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kokoasci · 11 months

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i just be drawing anything atp

#anyone else here a tadc enjoyer #i loved this pilot so much but i have to cut myself off from hyperfixating #not in the middle of the semester. i have work to do #the amazing digital circus #tadc #tadc fanart #jax #the amazing digital circus jax #gooseworx #digital circus #kokoart

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cfffrk · 4 months

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What if Jeeves had worked as a page boy at a private boys' school in his youth?

#jeeves and wooster #bertie wooster #reginald jeeves #jooster #haha jeez(#jeeves had this indifferent look on his face #it's like he's embarrassed #or he's not happy about being distracted from his work of a pageboy #although i still don't fully understand what jeeves would do in that position or what his daily routine was🤔#as far as i could tell he was just an errand boy??#correct me if i'm wrong #i have one possible idea how they could have met if that's even realistic #because I think bertie had a strict routine #bertie could have been left in this private school for vacations (some short ones in the middle of the semester)#because of his bad behavior (maybe he misbehaved on purpose because he didn't want to go back home to angry aunt agatha)#or his bad studies and jeeves would have continued to work during the vacations because ?he is the staff?#oh my god i just googled eton college uniforms and #they wore cylinders :3 #oh-#they were whipped as punishment-#okay well let's just leave it like that :']

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bluespiritshonour · 6 months

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here's 18-19 year old aang sketches. been hearing aang is ugly discourse—no he ain't. he was just 12.

#i really wanted to take part in zukaang bingo but the urge to art struck me a little later #i still might make something else later #enough art for now #i'd try to participate in maiko week but i'm not sure #it's smack in the middle of end semester exams #ink blot #avatar fanart #avatar the last airbender #atla #artists on tumblr #fanart #avatar aang #why did i never use the pencil brush before?!?! i seriously have a personality flaw where i just don't explore stuff.#can you believe i've been using the same fucking brush for lineart ever since i started digital art?#anyways! i don't know how the pencil brush would feel like if i go for colours but this is impeccable.#I have more control over stuff and i love the result #so #i have promised myself i'd be fucking off this hellsite because i have a huge backlog of work that needs to be done #and i'm presently suffering from “can't help but art”. so #yeah. y'all would probably see me around maiko week. byeee!#if i deprive myself of drawing for too long it bursts out of me like this where i do nothing but draw #not healthy at all

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dawnthefluffyduck · 7 days

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I think i doubt my ability to work faster under stress too much

#classwork #banana yoshimoto #kitchen #so much for lurking #sorry i just like how these turned out haha; this was one of the things that was bothering me so it feels nice to have it done #i don't like the second one as much as the first one but it *is* empty on purpose... metaphors and stuff #this is for my capstone; it's our only art assignment we'll have for the whole semester (intimidating)#we had two options for what to do depending on what kind of focus we've placed on our work #people who were focusing on content for studio work had to make something that represented themself as an artist #people like me who focus more on technique and meeting task requirements had to depict something based on... any... literature #so i took a middle ground and did two page inserts for a book that's important to me #i actually wanted to do only one really detailed insert but my prof wanted two so i had to divide my time #and also read the whole book again which left less time for the actual drawing #crying bc the dropbox for this closed five minutes before I got this done #even though this technically isn't due until the beginning of class tomorrow #it'll be fine since i'm bringing the files to class via USB anyway but it'd be nice to have it submitted so it could leave my conscious lol #uh i also have to type up something for this so i shall do that now #night night

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seilon · 1 month

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love when this is referred to as the gifted kid website. shockingly my mental disorders made me mentally disordered and school never really vibed with that so. couldn’t be me

