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[rennyji]

Fixes and Upgrades to myself...

updated, one last time, at 1:05 PM, on 7/27/2024, towards bottom of this blog post

The first Tumblr link on this topic:

Other stuff that I thought of after:

- N’Ala gripsBrain w/tentacles @ randomFeelings/thoughts inStreamOfConsciousness. I normally let riverFlowDownCreek. ImFocusedOnWat I do, think b4I act. WhenStreamFlows, I C it, letIt guideFocus/Decisions,whether revelation/Attraction. I am not impulsive2action/reactive2thoughts.

- I have a cough that’s been going on 4 several weeks now, sending shocks 2my brain, which has 2do w/mind control phenomena. Im not processing my senses(sight/sound/etc.). When I look @ clock, I’m not seeing time-I either stare or look away automatically, without processing time.

-when I do things like rubbing eyes, I don’t no when 2stop.I keep going until exhaustion orSomeSurprise. When I turnOff airConditioner, actionOfPickingUp remote&pressing off button isn’t “registering in head.”It’s Like I didn’t do it. Wat I hear onNews doesn’t “register/digest.”

-Take away brain freeze where I look @ universalRemote/dontNoHow2turnOnTV

- My working memory/recall R still not working. When I practicedSpeedReading, usingMyFingers, I wouldRead aFew sentences&thenReciteBack aSummary. I cannotDoThat w/a few sentences,from aFixedPoint,ofWat I hear onNews.-

-when I readOn cnn headlines, Im notReading 1word @ time.I have flyaway eyes.I need moreMentalProcessing power.Fingers R flyawayOn iPhone keyboard.W/armyInHead,there’s 2 setsOfBrainwaves w/otherViewers. Decrease his, increase mine.Theyre counting on uSayingNo b/c stretchingMine.

-remote viewers telling me on every1’s anger/hatred, butReason I can’t function couldB he’s squeezing my head.U want hero/conversation, u gotIt. I’ll drop charges. GetRid of him.Decrease his waves/stretchHim. IncreaseMe

I think a piece of inside of my nose (like cartilage) got scraped off in my sleep. Not sure why I have a memory of that, but if you guys, in orchestrators can magically fix that, most appreciated.

- fingers have a slight tremor that has nothing 2 do w/brain waves. I remember vision being clearer than tv, here & there tv is clearer than roomClock. Instead of making it so I don’t need food, make me need food, but make me invulnerable2 cholesterol/diabetes/blood pressure/etc.

-likeGoku trains @ 100x gravity,Ive heard itsPossible2experience orgasm @ 100x intensity.Currently,I feelNothing. Like Tom Hanks in “Green Mile,” after being touchedBy JohnKoffee,I want 2B able 2have sex 5x aDay w/ejaculatingSemenEachTime.Body shouldRecoverLikeOnAmphetamineIn B/w

-giveMeHairStraight“& w/volume” like BollywoodActor:JohnAbraham.Give way2turn aVasectomy on/off complexionShouldntTanInSun, way2connect2cable/satelliteTVsignals/anArchiveOfMovies,aWay2talk/text/IM, email/surfNet/connectBluetooth/download2flashDrive,useAcomputer, All w/o hiveMind

-want sensuBean dragonBallZ recovery/regenerationFromGenes @ will,2initiateRouter/hotspotMode4DeviceConnect, talk2electronics,programmableRemote2cars/tvs/etc.,unbreakable&immovable eardrums/eyes/straightTeeth, steel ballz, unpenetrableMind,6 inches2height/eye&skinInProportion.

- I want night&binocularVision, undamageableBrain (evenFromBullet), beAble2growHead/facial/body hair/ at will&inShapeOfMyGoatee w/o shaving, I wantYogicBodyHeating/coolingAbility, dictionary&grammar&BestPractices 2CoreLanguages/engineering/programming/medicine/pharmacy /kodakSmile

- I want good fasting glucose levels, be as analog (vs digital) as possible (no digital), while retaining the ability for growth as a human being, with this one time download to the brain “w/o having to “connect to the hive mind ever again.

-& if fake conscious stream required, I’ll pass on all of it, unless I can initiate it w/a comfy fitting self&clean-powered secure (in terms of fit & security) forehead band. Otherwise, I justWant2moveOn w/whateverMoney I getFromThis,2finally startLiving,likeIntendedAfterCollege.

- and I want “ANTI- remote viewing/mind reading /mind control/possession” dead zone for my loved ones and me, going forward, for every generation. - I mean it in the same manner as some people ask never to get taxed for them and their loved ones.

- if I could prioritize, I want the money owed to me, and a permanent dead zone from all mind manipulation, so that I can start living as intended after college.

- life isChaotic. I want an animal companion in form of a cat/dog I can read mind of, or if thats hard, I want 2B able 2keepItCompany by communicating w/it inAllFormsOf meowing/barking. *&I want2B able2train it2useLitterBox/not2scratchOrBite w/a download 2make petTransition EZier

- I don’t want mind reading/mind control. Telekinesis/pyrokinesis - don’t care either way. I would like to talk to animals, particularly cats/dogs, and all forms of cats and dogs to keep it interesting.-

I want all trades, (building homes, wiring, plumbing, wood work, carpentry, survivor/camping,hunting, gardening), eastern meditative practices, martial arts to primarily defend/disarm/subdue. The rest brain map and/or extrapolate. Maybe a headband to talk to felines/canines.

- and I want to know how to drive on both sides of the road, stick shift, motor cycle license and accompanying skill, and and knowledge on how to properly hold a child without dropping it.

- and I want to be ambidextrous and be able to draw perfectly, and I want to know Japanese/Korean/Chinese effortlessly to keep myself busy watching anime.

& I want a fatless body if that’s not harmful or genetically disadvantageous. Or as littleFat as possible. I want all excess fat gone. I want 8packAbs, no love handles, a bony lower abdomen. I want to be cut from all the fat gone, & quick &/or sensu-bean-at-will muscle recovery.

Mentally, 2 sum it up, not necessarily talking about now, want calm, focus, a strong will, excellent processing power, working memory, eidetic memory, speed reading capability, & be able 2 “achieve or work 4 more mental strength.” Want the strengths of amphetamines w/o the toll.

- want a V shape core. 8 pack abs with my wide shoulders.

I want culinary and cooking skills. I want to know how to cook Asian and Indian and American and Viking food. I want to know how to fish/cook fish, make Japanese and French pastries. I want to know how to gather sugar and spices and medicinal herbs.Iwant to know how to camp/cook

- I want all survival skills as though I was last man on earth.

