#melanie answers stuff

[loserchildhotpants]

I hope that the thing you are feeling is just maybe a huge change that in a way will kill your current self, but not necessarily will mean dead, as someone pointed out. However, and I'm aware you don't asked this so feel free to ignore it, I think you might feel more at ease if you put your stuff in order like "just in case", you might find something while doing that, or just feel kind of prepared after is done. And what next? Just enjoy every second. Even if you are right or wrong about this feeling, I think the important part is just enjoying everything a little bit more from now on. Hope this feeling doesn't torment you in a negative way, and instead helps you to find something good. Hug more, love more, say more I love yous, smile more, maybe that feeling will go away, and if not at least you won't have those regrets.

I hope I wasn't too intrusive or insensitive, and again, feel free to ignore this please, I just felt I had to say it. I don't normally write about something personal and actually I just don't normally interact, so whatever made me do this out of nowhere, just wanted to tell you that.

Thank you so much ❤️ the thoughts aren’t tormenting me beyond feeling a little lost. If it is a figurative death i feel coming, i wonder why it feels so personal and pressing, y’know? I’ve experienced so many deaths already, so many resurrections and evolutions, and it’s never felt like this before, so i wonder if im missing something, or misreading a sign.

I addressed my Oracle cards today. If nothing else, it’s given me a starting place for finding my answers.

I was considering getting my matters in order, i just didn’t want to inadvertently manifest anything 😅 but you’re right, it would be comforting no matter what.

This was a sweet and thoughtful message— thank you, anon ❤️

[enjoyvoidblack]

our big post was getting long and it won't let me message so I thought I'd just come bother you here asldkfjsad I am like. so 1000% certain there is mention in the text that the initial purpose and efforts of Jonah and the Institute were to research the fears and prevent their many catastrophes, and that somewhere along the line he came to the conclusion that this wasn't viable, that the world and the fears simply didn't function in a way that was conducive to meaningfully stopping them from doing anything. which was how he settled into the position of 'well then I am going to use the instruments of power to save ME and build a ladder to free myself personally from their clutches forever' I def don't know when he started to turn from that, but i'll have to go back through the transcripts and find it again.

I do get that the narrative is written with Jon as the focal point, and that doesn't leave a lot of room for Elias to be sympathetic--he certainly doesn't make himself sympathetic TO Jon, or any of the Archives crew (beyond what I find to be an interesting amount of patience, understanding, and restraint he shows for them), but I still think like. Part of the beauty of Jonny's storytelling is that there is a kernel of completely understandable humanity to most everyone that's presented with any depth in the series, even the people we DON'T like. The "people here don't have excuses, they have causes" is again really excellent wording. There isn't really a lot of the usual karmic style reasoning or justice in this series; it isn't about Good People doing Good Things or Bad People doing Bad Things, it's just. People Doing Things, while under the influence of powers that are at once cosmic and beyond us, and inherently OF us.

adsfkjas this is getting long too I'm so sorry you activated a trap card here but idk. He absolutely is both manipulator and victim. He did all that shit, and all the while it's being done TO him, and he's walking this incredibly razor thin line between feeding his god/being empowered by it, and bc of it's nature knowing in intimate detail every nasty thing that awaits him should he fail (and I think being deathly afraid of it). That gif from Knives Out lmfao, compels me.

(apologies this probably isn't hugely coherent but there we are)

Thank you I am chewing on this ask violently. You Get It.

Unfortunate that tumblr killed your paragraph breaks, because I now can't find the section easily, but that thing about Jonny's character work in this series entirely consisting of aspects of "completely understandable humanity" is SO deeply how I feel about it. This is part of why I love horror of this kind so much. The horror being the fact that no one can really do anything to stop it opens up a space where the characters don't need to be presented along clear lines of good and evil, or even helping a cause or hurting it. It's a lot closer to how real people react in a natural disaster, if anything. There is love and selfishness and incredible acts of violence and cruelty and understandable failings and greed and fear, and pretty much all of it has a root that you can see, if you know enough about the people doing it and the circumstances to really feel where their mindset must be. I'd say Elias is functionally the closest thing TMA has to a narrative scapegoat, but that doesn't mean he is one. I almost feel like he's there as a pressure valve for the story, to be a villain if people need one to make sense of what's going on without having to constantly confront head-on the horror of the way the setting traps everyone in it. He can be made that kind of scapegoat, but only really by ignoring the parallels to Jon and the letters sent to him in older statements, and the way both show how the Fears drive the people who learn about them into more and more desperate straits.

It's kind of like that with all the older avatars. Simon Fairchild throws people off of stuff for a joke, because he's had more than 400 years of being steeped in the knowledge that humanity is both insignificant in the span of the universe, as well as utterly incapable of stopping the course of the Fears as they exert whatever influence they will by the force of sheer bulk. Peter Lukas never had a chance - he was born into this, isolation was his family and religion and paradoxically from childhood his only possible road to belonging. Adelard Dekker thought he was helping, as did Gertrude, even as they both fed the things that claimed them alongside those efforts. Nikola Orsinov was so far away from having an identity anymore that she couldn't go back if she wanted to, if she had even had enough left to want. Her world would have just been a home that was more like herself, and who hasn't wanted that? They're easier to vilify because their outlooks are harder to understand until the very end of the series, but looking back it's so clear that they were also just people once, and the writing never really lets you forget that.

If I said I'd tried to make all of these replies short, you probably wouldn't believe me. And Yet. I am not NORMAL about this show and the way Jonny writes people.

[kodaswrld]

melanie martinez orange juice dividers? 💝

yesss of course! your profile is so cute!!

all of the decor in this post is for you, thank you for making a request!

[mika-chaos-bean]

my turn for lyrics in ur inbox hehehe 🤭 (is crybaby by melanie martinez one of my fav songs !)

you seem to replace your brain with your heart

you take things so hard and then fall apart

you try to explain but before you can start

those crybaby tears come out of the dark!

someone's turnin the handle to the faucet in your eyes

you pour it out where everyone can see!

your heart's too big for your body, it's why you won't fit inside!

you pour it out where evryone can see!

they call you crybaby, crybaby, but you don't even care!!

crybaby, crybaby, so you laugh through your tears

crybaby crybaby, but you don't even care!

tears fall to the ground, we'll just let them drown!

oh, i remember seeing a part of this in your pkmn rp blog! except instead of crybaby it was snom baby hehe :3

maybe i'll listen to it sometime! i havent really listened to a lot of melanie martinez's songs (besides moon cycle and a few others), but i'll listen to any music you do! (because i wanna know about your music taste and stuff, also cuz my music taste is literally 90s rock, whatever jet set radio has going on, atmospheric music, whatever TUNIC (the game) has going on, and others-)

[literallyjonathandavis]

im getting into melanie martinez again in the middle of a crash out

screaming to nymphology currently

FUCK YEAH

[the-liege-in-gray]

So uh… who’s Melanie? Gotta ask.