#ppl always talking about their whatever grade reading level and how many books they’d read as kids and im just over here like🧍🏽#I’ve never been actually bad at english or reading but I couldn’t focus on reading books to save my fucking life #I hated those sheets where you had to read like a certain number of books or whatever over the course of a semester or the year or whatever #my GATE test scores for english were super high but my math was bad enough that I never qualified #and adhd made me not even perform well in English half the time because I couldn’t pay attention I couldn’t read long books I couldn’t turn #in my assignments or if I did they were late and etc etc etc #don’t get me started with math #I was the worst in my class in third grade at minute math and never made it to the levels of minute math my classmates did #(they posted results on the wall for everyone to see)#and in 6th grade I was put into an additional remedial math class #throughout middle-high school I was at the level of most classmates in terms of the classes I took but that’s only because I was not allowe #to fail and was put through absolute fucking hell with a billion tutors and grueling hours of extra work from them and blah blah blah #like I remember how I felt in those tutoring sessions and half the time I actually wanted to cry.#I didn’t start doing solidly genuinely Good in school until senior year of high school.#not coincidentally around the same time I started taking adderall I think #I had accommodations by 9th grade but they didn’t do that much except for the function that let me turn in assignments up to 2 days late #without penalty. which i had teachers question sometimes and i had to pull the Yeah it’s Literally Against The Law to not allow me this car #anyway. point is. i was never in the gate program and most of my friends were and it was mostly adhd related #adhd is considered such a quirky nothing disorder nowadays that I don’t even like mentioning I have it really. because what people think of #when I say the term is Not what i actually dealt with and made school torturous and made my parents lash out at me for things and etc etc #depression and dysphoria did not help either. but I digress #I’m not sure why im making this post #kibumblabs

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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 months

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#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan #i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch #shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else #even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress #but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside #academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project #i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send #myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it #but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or #maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something #just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there #it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so #tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing #ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position #and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle #sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux #i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices #even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany.#and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it #unrelated

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miodiodavinci · 8 months

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oscillating rapidly and producing a low tone in the note of c

#on the one hand i am dying because i am not catching on in this new internship placement #all whilst my professors are already asking me to have my ducks in a row and send them like.#a detailed plan of what i'll be doing for my big final exam #when i don't even know what the schedule is around here or what's already been done and what still needs to be done #on the other hand my brain is so so desperate for goofing around time after spending basically the whole break working #(i took like a week off to be sick in december and then another 5 days to be sick in january)#(and then i Meaningfully took three or so days off to just. relax. in between stages of this other project)#but now i really just want to like. slack off entirely for a whole week.#(i can't do this)#(i need to start writing planning documents and making progress towards my big final exam thing)#so essentially i am weeping and dying #but at the very least a cool thing should be coming around either tomorrow or wednesday so #be on the lookout for that w #a a a a a a a a i hope it goes over well #a friend and i have been working really hard on this since last june . . . . .#(with a huge break in the middle on account of the internship hell)#but wauuughghgh save me from the hell i reside in (burn out from last semester is now following me into this one waughgh)

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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months

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Lmfao my mom was getting on me abt not having enough to do this upcoming semester so I decided ah okay I'll add another class. And that's perfectly fine. But the one I picked results in the majority of my schedule being generally unaffected and still lax, but my Thursday being absolutely fucked.

For reference, on every other day I'd spend like less than four hours in class/commuting(anywhere from zero hours to almost four), but Thursday, its almost 9 hours combined 😭 which is like fine with me, but I think ill despise thursdays after this, AND MY BIRTHDAY IS ON A THURSDAY :(

