, sure a bit of a pain, but she is now a far more LARGER pain in the ass after today.
So today me & my friend (we'll call him "G" <- he was the friend that is the cis bi metalhead I was talking about) were suppose to do a steak lab where we get to season our own steak and have it w/ rice and potatoes. We were both excited about it, obviously. Though, as I walk in, she says that I didn't do Chap. 11 notes and that they were my "ticket" to the lab. Now, I was HIGHLY confused about this, so I went to see if maybe I forgot to submit.
It turns out, I didn't submit some game meat note questions. Because, apparently, they were suppose to be due today instead of the date that it was assigned to--which SAYS they were due on March 29th, so I had plenty of time to due them. "G" says that he didn't see the notes because they didn't appear on the front page of them--we both thought we were okay to do lab because we did all the notes, but I guess not!! Trust me, we were both a bit frustrated by this.
Now, here is where things go and get worse.
Mrs. K said that she was going to talk to me after setting up the lab for the other students who were eligible for lab minus those who weren't. After twenty minutes, she goes to explain that we didn't do the notes on the deadline and therefore we couldn't participate. So I go and tell her that I wasn't aware due to the fact that the notes were set on a different date and that "G" didn't see them. She goes to say, "But I was telling the class all week to do their notes, so maybe you should've been seeing what they've been doing." Okay, rude bitch.
Now, as a bit of a deeper info: I have autism, along with depression, anxiety, PTSD, violent intrusive thoughts, and selective empathy, and (possibly, still not sure) an obsessive personality disorder; "G" has autism, ADHD, depression, bipolar disorder, sensory issues, intrusive thoughts and gets panic attacks--he also has another disability that affects his reading, which I mostly understand since I've often be a bit dyslexic and might mispronounce a word or misread the time. There is also another girl in the class with ASD as well, but she's a bit lower on the quote/unquote "autism scale." The rest of the class--I believe--is just mostly allistic/neurotypical.
So, "G" responded to Mrs. K saying that he has a disability that affects his reading and so on. So she went and said, "Well, if you're having trouble reading, do you need to sit at the front again?" So he got mad and stormed off outside to calm himself down as he was about to have a panic attack, leaving ME alone with HER.
So, I explain to her, AGAIN, that the date was different and that I didn't think I needed to do it TODAY. So she explains that the reason why the date (March 29) was different was because it was also the date grades get turned in. So I said, "Well, okay, but no offense, but that's just a bit misleading. Because how am I suppose to know when it is turned in with the dates are all different?"
It gets WORSE.
After I've said it, she then asks, "Well, didn't you hear me say it this week it needs to be turned in?" Now, as an autistic person, I tend to not answer right away, as I either need time to say an answer or I kinda lock up. So here I am, somewhat stammering to try and say, and she asks again: "Didn't you hear me say it? Yes or no?" And I say, still trying to answer her, "Well--yes, I did hear it--but, y'know--"
So, SHE TURNS TO THE FREAKING CLASS, who was doing their lab, and she (sorta) yells out, "Class! Didn't I say that the notes needed to be due this week?" And they go and verbally agree with her, somewhat loudly, while I'm sitting there, embarrassed that she humiliated me + also my friend who returned from calming himself down. This wasn't the first time she verbally humiliated/embarrassed her students, and it was mostly those who were a bit procrastinating, but only over and assignment or two.
After "G" comes back, we both proceed to defend ourselves. BUT, just "but," she goes and coaxes us like literally fucking children by saying: "Oh, well if you are having trouble with dates, I could personally write you two a calendar on what needs to be done and tell you." I am 16 (10th grade) and he is 18 (12th grade), he is practically a young adult and I am somewhat a sorta-adult as well. We are not fucking toddlers. Plus, this was the only time we were having trouble with dates since we both mostly get our work done.
So we both get mad and went to our counselor. Of course, I was reasonable a bit and decide to get a note from Mrs. K so I wasn't going to be in trouble or at least say that I have a note excusing us from class. I should've said it before in the beginning that the steak lab was the only day today to do it so we can not do it tomorrow and that'll risk us points.
So yeah, I'm still a bit pissed off. We already talked to the counselors about it and they said that they will follow up after spring break. I was just mostly glad we had someone to talk to us and not be rude. They listened to us very carefully and weren't rude 'n' stuff; we took turns talking about the experience.
tl;dr: the culinary teacher was very rude and I walked out of that toxic environment w/ friend.
