#writeups

[paperchits]

hi ya'll,

if you're a writer and would like to find a community, I'm hosting a writing sprint this Sunday.

Instagram, sign up form for the sprint

i'm looking forward to seeing some of you there!

[ceramicteapot]

touch starved.

a word i had often heard being passed around in my circles. i knew the oxford definition that described it. i “knew” the concept.

but knowledge is not experience.

you can know things you haven’t experienced like space travel, cardiac surgery, childbirth. you can’t long for something you don’t know about- naturally, i lack examples here because i don’t know what i don’t know.

for this precise reason, i knew what the starvation of touch meant but i didn’t understand it, until i was touched lovingly, with intent, with admiration, and with a desire to not be abandoned again, by my friends.

despite having been in romantic relationships, i’ve only experienced this platonically. my family are not a fan of physical affection either. i give it, but it is not returned.

but god, is the feeling all-consuming. something that bites into you in the most delicious of ways, makes your joints crumble into gunpowder, digs crescents into your brain.

i can’t physically see my friends often now. we have lives we need to look after. but i miss the gentle calmness of their hands on my back, the way their nails would scratch my scalp in the winter sun, the way my skin would be covered in lipstick stains in random places.

(i discovered one on my ear as i went to shower one night after a long day at college. precious.)

it’s safe to say that now that i know, i long.

and because i long, i write.

[pangulggot]

what are funny moments from Brave Soldiers?

WOW I didn't expect to get an ask already, There's too many to note god that dub drives me crazy even though I haven't actually seen all of it. Like out of context everything is insane. Here's a few that I always think of though: (i'll just use their dub names, kaio for juldarami, ginio for geumsaegi, whatever) - Kaio to Ginio while he's literally waking up from being beaten the shit out of: hey.. shorty... (shorty/shawty is often slang for a young attractive person in the US and that's what I always think of so it makes me sob) -dub Chief of Staff: WHAT? PICTURES? I'M NOT INTERESTED IN YOUR PICTURE BOOK Ginio: YOU SHOULD BE - Ginio: you know kaio. this scarf makes you look. so cool. its a perfect style for you (Kaio in the most deadpan voice ever): thanks - Kaio: billieee jeannnn isnottt my loveerrrrr (???this was so out of noewhere) - Malagatto: ginio i want you to arrange for our departure at once. its about time we had a little vacation. just the two of us. Ginio: WHAT IS GOING ON! - any time there's a really long and awkward silence for no reason - GINIO FEELS DECIEVED AND IS SO ANGRY HE WANTS TO START SHOOTING HE WANTS TO PULL HIS PISTOL OUT BUT GETS CONTROL AND THINKS BETTER OF IT - Kaio: wow! he really was tired! ahh, ill let him sleep. (awkward pause) good ol quack - a lot of the chaotic Spitz and Ilzo scenes. I can't think of a specific one rn. If anyone has seen the dub you know what I mean - how they re-edited the scene from the original where They Remain In Our Hearts plays - Both of the voices they use for dub!Darami - Teema: good to see you soldiers Minu out of noewhere: I'M HERE TOO - THE TRAITOR IS HIM GUUUUUH (dies)

There's more I can think of but this post is long already. Idk its like. so chaotic. and so bad its good

[romulusfuckingroy]

that interview about how kendall never actually bullied roman as a child… I don’t see it I’m sorry!!! we literally see how bad kendall treats him in the show, why are they saying that roman was only ever the bully in their relationship when it’s ten times more interesting and realistic that they both had moments of hurting the other?

I feel like they’re sort of trying to sanitize kendall’s feelings toward roman for some reason? like in the show they’re literally described as two fighting dogs, and roman is the weak one. I can’t believe they tried to spin dog pound as some harmless game they played; we literally see kendall’s face change in a sort of sick realization when connor tells him kendall enjoyed the “game” too.

and sorry… kendall literally popped roman’s stitches open????? like I know, I know, everyone on the show says “oh, that’s what roman wanted, he’s so fucked up that that’s what he needed and kendall was just giving him that”— no. I’m sorry but that’s an incredibly violent thing to do to your younger brother who’s already near tears. I will forever say that that scene was just as much about kendall’s selfishness and need for control as it was about roman’s wanting to be hurt.

like… I’m sorry to the actors and writers but kendall roy will always be the guy who watched his brother piss himself in a dog crate and told him to wipe it up with newspapers as a kid. he is also the guy who stood up to their dad when roman got hit! roman will always be the guy who picked his big brother up from his drug binges and took him to safety. and yes, he’s also the guy who humiliated kendall at his 40th birthday party!

they’re both, both! they’re both the aggressor and the victim! that’s what makes it fucking interesting!

