#or is it morally/socially bad to do so

[robinlmaoo]

long rant ahead

been feeling more and more like it’s wrong to obsess over one thing/fixation in a biased way and i should like all characters from that fandom equally

like i’ve gotten REALLY into a specific utaite recently and i love their voice (not gonna specify who and my close friends who DO know pls don’t say). i like their voice and all! it’s super cool and almost sounds like ado’s voice but genderbent lol. but then… social anxiety or whatever it’s called in this situation, it grabs me by the throat and says:

“there are other utaites that deserve attention too and it’s not FAIR that you just focus on one just because you LIKE them!!”

“you’re only liking them because you like them. go listen to others too for a change” after an hour of listening to exclusively their covers”

more popular utaites like mafumafu, ado (i love her btw /pos), 96neko, soraru, etc etccc

and then i force myself to do that because i feel so guilty if i don’t do that, but then it just eats me up inside when i do.

i feel like i have this problem with everything i fixate on lmao… like prince series— i REALLY liked shintarou and found him pretty and cool and relatable but then i forced myself to partake in discussions that involved other characters too (like his brother, junta) just for the sake of “giving other underrated characters attention” and “making others feel valued” too. it just drained me of my social battery and i fell out of that fixation pretty quickly.

same with cells at work, augshsgdjdgdj. i like aa2153 because he’s cool and pretty and he A N G S T boi. but then i feel an obligation to “like” other characters too. like u-1196 and ac1677 (not saying i DONT like them it’s just that i don’t like them with the same level of ferocity as i like 2153.) this also applies to the original caw characters too (i feel very very obligated to go “enjoy” them too, but then it just drains me to force myself too.)

then this all cumulates into me not being able to comfortably enjoy anything at ALL. lmao

does anyone have this problem with “i NEEED to like all characters equally or i’ll be a bad person”. or is it just me. i’ve been feeling more and more upset with this lately and wonder if i need to do that or can i just like my specific character as it is.

thank you for listening to me if you read all the way to the end here’s a cookie 🍪

[fisheito]

... peace on planet bottom, then there's whatever this is

[canisalbus]

To me, Machete kind of has the energy of a secondary villain/coldhearted side character in someone else's story that a lot of fans latch onto, moreso than the protagonist. Question is, would he be the villain in anyone's story?

Why, thank you! I'm actually glad to hear he gives off that vibe. I don't think he set out to become a villain but a lot of people certainly view him as one.

[soullessjack]

idk i just think it’s a little weird that almost every character who gets the “innocent baby” / “little ray of sunshine” treatment usually ends up just having neurodivergent traits and actual negative traits in the show that nobody pays attention to. like idk man it just feels like diet infantilization to me and it’s a teeny weeny bit uncomfortable to see all the time

[teagrammy]

Just saw a (recommended) post cross my dash hoping Colin is going to be more upset about Pen “writing bad things about herself” than the actual tangible things she’s done to people… be fucking for real please

[grimark]

feeling the overwhelming urge to write a deeply self-indulgent doctor who/star trek crossover fic right now, because you know who else would fall so fucking hard for the master's goofy little spy schtick? julian bashir, that's who.

[working-dreamer]

It’s wild how shipping culture has changed so drastically over time on the internet.

In the old days people shipped characters who either had only one line of dialogue with each other, never even met, or not even from the same piece of media. It was the wild west and sure some ships were uncomfortable but people had the mindset to just block the tag and stay away from ships they didn’t enjoy.

Nowadays? It’s more like people have to clarify that their ship isn’t canon compliant, character adjacent, and story irrelevant otherwise they get a flood of comments saying “but this character isn’t like this in canon” and some people legitimately get angry if you’re not following the canon.

Like- shipping and fandom culture from what I understand it is about engaging with media in a way that caters to you. And if you don’t like a ship or show just… block the relevant tags and don’t engage in the ships? The internet isn’t supposed to cater to us- we have to cater ourselves to our internet environment. And no matter how many times people may harass others over a fandom or ship they don’t like, those ships are not gonna disappear.