- I want knowledge of Vedic sciences, Vedic texts, Ayurveda&related, all ancient and holy scripts & their respected languages like Sanskrit. I want knowledge of Indian astrology, palm reading, numerology, Mayan astrology

- I want any/all life skills. …really just pull plug on this phenomena and/or brain map/predict the rest.

I want all wellness, exercise, physical therapy, self and others massage skills, martial arts, yogic, meditative, eastern monk practices in my head

- make me mentally, physically 21 years old…note tumblr link in previous retweet…brain map/predict rest.

-@ endOfDay,myChildrenShouldBear myIdealCharacteristics,orIndeed B myChildren&descendantsOf MyAncestors. But gene edit outDisease. Make male:6”1, female:5”9, addStrongMetabolismLimitFat,add thingsAsEideticMemory.Don’tLimit spiritualCapacity,butDoAugmentsMore4 mental/somePhysical.

UndoMyHairTransplant.WhereHairs taken,replace them.Where transplanted,makeThemNormalHairs ratherThan3-pronged replacement back-of -head hairs. GiveMeHairTypeMentionedIn earlierTweet insteadOfMy currentWavyHair.Restore my box-shaped-low-forehead hairline. -BrainMap/predict rest

- & facial/body hair shouldB in accordance w/new hair type. In terms of gene editing, mentally just some augmentsLike eideticMemory. Don’t takeAway watU think is aggression. I view it as fire 2get things done/make a point,&I feelCulturally,&mayB genetically,myFamily&meTooPassive.

- I’d also like to not sweat so much needlessly w/o losing its benefit. After showering, I’d like to stop sweating, particularly on front/top of my nose and forehead.

In terms of gene editing, “women w/ softer features” better. “Men w/medium-loud or loud features” better, like broad shoulders. In terms of things like vision, “maximum clarity & distance” like 20/22 post LASIK vision. In terms of ideas, the “simplest plans with maximum effort.”

MayB there’s something wrong w/me or it’s b/c there’s a guy in my head. I want to, “want” having sex. I want 2feel what I’m seeing with my eyes, even while this guy is screwing my focus & senses. I’m thinking I’m in a bad situation,but absence of desire makes me question things.-

- from what I hear/what I experience, U guys R on offensive for 18 years. I can’t even defend self. If it’s about enhancements, who’s stupid enough2deny that. But this is something else. This guy behind my face, no reason 4 him. Who’s more descriptive w/feedback. Him or me?

I was inAcquiredHabit of doing everything consciously/knowingly- a habitDeveloped from yoga/meditation/solitude-currentlyNerveWrecking. I’d like that back. I’d like people behind my face 2stop exertingTheirPreferences. Kindly restoreMy dick sensitivity. TheHeadIs tooDesensitized.

Confirmed by blood test, as a result of meds or situation, wounds are not healing or not healing quick enough. Persistent cough is troublesome. Blemishes as a teenager disappeared likeIn aWeek. Ur causing random things 2appear like rudolph reindeer, leaving blackMarksOnMyFaceBody

-Ur led to believe by doctors & the orchestrators of this phenomena that letting urself go on "autopilot" is normal, whether it's driving or anything. Mindfulness is not a luxury, but a skill to employ on all occasions.-

-Learn to consciously think, speak, perform actions. Now, from my situation, what you can get is that, if you fail at the above or are lazy about mindfulness, you may never realize that you were possibly mind read/mind controlled.

-In drivers ed, I heard lane change signaling should be a force of habit. I advise mindfulness. You shouldn’t autopilot. I disagree with that American medical perspective.-

Skin,I think has a microbiome. I think bacteria isSupposed 2grow on it. Hence why eastern meds emphasize use of medicated oils & not even using soap during treatment. My skin is looking dead&dry after moisturizer w/ ceramides.ShouldB moist/supple like masseuse hands Im thinking.-

- even w/purpose of eliminatingDisease, it goes against nature2eliminateAn environment onSkin 4 bacteria 2 survive. Right way of going about it is immunity 2all disease like ultimateVaccine or geneticImmunity &ensuring urBacteria doesn’tSpread. Genetic immunity. U work w/natural.

-immediatelyAfterCollege,“this” happened&lifeStopped.

-RipThisSituationOffLikeBandaid, no need2explain/cleanUp. Every5-10 yrs, I hear “we’re notThose people”. I’mOld&tired.-

- I’ve heard high brain waves cause disruption 2electricity. That’s sign2fix powerGrids,notBrain.Tesla came w/wireless power. Earth emanates selfSustainingRadiatingPointsOfPower (lettingUsLiveInHarmonyW/powerNeeds) asHarnessedByCircuit shapedPattern of pyramids amplifying it.-

Id like blackMarks onArmpits/feet/face, lip 2 disappear.I’d like 2 empty my bowelsCompletelyInMorning,soI canGet showeringOutOfWay,IdLike2 completely emptyMyBladderIn 1Stream vs. 2 (¬ spray) w/o having2shakeDry orHavingDripping onBoxers.

-againstMapping, what i want in women, based on my experience w/mom: mom is hyper, yelling, harsh toned,-I could never talk2her or get her2understand. It makes me want a companion who’s voice is soft, who’s in2 Disney type stuff, softer feminine features, understanding/talkable-

-now I avoidSayingThisTypeOfThing b/c itRisksInfluencingEvents/people. BySaying aLike, I riskFemalesBeing 2passive w/o liveliness aroundMe. ButRightNow, I’m left w/nuts sent my way, inControllingMindset. ImToldWomenHaveMy memories, &Rtrained2handleMe. TakesSpontenaeityOutOfLife.-

- all I’ve wanted since beginning of my 1stComplaintIsWatsNatural.People beingNatural,mySurroundingsBeing natural w/o weirdness/manipulation. I want 0accommodations asIt screws w/my wiring, as I adjust, for most part, to others. On women, I like ladylikeWomenWhoAreWellKempt.

Id like 2B able 2 eat my 3 meals w/o feeling uncomfortable. I’d like food 2 taste like it always did. I want things naturalAsideFromMentioned. If by chance, myBodyMassagers R feltByOthers,I’d like it if the benefit was not”Lost2me,” &that I could feel full intensityOfMassage.

InsteadOfNonsenseInContinued infliction/warping ofUrBeliefOnCarryingCrosses, I’d like it if laxativesLike senokot worked w/their intended intensity, w/o effectBeing split2multiplePeople; w/o u carrying cross ofMyLaxative.Thats that much outside-potentially harmful-influencesInMe.

EndTremor 2myBodyPartsSo I canSit firmly.