You don’t have to ask. But I suppose someone was going to eventually. Melanie is someone I know- she’s a human- well, used to be human.

Like I said earlier she’s a companion of sorts, sometimes I wish she’d just leave me alone but I don’t know what I’d do with myself if she did. She helps me manage my realm, as do the others that failed to escape it. Not that there was much of chance to escape it back when-

…I don’t want to talk about this.

[humming-fly]

Good News for 4/20

My daily call reminder for everyone today includes some recent good news courtesy of this reddit post, which I've just copypasted wholesale for everyone over here to enjoy!

Resistance

crosswalks in Seattle were hacked to play AI audio of Jeff Bezos asking not to tax the rich, in reference to Washington’s regressive tax structure

crosswalks in Palo Alto were hacked to play AI audio of Elon talking about be being a friendless loser

A constituent at Marjorie Taylor Green’s town hall called her a “butch body bigot”

Constituents at Chuck Grassley’s town hall demanded they get Kilmar Abrego Garcia out of El Salvador (this was in IOWA, and was mostly older white people)

5 Calls posted that people are averaging 50 calls a minute to representatives via the app, specifically about Kilmar and CECOT

Posters went up around Philadelphia just before 4/15 about Elon and his companies not paying taxes

Protesters showed up outside a courthouse in Vermont in support of Rumeysa Ozturk during her detention hearing

People travelled from all over Missouri to speak out in opposition of a proposed abortion ban during a committee hearing

Home Alone 2 director wants to cut Trump’s cameo out of the movie

Attorneys in the solicitor general’s office of the DOJ are resigning

A group of current and former Big Law attorneys are organizing to fight back against the administration’s attacks on law firms

More associates have quit law firms that capitulated to Trump

Harvard refused to comply with Trump’s demands, despite losing billions in federal funding

Protesters marched to Fetterman’s Philadelphia office demanding he hold in person town halls

Universities are creating NATO-like alliances of “mutual defense compacts”, where they’d all support and defend each other if Trump attacks one

Farmers in Maine had a tractor “parade” to protest USDA cuts

Boise city hall is continuing to have their pride flag up despite a new Idaho state law banning pride flags on government property

Republicans breaking ranks

Mark Kelly said republicans will start to distance themselves from Trump and speak out against his policies, that they’re saying things in private they won’t say publicly

Lisa Murkowski heavily criticized Trump’s policies during a nonprofit leadership summit, also said there’s a “growing number of republicans” opposing Medicaid cuts

12 house republicans signed a letter to Mike Johnson saying they won’t vote for a final budget reconciliation bill that cuts Medicaid

17 republicans in the Montana state senate joined democrats to block an anti-trans bill that would have made it a felony for an adult to help trans kids under 16 access gender affirming medical care

The Libertarian Party of Travis County, TX passed a resolution calling for Trump to be impeached

Dems doing stuff

Chris Van Hollen went to El Salvador to put eyes on Kilmar Abrego Garcia and attempt to negotiate his release. After being denied access to CECOT or even a phone call on Wednesday, he was able to meet with Kilmar on Thursday

Robert Garcia and Maxwell Frost are trying to get a congressional delegation authorized to travel to El Salvador

Cory Booker, Maxine Dexter, Yassamin Ansari, and Mark Desaulnier have all said (separately) they plan to travel to El Salvador

Chuck Schumer is blocking Trump’s nominees for federal prosecutors in NY—this is different than when senators put holds on cabinet nominees and this would completely block the appointments instead of just slow them down

Becca Balint Led 67 House Colleagues in Demanding Answers from DHS and the State Department on Mohsen Mahdawi’s Arrest

Elizabeth Warren and Melanie Stansbury introduced a bill to create stronger ethics rules and crack down on conflicts of interest for special government employees

Sarah McBride forced the Trump admin to reverse course on slashing a manufacturing support program in Delaware

Sean Casten held a town hall in the deepest red district in Illinois

Democrats have identified 35 vulnerable republican house seats to target in the midterms

Texas state representative John Bucy introduced a bill to expand online voter registration

Kathy Hochul supported a law passed by NYC city council to shift payment of broker fees from renters to landlords, after the Real Estate Board of NY sued the city to block it

Tony Evers locked in an increase in public school funding in Wisconsin for 400 years, the state Supreme Court backed it up

Janet Mills refused to comply with Trump’s orders on banning transgender athletes, said “I’m happy to go to court”

Illinois house democrats advanced legislation to require public colleges and universities to provide reproductive health care services to students

Jared Polis signed the Protecting the Freedom to Marry Act, protecting every Coloradan’s right to marry who they love

Nevada democrats introduced legislation to help the state hire federal workers fired by Trump and Elon

Wes Moore signed legislation aimed at connecting laid-off federal health care workers with jobs

NC AG Jeff Jackson sued property management companies over using RealPage to set and inflate rents, the second largest one settled and agreed to stop using it

Legal stuff

A lawsuit was filed against the DoD on behalf of students at schools on military bases, stating that book removals and curriculum changes violate their first amendment rights

Gavin Newsom is suing Trump over tariffs

Newsom is planning to sue Trump over the dismantling of Americorp

Judge Boasberg finds “probable cause” to hold Trump admin in contempt over Alien Enemies Act deportations

Judge Xinis ordered two weeks of discovery in the Abrego Garcia case, including depositions of the four officials who signed affidavits, and doesn’t rule out holding them in contempt

An appeals court denied the Trump administration’s attempt to appeal the order from Judge Xinis to facilitate the return of Kilmar Abrego Garcia

A former Wisconsin Supreme Court justice had his law license suspended for 3 years for violating professional conduct rules during a probe of the 2020 presidential vote

A group of small businesses is suing Trump over the tariffs, arguing they’re illegal under the IEEPA

A judge blocked Trump’s EO targeting law firm Susman Godfrey

Appeals court blocked the ban on trans military service members

Supreme Court temporarily blocked deportations under the Alien Enemies Act

A court denied the administration’s attempt to appeal an order mandating officials’ depositions about Kilmar’s deportation

A judge blocked the administration from enacting a policy that bans the use of “X” gender markers on passports

Foreign students are suing DHS over their visas being terminated

A federal judge blocked the Department of Energy from cutting over $400M in research funds to universities

A judge blocked the EPA from withholding billions in funds from clean energy programs

An Idaho judge ruled to broaden medical exceptions to the state’s abortion bans

Misc

Trump’s approval rating among independents is -22, the lowest ever for this point in a presidency

Three pentagon officials have been suspended in a leak investigation

Spokane, WA city council is proposing an ordinance that would include Two-Spirit people in the city’s human rights code, double up on state shield protections and ensure city employees’ insurance covers gender-affirming and reproductive healthcare

David Hogg (DNC vice chair) is planning to spend $20M funding primary challengers against sitting House members in safe blue districts who aren’t fighting hard enough

Florida lawmakers unanimously approved making medical marijuana cards free for veterans

Run For Something reported that over 200,000 people have signed up with them to run for office since 2017, and they’re currently averaging 500 new signups a day