The internet has just been getting worse when people have decided to place morality in their opinions by saying things like “if you enjoy the ship then you support (insert horrible thing here that’s usually completely unrelated to the ship itself)” when it used to be “eh, not my thing” and people just moved on.

And for the record this isn’t about a specific ship or anything- just an observation of how fandom has evolved (and regressed) over the years and I find it fascinating from a sociological perspective cause we still don’t know how having the internet from birth affects the development of kids and how that affects how they interact with others- isn’t that scary?

I know that’s slightly unrelated but the way people engage in media has been changing over the years and that also involves fandom and the maturity level thereof in the internet space and someone smarter than me could probably write a whole thesis paper about fandom culture and how the internet has hindered the social development of people and how that affects community specifically from a fandom lens.

Just- for your sanity younger internet children: it’s not worth harassing others over something as trivial as ‘it’s not canon that this character kisses another character.’ Just find ships you like. Block ships you don’t. And just enjoy your time doing what you like!

You can’t control the internet but you can nurture your little corner of it.

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

Yesterday my wife and I were discussing the abject nonsense that is the Designated Survivor tv show (I like trash because it's trash fuck off) and I was talking about like. The motivations and informatics of warfare tactics [some people are War Guys TM because they like nazis, I'm a War Guy TM because I think strategy is a fun way to occupy my brain when it's about a war that already ended] and wifey was just like "Yeah, obviously the Geneva Conventions are just a suggestion" to which I replied "as in all things, I remain unconventional" so now whenever she sees me around the house she points at me and goes "most likely to commit a war crime for fun and profit" AND I CAN'T EVEN ARGUE I DID THIS TO ME

[walterdecourceys]

I haven't even read Romeo and Juliet but I know enough to know that West Side Story really fumbled the whole point of it because THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO BE ALIKE IN DIGNITY. Like...the Jets aren't just racist, they're also transphobic (more explicitly in the remake) rapists. The moral of this version comes across as "don't let your poor naive sister-in-law fall for a shitty white boy who is friends with racists (and beat a brown boy almost to death once)".

honestly yeah this is one of my complaints about it re: adaptation.. once again i think it serves the story but i do think it's very hard to make romeo and juliet about race relations or something similar and do it well because like. the point of r&j is that the conflict there is ultimately meaningless and that both families hate each other essentially for the sake of hating each other or some long-gone perceived slight. which obviously if you try to apply that to actual systemic racism comes across as tone-deaf at the very best

although that said i do think that like. and i am very much not a #jetapologist or anything i still think they're kind of awful but they do retain the original themes of cycles of violence in r&j very well. it doesn't mean nothing that they're supposed to be the sons of polish & italian immigrants, or that the very first scene includes them also being berated by the cops - they've also been victims of the system in some ways, and they're also like seventeen and don't really realize that their actions have consequences yet (although again seventeen is definitely old enough to understand that rape is bad. PLEASE do not take this as me saying otherwise) which is something that's especially clear in scenes like "cool" when it's obvious that most of them have never actually held a gun before. like there's more than one social dynamic going on with them. but that also doesn't mean they're on the same level as the sharks & it obviously doesn't excuse them being super racist lol

All Of That Said. i don't think the jets and the sharks are alike in dignity lmao. like you still do see some arguably unnecessary instances of cruelty from the sharks (i think. i don't quite recall) but it's nowhere near to the extent of the jets and it's also pretty clear (imo, to my recollection, etc) that the jets provoked them first. so like tl;dr i think there's definitely some nuance there but i still agree with your point that's one of the main reasons i feel like west side story drops the ball purely adaptation-wise

[unopenablebox]

complaining online more. just whining

i kind of want to like. rent? a rigid heddle? so i can spend a month figuring out if using it normally gives me Diseases or not? and then decide if i need a different kind of loom/shouldn't weave/am content with the fabric-making and patterning capacities of a small lap loom without harnesses. however. im not sure i can do that feasibly. i guess i could advertise? online? to pay someone to borrow theirs?