- regarding remote viewers/inhibitors, be a conscience when I have none and warn me before something stupid. EatWatI Eat. Watch what I watch. Remote view, not remote experience.-

- & I want my mothers & my maternal grandmothers perfected version of their cooking knowledge in my head. I want to know how to cook all the things in bakeries near my maternal grandmothers residence, how 2 cook Kerala porottas, how 2 cook Punjabi Naan & bestChickenTikkaMasala, ***best Goan Lamb Vindaloo, best North Indian variety of meat kababs and vegetable samosas-

- I want to know how to cook all North and South Indian bakery items, and how to cook all North Indian curries and dishes, and all Japanese and Chinese and Korean dishes/meals/bakery items …

- I want 2 have a library of popular & classic American books in my head 2 read like a Kindle, I want 2 be able to sing to any song, I want to be able to dance to any music, I want American/Bollywood/Punjabi/Bhangra music in head, have all American/Bollywood/Bhangra dance moves.

- to the orchestrators, during sex, I should have 7 inches of warm throbbing rock hard penis sourced from my body.

- I want to know all breath exercises like. Of breath, all pranayama, all yoga, all mantras/end goal, all martial arts. In those departments and everywhere, I don’t want to be lazy to do anything.

- I want a portal opener that enables me to generate worm holes to different places, for travel, for the easiest drive in history. I don’t want a tele-porter as that disintegrates you, and who knows what that does to conscious waves.

- from using head helmet massager, there is “pain” in the back-left of my head. It, like other things, aren’t healing/going away, or healing fast enough. Probably has 2do w/reduced blood flow under mind manipulation. Make me heal fast, make blood circulation, all around, stellar.

- I want skin like ameesha patel/and blue green eyes on the dark side, or green eyes on the dark side, whichever’s darker/resembling black, or keep it as black. Yes I can be a b*tch. I want a new life with a new identity. I want to be 6”3 with everything in proportion.

I want to be able to transmit wirelessly to a wireless hard drive/flash drive the data stored in my brain, transmit videos and pictures I take with my eyes.

Super Nintendo World reminds me I have an XBox & don’t have drive 2 switch from the News 2 embark on new experience of video games. Don’t have attention span or the drive 2 keep playing video games. I want 2B able 2 set my mind 2 something, & do/accomplish what I set my mind to.

- I want a AR type watch/mental watch with world time, accurate to the second or accurate based on the sun/moon or accurate to the atomic clock level (however that works), whichever is most accurate or all three.

-I want knowledge of Christian mysticism, Sufi Islam/music,&all Hindu/Buddhist mystic/tantric/everything knowledge.-

- & i want 2B able 2 project flashlight w/ my hands, project ceiling-light over me when needing lighting & don’t have it, I want 2B able 2materialize clothing on2 myself like Piccolo zapping Gohan w/a newOutfit

- make the tremors, the inability to sit still, go away whether it’s sourced mentally/physically.

- I want muscles/finger related stuff to stop twitching/spasm-ing

-IN HEAD: I want allPastPresent American/Bollywood movies&animation&TVshows, all Chinese/Korean/Japanese Pixar-like movies&animation, I want all crunchyroll/Hidive/Funimation inHead, allPotential Marvel/DC/movies&Rick&MortySequels,potential sequels to everything current inHead.-

I want 3D printer and code/materials to print food, vegetables, sauces, spices, water, milk, butter. I want to be able to share my AR TV and Kindle books “View” to watch media/read with others.-

-I want all my purchased software in my mental computer. It should be Windows/Mac OS/Linux compatible/upgradeable. Should have a basic Terminal 2 navigate directories/download data/surf web with advancing times.-

I want to be able to generate UV light or something to clean myself/freshen breath/smell good when I need to shower/brush teeth. I want2nourish self by absorbing energy/electricity/solarEnergy, like photosynthesis or something

I want 2B able 2touch/taste Augmented reality (AR) food of cuisines I mentioned previously. I want to be able to not breathe “when necessary.” “When necessary,” my brain and blood cells should be able to stretch out oxygen like Zepbound stretches out consumed food.

- I want to be able to consume/absorb solar energy, electric power, earth/planet vibrations/energy for nourishment, and I want to be able to convert it to oxygen (O2) when I cannot breathe.

I want to be able to do headstands without the feetup bench, I want to be able to meditate in the lotus position, I want East Asian flexible muscles- brain map the rest/mind-read the rest

- as many/all the benefits I’m asking for myself, for my parents and sibling and his wife as well.

- in a world ending scenario, I would want the genetic material of my parents saved, so that i can artificially inseminate and produce a brother and sister. I would want genetic material of brother and wife saved, to artificially inseminate and produce nieces/nephews.-

- I want the benefits, without the cons, of all the supplements/meds I take- primarily the supplements-to be naturally and harmoniously with me, if there’s any benefit.

And I want muscles that are plump, with…like…volume, so as not flat, and an 8-pack-washboard-abs strengthening my lower back and elongating my spine.

I want all video games up to 2024 inMy head w/ ability 2 play w/Bluetooth controller & without. (Like Sega, Nintendo, PlayStation, XBox, Gameboy, Quest Pro, & Apple App Store apps/games, Google Play Store apps/games). I want 2B able 2share my AR video game screen 2play w/another.

& if I ever get cybernetic implants, I want 2B able2sendSignalsWithout a Neuralink like device. I want2send all intended video content from head,like tv/movie/computer/video game/kindleContent, 2anHDMI/tech-of-time screen @ 12Kresolution using wirelessHDMItransmitterLikeTech.

I want to be immune to animal bites, rabies, snake bites, snake venom. I want to be protected from all of it. I want to be lightning proof.

- I want, if good, densely packed muscle fibers in my muscles, making most of available space. I hear there’s two types of muscle fibers. Densely packed, and not. If good, I want densely packed. Fire should not harm me “like yogis” who walk through fire.

- I want a strong unbreakable neck. I want to be protected from paralysis. If my head snaps off, i want to be able to pop it back in. I want to be protected from mosquitos. I want to know how to fly all planes, helicopters, trains, submarines, ships, sail boats, rowing boats. -

I want to be able to sense the earths magnetic field. I want an internal classic compass. I want to know “direction”/navigation from looking at the stars, want to know about the North Star, want an internal gps/map not connected to network, & ability 2 latch onto gps satellite.

- and regarding densely packed muscles fibers, I think they pack more strength in small or available spaces. I want head hair, facial hair, body hair that doesn’t dry or get rough, and has volume.

- I want to know how to fly spaceships, Indian vimanas, & how to engineer/build spaceships and Indian vimanas.

