#omg my brain is deteriorating

[just-jordie-things]

Hi!

I had a thought yesterday and I can't get it out of my head ʘ‿ʘ

Imagine having a giant crush on Megumi, and even though you flirt with him occasionally, your relationship remains platonic, UNTIL! Sukuna takes over his body and sees the way you look at Megumi.

S: "You like what you see, Babe?"

You: "Hell yeah. I've always found Megumi attractive. But I didn't know tattoos and combed hair would look so sexy on him."

Megumi inside Sukuna: "😳😳"

And once Gojo frees him and he has his body back he'll find you, pin you to the wall and say, "I heard I'm hot with this haircut?"

And you are a blushing mess underneath him.

That's all! Just wanted to share couse Sukuna in Megumi is giving me thoughts THOUGHTS

LMFAOOO but i love the idea of megumi taking his body back just to go “WHAT” bcuz he’s had a crush on you this whole time and didn’t take your flirting seriously and he’s not missing his chance now !!!!!

i firmly believe once megumi is certain how you feel for him that there’s no way you could keep up with cute flirty banter, he’s too hot when he’s cheeky and being a tease ☺️☺️☺️☺️ (actually blushing thinking abt this)

[cloudcountry]

Ahhh i dont really know how Tumblr works (this is my first time requesting someone) but i see that ur request was open

i want to request an academic rivalry trope hcs with riddle or Azul or both (bcs i absolutely LOVE the way u write them 😞 it makes me giggle)

Thank u in advance and have a great day or night (⁠´⁠∩⁠｡⁠•⁠ ⁠ᵕ⁠ ⁠•⁠｡⁠∩⁠`⁠)

SUMMARY: Riddle & Azul with an academic rival!!

WARNINGS: None!!

COMMENTS: omg i love you for this!!! this is one of my favorite tropes ever and these two are so emotionally constipated they wouldn't know what to do with themselves. i hope you have a lovely day too anon <33 and im so glad you like how i write them hehe azul is the loml so it means a lot when people say that!!

Riddle doesn’t know what to do about you. He feels so incredibly frustrated every single time you score higher than him on a test because he should be better. How can he pride himself in being Heartslabyul’s Housewarden if he can’t even be at the top of his class?

So what does he do with that frustration? He studies harder and harder because clearly he isn’t trying hard enough. His health deteriorated, and if it wasn’t for Trey, Riddle would be even more of a wreck.

Then he finally does it. All of that work culminates into Riddle finally scoring a point higher than you on his Magical History exam. He stares at the board smugly, really admiring his name above yours (which is how it should be, in his mind.)

You approach the board too, and he expects you to say something about how you’ll score higher than him next time or how you can’t believe he’s finally beaten you, but instead, you nod cheerfully and walk away.

You just walk away. You don't even look at him. You’re satisfied with yourself?! Riddle feels rage bubbling up in his chest, and he almost screams at you right there and then in the hallway. What is wrong with you?!

It doesn’t help matters when Crewel assigns a huge project that's to be completed by two people, and places you and Riddle together. He’s so hell-bent on avoiding you the entire time, even when your face grows annoyed at his inability to cooperate.

“This project is a long one, you know.” you tell him one day, staring daggers into the side of his skull, “It takes six months to complete. If you want to get a good grade you’ve got to lay down your pride and talk to me. I’m not put up with this for half a year.”

Riddle hates that you’re right. He hates it so much because he’s always supposed to be the sensible one. He’s studied the rules over and over and yet you stump him. You make him wrong.

Is he wrong to resent you for that? Is it wrong to want to destroy your pride? Is it wrong to hate that you seemingly get everything you’ve ever wanted so easily while he’s worked hard for it?

Is it wrong that he wants to cooperate so hard and so efficiently with you that you take back everything you said to him?

Azul wants to get you in his debt so BADLY. He isn’t at the very top of his class, no. That title belongs to Riddle, who has refused his offers for a contract time and time again. Maybe there’s something you want, though.

He will find it. He will examine you every day and pick apart every insecurity and moment of sadness. That smart little brain of yours may be good for tests, but when it comes to manipulation, you have nothing on Azul.

It’s a small comfort if nothing else. You may have the entire school wrapped around your finger and the Leech twins might be fascinated with you, but that doesn’t matter.

Well, it doesn’t matter until you show up at the Lounge of your own volition. Azul is shocked when he hears the twins call your name, and you enter his VIP Room looking far too calm.

Floyd almost hacks up a laugh from laughing too hard when you ask for tutoring. Azul is baffled as Jade snickers, wondering why the person who outscores Azul continuously would ask him for tutoring.

But this is his chance. And so he writes up a contract, asking for something vague because he doesn’t know what he’ll need from you yet but he’s certain you’ll come in handy in the future and suddenly—

You wrinkle your nose and hand the contract back to him, pointing at one of the conditions. “I don’t like that one. Change it.” you say, and Floyd starts cackling again because no one has ever read them that closely.