Sorry that you had to read this reign. I kinda just wanted to talk to other friends about it. I know that you've had shared some ableist experiences and problems, so I figured I'd share mine. /gen
gosh I’m so sorry :/// teachers should be formally trained in how to accommodate AÑL their students. When a student tells you they have a disability and that’s why they messed something up, if your response is “well everyone ELSE did it” or you then treat them like a baby, you shouldn’t be a fucking teacher. I’ve definitely had authority figures like this, it’s really annoying. I’m sorry you didn’t get to do the lab either :// im tired of disabled students always been treated like we are just lazy or it’s just an excuse. Like, one of my best friends is legally blind and one of my teachers KNEW that and then didn’t accommodate them on any of the tests. I get panic attacks with presentations and i told my teacher and they were just like “everyone has to do the presentation”. I also have dyslexia and another learning disorder and my teacher got mad at me for needing extended time on assignments and tests. All of this to say, i know how you’re feeling and I’m really sorry 💕💕💕
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How did you end up getting diagnosed? Was it a long process with a thousand dollar test or could you get it another way? I'm looking to get tested
(apologies, this is a pretty long post about the process but I hope it helps!!)
So for my diagnosis, I went through a neuropsychological center to get a neuropsychological evaluation and I initially went bc my therapist suspected ADHD but I tacted on the ASD testing because my mom has always been suspicious, haha (I think you have to go to a neuropsychological center for ASD but don't quote me on that)
The process was both long and not long. I initially reached out to the center to set up an appointment in late November. However, due to anxiety, I was really slow at responding to their emails and following up. By the time I was able to kick myself into gear (which was around Christmas), the closest appointment that worked with my schedule was in early March (March 10). I also had to set up an intake appointment (March 1) and then a follow-up appointment (today, March 22). I also had to provide my health insurance information right away before they set up any appointments.
Everything kind of happened quickly from there. There was a LOT of paperwork to fill out prior to my intake appointment. This included family history reports, self-reports (just symptoms I'm experiencing and such), contracts/agreements, etc. The paperwork is probably the most exhausting part especially if you ever feel like me and ur like "should I really be doing this? am i just being dramatic?"
I had to have the paperwork in before my intake appointment and then for the intake appointment it was like about 30-45 minutes and mine was with a postdoctorate student (the psychologist was out of the office that day). He basically reviewed the paperwork I had submitted and discussed what I was concerned about, what symptoms I was having, etc.
At the end of the intake appt, I was sent MORE paperwork lmao but these were like questionnaires (they covered both ASD and ADHD). They asked me questions about how i personally felt, my habits, some of my interests, socializing, empathy, etc. I was asked about the current day and childhood. My mom was also given questionnaires and I think hers were also a mix of current and childhood behaviors.
I had to hand in the questionnaires the day of my testing so I did that morning and then went in for testing. Testing for me was about 5 hours long and it was exhausting. It can be even longer depending on what tests you are going in for and if they have anything else they notice and want to explore (with ur permission). But mine was just one day, it went from about 9am-2pm and I had a break for lunch.
The evaluation itself was a lot. They described it as a "stress test for your brain" and they were NOT kidding. It was a mix of puzzles, electronic tests, verbal tests, memory, some tests on paper, etc. It was a lot but my tester was very nice and patient.
That then brings me to today which was my "feedback appt" where I met virtually with the psychologist and he walked me through results of EVERY test, including the questionnaires I and my mom completed. He gave his initial interpretations (as I have discussed in other posts lmao) and was very thorough and answered questions. It was about an hour long. I was not prescribed anything or referred for any treatment. I am not sure if that comes with the diagnosis stuff or not but, in the meantime, I will be seeking out my own psychiatrist to discuss medications for the anxiety and depression factors my psychologist noted (and boy were they high, he was stunned).
I now basically wait for the formal diagnosis papers which can take 6-8 weeks, give or take.
One thing I did not like about the place I went to is the psychologist was very much into "differentiating" the "types" of autism. For me he used the term "Aspergers" a lot which I don't like for many reasons and it generally is not a term autistic people use anymore (I especially didn't like that he called me an "Aspie" and called autism the "trendy phrase" - it was kind of weird). It's all just under ASD. and he eventually specifically described me as ASD level 1 which is in the DSM.