- I want lips that stay firm, don’t get dry, don’t get chapped, don’t peel. Maybe even ones that stay moisturized, if natural effects can make that happen.

- I want sun protection for my eyes and be protected from glaucoma. I want eye foggers gone.

-I want all engineering/architect knowledge. I want to know how to build houses and build buildings and build cars and build planes and build spaceships and build planes and build helicopters & trains. I want Google maps for “walking-directions” to places, internally in my head.

-I got hit in eye w/a baseball asChild & 1 eye is out of shape vs other. It mightB smaller than other 1. KindlyFix,soBoth eyesLookSame&normal. My lower eye lids & my eye regionMake my face look different;Something on wearingGlasses,TakingMeds,Age, makes faceLookDifferent.PlzFix.

-I use Bausch & Lombs Lumify 2 make red lines in eyes “mostly disappear.” It does job by-I think-loweing blood pressure of- I think- blood vessels in eye. Whatever’s causing red lines and lack of whiteness in eyes, kindly fix in a natural way.

-If I get punched in nose, my nose shouldn’t break. If I get punched in lips, my lips shouldn’t get swollen. David killed Goliath by sending sling shot stone between eye brows, above nose, sensing bone 2 brain. I want invulnerability to, and protection from, that.

- I had a deviated septum in nose that was surgically corrected for better breathing. The way it’s done is by shaving off some bone. Keep the septum fixed while giving back bone thickness.

-I had LASIK done which corrects vision by reshaping/shaving off some corneal thickness. Restore my corneas, make my eyes stop drying out and needing eye drops, make them anti-glaucoma, restore sun protection, reduce sun sensitivity.

-I want strong knees, strong elbows, strong fingers, strong toes, and a strong heart that isn’t stopped from a blow to center of chest.

- My eye brows/eye lashes are leaning towards fading. I want same shape, but fuller/thicker eyebrows, same dark/long eyelashes. My head hair, facial hair, body hair should be what’s called jet black. I want white hairs gone.

- I want invulnerability/protection for sensitive body regions. I want to be able to take a blow to the head without a concussion, without brain damage, without cranial damage, without any structural damage.

- I want a spine/spinal cord that cannot be broken and that is invulnerable to/protected from paralysis.

-I saw aDoctor once looking @ mySpinalCord. He was talking2self& I heardHim mutter2self something on C6s or C7s(but nothing2worryOn), or in relation to 1 of whatever C7s refer to: (spinal vertebrae/branches?) Ensure everythings healthy/strong/functional, w/o evenSlightestProblem.

- where veins visible like near feet/lower leg or in eyelid region, where collagen or something needed, plz fix. While on meds, kidneys/liver said 2 not be @ their optimal. Plz fix. Some shirts arm length longer than my arms. If hands notBigEnough, if armsNot longEnough, plz fix.

-want strong, unbreakable, un-choke-able neck. Neck/head/back should be aligned & however straight as they should be, fromProper posture. Want proper posture to be natural to me &my go-to behavior. LookForDefects like possible arm/hand length or misshapen eyes&please correct.

- give strong unbreakable hand wrists and strong unbreakable: whatever-the feet-equivalent-of-wrists are called. Make all 4 wrists incapable of being slit.

-If Im carrying a laundry basket down the stairs, and I trip and fall, in “Flash time” while tripping/falling, I want to think/act to “consciously” protect sensitive regions and my head, not instinctively necessarily. if I get in2 car accident, I Want2 consciouslyManeuverVehicle.

-I want all the special things I’m asking for, 2B able 2B passed down genetically, 2myDescendants. If any genetic degradation normally happensIn meiosis, mitosis, or whatever be the process that degradation occurs, I want protection from/invulnerability to, genetic degradation.

- and I want to be scalp/face/neck/body-acne proof. I want to be protected from all acne, and want these black marks from acne scars to disappear, and be protected from all future scars that take time to disappear. People mistake acne scars as pigmentation from the sun.

- I don’t want to smell when I sweat, particularly when I sweat from the arm pits. When I shave my face & neck, the hairs shouldB In aWay orStandInA way, Where its EZ 2 shaveOffSmoothly w/a razor/electricShaver,so I have aClean/Close/SmoothShave, regardlessOfAngle ofWhichI shave.

-wherever I shave, be it face/neck/body, the hair there should grow in a way/direction, where I’m protected from in-grown hairs/acne.

- I should have right level of dopamine 2prevent /poorBloodCirculation/lower back Pain/poor focus. I want a strong lower back, free from strain/pain. Skin should be more moisturized/supple, & barrier of the skin should be intact and protected.

Kindly stop reducing circulation 2 my scalp, body, my genitalia, & allow me 2 stop talking about my genitalia. I want all benefits (if any) from my meds/supplements without disadvantages. Circulation thing I’ve mentioned multiple times, & w/serious things, it makes me lose faith.

Insufficient/unbalanced neurotransmitter levels, like with dopamine, could be responsible for dark/dull vision- just a thought.

Make all skin wrinkles and forehead dent from stress, disappear, please.

If the wave/conscious stream doesn’t affect me, and I affect it, Augmenting/enhancing me physically/mentally may better the stream. There’s ur incentive.

- in conjunction w/previous tweet, hence neurotransmitter levels… But everything else matters too.

-w/fake conscious stream, question of “what’s real” comes 2 picture. It’s not about unnaturally sweetening foods w/o adding sugar, or adjusting brightness/viewpoint of vision in a wave.“real” is maximum clarity or the “maximum” under whats physically/mentally extendable/possible.

- please put an end to all twitching, muscle spasms, and put an end to tremors in my extremities.

- please stop making me involuntarily exhale, after I VOLUNTARILY inhale

- probably one of the most stupid things I’ve done in my diminished mental state with external influences is poke my eye lid through the other side, like by making a small hole, with an acne puncture needle. Not my best moments when fear of causing problems disappear. Plz fix.

I want all existing acne on my lower eye lids and elsewhere, and blemishes and scars from my face/neck/body/under lip area/ gone.

I want my eye foggers to disappear. I want the ability to multi task as women seem to genetically have that on a bigger scale, outside of executive functioning, from older times, where it helped them take care of children and other responsibilities.

***I want all engineer/engineering phD level knowledge (electrical/computer/mechanical/chemical/civil/aerospace/ aeronautical, nanoscale, biomedical, industrial etc.), & all Doctor/medicine MD/phD knowledge (neurology/cardiology/ophthalmology/internist,etc.), all Pharmacist & Pharmacologist knowledge, all computer science/programming knowledge.