It’s a condition that states you will come to the Lounge whenever Azul summons you. It’s vague enough that the signer may not realize he truly means whenever, but outlined enough to make them assume that it only applies to the time frame in which the main part of the contract is in effect.

It’s sneaky, and you caught it. Azul’s eyebrow twitches as he stares at you, forcing a smile on his features. Why, of course he can change that for you! What would you like it to say instead? You should know that he’s on home turf right now, and he never loses in the comfort of his VIP Room.

[doukeshi-kun]

Cannibalism stalker! Nikolai has me on a choke hold.

My brain has been rotting for it like ajheikwg ueu

Imagine stalker!nikolai comes to his silly campervan to see you asleep on his bed, and he has the urge to tear into your skin, rip and preserve your flesh, maybe even take a chuck out of it and swallow it so a piece of you would be within him, with him for as long as he lives.

He gently encases your frame and digs his hands into a wound whilst giving you plenty of face smooches, gliding his tongue over your shoulders before leaving bite marks stained with blood all over.

If he could, silly guy might rip open your chest to kiss your heart tenderly before setting it back into your ribcage, maybe still holding it.

Merge bodily souls with your or smth.

I'm kicking my feet, punching the air, giggling to a phantom over this rn.

But he can't, cause silly guy Cannibalism stalker!nikolai doesn't want you dead but he has urges so he settles for biting you hard enough to draw blood (●’∇’)♪

And even better, he's doing all of this with his hand intertwined with yours at the end of it.

And then, being romantic fanatic, he is (he is not, I think). He's bites around the base of your pinky finger, placing a morally and physically questionable bind that applies to you even though you're silly asleep and didn't say yes, but you will when you're awake.

When his teeth leave the flesh, prominent markings can be seen etched onto it, serving his own delusions. However, it's, of course, not something drastic.

It's a simple 'you'll never leave me' because he's silly and insane like that (he'll kill you if you do).

Ajjdndnfjsknajfjdbfjfj meow.

Being the silly clown he is, he obviously doesn't clean up the split blood just yet.

He lets your blood drip and seeps into the pristine white sheets of his blanket before smiling like some maniacal happy face clown because you are now imprinted onto his belongings as well.

Due to sanitary purposes, he would of course change the sheets and clean you up before snuggling to you and drift off to lala land to dream about ripping your body to chunks, piecing you back together so that he can obviously soak into your blood and fully, in physical form merge with you.

MEOW MEOW MEOW MEOW MEOW

I'm mentally deteriorating from this brain rot, oh my fucking god, pray to the lorddd 🎣

tw: gore, vore, cannibalism, nsfw

surprisingly anon, gore isn't that heavy of a topic in my blog lmao but hear ye—! our dear laotianye has come to the rescue, doing the lord work!

mmmm i really love our silly guy is being SO tender with the heart like omg that's the organ that beats for his name 🫀 and brrrrr i love the thought of him doing it while holding hands like HE WOULD TALK THROUGH IT HE WOULD TALK THROUGH ITTTT

i also like that he would bite and make a bite ring around your finger. like yes bae, embrace that primal ferality of yours 😍 he'd probably get hard as fuck when you do the same to him. on a second thought, imagine stalker!nikolai is fucking you dumb and purposely slip his fingers into your mouth in hopes for you biting him hehe

and i like that his dream is literally about devouring and murdering you like if that ain't love, idk what is 😌❤️ also, imagine after he dreams about all of that, he just scans your body, not for lust purpose but he's imagining dissection marks lmao i'm gonna stop

PRAY TO THE LORD

[d10nsaint]

Omg dion with a wife thats supper affectionate ( but has her evil moments 💀) and loving like he could breathe and she would be like “❤️😍😩👌🏾✨” i think it would be super cute he would just be there like 🧍🏻 do you think you could write something like that a lil suggestive too

-XoXo (love your writing btw❤️)

I have other requests but how could i not write my beloved dion first??lowercase intended. also tytytytyy <33

->He would quickly notice your behaviors towards him; i mean, you stare at him like he's a god or a high being, who wouldn't?

->He would love having someone so willing to love him and not try to make him 'nicer' or use him for his looks.

->So, he's very happy to have someone that loves him.

->Say that you both are taking a walk in the garden together, he would be walking next to you and watch you stare at him- no, admire him.

->And if you were both alone, he would listen to you spill endless praise for him, and even talk about the things that you loved about him that he didnt even know.

->You would also quickly notice when he gets slightly agitated.It isn't visible, but you notice when his father sends him a letter that tells him to go on a mission that he doesn't like.

->He loves how you read his mood and know when you could step in,and he loves how you soothe him with your thoughts on him, how elegantly he ate,how he lightly huffed when his mother talked bad about him, how his pee softly trickled in the toilet water this morning...