#she doesnt like the fact that im practically free on Fridays #<- online class that doesnt meet on that day #so ah i hope this balances out sjkfkflg #the way scheduling in my school works has such a weird affect #my mon/wens/fri are gonna be so chill and then tues/thurs is just....something #it makes it worse bcs one of my classes only takes place for a section of the semester #and that class is mon/wens so im only gonna be online after that #though i still think ill have to meet w that professor bcs there is in fact reasoning for that class to be so short lasting #but tues and thurs is just stuff that ill never get any reprieve from lol #four classes in one day. we'll see how it goes 🥰🥰#also thurs will be interesting bcs i will have two classes just abt middle eastern politics #i came across a class on the arab-israeli conflict and wanted to take it bcs its obv very relevant rn #and then the one i just scheduled is also abt middle eastern politics so i really am going to be thru the ringer #not that its a bad thing at all!! i just mean its interesting how relevant this semester will be and how im just getting intensely informed #anyways i think the way i schedule would be a nightmare to anyone else #i try to schedule every class after 12(or 11 at least) so then all of them are crammed right after one another #and i wake up an hour before class and leave myself that meager time to get ready and commute lmfao #my friend asked me when i eat lunch. and im like uh ;;; never? 🥰#lol dw i do eat but like i treat my time on campus like how can i pack this as densely as possible #i dont like sitting around by my lonesome it makes me depressed dhfkkg #also i think i will actually kms with all the writing im goong to have to do this semester #that is my reasoning to my mom abt why she shouldn't be pissed at my supposed lack of activity #like im taking so much thats emphasized with writing. dont worry i will be in fact budy #*busy #catie.rambling.txt

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fiona-fififi · 3 months

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Dear college students:

Finals week is not even over. Stop emailing me asking when you will have your final grade. It will be submitted at the end of finals week, when it is due. Also, you can literally see what has been graded, what still needs to be graded, and what your current weighted grade total is in the LMS. Use it, please and thank you.

#guess what slows down my grading and results in longer wait times?#when i have to stop in the middle of grading to send an email #about how you will get the grade when grades are submitted at the end of finals week #this information is in the syllabus and i announced it in class multiple times #come on now #for every email i have to stop to send that's one assignment that could have been graded that's now getting pushed back a little further #also if you are worried about your grade you should have worried about that during the actual semester #the only students who ever email me begging for their final grade early #are those who didn't do shit all semester and are just hoping to scrape by #everyone else knows exactly where they stand because they have been showing up to class and working with me all semester long #anyway #ignore me #i am. frustrated.#teaching undergrads #professor problems

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uhode · 7 months

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she posted like parts of a photo from this summer on her instagram story doesn’t matter whatever i am in that photo and it’s the beach at the end of my street and i am going to be fucking sick i hope i really fucking hope it makes her a bit sick too

#it’s soooo something’s missing and it’s me and it’s on purpose! and i’ll probably see her next week at a house party #and she promised to call when she gets better just to let me know and she is better and she’ll never reach out #and i tried so hard to be anything she wanted me to be anything she needed and i wasn’t doing well and i tried so hard not to put that #weight on her and i was still a burden! and she said that she wanted to stay friends and i would’ve taken anything she was willing to give!#anything at all! i loved her and she was my best friend and i would’ve coped with anything just to have her around sometimes! and #she promised and she never fucking called! just one lousy fucking call to let me know she isn’t going to kill herself or anything! and i wa #working two fucking jobs 6 days a week and going to uni to pay off a debt to my father getting harassed constantly i went through first #semester barely alive barely awake constantly cold and hungry! and in the middle of all that she decides to just leave bc her online fuckin #therapist told her that because she’s feeling guilty over not being present in the relationship and that guilt is just fucking suffocating #as if i’m not drowning in guilt and self pity my entire fucking life #this is so stupid and i’m oversharing but i’ve already typed it out and i can’t keep crying to my friends over same shit from 3 months ago

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livvyofthelake · 11 months

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also fun fact. you can effectively punch holes in plastic glow in the dark stars using a push pin and a rock and just pressing it really hard into your carpet or something so it doesn’t damage anything once it penetrates the plastic. in case you ever needed to know that