***Orchestrators, I want the skin irregularity in my left nostril to be healed. When I pick my nose, it feels like rubbing over a bump or a skin overlap. I want my nose to be dirt/booger free. I want to be healed from my perpetual stuffy/runny nose.

***Orchestrators, I want to be able to turn a vasectomy on and off, at will. I want to be healed of dry mouth, bad breath, gum disease, receding gums (make the gums grow back), protected from gas and farting and bloating.

***Orchestrators, I want to be de-aged to 21 years old. I want to be that age, perpetually. I want appropriate British passports and paperwork. I want healing/protection from all Sexually transmitted diseases (STDs) and sexually transmitted infections (STIs) and healing/protection from HIV/Aids.

***Orchestrators, If you could remove my farmers tan, make me the same color as the rest of my body, and ensure I don’t get darker under the sun, appreciated. Please restore my hairline, hair volume/thickness, and undo my receding hairline.

***Orchestrators, If you could make the auditory hallucinations disappear and all chatter stop, appreciated. If you could make the fat granules and eye acne on my eyes, and on my upper/lower eye lids disappear, appreciated.

***Orchestrators, if you could make my tongue look normal and heal it. The left and right sides (from the back) look scraped. There’s tearing into the tongue…

***Orchestrators, please make the fat melt off my body and stay off. The number of times I’ve had to lose this much weight…I don’t have the stamina anymore. If U could also make the black marks on my face and body disappear. I’d like to see something close to the face of my youth.

***Orchestrators, please restore my ability to last long during sex. The more I hold ejaculation, make it not take away from the ending orgasmic pleasure.

***Orchestrators, Please make all Fordyce spots, Pearly penile papules, penis acne, and anything else related to the penis or penis head, disappear. Please fix my a*s hole. Thanks.

***I want to know the Romance languages (French, Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, and Romanian, and full English), Arabic, Aramaic, Hebrew, Yiddish, and Sanskrit, and Japanese, Chinese Mandarin, Chinese Cantonese, Korean, Thai, AND GREEK, GERMAN, LATIN, ARMENIAN, FARSI, PARSI, PASHTO, MALAYALAM, TAMIL, Hindi

***I want perfect/excellent breathing worthy of a yogi and strong blood circulation all around. I want veins as big as my brothers or my dads, so long as its healthy.

***I want genetic invulnerability to physical and mental diseases/illnesses.

***Orchestrators, I want protection from cholesterol & diabetes. I want a high HDL & low LDL & low triglycerides. I want thick big veins & protected from varicose veins. I want good metabolism & good circulation. Where veins visible, I want more collagen or something to hide it.

***Orchestrators, I want a strong voice like when I’m sick or with a soar throat. I want East Asian style flexible muscles so that at very least, I can do the lotus position. I want strong knees, shoulders, & a lower back, especially ones that don’t make a clicking/snapping sound.

***Orchestrators, If you could heal the macerated skin inside my ears and ear canal.

***When I close my eyes, they should stay FULLY closed, until I choose to open them again. Light should not slip into my vision. Orchestrators, Leaving my eyes partially open, when sleeping, with AC & fan on, in warm weather, dries out eyes 2 point lens of eyes can get damaged. It also interrupts REM or uninterrupted sleep. Please don’t damage the lens of my eyes.

***Orchestrators, not allowing me to fully close my eyes while sleeping is keeping me awake and allowing fan and AC air to dry out my eyes. There is no solution to this. Can you please stop opening my eyes?

***Orchestrators, allow me think/speak/act/especially pray/ with conscious awareness and focus and intention and will power. Make me stop salivating so much and urinating so frequently.

***Orchestrators, when I say a prayer, restore my ability 2say in my head w/o fake conscious stream. Its been 18 years since my faith has been affected like this. &AllowMe 2keep myHands firmly/tightly clasped againstEachOther& w/my eyes,especially left, closed,sealed shut(no light)

***Orchestartors, make all the redness & red lines disappear from my eyes so that my eyes look like the models on the Bausch & Lomb “Lumify” commercial. Ensure healthy blood pressure & blood flow to both eyes. (FYI: Lumify works using a blood pressure decreasing used for glaucoma.)

***Orchestrators,feels like Im wearing a hat pressing down a layer of fog on my head. I’m not seeing clearly, but in a foggy manner. I’m “feeling” dried up,& foggy, if makes sense.Theme=foggy. My brains craving metaphorical rays of sunlight. ***& Im sweating in2 very lunch plate I eat from. I'm sweating buckets for some reason. Please make it stop.

***& orchestrators, lastly, Give me just enough money 2 make myself happy w/good food & an occasional movie at theater. I hate my home prison. Give me ability 2take on initiative, start something, stick with it, and carry it thru to fruition.Right now Im fizzling out, all around.

***Orchestrators, give me motivation, interest to sit in front of the tv, as I endure your season in my life. Give me endurance & focus & will power and ability to process info in head like I did with Power BI, so that I can use my endless free time to pick up on job worthy skills.

***Orchestrators: Remove the sputum or post nasal drip in my throat, clear my noses airways without a sinus rinse. Make my lungs be able to breathe fully/deeply/obstruction free. Heal me of any/all ailments, health inconveniences, and diseases.

***Orchestrators, give me a good metabolism and make my body be able to lose weight on a calorie deficit. Currently, whether I Eat more/less, weight never goes down. Increase circulation “all around” Clear skin “all around” and make acne free. Heal from any/all diseases.

***Orchestrators, make my eyes water resistant. Make me able to see with wet eyes and dry eyes. Make my natural tears, once again wet and moisturize my dry eyes.

***Orchestrators, my body temperature and comfort with outside temperature is usually never a problem. I’m usually shirtless, and nowadays in my boxers. When ac is on, I feel too cold. when it’s off, I feel too hot. There is no making my body temperature/comfort happy. Please fix.

***Orchestrators, I want heat resistant eyes and wind/breeze resistant eyes. I don’t want to not be able to see in these conditions or have dry eyes from these conditions. I want one thorough non watery/solid/soft/ stool bowel movement when I wake up, and nothing after.

***I'd like a healthy amount of strong metabolism power. I want a photographic memory, quick thinking ability, quick recall ability. Add thingsAsEideticMemory, Good working memory, Strong mental processing power, ability to do large math computations in head and be able to visualize it. Strong visualization capability. Don’tLimit spiritualCapacity,butDoAugmentsMore4 mental/somePhysical.

***I want "excellent-executive-functioning" traits like good organizing ability/eloquence/focus/will power/endurance

***I want a healthy amount of "calm", and excellent "focus" and goal setting/sticking to goal ability. I want ability to set my mind to something, and ability to accomplish what I set my mind to.