->With as much as i've said 'he loves', it's obvious he's whipped for you.I mean, you rejected men who could give you an environment that wouldn't deteriorate your mental state like how Agriche would, just because you love him.

->And how he'd listen to everything you say, even a light sigh wouldn't go unnoticed by him.You both basically really love eachother.

->No matter what, he would always do anything you ask.If you just lightly stuck to his arm, showed a little cleavage, and gave him some tears, he would quickly do what you want.And quickly get hard.

->Even if it's obvious that you love him no matter what, he would still have his little tear fetish.

->Even having teary eyes from dust would make him want to rip your clothes off.

->And he loves that your personality is reserved for him, too.

->You're not lovesick and mushy-brained around other people as you are around him, and he quickly noticed.

->God, he loves watching you shut people up with a few quick words while clinging to his side, grip tightening when something you dont like gets said.

->He also likes to show your body off to others-likes to make sure that everybody knows that nobody touches you like he does.

dion please im a good housewife pleaseplease

[brownsugarwrites]

OMG I hope I’m doing this right I’ve never recalled requested a fanfic before-

You mentioned Leon spicy HCs and I have been DYING for someone to write Leon x Plus!Sized readers HCs! (But in all honestly if that isn’t something you’d like to write about then I’d love some HCs of switch!leon)

switch!leon just turned my brain on hol on

when he doms:

ok , leon gives me pleasure!soft!dom. he wants to take care of you. literally have you under him crying cause the pleasure feels so good. He would tease you endlessly while he fucks you

“sound so pretty for me sweetheart” he would say coming closer to you

hes into overstimming you until you cant anymore even still coaxing more orgasms out of you

can and will make you squirt also has a breeding kink (its a string one too omg)

ties ur wrist up so you dont push him away and also likes to see you struggle just a wee bit

into wall sex (ill elaborate next time)

hes pretty vanilla (aint nothing wrong with that) but he is willing to help you explore what you like and what you dont. its a nice balance 🫶🏾

when he subs:

lord have mercy my brain is deteriorating at this.

he likes to sub when he has long hard days at work and you just want to relax and take care of him

his high pitched moans and whines coming from when you’re grinding down on his hard on as you kiss him.

you would cover his eyes so he can just focus on his pleasure as you teased him from basically cumming untouched in his underwear literally begging you for you to touch him

and when you do his toes are curling and gripping your hips so hard so that you wont get away

call him sweet or pretty boy and there he go cumming everywhere

yes he has a praise kink

anyways happy thirsty thursday!!!! (thanks for the ask I luved it)

[dzthenerd490]

File: OC 19

SCP#: AEM

Code Name: OMG! MY DEITY IS TRENDING!

Object Class: Keter

Special Containment Procedures: The Telecommunications Monitoring Office - Cyber Division is responsible for monitoring the App Store and Google Play for manifestations of SCP-AEM again. Should one be reported Foundation Cyber teams are to be alerted at once and use standard, advanced, and meta-coded tactics to find the SCP-AEM program and delete it from the internet entirely.

The code of SCP-AEM have been recorded, in the Foundation data banks at Site-AQ. It has been placed in a "prison program" to prevent it from reforming into the application to attack Foundation staff. When the application is formed, it is regularly tested with D Class. Any testing with SCP-AEM must be approved by at least two Level 4 Clearance Staff. Testing must always be done with participating staff wearing the most advanced anti-Cognito hazard head gear with the memetic protection addon installed.

Description: SCP-AEM is an app created by Group of Interest: Zealots of Crack. It is believed they created the anomaly specifically to mock the Church of Maxwellism. When downloaded the user can enter what looks like a scoreboard area but rather than normal scoreboards for music or sports teams it reviews known and unknown deities of the world. When reviewing the user can see each deity and what makes them worth worshiping. The app then asks the user if they want to be a worshiper of this deity, if the user selects yes then they will be shown a notification that they have accepted as well as asked to spread the popularity of this deity. If the user selects no they the app will continue to ask as they look through other deities until they finally say yes.

The first anomalous property that can be noticed about SCP-AEM is that it does not just mention known deities throughout history but also deities of the anomalous world. This includes, the Scarlet King, Yaldabaoth, Mekhane, Gran Karcist Ion, The Serpent, Jalakåra, The Distortion, The Black Queen, The Iris, The Hungry [data expunged], [data expunged], Zalgo, [data expunged], The Toy Maker, and [data expunged]. Obviously, this is an information leak hazard; though unfortunately, it is not the full extent of SCP-AEM's anomalous properties.

When someone selects a deity to worship, they will be told how to get deity points by spreading the word of their deity. Common recommendations are simply to make posts online about the deity and the perks of their worship. For normal civilians viewing these posts they will not be affected in any way, but should it be someone who is already worshiping this deity view the post they will mutate. The mutations normally relate to the deity they are worshiping. For example: Christians will transform into angles, Buddhists skin will suddenly turn to gold, Mekhanites will transform into true cyborgs of mixed technologies and great power, Sarkites will rip out of their fake skin and become stronger, and worshipers of chaos gods will turn into Eldrige horrors corresponding with their deity. This unfortunately is not the end of SCP-AEM's anomalous properties.