[board-has-star]

(Insert the sniffer incident)

so, hi. this may be one of the funniest incidents that has ever happened on our minecraft server

ENTER: THE SNIFFER

gorgeous creatures, sniffers. wonderful creatures. this was one of TWO baby sniffers we hatched inside of the beautiful town of susville (long story), and we loved them to bits.

however.

as you might be able to tell, this sniffer smells A LITTLE WHITE SOMETHING in a nearby player’s hand. this, my dear friends, is crack cocaine. and our sniffers liked to sniff it very, very much.

you can blame maxine, pictured above, for enabling what was essentially a crippling cocaine addiction.

despite their obvious... issues, we still loved our sniffers. they were our children.

so you can imagine our shock when we received news that our beloved, drug-addicted babies… were in fact, so drugged up, that any offspring they created would immediately crash the entire server.

the sniffers were killed within minutes.

our babies.

our beautiful, cocaine-loving babies.

they were no longer with us.

a funeral ensued. “Cocaine Addict #1” and “Cocaine Addict #2” were buried where they had hatched - inside of the glass dome we called the DRUG RING.

many were invited to attend to pay their respects.

tears were shed.

so many tears.

life would never truly be the same.

this all happened within the span of a few hours and it was seriously like the wildest thing ever

[pandawonder]

Dear Reader,

If your dad is still here with you, Give him a hug when you see this. Because a day will come and you'd realise that no amount of time you got to spend with him was ever enough. Even worse, when you didn't spend any quality time with him.

***

I love you dad. I miss you. It's been 5 terrible years without you. If you can, say something to me. I am lost.

[lostchild02]

Somedays I just get this really bad urge, I mean it's good tho nothing bad about it but, yk I feel like cutting off social media completely for months straight and then drown myself into the world of Knowledge, like reading novels that lay on my shelf unread, watching shows that I want to, writing poems, thoughts anything in my journal, painting anything I want to, reading articles about history, geopolitics like serious knowledge gain, reading about different poets and authors lives what pursued them to write that daunting piece of art, working out, going for early morning walks in the fields, watching the sunsets at my house from the top of the hill with a book and coffee to go, listening to songs, dancing to them, meeting friends, playing outdoor sports like in childhood, sitting by the river, talking and laughing your hearts out, going for treks where there is no signal, making new recipes, just making real, lively, happy memories and not glued to your screens, it's pathetic that I wrote all this in my phone and not in my journal.

I mean i hope you get the whole point ??? I want to LIVE LIFE, NOT JUST DREAM OF IT. <3

[apocketfullofpoem]

[wholesoul20]

reinvent yourself. so much so that when they meet you again, they need to re-know you!

~hustle is a culture

[praphull-ki-diary]

बहुत तेज़ हवा चल रही है। कई दिनों बाद मेरे चेहरे पर मुझे ठंड महसूस हो रही है। पिछले कुछ दिनों से बहुत गर्मी थी। शरीर एकदम झुलस चुका था गर्मी के मारे। न जाने कितने बोतल पानी के गटकने के बाद भी संतोष नहीं होता था। बारिश होना गर्मी में जन्नत के समान है। मगर बारिश भी नहीं हो रही। बस हवा है। ऐसी गर्मी में सफर करना मुश्किल है। मगर ज़िंदगी सर्दी गर्मी के लिए कहाँ रुकती। एग्जाम्स तो और नहीं रुकते। अब सोचता हूँ बेकार इतने फॉर्म्स भर दिए। ख़ैर।