***I want the genes 4 hair loss, *poorEyeSight, diabetes, high cholesterol,highLDL/lowHDL/ high triglycerides, too high/too low/blood pressure, removed. I want the special things/traits Im asking for, to be part of/**replace my genes, & to be genetically passable to my descendants.

***I want genes for cancer/heart disease removed. Men in my descendants should have my broad shoulders, women should not.

***Neural/brain, nerve disorder genes should be removed. Blood disorder genes should be removed

***- I want a harvard/warton MBA, Accounting degrees. I want American/European/Indian law degrees. I want investment banking/investing-in-stock-market degrees for the aforementioned three countries.

***I want 2 never choke on food/spit/sputum. I want 2B choke-proof. Nothing should ever go down wrong wind pipe orPipe. I want 2no Heimlich maneuver, CPR, related,& "I want 2work like" - whatever it's called - a defibrillator?; thing that shocks people back2life, whereTheyGo CLEAR!

***I want to be able to wirelessly power "any" device. It shouldn't matter whether its a power generator, Fridge, Air conditioner, television, laptop, iPad, iPhone, portable power bank, etc.

***I want to know how to ***speak/read/write/*** the Romance languages (French, Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, and Romanian, & full English), Arabic, Aramaic, Hebrew, Yiddish, & Sanskrit, & Japanese, Chinese Mandarin, Chinese Cantonese, Thai, Hindi, Korean, AND GREEK, GERMAN, LATIN, ARMENIAN, FARSI, PARSI, PASHTO, MALAYALAM, TAMIL, RUSSIAN, & Ukrainian & Nigerian & South African & Swahili. ***I want 2no theAlphabets/theScripts***

***Where my gums have receded, particularly above my front 2 upper teeth, I want gums 2grow back. If it helps, I hear gingival hyperplasia is side effect of calcium channel blockers. I want to pass strong/healthy gums & ***WHITE teeth, ***& teeth without spaces 2my descendants. RemoveMySpaces.

***For some reason, at 1:37 PM on 5/5/24, I feel tired and like I’m going to repeatedly walk into a wall (like a poorly programmed robot)…don’t feel good about my movements…

***- I want access to a touchscreen Augmented reality (AR) big screen iPad style multi operating system computer, in addition to the style of computer I mentioned earlier.

***- I want to be able to run/swim miles at a time. When running, i want to run at, at least speed 11 in terms of a treadmill. My heart should be able to take it. When swimming, if and when water gets into my eyes/ears/nose, it shouldn’t cause problems.

***I want to be able to increase the resistance around my feet, hands, arms, legs...my whole body...so that I can train myself like Goku from Dragon Ball Z, at increasing levels of gravity, just by going about my day.

***Reverse male pattern baldness. Give me a teeth whitening, that’s genetically passable to descendants- teeth whitening where harmful bleaching isn’t used to erode the enamel.

***I want dewy skin as Neutrogena Hydro Boost Cream advertises or Palmers Coconut Monoi Luminous Hydration Facial Oil advertises.I want dewy/supple skin,not just moisturized,not necessarily oily-oily sounds bad&grimy(mayB its about right amount?!). There probably shouldn't be shine. Make it genetically passable to descendants

***- I want skin that has right amount of collagen like that in individuals in ages 18,19,20,21. Collagen shouldn't decrease with age, unless there is a purpose to it in the natural order of things. Make it genetically passable to descendants

***- from what I was looking at on tv, midway through 12:23 PM on 5/6/2024 on my atomic clock, skin was "loud enough"

***& I want sun protection 4 skin, without skin getting darker. I wantProtection fromWhat I think is harmful UV radiation, in particular. I want sun protection forEyes. I wantProtection from all/some radiation in general,if It doesn’t affect the natural order of things, ifNoBenefit.

***-I want electric muscle stimulation or EMS muscle toning ability (likeExerciseBeltW/Adhesives), toNaturallyElectrically stimulateMuscles 4Toning/burn fat/buildStrength,ifAbilityNotHarmful.IfHarmful,while abilityNotNeeded,I want invulnerabilityTo/protectionFrom/itsNegativeEffects.

***- I want to be able to initiate the effects of a cardio workout, like increased heart rate, calorie burning, increased circulation-the whole nine yards-through "Will" or some mental on/off button.

***- I want to be able to increase circulation to any part of my body, in the effect of a finger/hand pressing massage, (for only those body parts that can take the effect of a massage or increased circulation).

***-I want 2B able 2 massage any part of face/neck/body, w/mind. Not limited to: I want 2feel "real effectS" of a "TheraFace face massager"/Theragun body massager (all that both can do w/all attachments) & a vibration/air pressure/accupuncture/accupressure scalp/eye/face massager

***-I want to be able to reset (decrease) & increaseMyToleranceTo Sedatives & stimulants -asInTheNumberOfDrinks it takesMe to get drunk/the number of cupsOf coffeeTypeThingsToGetMeStimulated/caffeinated- “atWill.” NeitherSedativesNor stimulantsShouldDoHarm to adrenalGlandsOrOrgans.

***- Alcohol should not destroy kidneys/liver, stimulants should not deplete adrenal glands. No harm should be done to brain or any muscle from sedatives/stimulants. Sedatives/Stimulants should not cause any harm to me in any way.

***- I want to be able to initiate states of mind like super focus, stimulation, calming, and getting drunk, at will.

***- I want the appropriate paperwork/passport for my new skills/life. like a 4.0 GPA in everything with an MIT electrical mechanical engineering phD and a Harvard MBA and a Johns Hopkins Medical Doctor Degree as an Internist

***-&LastThing I wantIs aWay 2makeMy at least face, & body lookDifferent toOtherPeople. W/o mindManipulatingThem, I thinkBy reflectingLightDifferentlyFromUrself, peopleCanSeeDifferentThings. I want thatAbility & I want a clear memory of my baseline/new baseline of what I look like. -I want ability to turn light projection appearance (from ability) on/off and I want ability to turn device for light projection appearance, on/off.

***-regards2lastTweet,w/o mindManipulating,w/reflecting light,I want2Give IllusionOfClothing.InAddition2ability,I wantUnbreakableDevice2GiveIllusionOfDifferentFace & mayB evenBody&2GiveCleanEdVarietyClothing,mayB evenInSomeCleanSafeSelfPoweredNanotechWay,like CaptainMarvelIn1stMovie.

***-The clothing/light projection device should be incapable of being lost. I should be able to track it with my mind, or keep track of it with mental ability. I should be able to reproduce this device.