When someone posts online to spread the word of their deity, they will be rewarded with deity points according to how many people have seen the post regardless of whether they have been converted or not. The resulting points will send abnormal levels of dopamine into the brain making the user want to do it more and more. Furthermore, they will start to gain powers corresponding with their deity. These anomalous abilities grow more in number and power as the user continues to spread the word of their deity. However, as they do this their brain starts to deteriorate with many mental illnesses being prevalent. Testing and observation during containment has shown that someone who has made 1,000 posts about their deity on any social media will have developed State 2 Alzheimer's, schizophrenia, intense paranoia, and/ or Intermittent explosive disorder.

Somewhere after 2,000 to 3,000 posts the user will die due to the massive damage to their brain. Anomalously, when they die, the app will be shared with all their friends, family, and half of the people who have seen their posts. Allowing the influence of the anomalous to spread almost like a plague. Unfortunately, because viewing posts made by users of SCP-AEM makes them stronger and closer to their deity, many cultists have tried to ensure that SCP-AEM is spread around as much as possible. This has only made containment harder as times goes on.

SCP-AEM was discovered in 2011 when strange reports of angles flying in the skies of Chicago, people suddenly turning into demons in Alabama, reports of sarkites terrorizing Las Vagas, and many other horrible incidents happening all over the United States. Foundation agents including Mobile Task Force Dionysus-1 "Fake News" and Mobile Task Force Gamma-5 "Red Herrings" worked around the clock to find all witnesses and cover up all reports and pictures of the events. Though in the end, it was Mobile Task Force Mu-4 "Debuggers" that found the source of it all, SCP-AEM. They were only barely able to find it before it could cause global damage.

After the code of SCP-AEM was catalogued to be studied later, a virus was sent out into the internet that targeted the SCP-AEM app destroying it entirely form the internet. However, despite this SCP-AEM is still seen every so often showing up on the app store and google play. It is for this reason that SCP-AEM is labeled as Object Class Keter.

The Foundation knew SCP-AEM was created by Group of Interest: Zealots on Crack as in the app there is an article in the settings that states the following.

***

This app is meant to show the terrible truth, the truth that following a faith is a race. You all have to compete to show that your god is the only god, the true god, the strongest god. If you don't run far enough you get nothing, you run too far, you fucking die. But that's just your problem, the gods don't care so long as they keep trending. At least that's what I think, maybe I'm wrong but I can't fucking tell, after all I'm just a ZEALOT ON CRACK!

- Follow me on Twitter @[data expunged]

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SCP: Horror Movie Files Hub

[spyridonya]

omg! (hi this is ella formerly ourladyinshadow i remade) idk if i sent one already, but First for the micro story prompts!

MICRO STORY PROMPTS - though I broke the rules with this one. 500, words though. (Prompt - First)

"I'm a virgin."

Daeran pauses in his steps, the heel of his boot a soft click on her bedroom floor; the sound sent ice down Kadira’s back and made her tail curl, the tip twitching with the nerve of it.

The count turns his head to look over his shoulder at her, his face a curiously held mask, and impossible for her to read it.

“I’m not a virgin so much by inability as availability,” The commander felt that tense silence press on her shoulders like plate mail, the edges sharp against skin and her stomach becoming washed with cold.

“I don’t… Maybe I’m not a virgin but I don’t… I can’t remember…” She babbled, her only wish was being able to jump into the bath Daeran had prepared for her and drown, “I don’t want to think I lost my virginity there.”

In that cold, dark lab filled with fiends for company, she was alone with her rag doll which deteriorated as the decades inched by. Memories of a demon haunted world crawled across her brain like a spider’s dance.

“I don’t know if that’s attractive to you or if it’s a turn off…” The count fully turned to her then, taking in the sight before him, those too bright eyes unreadable and his full lips pressed together. Kadira almost laughed at the very thought she was making Daeran speechless. “I’m not a virgin because of any notion of proprietary or-”

“I don’t find it attractive.” Daeran said quietly, the tone so very flat and monotone.

The ice fell through Kadira’s stomach and all the way to her toes, the disappointment shocking to her veins though she already found herself seeking the silver lining. This all began due to keeping a closer eye on him, the attraction they held for each other was merely physical, wasn’t it? All those moments she had seen in Heaven’s Edge were stolen, nothing that Daeran could truly tell her, not without risking bloodbath. There’s little to believe he would even tell her, if he could.

Besides, why begin something - anything - when she couldn’t finish it?

“Nor do I find it unattractive.” He continued in the same tone and manner, placid as a pond, “Though I have to confess, there are expectations of taking another's virginity.”