#i hope all my actors come to the premiere because i do not think i will be finishing this shit by sunday when we stop filming #going to need to tell them i have surprise presents for them all and use that to make them come see my mid short film #i have to stop putting down my own film. it’s not going to be mid. it’s going to be good. perhaps not as good as some others in the class #but it will not be as bad as the annoying ‘men’s mental health story’ bs one group is doing #frankly i don’t give a shit about men’s mental health but whatever #actually it might not be bad as a film idk their skill levels. but i won’t care about it due to there being no women in there #actually another group is making a film with no women (except the firdged mom) but i think theirs will be good #they have a cast of two people it’s not insane that there’s no women so i’ll allow it #and also of course that guys script was very good and he was actually my first choice when we voted on who’s scripts to make #no i was not my first choice…. i was trying to be humble….#also i wouldn’t have had to be director on his film. i could have been the bitchy production manager…..#i also would have had to go on multiple hikes due to the locations they needed. so perhaps it’s a good thing my script got voted in too #and i know i complain but i do actually like my group they’re great people to work with #even if the Annoying one and i clash sometimes. i like to think of our dynamic as Divorced Coparents #which sounds more sexy than it is. it’s not sexy at all. there’s no sex going on metaphorical or otherwise #i just mean. we clash sometimes but we also have good rapport. it’s like a tense middle school friendship #and the other guy. he’s great. cringe at times but we love him #i wish i’d known him before this semester so we could have had more time to become friends this timing kinda sucks #anyway. i don’t remember how this post started.#ok bye

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siena-sevenwits · 1 year

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#I've spent the past week organizing in the play's wake - sorting and laundering huge numbers of costumes #some to return to those they belong to and some to come home to my costume storage room which had become chaotic over the last few #months #so a complete spring cleaning for the storage room became part of my task list too. Now the play's been over for a week #and the emails are starting to come in from admin about next year. As some of you know I did a lot of discernment this semester #about what next year should look like and I have decided a mix of continuity is best. I won't be working for my 'main' schoolboard anymore #but I will continue to teach and direct for the one program in the city (the one I did the play for) and possibly with a new home school #enrichment program that may go ahead this year if there are sufficient numbers. Otherwise I am going to spend a semester #tutoring and running workshops f I can get it off the ground. Then we'll see.#Anyway - admin wants me to get new syllabi in to them within a month's time so my thoughts are all in that direction!#I get to teach 19th/20th century Canadian history to the middle schoolers and Late Antique/Medieval Church History to the high schoolers!#Also direct another play and do a humanities course centred around an epic in the spring (the last couple of years we've done Iliad and #Odyssey - they want Aeneid this year but I am trying to talk them into another option. The Aeneid is valuable but I am not sure it's the #time or place with this group of students. The result of all this is that I am spending far too much time doing Internet research for ideas #and then taking breaks on tumblr - which isn't good for my eyes or mental health. What with the play and end of term #I fear I've been out of the reading habit. I'm still hyperfixating on the Book of Romans so there's that at least #but I lost the novel I was in the middle of and am not feeling so motivating with out books. It's a proper reading slump! I need a kickstar #of sorts. Feel free to yell at me that I should pick up a book!

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scattered-winter · 9 months

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yk Nightmare Scenarios aside I really do think this year was good for me. I've grown and learned a lot and none of it would have happened without The Horrors that came with it like obviously it's not ideal but. I think I've grown as a person because of them. idk

#like it sucks obviously but if mom was still alive i would still be in college paying for a degree i didnt want and just. being Stuck.#and i dont know if my current situation is better than that but i am at least free to figure things out.#im not locked in a contract for an apartment or in the middle of a semester. when i decide where i want to go #and what i want to do itll be fairly easy to make all the arrangements.#and im also learning things about myself i didnt know before. like i genuinely enjoy retail work #if the work environment is casual and fun and if i like my coworkers.#idk. this year has been an absolute hellhole but some good things have come of it ig.#winter speaks #personal #feeling kinda reflective for the new year. ur regularly scheduled bullshit will return shortly

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thekenobee · 2 years

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Akjdjf your response to my w was so lovely (and imma look forward to that book hehe) but I just love that in the first few pages of the first book we learn that Jack a) is poor b) has no ship and c) taps along to music out of time like when i read that I was like new little guy alert 🥲

Ahhhh, you're so welcome! ❤️

Gosh, yes, it's just like in Hamilton:

"I don't have a dollar to my name,

an acre of land

a troop to command!