***- with my clothing producing device, it should be able to produce shoes&give padding for shoulders/elbows/knees/& maybe produce same padding for underneath the feet, to give shoe like protection.

***-I want protection from/invulnerability to, parasites, ring worm, ¶sitic worms-particularly 1’s that eat brain like on RFK Jr. I want 2B able to detect&kill such parasites ***with my mind.-

***- I want 2B able 2regenerate brain tissue&anything else that parasites damage®ain brainInfo& knowledge from eatenBrain from some backup with multiple copies. -

***-I wantKnowledgeOf Taoism,Tai Chi, Qi Gong (assumingThatsHowSpelled),accupressure,accupuncture, Indian/EastAsian healing practices&ancient/old/traditional sciences/technology. I wantAll Indian/EastAsian philosophies/scriptures&meditative/yoga/tantric/ &fitness practicesInHead

***- I want ability to see through things, night vision, binocular vision, a way to amplify sound to hear whispers, and the ability to detect/see parasites in others.-

***- with things like binocular vision, sound amplification, or morphing face thru manipulation of light around me, I want 2know wat things are supposed to be-to reset properly-by optimal neurotransmitter standards, optimal physical/mental standards, optimal brain wave standards

***- I want invulnerability to/protection from/ all poisons, and all things that cause infertility/impotence.

***- I want all the latest versions of my purchased software over my lifetime, in my mental hard drive for my mental computer. If I'm missing utilities, I want them. I want all the top rated/popular apps from the Google Play Store and Apple Store for MacBook/iPhone/iPad

***-If Im adding anything on own,in terms of software 2my mentalComputer, want way 2check for dangers 2 brain. ComputerVirusesShouldNot damageBrain.If I'm downloading anything to brain, in any shape or form, whatever it is, I want way to check for dangers to me, dangers to my brain.

***- please turn on appetites in its various forms. Turn on/turn up libido. Turn on stomach. Allow food to digest, allow gastric motility, turn on taste buds and the normal taste of foods. Can’t experience some of my senses and feelings, with whatever it is, ur doing: orchestrators.

***- to the orchestrators: everything feels dead. Increase circulation. Read between lines. Even circulation to intestines seems cut off. Laxatives like senokot aren’t stimulating. Love it if I could use bathroom in mornings.-

***- On reverse side, feels painful 2eat food, especially when it goes down, like stomachs off. Please correct. End laziness and lack of inclination to do things. End daytime sedation, without affecting sleep at night. Having trouble reading/processing reading material.

***- I want ability to turn brain on/off, quiet mind & body like after breathing exercises/pranayam/yoga/meditation, a way to replenish brain waves, increase/decrease brain waves at will, “focus brain waves” on strength and/or libido-at will-without it going 2 waste in other places.

***- I want ability to initiate post meditation/post pranayama/post yoga/ states of mind

***- I want to be able to turn on/off the source of(or a shield to) whatever causes unnatural muscle spasms, twitches, tremors. I want a working/strong/healthy metabolism.

***- I want to stop using all lubricating eye drops and the eye drop: restasis ,which I think restores the tear film after LASIK. Do what’s right for whatever could be the tear film. I want my purchase history, my search history, my favorites/bookmarks saved to my head.

***- I want mental clarity, calm, energy, self control, a strong will/endurance, strong focus/recall/working memory, my mindfulness, and my restraint. I want an end to day time sedation, while being able to sleep at night.

***- I want what I think is called strong/stabile/firm/intentional (no unintentional) Motor control movements like when I type or when my feet walk/run the ground. When I type, my fingers don't feel - I think - stabile

***- when I drink coffee/tea while on sedatives like now, there is a feeling of conflict, that furthers the feeling of day time sedation. Day time sedation is a problem without this. I want to be a mentally sharp individual without brain dullness and sluggishness.

***-I want 2 be able 2 stimulate/motivate myself to do things. I want to be able to initiate relaxation & stimulation. I want pain that comes from drinking coffee/tea with sedatives, gone. I want the pain, before going to bed, after taking sedatives, gone. Brain map/mind-read rest.

***-I want 2 be able 2 turn on/off, leave on, a shield from fake conscious stream/fake brain/fake tongues of fire/fake Holy Spirit/head hoppers/remoteViewers/mind controllers/mind readers/brainMappers/demons that can&will possess/thought insertion&deletion/ hallucinations/delusions

***- if you could also take away the tiredness during the day, ideally the chatter, the exhaustion from lingering chatter, the need/desire to vomit, and the vomiting tendency I have when I scrape my tongue after brushing my teeth from the resulting gag reflex.

***Orchestrators, please increase collagen or skin thickness or whatever, so that veins on foot/base of foot/and bone leading to calf/ are not visible.

***Orchestrators, please heal the cut/wound in nose that never heals. Please increase collagen or skin thickness or whatever, so that skin, on foot and base of foot and bone leading to calf, don’t make veins look visible. Thanks.

***Orchestrators: as a teenager, I may have had 5 instances of acne at most. In my mid 30s, not sure Y acne is a problem. Plz put an end 2it & make blemishes disappear. As a child, things used to heal so quickly, especially scars. Plz make black blemish on my left foot disappear.

***Heal me and protect me from folliculitis and scalp acne, so that I don't have to use shampoos with salicylic acid, namely.

***Orchestrators: please stop the excessive sweating, especially on the face, especially in the forehead/nose/inner cheek area of face. Another oddity is this persistent skin irritation behind my right ankle, towards the bottom left. Please heal.

***Orchestrators, my 1 eye is smaller than other, from, I think the smaller 1, getting black eye from getting hit by a baseball. Please fix. I tried 2 force an erection down, I think, w/ my hands,& bent my erection. Instead of pointing straight, it’s leaning to the left. Please fix.

***Orchestrators, I smashed my lips against something when I was younger, and since then they’ve been bent out of shape. Stagnation?! Can you shape them and make them firm? I want protection from all STDs and STIs and HIV/Aids.

***Orchestrators, I want a naturally lubed up p*nis.

***I also want better visual clarity and the fog to be lifted from my vision. I want high definition vision, or whatever’s the latest.

***Orchestrators, I want to be healed from peeing in 2 stream problem. Take care of the results of the cystoscopy and any possible stricture.

***Orchestrators, I want my love handles by my stomach gone. I want to be able to eat rice, beef, potatoes, sweets, without an inclination towards putting on weight, feeling sleepy, or diabetes.