“Which I don’t have and you shouldn’t have, Daeran,” It isn’t desperation that makes her speak, but defending herself, that she wasn’t simply just an ingenues, “Whatever this is, courtship or not, I am not forcing anything on you. I just… I walked into this with my eyes open,” And yet, somehow it all sounded like babbling to Kadee’s own ears, she couldn’t imagine what Daeran thought, “I wanted it to make sure you are, too. It’s only fair.”

Daeran looks at her, that mask of nobility so beautiful on his features, and never ever moving,, “Life, Kadira, isn’t often fair.”

He finishes the conversation with a half bow before he turns again, leaving her alone in silence.

[andrewblurmoved]

okay actually i just went on twitter and everyone here is actually being soooooo normal in comparison omg i think my brain actually deteriorated from the shit i just saw dear god

im not even on 911twt & i am so scared of even opening twitter 😵‍💫😖😖

[nerves-nebula]

instead of write a bunch of live blog posts about the cement garden im gonna consolidate it all into one big post

cement gardens rules for a perfect life:

step 1: jork it while ur dad dies from like idk a heat stroke or something

step 2: erotic tickle fight with ur sister?

step 3: Continue To Not Be Normal With Your Sister

step 4: with ur sisters help, bury ur dead mom in cement in the basement so that cps cant break up ur family (reasonable tbh)

step 5, intermission: directly address the weird gender undertones that've been going on and have sexual tension with ur sister while she talks about gender roles and sexism and stuff.

step 6: catch ur brother role playing being you and your sister with his friend

step 7: things get a little WACKy

step 8: things deteriorate

step 9: things get a little WACKy

side note but can you imagine the perspective of this 33 year old. he starts dating a teenaged girl and goes back to her house where her weird siblings get all weird at him and then one day they all stand around trying to convince him not to unearth the "dead dog" in cement filled locker in their basement which definitely isnt their dead mom and the girl and her brother are dressed identically. and you just look at them standing there in their identical clothing sharing weird glances like, ah, what if im in a horror movie.

step 10: things deteriorate

side note 2 but i wish i was like just a bit smarter cuz i can tell this movie is tryna say something about gender and shit especially with how julie and jack are positioned with her taking charge and him kind of assuming the more passive role but my brain is so blourgh right now i can only really point at it like omg look. themes. idk what they are but there sure are themes!

step 11: fuck your sister (or maybe get fucked BY your sister)

all in all it seems like jacks got it all figured out. idk why this is a horror (or whatever) he got the girl in the end, and isn't that what matters? this movie is an hour and thirty minutes and took me like, 3 hours to watch cuz i was playing wizard101 and pausing a bunch.

[todayisafridaynight]

Hello, thank you for the amazing Minedai food! <333 Could you talk about Mine's body/face language? I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, I NEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT HIM. pls pls go wild with it, thank u <3 - signed: a very normal Mine simp

you're welcome, thanks for enjoyin my stuff <3

but omg i love mine's face and his body language it's absolutely one of my favorite things about him that seems so small yet is so huge imo.

when it comes to how he expresses emotion, he very much does it through his eyes and eyebrows- usually in the form of relaxing or furrowing his brows together depending on the situation (i.e. his eyebrows relaxing while he talks to kanda over the phone when he talks about daigo, his eyebrows knitting together after kanda demands from him money and men, his eyes softening after katase expresses concern, etc etc)

mine's a very professional man One I Often Joke Talks Like A Business Email 24/7, so it's these little moments that really help us see how he really feels about a situation and expands on his character. mine's conditioned himself to speak critically and to seldom let his real feelings about a situation come out unless they're necessary, yet he's still human and of course has his own actual thoughts about something and can't help but to react to particular situations.

in the case of his phone call with kanda, we can infer mine relaxes at the thought of daigo because he's confident he'll make a recovery and he doesn't need to concern himself over kanda starting any wars anytime soon- not to mention he's probably reassuring himself that daigo's fine just for his own personal sake. additionally, because of this inference, we can also assume daigo's condition deteriorated over the course of the game in accordance to mine's actions- but that's another post for another time probably.

another one of my favorite moments is kanda's death scene. by the end of the game, we understand that mine cherishes bonds and sincere companionship above all else, money and other material goods just being tools to him to achieve whatever he may need to get such a thing. ergo, when kanda makes it abundantly clear he only sees mine as a personal piggy bank, mine clenching his fists and furrowing his brows communicates his pain that, unfortunately, his ideologies are being proven time and time again.

the last scenes of the game are where we see mine most apparently emotive and really highlights how he only ever used his eyes to express himself beforehand. he sports a toothy grin for a moment and bares his teeth, and it looks odd on him after you realize the aforementioned. nevertheless, i still love how distraught he looks after daigo recovers from his coma. you can just really feel how agonized he is at the realization he could have very much killed daigo for nothing (not that his plans beforehand were justified anyway, but now in his eyes he really would have done something irredeemable now that daigo was cognizant again), yet his expression could also be read as relieved. it's that perfect blend of 'i'm glad i didn't fuck this up immensely' and 'oh god i ALMOST fucked this up immensely'

all in all mine makes my brain rot and i love the little things about him and he makes me want to eat dry wall