National Republican Senatorial Committee is warning republicans that democrats are out-fundraising them

Six men in Coeur d’Alene, ID have been charged after dragging Teresa Borrenpohl out of a town hall in February

Mike Lindell (MyPillow guy) cried to a judge that he was “in ruins” and had no money after refusing to pay sanctions to Smartmatic

Portland city council unanimously voted to grant an appeal to stop a Portland General Electric project that would cut down 397 trees in Forest Park to build power lines

Unions form pro bono legal network for federal workers targeted by Trump

Funding was extended for the Common Vulnerabilities and Exposures database (cybersecurity)

Democrats are more trusted on the economy than republicans for the first time in years

The FDA granted fast track status to a bird flu vaccine

Dems won against Maga candidates in the Newark school board election

Labor union reps in Utah got twice the required number of signatures to get a referendum on the ballot to repeal a recent bill that ended collective bargaining

Washington state senate passed a bill that would require insurance companies to cover a 12-month supply of hormone replacement therapy at a time

Betty Martinez Franco became the first Latina elected to Irvine city council. She came to the US as an undocumented immigrant and has since become a citizen, gotten a masters degree, started a PR agency, and is now elected to city council

Elon’s L’s

Elon dropped DOGE’s savings goal from $2T to $150B—less than 10% of the original goal

Elon was outed as dm’ing women he’d never met and offering to impregnate them, shortly after that he announced he was deactivating twitter’s dm feature

Elon’s meeting at the Pentagon on China was stopped by Trump (“what the fuck is Elon doing there? Make sure he doesn’t go”)

[kenmaspuddinghair]

Simon with a southern wife

Simon Ghost Riley x Southern Reader

summary- just two little examples of Simon struggle to understand his southern wife's slang, under 1k words

The hardest part of your marriage in Simon's opinion was trying to decipher your southern slang

Simon had been out for the past few hours with the rest of the 141, so you took the alone time to get some chores done around the house while playing your southern tunes. 

 You were drying and putting away dishes when Simon walked in, he came behind you kissing you gently “Hey Si, did you have fun?” Simon started helping you instinctively while he began talking “Yeah, although Soap complained about his girlfriend problems almost the whole time. Get this, Melanie, Soaps girlfriend, saw him talkin’ to a girl outside base when she came to get ‘im and she just assumed he was cheatin’ on ‘er so she left ‘im there and went to their apartment and started trashin’ his stuff” “Oh bless her heart, she was so heartbroken she started throwin a hissy fit” Simon paused staring at you but you just continued what you were doing, so he continued the story

 “When Soap got a ride to their apartment, most of his clothes and some other stuff were cut up and some on fire, she were about to throw his playstation out the window but he stopped ‘er in time” 

“Oh she's madder than a wet hen, she needs to learn that it aint right to act like that, i know her mother raised her better” Simon just stops moving to stare at you “Sod off, what are you talkin’ about, why are you talkin’ in gibberish” you turn to Simon just as confused “What are you talking about hun, we're just talking” Simon just sighs and shakes his head. 

 “Well uh Soap just spent the rest of the time out askin’ Price what to do. So ‘ow was your time lovie?” “Oh well I just spent my time cleanin and listening to my music, but i was fixin’ to go over yonder to the store to get some sock it to me cake I reckon they'll have it, for some reason I've been hankering for it all day” Simon nearly dropped the dish he was drying , he was sure either you or him was having a stroke “Are ya okay, ya keep talkin’ all this nonsense like its normal” you just rolled your eyes finally realising he couldn't understand you “Im just about to go to the store to get some sock it to me cake, ive been wanting it all day” Simon just threw his hands up “See most of that made sense, except the sockatimmy cake, the fuckin’ hell is that” you looked at Simon all surprised before realizing hes never had it before “Well butter my backside and call me a biscuit, youve never had it. I loved it as a kid, it made me as happy as a pig in the mud.” Simon just rubbed his face and accepted that he wasn't gonna understand you today. 

You walked over to Simon who was just watching some tv while petting Riley “Si” he turned over to you “Yea baby?” “I feel like it's been a month of Sundays since we went on a date, can we go on one tonight?” Simon stood up, grabbed you by the waist placing a kiss on your mouth “Ya got a place in mind, or you want me to surprise ya?” you thought for a moment before answering " I'll tell you what, we should go have a nice picnic as the sun sets, what do ya say” Simon spun you around giving you a little tap to your bum “I say, go get ready” 

 You came back out about an hour later, Simon was already ready by the door now staring at you with love practically spilling out of his eyes, you walked up to him, giving him a little spin “How do i look hun?” Simon looked you up and down before answering “Absolutely fuckin’ stunnin’” you smilled, going on you tip toes to give him a kiss “Well you look cuter than a speckled pup under a cabbage leaf” Simon just stared at you, you sighed “You look super cute too Simon. Now, we gotta go” Simon checked his pockets “Yea i just need to find me keys, I could've sworn they were around ‘ere” he said while rummaging through the papers and other keys on the little stand you guys kept near the door, you just reached over him grabbing them for him “If it was a snake, you would've gotten bit” you said as you walked out leaving Simon mouth still open, standing in the open doorway. 

Gods, Simon loved his little southern wife, even if he struggled to understand her regularly.

(divider by @cosmiicshadows thx)

[literaryvein-reblogs]

How to make a fic or writing longer how to add stuff without making it boring

Writing Ideas: Adding Details to your Story

Keep engaging the reader every few pages. Do not spend the first act introducing your characters. Let the reader discover your characters as they are catapulted into the concept. Let the reader learn their motivations and arcs as they are bombarded by the conflict that you are hopefully throwing them into from the get-go. Let there be a mystery to it. Why show your whole hand when you can keep a reader invested and engaged by slowly peeling away the layers of the character as they deal with the conflict and overall concept? Continue to build and build and build, whether it’s with the laughs, the drama, the screams, the mystery, the thrills, the action, etc. Offer as many twists and turns as you can. Lead that reader towards something, only to pull the rug out from underneath them just when they feel that they know where you’re going with it.

The HCM Plotting Method

List the Heart-Clutching Moments you’ve already thought of—you know, those pivotal points in your story that will evoke all the intensity of that “look behind you!” response in your readers.

Think of more.

Construct your story around them. Don’t focus on your loosely formed storyline. Focus on the key points in your story.

What Is an HCM? Some examples:

Love at first sight (Marius Pontmercy meets Cosette)

A huge moral lapse (Judas takes the money)

Murder (Miles Archer’s sets Sam Spade in motion)

Death by other means (Injun Joe starves to death in the cave)

A refusal of grace (Mayella Ewell sticks to her story in spite of taking the courtroom oath)

Nature gone wild (shark dines on first recreational swimmer)

Someone standing up to corruption (Shane picks up his gun again)

A change of heart, for good or ill (Michael Corleone offers to kill Sollozzo and Captain McCluskey)

An act of depraved violence (Bill Sykes cudgels Nancy)

Betrayal (Sandy puts a stop to her mentor Jean Brodie)

Forgiveness (Melanie insists Scarlett join her in the receiving line)

A revelation (Pip’s secret benefactor is none other than … !)