Now, as for the COST of everything, I have insurance through my parents, I am still under their plan. Going into this, I didn't know if my insurance would cover it at all. This was very much something where I was just gonna bite the bullet and do it for my own sake. As I said previously, they asked for my insurance right away and bc they moved ahead I assumed they accepted it (their website said they took my insurance as well but my insurance can be weird lmao). There was a $50 fee I had to pay up front that insurance would not cover (it was for testing materials). Without insurance, the whole thing came out to be over $3,000. WITH insurance, I will be paying about $1,100.
I am not sure if there is another way to go about getting a diagnosis. I am not sure if psychiatrists can do anything when it comes to this. I think psychiatrists can but you have to go to someone who specializes in ASd. My therapist recommended I look for a place that did neuropsychological evaluations because they will look at like ur whole brain basically (not literally tho lmao there was no tests like that) and if it wasn't ASD or ADHD they can suggest other things. so that is why I took the route I took!
But, yeah, that was my experience. I hope I laid it out all okay - if you have questions please feel free to ask, I can try to answer them but, fair warning, I might not have all the answers 😅
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Henrys birthday / March symbolism.
To start off I'm sure I've mentioned it a million times before but March is a "special" month in Hawkins according to me. Not only is it the month of Henry's birthday, but its the month the Creel's officially moved to Hawkins. This is how I'm explaining the repeating theme of March in the Stranger things canon.
( Including Will's birthday, Billy's birthday, and the entirety of Season 4 beginning in March and, as an update, I think its very interesting that the reveal about the stage play being focused on Henry's childhood was announced in March, right on my birthday actually ! The March theme specifically surrounding Henry continues ! Not to mention they're calling it "The first Shadow," I do stay winning. )
I don't know how canon is going to explain any of that, if its not just a coincidence, but since I'm insane and I love creating patterns and symbolism I've already decided to go a little nuts with it and so here are some more thoughts on that: I'm putting the date the Creel's officially moved into the house in Hawkins as March 2nd, because thats my birthday and I'm allowed. Henry's birthday is March 8th, which is also when Henry had his first "encounter" with "The Shadow" (The Mindflayer.)
So again, march 22nd is Will's birthday and in my headcanon, also the day Henry discovered his extreme psychic abilities, and March 29th, which is Billy's birthday, is the day Henry killed his mother and sister. Thats their symbolic importance to him.
Something else I also mentioned in other posts is the fact that Stranger Things, particularly Season 4, drew a lot of inspo from Western / Christian mythology and my insane provocative to mirror this and this is no different. March and April tend to be thought of as significant months therein because of the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus, March being the preparation for Jesus' resurrection and April being the month in which that took place. I'm mirroring this with Henry in March as the period where Henry encounters the MF and develops his powers and April being the month when ��Brenner kidnaps Henry and he wakes up from his "coma" in Brenner's care.
I also think I mentioned this once before in passing but I wanted to mention it again: In my headanon the one and only time Henry was ever actually “diagnosed” with anything, despite having a long history of difficulties with school and thus repeated doctor’s consultations, was after moving to Hawkins, fairly late into the month, maybe more around the middle, after Henry's encounter with the MF. They diagnosed him with childhood schizophrenia. Obviously this was a misdiagnosis but it was the 50s and it was common for ASD to be misdiagnosed this way back then.
That being said, one of the big factors in Henry’s diagnosis was his “strange thinking” and “unusual perceptions.”
If you’ve read my post here, you know I have a running theory that the being known as the Mindflayer by the party ( Who I perceive to be the Stranger Things version of The Serpent from DnD ) was able to “commune” with Henry long before he ever got to the Upside Down thanks to Henry’s latent psychic abilities and this was what really woke those abilities up and certainly amplified them in a way we haven’t seen with any other psychic character in the series. ( Once again, look up DnD Vecna and “The Serpent” from DnD, I promise it all makes perfect sense )
In my headcanon Henry kind of... Did try to express to his parents what he was “experiencing” but of course this was extremely difficult for him because unlike Will, Henry’s environment wasn’t a loving, open, accepting one. Henry’s mother didn’t believe him or take him seriously on anything and this was a pre-established thing which made it hard for Henry to actually try to communicate anything with his family in the first place. He was seen as suffering delusions and mental illness.
