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crmsnmth · 2 months

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Nothing Goes To Waste

You took my ashes and turned them in makeup My gray eyes are now your gray eye shadow I guess I should just be happy I'm still of use to you Even if you were the one to burn my pillar of salt Taking what's left of my bones and carving them into flutes to sell at the farmers market Yet every note that's played is wrong I was never in tune to begin with

Take the tattoos on my arms and legs and make them into patches for your vegan leather jacket Dry them out until they are brittle and cracked Dehydrated human snack sticks Take a bite and be the cannibal you claimed you were I just want you to be honest about something

Turn my teeth into jewellry that you wear around your neck with pride It didn't even hurt as you pulled them out in my sleep Dental floss makes a wonderful quick fix And my teeth are popcorn kernel explosions Push the sewing needle through It's Christmas decorations made in the very bottom of Alighieri's ninth circle

Save the hair in little lockets You can claim you loved me when you want attention Pretend that your not the one who drove this car accident Through the windshield I guess they are serious when they say where a seat belt I should've tucked and rolled But you got what you wanted in the end And I guess I'll be happy for you

A thousand lacerations as we push through the window I'll bleed out here in your lawn Consider it a gift, like a cat with a dead mouse Except this mess is a little harder to clean up Hey, if corpses could clean, I'd happily scrub the brain matter of your walls

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stxrmstained-a · 1 year

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// Seira points at your almost empty plate, asks "you're not gonna finish that?", and when you say no, he grabs it from your hands and literally licks it clean wyd

#nothing goes to waste #;about

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year

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I'm sorry I let down my guard.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #xue yang #xiao xingchen #God DAMN this scene was brutal. Season 2 episode 2 is almost nothing but misery and anguish #Helena by Nickle Creek does not quite fit the comic's vibe but it is absolutely a Xue Yang song so I linked it.#The change from “Helena don't walk away...(gentle)” to “HELENA. DON'T WALK AWAY (threat)” is fantastic.#And “Don't waste your pretty sympathy - I'll always be just fine”. Xue Yang core.#Okay now for the real meat. Disclaimer first: *I really like XY.* I think he's a great character. I think his actions consistently-#come from a place of deep trauma. While his reactions and actions put him in a villainous role he is still human about his hurt #and what I'm about to say is NOT intended to be a statement of causality or villianize a group of misunderstood people.#So with that said...Man oh man does Xue Yang have a lot of BPD traits. More that just 'character who is chronically manipulative'.#The impulsivity and emotional reactions and seeking stability makes him feel like he needs that control. What other choice is there?#The part that really gets me is how he *wants* to be safe and happy. But his past experiences tell him how thats impossible #He's the kind of person who goes 'if you don't like me then you better hate me for something substantial". All (pos) or All (neg)#''Love me entirely or Hate me. But don't you dare leave me or forget about me.''#Not at all comfortable saying 'BPD coded'. Im not a psychiatrist. Just that he has TRAITS. Feel free to disagree or add your thoughts.#ppl with bpd also are not a monolith and everyone has very different experiences. Xue yang is very complex. People more so.

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flea-the-circus · 1 year

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even if ronance isn’t endgame, i need nancy to have an arc where she chooses her friend. in my head, the only thing that makes sense is nancy choosing robin. not even in the romantic sense (although i would die of happiness if it was), just nancy remembering her choices and not making the same mistakes she made at sixteen.

having nancy go through four seasons of chasing/grieving/fighting for her best friend, only to turn her entire character into a plot device for steve or jonathan, would be the worst possible choice the duffers could make.

#nothing else will ever make sense to me #i need to see a parallel scene from s1 when barb asks nancy to leave at steve’s house #but in s5 it’s robin and nancy goes with her this time #if they waste an entire show’s worth of character development on a love triangle im suing #i have so many scenarios in my head that i want to write about now #obvi i want ronance to be canon but i will settle for nancy’s redemption arc #honestly i’ll settle for anything #as long as they have at least three scenes together im good #i’m rambling sorry #ronance #stranger things #robin buckley #nancy wheeler

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taegularities · 1 year

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some men are textbook villains fr

#tw religion?#kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on #some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago #liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not #tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much #i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different #things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how #id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet #but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that #and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on #you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding #things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc #life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam #me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you'#AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you'#even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that'#and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone #(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it)#(nothing even ever started you bitchass)#also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it #mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal..#but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared #my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN #'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean #i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective #but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back #and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever #anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol #def gonna delete later #but ty for reading if u did <3

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dayurno · 7 months

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my advice for anyone whos growing more and more frustrated with the state of aftg and fandom at large is that arguing is fun but you need to be happy. ok. you need to. its hard when bad faith takes are dropped to your doorstep but you need to be happy and enjoy yourself and have fun or there's no point in anything at all ever. ok. fandom is not real and nothing is worth more than your enjoyment. i love you please make sure to have fun and reach out to a friend today. for me