[prettyboykatsuki]

heyyy <33 I've been off of tumblr for almost a month ;-; I'm back now, hopefully, what have I missed?? (besides u ofc... omg stop I can't take myself seriously lmaoo)

also the reason I've been off of tumblr (and other social media) is because I was kind of burned out?? I guess like I could feel my mental health deteriorating and my brain basically melting lol

have you ever had to deal with anything like that? if yes how did you deal with it? because I'm honestly quite anxious which sounds stupid bcs it's social media... idk I'm sorry if this is weird you don't need to answer this 😊

a lot of advice wanting in the inbox today i wonder why but hello!!!! im glad to have you back.

to be honest i deal with this all the time HEJKDKA. not the burn out exactly but just like the general anxiety around social media. im a writer so im always worried people are going to try to like. ruin my life over an innocous post or hiccup i make which is insane to think but not impossible!!!

my whole thing now is like.. i can just leave i guess. worst comes to worst, i simply dip out and talk to people on discord and remake. but social media is kind of a hell so when i burn out i just disappear for a while lol. im just a bit detached from it u could say

[yourmomsandy]

Dolphin dreams

Hello Blog >:]. Omg this feels so nice to say. I wanted to make one of these in forever but I get distracted easily so I never followed through. This is cool. I'm going to think out loud (just kidding, I'll be on mute actually, just the sound of my keyboard typing because it is very late and my mom doesn't know I'm still up) for a bit about dolphins because I ended up theming this whole thing around it.

Maybe I should start with why I love dolphins. I think when you are a kid you cycle through a defined set of hyper-fixations. Dinosaurs/cars/babies/dolphins/horses etc. I went through most of these. Dolphins clicked one summer long ago I can't remember when. We went to the canary islands and all I remember was getting a dolphin foam toy at the zoo that I used to play SO much to the point where the foam started to deteriorate and tear シ.

( ꒦ິ ཀ ꒦ິ )

As I grew up I randomly found more and more facts about dolphins via videos and social media. My Youtube viewing habits are odd. They mostly revolve around nostalgic habits I still enjoy to this day (such as listening to nightcore edits) , replaying videos I have seen 1000 times and still enjoying them, games stuff OR random hour long biology dissects. I'm not sure how I got into that but it informed me about many animals, dolphins included. I found out they actually exhibit quite aggressive habits at times which I won't go into detail. They are the secret villains of the ocean.

I think I like their nefarious nature now. They fit into that creepy pasta 2014 aesthetic. I love that.

I have been looking back at the figure of the dolphin every since early 2023 (when I made this clip). Dolphin dreams, brain stimulation and ibs.

Don't think it will turn into anything but I still feel it's interesting. I am intrigued. Makes me think of something I wrote about randomness and art a while back that also never turned into anything.

There is a large degree of randomness to what I do. What is "exploration" if not randomness translated to the european ear. Instead of claiming I am ExPloRinG a place I think I would rather randomly walk into one. I think randomness accounts and recognizes chance as an active participant contrary to ExPloRinG which I feel instills the activeness in the explorer. I am often drawn to something and decide to work with it. Meaning eventually arises from my interaction and play but the early stages are joy and interest. I like working in this way. These days, finding any sort of joy in art making feels like a protest of some kind. ROUGH. We better hold on to it tightly.

I actually just googled if dolphins dream and I found out that apparently dolphins cannot dream because they do not experience a full REM cycle. That's a random fact I just found that somehow makes this better. See, random is good. I think a lot of the art I see would become better with a sprinkle of randomness. Artists don't know all the possibilities and leaving some bits to be revealed through the making is exciting while also bringing great unforeseen rewards.

My ego isn't flexed enough to make me believe I know exactly what the work needs. Often times I am wrong. I have long decided to follow the opposite route. I don't know what the work means when it starts and my role isn't to control. Not even direct. My role is to view and experience these revelations happening as I play, push and pull.

If you are a stuck think of the spaguetti on the wall. This was something I saw once in a house viewing in my second year of uni. We walk in to find a dried spaguetti glued to the wall. This is odd enough but what was fascinating was that it had been painted over. White. Act like that spaguetti. It served little purpose but It excelled at provoking and teasing me. It was a great piece.

NO MORE SPAGUETTI ON PLATES

...