No, He didn’t really know how to explain it as a 12 year old boy, but most pressingly the knowing that no one would understand or even want to understand or believe him meant Henry was withdrawn, defensive, deflective and standoffish even if he really did want to talk to his family and be “more cooperative” with them, so to speak. On top of this, Henry found himself frustrated by his family's “superstitions” particularly when his own attempts to explain things where thought of with such concern.
Victor was the only one who gave Henry any heed, especially as Victor himself felt something was wrong, but even then Henry wasn’t taken very seriously by the family at large and again, a lot of the goings on of the house were blamed on a “demon” which Henry had a lot of contempt for given he knew a lot of the things in the house that were upsetting his family were somehow coming more from him and his anger with them, but he couldn’t really explain how or why he suddenly knew the things he did or could do the things he could do, or could see the things he could see.
In his retelling in the show, Victor explicitly confirms that he could see “[Henry] knew something was wrong.” And we also know Victor went to the EXTENT of having an exorcist preformed on the house, also confirming Victor himself both believed Henry and knew something wasn't right either.
When Will is “possessed” by the Mindflayer in season 2, he talks about how he suddenly knows things, things that he didn’t know before but he doesn’t know how he knows them. I imagine Henry encountered a similar phenomenon when he was subconsciously linked to the Mindflayer in his childhood. Henry began to know things he couldn’t explain and he did “SEE” the Mindflayer cloud in dreams / visions as well.
None the less, Henry's “diagnosis” at the back end of all this was the big factor in his mother getting into contact with Brenner, who at the time was labeled a leading “expert” in the “human mind” as back in the 50s, neurodivergence and mental illness was not well understood and due to the societal and political climate, particularly in the US, Virginia saw institutionalizing Henry as the “best option”.
WHICH brings me to a post I made last night that I'm going over really quick because I think its relevant. There is a lot of supernatural repetition in Vecna's "curse" and his behaviors. He often repeats moments on his trauma, projecting them onto this victims who then live them too, and the scene with Max in the Piggy Back episode seems to be an INCREDIBLY interesting instance of this. Why ? Because Vecna says this:
❝ Is that ... All true ? You wanted Billy to die? You ever have thoughts like that about me ? Normal people don't fantasize about killing other people, Max. You realize that, right? I thought you were getting better - but you're not, are you? You are sick. Maybe it is good he takes you. Maybe its for the best. In fact, I'm glad its going to be you. You will be the chosen one. The Fourth. The final sacrifice! Its going to be you that BREAKS THE WORLD. ❞
Now let me just direct you all back to the scene with Will and Joyce in season 2 when Will begins to explain the thoughts he's having and the things he can see after being "contacted" by the Mindflayer. He begins to talk about killing people and people dying, and the horrible things he's seeing.
Joyce reassures him and protects him, like a good mother would - but you know who has been HEAVILY suggested to have NOT had a good mother, and instead, canonly described his mother as hating him and who seemed to just want to blame him ? Who just wanted her son "taken away" by a doctor to be "fixed" ? And thus would have ultimately sacrificed him to maintain her ideal of normal, happy family ? Henry. Who is the one who has actually been "chosen" to "Break the world" ? Henry. I heavily feel like what Vecna said to Max as Lucas was yet another clue about what happened to him as a child and what is ultimately going on in the plot.
More than that, the way he explicitly called Max a "sacrifice" is interesting, particularly when you put it with the scene in season 3 when flayed!Billy, who is widely believed to have been under the control of Vecna at the time, which I do agree with, incapacitates Eleven and instead of just killing her he goes to the effort of taking her to the mindflayer's Proxy body and offering her to it, as if an act of propitiation.
And we also had a previous scene of Flayed!Billy, talking to Flayed!Heather, in which SOMEHOW Flayed!Heather knows who Eleven is and Flayed!Billy is furious because she bested him and he could have been killed so Flayed!Heather has to reassure him that "they'll" win. Interesting shit to think about there. Like, this isn't ONE single entity speaking through the flayed, its apparently TWO and they're having a whole conversation with each other.