HCMs can be active, whole scenes. Some examples:

A lifesaving attempt

A chase

A battle

A seduction

A caper

Make a list of Heart-Clutching Moments and put them on index cards in rough order. Then you can build an outline based on any form you desire, be it classical drama, farce, or anything in between. If you get stuck, do any of the following:

Start writing one of your HCM scenes. Immediately the scene itself should prompt ideas, perhaps for new courses of action or even new characters.

Write deeper into an HCM scene you’ve written already. You’ll likely find yourself coming up with bridges between scenes—and thinking of more elements to enhance your story.

Look for places to add conflict, suffering, or frustration.

Example: Shakespeare wanted to take Macbeth from conquering hero to murderous traitor whose decapitation at the hands of one of his countrymen is the only possible, imaginable end.

How does he do it? Reread the play and you’ll realize that one HCM leads to the next, fast and furious: The witches’ stunning prophecies, Macbeth’s realization that he could be king, his wife’s corrupt ambition, one murder, two more murders, and more upon that, and prophesy again, and insanity, and suicide … all in the space of 98 pages!

Introduce a ticking clock. A ticking clock is an important element that ramps up pressure on your characters and piques your readers’ curiosity as to how your protagonist can possibly succeed. Set up big promises and obstacles early in a narrative and layer in a time crunch to make a character’s predicament seem dire.

Weave subplots into your narrative. Use subplots effectively to add variety and texture to your narrative and explore characters and backstory. When used well, subplots can artfully pose and answer key questions and flesh out characters.

Add dramatic irony. Dramatic irony is one of the many literary devices that can keep your reader engaged and increase the suspense. If a reader is aware of impending plot points that your characters are not, you can foreshadow plot twists and raise questions in your reader’s mind as to how your characters will deal with the trouble that lies ahead.

Invest in the details. Good writing generally contains sensory details and specific observations that remind readers of real life. A longer story can be much more powerful and less boring with detailed descriptions of the environment in which it takes place.

Open loops. This expands a bit on the idea of hooks and page-turning chapter endings, but the concept here is much broader. Basically the idea is to open boxes … and then take your sweet time in getting around to closing them. If you’re interested in a situation and the story cuts that situation off without resolving it, you’ll do that OH COME ON thing and then keep reading. You can’t rest until you close the loop. So if the story is well-told, you’ll just keep looking for that dropped loop … even if it takes chapters to pay off. It takes many chapters to find out what did happen, and your readers just keep blasting through them, cursing us all the while.

Relentless pacing. Take your time and meander when writing your book. What happens, happens, and try not to rush it. Characters talk and the reader learns plot points. On the contrary, let your readers keep asking, “What happens next?” The answer to that question needs to be exciting. Threatening. Maybe violent. Don't let your characters have much time to catch their breath, because the goal is to keep your readers breathless.

Learning from the Classics. Some Examples:

Armadale by Wilkie Collins, 1864 - Armadale was regarded by author T.S. Eliot as "the best of [his] romances" and includes Lydia Gwilt, a character considered as one of the most astonishing wicked female villains in literature. Drawing on scandalous newspaper headlines, Collins creates a story of confused identities, inherited curses, romantic rivalries, espionage, and murder – making for an action-packed 752 pages.

Les Misérables by Victor Hugo, translated by Norman Denny, 1862 - Adapted into one of the most successful musicals of all time, Les Misérables’ running time in London’s West End is an impressive 2 hours 50 minutes. But for a more immersive experience, try the original novel – a full 1,232 pages of injustice, heroism, and love in 19th-century France.

The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas, 1846 - (1,240 pages) On the day of his wedding, Edmond Dantes, master mariner, is arrested in Marseille on trumped-up charges and spirited away to the cellars of the Chateau d'If, an impregnable sea fortress in which he is imprisoned indefinitely. Escaping from the chateau by a series of daring manoeuvres, he unearths a great treasure on the island of Monte Cristo, buried there by a former fellow prisoner who bequeaths to him the secret of its whereabouts. Thus armed with unimaginable wealth and embittered by his long imprisonment, he resolves to devote his life to tracking down and punishing those responsible.

Ulysses by James Joyce, 1922 - It is one thing to write a novel of 1,040 pages, but quite another to dedicate the entire page count to one single day. Ulysses follows characters Stephen Dedalus, Leopold Bloom and his wife Molly across a day in their lives in 1904 Dublin. Dedalus and Bloom, who are are unaware of each other, are trying to find a missing loved one: the former, his long-lost father, and Bloom, despite being childless, for a son.

War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy, 1869 - (1,225 pages) At a glittering society party in St Petersburg in 1805, conversations are dominated by the prospect of war. Terror swiftly engulfs the country as Napoleon's army marches on Russia, and the lives of three young people are changed forever. The stories of quixotic Pierre, cynical Andrey and impetuous Natasha interweave with a huge cast, from aristocrats and peasants to soldiers and Napoleon himself. In War and Peace, Tolstoy entwines grand themes - conflict and love, birth and death, free will and faith - with unforgettable scenes of nineteenth-century Russia, to create a magnificent epic of human life in all its imperfection and grandeur.

Sources: 1 2 3 4 5 ⚜ More: Notes ⚜ Writing Resources PDFs ⚜ On Pacing

Here are some tips and ideas I found from different sources. Choose which ones you would like to incorporate in your story. Hope this helps with your writing!

[aleksa-sims]

RL Story

My Mom and Sister came to me. I didn’t invite them or anything. They were shopping together and eventually decided it would be a great idea to annoy me. 😒 Don’t get me wrong, I love my family , but these spontaneous visits.... are no fun! Especially since my Mother is a real pain!

As soon as she entered my apartment, she started to criticize my interiors. It's too colorful for her, yk? 💁‍♀️ And it looks kind of messy. She said, I should have invested more money in my furniture. It's (my drawer) poor quality. 😡😡.... 80% of my stuff is from Westwing! So what kind of crap is that woman talking? I mean, sorry! I’m not such a freak like her, who spends over 3,000 € on a fucking couch!!!!

Even for Lucas it was hard to.... enjoy his bottle, due to her yapping...

Mom (to me): What happened to your hair A.? Your head looks so messy.

Ana: Did you play with the socket? 😄 ... JK, sis! I like your hair!

Me: My whole life is a mess, Mother! 😒

Mom: Is something wrong? ... Where’s N.?

Me: He's......um... Ugh, he went to the ER. He had pain in his hand and wanted to have it checked.

Mom: Oh, no. What happend?

Me: Huh?... Um, n-nothing! Hee.. probably hurt himself playing soccer. 🤷‍♀️🥵

I was hoping my mother wouldn’t stay too long. I didn’t want her to know about Nico’s and my fight.