EVER

[applejongho]

just watched the 1n2d trailer Jongho looked so good and I immediately thought of you lmao hope you're having a good day today 💗 and if you haven't watched the 1n2d vid yet just be prepared bc he is vvv handsome

hello anon 😊🥺 I'm honored to be thought of when u see jongho omg 💔 I just watched the trailer out of curiosity and you're right. all of my brain cells are deteriorating rapidly. he looks GREAT. oof. 👌👌👌

my day actually went pretty well, I got everything I wanted to get done today and also a really big breakthrough may have happened in my capstone project which if it succeeds will make our project a lot easier. And I was the reason for it! So I'm living off of that rn :)

[fasterthanmydemons]

I haven't read it myself but from what I've heard, the celestial madonna was an amazing storyline in the comics and it could get adapted into the mcu. but yeah, there were three potential celestial madonnas, wanda, agatha and mantis, and it was ultimately revealed that it was mantis. some stupid people think she's useless because she's shy and sweet but what the virgin mary is to us who have been raised christian here on earth, what she represents, etc... mantis is her equivalent in space. let her be powerfulllll!

and omg I don't blame you for choosing not to watch the gotg films :( I refused to give them a chance because the first movie opens up with a scene that is a bit triggering for me for personal reasons. I started crying so I turned it off and never watched anything from them, I met them through infinity war and endgame too. they had a cameo in thor love and thunder I think, but I refused to watch THEIR films. UNTIL I was told that there's a florence + the machine song in their third movie. I LOVE florence + the machine so one day I mentally prepared myself, watched the first two, watched the holiday special, and the next day I watched the third one (it's already on disney+) and HOLY SHIT they are now some of my favorite characters. I never laughed, cried or smiled this much watching a movie. I never cried WHILE smiling with a movie! they are insanely good (in my opinion). pushing past my triggers was hard but also so worth it. jesus christ in two days I fell in love with these characters and cried because I loved them that much haha. 😢🥰

funnily enough, I have a friend who loved the gotg ever since their first movie came out in 2014, but I could never get my friend to listen to florence + the machine. after listening to her song in the third movie, they became a huge fan of her music! gotg is what got them into her music and her music is what got me into the gotg, HAHAHAH 😂

treat your mental health as a priority tho. hopefully you enjoyed this little anecdote. I love your writing, your pietro is great, and I absolutely love the sotg verse. it's entertaining and I ship silvermantis a little even though it's not gonna happen like you said, lmao. doesn't matter, pietro is always good and the gotg are always good. with or without shipping it's just an excellent combo! 💙🛸

{out of breath} Ohhh okay. Thank you for explaining a little because I really knew nothing about this at all. Isn't it always the characters we least expect, or the smallest, or the "weakest," or the most unassuming, or something that we then find out... oh, they're gods or some other kind of overpowered being? XD I'll put the rest under a cut because I discuss some triggering topics some people might not want to read about...

As for your anecdote... that's actually really funny, heh. You and your friend went through complete opposite processes haha. And how good is Florence + the Machine, seriously? Florence Welch has one of the most amazing voices I've ever heard. I try to belt out her songs sometimes and it's a lot of fun but... I'm nowhere near as good or as loud as she is. XD

Yes. Yes. That's actually exactly what I'm talking about. I did try to watch the GotG movies a while back without knowing anything about them, and it was shortly after my mother died of metastasized breast cancer that had gone to her brain, after me and my dad took care of her ourselves at home in hospice for five weeks. She was the person I was closest to in the world and I could absolutely not imagine my life without her, but beyond that... watching someone deteriorate mentally and physically before your eyes when they mean so much to you is just about the roughest thing you can go through in life in my opinion. It was the most traumatic thing I've ever gone through and I still have nightmares about various aspects of it six years later.

Anyway... yes, so I tried to watch the first GotG movie... and boom, first opening scene is that. Well, not the same because it's movie glamorized cancer death, and anyone who has known someone who has died that way knows that it is nowhere near as elegant, poignantly touching, or aesthetically soft as they make it out to be in the movies. But even so, the portrayal had enough truth in it to trigger me quite a bit and I had to turn it off. I don't have a problem hearing about cancer, or writing about it, but when I see it in a movie, it hits a little too close to home. Especially because it was Quill's mother, too, so that was just too close for me. It's so strange to me that I can watch the most graphic and frightening hardcore horror movies without any problems whatsoever, but one little scene like that? Messes me up completely.

So that is definitely something I have to get past if I'm going to watch these movies. But then I've also heard that the last Thor movie also has similar things in it, and I've seen some gif sets that have made me a little afraid to watch it. I thought I was in a good place to get through things like that, and then now my aunt has cancer and my grandmother moved back in with us and life has gotten pretty stressful, sad, and aggravating. So now I'm in this terrible place mentally, and that's not conducive to pushing my limits and trying to tackle hard-to-watch scenes.

Incidentally, I know several of you have sent in asks or starters that... I haven't touched. For a while. I'm really sorry about that, but some of them deal with topics that I just haven't had it in me to write, like various mental and physical health issues for example. Like I said, lately things haven't been great for me and my family and my writing is really suffering for it. I hope you understand that me not answering things doesn't mean I'm ignoring you specifically, it just means I don't have enough time to write or that I'm having trouble with certain topics.