He's so broke, so PURE yet so clueless at the time, it's simply impossible NOT to love him<3

#he can't even tap on time whilst listening to music #I LOVE HIM #and you're so welcome!#dont hesitate to scream about books!#but not Ionian mission yet for Im in the middle of The Surgeon's Mate 😂#lovely people ask me questions #and i do my best to reply #but guess who is working all day and night on her Erasmus portfolio instead of have a well deserved break after a hell of a semester at uni #THIS LASS #Aubreyad #JACK AUBREY #beloved #ask #gohoubi #aubrey maturin

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c0rpsedemon · 1 year

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something abt realizing you're listening to someone sing for the last time really hits in an awful way

#so there's this girl who's a year above me and to say that she's good at singing is an understatement. if the goddess of song #herself were to appear in front of me or anyone who's ever heard a note come from her mouth and asked which one was more talented the only #appropriate answer would be that the goddess pales in comparison. i first heard her voice at the auditions for our middle school musical in #the sixth grade and i've been in shock and awe ever since. it's in the name of her voice that i decided i wanted to learn how to write musi #bc i cannot sing but wanted nothing more than some sort of reason to stand next to her. and by some twist of fate. i took music theory last #semester and guess who ended up sitting directly next to me. and who i also said no more than maybe 5-10 words to the entire time. . whoops #in my (and her) defense. it's not like she's unapproachable or anything. she's one of the genuinely kindest people i've ever encountered bu #the problem is. it's a music theory class. i was the only one in it not affiliated w the music department. and everyone in it had known eac #other for 4-7 years. even my like. actual friend in the class was ignoring me a lil (he wasn't he was just hanging out w his closer friends #and so i kept to myself the entire semester bc i didn't want to feel like i was intruding on anything + am terminally shy #(like. to the point where i get physically ill bc of it)#flash forward to today in ap world w our song parody project. our teacher was showing past examples from previous classes and guess who too #the class last year. and ofc. you Do Not get [name redacted] working on a project w/out having her sing for you #her group made a stalin-themed mr sandman parody and our teacher paused the video halfway through and it was my own personal 9/11 #bc there's no good reason for our paths to ever cross again. unless she becomes some celebrity. which i have no doubt she could if merit wa #the only factor at play there. i will never hear her voice again and i'm not sure what i'm going to do abt that.#romeo.txt

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pepprs · 2 years

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god. ok. i think i need to see another counselor. i feel so fucking bad but this is not feeling good or right to me and i can’t make it until july not having the support i need. lol

#purrs #he just lost a very close family member in the middle of the semester and it’s fucked up all his classes and he’s behind on everything so #it’s rly hard for him to be present for me and i don’t want to hold that against him at all. but ive so rarely felt like he is seeing me and #truly responding thoughtfully and carefully to what i have to say. before and after this he spends like half the session very visibly doing #other stuff and it makes it so hard for me to feel safe and connected and he also just like is so stiff and regimented which could be good a #and fine if i felt like he cared abt what i have to say and wants me to have some say over what we talk about too. but i just got out of a #session w him and i literally feel worse bc he was asking questions that i could SEE he was bullshitting and it’s like. i know and i don’t w #want to hold it against you but also this fucking sucks and i need help and im here for you to help me and you can’t. lol #i feel so bad especially bc he’s supporting me as part of a class and he’s getting credit and training and this is so much abt him gaining t #the skills he needs to get his degree and go out in the world and be a good counselor. but i shouldn’t have to stick with a subpar #experience just so he can do well in his class. ive never had this kind of disconnect w any of the other intern counselors i worked with and #i feel so fucking horrible bc he’s clearly in a bad place and it’s impacting him and maybe working w me is helpful for him but like. i need #something better than this and i cannot make it until july without it. but i feel so so so bad

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