A little later Nico came home. Unfortunately my mom and Ana were still there, and Nico didn’t seem to be very happy about it. But instead of just pretending everything’s fine, he acted like a jerk! 😠

Nico: What is going on here? 😒

Ana: Oh, hi N.! Nice to see you too. 🤨

Nico: Yea..... I have to get up early tomorrow, so...

Me: What's your fucking prob, N.? It’s Friday and stop with your stupid excuses, you don’t have to get up early tomorrow. 😠

Nico: You sure? But hey! I don’t want to ruin your.... nice family reunion. I'm up, grab some shut-eye. And don't make so much noise, got it? 🤨

Mom: Don't tell me you're going to bed early... I mean... what's wrong with you? Are we disturbing you? 

Nico: Sorry, but I’m tired.

Mom: We are your guests, you’re being rude to us. Have I ever treated you like this, when you came to my house, to see my daughter in the middle of the night? 🤨

Nico: C'mon! You really expect me to answer that question?... You and your husband have always treated me like shit and even kicked me out. 🤷‍♂️

Me: Stop it, N.! That's PAST! My parents have never been rude to you since we got back together!! You’re just being disrespectful to my Mom and Sister for no reason. I never behaved like this to your Mom, not even to Melanie, although we all know she deserved it!!

Nico: I didn’t kick anyone out, I just want to go up because I’m tired. Besides, how dare you talk to me like that! You live here with me! You must please me, not your guests! We’ll talk about that later! 😠

My Mom was totally pissed at Nico. Which I understand, because I was too!!! 😠

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[loserchildhotpants]

hii! i just read your mcpricely fic from yee olden days and i LOVED IT so from writer to writer im just wondering if you have any tips on how you make your dialogue so engaging and true to character!! much love xx

the jump scare you have just given me w the first part of that second sentence

i refuse cringe, though. we are cringe and we are free. i just forgot that fic exists and now i am frightened that fic exists still, but if it gave you joy, i am glad!!!

so, dialogue! i'm happy to talk abt my personal process, but always consider that it's just my own, and there are lots of other approaches!

engaging dialogue:

engaging is p subjective, i'm not sure what it is you specifically found engaging, so i can't totally zero in on that, but what i will say is that i consider, as i'm writing, if whether or not i am finding it interesting to write versus interesting to read. those two are not always the same.

sometimes a conversation has to happen for Plot Reasons but is, in general, kind of boring! maybe it's just a vehicle for exposition or something, but there have been times where i've straight up just deleted entire exchanges bc upon re-reading it i was like 'wow, this is boring, i would skip this as a reader' and then brain storming ideas of what could make that conversation more interesting.

a lot of the time, the answer to that is 'if i take this one line of dialogue and just think abt it for a while, what other tangential trains of thought come to mind?' and then i'll find a secondary subject, still tangentially related to the primary subject, that i can spice the dialogue with.

in a recent fic on my other account, i wrote an exchange where i was giving a watsonian explanation for a character's name, but etymology can be kinda boring, and this was clearly me, as the author, trying to make an in-universe explanation as to why this character's name is SO remarkably out of place -- so i cushioned that conversation w conversation abt that character's birth story, giving an opportunity for that character to show through diction and body language how they feel abt their mother, and then, also related, their siblings, and ultimately their father. the characters speaking accomplished what i needed them to; made the universe more detailed/real-feeling, gave a watsonian explanation for a character's objectively out of place name, and in so doing, created a way to provide emotional vulnerability that made the exchange deeper and more emotionally enriching.

and of course, dialogue is as much abt what is said as what is not. when considering a conversation, consider what would be interesting for a character to withhold, why they would withhold it, and what it would take for them to divulge it.

abt staying true to character:

this is also p subjective, it's kind of you to say so, though! i know there is disc horses abt the meme of 'he would not fucking say that' but tbh it's been helpful for me! sometimes i'm writing a repressed character and im so eager for them to be vulnerable and share themselves, i find myself writing stuff that, to put simply, they would not fucking say lol

i know that i speak the way i write and i write the way i speak. my narrative voice is distinct, has a certain rhythm, and syntax, and i don't mind that for narration, but that means i need to go out of my way to make sure i'm making the characters sound like themselves and not like me.

i recommend exercises w characters through written word or text, as in write short fics and drabbles abt characters texting each other, writing letters to one another, or maybe only speaking through a walkie talkie, which minimizes the use of action tags.

as you write those exchanges, you can start to tell when your voice is taking over and when you write a line that's SO that character and you're like 'omg yes i could see that happening on stage/on the show/in the movie/in the game/etc' and over time, it becomes more natural

but capturing a voice is hard, and it'll take a few tries! something else to consider is what you enjoy abt those characters' interactions, and figuring out how to replicate it. like, if you like that between these characters, there is always juicy tension, that means the dialogue probably needs to be pulled back, a lot being Unsaid, more expressed in body language than verbal language, but if something you like abt a different dynamic is that one is a goofy guy and the other is the straight man so to speak, keeping the straight man stoic will probably be the challenge.

this is all i can really think of rn but i'm super happy to talk shop any time :3333 this is was such a sweet ask to get! thank u!! <3

[bmbochangetales]

Melanie has been busy for the past few months doing everything except take care of herself. She finally decided to schedule a doctor appointment and to get a total check up. She was almost done when the nurse said she needed a breast exam as it had been years. She recommended a nearby clinic or she heard a local pharmacy had a special machine that offered privacy but a full exam via machine.

Melanie went a few days later to the pharmacy and the male pharmacist told her it was so new and they would get the results emailed to her a day later.

He showed her to a cushioned bench with a strange metal arm with two plastic cups to attach to the breasts. Once he left she could remove her shirt and attach the cups around her mammaries following the instructions on a video and they would examine them. He told her an attendant would be outside the door if she needed anything.

Melanie waited for the door to click and took a few deep breaths before taking her shirt off. Her a cups were nothing the attendant would care to oogle at. She followed the instructions on the video and the clear cups attached. They looked clearly made to hold much larger breasts but it securely attached and beeped as an all clear to begin.

She watched the screen as it explained that it was examining for any lumps or abnormalities and was enjoying the massaging feelings for a good 5 minutes. It told her the prognosis was looking all clear and they just needed to gather some data for research purposes, did she consent to help collect additional data. She tapped the screen which then seem to move back out of reach.

The machine began sucking even harder and she heard a lot of beeping as they analyzed whatever it was looking for. After a few moments the screen showed her breasts on the screen. A perfect replica.

“Wow that’s amazing technology” she said to the empty room.

The machine looked like it was running some data when a robotic voice announced its findings.

Breast size is below average. Taking brain matter for mammary enlargement.

“Hey. What the hell?” The machine made a loud suction noise to answer Melanie. Her tiny bumps were sucked and pulled on like a vacuum while her head felt a lot pressure followed by a light headed feeling.

Boob size increased

Melanie took a few seconds to snap out of the weird feeling. She looked down at new nearly c cups. The machine had grown her boobs. Something was wrong. She tried to take it off of her chest. This was not what she came here for. She tried to yank but in the struggle she accidentally hit the button to activate the machine again.

