i can't believe i forgot to include this scene in chapter 12...
"Neuvillette, can you bend down for me?” you whispered, then changed your mind and stood up on your tiptoes, then pressed your lips against his smooth, marble cheek. But unlike marble, it was soft and warm.
There was a short, taut silence. For a moment, you feared that you had done something wrong. It could be taken for something else. But it's not only couples who kiss each other on the cheek. Friends do it too, you argued with yourself in your head.
Neuvillette spoke after a short while.
"Why did you do that?" he said. You didn't detect any offense in his voice. He sounded genuinely confused.
The question confused you as well. Why had you done that? It was very unlike you.
"...Because I wanted to," you said, and knew that was the truth. You had acted on a sudden urge, and didn't regret it.
"I see," Neuvillette said.
"And because people kiss on dates," you added quickly. Something about the way he said "I see" made you do so. It felt as though if you didn't add something more, he would begin to see you differently, and that brought about a wave of fear within you. "Or so I've heard."
Neuvillette let out a quiet, airy chuckle. "I heard that as well," he said.
Inwardly, you sagged with relief. But there was also something else there. A feeling like you almost had something, but let it slip through your fingers.
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My process for writing new chapters
getting inspired to include a cool scene/dialogue in the story
trying to brainstorm how to fit it in the story
writing the setup to the scene, which ends up taking more time/energy/words than expected
realizing that the scene isn't even that great/ooc for the characters involved/completing forgetting about it
getting rid of it in the end
comfort myself by telling myself that i'll post it as a deleted scene somewhere, or reuse it in another chapter/fic
repeat a billion times (i never learn my lesson)
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