रात को सर दर्द करता रहता है। शायद अधिक सोचने के कारण। बीमार रहना मुझे एकदम पसंद नहीं। मगर बीमारी टालना अपने हाथ में नहीं। कुछ भी अपने हाथ में नहीं। जीवन ऐसा ही है। कभी कभी विज्ञान से भरोसा उठने लगता है और उन बातों पर यकीन होने लगता है जिसे मैं हंसकर टाल दिया करता था। लोग कहते है व्रत करने से भगवान हम सबका ख्याल रखते है। मगर माँ को भूखे देखना एकदम अच्छा नहीं लगता। मेरे लिए तो व्रत करने के भी कोई फायदे नहीं।

छत पर हवा सुंदर है। आसमान में तारे बहुत कम है। न जाने कहाँ छिप गए है सब। सिर घुमाने पर चाँद दिखा। रात बहुत शांत होती है। काश दिन भी ऐसा होता। दिन बहुत शोर भरा होता है। शोर मुझे नहीं पसंद। शांति मेरी सबसे प्रिय चीज़ है। और रात में शांति है। रात ने कभी मुझे नहीं रोका सच होने से। सच—जैसा मैं हूँ। दिन मुझे नकाब में रखता है। हँसना सीखना पड़ता है दिन में जीने के लिए। और कुछ सीखने में बहुत मेहनत है। जब खुद को बदलने की बात हो तब मैं आलसी हूँ। बचपन में रात से डर लगता था। क्योंकि दिन में कोई फ़िक्र नहीं थी नक़ाब लगा कर घूमने की। मगर अब दिन और रात के मायने बदल चुके है।

एक दिन जीवन सही होगा मगर सही करने में जीवन लगेगा। न जाने ये कितना सही होगा। ज़िंदगी लगाना ज़िंदगी के लिए। ख़ैर सब लगाते है मैं कोई पहला नहीं। जीवन को जीने के बहुत तरीके हो सकते थे मगर हम इंसानों ने एक अजीब सा तरीका चुना है। और बदलाव लाना मेरे बस की बात नहीं।।।

—praphull

[pyaariposting]

tumhari mohabbat ne kuch bura nahin kiya mera,

to accha chorha bhi kahan hai?

teri dosti ne kuch cheena nahi mera,

to aitbaar chorha bhi kahan hai?

sab kehte hain tum badal gyi 'mizan"

to aapne pehle jaisa chorha bhi kahan hai?

~ me

[bloodintoink-blog]

ugly poems

I reread my poem until they turn ugly

Till the metaphors don't make sense nomore Till the personifications aren't interesting anymore Till the similes get old Till the rhymes bore Till I can't bear to read them anymore

—����, (unedited from) Cacography

[ceramicteapot]

i went to a children's park today. nothing has made me feel sadder in quite a while now. it's like i can sense the loss, more like, the lack, of a childhood in my own life as i watched the children.

i was nothing like them. they're loud. they laugh. they have friends. they have mothers who wipe their tears and patient fathers who teach them how to ride a bike. i had none of that.

i was quiet as a tree, blending into the background like dirt. no one waited on me. i was barely ever picked up. i never learned how to ride a bicycle.

where's my compensation for any of that? how do i get my childhood back? how do i heal from any of what happened which wasn't even my fault? how do i tolerate the person i have become?

it's never easy watching others be happy when you just feel so sorry for yourself. and how do you stop that? i genuinely want to not feel the pang of pain in my chest when this happens. i want to be utterly happy for others too.

[igrewheartbones]

“The number of hours we have together is actually not so large. Please linger near the door uncomfortably instead of just leaving. Please forget your scarf in my life and come back later for it.”

— Mikko Harvey, from "For M," Foundry (no. 9, September 2018)

[randomwriteups26]

“If you really want to do something, you'll find a way" ....

@juliaxyn @basicallymihika @moonstonechampagne @college-funnyquotes

[ryanthe-g]

Bloom

I've met darkness,

My flowers have wilted here.

Several times before, but I don't weep anymore.

Because this maybe,

Where endings reside.

But this is also where seeds are sown.

This is also where my new beginnings come to life.

-Ryan