Boob size is too small. Taking brain matter for mammary enlargement.

The machine whistled again. The suction felt even better this time. It forced Melanie to stop her struggle and she let out a mix of a moan and whine as the sucking and pulling started again. The sharp pain in her head happened again followed but a feeling of lightness again. As the machine quieted down she heard the voice.

Boobie sized increased.

Melani never had such big boobies before! The machine was doing something totally weird. It had taken her tiny a cups and now she had full DD cups! They were so big and round now. She should really get this machine off. But like she could still think and stuff. So like maybe if she hit the button one more time it would let her go after it sucked on her new big boobies. They were big but not like huge or anything. She tapped the button on the machine.

Boobies are not big enough. Taking brain matter for mammary enlargement.

The machine became once again and Melani was actually starting to enjoy it a lot. The sharp pain hurt but the feeling of getting more empty headed was so good. The noisy loud machine was making her boobies super big and they bounced. The cups were almost full. Melani loved seeing the big fat boobies getting bigger. It quieted down too soon and the machine played out the message.

Tit sized increased.

Melani looked at her tits. She loved that word. She got big HHH cup tits now. This machine was super fun! but could it like keep going? Cause big tits are so hot but like bigger is better in cock, tits, and bank accounts. Melani giggled as she tapped the button again to make the super great machine start working again.

Tits are not big enough. Taking brain matter for Mammary enlargement.

There wasn't a lot left for the machine to take but it pulled out anything it could. Meloni probably couldn't pass high school, maybe even middle school if she tried. She no longer cared about the job that kept her so busy. She just loved her big fat tits and how sexy they made her look. Her empty head made her happy because it meant she had enormous bouncy tiddies.

Tiddie sized increased.

Meloni looked down. She wouldn't be able to see her feet or wear normal shirts and she didn't care. She had enormous fat tiddies and she was a sexy brainless bimbo. Maybe the machine could help her even more.

“Guh! Can like ya go even bigger funny machine?” JJJ cups should have been enough but Meloni wanted more. She tapped the button super fast many times.

Big fat tiddies requested. Bimbo brain exchange for ultimate mammary expansion now in progress. Prepare for Tiddyslutification.

The enlarged tits began flowing out of the cups that could hardly hold more than nipples. The The cups were much too small now as they sucked out any crumbs of intelligence and turned Melanie into tit obsessed idiot. If it wasn’t about boobs, she wouldn’t be interested. MMMM cup bug fat tiddies bounces down as the machine unlatched.

Hello Melons Tiddyslut! We are glad we could adjust your tiddies. Please enjoy your big fat tiddies and your stupid bimbo brain. You are a good Tiddyslut!

Stupid girlish giggles at the silly fun machines sillly words! Melon’s tiddies were obnoxious and huge, and jutting out bouncing all over the place. Two oversized watermelons on her chest. She was so happy everyone could see her fat sexy tiddies. She happily walked to the door and out with nothing on. Why hide them? In fact she needed to get a new camera to share them with everyone.

Her data uploaded to the research server while her video surveillance was uploaded to several porn and fetish sites. The machine sat waiting for its next victim. It wouldn’t be long before Melons Tiddyslut was a household name. The expansion community was going to keep on growing.

[ceaselesswatchersspecialboy]

Thinking a lot about Jon’s final choice in TMA, and while I have a longer more detailed post in the works, I want to touch on it a little now.

The fact of the matter is there was no easy choice given to the characters in those final episodes. The two main ones boiled down to ending everything as it is and damning themselves and everyone else, or saving their world and damning other worlds to suffer, with no clear answer on what that even means.

Most people would make the choice that’s more ‘out of sight, out of mind’, and it’s understandable why. But for someone like Jon, that choice was never an option. It bleeds into stuff I’ve talked about with Jon before: his guilt, his need for control in his life, and also the way he copes through knowing. The knowing isn’t just an avatar thing, that isn’t how avatars work, rather it’s how he coped beforehand. When something terrified him, when he was paranoid, he desperately searched for answers.

His final choice followed a similar principle. He’s spent so long with a certain level of power and control now, able to know almost everything he pleases, and while, on some occasions, a mystery might make him happy (such as not knowing what was in Salesa’s ‘safehouse’), this isn’t that kind of mystery. This is a terrifying prospect. He doesn’t know what will happen after they release the fears. He doesn’t know who will suffer. He doesn’t know if the Fears will change and adapt to whereever they go, if they will stay beyond the veil or if they are just eventually passing on an apocalypse.

Jon, who has spent years now feeling guilty for everything, can’t handle that. He can’t handle the idea he may damn others, and he can’t handle something he doesn’t know, not when it has so many risks. Of course he chooses the option where he’s certain what would the outcome would be, even if it means ending everything, he feels it’s the right decision.

I think it would haunt him otherwise. The guilt. The inability to Know what happens beyond that veil. The idea others may suffer because of his choice.

It’s poetic that, TMA, a story all about the choices people make and the consequences of them, ends with an impossible choice, with no real right answer, no easy conclusion.

And I honestly don’t think there’s an outcome where Jon would have chosen differently. For all his changes over the course of the story in our eyes, the reality is, at the core, he’s stayed the same, and that’s part of his tragedy — seen especially in his parallels with Melanie. It’s just the person he is.

There are definitely a variety of factors at play, I just wanted to talk about these ones in particular.

[sturnispider]

teachers pet

inspired by an edit i saw on tiktok. 

DISCLAIMER!!- i do not support melanie martinez,i simply just saw an edit on tiktok and it gave me inspiration to make this fanfiction.

I DO NOT SUPPORT OR LIKE MELANIE MARTINEZ.

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warnings: jealousy, temptation, breaking point, one bed. the slow burn finally explodes. this is the chapter they cross the line and don’t turn back.

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friday night. senior retreat. one hotel. one bed. one rule: don’t get caught.

genevieve signed up for the overnight school trip just to mess with him.

but when she saw the rooming list taped on the gym doors, her heart dropped.

room 308 — mr. sturniolo (staff chaperone) / genevieve (temporary room reassignment)

temporary my ass.

someone had screwed up. or maybe fate just had a sense of humor.

the staff scrambled to fix the “accident,” but the hotel was booked solid—some conference going on downstairs.

so now here she was. standing in the doorway. one suitcase. one heartbeat that wouldn’t calm down.

he stood across the room by the window. hoodie on. eyes dark. tired.

“they’re trying to move you in the morning,” he said quietly. “it’s just one night.”

“mm. should i sleep in the hallway then?”

her tone was sarcastic, flirty. but her fingers were fidgeting.

he didn’t answer.

just nodded to the bed.

“you take the left side.”

the air was thick.

she changed in the bathroom. came out in an oversized tee, bare legs.

his stare burned through her for one second too long before he looked away.

they both got in bed. back to back.

but neither slept.

the silence stretched. grew. wrapped around them like a secret.

then—

“who’s that guy?” he asked suddenly.