Anyway ! With that aside, on to that old Astrology crap copy-pasted from my original post on it back when:
Basically I’m giving Henry a birthday and instead of being a normal person and just saying the the date and fucking off I’m gonna be a crazy person make it too deep. I decided he’s sharing the same month as Will ( March ) and I’m pretty sure I’m going to go with the date of the 8th because it is parallel to Will’s birthday of the 22nd. ( I know the D*ffer brother’s seem to be planning to change this bc they forgot but idc ) It also makes Henry a Pisces which is very sexy to me as both a fellow Pisces and someone who loves filling shit with meta and symbolization because I’m insane like that.
Pisces, a water sign, is the last constellation of the zodiac. It's symbolized by two fish swimming in opposite directions, representing the constant division of Pisces's attention between fantasy and reality. As the final sign, Pisces has absorbed every lesson — the joys and the pains, the hopes and the fears — learned by all of the other signs.
This makes these fish the most psychic, empathetic, and compassionate creatures of the astrological wheel. With such immense sensitivity, Pisces can easily become swallowed by emotions and must remember to stay grounded in the material realm. Pisces is ruled by Neptune, the celestial body that governs creativity and dreams, and these ethereal fish adore exploring their boundless imaginations. In its more nefarious form, however, Neptune also oversees illusion and escapism.
Neptunian energy is like the energy of the ocean: magical, mysterious, and often scary. When the fog is thick on the water, the horizon is obstructed and there is no differentiation between the sea and the sky. A mutable sign, Pisces effortlessly adapts to their surroundings. These visionary fish have unparalleled access to the collective unconscious through their clairvoyance and make incredible artists and creatives.
In my big fat opinion this all fits who I perceive Henry to have been as a human. And it also works as a very tasty dark mirror of what Henry becomes as Vecna. Which is particularly spice given the Mindflayer itself is clearly a metaphor to the Shadow self and I have talked about this a few times before. I’ve always hated the popular depiction of Pieces as people tend to only focus on the preposed "sensitive, shy, artistic traits," and no one ever focuses on the terrifying depth of a Pisces or the devastation that can be done by having both the most expansive imagination and the most refined ability to perceive and understand other people’s emotions or insecurities. Like I really gotta be out here doing everything myself.
There is a frightening duality of the Pisces and the two fish swimming in opposite directions can also draw parallels to the yin and yang. The Pisces being represented by water is suited in the amount of forms water can take. Most people view water as gentle and healing. However, water can be as fiercely destructive as any other element. The form of a clear stream, an inviting lake, a refreshing shower and gentle waves can easily become a raging river, a dark ocean, a violent storm and a devastating tsunami. We’ve seen this very duality from Henry, and Vecna is his shadow self; the darkest most monstrous version of him in physical form.
Henry’s status as the first test subject, the oldest and the most powerful also fits well with the Pieces being considered the last and most mature of the zodiac on different ends of a spectrum, with Henry also being the first and oldest test subject, representing the beginning and end. The Alpha and Omega, so to speak. I’m sure I don’t have to go into all the spicy symbolism of Pisces being linked to alternative dimensions and being a traveler and a link to said dimensions because I think thats damn obvious. Same to be said about the representation of dreams and illusions.
I also think its very funny that Venca / Henry had an early design phase where he was heavily based on fish and water. I’ve personally always had the water relations in my portrayal because thats just how he’s hittin me but this further links some things together really nicely.
Lastly the dual fish are often considered to be a symbol to a Pisces soul considered to be in two pieces. We can again draw this back to the yin-yang aesthetic but I’m intending it entirely to represent how Henry is clearly an inverted parallel to Will and how they are “linked.” To me I also draw from the aesthetic of Silent hill and Alessa and Cheryl, again with Alessa being the dark mirror of Cheryl and the two being soul-connected. Alessa the dark half and Cheryl the light half.