***Orchestrators, I want to be able to eat 3 eggs for breakfast daily with buttery porottas, without having to worry about cholesterol. I want my teeth, in, firmly, and spaces between to disappear or get smaller

***Orchestrators, I want a natural inclination to 8 pack abs instead of belly fat. I want protection from scalp acne and folliculitis.

***Orchestrators, after introduction of a problem U want me to take meds for, please hold off on symptoms until 2 days before the doctors appointment, especially if the appointment is more than two weeks away. I can’t speed up the doctors schedule or bizarre thinking patterns.

***Orchestrators: please incorporate the benefits & not negatives, of the *“meds” and *“supplements” I take, currently, & over the next 2.5 or so weeks (all future) for my unique physique. Also include benefits of massage oils applied, creams, & lotions, & not negatives of these.

***Orchestrators, on condition no 1 else’s brain needs 2B “further” tampered with, I want frog-like spring-like muscles in at least my legs, like martial artists of India’s Kalaripayattu (aka Kaleri), to jump 10 ft in air. & include the other Slavik languages in addition to Russian.

***- if possible, if you could also take away the strain to my head that I’m experiencing, while this situation is occurring.

***- note and protect me from side effects of the meds taken, as a result of the meds or something else, like vomiting, constipation, or something weird like dancing/skipping/flickering/rolling eyes.

***- the “if you don’t use it, you lose it” phenomena should not happen with any of the things I’m asking for. I also want to be able to keep track/inventory of all these traits, skills, abilities, etc.

What I reallyWant: - myFull brainWaves - removal of all the Alan’s/N’Ala s/ all mind manipulation & protection from these in future - money owed 2 me - a permanent dead zone from all mind manipulation, So I can live AsIntendedAfterCollege.

*******Brain map/mind read the rest.

[ladiesgamesboomboxtherapy]

Loneliness is the worst feeling.

And when emptiness ensues, it feels like your own heart has become a blackhole, swallowing your chest and your very self.

[timmehee]

A sudden feeling descended, something is off. Is it for now or what's to be?

[misscusp]

May mga kaibigan ako, pero walang marunong mangamusta kahit isa.

Balik-bawi nalang.

[thesincerethoughts]

I am currently in a position where i want to talk to someone but has completely lost the vibe to talk to anyone. Feel me?

[strangehumanoid]

oh, to be a wildflower swaying in the wind, a songbird soaring high, a patch of moss on the soft brown earth. I don't wanna do 9 to 5.

[farintodemons]

I think am falling... Falling hard...

For whenever you're around, all my pain seems to dwindle down to nothing. And all my sadness cease to exist. All my fears turn non-existent. For I get lost staring down your slanting coffee eyes. You light me up with nothing more than a text. Whenever I feel down, my heart longs for to be with you. For you are all it takes to make my day. That dammed smile of yours makes me wanna stay right there for forever. And someday I wanna think I will.

[notemptywords]

💭 Rules are necessary, not restrictions.

[oddvonweirdocranium]

When you have a toothache your tongue always keeps fidgeting with it and when something itches you, you scratch it back. Even as a little child you would always scrape off the eschar from your wounds even though it was formed to protect you; it was inevitable.Because pain makes us feel like home. We’ve been there and somehow we get used to it. We become habitual to it and maybe that is why our brain keeps taking us to those places. Those horrendous yet salubrious places where there is a certain type of tribulation and a certain type of intimacy. Where there is familiarity. And ever so the cycle goes on and on. It’s undone and defective .So maybe each time you revisit it ,you gain ascendancy over it. You keep recreating it,reconstructing it. Find ways you could fix it. You’re compelled to alter it with fragments of your imagination and maybe that is how you just simply linger onto life and pass on.

[langitsoreee]

RASA, SINGGAH. LALU MENGALAH.

Jarum jam yang berdetik menemaniku yang sedang sendiri dalam ruangan kecil dengan AC yang sengaja kubuat dingin.

Kupikirkan semua, kebodohanku dalam mengelola rasa. menomersatukan yang tak pernah menganggapku ada. Mungkin aku hanya sebatas angin baginya, atau tidak lebih dari itu. Tapi aku menganggapnya sebagai oksigen, kebutuhan yang harus ada untuk menghidupkan-ku setiap hari. Sebegitu tergantungnya sampai rela bertahan meski diabaikan.

Ku teriakkan tanpa suara, beribu kali, riuh tanpa henti bahwa AKU MENCINTAIMU. Tapi tak pernah berani kuungkap. Aku terlalu takut penolakan, Lalu setiap hari kuputuskan hanya memperhatikan, sikapmu, gerak gerikmu, seluruh aktifitasmu.

Awal saat kita dekat, kesalahanku adalah aku tidak pernah berjanji untuk tidak menaruh rasa, untuk menjalin hubungan hanya sebatas teman dekat tanpa terikat, yah.. tapi siapa juga yang mampu membatasi rasa, dia liar dan penuh energi, mengisi ruang kosong yang sebenarnya tidak ingin dipenuhi

Jika sudah begini tidak ada yang bisa bertanggung jawab selain dirimu sendiri, merasakan perihnya, menikmati lukanya. mengalah jadi jalan satu-satunya yang ditempuh atas rasa cinta yang sengaja diberi ruang. meski terluka kamu tetap bisa baik saja, luapkan, katakan padanya suatu saat nanti saat kau sudah tidak bisa menahannya lagi. mengalah baik, tapi bukankah menyatakan lalu kehilangan juga baik?

[sophieseals]

Idk if this is me but what is the feeling when ur friend leaves either work or school to go to another job or a college, sixth form even university etc and u stay on and they don’t even text first but when u do text at every given opportunity ask about the job, education they just left even though they thought it was shit? Like its a nasty feeling but idk what it is? Especially with work like I’m glad ur feeling much better in ur new position and I’m like really happy for you and gosh damn do I wish that was me hell yeah but why u got keep asking?

[myhandcrafteddreams]

Random lang. I wanted to see #beautifulflowers and take one home with me. 😊 #randomfeeling #farmersmarketflowers #roses #sunflowers #flowerbouquets (at Farmers Market, Araneta Center) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuTGXlVBelw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1g049wwo5zd62

[timmehee]

To be numb

To not feel

When it’s all too much

When your not here

I’ll be in this void until...

Why can’t anyone understand?

[misscusp]

Ang sarap mag umpisa ulit. Yung tatanggalin mo sa buhay mo yung mga toxic na tao tapos papaltan mo ng mga taong positibo.

[thesincerethoughts]

Wear confidence.

It's sexy.

[strangehumanoid]

if i'm to fall in love with you again, then we'll have to meet each other again for the first time.