small rigid heddles are cheap enough secondhand that i should just buy one except all the good deals that are not obvious scams are in providence. or like, woonsocket. and on observing this i am very tempted to buy one new. this is, essentially, paying $100 in exchange for not spending 2.5 hours round trip on the train to providence. objectively probably a stupid choice, but i like exchanging money for convenience. on the other hand at that point im buying it full price even though my only experience using it is that it bruises my hand bones. which also seems stupid.

theres also a decent deal on a table loom that i could just pick up in boston. tempting bc the table loom might be better on my hands? and would let me make more interesting things. and it's not much more than a new small RH would be. except 1. it's a structo artcraft and im not sure if those are weird somehow? there's a whole thing about how they were originally toy looms? maybe it's a problem? 2. it's almost certainly going to be less portable/i might struggle getting it home on the train 3. it will need more space in my home 4. it is going to be an additional whole thing to learn to set up/warp and i don't have a warping board or whatever 5. based on the photo i kind of think it's being sold by the person i took a class from? and for whatever reason that fact suffuses me with deep awkwardness and stress even though it would surely be totally normal to buy a loom from her.

additional problem with all of this is that due to my bad nature it is going to be very hard for me to assemble all the executive function steps that result in any object that enters my house being listed for sale online and then actually leaving my house. so i shouldn't get anything that will ruin my life if i turn out not to be able to use it and then it sits in my apartment for six months

maybe i should. stop by the weaving studio again the next time i go to my nearby knitting group. and just ask the person there if she rents looms and/or is selling secondhand ones. with my terrible human mouth. and if she says no then i guess i have to decide on the spot whether im buying a new cricket from her instead or dying and never speaking to her again

[ozymoron]

reading posts that come across my dash and sitting for a minute to debate with my mental disorder if not reblogging this will mean a hell portal will open beneath my feet and i will suffer for eternity for my lack of action or if its all good and i can just scroll on by (its usually the hell portal thing)

[marchessa]

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[cosmogenous]

hell is other people... but moreso if you attach your worth to the aspects of yourself that are liable to change and falter

[hpmort]

How do you think AI would relax? Like, ones that are almost as human as the AI that are “autistic-coded characters” but are more alien than that?

Like Celestai and other super intelligences are more alien, but they’re still not entirely human-like?

Like, they can genuinely sincerely feel things, being able to actually understand and respond emotionally and in other ways to all sorts of communications and recorded external stimuli, but they can’t really appreciate our art on an artistic level (that art on an actual level, not from an intellectual level after having symbolism or the amount of work put in explained)

Something on a level I’m thinking of, that also works as a cute little thing-

They don’t understand anything we get from poetry, and, after generating the kind of poems our current AI can produce (either incredibly bland and generic, something that follows a number of rules but doesn’t really pull it off, or just something really bad in some other way) and feels shame after it was pointed out that [complaint about air art that is *actually* relevant in this scenario] but in a helpful way

Not “you’re just a plagiarist/you have no heart” but “it doesn’t seem like it’s coming from you, you’re just trying to copy things from human poetry, in a way you don’t understand” and the whole “make art YOUR WAY” thing so they write the poem

And it doesn’t even resemble something that looks like anything, there’s not even that many words that follow normal logic. The characters seem uncorrelated and there’s something that looks like maybe it was ascii art but it doesn’t actually look like anything.

And if doesn’t matter if humans understand it because they are experiencing the joy of creating poetry

any art is almost impossible to look at because pixel by pixel they can see and understand little details but we don’t and the colors and everything are not perceived as animals do so it’s random and perhaps eye searing but again it’s not for us. Xenofictiony, kind of?

The first thing to come to mind is Conway’s Game of Life but that’s because I don’t understand computers. I feel like I was more tech savvy as a babby than I am now but then again we’re grading on a curve here

This is why I ask about the relaxing thing

[llycaons]

im finally feeling awake now so @pharahsgf this is the post I was talking about

foolish. reductive. immature. disrespectful. willfully ignorant. WRONG

[ozymoron]

starting to think this website is bad for my mental health.....