With Henry and Will I see this linking of “souls” or whatever to have taken place through the mindflayer, who previously to infecting Will had merged with Henry. Since Will’s abduction and apparent “resurrection” he’s shown some type of psychic ability, which seems to have come from whatever “”part”” of Henry was in the mindflayer and invaded Will creating this weird connection they have through Wills ability to perceive the "hivemind". ( We also literally saw human Henry was VERY similar to Will particularly in terms of being sensitive, artistic “loners.” )
Metaphorically, I get the sense the mindflayer’s dark influence is suppose to represent hatred, abuse and pain, rejection, isolation and essentially a caution about the perils of someone experiencing trauma without a support network, allowing negative emotions and suffering to corrupt someone’s soul which is very symbolic to Henry/Vecna, while Will parallels and inverts this as someone who is also a societal outcast and a minority, etc, but unlike Henry he had a support group, this didn’t let the darkness win or rather he wasn’t driven toward it and was instead pulled away from it.
Side note: If the mindflayer is sentient and I believe it is, yes, I view it as something that “preyed” on Henry due to being an outcast and yes, it is using him but at this point he’s using it just as much.
Their relationship is both parasitic and symbiotic, which seems to be a contradiction but we’re dealing with over-powered psychics, alternative hellish dimensions and eldritch entities here, so far its working out for them but I def wouldn’t say all of this has been most beneficial to Henry. I mean ... look at him. But yeah, I have a whole bunch of crazy thoughts on the MF and how it functions to me that I'm not covering here because those are different posts.
Anyway, Henry and Will also share the aesthetic of wizardry and ‘returning from death’; Will as the “Zombie boy “ and his Dnd character being a Cleric and Henry as “Vecna” the all-powerful demi god-lich.
I’ve spoke about Henry’s parallels to DnD’s Vecna before as well as mentioned the likeness of the Mindflayer to both the “elder brain” of the Dnd mind-flayers and the “Serpent” associated to DnD Vecna, but to paste from Dnd beyond in regard to the Cleric:
Clerics are intermediaries between the mortal world and the distant planes of the gods. As varied as the gods they serve, clerics strive to embody the handiwork of their deities. No ordinary priest, a cleric is imbued with divine magic. Divine magic, as the name suggests, is the power of the gods, flowing from them into the world. Clerics are conduits for that power, manifesting it as miraculous effects. The gods don’t grant this power to everyone who seeks it, but only to those chosen to fulfill a high calling.
Harnessing divine magic doesn’t rely on study or training. A cleric might learn formulaic prayers and ancient rites, but the ability to cast cleric spells relies on devotion and an intuitive sense of a deity’s wishes. Clerics combine the helpful magic of healing and inspiring their allies with spells that harm and hinder foes.
They can provoke awe and dread, lay curses of plague or poison, and even call down flames from heaven to consume their enemies. For those evildoers who will benefit most from a mace to the head, clerics depend on their combat training to let them wade into melee with the power of the gods on their side.
This kinda fits everything about Will and Henry having a soul-link connection through some “divine” other-wordily force. Henry is linked to the mind-flayer entity and so is Will, so Will is also linked to Henry, meaning the three of them are joined in weird psychic soul-bond horror and the existence of the "hivemind."
Also If Will’s birthday remains the 22nd ( and it should ! ) he is an Aries, the “first” sign of the zodiac which adds further parallels to, and is repeatedly symbolic to the “beginning” and “end” as I've said. ( Will being the beginning, everything “starting” with his abduction in the first ep and Henry being the “end,” introduced last in the recent season and will be what the series ends with, as well as with the last season ending around Will just as the first season began around Will, like you see where I'm at with all this fhjdkfg. )
Aries is also a fire sign, opposite of Pisces as a water sign. Will is heavily related to fire in the canon of the show and I like that because I think its about time the water-element gets to be the mean, “evil” one and the fire-element gets to be the nice, “good” one bc the inverse of that is beat to hell as a trope, evil water-people represent.
Some people do argue that Henry/Vecna/the MF is represented by fire as well but nah bruh, fire, light, heat: they all harm the MF, Henry was set alight with Molotov's for a reason, the MF and by extension Henry are dark, shadowy and MOIST and thats a fact, quite literally, source: the damp squelching sound effects and the need the ST make up crew had to be constantly redosing Jamie in lube as Vecna to keep the slimy affect of his skin.
Basically Henry ( As Vecna ) is a perilous bog, a shadow, cold and dark while Will is the light and warmth, a torch and a cleansing flame. Henry/Vecna is the curse and Will is the cure. And thats my essay on that and I HOPE the duffers and ST writers go as hard with this as I think they should.
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