“who?”

“the one you’ve been hanging around lately.”

his voice was sharp. cold. jealous.

“why do you care?”

he didn’t answer.

“you don’t get to be mad,” she said. “you don’t even look at me anymore unless you’re checking if we’ll get caught.”

“because i have to.”

his voice cracked.

“because if i don’t, i’ll—”

he stopped.

she turned to face him in the dark, heart pounding.

“you’ll what?”

silence.

then—

he rolled over fast, kissed her hard, hand cupping the back of her neck like he needed her to breathe.

she gasped into his mouth, pulling him closer, legs tangling, the sheets twisted beneath them.

“this is wrong,” he whispered into her skin.

“then stop.”

same line. different night.

same result.

he didn’t stop.

his hands were everywhere—her waist, her thighs, the back of her shirt.

her fingers tangled in his hair, dragging him closer like she was trying to drown in him.

moans muffled into lips.

a sharp breath.

a soft curse.

“you’re gonna ruin me,” he breathed.

“maybe i want to.”

he kissed her again. deeper. messier.

but just before everything slipped too far—

just before they let the night swallow them whole—

he pulled away.

“not like this,” he said, forehead against hers.

“i want you. god, i want you. but not while we’re hiding in hotel beds like a goddamn scandal.”

“then when?”

“when it’s us. not student and teacher. not this secret. just us.”

and for once, she didn’t tease.

didn’t smirk.

she just whispered,

“then tell me you’ll wait.”

his thumb brushed her cheek.

“i’ll wait.”

he kissed her one last time—slow. aching.

like a promise.

—————————————————————————monday morning. school hallway. whispers everywhere. something is wrong the second genevieve walks in.

eyes.

on her.

everywhere.

she clutches her binder tighter. ignores the way people go silent when she passes. her phone buzzes nonstop in her back pocket.

until maddie—the only real friend she had left—catches her wrist.

“gen,” she whispers, eyes wide, “don’t look at your phone. not in the hallway.”

“why?”

“because someone posted a picture.”

genevieve’s blood freezes.

“what picture.”

“you and mr. sturniolo. in the hotel. on the bed. kissing.”

her heart stops.

“that’s not—”

“it’s real, genevieve. someone saw you. they took it through the crack in the room door. they’re posting it everywhere. saying stuff like ‘teacher’s pet? more like teacher’s whore—”

she couldn’t breathe.

she shoved past everyone, bolted into the nearest empty classroom, shut the door.

her fingers trembled as she pulled out her phone.

the photo was everywhere.

grainy. dim lighting. but unmistakable.

his hand in her hair.

her legs over his lap.

their lips locked.

captioned with:

“guess getting held back has its perks??😨”

“#teacherspetttt”

“so THIS is why she passed that math test😭”

“mr.sturniolo is DONEEEE 😭😭”

“isnt he a teacher??”

her chest caved in.

air. she needed air.

a second later—

the door burst open.

chris.

he was shaking. hoodie half-zipped, hair a mess, face pale like he’d just been shot.

“you saw it,” he said. not a question.

genevieve nodded slowly.

her eyes filled.

“you’re gonna lose everything,” she whispered.

he crossed the room, fast, hands going to her face.

“no. i won’t lose you.”

“but it’s not just me anymore,” she choked. “they know. everyone knows. they’re calling me—”

“they don’t know us.”

his voice was shaking now too.

“they know a photo. they know a second in time. they don’t know what this is.”

she stared at him.

then pulled away.

“you should deny it.”

“what?”

“say it’s fake. say it’s photoshopped. say anything but the truth.”

his face broke.

“you want me to lie about you?”

“i want you to save yourself, chris.”

his name.

out loud.

it hit hard.

he walked toward her again, slower this time.

“if i lie,” he said, voice breaking, “i lose us. and i’m done lying to myself about how bad i want this. want you.”

but she was already slipping away.

backing toward the door.

“you don’t get to be the hero in this,” she whispered.

“you knew the rules. you knew what could happen.”

then she was gone.

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part two just for @mattsdiva 💫💫

-@sturnispider

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@humpster35 @stvni0l0 @kayskreativeideas @babyt0matoes

[spot-the-antisemitism]

Has a public figure that you looked up to or were a fan of turned out to be antisemitic or has said/done stuff that makes you think they probably are?

If so, how do you deal with the disappointment? Does that mark a point of no return for you where, it doesn't matter how much you enjoyed their work up to that point, you don't want to keep supporting them anymore?

Dear anon,

my first ones was T. S. Eliot. He was my favourite poet but he also believes Jews are causing the collapse of society and you can SEE it in the my favourite poem, The Wastleland, that the recurring merchant who is a sleazy one eyed scammer is a jew or the cut part of "death by water" that later because "gerontion" says Jews caused the drought that created the wastleland. T. S. Eliot also wrote Cats so some people think liking the musical makes you an antisemitic racist but like he's very dead.

Then there's Roald Dahl who wishes Jews had all died in the holocaust because the existance of Israel makes him uncomfortable (all non british and non scandinavian countries did that). I still read his work because his foundation does good work, were he alive, I don't think I'd buy his books. I don't think his characters are antisemitic but can debate me on this.

The one living is Roger Waters but he was kicked out of Pink Floyd for his unhinged tankie rhetoric (he's not just violently antisemitic but also pro putin) and like my parents dragged me to a Roger Waters concert and it was like if that concert from the Wall where Pink goes full mask Nazi was a real thing just vibes wise. Like I know tankies and Nazis are different but it was like he recreated the torment nexus. I don't give him any money.

Melanie Martinez was already a rapist and grifter whose music jumped the shark, I saw Glazer for the Shanda he was with trying to humanize a Nazi and then hating Jews whose memories he exploited

"OOH your fave MCU actors were silent on I/P" GOOD FOR THEM.

"One wore a keffiyeh, cancel her forever" OK but she hasn't said blood libel so that's just virtue signalling

the one dissapointment for me was breadtubers as I actually thought JessieGender, hbomberguy, xiranjayzhao were intelligent people

I still listen to some of those they were adjacent to because I don't believe in purity politics unless the person has committed an actual crime (Hasanabi tried to kill his ex girlfriend by siccing the cops on her on top of all the sexual harrasment, beefs and terror apologia so anyone who spoke on his show is complicit in attempted murder) but otherwise words are words and being a handshake away from a jew hating bigot doesn't turn me off their work

does that answer your question?

yours,

Cecil

[episodes-ff]

Never Optional

I saw @acute-crashout-jeyuso was making requests, so I had to deliver a luh one two. Hope I did it justice, honey.

Moriah

“Shiiiiiit, baby!! Right there! I’m so fucking close, papi.” “Damn that shit feel good as fuck!“The person you are trying to reach has a ma-“ “FUUUUUUCCCCKKKK!!!!!” I cried out sending the phone flying across the room as I sank to the floor in tears. Why do I keep allowing this?! Love is supposed to be warm and peaceful and kind and humble. Love isn’t supposed to make you feel like you’re at war with your own mind. But that’s what I get, huh? I heard the rumors, the warnings of the women from his past, all of it. But I could be the one that changed him for the better. You can show him different, Moriah. How stupid could I be? To think I could change someone that didn’t even wanna change for themselves? All this drama for what?!