[tabzjoynt]

managed to get out of glass island tonight, old girl is too damn tired ayy Jun wasn't impressed but totally let me off the hook phewwww!

also jumped on a zoom call with my siblings using what energy I did have left for a much needed catch up about dad - who we now realise is much further along than we thought in terms of parkinsons on top of the rare form of cancer he also has

understanding that his boss had to encourage his retirement was the moment I clicked that my dad is no longer able to live his independent lifestyle any more. his memory is deteriorating quickly and we are now sorting out his will, what he wishes for his funeral and other daunting aspects of being prepared for the circle of life celebration dad deserves

I am actually in denial too - and even tho I could move home to be physically helpful I am way more beneficial for my family if I stay here

have been using my massage pillow for the last hour on what I thought was sciatic pain but it's actually my hamstring needing the hella smash cos it's hard as a fucking rock - it hurt but feels so good omg! those trigger points giving me an almighty spazz lolz

stopped in to see jnr and took in the pro clubs for print - it's really happening, my second memorial tee design is in progress. when I messaged your brother he said to me... thanks for thinking of my brother and he legit has no idea that you've never left my thoughts once

I am managing to hold it together and guessing it's the ciggies and coffee tricking me into feeling like I have it under control lolz

so this is pretty much a brain dump #peaceout

[darl1ngd3ar3st]

another nsfw brett drabble

sorry 4 being horny on main guys ☹💔

Contains: creampie, overstim, some begging, idk you call brett puppy a few times

male reader

Your cold hands sent chills all over bretts body as they ran up and down his sides. He was already whimpering, and you hadn't done anything yet. "You're so sensitive, puppy." you whispered. "Mm- y-y/n...." he whined. His exposed body squirmed underneath you. "w-why am I naked and you arent??" he pouted jokingly. "I suppose that's a valid point." You chuckled. You lifted your shirt over your head and pulled your pants off.

"Is that better?" You said. Brett nodded with a small giggle. You gently cupped his cheek as your other hand trailed down to his hip. Brett leaned into your touch with a smile. "I love you so much." You hummed. The skrunkly little dude sighed as you pet him gently. You reached over to the bottle of lotion on the nightstand, coating your cock in plenty of it. Once you were all lubed up (HELP THAT WAS SO UNCOMFORTABLE TO WRITE) you flipped him over and spread your boyfriends legs.

Brett gripped the sheets beneath him as you slowly pushed your length into his ass. He let out a gasp and a whine once you were all the way inside. Giving him a minute to adjust, you pressed a soft kiss to his cheek. "p-please..." he whined. "please what, honey?" You teased. "Please f-fuck me, y/n." He responded.

You smiled, satisfied with his answer. You moved your hips back and forth in a slow rhythm, like a metronome. Brett whimpered as your cock stretched him out and filled him perfectly. It felt amazing. "Do you want me to go faster, puppy?" You said. He nodded softly. With that, you sped up. Your pelvis snapped against his ass roughly, but not rough enough for it to hurt him. He let out a loud moan as he felt your cock hit his prostate, hard. "Ah!- r-right there-" he yelped, burying his face in the pillow he rested on.

You hit that spot over and over again, brett choking out a sob or a yelp each time. His entire body shook in pure ecstasy. Your fingers dug into his hips as you yanked him back and forth in rhythm with your thrusts. "I-its too- ah- t-too mu-uch~" he whined. "Oh god, don't stop- don't stop-!" His vocabulary started to deteriorate to almost nothing. After literally 5 seconds, the only words he could get out were "please" "fuck" and "don't stop." Poor boy, he felt like he was going to explode with pleasure.

"Are you close, puppy?" You cooed. Brett nodded frantically into the pillow. "Mhm! Fuck, p-please make me cum!! I- I ca- agh!!" He cried. "Good boy." You whispered.

"Cum for me." You said, wrapping your hand around your boyfriends throbbing cock and stroking vigorously. That sent him over the edge. The overstimulation was too much and he could've sworn he saw god. "Hah! agh!! c-cu-cumming!!" He practically screamed. His eyes rolled into the back of his head as he felt your cum fill him up. cum squirted from his cock and onto the sheets under him.

"Look at you, such a good boy taking all my cum like that." You praised. Brett choked out a sob in pleasure. His brain couldn't process anything other than how good he felt. Not that he minded.

Brett collapsed on the bed. He was shaking so much. "Are you okay, baby?" You asked softly. "Mmh...ha- that felt incredible..." he panted. "Thank you, y/n." You smiled, patting his head. "Let me run you a bath, okay?" You cooed. Your exhausted boyfriend nodded softly. You got yourself somewhat dressed and headed to the bathroom to run him a bath.

God, he loved you so much.

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONG I'VE BEEN WANTING TO USE THE WORD METRONOME IN A SMUT OMG.