#this goes doubly for fans of color if i'm honest #i say this bc a lot of my mutuals either currently or in the past have been very upset about how the fandom acts #and ive Done My Rounds with that ok #ive survived great wars even. and they did not make me happy #yes i was right and yes i should have said it but ultimately there was no material harm to choosing to have fun instead #lifes hard as it is in the real world where real things happen why would you waste your precious fun time on fighting crusades #and trust me i understand deeply the wish to fight crusades. Ive Fought Them. it got me hate mail and #an overall loss of passion for something i held sincerely in my heart #theres nothing more worthy than your enjoyment im serious. none of this is real and the world is hard out there #you need to get a good thing while u can #i dont remember a single time where ive actually felt vindicated by arguing with people online about. anything really but even more so aftg #but i remember in perfect and fond detail every time the (now defunct) kandreil discord server came up with an au #or even just normal casual conversation #i remember asks i got years ago about kevin day hcs that i hardly even agree with now but still love #trust me you will Not remember these squabbles what you will remember is what you loved and if youre lucky thats a lot of memories #so have fun ok. for me #txt

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slutdge · 1 year

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these two goths near me do little rat taxidermy courses in the basement of this one antique store and I made this little dude today, he's like... kinda wonky but i had a really good time doing it (plus a little heart i made out of the tailbones)

#the store is called Ragdoll Vintage if youre in the toronto area and wanna do it #its really really really fucking hard to find any kind of taxidermy course in canada so im glad i finally found one #bc its something ive wanted to try for a long time :-)#also really cool that they dont just toss the insides we dont use but they donate it to a local reptile rescue so nothing goes to waste #ive also got some gorier pics that tumblr wont let me post but if youre curious dm me and ill send em to ya #tw animal death #vulture culture #my pics

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jecki--lon · 1 month

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You know the way grandparents who knew hardship are about wasting food? Anakin is like that with water.

#'No Ashoka don't put it in the sink! First we filter it and then you have to find someone who has plants that need watering -#- what do you mean it's too much work miss? There's children in the galaxy who are dying of thirst right now'#He's redone the plumbing in his cell so that the water from the shower goes into the toilet later on #never mind Obi Wan explaining the whole Jedi temple is a closed system and nothing goes to waste anyway #anakin skywalker #star wars

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swagging-back-to · 4 months

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finally went and got my GED diploma a year after i graduated :)))))

#the check in woman was like 'come on you cant leave without saying bye first!' and iwas like nonononono please no #she made me go talk to the woman who single handedly delayed my graduated by 6 months.#who is annoying as fuck and super classist and pro college.#when she asked what i do for work i was like 'an educator' and she was like 'oh so you've used the free college credits to get your early #childhood education?' and i was like 'uhhh no. still just as against college as i was last year. i don't plan to be an educator for long.'#and she goes well what do you want to do (not your fucking business lady. at all.) and then when i said 'anything' bc real people don't hav #the choice of their dream job or nothing. real people have to just take whatever is available to them--esp in our dead town.#and she was like 'oh come on in during the summer! I'm here for summer school! can take a bunch of tests to find out what your dream job is #can figure out what colleges youd like!'#i was just like ''yeahhhhhh. anyway have a good day' and fucking left.#i was actually debating going to college just a month ago. for the first time in my life i was seriously debating college bc it was my #choice and n oone had been pushing college to me for years. and then she starts this bullshit and im even more anti college than i was in #highschool #anti college #college is a scam #not to mention 'come in during the summer to take completely unnecessary summer school after youve graduated with almost a perfect score'#???? seriously how entitled do you think you are to my time?#i have work this summer. i have plans this summer. and even if i didnt i sure as fuck wouldnt spend my time being preached at about how #im wasting my life and dooming myself to poverty bc i dont want to go 6 figures in debt #and lost 4+ years of time i could be earning wages.

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rosesradio · 2 months

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#idk why this is happening to me. literally no reason #i’m at work & i’m so anxious i feel like i’m gonna be sick #i accidentally dropped my bag this morning on my way out and woke up my mom and she was mad but I figured it’ll pass while I’m at work #idk why it’s ruining my whole ass day i just have this crippling feeling that everyone hates me and I’m gonna get in trouble #my brain keeps spiraling into scenarios where horrible things happen and I’m hated and in trouble when literally nothing is happening #and i know i’m just wasting my life away worried for a spell and then it goes away at a point and then it comes back #i just need people to be nice to me and tell me it’s gonna be okay idk why I’m like this #tw vent #rose.txt

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ruthlesslistener · 3 months

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im so close to outright fuckin beggin my mom to get a divorce at this rate i cant deal with my fathers narcissistic asshole behavior anymore