Well... for Joshua, of course. Josh was my everything. He still fucking is! But I gotta put me first this time. All the lies, the cheating, the constant gaslighting; flirting with his coworkers, getting too friendly with Rhea, clubbing with Jaida? I put up with it all, but this? Actually seeing him in the act with her?! Seeing him kiss on her, making love to her the way he hadn't been doing to me for months?? It crushed my soul. It absolutely broke me, and I just couldn't take it anymore! He was probably doing it right now. Realizing that I was only truly hurting myself if I stayed, I let the tears fall down my cheeks as I finished packing up my bags, and said goodbye to our shared apartment.

***A COUPLE DAYS LATER***

Taking some more selfies in my guest room, I posted them to my page as my bestie Mel hyped me up. “Yassssss, girl! You look good as fuck!” “Thank you, Pooh! What time we getting ready for the club?” “Around ten, I think. Hopefully Damian should be done with his press runs by then.” Nodding in understanding, I uploaded my new favorite pictures to my IG as I continued to enjoy my mini escape with my bestest friend.

@justmoriah: You don’t never wanna lose me🌷

Smiling as my likes and comments immediately flooded with compliments, I scrolled some before pausing as his latest picture caught my eye.

@uceyjucey: Loyalty is everything in this life. Without it, you got NOTHING💯🤙🏽🩸 #WeTheONES #TheyTheTwosandThrees

Scoffing at the audacity of his caption, I set my phone down and started looking through my luggage for something to wear tonight. While I was only here at Melanie and Damian’s for a couple days, I was also searching for my own home, so I put my main wardrobe in storage and I would be surviving on a couple suitcases of clothes for the time being. Hearing my ringtone in the other room for an incoming call, I hurried jogged back and answered it without checking the caller ID. Ugh, such a fucking mistake.

Joshua

“Hellooo.” She beautifully sang causing my heart to smile. “Bae, where you been at? I came home and yo stuff gone, and you nowhere to be found? Wassup, baby?” Hearing the aggravated groan escape her lips, I furrowed my brows as I reclined further on my locker room couch. “What the fuck do you want, Joshua?! You haven’t hurt me enough already?” “Mane, I don’t even know what you talking about.” “Oh you don’t know? You are such a dirty dick ass liar, Joshua!” She seethed as I bit my lip. I couldn’t even lie, her mad side turned me all the way on. “Bruh, can you just tell me what the fuck I did so I can fix it?” “Ask that bitch, Zelina!” She spat in disgust hanging up before I could get a word out. “Shit shit shit!!! Aye, hold up.” I said moving her lips off my dick as I hurried and attempted to call Moriah back.

“Owwww!!! You made me bite my lip, asshole.” She pouted checking to see if her lip was bleeding while I tried calling her back. Getting sent straight to voicemail, I hit the couch cushion in anger realizing she most likely blocked me. “Aye, I’m sorry about your lip. We’ll pick back up another time, aight?” Nodding, she grabbed her belongings and headed out. Fixing my clothes, I went out into the hall in search of the one guy I knew that could help me. “Aye! Aye, Damian! Man, hold up!” Sighing, he stopped in his tracks allowing me to catch up to him. “Wassup, Josh?” “You know what’s going on with Mo? First I come home to the house empty and shit, she dodging my calls and texts, now she accusing me of fucking with Zelina? Like what’s going on? She on her cycle or some shit? Did she say anything to Mel?” I asked as he chuckled in disbelief. “You’re unbelievable, bro, you know that?” “Man, whatchu talking about?” “You don’t even know, do you?” “Priest, man, quit playing.” I clenched my jaw wishing he’d just tell me. “When you decided to do what you did with Zelina? Your illiterate ass must’ve forgotten that she’s enemies with Trin because she FaceTimed her while you were in the act, and she added Moriah and Melanie to the call.” “Wait what?!” “Yea, when Moriah was blowing up your phone that night? She had saw everything, bro.” “FUCK!!!!!”

***LATER THAT NIGHT***

Vibing out and pre gaming with my family, I couldn’t help the anger that consumed me. Why the fuck would Trinity add them to the damn FaceTime call?! That’s supposed to be family, she posed to have my back! And she knows how much I love Moriah, so why would she try and sabotage that shit?! “Josh, you good? You ain’t even touch yo shot, uce.” “Yea, I’m good. Aye, uh, Trin lemme holla at you real quick.” I inquired stepping onto the patio as she followed suit.

Closing the door behind me, I watched her scowl as she crossed her arms. “Did you tell Moriah some rumor about me messing with Zelina?” “Oh, that wasn’t no damn rumor. I saw that bullshit with my own two eyes, Joshua! How could you?!” She scolded pinching my arms as I swatted her away. “Aye, look! I don’t know what the hell you saw, but you gotta fix this shit! She done moved outta the house and all!” “I don’t have to do shit, Josh!! Moriah saw you fucking Zelina and she left a toxic situation, as she should!!!! You have dog walked that poor girl for years, and we’re all sick of it! If you want it fixed, grow up and do it yourself!" Watching John come out the back door, he looked between us in confusion. "We getting ready to head out. Y'all good?" "Yea babe, let's go." She said before giving me a disappointed glance and heading out.

Chilling in the VIP section at the club, I nursed my bottle of Hennessy as I vibed out to the music booming. Trinity's words were really doing a number on my brain. The fuck she mean I be dog walking Moriah?! I ain't damn toxic! Man, she don't know shit about what me and my girl got going. Looking up, I saw her side eyeing me as she grinded on John cause me to kiss my teeth and pull out my phone. Scrolling through IG, I spotted a post of Mo's that immediately got my attention as I sat up in my spot.

@justmoriah: I'm never optional, but I always keep an option😏

"Mane, hell nah!" "Wassup, Uce?" Jacob and Zilla asked. "You seen this shit, Mo posting? Showing off my shit like she done lost her damn mind? Got me fucked up." I ranted showing them her latest post. "Damnnnn, Mo! She getting down like that?" Zilla joked causing me to snatch my phone back as I mugged him. "Shit ain't funny! She ain't even talking to me right now! Her girls done put some bullshit in her head that I'm messing around on her." "Well are you?" "I mean, I fucked up a couple times, but I ain't did shit recently." "Jey! Heyyyy, baby!" Zelina cooed walking into the section and kissing my cheek before taking a spot on my lap. "Sup, girl?" "I missed you! Can I get a shot?" She bit her lip as I saw everyone else giving me the side eye. "Uh, yea, sure." I nodded avoiding their stares as I looked toward the bar and noticed Moriah gazing at me with the most hateful expression while Melanie and Damian tried talking to her. FUCK!!!!!!!!