#we're both fucking exhausted but here he is calling us at 10:30 at night despite knowing for 30 years my mom goes to bed at 9 #talking to him is a cyclical fucking nightmare and his demands are insane #btw i know that narcissistic people arent inherently abusive #and that its pathologized yadayadayada. no hes one of the narcisisstic abusers. like every fucking bill #and yes its bc of fear but i dont fucking care. im afraid and angry all the time and you still dont see me treating my loved ones like dirt #everything is about him and he can do nothing wrong and he knows everything and if you dont adhere to h8s schedule #he calls you a dramatic bab #y #but then will fly into a screaming rage and call you a motherfucker and a waste of space and a lazy piece of shit if u dont cater to him #or get anything wrong #vent #also his demands are fucking insane like no im not getting another fucking dishrack for my roommates to be seperate #ik you keep your towels seperate from everyone elses but no im not doing that #bc im not a goddamn fucking pansy who lets my ocd control me like you you fucking freak #god i wish i could kill you just so you can never make my mom upset ever again

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folklouire · 1 year

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head full of love and appreciation for folklore and evermore. head full

#the perfect albums. perfect perfect perfect albums #anyone want a mini rant about these albums? let's go #it's just pure perfection pure talent. no hiding behind flashy loud production. it's just a few instruments and good fucking lyrics #perfect melodies. taylor gets to play with her voice and do whatever she wants with it AND ACTUALLY LET IT SHOW THAT IT'S GOOD #you get what im saying? there are no high notes nothing of that but still her voice sounds the best it ever has in these albums #the songs are simple. but also they're not. the instruments are simple the singing is simple but also NOT AT ALL #she's not TRYING to show anything in these two albums. trying to prove something to achieve something you know? it makes perfect sense to me #it's simple talent that's just it. not hidden behind anything big but still there's NOTHING small or insignificant about these albums #i hope she goes back to that sound some time in the future. it's ok if she wants to do pop now more than ok #but it would be such a shame & wasted opportunity if she never goes back to that genre. it's perfect ideal for her. her best works

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sysig · 6 months

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#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax!#Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!!#It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!!#Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u;#Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to -#Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/#It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :')#Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone?#''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔#That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :)#I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol)#I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers!#Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

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lecliss · 7 months

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I love how after Vincent passes out in Edge it's Shalua who brings him back then he has a dream moment with Lucrecia and sees her walking up while he's in the pod, then when he wakes up he's still in a pod but it's Shalua who's in the room almost like the game is trying to frame her as "New Lucrecia". But then it's also disappointing when all that implying goes out the window cuz Shalua dies and the game turns Shelke into "New Lucrecia" instead 😔

#i dont wanna get all uppity about ships cuz im a grown ass man but VinShal has SO MUCH potenial #and it all goes to waste cuz square wanted to force a 19yo in the body of a 9yo to Literally inherit another woman's crush on him :/#excuse you thats daughter number 2 and nothing else #oh what we couldve had if shalua didnt die 😔 granted vince will never stop loving lucrecia despite it being impossible to be with her #but its about the ship tease NOT falling on a girl he begins to treat like a daughter #as opposed to the older woman whose pretty similar already to his lost lenore and has FREE WILL in potentially crushing on him #personal

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pettyprocrastination · 7 months

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Odd limbo space of feeling like I've wasted all my youth but when I look in the mirror I see a little girl just starting eighth grade looking back at me

#hey when in life do you start feeling like an actual adult and also when do you realize life isnt a race and you do actually. have time #tj talks #22 years old and for some reason i feel like ive wasted my 'good years' entirely even though i KNOW fhats the farthest thing from the truth #nothing more comforting tban when somebody older than me goes 'your life has barely started. give ypurself grace.'#lile yeag. yea.

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the-gayest-sky-kid · 9 months

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in other news i wish my mom listened to me for once in her life

#and it's like god its ungrateful i guess but i put what i did on the list because thats what i wanted for christmas #i didn't want her getting more than that??? yk???#if she had the money for fucking volumes 1-12 id rather have gotten something i wanted #i JUST had to update the list because the budget went down again and its like #each of those books is like 13 dollars #why the fuck would you spend like 100 dollars on that #she could have told me. she could have fuckin told me and I'd rather have put one of the things i had to take off back on the list #or like. god i told her to focus on the books if we didn't have enough money for the rest of things did she just get those ??? what the fuck #you know id know these things if she bothered TALKING TO ME #im going to be 18 in an undisclosed amount of years there is no christmas magic or surprises okay #she told me the budget i wrote things within the budget i did not want anything more than thay #i wrote exactly what i wanted how to order it on the list that was IT nothing more than that #and then she goes fucking off the budget and the list like what the fuck #i just fucking hate this and im being a brat and ungrateful okay im lucky i even get anything #im lucky she even thought about something like that #its just like if you had the money for this why didn't you just ask me what i wanted. and if you didn't and you wasted money on this despite #the entire fucking list within budget being there. what the fuck #im fuckinh sorry im just complaining #again im being ungrateful #its still fucking something #it couldve been nothing #aethers rants #cw vent #personal posts and stuff idk

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